fuck it, Andor characters as shirts that go hard:

My brain is constantly conflicted between two headcanons. For example:

On one hand, I find it very important that Dazai joined the mafia of his own accord. It makes it so it wasn't anything forced onto him, anyone else involved can just say he "chose it". It adds a certain layer of guilt to his character, a layer of tragedy of this child feeling that his only option was to be surrounded by death to want to live. The misguided decision of a dumb 14 year old boy which leads to years of hurt and trauma. To then see his first murder before his eyes, realise he helped plan this, this is now his life, and feel guilty. To feel nothing? Or guilty. He can't tell.

And on the other hand, bbg was forced by mori or something so she can have someone else to blame and be happy.

Haterant- Callout post - Hello:

So apparently there are SandRay fans on twitter (haven't seen the take here, thank the gods) who hate the RayMew kiss. Not because Mew was manipulating and using Ray to hurt Top and without having feelings for him while both were on drugs and drunk, which Ray had started, BUT because they perceive both as bottoms and they think two bottoms kissing each other is BAD and YIKES and it would have been better if Top and Sand kissed WHICH WOULDN'T EVEN MAKE ANY SENSE PLOTWISE YOU DIPSHITS!

Fans of the ship really out there vomiting up the worst of takes although we fought for years to move on from the Top/Bottom take (and Jojo himself has bludgeoned the damn take in his shows).

Ngl but those fans are more toxic than any of the characters on the show and have proven with this that they don't care for the plot or the characters but only their faves and ships (oh, also apparently they say SandRay are not popular? What?????)! It's truly sad how little reading comprehension is in the last braincell of some of them and how much disrespect for an intriguing story and the characters' background stories and development.

Please, just stop watching the show, nuances are wasted on you, thank you.

(plus this might just NOT be your kind of show - and that's okay)

(this also includes the ones who demand more sweet SandRay scenes and are outraged that they fuck up and that they're such a mess and no soulmates - we were never promised a sweet rom com but exactly the toxic, complicated mess we're getting now - live with it and stop watching! it's okay if it's not your kind of show - there's no need to watch just because your faves are in it)

slowly turning everyone in my life into fortnite gamers one by one….

waking up to a 7 minute voice note from @greenvlvetcouch about their unhinged kinktober idea was truly, honestly the fucking *best* way to start my wednesday let me tell you. i had questions, and answers i received.

i have never gulped, squealed and wailed simultaneously before today. ahem.

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so about those mixed feelings on kid gil....

AIGHT SO

It really does boil down to the fact that he's not "Gilgamesh as a child" but "a child that is Gilgamesh", so to speak -- he's just the concept of 'the King of Heroes, but ten years old'. They pretty heavily imply that in FGO, and I'm fairly sure it's referenced in Hollow Ataraxia too.

It's probably because in most cases, Kid Gil is a result of Gilgamesh using the potion of rejuvenation -- which just resets your time clock and makes you younger, so it's not like "returns you to your childhood" but more "you as you are now have become a child again".

But while I love Kid Gil, and his sweet decent kid behavior and absolute seething hatred for his adult self is funny -- and speaks to a lot of issues there with self-loathing in general, Gil, can we talk about that -- I just...am also a little disappointed in the wasted potential.

I mean, him being SO DIFFERENT from Archer Gil is a huge starting point, but then the FGO profile says it might be because it was Gil when he was a wise king who forms the starting point for his identity, which both tracks because it's the likeliest time when he'd decide to take the potion and because he DOES act a bit more like CasGil. But then that just cycles back around to the beginning of "this isn't Gil as a child, this is just old man Gil who chugged the potion and became ten years old again" and it explains his hatred for his Archer self as, well, yeah, duh, that's the worst time of your life, you'd hate yourself too if you remembered being An Absolute Fucking Tool.

I wish we could see Actual Kid Gil, but then Gilgamesh shoots that handily in the foot by saying he has literally no memory of his actual childhood. Which is both weird as hell and ridiculous, Gil, how the fuck? It feels at once like an excuse to keep the question of what Kid Gil is a little vaguer, but there's just...it's silly.

Especially in the early stuff when Gil just knocks back the potion when he's bored to fuck around as a kid for a while. See: a reference that that's what he did for the 10 years in between Zero and FSN, and what he does in HA, and what he very nearly does in FSF before Enkidu showing up stops him cold. Like...that really undermines the idea that this is actual child Gil because he's just like lol bored now time to be 10. It just has so much more evidence to the contrary; especially in - don't shoot me - Prisma*Illya, where it's so clear he's just our Gil but 10 in his behavior and how he basically tactical nukes someone for using Enkidu without his permission. Actual Child Gil wouldn't have known Enkidu.

SO TLDR I LIKE HIM HE'S FUNNY BUT ALSO I AM JUST QUIETLY DISAPPOINTED THAT HE'S NOT GENUINELY GIL AS A KID.

I have my own headcanons for what Gil was like as a kid, though, and those tie to my big weird Gil hcs, but I do think actual kid Gil was similar to the way he's described, echoes of what Kid Gil shows - kind, sweet, moral, just, gentle, etc - but...it's not the same, yknow? Kid Gil has enough of his older self's traits still that it's not a complete overlap.

My local Michaels has a display with a bunch of their blank shirts (in bright orange), some metal hoops, some vials of e beads and (I think) dream catcher instructions. I was horrified even before I saw that yes, they were being open about the fact that they’re trying to cash in on Indigenous heritage month.

Like, I’m not saying that settler folks shouldn’t be doing Indigenous crafts. I fully intend to take a moccasin workshop some day (if one of the local organizations offers it again.) But this is pretty much the textbook definition of cultural appropriation.

Can we not turn June into a retail holiday? They already have Valentine’s Day, Mothers’ Day, Fathers’ Day, the Nov 12- Dec 25 Christmas season. I think we should draw a line.

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

we all have that one fictional character who's canonically male whom you understand is a closeted trans woman but you can't tell anyone because they'll all look at you like you're insane. but you understand her

trifecta of brennan lee mulligan self-inserts in fantasy high junior year

they should go on a fishing trip pt.1

Zelda goes mushroom girl

my campaign hiatus has gone on for too long so to cope ive combined my interests at their maximum potency and had some dnd-strawhats thoughts

thoughts in depth under read more... :)!

this is SO self indulgent. their designs literally did not change. but i am a firm believer that dnd doesnt have to be european high fantasy. and also one piece literally IS fantasy. no changes are necessary to fit into dnd. ive already imagined plenty of campaign/oneshot ideas inspired by one piece. so this was basically just an exercise of trying to replicate their canon abilities in dnd 5e as much as possible without totally homebrewing everything. well. aside from luffy. you just cant take away or change his stretching.

LUFFY: (human monk. drunken master subclass. outlander)

the only plain human of the crew to balance out with the fact that he still has rubber powers. obviously a monk. but drunken master subclass specifically because i think the flavor(not the fact that its about being a drunkard) and abilities both fit him really well. this line in the subclass' flavortext especially fits him: "A drunken master often enjoys playing the fool to bring gladness to the despondent or to demonstrate humility to the arrogant, but when battle is joined, the drunken master can be a maddening, masterful foe."

ZORO: (tiefling fighter. samurai subclass. bounty hunter)

a fighter with the samurai subclass is so very incredibly obvious... but i actually had a lot of fun geeking out while comparing the abilities to what he can do in canon; Fighting Spirit, Rapid Strike, and Strength Before Death especially! tiefling is also pretty on the nose for his demon pirate hunter shtick and asura form, but i thought he'd be really human-passing for a tiefling and theorized about his tail getting cut off at some point or another before joining the strawhats. initially wasnt gonna give him a feat, but i gave sanji a feat so i thought itd be unfair to not give him one as well, so sentinel fits the bill pretty well i think!

NAMI: (tabaxi rogue. arcane trickster subclass. criminal)

cat burglar -> full grown literal humanoid cat. this one is INCREDIBLY self indulgent... i love... cats... theres nothing deeper to this and no other reasoning. i took cat burglar and ran with it. can you tell that i love izutsumi dungeon meshi? rogue for the aforementioned burglar-ing as well, and the arcane trickster subclass for when she picks up climatact! the mage hand will be very useful for her pickpocketing. in the future as she levels up with timeskip, i can totally see her multiclassing into wizard as well! weather wizard!

USOPP: (lightfoot halfling artificer. artillerist subclass. urchin)

I HAD SO MUCH FUN THINKING ABOUT HIS CHARACTER SHEET. halfling's Naturally Stealthy ability lets him hide behind his crewmates since theyre (almost) all bigger than him, so its perfect for hiding behind zoro or sanji all the time. Lucky is also perfect for him, and I think Brave fits pretty well too when he puts on the sogeking mask. artillerist artificer is also very fun! tinkering and making magic items for his crew, and i think Eldritch Canon or Arcane Firearm could both be easily reflavored as kabuto or any of his inventions. for emphasizing his sniper-ness, the spell sniper feat was also necessary. i think hes my favorite of all the concepts. big ears and long nose combo is so cute to me.

SANJI: (half-elf monk. drunken master subclass. guild artisan (cook!))

race was mostly based on vibes i wont lie. squints. and that vinsmoke balogna or whatever too ig. but mostly vibes. along with the idea that i think a dwarf zeff raising him would be really funny and cute. monk is also obvious, and same subclass as luffy for mostly the same reasons. though the flavor fits him much less, i think the abilities still fit him perfectly, and this blurb specifically; "Your martial arts technique mixes combat training with the precision of a dancer." i really wanted to give him a different subclass from luffy, but i dislike all the other monk subclasses a lot and i found none of them fit him as well anyways, so to try and give them SOME differences, i gave him the crusher feat.

CHOPPER: (awakened deer(shifter statblock) cleric. life subclass. hermit)

this ones definitely a mouthful im sorry. awakened deer for obvious reasons, but due to magic instead of devil fruit stuff. when i was struggling with his race, i looked a lot at shifter because of his forms, but it occurred to me that itd be super cool if he could shift between all of the different shifter options instead of being stuck with just one to replicate his rumble balls. something like heavy point/guard point=beasthide, horn point/arm point(?maybe?)=longtooth, walk point/jumping point=swiftstride, and brain point=wildhunt. hed definitely need some kind of nerf though to balance out that homebrew... and cleric for class. duh.

ROBIN: (high elf wizard. order of scribes subclass. criminal)

robin is definitely the one i struggled the most with just because of her class. elf came pretty easily- shes very elegant and i think shed look cute with super long ears- and i landed on high elf instead of wood elf for the int-based abilities. i was really on the fence between sorcerer and wizard for her because i knew shed be a full spellcaster, but i didnt feel that any of the subclasses really fit her. i ended up going with wizard for order of the scribes since it focuses on texts and knowing everything. but also because robin with a flying talking sentient book would be crazy cool. it could also be similar to how she spawns mouths and eyes places to talk to or watch people. my "fuck it, why not. this would be rad. its my house" mindset kicked in with her i will admit. also the One with the Word ability made me cackle out loud when i read it. thats the funniest ability ever. anyways, i cant really think of a way to replicate her powers, but maybe we could just reflavor a bunch of spells to be her limbs or clutch; hold person, maximillian's earthen grasp, or evard's black tentacles. thatd probably work okay, and theres a handful of spells to replicate her ability to spawn eyes or mouths. unrelated, but i imagine nico olvia to be a drow. why? her hair is white. i am a simple man!

take notes, Gale bby

An old friend

funky ceramic wizard staff + an update on how fucking LOUD the cicadas have gotten jesus christ