joseph awuah-darko

02.08.23

Set theory and pretty cafes✨

Lately, I'm having a bit trouble relaxing. I realised that, irrespective of where I am and what I'm doing, there's always a sensation of anxiety buzzing in me. Maybe I'm stressed about exams, or life in general.

I guess the 20s have their own personality to them.

i was thinking of inviting my sister for the baptism of my stuffed animal. then i remembered i am 26 years old........

20s

I am tired of denying that I am a lover girl. I am tired of pretending that I do not romanticize every single moment of eye-contact with a stranger I'll never see again. It is true. I am a Wattpad era adolescent stuck inside a body of an adult. I inhaled the plethora of "bad boy, good girl" novels that plagued our youth. So when that obvious red flag gives me a second of attention, I am ready to lay my heart out for him. Yeah, I'll scream "independence!" to anyone who listens, but please, I beg, someone take care of me. I am tired of never admitting how awfully, how desperately I want to be loved. And perhaps, I'll never look a man in the eye and fully trust him. Maybe my overthinking would sabotage even the remote possibility of shooting my shot. But by God, I want to take care of someone and not have to doubt that I'm doing too much. To be uncontrollably, unconditionally in love with someone. To write them letters and buy them gifts and pick flowers for them because I've always wanted to give a boy a dozen roses and watch his eyes light up in appreciation. To cook for someone and sing along with them and arm wrestle with a smile that I can't hide. To have a warm cup of tea with someone and listen to the rain and cuddle. I want to be so overwhelmed, so undeniably happy, like a teenager before they ever knew that heartbreak was a few months away. Rebellious, unfiltered, courageous love that never ends.

being in your 20s is not knowing what exactly your age is, you just know ur in your 20s

Like, yes, I was born to be a garden fairy and only live on flower pollen and fairy dust, but I am also a real person and currently in my wtf am I gonna do era.

ALL I WANT IS MY OWN GIRL GANG WHY IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR

10.12.23

And we've got our December already🧣

The magic of small town skies🪅

Last week, I had such a crazy schedule; doing my assignment in trains, studying and joining meetings in the spare minutes between my absolutely packed days.

Coffee, Skies and the Rushing time.

Current Read 📖: The Art of Racing in the Rain🐕

The feeling of decay gets larger each time I hear the sound of my heartbeat.

At least my mind is quiet for now.

Damn life gets weird when you just.. keep going. I'm gonna be in my mid 20s this year and I did not plan to keep this up past 18

and now I just kind of do laundry, cook pasta and dream of one day throwing a family-size sheet cake off a tall building.

razan graduated in SEPTEMBER 2023. September. all those posts about figuring things out, the confusion and all that comes with post- graduation. razan can’t think about any of that right now. she and her family must evacuate, including her mother that needs treatment.

evacuations have now gotten more expensive as well. this family’s gfm goal is $50k. they’ve raised NOT EVEN $2k. i ask u again, gather all your resources, your friends and mutuals, and mass donate and to this campaign. for every donation, please get a friend(or more than one) to match yours. please please please.

Being in my 20s is like I understand more of adulting and less than I ever have. It’s a lot of, “What am I doing?, Am I doing enough?” And constantly feeling like I’m running out of time. My childhood friends are almost strangers to me yet, there's no one I know better. I want to drink wine. I never stopped wanting to climb trees or go down slides. I know more than l have ever known before. I don't know anything at all. I’m seven years old and sixteen and twenty one and 50. I believe the only thing that will make me truly happy is to be little again but I also want to live a long and full life. I anchor deeper into who I am but there is still so much I need to learn about her. I spend time with the people I love most and feel like nothing matters more than that. I want to go home but I don't know where that is. I think it may be somewhere inside of me but i'm not sure.