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zeldasnotes · 1 year

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solar return & transit notes ✧:･.☽˚｡･ﾟ✧:･.: ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆

masterlist II - masterlist III

these notes are just my own observations and might not play out the same for everyone.🌛

saturn transiting the 10th house: I remember being very obsessive over my public image and social media during this transit.

transit jupiter conjunct natal juno(3): You could meet the love of your life during this transit, I did.

solar return scorpio rising: The year you have Scorpio Rising in the Solar Return chart you will change your behaviour because you will be forced to. If you are the kind of person who are usually too nice you will bump into people who force you to bring out your inner bitch. If you are someone whos usually a bitch you will bump into people who will put you in your place and outbitch you so that you learn to behave. You will meet a lot of interesting people this year and you will be forced to transform.

solar return lilith in the 2nd house: This can indicate a lot of financial issues. Same with Pluto 2nd house. But it can also be the year you finally fix your economy. shopping addiction/body image issues indicator.

transit lilith conjunct ascendant: Wow! The attention I got from men the year I had this transit. Such an egoboost. But I’ve noticed a lot of friends experience issues with their father or men in general during this period.

solar return destinn(6583) conjunct sun: This will be an extremely important year for you. The things that happen and the people you will meet during this year will be life changing and you will think about this year a lot. You will meet a lot of people who will be important for your growth.

saturn transiting the ascendant: When Saturn started transiting my Ascendant was the year I stopped living in my own fantasyworld and started seeing things realistically. I also remember losing a lot of weight.

solar return pluto conjunct ascendant: When you have Pluto conjunct Ascendant in the Solar Return chart you might feel a strong need to change your appearance. It can even become obsessive. You want to look powerful too so you might start wearing more status symbols like watches, expensive clothes etc. You will also be super combative for no reason.

solar return moon conjunct paine(5188): Emotional pain.

solar return mercury conjunct dejanira(157): I actually rembered being verbally abused a lot, I was called all sorts of nasty words and was involved in a lot of verbal conflicts. I was abusive myself too.

solar return lilith in the 6th house: When I had this I experienced issues with food addiction and I was very lazy. Very bad habits.

solar return mars 10th house: Mars in the 10th house in the Solar Return chart can indicate a lot of competition and beef at the work place.

solar return moon conjunct saturn: I had this aspect the year I remember shutting down emotionally. A lot of bad stuff happened.

transit pluto conjunct ascendant: Be prepared for transformation and change. This can be a horrible aspect or a good aspect. But you will remember it. I feel bad for everyone who go through this transit as a child or teenager.

chiron transiting your 1st house: This can make you very insecure during this period and others notice this and treat you bad. You might feel weak and vulnerable.

solar return karma(3811) conjunct personal planets: This can show a year where you are a victim of a lot of stuff you do to others, like if you used to talk behind peoples backs this year you will be a victim of gossip.

solar return venus and jupiter in the 1st house: Definitely one of the best years in my whole life. Everything just worked out smoothly, if I wanted anything I got it. My selfies were bomb that year.

sun & saturn transiting the 8th house: I know sometimes who lost her father when she had this transit. Chiron was also transiting her 10th house.

medusa(149) conjunct ascendant: This in the solar return chart can be a year where you experience a lot of hate and envy from others. Especially from other women if you are a wonan.

solar return rip(7711) conjunct personal planets: This one always shows up prominent in the solar return chart the year someone dies. Marilyn Monroe had it conjunct Moon in the 1st house in her solar return chart the year she died.

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davidtennantgenderenvy · 5 months

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Oh my gosh the star beast was EVERYTHING I could have hoped for and more we are so freaking back (slight spoilers)

WE GOT:

David Tennant running around the tardis like a little boy in the most soul healing way imaginable

Best Supportive Mom Donna Noble

Best Supportive Husband Shaun Temple

HOPE FOR WILFRED MOTT?!

the doctordonna being the greatest thing ever to exist

David and Catherine making me laugh AND cry (sometimes in the same scene)

David in general doing an amazing job playing the Doctor a bit more mature and tired and gentle and lost

THE DOCTOR BEING VULNERABLE AND OPEN WITH HIS EMOTIONS?! IN THIS ECONOMY

David Tennant Losing It Scene (kinda)

amazing trans rep THANK YOU Yas and Russel

beep the meep

ten’s theme AND Donna’s theme AND I am the doctor (and Murray gold’s score killing it in general)

being nonbinary is a superpower apparently

Literally no notes it had ALL the wonder and magic that made me fall in love with this show 8 years ago I am so so pleased

#doctor who #the star beast #dw 60th #David Tennant #catherine tate #the tenth doctor #russel t davies #Donna noble #rose noble #yasmin finney #And the best part? THIS WASNT EVEN THE MOST HYPED UP SPECIAL OH MY GOSH I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE NEXT TWO #Murray gold #the fourteenth doctor

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spenglernot · 6 months

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STORIES TELLING: ED TEACH’S JOURNEY FROM ARMOR TO AUTHENTICITY

One of the joys of watching season 2 of Our Flag Means Death is discovering the visual parallels with season 1 that add so much meaning and richness to the story. With affecting, extraordinary economy of visual storytelling, we can see the progression of Ed’s journey from choosing armor in season 1, episode 10 – Wherever You Go, There You Are, to choosing authenticity in season 2, episode 7 – Man on Fire.

[I have to point out the gorgeous cinematography here. Panning down on the left, panning up on the right. The clear resolve of S2 E7 Ed turning to ascend to the deck. I also love the timing of both shots. S2 E7 Ed is turning toward the red silk that S1 E10 Ed will release.]

S1 E10 Ed considers the red silk. The symbol of his tenderness, softness, and vulnerability.

S2 E7 Ed hoists his leathers and his firearm - his literal and symbolic armor and protection - to the edge of the deck.

S1 E10 Ed releases his tenderness, softness, and vulnerability to the sea.

S2 E7 Ed releases his armor and protection to the sea.

S1 E10 Ed throws the person who understands what he’s going through and is in a position to help him work through it in a healthy way, into the sea.

S2 E7 Ed makes breakfast-in-bed for the person with whom he shares emotional and physical intimacy. An act of care and service that strengthens his bond with Stede.

Show, don't tell doesn't seem adequate to describe these two sequences. They are masterful and say so, so much.

The double-edged sword of self-awareness

You’ve really got to give it to Ed. He’s making huge progress. Making a better choice for himself. Moving forward.

Change can be terrifying. For Ed to release that which protected him for decades is, well… it’s courageous and demonstrates hard-won self-awareness and integrity.

Of course, choosing to be authentic to yourself doesn’t translate into automatic relationship building. Understanding and communicating with other people, particularly the person you are in love with, is a related but different skill set. It is also true that, once you know that you can’t perform a persona to please other people, no matter how much you love them, you risk losing them.

Ed in the second frame, above, kills me. He knows that piracy might be the wedge that drives Stede and him apart. He is trying to share how he feels. But Stede is so enamored with finally being a successful pirate (and glowing from the best (and only) love-sex of his life) that he can't hear Ed.

I love that OFMD takes no shortcuts in matters of the heart. If these lads are going to be together for reals, they are going to have to work for it, and there is still much work to be done.

I'm looking forward to likely being simultaneously emotionally fulfilled and mentally devastated by the season 2 finale in about 30 hours.

This meta was written before OFMD season 2 has fully aired. No idea what’s going to happen in the finale (and I’ve generally fled social media to avoid spoilers). I’ll be back, looking at everyone’s fascinating posts after episode 8 airs.

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blackpilljesus · 6 months

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Beware of fake sisterhood. Female solidarity isn't real. Yes we need each other but we also need real mutually beneficial relationships.

Motherhood discourse with the whole "but single childfree women need to help we're all in this together🥺🥺🥺" bullshit is proof that even women wouldn't leave women who go their own way alone. Everyone needs & uses women for labour, as a scapegoat, or as a sacrifice.

It is underestimated how much women use other women to survive under maIe supremacy. The trads use the likes of feminists presence to virtue signal being the "better" women. The mothers who expect labour from other women to pick up the slack of their children's father (only to still prioritise him anyways). Sex-posi feminists encouraging other women to have dangerous 'sex' with maIes or offer themselves to help with "maIe loneliness" even though most times they won't do the same. Women in relationships with moids use their -typically- single friends as therapists/emotional dumpsters only to return to him anyways & even throw her friends under the bus for him.

Many will talk about "sisterhood" and how we're all in it together but the dynamic is often one-sided. Single childfree women aren't strong soldiers; they're also vulnerable especially as the amount of single/childfree women grows in size because that means less moids having slaves & reproducing. That means less people for the government to grind, less believers for religious institutions to exploit and keep the system churning. The economy makes it difficult to survive alone. Being a single childfree woman makes you an easier target yet other women wont help you, they want to use & discard you. They say we're all in it together so we dont leave them behind.

#i think that sometimes women get defensive about separatism et al because if some women successfully were able to escape #this would increase the load/target on their backs bc women would run out of meat shields to hide behind when it comes to ♂️violence #the violence that they deny exists until its their heads on the chopping block; these women want to love moids but also need a shield #to protect themselves from undesirables #point is be wary of moids but ALSO be wary of other women #female separatism #female separatist #radical feminism #radical feminist #feminism #blackpill feminism #blackpill feminist #feminist #motherhood #wineauntmovement #beware of fake sisterhood

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reality-detective · 11 months

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💥💰 Revealed: The Secret Empire of the Rothschilds, Rockefellers, and Morgans 💰💥

Prepare to uncover the shocking truth about the world's most influential families and their iron grip on the global economy. The Federal Reserve Cartel, comprised of the Rothschilds, Rockefellers, and Morgans, holds unparalleled power that extends far beyond the realm of oil.

Picture this: The Four Horsemen of Banking, including Bank of America, JP Morgan Chase, Citigroup, and Wells Fargo, join forces with the Four Horsemen of Oil, such as Exxon Mobil, Royal Dutch/Shell, BP, and Chevron Texaco. But their domination doesn't stop there. They have extended their reach to encompass the music industry through an intricate network of private banks. These behemoths, along with Deutsche Bank, BNP, Barclays, and other European old money giants, control the strings of the music industry, enabling them to dictate its direction and influence.

The nefarious deeds of the Rockefeller dynasty are far-reaching, starting with their military-commercialization of music in the early 1900s. They orchestrated a diabolical plan to shift the world's standard tuning of music to 440 pitch. This insidious frequency was known to provoke greater aggression, psychosocial agitation, emotional distress, and even physical illnesses. Behind the scenes, this manipulation led to financial gains for those complicit in the monopoly, including agents, agencies, and companies connected to the North American Rockefeller crime cartel and elite organizations.

Fast forward to the late 1980s, when the Rockefellers summoned the top music executives and talent to a highly secretive meeting in Los Angeles. Their sinister agenda? To usher in the era of Controlled Rap Music, tightly linked to the privatization of U.S. prisons. These privately owned prisons, operated by the Rockefellers, Rothschilds, Bush family, and other influential figures, served as money laundering operations, tax exemption schemes, and pyramid scheme operations.

The Rockefellers devised a cunning plan to control the rap industry and target black communities by promoting violent music that fueled oppression and civil unrest. They brought together top executives and leading black artists, binding them with confidentiality agreements. Their objective was clear: coordinate the violence within the rap music movement, while major record labels gained exclusive rights for production and distribution across the United States. As a reward, they would receive shares and points within the private prison systems.

The Masonic plan unfolded with precision, resulting in over 1,500 private prison systems housing more than 1 million black teenagers by 1990. These vulnerable youths, expressing the generational trauma imposed upon them, unknowingly contributed to the Rockefellers' malevolent scheme. The private prison systems reaped billions annually from the government, creating a vast money laundering network through inflated products, such as ramen noodles priced 8 times higher than their actual value. The flow of hundreds of billions from government funding, pyramid schemes, and insurance companies transformed the privatization of prisons into a multi-trillion-dollar venture.

Local courts and judges mercilessly sentenced petty criminals and first-time offenders, filling the ever-expanding private prisons. As a result, the United States now holds the dubious record for the highest number of incarcerated individuals in the world, with an unprecedented number of prisons. This was not an accident—it was a meticulously orchestrated plan by the Rockefellers.

But their influence doesn't end there. These silent thieves also manipulate elections, ensuring their grip on power remains unbroken.

Unmasking the true face of those who control the world, the Rothschilds and Rockefellers find themselves in the crosshairs of military alliance operations aimed at dismantling the Rothschilds' deep state power in Europe, the UK, Russia, and China.

Are you connecting the DOTS? 🤔

#pay attention #educate yourself #educate yourselves #knowledge is power #reeducate yourself #reeducate yourselves #think for yourself #think for yourselves #think about it #do your homework #do your own research #do some research #do your research #question everything #ask yourself questions #connecting dots

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dressed2k1ll · 4 months

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I’m giving up on men because

1. The fact that they all assume they’re experts in everything

2. The fact that they all assume they’re smarter than me immediately

3. The fact that they allow and use slurs to divide women like Karen, Pick Me, Terf, The Main Character, SWERF, prude, slut bitch

4. The only slur they have is incel which relies on the premise that they’re entitled to sex

5. Moms are expected to be perfect and if she makes a mistake she’s a bad mom. Dads are considered perfect despite their mistakes and even being a poor parent

6. They think sex is a service

7. They cannot have a magic sexual moral barrier that divides children from teens from women. I refuse to believe it. And the media sexualizes kids and infantilizes female sexuality… so what now?

8. That porn is so normalized and teen is a category and yet we can’t check a man’s porn viewing history before allowing them to coach, treat, or be alone with vulnerable people.

9. That some will and can and do have sex with corpses. That deadness is sexualized in fashion photography as arousing

10. That choking has become normalized in porn

11. That we know porn becomes increasingly more extreme through algorithm and capitalism

12. That they hide behind plausible deniability and think we are too stupid to see it - like the devils advocate position

13. That they convince themselves their plausible deniability is a moral standard

14. That even the normal married ones with little girls for kids are shitty

15. That they think their pleasure overrides the civil rights of a person

16. That they believe consent magically changes abuse into kink

17. That they don’t even know what misogyny is

18. That they think misandry is somehow comparable

19. That they think my hurting their feelings or making them feel uncomfortable is a violent act. That pointing out violence makes me the violent one.

20. That they defend Johnny Depp

21. That they’re afraid of false accusations

22. That they defend the reputations of men they haven’t met more than the reality of the women who report them lmao

23. They don’t take care of themselves physically

24. They can choose to be civilized but use animal evo psychology to defend subhuman actions

25. They believe that women’s sexuality is an economy for them

26. They created religion to usurp creative power from women

27. They convinced other men that humans came from a man’s rib, from a patriarchal god, when literally no man has NOT come through and from a woman.

28. They have sexualized every aspect of women’s existence including pain and crying

29. They’ve convinced women that empowerment is a feeling and not a change in power position

30. They blame their antisocial loneliness epidemic on us

31. The tried to use the Love Languages on us

32. They created psychiatry as a way to at least in part control women just as they created medicine to control and destroy midwives

33. They place the locus of responsibility outside themselves which makes them perpetual victims

34. They created purity culture

35. They created porn culture

36. They buy and use and masturbate to trafficked and vulnerable women and it doesn’t matter to them

37. They corner me in the workplace

38. They are always looking at us - I want to not be perceived sexually at all

39. They use women for all of their emotional dumping and we aren’t certified to handle it

40. They resent our happiness (shaming it)

41. We had to create laws to keep them from marrying and having sex with kids. Like, everywhere. We haven’t even succeeded globally

42. They hold women in power to an entirely separate standard than men

43. They’re lazy

44. They can solve complex problems and be incentive and self-improving at work, but are seemingly really incapable of doing this for relationships

45. They won’t see something unless it directly impacts them personally

46. They are emotionally unintelligent

47. They are violent

48. They are wilfully ignorant of the constant threat of sexual violence women face

49. They are making and using technology to get past consent

50. They believe women have a use value

51. They’re lying when they say they can’t show emotions : art, culture, music, etc belie this. And this is aside from the fact that we acknowledge their pride, nationalism, anger, boorishness, sulkishness, entitlement, jealousy, etc. these are emotions too.

52. They use power to get or pressure or coerce sex

53. They don’t mentor women professionally unless they’re sexually attracted to them physically

54. They’re bad and aggressive drivers

55. They’re predatory and some don’t know it ???????

56. They play dumb

57. They owe us reparations and refuse to even consider this - we were left out of Das Kapital

58. They try to turn their wives into their mothers

59. They moderate men and women differently in social media spaces

60. We can’t trust them as soldiers or peace corps

61. We can’t trust them alone with kids period - who do we tell kids to go to if they’re lost?!!

62. That they’ve turned violence into sex “body count” “fuck the shit out of you”

63. We can’t be honest with them - we have to tiptoe around them

64. I’m pissed more men aren’t speaking out about the obvious loss of civil rights of women globally - what the hell! It makes me believe that they kinda want it to happen (plausible deniability of course) because like it’s not gonna hurt them right?

65. At any given time I could pull up incidents where instead of intervening while a woman is being assaulted, the assault is filmed by other men. The reverse simply doesn’t happen.

66. They love borrowed authority

67. I hate them because when they ask “what do you want me to do about it?” And you say the most slacktivist thing, they won’t even do that. They’ll do NOTHING.

68. Because the most unsafe place for a woman in the world is the home

69. Because a woman is killed by an intimate partner globally every 11 minutes

70. Because the number one cause of death for pregnant women in the states is murder

71. Because they believe their morals are their best intentions. It’s like they all think they’re brave but he’s anyone done anything brave ?

72. They use weaponized incompetence to control people and be lazy

73. They believe sexism is benevolence

74. Because someone taught them that it’s the thought that counts and it almost never is the thought that counts

75. That gang rape is a thing

76. Because only a handful of men have most of the global wealth

77. They move goalposts: you can say what your experience is but they’ll discount it as one. You can say it’s others that have experienced the same thing and they’ll discount it as over represented.

78. There’s no acceptable way to be really angry with them, and express that, as a woman

79. They feel comfortable making comments about women’s physical appearance, touching us without our consent and bank on us not rocking the boat.

80. They refuse to believe in the wage gap

81. We could have child care as being mandated but because women are primary childcare givers, we don’t have this.

82. Medicine was only tested on both genders recently because it was too difficult to do apparently

83. Our medical issues aren’t taken seriously

84. Mass shooters are almost exclusively men

85. Because they moan about suicide rates and forget to mention all the women and kids and sometimes strangers that suicidal men take with them

86. They believe they’re entitled to sex - through payment guilt or force

87. They rarely care about what girls think unless they have a daughter

88. Cultures abort girl babies and before they just exposed them to the elements. As a result there’s India and China and the Middle East Hong Kong, South Korea, Taiwan Vietnam etc there are more men than women

89. They don’t stop female genital mutilation. And they could if they wanted to.

90. More than 100 million women are missing - the shortfall of the number of women in the world we would expect in the absence of sex discrimination

91. They desire us to be dependent on them. Independence terrifies them.

92. They let women leave the workforce during the pandemic.

93. They see male history, male writing, male law as standard and they aren’t. They’d freak out if the USA had 9 woman Supreme Court justices

94. They are more sexist than even racist

95. Male over female Domination is the first and most primal form of oppression

96. Prostitution is the first form of trafficking not the worlds oldest profession

97. They can compartmentalize the pain of others - especially if it doesn’t impact them or their family (their own private kingdom)

98. Every man assumes he’s the king and grows up taught that they deserve to own things, people and property

99. They see women as girls all as potential sexual objects. Especially if they’re mad.

100. They treat sex workers as a different class

101. Women don’t keep men as sex slaves

102. They’ve made the law such that women cannot logistically perform murder itself defence

103. They say porn is free speech and that it’s not real when it’s convenient

104. Despite all of this: all of the proof and every experience logged and litigated… that they don’t believe that women still are being oppressed under male supremacy.

105. Because someone has said it’s okay for drag queens to use “bitch serving cunt” as an expression of femininity- and claim it’s not misogynistic

#misandry #misogyny #feminism #feminist

#terfblr #andrea dworkin #radical feminist #radical feminist safe #radical feminists please interact #radical feminist theory #andrea+dworkin #feminism #we should all be feminists

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queenofanime · 2 years

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Deadly Sins (Sinbad x Reader)

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"Your father would be disappointed".

The man before you stopped dead in his tracks. Body stiffening and eyes widening from the audacity he had just heard.

By now, Sinbad's golden hues were filled with hate, anger boiling up quickly. How could you, Y/n, his soulmate, who he supposably loves, say such a thing?

Outside, the night was dark, with the moon barley making an appereance. Many clouds blocking the few stars that radiated some sort of light. The wind made itself present with the ruffuling of the trees. Despite the cold weather, you felt hot, Sinbad's eyes piercing through your soul. And while the look on the man, you thought you knew, was slowly killing you, you didn't regret a single word.

You knew Sinbad since he was just a 16 year old dork, who told stories about his adventures in the colosseum, in the most cheesy way possible you may add. You knew him as the guy who was thrown off a cliff naked, alongside Ja’Far and Mystras. You did not know, however, the guy who sacrificed Serendine so he could get Zepar, nor did you know the man standing in front of you. ‘Cause he was not your Sinbad.

Lost in your train of thought, you did not notice the man walking towards you and closing the distance gap. Only when he leaned in and your skin felt his breath, did you realize of the dangerous situation you had gotten yourself into.

“I dare you to say that again”.

Just as you had anticipated, his voice was harsh and low, sending shivers down your spine. You did not waver though…because you meant every single thing.

“I know you Sinbad. I damn well know who I fell for and you are not that person. I know your father was kind and simple and I sure as hell know your mother didn’t raise you to be a manipulative bitch! So yeah, both would be disappointed”.

Sinbad scowl just deepened but it soon turned to a laughing fit, a psychotic laughing fit. You could only watch and swallow hard for this being the first time you ever witness said reaction. Sinbad would have never thrown his hand at you or hurt you in any way, now you weren’t so sure.

His laughter soon ceased to exist.

“I created an utopia! I’ve made the world’s economy grow! I hAVe cReaTED PEACE! I’VE Made tHe WORLD A BETTER PLACE! And YOU DarE—But at what cost?!”

Your sudden outburst took the formerly known King of Sindria by surprise. You always did know how to go toe-to-toe with him.

“At what cost?” You ask again. And while you don’t notice it, Sinbad sees the tears running down your face hysterically. “You lied to your friends and used them as pawns, you attacked the Kou, manipulated Aladdin, Ali Baba, Kougyoku, and countless others. Yamato Takeruhiko, Ren Hakuryuu, and Nerva Julius are in a wanted list?! Look around you, there’s nothing left.” By now, your crying your eyes out and you hated yourself for it. Allowing someone to see you in this vulnerable state was despiteful. Taking a small breath, you decided to appeal to the logical side of your brain. “You’ve abandoned the people you swore to protect, and yes, you created an utopia, but when things are too good to be true…is because they are.”

Your mother always told you to keep your chin high and you were not gonna disappoint her now. With redden eyes you looked up at the man who had broken your heart.A small part of you wished that he would reflect on what you’ve said, but it was wishful naive thinking. Sinbad’s eyes were void of emotion.

With shaky breaths you continued. “But above all the horrible things you’ve done, I never thought you would do the thing I feared the most.” “Yeah, and what is that?”

You looked at Sinbad one last time while you backed away towards the door.

“You stopped loving me.”

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toastytrusty · 9 months

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thinking endlessly about how romans main relationships outside of the family in later seasons are lukas and mencken, and how their dynamics with rome foil each other both narratively and in-universe. lukas represents them selling waystar, represents emotional vulnerability, represents freedom. mencken, on the other hand, represents them keeping the company, represents the toxic façade of who you Need to be, represents remaining trapped. the way romes emotions fuel the contrasting dynamics between them is endlessly fascinating

lukas, upon his second time meeting rome, immediately continuously attempts to talk abt deep kinda personal/emotional stuff, which rome shut down because he's afraid of self expression, even though deep down he craves connection. this probably scares him, so, especially after logan's death and lukas' reaction to it (on one hand being a dick and not pushing back the meeting, on the other hand trying in his own autistic way to connect and empathize with their loss, as well as being real about how awful logan was), roman distances himself. he feels pushed to the edge of his sanity and reverts to what comes most naturally to him, you guessed it, eeeemotion. he freaks out at lukas on the cliff, in his head burning any bridge built between them, which tbf he pretty much does. but to lukas, this is almost like a win for him. he's been trying to encourage roman to open up to him since they met, and he finally did! so the $5 price bump is almost like a congratualtions or a reward, as well as a spiteful fuck you. narratively it takes them one step closer to selling the company, roman's emotion being what puts him there, and in this case it's being appreciated. really, rome wants out of the company; he wants to sell and he wants to be free of it and all the pressure and expectation that comes with it.

whereas mencken was always very business-focused with roman; joking and laughing in a detached, not very real way. his focus was always succeeding and going far and not really caring how he got there, and i think that's part of why roman liked him. there was no expectation to be genuine or actually connect; he could just put on his brave face and do what they felt needed to be done. when he pushed lukas away because things got too real, he continued seeking out mencken because mencken was easy to appeal to in that way he so often does; changing himself to suit there needs. he puts mencken over everything else that mattered in his life (relationships with his family members mainly he doesn't gaf about The Economy) because he didn't have to be real with mencken. it was all just the blind pursuit for power he didn't really want and a security he felt more threatened by than anything, because he got too far in and set his sights on something (or more accurately kendall set his sights on something, and who was rome to protest?) and had to acheive it. so when the façade breaks, and mencken sees him for the first time not as the charming, witty, businessman, but as the damaged person who just wasn't built for the world, he walks away, no longer looking to protect waystar, or roman. love and sensitivity and emotion are all weaknesses to mencken, weakness he had previously not seen in roman, but now that he had it was too late. rome couldn't pretend forever and mencken bailed, handing waystar (and roman!! becase their ties to waystar are through roman!!) back to lukas and the gojo deal on a silver platter.

this inadvertantly pushes roman back towards freedom, and, in a way, back towards lukas. he told mr emotions to fuck off and ran away to be his self absorbed emotionless husk with someone who wanted nothing more from him, but that didn't work out too well. he can't stay in the cage that is waystar, he can't spend all of his time being someone he's not; it's exhausting. lukas represents his ability to acheive freedom from the toxic environment of waystar, as well as the fact that he will eventually have to confront reality, and mencken represents his unhealthy, and ultimately doomed to fail, coping mechanisms and avoidance behavior. when he tries to twist his perspective of the people around him to make them seem like good people (logan, MENCKEN), lukas shuts it down (at least with logan; i don't think the two of them ever talk abt mencken) and makes rome confront the fact that they aren't, and when rome is so deep into being someone he isn't, lukas encourages him to be himself, whereas mencken condemns him for it

#succession #hbo succession #succession hbo #roman roy #lukas matsson #jeryd mencken #romelukas #romencken #the ping pong game he plays between them as his mental state wavers is endlessly fascinating to me #lukas' last line to him being “i love you” showing his ability to reconcile with his sensitivity and freedom..#showing he isn't so badly damaged he can't heal..#him always liking mencken more/choosing mencken over most other people representing how badly repressed his emotions are #he's always revolving his life around other people hoping that one day someone will treat him with a fraction of the same care #changing his manneurisms and opinions depending on who he's in front of to try and appeal to them #but mencken is proof and the living embodiment that that will never work #he will never survive in the corporate landscape no one will ever respect him or show him any care or love #anyways #sorry if this is entirely incoherent i just needed to ramble

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What do you think Ted thinks about gay people? He’s obviously conservative, but he doesn’t strike me as a particularly politically involved Republican. I feel like he’s too unmotivated for that lol. He’s very Milquetoast Suburban Dad™️.

Also, the Wheelers don’t seem to be very religiously motivated either. This is not to say that Ted would think gay people are “normal,” or that he wouldn’t be homophobic, but do you agree that it wouldn’t be in a fire and brimstone way?

Ted seems like more of a cultural conservative to me who votes Reagan because things are “good” under him, and there’s no reason to think any differently. Maybe he turns on the radio occasionally, but it’s not like there is FoxNews and evangelical preachers constantly in the Wheeler home. Is it possible he cares more about the economy than about social issues?

How do you think he would feel about having a gay son? Is it possible he already suspects it? Or suspected it at some point?

Also it’s hard to get a read on if Ted loves his kids. He obviously doesn’t really show it, but does he feel it? I feel like he at least loves Holly.

you really read my mind with this analysis on ted, anon!

i am absolutely obsessed with the wheeler family dynamic and how stereotypical it is of an 80s family

i cannot imagine ted wheeler being a fire and brimstone type of homophobe. is he homophobic? almost certainly, but i don't think it's due to deep seeded religious views. like you mentioned i think it's mostly because it's just not what is typical or 'normal'. i'm inclined to believe that ted doesn't extend much thought to gay people until it's brought under his attention by maybe discussion of the AIDS crisis or his son being gay

and, yeah, i'd say ted probably cares more about the economy than social issues. it's just so difficult to imagine ted extending the energy to care about social issues either way or hating a specific group of people - he's genuinely just kind of indifferent it seems

as for mike... i feel like ted might suspect something. he's made too many comments throughout the seasons for me to think otherwise, especially when he's like "our son with a girl?" of course that could have been him in disbelief over a girl liking mike because he's nerdy and not popular in any sense of the word, but with every other context clue about mike's sexuality in the show it just makes you wonder

i don't think that ted would be the type of homophobic parent to threaten to kick mike out of the house or become abusive (*cough* lonnie the son of a bitch *cough*). but i do think he'd tell mike to keep his sexuality and especially his relationship with will behind closed doors, and it'd be a subject not really talked about. ted likely wouldn't approve simply because it's not what is 'normal' and he might make some passing comments to mike that make his opinion known, but i can't see it becoming overly aggressive. i really believe ted would just rather not talk about it or acknowledge it at all instead - an out of sight, out of mind mentality

and i do think he loves his kids, actually. he's just a very stereotypical 80s dad that doesn't show it well at all. he probably assumes he's showing his love by providing them with a good house and food on the table. to him fathers aren't the ones who deal with the emotional stuff, that's up to the mother. he's no doubt even worse with mike about showing affection because it would be even more awkward for him to be open and vulnerable with his son rather than his daughters, and that of course is caused by misogyny and rigid gender roles/expectations

i am interested to hear what anyone else thinks about this!

#byler #mike wheeler #ted wheeler #answered 💌

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Anyway made myself upset thinking about my parents again (ofc it's nearly Christmas)

and like how they weren't technically abusive and it was all just kinda. Emotional neglect, unintentional(?) manipulation, so much shit born out of their own issues and immaturity and their own suffering. And like yeah. Okay. Maybe it (mostly) wasn't intentional, and wasn't my fault. But it still feels like my fault, my responsibility. It's still my burden to live with for the rest of my life, and it's still my personality, my inability to make connections and trust, my fucked up 'attachment style's or whatever, that suffered the consequences.

And maybe things are marginally better than they were when I was peak vulnerable and they were peak bad. But that just makes me fear I made it all up? In my head? And it IS just me and all my fault, despite my father outright admitting all these horrible things about the way my mother feels about me, despite their ongoing bullshit, despite the consensus amongst all the siblings about how fucked it is, and how I specifically was the least loved child?

Idk. Its a guilty wish, sometimes, that things had been worse. That there was some definitive /event/ to point to, as proof, as an excuse, as a reason that I'm Like This, and not just the slow, near invisible grinding down beneath their passive aggression over the years. How can you measure the effect of their behaviour on a child who was already of an anxious disposition, but never to this extent? How can you count the costs, see what was lost, when I was never allowed to grow into a person outside of it all? I'm STILL not a person, not really, not a full one at least.

And still, still the enduring wish that it had been worse. So I'd feel less crazy. More justified. So I'd have an excuse to leave and cut the strings with finality. So I wouldn't have to keep playing this game, balancing this dance, even as I reap the (financial) benefits of of not having to be completely independent in this economy. And yet. And yet. How can we count the costs?

If things are marginally better, is it because I made it up? Because I matured and put in the work on my end and am trying to handle myself? Because I learned how to more carefully walk on eggshells and navigate this? Because I simply stopped outwardly caring? Or are they better? Are they capable of being better? They're still awful to each other, and it spills over onto me constantly, but it's not /as/ bad as it was when I was my youngest brother's age. Were they always capable of that? Was I simply not worth the effort to change for? Not worth the effort to try and help, to save?

And I have to live the rest of my life like this? Not just with all the fragile shattered spiky bits of my non-self, but also always doing this dance with them? Always the tension and the guilt because I want and need to leave, but that's just Not Done, and I can't, won't, be my mother, practically glued at the hip to her aging mother. But I know I'm the only one of my siblings responsible enough to be the one to step up at take care of them as they age, regardless if I need to move cross country and change my name and never return. I know it'll fall to me, even as I was the one most damaged by them. There is no way our, no reconciliation at the happy ending, no fixing this in a way that matters. But there's no justification for my leaving, my escape either. If I cannot wish evil on my genuine enemies, how can I not care for them when they eventually age? My conscience won't let me, even as I know it'll kill whatever's left of my heart, to be stuck with them, again. Its a long ways off, they're young still. And yet. And yet.

Idk. I hate the holidays. I'm glad I'll be out of the house for most of them save Christmas Eve & day itself. It'll be lonely, perhaps, it usually is, and I'll be melancholy and drink too much wine and lay about being morose. But at least it'll be on my own terms.

#the duality of fran #ignore this i just. idm #i was suddenly very sad and upset #and if i didn't write it out i wouldnt be able to get back to work #and i rlly wanted to get thru this fonds by the end of the day

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Hey there! I’m loving the ~selection~ of your blog! I was wondering if I may request a strawhat!fem!reader x Law, please? Something like they meet on Punk Hazard and it’s a ‘love at first sight but I will die before I admit it’ sort of situation. They get closer to each other as time goes on, becoming sort of ‘unofficial’ as a couple, but then when the alliance is over and they have to part ways there’s this really deep aching for each other and they find ways to secretly meet up so as to not cause an incident. Of course, because it’s the Straw Hats, they get caught sneaking around pretty quickly. I’m okay with smut and if you want to make the reader GN, that’s cool too!! Thanks in advance!

hihi! hope you had fun perusing through said selection~ i do love secret relationships, and making law suffer through feelings is my favorite pastime <3 ty for your patience, i hope you like it😊i kept it tame (shocker), but mostly bc i knew i'd be writing forever if i didn't lmao

2.1k words, fem reader (no pronouns), sfw, 18+, mdni; tiny, tiny bit of angst (i promise, ok maybe more than a tiny bit), fluff (???? in this economy??? idek anymore); no real warnings, rly, just law x reader being idiots in love somehow. robin makes an appearance (briefly!) & reader is over-complicating things 💛

“i am tired of explaining the fire, / it burns because it must.” — gwen benaway

it was never your intention to fall in love; you were actively against it for as long as you remember, finding heartache to be comparable to miniature deaths where you don’t quite die all the way. a morbid, ridiculous affair, one that you want to eliminate before it spins and transforms into something wholly unrecognizable and equally difficult to get rid of.

you actively remind yourself to guard your heart, to steel your emotions — to ensure that no one ever penetrates the concrete walls that surround your heart. to love, you fear, is to give away the most vulnerable parts of yourself; you’re not quite ready to do any of that just yet. or ever if you have it your way. being a member of the straw hats crew makes it all the more easier for you to distance yourself from bothersome feelings — where you can, instead, pour your focus into getting stronger, into protecting your crew mates, and into enjoying the adventure without any flimsy romantic ties.

to survive the harshness that comes with the territory of being a pirate, you mercilessly carve out the parts of yourself that you predict will willingly leave you helpless as hope continues to remain out of your reach. in your quest for liberation from your absurd fantasies, from your wily desires and cumbersome thoughts, you fail to fortify yourself properly — what you think is an impenetrable, thick glass casing around your fragile heart, is something much more delicate and easier to crack.

impossible is not a word you use often, but that’s the only thing that comes to mind when you meet hm for the first time. it’s all you hear when he opens his mouth, when his eyes catch the way you openly stare at him — shameless on your part, really — like a fish flung out of water, you find yourself gasping and before you can embarrass yourself any further, you decide that a quick walk will suffice in freeing your mind.

it’s not that he’s incapable of romantic love, but he prefers not to deal with needless emotions if he can help it. for as long as he can remember, love’s always been the one thing that overcomplicates his life. it leaves him breathless, as if there’s never enough air around him whenever it passes through; and when he meets you, it collides into him so hard, he’s pretty sure he must be dreaming. because dreams cushion the fall, makes things easier to deal with; they’re collectively an infinitely more gracious, uncomplicated ordeal — one that law would rather deal with than the alternative.

reality, it seems, is entirely too brutal; the truth of the matter is, he’s never been quite this taken with anyone before in his entire life. it’s unnerving, to say the least, and while he’d rather gouge his eyes out repeatedly than admit anything like that, he can only deny the truth for so long.

you ask the others about him, as your original opinion — taken from tidbits you’ve read about him in the papers — needs some serious amending. here before you stands a formidable foe-turned-ally, a man who is more myth than legend, one that exudes an intimidating enough aura to make you nervous enough to look away several times. he doesn’t understand why you do that; why whenever he attempts to cut through whatever bullshit façade you’ve constructed for the time being, you always find a way to escape.

what is it that you’re running from, and how long will you keep running? and why is he so intrigued by your plight, even when he doesn’t know the exact details behind it?

it’s bad enough that you can hardly stomach a few minutes of conversation with him; you find his haughtiness absurd, and his confidence even more so — although, he wouldn’t be a pirate captain if he didn’t exhibit those qualities at least, right? still, it doesn’t exactly stop you from seeking out his company, nor does it stop your curiosity from growing. you’re engrossed with his manner of speaking, with his rigid views and inability to stop luffy from derailing his plans. you think it’s funny that law thinks he has a handle on the alliance, when you know your captain will have his way regardless of who says what.

while he may have initially thought that his insistence on surveilling you was simply a force of habit — to ensure you can be trustworthy, that you won’t mess up anything he’s set in motion — he knows that, deep down, that isn’t exactly true. he also thought his inclination to ensure that you’re always accounted for, to come up with additional plans in case you’re in danger, to find reasons to talk at you in that patronizing tone of his was normal behavior. but, on a brisk evening, robin breaks it down for him — into bite-sized, digestible chunks, for him to mull over for the duration of the night, for his brain to agonize over certain realizations and ignore the way his heart beats a tiny bit faster around you.

and, because she’s not done playing the role of matchmaker, robin also approaches you, tells you that you’re being a little silly, doing all you can to avoid prolonged contact with law, while also watching him from afar. you don’t know how to take that, try your best to come up with excuse after excuse, but she gives you a knowing look, which only makes your face grown unbearably hot. it’s childish, really, this feeling; the way it slows your movements, dulls your reflexes, makes you think about law more frequently than you should. and when it gets to be too much, when you keep finding yourself in compromising positions with him, you eventually blurt out things that don’t make sense.

“your face is distracting,” you tell him bitterly as you sip your coffee and glare at him over your mug. he chokes on his food, eying you warily as he wipes his mouth. “do something about it.” you’re not one to give out commands like that, let alone give them to him, but you find it ridiculous that you can’t seem to focus whenever he’s around. if he could reel back his attractiveness, then you’d function better. you’ve shattered one too many dishes over the past week, and you can only come up with so many excuses to give sanji and nami.

law finds your argument lacking, yet somewhat comical; he tilts his head and studies you carefully, the corners of his lips tugging downward as he tries to wrap his mind around your logic.

“it’s my face,” he waves your concerns off, “there’s nothing i can do about it, so…” and even if he could, he probably wouldn’t. “why do you have a problem with it now?”

you don’t know how to explain it to him without sounding completely out of your mind, so you don’t; you dump the remainder of your coffee into the kitchen sink and huff under your breath, hands shaking as nerves get the best of you.

“of course, you wouldn’t understand.” because you can barely understand it yourself if you’re honest. “i won’t bother explaining, then.” again, you say the impossible, and he’s left feeling frustrated; rather than let you walk away, though, he corners you. he grabs onto your wrist firmly, and rather than fight him, you stay.

“every time i think i have you figured out,” his eyes narrow, but he lets out a sigh, face softening briefly, “you say or do something that makes me think otherwise.”

you’re not sure if you should feel offended or relieved or both. so, you remain silent, instead letting his words slowly crawl along your skin. it’s the closest you’ll get to a confession right now, but you accept it anyway.

what begins as a begrudging curiosity, turns into an awkward friendship wrought with petty arguments and witty jokes, which soon fast-tracks to a full-blown romance. it’s silly, really; the sneaking around, the shared looks and secret kisses, the moments during the day where you both disappear for hours, the way you think you’re being subtle, when both of you are so terribly obvious with your affections for one another.

there are a few, of course, who are oblivious — zoro, luffy, chopper, the like — but the rest are well-aware; it’s robin who advises them to keep quiet about it, who suggests that the two of you think you’re being clever by keeping things a secret. if anything, it sparks another bet between all of them, one where they debate over how long you’re determined to keep your relationship hidden from them.

it's not that you don’t want to tell them, but you dislike the idea of them knowing, because you have yet to process the relationship completely. he’s also of the same mind, although he’s made his peace with it much sooner than you have. it’s less him not wanting people to know, and more his concern with what will happen once people do find out. distance certainly does not make the heart grow fonder; he can attest to that.

and when the alliance finally runs its course, he’s faced with a reality he didn’t anticipate. he became so accustomed to being around you constantly, that not having you by his side feels… strange. unwanted, even. there’s an emptiness that sits inside of him that he can’t fill no matter what. you’re equally as miserable, pouting and sighing whenever you find the time; you attempt to write him several times and rip the letters up before you can send them. he asked if you wanted to join his crew, you turned him down out of loyalty for the straw hats.

you don’t feel burdened by your decision, but you don’t exactly feel whole afterwards. it’s by using transponder snails and encoded messages that you make plans with one another. the beauty of having a submarine for a ship means he can travel wherever he pleases; the downside is that his crew often questions the various deviations on their route to various islands. he reminds them that it’s to ensure they’re always stocked on supplies, but bepo sees through that flimsy excuse. whenever he tries to broach the subject, law waves him off, dismisses his theories, and insists that his first mate is wrong.

it's zoro who confronts you, who tells you that what you’re doing is putting the crew at risk; he questions your loyalty, not out of malice, but out of genuine curiosity. you understand where he’s coming from, and even try to talk yourself out of meeting law again (and again, and again), but you think about how you’re not ready to give anything up just yet. you’re not sure why you’re being forced to choose, but a small voice in the back of your mind reminds you that love, while a truly beautiful and miraculous thing, is every bit as insidious as it is outrageous.

still, you don’t think about that when you’re with law; your mind stills, a sense of peace taking over, making things feel warm and right. he doesn’t bother telling you about the worries from his crew mates, and you don’t saddle him with your grief over potentially having to end things one day. you tuck it into your heart, compartmentalize it meticulously, shelving the box to be dealt with in the distant future. instead, you enjoy telling him about various things you’ve seen since you were last together, and he pretends that he’s not trying to find ways to convince you to come along with him.

love is every bit as fickle as it is draining — constantly demanding your full attention, lording guilt over your head whenever it can. you’re not sure how much more of it you can take, but you’ve come too far to turn back now. and every time you kiss him, you willingly lose a piece of yourself; he’s collected so much, you’re afraid you’ll disappear by the end of it.

it was vulnerability that you feared for so long, but it should’ve been longevity — feelings are fleeting, but what happens when the particularly irksome ones, the ones that have you blushing and stumbling over your words around him, when they stay for longer than necessary? you don’t know what to do with it all — with the excessive anxiety over what ifs and why nots — so you bury it all over again in the hopes of uncovering it when life isn’t quite as complicated. he refuses to let you retreat into yourself, and reminds you any chance that he gets, that no matter what you try to tell yourself, everything that’s happened is real.

because if he must suffer the burden of carrying love around with him every moment of the day, you will to; he absolutely will make certain of it. and even though your crew mates aren’t particularly pleased with your decision, it’s not up to them, now, is it? you don’t go flaunting it, but you’re tired of hiding; after all, what’s the point of keeping up a charade where everyone is already privy to your secret?

#fic request #making my way thru my requests slowly but surely #one piece angst #one piece fluff #one piece imagine #one piece x reader #one piece x y/n #trafalgar law #trafalgar law x reader #trafalgar law x y/n #trafalgar law angst #trafalgar law fluff #law x reader #law x y/n #law angst #law fluff #law needs 2 get it together *washes hands*#winter-peach-fuzz

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As the effects of climate change become impossible to ignore, the crueler side of the denial project—now lurking as subtext—will become explicit. It has already begun. At the end of August 2011, with large parts of the world still suffering under record high temperatures, the conservative blogger Jim Geraghty published a piece in The Philadelphia Inquirer arguing that climate change “will help the U.S. economy in several ways and enhance, not diminish, the United States’ geopolitical power.” He explained that since climate change will be hardest on developing countries, “many potentially threatening states will find themselves in much more dire circumstances.” And this, he stressed, was a good thing: “Rather than our doom, climate change could be the centerpiece of ensuring a second consecutive American Century.” Got that? Since people who scare Americans are unlucky enough to live in poor, hot places, climate change will cook them, leaving the United States to rise like a phoenix from the flames of global warming. Expect more of this monstrousness. As the world warms, the ideology so threatened by climate science—the one that tells us it’s everyone for themselves, that victims deserve their fate, that we can master nature—will take us to a very cold place indeed. And it will only get colder, as theories of racial superiority, barely under the surface in parts of the denial movement, make a raging comeback. In the grossly unequal world this ideology has done so much to intensify and lock in, these theories are not optional: they are necessary to justify the hardening of hearts to the largely blameless victims of climate change in the Global South and to the predominantly African American cities like New Orleans that are most vulnerable in the Global North. In a 2007 report on the security implications of climate change, copublished by the Center for Strategic and International Studies, former CIA director R. James Woolsey predicted that on a much warmer planet “altruism and generosity would likely be blunted.” We can already see that emotional blunting on display from Arizona to Italy. Already, climate change is changing us, coarsening us. Each massive disaster seems to inspire less horror, fewer telethons. Media commentators speak of “compassion fatigue,” as if empathy, and not fossil fuels, was the finite resource. As if to prove the point, after Hurricane Sandy devastated large parts of New York and New Jersey, the Koch-backed organization Americans for Prosperity (AFP) launched a campaign to block the federal aid package going to these states. “We need to suck it up and be responsible for taking care of ourselves,” said Steve Lonegan, then director of AFP’s New Jersey chapter. And then there is Britain’s Daily Mail newspaper. In the midst of the extraordinary 2014 winter floods, the tabloid ran a front-page headline asking its readers to sign a petition calling on the government “to divert some of the £11 billion a year spent on overseas aid to ease the suffering of British flood victims.” Within days, more than 200,000 people had signed onto the demand to cut foreign aid in favor of local disaster relief. Of course Britain—the nation that invented the coal-fired steam engine—has been emitting industrial levels of carbon for longer than any nation on earth and therefore bears a particularly great responsibility to increase, as opposed to claw back, foreign aid. But never mind that. Screw the poor. Suck it up. Everyone for themselves.

This Changes Everything, by Naomi Klein

#climate change #denialism goes hand in hand with racism and hatred of the poor #with a tint of christian fundamentalism

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