hi hello i woke up to an emaillllllllll

guess it sent thru their automatic system bc i got it way outside of business hours which is why i'd stopped checking and didnt see it till today

point is APPARENTLY

IT WORKED. THE NEW DR IS GONNA GHOST-RUN MY HRT THRU THE CRAP DR UNTIL THE NEW YEAR WHEN I CAN TRANSFER MY TREATMENT TO HER OFFICE INSTEAD

it listed the next 3 dates n times they could fit me in (bc its literally a 15-20 min appt max so its nbd *angrily side eyes them for lying and telling me no slots would be available for weeks*) and ONE IS ON MONDAY. THIS MONDAY. 48 HOURS FROM NOW.

it says i have to call as soon as they open monday to claim a slot and if by then it's not available anymore then i'll have to pick a different one but i am gonna be the FIRST mf-ing person on that fuckin phone queue u bet ur ass

cause oh my god. first of all ???? YES, I AM, HOPEFULLY MOST LIKELY GETTING MY FULL HRT STARTED THIS WEEK. 🎉

second of all??? IT WOULD BE SO FUCKING COOL / FUNNY / ON BRAND IF MY OFFICIAL HRT START DATE/ANNIVERSARY WAS ON HALLOWEEN. THAT WOULD BE JUST. SO GOOD LMAO

idk so there's the update y'all. i should hopefully be starting treatment this week thanks to this new doctor's persistence and support. i'm very relieved, esp knowing its just for a few appts until the new year when i can switch over. fuck yes.

(for the inevitable question: no this doesnt erase the legal issues and report being done on my drs office. that will be ongoing. theyre also still witholding other things i need and denying me other services. BUT this?? this they cannae ignore any longer bc now multiple other drs, offices, legal reps and outreach workers have kept their phones ringing off the hook. wouldnt be surprised if the reason theyre giving in now is just to stop me & my backup from annoying the absolute shit out of them tbh. ah well idc why as long as it happens.)

anyway. time for happy dance? yes? lets make it seasonally appropriate

yuuta exhibits such previously abandoned, recently adopted dog behavior. incredibly anxious all the time, even though nobody’s out to get him or leave him behind. waits for you to return home or from school or from work excitedly, just to see you when you walk through the door. follows you around senselessly, hovering in your space just for the sake of companionship. initiates affection in prodding ways—starts off next to you, then a hand on your thigh, then deems it safe to lay all the way down, then slowly pushes his head into your lap. gets up whenever you need to get up, and resumes his position as soon as you’re ready. brings you gifts as a sign that he’s thinking of you, and maybe because he likes the affection it brings out in you, maybe because he likes the gentle affirming touches of a hand in his hair or a pinch to his cheek. rests his head on your stomach or his chin on your shoulder when he’s sleepy, stays there, immobile, and will not move unless absolutely necessary. sometimes he gets surprised when he hears you calling for him, there’s a moment of disbelief as he thinks “me? really? you need me?” but it’s very quickly overshadowed by this compulsive need to show up, to please, to do anything for you, which is why he always answers when you call. he doesn’t realize that he has puppygod eyes, especially when he’s excited or confused, but he does and it’s incredible endearing. very reluctant to share your space or attention after a while, considers that to be sacred and he won’t risk being let go or lost again, so as a safety precaution, he keeps himself right by you, waits for you always. 

puts my arts of caramel arrow so far all together bc why not😮‍💨 loml... 🛐🖤

what a perfect date💞

and the brainrot continues~ with paris this time :3

Anyone who hates any of the Batkids is invalid I'm sorry I don't make the rules

"Wow. It's not often you see someone make such a scary look with such a shit of a pose." ©Wilson

I like to think that since Vayne is not a mercenary originally but a counterintel agent, not shooting people herself but delegating it or just making some "happy accidents" happen, obviously she doesn't have much of a skill at that point. So after finding her new "career path" (via getting thrown the fuck away from her previous one) she spends hours daily at a shooting range. And maybe she's talented enough to shoot right stuff in the right direction. Yet still one rookie shit of an actual merc.

Here Wilson, being a guns devotee he is, just gets a good opportunity to put some proper knowledge into a head, not littered with "10 must-know aiming tips that will make you a pro" and other crap from the net as popular as it is useless.

He mentors Vayne on shooting and guns tinkering. And it's his bad gun-manic influence and Vayne's natural love for learning stuff that results in her after a few weeks finding herself with interest discussing different trigger pull weights or open carry vs concealed pros and cons.

Tho first like 5 days it's them not knowing each other and Wilson just throwing stuff like "Oh cmon, just raise that fucking elbow, it's about shooting the targets, not the floor!" at Vayne and her not having a single idea the fuck is the dude's problem while sternly glaring every now and then.

in honor of the next chapter of my fic coming out soon (I swear), have my early pix design! At the introduction she's pretty visually similar to her canon version but with red, because the Overlord had a say and he wanted red.

More rambling about my au under the cut. You can check out "To Live is to Change" on Ao3 if you want to read the actual story.

It's been to long since the last update and if I don't talk about my au I will explode. So.

Ok I'm actually so excited to show you more of Pixal. She and Cryptor together are like. Chef's kiss. They are mortal enemies and best friends and co-workers and siblings. I may not get to really explore the intricacies of their dynamic for a while but they give me such brainrot it's insane. Pixal herself is the 'emotionless' technician and a piece of art made by a lonely inventor who could absolutely tear anybody apart, because I get to ignore the part of canon that say she's not for fighting my girl is a badass nindroid! God I'm so abnormal about her. She's a real heavyweight compared to the lower-resource nindroids and it makes her super formidable in comparison, which is something that I just really like the feel of. Because of the Overlord's influence she also has no real hesitation about using her full capabilities in battle, so that makes her even more terrifying. She's the terminator if he was originally made to be a nice assistant.

The giant axe she uses helps with her image too.

Also, in a couple chapters I get to post more concept art! It's a bit spoilery so I can't show it now but I promise it's good.

Fun fact about Pix: when I came up with the concept for this au, I wasn't going to do anything with it because I didn't want to throw Pixal to the side for a male character. If I couldn't make it a story where she played an active role and had as much focus as Cryptor, I wouldn't have made it.

given the knowledge I now have after ep 10, Yoon Won’s initial meeting with Ji Hyun where she called him “cutie pie” no longer feels as cute and innocent as it did back then 😂

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Ok so...originally Brea doesn't belong to any battalion and doesn't hold the rank of General, but lately I've been thinking about the possibility of making a few clone OCs and designing a squadron for her to lead! In my main timeline she's just kinda backup and is constantly called across the galaxy to assist other jedi with their fights, but I think it'd be fun to explore that and make new characters to share :3

just wanna know ur top 5 gintama characters bestie

ahh i love and appreciate lots of Gintama characters so the top 5 is gonna be so hard 😭

but here is my top 5 (not in this order at all)

Gintoki

tatsuma

shinpachi

oboro

sadaharu & tama

i guess these are my top 5 :p but haha I love all the idiots in gintama :)

thanks for the ask bestie 🫡🫶

due to how vast yet vague majority of Alice's family tree is I think I should be given a round of applause for not making her related to more Fables

Of course the one time Hawkwing is criticized and held accountable is for a stupid reason (criticizing the guy who sent them on a death mission who he has every reason to believe sent them there intentionally)

For this

Candace Parker

im. really really hoping that livio gets a comeback in tristamp season 2 somehow. its possible!! considering his abilities in maximum!!! and he still has that super regen in stampede!! like please. give him back ik you can do it.......

I haven't been working w the Hungarian lesbian NGO in 2 years but i still have access to their Facebook page and msges

Anyway someone just texted them with "I'm looking for a nice lady to date." It's 1 AM. Girl it's an NGO....