A lot of people noticed the tail wrapping in my last sketchpage, and I have been really wanting to draw more of that, so here are some eels :]

Image description: a five page comic with messy writing and messy line drawings coloured with gouache. Each page has four panels and each panel has a caption and an image. Page one Caption: Mouse and Ruth go for drives a lot. Image: a red car drives down a country road. Caption: to stores and beaches and the dump where you can find cool things. Image: a white mouse looks up at a wall with doll’s heads nailed to it, labeled “wall of dolls”. Caption: I almost never join. Ruth asks, “isn’t My going stir crazy?” Image: a deer is driving a car, and the mouse sits on a pile of pillows on the passenger’s seat. Caption: but I’m so used to this I forget there’s anything to go crazy about Image: an orange cat lies in bed.

Page two Caption: When we lived in Malmö there were weeks I didn’t leave the apartment Image: the cat peeks out a window, looking at a pigeon that’s pooping on the window ledge. Caption: months I didn’t see anyone besides Mouse. I just couldn’t manage the stairs Image: the cat looks down an exaggerated, maze-like staircase. Caption: Mouse wasn’t much better off. I took up indoor “gardening” so we wouldn’t miss nature too much. Of course I often couldn’t water the plants. It felt bitter and symbolic when they died Image: the cat is in a different bed, looking at a house plant on a side table that’s beginning to wilt. Caption: here there’s no stairs and I have plants and bees right outside my window Image: the cat is in the first bed, drawing a comic. There’s a flower, a butterfly and a bee outside the window behind it.

Page three Caption: people tend to get frustrated with my acceptance Image: the cat takes down a half finished painting from an easel. Caption: even after we’ve talked a lot about my illness, they think I should plan ahead as if a cure is right around the corner Image: a rabbit is standing beside a table covered in unfinished canvases, looking at  one of them. The cat stands behind them, looking nervous. Caption: often it’s the same people who respond to tragedies you CAN fix by saying “life’s not fair” Image: the cat is rescuing bugs from drowning in a water barrel and the rabbit looks over its shoulder, looking annoyed. Caption: but when I let go of what I can’t have, they see it as defeat. Image: the cat is curled up and hiding in bed while the rabbit stands over them, frowning, holding the unfinished painting and waving two paintbrushes.

Page four Caption: I understand the impulse to say “maybe some day”. When it’s kindly meant, I value the intention. Image: The rabbit has its arm around the cat’s shoulder and waves towards a thought bubble. In the thought bubble the cat is floating and happy at the end of a rainbow with pink clouds, flowers and a smiling sky in the background. Caption: but few things are more dangerous to my soul than “maybe some day” Image: the cat huddles on the ground and hides its face. Right above the cat, as if pushing down, is a bigger thought bubble with images of the cat looking happy - dancing, being held, proudly painting, holding a baby. Caption: There is no greater wisdom in life than: fix what you can and accept what you can’t. Image: the thought bubble is breaking up and shrinking. The cat is sitting up, smiling at a dandelion beside it. Caption: some times, giving up isn’t just the only way to survive but to thrive, and leave room for joy. Image: The half finished canvases are burning on the ground and the cat walks away without looking back.

Page five Caption: today I’m sad because I’m in pain and I miss moving and doing Image: the cat is crying in bed. Caption: but when I thank God for giving me this life filled with blessings, it’s from the heart. Image: the cat wipes away some tears and looks a little happier. Caption: I am happy more often than not. I mostly cry from gratitude. There is no contradiction Image: the cat closes its eyes and is surrounded by a pink glow and red cartoon hearts. Caption: life will ask me to let go of much bigger things and maybe I can come with to the dump next time Image: the cat looks at the wall of dolls and says: “cool!” End ID. Here's some disability thoughts I had during my latest flare (hence the wobblier-than-usual lines and messy writing). I hope it makes sense even if I was pretty confused when I made it! I have POTS and ME/CFS, as well as ADHD and being autistic. Accepting the reality of being bed/housebound and hard-of-thinking often is going to be a life long effort but I'm getting there. Happy disability pride month!!! Reblogs are much appreciated! (if you wanna help me live and stuff and make more art and comics I have a Patreon. I post comic pages there on average once a day for the 3€ tier as well as other fun things! Link in my pinned post)

cant decide on if i hate this or not so unfortunately you guys get this doodle

“Shhh…please don’t cry, Sevy. I’m here for you…”

And again, I’ve found an outstanding talent here on tumblr! The lovely @capysnapeart drew this beautiful piece of art as a commission for me and I’m more than happy with the outcome of my idea! This will definitely be framed and added to my walls in my Severus themed room.

Dear @capysnapeart, I’m incredibly grateful for your work and especially for your nice messages. You are a wonderfully kind person and I’m glad that I’ve found you here. Thank you for enlightening my darkness today.

Since I’m day and night in my dark room (fuck you, ME/CFS!), I’m surrounding myself with the artwork of some artists, I’ve found here on tumblr. You all are a godsend to me!

🖤 Severus and Julia 🖤

Tboi 4koma #2

Reference and adlibbed from this

Remember this post?

Well, I guess the meaning of this post is now more clear :]

(The height comparison yay :D)

Fern and Solon commission done for a friend!! Love these gals to pieces <333

Interested in a commish from me?? Just shoot me a DM!

One of the rarest colored and finished illustration I managed to do lately. I couldn't go for a swim this summer and I missed it dearly

She's Newt, one of my Pokemon's OC, whom I really wish to introduce to you soon here :]

lil pre-sketch under the cut

the great épée (digital, 2024)

I got this ask and I liked it so much that I blacked out and drew this. Truly an enlightened opinion

Actual image of me standing in front of my oven to take out the food I'm suddenly not well enough to eat

a bard and their knight 🎻⚔️

a quick drawing of my sona as a kinnara... as a treat... theyre half bird half human detities that can fly between worlds, and is associated with music and love! theres a lot of statues of them in the grand palace which is so cool to me

I’ve commissioned the wonderful @sleepybradipo for those pieces of art…and I couldn’t be happier with the outcome.

It shows me, defending and protecting my beloved Severus from his goddamn bullies. I’ve just entered my “overprotective-bitch-mode” for him.

And in the second picture, I’m comforting my Sevy with a kiss on his adorably crooked nose.

It’s one of those many scenarios, I’m using in my head (and I’m also writing about) to escape my devastating reality of “living” (what an exaggeration…fuck!) with ME/CFS. Since I’m always in my dark room…isolated from the world with all those overstimulating things (and people), I’m clinging even more to my imagination of Severus. He’s been there for me for more than 20 years. His resilience, his bravery and his stubbornness were always the most inspiring and helpful aides in my life. My love for Severus (especially the book version of him) goes deep…

@sleepybradipo, you’ve brightened my day with your artwork and I’m extremely grateful, that you’ve spent your time and talent for my ideas. Thank you so much! I hope, I may commission you again!

🖤 Severus and Julia 🖤

@mcyt-femslash - Week 4: Snow/Cultivation

So I know the "cultivation" part of this prompt meant like, plant cultivation, but I'm taking any excuse to draw wuxia au gempearl