well i'm headed to bed soon so goodnight

when you were sleeping

harry styles imagine

when you were sleeping - your family has a crisis when he’s away.

warning: angst. suicide

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you and Harry were currently braving a long distance relationship. it was difficult, but you both managed. you loved him, but you were also a very independent person. you didn’t need to be constantly surrounded by him to know that he loved you. you were on your last year of college, and he was in Tokyo writing music. you both had goals and were striving for them together.

from where you lived, Tokyo was 14 hours ahead. that meant you could only talk to Harry from 6 pm to 2 am your time, which would be 8 am to 4 pm his time. you only could talk to him within those 8 hours since you both had to sleep at some point and he also had to write music. it got to be frustrating, but you made it work.

you received your daily call from Harry when you were laying in bed. it was midnight where you were, 2 pm where he was. you decided to come home to visit your family since your university was having a 4 day weekend. you had thursday and friday off going into the weekend. it was nice. you got to see your dogs and eat home cooked meals.

             “i think ‘m gonna have a late night tonight,” Harry muttered through the phone.

             “oh yeah,” you said brushing a hand through your almost dry hair.

             “yeah,” he said. “some of the guys want to go out tonight.”

             you laugh. “sounds fun.” you roll onto your stomach. “when can i expect you to be awake?”

he laughed. Harry was big on getting up early. most days he got up at 8 am, sometimes 9 am if he was pushing it, but on mornings after nights he stayed out late, he tended to get up from 10 am to 11 am, if it was really late, he even slept until noon.

             “i don’t want to stay out past 3 so hopefully no later than 10.”

             you laugh. “okay, you goof. text me when you go to sleep so i know you’re still alive.”

             “will do. how did your test go?” he asked changing the subject.

             “it was good…” you continued to tell him about how well you did, and you began to talk about the production you were currently working on at school.

--

on thursday at 1:43 pm, you received a text.

             harry: night night lovie

you laughed to yourself in the kitchen as you made yourself a cup of tea. your boyfriend was a goof. it was 3:43 am his time. you knew he wouldn’t be awake until at least noon his time. it wasn’t so horrible for him to sleep in. he got a lot of writing done this week. you remember him telling you about one of the songs he was working on and how it was almost complete.

you finished making yourself a cup of tea and took a seat on the couch with your two dogs putting on a movie you found on tv.

--

it was 5:36 pm. you had just gotten home from visiting with some of your friends from high school who were home on an early fall break. you were soaking wet from the rain. you were still home alone. your parents were at your brother’s teacher night at school, and your brother was at his football practice. you let the dogs out and gave them their dinner.

you decided to call your cousin, Lauren, to check in on her. she was the same age as your brother, and you three were extremely close along with your other cousin Collin, who was three years older than you.

when she answered the phone, your whole world came crashing down.

             “hey,” you chirped into the phone before you could hear her cry.

             in a shaky voice, she said, “(y/n).” she let out a few quick sobs before she finally spoke again. “Collin killed himself.” 

             you stood frozen in the doorway of your kitchen. “what?”

             “Collin killed himself, i found him in his closet, and i screamed for my mom, and then i fell down the stairs and i scared the dogs, and Collin’s dead.”

             your voice was caught in your throat. you knew Collin was suffering from depression, and it hadn’t been good for a while. you didn’t know it was this bad. you finally spoke. “oh baby,” you said gently. she cried harder. “do you want me to come there? do you need me to come to you?”

             “no,” she said. “my mom has to call 911. i have to call my brothers. i have to go, (y/n), i have to go.”

with that, she hung up the phone quickly. you stood in your kitchen. numb. you felt incredibly numb. you had to do something. he couldn’t be dead. he wasn’t. this wasn’t real. everything’s fine. you’re crying now. when did you start crying? you had to call your mom. you had to tell them. oh god. your brother. he and Collin were best friends. they were so close despite their difference in age. how were you going to tell him.

you rung your mom’s phone. no answer. you rung your dad’s phone. no answer. they were probably meeting with a teacher. you would have to wait.

you heard the garage door open. the dogs went crazy as your brother came into the kitchen with his football bag and backpack in arms.

             “hey,” he called to you while petting the dogs.

             you cleared your throat. “Tom,” you took a breath to keep yourself from crying. he looked up at you as he put his bags on the floor by the kitchen table. “Tom, Collin killed himself.”

             “what?” your brother peered up at you confused.

             “Collin killed himself.” you said with tears in your eyes.

he sat himself in a chair at the kitchen table with his head hanging. you wrapped your arms around him and cried with him.

             “can i use your phone to call mom and dad?”

             he nodded and placed his phone on the table.

--

it was 6:27 pm. you were driving to your cousin’s house after you called her to tell her your parents were on their way there. she told you to come too.

when you arrived at their house, a police car was placed outside in front. you saw your oldest cousin’s husband standing outside handing his baby to his parents to take for the night. he caught you and Tom before you could go into the house. he pulled you both into a hug.

             “just warning you, it’s not easy in there. you can’t see him. he’s still upstairs. they have the room taped off.”

he led you both inside to where everyone was gathered. the house was dark. your family was sitting in a dark room crying. you pulled your aunt into a hug as you both cried in each other’s arms. she let go of you and pointed a shaky finger to Lauren, who was curled up on a couch crying.

             “she needs you. go to your buddy.”

you and Tom collapsed onto the couch with her and sandwiched her into a hug. all three of you sobbed into each other’s arms.

later that night, you cried with your family and listened to your aunt and cousins talk about how bad his depression was. you stood with your cousins when they brought him downstairs on a stretcher. you watched as your aunt and dad said their goodbyes to him. after his dad left, your dad was the closest thing he had to a father, and Collin was the only one who could make your dad laugh like a little kid. your mom held you as your cried. you watched as they placed him into the ambulance and took him away.

--

10:14 pm. 1 missed call from Harry Styles.

1 message:

             harry: hi lovie, i survived the night

you left him on read.

--

the next morning, your eyes were swollen and raw. you woke up a little after 9:30. you saw another message from Harry at 11:26 pm.

             harry: goodnight love. i’ll call you again tomorrow.

you left him on read again. you don’t mean to be a bitch. you’re still processing.

--

Harry noticed you left him on read again. you normally would respond fairly quickly, and you never went to bed before midnight. he found your lack of response odd. it was 11:45 pm his time. he decided to catch at least a few hours of sleep and to call you at 6 am, which would be 4 pm your time.

he woke up at 6:12 am. he rubbed his sleepy eyes before grabbing a drink. he cleared his throat, and he picked up his phone.

--

it was 4:23 pm. you were sitting on the floor of your grandparents living room. your cousins were surrounding you as the adults sat in the kitchen. you were playing with your oldest cousin’s 1 and a half year old daughter. she was the only thing that kept your spirits up.

your phone began to ring. Harry’s contact picture appeared on your screen. you watched your phone as it rang. your eyes began to cloud with tears.

             “answer it,” Lauren said as she caught her niece in her arms, who was running back and forth between her and her sister tackling everyone in hugs. she was so young yet she understood that we were sad and needed comfort.

you nodded to her. clearing your throat and sliding to answer the phone, you walk outside to sit on the front porch.

             “hey lovie.”

             “hi haz,” you let out in a raspy voice. it had been a while since you had actually spoken.

Harry could tell you had been crying. your raspy voice was a telling sign.

             “hey, what’s wrong? are you okay?” Harry’s eyebrows were furrowed together as he heard her shaky breath through the phone.

             “Harry, my cousin killed himself last night.” you blink back tears as you drop your head into your hand.

             “oh love,” he said gently. “i can’t imagine how you feel right now.” he didn’t know what to say. who was it? which one?, he thought to himself.

             “it’s okay, haz. i’m sorry i ignored you. i just didn’t know what to say-”

             “no, no. it’s okay. i understand. you don’t need to apologize.” he took a breath to calm his voice. what he would give to be there right now for her. to hold her as she cried. he felt horrible that he wasn’t there. “do you want me to come home?”

             “no. that’s okay.” you said. he felt like she had punched him in the gut. she doesn’t want me there, he thought. “i know you’re busy and working right now. you don’t need to come home for this. i’ll be okay.”

you lied. you wanted him there. you wanted him to hold you and to rub your back as you cried. but, you know his work is important. so you lied. you told him you were gonna be fine. you were most definitely not fine. you had a hole in your heart. someone so loved and brilliantly smart and witty who could make the whole room smile was gone, and you were not okay with that.

             “you’re important too,” harry started. he wasn’t going to let her push him away. “i know you like to be an independent person, and you don’t like to depend on people, but you can depend on me. i want to be there for you. it hurts me that i can’t be there for your right now. i love you so much, and i wish i could take the pain away for you. can i be there for you? can i come home to you?”

             you burst into tears. you had tried so hard to hold them in. “yeah. okay,” you let out in a shaky voice. you couldn’t see anymore. your eyes were blurred by the tears. “come home to me.”

             “okay. i’m coming home to you. ‘m gonna book a flight, and ‘ll text you when i find out when i land.”

             “mkay,” you said your voice thick from the tears.

--

Harry landed at 8 am on saturday morning. you picked him up at the airport, and silently waited at the baggage claim for his luggage holding his hand. you had been quiet since he arrived. you were scared that you would burst into tears if you said anything.

you broke down when you got to your car. he held you in the parking lot of the airport as you sobbed into his chest. he took your keys and drove you home.

--

later saturday afternoon, you, your family, and Harry were at your aunt’s house. you were sitting with your mom, aunt, Lauren, and her older sister. you were putting together a photo board and were looking through pictures of Collin. you reminisced with Lauren about funny moments with him on your numerous family vacations.

your dad and brother were running around town to each department store to find green ties for each of the men in your family. Collin’s favorite basketball team was the Boston Celtics. his signature look was khaki shorts with a Celtics jersey or some sort of Celtics apparel. he wore mostly green. the men were wearing green ties as a tribute to him.

Harry was in the kitchen unboxing pizzas he ordered for everyone. he couldn’t really do much so he made himself useful by getting everyone food. you were extremely grateful for him.

--

the funeral was monday. you had to get up early to drive to the service. you were sitting at the vanity table in your room doing your makeup while Harry stood in front of your mirror putting on his cuff-links. he was wearing a simple black suit. his tie was hanging untied around his neck. you put the finishing touch on your hair and makeup and moved onto putting on your earrings.

your dad knocked on your bedroom door just as Harry was about to tie his tie. you both looked up at your dad.

             “i-uh,” he started to say looking from you to Harry. “i have an extra green tie.” he looked down to the tie in his hands before reaching it out to Harry. “would you wear this today?”

Harry gently took the tie from your dad’s hands. your eyes welled with tears. Harry looked up from the tie and into your dad’s eyes, which were red from crying.

             “i would be honored.” Harry spoke removing his tie to replace it with the green one. he tied it swiftly in the mirror before turning back to your father.

your dad nodded in approval, not saying much. it warmed your heart just as it broke it. that had meant a lot to your dad. he had allowed Harry to take part in this extremely difficult day, not as just a boyfriend of his daughter, but as a member of your family.

             his voice broke you out of your thoughts. “we are leaving in 10.”

--

the funeral was a blur. Tom and your cousins were the pallbearers. Harry stood by your side the whole time. his arm around you or his hand holding yours. it was a difficult day. your makeup was trashed. your eyes were red and raw. Harry got you some food at the luncheon afterwards. he made you eat a few bites every now and then.

when you got home, you just wanted to crawl in bed and sleep. he helped you take your dress and jewelry off. you put on your comfy clothes while he grabbed you a makeup remover wipe, and he helped you take your makeup off. he let you climb in bed with the shade over your window drawn down darkening your room. he got out of his suit and changed into his comfy clothes before crawling into bed next to you.

you cried in his arms, and you were so grateful for him being there.

hope you enjoyed. i know this was a bit darker. it was inspired by my cousin who passed in october. - mosh

The Angel Next Door - Chapter 3

“This was fun. Thanks for showing me around.” Asher pulls into the driveway.

“I really only showed you a playground and an ice cream place.”

“Where else would I want to go?”

“You’re so going to be getting lost a lot.”

“Just another reason for you to drive me around again.”

“Yeah. Sure. I would tomorrow but I’ve gotta go to the studio.”

“Studio?”

“Yeah. I’ve been working on a new album for a while.”

“Cool. I’m so going to look you up on iTunes the second I get in my room.”

“Really? I’m scared.”

“Good. And I’m definitely watching some Andi Mack.”

“Oh god…” I laugh as he looks nervous.

“Don’t worry. I’m very kind. Not judgy at all.”

“Somehow I don’t believe that.”

“How rude.”

We both step out of the car.

“Should I expect to hear you sneaking out tonight?”

“Maybe.” He looks at me. “Probably.” We laugh. “You’re welcome to come with me.”

“Probably not.”

“Not yet.”

“Lord you’re pushy.”

“You know me so well already.”

“Just go inside. Your moms probably wondering where you’ve been.”

“Doubt it. Bye.”

“Bye.”

We separate and I walk into the house. I see my mom and Dave eating at the kitchen counter.

“Hey! We’re you out? I didn’t hear you leave.” My mom stands up.

“Oh, I just went for a walk.”

“Yeah. Sure. Try not to fuck up here like you did last year.” Dave continues eating and my mom just stands there.

“Yeah. Whatever.” I just walk straight up to my room and jump onto my bed.

I look back and to Asher’s window. He walks into his room and spots me. He smiles. And I just close the blinds.

3 DAYS LATER… 1 am…

Sometimes I wish I could sleep. I haven’t slept more than five hours a night since I was seven and had gymnastics practice at six every morning and had to stay up until midnight to do homework.

Sadly I don’t have much to do late at night or early in the morning these days. So I usually go out. I find somewhere to go. Someone to be with. And then I try and stay busy until I’m truly ready to collapse in bed.

And then we moved here. I know no one. I know nothing. And I can’t really get around with a car. So unless I want to spend money on a ride, I’ve either got to walk or stay in.

Tonight I decided to stay in, kinda. I’m on the roof. Just enjoying the silence of the night, looking up at the starry skies, and smoking a beautiful spliff. It’s relaxing.

“I thought I smelt you.” I nearly throw my spliff and slide off the roof as Asher steps out his window.

“Lord you’re creepy.”

“And you’re high.”

“Really?”

“What’s going on? I texted you the other day. Did you give me a fake number?”

“No. I just didn’t respond.”

“Wow.” He sits on his roof and faces me. “Did I say something the other day? I’m sorry if we got a little deep or something.”

“Do you ever just relax? Have a little fun?”

“Do you ever get serious? Be real?”

“Wow. Look who’s all funny now.”

“Look who’s being a dick.” He gets up and starts moving towards his window.

“Oh come on. Don’t run away.”

“Goodnight. Try not to hurt yourself.”

“Boo, you whore.”

10 am…

So… I woke up and immediately felt like shit. Not physically or anything, but because of what happened with Asher. I was definitely not in a great headspace when I started smoking and I’ve been told I can be quite a bitch when I smoke. So I know that I need to apologize… if Asher will even give me a minute… or second.

I basically wait all day hoping to see Asher either in his room or somewhere outside his house. Sadly his curtain is closed. And no sign of him anywhere.

The Next Day… 6 am

He’s taking his dog for a walk! It’s early and the sun has just started to rise, so it’s still pretty cool out. And I waste absolutely no time putting my shoes out, slide out my window and run to catch up with Asher.

“Hey.” I catch up to him, casually walking up. “Hey boy.” His dog comes up to me. “You’re so cute.” Asher is still silent. “Hey.” I stand up and face Asher, who doesn’t look amused. “I’m sorry.”

I honestly don’t know what else to say. I’m very nervous and I’m not used to feeling this way. I’m just usually not someone to apologize. Mostly because I’m right. But this time I’m not.

“By now you know that I’m not the emotional type of person. And if you tell anyone I said this I will deny it. But… you’re probably the kindest person I’ve met so far in my life and somehow are able to make me open up by some sort of miracle. I don’t get it, but I don’t hate it. I actually kinda like it. So I’m hoping that at some point, whether in a minute, two weeks, or ten months that you will be able to forgive me and we can continue hanging out.” I stand there for a few seconds as his dog licks my leg. “Um… have a good walk.”

I turn around and start walking off.

“Spencer.” I immediately smile, but then hold it in and turn around. “Wanna walk with us?”

“Sure.” I walk back to him and we start walking.

“How many times did you practice that speech?”

“What? No! That was completely spontaneous.”

“Yeah. Sure.” We both laugh.

“So what are your plans today?”

“Actually I’ve got to go do some things for Shazam 2. That’s why I’m awake so early.”

“Bummer. Tonight?”

“Family dinner.”

“Damn.”

“But I could always check to see if you can come along today.”

“Yeah. That would be great.”

“I’m not promising anything, but I’ll try.”

As I sit in my room I’m shocked to hear a little clink on my window. I turn and see Asher over on his roof.

“Hey. Look who’s trying to get my attention now.”

“Well, I don’t have to give you the good news then.”

“Oh just spill it.”

“Well there’s good and not so good news.”

“Oh no… should I get my flask out.”

“Shut up! Throw that flask away.”

“No, but I promise not to take it out if you just get to the point already.”

“So if you want to come today you can. We’re going all over the place to do all sorts of things. But we can make it fun.”

“Great! Anything to get out of this house.”

“Oh wow. So you’re just using me?”

“Oh calm down princess.” He laughs and I realize I’ve missed hearing his laugh.

“The other news is that… my mom has invited you, your mom, and Dave to family dinner tonight.”

“Oh…”

“Yeah… but hopefully we can sneak away early in and maybe go out for a little.”

“Go out?”

“Yeah. I’ll let you choose where.”

“Anywhere?”

“Within reason.”

“Oh, it’s cute you think there’s any reasoning with me.”

“Oh lord. Be ready to go in ten.”

I just give him two thumbs up before he goes back in.

It’s honestly a lot. Asher has to do more than I thought just for a movie role. We went and picked up some revised scripts that involved me sitting in the car alone for nearly 45 minutes. Then we moved on to some building where we went in and Asher got measurements taken, tried on at least 50 different outfits, and had many pictures taken of him. That part wasn’t too bad. I liked seeing him in these adorable outfits. He got excited over it and had a bunch of fun getting his photo taken.

From there we went and got a quick lunch.

After lunch, we went to his manager’s office. I had to sit out in the waiting room as he and his mom went in. They were in there for a ridiculously long time. All Asher told me was that they were planning all his flight dates, dates for PR stuff, and some future projects.

From there, our last stop was a quick stop at the dry cleaners. We grabbed a shit load of clothes then headed back home.

“Sorry ‘bout all that. I thought you would’ve been able to join in on more of it. Have a little more fun.”

“It’s fine. Kinda interesting to see how much it takes to get ready for a movie.”

“Yeah. It’s very interesting.”

“So when does filming begin?”

“Well not filming, but I have to be there for rehearsals in a month.”

“Okay… and how long will you be gone?”

“Three to four months. Depends on reshoots.”

“Shit.”

“Well, you’ll have to come down and visit at some point.”

“Yeah. Sounds fun.”

Then the doorbell rings.

“The neighbors are here.” Asher stands up.

“We could still jump out the window and run.”

“No… come on.”

“Ugh.” He yanks me up from the ground. “This is gonna be a nightmare.”

okay folks. today was a surprisingly good day for a few reasons. I ended up waking up at like 12:30 after checking my phone periodically before that, and saw I had an email with a case, so I quickly got ready and gave them a call. bit of a complicated case, I’m not sure if she’s going to get the emergency order or not. we finished at like 2, but then we had technical issues getting the papers to her to review so I ended up having to read them to her, which put us over the 3 pm deadline to submit cases to be heard that day, so we submitted the paperwork and asked for a hearing tomorrow morning, which was then confirmed. Because of the technical issues the client can’t download zoom, but the chief judge put out a list of orders regarding remote hearings on friday and one of them was to allow telephone participation, not requiring video chat as the court had previously been insisting. there will still be a video call between me, the judge, the court reporter and anybody else who needs to be there, but the client will just be participating by phone. so hopefully we can get that off the ground fairly early tomorrow and then I should be good for the day. the clerk’s office is being obnoxious about the 3 pm deadline, which is no surprise because they’ve always been obnoxious about deadlines, my work buddy was saying in an email that the case he was working on had sent in paperwork like just before 3 but they were refusing to process it for that day because they hadn’t received the email until a few minutes after 3, which we all full well know is bullshit, but there’s not much we can do about in this situation sadly. oh well. The good news is somewhere in between all of this happening, I had initially called my mom to check in and she said they hadn’t heard anything yet but were hoping for things to go well, then she called me back an hour or two later saying they were actually able to remove the ventilator which is a huge step forward, and I was pretty much ready to cry out of happiness, because when someone is going to die of covid-19 the pretty much last step is putting them on a ventilator and it just goes down from there, so him getting off the ventilator is a huge step in the right direction and super relieving to hear. I had of course done my own research on this which I probably should not have done, but covid patients were having much higher rates of not coming off ventilators than the typical pneumonia patients who had generally been the ones using it before this (the pneumonia rate is like 30% not coming off while the covid is like 68%, so that’s obviously a very large gap). They were able to facetime with him a bit later but he couldn’t talk yet since everything was still very new and he’d had a tube down his throat for 12 days now so that was to be expected. my mom said they were going to charge his phone and ipad so I could hopefully talk to him soon, and when that happens of course I’m just going to break down and start sobbing, but I mean it needs to happen. so that was all a lot, but all very good. they did say that he was having acute kidney failure, but at this point it is something that can be reversed and not permanent, so they’re going to work on that before starting him on dialysis or anything like that, so we’re praying that will improve. anyway. Once I was done with the work call I moved to the couch from where I had been working in my bedroom and started watching last night’s episode of Riverdale (even though I pretty much loathe the show I still end up watching it) and while I was a few minutes in I got a message from friend asking to come over because she needed help filming more work videos, so of course I said sure, then changed out of my pajamas haha and when she got here we filmed some stuff for her work, then watched the Riverdale episode together, which was just ridiculous on so many levels I really don’t even know where to begin with it. I had defrosted some meat so I cooked dinner, it was supposed to be a kind of taco skillet thing but it didn’t turn out very good, kinda bland, so that was disappointing (though it still all get eaten, so that’s good at least). Most of the time the recipes I try are hits, so occasionally getting one that doesn’t work great on top of last week’s also not being great is definitely frustrating, but oh well. We decided to watch a netflix movie that had been popping up on the recommended ones with something about time loops called Wedding Love Repeat, and oh man, it was wild and cringey in so many ways I can’t even list them, just bad in every sense of the word, but it was at least somewhat entertaining to watch in its breakdown. after that we watched some more dumb are you smarter than a fifth grader, which continued to prove that people are really fucking dumb and definitely not smarter than a fifth grader (so stop being condescending assholes to children, ya pricks) and somewhere in there got bubble tea which our order now includes 3 packs of hi-chews because if you hit a certain order amount they’ll give you a free pocky, so of course we’ve been doing that. after a few episodes friend went home, I cannot for my fucking life remember what I did or watched after that, but around 10 I turned the news on then watched Jimmy Kimmel, and when that was over I showered and started getting ready for bed, and now I am here. It’s going to drive me nuts that I can’t remember what I did in that time period, but it’s late and I need to go to sleep, so I’m going to leave this here. Goodnight sweeties. Happy Friday (if it even matters for you, anyway). 

Warnings: Cussing 

April Fools ch.2

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“Who the heck is this” I said looking at the text.

I was currently out with Sicheng, Lucas, Jungwoo, and Kun at our apartment (well, Kun and Sicheng don’t live here but the other butt heads do)

“Hey guys do you know who this is?” I asked showing them my phone.All of them shook their heads but Sicheng.

“I think I know who that is, let me check” he said taking his own phone out.

“Oh snap it’s Johnny” he said showing me his phone with the exact same number as the one that texted me.

“What does he want” Lucas said taking a bite out of his chicken. I shrugged my shoulders cause I literally have no clue.

“Ask him” Sicheng said, I just nod and text him

I groaned setting my phone down.

“What’s up booboo the fool” Lucas said stop their conversation

“Johnny just said something weird and idk” I said

“What’d he say” Kun said raising an eyebrow

I picked my phone up and showed them the conversation

“Oh man” Lucas said

“Hm?..Maybe I can ask them tomorrow ?” Sicheng said

“I guess, it was kinda weird and sudden” I said shrugging

*ding*

“Wow Y/N you’re famous” Jungwoo snorted

“Shut up” I said picking my phone up again

Taeyong: hey Y/N I have a question

Holy....Shit.....

“GUYS” I said getting their attention

“What?, Taeyong text you?” Jungwoo said jokingly, little did he know

“yeah!” I said shoving my phone in their face

“Wow Y/N, haven’t you been crushing on him since high school” Lucas said

“Lucas shut you mouth hole before I glue it shut” I said glaring at him

“And yes I USED TO have a crush on him” I said

“You still do” Lucas mumbled

“lucas what did I tell you” I said picking my chopstick up and threatening him with it

“Y/N we all know you go lovey doves heart eyes every time you see him, just admit it” Jungwoo said sipping his water

“I hate all of you” I said sulking in my seat

Me: hey Taeyong what’s up

Taeyong: hey I’m going to be gone Tuesday so can you do me a favor and send me the notes 😗

Me: yeah sure!

Taeyong: Thank you so much Y/N!!

Me: yeah no problem 😁

“What did he ask” Sicheng said leaning over my shoulder

“Notes” I sighed

“I mean no offense but what did you expect, a date?” He said jokingly

“I dunno maybe” I pouted

“Y/N do you realize there he’s never going to see you as more than a classmate” Sicheng said

“Y/N I love you and I’m supposed to hype you up on your crushes or whatever but Sicheng is right” Lucas said

“You know...Jaehyun seems like a good guy” Jungwoo said biting into his chicken

“What is up with people sayin that” I said sighing

“I’m just saying Y/N, he’s a good guy. I mean he smart, funny, he dances and sings too” Jungwoo said

“It sounds like you’re the one interested in him” I said smirking

“Y/N NO IM TRYING TO CONVINCE YOU HES ACTUALLY NOT THAT BAD” He said pointing his chicken at me

“Whatever” I said going back to my food

After we finished eating we watched some movies and all of us went to bed

Kun ans Sicheng decided to sleep in the living room since it was pretty late out

I laid my bed thinking about what Jungwoo said. “Maybe he is right” I whispered to myself

Turning to the digital clock on my nightstand it read “4:40 am” As my eyes were about to close there was a ding and my phone lit up. Groaning debating on if I should get up and get it or if I should answer in the morning. Finally deciding that I should get it, I walked up to my desk where my phone laid

“Snapchat from Jaehyun”

“What the...” I whispered

I went onto the app and read his message

“Hey Y/N I know this is weird and all but can you do me a favor

Me: hey what’s up

Jaehyun: so there’s this thing for Student Council tomorrow and we’re going to this theme park...

Me: yeh I heard, so what’s the problem?

Jaehyun: they said we could bring anyone as long as they have a ticket..and I have an extra ticket...so I was hoping you could come, my other friends said they couldn’t so you’re my last hope :/

Me: Jaehyun...I would love to but I’m sorry I can’t. I’m busy tomorrow :(

Jaehyun: it’s fine, goodnight Y/N :)

Me: Gn

After that convo I flopped onto my bed and thought about what happened. I felt bad for saying no but I was actually busy tomorrow. Sighing I closed my eyes and went to sleep.

When we woke up in the morning Kun and Sicheng were gone. Sicheng texted up saying he dropped Kun home and went home himself too. Jungwoo had a morning classes so we had a few hours to do what ever before going out. When Jungwoo got back it was around 4 in the afternoon. We got ready and headed to Kun’s place to pick him up. Jungwoo was driving while Lucas was in the passenger seat. I sat in the back looking out the window and bopping my head to music.We picked Kun (sadly Sicheng was on that student council trip) up and headed to a park. We parked the car on the side stayed in the car and tried to decide where to go. It was always like this when we went out. We parked somewhere and debate where we should go. Sometimes we would go somewhere new or go to our favorite places, moments like these were fun though. We would get off topic to talk about the drama at school or tell jokes and laugh with eachother. After about an hour of talking we finally decided just to get some boba and some snacks.

*at the boba shop*

We walked into the shop laughing about that one time Lucas got drunk and tried to prove that he wasn’t drunk by doing a cartwheel and walking in a straight line. Of course he fail cause boy was drunk as fuck.

“Oh hey isn’t that Sicheng” Jungwoo pointed to him. He was accompanied by 3 other people

“I’ll go order, you guys can go sit with them I guess” Kun said while walking to the counter to order As we walked closer their table I hear voices that sound familiar. It was Jaehyun Johnny and Taeyong (with Sicheng ofc).

“Hey Y/N look both of your boyfriends are here” Lucas bent down to whisper that into your ear.

“Lucas shut up before I rip your hair off and feed it to everyone” I whisper yelled

“Woah Y/N I didn’t know you were that kinky” Johnny said smirking at me. I blushed not realizing I said that a little boy too loud

Great Taeyong probably thinks I’m a crazy person, I thought to myself. Kun came back with the drinks and snacks. Everyone sat down and before I could sit down next to Jungwoo lucas pushed me out of the way. I glared at him and looked for another seat, it happened to be in between Taeyong and Jaehyun.

“Hey” Jaehyun said smiling

“Hi” I said sitting down.

Surprisingly we actually talked the whole time, he offered some of his snacks and I offered some of mine. When we talked my heart beat so fast I was afraid he might’ve heard it. By the time we were done it was about 8 about to be 9pm. We took Sicheng with us while Jaehyun Johnny and Doyoung left. In the car I was sat in the back on the right side, Lucas in the middle, and then Jungwoo. Kun offered to drive since Jungwoo was tired and Sicheng sat in the passengers seat.

“Where to now” Kun said starting the car

“Just drive around” Lucas said

“I got an idea” Kun said smiling and pulling out of the parking spot. I laid my head on Lucas’ shoulder looking out the window

“You okay” he whispered “Yeah I’m fine just thinking” I replied back in the same tone

“Hey Y/N” Sicheng said

“Hm?”

“I talked to Jaehyun and Johnny today about last night, Let’s just say Jaehyun found some interest in you and wants to get to know you more” he said smirking

“Oh...” I said blushing. A few mins later Jungwoo snoring off into dream land and soft RnB was playing on the radio. Every time I look out the window I always feel the need to think, sometimes is happy and sometimes not so happy. I thought about how stupid my crush on Taeyong was and what Sicheng said about Jaehyun. I looked up at Lucas who was texting some girl he met in his class.

“Lucas?” I whispered

“Hm?” He said finishing his text and turning to me

“Do you really think Taeyong won’t see me as more than a classmate?” I said feeling dumb after saying it

“Y/N look, I love you and we’ve been friends for so long but he isn’t good for you. Taeyong just isn’t going to see you as that way, and I hate that I have to say that but it’s true.” Lucas said putting his head on mine

“Okay...” I said...“Do you really think Jaehyun is a good guy” I said playing with a piece of thread from my shirt” I said after a few seconds of silence

“From what Sicheng And Jungwoo say, he sounds like a good guy” Lucas said sighing. I didn’t say anything after, I just looked out the window thinking...should I really try to give Jaehyun a chance?

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A/N: HEYYYY, so again like ch.2 idk when ch.3 will be released, performance is coming up in 2 weeks so we’re working extra hard to perfect our performance and we still need to go over formations. I just got a break from practice today so I’m working on this English essay 😔, again I’ll try to write as much as I can if I have enough free time. Hopefully after the performance I will be able to be a little more active :D. It’s also a little weird towards the end so im sorry. Tumblr was being weird 

Leaving Part 6

Part One, Part Two, Part Three, Part Four, Part Five, Part 6, Part 7,

Y/N was able to find a job at a diner near the townhouse. They got to work on decorating Rose’s room in the princess theme she wanted.. The two soon found themselves settling into a routine. Rose was excited to have both her parents around.

Jason went back to patrolling. He would sometimes be gone for awhile on a mission with Roy or Kori, but they didn’t last as long as before. Bruce noticed he was less reckless. If he got too tussled up at night, he would head to the cave or another siblings place to patch up. He didn’t want his daughter waking up to see her dad bleeding out. Someone would always make sure to let Y/N know he was okay.

One night after a rough patrol, Jason came home to finding Y/N waiting up for him. She was still in her work uniform. Cass had been watching Rose in the short time between her getting off and Jason leaving for patrol.

He had stopped a few thugs bugging some street girls. Right as he was heading out, he noticed two kids hiding behind a dumpster. His heart ached as it reminded him of when he and Y/N were young. He went to grab them food. They took it and ran, no doubt trying to leave before the police came to get the thugs.

The kids stuck with him the rest of the night He just kept seeing Y/N and him. He remember one time he stole some food and two candles. It was meant to light up the creepy room. They made jokes about it being a fancy date, after all he managed to get hot sandwiches, chips, and cookies. Now here they were with a kid and he never took her out.

Coming home to her waiting up just made him feel even worse. He was nothing but shit to her before and yet she is willing to give him  a second chance. He thought it was time to prove that he had change.

“How was patrol.” She asked while setting down her book.

“Let’s go on  a date.”

“Okay that is random.”

“Why. I was thinking, we have known each other for a long time. Hell we have a kid together, yet never went on a date. Anyone of my siblings will watch Rose and the bat himself would as well. You complain that you wanted an excuse to dress up anyways.” He said. Part of him was scared she would turn him down. After all, they had been tip toeing around their feelings since coming back to Gotham.

“What would I wear. I own no dresses.”

Jason couldn’t contain his excitement and went to hug her while lifting her up. She started laughing as he finally put her down.

“I am sure either Stephanie or Cass might have a dress you can borrow.” He said.

They spent the rest of the night talking. Jason wouldn’t give any hints on where he wanted to take her. SHe had fun trying to get him to give some hint away. That night she fell asleep on his shoulder. Rose came running in that morning demanding pancakes.

To no one’s surprise, the whole family offered to watched Rose on the night scheduled for their date. Y/N thought for sure she was going to have to break up a fight. In the end she  suggested they do a movie night at the manor. Dick immediately got on board and insisted it be a Disney Marathon. Despite the groans from the rest of the family, they all came.

Bruce swung by after work, which he got out of early, to come pick Rose up. She insisted upon Jason packing her Cinderella pjs. Alfred had plenty of spare clothes for her there, but she wanted those pjs. Y/N laughed as Rose explained to Jason why she needed Cinderella pjs for watching Disney movies. Jason had yet to figure that there was no winning against a now four year old child.

After Rose left with Bruce, Jason went to work on some case items while Y/N went to get dress. For her it was hard to keep calm. She had been trying so hard to keep her feelings at bay. He had changed from back when she left him. Maybe fate was finally making up for lost time and allowing her happiness.

She finally came out of the room over an hour later. The dress was deep red and hung onto every curve. Her hair was down up and makeup on point. Jason turned to ask if she was finally read only to have his jaw drop. The dress had to have come from Stephanie and the 3 inch heels added to the look.

“You look amazing.” He said while drinking her in.

“Thank you. Nice to see you cleaned up too.” She remarked.

Jason had changed into dark jeans, a button down shirt, and traded the normal boots in for dark shoes. The black jacket hung next to the couch but helped to complete the look. His hair was still messy and to Y/N he looked sexy as can be. Her heat couldn’t stop beating frantically.

“Let’s go.” He finally managed to say.

The two decided to take the car. While Jason loved his bike, it wouldn’t work with Y/N’s dress. As they pulled out of the drive, he couldn’t help but laugh. He was dressed up and driving a car with a carseat in the back. It was a reminder at how far they came.

Alfred got them reservations at a fancy restaurant. No doubt Bruce had something set up so they wouldn’t be paying the bill. Despite the nice place, they couldn’t help old habits. Both were making comments on people around them. Giving gossip they heard or information Jason knew from Batman cases. For instance, the man over there was a mob boss. Y/N saw Jason sneak a text to Bruce letting him know the bosses location.

“Please tell me I am not the only one feeling out of place.” Y/N remarked.

“No trust me I am too, but Alfred said if I took you for the first date to a dive bar he was going to kill me. Not even Bruce’s no killing rule could help that.” Jason replied.

“I am thankful for being able to get dressed up. Though a sports bar would be nice during a Gotham Knights game.” Y/N said after taking a sip of wine.

“I’ve notice Rose already has a Gotham Knights shirt. Does she yell at the TV too.” He laughed.

“Not yet but there is hope. Kate offered to take us to a game.”

The rest of the night went smoothly. Jason would be lying if he didn’t say his heart felt like he just ran across Gotham. Never in his life had he been this nervous. On the drive home he was still debating on dropping her off and going to the manor or sleeping on the couch like he normally did.

Walking into the apartment, Jason was still running through a thousand scenarios in his head. He was so busy thinking that he didn’t notice Y/N getting closer. It was until he felt her kiss him that he took noticed. Quickly he kissed her back right as she turned to walk away.

“Goodnight cutie.” She hollered while going to shut her bedroom door. She turned back to give him a wave before shutting the door.

Life soon fell into a pattern for them. Y/N got into nursing college. Jason started taking some nights off from Red Hood. Luckily, since he worked at nights they didn’t need to worry about daycare cost anymore. Rose had started preschool as well. She loved the school she was in.

Jason’s family was very active in Rose’s life. One of his siblings always volunteering to watch her. It was good when they wanted to go on dates or get a night to themselves. Rose loved going over to the manor. Damian was teaching her Arabic too and would often read her children stories.

Around six months later, Jason was getting off the phone with Roy. The Outlaws needed to go on a mission that was bound to last a while. He really didn’t want to leave but wouldn’t turn Roy down. Plus there was something he needed to take care anyways. He got off the phone and headed towards Y/N’s room to tell her the news.

He opened the door to see her reading a book with a blanket over her lap. A cup of peppermint tea was on the nightstand. It was the same position she would be in after he came in from patrol. The sight always made him fall in love with her all over again.

“How is Roy?” She asked while going to put a bookmark in her book. It was one Jason had been bugging her to read.

“He is good. Umm need to go for a bit.” He said while scratching his head. “Most likely a month or longer.”

“Promise you will call when you can.” She said.

“Always.”

“When do you leave?” She asked.

“Tomorrow. I will let my family know so they can watch Rose when needed.” He said while going to give her a kiss.

“Stay with me tonight?” She said.

Jason crawled into bed holding her tight. He was going to miss her and Rose while gone, but it would be worth it when he came home.

Jason POV

The mission sucked but luckily he was able to call home often. He would try to hit before bedtime so that he could talk to Rose. While he was there he told Roy his plan. When they got back home, he was going to ask Y/N to marry him. They were even able to get a ring during a stakeout. Luckily the mission wrapped up early, so he planned to surprise her the night he got home.

Y/N POV

Y/N hated when Jason left because she was always afraid he wouldn’t come back. Taking care of Rose and school kept her busy enough not to think about it. It was at night when she was alone in bed that the fears would come back.

She also suspected he asked the family to check on her. Often she would come home to someone waiting. Alfred always brought food which was a blessing. After school all day it was a welcome sight. The family also cheered Rose up. She hated it when her dad was gone. If he called, she would run to the phone and talk non-stop until Y/N said she had to go to bed.

Tim had volunteered to watch Rose during her night classes on Thursdays. Her friend B/F/N would drive her since she didn’t like driving in Gotham at night. That night though she had to leave the lecture early due to being sick. Y/N swore she would be alright. The bus stop was not far from her place anyways.

The rain was coming down heavier than usual that night. Somehow she missed the stop and ended up a few miles from her place. Thinking she would be okay, she started walking home. Hopefully none of the bats see or there would be a long ass lecture coming her way.

The thought of getting home and away from the cold rain distracted her from paying attention. It wasn’t until she got grabbed that she noticed someone was following her. She tried fighting back but they were stronger than her.

“Put the girl down.” A robotic voice from around the corner said. A voice that Y/N would recognized anywhere.

Instead of letting go, the thug shot her and ran. It was a vain attempt to keep the Red Hood from killing himself.

Y/N’s hearing went fuzzy but she heard something about Batman going after the thug. Jason was talking but all she could was the panic in his voice. Her blood was going cold and her vision starting to fade. Fighting off the incoming blackness, she searched for Jason.

He ran towards her and held her. One arm was pressed against the bullet wound in her stomach, trying to stop the blood loss. Y/N reached her hand up towards his helmet trying to find the button, wanting to see his face one last time. He took it off for her and looked at her face, scared of what might happen.

“Jason” her voice came out raspy.

“Y/N save your energy. The medics are on the way. I need you to hang on until they get here, please.” Jason said, the please coming out almost as if begging her to stay alive.

“I love you Jason, but I think fate decided it was my turn to leave.”  She said slowly before her eyes closed.

Jason cried out trying to get her to wake back up. His body covered in her blood that would not stop. The sounds of sirens in the distance grew louder and the ring in his pocket mocked him.

The End? Don’t worry I am not that mean, well maybe. You see I want to end here but also need closure. So I am going to pull a 1988 DC move here and you decide the fate. Reader living or dying? I have both written but only one is going up.  You have until the night of my birthday, October 12, 11pm EST United States (or maybe the next morning cause well it's my birthday night.). So send me a message, an ask, or comment below. I will then tally it all and post the story the next day, most likely in the afternoon.

Tagging: @superwhoteen @spunky-89

All the numbers, punk!!!

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? lol I'm not really?2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? my girlfriend sends me good morning snapchats everyday 💞💞3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? No, as long as it's not all the time.4: Do you find it easy to trust others? Oh yeah for sure! My uncle always says I'm super naive and need to stop trusting everyone I meet lol5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?sleeping 😴😴😴6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? Hopefully someone that isn't drunk and knows where we are going haha7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? Dump that person.8: Are you close with your dad? No not at all, I haven't seen my bio dad since I was 3 and then the man who basically raised me (who I call my real father) left me when I was 9 or 10, we only just now reconnected last year and we are still not close.9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? Umm no unless you count kissing my little cousins goodnight 😂😂10: What are you listening to? New rules by dua lipa11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? Tea! I'm addicted to it lol12: Do you like hickeys? Heck yeah! Lol which is really weird for an asexual but I think they are more intimate than sexual.13: What time do you go to bed? If I have work I like to be in bed by like 10:30 cause I have to be up at 5:30 am but if I have nothing to do I usually don't fall asleep until 3am.14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? My mother. I don't know how many chances I give her and she still disappoints me..15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? Yeah I think I can, though my texts are more sloppy lol (I did this one with one hand)16: Do you always answer your texts?I do but it may take forever. Sometimes days!!!! I forget about texts all the time hahaha17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? Well I choose not to hate people, but I don't have respect for that person. They lied to me and always found a way to make me be the bad guy in a fight.18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? Well I Snapchat my best friend everyday (even tho she is terrible at keeping a streak!) but it's been awhile since we have seen each other 😭😭19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? My littles cousins. They are the light of my life 💞💞20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? Well I like to go over everything in my life that is stressful at night because why the fuck not?!?! So I was probably thinking about all the shit that happened yesterday 😒😒21: Is anyone else in the room with you? Nope, I'm alone, or at least I hope so!!22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? I mean I guess?? I never really thought about it. I mean I always say be kind and kindness will come back so I guess that's the same lol23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? Honestly no. Probably the same maybe a little worse.24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? My dad. Even after him leaving me for another family, I really want us to be able to work things out.25: In the past week, have you cried? Oh yeah, I've cried in the last hour lol26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? Blue27: Do people ever call you by your last name? Yeah but they usually call me flawless lawless.28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? Not that I know of?29: Do you have a best friend? Yeah grace, we've been friends since we were little. And then also my girlfriend!30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? No not at all.31: Who was your last call/text message from? My aunt just texted me a picture of my cousin, today was her first day of kindergarten.32: Are you mad at anyone? Does myself count?33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Yes.34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? I don't know.... barely knew the person.35: How many more days until your birthday? Tomorrow it will be exactly a month!!!! So excited!!36: Do you have any summer plans yet? Summers over yo! Start school next week!37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? Sure I have one or two, use to have more but most my friends and I have grown apart due to distance.38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? Yeah.39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? Yes.40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Yes.....41: Do you think age matters in relationships? No, as long as you love the person and have a healthy relationship.42: Are you available? No I am very much unavailable.43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? Um no one?44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? I had my nose pierced a couple times but I don't think I would get anything else pierced.45: Do you believe exes can be friends? Sure as long as you guys are both respectful of eachother.46: Do you regret anything? I choose not to regrets my choices in life.47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? Nothing really, my thoughts are pretty muddled today.48: Did you ever lose a best friend? Yeah kind of, it's complicated.49: Was your last kiss a mistake? Wait wasn't this asked earlier? Idk but yes my last kiss was def a mistake50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? Well I mean I already got her lol51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? No.52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? Jesus Christ it's hard answering these last person you kissed, since the last person I kissed forced me. But no I do not!!53: What was the last thing you ate? Idk, I haven't eaten since yesterday.54: Did you get any compliments today? Yeah I got one from someone on Tumblr lol55: Where are you going on your next vacation? Idk but I would like to go to Canada to meet my gf or meet halfway somewhere with her.56: Do you own anything from other countries? Well most the stuff in America is made from china so yeah 😂😂57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? Idk I would say it's 50/5058: Where have you lived most of your life? Kansas59: When was the last time you took a long drive? 2 weeks ago to see my sister.60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? No61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? No that's mean!62: Who do you text the most? My girlfriend.63: What was the last movie you saw? I'm watching a lifetime movie right now about a teenage murderer.64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? Idk, I mean I know nothing about their exes, but I have faith in my partner.65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? Um none probably. I didn't date a lot.66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? No.67: Do you curse around your parents? Oh yeah.68: Are you happy with where you live? I mean I'm content but it's not where I want to be for the rest of my life.69: Picture of yourself? Idk how to add pics to a answer thing? Lol70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? Def monogamous!!71: Have you ever been dumped? No I'm usually the dumpee.72: What do you most like about making out? Well I'm not a huge fan of it, I mean it's nice but Idk lol73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? Yeah like one girl but I was trashed 74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? Usually the other person 😬 I don't normally initiate the kissing.75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? Their minds 😅😏76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? Holly77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? No.78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? No.79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? My significant annoyance 😂😂 no but for real they make my life so much better. 80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? Yeah definitely.81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? Yeah.82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? No I tend to keep to myself.83: Do you miss your last sweetie? No84: Last time you slow danced with someone? Prom.85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? Well I've never met my current gf.86: How can I win your heart? It's pretty easy, I have a big heart that loves everyone I meet. Buy me some Starbucks and we good 👌🏻👌🏻87: What is your astrological sign? Virgo88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Sleeping!89: Do you cook? Oh yes! I love it!90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? Yeah my first girlfriend, we are kind of friends now, but only on social media, we don't talk much.91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? I am in a relationship.92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? I swear this has already been asked hahaha93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? I don't really have a type. Though I think tattoos are really attractive.94: Name four things that you wish you had? 1. A dog2. My own place3. Some coffee4. A blanket (it's always across the room)95: Are you a player? No.96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? No.97: Are you a tease? No.98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? No99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? Yeah. Once before and right now.100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? My gf101: Hugs or Kisses? Hugs!!! 102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? No.103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Um idk.104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? Idk I think it's my least favorite just because my step sister and her fiancée always call each other babe and nothing else and it's the most annoying thing ever! Me and my sis make fun of them all the time for it! 105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? Nooo!!!106: Do you flirt a lot? Yeah I guess!107: Your last kiss? Don't want to talk about it 👌🏻👌🏻108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? No.109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month? No.110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? My gf111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next? My gf112: Does someone like you currently? Hopefully a lot of people like me, I try to be a like-able person.113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone? My gf114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? Serious relationship.115: Ever made out with just a friend? No.116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? Relationship obviously, she makes like so much happier!!

okay, well today was pretty chill. I had set my alarm for 9, hoping we’d be able to get the hearing done quickly and I’d be good for the rest of the day (after not telling my boss I was done with the hearing for another few hours so I wouldn’t be assigned any more work, lol, but there didn’t end up being any more to be assigned anyway). I got a call from the clerk pretty early checking in and asked how long it should be, she said about 30 minutes so I called the client and let her know. A while later I got another call with the zoom call in number, so I then called the client again and gave her that number to enter after she enters the first number I gave her to get into the zoom hearing from her phone. just a little complicated, lol. they have it set up so that when you join the zoom call you’re in a waiting room and then they let you in when they’re ready, and normally this hadn’t been more than like 3-5 minutes, but today it ended up being more like 30 minutes later, so we ended up starting the hearing around 10:45, which still isn’t bad all things considered, and I know one of my coworkers had an earlier hearing with the same judge around that time so I’m sure they were busy and not just lollygagging. there were the typical few bumps we’ve had with each judge doing it for the first time as far as why we’re on the call when we’re not representing the client as attorneys, and today’s judge just decided we were advocates then and referred to us as such throughout the hearing, which is fine I guess?? my two coworkers that had hearings with her today reported the same behavior, not really wrong but just kind of odd? but oh well, no big deal. It was kind of an odd case and I wasn’t sure how it was going to go but it ended up going pretty well, there was a slight bump where the client had wanted a less restrictive type of order but the judge basically said no based on the behavior this needs to be a no contact order, which the client acquiesced to quickly, much to my relief. and that was that, we got off the call and I called the client to just run over a few things and make sure she was good to go, and then I was done, friend had texted me like 10 minutes before saying she was done with work so I responded that she was good to come over, which she did shortly afterwards. our brunch food ended up being a bit of an adventure, on the uber eats homepage I saw it had one of the restaurants we like under the share a delivery thing for no delivery fee if you order in the next 5 minutes, so I went ahead and grabbed that, all good, the food gets here, I take it upstairs and....oh, this is not our food. not at all lol. It seemed to be some sort of mexican breakfast food (I was thinking maybe chilaquiles based on the eggs and the chips but I wasn’t sure because I hadn’t actually seen it before). so we hit help in the app and they just refunded us like 5 minutes later, oh well, so we order again and I ate the eggs off the other order, friend reported the chip portion was very spicy so I did not touch that. a little while later our actual food comes and is very satisfying thankfully. We started watching season 2 of Killing Eve and just ended up binging the whole thing since it’s only 8 episodes long. still very good and highly enjoyable. At some point I spoke with my mom who said my dad is doing good, the kidney functioning is still somewhat of an issue but they said if they needed to do dialysis it would be like a one time thing to flush out the system not an ongoing treatment, because acute kidney failure which he has is reversible so it shouldn’t be a long term issue. he was having some heart afib in a similar fashion so they were going to have a cardiologist visit but they didn’t expect it to be a problem. They’re looking to transition him from the ICU to the step down unit in the next 1-2 days, so that will be another big relief. I was thinking that I was going to go to New York as soon as they started up flights again, but like, if he gets out of the hospital and I could actually see him if I drove there and I already don’t have work that would be occupying me......I kind of want to go drive there and see him, but that feels really irresponsible given everything that’s going on and even so anyone going into New York they want to self-isolate for two weeks which I wouldn’t really be able to do since I definitely wouldn’t be able to stay for two weeks and would at least want to see my family the whole time I’m there. plus I don’t have a car, so this whole plan would involve roping friend into coming with me, but that’s a big ask since she would be the one doing all the driving and everything, and I haven’t brought up the idea with her yet. so I don’t know, I just really want to see him ASAP. my mom said they facetimed with him again today but he still couldn’t really talk, I called his cell phone this morning which went straight to voicemail as I’m sure it’s dead, but I left a voicemail so hopefully once it gets turned on again he will give me a call and then I’m sure I will start sobbing hearing his voice again. this was all just such a terrifying experience, and it’s really not over yet so I shouldn’t be celebrating just yet, but it does seem like things are solidly on the path to recovery so that’s a big relief for sure. also on like, a more practical level, the whole thing has definitely made me more interested in building up my savings money, because it’s like $5K right now which really isn’t very much (I know that’s a totally subjective statement and if that’s not true for you please know I mean no offense whatsoever) especially when it used to be like $14K and I spent a lot of it, lol. so I had been taking $200 out of every paycheck and transferring it to my savings, but since I just got paid and I’ll get another paycheck before rent for next month is due I just straight up took $1000 and stuck it in my savings, which obviously isn’t something I can do with every paycheck, but I do intend on saving more. anyway. we finished season 2 of Killing Eve and then watched the first episode of the third season that had just come out. we got Popeye’s for dinner, and the plan was to watch the BTS concert they were streaming tonight, they’re doing like a marathon of them from 10 pm to 10 am our time, so we were going to watch the first one. we had some time to kill though so we ended up watching one of their like tour documentary movies, which was cute, and then some random music videos until the concert started being streamed. it was cute, not terribly exciting because we didn’t really know much of the music (it was from like 2015) but still enjoyable. so we watched until the end of that and friend went home, she’ll probably stay up and watch multiple ones before it starts up again tomorrow night from 10 pm to 10 am Sunday (really terrible times for US audiences, but it’s like 12 pm to 12 am in Korean time so it does make sense for them). and yeah, after that I showered and got ready for bed and now I’m here and it just turned 2 am so I need to get to sleep very badly and will be doing that now. Long post, had a lot to say I guess. Goodnight dears. Happy weekend.