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nbgwen · 4 days

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Expectations vs Reality

ok - so I need to just put this out there. Me making a Rolan will not happen fast. My life is kinda insane. I work full-time, I have MS (and other crap/MH stuff), hubs has Parkinson's, kiddo 1 (24) moved back home, kiddo 2 (21) doesn't live at home but has FASD and can be a lot, kiddo 3 (10) is just a plain active kiddo. Plus I have a pets. Our basement flooded - only and inch or two, but it was everywhere and won't be done anytime soon due to finding water seeping from one of the walls. Oh, and my mom got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.

I could actually go on about my hot mess of a life, but I just want to put this out there to temper expectations. I'm super stoked about making Rolan, like crazy stoked. But - if I want to do it right, and take notes to possibly share the pattern if I manage it, then it's going to be months of work, probably. Maybe. Depends on energy, time, and funds. FUN! Most of my yarn was in my basement, so I'll have to pick up what I need as I go. For now, I have his body yarn (that sounds so weird).

I promise to post pictures of the progress. I'm very transparent - if I fuck it up, or life goes to shit, I'll say so. It may only be one or two folks interested, but that's enough for me! Is this my anxiety talking, absolutely. But I'm 50 and have few fucks left to give.

#holy rolan empire #bg3 rolan #knitting #crazy life #rolan

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beyourselfchulanmaria · 10 months

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藉由皮革本身有的紋理創造出作品並述說故事的畫面是我很鍾意的魔術戲法之一，並非每件作品和皮革的部位皆適用，它必須是巧合。(Using the "texture(紋理)" of the leather itself to create works and tell stories is one of my favorite magic tricks. Not every piece of work and the location of the leather is suitable, it must be a coincidence.)

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Six pieces new leather fine craft which cases from different customers ordered. I made them together jobs during a same time to MAKE ME CRAZY and HUGGE STRESSES. Ah ah ah (( ((( (((

萬能的天神啊!請賜給我超能力呀! Almighty God! Please grant me superpowers! lol

PS. 那是一把鋒利的手工鑄造的"原住民的開山刀" // It's a sharp hand-forged "Native machete". A large knife with a wide blade, used for cutting trees and plants or as a weapon. and My client asked me to make a special coat for the machete. Ⓢ Ⓤ Ⓟ Ⓔ Ⓡ ＼(｡✪‿✪｡) ／ Lan~*

#gonna make a scabbard for this new machete #chu lan #fine craft artist #朱蘭皮藝 #leather art artist #customized leather works #crazy life #台灣工藝人 #native machete #原住民開山刀 #machete #開山刀 #working working and working XD

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smoking-kill-you · 4 months

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I can't feel anything!

This is awesome.

-thirteen movie (2003)

#thirteen movie #2014 tumblr #2014 grunge #2014 revival #depressing shit #girl interrupted #movie review #movies #2000s #crazy life #grunge

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khaosritual · 5 months

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#shameless #netflix #family #broken home #alcoholism #disfunctional family #chaos #disfunction #crazy life #trap #frank gallagher #lip gallagher #Gallagher #ian gallagher #fiona gallagher

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euesworld · 11 months

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"In turbulent seas, the wind wails through the sails and the waves gurgle beneath me.. in the gallows, a shallow pool begins to fill as the ship begins to bleed. Thunder, wind, lightning, violent tides, a furious storm indeed.. if I try to swim, Poseidon would surely drag me beneath. Is there hope? Or is all hope lost? As I grab the ropes hanging from the mast, I laugh, a nervous laugh and the storm laughed back.. the night was dark, no star in the sky. Fear in my heart, clouds so loud that I could feel it in my thighs.. terror was consuming me inside, and just like that it subsided. I realized that this is what it's like to finally feel alive.. I turned side and headed straight for the eye, and a little voice said to me.. live your life in the now, cause any moment you could die. What's broken could easily become a beacon of hope, you never know until you try.. if you aren't living life then you are living a lie, if you don't try, you will never know if the tide will carry you to the sunshine on the other side."

There are storms that will threaten to destroy you but that is the nature of life.. look it in the eye with a little humor and ask, I was already dead, so how can I die? So the storms teaches you how to live life - eUë

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sweetkikkimikky · 2 days

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#life #weekend #thats me #crazy #crazy life #love life #chillmode #sunday #weekend vibes

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springs-hurts · 6 months

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For me, 2023 started with a lot of new emotions and motivation, I was ready to conquer the world...it gonna end with me sitting at home, doing nothing and just withering away!

Hope 2024 brings some good news...

#c'est la vie #my life is disaster in making at this point #and yet here i am #it's me hi i'm the problem it's me #desiblr #crazy life #sirius black #reality #existence #real life #I'm done #Crying #realism

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mistofstars · 9 months

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Ich find's einfach hilarious 🤣

zuletzt Joko / Klaas fanfiction vor 11 (!) Jahren geschrieben und jetzt wieder auf fanfiktion.de die neue Story gepostet, die ich mit @soronya geschrieben habe.

Wenn man bei Joko / Klaas Stories auf die letzte Seite von allen geht, sieht man meine damaligen "Werke" 🤣 ich glaube ich hab damals die 11te fanfiction zu den zwei *ever* geschrieben.

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Wie lustig das auf dem Profil einfach aussieht: 2012, 2023.

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#personal stuff #fandom life #crazy life

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mysticalcrownhologram · 1 year

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#good dogs #pitbull #methamphematine #cristal #smoke ice #smoke meth #meth princess #metanfetamina #methamaphine #sex meth #sex and drugs #barrio #crazy life #thuglife #criko

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newlifestartshere · 9 months

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Having twins isn’t for the weak. Obviously I could of put them up for adoption when I found out because honestly I never wanted twins. But having these two in my life has taught me so much already. It’s rough some days, I just want to scream but I have to remember they are little, they are learning. I have learned to do things I didn’t think were possible. As much as I would of loved to have one at a time, god gave me two for a reason. He knew I needed these two little boys.

#mom life is hard #mom life #twin mom #twin boys #crazy life

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asheimmortal · 1 year

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In the latest chapter of my insane life, I'm in Oregon and not dead because of a band I found on TikTok.

I pretty much summed it up in a video I have pinned on my TikTok but basically I was getting burnt out in Chicago of having men scream at me and threaten me daily for just existing, my license was going to expire with no address to keep it, I got a bogus ticket with passengers in the car who said I did nothing wrong, and I said fuck it and left Chicago to off myself.

But I ended up getting into a shelter back home but that was going to be limited to when my car's registration expires. And after 2 HUD denials among another avalanche of shit falling down on me like it did in Chicago, I took off for Oregon.

But here's how it went...

Even back in Chicago I was still trying to process things I still can't fully process, and the idea was to try to find some reason to live, something to help my mental health, and I had the idea to try to just get back to me, who I was before life started really shitting on me and kicking me when I'm down all the time. That's when I bought the guitar (again) in 2021. But as things got worse, just having a guitar again wasn't enough. But I had still made up my mind to be a goth until the day I die and not ass kiss or people please or try to appease anyone anymore.

But I got deeply depressed in the shelter in Morgantown even though I was grateful to have a place to stay and shower daily. But I was horribly depressed, felt I'd never get anywhere, I'd never get HUD, my time was limited to my car's registration, the discrimination laws had passed in WV to where evryone from HUD to a Walmart employee could deny you service.

But during this time there were several people on TikTok that just watching them helped a little. All musicians and bands and one who just sings. At least I had those lives to look forward to seeing late at night.

But then I came across Fangbanger on a live playing in their garage. I thought they looked interesting enough to watch. I liked the energy. The comments were funny. People kinda make fun of them in the comments but the funniest was someone said Löded Diper. Haha. Sorry can't help that made me laugh. But I thought they were cool and I liked the music.

Their name stuck in my head though. I told someone about having seen them on live and that person told me it's a term from True Blood for people who fuck vampires and I said that's exactly what it sounded like to me - vampire fucker. Hah.

Then I saw them on live a 2nd time where they had mentioned what their band name was before and I couldn't remember what it was when I looked them up on YouTube to hear their stuff again. But I really liked it. Vertigo was my first favorite and something I could relate to. Things were just going downhill. Something I've already been crucified and slandered horribly over. But there were like 2 weeks of just being yelled at and shit on by someone I truly loved and like always, I try to hang onto things for dear life, I couldn't let go. I never wanted to let go. I never thought shit would end up this way.

Then I saw Fangbanger on again where I got it this time, to look up their stuff under The Faint Endless. And my 2nd favorite became Disappear. Which was about the time that was the real beginning of the end. Being told that it's selfish, arrogant, prideful and conceited of me to love him and have the feelings that I do. So fuck that! I've never been so hurt in my life and I've been told since the 4th grade by -everyone- that I'm too ugly to love, have no business liking guys, that its wrong for me to want someone special in my life, and I make guys miserable just by looking at them, and all that fucking shit. So Disappear REALLY fit the moment. Then came the shit storm online. And the 2nd HUd denial. And the choose between your car or the shelter. So I did disappear! I fucked off all the way to Oregon! Don't fuck with me!!!!!

But I really fucking love Fangbanger! I've loved their music, their energy, there's just something I connect with. I've thought that they're like what I wanted to be when I was a teenager and always wanted to have a band that would be something goth-punk-goth. Like a dial with Fangbanger on one side and The Sisters of Mercy on the other, and you can turn that dial for just the right amount of moodiness or anger. Or something like that.

But meeting them was surreal. I've met Jamie (Twiztid) like 100 times over, I've had a million beautiful moments over 5 years that got flushed down the toilet, nuked, and shit all over again, but the moment I met them just felt unreal. It was great. I'm shy too. I saw Ven at a distance and didn't want to shout out "Fangbanger!" in case it wasn't any of them and some stranger just thinks I'm crazy. Lol But it was her and she called the rest of them over and it was just so wild! They're also the first people altogether that I've met off TikTok. And I can't believe I got to hang out with them! They were sooooo nice to me too! And they are cool af to see live. I don't think I have the words to say just how great they are all around, as a band and as people.

I attempted to tatt one of their logos on me today using the kit I haven't touched in 3 years. Low confidence with my skin being super weird. I hope there's at least a line I can trace over if/when I have to touch it up. Fingers crossed 🤞.

For real, I fuckin love Fangbanger, I can't say enough good things about them, and they really pulled me out of the depths of the darkness I was in and I'd have been found dead in my car in the woods of West Virginia if I hadn't had something to run towards. They're the fucking best.

❤️💙💜🤘❤️💙💜 P.S. 3rd favorite...finding their older stuff on SoundCloud... I was parked for the night at a rest stop here south of Portland and first time I heard Death in December I just fucking cried.

#homeless #homelessness #mental health #depressing shit #life stories #fangbanger #fangbanger band #crazy life

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beyourselfchulanmaria · 5 months

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hound dog 獵犬

(づ￣ ³￣)づ ღ♡ 完工交件 (sold) Fine craft work by Chu Lan, Done. The delivery was sent yesterday. Thanks xoxo

#chu lan #fine craft artist #朱蘭皮藝 #leather art artist #台灣工藝人 #artist from taiwan #leather art #crafts #leather carving single customized product order #皮雕單一客製化商品訂購 #客製化皮雕 #men's leather craft long wallets #男士皮雕長夾 #hound dog 獵犬 #snake 蛇 #bunny 兔 #customized leather works #crazy life #working working and working XD

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westernstarofthenorth · 2 years

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Should be obligatory for every single person in the world to see this movie. We’re slowly killing the only planet we and other lifeforms have to live on

#koyaanisqatsi #crazy life #out of balance #environmental destruction #dying world

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justarandomgirl98 · 2 years

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How I spent the Fourth of July: Informing my family (After returning from the UK 6 hours before) that I, within the next year, will be moving to the UK either for a PhD or a job. And I am in the process of looking for a position. I plan on living in London as many of my friends live there and I don't care that my salary will be slightly less.

Because I realised that while standing in central London that was where I wanted to be. And if I could have gotten away with it, I would have never gotten back on the plane.

So it's official, I'm going to be an ex-pat. And my family just all nodded and said I have to visit once and a while. I found the place that felt like home and it is across a bloody ocean.

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springs-hurts · 7 months

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I should work on that unfinished story.

I should finish that thickass book

I should complete that unfinished painting.

I should start workouts again.

I'm too lazy to complete any of my pending work.( I am not, I'm just not able to do it.)

Khtm karo ye tamasha bc nahi ho rha ab

#my life is disaster in making at this point #and yet here i am #it's me hi i'm the problem it's me #c'est la vie #desiblr #crazy life #life struggles #neurodivergent #books #writing #artblr #i should study as well #well #but well sab mahadev mahadev

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samantabrzozowska · 2 years

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“Love yourself and enjoy yourself”

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