November/October 2023 Contest Submission #10: The Queen's Voyage
Words: ca. 4,000
Setting: Canon divergent
Lemon: no
Content: Mentions of seasickness, past character death, anxiety and depression
For the past four years, Elsa had vowed she would never set foot on a boat for as long as she lived. After her parents had died at sea when their ship went down on their way back from a diplomatic trip, she’d been worried that history could repeat itself. But this time, she had to put her kingdom’s needs before her own personal comfort.
Her ex-fiancee was due to stand trial in the Southern Isles for attempting to assassinate her the previous year and the Queens Of The Southern Isles themselves had asked Elsa to come personally to testify before the royal council. Elsa had offered to send one of her ambassadors instead, but the diplomats insisted she come herself.
To that end, Elsa now faced what was probably the most challenging task of her reign in recent months, surviving a four-day sea voyage without allowing herself to become an anxiety-ridden wreck by the time they reached their destination. Suffice it to say, she was not looking forward to it.
Of course, none of the naval officers and her personal servants were aware of her issues, Elsa had become a master of hiding her emotions. All they saw as she strode up the gangplank to board the waiting ship was their proud and dignified monarch, dressed in her finest royal blue gown and cape, letting very little feeling creep onto her face.
As she arrived aboard, she could tell the sailors were staring at her, wondering if she was going to even say much on this trip. She knew she had a reputation as a recluse even before the attempt on her life, her parents’ deaths having forced her into self-imposed isolation. People had thought her engagement, where she’d actually been happy for the first time in years, would finally break her out of her depression. But alas, it was not to be.
As the Queen eyed the crew with her icy blue spheres, familiarising herself with the faces of those who would be accompanying her for the next week or so, the ship’s captain, Captain Yamada, spoke to her. A man in his forties of Eastern descent with short black hair, she’d known him well as a man who would do everything in his power to ensure this voyage went smoothly.
“Your majesty,” he greeted her politely. “A pleasure to have you sailing with us. I wish it were under better circumstances though.”
“Likewise, Captain,” Elsa responded, her voice soft yet never losing its regal firmness. “If there is nothing to discuss, I shall head to my cabin and you can get underway as soon as possible.”
“Before you do so, my queen, allow me to introduce you to Anna,” Yamada said, guesting to a young woman among his crew.
Anna stepped forward and Elsa couldn’t help but feel a slight warmth on her cheeks when she saw her. Anna was a young woman, probably around her age if not a little younger, with strawberry blonde hair worn in the traditional naval style that most women in Arendelle’s armed forces preferred.
She wore the standard, rather dashing naval uniform as all the other sailors, grey with black highlights in colour and with white gloves, though if Elsa was honest, she seemed to be wearing it better than anyone else. Her cheeks were covered in a spread of freckles and her eyes were teal, a slightly lighter shade than Elsa’s own.
Anna bowed in respect, taking hold of the sword at her side. “My Queen, I live to serve thee.”
“I’ve assigned Anna to be your personal aide and bodyguard on this voyage, Your Majesty,” the captain replied. “She’s one of my best officers. If you need anything at all, just ask her. As for the rest of us, we shall respect your privacy should you need it.”
“Is uh… is this necessary, Captain?” Elsa asked, desperately not trying to let anxiety slip into her voice.
“It’s standard procedure for all guests aboard this ship, Ma’am,” Yamada explained.
Elsa nodded. “Very well, I understand.”
“Come this way, Your Majesty,” Anna said, her voice bright and chipper. “I’ll show you to your quarters. Your servants already brought your belongings aboard this morning so they’ll be waiting for you there.”
“Thank you,” Elsa merely replied, following Anna below decks.
Once Elsa had gotten settled into her room, the ship got underway and the long voyage began. The crew did as they had promised, keeping their distance from Elsa besides Anna of course, respecting the Queen’s desire for privacy and if Elsa were honest, she didn’t want anyone to see her during the early parts of the voyage.
For the entire first day, Elsa spent most of the time huddled in her cabin, trying desperately not to be seasick. But it was hard when the ship kept lunching about from side to side heavily in the massive waves. Her thoughts were anxious ones, about how the mighty waves could capsize the ship, just like when her parents’s own ship went down.
Fortunately, by the second day, Elsa had gotten her sea legs and found herself spending a lot of time reading more than anything else. She’d always loved books, having read virtually every single one in the castle library as a child. In her depression, Elsa found herself diving into books again, them being a great escape from the pains of her daily life.
It was on the evening of the third day that Elsa found herself reading in her bed, a romance novel of all things about a young noblewoman charmed by a handsome lady thief who stole her heart. Elsa actually found these books to be some of her favourites, ironic considering the last time she’d opened her heart to love… well, it had been broken.
Just as Elsa was finishing the chapter, there was a knock on her door. It was Anna, her fourth time calling that afternoon alone.
“It’s open, Anna,” Elsa said, greeting her dutifully.
Anna opened the door and walked inside. “I know but it’s considered polite to knock before entering a lady’s cabin.” She sighed. “Is there anything I can do for you, your majesty?”
“No, Anna, there is not,” Elsa said, adjusting her glasses and going back to her book.
The young woman groaned in frustration. “Can I speak freely with you, my queen? If that’s okay.”
“Of course.”
“I’m kinda getting the feeling that I’m kinda pointless on this trip and that I’m annoying you,” Anna admitted. “I thought this would be the best days of my life getting to serve you on this trip… but I guess the rumours about you were right and I got my hopes up for nothing.”
It was then the Queen took off her glasses. “Rumours? What rumours?”
Anna’s face turned as red as her hair. “U-Uh forget I said that! S-Sorry!”
Elsa sighed. Truthfully told, she was regretting that she was making Anna feel this way. Ever since her parents drowned, Elsa had shut her off from most social contact, never really making any friends. And the one time she’d let her guard down… she’d nearly paid the price with her life.
Yet, she could sense that there was something different about Anna. She was being kind and generous to her and trying to do her best as her personal aide on this voyage. And all Elsa had done was brush the young redhead off, preferring to remain in her kingdom of isolation.
And then there was the fact that Anna was so damned pretty too. It had been a long time since Elsa had let anyone catch her eye, man, woman or any other gender. The fact she was a dashing young sailor seemed like this whole thing was right out of the novels she loved so much.
Putting her book down, Elsa sat on the edge of her bed. “No, I suppose I am the one who should be sorry. I’ve probably been a terrible guest. I’m just… not used to dealing with people and this whole voyage… Again, I can only apologise for the way I’ve acted.”
Anna sat down. “This has been hard for you, hasn’t it?”
The Queen nodded, Anna seeing the stern expression on the Queen’s soft face melt away as she was granted a rare sight indeed, Elsa letting her guard down.
“Believe it or not, I used to love the ocean. My favourite story as a child was about a mermaid who fell in love with a prince and wanted to do anything to be with him. Part of me wanted to be some dashing hero, sailing the high seas in search of adventure… and then I lost my parents.”
“I remember the day it happened,” Anna replied. “My boyfriend Kristoff woke me up first thing in the morning when they announced it. I remember the funeral too, how you followed the procession through the streets after the service alone.”
“You were in the crowd that day?”
Anna nodded. “I could tell how broken you were inside, even with that black veil covering your face. I wished I could rush out and hug you but well… you know, you’re the Queen and I was just one of the many peasants.”
“Truthfully told, I would have accepted a hug from anyone back then,” Elsa admitted. “You weren’t always a sailor?”
“Wasn’t always a girl either,” Anna laughed. “But you were always an inspiration to me. Seeing how gorgeous you looked at your coming-of-age ceremony finally made me realise I wanted to be a girl… and seeing you take the throne made me want to serve you and make your kingdom proud. Hence why I joined the Navy.”
“And what about your boyfriend? Are you still together?”
Her companion sighed. “No, I broke up with him after my training was complete. I worried I couldn’t exactly keep up a relationship when I’d be gone for weeks at a time on patrol runs at sea. Don’t worry, we’re still cool though, so it wasn’t like a really bad breakup or anything like that.”
“How fortunate… I wish my relationship had been as easy to end as that.”
“You know, the moment I heard that Hans bastard tried to stab you in your sleep, I wanted to punch him in the face.”
Elsa… had to laugh at that. Probably the first time she’d actually laughed in years. A soft, gentle laugh that quickly grew into a definitely un-queen-like snort. Anna joined in the laughter, itself equally as infectious. As the two young women finally calmed down, Anna was still chuckling.
“Okay, I did not expect your laugh to sound like that.”
The Queen blushed a little in embarrassment. “Neither did I.”
Anna stared at Elsa, at the Queen she’d spent so many years now idolising and fawning over. Though she was not wearing her sparkling crown and her platinum blonde, nearly snow-white-coloured hair was in a more casual French braid and her attire was a simple wine-coloured nightgown, she still looked like a flowing ice sculpture given human form.
She’d thought there was no way she’d ever get this close to Elsa in a million years and yet, here the two were, bonding and laughing and Anna realising that this woman was a lot more like herself than she’d ever thought. Anna felt her cheeks glowing a little as she looked at the Queen a little more.
“Anna, may I ask you to do something for me?”
“O-Oh sure!” Anna stuttered, rather adorably. “What is it?”
“Could you… let your hair down for me?” Elsa wondered.
“Are you sure? I don’t wanna get in trouble for being improperly dressed.”
“Well no one is watching us and I’m quite good at keeping secrets,” Elsa said. “And you don’t have to have it down for long. I’m just… curious to see what it looks like.”
“Alright, but it’s not really anything special,” Anna replied, reaching back and untying her hair. As it fell out of its bun, Elsa could clearly see that Anna had been dead wrong. Anna looked even better with her hair down, her fiery red strawberry blonde locks flowing loosely behind her head like a waterfall at sunset.
Elsa turned even more red, which only made Anna feel more awkward.
“See, I told you, it’s not really much to write home about,” Anna excused. “I used to wear it a lot better right after my transition. Had it in these two cute twin braids.”
“Anna,” Elsa merely responded.
“And I mean those were cute I guess but like, I’m not nearly as gorgeous as you are. I mean, you’re a queen, of course you’re gonna be the prettiest girl to ever walk the face of the earth and I’m just-”
“Oh Anna you are so wrong,” Elsa merely said with a hint of passion in her voice as she grabbed Anna’s cheeks and kissed her hard. Anna blushed bright red and held Elsa back, her eyes widening for a moment before she gave in. Both of them kissed the other softly, Anna feeling like she’d gone to heaven at that moment.
But then, Anna realised she was kissing the Queen of Arendelle and quickly pulled away, shocked and panicked. “Shit, I’m sorry! I didn’t mean for that to happen, I’m so sorry!”
“No, Anna, it’s-” but before Elsa could finish her sentence, the redhead had sprinted out of the Queen’s cabin and slammed the door behind her.
Feeling her heart rend itself into a knot, Elsa curled up back on the bed. She felt so guilty for doing that, for driving away the one person who she’d found some connection with on this damned voyage. She held her hands close to her chest and started to cry, eventually crying herself to sleep.
—-
The next morning, Elsa awoke with a pain in her chest, a feeling she’d never truly felt before. Guilt. As she sat up in bed and rubbed the sleep from her eyes, she hugged her legs, wondering what to do. She wanted to make amends with Anna, to apologise for that sudden act the night before.
She couldn’t allow this guilt to carry on, not while she still had important business to do when they eventually reached the Southern Isles. She just sat there, gazing at the clock on the wall beside her. It was just before nine o'clock, when Anna had greeted her every morning thus far.
And as if on cue, there was a knock on the door. Elsa’s eyes widened. “Come in!” She called out. As the door opened, the Queen suddenly blurted out her feelings. “Anna, I’m so sorry about-… you’re not Anna.”
“No ma’am,” The dark-skinned woman who walked inside said. “I’m Honeymaren. I was asked to be your new personal aide.”
“W-Where’s Anna?”
“Oh she uh… asked the captain to relieve her of her duties to you,” Honeymaren explained. “Is there something wrong?”
“No, I…” Elsa then got out of bed, then quickly put on her shoes. “Can you tell me where the captain’s study is?”
“The deck above us, near the stern,” Honeymaren informed her.
“Thank you, if you’ll excuse me,” Elsa said, before storming past Honeymaren. She marched down the corridor and up the flight of stairs, wanting to get to the bottom of this. Was this a bit of an uncharacteristic move for the Queen of Arendelle? Yes, but Elsa hadn’t felt this strongly about someone in so long.
And she was determined to make this right.
As she arrived at Captain Yamada’s study, Elsa knocked on the door briskly. “Captain, are you in there?”
“Yes?”
Elsa walked inside, seeing the captain right in the middle of some paperwork. He looked at her, surprised.
“Your majesty? You’re up rather early. Is there something wrong?”
“Captain, where’s Anna?”
“On deck, she’s inspecting the sails at the moment I think. We went through a pretty bad gale last night.”
“Why did she ask to be relieved of her duties?”
“Who… who told you about that?”
“Answer me, captain,” Elsa demanded, in a voice the Queen only used for her closest advisors.
Yamada sighed. “She said she felt she couldn’t perform her duties adequately enough and had felt she had failed you. I asked her why she felt that way and she wouldn’t say, just merely asked to be reassigned. I’m sorry about all this, but Honeymaren is a good officer too. She’ll be just as good as Anna was in serving you as your aide for the next two days till we get to our destination.”
“But she won’t be, Anna, I’m sorry,” Elsa expressed.
The captain straightened his collar. “I uh… if you want, I can order Anna to resume her duties serving you, my Queen. I’m her commanding officer after all.”
There was a part of Elsa that nearly wanted to say yes, to make Anna come back to her… before the rational part of the monarch’s brain finally took control and made Elsa come to her senses. “No, no, she said she had her reasons for wanting to be relieved of her duties… I want to respect those.” She then walked to the door. “I’m sorry for troubling you, Captain, I’ll leave you to your work.”
“It’s alright your majesty,” He said. Before Elsa could leave, the captain spoke again. “Oh, and my queen? I hope you and Anna do get a chance to patch things up. She always spoke of how much she was looking forward to her assignment with you. I’d hate for you to leave on bad terms.”
“Thank you, Captain,” Elsa responded. “I… I hope so too.”
And with that, the Queen took her leave.
—-
The next two days felt like an eternity for Elsa. There was a notable hole in her life where Anna had once been and no matter how much Elsa had tried to ignore it, her thoughts would always find themselves fixed on Anna. She’d been so good to her and so kind and Elsa… well, she wanted to be with her more.
But she’d done something so stupid, so idiotic that it had driven Anna away. And no matter how Elsa wanted to try and fix things, she knew it was best if she left Anna be. She’d probably be too busy with the trial in the Southern Isles for the next few days to think about her anyway.
And Honeymaren, as the captain had said, did a marvellous job as her personal aide, almost as good as Anna, in fact. But unlike before with Anna, Elsa did her best to talk with Maren, trying as she might anything that could help her bury the thoughts of Anna that still lingered within her.
But it did her no good. She still missed Anna. It was when Elsa realised that… for that one moment that night, she hadn’t felt any fear inside at all. No anxiety over drowning in the endless sea, no worries about letting anyone get too close again, Anna’s mere presence had helped all that go away.
At the end of her fourth night at sea, Elsa found she couldn’t sleep and couldn’t read either. Her romance novels only reminded her more of Anna and the guilt she was still feeling kept her awake. She was also starting to hate being cooped up in her room all the time, almost feeling claustrophobic at this point.
In the end, the Queen decided some fresh air might do her some good. Putting on one of her favourite blue jackets, she headed out of her room and onto the deck of the ship above her. As the calm sea air filled her nose, she was greeted by a wondrous view before her as the ship sailed across the sea.
The sky was virtually cloudless, pricks of starlight dotting the heavens above. And the moon… Elsa had never seen the moon so big, its white light reflected on the calm waters below. She went to the front of the ship, leaning against the railing and feeling the wind rush through her hair.
At that moment, the ocean didn’t look like anything to be feared. No, it actually looked beautiful, a tranquil calmness that Elsa hadn’t thought about since she loved her adventure stories as a child. It was perfect, almost perfect… only one thing or rather one woman could make this whole scene truly complete.
And to her surprise… Elsa heard a voice calling out to her.
“Your majesty?”
The Queen turned, seeing Anna walking towards her. She looked worried and concerned, despite Elsa feeling the exact opposite upon seeing her.
“Anna?”
“What are you doing out here?”
“Oh I… couldn’t sleep,” Elsa stated. “I thought some fresh air would do me some good.”
“You should get back to your cabin,” Anna insisted. “It’s dark out here and I’d rather you not trip over something and fall overboard.”
“I’ll be alright, but… Thank you for caring,” Elsa admitted, blushing softly.
“Well, it’s my duty to.”
“I thought you had yourself relieved of that,” Elsa smirked before realising that the joke was probably in poor taste. “Sorry… I didn’t mean.”
“Did you just make a joke?”
“Maybe.”
Anna had to chuckle. “You’re something else, your majesty.”
“Please, Anna… you can call me Elsa.” The Queen insisted.
“Okay… Elsa,” Anna replied, joining her by the railing. “I… I’m sorry about the other night.”
“I should be sorry,” Elsa said, lamenting her impulsive behaviour. “I was the one who kissed you. You did nothing wrong and don’t you blame yourself for it. You’ve been the kindest person I’ve met in a long time… and probably the prettiest too if I’m being honest.”
Anna blushed. “You… really think that?”
“Why do you think I kissed you?”
“But I’m not nearly the kind of person you want,” Anna argued. “You need someone more fitting, like some noble or foreign royal or something.”
“I tried that once, I nearly got stabbed to death,” Elsa joked again. “I’d rather have someone who made me feel good and feel like I can be a human being again. Look at me, I’m out here on a boat and I should be utterly terrified and yet… I’m not because I’m here with you.”
“I… really make you feel that way?”
“Yes… but if it still makes you uncomfortable, I won’t push whatever this is. I was too forward the other night and I didn’t mean to hurt you.”
“No, I… I want this if you want it, Elsa. I’ve had feelings for you for years, I just… didn’t think you’d feel the same way and that’s why I panicked last night.”
“Are you going to panic now?”
The redhead smiled. “No, I’m not.” She then grabbed Elsa and kissed her again, pulling the Queen flush against her, wrapping her arms around the slightly taller woman. Elsa just melted into the kiss and kissed her back, the two of them bathed in the light of the moon and stars.
When the ship eventually arrived in the Southern Isles, Elsa requested that Anna be transferred to be her bodyguard for the duration of the trip. Officially, Elsa had merely been impressed by Anna’s dedication to her. Unofficially… Elsa didn’t want her new love to be apart from her for a second.
And Anna wouldn’t dare leave her Queen again, knowing that they were better together than separated.
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