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sunkern-plus · 3 months

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there are so many reasons fictional characters could and should be fat but they're drawn skinny as a rail for no other reason than people think everyone should be skinny to be loveable.

example: guy who drinks a lot of alcohol, like a whole 6 pack of beer every day, is somehow drawn thin as a rail. that guy should have a beer gut and be as wide as a house. why are you drawing him thin

example: woman who is body positive (especially about fat bodies) and is kinky and loves sex AND loves eating is somehow skinny as a rail despite there being an entire kink fixated on eating a ton of food and another kink around appreciating fat bodies. same woman was raised in an orphanage and is trans, likely had to starve herself (which a prior history of starvation can lead to weight gain) to fit the ideal mold of what a trans person "should" be to be able to transition in the first place but is now leaning into hedonism and "if you don't like me the way i am then fuck you" attitudes. why are you drawing her thin

example: person with impulse control issues who even has a quote about how they eat even when they're full. their parents are also notably fat. somehow despite obvious signs of binge eating disorder and having fat people genes is the same size as most of the average characters of their birth assignment.

EDIT: THOUGHT OF ANOTHER EXAMPLE

example: this guy doesn't do much physical activity given that he's the token non superpowered guy in a group of superpowered people, mostly uses his brain as his "superpower" (he's just really smart lmao) and has a diet consisting of instant ramen and candy. somehow is one of the thinnest characters there.

example: this guy can shapeshift into a huge tiger the size of a 6 foot tall human basically, which would logically require a lot of body fat and calories to sustain without pain, EXTREME amounts of stretch marks, or some sort of chronic fatigue. is even joked about in the manga about having "love handles". eats tons of food because of his history with starvation (another factor in weight gain and fatness is previously being starved as i stated in the second example). SOMEHOW is, according to his stated height and weight, UNDERWEIGHT.

like. do you SEE the problems i'm talking about

#first character i'm talking about is that cat boy from hazbin (which thankfully i'm never gonna watch)#second character is poison from street fighter #third character is dan hibiki from street fighter #predictably i think a lot of characters from street fighter should realistically be fat. HELL KEN SHOULD BE FAT given that he canonically #gained a TON of weight from sfiv to sfv only in TWO YEARS that's literally a sign of numerous hormonal disorders or binge eating disorder #or like. being put on psychiatric medications but no way ken was put on a psychiatric medication. no way #ken would NOT be on a psychiatric medication in sf6 but he would be put on one after the events of it lmao #fatphobia for ts #fat characters #the last two edited examples are ranpo edogawa and atsushi nakajima from bungo stray dogs #and the atsushi example one especially makes me mad because i like him a lot and heavily relate to him #yet he's drawn skinny constantly only because everyone thinks bishonen can only be skinny lmao :) very bitter about that #(and atsushi is literally only 18 too like. chill out. he's barely a grown adult. why are you sexualizing him in the first place)#but anyway when you're fat and have been a fat admirer since childhood practically you NOTICE how few characters are fat #despite how LOGICALLY...they SHOULD be fat due to their circumstances

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awbrainno · 2 years

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Well, the mom is finally gone and, as always, I have just one question remaining:

Why is she so mean?

Why won't she use our pronouns until she's been called out and shamed? Why then will she begin occasionally correcting herself only so that she can look at whoever called her out and make sure they're validating how hard she's trying?

Why is she so mean?

Why will she ignore and belittle and straight-up deny our disability for years and then, when we're no longer invisibly disabled, try to all at once claim that she has the same disability, continue to insist that we do things that hurt and drain us, and use it as a reason we need to be babied and pitied and fawned over?

Why is she so mean?

Why will she insist we tell her all about our mental health, then get weepy and defensive when we do? Why does she insist that she wants to know which alters are which, wants to get to know everyone, then get snippy and rude or weepy and pitiful when we try to introduce ourselves, and then give up the pretense entirely and go back to the comfortable lie that her kid just changed their name and also everything else about themself?

Why is she so mean?

Why will she ask invasive personal questions about how little we eat out of 'concern' while also talking constantly about how 'fat' she is while also saying that fat people are gross and she never wants to 'let herself go' like that while also commenting on our weight every moment?

Why is she so mean?

Why does she constantly remind us of the dad and how evil he is and what a bad dad he was and how terrible it was to be married to such a monster? Why does she then tell me I look so much like him that she thinks I am him sometimes? Why did I need to know that I weigh the same as he did when she met him? Why, for that matter, does she so readily know how much everyone around her weighs all the time?

Why is she so mean?

Why is she so fucking mean?

#actuallytraumagenic #actuallyborderline #caw caw #aw futz #mental breakdown #okay two questions but 'why is JARVIS her ringtone' is a me problem not an us problem #parents for ts #eating disorder for ts #fatphobia for ts #transphobia for ts

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oldcoyote · 5 days

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i need to lose weight fast for my health's sake, and my doctor today offered me ozempic

i don't know if i'm going to do it. the price is insane, and i don't want to take it out of the hands of people who truly need it. my doctor insists that i need it, but i don't think that's true. my issue is self control. i got myself in this position by having none, and that's my fault

and i don't want to steal a drug from people who genuinely need it to survive when i have other options. i don't want to feel like some kind of cheat, either, or deal with the judgment from everybody else that will come with taking it

i've just begun a VLCD to try and knock off the top 5-10kg as fast as i can to recover from my newest medical issues, but i worry about my willpower and my strength. i keep narrating all the way to the fridge when i'm about to fuck up the diet, sure, silly pig, go stuff your fat ugly face, etc and so on, and it helps a lot. once i start thinking like that i turn around more often than not

i'm just sick of everything being so hard. i just need to find another source of dopamine besides food. i need another coping mechanism besides food. some other source of joy. but without one, it's fucking bleak out here, and god i wish i could take that stupid drug without hating myself for the rest of my life

#fatphobia #weight loss for ts #weight loss drugs for ts

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ghostsprettymama · 1 year

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MONA LISA.

“ i want you to give in”

Warnings: smut,bullying,panick attacks,alcohol and possible drug use, anxiety, talks of suicide,toxic relationships,fatphobia,gun violence, throw up. MDNI.

Word count: 4,274 words 22,560 characters

pairings: Riri williams x Black! Reader fluff, shuri x Black! reader, top!black reader x gang member ! Shuri udaku

ALL CHARACTERS ARE 18+ UNLESS MENTIONED OTHERWISE

A/N: NAUR BC I WAS WORKING ON TS IN MY DRAFTS AND I ACCIDENTLY DELETED IT 😭😭 BUT TYSM FOR SM LOVE ON THE LAST POST HERES PART 2.

part one part three

blue text = whispering.

Y/N pov

You woke up in your room . With no collection on how you ended up there, but you do remember why you have this massive ass hangover, you checked your phone seeing Shuri’s message on instagram.

you squinted at the messages smiling, but your momment got ruined by your Brother “ wake yo ass up or T and all of us are leaving yo blackass home and you're gonna miss your first day" Said Erik on the other side.

You groaned getting up from your bed charging your phone while you went to the shower "siri play my song. " you said in your gentle morning voice.

Your phone responded automatically playing your song while you showered putting on your F/s bodywash, taking care of yourself in the shower, stepping out when youre squeaky clean and smelling good.

Youd put on your fit for the day stopping the music, taking your phone and charger with you, along with your purse so you have other mecessarities with you.

you went downstairs heading outside while Erik was waiting for you, he looked you up and down "Fuck you goin lookin like that" Erik said glaring down at you, the 6'2 man said looking down at you "take ya blackass back and change, my sister aint going out like no whore" he said.

A whore? You're dressed like a whore.. you look at him your pretty eyes threatened tears, your pretty makeup threatening to be ruined. "nono please, bee I promise you can go like that you aren't a whore" Erik said to you, your tears no longer threatening to come out.

You both headed to the car and the Udaku sibblings followed behind, shuri looked you up and down Before smacking your ass when the older brothers arent looking.

"SHURI-"

you yelped and the men turned around looking like someone was about to be murdered, both of them reaching for their hips, shuri motioned for them not to and you didnt understand why.

"sorry saw a spider" the two tall dudes sighed shaking their heads "dont do that shit again unless you want us to make sure someones not breathing anymore" said T'challa shaking his head getting in the drivers seat after unlocking one of his many cars, but he only used this one for school. you reached for shuris' hand but she shook her head " youre big now, you dont need to hold my hand" She obviously teased,

You just got in the backseat of the car with shuri, the two men sitting up front. you thought about what she had said, it made you upset either way, but you shook your head listening to one of your second favorite songs

SHURI POV

she looked at instagram going to her dms, seeing one unread dm from Riri, a close friend of hers, they werent at all interested in eachother but here and there theyd joke like they were.

She looked at the previous convo trying to remember what and who they were talking about and why, these two werre notorius shit talkers, but aint nobody stopped them, even if they can they cant.

Ohhh... she thought ttyping fast with her digits trying to carry on with the conversation hoping Riri isnt mad,Not that Shuri needs her, she js enjoys her prescense as a friend, she held Riri dearly to her.

She rolled her eyes turning her phone off, Shuri knew Riri was just concerned about Y/n, after all the school they go to is fucked up, but its the closest and least expensive one.

T'challa pulled up to the school everyone but Y/n getting out, Shuri decided to show out and open y/ns door helping her out the car. She held her hand as they walked into ths school, everyone looking Y/n up and down

"Why are they looking at me shuri.." she said to shuri in a whisper, "well maybe because youre a woman thats fine as fuck coming to a bigass school, and holding my hand?" Y/n bobbed for the answer and got the wrong apple, Shuri took the ' sarcastic asshole ' response in return for a dumb question.

T'challa pov

"You two already got your schedule right?" T'challa said turning to them, hoping to god they didnt forget the schedules at home or theyre gonna have to drive back. Even if T' challa seemed to be some ' big scary gangsta ' as titled by peers. He rather not be late to class.

"yeah, i got me and i put Y/n's schedule in her purse so we good." Erik said, T'challa got closer to erik when he pulled schedule out, shit was so crumbled you could barely read the words on there. "My nigga what the FUCK is this??" t'challa looked at him with his signature look on his face.

"Bro leave me alone i was rushing" said Erik looking back at him as if he got hit in the head with a hot comb. they both broke out into laughter not being able to take looking at eachother like that. "anyways we got the same schedule, what about you two?" T'challa looked at the girls who were already gone.

"did they ju- " T'challa turned to erik and he nodded, both of them shook their head in sync. "kids these days.."he said causing erik to chuckle.

They hated eachother but still kept the unremovable bond of their good friendship, who even knows why they arent actually friends anymore. The tale is like a mystery to people. Neither T'challa or Erik open up about it, but only shuri and the udaku sibblings mother Ramonda knew.

homeroom period bell rings

Y/N pov

She sat by Shuri and her friend Riri we met while walking around,both were on each sides of me and it mad me feel safe, she adjusted her braclets bracelets, some teachers gave her work the students were already working on,i only had gotten it due to the fact that shes a " hard worker".

Riri nudged me motioning me to pull my jacket up and cover my chest, I raised my eyebrows looking down, shit...she left hickeys on my chest you thought to yourself zipping up your jacket "Thanks Riri..." you smiled at her and she gave you a fist bump. "its nothin, a sista helps a sista out" she said as the bell rang your homeroom teacher coming in, damn she was fine.

RIRI POV

Shuri better not let this one go, i actually like her. She sighed to herself after fist-bumping her, Watching Miss Romanoff come in Rolling her eyes, she desperately loathed that woman with everything in her damn body.

“Good morning class we have a new student today, could you stand up” said Natasha,Riri glanced at her and she got up walking to the front,

I dont got a good feelin about this, She looked at shuri and shuri nodded feeling the exact feelings

Y/n POV

She got up, coming to the front of the classroom waiting for it to go silent. She gave her usual pretty smile. “ Hello im Y/n L/n and i hope this school treats me right”. She was going for her seat before Romanoff said something.

“ any facts? Like your family or you” She said to Y/n as she sat down, she looked at shuri before looking at riri, both of them shook their heads. “I Rather not, thats not anyones buisness in here anyway” you shrugged sitting back down, finishing the papers you had gotten.

Romanoff's eyebrow raised before she went to her desk handing you a paper and book. Youd put it aside before putting the papers in youur pink folder putting it in your folder.

you felt eyes on you, when you turned you looked at a white boy with brown hair and dark eyes trying to uncover who you are.

But his friend next to him calling him, causing the boy to look away.

You raised an eyebrow at his actions, a weird one you thought. Maybe he wanted to play a game, but you werent interested in some white boy with a staring problems games.

After class

you and your two friends left first standing by the lockers and talking about what had happened, shuri paid attention to your body language taking note of Peter, if he made you uncomfy she would do something about it, if he didn't then he was fine.

“Yeah, the weird guy? Peter, he’s usually talking to ned in their world, I don't know what's up with me today.” Riri said shrugging it off, you dismissed it too not caring about him either way, shuri looked at Peter and ned while you two talked. “I just find it weird that the nigga was staring at me like I'm the Mona Lisa,” you said uncomfy with what he did. “Hold that thought” riri and shuri went over to the two guys.

you were on your phone as you suddenly looked up seeing two red marks on peters face.

Shuri POV

She was paying attention to her friends body language “I just find it weird that the nigga was staring at me like I'm the Mona Lisa,” said y/n shifting her body showjng she was uncomfy. almost immediantly the two girls looked at eachother nodding oou im gonna beat this dough boy colored bitches ass. shuri thought " hold that thought" she said as she moved off the wall going over to Peter and ned, they wanted nothing with ned he was cool for now.

"What the fuck is your problem," Riri said staring up at Peter. She didn't care at all about the height difference in height, after all the bigger they are the harder they fall. Riri put her finger in the middle of his chest roughly pressing it against the middle as if it was a knife. “So you just gon’ creep my friend out and stare at her? We know the shit you're trying to pull Peter and stop digging for shit you shouldn't even know” said shuri spitting venom at the male before giving him a big smack to the face

“Hey man in sorry for him, he was j-” ned tried to defend his friend but Riri interrupted him "Shut the fuck up ned, this dont involve you" she stared at him as if the poor boy committed an act of murder to her friend. "if you wanna keep ya girl mj, even if that bitch is yours, leave Y/n alone" said Shuri walking away with Riri.

"does she even know why shes not at that school anymore? or about the shit both of your familys do huh?" Peter said as he was trying to anger Shuri and Riri more. “Its none of her buisness” said shuri as they kept walking .

“What does he-”dont worry about it” Shuri interrupted as they continued walking, Y/n looked at them before catching up to the others

LATER

Y/n pov

you sat on the bleachers watching the two play basketball for gym class recording it to watch later on my camera, when the bell rang shuri lifed her shirt whiping her sweat off, her sports bra and v line showing, along with the lovebites and kisses from lastnight on her body. you stopped filming putting the camera in your purse staring at her body.

"you like her ? " a voice said to her causing her to jump, her purse being sent all the way to shuri from her jumping so much . you turned around looking at the pretty girl beside of you "kiana" she said to you, her name so you nodded saying yours "Y/n" you said smiling to her. Her entourage was behind her watching the two of her “oou shes pretty... Is that Shuri's girlfriend?” said one of the girls “Thats Mariana, ignore her” you nodded “so what was your question” you adjusted yourself looking at Kiana, you weren't scared of her and you knew what she was trying to do. “a statement actually, You shouldn't like shuri, shes like of dem playgirls” she looked at your hickeys and kisses shuri left on you. You nodded getting up “mmh. Kiana rii? Yeah. Just because you were one of her hoes or rejected by her, dont mean you get you and ur friends to scare me away from my childhood bestie, i know her more then you ever would” you declared showing no form of emotion, Riri and Shuri called for you as they came out the lockerooms.

“It's ‘ight, she doesn't like fat bitches ‘nyway,” said Mariana, causing you to turn around and stare “ that's crazy becausee... She didnt say that last night. “ you shrugged it off walking past your bag, and giving shuri a little kiss on the lips, you dont know what fueled you but you did it anyways.

“What's with the sudden kiss?” shuri stared then looked up to see Kiana and Mariana then back to y/n who bent down to pick her bag up causing her to stare.

“Mmh y/n..” she stared for the longest time before smacking it, loud enough for the gym to hear. You flinched turning to shuri with a face red as a tomato. “Payback” she’d say smiling, Mariana and Kiana walked over to shuri putting their arms around her.

“Hey, baby. Why are you fucking around with someone like her I thought you liked us” Mariana said her acrylics Circling them on her chest. Shuri smiled at her getting lost in the momment " you know its not like that ma im up for anyone i can do what i want, nobody gon' hold me down anytime soon." she used the same nickname and voice she used for you. "shuri." said riri and kiana hushed her.

you had a “ did this bitch really just...” face on offended at how your two faced friend was acting"Nah Riri let's go. let shuri fuck around with her hoes like she always does" Youd say leaving and not waiting for riri, the bell rang for lunch, you were hurt bad.

Riri POV

" you said you wouldnt play her Shuri, i knew you were a damn lie" Riri said spitting venom at her as she got her bag leaving " like you said her soft ass wasnt gonna last here" Riri turned around staring up at shuri. "yknow what.." she clocked both of the thots on shuris dead in the nose. " fuck you and your thots, you know i dont fuck with this playgirl shit" she said leaving.

Riri saw the girls go the same way y/n went as she looked both at Kiana and Mariana "oou im sick of yall." she ran after them following them to the bathroom

Shuri looked at the two , realising what she did and said was wrong, "fuck." she sighed movinf past them and going to the lunchroom to get Erik.

Riri on the other hand came in the bathroom seeing the other 4 girls bang on the stall Y/n was in . she heard her crying and hyperventilating, she was havinqg "either yall gon' get the fuck out or im airing this bitch out right now." Riri reached for under her shirt, the girls stopped running out as she sighed, sitting by the stall

"Hey Y/n you 'ight ?" she leaned against the stall listening to her cry." Shuri probably didnt mean it, she was lo- " she got interrupted by the sounds of her throwing up and the toilet flushing. soon y/n came out, sitting on the counter in the bathroom.

" im Fine, i know sex doesnt mean you love them its whatever, we were drunk" y/n said i saw her try to keep a straight face, but she failed crying her eyes out again, her makeup was ruined, you signed hugging her, she burried her head into riri's shoulder as she patted and rubbed y/n's back to soothe her. "lets get you prettied up again yeah?" said Riri as she used makeup wipes from her gym bags cleaning y/n's face. "you know how to do make up?" Y/n sniffled asking you. "girl hell yeah i do? ion got lucious lashes like you do but shiit i got the falsies that look like yours. I wish i had your features" Riri said with a smile, doing y/n's makeup for her.

"Why'd you say that? youre so pretty and strong Ri, and you stand up for your friends ." She smiled. wow shes so pretty, why does she play games with shuri.. id deffinently treat her right. Riri shook her head as she didnt know why she had these thoughts, she wasnt going to act on it either, shes not that kind of person. "thanks." she smiled

Y/n pov

She was so nice to me and i dont know why, Riri turned my face to the mirror, i smiled seeing my new makeup i hopped down giving her a kiss on her head hugging her . " thank you so much Ri!"

Erik, T'challa and Shuri came busting in and we both sighed turning to them. "what the hell happened in here?" T'challa said , Shuri looked at you hoping you returned contact, still hurt by what you said you didnt look at her. your focus was on T'Challa, " nothing. it isnt important " you said turning back to them going back to talking yo Riri.

Erik came over putting his hand on your shoulder, thinking its shuri's you smack it off turning around " the fuck do you want?? didnt you already do en- you turned to eriks face staring you dead in the eyes. " Were serious y/n. what the fuck happened." He said trying to intimidate the answers out of you, well not trying you already are.

"If i said its nothing then its nothing micheal! im sure you know because the captain of hoes over there already ran her mouth. instead of fucking helping me from her sillicone dick crazed hoes." you screamed starting to go off because you were getting overstimulated. "i dont need a damn knight right now because i got fucked over five minutes ago just because one of Shuri's crazy ass fans" you pushed past them leaving , you decided to hide in the darker part of the schools library.

The lights were busted here, you curled up into a ball sighing, your eyes felt heavy, and behan to close, eventually closing for a good time.

you got woken up by someone moving your head to their lap, you open your eyes trying to see who it was shuri. you were too tired to argue so you just sat up sighing.

"what time is it," you asked her as she looked at you, she had a look you saw the look on her face that you never saw throughout the 13 years you knew her. "its 4th period, almost over but why the hell are you hiding here." said shuri looking at me with a cigarette in her mouth.

“Number one.” you said as you took the cigarette from her mouth. Stomping on it, "two if you wanna talk to me do it respectfully" you straddled her lap looking her in the eyes you got close to her almost close enough to kiss her " you can speak now, and dont use nicknames" you said crossing your arms.

Shuri Pov

Shuri blew the smoke away from your face fanning it before diverting her attention back to you " why are you jealous if we arent dating" i said rasing a brow trying to get the answers out of her

Y/n hesitated before huffing, her cold breath blowing on my face. " Because you make my heart race, you give me butterflies and just make me wanna do things to you.. " she got close to my lips and my heart began to race, but she pulled away, her eyes looking at me full of lust and anger. " then why dont you act on them ma." i said smirking knowing that'd set her her off.

"I said no names," Y/n said yanking my hair back and causing me to look up. "you already pissed me off acting like a player, I know damn well you arent one" she’d positioned herself to be looking down at me. “ i want you to myself shuri, im not sharing you, i want you to give in “ she said, her lips kissing mine.

her lips went to attack my neck leaving love bites, and bite marks. The arousal this woman is causing me will be the death of me, part of me wants to make her work, and another just wants her so bad, but i deffinently cant do this relationshp shit, its scary.

“How about you work for it? Yeah?” i said mocking her but Y/N absolutely didnt like that,she yanked my hair causing me to moan. “Okay okay, fuckbuddies yeah? How about tha -

“stop fucking talking.” she took my shirt off of me. She sucked and kissed my collar bone causing tiny moans to escape my mouth, her tongue swirled and flicked on my nipples, and I heard the librarian nearby. Oh fuck. Please baby don't do this right now. “Shut the fuck up then” Y/n whispered before going back to attacking my breasts, her fingers sliding to my pussy, her digits Massaging my clit in a circular motion.

god damn she was so sexy like this. I moaned in her ear causing her to bite my nipple, the pain causing my pussy to get wetter, her fingers entered my pussy fingering me nice and slow, the squelching being able to be heard.

Shuri tried to speak but got interrupted by Y/n’s thumb rubbing her clit in circular motions, She felt so good right now, Finally, y/n would let go of Shuri's hair .

Peter and neds voice was heard and that made y/n smile, “ma, no. We can continue late-” she whispered to the angered y/n pulling her pants down. She yoinked her panties down not even giving shuri a second to speak, immediately eating her pussy out. She blew cold air against Shuri's’s pretty soaked cunt, she used her tongue to explore her pretty cunny(cunt,pussy). Shuri gasped for air her hips rocking against her face riding her high.

Peter and Ned slowly got closer and closer. “Baby I'm gonna cum fuck, please me just like that I'm so proud of you” Shuri would say keeping their eye contact with y/n. “mmh cum in my mouth, please i wanna taste you “ said Y/n.

Shuri bit her lips as she squirted in Y/ns mouth,Shuri panted then moaned louder when y/n was licking her clean.

Y/n licked my thighs clean before fixing my pants and underwear, i stood up fixing it myself.

“do you forgive me?” Y/n Nodded turning to shuri “cmon were gonna be late” i said going down the stairs holding her hand.

Y/n pov

I smiled to myself, that didnt settle the jealously but i knew I did what those hoes couldn't. Pride filled my stomach as we went down the stairs facing Ned and Peter who had shocked faces on.

“well.. We were sent to look for you” said ned beginning to turn around to the entrance of the library, walking away.

Peter sighed rubbing his temples. “in a school...” he said with disappointment in his voice Shaking his head “could you two like?? Not wait to fuck at home?” he said stating the fact that we have a problem.

"you mad i got to her first peter?" said Shuri getting in his face. "see thats your problem. you assume i want her because i was staring, i was only doing so because shes pretty and i was curious" said peter looking down at shuri.

"So you hit him for no reason Shuri?" I said turning to her with an eyebrow raised. "well he made my friend uncomfy, so i fixed it Udaku style fym?" she said acting as if she didnt assault a man because he made me uncomfy. i shook my head .

"well we gotta go peter last period of the day." i said skipping on to the next class.

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CLASS STARTS

I wrote notes down in my notebook for history, since its black history month today they were studying Marsha p. Johnson, i paid close attention the whole class.

i had sat next to erik,shuri and riri. T'challa didnt have this class anymore since he passed the test with full credit.

Erik had his glasses on since we sat far and he needed to see desperately, sometimes I’d et him copy my notes as long as he changed it up, Mariana and Kiana came in with busted noses and black eyes.

my phone dinged and in sync we all checked the gc.

i looked at riri and she whistled looking at the sky, we all laughed as the bell rang, all of us going outside to the car.

Eventually we made it home in time for my rest,i went on the steps and felt shuri turn me around giving me a deep and long kiss. evemtually i pulled away before it lead to anything else due to me being tired. "thanks ma, for coming back" she smiled smacking my ass before she left.

i smiled at her watching her till she went inside, going inside myself getting ready to sleep

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A/N: this took long as hell to write my fingers hurt 😒. LEAVE A LIKE BELOW IF YOUD WAANT MORE

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sull3en9irl · 27 days

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Heyyyy

HUGE 3D tw!!

Will be posting:

Th1n$p0, creative writing related to 4n4, art related to 4n4, b0dy ch3x(this 1’s a maybe lol), more 4n4 related content

might ask u to be my “buddy”, not because I actively encourage this behavior, but because it helps to form a closer connection with someone who is suffering in similar ways as I am. Also it helps to know that I’m not alone.

I may post n$fw on occasion but it is unlikely

Any1 who asks to be my “coach” will be blocked. Fuck offff!!!

Will not post: m3an$p0 without a tw(that sh!ts corny asf), do not tolerate targeted fatphobia or bullying of any kind! May rb comparison sh!t if it’s inspiring enough.. Ik it’s sh1tty but it’s my blog so f.o!!!!

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If I post anything that’s unrelated to 4n4 it’ll probably b abt music, movies, photography, or books

This blog is where I post all the mental crap that I can’t post on my main so… tw😍😘

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tscritical · 1 year

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It took me a while to get out of my parasocial relationship with Thomas and separate our introject of him from who he actually is. And now that that is over, I AM SO ANNOYED WITH HOW HE HANDLES EVERYTHING. How he tends to avoid so much. How his fans fully attack people who are even slightly critical towards him. Also idk if it's changed, but the fatphobia of the company he used to make his merch a year ago annoyed me. The little bit of money I had waisted on a shirt that was my size but fit 2 sizes too small. And don't get me started on his Patreon bs

im also a system. and. the amount of ts related introjects here. hoooo boy lol

let’s just say there’s a lot of mixed feelings in the headhouse

and yeah thomas doesn’t handle shit well at all it’s kinda embarrassing

now. when you say fatphobia from the merch company. is it just the size thing? or is there something else im missing? i mean either way that’s bullshit and i hate when things turn up that way, i just wanna make sure im getting all the context

actually i once ordered a roman shirt and i swear i picked either XL or XXL and received a size small. it fit but not,,, comfortably. and when i emailed them about it they were like “oh don’t worry we’ll send you a new shirt” and got another fucking small. SOOOOO idk somethings up with thomas’s merch cos that’s not even the only thing that was wrong with my order

anyway. in summary. yeah, uh shits fucked akjdkd how do i conclude this response

#asks #ts critical #ts criticism

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taylorswiftstylequestions · 1 year

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Hi Sarah :) I know you said you were working on AH scale asks, but just wanted to add my two cents! As an actual fat fan who previously had a longterm eating disorder... it's a highly relatable moment and not offensive at all! She's not saying she is actually fat. She's clearly saying she had a problem, it was painful and not healthy. Just like all the other problems in the song/video.

The entire premise is that Problem Taylor is the devil on her shoulder encouraging bad decisions and hurting her. Does anybody think Taylor is encouraging people to think everyone will betray them? Does anyone want her not to express that Problem Taylor experience? No.

Also, at the end of that scene, when she looks in the mirror and Problem Taylor appears? I fully thought we were getting a graphic bulimia reference. So it could have been something to actually complain about!

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Initial Reactions

I’m so conflicted about the anti-hero music video :( The scene where she gets on the scale and it says - “fat” like being fat is her worst nightmare, it really hurt my plus-sized friends. As a whole, I absolutely love the video, but it could have been a really easy change to just not show what the scale said, or have a sad emoji. Or have a different scene which shows a conflicted relationship with food instead. I understand you can’t please everyone, but this effects so many people and would have been a simple fix. I’m not mad, just really sad.

hey sarah! wondering how you feel about the fatphobia discourse re: anti hero mv - basically for anyone who hasn’t seen it there are people who don’t like that the scale scene shows her “fear of fatness” and how that is inherently fatphobic and the people going against them are saying that what she did with the scale is representative of fat being a “state of mind” and something that many people with EDs go through. personally i agree with the second opinion and i don’t think that it is correct for random people to be “calling” fatphobia on a recovering anorexic because the very nature of the illness is the fear of gaining weight so she is accurately representing her lived experience.

Maybe it’s too early to discuss this but I’m curious your thoughts on the fatphobia discussion around the music video. My friend (who is fat) and I were talking about it. Obviously she should be able to discuss her ED freely and it is a serious illness and a very personal thing. But I do think it was mishandled here, and that’s speaking as someone who has always loved TS. We are in a changing world and shifting culture. People need to recognize that lots of actually, undeniably fat people suffer from eating disorders. Just because they are actually fat doesn’t make the eating disorder ok or good. Being fat is not bad, it’s not good, it just is, and the video portrays it as bad (because obviously that is the messaging she has received in her life). I’m split bc she is just being honest about her experience, but I wonder if it is something we need to see from her in the medium of a music video where she can’t explain the nuances, and can only say that she doesn’t want to be fat/thinks she’s fat and hates it. Idk. Maybe I just need an outlet. I just think a lot of swifties are unwilling to see the different sides of this. It’s no hate to Taylor. It’s part of our changing social climate. Hopefully we can change this kind of messaging.

Response to Responses

I’m feeling super down by the way people are speaking about the fat scale on Reddit. My friend reached out to me to talk about how it felt hurtful to her as a fat person, and I was trying to explain what we had talked about there in a completely rational way (yes it’s a good scene for people who have struggled w eating disorders, no it doesn’t make actually fat people feel great to see), and I’m getting downvoted and bullied. I’ve been a swiftie since I was 12 (now 26). I’m not trying to attack Taylor or anyone, why can’t people try to open their eyes for 2 seconds and understand that the scene could have hurt people and those people are allowed to feel hurt?? It puts a bitter taste in my mouth over the whole weekend :/

Hi Sarah. No worries if you don’t publish this I just needed to vent and I feel heard even if you’d rather not host this discussion publicly! I just read an article critical of the “fat” on the scale in the music video saying it’s damaging and fatphobic and I’m so annoyed that people will literally bitch about anything. Maybe that’s how they make $$? I need to just ignore them I know. The whole point of that scene is she feels unworthy no matter what that scale says. People can relate to it.

Response To Video Being Edited

Trigger Warning for Weight/ED Recovery. Hi Sarah. News of updated Anti-Hero video edit just hit! I am so happy and proud to be a lifelong Swiftie right now. These moments are amazing to witness. Taylor and her team taking feedback and being sensitive to others' recovery. Not making it a big deal. Ugh. I just love that she did this. Super awesome of her and IMO shows her heart is truly in the right place (which we have always known).

Theyve edited the antihero video to remove the scale scene. I dont vibe w the pacing of the new one. I wish she had left it or just edited the word fat off the scale if she had to, it wouldve accomplished the same thing

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As you can tell, you guys had a lot to say about the scale scene in the "Anti-Hero" music video. I thought it best to group them by 'topic' in a sense to illustrate the range of responses to the exact same thing.

Not only to indicate differences in opinion (the beauty of life and TSS - I'd like to think!) but how oftentimes there is no 'winning' in a situation.

For me, I think there's many conflicting truths that occur here simultaneously.

The video documents the worst and unfounded fears and vulnerabilities Taylor has about herself and her life. They are the most bitter, sad, and dark pieces about herself that she knows are wrong and is spending her life trying to unlearn and rectify.

People who have been through, survived, and will likely always experience the lingering vestiges of an eating disorder should be able to talk about their experience - even when that experience is uncomfortable. Because diseases often are.

Fat people deserve respect. If the depiction of the scale using that word made them feel sad or hurt or less-than or any myriad of things - that is valid for them to feel.

The most uncomfortable part of this - and I think what is difficult for a lot of people to reconcile with - is that none of these things is more important than the other. They're all the truth and they're all real.

I think it's important to understand why that word and that scene was created (to painfully depict the shittiest things someone going through an eating disorder and body dysmorphia thinks and fears, and even in sickness knowing ultimately how wrong that is). Just as it is to leave space for people to have knee-jerk and emotional responses to it (why is my lived everyday reality being portrayed as this awful and doomed scenario? why is my mere existence seen as something so terrible?).

#opinion #tw eating disorder #tw ed #tw body dysmorphia

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void-botanist · 1 year

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About me

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It's about time for a new writeblr intro to go with my new WIP intro!

name // NavarenWizard (you can call me NW)

pronouns // he/they

age // mid 20s

occupation // grad student, gay husband

background // neurodivergent american genderqueer trans guy

interests // writing, drawing (traditional and digital), anime, webcomics, video games, web design

main blog // @an-elegant-void -- I follow from this blog!

writeblr // @navarenwizard

format of my intro // shamelessly borrowed from @pens-swords-stuff (whose writeblr you should also go check out)

About my writeblr

name // NavarenWizard (@navarenwizard)

age // ~1 year

focus // diversity and worldbuilding -- I reblog from various blogs that discuss representation in media and how writers/artists can do better. You'll also find some writing memes and art/art tutorials here too.

audience // this blog is open to anyone, but be aware that some of what I reblog is going to be about queerphobia, racism, ableism, fatphobia, etc., with the goal of helping myself and other creators do better.

asks // I can personally talk about:

NaNoWriMo events

WikiWriMo

Scrivener

queer representation (although of course I can't speak for every queer person)

design of writeblrs/writers' websites

Please also reach out to me if you have any accessibility issues with my blog!

About my writing

genres // queer, fantasy, sci-fi, slice-of-life, romance, erotic romance (my writing is generally solarpunk-adjacent)

themes // sustainable living, recovering from emotional trauma, happy queer lives and families, healthy relationships and communication

formats // original novels, occasionally poetry or short stories

experience // seventeenish years of writing, a couple years of being serious about writing well (i.e. with structure, planning, representation, and awareness of harmful tropes)

goals // self publishing my novels eventually, when they're complete and edited

Active WIPs

The Fourth Android

genre // queer, fantasy, sci-fi, slice-of-life

tag // #tfa

super quick synopsis // A human-built android integrates into an island community to gain his citizenship and visit the world's other three androids, unexpectedly becoming an astronaut along the way.

status // about to write a third (and greatly improved) version for NaNoWriMo 2022

Inactive/Simmering WIPs

Tales of Tobar Si

genre // queer, fantasy, romance

tag // #ts (there's nothing there though; apparently I never posted an intro)

super quick synopsis // An aos si man escapes from his abusive family on Earth and returns to his Faeryland home, where he begins to heal and tries to find a way to confess his love to his best friend.

status // partially drafted for NaNoWriMo 2020, simmering

Triad

genre // queer, fantasy, erotic romance

tag // #triad

super quick synopsis // An ex-princess and her husband accidentally fall in love with a trans guy farmer and have to figure out their own happily ever after.

status // partially drafted for Camp NaNo July 2021 and NaNoWriMo 2021, simmering

#writeblr introduction #writeblr intro #writeblr #writing #wip #wizardly things #had to edit again because actually sports and slice-of-life animes are also great

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oldcoyote · 20 days

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one thing about being fat for much of my adult life is that i've never felt like a real person

people like me didn't exist in most media for the longest time, and when they did, they were the joke. they were the thing you laughed at. they weren't whole, real, layered, complex people - they were just two dimensional caricatures created to laugh at

so for most of my life i've felt like this ghost of who i really am, like once the weight is finally off, i'll finally be real, and get to live, REALLY live, and be a whole actual person

i don't know how to deprogram that? i don't know how to change my wiring to believe that i am worth something right now, just as i am, because there are still no examples of people who look like me in the world that aren't a source of ridicule

i wish i knew how, because consciously i know better than my programming, but it's so hard to change a belief system when it's so deeply ingrained

#internalized fatphobia #weight loss for ts

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colorisbyshe · 2 years

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What's the Taylor Swift drama? What did she say?

In her latest video, she has a scene where she steps on a scale and it just says FAT and she's upset about it. It's meant to represent her struggles with disordered eating and dysmorphia, which I am absolutely sympathetic towards, but it really, really highlights how in trying to show her struggles... she's just... feeding into other people's suffering. Like... she is just saying "FAT BAD, FAT NOT ME" and "isn't it ridiculous someone as skinny as ME feels fat" which harms other people.

I actually do commend the fact that she did change the video fairly... swiftly (badum ts) to just show her looking at the scale and being upset. Which represents the insecurity much better. Still not ideal but I also understand that with just a visual medium demonstrating this problem, it works much more effectively without punching down quite so hard.

This is the one place where I will be more lenient towards Taylor, like... it is a mine field.

But it is something she and other people need to be more considerate of in the future.

Helping people with disordered eating/dysmorphia is not in competition with or mutually exclusive towards fighting fatphobia. They stem from the same societal failures (AND there are many, MANY fat people WITH disordered eating, so these aren't two separate groups) and so we all need to keep these things in mind while offering help and insight.

#ed cw #eating disorder cw #disordered eating cw #fatphobia cw

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variousqueerthings · 1 year

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so much of this documentary series is just a searing indictment against the british health system’s (and by extension britain’s) ways of approaching trans people -- the transphobia before her surgery of course, but also the bigotry against sex work (one of the biggest strikes against Julia Grant was that she had been a sex worker), the fatphobia over and over, the classism, and the violence after surgery when she was completely abandoned by the healthcare system and learned 14 years later that they had given her incorrect information about hormones that was affecting her bones and her weight

and then versus that the mainly glanced at mutual aid -- the conversation she has with a ftm transsexual in which they share ideas about what they want, and her comment that she’s talked with other trans women before, the description of her life after surgery in the queer scene, and the sex shop that catered to tvs and ts’ in terms of everything from clothes to trying to find alternate ways of assisting trans people to access care, although that care can only be expensive (just like today), and the conversations she has with trans people there -- and then more in the final episode where the bar she opens is queer

the lines drawn from 1979 to 1999 to 2022 in everything from cost to paternalistic pathologisation when trans people are yelling for informed consent to the overlapping violence against fat trans people, working class trans people, and generally trans people who aren’t considered “attractive” enough (which the documentary doesn’t go deeply into, but which we know also includes disabled trans people and trans people of colour)

and even before that, watching the interview from 1973 and seeing that there’s barely a difference from then to now either and the small changes that have been “allowed” aren’t just insufficient, but actively cover up all the ways its in some ways worse (gender affirming care partially falling under the NHS, but still being through the GICs and their ideas of how to “prove” someone is trans enough, the GRC which was barely sufficient when it was first created in 2004 and is all but useless now, more people being technically allowed to transition, but the system drowning in queues and it’s even more expensive now than it was then....)

and knowing that there’s all these fantastic activists and thinkers and doers who have built these wonderful ways of being and living since forever, and yet we’re still bound by this post-war medicalised model (full of cis people who don’t even know what a GIC is, never mind the history of them, and certainly wouldn’t deign to read a text by trans people)

#im watching documentary #documentary #trans stuff #trans documentary #im watching a change of sex #julia grant #long post #transphobia #open door: transex liberation group #GIC #politics #trans politics #trans healthcare

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cunninghamchrissie · 2 years

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rly disheartening to see the convos abt fatphobia re: the whale and the scale in the new ts video

ppl will do anything except listen to fat ppl abt our own experiences :(

#text

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bazpitch · 2 years

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i have thoughts on the ts music video and fatphobia and eds but some fans are so crazy and i genuinely think someone might go on anon and harass me if i say anything

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