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the-guilty-writer · 11 months

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Criminal Minds PRIDE Fic Challenge!

Here we go! First writing challenge ever and I'm even more excited about the theme. During June I ask fic writers to challenge themselves a little bit by writing a piece that is LGBTQ+ inclusive!!! Don't let the topic intimidate you; If you want to participate, but don't know where to start, there are prompts to help. All the fics will be collected in a Masterlist that will be avalible by July 1st.

Note: if you have accessibility issues with this post (or any of my posts!) let me know and I can send you the information in an accessible format.

Prompts and rules are under the cut!

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These prompts are only ideas to help get you started! You can write any LGBTQ+ centered fic you want! Feel free to modify any of the more specific prompts to your liking.

Prompts:

Character coming out to their friends/family/the team.

Character's found family is more supportive than biological family when they come out.

Characters go to a pride parade/festival/event!

Characters discuss queer coding in media.

Character(s) explains their new, queer relationship to a child.

Character 1's child comes out to them. They go to Character 2 to ask what they wish their parents would have done.

Character 1 is having an identity crisis (gender or sexuality). They go to Character 2 for help.

Character 1 is confident about their identity. Character 2 isn't, so they ask for some advice.

Character 1 takes Character 2 to a gay bar for the first time to act as their wingman/wingwoman/wingperson.

Character 1 is unsure if they're attracted to or envious of Character 2's confidence in their identity.

Character has been dating Morgan, but realizes they're not attracted to men. He isn't sure how he ended up in this situation twice, but it's the perfect opportunity for him to play matchmaker for his ex girlfriends.

Character comes out to the team (or it's just pride month) and Penelope goes a bit overboard with decorations.

For the writers who are intimidated by this topic or unsure if they can write it: write something with GN!reader. It's less intimidating than you think, and it can make someone's day to be able to read a fic they might otherwise not relate to!

Bi and Pan Prompts:

Character 1 has always thought they were straight, but they realize their feelings for their best friend, Character 2, are more than platonic.

Character 1 is in a straight passing relationship and worries about the visibility of their queer identity. Their partner is incredibly supportive in helping them express themselves.

(NSFW) What does Emily really do during a sin to win weekend?

Trans and Nonbinary Prompts:

Character 1 gives Character 2 a gender affirming haircut.

Hotch teaches Character how to shave.

JJ teaches Character how to do make up.

Character finds themselves needing gender affirming clothes. Rossi makes sure they have the best of the best.

(NSFW) Character 1 gifts Character 2 gender affirming lingerie and it gives them quite the confidence boost.

Aro and Ace Prompts:

Character 1 keeps trying to set up Character 2 with people/telling them to find someone to help ease their stress. Character 2 has had enough of it.

Character has a monthly spike in libido and it makes them question their identity. Spencer tries to help with a ramble about science (NSFW add on: and a few other ways).

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Rules:

The fic can reader insert, OC, character x character, general fic, etc. as long as the character(s) is from Criminal Minds (yes, even the ones I don't write for).

Fics can be any genre and can be platonic or romantic in nature... and yes, this includes smut (I know, I know my brand is ruined. Oh well). You must be 18+ if you are going to submit smut. You all know I love platonic fics very much if not more!

You can write something new or dig up something you've already written! I'm also happy to add on fics that are sent to me after the masterlist is posted.

Tag me in your fic or message me the link. Please list the ship, content warnings, and have a 1-2 sentence summary of your piece! If you have multiple pieces, you can submit a mini masterlist.

Be kind and respectful! Reach out to me if you have any concerns. This blog is a safe space!

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Thank you to @imagining-in-the-margins for the support and for sending some of the prompts from discord! (and telling me it's safe to tag @foxy-eva for this too)

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losergendered · 8 months

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!! NOT A REQUEST !!

I saw you're a total drama fan,, do you have any headcanons? I like seeing other folks headcanons ^__^ /nf

oh you KNOW I DO BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im probably gonna make a followup post like. actually making the icons but. yes here they are (its just the gen 1 cast cause. theyre the best. and also i havent seen roti or pahkitew or the reboot)

Ezekiel is a genderqueer transmasc bisexual and uses he/they!

Sadie is a biaesthetic lesbian, Katie is a transfem omni lesbian, and they're dating!

Eva is an acespec demiplatonic unlabeled sapphic! She's also Sephardic!(one of my fave random hcs is that all of team escope is jewish but from different disporas :D)

Noah is a Mizrahi gnc gay guy! (ik that sometimes people consider mizrahi to be a subterm of sephardic but im making the distinction lol)

Izzy is an Ashkenazi genderfucked abrosexual aroace demihuman xenogirl who uses any pronouns!

Justin is a flamboric cupiospec arospec gay guy!

Beth is a nonbinary weirdgirlpunk bi lesbian who uses they/she!

Owen is. well i'll be so real with you i dont really care about him (IM SORRY OWEN FANS. I JUST DIDNT LIKE HIS JOKES VERY MUCH. his friendship w noah was cute tho) but like. literally i interpret him as canonically bisexual. like he was literally so in love with justin like that wasnt even subtext that just. was a fact

Geoff i also lowkey dont care about (SORRY) but i also find him bisexual. hes so in love with bridgette and hes so in love with brody. two hands <3

Bridgette doesn't label her sexuality, but has had feelings for multiple genders before!

DJ is questioning his sexuality, but thinks that he's somewhere on the aroace spectrum! He also considers himself a cisgender demiboy!

Leshawna is a bipan girl, and her girlboyfriend, Harold, is a bigender transfem genderqueer genderfluid bisexual boygirl!

Lindsay is a bi straight lesbian, and her partner, Tyler, is a cusper straight lesbian transfem boy who switches between identifying as a cishet man and a trans butch lesbian and uses he/she pronouns! (also this is because i like both headcanons for her lmao)

Trent is an ace bisexual with an aesthetic lean towards girls and a romantic lean towards boys! He leans more towards the cis man side of the gender spectrum, but likes to get a little funky with it u know. like he listens to arctic monkeys. u know.

Gwen is a bi lesbian/shadowlesbian trans girl who defaults to she/her, but doesn't mind neopronouns! Also gwourtney is real to me

Cody is a bisexual trans guy!

Sierra is an intersex trisfem paradoxibinary arospec bordersexual first-quarter/third-quarter neaptide mspec lesbian who prefers she/her, but also likes they/them and neos!

Duncan is a bisexual guy with a preference for girls! also i am still a duncney believer. who else still part of duncney nation in 2023.

Blaineley is an aphrodite bi lesbian and shes dating ME SHES DATING ME SHES MY WIFE ILY MS STACEY ANDREWS OHALLORAN. i actually made a whole oc to ship her with lmao. i guess i can include that um shes dating jules who's a lesbian and is my oc <3

Heather is a bisexual girl with a preference for girls and she's dating Alejandro, who is also bisexual! their romance was cute argue with the wall

Courtney is a bisexual girl and she's also a cit <3

Chris and Chef are both gay men and are married! gay wrongs

uhh random other hcs i have for non gen 1 chcs are bi trans girl kitty, bi straight emma, uh that little swagless kid from rr who competed with his dad uh hes a trans boy, jo is a butch bisexual girlboy & is dating brick, a gnc bisexual man, scott is bisexual and dating courtney, sam is a nonbinary bigender transfem straight lesbian who uses all pronouns & is dating dakota who is a bi trans girl, um that one dude who had the name reveal is ofc trans, svetlana is a transgender bi lesbian, vito is hypersexual and bi, uh my hcs for mal are. long so keep an eye out for a mogai-headcanons post in a few months, shawn (?? is that his name) is a transhet guy and is dating jasmine (??? i do not know these chcs at ALL) who is bisexual.

#my personal faves are noah alejandro heather courtney blaineley cody sierra harold and lindsay!!#bro this just devolved into me dropping my td opinions. lmao.#long post #oh also unlisted relationships i enjoy are alenoah aletyler trody beth/lindsay and bridgette/courtney!! and probably more #enjoy those random non gen 1 hcs i have never actually watched any of their seasons <3 #any total trauma readers in the audience tonight? i was on my period and about to move out and i was rereading it #and heathers part made me ugly cry. anyway #thank you anon i LOVE YOU i love yousomuch. i am so so so so deep into the td hyperfixation right now #andis headcanons #save #<- so i can come back and make the edits #asks

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mikesmatcha · 8 months

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For the ask prompt could you do the Survey Corp Vets? Moblit, Nifa, Gelgar, Nanaba, Levi, Hange, Mike, Erwin. Apologizes if it’s too much.

Oh don't apologize anon... you're on the right track mwahahaha.

Also, some headcanons are spicy so, semi NSFW???

Moblit

Sexuality Headcanon: Demi Gender Headcanon: Cis male A ship I have with said character: Mobunifa A BROTP I have with said character: Gelgar/Moblit. They'd be drinking buddies and their partners will carry them back to the quarters. Also, Moblit/Hange, Moblit/Abel, and literally the rest of the Hange squad. A random headcanon: Mike and Erwin commissioned him to do a very intimate artwork of them. That's why he drinks. General Opinion over said character: Nicest guy, green flag, Nifa you lucky girl.

Nifa

Sexuality Headcanon: Bi-curious (leaning on men) Gender Headcanon: Cis female A ship I have with said character: Mobunifa A BROTP I have with said character: Nifa/Petra. Redhead girls bonding over fashion, their hair color, and all things Paradisian girls bond over. A random headcanon: She accidentally saw the sexy note (the Paradis equivalent of a dirty DM) that Mike wrote to Erwin. She took the secret to her grave. General Opinion over said character: Too short lived. Could've slayed with Marleyan fashion.

Gelgar

Sexuality Headcanon: Pansexual (at some point he actually thought it was about... cooking) Gender Headcanon: Cis male A ship I have with said character: GeruNana A BROTP I have with said character: Gelgar/Tomas, Gelgar/Mike, Gelgar/Henning, Gelgar/Lynne. A random headcanon: Was the last to know about Mike and Erwin. Was absolutely oblivious until Nanaba pointed it out. Had a secret crush on Mike until he got together with Nanaba. General Opinion over said character: Don't hate on this guy, he and Nanaba are designed like 90s shonen characters and I hope you guys see that more!

Nanaba

Sexuality Headcanon: Bisexual Gender Headcanon: Nonbinary (she/they) A ship I have with said character: GeruNana A BROTP I have with said character: Nanaba/Mike (I'd probably get slack if I said this but whatever), Nanaba/Lynne, Nanaba/Tomas, Nanaba/Henning A random headcanon: If Mike wants to get freaky with Erwin, she covers for them and makes up an excuse whenever Mike is needed. General Opinion over said character: Not fond of how a good portion of the fandom portrays her as cis fem or this genki girl. Not fond of how her nonbinary-ness (which Isayama permitted) is often overlooked.

Levi

Sexuality Headcanon: Ace Gender Headcanon: Cis male A ship I have with said character: LeviHan, OnyaLevihan, Rivakopon, Zevi, (Rivetra if fem!Levi) A BROTP I have with said character: RIVAMIKE my beloved, RivaEru A random headcanon: He knew Mike and Erwin were a thing because of the way they were in sync when they fought underground. General Opinion over said character: I love how his character is written but for some reason, I have an allergy to the most popular characters.

Hange

Sexuality Headcanon: Ace Gender Headcanon: Nonbinary (they/them) A ship I have with said character: LeviHan, OnyaLevihan, OnyaHan, Zekehan, EruHan, Hange gets all the fucking love (Happy birthday Hange) A BROTP I have with said character: MikeHan, EruHan A random headcanon: Helped Mike and Erwin look for the sturdiest furniture in all of Paradis because MikeEru would break so much furniture. Even designed furniture for them. No surprise when they're 200 kg / 440 lbs!!! General Opinion over said character: I don't trust anyone who hates them!!!!!

And now, the moment we've been waiting for!!!!!

Mike

Sexuality Headcanon: Erwin Smith Gender Headcanon: Cis male A ship I have with said character: MIKEERU, MikeNanami (yes fucking hell Im crossing over some crackships here with Nanami from JJK), MikeNanamiEru A BROTP I have with said character: RivaMike, MikeHan, Mike/Nanaba, Mike/Gelgar, MikeNanami A random headcanon: The flowers in the Commander's office? Those were all his gifts, and Erwin is spoiled rotten with the freshest flowers. General Opinion over said character: My king, love of our lives, lasted too shortly. Isayama knew that the AOT universe cannot handle his BDE. (Just like my other king in the other fandom)

Erwin

Sexuality Headcanon: Mike Zacharias Gender Headcanon: Genderqueer, but presents himself as a cis male—though he is more feminine than expected A ship I have with said character: MIKEERU, NanamiEru (yes fucking hell Im crossing over some crackships here with Nanami from JJK), MikeNanamiEru A BROTP I have with said character: RivaEru, EruHan, NaiEru A random headcanon: His parents used to dress him in girl clothes. He still dresses in women’s clothing when he’s alone with Mike. General Opinion over said character: My queen... she's mother to me, she's mothering hard but the fandom sees ha as daddy...

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cock-holliday · 8 months

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I saw your post about gender-positive community and I loved it so much, but at the same time I feel hopeless about finding these kind of spaces for myself. You've described so many amazing experiences and I'm so happy for you- I'm wondering how to find those, I don't know what I'm doing wrong that I feel rejection or disinterest from every queer community I'm trying to be part of, and I keep blaming myself for being too GNC and not fitting in any box.

Oh, anon, I'm very sorry for your struggles. Fortunately or unfortunately, I can very much relate. It rubs me a bit the wrong way that a number of folks have said on that post (or others) that discourse is an online problem that doesn't happen offline. Which is...blatantly not true. Yes, plenty of shitty takes come from knowing no offline queers but many people actually take their tumblr-poisoned opinions into offline spaces. And certainly, not all or even most of the BS you find offline is due to tumblr discourse.

I'd say, simply, it isn't your fault and you aren't doing anything wrong by being you. As with any vulnerability, you are simultaneously open to those who will love you best and those who will know how to hurt you worst. When I first came out as bi, I was proud of my identity and wanted it to be known regardless of my partner's gender. It allowed me to connect with other bisexuals! ...and also opened me to a lot of biphobia. When I was a binary trans person, regardless of if it was early in my transition or late when I was cis-passing, I was open about being trans. I preferred to find out it was a deal-breaker as early as possible. It allowed me to connect with other trans people--especially when people didn't know I was trans. ...it also opened me up to a torrent of transphobia, a lot of which crushed my confidence at the time.

Now with being nonbinary I exist in this sort of grey area. There isn't really "passing as me" to most people. I can pass as a man or a woman. I am sometimes read or assumed as a trans woman or trans man. But most people assign one box or the other. Which is not always ideal, or sometimes can be bothersome--other times dangerous. In some places I am stealth. Sometimes as different things. Sometimes I've had to pick and choose between authenticity and safety and sometimes the threshold changes.

Rejection is, deeply deeply unfortunately, a part of the risk of being open. And it sucks. It sucks so bad, anon. You will get shit from bigots, you will get shit from queers that hold power or status over you, and you will get it from peers who feel like your identity is somehow a threat to them. I really don't have any advice for how to stop that--for the thousands of lovely comments on that post, I still got a swath of angry anons sending vile shit over it. Being truly genuinely apologetically your queer self makes people angry. It's terrible and sucks to experience, but the best I can offer for that is you are supremely not alone.

The advice I can give is keep seeking out community. I didn't know any other trans people until I joined my college's LGBT club. The club had some stuff that sucked and it also introduced me to one of my best friends. I went alone to a trans vigil and found both friends and a warmth that religious leaders had attended to offer prayer with those who were religious. I went to a queer community meeting and it sucked and one of the other people who hated it and I became friends. We aren't still friends but I'm still friends with people they went on to introduce me to. I shared a lot of wonderful experiences I've had, but not all of them held significance for me until long after they had passed. Looking back, reexamining, taking what I can from what I had and keeping going back for more has sustained me.

Keep seeking out community. If the community isn't what you want, take the pieces that are salvageable with you until you find something better. This includes online. There are so many wonderful messages on that post. Follow blogs that resonate. Collect as much as you can online, offline, in media--books have been such a refuge for me! Over and over finding that people related to my struggles gave me such a sense of peace.

I realized I was trans because of tumblr. I met lifelong trans friends offline. Some of the most lifechanging books I've ever read got recommended to me online. I played so many sports and took up so many hobbies and had so many experiences in an effort to find irl community. Online spaces made me feel so much less alone. I met so many queers when I wasn't even looking--just getting involved in any community spaces/efforts. My girlfriend, who I love so very dearly, who sees me more clearly than maybe anyone I've ever met, who takes all the complicated messy parts of me and loves them as a whole, not in spite of each other...I met her on tumblr. One of my best friends and I met on one of the scariest most brutal days of my life out in the real world. They met their partner on tumblr.

Find reality checks offline where you can to get away from tumblr bullshit. Find sameness in online spaces that you can't readily find offline. It's so hard to find community and love and acceptance. It's hard to be queer. And "too queer" for queer spaces. Sometimes you have to hide a bit of yourself for safety, and sometimes you can find room to flourish.

I hope that post gives you a piece to hold onto. I hope this response does. I hope that post can connect you to other people. Or give you the confidence to try a new scene or space offline. Keep trying. It's not you, it's the world we live in, but you and twenty-six thousand people and counting do not accept that it has to be that way.

Keep putting yourself out there. The right crowd will love you for it.

I love you for it, anon!

#ask #anon ask

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grntaire · 9 months

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gender? i hardly know her!!!

(ranting abt my gender and sexuality. prob more personal than i should put on the internet but i am feeling Raw)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i literally do not know. who i am lmao. i identified as cis (afab) and bi from the age of like, 13 i think? and that didn't change until i was 22 or so and i was like... she/they?? maybe?? which turned into they/she which turned into they/them which led me to nonbinary and pansexual which is where i've been chilling. but i don't even know if that feels right. like yes i am a girl but no i'm not a woman (i'm 25 so like, that Should Be a descriptor that i feel comfortable with. but it's not?) but im also not a girl either. my gender is more akin to like, the embodiment of chaos, lmao. i am everything and nothing all at the same time.

(i'm gonna use very much binary language here–i've personally only ever been with cis men or cis women, so when i use the binary language i'm specifically referring to it in terms of my experience) my sexuality is even more confusing to me now which is crazy?? my first crush was on a boy, and i had crushes on boys and girls through middle school and high school. i had a crush on my best friend in middle school and she was my first kiss. it felt like magic and i loved every second of kissing her. i ended up breaking up with her after a month or so and i still to this day don't know why. i think i was feeling like, constricted in it. drowning in the attention. also i was 13 and was living on a diet of nothing but nutella and pretzels so who the fuck knows lmao.

but as a teenager it oddly seemed so much more clear to me? my attraction to ppl was different and based off of their gender. like for me, my attraction towards girls was very emotionally based and the more i got to know them the more i wanted to be physical with them, too. with boys it was kind of the opposite, in a way, but not always. i didn't date any girls in high school–i had a big ol crush on one in particular but that was my Oh, She's Straight moment. i dated two boys. the first was a super nice dude who i hope is doing well. i broke up with him after 7 months or so i think? i was straight up convinced i was a lesbian. and then i dated a boy like two months later. i was OBSESSED with this dude. like, hormones gone wild, really just wanted to destroy this mf. he broke up w me after a month out of the blue, and i was devastated for a minute. in college i dated a dude for 2.5 years. he sucks.

my current partner is a man, we've been together for about 2 years. he is the kindest person i know. and yet i still constantly find myself second guessing everything. which, granted, i've always done. when i've been with women i second guess everything too. i think they're intrusive thoughts, and they'll look like "do you even like men/women?" a lot of it, too is that i don't think i've had the feelings of A Crush since i was a teenager, truthfully. i mean w my partner now, i'd get excited when his name would pop up on my phone, but there was no like, pining or whatever. loving him has always been easy and we got together easy.

so where i sit now is that i love my partner. but do i want an open relationship? am i poly? what if i like, actually am a lesbian and it's been comphet this whole time? but i have felt like, absolutely feral abt men before. but then i'll be like, fuck, what if the whole time i've been straight? but is that just from the desire to feel wanted? from the societal pressure to feel wanted by a man? that the act of being wanted by a man is proof that i am attractive enough and worthy? or am i second guessing these things bc my partner isn't what i need in a partner, regardless of gender. do i need someone more extroverted, who matches my energy more? can i bear the weight of being the outgoing one? and how do i cope with the fact that by choosing a partner i'm loosing connections that i could be forging with other people? but even if i'm poly, what does that mean for me? for my partner?

i am Overthinking so much. all of the time. and how much of it is intrusive thought and how much of it is... not, is incredibly hard to discern. i feel deeply tied to my queerness but i don't even know what my queerness is.

ik this is very oversharing but if u read this i appreciate u. u gay people in my phone make me feel less alone sometimes, mwah.

#yes i am emailing therapists #i have friends i can and should talk to about this too but im so nervous to bring it up to them #i dont know why either. its not like theyre judgy they're all cool queer ppl too #but to say it to someone you know and who knows you makes it all so much more real #personal

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piqued-curiosity · 1 year

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“Ultimately, bi women (and men too, but they’d be mostly impacting gay men and I’m focusing on lesbians) are the head of this aside from trans people themselves.” I do agree that bi people are probably pushing this shit much more than lesbians. But from my experience of actual real life activists (including online stuff), the vast majority of this shit is coming from straight kweers who want to be special. Either nonbinary heteros or just plain old straight people larping as bi and gay. I have come across SO many of these people who push the “genital preference” stuff etc but are straight women who have been with men all their lives, and then their male partner transitions and suddenly they start calling themselves a lesbian. Or vice versa. A HUGE amount of this shit comes from straight women who fetishise gay men, or straight men who fetishise lesbians and think that they should have access to them whether they identify as trans or not.

Or they are straight and say they are bi to fit in with their gay friend groups, constantly talk about how gay they are but would never actually date a member of the same sex. I often see this stuff blamed on bi women, the whole “talking about how much you love women but never actually wanting to date/have sex with one and only dating men” thing, and it confuses me because these people are clearly straight? If they were ACTUALLY bi then they would be attracted to the same sex. But they are not, at all. This gets pinned on bi women being “untrustworthy” when really it’s straight trenders doing most of it.

It’s all theoretical to these people because they would never actually touch a member of the same sex, and don’t have to because they get out of it by dating trans people who are the opposite sex and can still call themselves gay/bi. I know a lot of these people in real life who are functionally straight but plaster their whole lives in rainbow flags and are the loudest voices on social media about gay issues. In my experience they make up the majority of university LGBT societies and activist groups. I have friends from childhood who were very straight all their lives (and I know them well enough to KNOW they are straight and repulsed by the same sex) and suddenly in their early 20s when they joined a gay club they start saying they’re bi or “heterosexual homoromantic” or some absolute bullshit, with no desire or intention to act on it.

This is just my opinion, you probably disagree. But in my experience bi people tend to have more empathy for actual same sex attracted people, it’s the straight larpers who are causing most of the damage (or at least a huge chunk of it) and they will quietly go back to being straight as soon as it’s no longer trendy to be gay/bi. There are definitely a lot of bi people doing damage for sure! But I think straight interlopers don’t get near enough flack for what they do.

You seem to be derailing the topic a bit. I wasn’t talking about the straight people who say they’re bi to be cool, and agree that a lot of the people who only talk about being OSA but throw in a few “[same sex] are so pretty!” Are likely straight, not bi.

And yes, there’s plenty of straight “queers” who push the genital preference narrative. But the only people who can actually practise what they preach are bisexuals, so they’re going to be the ones who stand the firmest in their belief that sexuality is fluid, because that’s their experience. Whereas straight people know they don’t experience SSA, so they can only say “genital preference is transphobic!”, but can’t really go further than that.

The straight men who ID as lesbians and straight women who ID as gay men are who I was talking about when I said “aside from trans people themselves”. They’re the ones who started this, but for the most part it’s bisexuals who enabled it by essentially being like “I experience attraction to both sexes, so everyone else should too or they’re transphobic!”. If bi people had never assumed their experience with sexuality should be universal, and had either not joined the discussion or shut it down as soon as it started, I don’t think we’d be in the place we are now. The straight “queers” could’ve only gone so far with it before coming to the same realisation I did; that their reality doesn’t match up with what they’re saying.

In my experience, I’ve seen most of the empathy for gay people coming from heterosexuals, since they share in the feeling that they’re being told to change their sexuality. Some are able to see how much worse it is for gay people. Bi people don’t share in that concern, because their sexuality is the model for what a “good trans ally” is. They just aren’t affected by this the way gay people and even straight people to an extent are. I’ve absolutely seen empathy come from bisexuals but tbh I’ve seen more side with genderists than gays. It’s possible we have different experiences with this.

Straight interlopers do get criticism, they’re usually the first we call out. Especially the “trans gays” who try to identify their way into homosexuality and demand homosexuals be attracted to them. The reason bi people are brought into it is because they’re the ones who validate these demands.

#asks #anon

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alltimefail-sims · 4 months

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Time to clean out my inbox!

Sorry it takes me forever to respond, but if you've sent me an ask recently that hasn't been answered it is more than likely under the cut! ↓

Honestly I don't know that Erwin has one mortal enemy so much as he doesn't trust 90% of people in general! He sees everyone as a threat and assumes the worst about *most* people until they prove otherwise. That's just how he is, unfortunately. :(

But at the start of my story he hates Ted Roswell with a fiery passion and doesn't trust him for shit. I'd argue Ted and the authorities of Strangerville (any military or high-ranking police) are his absolute enemies and he wants to burn their whole world down. In general Erwin hates authority though and always has. He's not fond of Meredith Roswell either, but mostly sees her as harmless and just as in-the-dark about her husband as everyone else is.

Before Strangerville there were many people who bullied or ostracized him, but he wouldn't call them his enemies because he didn't really care what they thought of him then, and certainly doesn't pay them any mind now! He does have a particularly difficult/toxic ex that has a brief cameo in the story though... they're not enemies but damn close lmao!

I love the Hunger Games! I went through a dystopian novel obsession in the mid 2010s that hasn't worn off yet (lol). I'm a bit behind in that I haven't read The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes yet, but I'm actively in the tag so I pretty much know the whole plot lol. I'm hoping to receive the book as a Christmas gift this year so I can reread all the books together and be fully involved in the fandom again!!

Also, for the record, I'm Team Peeta! I love him. Katniss and Peeta are *chef's kiss* to me. Additionally, I have limited information on Lucy Gray Baird but I love her too and will protect her from all the female-protag haters and President Snow apologists!! Get behind me, Lucy!

Yes! Erwin has always been really tall! His whole family are giants with his dad being the tallest at 6 feet and nearly 5 inches tall and his older sister Maggie being the shortest at 5 feet 10 inches tall...which is still quite tall in my opinion!

In my story he started "officially" transitioning (doing testosterone therapy, going by a different name, binding, etc.) somewhere around 14 years old. He came out to his sister and then his parents a year prior though (he was around 13) and knew he was trans long before then!

No worries, thanks for asking for clarification! You don't sound stupid. I'll try to explain to the best of my ability, speaking mostly on Wren and Victor's specific situation.

In a lot of cases labels, such as the nonbinary label, primarily serve as a way to transmit information. It tells people "This person does not personally subscribe to the gender binary of male or female." But a nonbinary person can still have a sexual identity like gay or lesbian or they might subscribe to being pan or bisexual. Every couple, every situation, and every person is different. In some cases having a partner who identifies as a certain binary sexuality like gay/lesbian/straight might cause the nonbinary person dysphoria, so the cis-partner might consider this if they begin to date a nonbinary person and ultimately decide they want to identify as pan or bi moving forward! Again, it's ultimately between the people in the couple. Labels are just that: they can be subject to change or stay the same forever... both are okay!

But in the way a cis man dating a trans woman does not negate his ability to personally identify as straight, or a bisexual woman like myself being married to a man does not negate the fact that I'm bisexual, Victor being a cis-man and dating Wren who is nonbinary does not inherently negate his ability to personally identify as gay. At least in Wren's case, it wouldn't bother them to be with a cis-male who would personally identify as gay. In fact, Wren identifies as nonbinary and gay, preferring male-presenting sims. For Wren identifying as nonbinary is more about the freedom of expression and the freedom to exist authentically in whatever way they're feeling, so Wren doesn't feel gender dysphoria if someone associates them with a gender binary, they just don't prefer it that way. That's just Wren's personal experience though; another nonbinary person might feel completely different and that's valid, too! I think there's no singular, easy answer that would cover every situation or every person's personal preference because gender and sexuality are a vast spectrum and they aren't mutually exclusive. The most important thing is that everyone in the relationship is communicating, respecting, and validating each other's identities and boundaries.

The term you might be looking for is Diamoric: Diamoric can be used by nonbinary people as an umbrella term to describe how their own presentation of gender coincides with their sexual preferences, but it can also be used to describe relationships in which one or more of the partners is non-binary, including relationships where one of the members is binary! I haven't personally heard this one used casually though, but just because something isn't popularized or common doesn't mean it isn't a valid and helpful term or identity to know.

That being said, "Queer" is a pretty common umbrella term you'll see used by someone who might want to have a simple, all-in-one indication of their gender and sexuality preferences.

I hope that I was able to effectively explain this, but as always feel free to pop by for clarification if you need it. You can't learn if you don't ask! <3

#atfs ask #anon #strangerville outtakes #erwin pries #oc: wren #oc: victor mcclain #nonsims

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willex-n-waffles · 3 years

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do you have any headcanons for reggie with a nonbinary s/o?

Omg omggggggggg YES I DO

First, imma give my long hc for how they’d meet/get together and then move onto smaller hcs. (I will be referring to Reggie’s s/o as Pretty Person bc that’s how Reggie sees them and he’d be very angry if anyone denied their beauty)

So I’d imagine the boys don’t know a ton about LGBTQ+ stuff other than the ones that were more prominent in the 90’s (like gay/lesbian, trans, and mayyyybe bi, but not much more about anything else). So Julie kinda gives them a crash course at one point (Alex is ecstatic) and Reggie has this revelation of “woah..... I can like guys AND GIRLS AND IT’S NOT WEIRD??? WHY DIDNT ANYONE TELL ME SOONER” and Julie’s like “It’s better than that... you can like ✨ANYONE✨.”

A few months go by and Reggie’s with Julie and Willie (i hc that Julie would be able to see certain other ghosts, and also Willie is already free here) and they’re just hanging out at the beach/park, and then he spots them.

“Who is ✨that✨,” Reggie asks, and he’s got this enchanted look on his face, the one he gets when he’s just like WOW PRETTY PERSON

And Willie’s like “oh, that’s *name*. They’re pretty chill.”

And Reggie manages to shake himself out of his daze for a moment and is like “‘They’. So they’re uh,,, what’s the word? Julie I forgot the word.”

And Julie laughs a little and reminds him. “Non-binary.” And she’s looking at Reggie, who’s staring at Pretty Person, and says, “why? Does Reggie have a crushhhhh???” (Because no one stares THAT much unless they have a crush).

And Reggie gets all red and is like “whattt??? Of course not! I mean, I-” He stops talking when he sees the looks he’s getting form Julie and Willie. “Okay... I mean they’re... cute.... but-”

And before he can get another words out, Willie’s like “I’ll introduce you.”

And Reggie’s nervous because talking to hot people is HARD but Willie drags him over and is like “hey there *name* this is Reggie.”

Pretty Person is very friendly (reggies like “they’re NICE TOO?!?”) and Reggie is completely flustered, and when did he get so bad at flirting? (Answer: He was never that good).

Anyways Reggie mentions the band and Pretty Person shows great interest, so Reggie invites them over to watch him and the band practice sometime. Pretty Person eagerly accepts.

Fast forward, everyone is teasing Reggie about his crush coming over. He’s embarrassed and refuses to admit how hard he’s crushing.

When Pretty Person does come over, Reggie’s surprised at how well he keeps his composure while playing. Afterward everyone is just hanging out and talking and Reggie is getting to know Pretty Person better.

Pretty Person is like “I know you’re relatively new to to the ghost stuff so sorry if you’re still touchy/sensitive about it but uh... when did you die?”

And Reggie’s like “nah it’s chill. 1995. You?”

And Pretty Person says, “2017.” Then, cautiously, “you’re uh, you’re cool with me, like, being trans/nb, right?”

And Reggie’s like “oh yeah totally don’t worry sjdhdjsjk”

It’s smooth sailing from there for the most part. A month later Pretty Person asks Reggie out. He excitedly accepts.

Now for some shorter headcanons!

Since the terms “boyfriend” and “girlfriend” don’t apply, Reggie finds the most creative way to reference his s/o. This results in “my partner in crime/my ethereal deity/my angelic counterpart” etc. etc. If he HAS to be formal he sticks with partner. His s/o loves them all.

Reggie and his partner are both bisexual so they have bi-themed EVERYTHING. Pins, flags, E V E R Y T H I N G. You can’t escape the bi.

He goes feral at anyone who deliberately misgenders his s/o (as he should).

Pretty Person plays with Reggie’s hair ALL THE TIME because “it’s fluffy!”

Pretty Person isn’t much of a singer but that doesn’t stop them and Reggie from screaming song lyrics together and from Reggie enjoying listening to them hum. He calls them his Angel of Music (Alex, Luke and Reggie all watched Phantom of the Opera fight me).

Pretty Person would be GREAT friends with Alex and very resssuring about anything regarding his sexuality (I feel like the boys would still have some negative connotations to it since they grew up in the 80s). Pretty Person ALSO helps Luke figure out what he identifies as because He Has No Idea. (Luke is pan👀)

Reggie is CONSTANTLY like “Look at my s/o. They’re the best. I love them. I don’t deserve them. They-”

Julie and Pretty Person also get along GREAT. Julie, Willie, and Pretty Person actually understand modern humor. It drives Luke, Alex, and Reggie up the WALL but none of them can be too angry bc they all love their s/o’s so much.

Pretty Person died when their hair was light pink (and it’s cut short because short pink hair is a LOOK) and they can’t change it, so they’re delighted to find out that Reggie loves it.

Reggie learns a whole lot about non-gender conforming people from his s/o. Pretty Person is happy to teach him since they know Reggie grew up in a time when it wasn’t talked about as much.

Thanks for the ask!! This was lots of fun :)

(Oh, and please excuse any typos haha)

#jatp #julie and the phantoms #waffle speaks #waffle answers #reggie peters #nonbinary #non binary #reggie and his nb so

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ineffable-endearments · 3 years

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Okay. Now I'm going to submit some theories about how I think Crowley and Aziraphale specifically are going to go in the future of Good Omens.

Again, this post is not really...specific theorizing about plot events. It's big-picture stuff.

With that said, this post will get a bit heavy at times, in the sense that it will contain opinions that not everyone will like. It drifted into rambling about queerbaiting and all that stuff. I'm not going to spam anyone's dashboard with drama over it, but it's very possible someone else might try. It's also not really a negative post, depending on what you want to hear, I suppose. But if you're only in the mood to read fluff today, you'll probably want to pass it up.

Oh! Also it's very long, and sexuality is discussed in a vague way that doesn't involve any story elements or body parts.

For starters, I don't think Good Omens 2 - or even 3, if that comes about - is going to have anything explicitly sexual or romantic between the two of them, where "explicit" is things like the characters giving outright definitions of their relationship or outright discussing exactly what goes on between them, either on or off-screen. I also don't think there's going to be kissing or "hooking up" (come on...that person on Twitter shouldn't have even asked). Those actions are too blatant for what Neil has already said about the series. While they technically leave some room for interpretation, they probably don't leave enough.

I DO think it's quite possible other characters will continue to define the relationship FOR them and Crowley and Aziraphale will continue to not deny it.

As far as the queerbaiting debate, "is Good Omens queerbaiting"...it's gonna depend how you define it. I always learned that queerbaiting was basically where the creators intentionally make it look like a character is gay or otherwise queer but then swap that character development out for a cis identity and hetero relationship at the end. The point is that the "bait" leads to queer audiences being actively hurt. That's the behavior that seems awful to me, and I don't see Neil and company doing that.

However, I think it's far and away the most likely option that it will be left up to interpretation whether Crowley and Aziraphale are, you know, a buddy duo or a romantic couple or some sort of ineffable queerness all their own off-screen. So if your definition of queerbaiting is "the characters seem gay to us, but homophobes can tell themselves they're not," then yes, I think that debate will follow us to our graves if we let it.

I am a cisgender, possibly straight (?? demi/bi? I might never find out) woman. There is absolutely no way I could ever tell anybody, ESPECIALLY not gay guys and nonbinary people - the people Crowley and Aziraphale tend to resemble the most - how to feel about their treatment in the story. All I can offer is that I'm one flawed individual and there are things I have the emotional capacity to handle and things I don't. Crowley and Aziraphale as both a canon construct and a fandom pairing mean an absurd amount to me, and I can't hang around in spaces where people are constantly talking about how my own interpretations of them are not enough, or how the story is written with ill intentions. I don't want to stop anybody from venting about it, but I am going to be removing myself from those situations.

I like to imagine 1990 NeilandTerry, or TerryandNeil, as a sort of two-headed God who came up with Crowley and Aziraphale, set them loose on Creation, and now are watching them get up to way more ridiculous stuff in the brains of their fans than they'd ever imagined in the first place. I like to imagine them watching, amused and bemused, as their creations fall in love in thousands of universes, and saying, "Well, we didn't specifically Plan for this, but we did promise free will."

This is psychoanalytical toward a public figure and is therefore a bit dangerous, so please take it with an entire mountain of salt, but I sometimes think perhaps Neil sees some of his and Terry's friendship in Crowley and Aziraphale, and suspect that he wants to reserve the possibility that they could be platonic because he and Terry were platonic, while at the same time leaving room for the fans to have their own interpretations, too. Because if there's one thing that comes up really frequently with Neil, it's his belief in imagination and how much stories matter to people. He can have his little corner of the universe where A and C reflect himself and Terry, and we can have...literally anything we want, as long as we're willing to extrapolate just a little bit from canon. It's not even that much extrapolation! It's just "Yes, they love each other, so what exactly does love mean to you?" and if love means kissing, well then, if we can think it, we can have it.

Given that Neil has written LGBT+ characters before, I think he has non-bigoted reasons for wanting Aziraphale and Crowley to remain undefined, and given even the small chance that those reasons may involve the grieving process for a dead friend, I believe it is unkind to argue with him about it or hold his reputation hostage over it.

With that said, do I want canon kissing/hooking up/all that stuff we put in fics? Listen, I can't deny that I do! Personally, I'd be over the moon. I'd probably be so happy I'd have to go to the hospital to get sorted out. Even the thought of it makes me giddy and light-headed, because that physicality is a part of my own experience of love.

However, there are a lot of people who would feel left behind if that happened. Ace and aro people in the fandom whose love for their friends and partners is just as strong as mine, but who are sex-repulsed or just don't want to see kissing on-screen. The loss of Crowley and Aziraphale as a pairing who are extremely easy to interpret as queerplatonic would be hurtful to them, and I do not want to see them hurt like that. I don't think Neil does, either.

So, once again, the "best for everyone" option becomes a really strong canon relationship based in both narrative function and profound affection, which has genuinely thoughtful queer undertones and leaves open the logical possibility for romantic or sexual encounters but does not insist that they must happen. People, especially fans who are super invested, tend to have an easier time imagining scenarios that take place off-screen (e.g. kissing, sex) than they have erasing scenarios that they've already seen in canon (e.g., if someone wished they could continue viewing it as an ace relationship but they were shown "hooking up"). Also, while relationships are super emotional and extremely subjective, I'd argue that in a long-term adult partnership, the non-sexual connection is more important than the sexual one. As a fan, I'd prefer to extrapolate "they love each other so maybe they'd have sex" rather than "they're sexually attracted to each other so maybe they'll intertwine their whole existences together."

It probably isn't necessary to add, but I will anyway: I'm aware that Good Omens is sort of sacrificing social leverage - the ability to whack homophobes over the head with canon if they try to deny the show's queerness - and is thus not really contributing to making specifically gay relationships more widely seen and accepted. However, I don't think all stories have to invest heavily in every social issue they touch on for them to still be meaningful. I also do think Good Omens is an excellent example of a relationship that is extremely profound without being heteronormative.

I don't think the next season is going to be a rom-com. It will likely not even be a "love story," where the definition of "love story" is "a story that follows the development of a relationship and employs certain plot beats to make its point." Remember that conflicts and breakups are key to love stories, so if it IS a love story, then we're going to have to watch the relationship get challenged in ways some of us might have thought were already resolved in season 1! And while that could be thrilling and ultimately very good, it would also be likely to undercut some of the careful headcanoning and analysis we've already done. Any sequel is going to do that to some degree, but a second love story would probably do it a lot, with interpretations that people are even more protective of.

I'm sort of thinking the next season is likely to be a fantasy-heavy mystery, only because those are the two concepts Neil's introduction led with - an angel with amnesia who presents Crowley and Aziraphale with a mystery. Crowley and Aziraphale's connection to each other can still absolutely be a major theme! It can still be the thread stitching the plot together! It just probably, in my opinion, won't escalate and escalate and escalate like it did in season 1. And it will probably be woven in there among a lot of other plot threads that are, in many moments, louder. Still, I'd love to be left with the impression of these two existences, the light and the dark, subtly becoming more intimate, subtly growing more comfortable in this shared place they've chosen in the universe, gradually starting to behave like they know they aren't alone in the world anymore, all while other things happen to and around them.

Nonsexual physical intimacy - a really great hug, or leaning together on the sofa, or a forehead touch, or something like those, something that could happen in a lot of different kinds of relationships but is undoubtedly based in deep trust and affection and a desire to be close...that's the dream, for me. Oh, how lovely it would be.

Of course, I could be just absolutely, embarrassingly wrong about all this. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

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clearsky · 3 years

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My Top Comfort Characters/Kins and My Main HCs For Them

(Note, not all my kins/comfort characters are on here, just the ones I have more than 5 hcs for)

CW: Korekiyo Shinguji (DRV3), Himiko Yumeno (DRV3), Shinsou Hitoshi (BNHA), Kyoko Kirigiri (THH), Tsuyu Asui (BNHA), Entrapta (Spop), Ibuki Mioda (SDR2), Celestia Ludenberg (THH), Funtime Foxy (FNAF), Peril (WOF)

Korekiyo Shinguji (DRV3)

Nonbinary

He/They pronouns

Autistic

Chains and loose accessories are for stimming

Likes the feeling of silk and cotton

Can't stand the feeling of anything rough or bumpy

He likes collecting small trinkets and the bones of small mammals

Can't stand anything salty. He'll eat it but he certainly won't enjoy it

Dating Rantaro

Can flirt, but only if he doesn't try

Petnames are a hell yea

Gets sunburnt really easily

Group dates with Celesnaegiri and Ikuzono

Can't cook for s h i t

Had a scene kid phase in middle school

Went to the same middle school as Celeste and Maki

Knew them when Celeste went through her "I'm not like other girls" phase and Maki was a Band Kid™

Himiko Yumeno (DRV3)

Female

She/Her pronouns

Lesbian

Can force herself to fall asleep within seconds regardless of where she is

100% forces herself to fall asleep when she doesn't wanna listen/talk to someone

Himiko/Angie/Tenko relationship. I'm calling them the Traffic Light Trio

She likes taking naps in the forest

She prefers enclosed/tight spaces more than open ones

Has several hundred stress balls and squishies laying around

She overheats easy

Shinsou Hitoshi (BNHA)

Questioning his gender, but goes by any pronouns

Knows he's Asexual, at least

Has no clue what his romantic orientation is though

The kind of person to carry treats in his pocket just in case he runs into a cat

Will stop to pet literally every cat he comes across

Great at reading people

Doesn't talk unless it's 100% needed

Hangs with Tokoyami, Jirou, and Denki most often

Aizawa has 100% unofficially adopted him

Fosters kittens

Not a big fan of physical touch

He is 100% in the bakusquad. Anyone who says he's in the Dekusquad is a c o w a r d

He and Tsuyu vibe

Knows a bunch of random facts

Dark humour? Dark humour

*skates backwards into his therapist's room slowly sipping from an absurdly huge cup of coffee* Candice you're not gonna BELIEVE the shit I just went through

In case I forgot to mention it, he skates

Kyoko Kirigiri (THH)

Mtf

She/Her

Bi with female preference

Burns go up to her shoulders/collarbone/chest

Prefers to just listen as opposed to saying anything

Knows a ton of random trivia about everyone else in her class

She keeps a notebook she fills with all the trivia

Doesn't celebrate her birthday. She just doesn't see the point of it

Doesn't hate sugar/sweets, but if given the choice she would choose literally everything else

Cuts her own hair

A cat person

Permanent dark circles

T-Tall 😳

Like,,, 6'1 at LEAST

Only person taller than her is Yasuhiro (6'3)

Canon no longer exist

Ahahaha healthy life habits? What are those?

Can't handle horror games

She's the kind of person you'd go to if you needed to rant but didn't want any advice

Polyamourous yo

Celeste/Kyoko/Makoto

She's a dom yall are just scared to admit it

Tsuyu Asui (BNHA)

They go by They/Them

Lesbian

They and Ochaco are dating

They like to hang with Shinsou

Which mainly just means the two sitting in one of their dorms in near total silence doing whatever

Can speak English and French as well as Japanese

Learned English from cartoons

Picked up French bc they thought it'd be fun

Prefers to stay neutral in the whole Bakusquad / Dekusquad thing

They're invited to all outings/events by/for both squads

They like puns

They're a dumbass but willingly, and for fun

Like "someone says they like dark humour and they'll turn off the lights before telling a joke" kind dumbass for fun

Great at poker

Likes Disney Movies

Very touchy once you get close enough

Not in a sexual way, just likes physical contact

Especially fond of piggyback rides and cuddles

Extreme fear of needles

Entrapta (She-Ra)

She/Her or It/Its

Doesn't bother trying to figure out whether she's cis, trans, nonbinary, or what

Was AMAB though

Short as fuck (4'7)

Strong as fuck though

Cuddle game strong

Physical touch is a fuck yes

Cuddles

Piggyback rides

Hugs

Anything where she's touching someone is wonderful in her book

As long as she's the one that initiates it

Anyone else touching her without her permission makes her freak

Prefers being high up

Makes it harder for anyone to sneak up on her

An ace at video games

When it comes to sexuality she just says she's Questioning

Ibuki Mioda (SDR2)

Any pronouns + Pup/Pupself + It/Its

No idea what their gender is otherwise

Biromantic Asexual

Just likes sexual jokes

Gets distracted easily

Has severe hearing problems

She's plays her instruments as loud as possible, with the amp right next to her, without ANY ear protection

It's caused some damage

She talks so loud bc she has no idea how loud is considered acceptable

Wears hearings aids most of the time

Several piercings and tattoos

Likes hearing things jingle

She has a bracelet with a few bells hanging from it

She'll shake it whenever she's bored

LOVES hair accessories

Ribbons are a particular favourite

Occasionally she'll hang little charms from her hair "horns"

The kind of person who never takes any pills/medicine bc she keeps forgetting she has to

Frequently uses emojis

Skates everywhere but she isn't very good at it

She keeps crashing into everything

Has broken every bone in her body at least 3 times

Most of which was bc she keeps trying to kick in doors and skating down the stairs

Celestia Ludenberg (THH)

Nonbinary

Any pronouns, mainly goes by She/They

Bi, 70:30

Collects mini hand sanitizers and can tabs

Has single handedly gotten Mario Kart, Mario Party, Monopoly, Uno, and Clue banned a grand total of 17 times (and counting)

The kind of person to purposefully target someone regardless of what game was being played

Favourite victim is Byakuya (bc he gets so upset about it and she finds that hilarious)

Mains Waluigi

Celeste/Kyoko/Makoto

Has several banned Twitter accounts bc whenever she's bored she'll start discourse on purpose

Hangs with Korekiyo, Ibuki, Byakuya, Yasuhiro, and Leon most often

It's a weird friend group but everyone's sorta gotten used to it

She and Byakuya gamble together occasionally

She tries to avoid it bc he'll willingly blow his entire fortune in an attempt to beat her

Autustic

Can't stand the feeling of water

Mainly bc she can't swim for shit

Horror movies? Hates them

Gets flustered super easily

Taka is her twin brother

Kotoko, Kokichi, and Gundham are their half siblings (Same father)

Peko and Toko are their cousins

She sucks ass at go fish

Fuck canon she's 4'11 now

C h u b b y

Freckles

Once she gets comfortable enough with herself she dyes her hair in the peekaboo style

Either black and red or black and blonde

Haven't decided yet

I'll be doing Celesnaegiri hcs as a seperate post but I just feel it's important for you to know that she expresses her affection verbally and is a very touchy person

Went to middle school with Maki and Korekiyo

Has horrible eyesight

She wears contacts most of the time but she always puts off buying more

After the 5th or so time she ended up blindly stumbling around a week after her contacts ran out Kyoko convinced her to buy glasses as well

Religious accessories yo

Like chokers and dangly earrings with crosses and pentagrams and shit

Likes wearing wacky earrings

Can run and do all sorts of tricks in heels

She and Mukuro are exes yo

Keeps her hair short so it's easier to manage

Hair never gets longer than her shoulders if she can help it

She seems like the kind of person who'd keep her bangs grown past her eyes regardless of how frustrating or inconvenient it is

She's a sub yall just don't wanna admit it

Funtime Foxy (FNAF)

I'm going on the record to say this

Funtime Foxy is genderfluid and that is that

Goes by Funtime

Any pronouns, They/Them most commonly

Plays music (keyboard and guitar mainly)

They and Funtime Freddy (Freds) mainly play with the kids

Freds mainly tells stories with Bonbon while Funtime more so plays one-on-one

Has nicknames for everyone

Circus Baby - Ringleader

Ballora - Bells

Funtime Freddy - Partner

Bon Bon - Bun

Peril (WOF)

I like both Nonbinary She/They Peril and Mtf She/Her Peril

They're both such good concepts

She's a lesbian, Harold

She only had a crush on Clay bc he was pretty much everything she was supposed to like in a guy

Gimme a moment while I force all my mental disorders onto this poor child

Autistic, Anxiety (Social anxiety, mainly, but she has most types), Adhd, PTSD

I'd like to reiterate yet again that She's a lesbian

Sunny and Glory were her gay awakening

Peril in Book 1: Damn, Sunny and Glory sure are pretty. Anyone would be lucky to date them. Clay would probably go for them over me. He would be stupid if he didn't. I myself would willingly date them over someone like me. They're just so pretty :(

Peril waking up in a cold sweat in the middle of arc 2: WAIT-

Rarepair alert but Peril/Sora

Peril meeting Sora: "Hmmm She's attractive. I would love to date her. Too bad I'm straight and in love with her brother lmao :P"

Peril, a mere month later, waiting for Ruby to leave Jade Mountain, pacing in her cave, running face first into a wall: WAIT-

I remember reading this one amazing story where Sora taught Peril to read/write and Peril found out she set off the bomb and comforted her/convinced her her run so that's canon now

Btw if anyone can remember what that story was called/what platform it was on and could tell me I'd appreciate it very much

I'd even be willing to draw a character of your's or make you an icon or something

I usually don't accept requests bc I get burnt out easy but this is a special case

She runs into Sora again sometime between the beginning of TOP and the end

I like to imagine she just goes wandering around

Anyway she confesses like a mere few minutes after running into her again bc Peril is just subtle like that

The actual confession takes 15 minutes and the entire time Sora is just sitting here like "👁👄👁 sure"

Bam Peril/Sora

Peril plans to keep it a secret for a little while longer but she spends 3 seconds around Clay and pretty much blurts it out

Clay, who wasn't even aware that Peril was a lesbian, is just "👁👄👁"

I wanna say Clay doesn't know what a lesbian is but in my canon Sunny is a lesbian so Starflight has already told him

Anyway he's super supportive

From that point Peril is sorta open about her sexuality?

Like, she gives Clay permission to tell the rest of the D.O.D bc she isn't about to risk being in front of them when they hear the news

(When Sunny starts actively seeking her out as a hang out buddy and Tsunami, Glory, and Starflight appear to tolerate her presence just a bit more afterwards she pretends she isn't confused by the change)

She's pink, white, and blue bc I said so

If you look at a certain angle in the right lighting her eyes, mouth, fire, and under her scales all look purple

But her fire is normally white and blue bc I said so

Also she pale as fuck bc in my canon their fire just sorta burns their colour away

You know how you leave something outside for too long and it gets sunbleached? Where it gets all washed out?

Like that but more extreme

By the age of 10-12 firescale dragons are just white with pale eyes

That's right not even the eyes are safe

Ram horns :P

I'm also fond of Peril/Sunny

Or maybe Peril/Sora/Sunny

But Peril/Sora is the main thing

On the topic of that bringing in my hc that if one sib in a sib group is fire resistant all of them are

She,,, She can change her scale colour

But only slightly and only if her emotions are strong enough

Bc I don't give a fuck about Darkstalker's scroll we were robbed of hybrid Peril

Unfortunately all of Peril's emotions are strong

Rainwing ruff along her head and neck

It's like a hood

It's mainly smoothed to her sides but when she's startled it flares out

RAINWING PUPILS

Y'all will know what those look like as soon as I get off my ass :P

She,,, She can mimic bird cries

Hates the summer

She has more than enough body heat already and the outside is just hot enough to add on and make her feel sick

She can somewhat control her heat but most of the time it's based on her emotions

It can go from standing-in-the-middle-of-a-burning-building-cant-see-your-nose-smoke-is-so-thick heat (Strong emotion) to Hey-thats-a-nice-cozy-campfire heat (Calm/"weak" emotion/Sleeping)

I'm just gonna make a different post with all my Peril hcs cuz there isnt enough room for all of them here

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seth-the-hobbit · 3 years

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I think it’s interesting how being aro/aro-spec is the thing that’s been the hardest for me.

I read the word ‘nonbinary’ in April 2015 and went “yeah that’s me”. I still doubt it and question it sometimes but ultimately I know it’s right and I’m nonbinary.

Ace-spec was pretty much the same, one day I realised I was asexual not ace-spec easily and went “yeah that seems more correct” and never looked back. It was easy. Sex is not something that interests me and despite society’s preoccupations of it, it’s not something that has ever worried me. Both of those were things I had experienced already but now I had a name for. I was different from my peers but it wasn’t bad. Other people felt that too.

I knew I liked boys. That wasn’t something I ever had to debate. I knew I felt differently about boys than my peers (“I wasn’t like other girls”) but realising that I’m nonbinary and asexual made that make sense. I find women very attractive and I enjoy looking at them - the same way I enjoy looking at a satisfying piece of art of a beautiful landscape. My attraction to women is purely aesthetic, which took a while I admit, but wasn’t really a shock when it came. I struggled a bit between gay and bi because enbies but that was okay. I wasn’t questioning who I liked, just which label felt the best. It was like I’d chosen a top and just had to figure out which size was for me. Queer always had my back anyway.

I started to question if I was aro-spec the summer of 2018. I really went “I am aromantic” in autumn 2020. Even now I’m still a little hesitant but I’m getting there.

I had a bit of a breakdown in August 2018 and convinced myself I’d have to break up with my then partner because I’d realised I was aro-spec even though I knew I loved them. We talked about it though and our relationship developed into a QPR which took away a lot of my worries. Christmas Eve that year my partner told me they weren’t comfortable being in a QPR. We talked again and I realised that I was happy with how I was and didn’t mind how our relationship was defined as long as we were still together. When we broke up about a year later I was sad but content enough to be by myself. I had just started college so I had that newness and new friends and I was happy.

I met a really lovely lad online last April and we quickly became good friends. I suspected he had a crush on me and thought I did too. I was excited to talk to him and wanted to meet up properly and hold hands and I got caught up in the sappy feeling of newness. We met up when restrictions allowed and yes we held hands and kissed on the cheek. It was exhilarating. He was really respectful of my boundaries and knew that I was ace and aro-spec and wouldn’t - couldn’t - feel the way he did. He was okay with it. Everything was great. Then we started dating and I started avoiding him. He started saying sappy, romantic things and calling me pet names and I knew he liked me much more than I liked him and I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I had no space because he was always there. I realised that a relationship was not something I actually wanted and romantic things made me uncomfortable. We broke up and I was so relieved.

I think I just got caught up in the new friend feeling and confused it for a crush. Even though I broke up with him because I was aro I still found it hard to really accept that? I couldn’t imagine a future where I didn’t have a generic, faceless being beside me. It was a scary thought and one I struggled with a lot.

But I followed aro meme pages and aro discussion pages and bought an aro pride pin that I was excited for and it helped.

I know I want companionship and I think the ideal setup for me would be something like what I have at the moment - I’m living in a flat with two friend who are a couple. We often eat together and chat and it’s really domestic. I want people to share space with and life with but without the strain of being everything for one person. People I can hug and hold hands with probably and do grocery shopping with. People I can call family without feeling like I am depriving them of something. Three is a nice number. I’ve always done well in threes. I had two best friends in primary school. I have two best friends now. Three is a balanced number in a way two isn’t.

#my own post #this has been in my drafts for yonks because I felt it was too personal to post but some people on Instagram said it hwlped them so here #aromantic #aro #aro spec #questioning #lgbt #lgbtq #queer

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indy-gray · 2 years

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for some reason I’m still seeing “queer discourse” here, even though I really haven’t been ever particularly active in that area of tumblr. So I guess it should be noted that yes, I’m a queer writer. No I don’t use the acronym very much anymore, not because I don’t like it but because I’ve yet to find a letter in that acronym that I feel fits me better than queer!

truthfully I’ve been doing a LOT of therapy over the last few years. I’ve learned a lot about myself. Like, I’m a deeply codependent kind of person and that causes problems in my relationships. My ex and I got together before he came out as trans and changed his pronouns and name and all of that. At the time I still identified as a woman and a lesbian, and dating a trans man caused a crisis, not because of the trans part, but because of the man part. It took some therapy about it to come to terms with my partner’s transition and to understand more about why I was feeling the way I was feeling (it wasn’t just internalized transphobia, but that had a part too, I’ll admit). But something my therapist over and over drilled into my head as I cried and raged and panicked over myself, was that my identity should be about me and who I am and not about my partner and who he is.

So I’m just kinda talking out of my ass right now, and aside from the plethora of microlabels I’m not familiar with, I really haven’t found a label other than queer that really made my identity (mostly sexual orientation, I’ll get into gender in a moment) about me and not about other people. I’m not who I am because of who the people I love are, I’m who I am because that’s who I am. It’s a personal thing. That’s why I don’t like the term lesbian for myself anymore. I’m not me because the people I love are women. Because not all the people I love are women, that shouldn’t change my identity, or make me feel fake as that kind of person. I’m not a fake lesbian because I love a man. I’m not a lesbian at all because I don’t want that identity to change just because my partner’s identity has changed. I’m not bi, I’m just not. The gender identity of my partner shouldn’t affect the labels with which I use. And I absolutely don’t want to have to out my partner as trans every time I come out. That’s not appropriate or fair.

But queer: I aint straight. I aint cis. But do you know what my partners identify as when I come out as queer? Not really.

When it comes to gender though, queer is even more important to me. The word queer as a gender identity doesn’t reveal who the doctors on my birthday said I would be. It doesn’t tell the cisheterosexual members of society that I’m going from point A to B because that’s not how it works! My gender is not trans man or woman, and I’m not nonbinary. None of those words fit me just right for a number of personal reasons I won’t get into here. I don’t want to define myself in relation to the standards that a reductive society have set out for me, I don’t want to pick an option out of a list, a list defined by others. I’m simply me and I get to define what that means for myself.

Queer is so deliciously ambiguous and vague but also tells you exactly what you need to know about me should I deem it important. If you need to know that I’m not cishet, then you know I’m queer. But if you want to know who I date or how they identify you’re gonna have to ask them because I’m not telling. If you want to know how society interprets my presentation or whether I conform to an option, you’ll have to deal without because queer doesn’t tell you. Queer gives me the independence of being me and the privacy and simplicity of not explaining every little detail of my relationship with my body and others.

And like sure, I’m open to discussion about this. I’m not an expert. But I think it’s so reductive and belittling to dismiss queer as a slur that has no purpose in society anymore. It doesn’t describe us all, sure, but it describes me.

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strongxsurvivors · 3 years

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MLM SHIPS, FETIZATION, AND MISOGYNY IN THE RPC.

This is a small, or not-so-small, rant about a problem ( in my opinion ) I see more and more often in both the rp community and the art community. As a member of both, I just can’t escape this issue and need to put out some food for thought for everyone to read.

Not all of you are going to agree with me. Maybe, some will want to add in their two cents. Maybe, it’ll go over someone’s head completely. I simply appreciate you putting the time into reading this and giving it, like, two seconds of thought. It may not be an issue for you or be completely unrelated to you, but this is an issue I’m sure others will be able to relate to.

I will preface this by saying that I am a twenty-five year old transman. I am bisexual. I have a degree in psychology and excelled in gender and sexuality psychology. THIS DOES NOT, BY ANY MEANS, MEAN I AM THE END ALL BE ALL OF INFO IN THESE SUBJECTS. My experience is my own and I will not gatekeep or instruct people how to think in concerns of these subjects. I am only saying these things simply to assure you that I am valid in my perspective because I am in these communities. Please, don’t think that I want to invalidate anyone or say that I am better than you because I am these things.

Alright, let’s get the ball rolling because I have a lot of feelings and thoughts on a lot of points.

The number one thing that finally set me off to make this post is the absolute WORSHIP of mlm ( male loving male ) ships in the rpc ( and art comm., but this ain’t about them rn ). I have seen, countless times, entire blogs dedicated to shipping male characters to male characters.

Now, initially, this isn’t a problem. Having a male homosexual ship or homosexual male characters is absolutely fine. Peep my blog, I obviously have some. But, it’s the act of taking a character that was originally female, cisbend them to be male, and shipping them with another male character that's the problem. What was wrong with the female character? You kept her personality but made her male? Why? Is it necessary? It’s the same character. If you are uncomfortable writing female-related smut, fade to black. Smut is not necessary if you are truly focused on the essence of this character.

By making this character male, you are essentially saying that the only problem was that she was female. That’s it. That is misogyny. If you are focusing on her as a character, her body shouldn’t matter. As if females equate to their body when sex and gender are two separate things. But, you are bringing females down by getting rid of this one thing. You are telling them they are not good enough. That, maybe, you would like them better if they were the same but male. Am I being extreme about this? Yes. But, I’m trying to drive home my point here.

Another point to make about fetishizing mlm ships is that, even if you state your character is bisexual, pansexual, etc., that does not give you a pass. If your whole blog has characters who want only male partners even if some are stated to be something other than homosexual, you’re fetishizing them. If you put no effort in exploring relationships with females — platonic, romantic, or otherwise — you may as well call them homosexual and call it a day. I’m not here to dictate how you should play your character, but it’s easy to see where your loyalties lie when there is no evidence of female characters on your blog that you’ve interacted with. Actions speak louder than words. Rpc may be made up of words, but make your words take action. Plenty of people complain about their females being ignored. Go help them. Make your characters be friends, enemies, a crime-fighting duo idk. Females exist, don’t act like they don’t.

Oh, and changing a canon mlm ship to a wlw ship by cisbending them doesn’t change things. You’re still saying that those male characters were better than the pre-existing female characters. I would recommend you focus on the actual females of whatever medium you’ve taken these characters from, or create ocs that are genuinely wlw. This is mostly a thing I see in the art community, but I have seen it in the rpc.

We’re going to move on now to some transphobic and trans fetishization, which is fewer and far between. I say a few because I barely see trans characters out there in the community. But, when I do, OH BOY.

Simply stating a character is trans and doing nothing to upkeep what you said does not make your character trans. I’m sorry. Taking a pre-existing character and changing their gender and calling them trans is a sticky situation. I will probably get hate for this, but what are you going to do? It’s Tumblr. I would just prefer to see more original trans characters out there, as if actual thought and development went into their creation.

What I mean by a sticky situation is this, and it goes back to a point I made earlier about cisbending characters to fit mlm ships: if you’re only making a character a transman to make him gay, that's fetishizing both mlm ships and trans people. I’m not saying a transperson can’t be gay and I’m not here to limit diverse characters — this is why I say this is a sticky situation. But, what I am saying is that if you only have muses that are involved in mlm ships and then you add a transmale character to also have an mlm ship based on faceclaims, it’s kinda sus.

Another thing I want to point out is if you are playing a trans character, refer to them by their chosen name and pronouns. You would think this is a no brainer, but you would be surprised. Even if your trans character is closeted, it is your job as the writer to write the correct name and pronouns. Other character interacting with your trans character could use their dead name and wrong pronouns — it makes sense, they don’t know your character is trans if they are closeted and non-passing. But, as you write your character, you and the reader are aware of your character’s true self. Neglecting to reflect your character’s true self through their chosen and name and pronouns is transphobic and harmful. Seeing things like this sends me into a whirlwind of dysphoria.

Changing a pre-existing character to nonbinary rather than cisbending them would be a recommendation from me and some others ( nonbinary individuals ) I’ve talked to. First off, there are very few nonbinary characters in general — media or otherwise. So, taking a pre-existing character and making them nonbinary is a nice thing to see. And, since the character is nonbinary, if they’re in a relationship with a male - the fetishization is redundant.

Now, who do I see making these wacky characters? Mostly cis females and trans men. I think it mostly stems from internalized misogyny as, when growing up, we’ve lived in societies where we are taught men are better than women. It can get to the point where cis females will glorify men so much that they have to have mlm ships. The same can be said for trans men. I’m not saying — as is often used against trans men — that this internalized misogyny / glorification of men has caused them to be trans. Obviously not. But, the internalized misogyny is still there enough to where they may either fear interacting with female characters. It might make them uncomfortable, dysphoric, or they just may think men are better. Women do not deserve to be the catalyst for someone’s discomfort. They are people. They are everywhere. They deserve to be loved. If they make you uncomfortable, if you think you are better than them, if you think men are better, I want you to sit down with yourself and think about this.

When I first realized that I was trans, I had some serious internalized misogyny going on. I would be uncomfortable writing female characters. I would be uncomfortable interacting with them. There was this discomfort that started to manifest in my behaviors and thoughts. Luckily, I had the best person in my life who told me that I was acting misogynistic and I needed to change. Pushing away females was me trying to come to terms with my transness. You don’t need to expel females away from you to imbed in yourself that you are trans. You don’t need to raise yourself above them as men have done for centuries. Do not become part of the problem. Accept the feminine parts of yourself, accept females, and I promise that the fear or resentment you may have with females and female characters will fade away.

Now, with all that being said, my last few words:

Being trans does not give you a pass to do the things I’ve mentioned. Being cis does not give you a pass. Being straight, gay, bi, etc does not give you a pass. If you are a gay man, I understand why you would only have male mlm ships. That doesn’t mean you can’t platonically interact with female characters. We all have made dumb mistakes and judgments in the past. I know for sure I’ve written some pretty cringe stuff in the past. It happens. The best we can do? Learn and take action on what we claim to have learned. Again, actions speak louder than words. Don’t piggy-back on posts that call out people for behavior like this when you participate in some of these behaviors yourself. Just because one person got called out and the spotlight is on them doesn’t mean you’re better than them or that you’ve been given a pass. If you read something like this, reflect on yourself and wonder — objectively — do you do some of these things? You may without realizing it or meaning to. In the end, I’m just a small blog that’s been around for seven years. I think we can get better as a community, but only if we help each other out. This is not a call out post. Call out and cancel culture is gross and counterproductive. I ain’t here for it. Call me out if you want, but what’ll that do? Nothing accept invalidate my opinion.

If you made it this far, I’m sorry. I took up a lot of your time probably. But, I want to thank you so much for reading this. As I said, you may agree, disagree, and not really get what I’m saying. I don’t know what I’m saying half the time either. But, I appreciate you regardless. Please, stay safe and healthy. I hope you have a wonderful year ahead of you.

#indie rp #indie rpc #indie discourse #gingersnaps #idk what to tag so here we are

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veldian · 3 years

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tell us more of ur think tank hcs i personally am at the edge of my seat

HELL YEAH ALRIGHT HERE WE GO. some of these might be against canon in some way but that's your fault for trusting me with this

ALSO, AS USUAL, I HAVE TO APOLOGIZE. THIS GOT VERY LONG. when i think about the tanks i go fuckin wild with it

starting with pride headcanons to get the ball rolling

all the tanks are nonbinary, but additionally, dala is a trans woman and 0 is a trans man

8 hates gender he fucking hates it. every day he wakes up and says "today i will make gender my bitch" and then he does. he says this in the game too you just don't know cuz he only speaks in static (don't factcheck this)

if you ask 8 what pronouns she uses, they will shrug and give you a "i dunno" noise. sometimes it'll make a non-committal hand movement and some unintelligible noises. good luck

god this bitch (borous) is gay! good for him! good for him.

he's also intersex! i don't remember where we got that hc but i like it and im holding onto it

okay but borous calls himself bi because yeah Men, but he also loves dala very much and doesn't want to misgender her. also as previously stated, 8's main goal is to confuse everyone about their gender so the tanks all stick with mspec labels to be on the safe side. you never know what'll happen. gender is a ticking time bomb

bi gang: klein, borous, 0

pan gang: dala, mobius

don't ask her about any of her identities she doesn't know the answer either: 8

have i gone off about polytank dynamics enough? i don't think so

8 and dala started dating first because horny bitches gravitate towards each other. they can also "pass" as a "straight couple" so hopefully no one at work will look at them and call them slurs. hopefully

klein and borous knocked things out of the park for being the first gay scientists ever

8 and dala became polyam icons and pulled 0 in. trans bitches gravitate towards each other

klein and borous did the same with mobius. bitches with facial hair gravitate towards each other

???????

idk and then all six of them started dating somehow. the end

somewhere along the way klein and 8 were like "i like you a little too much" and now they're inseparable

okay anyway. misc hcs

ive mentioned this before but when i pretend everything is in modern times, 0 is a tiktokker and he thrives on the attention and making fun of his coworkers on the internet

"watching steven universe repeatedly when i felt even slightly bad transed my gender" - doctor 8 old world blues

i just remembered i made a carrd for the tanks as if they were kinnies in their early to mid 20s

8 kinned pearl su. borous kinned werewolf cookie. 0 kinned rimmer red dwarf. mobius kinned... morbius forbidden planet. obviously. klein refused to put his kins on it. DID DALA KIN FROM DANGANRONPA

i think at one point we had a half-joking hc where klein gets nauseous if he sees blood

and then that changed to he can't see others blood, only his own

while borous can't see his own blood, but he's fine seeing other ppl's

i know borous said that gabe barked at everyone, but i think gabe trusts the other tanks because he knows borous does

borous set up a kissing booth with gabe. the crowd goes wild

when the tanks get together they usually go to klein's. he's the leader or something. also he has a fucking bar in his house.

he complains about them the whole time but you can really tell he loves having people over. why else would he deck his house out like that? he LOVES hosting stuff. house husband

if you saw my chart where i said klein would rather die than do dishes, i was so wrong. his house is pristine. its easily the cleanest

klein's love language is acts of service. he goes over to his partners' houses when they feel awful and clean stuff up for them when they can't. he also makes them food if they want it. he only complains a little, but you can tell he's mostly teasing

did you know klein has five mugs in his kitchen in-game. he's literally prepared to host his partners at any given moment.

the group have learned that letting 8 come over when their house is a mess is a Huge mistake. it goes from 8 trying to help "tidy up" to "im going to put your books and albums in alphabetical order by artist also your clothes are going to be hue-sorted"

"8 why are there only 8 books on each of my bookshelves"

"it looks better"

"it literally does not"

8 can no longer stomach going into 0's house

on the other hand, 0 hates staying in 8's house. the ticking of all their clocks is sensory hell

on 80 date nights they have to do rock-paper-scissors for which house they go to. or they go out. they love each other but their houses drive the other fucking nuts

oh speaking of their houses. yes dala said she didn't like Literal Teddy Bears but that is null and void considering she has teddies in her house

and she has 5 on her bed. five of them :)

she named all of them after her partners! its mostly cute but there is a slight bit of concern because they know what she does with them <__<

not that 8 has any place to judge. mobius found batteries under its pillow once. all 8 said was "they can vibrate." mobius regrets touching them.

i don't know what to say about dala's mannequins i don't have anything funny im just scared

WHY ARE 0 AND KLEIN THE ONLY ONES WITH BATHROOMS IT DRIVES ME INSANE 0'S BATHTUB ISNT EVEN LAYING DOWN ITS AGAINST THE WALL WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT GENERATOR IN HIS BATHROOM DO THE OTHER TANKS JUST SHIT OUTSIDE I'M SEEING RED

mobius and 0 are both into robotics, and they worked together to make muggy, so they've had date nights where they mainly tinker with electronic things.

0 gets very excited when he makes a breakthrough, and seeing that warms mobius's heart. mobius made a habit of kissing 0 on the forehead or squeezing 0 into a hug when they figure things out.

(0 remembers he likes men.) 😳

dala/klein date nights are essentially just them drinking and gossiping chatting

i asked polycule for some more, so here are ones from your local think tank kinnies

borous -

"klein and borous both like classical music in very different ways. klein mostly likes it to feel smart (see: wheatley) but he just started associating it with the others so it felt nicer And borous just likes it bc hes borous"

klein also likes jazz, but so do all the rest of them

8 has a cochlear implant

"dala likes dressing up to look pretty (see: runway) but is personally embarrassed by it (until she gets encouragement) bc she feels like the others dont support that"

"0 loves collecting and reading those stupid magazines with the birthday party products and themes that ud wanna buy from as a kid but are way too expensive"

"mobius has a secret love for puppetry and will try to bring it up sometimes whenever he can. hes made 3 separate sets of the other tanks as puppets and they freak 0 out"

"borous, in an attempt to better his faults, has started learning from dala and 8 on how to take care of plants instead of what he did before. his basement turns into a cool little green house cozy cuddle area"

"to add on: 8 gardens to cope whenever hes alone bc (projects onto ur kin) he mood drops very fast when alone"

"mobius likes dressing in cozy sweaters and fancy stuff"

0 -

"0 doesn't like anal that much" (thanks.)

dala -

"their new rap album called boyz in the tanks" (THANKS.)

and to top things off, :) here are the normal names for them all, created primarily by our borous kinnie

klein - Ernest Klein (nicknamed ernie)

mobius - Wilbert Mobius (nicknamed bert)

borous - James H. Borous (nicknamed jamie)

dala - Dala Theodore (HER NICKNAME IS TEDDY ITS GENIUS)

8 - Emmett Handley (nicknamed 8 + emmy)

0 - Robert O'Barrick (nicknamed 0/O + robbie (HIM SHARING HOUSE'S NAME IS INTENTIONAL. HE'S TRANS HE PICKED HIS NAME WHY DID HE DO THIS))

#tech.txt #old world blues

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sweet-xoxo-thatcares · 3 years

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Pan? Polysexual sounds better now

Back to guys, gay girls, nonbinaries, pan, bi, gender-fluid, and queer people.

I might have to take a recap on matches who are trans for right now,

I still have a lot to learn about what my true identity is for right now.

Because I really can't stick to just one label...

Aye, that's just me. And dating apps are starting to feel like a job, there's too many people matching with me and trying to remember names is getting a lot to handle when you're on 3 different apps and about 20 conversations going at the same time. And still 99 people waiting on you to swipe right on them, on each one. And plus I'm not as picky about looks as I was before, so I'm mostly reading just bios, analyzing photos to see what could be their interests in, and making sure I'm not being too passive on red flags when people talk to you.

I will admit, I still swipe right on them if they're trans and I'm attracted to them. I just know me, I'd rather date someone who was fully transitioned or somebody who is still on the nonbinary, before part. Only because I know me.

I had to watch someone I had already grown into getting to know and getting attached to, and then when I finally got comfortable with them for over a yr, they changed that drastically during those 3months we were separate and I had no idea about it.....I'm not sure if I could watch it happen before my eyes. Cause then I would have to miss the way they were before, because of my attraction to their naturally mixed feminine/masculine looking features and actions. So, ideally I wouldn't have changed anything about them.

I don't wanna grow attached to a voice or a face or a body that will no longer be there tomorrow. I know that person before is still in there, but it's different when you're romantically attracted to them, been intimate with them vs when you're just a friend. My experience shocked and scared my paranoia and fear of change. I remember crying when my dad started growing white and grey hairs in his beard. Cause I never want my dad to change, cause I've grown up with him being this strong man that always was there for me, held me, made me feel safe, calmed me down when I had my moments, and tucked me in when I wanted to feel comfortable. He showed me that he always loved me, always cared about me, and that he was never gonna leave me. As if he's never gonna die during my time on this earth. Seeing his greyishly, white hairs, I thought death and that my daddy will soon no longer be the fun, happy, strong dad that I've always been with as his princess. And that's kind of what vibe this particular person was to me, even though they weren't as smart, strong, or always there for me....cause most of the time my nights alone cause they couldn't or didn't know I needed them to be there fo r me like that to feel loved or just to feel wanted. Cause I couldn't speak up.

But now, that they has turned into a he. I feel like its brutally denying me to chance to not only say goodbye to them as they, but I would have to get reacquainted to HE, with a totally different name, maybe different personality, maybe different sexuality, and I won't know if I like the new evolved version of this person. The fear of the unknown is high for me. Especially when there's a 40% rate of fems that decided to change their sexual orientation after taking testosterone. I 'm possessive about my partners and I would hate to know that after seeing this person physically change and go through so much emotional/mental changes that one day they decide "Hey, I think I like men now, I wanna give this a shot. Could we make this work?"

I would tell Him, to go right ahead and go on a date with that coworker or guy on Tinder/Grinder. But I'm not gonna be here when you come home. Because to me that's some bullshit. And I've known this person well enough to know, that they don't mind using other people to meet their sexual needs that I can't possibly give them due to my actual gender and my body as such. I wouldn't want to share my partner, nor watch them get fucked by another man...because I'm not a man, im a woman...theres a huuuuuugggeeee difference.

And if it ever came to that point 3 yrs later and He became someone I didn't know anymore, because of the hormones changing how they feel as a man, dysphoria gone....I get it, you've hated yourself for years and now you're happy in the dream body you always asked for. But, I would be scared to lose you, to whoever else you decide to open up to in your selections. Cause you're that type to leave to please you and not make it work. I don't want somebody who changes their mind all the time about who they wanna be, who else do they wanna smash, and who else they can flirt with. That's cheater mentality.

And I'm sorry trans community that I'm basing my recent experience with someone as the example for the rest of you. Because I know there are some ftm's who've already changed and stayed with their partners. I just don't know if I could trust this process, knowing the effects, the research on whether or not they become completely detached to women or become bisexual... I can't.

And I'm thankful for the ftm's that have been posting youtube videos and tiktoks for viewers like me who are curious about the possible cons, and physical or emotional changes they've overcome. I was shocked the first time I ever watched a bandaged ftm, who finally unrevealed their scars from top surgery. I've always been preparing myself for this. Because I knew one day, that this cute, fluffy, soft skinned, white latino looking, but really just mixed mocha, nonbinary person was gonna be...changed over a year or so. I thought I could prepare for it, so that when it does happen it doesn't hurt as much to watch to them in pain if the bleeding from the scars are irritating them or if one day they're super cranky and obnoxious for what seems to be no reason. Or if one day they end up feeling they dont need anybody like Zanthos, with the 4 avenger rings lol.

But I'm too damn fucking sensitive. I was born this way. I've always prepared myself with the worst and the best information, that way when it does happen, the tidal wave of emotions from the reaction, doesn't end up torching my soul or blowing me out the water. Cause I am gay. I adore women, men, and when I met this person I loved them as an in-betweener as nonbinary. They are so brutally harsh, twisted, manipulative, jealous, and possesive. But I've always liked that they had these emotions inside of them that they hold back because they don't wanna seem so soft, always hiding this feminine quality about them because ideally, they're pretty looking, gorgeous eyes that can turn black cold like obsidian, and those fucking cheeks and cat nose. I've only seen the slight hips, but I didn't mind it. And they've always hid their body away even when we would try to have sex. I knew the dysphoria was there, cause again I prepared myself to be patient and kind.

So, I'm glad they're turning a new leaf to make themselves feel more confident about being recognized in society as a full, grown ass man. I'm pretty sure HE, is gonna get cocky af, cause that's just the way he was when they were they.

I know it's selfish of me to say, but I'm afraid of what will happen down the line years later. But that's just me being afraid. If He ends up not liking me anymore, I know it won't be the end of the world and I walked away at the right time when I did. Because this person is currently separated from me, and I'm still insecure about that part too. Not knowing how they are during this transition for what may become years or not...I hope HE is doing okay and not piercing everyone with their new, world domination, ego.

I just don't wanna imagine them get fucked by a guy....sorry that's just me. And will their buttery ass kisses, still be as sweet anymore?

Will I be ok with HE having chest hair?

Will I love the sound of their new voice or will I just hate it, while still missing the old, brodie, sexy, slightly feminine voice?

Especially when they used to go all soft and cuddly on me over the phone, it was soooo cuteeee. I miss our phone and text conversations.

Will they grow into another relationship with somebody else because they started to become unattached and unattracted to my body, my tits, my hips, my vagina even....just because they completely changed their identity?

And I still a woman? I've only thought about wearing a binder a couple of times, and yes, I do watch ftm and trans porn because I did like the fantasy of being intimate with someone who had a bigger clit size or just having a big clit of my own that felt like a dick.

I'm willing to admit that. Because let's be honest, boys get away with so much more shit as a male, compared to us females.

I wish I could grow a dick overnight and nobody not know I'm still a chick! Lol, but I still don't like the all over hair body growth and I still want my vagina back. Like a rental suit with an actual dick and no tits. Those are the onllyyyyyyyyy things I've thought about, but would never admit out loud. Only because I still like my body and my gender identity as is. I feel like the blue girl from X-Men could get away with it, cause she can be anybody she wants to and go back to being herself at the end of the day. And still camouflage behind walls. Lucky chick. Especially if she could teleport, oh he'll yeah.

It's gonna take me awhile to get over this, so please be patient with me. As I'm trying not to cry as I watch my ftm porn get fucked by a guy. Cause I used to be heavy into it, now I feel wrong for watching it and then I'm reminded "40% chance, you're watching it" 😞🤮😫

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