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it's not even in english either so it's not like i'm learning anything being here lmaoooooo
#being at the masjid always makes my religious guilt worse and makes me overstimulated and makes me wanna die#its always This specific one too that tends to be worse but#even though im a fully grown adult i have to go because if i fucking dont my mom guilt trips me š#i already get pestered about praying and reading quran and durood sharif every day like Oh my fucking god leave me alone#like sorry but . atp im not worried about hell when im actively tryibg not to feel like ending it all!#txt
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Hiiiiii, so I read a fic where Aqua went to his old home and his daughter is all grown up. He had a wife in his previous life and I want your take on it please. But I read your rules that you wonāt do requests that involved kids and marriage so Iām not sure if this counts. If it does, then Iām just happy that I get to share this concept I saw and see what you think about it :)
No cuz I actually really like this ideaā¦ so, Iāll let it slide
Logically: Reader will be older than Aqua becauseā¦ yeah. It works like that soā¦~~ Iām also having a hard time like placing what age theyād be because like I donāt know how easy itās be for reader to believe him that like āyeah bro Iām your dead dad that got reincarnatedā so I justā¦???? But I donāt want to make them too old either because Mr doctor man was like ~~32? So like.
Also the doctor is a loser man with my gf bcs heās an idol otaku so like that would just be very unbelievable if he had like a whole thing but Iāll stop
I donāt think I have the time or emotional capacity to write a full fic for it right now, but Iāll write bullet pointsā¦
Aqua/The Doctor (Goro) with Past-Daughter!Reader
SPOILERS AHEAD.
For the sake of my brainās health, Iāll say that you were 7 when Goro went āmissingā.
Which would mean that he was 25 when you were conceived. And the perfect age where you could have some sort of recollection of him in your life.
When Aqua goes back to his hometown, originally it was intention to find his old bodyās corpse, however, the old nurse he used to work with that had his child slipped his mind.
āGoro Amamiya, has their been any information on him after he went missing?ā Aqua asked, the person at the front desk of the hospital shook her head, āAh, I seeā¦ā Aqua turned his head to look back at Akane who was sitting on a lounge chair, fiddling with her phone, āWhat about Nurse Nozaki?ā
The Nurse does not actually have a canon name I could find, so I just came up with something! (The āNurseā character im talking about it the woman who was commenting on Goroās obsession with Ai and love for Sarina.)
Another addition for this story is that the Nurse is about a year older than Goro, meaning she was 26 when she gave birth to the reader. And in current time, she would be about ~50 years old.
āOh! Nurse Nozaki left to take a well needed vacation with her husband two days ago, you just missed her!ā The worker paused for a second and put a finger on their chin, āWhat is it that you needed to talk to her about?ā
āItās aā¦ family matter I wanted to talk to her about.ā Aqua lied through his teeth, though he wasnāt directly lying. After all, that was his past daughter he was trying to find.
āWell then, Nurse Nozaki has her kid live close by, their somewhere in town here.ā The worker rummaged through the computer, āAh, here. Important information for Nurse Nozaki. Iāll give you her line number andā¦ā
Aqua hates the way the worker didnāt double check on his true intentions, but he was still grateful on how he could still see his daughter thanks to that. He did the math in his head, if his ādaughterā was 7 when he went missing, then now youād be a fully fleshed adult.
He considered just letting his past life go and leave you be, but he still wanted to be able to see what youāre up to. Who you grew up to be, fuck, even if you even remembered your father.
Aqua ordered Akane to stay back, but to his dismay, she came along with him anyway. He quickly snuck the address into his phone, and followed the route until he saw you standing outside making a phone call.
He couldnāt be sure that it was you at first, but he could take his chances, after all, he wasnāt planning on staying here for too long. Though, the person standing before him did look like you. Same hair color, same eyes, same marks on the body. What made it more evident was your personality, it wasnāt easy examining it from a distance, but the phone call seemed to be enough for him.
It was you.
Now, how should he approach you?
āAkane,ā Aqua tilted his head to look at her, āHow would you approach someone you used to be really close to butā¦ grew apart as life went on?ā
āOh! Hmm, letās seeā¦ it really depends on their personalityāā
Iām gonna cut off Akane there because, hah, I donāt think I can fit the perfect personality for everyone so yeah.
But Aqua would lie to get to know you, pretend that he was a childhood friend of yours that you just so happened to have forgotten.
āMy name is Aqua, your mom gave me your address. We played together when we were younger.ā Aqua lied.
āOh! Aqua! Yeah, that rings a bell.ā You lie right back, he didnāt know if thatās just how you always acted or if you were just trying to be kind, āWhat brings you here?ā
āI just thought that we could catch up with each other, thatās all.ā He sat on the curb in front of you, which you follow quickly after, āLikeā¦ how is your love life going?ā
You went on to explain things going on with your life, even though you werenāt quite sure if he was an actual stranger or someone you once knew, you still felt somewhat of a bond.
Then Aqua went on to investigate you on his old self, more importantly, how you felt about him.
āOh, well, my father has been missing for 17 years now. Heās probably dead, butā¦ I always thought heād come back home.ā You get teary eyed, āHe never did though soā¦ I guess I lost hope. Either that or he did just run away, but I doubt heād do that.ā
āā¦ He sounds like a good man.ā Aquaās eyes darken, he couldnāt dare to look you in the eyes, āAnd you sound like a good girl. Iām sure we wouldāve come back to you.ā
āThanks, friend.ā
A few hours later, Akane and Ruby would find Goroās body.
Guess who was their to comfort you?
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Akane is best girl btwā¦
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not being funny, not being melodramatic i hope, but i feel like the last year has broken me in a lot of ways. 2023 i mean. i watched a long term relationship disintegrate in my hands until the ultimate betrayal of my trust and safety. i was so stressed and so fucked up all the time.
and now like, i can feel im withdrawing from my friends, im engaging in unhealthy behaviors i will not specify here, despite it all im more lonely than ive ever been, my hobbies are starting to feel like dust in my mouth, and while i'm not actively suicidal, the thought isnt far from my mind in that nasty intrusive thought sort of way.
there are nice things. i have the place to myself. the bed to myself. its quiet. but i feel like ive exhausted the amount of patience people have with me talking about what ive gone through. and as is the nature of things i dont feel as though ive built character or come through hardened. i feel mad. hurt. i want to hurt xer back somehow. take something back because something was taken from me. i feel like i have no recourse. god knows if xe'll hurt someone like xe hurt me again. but thats not even my primary motivation. i just hate feeling like theres nothing. no justice. no satisfaction. nothing that makes being raped a more tolerable experience, which is a silly thing to say. but you understand, right? like, sure i could post somewhere highly visible "In December of 2023 well known SCP Wiki author UraniumEmpire sexually assaulted me" but like what would that accomplish? it sure would put me under a microscope. its a surreal sentence too. hard to explain why. maybe its ultraminor celebrity combined with knowledge that inevitably it can just be denied and nobody will listen.
you know before now i never really noticed how much people fetishize sexual assault? "CNC" and the like. i dont care for it. i dont think they know. its frustrating as an adult online trying to navigate adult spaces. i know its an odd topic, but im fully stream of consciousness right now. i'll see something and it hits me in the gut and so i block the user or close the thing or leave the discord call. yet another addition to the list of things that make my tastes so exacting.
i feel like i should come to some overall point but the only thing coming to mind right now is just 'i hate this'. and i do. i hate this so much. i'm crying a lot more. at stupid things. weird things. memories. dreams. this post. the funny thing is that despite it all, despite the content, despite everything, i hope people read it. i like feeling like i exist. i like feeling real to other people. reminding folks that im not just a joke machine. i have an internal world. i have had a life that's lead me here and despite advantages it has not been good.
did i ever talk about how my high school graduation went? odd digression, bear with me. i feel like its emblematic of how things typically go for me. it's the day i graduate high school. i come downstairs to find my mother on skype with my kansas family. my grandfather is dying. they put him on skype. i watch him die over skype. after sitting alone for some time, i tell my parents i do not want to go through with high school graduation. i am forced to regardless. it is the most miserable day of my life. nobody listens to what i need in the moment. i go through with it, and then we are all shepherded to some kind of entertainment center. for reasons i cannot fathom, we are not allowed to leave for a couple hours. enforced fun time. they bring a stage hypnotist. i sit in silence and watch his antics. i get up and ask one of the people supervising us if i can leave now. they finally say yes. my mother takes me home. she asks if i have a nice time. i say of course i didnt. we drive home in silence.
i have have very rarely felt understood. very rarely felt like i was built to exist in the world. i feel as though i have an expiration date beyond the obvious one. i have grown older and watched people i know operate normally in the world and wondered how they do it. it never clicked for me. autism, transness, otherings. experts looked at me, told me i needed accommodations. never really got them, or they didnt help.
this is getting too long. i asked myself partway through if this was a suicide note but concluded that it wasn't. this is primarily because im scared if i die, they'll separate my cats. adopt them to different homes. they're best friends, they should not be kept apart. i love my cats, even when they're breaking shit and tearing open trash bags.
final paragraph. this whole post thing is probably going to sound embarrassing to me when i have hindsight on it. oh well. i am going to hit the post button now.
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uncommon (?) hc time. upon rewatching some of the og series and reboot ive become fairly certain that the warners (even the youngest) are, in fact, inteded to be teens. in this bulleted list i will
no but really
when i was younger i used to think 'huh these kids act weird for their age sometimes. its like theyre not even really little kids.' as much as i coo over their cute shenanigans, i can't really see them as anything 12 or under?
the warners are all at least teens. here's why
[youtube countdown video intro music]
their ages are never actually explicity stated in canon
their heights are pretty much meaningless. the tiny toons cast are meant to be teens yet are often half or even a third the size of bugs bunny. he's also small for the record, like many other adult toons
playing child or childish roles on the in-universe show is similarly meaningless. older kids/teens are easier to direct than younger ones (though the warners are difficult at times lol)
they constantly break character and the fourth wall in ways that betray older sensibilities, taste, and knowledge
having pitched-up voices isn't an age-specific thing for toons
in the reboot their voices aren't even pitch-shifted, making them sound older
the teen-level potty humor and dirty jokes (do you remember being 13? i do. if you think some of the innuendos in animaniacs are bad, i can guarantee you real middle schoolers were/are far worse)
wakko drinking grog. his 'liquorice' [liquor-ish] problem. also stating he'd 'try anything once' (bet he enjoyed woodstock lol)
i think people mistake wakko's wackiness and earnesty for stupidity and youthful ignorance. fanon really flattens him to just being 'the dumb cute puppy' sometimes
i don't think a case really needs to be made for yakko. he's the archetypal teenage boy character in many ways
dot is just as bad as her brothers LMAO
the warners all flirt like teens
they've referenced going on 'serious' dates before
literally just watch the show. what 9-11 year olds consistently act like that lmao
this part of the series bible (which as a whole i don't consider entirely canon but the bible is obviously is the basis of the entire og series)
personally, i dont care what tom said in that podcast episode. i relistened to the part where he claims they're '9, 11, 14' or whatever and it sounded like he threw those numbers out on the spot LOL. the actual show gives an entirely different impression imo
not to mention its boring always being beholden to word of god
[as a sidenote, the hc that the warners are actually fully grown adults playing children is really fucking funny to me. imagine being a dwarf toon, sounding like chip and dale's chipmunk voices, and you run around the rest of your immortality getting away with murder because everything thinks you're a cute kid. like baby from WFRR but rubberhose. big 'woman who played a 9-year old in orphan first kill' energy too]
in the end it doesnt matter a ton to me? im still gonna play around with their ages in fic like always. this new teen hc mostly informed how i see wakko and dot now, because they start making a lot more sense in my head
ive also started taking a liking to the 'wakko and dot are twins' headcanon but that's for another post
#delete later probably#i actually dont know how popular this hc is#and i dont care cause its mine now#so if youre gonna be rude abt it i suggest u go somewhere lol
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Girl, you are "30-ish" and you are choosing to support a person who has insulted, disrespected, and made homophobic and racist remarks about his employer, co-workers, and co-partner as a grown ass adult man. Not to mention the sexist/antifeminist remarks he's made about his fans...
Miss me with that bullshit.
"Under the influence" of Poi? Seriously? He could kill a person in broad daylight and you brainwashed delulus wouldn't find blame in him.
Regardless of whether those "private messages" were leaked or not, he was talking absolute vile shit about the people who treated him, if not like family, then as a friend and nong, all along. Does that knowledge not unsettle you?
Can you even imagine the type of pain Bible is going through right now knowing that Build said all that condescending shit about him that after trusting and confiding in him?
Defending a shitty "friend" and co-worker is really the hill you want to die on?
Don't give me that crap about being "under the influence" when this man gave as good as he got. He said it himself. Or are you also choosing to close your eyes to that as well?
Grow the fuck up and stop being an apologist to a shitty ass person. How would you like it if someone you trusted as a friend was talking such utter crap as early as this year?
But of course, people like you are more concerned over the feelings of a snake you don't even know instead of everyone in the company he has interacted with and has been hurt and betrayed with those nasty ass comments.
Seriously, review your morals.
Ask yourself if you would like to be around a person like him if you were in their shoes. I bet you you wouldn't. He's a grown adult man who can be held accountable for his own shitty actions, being in a toxic relationship is not an excuse to being shitty to other people who have never treated you maliciously. I really got to tell you that?
Okay, I think the fact that I read through all of that gotta mean I'm really bored as hell.
Anyway. Bad news for you, but my morals are shit. I'm not a perfect angel and Im don't expect other people to be perfect.
I have "disrespected my employer" a million times. I have cursed my boss to hell and back in PRIVATE CONVERSATIONS WITH FRIENDS. I bitched about my fave coworker who I sincerely loved being able to work from home whenever her kid was sick while they couldn't find a way for me to do so for a few days when I fucked up my back and could barely move. I loved her, but I still bitched because I was fucking frustrated. And I bitched about smaller, completely insignificant things.
And guess what. I BITCH ABOUT MY FRIENDS TOO! Even though I love them, I do bitch about them when they do something that makes me angry. And hey. This is the best thing. I fully expect them to bitch about me too! Would I want to read their texts where they bitch about me? Nah. But if someone came to me and showed me those texts? I would be SO MAD... at the bitch who showed me. Not my friends.
(Shocking news, it's been less than twelve hours since I last bitched about my friend for the mere fact that she caused us to be late to a concert at a festival. I will burn in hell.)
Yes, anyway, I forgot most of the rest of your wall of text, so thank you for your ask, it really warmed my heart this morning, and congratulations to you for never having been a victim of a toxic, hateful person so you don't know how much effort it takes to protect yourself from the vile shit they spew about other people and stop yourself from accepting their shitty opinions as yours without even realizing you're doing it. I'll lend you my mother if you want. And one of my friends.
Sincerely,
A bitch that will rather burn in hell with Build than spend the eternity in heaven with all you perfect assholes š
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Smol rant
So I'm actually getting really bothered by some people in this fandom that are pushing kimchay as like, this intense fantasy where barcode and Jeff have to be together because of the romantic setup in thier characters and how they get along. I get that, they're super cute and honestly I love thier storyline BUT barcode is eighteen and Jeff is twenty seven.
I don't believe age differences are an issue but this one is. It doesn't matter if they are potraying a relationship, the fact still stands, barcode is eighteen. He's probs still living with his parents, going to school, He's still essentially a kid. Jeff is a grown ass man no matter how young he looks. In the show he clearly potrays someone younger but that doesn mean he is goddamit.
I really love Jeff but it would be super worrying if turns out they were dating. This type of age gap, ten years wouldn't be problem if barcode were 25 for example because although it's not great, he would be an adult, he would have a foundation of independence and self discovery that would allow him to genuinely understand his wants and dislikes but at 18? Nope, not happening, the kid probably doesn't even know how a real relationship works and this isn't a moment for 'mentorship'.
An age difference where one party is literally a teen (so not adequately prepared for a serious relationship) and the other is already a fully fledged adult is pretty predatory and before anyone says 'oh but what if they're actually really mature etc ' no. No they're not.
You could have lived any number of situations that made you prematurely grow up and have a serious mentality but that DOES NOT MEAN YOU SHOULD BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE SO MUCH OLDER THAN YOU.
One of the top things older people say to these teens is 'youre so mature for your age' and that is literally them acknowledging something happended to you and that they're gonna take advantage of it
And so many people are dragging racism and homophobia into this but it has nothing to do with that. PREDATORY BEHAVIOUR IS STILL PREDATORY BEHAVIOUR REGARDLESS OF THE ORIENTATION OR RACE EITHER PARTY HAS.
Pointing out that this particular age gap is inappropriate is not agreeing with colonization, it's not agreeing with homopic rhetoric it's pointing out that one is them is literally still a kid.
It's so annoying because pushing this idea of 'well teens have sex and kiss etc' is so fucked, yeah teens have sex, doesn't mean they're capable of doing so responsibly! Not to mention the immediate discrepancy in power there is with this particular age gap. It's just not the same and it's so infuriating.
Now we move into the people saying, 'im 17 and I don't see anything wrong with it' OF FUCKING COURSE YOU DONT SEE WHATS WRONG WITH THIS YOURE EATING UP AN AGE OLD IDEA THAT LITERALLY ONLY EXISTS SO THAT OLDER PEOPLE CAN PREY ON BARELY ADULTS IN A WAY THATS 'JUSTIFIED' .
I'm so tired, this is ridiculous and even though the whole kimchay thing isn't that intense, it bothers me cos like, if the conversation was yes they're cute but we have to be responsible when talking about age differences then that'd be fine but there are people spitting bullshit about how teens can and should be with MUCH older people and that is so dangerous and frankly disgusting on their part.
#kinnporsche#kinnporsche the series#kimchay#kinnporsche la forte#personal rant#so fucked up#thai bl#dont spread misinformation#some peopl are such assholes#genuinely so frustrated#its so annoying when people drag unrelated shit to support their bullshit idea#this fandom was doing so well#for fucks sake
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god do you also get scared when your parents are angry even though you're an adult?? i feel like crying and my heart goes crazy and i want to hide im terrified of their anger and i always seem to be the cause
hi yeah i totally know what you mean - i think a lot of ppl do, for those who were raised by fear, that's always going to be the go-to reaction unfortunately. so i like my dad, but i'm trying to get really good at talking to him in a way that doesn't set him off. i know if is say the slightly wrong thing at the slightly wrong time, esp if he's had smth to drink, it's going to end badly. so i've been trying to learn to not outwardly react or entertain it as much. but it's like navigating a landmine. i also feel like crying, and my heart goes mad and i feel kind of sick whenever i make a misstep, it's awful. i wanted to say that i know it's easy to internalise guilt and self-blame when this happens, but i think it's important to understand that they are the only people responsible for how they express their own anger. it's up to them to communicate like a mature human being, and if they refuse to even try, then you don't have to give their words any credence at all. it says everything about them and their own lack of emotional intelligence / empathy, and nothing about you. you're not the cause, you're just witnessing their bullshit.
they are are grown adults. nothing you ever do or say means that you deserve to feel so unsafe around people who are supposed to protect you, and be there for you and take care of you. yes, even if you're not a kid anymore. it's not right and it's not your fault, and it's not a sign that you're doing something wrong either. some people are just shitty individuals and even shittier parents, but that's never going to be on you. obviously, we can't just stop feeling scared, or simply "get over it" - especially when this response has been ingrained in us since childhood - it sounds like your parents have been putting you through a lot of crap for a long time, and your brain is acting intuitively based off of that mistreatment. i understand that that can take years to truly work through, maybe the entirety of our adult lives. these thinking patterns are burned into your mind + your core beliefs, which is partially what makes it all so fucking unfair, so painful and disorienting.Ā but we can start with grounding ourselves in reality via self compassion, we can start by reminding ourselves that it's not our job to make ourselves small to avoid our parent's toddler tantrums. we can start with emotionally or literally distancing ourselves from toxic individuals to preserve our own mental health, we can start with considering therapy or other avenues of support i.e a hotline or a support group - maybe that feels drastic to you, but i'm trying to get across how worrying this ask is and how much you deserve to feel listened to, to feel like you have options beyond it. because you do, even if they take a while to open up to you fully. anyway, i won't ramble for too long but just know i completely get where you're coming from, and i'd fucking eat ur parents alive if i could. if you need a friend or anything, don't hesitate to say hi in the inbox, i'll be willing to lend an ear. ur absolutely not alone. sending you a huge hug. please take care of yourself and fuck the rest! x
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Hey, quick warning, it's not about assault but this is a lot of me talking about sex and being sexual and being sexualised and sexually harassed for being trans and queer and if you are uncomfortable with that you have every right to scroll on past.
Proceed with caution homies
I am so sick of every conversation I have eventually leading to boiling me down to my sex. I have wonderful friends who accept me and I can talk about sex with (our whole shtick is being extremely homoerotic) without it getting uncomfortable or misogynistic.
But with my classmates its different. To them I am no longer a person. I am not my drawings or my skills or my personality or my sense of humor or my friends or the music I like or anything like that. I am merely a vessel for them to project everything they hate about the queer community onto.
But they, subconsciously, don't see me as binary either. I'm not a real girl or a real boy to them. I am both a failed man and a failed woman. I am not a person, just a stain on the gender system they've been taught. Even one has called me "both a man and a woman" even though he's made it clear he doesn't think it's a possibility.
To them, I am only my genitals and what sex I'd hypothetically be having if I wanted to. They don't need to know what I've got to assume things. If they think I have a penis, then I'm a pedophile. If they think I have a vagina, I'm literally just a fleshlight trying to be a human.
I'm just a kid. I just wish I could escape the constant sexualization put on me by everybody. Even my PARENTS talk to me about abstinence before I go to a friend's house (my mom is much more normal about it, I think my dad is just real bad at social norms and what makes people uncomfortable).
I want that to be a choice that I make.
I want to be allowed to say sexual shit to my friends and be sexual with them without being objectified by people uninvolved with us.
I want to be allowed to talk about being queer without someone immediately asking me about my sex life (including adults. Can people please stop asking how I have sex I am 14 and ace and very uncomfortable). It's endless conversations with nothing but "do you have a penis?" "Can I watch?" "Do you guys scissor?" When all I said was my QPP is non binary and we kiss sometimes
I want to be allowed to make jokes about being horny and hormonal and flirting without creepy grown men trying to hit me up on deviant art (I've had to block 3 already because I draw my sona with big hips, because it's an exaggerated version of my actual body).
I want to be allowed to act sexual and look and feel sexy FOR MYSELF because it's fucking fun. I like dressing skimpy and I like talking about having sex and I like acting like, for lack of a better term, a whore, because it's fucking fun.
And you can think whatever you want about that. But at the end of the day, I want to be allowed to do all that myself, without people twisting it into something misogynistic and transphobic and creepy and gross, just because im queer and AFAB.
Hell, I have an increased chance of being intersex, and I don't even know if I am or not! I could have XY chromosomes but a weird mix of chemicals and not even know it. I could have turner syndrome or hyperandrogyny and literally never know it. But because I've got boobs and hips and a high voice, people assume I have to be a fully binary woman and have to conform to everything associated with women ever.
It's exhausting. God damn.
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well, in one hour i will no longer be a teenager, and it feels really weird. i know im definitely not alone in this but i do not feel that old, and maybe my autism doesn't help with that either, but even though im still relatively young i feel like im already letting my life slip away, like im going to miss stuff that haven't even supposed to happen yet. with my general apathy towards things im not interested in and severe lack of discipline combined i feel like i know im gonna miss out on so many things. it could be that its just fomo and i wouldt even like those things anyway, for example i know i dont like to go to parties mainly because i dont drink, but for some reason i still want to go to parties even though i know i wouldnt like it.
my biggest fear in all this is relationships (and maybe transitioning but thats for another time), ive never had a relationship, never kissed someone, hell ive never even had a crush. from all i see around me it seems amazing to have a relationship and i think that i would like it a lot as well, but for some reason ive never felt that drive to get a relationship. like in my mind a relationship is like something extra, some kind of luxury or so, like yeah i would like to have it but i dont need it. but because of everything really, i feel like im missing out on it despite the fact that i seemingly dont really need it. i feel the same way towards sex(which ive also never done(shocker)) like yeah it seems amazing but i just dont really care for it i guess.
ive always called myself bisexual because of what i said earlier about still kinda wanting to have a relationship and sex, but the thought that i might be aro/ace has always been on the back of my mind, and to be honest that kind of scares me
20 seems so old to me, when i think of 20 year olds i already imagine fully grown adults, i am not a fully grown adult, im a fucking child. but i dont need to say this, it has already been said a million times in a million different ways, and a million times better worded than anything i could ever write
if you read all this it probably doesnt make any sense, so sorry for that i guess im just not very good with words, but also why did you even read this lol as a reward have this picture:
update: yaaaay im fuckin tweny now wohoo i habing so much fun
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i have andra on the mind. im gonna talk abt her.
well specifically her and grimms daughter (who ive named timori, i cant remember if i said that or not) but yknow
mostly ive just been thinking about timoriās personality, and how she is with her baby siblings and the rest of the troupe
sheās a VERY chaotic character. loud and outgoing and not afraid to speak her mind, and willing to beat the ever loving fuck out of a mf for someone she cares about (or if she just doesnāt like them). she acts like a teenager despite being a fully grown adult half-god and i find that very funny
sheās a little overprotective of her siblings ā some people who summon the troupe arenāt too trustworthy in her eyes, so sometimes sheāll follow the summoner around to make sure theyāre taking proper care of the grimmchild, and if not, sheāll step in (and kick their ass, if she deems it necessary).
i like to think that timori helped run the performance during the events of the game, or at the very least that she was present while ghost was doing their thing. since andra knew holly (and genuinely really cared about them), she immediately pointed out ghostās similarities to them to grimm, and bc he loves his wife, grimm assigned timori with keeping an eye on them to make sure there wasnāt anything they really needed to worry about.
timori, who adores her mom and dad with her whole heart and knows what went down in hallownest to make andra leave, agrees to do that, and so she spends most of her time in hallownest trying to keep tabs on ghostās activities when she knows where the hell they are (that bastard is FAST, and REALLY good at hiding). by doing that, she found the variety of vessel corpses just laying around the kingdom, and she was like āoh shit, are there multiple?ļæ¼??????ā
and when she saw ghost going down into the abyss, she took a peek herself, saw the floor LITERALLY MADE OF MILLIONS OF VESSELS, and was like āoh shit, there are multipleā
this revelation made andra understandably upset and distressed. infanticide aināt cool, man!
anyway. after the events of the game, andra feels kinda obligated to return to hallownest every once in a while to check up on ghost (holly and ghost looked almost exactly the same as kids, and andra loved holly with every fiber of her being, so she felt immediately attached to ghost when she met them), and also to see the grimmchild again, even though the troupe usually doesnāt do that. they do it this time, though, and andra had a mental breakdown when she saw holly again. and a panic attack when the shade lord appeared out of fuck-knows-where bc the grimmchild wanted to say hi.
after that unreasonably funny interaction, timori and her baby sibling are reunited and have a grand old time traveling the whole kingdom with their parents (and holly, because they missed andra and wanted to tag along)
all in all, timori is a great kid, sheās just like me fr, and she and her dad constantly joke about their shared transness and the fact that they traded genders.
timori is transfem, and i hc grimm as transmasc. this makes for some lovely goofs in the troupe tent.
ok im done now š
#hk#hollow knight#hk au#hollow knight au#au#my au#hk oc#hollow knight oc#oc#my oc#oc: andra#oc: timori#oc x canon#hk grimm#the grimm troupe#hk ghost#hk little ghost#hk the knight#hk thk#hk hollow#the hollow knight#hk normalcy#*normal sounds*#love these little bastards so much. i really need to make more content abt them#god i need to redesign andraā¦ and make timoriās ref sheetā¦ā¦. and grimmās ref sheetā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦..#also fun fact: ghost gave the grimmchild a name bc they didnt want to just call them āgrimmchildā#so grimmchildās name is flame now :)#yeah ghostās not the best at naming things
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It's been a while since i last used this blog for anything cos i stopped thinking about my OCs for a while. BUT i saw this one prompt of "get to know your OCs as 1) a child 2) a teen 3) an adult"
And somehow im just really excited. I have a ton of OCs tbh and nothing will make sense to anyone here since I don't really talk about them they just exist in my head. BUT ANYWAY.
The Very Sorry Series
My most dysfunctional children (affectionate). Conceived when my brain was majorly fucked in one way. (Differently fucked today)
Haley
As a child: Grew up in a villain lair, following her mom around like a terrified duckling, silently absorbing literally everything around her like a sponge
As a teen: academically excellent, incredible at masking already at this point, still largely quiet, mother has lost it and around this point has been instilling in her the idea of Villain Excellence and finishing what her mother started
As an adult: fully functional on the outside and completely dysfuntional on the inside, full on villainy and wrecking shit and getting insanely bruised up but then turning up to her senior management job the next morning with full-face makeup as if there's nothing wrong, all her villain activity are basically dramatic self-harm and suicide attempts (shhhh dont tell anyone that)
Justin
As a child: sunshiney and cute, many kisses to his puffy little cheeks, daring and adventurous, already has powers but no one really figures it out for some reason
As a teen: constantly failing class, trying hard at everything but only thing he is good at are his powers, which he tries not to use all the time. Except there's this villain in town who keeps disturbing the peace... so he steps up once in a while
As an adult: unable to hold a single job or partner, his best friend is his biggest nemesis, he basically borrows her money all the time because he literally cannot hold down the fort by himself, he is beside himself with grief because he doesn't know how he can continue living as someone who basically cannot function in society, despite society needing him to save it
Dave
As a child: high awareness, already noticed a lot of people who treat him like he's stupid (calls him a r*tard), has dyslexia, already liked drawing, had loving parents (oh wow revolutionary) but he kept a lot of things to himself so unresolved issues
As a teen: more drawing, the ArtTM kid, develops intense crushes on the Baddest Girl in school, was a sorta sweater geek, a little bit bullied in school but not target practice, timid but kind, does not see much worth in himself
As an adult: comic book artist, very last-minute with his work, insanely in love with his next door neighbour who can clearly kick his ass (somehow gets even more obsessed with her after finding her bleeding out in villain costume), still timid and still kind, still near zero self-worth
Kirsten
As a child: knew she was trans, very oddball and offputting child, would eat bugs and is fascinated with all those "horrible history" books and stuff like that
As a teen: crazy vibes, people steered clear away from her, knew of haley and thought she was your average top scorer, beginning to dabble in tons of home experiments and stuff, halfway through transition but also uhhh it's almost all home-made or villain-adjacent-sourced
As an adult: transitioned and incredibly happy with all the self-modifications she's done, is The Villain Scientist (you cant be in the villain industry and not know her), weirdly enough the most functional person in this series because at least she has no self-harming/deprecating behaviours, very worried about every single one of her friends though because none of them are doing well, still a Weird Girl though
Grown to love water
Conceived during the period I was figuring out asexuality (and looking back, aromanticism), also body negativity stuff. But yeah, my softest most painful boys
Leon
As a child: happy little selkie child, loved by his community, big dreams of going to the surface, a bit of a romantic who dreams of a very traditional selkie romance (all the pelt stuff)
As a teen: first gf! Very nervous and giggly child, things are going well but he slowly gets very insecure about his body which causes him to distance from his gf, gf breaks up with him bc he isnt fulfilling much of her (sexual and emotional) needs and he just keeps backing off
As a young adult: (bc this story goes through a lot of phases) is in the surface world but at what cost? At the peak of his insecurity and low self-worth, hes a round guy (selkie blessings and human... not-so-blessings), awkward nerd, studies marine biology (for some reason??? Idk why, today, i'd say hes a geology major), MAJOR depression, intensely insecure about being a virgin for some reason and would do literally *anything* to lose it (except going out to meet people) until one day he meets a siren and is like: I'll let you eat me if you fuck me
As an older adult: still sorta depressed but he's recovering, no longer a virgin yay, much more secure in himself though, (mostly) knows hes a fricking gem, still chubby (important), also has a beautiful siren sorta-husband??? It's complicated lol but they have rings and stuff
Devon
As a child: smart, pretty, fawned over because hes a rare male siren, smug little bastard who knows he can get away with most things because he's cute
As a teen: started with the siren stuff, majorly fucked up because of that, welp he frequently has pedos for lunch i guess, notices differences between himself and most other people, oh oops! He can't love!, no new connections with others
As a young adult: loves to flirt and fuck around, still knows he can get away with most shit, same major as leon, knows the massive crush Leon has on him and takes advantage of it, a bit frustrated that Leon never rises to the bait so he can't eat him (but only because Leon never thinks the flirting is real), grows a soft spot for Leon as a friend
As an older adult: is leon's sorta-husband, loves Leon in his own way and enjoys the stability that Leon offers, still out there knowing he can get away with most shit, no longer fucking any of the men he eats anymore because he has a very horny selkie to satisfy, would love to be a trophy husband but unfortunately works to pay the rent, very touchy and constantly stirs Leon up on purpose, loves feeling loved
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Rivalry Put To Rest
Pairing - Zhongli x Fem!Reader
Warnings - Arranged marriages (non of that under age like child marriages though fuck that yuck, these are obviously of age adults i just really wanna make that clear jesus), praise kink, modern AU, just lovely soft sex with my favorite man :'^).
Word Count - 2.4k
Other Comments - Dude itās been so long since ive actually written anything im so sorry. But i couldn't resist writing this. I know i promised xiao but he will come in time. This is a little bit of a slow burn, or at least the sex doesnt start right away lol i want this to be nice and soft. P.s. youre on birth control so dont worry about no condom lol.
You did not like this idea. Why your parents were still forcing you into this was beyond you seeing as how you were a fully grown ass adult. You just couldnāt stomach the disappointment you would be seen as in their eyes. You were the daughter to the CEO of one of the most well known Law Firms in Teyvat. Zhongli was the son of another CEO who controlled your Rival company. Yours's and his parents wanted to finally settle the bad blood between the firms by having the two of you get married. You knew damn well the benefits of doing this was, god forbid if your Fathers firm went underwater, you would still be secure with Zhongli as your husband.
Itās not that you didnāt like Zhongli, and he certainly was not ugly; you just couldnāt stand your freedom to choose who you really wanted to marry being ripped from you. It was non negotiable though, so you had to go through with it. Zhongli didnāt seem to mind at all, he thoroughly enjoyed his very brief moments he had with you before, and was frankly excited to get more of those moments. He just hoped you didnāt resent him or blame him for this.
You both of course had an extravagant wedding, why would you not when your family was one of the wealthiest in Teyvat. You were grateful to your parents for letting you invite a few of your friends, and it seemed Zhongli had done the same. There was almost like a crowd formed around you two at the after party, you talking to your friends, and him with his. Zhongli had offered you his arm to hold onto, but you politely declined, feeling that even just holding his arm was too intimate for you.
āAlready trouble in paradise for the two lovebirds?ā One of Zhongliās friends had chuckled, a red head with a stupidly smug smile tugging at the corners of his mouth as you shot a look at him. Your friend Ningguang frowned, turning to look at your now husband.
āControl your dog, Mr. Zhongli.ā You let out a chuckle, when you heard Zhongliās friend scoff.
After a while, it was customary for the newlyweds to go on their honeymoon; so after a couple of hours you had to bid farewell to your friends and family. You approached the jet the two of you would be taking, with Zhongli carrying the luggage not far behind. You went ahead and boarded, while your new husband spoke with the pilot and the crew, sighing to yourself.
āCome on (y/n) suck it up, this honeymoon will be over sooner than you know it.ā You mumbled to yourself, settling into the high class jet.
āDid you say something (y/n)?ā You jumped, not expecting to hear Zhongliās voice. āAh.. My apologies, I did not mean to startle you.ā You sighed and shook your head, waiving your hand to dismiss the apology.
āYouāre fine Zhongli, Iām justā¦ Nervous is all.ā He hummed in response, nodding as he settled himself into the jet.
āI understand (y/n), I really do apologize about this being thrusted into your lap. I know this isnāt the ideal circumstances for a young woman to go through.ā You nodded, glad that he understood your hesitance to the situation. Zhongli really wasnāt a bad guy.
āItās really not your fault Zhongli, I understand you probably had no more say in it than I.ā You gave him a reassuring smile, the first genuine smile to grace his line of sight. Without noticing he found himself smiling back, relieved that you didnāt see him with any contempt. A comfortable silence settled, as the jet took off towards your destination.
It wasnāt a long flight, and along the way you were able to make small talk, slowly learning more about Zhongli. After two short hours, you felt the jet jump slightly against the ground before steadying itself on the runway. After a few more moments, you both departed, Zhongli once again handling the luggage, leaving your side to retrieve it.
Before you knew it, you were at the house you would be staying at for your honeymoon. It sat on a beautiful beach side shore, with a large open patio looking out over the ocean. By the time you guys had arrived it was already around 10:00 oāclock at night, so the crescent moon was high in the sky as you both stepped out onto the patio. The moon and stars gleamed against the inky black water, with the rhythmic beating of the waves lulling you both into a comfortable silence. You stood next to your husband and finally for the first time that night, actually took in his face.
The light of the scenery exposed the beauty Zhongli held in his face, the pale light bouncing off his cheekbones and illuminating his golden irises as he looked out over the sea. He mustāve felt you staring because moments later those golden eyes were locked on yours.
āDo you like the scenery (y/n)?ā You gave a quick nod before ducking away from his gaze, a red flush rising to your face. You heard him chuckle for a moment before shifting.
āI know what is customary to happen on our honeymoon, and I do not want you to feel pressured to fulfill that part of our relationship.ā You flushed even more as you suddenly found the pattern of the wood to be very interesting. You had completely forgot that sex was usually something people did on honeymoons. It seemed normal, because generally the people who get married have had a relationship before this so nothing felt awkward about the topic. Obviously that wasn't the case in this situation, but there was something in you that kind of wanted to. Something in you that felt comfortable enough with him to do it, you already trusted him which shocked you. What if he wasnāt though? What if he was uncomfortable with the thought of having sex with you right now which is why he brought it up so suddenly?
āThank you Zhongli, youāre too kind. Youāve truly been so understanding through this entire thing.ā You looked back up to him finally, and found a gentle smile on his face. He nodded and hummed before turning back to the house.
āWe should probably get to bed, itās already fairly late.ā You nodded, pulling out your phone to check the time. You both walked about into the house together. āThere is another room down the hall from the master bedroom if you donāt want to sleep in the same bed. Itās smaller so I could always take it.ā There he goes, being considerate and kind; handling your thoughts and feelings like glass that would break any second. You remained silent for a moment contemplating on what he had said, before gently shaking your head.
āNo, no, itās fine. I want to share the bed with you.ā You smiled up at him, and he looked almost surprised with your willingness, but the shock didnāt last for long before he smiled back at you and nodded; offering you his arm to hold on to, which you shakily took. You both reached the bedroom, where he had placed all of your guy's luggage before letting you go to retrieve your sleeping clothes as he did the same. You went into the bathroom, to give yourself and him some privacy before slowly re-entering. Zhongli was in a pair of brown silk pants with golden accents and a black short sleeve shirt. Your eyes met each other, and Zhongli smiled when he saw you.
āI know that these were unideal circumstances to get married, but Iām happy it is you who is my spouse. I can only hope you think the same of me, and that at some point you can genuinely feel connected to me.ā You blushed as he said this, genuinely taken aback by the sincerity in his voice. You feel bad for dreading and almost resenting Zhongli when you were first notified about the engagement, once finding out just how compassionate and caring the man before you was. Slowly, the two of you made your way into the large king sized bed. There was a large gap between the two of you, large enough to comfortably fit another person. Your mind raced a mile a minute trying to decide whether or not you should scoot in a little closer to the man next to you.
And so you did, without taking another moment to think about it you shifted closer to Zhongli until your side gently pressed against his. You felt Zhongli stiffen beside you for a brief moment, and for a split second you regretted scooting in; that was until you felt him roll over onto his side and wrap a strong arm around your torso. You could really take in Zhongliās scent like this and you noticed that he smelled like amber rum, chestnuts, and a hint of vanilla. It wrapped you in a warmth that lulled you into a comforting silence as the two of you laid together like this.
You rolled onto your side, letting Zhongliās arm now rest against your waist. Your noses were almost touching as the two of you stared into each other's eyes. You saw his eyes dart down to your lips for the briefest of seconds, letting yourself do the same.
āZhongliā¦ā Your voice was barely above a whisper. āCan I kiss you?ā You saw Zhongliās eyes widen as his gorgeous eyes met yours, not expecting you to ask him that.
āI would love nothing moreā¦ Darling.ā You flushed at the mild pet name, before softly placing your lips onto his. It felt as time skidded to a halt, as the two of you moved against each other with the grace of a slow dance. Soon enough it became heated, as you changed positions and straddled his hips. You could feel his boner pressing against you through his pants, and it made warmth bloom in your chest.
āYou really want to do this right? You donāt feel pressured my dear?ā You smiled at Zhongliās questions, nodding before he could get another one out. It felt good to be so concerned about, so doted over.
āYes Zhongli, I really want to do this with you. I trust you.ā This time it was Zhongliās turn to flush, an elegant smile gracing his lips. Before long, the both of you were out of your sleeping clothes and back on top of one another. Your back was to the silken bed sheets, as Zhongli was on top of you lining his hard cock up with your eager pussy. Zhongli gave you one last look before slowly entering you inch by inch. To say he was huge would be an understatement, so he knew he had to take it slow with you so as to not hurt you in any way. Zhongli needed this to be a good experience with you, he would never forgive himself if he hurt you or made this unenjoyable in any way at all.
The noises you were making and the way your hands were clawing at his back reassured him that he was doing everything right so far, always stopping after pushing in a few inches to give you time to adjust. Without thinking, Zhongli's mouth just started moving as words spilled out.
āYouāre doing so good for me my angel, youāre taking me so well. Youāre too good for me.ā With the praise spilling out of Zhongliās mouth, you couldnāt help but unleash a flurry of loud moans, as he bottomed out. He stood still for a couple moments, making sure you were nice and comfortable, until he felt you trying to move against him; trying to get him to move in and out of you.
āIf you were ready for me to move, all you needed to do was ask my gem.ā You let out a whine like moan, that evolved into a guttural groan when he finally started to thrust in and out of you. Your nails raked across his skin, surely leaving marks for you to admire after this was all said and done. He wasnāt skipping out on the marks either, as he sucked and bit at your skin, still throwing out praise every time his mouth left your skin. His fingers dug into your hips, as he sped up. He just couldnāt help himself, your wet quivering pussy just felt way too good wrapped around him; sucking him in every time he pulled out.
āI canāt believe it took us getting into an arranged marriage to finally meet, my god where have you been all my life.ā Zhongli had begun to groan, obviously getting close to tipping over the edge, with the way his thrusts continued to get sloppier every so often. You moaned in response, too blissed out of your mind to form actual words. Zhongliās head fell against your shoulder, his ebony black hair hanging off his shoulders.
With a few more strokes, Zhongli had both of you tumbling over the edge and cumming in unison. All that could be heard in your room was the quiet crashing of waves and the combined panting of the both of you. After a few moments of Zhongli getting his breath back he tumbled down next to you, sweaty shoulders touching. A couple seconds of silence passed before you spoke up in a raspy broken voice.
āIt took us so long because Iām technically your rival.ā You were giggling slightly, when Zhongli let out a loud chuckle.
āI guess you are right my dear, but now we are joined together. And I cannot wait to see what comes of our joining.ā
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Okay. So this is like, the funniest prompt that I found, wrote a bit for, and forgot about. I wrote it for a different fandom, and then thought "Organization XIII would be funny for this..." Org. XIII is turned into children and now the Reader has to (make sure they don't die) take care of them. Ages like... 4-9 because that's when children are the funniest. Do what you will with it
ngl im a sucker for old cliche prompts like these, every fandom has at least an au for this specific setting or some kindergarden au lolol
anyway hereās some HCs as to how theyād act and stuff !
Xemnas :
One of the oldest kids, but you donāt really know what to make of him. You were expecting Xemnas to still lead the rest, scare them into submission with a simple glare or something - turns out heās rather timid. Barely speaks, you get the feeling heās ignoring you on purpose, just makes a lot of faces and noises to indicate what heās feeling.Ā
Somewhat clingy too, but unlike Demyx and Xigbar who want to get your attention through any means possible, Xemnas just grabs onto the hem of your shirt and follows you everywhere in silence. Doesnāt cause much trouble, but he doesnāt help you keep the others in check either, a true neutral I guess.Ā
Sometimes, he will just disappear and show up whenever you least expect him. Loves to climb and sit on tall places. Spaces out a lot. Compared to the rest, you can probably leave him to his own devices, as long as heās not left alone with Xigbar or Larxene.Ā
Xigbar :
Actually the oldest, but pretty annoying and high maintenance. If he got on your nerves as his regular self, then youāre in for a fucking ride - this Xigbar is here to cause problems on purpose. He likes to talk, a lot. And itās sucks because itās usually endless and mindless chatter or pointing out everything that he sees.Ā
If he starts to get bored, heāll scurry off to bother someone else, but it usually ends with someone crying or hurt. Donāt even bother keeping him on a leash, the bastard is too smart to be contained.Ā
Xigbar is one of those kids that can be extremely useful if you get him on your side, as he has no problem snitching and ratting out the others. The best way to keep him from losing his other eye or gouging out someone elseās is to bribe or trick him into helping you (just know that he can also be bribed by the other kids, Xigbar WILL betray you).Ā
Xaldin :
You expected Zexion to be the loner type, but turns out itās Xaldin - heāll always be on his own or avoiding the others, usually around the kitchen since youāve banned everyone from going in there until they return to normal (not that they listen to you, but oh well).Ā
Xaldin is pretty much like those kids who hate being treated like kids and who pretend to be above the rest. While he might seem calm, itās really easy to get him riled up, a simpleĀ āI bet you canāt do this or thatā and heās off to prove himself.Ā
Oddly enough, he gets jealous easily - if you give Roxas a cookie or whatever for behaving, then you GOTTA give Xaldin one too or else heāll throw a fit. The best thing you can do with him is be honest and confess that you need him to chill the fuck out and Not Die :tm: while you take care of the others, heāll feel all grown up because you told him the truth and will calmly stay in his room.Ā
Vexen :
One of the oldest kids, the stereotypical kid who only has ONE interest and wonāt shut the fuck up about it, which is cute but not everyone has the patience to sit through a 6 hour talk about dinosaurs. You never expected this baby Vexen to be so into dinosaurs out of all things. Of course, just because he only talks about them, doesnāt mean heās not curious about all that shiny lab equipment.Ā
You canāt keep him distracted with dinosaur books all day, he still has the heart and mind of a scientist ! Because heās a very obvious nerd, heās the target for a lot of members in the organization, namely Larxene - and when Vexen gets flustered or frustrated, he freezes up. Literally. He WILL freeze the entire room too.
Your best bet is to pair him up with Zexion or Xion, since theyāll gladly sit down to listen and learn. The three will gladly stay locked up in the library learning and reading. You just gotta hope Vexen doesnāt instantly crush Zexion and Xionās dreams by ruining their fairytales with facts and logic.
Lexaeus :Ā
Also one of the older kids and the tallest too. This Lexaeus is just as stoic and intimidating as the original, but apparently heās also very sensitive. Everytime he speaks to you it sounds like he might be about to cry. But he looks fine ? So you really donāt know what to do about him.Ā
Either way, Lexaeus is also very helpful and responsible, so you can trust him to watch over the rowdy kids and keep them relatively safe, just try not to pair him with the suuuper loud ones.Ā
Probably the type to take the blame and responsibility for any pranks gone wrong under his watch, even if you fully know thereās no way heās responsible. Lexaeus is the epitome ofĀ āI just want everyone to get alongā. Somehow, heās very gentle with the others (as gentle as one can be when straight up dragging Xigbar out of the ventilation system) but heāll break any toys and other items given to him.
Zexion :
Zexion is very very small, so you can probably understand the stress heās going through, surrounded by these animals. Like Xemnas and Demyx, heād be pretty clingy but he wouldnāt be able to follow you around or cling to you with all the others pushing and fighting around.Ā
So you can either just carry him on your shoulders or leave him with Lexaeus or Vexen as mentioned before. If not, Zexion will wander and either fall asleep in the Grey Area or find the library on his own.Ā
Not a problematic child, really. Zexion lacks the energy and the feralness to join any shenanigans - he's also smart enough to know that heāll be better off listening to you and staying clear out of safety hazards. Though thereās always the chance of other members taking advantage of Zexionās naive and curious nature.
Saix :
You were expecting him to be a tiny version of his regular self, bitter and strict. Surprisingly, heās way more fun as a kid, glued to Axel by the hip too. Theyāre the duo you should look out for - Axel is the one who gets them in trouble and Saix is the one who makes sure you never notice they were behind it all.Ā
The one with a TERRIBLE temper right after waking up. Saix wonāt hesitate to bite and claw anyone who tries to wake him up, even Axel knows better than to try. If itās nap time, let him go, donāt even try to stop him. Donāt let anyone else near him.
Other than that ? A very nice kid in general, he feels a sense of responsibility when it comes to the younger members, so heāll be the one to keep Axel in check whenever Zexion, Roxas or Xion are around. As for the older ones ? Theyāre on their own.Ā Ā
Axel :
Axel is the first one to sayĀ āfuckā and it spreads like wildfire. So if you start hearing a bunch of kids swear at the top of their lungs, you know who caused it. Youāll also know because youāll find him laughing and wheezing on the ground.Ā
Somewhat naive, if you tell him he canāt say āinvertebraeā because itās a swear world, heāll believe you. But SURPRISINGLY heās very aware of how dangerous his fire powers are - like, Axel wants to cause trouble on purpose, but he doesnāt really want anything to escalate and get anyone actually hurt. Unless itās Vexen. If itās Vexen, then itās fine by him.Ā
You might hear āY/N, LOOKā before seeing Axel in the kitchen casting fucking Firaga on a bag of Totinos or something. He and Demyx somehow keep getting targeted by the Dusks, who love to play pranks on them.Ā
Demyx :
Most likely to eat food off the ground, or anything shiny and colorful, really. He has the exact same vibes as the little brother who likes to follow people he thinks are cool to try and impress them, just to be considered a cool kid too.Ā
Demyx is very clingy but also a sneaky kid, he can easily cry his heart out so youāll pay attention and protect him from people heās pissed off. This is literally why most of the kids donāt like to be around him, cause heās THAT kid who will ruin everyoneās funs by calling the responsible adult if he gets upset.
Instead of being musically inclined, Demyx just makes a lot of noise - constant loud humming, blowing raspberries, stomping his feet or tapping/hitting things, repeating funny noises or phrases he picks up. Probably has an old ass iPod or an MP3 you can distract him with.
Luxord :
DO YOU KNOW THOSE LITTLE KIDS WHO ARE SMARTASSES ? The ones who act like they know the mysteries of the world and give you a look of superiority because you clearly donāt know what tubby custard really is ? Yeah, thatās Luxord.
Full of fun facts that he LOVES to brag about, but most of them are fake and heās none the wiser. You cannot correct him either because itāll be like telling an 8 year old that Santa isnāt real. Thankfully, you donāt HAVE to correct him because thatās what Xaldin is for.Ā
Most likely to steal Xigbarās eyepatch for himself and somehow convince everyone else that it was HIS eyepatch in the first place. How ? We donāt know, we just donāt know. Also Luxord might just steal little trinkets from everyone and stash them under his bed like the little creacher he is. If you canāt find your keys, you know whoās got em.
Marluxia :
A natural big brother figure. Very understanding too, even if youāve heard from Larxene that heās tired of everyone pulling his hair and that he might shave it all off just so they all stop. Yeah, thereās some lingering resentment in there. Heās 50/50 on being a little bastard and an angel.
Marluxia volunteers to help you take care of the other kids, mostly because he likes bossing others around and because he also likes reading books to Zexion and Xion so they fall asleep.Ā
LOVES to leave trails of petals and flowers wherever he goes, but REFUSES to clean up. Always seen with Larxene - Marluxia is also lowkey competitive so he sees the Axel + Saix duo as rivals. In what, exactly ? Who knows. VERY picky with food too. Actually, just very picky and petty in general.
Larxene :
The one kid who develops a personal vendetta against you from day 1. Larxene DESPISES being told what to do, so if youāre constantly telling her not to do this, to do that and whatever, she will make your life a living hell and do the opposite out of spite.Ā
You didnāt hear this from me, but Larxene is GENUINELY upset that she keeps accidentally zapping people whenever she plays with them. Itās really hard for her to apologize too, so youāll have to step in a lot to de-escalate the situation.
Larxene sticks forks in outlets JUST to scare others, since she cannot get hurt at all by electricity. She just seems to enjoy making others afraid.
Roxas :
One of the youngest, Roxas doesnāt KNOW whatĀ āusing your indoor voiceā means, heās either DEAD quiet or SCREAMING about how heād like to have ice cream as a treat, please and thank you. Itās really fucking funny to see honestly. Just make sure he doesnāt sneak up on you and scare you shitless.
The type who gets dragged into shenanigans rather than cause them - heās a very neutral and calm kid otherwise. The worst thing he can do is just steal everyoneās dessert or something because of that intense sweet tooth heās got.
A lot of the older kids LOVE trying to get him and Xion to laugh, because Roxas has this permanent poker face AND because they both have really funny snort giggle laughs.Ā
Xion :Ā
Also one of the youngest, very sweet, patient and polite ! Xion also tends to be very clingy, always needing to hold hands with someone whenever she walks around Castle Oblivion. No one has the heart to tell her no, either.
Can get VERY VERY irritating and angry when someone tries to make fun of her or Roxas. Like a little hurricane of puppies - Xion wonāt stop pestering all the meanies until sheās received a proper apology. If she somehow ends up hurting someone, sheāll insist on making up too.
Xion also tends to copy people she likes, similar to Demyx. You might catch her imitating your movements or way of speaking, or even copying the Dusksā movements - but just make sure she doesnāt see you, Xion will explode out of embarrassment.
#KH headcanons#reader insert#organization xiii#xemnas#xigbar#xaldin#vexen#lexaeus#zexion#saix#axel#demyx#luxord#marluxia#larxene#roxas#xion#writing for xemnas and xigbar hurts a lot more now that KHUX is over
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PLS now i want more facebook!dads headcanons
- steve gets so attached to their daughter from day one. and he passionately rants about it when joyce takes her from his arms for a bit so that steve can take a break. he just starts hyperventilating, āthis girl and her stupid little fucking baby fingers and her round little cheeks and did you see the way she looks. billy. I will literally never stop holding herāā (ābaby, I know- calm down. joyce just wants you to go eat.ā)Ā āI WILL GLADLY STARVE JUST TO HOLD HER FOREVER.ā
- billy holds her like sheās the most fragile thing on this planet. too careful. way too careful.
- theyāre obnoxiously proud of literally everything their baby does. their 4-year-old scribbled on a piece of paper? theyāre going to show that shit to everyone and make them praise their daughterās drawing.
- steve doesnāt do baby talk. he talks to their daughter like she's a fully grown adult- which is probably why sheās verbally gifted for her age.
- billy is just constant baby talk though. even when his baby is no longer a baby and is a teenager.
- whenever their child does anything remotely cute, steve looks at billy like,, āokay i want more. i want another one. now.ā
- billyās bed time stories start wholesome and then they accidentally turn into a horror story and steve has to kick him out of their childās bedroom
- steve, however, canāt tell a bedtime story to save his life. he ends up getting sidetracked and the story never ends.
- steve has an existential crisis when the kid gets to theĀ āwhy???ā phase. because he doesn't know WHY. BILLY HELP-
- billy helps with homework, steve packs lunches (and he leaves cute motivational notes in there for both billy and the kid.)
- they cry at her kindergarten graduation.
- when their daughter is younger, billy isĀ ādaddyā and steve isĀ ādad.ā as she grows older, she starts calling both of them dad. billy missesĀ ādaddyā but he loves 'dadā too because everytime she yells outĀ āDAD!!ā, steve runs to her and she's likeĀ āno not you! the other one!!!ā
- IM TELLING YOU THIS KID WILL NEVER HAVE ONE (1) BAD HAIR DAY. steve and billy have got hair down.
- billy makes sure his daughter has good music taste,Ā āno no. donāt listen to the crap dad gives you- steve, youāve corrupted her with pop music! POP MUSIC!ā
- steveās hair is full of pink glitter for a good week. its just- stuck there and refuses to come out no matter how many times he showers
- billy perfects the āhey dad look at this squintāā¢Ā
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ask me
more facebook dads (steve)
#THESE ARENT REALLY FACEBOOK DADS#its just DAD HCS#and you sent this a WHILE ago sorry#also i better not see any gross daddy jokes abt billy and the kid thx#dads!harringrove#harringrove#me posting#i do not have a healthy relationship with my dad iām sorry if these are half-assed#ask#anon#facebook dad steve rights :d
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im curious what u think jotaros life pre sdc was like
probably not good from what we see but iām not super into speculation about this sort of thing beyond what can be inferred on a pretty base level... like, i feel no need to have detailed headcanons about everything that happened to him exactly. i have vague ideas but nothing super in depth outside of how him being gay and trans affects things already established or implied. i donāt know what exactly jotaroās high school fights would revolve around, for example, and i donāt particularly have any desire to come up with any headcanons for this. i say this but iām about to drop an entire essay here i guess. cool, embarrassing, etc
iāve talked about it a little before but i think Something happened to him between entering high school and reaching his third year that kinda fucked him up, and whatever it was caused him to start acting more coldly and harshly towards his mother, who he previously was very openly loving towards. iāve heard people say that the only reason holly sees him that way at the beginning of sdc is because she has illusions about her son being a better and kinder person than he is, but thatās just not true. i donāt think the imagery of him dressing like a proper student and being happy to receive a valentine and smiling at her and openly expressing his love for her cooking were false memories, i think he actually said and did those things, it was just stuff that happened when he was younger, probably a first year. iāve said it over and over, but as it is, in the present day (as of sdc), she fully understands what her son is like. sheās introduced into the series asking the cops how many people he killed. that was her instinctual guess upon hearing he was arrestedāthis says to me 1) heās never been arrested before, but 2) she knows about the fighting he gets up to and has feared that this is where it would end at some point. she also emphasizes the fact that he canāt fool her when it comes to his tough guy actāshe realizes that itās deep beneath his extremely rough exterior, but he IS a good and caring person at heart. she never says anything about him that isnāt true, and anyone brushing her off as a dumb naive woman just isnāt reading between the lines. or maybe isnāt reading at all frankly. itās all right there in front of you.
as for his past. at a guess. it seems like he doesnāt really have any friends at all, at any point in the manga, outside of the people we see him interacting with in the parts themselves. as of his childhood and teen years, the fact that heās half american and his father is largely absent is one possible reason i have heard brought up before, but i think itās also because he comes across as pretty weird and hard to get along with. as an autistic person i see a lot of myself and my own struggles with interpersonal relationships in jotaro, so i think his issues with people are in no small part because he is autistic himself. iām not going to belabor the explanation here because others have made better posts than i could about why he reads so heavily as autistic, but i think it comes down to him missing social cues, and not coming across the way he intends to, and not being able to read the implications in the things people say to him, and him being trans on top of that would make him feel like even more of an odd one out. i think he would deal with that by being kind of a sukeban type, so at least his ostracization feels like heās in control of it and heās being strong, but even so, acting like a scary tough girl isnāt a replacement for transitioning.
i think he would start transitioning (which is to say, changing his name and presentation and starting testosterone, but thatās about all) late in middle school, around 14, so that by the time heās a first year in high school heās fully stealth. and it makes him happy at first, because people are talking to him as a boy, and using a boyās name for him (perhaps part of why heās so chill about people calling him by first name the second they meet him, since thatās a little odd to do otherwise), so for a time heās a happy enough kid. i think t hits him pretty hard and fast, and he shoots up almost immediately and gets to be like six feet tall and buff and deep voiced by the time heās like 15, so suddenly heās not so much the awkward american girl as he is the super tall strong guy that the guys all fear and respect and the girls all have a crush on, which is maybe nice at first, but i think the allure would wear off pretty fast.
i donāt think he necessarily realizes that itās because heās gay, but we see ourselves pretty clearly that he doesnāt enjoy the attention from girls beyond maybe thinking itās a better alternative to having them mock him like when he was younger. he hates having them crowd around him and fawn over himāhe has no interest in any of them in the first place, and none of them ACTUALLY care who he is, just that heās tall and strong and handsome, and he hates that. and then, of course, guys fearing and respecting him turns into people wanting to fight him, and something terrible happens as a result of that, and he ends up an extremely guarded and hostile person as a result, even to the ones he loves. it gets to the point where heās a target for actual serious violence, even from grown adult gang members as we see at the start of sdc, so his desire to keep people away from him as a means of keeping them safe kicks ināand this is something that sticks with him for the rest of his life, even into his 40s with his daughter. only tangentially related but i think the true tragedy of part 3 is that he was finally getting over that mindset, he was finally starting to see value in keeping people close to him and trusting in and relying on others. but primarily we see him express this sentiment towards kakyoin. and kakyoin dies. and more specifically dies for jotaro. so that all comes crashing down hard, and heās right back where he started.
back to the main point i also feel i should mention iām 100% of the belief he has perfect grades and attendance even when heās more into the delinquent act. i say act mostly because i donāt think heās actually hugely into the whole bancho subculture; i donāt think he would actually join any gangs, i think he prefers to keep to himself until other people go looking to start shit with him, which he always finishes handily (allegedly, no one has ever seen him get hurt before). probably including the teacher who he ran off, regardless of whatever happened thenāhe says himself that injustice and harming the weak makes him extremely mad, so there was definitely more going on there than just ājotaro got mad at a teacher because heās a violent person and beat the shit out of him for no reason and so the guy got scared and quit,ā though i donāt really care to speculate deeper than that. the teacher was not an innocent party is all iām saying.
i suppose this is all just an unreasonably long winded way of saying āidk but i sure think about it a lot.ā basically just extrapolations from the way he interacts with his peers from what little we see, and from the bio about him coming across in a much more cold and aloof way than he thinks he does, and from his relationship with his mom, and from what we see based on her memories of him when he was younger.
#op#i ate dinner in the middle of writing this so it took a bit LOL sorry#i did not proof read it very well either. but you get what you get.#long post#iām so sorry but i forgot how to do a read more on mobile. sorry. i hate this more than you. i promise
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an unspoken tradition
The first time Sirius did it, Remus had no idea what to do. He sat there, eyes widening, his book forgotten in his hands, as Sirius settled his head on Remusā lap. He seemed perfectly content to close his eyes and give a soft smile, whilst Remusā insides were screaming, and he could feel his face burning. Slowly, and after much deliberation over what the fuck to do, Remus brought a shaky hand carefully through Siriusā soft ebony hair. Siriusā smile widened as he felt this, and a content sigh escaped his lips as he shuffled into a more comfortable position.
Remus knew that Sirius had never been entirely comfortable with physical contact, even after six months of dating, and he respected that. However, when Sirius seemed to feel completely safe in Remusā arms, he could hardly deny him that. Remus continued to comb his hand through his boyfriendās curls, and Sirius seemed to be relaxing more by the second. Summoning up some courage, Remus leaned down and gently kissed the tip of Siriusā nose. Siriusā eyes fluttered open, and he stared up at Remus, his gaze full of love and warmth. Remus felt himself flushing a deeper red as Sirius tilted his head up and puckered his lips, silently requesting another kiss; this time on the lips.
Remus, of course, obliged.
This soon became a regular occurrence. Whenever Sirius was feeling down, or just missing Remus, even if they were literally in the same room, he would head over and flop down on the sofa, his head coming to rest on Remusā lap. Remusā hand would immediately start carding through Siriusā hair, as he murmured, āeverything okay, pads?ā Sirius would often just nod, even if it wasnāt entirely true; just being close to Remus like this was bound to make everything better.
Burrowing his face into Remusā legs, Sirius would often find himself drifting off, from a combination of the soothing motion of Remusā hand through his hair, and his reassuring heartbeat, grounding him. Remus was now completely used to this, and just continued to read his book over Siriusā shoulder, giving Sirius an occasional peck on the cheek, or the lips, or the nose, or literally anywhere he could reach.
Once Sirius had fallen asleep, Remus had no choice but to remain there with him (I canāt move him, Pete, look at him!) but he wasnāt really complaining.
As he would attempt to shift into a more comfortable position, he ended up just lying on the sofa, Sirius sprawled on top of him, every single time. And that was how they would be found in the morning; limbs entangled, Siriusā head resting on Remusā chest, warm and content smiles spread across their faces as they appeared in each otherās dreams.
(AN: I was gonna leave this here but im in an angsty mood so)
Eventually, this little tradition of theirs grew past just resting heads on laps. It developed into an unspoken message that, hey, im not feeling too good right now, so Iām just gonna come over and lay my head on your lap, because I need something to ground me, and youāre the only person who can calm me right now. All of this was contained within a simple gesture, because their relationship had never really needed words. They had always just understood what the other was thinking, without having to talk about it at all.
Although this was equally important to both of them, it had always been Sirius who initiated it, Sirius who laid his head in Remusā lap. Which is why he was very surprised when, one sunny afternoon in seventh year, a mere two days before the full moon, Remus shuffled over to him, a haggard expression on his face, and heavy bags under his eyes. Sirius furrowed his eyebrows, barely having time to ask if he was okay, before Remus was climbing onto the sofa and slowly resting his head on Siriusā lap, his joints repeatedly cracking in the process.
Oh.
Sirius understood immediately. Not quite knowing what to say, he settled on comforting Remus the same way he had been comforted by Remus so many times before. Bringing his hand gently though the tawny curls spread out before him, Sirius watched as Remusā eyes finally fluttered shut, the frown on his face relaxing slightly. And there they stayed for the rest of the night, Sirius perfectly content to just run his fingers through Remusā locks, watching the worry lines etched on his face disappear as he drifted off to sleep, soothed by the repetitive motion of his boyfriendās hand in his hair.
Even after Hogwarts, this routine, that otherwise went unmentioned, didnāt end, and neither wanted it to. Every single time Remus was sat on their sofa, no matter what he was doing, Sirius would be there, without fail, and vice versa. They would always be there for each other.
Until 31st October 1981, that is, when Remus found the sofa empty. When he found himself empty.
As Sirius sat alone in his cell, his mind full of anguish and terror, he couldnāt help but think of what had happened seemingly years ago by now, but in reality, was just last night. He had fallen asleep curled up on the sofa with Remus, and rather than waking him up, Remus had carried him bridal style to their bed, Siriusā arms wrapped around his neck and his head nestling in his shoulder, despite them both being fully-grown adults by now. When they had reached the comfort of their bed, they had promptly fallen straight back asleep; Sirius clinging to Remus like a koala, and Remus burying his face in Siriusā soft curls.
Sirius would have given anything to be lying in that bed again, rather than on the cracked stone floor of a prison cell, surrounded by the gut-wrenching screams of people having their happiness literally sucked out of them. And he knew, soon enough, that would be him, having his most joyous memories ripped away. But he refused to let them take Remus. He gripped onto the memories of him and Remus, curled up together on the Gryffindor common room sofa in the early hours of the morning, like a lifeline. And throughout his years in Azkaban, those memories were the only thing that kept him going. When it seemed as though all had been lost, he still held out hope for that glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel; Remus, waiting for him on their sofa, embracing him with a grin full of relief and euphoria. There, ready, waiting for him to rest his head on his lap once again, waiting to be able to comfort him once more.
What he wasnāt aware of was that Remus was waiting for him, holding out for even the slimmest chance that he could be reunited with Sirius, that they would be able to continue their tradition that had grown to mean so much more.
All either of them had ever wanted was to be together, because that was where they could truly feel at ease. They were each otherās safe places. They were each otherās homes.
#screaming#oh my god#what did i just write#im so sorry#this was supposed to be FLUFFY#now its just#āØangstāØ#i apologise for nothing#pretty proud of this actually ngl#harry potter#hp marauders#marauders#the marauders#marauders era#wolfstar#wolfstar angst#marauders era angst#marauders angst#remus lupin#sirius black#remus x sirius#sirius x remus#wolfstar fanfiction#wolfstar oneshot#peter pettigrew#james potter#moony wormtail padfoot and prongs#james & peter & remus & sirius#mwpp#mwpp era
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