Today's Vocaloid derivative of the day is:

Kagamine Rin from Gothic and Loneliness by Yusura Rin!

she's jewish.

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Happy Halloween.

Revisiting an old favorite. I kept no harmonies because I kept relistening to the original and I... don't think there are any? I can be extremely ear blind though so if I'm wrong rip.

Title: Gothic and Loneliness Music/Lyrics: Narushima Takashi (なるしまたかし) Video: Yusura Rin (桜羽りん) Singer: Matsudappoiyo quiet (松田っぽいよ quiet) Matsudappoiyo edge (松田っぽいよ edge) UST: UtauReizo Translation: BerrySubs Subtitles: me of a decade ago I say, sobbing because of the passage of time

Warning: Spoilers, violence, sexual imagery

Title: Lace and Blood

Editor: Am Light (aka Light Productions)

Song: Gothic and Loneliness

Artist: narushima

Anime: Kuroshitsuji, Kuroshitsuji II, Kuroshitsuji: Book of Circus, Rozen Maiden: Zurückspulen, Rozen Maiden: Träumend, Diabolik Lovers, Diabolik Lovers: More Blood, The Betrayal Knows My Name, Kuzu no Honkai, Another, Le Portrait de Petit Cossette, Date A Live, Danganronpa: The Animation, Gosick, The Idolm@ster: Cinderella Girls, Mekakucity Actors, Kekkai Sensen, Zetsuen no Tempest

Category: (Dark) Drama

Gothic and Loneliness - vFlower

Takato Yamamoto: 'Picture of a Ghost : Chilling Loneliness in the Dead of Night' (2020)

am i making you feel sick?

cuddy loves the malpractice so much

To my fellow lesbians: I have found something even more lonely than the experience of being around your friends while they're all talking about men.

Let me tell you what happened

I never expected to experience this, as I am the only lesbian I know and while I have plenty of sapphic friends, none of them have ever been in a serious relationship with a woman. That in itself makes me feel quite isolated. But the other day I went to this event that I was so excited for, you see: it was a ball!! A real gothic/victorian/dark academia esque ball in an old art museum with classical music and ballroom dancing!! I was beyond excited and it was a perfect evening, and my heart was elated when I saw how many wlw were there attending... until I realised they were all there as couples.

Except for a few friend groups I was the only single lesbian.

In a room full of wlw couples.

And my heart was so torn. I was so happy for them, for a lot of them were much younger than me and to think that they already knew who they were and were able to date freely (unlike I who repressed my sexuality until I was 23). But I was also hit by this enormous wave of sadness. Of loneliness.

And I wanted to share this story here because, again, I am the only lesbian I know. And I doubt my friends will understand exactly the feeling I was feeling that day. Of being in a room full of people who share your experience for the first time, but at the same time feeling so lonely because you repressed who you are for so long and so you're suddenly overcome with so much longing and jealousy and regret 🖤💀

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artist: yusura rin

"God's will be means to a good end. I write all these things in the diary since my darling must not hear them now; but if it may be that she can see them again, they shall be ready. She is calling to me."

Jonathan puts Mina first in his will, then the rest of the crew second. That is all.

It's a grim possibility that everyone has to confront today, the possible end of their lives at the hands of this monster who has already caused so much suffering, and death with only a few months. However, unlike the rest of the crew (sans Van Helsing ); who may have families, or loved ones not mentioned in the plot, Jonathan and Mina only have eachother.

Their little world had others. Lucy and Mr. Hawkins were a constant in each side, but now that both are dead, who else they have left except their souls interlocked through love, blood, and a blasphemous yet loving burning path of pure self sacrifice?

No wonder Jonathan writes all of these thoughts in the diary first, and plans this time out of his own volition to not tell Mina about them, even if he knows she will read them in the future. Mina would feel devastated if she knew that Jonathan is only considering her life, and that him dying instead is always the better option.

Me, watching Queen of the Damned, waiting for at least a mention of Claudia and Louis