What a sweet and powerful gesture. It's frustrating when people say "what do you expect them to do? they're entertainers not activists!" look at how simple this gesture of solidarity is and how resonant it is! This is wonderful.
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silly personal update on the dude and other heartbreaking things
so, he's back with his girlfriend and that explains a lot of things. which is fine, i like her, she's nice.
anyway, talked to my friends about the thing he told me when i graduated and everyone agrees in two things: i should let go for real now, it's clear he thinks im gonna be here forever and that im gonna forgive him for everything because i have feelings for him. but i shouldn't, i'm better than that, really, and im so done with him treating me like the side plate. one dude even said 'man, youre so dick drought and you havent even seen it' and that hurt as fuck.
then there's the "im upset bcs you didnt let me know you finished your career". everyone agrees he was so mean for throwing that out like if i owed him something, and its so unfair that im worried about what he feels when im right between graduation and my birthday, this is supposed to be my week (and i have amazing friends who've actually cared about it and even took me out to dinner and a disney concert to celebrate).
on the other hand, my friends also told me i should go out more, bcs since the pandemic and the second career i have barely even had time to breathe, and i got super rusty on my social skills, which is lame. i used to be super flirty every time i went out to party, and the truth is i havent felt desired for years now, i miss that, and im not ugly, yk?
on the other hand, yes i do want to go out and have fun, but i also miss feeling loved, and having a meaningful connection with someone. lately ive been having dreams about my ex from california, and that just makes me more sad.
last night i dreamed they came to my city and i introduced them to my friends, we were in line for some concert and we were so happy, i was teaching them spanish and we even talked about what the they/them pronouns would be in my language, that was nice.
im not saying i would like to go back to them, bcs i bet theyre better without me and also i should definitely get over that already, but those kind of dreams do keep me longing for what couldve been or what i would like to feel again.
so yeh, thats the update on the heartbreaking things, i guess.
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