My insecurities are killing me, but that’s okay.

Ending the days at the beach. https://www.instagram.com/p/CcuwqbZP-4T/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

always - keshi

like we always do

like we always do

was i a fool

to think that we always would

I am tired.

I am tired of you roaming around in my head, living rent free. I am tired of remembering you and our times together. I am tired of the fact that whenever someone asks me about my past, it pinches me a little but I have to fake it with a smile and crack a self deprecating just to show that you cracked me but I am also normal now. I am tired of the fact that even though I know I am over you, there is this insecure part of me that fears that I am not and maybe that part isnt. I am tired of you existing in my head and making me sad and i am also tired of the fact that whenever I get sad, my brain finds itself back to the thoughts of you or us. I loved what we had but leave me alone. Get out of my head, why cant I kick you out? It's my head. Why cant I forget our short lived fantasy? Why can't I just go back to being how I emotionally was before you?

Why?

Look at him! He’s such a good boy and I love him. #pokemon #pokemonswordshield #grookey #grasstype #monkey #drummer #feelingmyself #demfeels #sword #shield #starter #galar #nintendo #switch #digitalart #cartoon #ichooseyou #cantwait (at Brisbane, Queensland, Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuaPXY-Ad5w/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=b5mkytozt0me

This is what's it's all about!! #demfeels⠀ The pressure mounted on Dave in the minutes leading up to Zoe arriving down the aisle at their @theearthhouse Wedding. It was a rainy day in paradise and we held the ceremony on the balcony. Dave was fairly grounded but the site of Zoe created this magical moment captured by @ameliafullarton So good to see men be open and honest with their feelings!! #momentsovermountains PS. I always try my best to get out of the entrance moment :) ⠀⠀ So good to work with @theeventsco_ // @100miletable // @wildernessflowers_ // @clarehairbyron // @phoebefever // @rebellyouscakeco // @dj_kristin & more (at EarthHouse) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuBDxsWgi7f/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1qq74vohwvwuz

- Es wär so leicht wenn ich kein Chaos wär Bin ich an Land, will ich das Meer Seit einer Ewigkeit geht's hin und her Erst brauch ich ihn, dann den anderen mehr - 📴🌌 #blackandwhite #bwphotography #thosedays #demfeels #brokenheartsclub #whysosad #amireal #mytearsdryontheirown #elif #whileyouweresleeping (hier: The Sun Had Set, Where Loneliness Begins) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtecwbaH8PD/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=zom92d5ozxtc

You glow, its what you do. A poem dedicated to my inner light and the Moon. 🌕🌖🌗🌘🌑🌒🌓🌔🌕 #laluna #chaand #glow #moon #poetry #demfeels #cantfightthemoonlight #noyoucantfightit #deepinthedark #surrenderyourheart

C E R E M O M Y / first steps of Maria & Christians new life together! / #demfeels #mariandchris #wedding #sydney #bestview #operahouse #harbourbridge #iconic #slowmotion #happydance #australia @mariabellmas @shreveandrea (at Mcmohan Point Sydney) https://www.instagram.com/p/B9HA-b0Hifl/?igshid=1i1mub8vrm9nc

Without a worry in this world. 

#alllove #healing #innerhealing #there #are #somethings #wejustdont #talkabout #yeah #thatsme #metoo #demfeels #igotyou #coloradosprings https://www.instagram.com/p/B24T9X9J9H0/?igshid=120mtwsj4zku4

How long will you love me? How long til you get bored of me?

Hot summer nights, mid-July. When you and I were.. https://www.instagram.com/p/CX8NUvGvU75/?utm_medium=tumblr

Mama called me destructive.  Said it'd ruin me one day.  Cause every woman that loved me, I seemed to push them away.

The Weekend

It's okay to not be perfect, or picture perfect. You're human and humans were created by god to be imperfectly perfect. Dont try to make sense of your chaos, just understand it and let it be. You dont see the sun trying hard to be not a hot chaotic mess and just be an ordinary calm piece of lifeless, soulless star. It accepts itself for what it is and embraces its flaws and that's what makes the sun so strong and powerful. Not everything needs to be fixed or improved or make better. You should let somethings be because that's life and it was created to be a chaotic mess. Be you because the power of being yourself is exquisitely beautiful and unique to you.

Always. Be. You.

Aaahh there we go, much better 💁🏼‍♀️❤ #blonde #freshdo #blessed #thankyou #nofilter #gypsy #demfeels #datenightideas #origin https://www.instagram.com/p/BzuK-A8lifR/?igshid=1tnv9iwrv9mrd