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defyances · 3 years

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𝐀𝐍 𝐀𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐘𝐒𝐈𝐒 𝐎𝐍 𝐋𝐎𝐑 𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐀

( where yugen is so incredibly obsessed with this woman that she decides to rant about her )

on: her followers

to start us off, we’ll discuss the main event of irelia’s performance: her relationship with blossoming blade. they are very close with each other, and it can be interpreted as platonic or romantic. i only say this because they establish their relationship as teacher/student, a platonic/familial bond that can be as powerful as a romantic one. but i also digress, given the affectionate remarks they give each other such as:

irelia: i wish i could give you silks, but i must give you steel. blossoming blade: stay by my side. i cannot ask for more.

irelia: ionians into formation! blossoming blade: i’d follow you to the black heart of noxus itself.

&& there is so much more. blossoming blade is not confident in her ability to fight, much like irelia && her lack of confidence in her ability to lead, which might explain why irelia has some sort of connection to her. she sees her as a mirror of herself, and much like she needed at one point, blossoming blade needs someone to support her. so, she will give that plus much more. lastly, irelia’s reaction upon blossoming blade’s death; it is simply undeniable that they love each other.

i am a bit bothered by the lack of interactions between irelia && zinneia since it is implied that zinneia is her former mentor:

irelia: zinneia, you are a master at your craft. zinneia: and fate has sent you to give my craft purpose.

irelia: as a child, i watched you dance at the placidium every spring. zinneia: it was your bravery that brought me to the fight.

i was hoping to have more information on their relationship && the sort of impact zinneia had on irelia, but at the same time, it gives me the opportunity to fill in the gaps! given zinneia’s interactions with the rest of irelia’s followers, she is an elder ( we will not talk about how that isn’t reflected in her card art ) who leads the dance program at the placidium. while irelia’s o’ma taught her how to dance, zinneia perfected it with her lessons, and she became the mother/grandmother figure in her life once all her family members passed away. it assures me that irelia did have a support system ( even if a part of her might disagree. ) i will do a more thorough ( * headcanon based ) look at their relationship in another post.

when irelia said she is a warm && caring person, she really meant it. she cares a great deal for her followers as shown:

coastal defender: generations tended this land. i cannot leave. irelia: we must retreat for now, but i promise we’ll return.

ribbon dancer: stand behind me! they won’t hurt you. irelia: if they hurt you, i’d never forgive myself.

fighting for your freedom is important, yes but not so recklessly. if a battle isn’t turning out in their favor, irelia would rather retreat and keep her followers safe rather than dying in vain. her tone is mother-like, always worrying for them even though they are confident and determined to protect their home, and at their deaths, she is torn apart. she is both grateful ( ‘ your sacrifice mattered ’ ) && heartbroken ( ‘ so young . . . ’ ), which is why i emphasize her hesitance to believe in herself as a leader. she is responsible for their lives and for each that falls, she fails. she cannot fail them ( something she says herself upon the death of her card ); her people deserve to live to see the day of bittersweet victory.

on: noxus

as expected, irelia harbors a lot of hate towards them, and rightfully so. however, what i want to talk about is riot confirming my assumption on how deep this hate runs.

imperial demolitionist: for the empire. irelia: so young, already so wicked.

imperial demolitionist: remember the objectives. irelia: ‘murder the innocent’ and ‘destroy their homes’?

for those who don’t know, imperial demolitionist is a child. irelia is speaking to a child and not in a tone you would expect an adult would talk to a child ( especially one who was brainwashed to commit awful atrocities. ) this confirmed my headcanon of irelia’s white && black mentality: no matter who you are or how you came to be, if you are noxian, she will kill you. she will refuse to see you as anything but a tyrant, and she will continue to allow this hate to fester and dehumanize noxus as a whole. she won’t even refer to them by name! she has her reasons, given how much they have taken away from her, but it doesn’t make it right. as we all know, noxus has slaves, ranging from adult to children, and will send them to war whether they volunteered or not. they have to act in order to survive, but irelia can’t see that they’re trying to live; she sees them trying to kill her home, so in turn, she’ll kill them. && that is a flaw i will cover more on in another post.

even though the faith in herself wavers, the passion to protect ionia doesn’t with how confident she talks back to the noxians. she threatens them, promises to kill them, even when faced with their technology and their machinery. she has that much faith in her people and the land, and it’s admirable. no wonder why people follow her.

on: shurima

i never expected interactions between irelia and the shurimans ( especially with azir and nasus ), but it was a pleasant surprise nonetheless! azir && irelia are two fierce leaders, fighting tooth and nail to secure the safety of their homes; however, the difference between their idea of leading is evident within their interactions.

azir: a leader must see victory beyond each loss. irelia: my heart weeps for every fallen ally.

azir: war is an instrument that can make or destroy its leaders. irelia: instruments create beauty; war ends it.

from my perspective, azir isn’t so affected by the loss of lives in the war like irelia is ( it could be because he’s become desensitized after leading for so long or he truly doesn’t care ), and i could be wrong as i am not so familiar with azir. but with irelia, it is obvious that she is very sensitive towards the death of her people. whether they were close to her or not, as far as she knows, they were innocent souls, and they were dragged into this war unprepared. so many lives lost, so many deaths unjustified — it is simply unfair to her people, who have done nothing wrong. && no matter how many times she’s seen a body belonging to the first lands, it never hurts any less. she’s been able to mask that pain over the years she’s grown, but she still grieves, and it can be seen/heard whenever someone very close to her dies.

another difference i like to point out between the two leaders is their viewpoints on war: azir sees war almost like survival of the fittest. in the second quote, war is a way to create leaders, the best of the best while irelia sees it as destroying the beauty of life. war is a massacre, no matter which side wins, && even though she also strives for victory, she will only remember it as the day that peace died.

nasus: sorrow weighs upon you, but death could bring you peace. irelia: not yet, curator. i am far from done.

this made me snort because it’s basically nasus telling irelia, “k’ing yourself would make you feel better,” but i’m sure it isn’t meant to sound that way. rather, he understands her grief && how badly it is affecting her, so he is “testing” her will to see how strong it really is. if she had the opportunity, would she die && end her suffering there, or would she continue to preserve despite the agony she holds in her heart? irelia answers almost incredulously; if she dies now, ends her suffering now, who will lead her people to victory? certainly not anyone she knows/trusts. so, she cannot die. she will not die, not until she knows that her home is safe. ( this plays a bit into my headcanon that irelia doesn’t really fear death since she anticipates the day of reuniting with her family && ending her torment. )

there isn’t much to say about her interactions with the soothsayer && the voice of the risen other than she’s grateful for their aid in these trying times.

on: miscellaneous champs

lastly, i’ll be touching upon her interactions with in-game characters — which, suffice to say, isn’t a whole lot. it’s a bit disappointing. i expected more interactions with shen, karma, riven, and zed; i expected interactions with yasuo, yone, and lulu ( who is apparently in ionia?? ) but unfortunately, we weren’t given that. but i won’t say i’m heavily disappointed either because we did get some interactions with ionian && noxian champs plus extra.

shen: the balance requires a watchful eye. irelia: ionia needs brave hearts and able hands, too.

much like akali, irelia does not believe in waiting around && letting the land fight on its own. she even questions shen’s philosophy because of the slaughter that happened, which makes me theorize her faith in the spirit; clearly, she still believes in it but not so deeply like shen and the elders.

karma: ionia speaks through me. irelia: then tell me when this bloody fight will end?

she even questions the spirit of ionia itself, in a tone that is tired and desperate to end this terror. she is a lot nicer to karma in lor than lol, which confirms my suspicion that while irelia was initially frustrated with karma’s ( lack of ) action, she has come to understand her reasoning through the years that they’ve worked together.

zed: pledge yourself to the shadows. irelia: noxian tyranny has already forged our bond.

riven: [ dies ] irelia: irredeemable.

isn’t it crazy how irelia would rather side with the “evil” shadow master rather than the former noxian? of course, zed isn’t all bad, and riven isn’t all good, but it just further proves how she doesn’t treat noxians as humans at all; however, i would also like to point out her interaction with riven is if she’s against her. irelia would perhaps give her a chance if her quote in-game with her proves anything: “you want redemption? join me, and kill your masters!”

&& i’m still flabbergasted by her interaction with zed. she might not entirely agree with him, but she’ll work with him without hesitance. after all, they do share the philosophy of killing all noxians.

irelia: join us, prince jarvan. dance by our side. jarvan: i’m afraid i was born with two left feet. it’s a lightshield thing…

jarvan: noxus will pay for what they did to your people. irelia: yes, demacian prince. we will see to that.

so not only does she have shurima’s support but also demacia’s! a bit shocking since demacia is antimage and irelia is technically a mage, but i am glad to see that she and jarvan are on good terms.

irelia: my family...h-have you seen them? kindred: drifting between innocence and consequence.

STOP!! astra and i literally discussed this: if irelia was given the chance to talk to kindred, she would most certainly ask for her family && question why she was spared. of course, kindred would answer ominously, which in this interaction, makes me curious. between innocence and consequence? what do they mean? is her family stuck in limbo? are they currently being judged based on irelia’s actions in life? or are they waiting for irelia to join them? perhaps we’ll never know.

#˗ˏˋ⠀ 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧. ›› the day you died，you did not tell your body.#/ wow this is the most i've written for a character ever #/ three hours n i was just rambling nonsense at the end sfjdhsb

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darrowsrising · 3 years

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P1: Thanks for answering! Agreed the situations b/w Eo/Darrow + Virginia/Cassius are different but I still see similarities. Virginia isn’t obligated to love Cassius but Eo isn't obligated to love Darrow either. Eo definitely isn’t obligated to love Darrow in a way Virginia deems correct. Does that make sense? I think relationships are messy/can’t be fully understood from the outside looking in. Would have thought Virginia understood that...

Hi! Thank you for the asks, I like answering them!🤗🐺

Firstly, you are saying that you understand that Eo/Darrow and Virginia/Cassius are not the same, yet you see similarities. What similarities exactly?

Eo and Darrow loved each other - an unbalanced love on each part, but still, they did marry out of love. Virginia only entered a relationship with Cassius for her family's sake, she admits it, plain and simple. Although Cassius' feelings were genuine, he still didn't know her beyond what she wanted him to know of her. Unless somehow Eo was only using Darrow's feelings for her, I don't actually see how there are similarities between the two pairs.

Also, Virginia did not enter a bad relationship, she went head first into a relationship that would prove useful to her family. And while she is mindful of what people tend to say about her, I don't think she loses sleep over the millions who call her child an abomination and her husband and she traitors of their 'respective species', so what people think of her romantic life? I doubt she cares about it. The only person she explained herself to about Cassius was Darrow, because she felt the need to tell him about it.

Secondly, I did say in my answer that Eo was not obligated to cater to Darrow's emotional needs and live a life that she would come to resent. And I also said that Darrow's love was selfish and unfair to Eo - as he himself admits to that in IG. Virginia is also not implying that Eo was obligated to love Darrow the same way he did her, she is simply saying that Darrow deserved to be loved the same way he did her. The reason why she even has an opinion is because of the unusual sort of love triangle between Darrow, Eo and she. Also, because Virginia is...a human being! And Eo had a personal, yet indirect impact on her, through Darrow.

I don't think people realize just how much it hurt Darrow that he was never enough for Eo. Or they simply forget about it. It hurts when you love a person so much more than they love you. But it does happen and that is the case with Darrow and Eo. This is what traumatized him more than anything, the fact that he was never good enough to protect her, to save her, to help her, to see things like she did so that things could have been different and they would be together and have a family.

Now, I am not turning this into a 'poor Darrow', because this is not the case at all. What I want to highlight is Darrow's perspective (that is somewhat selfish, yet very human) - Virginia doesn't see Eo as a god-like figure, her impact was too personal for her - she was Darrow's beloved wife. She sees Eo as a human being. One that fought against her father, no less. She knows she was bold, courageous, clever, inspirational...and tragic. Virginia also understands why she fought, she understands her dream.

But Virginia feels that Darrow deserved to have his love reciprocated. Why is that so wrong? She does know that relationships are messy, but try to put yourself in her shoes - she is human after all. She has her own insecurities about Eo, because he heard Darrow cry her name while asleep, because she makes a difference between how Darrow loves her and how he loved Eo - at least until a bit later, when she wanted to let Darrow know that his love and everything he gave her was enough (something he always beat himself over - not being enough). She wonders every now and then if she still has a hold on him (when she asks Darrow in IG if this - his insistance to go to war - was about Eo). So, as a human being with feelings and conplications and messes, she is allowed to have opinions about Eo.

Everyone is a bitch in Red Rising, that's my answer to every idiot that calls a female character that, just to sound clever. Or for whatever reason. I have to admit that Eo is very polarizing. Some love her, some dislike her and honestly, I get both sides (I don't get the haters, they should just shut up). Haters aside, people are allowed to like and dislike a character however they please, regardless of their...alignment, I guess. People liking Adrius or Nero doesn't mean condoning their actions - if anything these two are some of THEE biggest bitches in Red Rising. Of course, haters who wank villains like the aforementioned bitches, while hating on a girl who took on the worlds...ugh! I can't even, I just instantly block, warn everyone I care about to block them too and vent oht my frustrations in a rant. I'd like to pummel them, but...obviously no can do.

Thing is, it seems to me that you are angry at Eo haters, but vent on Virginia for saying that she loved Darrow less than he deserved, so you try to draw the same line from Virginia to Cassius, so that...you can put Eo and Virginia in the same pot or something. Well, that doesn't make it right.

If it makes you feel better, Virginia used someone who was at his lowest point and torn apart by his twin's death at the hands of the man he came to call brother, torn between duty to House Bellona and the feeling of betrayal. She most probably used their similarities to project herself as everything he needed (as she claims herself that she made herself be someone he couldn't live without or something along those lines) - they both lost a brother to literal murder, they both were pressured by their families, they are both Golds from important Gold Houses. And while she was regretful of all she did and felt terrible while doing it...she still did it.

Eo of Lykos was human, above everything else. What people in universe and even some fans project unto her is this Persephone image of hers. But Eo was selfish and rash and even manipulative, at times. But she did love Darrow. Her sacrifice had nothing to do with Darrow, she simply had other priorities. She did try to spare him some pain, out of love, not wanting him to feel guilty, but, more than everything, she wanted him to live on after she died.

Virginia's words, in my opinion, hold some truth in the sense that Darrow and Eo had an unbalanced love and they were both not good for each other, because of that.

The reason why I am saying that the situations are different is because there was love involved between Eo and Darrow, they loved each other, but Virginia never loved Cassius, she just used him. While Eo didn't love with the same single-minded intensity, Virginia used Cassius. It's not the same.

None of these girls are bitches for it, they are simply human beings. They are allowed to feel and do unreasonable things (like Eo trying to manipulate Darrow into starting a war/riot whatever she had in mind or like Virginia being jealous of her husband's dead ex-wife), like any other human being.

Hope I am making sense to you, do tell if I am rambling too much.

Lastly, I understand your need to defend Eo, but Virginia is not the enemy.

Howl on!🐺

#red rising trilogy #iron gold trilogy #virginia au augustus #mustang #eo of lykos #persephone

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the19thduckpotato · 4 years

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In the Shadow of a Smile (Pt 4)

Part 3

Toshi's thoughts rambled aimlessly again. Why did she have Izuku stay? Something to do with me? He grimaced. I really wish she wouldn't. I can take care of myself... Is that a fact, now? Listen.... Further thoughts were cut short as Izuku jogged up. Toshi's face split into a warm grin. "There you are!"

Izuku grinned back, falling into step beside Toshi (three short steps to each long one). "Hi!" He fumbled with the opening of the strawberry popcorn, munching on a few kernels. I wonder if he can have any... I know he can have sugar in small amounts, but... he does have his own kind of popcorn. Best not to offer n put him in the position of refusing, he'll sneak a few kernels of mine on his own if he wants some.

Toshi smiled down at his fan student son protege, amused by their comparative steps. He tried to shorten his own steps and looked about. "See any store you'd like to visit?" is it strange that I want to give him every good thing that he deserves? Am I allowed to do that? Well, i mean, I'm All Might, I can do whatever I like... not that I'd ever abuse that. He watched Izuku. It'd be blatant favoritism. But he deserves it. But that would paint an even bigger target than he already has on him. Which he definitely does not deserve. Toshi's steps slowed more as he let Izuku get ahead of him. I wish... And he squashed that thought immediately, startled that he even thought it.

Izuku looked around. "Aaahhh..." His eyes popped wide when he saw a certain storefront. "Ooh!! There!!" He bounced and pointed, though he quickly snatched his hand back as he remembered Pointing Was Rude.

Toshi's head snapped up and he squinted. What in the...?

Izuku turned and grinned up at Toshi excitedly. "Can we go there??"

The blond looked amused verging on jovial laughter. He almost teased Izuku about was there really a need for more plastic All Mights in the dorm? Just because you feel crummy is no reason to pick on the kid, even jokingly. He picked this store, now let's learn a little more about what makes Izuku happy. "Of course. I've been meaning to find myself a Chibi Aizawa eraser topper." He winked.

Izuku smothered a laugh. "He's underground, they don't make merch of him!" Wait what am I even gonna buy in here, they sell All Might merch, and I'm taking ALL MIGHT in here, that's so cheesy and weird! Can I just look at stuff? Will he think it's a waste of time if I do? Oh no, why did I pick this?? Because you were excited, that's why. Because he asked and you answered, now shut up and Deal With It. Hhhnnngg.... "Do... do you maybe wanna find somewhere else though, because I know it's probably weird and-- and maybe there's somewhere else you'd rather be and I'd 100% like to go with you n honestly I don't even know what I'd want to buy from here, I was just looking...." Izuku grinned and rambled sheepishly as they got closer to the store, both wanting to go in and very much not.

Toshi just casually steered his charge into the store without breaking his slowed stride. "Weird? I want to see what's selling. And who is." He wrinkled his nose. "I'm not overly fond of the whole marketing aspect of this job... but I get it." He picked up a plush grinning All Bean and half smiled. "Small mementos of the people you look up to. Reminders that mean different things to different people. If seeing my face plastered everywhere gave people hope, then so much the better." He didnt like the idea of some of his fans being denied that hope simply because they didnt have the money... but he also knew the heroing business was lucratively expensive. "--oop!" He pointed at a pile of gray scarves and grinned impishly. "Yessssssss."

Izuku gave a high-pitched laugh when he saw, then ducked and hoped no one heard him. He grinned back at Toshi and nodded. His gaze flitted around the store, landing on a Crimson Riot hoodie in a rack of clothes. "Oh! Kirishima would love that!" He pointed again.

Toshi picked up one of the scarves--it was much shorter than the real deal--and tossed it about his shoulders. He affected a regal pose. "What do you think?" he said, trying a droning Aizawa impression.

Izuku squeaked and hid his grin in his hands, shoulders shaking with silent laughter. He lifted his head, composure regained with a straight face.

"Blah blah, stop showing off, blah, I never get any sleep, blah, I have 20 cats and they're all named Mittens--"

Izuku's mouth twitched. He repeated the process. Shaking his head, he mumbled shyly, "Noooooo... we can't make fun of him...."

"I'm sorry," Toshi snorted, trying to look apologetic. "That was disrespectful." Jerk. Toshi's ears tinged red as he set the scarf back. "You know what I'm looking forward to?"

Izuku looked up curiously, surprised at how quickly Toshi put the scarf back and how sad he sounded at the end. "--Oh?"

"When shops like these are filled to the brim with green. Then I can be the big collector." If you even make it that-- "I'll be able to cite facts about my favorite hero, snatch up first editions, maybe get an autograph if I'm lucky." He smiled hopefully at his kid.

Izuku squeeeeaked, hiding his face in his hands one more time. He quickly flew to Toshi, hugging his arm tightly. Of course you can you can have so much more than that you can have me, right there, oh please let me still be there--

"Heck, I know just the people to talk to about--i mean, if that's the way you'd like to go. Merchandizing and all." Toshi shrugged shyly. "You're already making an impact now, just wait till you're well known. People will be demanding Deku merch, heh." He looked about the store, all the current heroes familiar and easy to spot. He blinked and saw different heroes now, the kids from UA. Not just Izuku, not just Class 1A, but all the students. He blinked again, eyes stinging. I want to see that.

"Whuh-wuh... uuuhhh... I mean." Izuku lifted his head from where it was hidden against Toshi's arm and blinked. "Yeah, I'd rather talk to your people than try to do it on my own, but..." You mean you want HIM to talk to them and you not say anything, like a shy little puppy.... ...Look, that's a long way off though.... He didn't contradict himself. "I mean, maybe let's cross that bridge when we come to it. I don't know if that's even legal yet, I don't even have my full license...." Can unlicensed heroes even have merch deals? I mean I'm not unlicensed but it's only provisional....

Toshi grinned knowingly. "I already know you're going to need merch. No rush, of course... but if you keep going at the rate you already are, well."

Izuku muffled a long wobbly squeak against Toshi’s side.

"And to think that lil old me got to be fortunate enough to be the Great Deku's first fan. Man," Toshi whistled. "Am I ever lucky!" And for what it was worth, he meant every word.

Izuku could tell, and the fact made his heart feel all weird and tied up all the sheepish brushing-off he wanted to do in long confusing ribbons mixed with thanks. "...But-- you made Deku, though... I'd be nothing without you." Well, not nothing... I'd still be a person. But I wouldn't be a pro without you. I'm still not there, yet, but I hope... one day....

Toshi gazed at him fondly. "Do you really still believe that? That passing you--" He paused, mindful they were in public, and gestured you know. "--the, ah, heroic torch would have been the same no matter who it was passed to?" "A Quirkless middle schooler? What are you thinking?! Such a boy could never serve as the Symbol of Peace!!" Toshi had coughed thickly but still proudly responded with, "He really has this burning desire to help people." And yet, Mirai had refused to listen, hanging up on his former partner. "...I picked you on purpose. And each passing week only reinforces my decision. Please do not doubt that. Deku exists because you exist, firstly. I just gave you a helping hand, that's all." He grinned and brushed one bang away.

Izuku smiled softly-- mostly with his eyes. He rested his forehead against Toshi's arm, trying to think of words that would both satisfy Toshi and yet still be true. "Not... exactly the same, no. But I think... the other children out there... have just as much... potential. As I do."

"They do." Toshi tousled Izuku's hair. "And would that I could help all of them the same way. But..." he held up one finger. "Power is a tricky thing. It has an effect on people and not always good. The most well intentioned person can still do terrible things. "So it isn't just a matter of being suitable. You earned my trust by not blabbing my secret. You inspired me to action when I believed I could do no more. You...well. You made me want to live again. Something that not even All Might could do. So who's the strong one now, eh? "Frankly, kid, I'll be honest--i don't think there's a whole lot of people like you out there. Don't sell yourself short."

Izuku gazed up at Toshi in wonder. He tried to think of something to say... his mouth twitched into a smile. "But I am short!"

Toshi just stared for a moment. S t a r e d.

Izuku slowly unsmiled himself. Not sad, but confused... "...Not funny?"

Then burst into a roar of laughter, helplessly trying to gasp, "well of course--heehee--next to me--"

The smile came back full force. Izuku burst into laughter too-- "Well YEAH, you're a GIANT!!" He looked up at Toshi with the brightest grin.

Toshi tried to regain his composure, looked at Izuku, used his hand to compare their heights, wheezed more laughter. "I'm onlyheeheehee seven fooahahaha oh no help--"

The laughter was incredibly contagious, Izuku hiccuping out noises that were a cross between a donkey and a chihuahua.

Toshi made a desperate noise at Izuku's noises, his laughter getting more out of control. Tears squirted out and he weakly grasped at his kid's shoulder. He was dimly aware others would be staring but the floodgates had opened and he could only ride the wave at this point. This marvelous wonderful wave.

Izuku's face was starting to hurt, but he was happy, SO happy. He tried his best to support Toshi but he, too, was a floppy noodle of hilarity.

Toshi fought to get himself back under control, his laughter finally tapering off into snickers, then slowing down to an occasional giggle. He took a deep breath and checked on his kid.

One last snort.

Toshi's eyes widened. Ohno. He clapped one hand over his mouth but his eyes still twinkled.

A tired giggle. Izuku enjoyed the feeling of being in the moment, still leaned against Toshi in a half-hug. He didn't dare look up, though, or he knew he'd start laughing again.

Toshi cleared his throat and casually thumbed the edges of his mouth. "Well now we have to get something," he grinned. "What's your pick?"

"Oh!" Izuku's gaze snuck toward the rack of jackets. "...Hmmm...."

Toshi's head followed his gaze. "Oh look, a denim jacket! Best Jeanist, you cad."

Izuku giggled, though he didn't quite get the joke. He stepped over to the rack, peeking through them and looking for-- well, maybe I can wear it... but what if Kacchan sees me? But... well, I can wear it in my room n stuff, at least. Or in places like this. As long as I hide it before I get back.... His fingers brushed over sleeves to check the texture and pushed gaps between the jackets to see if any were All Might-themed.

Toshi blinked and smiled, hands in his pockets. He waved at the few people who recognized him then returned to watching Izuku dig through jackets.

Most of the All Might merch seemed to have been snapped up already, but Izuku's face lit up when he saw-- "Ooh!"

"Hmm??" Toshi tilted his head and arched his neck. "What did you find?"

Izuku pulled a thick Silver Age-print hoodie off the rack, running his hand over the inside lined with a soft fluffy material. "This is great! Lookit!" He held it up and grinned, bouncing on his toes excitedly.

Toshi looked pleasantly surprised. "Well whaddya know!" He held out his arm for Izuku to drape it over.

Izuku placed it over his arm, still bouncing. "Can I try it on??"

"Heheheheh, sure, go on." He quietly made a mental note to get Izuku's size and dig into his limited edition wear later.

Izuku picked up the jacket again, taking it off the hanger (making sure to put the hanger back on the rack for now) and unzipping jacket, holding the ends of his sleeves and wiggling his arms in. It was a little big, but he could grow into it.

Toshi was definitely feeling the dad feels right about this time. His kid proudly showing off his jacket. The breath hitched in his throat for a moment. "Looks great on you," he managed with a delighted smile.

Izuku looked up, smiling brightly. He clapped his hands together in happiness, looking down at them with much interest when he felt how the parts of the sleeves covering his hands muffled the impact. After inspecting this sensation for a few seconds, he looked back up, asking with a shy grin, "So uh... can I, uh..." he ducked his head then brought it up again, "...can I have it?"

Toshi's eyes shone with joy. I finally get to spoil my kid! "I don't see why not! Anything else you might like?"

"--Oh!" Izuku's eyes and mouth went round. Surely that's too much!! I couldn't even think of anyth-- wait, yes I could! "Well-- actually... I was wondering if we could pick out some stuff for the others?" He thought of the Crimson Riot jacket, knowing Kirishima would love it, and wondered if he could find something of Kamui Woods' or even Snipe's for Shouji. "Not, like-- all twenty or anything... but maybe..." he bit his lip and stared into space, a plan formulating. "Maybe we could hunt for stuff, like, over a while... and save it until we have one for everybody? Would you like that?"

Toshi's entire face lit up at this suggestion. "That's a fantastic idea! And anything we can't find on our own, I'm sure I could dig up somewhere else." He shook his head in admiration. "You're one in a million, kid, you know that?"

Izuku tilted his head and gave a scrunchy, lopsided smile. "What, really?" For coming up with a gift idea? Everyone will be doing it come Christmas. A thought occurred. "Well, technically, I'm one in 7 billion...."

"Even better. And to think, you're my kid now." oh no wait, what did I just say oh no OH NO He stammered out a quick apology. "I-I mean...ah...err... what I mean to say, y-young Midoriya--" He could feel his ears burning.

Izuku went limp in shock, and his eyes grew wide as saucers, practically sparkling. His mouth started to wobble.

"Hey wait, nonono, what did we say about the waterworks?!" He frantically gestured at the boy, acutely aware of being watched now. "UH--"

Izuku shot forward, wrapping his arms around Toshi and squeezing tight.

Toshi stiffened in shock then relaxed his muscles, ruffling Izuku's hair. "Hey now..." I care about you I care about you a LOT and I know I'm terrible at speaking my true heart. I never told Master and lost my chance. I never told Mirai and lost my chance. I don’t want to lose my chance with you, I couldn’t bear it. "Kid..."

((Part 5))

#mha #bnha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #in the shadow of a smile #itsoas part 4 #izuku #midoriya #deku #co-op rp #mander writes!#ducky writes!#toshinori #all might #dadmight #sunflower dad

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frenchibi · 3 years

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hey, so i thought maybe you could tell us a little what you're currently interested in? ♥ like, what have you been doing during quarantine, are there any new shows you watched that you enjoyed a lot, did you maybe take up a new hobby or something? :)

Hello!! I did not forget this lovely message, I was just in no state to answer (who’d have thought that recovery from surgery is, y’know, taxing) BUT I’M BACK NOW and ohhhh do you know what you’ve unlocked by asking me this question...?? I cannot give you a comprehensive list but I can tell you a couple of the things that I got into during quarantine, and the things I am currently super passionate about! My memory is, uh, not great but thankfully I do journal and write down things so I am confident I can answer this for you :D (plus I do always love recommending things so - aaa??? Thank you for this ask????)

Putting things under a cut because I physically cannot chill but if tl;dr I want you to take away one thing from this it’s that everyone should read Gideon the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir. Thoughts below.

(Also. I would love to go off about my interests more on here but am not sure what... shape that should ideally take? Text posts? IDK pls give me suggestions, help me out?? dfhasjkldf)

Movies

I have not seen many, but I can and will scream about The Old Guard over and over because... it was everything I never knew I needed in an action movie?? I don’t reblog many things about it anymore but I love love LOVED it!!

Also, upon recommendation by one of my friends from India, I have been delving into the world of Bollywood movies and WOW Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara was so fucking good??? idk if it’s on Netflix in every country but it is in mine and I highly recommend it. It’s thoughtful, honest, emotional and shot absolutely gorgeously, and it also has that cheesiness that is just... so good... sometimes you just need the cheese y’know???

(Side note, 2020 was the year I saw Pride and Prejudice (2005) for the first time and I am a changed woman. It is now my ultimate comfort movie. Please see it if you have not, I cannot believe it took me this long. I saw it for the first time on an airplane (in january... a lifetime ago) and have seen it many, many times since.)

TV Shows

So, to everyone’s shock but especially my own, I have not really been into TV lately? I watched The Boys because my brother recommended it (it’s good, but gorey and pulls no punches, the R rating is deserved), and recently started watching Jujutsu Kaisen because my sister recommended it (I haven’t watched a new anime in like a year which is kinda wild to me? But I am enjoying this one - the opening SLAPS and what I’ve seen so far has been fun! Plus I’m watching it with my sister and I like sending her reactions xD),,, and that’s pretty much it for this category?? I am aware there is a LOT of good shit out there I just.. .don’t seem to have the attention span for multiple episodes of a Thing these days. Meh. I’m sure it’ll come back to me eventually ^^

Musical Theater

One of the main reasons I think I haven’t been big into TV is because my Musical Passion is in FULL SWING (haha get it). Probably because the only thing that has remained for me during this quarantine is my singing lessons (and lemme tell you... over skype, that shit is ROUGH but still better than not singing at all) and I have been obsessing over learning new songs and finding shows through recommendations and compilation videos on youtube... So.

Shows I listen to a lot these days include Starry, Anastasia, The Guy Who Didn’t Like Musicals, Come From Away (I made a post recently specifically about musicals, you should be able to find it under #French speaks) - specific songs in my range that I am currently learning and obsessing over include “Bring on the men” from Jekyll and Hyde, “The Mad Hatter” from Wonderland, “Show Yourself” from Frozen 2 (I liked it ok I DID), and “Go Tonight” from The Mad Ones (this one makes me cry... I’m making my sister duet it with me bc I can’t stop thinking about it).

Also, if you’re interested in hearing me sing things, head over to my instagram where I post covers (and also art)!!

(Musical people, I am curious to hear opinions about Great Comet, and also The Count of Monte Cristo - two shows I’ve been meaning to check out!)

Video Games

Listen. Animal Crossing New Horizons is awesome and I’m glad I have it (...give me Brewster back, Nintendo, or I WILL RIOT), but I have been branching out into other games for the Switch (might as well make this purchase worth it amirite) - current faves include Celeste (which is SO HARD but also SO FUCKING FUN) and Spiritfarer which I specifically bought to play at the hospital bc I knew I was going to be there for a few days, and let me tell you - best decision of 2020. Please watch the trailer if you haven’t heard of it, it’s GORGEOUS and beautiful and emotional and I loved every second of it. Both of these can also be purchased for PC and I think they are definitely worth the investment!!

In other news I’m back on my Stardew Valley bullshit. It’s just so calming.I revisit it a lot lmao

Books

So... I have been reading. A LOT. I read over 70 books this year, which for me is... average tbh? I have had some less productive reading months but overall I have torn through stuff and BOY do I have recommendations if you want them?? For the sake of brevity I will only mention a few here:

Gideon the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir “Lesbian necromancers explore a haunted gothic palace in space”. That is all. This was my first five star fiction book of the year and I will never be done screaming about it. There is a dedicated but smallish fandom here on tumblr and it deserves SO MUCH MORE. Please, please please. Everyone should read this damn book. It’s confusing in the beginning but I promise it’s worth it IT’S SO GOOD!! And also the sequel is out and it’s also confusing and SO GOOD!!!

Educated by Tara Westover. This is an autobiography and it’s one of those books that like. Stick in your mind for months after you’ve read it. It’s about how this woman escaped an abusive household that was religiously oppressive and also like... survivalist (prepping for the apocalypse) and avidly believed in conspiracy theories - by educating herself, working her way up to going to Harvard. Nothing I say could do the emotional impact of this book justice - and also just, the perspective this book gave me?? Incredible. Education is the most powerful tool and this woman grabbed it by the hair and did not let go and I was FLOORED. Everyone should read this. I don’t even usually read biographies but DAMN.

The Winternight trilogy by Katherine Arden.(Book 1 is called The Bear and the Nightingale). This is a bit of a slow burn type deal - it’s a retelling of a Russian fairy tale (I think?? Or like a folk... story? Something like that) and it is just. So magical. It’s not fast paced but it works up to FANTASTIC moments, the focus is on family and magic and change and “making your own way” and all three of these books were wonderful. It reminded me of Naomi Novic’s Uprooted and Spinning Silver (both of which I also loved back in 2019 and would highly recommend) and they are PERFECT winter reads if you’re looking for something to get cozy with. I liked book 1 well enough but books 2 and 3 knocked it out of the park. Fantastic. Loved them.

I have many more recs but this will do for now hahah

Music

Gonna keep this brief too - my music taste is all over the place, but here are some songs I have been obsessed with recently!! Beware of genre whiplash though because these are Very Different from one another (and different from the musical theater stuff above)

Factories - Autoheart (that bridge gets me every time, idk why. This is one I could have on repeat for hours and not get tired of it either. Something about it just gets me!!)

History Read - The Altogether (The lyrics!! Tbh the entire Silo album is GREAT, but this one is my fave. Their music is so... mellow, in the best way??)

Weather Man - Valley of Wolves (ok this one is just a banger. I’m a sucker for a good sing-along-able hook (that’s not a word. you get me though right) and this fucking DELIVERS. I also just think “I make these dark skies blue, I make these mountains move, let the rain come down, I’m pushing through.... [pause] ... ‘cause I’m the weather man” is such good execution of a concept?? That PAUSE GETS ME it’s just SO FUN?!?! idk man I like a good upbeat banger and this is that.)

I believe (get over yourself) - Nico Vega (this one is just a callout at myself tbh?? “you’re a fool” I AM and I needed to hear it?? It’s also SO FUN to sing!!! We love a banger.)

Kiss me you animal - Burn the Ballroom (mentioning this mainly because it reminded me, lyrically, of Gideon the Ninth and I need someone to confirm this for me before I go insane?? “everybody knows that home is where your teeth sink, love” - I mean c’mon??? Also it’s a banger. I do like some rock from time to time... and this also has a killer driving bassline. This is super fun to drive to, too!!)

((If we have overlap and anyone wants to exchange playlists with me - I am SO here for it. Always looking for new music!!! I mean it!!))

Youtube

Last and certainly not least... meet my newest hyperfixation!!! I have always loved watching video essays, and booktube videos, and arttube videos - and my current niche of favorite creators is the Polygon video team!! They made videos about video games and board games and anything gaming-related and I just. I’m only peripherally a “gamer(TM)” but I love anything and everything they create. (Also you don’t have to know much about video games to enjoy all of their content!! A lot of it is still accessible to Non-Gamers(TM) or casual gamers!) BDG is my new favorite creator, the Unraveled series he does on the channel is a work of genius - but I have also started watching their streams and older series and I am enjoying myself SO MUCH! I love boardgames so their series on them, Overboard, is so fun and entertaining (and I already know a bunch of games I want to buy based on seeing the gameplay), and it also made me invested in the other creators - particularly Simone, I would die for Simone?? And Pat? And Jenna? They each have their niche and they work really well together too and their videos are my Main Serotonin Machine in these trying times(TM), thank you for coming to my TED talk.

Also. If you’re already following me here and you are familiar with Polygon things I BEG YOU TO COME AND TALK TO ME ABOUT THEM because I am like, bursting, but I also don’t want to flood my dash with stuff that 99% of my followers are unfamiliar with y’know??

...I think I’m going to leave it at this - it’s already a lot!

But thank you once again for asking and for letting me Go Off about things I am interested in!! I just... I very often wish I could do this more, but I’m not sure how to go about it? Should I just do text posts about things?? Would that be interesting to anyone?? Or is that like, annoying? Should I start a review blog or something? dhfajkldhf I just want to talk about things that excite me, but whenever I’m here I often just stick to reblogging other people’s stuff... help?? What do y’all want to see??

#French speaks #rec #media recs #book rec #thank you so much for this seriously

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yanagi-uxinta · 4 years

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What Tomorrow Brings Chapter Two

Available on Fanfiction.net on my account Yanagi Uxinta. I’m not posting a link this time since apparently tumblr doesn’t like posts with links in them.

Rating: K+

Status: Two-parter, complete

Pairing: N/A; Blacksun reference in previous chapter, Blake and Weiss gen fic.

Wordcount: ~2,800

Summary: The night of the election, after the Grimm have finally been defeated, Weiss once again finds Blake in the early hours of the morning. This time it isn’t just Adam playing on her mind.

Notes: Though chapter one was written pre-volume 7, this was started after the volume had ended. As you may be able to tell, I wasn’t overwhelmingly impressed with the volume, especially with how Blake’s character was handled (and let’s not mention her new design). Hope you enjoy!

It was three in the morning. The Grimm had finally retreated two hours ago, leaving everyone to pick up the pieces. Ruby had finally fallen asleep clinging to Yang, tears still drying on her cheeks. Weiss had tried to help, but sometimes Ruby just needed her big sister. She understood that, and was quietly relieved – Ruby had spent so long putting on a brave face for everyone else, Weiss had started to worry that nothing would have an impact on her.

Ren and Nora had been tense, quiet, and had gone to bed early. Jaune had taken one look at their dorm door and stayed in the rec room, talking quietly with Marrow. The youngest Ace Operative was supposedly there to check on them all, make sure they were alright, but now he was out of the public eye, Weiss was starting to think he needed their support as much as they needed his. If the mug of coffee he’d been clutching was any indication, he wasn’t planning on sleeping tonight.

And Blake…

Weiss found her in their little kitchenette, sat at the table, head in her hands, ears pinned flat. Weiss pulled out the chair opposite.

Blake barely glanced up.

‘Well, I think we can safely say today was a disaster,’ Weiss said, smoothing her skirts out.

Blake’s mouth tightened, her ears tensing as if she was trying to squeeze them through her skull.

Weiss sighed. Not going to be that easy then. ‘Blake, talk to me. Today was horrible, but it seems to be hitting you much harder than I expected, considering…’

‘Considering I wasn’t there?’

Well, it was progress. Weiss nodded.

Blake’s eyes dropped back to the table, but her fingers relaxed a little. ‘I can’t help but think that if I’d been there… I grew up in political rallies, Weiss. I’ve seen them all – peaceful, hijacked, riots – if I’d been there, maybe I would have seen Tyrian earlier. I know the signs to look out for, for someone who isn’t there to genuinely protest, whether it’s because they’re there just to incite violence, or if they’re actually from the other side to try and make us look bad. Even if not, I can see in the dark. I could have stopped him when the lights went out. I could have at least tried. Maybe I would have slowed him down enough to save the people he killed. Maybe I could have stopped Penny from being framed.’

Weiss slowly tugged off her gloves, considering her words. ‘I don’t blame you for not being there, Blake – no one does. And from what we know about Tyrian, there probably wasn’t much you could have done. I… have to ask why, though. It’s just- back at Beacon, given the choice to go dancing or to go to a political party – especially one as divisive as this one – you wouldn’t have even considered dancing an option.’

Her eyes slid away, and her shoulders hunched. ‘I didn’t see the harm,’ she said, but her voice sounded too soft, too weak. And then, quieter, rushed, like it was meant to be a minor point: ‘And Yang wanted to, so I-’

Weiss held a hand up. ‘Stop,’ she said. For a moment she could have been Marrow; Blake stopped. ‘I asked why you wanted to go, not why Yang did.’

Blake took her hands off her head, only to hug herself, slumped in her chair, still looking away. ‘Team FNKI invited us.’

‘And? Blake, you’re the one who turned down Sun to the dance back at Beacon because you were too caught up in what the White Fang presence meant, criminally and politically. Sun. Who you like far more than Team FNKI, I might add.’

Blake flinched.

She should probably back off, but there was something more to this, and it was worrying her. It had been worrying her, ever since the fight with that Adam Taurus. Blake hadn’t been acting herself. She thought she’d been bad on the way to Argus, constantly looking out for Yang, looking for ways to make up for what Adam had done to her. It had been painful to watch. But this? Rather than recover the relationship they’d had at Beacon, it was like Blake had doubled-down on being there for Yang… only this time, instead of giving Blake the cold shoulder or wanting things to go back to normal, Yang was just… accepting it. Enjoying it, even.

The fight had changed something critical in their relationship, and Weiss wasn’t sure it was for the better.

‘What do you want me to say, Weiss?’ Blake asked. From the old Blake, that would have been a demand. Now it sounded like pleading. ‘That I just wanted to dance? That I wanted a break from politics? That I made a mistake?’

Now was the time to be gentle. ‘I want the truth, Blake. I want you to be able to tell me you honestly wanted to go dancing rather than to an election party, whose outcome would have a massive impact on the Faunus and other oppressed people in Mantle. But I don’t think you can, can you?’

Blake glanced up, just for a moment, and those amber eyes were too bright with tears. She shook her head, lips pressed tight together.

‘So why go?’

Blake closed her eyes, and the tears rolled down her cheeks. ‘Because Yang wanted to.’

‘And you didn’t get a say in the matter?’

Her eyes opened as she shook her head, but she was still staring at the floor, off to the side of the table. ‘It’s not like that. If I’d said something, Yang would have listened, I know she would. But she wanted to go, so I didn’t say anything.’

‘Why though?’ She couldn’t help sounding frustrated. ‘Why not let Yang go dancing, and you go to the election?’

This time, Blake replied faster, sharper. ‘Because I made a promise, Weiss!’

Weiss stared, momentarily speechless. Only momentarily. ‘You’re taking that literally? Blake, why?’

Blake took a deep, shuddering breath, but at least there was that fire in her eyes again, that will. ‘Because I hurt her, Weiss. I left without a word, knowing her history, and didn’t even leave a note to explain myself. Even Adam brought it up; how I promised to stay by his side, only to leave when he went too far. That’s all I’ve ever done, Weiss. I made promises to stay, I broke them, I left, and the people I abandoned were devastated, but I never had to face that, so I never had to deal with the consequences until now. I don’t want to leave again. I want to break that cycle for good. Is it so wrong to want to make up for that mistake?’

‘When it comes at the cost of being your own person? Yes! Blake, listen-’ she said, reaching out across the table to her when Blake turned her head away. ‘These past several weeks, ever since the fight, you have been different. You’ve barely left Yang’s side for a moment; you cater to her every whim, and she’s letting you! What happens if she wants to do something you don’t? And I don’t just mean something trivial like going clubbing; none of us could have known how tonight was going to go. I mean something you are not comfortable with, that you do not want to do, but she does. What then?’

Blake rolled her eyes, but her shoulders were tight. ‘That’s hardly likely to happen!’

‘Why, because you’re not allowed to disagree anymore?’

Blake glared at her. ‘Because I can’t think of anything that divisive that we’d disagree on.’

‘Oh, so if tonight had been a Faunus rights march instead of an election? Or if Robyn were a Faunus going up against my father? And Yang still wanted to go dancing?’

Blake scoffed. ‘This is Atlas, Weiss. We can’t even go into half the buildings, in Atlas or Mantle. Any Faunus running for a council seat is a fantasy. The context doesn’t work.’

‘Oh, so the Faunus rights march doesn’t either?’ Weiss asked, slipping into her fake-sweet tone she still couldn’t shake when she was annoyed, damn her mother’s influence.

Blake threw her hands up, the most open she’d looked all night. ‘Then I’d talk to her!’

‘Would you? Because from what I’ve seen, it looks like Yang’s been calling all the shots, and you’ve been placidly going along with them. Even in conversation! You laugh at anything she says, even if it isn’t funny! And for her part, she gets insulted if anyone even insinuates you shouldn’t be glued at the hip! I heard her bragging about ‘showing Marrow’, when he said you should work with other people. What would be so wrong about working with other people in your team?’

Blake’s hand slapped the top of the table, the other propping up her forehead. Those fingers splayed away as she spoke, letting Weiss see her eyes. ‘So what would you have me do, Weiss? Ignore her? Leave her alone?’

Oh, if she wanted to snap at her, fine. ‘I’d have you get your self-esteem back!’

Blake stopped.

Tone it down then. ‘Look, I know Adam must have got to you. I know you’re grateful to Yang for being there. But you’re letting what he said rule your life. You’re so scared that Yang will decide he was right after all, you’re so convinced that you owe her; that you’re not living for yourself, you’re living for her. And that’s not you, Blake. That’s never been you. You’ve always done what you thought was right, what was just. But you’ve twisted that into ‘anything Yang does or says is right’, or, ‘Yang deserves it’, just so you can justify going along with it, even if you don’t want to.’

Blake was looking down again, but all the tension had gone out of her frame. One hand rose to tug at her shortened hair, twisting a strand around her finger – mimicking the curls that used to frame her face.

She was getting through to her, but there was one more thing that concerned her. ‘What if she kissed you?’

Blake froze.

The question hung in the air, until Blake found her lungs and finally breathed. ‘I- I don’t know what you mean,’ she said, huddling in on herself again.

Yes she did. ‘What if Yang kissed you; and you didn’t want her to? All those little touches, Blake, all those times she’s touched you without any real reason. Are you really surprised?’

Blake’s ears folded back, and she shook her head. ‘I don’t know,’ she whispered.

Weiss nodded. ‘And is that because you like her back? Or because you don’t know if you’d be able to say no to her?’

Blake stared at her, eyes hurting and scared, and Weiss knew the answer.

‘I don’t know how she would react,’ Blake said quietly. ‘I’d… I’d like to think she’d take it well. That we’d go back to normal. But what if she sees that as just another rejection? One more time I’ll abandon her? Because once this is all over, if we survive it, if I don’t want to be with her, then I won’t be able to keep my promise, right? So it’s just a matter of time before I break her trust again. I don’t want to hurt her like that, Weiss, but… I don’t want to be trapped in a relationship ever again.’ She met her eyes then, and though she was crying silently, her gaze was steady, open.

Weiss held her hand out, and Blake slowly took it, wiping her cheeks with her other sleeve. ‘If it helps, I don’t think Yang would take it that way. I think she’d accept you don’t feel the same way, and would leave it there, even if it hurt. But this promise, Blake, it isn’t healthy. That is why I’ve been so worried.’

‘I just…’ Blake broke off, looking up at the ceiling and blinking rapidly. ‘Yes, he got into my head, again. I know that. But… I can’t help but feel like I have to prove him wrong. Like that’s the only way I’ll get to move on, because otherwise he wins. I don’t want that to ruin my relationship with Yang further; I don’t want a future where every time I look at her, I’m reminded of him – I’m reminded that he was right. But I don’t know how to do that without Yang thinking I’m leaving her again, whether that’s now or in the future.’ She stopped, sleeve pressed to her cheek, her grip so tight on Weiss’ hand. Then, like it had burst out of her without her consent: ‘And she’s acting like nothing happened, and that everything is back to normal, and it’s not! How can it be? Adam became a monster, yes, but Yang’s acting as though all she’s killed – all I’ve killed – is a Grimm. Something to just forget about and move on! And I’m trying so hard to do the same, because if this is how she’s acting then she won’t understand why I don’t feel like she does. And it… it scares me that she can just… forget that he was a person. I know; I know logically she hasn’t, she can’t have done, that’s not the kind of person she is, but that’s how it feels. She hasn’t once brought it up, or shown any kind of… of worry that she killed someone, or regret, or sadness. She’s just… normal Yang. And I’m trying so hard to be normal for her, but I don’t think I can keep this up for much longer.’

Weiss squeezed her hand, taking a moment to let Blake compose herself and to choose her words.

‘I think you and Yang need to talk things over properly – your relationship, what happened with Adam, everything. By all means, be there for her, support her, but don’t sacrifice your own wellbeing for her, especially when it isn’t life or death. She wouldn’t want that. And you say you’ve been trying to be normal for her – maybe you’ll find out she’d been doing the same for you. Maybe killing Adam does bother her. Either way, the only way this will be resolved is for you both to talk, and set boundaries. I think you’ll feel a lot better for it once you have, because you’ll know where she stands, and you’ll be able to tell her what you want as well.’

Blake sniffled and nodded. ‘I know. There just… hasn’t been time, with everything going on. And I’m scared to suddenly change my behaviour without talking with her, in case she thinks she’s done something wrong, or that I’m going to leave again. I want to talk with her; I just need the right time.’

Weiss squeezed her hand. ‘I understand that. Quite when that chance will happen is another matter entirely. I get the feeling we’re going to be working non-stop after this.’

Blake managed a tremulous smile. ‘Thank you, Weiss. You shouldn’t have to keep doing this for me.’

Weiss gave an overly-dramatic put-upon sigh, her free hand splaying across her chest as she stuck her nose in the air. ‘I’m just that good.’ Relaxing, she added, ‘what was it a certain Faunus said? You should always get your friends involved? Besides, now that Father’s won I don’t doubt I’m going to need you to return the favour soon enough. Fair?’

Blake chuckled. ‘Fair.’

The clock read twenty past three. Ironwood wanted them in a meeting at eight tomorrow morning. Given how long it took everyone to get ready considering the four of them were sharing a bathroom, they had maybe three and a half hours before they had to get up.

Weiss sighed. ‘Tempting as it is to grab a coffee and just not go to sleep tonight, I think we’d both suffer for that tomorrow. Are you ready for bed, or do you want to stay up a bit longer?’

Blake finally released her hand, using the navy belts around her wrists to wipe her eyes and hide the mascara stains. ‘No, I’m ready. You’re right – we need to get some sleep for tomorrow.’

When they slipped into the dorm, Yang was sprawled out on Ruby’s bed, leg dangling over the edge, Ruby resting her head on Yang’s shoulder, the rest of her obscured by the cloak she hadn’t taken off.

As they got changed, Blake kept glancing over at Yang, a pensive look on her face. It was in her hands now though, there wasn’t much more Weiss could do to help. Some things Blake would have to do herself.

Could this break the team up? Maybe, but they’d been fractured before – they hadn’t been fixed, they’d just stuck a band aid over it and pretended that was the same. It might break again, or this might be the nudge it needed to really start to heal.

Weiss really hoped it would be the latter, because if their team broke irrevocably, she couldn’t say which way she would go.

#my fanfiction #My writing #rwby #rwby volume 7 #Blake Belladonna #Weiss Schnee #Yang Xiao Long #Adam Taurus

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scarletanpan · 4 years

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I wrote a really long post about BLM and everything that’s going on right now just because I figure it’d make me feel better. Don’t have to read, but thoughts down below!

I haven’t been very active with tumblr lately. Mostly because I’m in and out a lot anyways, but it’s hard to know how to approach what’s happening right now. When I found out about George Floyd, I was horrified but not surprised. The only thing that really took me was how malicious it was—kneeling on his neck for eight minutes and forty-six seconds. That’s nothing short of evil.

I knew protests would come next. And I’m in full support of them. But it feels kind of conflicting because I was immediately concerned about such large gatherings, what with a pandemic happening. I didn’t know if it was the right thing to do because the last thing I wanted to imagine was many people getting sick and possibly dying from it. But I knew they would happen anyway, and I support the peaceful calls to action happening all over the country right now. To the people who go out and attend them I wish nothing but safety.

But of course that doesn’t always happen. I know on the side of protests come riots; they’ll start out peaceful and get more and more hectic. It can go both ways—people instigating the riot control, or the cops subduing innocent people. When I heard about the rubber bullets and tear gas it just made my heart sink. None of this is new, but the idea of people being attacked like that for wanting to stand up for what is right hurts to think about.

Not everyone there is in the right though. Like I said, I’m not okay with people who riot. I get the anger and frustration and desire to just vent and attack, I get so fed up I think about that sort of stuff too. But the people who attack the riot control put themselves and everyone else in danger. And especially the people who loot stores and destroy property. None of that is okay, even if it’s some big corporation. Yeah big business does suck, but the people in those stores are employees that are probably just as fed up as you are and are trying to get by doing their job. Destroying the stores and stealing from them does nothing but put more stress on the people there. Big or small, no business deserves to be attacked. Causing destruction is not the way to say Black Lives Matter. And instigating police isn’t the way either, they have gear and weapons that can hurt you and others and lead to more people getting arrested.

And the thing is some people use the chaos that’s happening to loot and riot on purpose. They piggy back off the opportunity to steal themselves stuff they want and don’t give a shit about the cause. I don’t respect those type of people at all. It only makes things worse for everyone—and if when people think about Black Lives Matter they’re reminded of all the destruction and rioting that happened, it looks bad on the entire cause.

Of course that’s not to say it’s nothing but destruction. There’s plenty of peaceful protests, but it’s the most violent ones that typically get put on the news because they attract people’s attention and get the most views. And even if some people are causing problems, Black Lives Matter isn’t something I think anyone should disagree with if they believe in equal rights for everyone. It doesn’t matter if some people go off the deep end and do things they shouldn’t, but people will use those few examples as reasons to not support it. It creates a weakness in the strength and unity that the movement is supposed to have, and can easily be used as a way to denounce it. Either way it shouldn’t be denounced but it makes it all the more easier for the people who want to.

Another thing that I feel like creates weakness is the way everything’s being handled online. I’m lucky to not have seen it now nearly as much on Tumblr as I did back in 2016, but the guilt-tripping and fear mongering was insane. So many posts acted like if you didn’t look at them and reblog them you were an awful person who didn’t care about black lives. And a lot of them used the snowball effect—talking about how something vaguely politically related would lead to extreme racism. Not to say politics aren’t important and don’t play a role, but it frames things in an end-all be-all sort of way. As if the world was ending.

And that’s anxiety-inducing. So anxiety-inducing. Being flooded with that sort of negative information constantly really gets to you eventually. It can be bad for your mindset, make you extremely paranoid or just straight-up depressed because the world seems like such an awful place and you feel so powerless to fix it. Like you can donate and sign a petition sure, but it never felt like enough. Especially if you couldn’t attend protests.

And with the guilt-tripping, every post accused anyone who didn’t reblog it of being a bad person. I understand the mentality, everything that was happening back then is just like how. It’s incredibly important information and it needs to be shared with as many people as can see it, especially if it has resources to help and the like. People needed to know what was going on. But everyone is different, and situations like this impact them differently. Some people cope by going on the internet and spreading as much information as possible. But other people shut down from the internet when stuff like this happens.

It gets overwhelming and constantly having to see stuff about it starts to damage the psyche. This doesn’t mean they’re ignoring it, or don’t care about it or don’t care about black lives. I’d say if they have to take a break from the internet it means they’re well aware of what’s going on. I’ve heard the argument that people should just deal with it anyway because people are subjected to much worse but that doesn’t hold for everyone. It can get legitimately depressing and put people in danger physically and mentally. Not everyone handles it the same way, and expecting everyone to become extremely active on social media and accuse them of being a bad person otherwise is the wrong thing to do.

And for those who do post on social media, I feel like there’s so many rules. I’ve seen people complain about seeing others not post enough or if someone’s a little misinformed getting very aggressive with them when they’re also in support of Black Lives Matter and are just trying to help. It’s important to recognize that everyone has completely different experiences when it comes to race relations and some people don’t know how to talk about it because they’ve never been taught and some people just don’t have all that much experience because they weren’t raised around that and that’s something that they can’t help. Is it good to become informed? Yeah, but getting angry at them and not trying to inform them or at least point them in the right direction isn’t fair to that person.

There’s also a problem of people supporting the movement with the intention of gaining more popularity rather than caring about the movement itself. This is wrong, and an awful way to use legitimate problems and struggle that so many people have to go through in order to subtlety promote yourself. But that definitely doesn’t stand true for everyone, and it’s unfortunate because I’ve seen people accused of that when they really and truly meant well. Of course people make mistakes and stuff but the mentality people approach them with when that happens is so negative, and is more about just shutting them down rather than letting them know why what they did wasn’t the best when sometimes a person can just truly be a little misguided.

But on to another topic... I don’t like ACAB. I was confused when I first heard it and then a little disheartened when I found out what it stood for. All Cops Are Bad is not the message we need to be supporting right now. I understand entirely that it doesn’t mean cops are bad on an individual level—it’s talking about the entire institution of law enforcement and how easy it is to become a cop and abuse the power given to you. And that’s entirely true, I think the institution definitely has its corruption and was historically built on the oppression of POC. This is why this continues even into today; although we as a society support equal rights, I feel like racism is still rampant especially in law enforcement because of some reasons.

One being general access to power. The process of becoming a cop I believe is something that shouldn’t be as easy as it is. There are rules in place that are supposed to keep cops from pulling over people for no reason, use excessive force for no reason, or otherwise using their status as a cop to manipulate and use others. But I’ve seen countless cases of this happening and in many of them some sort of excuse is conjured up; the person was committing a petty crime, or their behavior was suspicious. But it never warrants the actions, be it assault or even murder. And in so many of them we still see the cop get a slap on the wrist as a punishment or even go completely free with no consequence, and allowed to continue their job without a problem. Anyone can be a victim of this situation regardless of race, but there is an increase in when it comes to POC. Perpetuated stereotypes make POC out to be dangerous and suspicious and violent when they’re not. And I think this affects how people view each other and how some cops view innocent civilians.

It might not be an actively racist thought, but a subconscious distrust is just as powerful and leads to people being mistreated, abused, and even killed by the people who are sworn to protect them. And it’s sickening. It’s awful and it’s going to take a lot of reform to fix the corruption that I think runs rampant in our police forces but it’s not impossible. And coming back to my main point, all cops aren’t bad. I don’t stand for ACAB because while I completely agree with the message, the phrase itself leads people who don’t understand it to think that everyone who supports BLM hates all cops. And that’s not true at all. It’s a message that just pits BLM even more against people who want to denounce it and call it a hate group.

But yeah, that’s most of my feelings on the matter. There are a lot of different sides to everything that’s going on right now and this goes beyond George Floyd. I feel like it’s a culmination of every time we’ve seen this happen since we had the cameras to record it. I’m just glad that this time the killer in question was justly charged with second-degree murder, and the rest of the officers charged for being accomplices in it by standing there and letting it happen. I’m so glad we got justice this time. This doesn’t mean it’s all over though, what matters is that everyone keeps supporting and protesting in what ways they can and amplifying the voices of people wronged. If we can do this peacefully I think we can make real change in this country.

#theres probably spelling mistakes please ignore them #blm #george floyd #i dont know what else to tag this sorry guys #also i wrote half of this half asleep too so i hope it's coherent

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iamkatehardy · 6 years

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Chaos (Bane x Reader) - Chapter 4

Author’s Notes: I’m sorry I took long so update, I’ve been drowning on work lately! I will try to make it up for you on the next chapters <3

I hope you like it , feedback is much appreciated my loves!

Warnings: swearing

Tags: @markusstraya

Previous Chapters can be found on my Masterlist.

Chapter 4

After what happened, you felt the urge to leave Gotham and have a break for a few days. You need some answers too, and some of them would only be found across the globe, so you went after hem; spending some time away from Gotham would be good to you anyway.

I didn’t take long until you missed all that madness and destruction, though. The city was criminals’ paradise now. No cops, no Batman, and people were too focused on making riots and plundering the wealth of the billionaires; no one cared about crime anymore. The felons were doing just fine, never had they got along with each other so well, they knew that if they remained united instead of wasting time fighting their fellow outlaws they would rule Gotham.

While people “clammed over each other to stay in the sun”, as Bane once told Bruce Wayne, some of Gotham’s most famous outlaws decided to gather in what they called “The Bastards’ Ball”; the name made justice to what was going to happen: all the lawbreakers would treat themselves to a big feast, followed by some peaceful socializing, business arrangements and the ball itself.

“Oh, ridiculous!” – You laughed, reading the invitation, as soon as you got home. – “So now they just organize fancy dinners, drink and dance?! They are out of their minds, I never thought I’d say this, but I miss batman, to bring some action… What about the pools of blood, and the fucking heads rolling on the floor?” – You rolled your eyes

After you left the sewers that day , you must have lost your humanity, or what was left of it, along the way. You were colder, the anger you couldn’t release on Bane, you released in other people; you became merciless.

You reconsidered, maybe going to the ball wasn’t such a bad idea; it could me the perfect moment to reenter Gotham’s criminal society and make some business maybe. You wanted everybody to know you were back, fiercer than ever, and willing to be a part of the city’s destruction. For a moment you wondered if there would be any chance that Bane would be there, but you never saw him eating, and dancing didn’t seem to be his thing at all; you were pretty sure he wouldn’t show up.

The day of the ball arrived, you were confident because you knew you’d cause quite an impact. You were right, as you entered the luxurious manor where the event would take place, all heads turned. Jonathan Crane came to welcome you.

“(Y/N), you look lovely this evening! Welcome , darling!” – He kissed your hand, leading you to your place.

“Thank you! Every girl needs a favorite black dress for such special occasions!” – You twirled in delight, offering a full view of the long black backless gown, which you complemented with a set of the finest jewelry you had. – “Everything is looking amazing around here! I never knew you were such a great host, congratulations Crane!”

“Well, Bane helped me to arrange some things; we can say he’s got a good taste. Well milady, enjoy the evening, if you need anything just let me know!” – He pulled your chair for you and adjusted it once you sat.

You tried to ignore the fact he mentioned Bane and looked around you , seeing what you thought would be impossible, they were actually having a good time without blowing brains.

You had to admit it, that bunch of outlaws had a fucking great taste! The tables were full of delicacies, trays with drinks were brought every minute, and the beautiful ornaments around the rooms were pretty dashing.

You were enjoying the dinner so far, but you couldn’t help but feeling something was about to go terribly wrong, so you took a glass of champagne, or any other thing with alcohol you could get your hands on, from every waiter with trays full of drinks that waked around the room. Everything was going smoothly, until the doors swing open for one last late guest to come in : Bane.

You could swear he wouldn’t come to such events, he wasn’t a man of many social interactions; maybe he knew you would come and wanted revenge from your betrayal, the one that only really existed in his head. You lift your gaze once you hear the heavy steps you immediately recognized, and your eyes met him, a million different feelings and thoughts taking over you. Did he come to snap your neck in the middle of all those felons, to make any kind of statement? It didn’t seem to you like he would, even if everyone there feared and respected him; you had your connections too, and someone would have your back if he attacked you, for sure.

On one hand, you feared what he could do, on the other hand, you were really mad at him, which could lead you to do really stupid things; You take another glass from the nearby tray and get up; The alcohol had given you courage to face him.

“It was rude to skip dinner… Came for desert, Bane?” - You circled him, looking at him with despise. – “It’s the best part, isn’t it?” – You stop in front of him, your gaze colder than it had ever been to him.

“No, I came for business.” – He opens his arms, gesturing to show all the criminals around.

“I’m not sure tonight it’s the right time for business, or at least try to have a good time before discussing work” – You smile, ironically, delivering him the glass in your hand while resisting the urge of spilling the drink over him and smash the glass in his face. - “Oh, and it’s not poisoned in case you wonder!” – You say bitterly, taking a sip to prove it. People could feel the tension between you, which came as a surprise as no one knew what happened; everyone thought you were partners.

“I don’t d…” – He was about to talk, as you cut him off.

“Oh, right! Sorry!” – You gesture with your hands, referring to the mask, and rip the glass from hid hand, spilling some of the drink and gulping what was left of it, delivering it back to him once it was empty and stormed to your seat ,trying to ignore the situation.

Bane knew you were pissed, and that there was a small change he had been unfair to you, so he didn’t say a word, trying not to make things even worse, putting the empty glass on a table.

Crane didn’t want the tension to spread and affect the rest of the guests, making outlaws get nervous was never a good thing. He walked to the center of the room and he spoke.

“Ladies and gentlemen, I really hope the dinner was of your liking! Now it’s time to mingle a little bit! The orchestra will start playing in a minute, please be patient. For now you can enjoy a drink on the bar or ask to one of the waiters to bring you one. Thank you so much for your presence; it has been a pleasure to be in such company tonight! Enjoy this lovely evening!” – He lifted his glass and took a sip of his fine wine, walking to Bane.

“Just who I wanted to see!” – Bane put a hand on his shoulder as they walked further, talking business in a low tone; you followed them with your eyes, they were probably discussing stuff from the Court.

You wouldn’t let Bane ruin your alcohol-fueled night, by any means, but you hoped he would leave after discussing things with Crane; he didn’t. You got up, deciding to enjoy and just ignore his presence.

The orchestra was now playing; everyone was dancing, laughing and drinking. You felt like Bane’s eyes were on you, his presence was suffocating you, so you just went to the balcony for fresh air and smoking. The night was cold, you light up a cigarette and rub your cold shoulder with your free hand, feeling a chill down your spine.

“Maybe after another drink I’ll feel better…” – You were lying to yourself; you weren’t drinking to get warmer. The motive for which you needed a drink, or a few drinks, had a name and a face; well, a mask at least. You finish smoking and take a deep breath, feeling the cold breeze entering your body, until it filled your lungs.

“(Y/N)…” – You hear him behind you; You knew who the owner of the deep mechanical voice was, so you didn’t answer; you didn’t turn to face him either. Silence and indifference was what he deserved after what he did.

Bane approached, his cold hand was now on your naked skin of your back, and you could feel your whole body instantly getting warmer. Silence was your only answer once again, as you closed your eyes and took another deep breath. His fingers slid gently on your skin, tracing a portion of your spine, and you step further from him, still now facing him.

“Come on (Y/N), we should talk…”

You finally turned to face him.

“Funny! Last time you didn’t seem willing to listen, as long as I remember. Now it’s a little bit too late don’t you think?” – You put a lock of hair behind your ear, so that he could see a couple bruises left there and feel miserable. You didn’t bother to wait for his answer and entered the room again, grabbing another drink, or two, or five…

Bane just sat on the edge of the balcony and rubbed his head, in deep thoughts. He was no idea how to approach you again after what he did, so he took a minute to think. He wasn’t used to apologize, that made things harder, the apology would maybe get to your heart. He could see you dancing with one of the guests, admiring how beautiful and gracious you looked.

You felt observed, and you knew he wouldn’t give up, he would chase you until the end of the world if he put that in his head, so you went for a stronger drink, taking a break to decide what to do. The good thing about alcohol was that you didn’t feel nervous anymore.

After some long minutes in the bar, you walk back to the balcony and extend your hand to him. He looked at it only.

“Well, you’re at a fucking ball, let’s dance!” – Your voice had a demanding tone.

“Let’s not… I don’t…” – He was off by you grabbing his hand.

“Didn’t you want to talk? Well, here’s your chance Mr. Bane! Let’s dance. Can’t you give in for once?!” – You looked straight into his eyes.

He hesitated at first, but ended up following you. You held hands, his other hand placed sweetly on your back, and yours on his shoulder, as you both start dancing; He moved more gracefully than you (or anyone) thought he could. He was careful, as if you were going to break in his hands at any minute, and glad he was dancing with you, it was the first time in a while he could feel you that near and he liked that.

“Try not to step on my feet, or I won’t be able to walk next week.” – You got closer, your face almost glued to his, in position to whisper in his ear.

If your idea was talking to him without being noticed, you failed miserably, everyone was looking, until they finally got used to the idea of seeing Bane dancing and returned to their own affairs.

“So, you’ll just listen.” – You accidentally brush your nose in his ear, speaking low and soft, and he nodded. – “ About Joker…” – He let out a deep breath just by hearing the name. – “ As you can see, my dear, he’s not my company for tonight. Or any night, in case you’re wondering. Once I arrived in Gotham , I had decided to quit this life, because I had lost someone I loved dearly; I was just stealing, working with some gangsters, no big deal, until one day HE came.

At first I thought we would just steal from the freaking Chechens, until he went psycho and decided stealing wasn’t his thing anymore. He started to think of bigger deals. He came to me and said he knew I was meant to do great things, not stealing; that we could achieve something great and live forever. I felt the rush again when I heard his fucking plans, as I did when I first met you… We started working together, even though I liked planning things and he didn’t. He’s completely crazy, he just likes to see the fucking world burn.

Batman almost caught us, several times; Joker even liked that and planned to get caught once, no matter I he was going to be hit or put in prison, I guess that sums up how nuts he is. I slowly started enjoying the no-planning thing. It doubled the adrenaline, the freedom..

One day we almost get caught, for the millionth time, and I have had enough of putting myself in risk of going to jail, so I just told him we should start making plans, to avoid this; guess what? He hears no one but the freaking voices inside his head!

So we are in the middle of this big ass coup, and Batman arrives. He thought I was a damsel in distress, a victim, and that he had just saved me; he then caught Joker, who didn’t have how to escape because we had no damn plans. He could have told Batman I was with him, he didn’t. He played along, as if I was a victim, and he had been acting alone. He was imprisoned and I walked free.

I didn’t feel free at all, the guilt consumed me, once again, as happened with all the times I screwed up in my life. Maybe if I hadn’t listen to him, maybe if I had a plan, we would have both escaped.

I’m pretty sure he was tortured to tell names of his associates, in Blackgate, and he never gave mine, or I wouldn’t be here. I left the mercenary thing once again and started working in the Stocking.

This is why I was happy he was finally free. Not because I plotted against you, with him, as you thought. But he did this for me. And didn’t hate me for my mistake, as you could see, so that made me even gladder he was free, Bane.”

He was quiet for a while, processing everything, then intertwined his fingers on yours; he could feel you were telling the truth.

“(Y/N), I shouldn’t have questioned your loyalty… I’m deeply sorry…”

“But this isn’t the best story I have to tell you! You see, I went on this little trip and found these friends of yours… They told me about a Talia…”

He was now worried about how much you could know about Talia and turned his head to face you.

“That you saved her from life in prison, loved her and protected her… That you were tortured too… That she could easily manipulate you to get you to do a she pleased…”

He let go of you and his eyes were dark now.

“Don’t worry Bane, I didn’t dig more. I wouldn’t want any information that you wouldn’t want to give me . I just wanted and needed to understand your suspicion about me, and I did… You knew you were being manipulated and you let it happen, and now you think everyone does the same, but let me tell you Bane: I wouldn’t use you, never did, like she apparently did. People are not all the same, my love.” – You shrugged your shoulders and walked away, feeling a lot lighter.

He was speechless, he didn’t expect you to know about Talia, so he just returned to the balcony, to think and calm down.

The hours passed , you were more than just tipsy, so you just sat down, wondering how the hell would you get home that night. Bane came to you.

“(Y/N), I think you’ve had enough party already miss, let me take you home, please.” – He made a sign with his hand for you to get up, and you laughed in his face. – “Alright, we can do this the easy way, or not, it’s your choice.”

“What’s the other way? Will you make me?” – You smirked.

“ I think you know exactly what my answer is (Y/N), come on.” – He was just bluffing, but he was very good at it. He put his hands on his jacket and waited for a positive answer from you, with narrow eyes.

“Fine, daddy.” – You got up, taking your shoes off and following him.

On your ride home you almost fell asleep several times, only to be awake by him, slapping your leg lightly.

“I can’t party, I can’t sleep… What am I allowed to do, daddy?” – You rolled your eyes.

“Taking your clothes off when we arrive to your place, because I won’t. Don’t fall asleep , we’re almost there!”

“Such a gentleman! Where did they teach you such manners?” – You laughed. – “No, really, I mean it, that’s very thoughtful and sweet of you to say!”

He shook his head, wondering how he had patience, especially when you were drunk. When you arrived, he got you out of the car, carrying you in his shoulder, as you hit his back playfully; you could walk, but you were having great fun. As you made it to your penthouse he put ou on the bed carefully.

“Now go to change, I’ll be leaving in a minute, once you’re ready to sleep.” – He walked to the living room.

You changed quickly and went to the living room. When he laid his eyes on you he got up.

“My job here is done, take care (Y/N).” – He walked to the door.

“Don’t…”

He turned around in confusion, as he approached.

“Don’t go…” – You stood on the tip of your toes and wrapped your arms around him tightly , hugging him and laying your head on his shoulder, breathing warmly on his neck. After a second you got back to your normal position, letting your head rest in his broad chest instead, listening to his heart, which started beating faster around you. He hugged you back, laying his head on top of yours.

“I can stay if that’s your wish.. I’m sorry, for everything, I really am..” – He slid his fingers in your hair.

“It is my wish. I can’t repeat my mistake. I won’t leave behind everything I have, once again. And you’re all I have right now.” – You move your hand to the back of his neck, caressing it. – “I’ll stick with you until the end, no matter what, just don’t doubt that Bane.”

“I won’t babe...” – He got you in his arms carrying you to bed, laying you softly, leaning over you for a second, his face inches away from yours and his thumb rubbing your cheek.

“Thank God you have that goddamn mask, or I would’ve kissed you already.” – You closed your eyes, making him sign to lay by your side.

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kineticallyanywhere · 6 years

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Caboose and Epsilon please!

send me a character and i’ll list:

this one got long too AND TOOK WAY TOO LONG TO MAKE IM SORRY

Caboose

favorite thing about them

he cares about his friends so much. Becoming his friend is easy. Breaking that friendship is not. I love how simple that is for him

least favorite thing about them

The team killing thing is the easy answer, but that’s unintentional. What is intentional is that the dude actually lies a lot. It can be harder to spot most of the time, because a lot of times he really is just confused, but when he’s embarrassed or did something he shouldn’t have, it’s straight to “Tucker did it” or “Not my fault.” He doesn’t really own up to anything.

favorite line

the delivery of “We can’t. start. savings accounts if wE Don’t HAve Any MonEY !!” KILLS ME EVERY TIME.

but: [Starting at 5:45ish, this entire scene]

[and this, starting at 4:40]

just about everything out of his mouth is pure gold, tbh

brOTP

Wash [more on that here x]. Caboose deserves someone who’s gonna worry about him and try to make him feel better when he’s down

OTP

I don’t really ship him with anybody. Not because I don’t think he’s incapable of that kind of relationship, but because I don’t think he’s interested in one. Accusing me of plastering ace headcanons wherever I can would be a fair accusation, to be quite honest, but I think Caboose really does find the idea of having lots of good friends more fulfilling than focusing particularly on a certain relationship

nOTP

Felix… might be my go-to notp for rvb. I can’t think of anyone else tho

random headcanon

Caboose isn’t allowed to have regular laces anymore. Not in his hoodies, not in his sweatpants, not in his shoes. If his shoes need laces, he gets the bungee/curly ones that you don’t have to tie. Not because he couldn’t tie them, but because they can’t risk it. …not again.

unpopular opinion

Caboose is much more self-sustaining than he’s given credit for. He really probably definitely shouldn’t be left alone in all these military/combat scenarios common to the show, but he doesn’t need his hand held or anything. (whether he wants his hand held it up for debate)

song i associate with them

Cheer Up! -A Great Big World (and its ENTIRELY @eggxalted’s fault that this is on my spotify list now and I love it)

favorite picture of them

I’ve watched this scene an embarasing number of times

Epsilon

favorite thing about them

he’s an enormous DORK

“Oh, shx, she’s done with her call. Quick, uh, talk about something else! Uhm–” “Like what?” “Anything, anything. Uh-uh- Y’know what?I think you’re right, Tucker, cows can’t talk, but maybe they can’t talk cause just no one… ever… taught ‘em how to do that. Right?”

least favorite thing about them

he kinda takes his friends for granted. maybe it’s because he doesn’t realize how much they actually care about him, maybe he’s just an ass, maybe it’s a combination of both. I would have loved to see more of him hanging out with the BGC. I know there’s like 6 solid seasons of a Church with the guys, but Epsilon really is a different character.

favorite line

Epsilon has some of the best lines in the show. The most poetic, the most quotable, one of the most emotionally impactful, but he keeps saying stuff like

brOTP

I know I have like 700 headcanons about him and Wash but

Tucker, probably. I like brotps that are just two dudes talking about nonsense and doing random nonsense. I know season 9 kicks off the freelancer saga, and none of the BGC are real in that season, but every Blue Team bit in the memory unit is an absolute riot. No one calls Church out on his crap quite like Tucker calls him out on his crap

OTP

Epsilon x stability and self-acceptance

I like Chex, but usually with Alpha and Beta, not so much Epsilon

nOTP

every time i try to think of an rvb notp, it’s just shipping with any of the major dick-wad characters, like the Director, Felix, or Temple. I don’t really have anything against most rvb ships, maybe I just don’t engage with them enough

random headcanon

He’s an a-hole, no doubt, but whenever he had processing power to spare, he kept an eye on everyone’s biofeeds. If any Red or Blue so much as stubbed a toe, he’d be the first to know (and make fun of them for it, but the sappy friendship point still stands)

unpopular opinion

or at least, not prevalent: He doesn’t hate Wash. There’s some serious past anger and mistrust in there, but by the time the Chorus Trilogy rolls around he’s got all of his memories and he’s pretty much dealt with it.

song i associate with them

I spent weeks wondering this and got nothing. Suggestions welcome.

favorite picture of them

#michael j caboose #leonard church #ai epsilon #rvb #red vs blue #ask ka #me talking #ask memes #aryashi #i realize how that thing i said about caboose valuing lots of friends over one sounds #re: church #but i stand by it #in the long run i think caboose needs lots of friends to be his best person

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eene-fangirl · 6 years

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Stand By Ed Chapter 6 [An Ed, Edd n Eddy/Stand By Me Crossover]

NOTE: Chapter 6 of @camriko-arts collaboration on Stand By Ed!

No less than an hour later the Eds journeyed further into the woods. The more Edd kept saying that he kept thinking about the famous musical.

Ed brought along his ipod. He plugged in and started goofily dancing around. Edd and Eddy could make out the lyrics of the ‘Lolly Pop’ tune. It was Ed’s favorite song. It always cheered him up. The tallest of the Eds danced around in different motions, bobbing his head and humming along. It was quite the entertainment for Edd and Eddy who walked together a short distance behind Ed.

“He’s a riot!” Eddy chuckled.

Edd smiled fondly at Ed. “There are some days I wish I could experience the serenity of Ed’s world.”

“Why?” Eddy asked, intrigued. “I mean, same here! I’d like to know how that big guy’s mind works, too. Sometimes I think its a field full of chickens and Ed’s frolicking through them.”

Edd giggled at the funny image. He continued to look on at Ed. Nobody would ever think he and Ed were friends. They were different. That’s what Edd liked about his friends. He wished others would understand.

“He’s always so happy. I would like to know how Ed stays so positive despite all the negative events that have impacted his life.”

Eddy noticed Edd’s head sadly dip to the ground, watching his feet. Ever since they left the cul-de-sac he looked down. It had to have something to do with that car parked in the driveway. A car was never there.

Eddy remembered again that he and Edd barely spent much of the summer together. In the past they’d see each other every single day. The three of them spent countless hours making up scams, or having sleepovers, and even drinking as many sodas burping aloud the alphabet. Eddy snickered at that fond memory. Why couldn’t life stay that way?

Glancing back up at Edd, he asked, “So, you ready for school?”

Edd’s uncomfortable reaction only made Eddy worry further. School was Edd’s favorite topic. Edd didn’t attend the Peach Creek school system until the fourth grade. Before then he was homeschooled. The poor guy was stuck in his dark room, alone.

Fourth grade was when the three of them finally became friends and started hanging out. It was strange. Considering how close they were you’d think they’d been hanging out since Edd moved into the cul-de-sac when he was five. But, they didn’t. Eddy blamed Edd’s parents, hating them even more for sheltering their gifted son.

“I do admit that I’m more nervous,” Edd replied, hardly looking at Eddy.

“Understandable.”

“We’re attending high school!” Edd announced as if he was just realizing this fact for the first time.

“You can say that again!”

“We’re attend-”

Edd stopped himself realizing the catch. He eyed Eddy who was biting at his lip, giggling.

“Gotcha!”

“Very funny,” Edd mumbled, though he was smiling.

They were silent once more.

“Eddy?”

“Yeah?”

“May I ask you something?” Edd asked timidly.

“Shoot away.”

Edd licked his lips. He took a deep breath. “Am I... peculiar?”

Eddy reacted little to the question. “Everyone’s weird, Double D. Look at Ed and I!”

“Answer me honestly, Eddy,” Edd stated in a sad tone.

Eddy struggled having no idea what sort of answer Edd was looking for. “Well, yeah, but you’re you! I’m surprised you actually still hang out with Ed and I.”

“We’re the Eds, Eddy.” A confused Edd stated.

Something was troubling Eddy. Now he was looking at his feet. “Not when high school comes around.”

“What are you referring to?” Edd asked.

“You know what happens in high school. Friends split ‘cause they find new people and other activities. You fit in more in school then Ed and I. Face it, you’re better off without us.”

“Eddy, that is not true!”

“Yeah, it is! You’re good at so many things! Look, you’re already takin’ AP courses while Ed and I are takin’ all the normal classes that are hardly significant. You’ll join clubs, win awards, probably go on trips with the science team, and deserve the best scholarship to a college which serves all the smartest brainiacs in the world.”

Edd shook his head trying to comprehend all this. This is not the conversation he wanted to have while out here. “Eddy, where is all this coming from? I’m not leaving you and Ed!” Edd firmly stated.

“Well, then you’re bein’ selfish and holding your own skin back!”

“I’m not being selfish! You said yourself! We have to stick together!”

Eddy was silent, rolling his eyes. Though he was happy with Edd’s neverending camaraderie.

“Have you still been writing?” Edd asked changing the subject.

Eddy sulked his shoulders. “Eh,” he grunted in tone of voice which said he did not want to talk about this.

“I really like your writing, Eddy. You produce so many wonderfully touching stories.”

“Yeah, yeah,” Eddy mumbled.

“Eddy, you could be a writer!”

“Screw writing!” Eddy barred through his teeth spitting out all the anger investing his insides.

“What turns you off about it? It’s helped you!”

“That’s what everyone says!” Eddy yelled out frustrated. Now they stopped walking, standing in the middle of the woods. “My Dad tells me, ‘you’re just a kid, Eddy,’ and I’m like ‘oh gee, thanks! You know how hard that is?’ I have no freakin’ clue what I want to do! You’re always one step ahead of Ed and I! Like I said, you’re better off!”

Edd placed a hand on his shoulder in order to calm his friend down. He was quite heated. “Eddy, you have a gift. I’m still figuring out my own abilities and even my own future. I’m still unsure and it even frightens me honestly.” Edd’s tone was sad now remembering the conversation he had with his father.

“You musn’t doubt yourself. Ed and I are here for you. You are not alone.”

The friends were quiet staring into each others eyes. They hadn’t shared a deep moment like this in ages.

“Hey, guys, what are you waiting for?” Ed called out. They were just about to exit the woods.

Eddy nervously laughed off their conversation. “Yeah, let’s go. The kid may not even be dead by the time we get there!”

Once the forest ended a valley of water surrounded the Eds. A train trestle stretched on for about a mile to the other side of the land. Edd looked all around trying to see if there was another route they could take.

“When’s the next train, Double D?” Ed asked.

“Well... we could take another route...”

“If we take a shortcut there’s no way we’re gettin’ there tomorrow!” Eddy pointed out again frustrated. “We gotta cross.”

Edd’s eyes bulged. “Cross? Are you out of your mind?”

“Double D, you know that’s been established,” Edd responded with a smirk.

“If the train comes we can’t get out of the way!”

“But, Double D, we can jump in the water.” Ed pointed out.

“It’s a one hundred foot drop, Ed. We could get hurt,” Eddy said to him.

Both Ed and Edd stared off nervously, each contemplating different scenarios. Eddy meanwhile grumbled to himself. An idea popped into his head. “Ed, you guide the front, I’ll be the caboose.”

“What?”

“We’re crossin’! Don’t worry, Double D! As long as we got each others backs we’ll make it over to the other side.”

“But, I want to be the caboose!” Ed whined.

“I’d rather keep an eye out for you two.”

“Aw-”

“You coo at me sockhead and I swear I’m pushin’ you off the trestle!”

The Eds slowly and carefully maneuvered across the trestle. Edd however crawled along the tracks fearing any misstep. His sleeping bag dragged along, getting in the way. Eddy could hear hias little moans of discomfort and felt bad for his friend. He wished that they didn’t have to go this way either. Time was not on their hands. It would be the end of the world if Bro got there first.

The water sloshed below them. Ed moved faster. That was good. He was the slowest.

Eddy practically bumped into Edd who stopped crawling. He was whimpering.

“Move it, sockhead!”

“T-Train...” he murmured.

Eddy felt rumbling under his feet. His heart throbbed. A whistle was heard a short distance behind. Eddy turned around to see a train appearing from behind the maze of trees!

“TRAAAAAAAIIIIIIIN!” Eddy hollered.

Ed immediately started running.

“Get up, sockhead!” Eddy shouted at Edd practically pushing his dear friend to his feet. His voice squeaked in terror.

Edd was petrified. This was far worse than hanging over a waterfall, witnessing the actions of Edd’s brother, or any other ordeal the Eds have gone through.

Finally Edd stood up on his feet with help from Eddy but his legs were like jello. After tripping up a few times he and Eddy finally ran as fast as their legs could take them. The train’s horn blared, warning them. Trains couldn’t stop in time!

“Run, guys! Run!” Ed shouted at them. He was already on the other side of the trestle a safe distance away. That was good.

Tears ran down Edd’s face. Eddy ordered that he dare not look back. He sounded so terrified. The train was nearing closer and closer until it was right on top of them like... like... a colossal king kong snake. Yup, Edd was definitely watching too much of Ed’s monster movies.

Just when they thought it was the end Edd and Eddy jumped off the side rolling into a ditch kicking dirt in the air.

The train rolled passed never even stopping to make sure if the boys were okay.

Ed ran up to the end of the ditch. “Guys?!” He called out. His heart was pounding out of his chest.

Eddy picked his head up only to come face to face with Edd. Eddy was practically straddling Edd.

“Oh my...” An embarrassed Edd cheeks flushed.

“Uh, you okay?” Eddy asked him.

“Yes. Fine.”

“Are you guys gonna started kissing?” Ed teased making kissing noises.

“Get real, Ed!”

Eddy helped his friend up from the ground. Edd blushed at the chivalry. Without another word they kept movie. The sun was starting to dip beneath the trees.

#ed edd n eddy #eene #eene fanfiction #EddEddy #Stand By Me #crossover #Stephen King

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thefootballlife · 3 years

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On the state of professional wrestling

Were you to ask me twenty years ago, in the wake of the death of both ECW and WCW and 18 months into following an interest in wrestling that would last to today, if it was imaginable that WWE could be surpassed as the world’s foremost wrestling/sports entertainment company, I would have said no. I would have given the same answer for each of the intervening years.

Until now.

My own relationship with the WWE ended a little while ago - the last WWE event I took the time to actively watch was 2019’s Wrestlemania and, outwith catching a couple of individual matches since, I’ve primarily contented myself with just keeping up with what’s going on in storylines and highlights and that’s about it. But, in 2021, even that is becoming a bit of a hardship.

The simple answer as to why is simply that the product WWE is putting out is consistently not very good and the saving grace of providing actual good wrestling is also swiftly falling away also. That issue is accelerating because of over-exposure (an issue WWE has had for years) and also in comparison to other companies, specifically AEW.

Realistically, the issues WWE are suffering from are too long to list but identifying them is important to gauge why people are turning off tv and turning to Youtube, to social media or just turning off altogether.

The first is a combination of overexposure and structure. Since the original “brand split” between Raw and Smackdown, the shows have been broadly two entirely separate entities with varying levels of walls between the two - non-existent during the Supershow era a decade ago to pretty solid now. Come the WWE Network and the developmental territory NXT became a regular watch for many but still had its own set place in the food chain of WWE under both Raw and Smackdown. Come the advent of AEW, NXT was “promoted” into a 2 hour network show to counter AEW’s Dynamite and the walls around the show were put up.

The result is that WWE now produces three shows of weekly content on TV, all of which are meant to be broadly equal to each other and all of which are meant to be broadly separate to each other. With those three shows comprising seven hours, that’s an awful lot of time to expect people to watch but, aside from that, all three shows are meant to be broadly equal - what that has meant is that the hype around NXT callups that used to help drive Raw and Smackdown has gone because those NXT wrestlers who would come up to the “main” roster having been on a taped show helped to look good are now wrestlers who have been seen by everyone on TV a lot. The result has been that many of the NXT call-ups since the start of Dynamite have seen radical changes of character, most of which have completely failed to hit the mark, be that the woke-riot mockery of Retribution (that killed the careers of anyone who joined it) or the Zardoz cosplay of Karrion Kross. While the point of a developmental territory is that it is meant to not be entirely essential, that it was used to counter AEW (and got beaten in doing so) has not just made it inessential but also taken away what made it special in the first place and what gave it direct benefit to the other shows. As the world around us shows, you cannot just disrupt a wide ecosystem of processes and not see knock-on impacts elsewhere.

That disruption happened at the same time as one other major disruption to the WWE food chain - Smackdown moving to Fox. While the Fox move (along with other deals) secured WWE’s future as a company by giving them massive amounts of cash, the viewership available to WWE via Fox compared to the USA Network of Raw and NXT necessitated that Smackdown become the “A Show” - Seven of the nine major events (excl Royal Rumble) WWE have produced in 2021 have been headlined by a Smackdown match including both nights of Wrestlemania. In the two years since Smackdown joined Fox, Raw has been relegated to the B show, in spite of being an hour longer than Smackdown, and viewers have reacted as you’d expect - where Raw was pulling in around 2.2m viewers a week immediately prior to the pandemic and Smackdown around 2.5m, Smackdown now sits around 2.3m with Raw at 1.8m with the major demographics of Raw falling below those of AEW Dynamite on occasion. While Raw’s fall isn’t THAT precipitous, it’s still not exactly ideal given that that sort of rating puts them regularly in the territory of record lows.

But such lows are probably deserved given the feats of endurance and mental gymnastics that WWE is asking viewers to perform. While it has been known for a long time that doing a three hour TV show is much more difficult than doing a two hour TV show, it’s still very possible to put on a good three hour show. Unfortunately, WWE haven’t seemed capable of it. Raw is regularly just plain bad TV with some stuff that is outright embarrassingly bad. Perhaps most concerningly, a lot of the embarrassingly bad is in the ring be that in terms of performances in the ring just not being very good (Nia Jax…) or the booking of how the matches proceed leaving a bitter taste in the mouth (eg Finn Balor’s fall at the end of Extreme Rules).

To that latter point, WWE’s issues are two-fold - the first is the concept of 50-50 booking in so much that people are permitted to be dominant but only to an extent. This is designed to drag out certain feuds but the overall result tends to be that matches end inconclusively or via disqualification. In 2021, that runs at around two DQ/no contest ends to matches a week meaning that, realistically, there’s a two-thirds chance that you’ll watch a WWE show and there be some sort of non-finish. While the DQ and such booking can be an impactful weapon to propel a story onwards, it is reliant on being used sparingly rather than twice a week, every week. AEW in 2021 to date has had two.

Total.

The second issue is WWE’s insistence on spooky stuff. One can take Finn Balor for example - that match at Extreme Rules ended with him becoming his “Demon” character (who he channels for important moments) courtesy of the lights in the arena flashing red, his music coming on while he flopped to the beat like a demonic salmon before eventually getting up, staging a recovery while his music played, climbing to the top rope and the rope promptly breaking, sending him falling into the ring at which point his music immediately stopped, he was speared by Roman Reigns and lost.

It looked stupid in real life and, written down, it looks even stupider. In the Demon, WWE had a character they clearly didn’t want to diminish the aura of by him just straight up losing but, at the same time, they didn’t want Roman Reigns to lose a title. The obvious answer should have been to simply not book the match if it wasn’t possible to come up with a satisfactory ending that doesn’t make at least one of the competitors look like an idiot. Instead, Balor looked stupid and the aura behind the Demon is surely tarnished for good. Similar was the case with Bray Wyatt and his Fiend character, a seemingly unbeatable monster who, at various times, appeared from big jack in a boxes, was defeated infamously by a mallet and, well, you get the picture. Or the follow on character, Alexa Bliss who was taken into darkness by the fiend and apparently came out having been possessed by an ugly doll and using supernatural powers to do things like blow up lighting.

While there is nothing wrong with supernatural characters, there is if you don’t know how to see them lose matches and there is if they end up more or less taking over the entire show which having them there week in, week out as a focal point of everything naturally tends to. The Fiend can’t do demonic things like take John Cena to a shadow world one week and then the next week just have a normal match vs a midcard talent. So while such characters can see some great character work and cool moments, the ultimate long term plan of inserting such a character into a show is something that appears to regularly elude WWE’s writers/agents because they consistently fail to come up with satisfactory ways of concluding things involving such characters. Particularly when WWE have a tendency to change production values for these characters and do things like run matches with a red light on like the match is being viewed through a Virtual Boy.

Supernatural stuff can work (see: The Undertaker and Kane but, to be fair, the spooky stuff was very occasional with them) when done well but WWE aren’t doing it well. That is a long explanation of what is a short point - that fans are no longer given faith to believe that matches or storylines will be brought to a satisfactory conclusion and that the storylines are actually negatively impacting the ring work.

For, ultimately, we are at a point where we can actually say that, in the ring, WWE is definitely no longer the leader. Even at the high watermark of TNA be that during the Monday Night War Redux or, more appropriately, the mid-late 2000s, WWE did still always consistently put on an all round superior product from top to bottom when it came to putting wrestling matches on. They were overtaken by New Japan in the mid-2010s but, when comparing the viewer types, ease of watching and the style of wrestling, that wasn’t really a fair or direct comparison. However, AEW does definitely blow WWE out of the water when it comes to the action in the ring. AEW, in spite of far fewer hours of wrestling per week, has 9 matches rated 4 stars and above on fan rating app Grappl in 2021. WWE’s main roster has five and the developmental system that AEW trounced in the ratings war forcing a hard reset has four. Bluntly, AEW is a better wrestling show than WWE which, given what the second W in WWE stands for, should be quite embarrassing.

But perhaps more damaging for WWE within the circle of wrestling fans was its activity during the pandemic. Prior to the pandemic, through most of the late 2010s, WWE’s focus was on swatting aside the nascent indie scene be that by buying/linking up with UK independent Progress and setting up NXT UK to counter ITV’s revival of World of Sport (that was terrible) and they also went on a hiring spree on the basis that the best way to create new stars and to create hype was to bring in rough diamonds and polish the edges off. Since the pandemic began, the company has shed a considerable amount of these contracts, casting aside many established names who had found themselves surplus to requirements accepting the risk that that might risk losing some gems amongst them. Those gems were perhaps headlined by Brodie Lee, who AEW picked up ahead of him suffering from and eventually passing due to a respiratory condition - in spite of Brodie Lee’s impact directly tragically being cut short, his impact indirectly has been immense; led by the simply fantastic tribute show AEW completed for him after his death, a show that many high profile signings have quoted as having impacted their decision to join the company rather than remain with or rejoin WWE. Where WWE showed a some may say callous disregard for the welfare of their performers during a pandemic, AEW showed genuine affection and care in ensuring that one of their performers was remembered in a deeply personal and human manner (and while the acts aren’t directly comparable, it’s fair to note they engendered very opposite reactions from the wrestling community). Performers from across companies, led not least by the returning CM Punk have seen their futures as now belonging to a company seen to be acting in the right way rather than the way things had been done in the past.

The ensuing drain of talent from WWE to AEW has also drawn viewers across be it performers at the very top of the card in Bryan Danielson to developmental talents like Adam Cole to just plain frustrated people such as Miro and Malakai Black. The opening of the so-called “forbidden door” has also allowed AEW to bring in regular fresh talents and ensuring that special attractions don’t become stale. While, from a business perspective, WWE is in no danger given they have lucrative contracts with their broadcasters and the Saudi Arabia live shows, it is hard to contemplate a way in which alienating an audience that has been their core audience since day one is not going to come back to bite them at some point. While WWE will argue they are a content company not a wrestling one, and they certainly produce plenty of content, if the basis on which they were judged was solely around whether that content was consistently any good or not, then the picture would be considerably less rosy than what is reflected on shareholder reports as WWE consistently puts out a poorer product than their primary competitor (not that WWE would say AEW is a competitor) and while WWE’s contracts and funding can buy them surprises and moments, it can’t buy momentum and it’s impossible to deny that, between the two companies, the positive momentum firmly lies with AEW. No company should know that more than WWE from their battles 25 years ago with a WCW in the same position of having far more momentum than WWE did. Yet for all the predictions that WWE would appreciate having a fight on their hands against AEW, there has been precious little evidence that being in such a fight would provide a positive to the standard of show they put on. Arguably, since the launch of AEW’s Dynamite the general standard of WWE programming has decreased.

Ultimately, that is why it is imaginable that WWE could be surpassed because if any TV show isn’t putting on good television for an extended period, there is always the chance that those broadcasting that show demand change or lose patience. No-one is saying that that is imminent for WWE - as live programming is naturally at a premium and still makes people watch at the time of broadcast rather than cut the cord, ratings may have dropped significantly but they are still high compared to other things that could be put on in those timeslots - but when contract times come around, if WWE isn’t able to show growth because of these issues, then it will naturally have a big impact on their share price and confidence in the company as a whole, particularly if the company aren’t able to replace these budget streams or have expenditure that is reliant on increasing money from TV rights. Trouble isn’t imminent but it is easy to see a path laid out to it.

The introduction of AEW to the wrestling market has changed it forever and, arguably, coronavirus only served to delay the seismic changes that have occurred since their advent. They won’t, of course, remain on a hot streak forever and how they deal with the adversity of making poor creative decisions over an extended period (as we’ve seen in New Japan over the past 12 months courtesy of EVIL) will be the real litmus test of the staying power of AEW and more importantly, the sturdiness of the support they receive from fans given that it is something every company comes across from time to time.

But that one can even make an argument that AEW could feasibly challenge WWE is, for many fans, success in itself.

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lostinyourears · 7 years

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CMLL 84th Anniversary Report!

The show is still available at internet.tv this will obviously be spoiler filled so fair warning. I won’t have the ‘who’s who?’ sections I normally do because the primer I did before the show aired basically has pictures of what everyone looks like.

Stuka Jr, The Panther & Blue Panther Jr. vs Polvora, Dragon Rojo Jr. & Hechicero

This opening trios match was probably the best trios of the night. I’ve always felt that Stuka Jr. and Valiente fill a very similar role and would normally argue that Valiente fills it better. Stuka Jr’s performance here has really made me rethink that position. Stuka was very impressive as was Hechicero. I think this is arguably one of the best trios matches of the year, which is high praise since about 70-80% of CMLL’s output is trios matches.

The Panther Bros really earn this opening spot with both this and their opener 2 weeks ago at Gran Prix being the standout undercard match both iPPV’s. I’d really like to see them face Puma/Tiger again soon on a big stage like this.

While I like Panther Bros more than Polvora/Dragon Rojo Jr. Both teams deserve a pat on the back though, with each duo working excellent as a team doing double team maneuvers and each treating their odd man out as an extension of their team instead of just a 3rd person they are dragging along as it sometimes feels. Panther Bros lost the 3rd falls, but don’t feel like losers because they were in the best trios match of the night.

Marco Corleone, Diamante Azul & Valiente vs NGD(Sanson, Cuatrero & Forastero)

A fun bout that allowed some of the bigger tecnico names of CMLL to shine and use their signature maneuvers. Valiente did his signature double springboard moonsault, we got Air Corleone and Diamante Azul got to show off his powerhouse moveset. NGD weren’t left out in the cold though, as one of CMLL’s rising trios one of the reasons they are rising is because they are great at doing team moves. Which looked good vs two of the heaviest guys on the roster : Azul/Marco.

NGD lost, which is questionable since they are taking on such a thrown together team. Still Azul just won Gran Prix, unmasked a guy back in March and both Valiente and Marco are holding CMLL gold. So it’s not like they lost to some midcarders. I just think NGD winning their Anniversary Debut would have been nicer, but we don’t live in a perfect world and we still got a good match out of these 6, even if it wasn’t the hot match we got in the open.

Sam Adonis, Rush and Kraneo vs Barbaro Cavernario, Negro Casas and El Felino

This match seemed to exist mostly to set up a feud for down the line. Adonis and Negro Casas has already been announced for a lightning match for Friday. This match wasn’t everything it could have been, but we got some good bits. Cavernario and Rush clash here and hopefully that is something down the line as well, though who knows how that will come to be since both are rudos, but so are Adonis and Casas... though really everyone becomes a babyface/tecnico when taking on the Trump loving Adonis.

Kraneo/Cuije are fun as always and even Felino did a big dive. No doubt feeling the need to pull out all the tricks in his book. Every CMLL Anniversary you are in as a 50+ year old talent might be the last. While the match wasn’t great, it did what it was meant to by leading to Adonis/Casa. It might be the worst match on the card, but that’s more because of the dumb finish than any of the in ring action which was solid, if a little rushed.(No pun intended)

Princesa Sugehit vs Zeuxis, Mask vs Mask

Wow! These ladies really set the bar high for the main event. I haven’t seen the MYC yet, I’ve watched the first 2 episodes and will get around to it. So with that said, I have to say that of all the women’s matches I’ve seen this year across WWE/NXT PPV’s and TV(Though I have missed some NXT TV Women’s matches)... this is the best women’s match I’VE seen this year. That’s just that I’ve seen, I don’t know if it’s Asuka’s undefeated streak or me not really buying into Ember Moon. This just stood tall a a great match. Also, I’m certain I might be less hot on this match after seeing the MYC which I only heard good things about.

This just felt more Dramatic and the stakes seemed much higher. While the women weren’t the main event, this is the first ever women’s mask vs mask match at Anniversary. The crowd felt hot for this, arguably as hot as they were all night, though I think the main event also had it’s epic moments the crowd got behind. I absolutely loved the second fall moment when Zeuxis reversed an armbar into a pin to get the fall.

I also appreciate the pacing of the match. While the main event was great, I would argue fall 1 and 2 happen too quickly making it almost all in the 3rd round. Which is a good tactic for building drama, I just prefer the 1st/2nd rounds not feeling like an afterthought.

Hopefully this match and the big moment of Sugehit losing her mask wasn’t for nothing. I’d love for this to be a start of a brighter future for Luchadoras and women in CMLL. Hopefully this can occupy the space that the Sexy Star controversy has had in past weeks. With that story quiet, hopefully this doesn’t go under the radar and CMLL has things in mind for Sugehit and Zeuxis and doesn’t let this momentum slow.

Flip Gordon, Volador Jr. & Caristico vs Ultimo Guerrero, Mephisto & Satoshi Kojima

This match was... what it was : filler. I mean let’s not mince words... it was fun/good filler, but that’s what it was. CMLL Anniversary couldn’t happen without Ultimo/Volador cause Arena Mexico would riot. CMLL likes to have some outside talent on Anniversary so we got Flip and Kojima at the party.

This match lacks a certain urgency and it’s not hard to understand why.

All the CMLL talent are made for life and basically on the back 9 of their careers. Volador Jr. is probably the only talent who might have more success in their future than their past, but even Volador Jr is super decorated and won the biggest prize in CMLL this year by beating Ultimo to be crowned the 2017 Universal Championship.

Really only Flip Gordon would have something to prove and it kinda shows. The 25 year old working probably the hardest out of anyone in the match.

I find it funny that I watched 10 Kojima matches from the G1 Climax and his performance here might be the favorite one I’ve seen from him. Though, I’ll freely admit that I’m not as well versed in his tag runs with Tenzan or his higher on the card singles run from a decade or so ago.

A good/fun light match, but not one that felt like it needed to be won. Instead it feels like a game of pickup with very little on the line... because that’s what it was for most people in the match. No one on team rudo is going to be hurt by this loss, Ultimo in particular is probably more invested in the next match on the card than he was in this throw away trios that was the buffer between the two mask vs mask main event caliber matches.

Niebla Roja vs Gran Guerrero, mask vs mask

I think they did it... I think they really fucking did it. There was doubt going into this match. Niebla Roja disappeared for the last couple weeks, with everyone saying he had an injury. If that is true, his performance here is unbelievably good. If that’s not true, he still did a great job for an uninjured guy.

Right off the bat we got Roja suicide diving out onto Gran Guerrero.

Something to note is both men had their older brothers in their corners.

Both of course fighting to keep their mask, both masks being designed to look like Ultimo Guerreros.

I really have a hard time finding faults in this match. Which shocks me here and with CMLL mask vs masks matches in general. As far as I can tell/know, Gran and Roja have never had a singles match before this. Let me repeat that NEVER have these two met in singles competition before having one of the best singles matches of this year!

One spot I don’t like is the Gran Guerrero inverted powerbomb out of the corner... it just looks a little convoluted imo and not as impactful as an Ultimo Bomb. I get that it’s done as a way to distinguish Gran/Ultimo so they don’t have all the same spots, but it’s not a very good reimagining.

Gran Guerrero did the signature catch twice and the first one was just amazing! I’m never not going to mark out when some diving guy is caught right out of the air. It’s also a spot that seems easy to fuck up, so seeing it done so perfectly made me very excited to see who Gran catches in the coming years.

I can’t believe they did such a great job. I don’t know who wouldn’t enjoy this match and while it may be bold to say this... it’s better than last year's main event. While last year Dragon Lee/La Mascara had a good match I think Rush’s involvement kinda cheapened the win, even if he cost both man a fall.

This year was just 2 warriors(pun kinda intended) battling it out for the iconic mask design of Ultimo Guerrero. While some might say that it was just an Ultimo cover band with Gran Guerrero, I think using some of Ultimo’s spots isn’t as easy as it sounds. Particularly with that catch spot that was done twice in the match.

I’d also be so bold to say something I don’t think is controversial. This was better than the Wrestlemania main event. No offense to Taker vs Roman, but it wasn’t exactly a stellar match even if it becomes historically significant as Undertaker's retirement.

Final Thoughts :

CMLL Anniversary was pretty great this year. We got 2 mask vs masks match instead of one. I’d say both were better than last year's, 2 betting matches. The opening trios was great as well with the other half of the card being fun, but not really feeling like a major step up from the normal trios action you’d see on CMLL TV. Though you likely wouldn’t seen NGD paired with such a strong team.

If you have 15 bucks to spare, I’d highly recommend this show. If you don’t, I’d highly recommend seeing it elsewhere after the fact either thecubsfan or CMLL officially releasing it. .

Highlights :

CMLL 84th Anniversary Highlight(No 3rd/Final falls)

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deathwishskateboards · 7 years

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TAYLOR KIRBY - SKATE WAREHOUSE INTERVIEW

Hey what’s up Kirby?

Cruising man, just headed up to LA right now from Oceanside. Driving through Orange County, Going to stop by Happy Hour to grab some shades, and work on this giveaway they’re trying to setup.

You’re still living down in Oceanside?

Yup yup, got a sick little house. Right near the beach, near all the other bros houses too. It’s perfect.

Any downside from living in Oceanside compared to LA?

The downside of living in Oceanside? Uhhh I don’t even think there is one man. Rents cheap, Skate Park is amazing and there is no traffic compared to LA. Plus if I have to go to LA it only takes an hour and a half to putt up there. I don’t know man LA’s not for me. I like skating there but I could never live there. All my friends that do live up there all live in Hollywood, so its just chaos.

They just turned you pro at Vista. Did they catch you off guard? Was it completely a surprise or what?

Yeah I don't know, little kids were like commenting and shit on the flyer. Saying I’m going pro and stuff but when you’ve been skating for…fuck I don’t even know, 17…18 years and you’ve been amateur the whole time. It doesn’t feel like you’re ever actually going to go pro. You just kind of get used to being AM. You want to go pro and you see your friends go pro but its not something you ever actually think is going to happen. They caught me off guard. I don't know I just never expected it to actually happen you know.

Congrats man you definitely deserved it. That part was fucked up man. Which trick took you the longest to film? What did you battle?

Fuck, I don’t even know. I feel like it’s all the basic stuff. Its like the little tricks in the beginning of the part are the most torturous. All the big ones you either do it in a couple tries or your dead so I’d say the Enders were kind of the easiest. I battled the back 3 in Albuquerque for a little bit. Over that bump over fence. That one I kept sticking and eating shit. I don't know I’ve been getting lucky on a skateboard lately.

That’s good to hear. What has been going on with C1rca lately?

They got Neen and Cole Wilson on, which is nice to have some new guys on. It’s been pretty tight; we were just on a South America Trip for two weeks, which was just insane. So much fun down there, it’s like another world.

I bet, was that the first time you went to South America?

Yeah, pretty much the first time I left the country. Besides going to Montreal and Vancouver. But those don’t really count. Definitely first time down there. It was awesome.

Was it pretty nuts culture wise out there?

Yeah, it s just a different world. The driving is different, the language barrier is heavy, the ground is terrible out there. Probably why you don’t see to many articles to South America. The ground is complete shit. Its all torn apart, so the spots are rough. All of the locals that showed us around were so nice; they were so stoked to have us. Everyday they had something lined up for us, whether it was some bbq or some spot or a skate park. Something new everyday, it was bitchin.

Anything crazy and out of hand happen while you were out there?

I mean…Cole was blacked out from the second we left to the second we dropped him off. That was pretty funny to watch. The demo in Lima, Peru: they had like a stadium set up and there was a couple thousand kids. Afterwards we were trying to sell autographs, but the cops were pulling us away saying we were going to start a riot if we don’t leave. After 15 minutes of trying to pull on us. The cops finally pulled us away into this random room. Which turned out to be the city hall were we met the mayor of Lima. We ended up just kicking it with him; he was opening beers up for us, taking pictures. It was unreal, like some iron maiden treatment. That’s just one story I’m barely scratching the surface. It was chaos everyday down there.

I feel all the shep dawgs are turning pro. Who’s going to be the next one to get a name on a board?

It better be AJ. He works so god damn hard. He’s got a full time job now too, and every weekend he’s out there hitting it, no joke. I guarantee when his Slave part comes out, it’s going to fuck people up. He’s just the handrail master.

Do you still skate with him a lot?

As much as I can. You know we hit each other up to hit the skate park when he’s off work. I mean every other weekend will link up and go hit something. I mean he films with other people sometimes and I’m like up in LA sometimes. Were not always together but yeah I see him all of the time. He was at my pro party the other day, which was fucking tight to see him there.

So you said in your thrasher interview that you had enough footage leftover for a second part. When are we going to lay our eyes on that? You going to drop a second part right off the bat?

I don’t know, I mean I wish it worked like that. It took like a year to just put this part out. It’s hard to put stuff out when there’s not a company trying to put a video out. I have a shitload of footage but there’s no reason to put it out. Companies kind of want a piece of it before you do put it out. I was kind of waiting for the mag to line up with like other companies that want to put footage out for me. It just kind of kept getting pushed back and pushed back. I finally got this one out so I feel like it’d be just kind of torturous to try and get another one out. I wish I mean its possible id like too get more shit out this year. The Shep Dawgs video hopefully comes out the end of summer. I got enough for two parts id say.

You guys been doing shep dawg trips for the video? I saw you guys did that RV tour.

Yeah that was fucked. We had like 15-16 dudes in the RV for two weeks. There were shows being played along the way for Riley’s band. Just last weekend me and riley and Jacob and some other homies went out to Vegas, purely for the shep dawgs video. Got a bunch of shit, trying to hit up SF and Albuquerque next month too. Just trying to keep it going.

There was rumor about a deathwish promo coming out soon. Is that still in the works?

I hope so (laughs) I don’t know, those dudes over at Deathwish are always so busy. They always got new things popping up. Every other team rider has something else going on. So it’s really hard to coordinate something coming out. Shoot with Jamie Foy and Jake Hayes, those dudes are just machines. So I’m sure they’ll be able to put out a promo no problem.

So you’ve got that ETN video tomorrow. How’d that come about?

My friend Erik Bragg runs the whole ETN thing. He hit me up to do one of those facemelters, and I picked two spots to do it at. He couldn’t get permits for them. So that kid Milton Martinez, picked staples center hubba. I said fuck it ill skate it with you. Just last week I got a text from Bragg, saying Milton got hurt and that I am going to be skating it by myself. Now I got to skate it by myself, but I got a call from Lizard last night saying that he might want to skate it so hopefully I have a partner. I mean shit the things huge man. I’m thinking just a smith grind. If that is easy, than something else but that thing is huge.

Yeah, that thing looks pretty gnarly, have you ever skated it before or is this the first time?

No! Never! I mean I’ve always kind of looked at it when you’re in the zone. When you’re in the area you kind of have to go check it out. It’s perfect but its just fucking huge.

The thing looks massive, so Smith Grind is going to be your go to?

I mean I hope! Everything else has kind of been done; the easy outs have all been done.

Are you nervous for it at all? It’s kind of a crazy concept.

It is, yeah. I mean I’m a little nervous. They’re paying me so; I don’t really care what happens you know. Land or not, they’re going to pay me a little bit. So I’m stoked, lizard and slash are both going to be there, so they’re my tight bros. It will be pretty mellow. I’ve skated bigger stuff too before so I’m not too worried.

Who have you been skating with the most recently?

Riley and Jacob, our filmer. Riley was filming a lot for his Lakai deadline and he definitely got more than enough footage for it. So it really got the momentum going, so we’ve pretty much been skating everyday down in San Diego. We’ve resparked it; we’ve been hitting it pretty hard.

Were you skating with riley a lot during the filming of the Lakai video?

Yeah…but he’s been hurt. He’s had ankle problem after ankle problem. He would also go off to like Europe or something and I’m not skating with him than. All the San Diego and LA missions definitely though. We skate kind of the similar spots, so it’s been tight to feed of each other.

Is he going to have a pretty fucked up part in that video?

He is going to have the most fucked up part! People aren’t even ready cause there hasn’t been that much riley hype for like the past year since he’s been hurt. But his part is fucked! Just the last 3-4 months for him have been fucking gnarly. He’s been getting it.

What bands have you been listening too recently?

I’ve been pretty much listening to the same bands since I was little. The Judas Priest Painkiller album gets me pretty fired up. Jacob or Riley are usually djing so I don't know just something fast that doesn’t suck.

What’s your current complete set up right now?

Sick, I love that. I’m obsessed with my setup. I feel like its perfected for me. I ride the 8.475 Deathwish boards with some Shake Junt Grip, colored Spitfire Conical wheels preferably 53s or 54s. Bronson Bearings. 159 Indys, and some shake Junt bolts and size 10.5 c1rcas. The Neens!

That’s what you’ve been skating in? The Neens?

Yeah you can jump off the moon an take the impact in them. I love them.

Do you have any shoes in the works? Is that something we can look forward too?

I mean hopefully. Cole turned pro before me and so did Robbie so I’m sure they’re first inline for something. Atleast I hope so, I wouldn’t feel right making something before them. But yeah I can’t wait; I mean I just want to make a perfect shoe. Hopefully in a year or two Ill have something going.

Do you have anything in mind for it, any crazy?

I don't know I’ve been skating c1rcas for so long that id like to try my friends shoes you know. I'd like to skate a Figgy, a Riley and see what I like about theirs and what I don’t like. Kind of just pick the best shoe possible. All I’ve known is what c1rcas made, which is pretty good. But who knows there could be something little different in the build to a shoe out there that I could add to my shoe. I don't know, I want to make it perfect. A little bit of support and a good insole. That’s all that’s really important to me.

Who’s your guilty pleasure skater? Who do you like that know would expect?

Sheckler. Fuck, I grew up in the same town as him and I was never friends with him. Just cause he was older than me and traveling the world. Than senior year in high school, he let me skate his park one day. Than pretty much after that everyday during the week I would come and skate his park after school. He’s just the nicest dude ever. The last few months just recently he’s been all fired up to just skate his park. So my chick lives in San Clemente, so every time I’m down there I just hit him up and go skate his park. The dude is so gnarly. He’s so fucking good at skating, so it’s pretty entertaining. I try to skate with everyone in skateboarding, but he’s just a good dude to skate with. No one would guess that id skate with him.

That’s about all I got for you man, you got any final words you want to send us off with?

Fuck, thanks for wanting to do this interview with me, that kicks ass! Shout out to Shep Dawgs, Deathwish, and my family obviously. Yeah man good shit!

#Deathwish Skateboards #skate warehouse #taylor kirby #shep dawgs

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awed-frog · 7 years

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that comment about what you think about soldiers' motivation is, in my opinion and despite your intention for it not to be, pretty offensive and shows a harmful stereotypical perception. even without immediate threat to their countries, people often sign up for military service just because they want to protect and make a contribution to a safer world. let's say UN blue helmets. would you say most police officers are just hungry for authority and do the job to beat up people?

Hi there - thank you for coming to talk to me about this instead of just assuming I’m a dick or sending me abuse or whatever - I appreciated it a lot. I understand that you’re upset - to be fair, this is a sensitive and complex issue, very close and personal for some people, and where we live and how we grew up is likely to have a huge impact on what we think about it. So, yeah - it was perhaps unkind of me to bring it up in two lines in the middle of an SPN meta. It’s definitely an important debate, though, and an issue which deserves to be discussed, so let’s see if I can make my opinion a little clearer.

First of all, I should say that I’m privileged enough to live in a ‘normal’ country. I’ve never been afraid of the police - quite the opposite - and I recognize both policemen and soldiers do an important job which is necessary to a democratic society. I also know their working conditions are often difficult, if not downright awful, and I appreciate their work as I do that of all civil servants. In fact, that’s why I distanced myself from far left groups years and years ago: their hatred and contempt for cops was starting to grate on my nerves, and the fact some of my ‘friends’ would make plans to isolate policemen during demonstrations in order to beat them up made me nauseous. As Italian artist Pier Paolo Pasolini wrote back in the day, policemen are first and foremost working people who often come from an underprivileged background, so a class war against them makes no sense at all (you can find the poem here in the original Italian and more about the historical context, in English, here).

That said, it’s an open secret that the police tends to attract, and recruit, mostly a specific type of person. In many countries there is an endemic problem because policemen are inevitably revealed to be far right sympathizers, or are otherwise prejudiced against minorities.

(One part of the world which is very close to my heart is Northern Ireland, and today, April 5th, 2017, the region has again vowed to do better and recruit more Catholics into the force. Their numbers are now up to 31%, but it’s still not good enough, and it’s a situation likely to foment or create problems down the line, as all parties are well aware.)

Italy saw one of its biggest scandal almost twenty years ago, when during the demonstrations against the G8 summit taking place in Genoa, about a hundred students were illegally detained, humiliated, beaten and threatened with rape and torture (61 of them had to be treated for mild to serious injuries). More than a hundred policemen were indicted and had to withstand trial, but despite the abundance of incriminating material, none of them was ever punished (English Wikipedia account of the facts). That was by no means an isolated incident. Only one month ago, what should have been a successful example of international cooperation (the neutralization of Anis Amri, the man who’d carried out the deadly Christmas market attack in Berlin) was marred by the revelation that both Italian policemen who’d stopped and killed Anis Amri had a Facebook profile choke-full of Nazi and fascist imagery (English article). There was much embarrassed mumbling on the part of both governments, and some clamour further down - even Breitbart did a piece about it - but ultimately Germany decided against an award for the two policemen, because their political affiliations were perceived to trump their work and efforts to counter terrorism.

(Being on the force, like many other jobs, is usually something that runs in the family, and this is problematic for all those European countries which were still, until few decades ago, military dictatorships. Portugal, Spain, Italy, Greece, not to mention the Balkans and Eastern Europe - there is where you see the biggest problems in regard to who, exactly, chooses to be a policeman and why. In Greece, for instance, the cop who shot a 15-year-old student and unwittingly started the 2008 riots was the direct descendant of a family who’d enthusiastically collaborated with the Nazis in WW2; and the Greek far right movement Golden Dawn has deep links with both the police and the army.)

And if we’re talking about soldiers, all these problems are magnified times a million. Again, I’m lucky enough not to see soldiers all that often, but I’m always wary of them (and I give them a very wide berth whenever I’m abroad) because it’s inevitably groups of loud young men with big weapons, and that’s rarely a safe combination. Here is where you see it again: in theory, being a soldier can be a noble calling (and let’s not mention, because this is not what we’re talking about, those who have no choice but to serve, either because of draconian conscription laws or because they’re too poor and uneducated to have any other choice), but be around career soldiers long enough and a pattern begins to emerge. I was never in the army myself, but I have friends from several countries who served, both in regular armies and in peace-keeping missions, or even combat, and the picture they paint is pretty bleak. According to them, even in the most mundane settings (such as basic training), a Lord of the Flies escalation can occur at any moment, because this is what happens when you stuff twenty young men together and force them to obey pointless orders all day long and punish the whole unit whenever something’s wrong. Hazing is common, and victims never speak up (when they do, they are generally mocked by their superiors and told to man up). Women in uniform are routinely excluded, made fun of, humiliated or (far) worse. The same goes for gay people and minorities. And, again, this is the situation in relaxed, normal circumstances - in peace time, and in your own country. These are simply things that happen out of boredom and a vague desire to establish your alpha status over someone else. When it comes to war, well, I havent yet heard of any army that hasn’t committed horrific crimes against civilians - but, again, this is not what we’re discussing now. Let’s just say that when it comes to the US army, the only force to have training bases in the entire world (and maybe the time has finally come to reconsider that), freak accidents and crimes are pretty common - and normally go unpunished. And I’m not talking about what happens in combat - that would be a whole other discussion - I’m talking about stupid, mindless, violent things some men do when they’re left to their own devices in a military setting. In Okinawa, local people are fed up by the problems caused by American soldiers - stuff including low-level crime, but also rapes and murder. And up in the Italian mountains, the memories of what happened in 1998 are still fresh - it took years to even understand how the events had unfolded, but as far as we know, the pilots of a military plane which had taken off from a nearby American base had simply ignored regulations to have fun - they’d been flying way too low, and, as a result, their plane cut the cable supporting a gondola from an aerial tramway, causing it to crash to the ground. Twenty people were killed, and yet every single soldier involved was acquitted.

So, well, I’m not saying that all soldiers are idiots, Nazi sympathizers or psychos (I never understood this new tumblr thing, by the way - the ‘not all men’ meme, because no, not all men: 90% of the men in my life, for instance, are decent, normal persons, and not part of the problem in any way). Not at all. What I’m saying is, we tend to gravitate towards specific jobs according to our likes, dislikes and general personality - and, in my experience, people who wish to be soldiers are people I don’t have much in common with; and, yes, very often they’re testosteronic young men who just want to dick around with weapons and tanks and, if at all possible, have some ‘fun’, possibly by beating each other up. After all, if you truly want to serve your country, there are many (less exciting and assault rifles-related) ways to do so. Teachers and nurses and garbage collectors and cleaning personnel, just off the top of my head, do far more for their countries than some kid in uniform will ever do (again - I’m thinking about my country here, which is not at war with anyone) and yet you never hear anyone thanking them for their service, or whatever. On the contrary - these professions are often lowly paid and not recognized by society at all. Maybe the world would change for the better if we stopped having so much respect for soldiers and we started thinking that other careers - such as taking care of the elderly, for instance - were a far more honourable choice for young men.

(On how our personalities lead us to specific jobs and how those jobs in turn shape our personalities, I can highly recommend these articles about the link between engineering and terrorism - fascinating stuff, and also scary af. You can read about it here and here.)

#ask #not sure how to tag this #random political opinions?#i'm using 'policeman' as a generic term btw #i'm never sure of how widespread #genderless nouns are in english #anyway #i hope this does a better job #to explain what i think #thanks for reaching out :)

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kickdownthewalls · 6 years

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Top 20 Heavy Metal Albums of 2017

While it has been a tragic year in many respects (natural disasters, mass shootings, data breaches, a political hellscape, etc.), there has been more good music unleashed on the world than ever. I’ve spent the past few weeks trying to narrow down just the stuff I have had a chance to listen to to a top 20 list and finally gave up. So, this year, I am splitting my list in two: one of metal releases and one of everything else.

I’ll start with the metal releases. Several of these are new(er) bands I have discovered through Bandcamp and Youtube, but the majority are long-time favorites. Countries represented this year: USA (x7), Germany (x4), Sweden (x2), Japan (x2), Finland, Norway, Italy, Chile, and the U.K.

Without further ado, here are my top 20 fave metal records (and tapes) of 2017…

20. EVIL - Rites of Evil

Bands that can successfully mix old-school black metal with thrash and/or speed metal always get my attention and Evil from Japan do it pretty damn well. Elements of early (like, REALLY early) Sodom are combined with Hellhammer to great effect, with lots of cool change-ups and a very raw production style.

19. JACK STARR’S BURNING STARR - Stand Your Ground

From his early work with Virgin Steele and amazing solo album with Rhett Forrester (RIP) back in 1984, Jack Starr has had a long and varied career. I was expecting Stand Your Ground to be good, just based on the last record, but damn it is some really top-notch US power metal. Only a few bands are doing this kind of material justice and it’s great to see one of the scene’s legends still out there and at the top of their game.

18. JAG PANZER - The Deviant Chord

It’s been, what, six years since the last Jag Panzer record? Damn good to have them back though and worth the wait. The band’s brand of US power metal is still intact, with a good mix of the faster, heavier stuff and more expansive, melodic songs. It’s not the band’s best album, sure, but it is still a strong return after a long break.

17. RAM - Rod

Ram really knocked it out of the park with their previous album so Rod was bound to be a bit of a disappointment. Still, there are many great songs here and even the six-part conceptual piece that makes up half of the album works remarkably well. Classic heavy metal is alive and well.

16. SATYRICON - Deep Calleth Upon Deep

This one almost didn’t make my list because, frankly, I forgot it came out until I started looking back over the year. Which isn’t to say it isn’t memorable, only that I never got a copy of it to really give it a proper listen. Glad that I finally did, though, because it is a huge return to form after the rather disappointing eponymous release of 2013. The smoldering menace of Now, Diabolical is back in all its glory, with the drums possessing a particularly wonderful, organic thump.

15. MIDNIGHT - Sweet Death and Ecstasy

When it comes to filthy, punky black metal that worships at the altar of Venom, it is hard to beat Midnight. Having said that, No Mercy For Mayhem (2014) was a bit of a let-down after the still-brilliant Satanic Royalty (2011). Sweet Death and Ecstasy is right in between the two, with a couple of slower, more experimental cuts and fairly memorable songs in general.

14. WALPYRGUS - Walpyrgus Nights

Despite a logo and album art that looks more like black or doom metal, this band from Raleigh play a very potent brand of melodic metal with clean vocals and lots of guitar harmonies. Closest comparison I can think of is Immortal Soul-era Riot. Very catchy vocal lines, killer riffs, and strong songwriting all around make this one of the year’s most underrated albums.

13. ACCEPT - The Rise of Chaos

Accept pulled off a miracle by reforming without their iconic singer and then proceeding to release and tour 3 amazing albums in 5 years. While Stalingrad was the highpoint, Blind Rage was still a great album and The Rise of Chaos follows in similar fashion. It has a good mix of modern, heavier tracks like “No Regrets” and really classic-sounding cuts like “Analog Man.” One could argue that the band hasn’t progressed at all (and they would probably be the first to agree), but the release of another quality Accept record simply makes the world a better place.

12. KREATOR - Gods of Violence

Kreator are easy to take for granted, as they deliver an album every few years that is always solid, kick-ass thrash metal with killer production. There are a number of great thrash bands out there (new and old), but I think Kreator are probably the most proficient and dependable of the lot. Gods of Violence is definitely on par with Phantom Antichrist and delivers at least one instant concert classic with “Totalitarian Terror.”

11. MYRKUR - Mareridt

Multi-instrumentalist Amalie Bruun is really evolving her brand of melodic black metal with this record, her second full-length album. One thing I really appreciate about this one is that each song is very distinctive and incorporates many different instruments and vocal styles. The guest appearance by Chelsea Wolfe doesn’t hurt either. One of the few critical darlings that actually deserves the attention.

10. BOLIDO - Heavy Bombers

Chile is turning into a real hotbed for quality metal of all genres lately and Bolido is one of my favorite in the classic vein. They have a real talent for coming up with interesting riffs that are offbeat yet 100% metal. Just check out opening track “The Absolute Dominion of the Skies” and get hooked.

9. SATAN'S HALLOW - Satan's Hallow

The Midwest has been sourcing some great bands in recent years and Chicago’s Satan’s Hallow are right up there with the best of them. Their sound is very reminiscent of the NWOBHM, with plenty of catchy riffs, strong vocals and a healthy dose of speed now and then. More old-school metal for us aging headbangers!

8. ORDEN OGAN - Gunmen

While power metal as a whole has seen better days, certain bands are still out there delivering the goods and Germany’s Orden Ogan are one of my favorites. They manage to combine super-catchy melodies and huge choruses with fast and heavy riffage. Gunmen isn’t quite as good as 2015’s Ravenhead but it is damn close. Bonus: Liv Kristine guest vocal!

7. EMYN MUIL - Elenion Ancalima

Following in the footsteps of Summoning, Italy’s Emyn Muil create epic pieces with a Viking metal flair and lyrics and imagery straight from Middle Earth. Grim vocals are used as another instrument to add to the atmosphere and the songs remain engaging throughout, despite their long running times.

6. VENOM INC. - Ave

I’m not sure exactly what people were expecting from this release but I was actually quite pleased. It continues in the vein of the Prime Evil-era Venom (naturally) but with a bit more of the ferocity of the early years. It is great to see these guys out there playing the classics on stage but I was happy they were also able to deliver a high-quality release of new tunes, too.

5. OUTRAGE - Raging Out

Long one of my favorite thrash bands, Japan’s Outrage went through some interesting turns in the 90s (who didn’t), but they have really returned to form with the last couple releases and Raging Out is one of their best to date. Pure old-school thrash with modern production. Still has some of the Metallica influence from the early days but it’s much less obvious now.

4. MIDNIGHT RIDER - Manifestation

I remember getting this band’s first EP about a decade ago and loving their mix of early Priest and Sabbath but then never heard from them again. Until 2017, when this full album comes out of nowhere and not only lives up to the earlier work but exceeds it in every way. If you ever wish Priest had recorded more albums in the vein of Stained Class and Sad Wings of Destiny, this album is for you. The production and mix are perfect, too, coming across as 1978 with more clarity and impact.

3. VAMPIRE - With Primeval Force

When Vampire first hit the scene, I was skeptical due to the hype and anonymity of the members, plus the debut was kind of underwhelming. Fortunately, their sophomore effort is leaps and bounds better, taking their raw, old-school thrash sound to new levels. They mix speed and brutality with a surprising amount of melody and skilled musicianship and the results are a frenzy of headbanging goodness.

2. MAUSOLEUM GATE - Into a Dark Divinity

This Finnish outfit has been going for a few years now and never disappoints with their wonderfully eclectic mix of heavy metal, 70s hard rock, doom, and organ-heavy weirdness. Hints of Uriah Heep, BOC, Judas Priest, and Candlemass all shine through, but no description can really capture the band’s unique sound. Every track is epic in feel, even the shorter ones.

1. SANHEDRIN - A Funeral For The World

The cover and title scream ‘doom metal’ but Brooklyn trio Sanhedrin tend more toward the likes of classic Diamond Head or… I don’t even know what. They cover a lot of ground and, yes, even some doom territory with the title cut, but it’s never anything less than killer, memorable metal. Can’t wait to see what this band does in the future.

As I said earlier, narrowing this list down to just 20 was a major chore. Of the bands that were very serious contenders but just didn’t quite make it are the latest from: ALDIOUS, ALPHA TIGER, ARCH ENEMY, BATTLE RAIDER, CONDOR, CULT OF EIBON, DEMON EYE, THE FERRYMEN, GOD DETHRONED, ICE AGE, L.A. GUNS, LADY BEAST, LIMBONIC ART, LYZZARD, MALLEUS, NIGHT, NIGHT VIPER, OBITUARY, OVERKILL, PORTRAIT, SEVEN KINGDOMS, SHAKRA, SLAEGT, SORCERER, STALKER, STRIKER, TYFON'S DOOM, URN, VHÄLDEMAR, VINTERSORG, and VULTURE.

On top of that, there were many excellent demos, 7” singles, and EPs this year. My favorites came from BOMBER, COVEN, CRIME, CROWN OF COMMAND, CULT OF EIBON, DREADFUL FATE, FORGED IN BLACK, FREEWAYS, HAUNT, KROSSFYRE, LUCIFER'S HAMMER, MIDNIGHT PREY, ORNASSI PAZUZU, POUNDER, ROCK GODDESS, and SPEEDCLAW. Rock Goddess in particular was nice to see back in action and I hope they manage to release a full album next year because the EP was very promising (despite the less than sterling production).

As good as the year was, I think 2018 has the potential to be a stunner. New albums from the mighty JUDAS PRIEST and SAXON are on the way soon, not to mention MONSTER MAGNET, SUMMONING, WHITE WIZZARD, LOUDNESS, TRIBULATION, POSSESSED, RIOT V, and VOIVOD. Plus… IMMORTAL… maybe? Finally?? It was promised in 2017 so here’s hoping it will finally appear. And maybe a new HADES ALMIGHTY, too? Stranger things have happened…

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