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Its hard to watch Taylor like this. She knows it's over. The feelings still linger you know to the point she is okay to accept any affection from any man who could take her mind off things,make it a bit easier to sing songs about joe when she feels like death singing them. Even if he is able to help for a small time.
I don't think she has had the time to process any emotions substantially and tour is actually her only personality and the glue holding her together. She isn't even showing how much she is going through.
Post a life altering breakup she picked up a huge injury and then one of her closest friends from school died unexpectedly. She did the attending and singing the show-funeral-show-memorium -show in three days☹️ She has this new fling but she can't stop talking about her ex. This is the worst part that she is hurting and just using very unhealthy coping mechanisms to get by.
The trying to find a part of me you didn't touch and that is before time in 2016. The 180 because she did everything to protect him and the relationship for it to fall apart too. She is really idgaf stage publically because even working tirelessly for 7 years everything just fell apart adjusting fir everyone's needs brought her back to still utter personal collapse. Going to be hard to see her continue making stupid decisions that hurt her and make herself hate herself even more just to get by.
thank you anon! you're right. tbh she needs to give herself time instead of thinking bout the tour anything. like joe was a huge part of tay's life (yes vice versa) she needs to process it without these shits going on.
Im afraid like when touring is over she'll regret a lot. like a lot. and there'll be no coming back. it'll be to late to realize. she needed to process all these before she got together with another person and matty for fs sake is defs not the type of guy you get together with while you're going through this type of heartbreak. this is gonna make it harder and harder for to be over this.
she is trying the get where he wasn't there. because she (imo) must feel like she did something different but didn't work either so.
she'll spite herself for a while too ! (imo) (maybe I'm projecting but I've seen this film twice in my own life. not with me but omg I have soo many thoughts after this ask)
I just hope they both heal soon. idk who left but it doesn't matter. they broke a family of 6.5 years and they both need to process this. but it's really really hurts to see her like this.
#your soo right anon her coping mechanism seems shit#i'd rather have to see her cry and be a mess instead see her bottle her feelings and pressing them in till she burts#omgh ik what happens when you do that!#bottled up feelings#swiftwyn#anon#anon asks#i just wish she could be with friends and crying out (crying is good guys) about it to them instead of doing pap walks of “i'm ok”
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I either feel things so deeply they paralyse me or I just can’t seem to feel a damn thing
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# 2: “I wish for you to see me”
Feel free to read this on ao3 or here !!
To [redacted],
Love is a confusing thing, but I never knew how much it could sting. You made me feel like I was special, even if I was a mess.
I'm glad you did, because I needed it. You helped me grow as a person, as someone that can be proud of myself.
You'll never read this. These inky words written on paper will stay in a box where all my other letters to you go.
Though if, someday, someone does read them and gives them to you, I hope you can see the love I showed.
I'll keep writing letters to you as long as this feeling eats up inside me.
Jealousy? Sadness? Love, maybe not for any longer.
I wish for you to see me but I know it'll never be.
So now I say goodbye to you, my love.
Always yours, [redacted]
#original writing#original work#original poetry#writers on tumblr#ao3 writer#writerblr#thecornkingwrites#the[redacted]series#ao3#ao3 tags#unrequited feelings#bottled up feelings
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“Shauna tries so hard to be a good person but sucks at it” vs “Natalie tries so hard to be an awful person but sucks at it.”
Shauna is fully capable and willing to kill and lie and cheat while maintaining this perfect apple pie illusion of a wholesome life and her family stays by her but even they’re starting to see the cracks in the veneer.
Natalie believes she destroys everything she touches, is constantly on a downward spiral of self-destruction, and hates herself for everything she did and yet she can’t even kill a goldfish on purpose and despite being openly antagonistic to everyone in the wellness center, they all seem to really like her.
FASCINATING dichotomy here.
#I feel like there’s so much Lottie vs Nat or Misty vs Nat foil comparisons#but dude she and Shauna are just representing two violent differences in the coping with trauma spectrum#Shauna bottles everything up#Natalie bottles NOTHING up#Shauna causes more destruction on ACCIDENT than Natalie causes on uproar#it’s so interesting!!#and I feel for them both#yellowjackets#yellowjackets spoilers#shauna shipman#natalie scatorccio
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house md is wild because house tells wilson that he’ll sacrifice many things but never himself and then he sacrifices himself for wilson. and then he sacrifices himself for wilson. and then he sacrifices himself for wilson. and then he
#also like. this is the guy who said that 'people dont change' for the majority of his life and then when wilson is dying hes like 'i can cha#nge' its that he doesn't talk about his feelings and he cannot bear to show weakness until it seems that he is losing wilson and then#he will literally say anything to keep him its that he is shown repeatedly to be a vicodin addict and that hes destroyed relationships over#his pain and his need for vicodin but he'll give wilson his own pills and go without to make sure wilson has enough meds its that he is#old and cynical and his beliefs about humanity have been written in stone and his walls are topped with turrets and barbed wire but the gate#s fucking open for wilson time and again and wilson is the exception to the rules time and again its. so fucked up#wilson is quite literally his anchor in humanity wilson is his achilles heel wilson is his entire support system the foundations of gregory#house's life have been built around one james evan wilson from the moment he saw that twink throw a bottle into a mirror. am i making sense#here. do these words mean anything#house#wilson#hilson#house md#hatecrimes md#house is a very very carefully constructed facade and wilson is a fucking sledgehammer.
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so i was thinking about how Howdy has eight legs bc he's a caterpillar - those have lots of legs. but butterflies? they only have six
imagine he comes out of his chrysalis and he's down two limbs. mf would have to relearn how to Walk
#i had this realization and Lunged for my tablet#caterpillars when they're in the soup: you know what? these are unnecessary *discards limbs*#and yes i know i know Technically caterpillars have six true legs and four prolegs yes yes#However they still kinda count and i like to have fun#he'd wake up and have a total httyd1 hiccup moment#*lifts blanket* Ohhhhhhhh fuck where's the other two#lmaoooo later frank hands him a bottle full of leftover Caterpillar Soup like 'here they are... sorry...'#i gave him cute stripey pj pants bc i caaaaaaan <3#scribble salad#yassified howdy <3#i feel so bad for him...#he tries so hard not to pupate and then not only Does He but he winds up with only two legs. poor guy!#not sure if i wanna stick with this for yass!howdy tho! i so do love his four legs...
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Feeling cute ,might run away😛
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higuruma who likes wine. i'm thinking he likes it almost as dry as his coffee but he's very appreciative of the fruity undertones — like you can tell the mood he's in based on the wine he's bought.
he wins a case and he already has a bottle of pinot noir open and waiting for when you finally get home, tie loose and manspreading on the couch, hair tousled and a small dopey smile (yes he started without you but don't worry, he's sure you can keep up)
or maybe he's lost a case and you're pouring him a third glass of california cabernet in the warm bathtub, soap bubbles on his frown lines, arms wrapped tight around you while you straddle him, his teeth grazing your shoulder (he's literally just a brooding baby, hold him pls)
either way, he fucks you idk why i was talking ab the wine. idk anything ab wine. basis is he fucks you while wine drunk really.
#📰 — archive#spit in my mo—#anyways#hiromi is a wine guy#nanami is more of a whiskey guy#he prob buys his wine at the same store everytime#very particular ab picking whichever one feels right in his hands#idk he might be autistic i think hes literally me#do not let him pour your wine though#he'll never let you stop drinking#this man is here for a GOOD time okay?#hes not stopping til the bottle is ran thru#will 100% call you wasteful and tease you if you can't keep up#loathes being called an alcoholic bcus god forbid he has attachment to a substance other than you#jjk higuruma#higuruma x reader#higuruma smut
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"But I wasn't crying because I was sad. I guess I was crying because we had nowhere else to go, no choice but to go on living in this world. Crying because we had no other world to choose, and crying at everything before us, everything around us."
– Mieko Kawakami, "Heaven"
#sometimes you just needs to cry and that's alright#never bottled up your feelings because it will eventually leads to depression or grief or other problems#dark academia#light academia#excerpts#fragments#poetry#books & libraries#on death#classic literature#dark academia literature#literary quotes#quotations
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vast boys!!
#tma#the magnus archives#ah. i think this will be forever a wip#mike crew#and whats that old guys name#simon fairchild#my art#ok ill still be tma posting but gOd i miss my sb i so much i cant explain it i feel sick#im relistening old fansongs reading fanfics that make me Insane and its back babyyyy it never left i. miss that time#i miss it so very much#if i could bottle up my first fandom experience i would
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Going to break into your house with pots and pans and yell at you until you reframe your thinking of productivity to include more than just schoolwork or a salary or chores and the like.
Did you do a thing? Was there a positive result for you or someone else?
Congratulations, you did a Productivity!!!
You aren’t ALWAYS going to be able to have the energy to do what we consider traditionally productive. You won’t always have the motivation.
Yeah, maybe you could have spent two hours studying for that test instead of 15 minutes. Maybe you could have cleaned the kitchen instead of the dishes. And? That’s still something!
Productivity is doing things!! Did you eat food and drink water? You did something that helped your body work! Doodled in class? You made art! Even just posting theories and memes on tumblr dot com is a thing! You thought out the post, figured out how to organize it (even if you don’t realize you did that) and you made it! And now other people can see and you DID something and you should be proud!!!
Be proud of yourself or I am going to show up outside your window tonight and scream positive affirmations louder than a cat who has just discovered her food bowl is empty.
#ESPECIALLY if you are disabled or mentally ill or sick or neurodivergent or any of the like#For me with ADHD and oftentimes poor mental health I really struggle to be traditionally “productive”#And earlier today I was frustrated because I was having a difficult time finishing a school assignment.#But also?#I noticed and made a post about a parallel between comic panels.#I’m working on a long post analyzing specific quotes from Webtoon.#I got up and got a water bottle.#Is that not productive?#Does that not produce a result that I and others may enjoy?#y’all have GOT to acknowledge little victories because that took effort and THAT was productive and Im sosososososososososo proud of you!!#adhd#autism#neurodivergent#i dont know what all to tag this as so feel free to reblog with any tags you feel this applies to or apply to you in relation to this!!#productive#disability#actually autistic#actually adhd#rambles
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im gonna start gatekeeping mp100 from mainstream shounen fans because half the time i watch reaction videos its just some dudebro going "HOLY SHIIIIIIIT MOB IS SO ANGRY AND POWERFUL THIS IS FUCKING AWESOME" every time he hits 100% as if hes an edgelord about to murder someone in cold blood. like
#mobs explosion (usually) isnt a good thing!! its his bottled-up feelings overwhelming him due to stress!!!!!!#youre supposed to root for his success but that isnt just limited to winning a fight!!!!!#this is a show abt self-reflection and being kind to others unconditionally!!!!!!!!!!#rip to people who dont love the-power-of-friendship stories. im different though#leo.txt#mp100#mob psycho 100
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#honkai star rail#hsr dr ratio#hsr aventurine#ratiorine#aventio#whatever other ship name they have. i saw like 4 THATS ENOUGH! /j#making horrible memes to speed up the time (aventurine banner please hurry)#Its not working. I cry every day i wake up hes still not here#Why do i always talk about him like im mourning him .#sorry im ramblinf Anyways . Here#★ my art#art#★ animations#my sona (a sliver) (aventurine sniped them with the water bottle if u didnt see that)#do i reblog too much?am i annoying yall? sorrryyyy……..#i reblog like everysingle aventurine related thing ever i feel like itd put 1 of my followers into a coma
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Angst time :D👍
You can read my rambling about her in the tags
#listen LisTEN TO Me#hear me OuT#oh is hc time#I read a while ago howw empathetic people tend to feel bad when they feel any angry/“negative emoy#el archivo literalmrnte lo tengo giardafo como “problemas emocionales goes brrrr” xD#how they tend to bottle everything up cause it makes thrm feel shame about how their actions might be seen as “selfish”#despite having VERY good and VALID reasons to justify thrir anger#based on the pilot I think she's pretty meek and also a little bit of a pushover#also I was thinking she'll be pretty self consious and try to mask her emotions the best she can#which obviously is super unhealthy#I think that at some point she's just going to SNAP and is gonna be awful and soo sad and omg I cant wait to see it#give my girl some character development pls#cause as much as I like crybabies characters I also like for thrm to learn how to stand up for themselves#anyway sory if that didnt made sense xDd is just that I have never had so much fun with a fictional character#mi hija fr#el archivo literalmente lo tengo guardado vomo “problemas emocionales goes brrr” xD#ya ahora si los tags serios#tadc fanart#the amazing digital circus#tadc#tadc gangle#gangle
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Hello azu, I have a question about the cover of your fancomic "Godfather"!
I like your comic, but I don't understand the symbolism of the mourning frame next to Shane, could you explain it to me?
I just think that the grief of losing his loved ones killed him too, if that makes sense.
Godfather comic
#stardew valley#stardew valley shane#shane stardew valley#sdv shane#shane sdv#stardew shane#shane stardew#stardew#sdv#sv shane#shane sv#if youre curious: my hc is that jas' mom is shane's sister#and jas' dad is his best friend#they were the only two people in his life at this point that he really opened up to...#and his whole world was just him jas his best friend and sister. and he was just satisfied with this quiet little life with them#and of course when they were gone it left a sizeable hole in his heart and it took him a long looong time to recover from that grief#because he didnt process his feelings properly and bottled it up. and it was killing him#he didnt want jas to see him look weak or vulnerable because he knows jas is relying on him to be her father now#but it really wasnt good for him to keep all that inside. and thata why he spiralled in sdv hence his heart events#im talking too much im done now alfkakgksgkskgk
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thanks for infecting me with marchil its so so fun to just see them pair themselves up in the background now
especially love how much she picks him up like a cat (and when he has the opportunity to do it to her too he just lugs her around like a sack of oats) gosh i love them they're so funny
YAAAAAA 🎉🎉 I’m so glad to hear it welcome to the sillies corner 🤝
THEY’RE SOOO SO FUNNY
They’re worsties that cannot get enough of each other
#Ask#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#dungeon meshi#marchil#MAKE IT MAKE SENSEEE they’re so ‘see u later bestie!! <3 … Can’t stand their fake ass smh’#Ppl get on Marcille’s case about teasing him about his age but I think most forget how teasing her is Chil’s mission & calling 24/7#-sends off an explosion near him- ‘Woah careful there!! Is he okay??!!’ ‘What are you a baby it’s just a lil explosion he’ll be fine’#Rest of the time: ‘CHIL ARE YOU OKAY OMIGOSH I’M COMING DON’T WORRY’#He laughs at her so so much. So often. They are united in haterism like ‘thank god we’re normal’ and then realize they are so obnoxious#I’ve been trying to think of funky ship names for them lately. Bc Short Fuse is taken by another ship from another fandom </3#None feel perfect but… Closed book. Magiclock. Detonation… Implode explode… Bc she makes boom booms and he undoes traps which blow up#Also he bottles his feelings up until he bursts hehe#Anyways. Just a short comp of the sillies#Compilation#Marcille donato#chilchuck tims
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