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#cant stop crying#but imma listen to what my therapist said and imma just try to feel and release#crying until i fall asleep#dont message me please and thanks#ignore this please#trauma is so dumb i hate it#delete later
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I love your work so much aaaaaAAAAA!!!
Ok so imma be straightforward, this is straight up me coping with irl stuff and reading your work makes me forget the cruel outside world so HERE WE GO!
Caine and Kinger x S/O who hides who they are out of fear of negative responses. Bottles it all up until they can't handle it anymore. Like, the reader is very much used to being the therapist/caretaker and is often very happy and doesn't hesitate to help others but silently they think rudely of others, holding their tounge constantly and even mutter under their breath about others being annoying. Ofc they don't want others to see who they truly are, in fear of rejection or their worst fear, isolation. They hate this part of themselves, like why do they have these horrible thoughts about others? It even borders on abstraction.
They can only feel comfortable around their partner and try their best not to vent too much but Caine/Kinger can sense something is wrong and even see their S/O glitching a bit and ask what's wrong and say its ok (in their own special ways!) and the reader just finally cracks, and in their glitching voice is sobbing on how much of a terrible person they are and how they deserve to be in this digital hell for being so horrible.
Im so normal about this. And just so it's not so hard to think of a title, I recommend "Caine and Kinger x reader who pretends!" you don't have to use it but it's there!
Unsavory thoughts (Caine and kinger x reader)!
UEAAA THIS GOT BURIED IM SO SO SO SORRY ANON!! I truly did not mean to take this long to get to your request :(
That said I'm so happy to hear that my silly writing has a positive impact on people.. please remember to drink water and get plenty of rest, remember that there are people that care about you
Hands you a glass of juice
I got silly with Caines piece
CAINE:
KINGER:
Between the two it takes him a little while longer to realize that something is wrong with you. I mean hes still trying to learn all these emotions that make people.. human
Absolutely panics when he sees you glitch out. I'm talking his eyes fly out of his jaws as they hang open panic. Rushes to you to see if you're okay... god forbid youre abstracting... maybe he can help ground you, or something?
Listens to you talk, for once the ringmaster is quiet. Rubs your back
You... have mean thoughts about people...?
Is it not okay to dislike people? Is it not reasonable to be irritable in a new environment? Is it not normal to have at least a few terrible thoughts about others? Are you any less worthy of support or love because you're not a ray of sunshine?
Is this not what being human is about?
Of course he wouldnt say it exactly like that, but he would carry the same message, I think. Is what you're experiencing not a natural part of the human experience?
Yes, you can argue that caine is an AI and he has no place to speak on matters like these, but as your partner he wont let you go without comfort and reassurance
He let's you talk and let it all out. I think going forward he makes it a point to make sure you get time alone, and time with him... makes IHAs more "non intrusive" so you can opt out if you dont want to interact with the others
Very accommodating, I think
Unlike caine he catches on really fast that theres something wrong, something even larger than you're letting on. But still, he let's you do your small but rare vents... until he returns to you after briefly taking some time away from you for one reason or another to find you having a melt down. He thinks you're abstracting, and you probably are. Honestly I can see kinger doing the grounding technique (the 5 sense thing) and he tries to guide you through it to help calm you down enough to pull yourself together just enough to stabilize. Listens to your word vomit as you spill your guts out to him. While I domt think he would be as.. profound as caine... he carries a comfort only sweet old people can possess. And it calms you down. It's not an immediate solution, but its comforting nonetheless. He let's you sleep in his arms. He goes on to stand between you and others to try to keep you from getting too irritated or overwhelmed by the others; however he will stand to the side if you ask him to
Very protective of you but even more so after this
#tadc x reader#the amazing digital circus x reader#digital circus x reader#caine x reader#kinger x reader
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𝐘𝐄𝐒... 𝐎𝐑 𝐘𝐄𝐒
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warnings: mentions of dick being a player in a way, nothing too crazy.
dick grayson x black!fem!reader
"Where the hell is my cereal?" you mumbled with a slight yawn, searching every perimeter of the pantry.
You were hoping it wasn't Dick again, because he was the main one "accidentally taking it," which never made sense to you.
"Speakin' of the devil..." you trailed off, looking at the blue-eyed male.
"Oh, you were thinking of me? I'm flattered," he chuckled, looking at you.
His hair was partially dried, a towel was wrapped around his waist. You were assuming that he'd just got out of the shower, "first off why are you in the kitchen? Shouldn't you go put clothes on first?" you raised an eyebrow at him.
"What's wrong with me walking to the kitchen with a towel on? Are you feeling hot?" he teased, giving you a slight smirk.
"Never that," you lied, looking up at the ceiling.
"Then you'd be making eye contact with me babe," he came a bit closer to you.
"Boy bye," you rolled your eyes at him, walking towards the fridge.
"One day... [your name]. One day," he playfully sighed, walking up the stairs.
It was always "one day" or "just wait" with Dick, but nothing would ever happen afterward. It would just be a saga of you two always messing around, and then him miraculously being in a relationship. He certainly lived up to his name sometimes, but who were you to judge? All you two did was tease each other with a few flirting thrown in. So you had no reason to be upset with him whenever the playboy was in a new relationship.
What amazed you was that the relationships lasted for a long period of time. And you found it pointless to even wait around for Dick anyways, what's the point if he'll be with someone soon?
Sometimes just thinking about him drove you crazy. That was a lie, he drove you crazy. Grabbing [fav fruit name], you walked back upstairs to your room. Once you were inside, you'd bury your face into the pillow. You made sure to use your powers to cancel out the noise and scream into your pillow. This wasn't fair.
For Dick, it was the opposite. He thought you were the one playing games. The way you'd push past him or brush past his small confessions towards you. He's always had feelings for you since his breakup with Zatanna, but he began noticing that you two never made progress. It was just casual flirting and that was it.
He began to start dating again, hoping that he would avoid thinking about you. Yet, he found himself in your room asking for advice. Finding it hard to try and avoid his feelings for you. There was no escaping you, that was just the hard truth.
The two of you avoid the obvious, not knowing how to make the first move. Which was funny because Dick always knew how to make the first move. He was a smooth talker and always found a way to capture someone's heart.
"Soo..." the male trailed off, crashing down on your bed.
Of course, he came in without no warning, as if it was his damn room. Always making himself comfortable on your bed without your permission.
"Who the hell said you can just come in my room without knockin' or givin' me a warnin'?"
"There's this girl that I like..." he brushed off your question while he stared at you.
There was no point in arguing with him if he continued on with his sentence. That meant he wasn't going to listen, and the last thing you needed was to argue with a brick wall.
"I really like her right? But we can't move forward romantically like we're stuck in the same stage. It's been like that for a while now actually. No matter how hard I try to ignore her, she finds her way back into my brain and I'm kind of irritated with it. Not sure if I'm irritated with her yet," he sighed while you sat next to him.
"Imma start chargin' you every time you come in here and act like I'm your therapist or somethin'. With all seriousness though, you just need to man up and tell her how you feel. I don't understand how you have this playboy persona and you're scared to talk to the girl you like?" you slightly chuckled, looking down at him.
"Do you think she'd like for me to be honest with her?" he raised an eyebrow while you nodded your head.
"Well [your name]..." he trailed off, looking up at you.
"You're the girl. You're the girl that I can't get out of my head, no matter how many times I try to act like you're not here. I feel like there's a connection between us, and we just never knew how to make it connect. Dating all these girls, hoping that the feeling of me liking you would disappear but it doesn't. If anything it grows stronger. Sometimes I do worry that you'll reject me because of my past, and all the women I've dated. I really don't know what to do, I've never had anyone drive me this crazy before," he sighed.
He said everything so casually. Like there was no nervousness, nothing. It sounded like one of your usual venting sessions. So, it took you a while for you to process everything.
"How the hell did you say all of that so casually?" you looked down at him.
He let a chuckle out, lifting himself up from your lap. You wanted to smile, but you didn't want him to use it against you. Then again, you couldn't help it.
"So you do feel the same way?" he smiled while you playfully rolled your eyes at him.
"I guess..." you trailed off, pretending to sound uninterested.
"Try all you want, I see that smile on your face," he slightly smirked, causing you to throw a pillow at him.
꒰𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐢𝐚'𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬🥲.꒱
so we’re gonna try something different with this account, we’re not sure yet.😭 gotta talk with tori tmrw because she’s sleeping and i’m watching titans rn.
#black reader#black writer#black writers#black!reader#dceu x black reader#dceu x black!reader#dceu#dc universe x black!reader#dc universe x black reader#dc universe#dc robin#nightwing x black!reader#nightwing x black reader#nightwing#dick grayson x black reader#dick grayson x black!reader#dick grayson#bat family#x!black!reader
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Okay though, Imma say this and risk having their attentions turned on us or whatever, but one of the things I see on r/fakedisordercringe and similar subreddits is the idea that actually acknowledging parts as parts and not forcibly trying to convince yourself that they are "all parts of you" is the healthy way to heal and have DID and everything else is malingering, roleplaying, or harmful at best and just like...
I know the followers on here don't need me to say this but as someone whose been in treatment for 4+ years, been diagnosed and had that diagnosis validated two other times, but.... no???
Like I get where that perspective comes from, from an outsider less experienced person it is easy to assume that people with DID are just delusional and just think they are different people to keep themselves in denial and they just need to "grow up and stop thinking that and embrace all the trauma and heal" and I know a lot of psychiatrists (derogatory, at least in America they are people who are more doctors than mental health professionals and rarely know about non-medical treatment beyond surface level afaik and ime) think that as I've had psychiatrists suggest that and I have to kindly be like "Oh don't worry we have considered that and me and my therapist find that this works better".
I GET why someone might come to that conclusion, but its just NOT how it works. A lot of healing comes from learning to understand, empathize, and communicate with the other parts - and by doing that, learning to accept them for who they are and as they are, and by doing that, being more comfortable co-existing with those parts. Whether or not that results in fusion is case by case and to the individual, but you don't break the intense discomfort, rejection, and fear that CAUSES dissociative barriers and the dissociation of identity, self, etc by just repeating "that is me I don't remember, relate, or understand anything about this but I have to accept that is me" because... no?
A lot of the time when you have DID - especially in early recovery - memory is very splotchy at best. The feeling of othering from parts stems from a discontinuity of experiences, understanding, and feelings of control over behavior, memories, thoughts, and experiences. A lot of knowledge of these differences comes often from word of mouth of those around them, and sometimes through foggy mirrors and windows of things you don't feel like you'd ever do even though you "were there for" but hardly connect or remember.
To look at that and expect someone to insist and fully internally, logically, and emotionally understand that all of that is them, does really nothing more than get them logically on board and emotionally confused as fuck. And I'm sorry to tell you this, but being logically on board does little to nothing in terms of lessening dissociative barriers.
On TOP of that, you are asking someone who had gone through chronic and complex childhood trauma to just accept and trust what other people are reporting on their behavior (their actions they might not remember) and take it on good faith, when said person probably has been abused, manipulated, lied to, and/or may still be in an abusive, manipulative and dangerous environment. Is that not both a heavy ask for someone who likely has massive trust issues as is and honestly a dangerous thing to shove as "the only healthy way"?
The best way to actually heal and make progress is to learn to deeply understand the parts and their subjective experiences and accept what those parts are saying / experiencing / reporting / feeling at a face value and with all the goods and bads that come with it, because the healthier way to heal is to foster independence, love, and strength internally rather than externally.
And how are you to understand and listen to those parts with a genuine and empathetic and understanding ear, if everytime you look at their experiences, reports, feelings, and comments and shout "YOU ARE ME. YOU ARE ME. WE ARENT SEPERATE WE ARE ONE". Yes, of course we are parts of a whole, but a lot of the time, especially in early healing, that factoid does little in actually understanding the individual parts.
Now, this is where its more opinionated, but I don't see it being particularly easy to genuinely understand those parts if you don't allow for a moderate degree of separation and freedom for said parts to express as they like as to properly understand them and what they feel and experience. By letting those parts express themselves as they naturally do and communicating with them (may that be in journal, internally, discord servers, etc) you can learn to understand "where they come from" and why they are the way they are and genuinely understand and accept that part and their existence on an emotional level.
And with that in mind I really look at that "well have you tried insisting and repeating to yourself that these are parts of you?" and go "?????????? Yes and it doesn't work?????????????"
Anyways, thats just a ramble / vent but tldr, its a stupid claim.
#alter: riku#actuallydid#dissociative identity disorder#fakedisordercringe tw#rant#vent#vent tw#rant tw#ok to reblog
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*sigh*
today has been a bit of a bumpy one. not like super bumpy, but like sorta bumpy.
i had therapy today, and i really like my therapist, she's nice and all, but i'm not the biggest fan of the way our sessions go. i'm used to coming in and just kind of talking with my last therapist, but she starts us off with this "mindfulness meditation" video (not my thing) and she has me do these little assignments and tasks? which i can see working for someone else, but it kinda feels like a chore to me. plus, i was on a spiel about some issues and concerns im having about my new job and (now i dont think she realized) but she kinda cut me off and had me write out something about gender identity. i realize that sounds unrelated but lemme kinda detail it better
i was listing some issues i was having at work (for context its a daycare and my first job at one, im not good at it yet but im trying) and i was in a bit about how all my coworkers come from very different lives than i do, and sometimes it feels like a hurdle (im 19, alt, trans, etc. and most of my coworkers are middle-aged cis women like moms and also kinda intimidating and stand-offish)
i was saying that since they all seem to come from similar backgrounds and have more in common, while my life and experiences dont quite match if that makes sense. i feel like an outsider kind of. anyways, i was talking about how im worried how they perceive me as trans-ish. i usually describe myself as trans-ish because of the fact i chose to use genderqueer to identify, but i present more-so as trans mtf, if that makes sense.
she stopped me to have me take 10 minutes to write out a thing about my identity in detail so she could kind of get a better idea i think? it also could have been for my sake, but i know whats going on already, for several years actually, so i really dont need it written down for my sake?
anyways, i did that and then she asked me to keep a journal over the next week about how i feel around others thru this kinda trans-ish lens (when i go out and about to the store, a resturant, etc.). i understand where she is coming from but i dont think i need that. its not really something im that concerned about in my day to day, its mainly just applicable to my job right now
plus after that we ended the session only a half an hour in? like we started at 2, and we ended at 2:30. i thought i was getting a full hour? huh? plus i didn't get to talk about the other stuff i wanted to cover, like my social problems im having and like 3 other things i cant remember as i type this (but i knew it then i swear)
anyways that was a whole thing. i have another session next week same time. im gonna maybe see if i cant get the sessions to run the way i want? part of me wants to just cancel and find someone else cause im afraid to say anything negative, but part of me is like "well im paying you to listen to me, so A-lets do what i want, and B-ill be taking my full hour, or at least until 50-55 minutes"
i talked to my mom a bit about it before she left (she went to hang with her friend) and she said i should bring it up to her next time. this also brings me to my next bit, which is mainly centric on my behavior in general
im generally unhappy with my personality and behavior to be honest. it would take me like 12 pages to explain in paragraphs, so imma use a bulleted list, except with dashes, cause dashes are cooler
-i wish i was more timid and introverted rather that my more boisterous and ambiverted self
-i worry im not considerate of other peoples feelings as much as i should be
-i worry i go on the defensive too much
-i worry i take/ask for more than i give/offer
-i worry im not pulling my weight enough
-i dont feel i try hard enough to succeed in almost any aspect
-i think ive become less patient and quicker to anger in recent years
-i worry im not mature/ready/in a good enough state to work in child care
-i spend way too much time pointlessly scrolling on youtube or tiktok, but its hard to stop because i get bad fomo about current meme trends (cringe)
-i dont think i really see the big picture as often as i should
-i feel i have too many negative behaviors that need correcting and i just dont realize it
thats just a start i think. lately i just feel so swamped. ive been broke for way too long, and thats causing me issues like nobodys business. i really have been craving a fresh start for so so long and it feels like everytime i think its just within my grasp it gets yanked away. some new obstacle or setback comes up and suddenly its all over.
like the other day, my brakes failed and i got into an accident (no one was hurt, virtually no damage) because there was air in the brake line. now im gonna have to pay to get the lines drained and refilled, plus get the leak fixed that caused it, plus replace a fucked up tire that i just noticed, and fix the wheel bearing thats been fucking with my ABS for like 8 months. so i either need to save up money for that or let my grandparents pay for it (and then try and pay them back if they'll even let me)
really, honestly, i want to take my truck, pack it up with some essentials, and just, start driving. pick a direction and keep going. but i cant even do that cause my truck is out of commission until god knows when, and like a million other obstacles on top of that.
it really just feels like, once everything starts looking up, i get kicked in the balls
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was about to regret leaving my shop, just because i was feeling uncomfortable and unsecure a lot lately, less than four hours of sleep on work days due to stress, lots of stress related memory loss, loss of weight etc )
ex coworker texting me rn with how much of an hell this place has become... i’m not sure how well i’d have faired mentally if i had stayed longer ( given i STILL consider checking in with a therapist, given some cues, i think i should )
Anyway imma ignore me who regrets leaving bc unemployment insecurity and be glad i probably saved myself a straight up depressed episode
So in the span of a week :
- one of our partner claimed trying to call us on monday ( he was lying ). In the order, my boss gave me an earful for missing the call, then checked on the phone’s diary, only to not find the partner’s number anywhere in the past few days. instead of appologying my boss blamed me for deleting the notification and went to check blocked numbers, yet again our partner’s number was nowhere to be seen. then he just goes ‘ok’ , that’s all, no appologie for yelling at me for over half an hour because of our lying partner, not even giving a warning to said partner for bullsh*tting ?
- blames me for destroying plants ( 2 leaves and one slightly folded petal one one flower in a pot of over 12 flowers head ) “ you have to be more careful when putting the flag back in, what are you 4 ? why did i hire such an idiot like you ?! “ and so on he ranted again for a while. But like i’m always careful when i put the flag back in, i know it will destroy something if i’m not careful, and i know my a** is clumsy as hell, i always make sure to put the flag back in by literally having it brush the floor all time long, at worst i might scrap lightly the tiles ? he never thought it could be a customer that drops her bag carelessly on the counter and hit the pot since it’s on the counter on the customer’s side?
- gives me an incomplete list of flower for a bouquet, no hour, no budget. I have like 5 customers coming in right after he finished his incomplete order. by the time i finish them ( roughly 5 to 12 mins by customers ) he arrives, see the bouquet wasn’t done, i STILL was with a particularily slow customer and he proceeds to go on about not needing to have any qualification to do the job as he makes his bouquet. Implies i’m uneeded and an idiot in front of the customer and so on. ( customers who clearly noticed something was going on even if i was trying my best to act normal. He didn’t even asked for explaination, accused me to have lazed around on my phone for the hour, didn’t even listen to me when i said i had customers, i was pointing at the 7 or so tickets i had yet to enter.
- Called me an idiot to my face for forgetting which switch activated which light, because it’s winter it gets dark earlier. He had switched on a light without me noticing but i forgot which switch it was with and he mocked me, called me names , implying i’m a moron. for a switch i hardly ever used more than 5 times on winters every years. Because i have one photosensitive eye making me capable to see better in the dark overall, and having no problems seing in that part of the shop overall bc of the street light reaching that part ?
- calling me on my day off to tell me off for being incompetent for not doing something? but it was something i did, or let the apprentice do but SHE lazed , and i’m the one getting the brunt of the hit again.
So yeah there’s a part of me regretting to leave , but there’s now a part of me convinced i did a good thing because he got even worse than that now that i’m gone.
Everytime i struggle to go to sleep, wake up in panic at ungodly hour, i see a notification of the app i used to talk when i worked there and panic. My family, friends, everyone i know use that app but i just see a notification and instinctively think i’m gonna get screwed over again.
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Fezco - Empathy
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I looked over at Fez his head resting on his fist, his eyes closed, like he was praying but trying to hide it. Rue had just come to the house banging on the door screaming at him for ruining her life and how he should sell to her since he caused this.
"You...okay?" I asked I didn't wanna bother him if he was praying, he didn't do it much but he did.
"Hmm? Ya." He looked over at me before his head fell back onto the couch back and he looked at the ceiling.
"Is it rue?" I asked, he didn't answer, didn't even move,”"you know it's not your fault, she's an addict, she's manipulating you, that's what she does."
"I know." He answered plainly.
"You're an addict too Fez." He looked over at me,"you're addicted to youre own empathy, you always feel bad for people who you shouldn't, you're killing yourself listening to every addicts goddamn problems fez."
"If people needa talk I'm here to listen." He says up shrugging his shoulders.
"Do they listen to you? About what you've gone through? The abuse your dad put you through? How youve been slinging drugs since you were 8? How youre basically a single dad? How you take care of the lady who was supposed to be taking care of you and how you dropped out to take of her and ash?" I asked and leaned towards him,"have you even told anyone about any of that."
"I've told you." He said.
"Other people fez, does Ash even have a clue of the shit you when through before Marie came and got you from your dad? Or how you were the only one who could get him to stop crying for his mom? What about when you had memory loss and all you could do was worry your ass off about Ash, does he know that?"
"I barely even remember that myself so no." He shook his head,"but you know so no one else really gotta."
"Fezco that's not Healthy, you're 19 and you've been an adult since you were 8."
"Okay and?" His tone was sort of annoyed.
"I think you need a therapist."
"I'd be sent to jail and ash would be sent into the system or even juvie, im not doing that." I looked at him and he looked at me, I saw pain in his eyes, pure as day.
"You're hurting Fez." He stood up.
"I gotta go get ash from school and open the shop for the next few hours." He grabbed his blunt from the ashtray and his lighter. He lit is as he walked away, I got off of the couch and followed.
"Why do you put up with her shit fez?" He did acknowledge it,"why do you deal with Rue so much when she's just gonna hurt you fez?"
He didn't respond, as he walked in front of me k was left in the cloud of smoke following him,"everything she says means nothing!"
"Exactly (y/n)!" He turned around quickly and I almost ran into him,"everythin' she says. Means. Nothing. She's an addict, and she family (y/n) she's like my lil' sis. So yes imma fuckin worry about her!"
"Would she did the same for you Fez!?" He bit the inside of his cheek giving me that serious look he gave me when he took of his sweater on New Years before he attacked Nate.
"Get the Fuck outta my house (y/n)." He grabbed his keys from the table by the door,"I'll see you later."
"Ya at the shop in like half an hour." I scoffed.
"No, don' come to work tonight, don' come here again tonight, I'll see you later." I shook my head and opened the door walking out.
He gives me lectures likes tjis yet when I try to help him the way he tries to help me I'm thrown out. I've spent hours listening to him lecture me on taking care of myself and worrying about me first but the moment he needs the reality he's crossed on the idea.
I opened the metal gate and it closed behind make making that harsh clank sound which made me flinch slightly.
"Yo (y/n)." Fez called out, I looked over at him as he locked the gate.
"You gonna tell me to leave California too while I'm at it?" I asked as he walked over to my car.
"I'm sorry." He said as I opened the door,"you right, aight? You fuckin right."
"About what?"
"Me caring too much and shit." He admitted,"but that don't mean I'm not gonna stop carin."
"I want you to still care fez you're a sweet person but you need to also focus on what that is doing to you. I haven't seen that cheeky ass grin you get when you're happy in months, ash has noticed too, that's saying something Fez." I felt like his mom right now.
"Really?" His brows furrowed and his tilted to the left a bit.
"Ya Fez, he's constantly asking me if you're okay and if I know what's going on with you." I crossed my arms,"you need to take care of yourself, I'm being serious, meditate or some shit."
"I meditate daily."
"Zoning out in the couch or in your bed while smoking a blunt because your super high doesn't count." I shook my head,"Join me for yoga one day."
"I don't bend that way, I bend people that way." He winked and I tried to stop myself from smoking and laughing at the remark.
"Look, what if I picked up Ash and ran the shop for today, you stay home and rest, take a nap, a fuckin bath, I don't know. But you turn around and get your ass back in that house or Fezco O'Neil I pray tht god saves your ass." He turned around with my words, walking right back to the gate.
"See you around 9." He waved as the gate closed behind him.
"Yup!"
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Asalaam alaikum.. can you advise on how to deal with anxiety?
و عليكم السلام و رحمة الله و بركاته 🤍
أعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرجيم
بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم،
ٱذۡهَبۡ إِلَىٰ فِرۡعَوۡنَ إِنَّهُۥ طَغَىٰ (24) قَالَ رَبِّ ٱشۡرَحۡ لِي صَدۡرِي (25) وَيَسِّرۡ لِيٓ أَمۡرِي (26) وَٱحۡلُلۡ عُقۡدَةٗ مِّن لِّسَانِي (27) يَفۡقَهُواْ قَوۡلِي (28) وَٱجۡعَل لِّي وَزِيرٗا مِّنۡ أَهۡلِي (29) هَٰرُونَ أَخِي (30) ٱشۡدُدۡ بِهِۦٓ أَزۡرِي (31) وَأَشۡرِكۡهُ فِيٓ أَمۡرِي (32) كَيۡ نُسَبِّحَكَ كَثِيرٗا (33) وَنَذۡكُرَكَ كَثِيرًا (34) إِنَّكَ كُنتَ بِنَا بَصِيرٗا (35) قَالَ قَدْ أُوتِيتَ سُؤْلَكَ يَا مُوسَى (36)
24. Go to Pharaoh; He has transgressed.” 25. He said, “My Lord, put my heart at peace for me. 26. And ease my task for me. 27. And untie the knot from my tongue. 28. So they can understand my speech. 29. And appoint an assistant for me, from my family. 30. Aaron, my brother. 31. Strengthen me with him. 32. And have him share in my mission. 33. That we may glorify You much. 34. And remember You much. 35. You are always watching over us.” 36. [Allāh] said, "You have been granted your request, O Moses
ٱذۡهَبَآ إِلَىٰ فِرۡعَوۡنَ إِنَّهُۥ طَغَىٰ (43) فَقُولَا لَهُۥ قَوۡلٗا لَّيِّنٗا لَّعَلَّهُۥ يَتَذَكَّرُ أَوۡ يَخۡشَىٰ (44) قَالَا رَبَّنَآ إِنَّنَا نَخَافُ أَن يَفۡرُطَ عَلَيۡنَآ أَوۡ أَن يَطۡغَىٰ (45) قَالَ لَا تَخَافَآۖ إِنَّنِي مَعَكُمَآ أَسۡمَعُ وَأَرَىٰ (46)
43. Go to Pharaoh. He has tyrannized. 44. But speak to him nicely. Perhaps he will remember, or have some fear.” 45. They said, “Lord, we fear he may persecute us, or become violent.” 46. He said, “Do not fear, I am with you, I hear and I see.
Surat Ta Ha (20) - طه 🤍
Dear sister, I found myself starting with these two passages that are of my absolute favorite passages in the holy Quran in general and in Surat Ta Ha in particular because in my mind when I hear the word anxiety it always connects to surat Ta Ha or what I love to call my anti-anxiety pill. Alhamdulillah.
Now why these passages? It might not be known or talked about a lot, but these verses are a proof that prophet Musa (as) had anxiety. In these verses, Allah swt orders him to go speak to the pharaoh, arguably the most tyrannizing criminal that this earth has seen. This task spikes prophet Musa's anxiety and in the first passage he asks Allah swt to (relax his chest) put his heart at peace and ease his affairs, then he requests support from a family member, his brother Harun (as) - and it is also interpreted that prophet Musa (as) had speech impairment, he has problems in his speech? Thus the " untie the knot from my tongue " duaa he made for Allah swt, so he needed to be also backed up by his brother. Can you imagine the amount of anxiety he must have been feeling and going through? Not only the Lord of the Worlds was directly speaking to him ( a surreal supernatural experience ) but also He swt was giving him such a BIG task! I mean sis! I have a thesis I need to finish and it feels like there is a mountain sitting on my chest 24/7, even when I sleep at night I have nightmares about it. And whenever I have to make an important phone call or go into the principal's office at work, I get the whole rapid heartbeats, stomachache, joint pain, shaky voice and whatnot. You know the drill.. Anyways, back to Musa (as), so what does Allah swt say? He swt doesn't tell him that he (Musa) is crazy or delusional, He swt doesn't accuse him of lack of faith, or of being dominated by the Shaytan's waswasah (whispers) like these now Shaykhs throw at us. He swt is the all-knowing, the most just, the most fair, the most merciful and the most gracious. He swt not only acknowledges prophet Musa (as)'s fear and immediately reassures him and calms his heart : you have been granted your request! " Ya Allah.. this gets me every time wallahi.
You know what's the thing we need the most when our anxiety hits? Reassurance. Full stop. Reassurance silences all the voices inside our heads, calms us down, puts our hearts to ease. And what a better place to get reassurance from other than Allah swt?
And Allah swt does it again, further down in the Surah, when faces with the task again prophet Musa (as) voices his worries again, and Allah swt doesn't get fed up with him, doesn't accuse him of being a coward or annoying.. He swt patiently assures him that He swt is with him and with his brother, He swts hears and listens. I once heard a tafseer for this verse that compares it to a mother's love, when her child goes out to play and she will reassure them by saying she is around not far away she could see them from the window and hear them if they need anything. How comforting, sübhanallah.
With that being said and clarified, let me cut to the chase before the post gets too long.
The first step to dealing with your anxiety is to actually accept it. Never be ashamed of it. It is something that even a high-ranking prophet experienced. It is not a sin, it is not your fault, it is just the way your brain is wired. And it is something that Allah swt is testing you with. And the first step to pass your test is to actually acknowledge and accept it. For me, it felt like my whole life made sense the moment I was diagnosed with anxiety. When my therapist actually uttered the words, which wasn't a long time ago, I felt so sorry for all the girls that I have been, throughout the different stages of my life whom had to struggle and push through the pain, the dilemma, the countless anxiety attacks and made it through without actually knowing what they had, while being called crazy, gaslit, disregard, attacked, humiliated, mocked, bullied, etc.. for something that they didn't do nor did they understand. So my first advice to you is to befriend your anxiety, you win nothing by fighting it and making it your enemy. On the contrary, she (oh trust me it's a she, lmao) is a part of who you are, to the point that it could define some of your personality traits, she lives in your head rent free, she is not going anywhere anytime soon, so you better make peace with her. Rejecting, hating, attacking, blaming your anxiety will only make it worse.
Another basic advice is to actually study it, learn it, identify your triggers, be in tone with your body, pay attention to your mood changes, your heart rate, the stomach pain, or whatever symptoms you experience, and identify the act or event or task that generated and triggered those symptoms. That's how you find your triggers, and then next time when you anticipate that thing, you could go through it in your head, you could rehearse or make plans, you could take all your precautions and whatnot.
As for remedies, I am no therapist, so I am not allowed to prescribe anything, but I do take pills myself when necessary. God knows sometimes it gets too much. Breathing helps. Deep thorough breaths from the tummy, they can help calm your heartbeats.. if when you feel anxious about something you would have the time to read some Quran then please do it, it really calms you down and distracts you from the problem even momentarily. Umm, you can listen to your comfort audio (be it a quran recitation or something like I have already mentioned in the post earlier today), talk to someone who makes you comfortable, whether a parent, a partner, a sibling, a best friend... and finally, I will give you my therapist's golden tip: if it doesn't work, ASK FOR HELP.
And eventually, always go back to Allah swt, the source of all comfort, the source of all reassurance and the source of all good. Allah's Messenger (ﷺ) said, "Allah said, 'I am to my slave as he thinks of Me, (i.e. I am able to do for him what he thinks I can do for him). So always try to think (after you are done freaking out 😅) that Allah swt has got you, and that probably all the bad things that you are scared of won't even come true. Allah swt is the most merciful and the most gracious, He swt is the best of planners and no one has out best interest more than the Pne who created us. Alhamdulillah.
Tbh, I could go on about this for days, but I think I have written the longest answer for an ask in the history of Tumblr. So imma stop here.
I will leave you with 3 very meaningful duaas that are supposed to be recited in the morning and evening adhkar, try to incorporate them in your daily routine, and you will soon notice the difference, bi idhn Allah :)
- بسم الله الذي لا يضر مع اسمه شيء في الأرض و لا في السماء و هو السميع العليم ×3
In the name of Allah with whose name nothing is harmed on earth nor in the heavens and He is The All-Seeing, The All-Knowing. x3
حسبي الله لا إله إلا هو عليه توكلت وهو رب العرش العظيم ×7
Allah is sufficient for me, none has the right to be worshipped except Him, upon Him I rely and He is Lord of the exalted throne. x7
اللَّهُمَّ إِنِّي أَسْأَلُكَ الْعَافِيَةَ فِي الدُّنْيَا وَالآخِرَةِ، اللَّهُمَّ إِنِّي أَسْأَلُكَ الْعَفْوَ وَالْعَافِيَةَ فِي دِينِي وَدُنْيَايَ وَأَهْلِي وَمَالِي، اللَّهُمَّ استُرْ عَوْرَاتي، وآمِنْ رَوْعَاتي، اللَّهمَّ احْفَظْنِي مِنْ بَينِ يَدَيَّ، ومِنْ خَلْفي، وَعن يَميني، وعن شِمالي، ومِن فَوْقِي، وأعُوذُ بِعَظَمَتِكَ أنْ أُغْتَالَ مِنْ تَحتي ×1
O Allah, I ask You for pardon and well-being in this life and the next. O Allah, I ask You for pardon and well-being in my religious and worldly affairs, and my family and my wealth. O Allah, veil my weaknesses and set at ease my dismay, and preserve me from the front and from behind and on my right and on my left and from above, and I take refuge with You lest I be swallowed up by the earth
P.s. you should know that I have written this answer for hours, taking as many breaks as my heart and my mind needed. I hope I managed to make a good enough answer for you 🤍.
May Allah swt calm your worries, and grant your heart sakinah and reassurance. Ameen.
Stay safe my dear, and don't hesitate to talk to me whenever it gets too much.
- A. Z. 🍃
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I’m reading chapter five of LBAF
Rafe with a motorcycle is wonderful. Should be cannon
Mark with a glitter card is unfortunately cannon. But he’s a broke bitch so we love him anyway.
Alec having a Consul voice that doubles as a sad voice is peek parenting
“Too bad we’re in exile” love that
“He wouldn’t be caught dead in one of those sweaters” HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA
Awwww. Tavvy!!
HES A COLLEGE BOY?!!!
They don’t care. Mostly because they’re dead inside.” Lol mood.
Also all the college classes are AP, why is Tavvy mentioning them?
Ldjfifydidhfufirurhdudhrh LILY LEAVE HIM ALONE!
Does someone have a crush~
Eekkk. Nevermind she’s terrible.
I just realized that they’re inside and I got so confused when they mentioned the tortillas. But like it’s day time. Why did I think Lily would be outside?
“Spicy”
“White”
Lamo.
No Rafe, get away from the grammar freak
What’s Anjail playing at???
Protective Rafeal!!!
Oh gosh!!! Please no love squares my heart can’t take it!!
Let short people wear boots. Just because you’re some freaky giant does it mean I have to suffer, let us be tall too. 
Also can I get some of those boots???
BAD RAFE!!
Jace has adhd and I love him.
Why do I feel like you mentioned Rosemary just to hurt us??
So where is Max” *wiggles eyebrows suggestively*
I did not expect a G-Force reference in this fic but good for Dani!
THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!! Why are the Cartwrights here?? Can y’all stop playing the pronoun game and get on with it?!
FUCK NEVER MIND NERV MIND NEVER MIND NEVER MIND GO BAKC GO BACK GO BACK GO BACK GO BACK GO BACK RIGHT NOW IMMA GONNA SCREAM THIS IS SO TERRIBLE
CAN I SLAP THIS WOMEN PLEASE I WANNA CRY!!
YESSS 👏 CAL👏THIS 👏BÏTCH 👏OUT👏
Why are we mentioning illness in this fic? Get that shit away from me! I don’t need another plague.
“You can’t just give a shit about children when it’s convenient for you,” Uncle Jace said. “Now leave my institute or I will have to report you to the Council.”
YESSS
Poor Rafe though, people talking about him like this!!! It’s not right! Also does this boy even want to be council??? Max doesn’t want to be a Shadowhunter but does Rafe??
“We will not let this go,” Irene Cartwright said. “The law does not allow downworlders to adopt nephilim children. A warlock cannot raise a shadowhunter. It cannot be allowed.”
Fuck off bitch!!!
HOW DID YOU MAKE BEING TALL AGNSTY???
Aawwwwww. Max being a good brother.
They simply say something and leave. They probably don’t even mean the things they say or lose sleep over it. But it wasn’t the same for you. You obsess over it. You stay awake at night and let it consume your dreams
-okay but this is all too real. My therapist always asked me why I listened to other people, people who didn’t like me and it’s because they’re voice don’t go away. Negative attention sticks with us so much more than approve attention. The thing people say to us, they hurt and we try to adapt so that we don’t hurt anymore. But it doesn’t always work. Sometimes we hurt more.
😢😢😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Oh gosh!! Magnus talking behind the door hurts so much!! I can see him and Alec through the door. Hunched over with tear stains on their faces trying to figure out what to do. We can’t see them but we know they’re upset. The chapter started with Rafe trying to listen through a door and now he wishes he never heard a thing.
NOOOO!! DONT LEAVE!!!!
OH SHIT MAX IS GONNA BE DEVASTATED!! He legit might not dare David because of this shit. Because this is what his brain might associate with dating a Shadowhunters now and because of scandal and everything that’s going on it might make him close in on himself. Rafe’s definitely not trusting people after this. His walls are getting even higher than before.
MAX, YOU GREMLIN I DONT KNOW IF I WANT TO HUG YOU OR STRANGLE YOU
*sad dog noises*
Aww Juan and Juliette and their little werewolf Shadowhunter babies and downwarlder kids. I always liked their family.
Or Rafe will fall in love immediately afterwards and I was wrong. Also Milia is super cute and I love her and I feel like I’m gonna get hurt.
“You look taller,” Rafael told his brother who hadn’t grown an inch.
Rafe you shït
Aaawwwwwwww. Them reuniting is so cute!! Magnus bane is officially one persons bïtch. The rest of you have to figure out your own shit from now on.
Lol Tavvy
Also hopefully Max is a better driver than Alec
YESSSSSSSSSS. FINALLY SOME GOOD FUCKING LAWS!!
YALL DO THIS AGAIN IMMA BEAT YOUR ASS
“Do not compare us to Valentine,” Irene Cartwright sounded offended. STOP ACTING LIKE HIM
Lol Kit
Awwwww. Why must this family be so cute together!!
Imma fight this person!! Who’s calling my girl a bitch???
And so it begins. I don’t usually care about Romance but you’ve got my attention forever.
I love how you went from calling Anjali "terrible" to calling her "my girl."
Only character development I care about :)
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Boku No Hero Academia Chapter 281 SPOILERS
(I don't think my heart is built to be thrown around like this)
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Wait does that mean Aizawa can't see him? ARE THEY SEPERATED FROM GRAN TORINO?!?!?! Shigaraki's body looks like it's breaking apart and, again, I don't know how to feel about that.
I'd be more at ease if I knew who was going Plus Ultra. I've decided how to feel about Shigaraki's state and it's concern for his and everyone else's well being. But right now it's mostly his.
Shiggy flashes back to that bitch that left him on the street and it still pisses me off that not a single soul stopped to help him.
Shiggy says that the filth turns into rot, which turns into decay.
So he's basically blaming the heroes for coddling society into a false sense of safety and an over dependents on heroes. As a result, the people who are left behind, the ones who really needs saving like he did, are ignored and cast out. Those people are left with no other choice but to retaliate and cause destruction.
As deranged and insane his rantingbmust sound, he's not entirely wrong. His whole situation could have been avoided had the people around him not been so over dependent on heroes and had actually reached out to help him. I mean, none of them even bothered to call the police. HOW ARE THEY SUPPOSED TO KNOW SOMEONE NEEDS HELP IF YOU DON'T FUCKING CALL- no. I'm not gonna rant about this. Aw man the anger is coming back.
Am I an idiot or was his arm always attached to his body? Whatever, not important right now. What is important is how fucking scary Shigaraki looks here. I am very concerned for his well being. I want the heroes to win but not if that means Shiggy dies.
Endeavour launches a butt tonne of fire at him saying he's already dead but Shiggy manages to dodge.
Endeavour is wondering how the he'll Shiggy is even moving rn while Gran Torino pins Shiggy to the ground. GT is thinking about how Endeavour's fire power has dropped tremendously, which obviously means he's overheating and should very much not be fighting right now.
GT is thinking about how Shigaraki should also not be able to move when said person spins around and crushes his leg.
OH SHIT HE'S GONNA KILL HIM ISN'T HE??? In front of everyone. Oh no. That face looks alot like the one he made when he killed his dad.
Oh fuck he's having a flashback. He really is gonna die. It's Nana giving Kotoro away with GT lurking on a nearby rooftop.
Nana explains that she basically removed any evidence of him being her son and her speech bubbles go from straight to incredibly wobbly the more she talks about him all while Kotoro's words echo in the background.
Present day GT is on the ground in obvious pain and he thinks "Shimura, our decision--". Does that mean he had a say in what happened to Kotoro? Or does he mean her decision to give him away and his decision to stay away?
He is beyond dead. Huh. I thought I'd be more emotional about it. Oh well.
(Edit: I just realised All Might probably saw his old sensei get crushed.)
Giving Kotoro away really tore Nana apart. All that heartache and AFO still managed to fuck with her family.
OK NOW I'M FEELING EMOTIONAL. OH MY GOD I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT MIDORIYA. Don't waste your time Endeavour, he's not listening to anyone anymore. Here comes the tears. Fuck that was a really delayed reaction.
HORIKOSHI WE FUCKING TALKED ABOUT THIS I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD DONOTFUCKINGTOUCHHIM
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSHJDIDJWODJSOENDOWNODDNWODNDONWDONEODNEJWNDIWNDODN
Oh my heart. Fucking fuck. I swear this manga is gonna kill me. I completely forgot about her too. My respect for her just rose exponentially. Shit. He just stabbed her with something. OH NO. Please don't tell me.
Midoriya tackles Shigaraki and yells that he will never forgive him and Shigaraki responds with he can't forgive any of them.
Izuku just took an elbow to the stomach and spit out way too much blood for my liking. Izuku turns all his rage into power and really lets Black Whip loose. Endeavour gears up for another attack. Something's wrong I can feel it.
Is that a knife or the bullets? He's reaching into his pockets rn so is he only just now taking them out? Endeavour is gonna give himself heatstroke.
Fuck.
WHO THE FUCK IS THAT SPYING ON AIZAWA?!?! AND WHY IS THERE A FLASHBACK TO ERI CLAUSE?!?!?
This manga is not good for my heart. Izuku just saw his previous mentor get squished. That can't be good for his mental health. And yeah Katsuki barely knew him but he still just saw someone die. Everyone is going to need a therapist after this.
I don't know why it took me so long to react to GT's death. I was ready to freak out about and then it was like all the emotion left me. Am I becoming desensitized to all this violence and death? That can't be right, only two people are confirmed dead. Maybe Twice just took everything out of me.
I feel bad for Nana. She tried her best but in the end it was all for nothing.
Aight, imma head out and try to come down from my current adrenalin high.
Until next time.
#boku no hero academia#boku no hero academia spoilers#bnha#bnha spoilers#bnha manga#bnha manga spoilers#bnha 281#rip gran torino
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So like I know this has been a upcoming thing but I wondered if anyone else considered or coined this before.
Recently AJR came out with their new album "Ok Orchestra" and let me tell you it is a-mazing. But I had a thought, there has been a surge of things I like to call "existential pop" this included artists like AJR, Melanie Martinez, Jon Bellion just to name a few. (I could be totally wrong but) The reason I started noticing this is because these artists tackle topics that aren't just oh yah know "relationships, sex, drugs, and being rich" and a lot of the common tropes of a lot of pop songs. Now don't get me wrong, they are definitely mentioned but its done in a way that flips the script. For example Melainie Matienez covers relationships in her song "Highschool Sweetheart" but it isn't about "oh yes I have to follow all these gender defined roles in a relationship" its a song about her having standards for what she wants from a relationship and how she wants certain things ou t of that relationship and she's not going to just settle (which is what, honestly, a lot off people all over the gender spectrum are forced to do because they don't think they have a choice to do anything else.) Now a lot of people thought she was being demanding and unfair, but when you think of it all people are entitled to want specific things out of a relationship and to have their needs met while also being equals. Now Melanie Martinez since she started making content has broken a lot of preconceived song rules, from talking about tough topics of life in school in k-12 to talking about dysfunction in families and relationship in Crybaby. But thats a tangent. What i wanted to talk about was AJR because I can't help but think that this trend of basically having an existential crisis in song form is what AJR is now being immortalized as. In my opinion.
First off, the entire album is a massive hit and people can fight me on that (though I don't see anyone fighting) Second I wanted to mention a a handful of songs that just stand out and those songs are (but who am I kidding the whole album is fanstatic). I'll go in order of the album
"3 o'clock Things" by AJR is a this sort of collage of thoughts and questions that people realize that they have to keep hidden to stay in favor with the people around them from the bullshit of capitalism, to the truth that not everyone is great at sex and how thats a standard people are judged on so people fabricate or omit things to stay "positively veiwed" to the hot button idea that the American government is rigged and how people and artists are forced to keep quiet about their beliefs because of their ratings whether it be about race, religion, sexuality etc. (Those last two are not mentioned but implied as they are factors that can change someone's idea of you). The chorus "would you go running if you saw the real me. Maybe you'd love him , yeah, maybe you'd feel me. But I'll never ask you cause that super scary. Sorry to bail its already 3 o'clock, its too hard to tell if anything real or not" Sums up the gist of the feelings behind the song
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"The Trick" by AJR, this song i relate to so much, the idea of lying to make yourself something you aren't ashamed of and to maybe start knew or just impress or relate to others. The idea that as the song states that one can't have full access to the life or emotional well being of the other because someone has set up their own pitfalls by trying to be authentic and how "oh my god [we're] screwed". I love how its realistic and understandable make song about the fact that you can lie about your life to find relationships but the truth is its not going to come without traps.
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"Humpty Dumpty" by AJR, and entire song about repressing emotions and hiding true feelings because we want to give people "the best me" and how that only makes things more fragile and broken. Depression and numbness only be BROKEN up by panic attacks and anger or at least intense emotions. as any therapist will tell you repressing emotions just makes it so much worse in the long run. There isn't a full resolution at the end. I mean part the chorus is literally "humpty dumpy went downn He said screw it imma smile right through it and scream when no ones around" if that tells you anything.
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"World's Smallest Violin" by AJR. (Not gonna lie this song is the whole reason I wanted to make this post.) I mean a song about comparing the past struggles of people in your life to yourself and how you as a person feel like utter shit that other people have "worse problems" and that we as people just want to feel validated and are looking for people to make us feel normal. Also its catchy as fuck so yeah!
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And of course,
"Way Less Sad" by AJR which came out a little before the album came out but became a huge favorite, its kinda really similar and almost a follow up to "World's Smallest Violin " and happens to be right after, but the whole idea of settling for way less sad because your sadness isn't as bad as what it used to be and setting your bar lower and lower is....a big fucking mood but honestly if you relate to the line "but I'm not dead yet so I guess I'll be alright" then definitely check it out
To be honest I side tracked from what I originally made this post about essentially I think artists should be bold and break the mold of music and if like...."existential pop" is a fair name to call these artist or if you think it should be called something else then let me know because I'd love to know what to fucking call it.
Was a this a shameless attempt to get people to listen to AJR? Yes. Do I want people to listen to AJR? Yes. Am I looking for more existential pop artist? Yes.
So uh......yeah
#long post#ajr#melanie martienez#existential pop#i really just want people to check them out#and to ask if the phase im using makes sense#music#shamless support#music artist#if anyone has another opinion please let me know
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Ya girl is watching the latest HSM series ep and Imma live blog it hshshs and will add my reactions under the cut so it doesn't end up a long post. Anyways, let's goo:
AHHHH THE MORNING SHOW WITH GINA AND EJ WE LOVE TO SEE IT
They really said we're gonna let life imitate art with Nini and Olivia huh
Ricky was SUPPORTIVE??? Damnn I really thought we gonna get a classic Ricky tantrum....
But also wow sir that sounds salty and should definitely talk to someone abt how you're feeling...A therapist maybe 👀
I know we needed to contextualise how Ricky felt abt the song but I really wanted to see Nini's interview in full!!
Sebby you're so cute I do wanna see yall do DEH
Shjshshs not the rights not being available for another 5 years 😭😭
I dunno how they're in great shape and closer to the Menkies Gold after not having a single proper rehearsal, but go off Miss Jenn
Omg honestly Kourt's costumes are always amazing and on point Imma excited to see it
Kourt is such a simp we love to see it
Carlos is so pissy this episode we love to see it shshhs
Also love the way Seb calms him down and keeps him nice it's such a funny dynamic
"We had 20 people make our Belle dress over 50 hours" Okay North High shut the fuck up
I'm calling it now the reason North High knows so much is cos Howie is the leak and Kourt has been unwittingly telling him. The way her phone keeps going off as they discuss how North High knows everything is really good foreshadowing if my prediction is right
Also like her phone went off just as Carlos said "How did they know that?" THAT'S PEAK FORESHADOWING
If Howie ain't in North High, I dunno what Tim is doing
GSJAGSHAH KOURTNEY MAKING ABS FOR EJ I CANNOT
"I have abs" We know sweetie
"I PADDED THE THUSH FOR YOU"
"AWW THANKS KOURT I NEEDED THAT" THIS INTERACTION IS EVERYTHING THAT WAS SO FUNNY!! I love that it is now canon that EJ has abs but no butt love that for him
Okay but like damn these costumes are great!! North High can fuck right off with its high end ones I just wanna see lowkey homemade costumes by students; I'd watch a Broadway show if I wanted to see professional costumes okay
Damn Carlos has killer eyesight clocking in that mask in the trunk
GINA BBY DON'T SAY THAT AND HAHSGSH NINI NUDGING HER WAS SO FUNNY
Nini's little look over at Gina was like "Omg you guys my girlfriend is so cute and dumb" GINI STANS HOW WE FEELING?
Miss Jenn don't be that naive, your boyfriend probably put them up to it
That Insta page is prophetic with their timing tbh; all the info is a leak obviously looking at your Howie but like the timing of it all. Those kiddos don't know that they are discussing the stolen mask at this exact moment (Kourt has put down her phone after Carlos snapped at her so Howie doesn't know they are talking abt it rn)
"We don't dance with the enemy" *cuts to her dancing with Zackey later*
SEBBY WEARING THE TEACUP COSTUME OMG HE'S GOING MAKE SUCH A CUTE CHIP (yes I am still mad Seb/Joe was robbed but Imma fangirl over the costume anyway)
Wtf why does North High look so expensive - they are literally in the same district as East High right??? How did they get this much funding
North High is a very artsy and rich for a public school; they should have had Nini go here instead of YAC tbh (like this campus feels like what YAC should have been) NOW THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN AN INTERESTING STORYLINE
Seblos' dynamic IS ON POINT THIS EP I really love my bois so much and their back and forth is hilarious
Shhshs DIANE who loves volleyball and North High okay I totally believe it
WHY ARE RED AND ASHLYN SO KINKY EVERY DAMN EPISODE TIM THESE ARE UNDERAGED CHARACTERS STOP IT
Shshsh we love Gina knowing herself and practicing self control by volunteering to be the lookout
Omg yall listen to Carlos and stfu they are so lucky no one saw or heard them yelling Wildcats
Oh no no no no no Miss Jenn you gonna get sucked in; this is gonna be so messy
Omg I saw someone post about this scene before I watched the ep YALL ARE RIGHT THAT BOI HITTING ON GINA IS SO FINE
Babes go for that one, not EJ
NOT THEM FAKE DATING UGH
E W TIM STOP MAKING ROMANTIC PORTWELL A T H I N G
I honestly do not understand how some of yall can ship it romantically knowing Sofia is a whole underaged babey and Matty is a whole ass grown man - like I get the appeal of the Wonderstudies getting together and they do have chemistry but the irl age gap is creepy and outweighs the appeal of shipping them romantically
As I always say; Portwell/Wonderstudies should be a BROTP not an OTP
Ugh Brotp Portwell would have clocked Lily right away; romantic Portwell making googly eyes at each other isn't helping anyone
Living for Nini getting the recognition she deserves - I really like her solo arc this season she's so much more interesting without Ricky tbh
Aww Kourt you simp I love her and I'm so happy she's happy I wanna be wrong about Howie being a North High kid
Where is the mask??
OHMYGOD THESE KIDS COMING IN LIKE A HORROR MOVIE
Lily really wishes she was Jesse St. James huh; you could never Lily so stop
Andrew Barth Feldman and his cute little French accent I love him so much
Hnng Miss Jenn gonna get manipulated by this hoe. Omg wowow Zackey really is a hoe, making out with another girl before the show THE AUDACITY OF HIM SAYING MISS JENN WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH I WILL THROW HANDS WITH THIS MOFO
Wait the kids didn't steal it BUT WHAT IF ZACKEY DID
Ssjsgfajhdfg I CANNOT WITH ANDREW'S ACCENT but I can't tell if its really bad or really good but I'm also confused why didn't they just cast a French person as Antonie shshhs
Antoine is adorableee and a little shit the best type of character
Lily is so annoying b y e sis bye and Olivia Keegan is talented I just wish they didn't make her character such a cartoony villain type
"How about if we bop to the top" SEBBY I LOVE YOU AND NEVER STOP BEING SO CUTE I SWEAR and Awww Carlos called him Honey I am s o f t
Hnng why do these fools are really gonna give into North High calling them chickens
OHHH NO SHE DIDN'T JUST SAY THAT ABOUT ASHLYN FUCK A DANCE OFF I AM ABOUT TO THROW HANDS WITH A 16 YEAR OLD
"She told us not to dance with the enemy. She's better than this" No Sebby, she's not *cuts to her dancing with Zackey* AND OMG THE WAY I SAW THIS EDIT COMING BEFORE IT CAME
Ooooh I like this song wayyy more whatever the mess The Mob Song became (when I first heard it drop on Spotify yesterday)
Around You is such a great song musically and lyrically very relevant to these two and gosh I love their voices together
They have so much chemistry damn, go home Mike (well he technically has oop) and Mr. Mazzara
YES YOU DO MISS JENN YOU ALWAYS HAD IT
Oh god this is the scene from the trailer; she's gonna make a move on Ricky isn't she?? Leave him alone Lily he doesn't need a 3rd girl to be confused about he needs a therapist
Lily shut the fuck up with quasi; STOP TRYING TO MAKE QUASI HAPPEN
"I love Nini's song" Sure, Jan.
...Okay yes you should have called him out but don't bait him LIKE THAT oop there's the scene from the trailer
Ohmygod is Andrew Barth Feldman gonna hit on Ashlyn
Okay this is so cute but also I am VERY annoyed with the way this show handles its characters like they aren't relevant or important unless they get into a relationship or a love triangle?? That's such a shitty way to give out screentime and arcs to characters. Is it not enough to develop the characters on their own and strengthen their friendship???
HUH TIM why you so obsessed with compulsory heterosexuality??(well also homosexuality for Seblos but they are the only ones I'm not annoyed with their relationship cos its a hella big step for Disney to have a gay couple and their relationship isn't in our faces or overshadows the plot and its just spinkles of cuteness every time they interact - they are honestly who Rini wishes they were; besties in love. They are a couple that Tim should be taking notes from; leave the relationship drama in the background, focus on the theatre and friendship aspect of everything)
My mini rant aside; this is a very adorable interaction between Ashlyn and Antoine.
"TOM HOLLAND ON STILTS" GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE WITH THAT COMPARISON I AM SCREAMING ANTOINE THAT'S SO FUNNY
This is so funny he keeps picking out the hottest guys of the group; as if he himself isn't the French version of Big Red they look super alike ngl shshsh
WHY YOU RUIN IT WITH THAT ANTOINE I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU
Drama between Antoine and Red is already spicing up shshsh I cannot
Why are you so dramatic with the shuffle Lily gtfo of here...also this doesn't make sense?? She wasn't even on a BATB playlist; what if a non BATB song came on ahahah
Good to know they aren't big fans of The Mob Song like I am
Awww EJ you cutie, okay I will appreciate the OG Mob Song just for you
OH WAIT HE PROLLY LIKES IT COS ITS A GASTON LED SONG TIM GIMME THE EJ SOLO I DESERVE IN THIS NUMBER
I'm being robbed of Gaston for the last 7 eps I at least deserve an EJ solo for compensation
The way the set looks straight out of Broadway but also like omg the blue lighting and fancy stage gave me intense flashbacks to that Glee episode where Vocal Adrenaline sang Bohemian Rhapsody
RICKY STOP BEING SALTY AND ACTUALLY COMMUNICATE WITH YOUR GIRLFRIEND LIKE A NORMAL PERSON
OMG THE SUBTITLES SAID ITS HOWIE SINGING AS THE BEAST I FUCKING CALLED IT
Howie you hoe you gonna break my girl Kourtney's heart
Yeah...still not a fan of Antoine's Dance Remix
Yall know Gina would kill the dance number if she wasn't wearing that fit
Okay but it's Gaston led song WHY DOES EVERYONE BUT EJ HAVE A SOLO IN THIS SONG??
First the Beasts led it (Howie sounded better than Ricky ngl), then the Lumieres (their voices worked hella well together; I always forget what a talented singer Frankie is THEY NEED TO GIVE HIM A SOLO SONG) and now the Belles are going at it (Ashlyn's voice is superior)
BIG RED BEING JEALOUS AND SALTY IS SO FUNNY ITS LIKE A PUPPY BEING ANGRY I CRI
...Did anyone really win, Lily??? STFU
CARLOS IS RIGHT AND HE SHOULD SAY IT
Oooh I did see someone talk about this when the Rose Song dropped last week, apparently its illegal to add songs to a musical you're doing for a school play; I really thought the show would brush past that irl rule but I guess they are playing into it
THE WAY EVERYONE TURNED TO EJ FOR THE SPORTS METAPHOR I AM D Y I N G AND HIS FACE WAS GOLDEN! ITS LIKE THAT LISA SIMPSON MEME SHHSHSH
Okay Nini is being a little pissy about leaving her song out of the show and its a little selfish to wanna keep it at the risk of being disqualified but I also understand why she's hurt
Everyone is dog piling on her right now being against her idea and it feels like they are being against her song and her herself instead of them not wanting to be disqualified. Also like she poured her heart and soul into the song after Miss Jenn lowkey rushed her to write it. So I can see why this feels like a rejection of her and her song and why she's so hurt rather than her seeing the big picture right now
It doesn't help that Ricky said the final blow causing her to walk off
Okay maybe Zackey gets some rights for being chill and wanting the kids to be peers
THIS MOTHERFUCKER I KNEW HE WAS SHADY Also the way I gasped even though I predicted he stole the mask halfway through this ep shshsh
Stab him Miss Jenn STAB HIM
Bitch why you so threatened by East High if yall have such a Broadway-esque show planned??? They honestly should have stuck to the Little Mermaid; I really wanted to see the aquarium
"It's just a song Ricky"
"A song can mean everything" Do you get deja vu? Anyone else getting intense flashbacks to Jan when DL first dropped and all the drama happened 👀
YES PLEASE STAY CO ANCHORS Gosh I love them so much esp once you take the romantic connotations out of their interactions
ROUGE GRAND I'M SCREAMING
I love this long take of checking in with everyone's relationship status (still hate how romantically focused this show has become but still a cool shot)
I K N E W IT I WAS RIGHT
Okay but like looking at Kourtney's face I have never wanted to be wrong so bad GOD I HATE IT HERE
I really think he likes her and I hope they work it out
Nini setting up her own music acc feels like when Olivia rebranded her whole IG to be just for her music stuff - love this for both of them
AHHHHH SHE'S NINA NOW YALL
I know everyone loves her as Nini but like I have always loved the name Nina and it really suits her to be honest also shows how she's growing up now and kind of leans into the lyric "I won't be confined to your point of view" from The Rose Song because Nini is the nickname Ricky gave her so it shows that she's outgrowing him too and I love that for her!
Overall thoughts; they really crammed all the North High drama into one ep huh. Personally would have liked it if all of this was spread out throughout the last few episodes; like different hijinks for every episode. I'm just a big fan of properly setting up the overall arc over the season instead of patching it together closer to the climax/end of the show. Cos now it lowkey feels like two different seasons - 2A felt like The Rini/Rina Show esp with YAC storyline and whatever was going on with Rina and now 2B is finally feeling like what this season should have been all this time
#hsmtmts season 2#hsmtmts#hsmtmts spoilers#nina salazar roberts#gina porter#EJ Caswell#Ricky Bowen#Kourtney Green#Ashlyn Caswell#Seb Matthew Smith#carlos rodriguez#Big Red
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Thoughts on Rhythm of War:
(Will contain spoilers as these are my thoughts that I wish I could share with people as I'm reading)
Part 1
Navani's POV reminds me of my mom and I love her
Gavilar is a dick holy shit man
Imma need someone to draw that scene from the end of chapter one of it hasn't already been done. You know the one, where Lirin first sees Kaladin in Hearthstone. Yeaaahh
The DID thing with Shallan is gonna be really interesting to read but I'm liking it so far
Chapter 7 header: you can riot and soothe spren inside a gemstone with zinc and brass. Interesting....
Ialai's notebook has names of other planets in the Cosmere. I wonder where that is gonna go 🤔🤔
Pewter and Tin affect spren too, but tin "diminishes nearby attributes", which is interesting 🧐 Pewter increases abilities in allomancy, ergo tin SHOULD increase the senses, so its interesting that it makes them lesser for spren. Hmm...UNLESS it's pulling the feruchemical ability and is storing the attributes? So it has to drain them for a time? Maybe that has something to do with the fabrial that took away Kaladin's powers in chapter 7?? What the fuck is going on Brandon
Hesina and Syl's banter is super cute
Part 2:
I have a working theory that Adolin will become a Stoneward (because I don't remember there being any stonewards mentioned yet) but we shall see
Someone draw Pattern hugging Adolin and Shallan. That was cute lol
Therapist Kaladin is not something I expected to see, but its nice
"Ha ha. Yes, [humans] bite. And break your oaths and murder your spren. Ha ha." Pattern is hilarious
These chapter headings are mentioning the different shards (? I'm assuming) and they mentioned Threnody and Scadrial. Hmm... The mystery deepens 🧐🤔
I have a feeling that the second half of this series is going to be some type of massive crossover, which would be awesome
Also, sinking feeling that the Fused and the singers are going to attack Urithiru while Kaladin & Teft are pretty much the only ones there to protect it. Which is bad because that one Fused is set on fighting and killing only Kaladin 😬
Well, they mentioned a stoneward finally, so maybe that's not Adolin's calling. I still feel like he might become some type of radiant tho, but it would be cool if he just stayed himself
Yo, ashspren look cool as fuck
I really, really, really want Adolin to help Maya return fully
No, you know what? I am CONVINCED that Adolin will become a stoneward (that badass fight scene? Amazing. And stonewards are the most dependable of the orders...hello?!!! Adolin to a T)
AND the only reason he's not yet is because he has bonded with Maya, but she's a deadeye and can't help him advance yet! (I'M CALLING IT NOW! MAKE MY BOY A STONEWARD I'M FUCKIN HYPED)
A summary of my feelings on the invasion at the tower: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!
And Mraize? Capturing Lift?!!! Wtf!!
Part 3:
Finally, a Jasnah POV 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
Wit saying that Sadeas is related to a cow lmaoooo 😂🤣 (I'm trying really hard to not laugh out loud at work)
Wit roasting that asshole highprince and then Jasnah stabbing the highprince in the neck?! Amazing, it will live in my brain rent free with her roasting of Amaram
Kal trapping the Pursuer in that room? Very smart, so proud of my boy
Mraize trying to make a deal with Raboniel...das not good
And giving her Lift, that's super not good
But Venli finally deciding to make progress! That's really good!
Tell me why I'm nervous for the Sibling and the tower when I still have 500 pages left haha
Jasnah changing the air to oil and then lighting it on fire?!!! OooHhOoOOO!! Very cool
The Ghostbloods are not a Rosharan organization?? What the hell is that supposed to mean Wit?!
Oohh Venli making progress with her powers! That was really cool I'm excited for her
OK SO...Kaladin almost died. Brandon. That's my emotional support Windrunner, you cannot kill him 😢😭
But Dalinar knows know that the tower is under seige! So that's good. That's good, right? Oh god I'm so nervous
Oh no Raboniel knew about the Sibling the whole time :(
Part 4
OooOOOHH! WHAT!!! THE RHYTHM OF WAR!!! Mixing the different Lights?! That's so cool This is fun! Let's go, you funky little scientists!!!
yO WHAT THE FUCK /VENLI/ HIRED SZETH TO KILL GAVILAR!!!!!? BECAUSE /NALE/ TOLD HER TOO??!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I literally have to stop reading to fully process that holy shit man I'm fuckin floored
A Herald as the high judge, how nice
Wit and his Cryptic 😂
Yay, Venli finally helped rescue Lift! Things are finally looking up (maybe?)
Can I just say that I love Dabbid with all my heart? ❤❤❤❤
And woohoo! Teft is awake! Hooray for Lift and Dabbid! They did a heroism 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼
Voice of Lights, Navani Kholin!! 🙌🏼
I KNEW they were going to pull Maya as the final witness but OH MY GOD!!!! Adolin×Maya4ever
Oh no oh no oh no Raboniel is planning to use the Radiants as TESTING SUBJECTS???? This is so so so so bad
Part 5
Oh god I feel like Kaladin is going to die :(
Oooooohhhh nooooooo Teft's spren is going to die 😭
Oohh Teft 💔😭
Oh shit oh shit oh shit Kaladin is going to lose himself and become Odium's champion and Syl is going to die I don't like this story I'm scared
Except he CAN'T because Brandon said people wouldn't regret naming their kids after him so he has to swear the fourth ideal and kill Moash right? RIGHT? OH GOD SOMEONE TELL ME IM RIGHT
Also imma be fucking PISSED if Navani dies why are you putting me through this agony Brandon
AAAHHHHH!!!!! THE FOURTH IDEAL YES MUTHERFUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!
NAVANI!!!!!!!!!! A BONDSMITH!!!!!!! IM LIVING Y'ALL!!!!!!!!!!
KALADIN GOT HIS PLATE!!! AND HIS BRANDS ARE GOOOONNNNNEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thats a, uh, pretty heavy duel you've locked yourself into there Mr. Blackthorn
Truthwatcher Rlain! 😀😀😀
Fucking great, Cultivation PLANNED this??
Of course Wit has a seon 🙄 but how the hell did Mraize get one?
Is Thaidakar Lord of Scars....is that Kelsier???? Maybe...??
Do the Listeners?? Have a pet chasmfiend????
And Venli got her mom back!! Hooray!!!
And Eshonai got her freedom and explored the whole world 😭❤❤
Ah Shit, Wit. That did NOT go as you planned. That threw a wrench into everything that I expected to happen and I don't even know what Wit was doing 😬
#rhythm of war#rhythm of war spoilers#row#row spoilers#stormlight archive#stormlight archive spoilers#ive never done a read more break so i hope this works haha
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What kind of mental illnesses do you think all the guys suffer from?
TRIGGER WARNING: ABUSE and MENTAL ILLNESS
Oh lord, where do we start? Let me just preface this with the following: I am not a licensed therapist or psychiatrist or anything. I did take general psychology in college and later developmental psychology, and I finished my psych course in nursing school, BUT I DO NOT CONSIDER MYSELF QUALIFIED TO “diagnose” characters or people. Anyways, let’s begin. (P.S Idk if I answered this already or not, but just in case, imma do it anyways lol.)
Shu Sakamaki- I would say he suffers from PTSD, depression, and has pyrophobia. This is all due to Reiji killing his childhood best friend (supposedly SPOILER ALERT) by setting said friend’s village on fire. Shu doesn’t really like to eat (whether it be food or blood), and he pretty much finds everything bothersome in some kind of way. He really just listens to music and sleeps. Sometimes he torments Yui for enjoyment, but that’s really about it.
Reiji Sakamaki- I think he has an inferiority complex (or superiority complex? idk which one). He’s always trying to make himself seem like he’s so much better than his brothers, particularly Shu. This would come from despite trying his best to impress his mother, he was never able to surpass Shu in her eyes, because he was the eldest son.
Ayato Sakamaki- I’m pretty sure he has narcissistic personality disorder. He believes he is the best in everything and wants to make sure everyone knows it. He wants all the attention on himself and pretty much only cares about himself. I distinctly remember him chastising Yui for staring at the stars in the night sky and thinking they were pretty; he told her that he should only look at him.
Kanato Sakamaki- Oof, I remember I used his character to write a paper. I think he has antisocial personality disorder and/or borderline personality disorder. He couldn’t care less about other people, but he is an expert at tormenting Yui for entertainment purposes. He is almost as good as Laito at manipulation, if not better. Borderline personality disorder is known for pushing people away, only to drag them back in. He does this with Yui ALL THE TIME. “Go away, you’re an idiot.” Then, “Why are you treating me like this, you really don’t care about me, huh?” The antisocial part I feel more for his murder sprees, like all the “dolls” he made out of once living human girls.
Laito Sakamaki- I don’t even know what to call this? I’m pretty sure he has some symptoms of PTSD (haven’t read translations in a while, so I can’t remember if he had nightmares or not). I suppose one could say he uses sex as a defense mechanism? I’m really not sure if there is an actual term for what he has. He thinks sex is synonymous with love. If he fucks you, he loves you, end of story. Obviously, this is not how it really works, but due to his childhood trauma in which his mother sexually abused him in multiple ways, this is just how he thinks things are.
Subaru Sakamaki- So many problems. I’d say anger management issues, PTSD, severe low self-esteem, and depression. It has been shown that Subaru has suicidal tendencies. He thinks he is disgusting because that is what his mother often told him because he was born of incest. He frequently loses control over his anger and emotions in general, lashing out and breaking things.
I’m just going to say that the Mukami’s have their own personal trauma, but I’m really not comfortable enough about their characters to really say anything about them (have not read any of their routes’ translations).
#ayato sakamaki#Diabolik Lovers#diaboliklovers#Kanato Sakamaki#laito sakamaki#reiji sakamaki#Shu Sakamaki#Subaru Sakamaki
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The funniest thing about june teasing katara and zuko about being a couple is that she just sees a pretty girl and an attractive guy, both looking almost the same age which immediately makes her go "you two must be a couple" and it just reminds me of zvtara shippers, you know what i mean? I'm convinced one of the reasons a lot of ppl ship them is bc of their looks. katara being the female protagonist and also a pretty, smart and powerful girl & zuko, despite not being the male protagonist, being the most attractive guy in the gaang. Boom, a "bomb ass ship". It is worth to recall that "people ship zutara bc they projected onto katara and had a crush on zuko". And if they say they don't ship them for that reason, then it's bc they read too much between the lines in every interaction they have. So, back to june, she didn't even care if they had chemistry or if they were friends or anything, she just straight up teased them about being a couple lmao. Because in all honesty zvtara can be an appealing ship in anyone's eyes but THAT'S IT, it doesn't go further than that. I can be testimony of that😅Before even watching the show i was like june, one day i saw a zk fanart and was like "wow aren't those zuko and katara from atla? They look so good, she's gorgeous and he's hot" i already knew kataang was endgame and that mai was zuko's love interest but seeing zuko and katara together was pleasing to my eyes. However once i watched the show for the first time (2 months ago i think) i realized there was really no romantic chemistry between them, nothing, literally nothing, i mean, i wasn't even waiting for the zvtara content in the show that made ppl ship them so much, i was actually very neutral about ships, i couldn't care less about them, but i still realized nothing was happenig between them and that it was obvious since book 1 ep 1 that kataang was endgame. Zuko and katara were two teenagers from opposite sides of a war that tried to kill each other multiple times and when zuko changed sides they developed a completely platonic relationship. As i said, people either ship them because it's an appealing and aesthetically pleasing ship (water/fire, enemies to lovers, opposites attract, the common red & blue ship) or they just love reading too much between the lines, OR BOTH, because they were so thirsty about it they ended up convincing themselves there was romantic tension between them, that they liked each other and that zvtara was scrapped when it was never planned in the first place. Not to mention the reasons why they claim zvtara should've been endgame are based only on symbolism and things they have in common that are just so ??? Random. e.g. (i saw these on a post on facebook and the comment section was hilarious, it was full of ppl being sarcastic about it & making fun of it) saying they should've been canon bc:
1. "They both lost their mothers at a young age" (?)
2. "katara was good but had rage in her heart and zuko was bad but had good in his heart so it was like yin and yang, and that was the main purpose/topic of the show" (?)
3. "they both had alter egos (painted lady and blue spirit)" (???) this one sounds like saying maiko was canon bc zuko worked in a tea shop and mai worked in a flower shop😂
4. "Zuko was the only one who supported katara in taking revenge on her mom's assassin" (?) if you ask me, that just proves zuko is not right for katara, he led her to do something she was gonna regret later (not trying to hate on zuko, i love him, and since i love him i acknowledge his flaws. I understand why he thought it was the best thing to do, he's an impulsive and resentful boy (he would've done the same if it was his mom) and he noticed how thirsty katara was for revenge, ofc he wanted to help her + he wanted her to accept him and thought it was the right thing to do in order to gain her trust, but it wasn't) unlike zuko, aang tried to make katara come to her senses and do the thing that was best for her: forgive and let go, and it was basically what she did at the end. She didn't do what zuko expected her to do. She did what aang expected her to do. She didn't forgive her mom's assassin, but she forgave zuko, and she didn't do THAT thing she (and aang) knew would regret later. Aang knew katara and what was the best thing for her to do.
5. and the most ridiculous one, "they both saved each other's lives in the final agni kai"(???????) and the funniest part is that it was followed by "WHAT MORE PROOFS DO YOU WANT???". Honestly wtf did ppl expect? Did they expect zuko to stand there and watch katara die? Did they expect katara to just stand there and watch zuko lay on the floor & die? And this has been said a million times and i am going to join and say it once again: zuko would've done that for ANYONE from the gaang, he would've done the same for toph, sokka, suki and aang. Because he learned to care about them. As for katara, she would've done that for anyone too wtf she healed aang once too and even brought him back to life. (I wouldn't be surprised if zk shippers used that as a parallel for romantic zvtara proof bc they're just like that💀)
There were more "reasons" but they're just so stupid and taken out of context like "they care for each other" & "katara was the one who encouraged him to talk to his uncle" like yeah that's what friends do. Basically all zvtara shippers do is REACH.
Also, i just can't see it happening. I like the enemies to lovers trope, maybe if the writers really intended to make it canon, i would have been down for the ship, it would've been interesting to see how it developed, but,, they didn't, and later i came to the realization that if it would've really happened, it would've been so... weird. Time to bring up the "colonized and colonizer ship" and how some ppl feel uncomfortable about it. Besides the fact that a relationship between zuko and katara wouldn't have worked (they're incompatible af, katara is a girl with a strong character and zuko is a guy with anger issues that takes everything personal, they'd be at each other's throats 99% of the time) it's just weird to think that katara would choose to marry a man from the fire nation, the nation that caused a big war that traumatized her, the nation that took her mother away from her. Imagine katara ruling along with zuko a nation she despised for years. Fire lady katara doesn't sit right with me, and i'm sure it doesn't sit right with a lot of ppl as well. I don't see katara doing that, and yes, i know she forgave zuko, but still, she would've never done that 🤦🏽♀️ i think it would've been so OOC tbh.
Another thing i laugh my ass off at is when they say "zuko should've chosen katara instead of mai" as if they were ever in a relationship for zuko to say "ok imma choose katara i wanna be with her". As if katara was EVER an option for him. They never showed interest in each other, what's not clicking?????? And zuko only had eyes for mai, not to mention that despite zuko and mai had a rough relationship, no girl would've dealed with zuko's bs better than mai. Can you imagine katara dealing with zuko blowing up over everything? Because i can't. Also people saying things like "zuko deserves someone who is always there for him and listens to him" (and ofc they're talking about katara) like, ok, you hate that katara is aang's "therapist" but you want her to be zuko's therapist. Logic? Where? And I do remember mai being a supportive gf and trying to cheer him up multiple times. Did they watch the same show as me?
Zvtarians try to play the victims about how they were "robbed" bc some voice actors shipped them and from what i've read people who worked for the show suggested to go for zk, but that's stupid, it doesn't count as "they planned it but scrapped it, we were robbed". The only word that counts are the creators' voice and they have stated they were always rooting for kataang, so no, you were not robbed.
People are just so in love with the idea of zuko and katara together they really convinced themselves it was likely to happen. Honestly zvtara it's a fine ship as fanon but ppl ruined it for me and what i hate the most is when they ship it and hate on aang and mai at the same time and make them look SO bad to invalidate kataang and maiko. Saying aang is abusive and mai is toxic is complete ✨bullshit✨ and lastly, it's ridiculous when they say the creators were cowards for not making it canon. They're cowards for not fulfilling your greatest childhood wish? Something they never planned? It is THEIR show. If you hate sm how things turned out then quit atla once and for all and go find another show that you know is gonna give you what you expect,,, it's tiring that they've been crying about it for 15 yrs , like, i joined the fandom recently but i can imagine how tired old atla fans must be of this.
OK so I have a lot of thoughts about this and firstly,,,anon I appreciate the dedication that it took for you to write this, and I agree with many of your points. However, the attitude I have on this blog towards Avatar ships is far more neutral than what you’re saying.
Ultimately, romance is not and never was the focus of Avatar. Romantic development was always secondary or tertiary plot, and the entire show was far more focused on platonic relationship development. My attitude towards shippers on here - including Zutara shippers - is that people can ship what they want, as long as they’re respectful of each other and of the other characters that “interfere” with their ship. End of the day, shipping is irrelevant to the core of the show.
People shipping something because they find it aesthetically appealing is honestly,,,fine. Personally, I think it’s reductionist, but I don’t care if you do because everyone has the right to enjoy media however they want to.
That being said, we absolutely should call out racist or problematic tropes that we see, including ‘fire lady katara”. I also agree that it’s upsetting when people bash other characters in order to further their ship, as much of the bashing is also pretty racist and/or misogynistic. Calling that out, however, is separate from calling out every single person who happens to enjoy certain ships.
“She didn't do what zuko expected her to do. She did what aang expected her to do. She didn't forgive her mom's assassin, but she forgave zuko, and she didn't do THAT thing she (and aang) knew would regret later. Aang knew katara and what was the best thing for her to do.”
I understand where you’re coming from, but I honestly disagree with this take. Both Aang and Zuko were approaching the situations from their own life experiences, but Katara didn’t do what either of the boys wanted. She chose her own path, by both sparing Yon Rha’s life but also refusing to forgive him. The episode is about Katara and her personal trauma and its focus should not be on her relationships with either Zuko or Aang.
When I make posts such as this, it’s less about hating Z*tara and more about how this fandom focuses all its attention on romance and shipping, to the point where if you acknowledge a relationship’s importance it’s assumed you pair the two romantically. I don’t read Zuko and Katara’s relationship as romantic (for reasons that it would take too long to explain here), but their relationship development is extremely important, the two of them share tons of parallels and the final Agni Kai marks the culmination of both of their character arcs. Yes, Zuko would have taken the lightning for any of the characters, but it’s thematically important that it was Katara. None of this inherently means it’s romantic, but refusing to acknowledge the significance of the relationship between them is equally reductionist.
This isn’t an attack on you, anon, and you’re 100% allowed to have negative feelings about a ship. But at the end of the day, it’s not worth getting this worked up over. If I were you I’d focus more on creating/consuming content for a ship you like than bashing ships you don’t!
#kind of nervous about posting this but oh well#atla#avatar the last airbender#shipping#zuko#katara#aang#asks
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I keep seeing your ATLA and LOK matchups and they’re so cute so here I go I guess 🤷🏼♂️ I’m a 17yo trans dude, pansexual, 5’3.5” but I round up to 5’4 😎 Capricorn, airbender, equal parts ravenclaw and gryffindor, infj-t. I love the colour green, baking, musical theatre, anime, plants, cute video games, and any music genre. Lactose intolerant and v political (leftist). Very Italian but white as *heck*. I’m a digital and traditional artist, and planning on going into animation. First chair alto sax who gets all the solos, hybrid of class clown and teacher’s pet - top in every class but cracking jokes the whole way through. Very competitive and confrontational, but also the overly empathetic people-pleasing therapist-parent friend. I act showoff-y and narcissistic to overcompensate for how insecure I actually am 😅 and I have a stupid cowlick that sticks up when I dry my hair.
toI CAN’T TELL YOU HOW MUCH I SQUEALED WHEN I SAW YOUR ASK, YOU AND A FEW OTHER BLOGS WERE THE ONES THAT INSPIRED ME SO THANK YOU AJAJAJAJJAJAJAJ
*exhales*
Alrighty, thank you for letting me scream :D!! And your ask made me laugh so hard, you literally sound just like one of my best friends. I’d like to think that we can all get along smoothly ^U^
Now, without further ado, I ship thee with...
Sokka!
Okay, alright, jeez! Stop hitting me, virtual self. I know a lot of people are thinking: Right, so you think it’s okay to put to crackheads together? No.
...YES.
ABSOLUTELY, Y E S.
Call me crazy, but when I saw this ask I decided, “Yep, that’s it. We’re doing Sokka, and no one can tell me otherwise. Yep. Okay, thanks a bunch kiddos, Imma head out-” xD Your ask was so amazing and it showed so much expression and the way you act in just a few sentences! It was very spontaneous and different from other asks I have had, so let me just say, I had a lot of fun writing this one. Now, with Sokka! If you know from before, I’m a huge, huge fan of the headcanon that Sokka is a theater kid. And the moment I saw that you wrote theater kid and that you can play an instrument, I kinda just stared into a wall and thought, “it must be fate,” and then continued to write. I think that Sokka, although he’s extroverted, also has his own downfalls. We see that although he can be described as the comic relief, I feel like almost everyone forgets that Sokka’s human, too. He obviously has his own down days, and overall, no one’s there for him. And as sad as life may be, it’s true for so many more people in this world. I think that Sokka, considering his personality type, is really good at reading people: so whenever he even sees your smile falter for even a second, without hesitation, Sokka will literally yank you to the side of the room and ask, “What was that?” When he sees that you’re forcing a smile on a bad day, he might not be too big on the physical contact and give you hugs every twenty seconds, but he’ll talk you through it. Without a single word of negativity and whatnot, he lets you know that he’s there, and he’s there to listen because he genuinely cares for you and your wellbeing. The fun part about this is that he thinks it’s so amazing that you can still remain competitive, hilarious, sweet, and yet you’re still the top in every class. Sokka can also be pretty smart because he devises so many plans, so he really admires you for that. Sokka will also never underestimate you, and he’ll make sure that you know every second of every day that you are valid, and he’ll make sure no one ever hurts you. On awesome days, Sokka might even take you outside on a balcony and blast Guns and Ships or something from Dear Evan Hansen and just let you jam out with him. Sokka doesn’t care about your looks at all, because as long as you’re okay with yourself, no matter what happens, he’ll never leave your side.
I HAD SO MUCH FUN WRITING THAT TYSM
Next up, we have:
Bolin!
OKAY, OKAY, and no, it is not because of your profile picture and whatnot! This is something that actually and physically (well, maybe not physically. I’m not sure if that’s possible yet xD), but like with Sokka when I read yours, I straight up threw my laptop and said, “WELL NO HECKING WONDER WHY YOU LOVE BOLIN SO MUCH,” and then started writing again. You and Bolin, yes, yes, yes absOLUTELY! It’s not just with personality and whatnot, but allow me to elaborate. A lot like Sokka, Bolin is usually seen as the comedic relief who always makes people laugh mid-battle or is the one cracking jokes and only cries literally animated waterfalls. But honestly, I don’t think many people realize that if Bolin was actually in real-life, imagine just how helpful and loved you’d feel if you were going through a tough, mental battle, and Bolin just cracks this precious and small joke that makes you laugh in an instant? Bolin probably thinks that it’s really cool that you’re capable of doing so much all at once, and that you always somehow find the best way to get across any problem. He loves to give you hugs and is a bit more physical than Sokka. He also takes whatever chance possible to say anything that can make you smile-- all he wants is to have that with every word he says, to make you grin. He’s absolutely in love with just how persistent you are with everything. He loves that you’re always trying your best and you do everything in your will to help those around you. Bolin also doesn’t mind how you look, either, because if you’re okay with yourself, he is, too. And if you’re not, trust me: Bolin can and will understand. He’ll try to ask you whatever he can without pushing too far, and pull you into the warmest hug ever. He’ll make sure the day after that you’re feeling okay, and he’s okay with you being a Lil’ vulnerable around him. He loves that you’re always so positive and sweet around everyone :D
I had such a great time writing this one!! Thank you so much for asking :] Sorry about the delay, but I’m just glad I got this one in ^^ Thanks for supporting me!! I can’t tell you in words how much I appreciate it.
(REQUESTS ARE OPEN :D)
HUGS AND SHOULDER PATS ARE OPEN AS WELL!!
#THANK YOU SO MUCH#bolins-forehead-curl#that username#I LOVE IT#hugs!!#bolin#bolin x reader#lok#lok matchups#lok x reader#atla#avatar the last airbender#sokka#sokka x reader#sokka avatar#the last airbender#legend of korra#the legend of korra
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