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erwinsmithsmissingleftarm · 7 months

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How long aot men last during the No Nut November

Including: Levi, Erwin, Jean, Eren, Armin & Reiner

Cw: Adult content , mention of dub-con for Levi's part

Levi:

Doesn't give a fuck about the challenge, it's not true that he will restrict himself from fucking his girlfriend. At the second you ask him about the No Nut November challenge, he will grab you and bend you over the table.

"I don't give a damn fuck about this challenge! I was virgin for years so it's not true that I will do that again."

He will make you fail with him, fucking you like a wild beast at the very first day of the challenge. I mean... did you really expected Levi to get into such a useless and stupid challenge? Levi isn't ashamed to say that he didn't even try to last a single day. He even finds it funny seeing his friends struggling to keep going. And to be even more stubborn, he will do the exact opposite of the challenge by trying to fuck you every day for a whole month. Hope you have the stamina darling!

Erwin:

Will probably be able to last all month (which is obviously longer than you). The only thing that can make him fail is actually... you. You just have to beg him to fuck you and man, he will lose it. He could have keep going without sex for longer but he can't see his little girl all needy for him.

"Are you sure? I thought you wanted to accomplish the challenge. Well, I give up if you give up."

Will proceed to grab you and throw you into the bed before crawling between your legs and undressing you both. Strong arms spreading your legs as you let out a moan when your two bodies connect together. So many days without this feeling of pleasure... you deserve it.

Jean:

Even with his big ass ego, he can just last for one week. Jean was sure that he could win the challenge without any efforts but... he learned at this moment that you were too much tempting. Always wearing those little skirts or shorts that let him see everything every time you bend to grab something or the too revealing neckline that showed a little piece of the fabric of your bra.

"Fuck, how can I accomplish the challenge if you don't stop teasing me?"

Will be a bit self-ashamed when he will wake up one morning naked in the bed beside you. Dammit, he had a good start but you managed to win against him. Jean will be a bit disappointed at the beginning but finally he will tell himself that the challenge is stupid anyway and that fucking you is way better.

Eren:

Four to five days is the longer Eren can last. It started well but quickly became difficult for him. This man is love-sick with you and you guys got habits that are difficult to destroy. That's why on the 4th day the sexual frustration started to be feel by both of you.

"God damn, why can't I stop fantazing about you?"

You both say that at the same time before starting to laugh. There is no embarrassment between you two since a long time so you just both gave up at the same time before having an intense seance on the kitchen table. What's better than having sex with your lover? That feeling of ectasy can't be replaced by anything else in the world.

Armin:

Armin is such a sweet boy that he didn't even know what's the No Nut November challenge. Once explained to him, he turned red and quietly nodded, telling you that he will accomplish it. But about 3 weeks after, you caught him right during his jerking off seance. Oh god, poor boy was so embarrassed and ashamed of himself.

"I-I'm sorry! I just had a... thought and it just... kinda happened."

Please, reassure him and tell him that it is okay or he will feel bad forever. Armin was truly sure that you will be mad at him but call him a good boy and praise him. Let me remind you that this baby is into mommy kink and praise kink so he will 100% melt and forget about it.

Reiner:

Pretty much like Erwin, he is able to last all month but he won't even lose against you. No matter how much you beg him to fuck you, he will remind you about the challenge and it's supposely "benefic"effect. Unfortunately for you, Reiner has a lower sex drive than you so he doesn't get sexually frustrated after the 3 first weeks.

"You can do what you want, honey, but I will try to win the challenge."

Finally, it's the first of December, and you can finally do the deed. You two officially managed to get through November succesfully (even if you almost gave up once). Even Reiner found it more difficult than what he originally thought but you can reward yourselves by having intense love-making seance of many rounds to get all this frustration out of you.

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eaeulfl · 4 months

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After taking a break for a few days I’ve pretty much calmed down enough to be able to think about who my favorite characters are now that I’ve finished the show

Obviously spoilers if you’re not done with the show

1. I don’t like children but if I had sasha as a daughter I would work my butt off to ensure she got to eat every single thing she wanted to eat and I’d make sure to spend as much time as possible to bond with her and I’d teach her about the world while also shielding her from every kind of hurt. I believe in sasha supremacy. The moment she saved Samuel back in season 1 I immediately felt there was going to be more to her than just the comedic relief. She’s the loveliest ball of sunshine in the show and she deserved so much more screen time. I don’t know how many times I’ve watched her save kaya now and every time I go back to when she got carlo in one shot and then proceeded to look the cart dead in the eye without flinching even as the cart was about to charge at her I’m always filled with pride. She grew up so well.

2. Jean’s character development is one of the best in the series, and he’s charismatic but also incredibly relatable. From the looks of it he grew up in a relatively normal family, had a normal childhood, and he didn’t have ackerman/noble blood or titan powers or special abilities and yet was the best out of all of the ‘normal’ scouts from the 104th. I could go on and on and on about why he’s so precious but there’s just one thing I want to mention at this point because I just realized I’ve never talked about this before. He’s a decent man and I love him for it. It’s sad that we feel we have to ‘applaud’ or even comment on something like this but this is the world we live in. What I mean is, some guys are weird with their crushes, like predatory or toxic, but not jean. He never tried to manipulate mikasa and he wasn’t even annoying with it. Regardless of how she was as a person, he treated her as just that, a person, and as a friend. And he truly meant well. That’s unfortunately more than what we can say for a lot of men (and women). Also, he should’ve been the next commander and I don’t care if this has become redundant. I will die on this hill.

3. I just want to know why we weren’t given a backstory for hange. Levi had one erwin had one even jean had one (baby jean boy is the cutest 😭) the majority of the main cast had some kind of backstory but not hange. Why???????? Also, I’m not into girls but I’d probably marry her. And this is another thing that I haven’t talked about on here, which is that the entire time I was watching the series, the one and only time I actually teared up was when she died and met all of those that had passed before her. It was the whole situation of her doing everything she could to hold back the rumbling and then literally burning to her death and then meeting the others and her looking at the flying boat from a distance. The moment I heard Erwin’s voice saying “it took off” I lost it. I wasn’t sobbing or anything but internally I really was suffering. Most likely it wasn’t just hange but rather the weight of it all, and my heart hurt more times than I can count watching the series, but this really was the one and only time, which is saying something considering the show is basically just one massive heartbreak.

4. I know connie is popular enough but to me he’s still such an underrated character. Even back in season 1 where we didn’t get to see him as much, I always had a soft spot for him. I think it was mostly because he often acted like an idiot, which was endearing on its own, but you could also kind of sense that there was more to him than just that, much like sasha. And the affection that he had for his family and especially for his mom, my heart hurts every time I think about it. I wish he had been given more screen time. Also it’s probably obvious by now but since I haven’t said it before I’ll take this chance. I’d rather watch the show with Sasha jean and Connie as the main trio. There I said it. And I’m sure there are others who share my sentiment. Another thing that I’ve never said before is I feel like he had one of the best physical glow ups in the series 😂 I really really liked how he looked by the end of it. He was already handsome to begin with and it wasn’t like he had an enormous change in appearance either but adulthood looked really good on him. And I love a man who cuts his own hair.

5. I would love a proper prequel with Levi as the main character.

6. I really wish we got to see more of Pyxis. Go on and give us that in the prequel above 🙏

7. I was quite surprised I ended up liking Keith so much considering there isn’t much material to turn to, but his scenes in season 4 hit me like a truck. Don’t be shy and show us more of him in the prequel above 👍

8. Reiner also took me by surprise. I knew there must have been more to his story, alongside bertholdt’s and Annie’s, but I just didn’t feel anything for him in seasons 1 to 3. On the other hand watching him in season 4 felt like watching a whole other person. This probably sounds stupid but the thought of it is fair I think. If I had a choice I probably would have married hange and then raised Sasha, jean, Connie, Levi and Reiner as our children. Also I’m not denying that Reiner’s sins are real, but I still believe he deserved better. No one should have to go through what the warriors/Eldians in Marley had to go through. He literally developed a whole other personality to cope. It wouldn’t be an exaggeration to say that the guilt must have been eating him alive.

9. I still haven’t been able to get over Erwin’s death. I might not be able to. I mean, asking “What do you see here? What do you think the enemy is?” all the way back in season 1? Mentally the man was already in season 4 😩 It’s kind of sad but his absence in the last season made me appreciate him even more. Somehow he was always at the back of my mind. Also while he often manipulated people he rarely, if ever, did so with lies. He saw himself as an “expert conman” with “a whole slew of lies” but I don’t think this is true. The only one I can think of at the moment is when he arranged for the scouts to be told different things concerning eren’s location for the 57th expedition. But this doesn’t hurt anyone and it was mainly done for eren’s security and to lure out the possible spies so I’m not mad at this at all. He rarely lied about the actual facts of a situation, and I really respect him for that. He’s much less a conman and much more a hype man. Just for the record though I’m always going to feel 50/50 about him but despite this he’s number 9 out of all of the characters because the half that I do like is really doing its work like the rent is due.

10. Armin but the fact that I had to think long and hard about whether or not I liked anyone better...🤡 Season 1 armin is still my favorite armin, specifically the first half of it, and it’s not even close 💀 had this been based on just the rest of the series he wouldn’t even have touched the top 15. It’s simply amazing how he went from being one of the most promising, most inspiring characters to being one of the biggest letdowns in the entire series. That said, he will always have a special place in my heart. For me, a few of his best moments were when he was shaking in fear the first time the colossal attacked but still managed to find hannes and then asked him for help, when he comforted bertholdt by saying that cherishing one’s life is admirable too, and when he came up with that speech in order to convince the soldiers that eren wasn’t an enemy (yes he would’ve failed without Pyxis but, for me, the speech still remains to this day one of the most iconic and one of the most moving parts of the whole show).

Honorable mentions:

1. Falco the sweetest child

2. Most of floch’s lines in season 3 were chef’s kiss and even though I don’t agree with his ideals I still think his relentlessness and leadership were commendable

3. I really appreciate Artur and Lisa braus for their wisdom and their hearts of gold

4. Colt the best big bro

If we ever get a prequel or a sequel or whatever then I’ll probably make another list again

#I’m tired as hell so some parts of this might be a bit messy #or maybe the whole thing is messy idk I’m too tired to care at this point #I had a really long day today lol anyway #shingeki no kyojin #sasha braus #jean kirschtein #hange zoe #connie springer #levi ackerman #dot pyxis #keith shadis #reiner braun #erwin smith #armin arlert #falco grice #floch forster #artur braus #lisa braus #colt grice

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spiteless-xo · 9 months

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7, 14 and 18 for the ask game?

yay, ty for asking!! 🥰

7. What thing(s) in canon do you have VERY STRONG OPINIONS ON?

ok, first off, i love eremika, but i strongly think that eren loved armin more than i loved mikasa. his whole motivation for wanting to see the outside world was because of how happy and excited armin was when he showed him the book with the ocean. i'd love to see a spin-off where levi chooses to save erwin instead of armin because i think eren's decent into madness would be much darker and more cruel and i think that'd be REALLY COOL to see.

14. What character deserved more screen time?

porco galliard 😫 my baby, my boy!! also mechamaru from jjk. after seeing him in the most recent episodes, it made me wish i saw more of him in the anime, too

18. What is your favorite fanfic troupe? Least favorite?

i looooooooove fake dating. idk what it is about it, but watching people who are pretending to be a couple, slowly stop pretending is just so cute and romantic to me. i don't know that there's any trope that i really hate? none that i can think of off the top of my head, anyway.

asks game questions

#tiff.ask #wing-ed-thing #asks game

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rahfia · 1 year

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Possesive's Own Tragedy by thexwhys

First of all, ang ganda. So much emotion, very roller-coaster ang ma-fefeel mo sa story na to. This is my second story sa Infliction na natapos ko actually. Una kay Hell. Hahaha. Diba naka-warm up na ko. 🤣

My thoughts about everything:

Characters:

Felix Arkon Gulmatico-Laurent. Gosh, speechless ako sayo boy. Hahaha. Hindi ko naman maitatanggi na kinilig ako sa kanya talaga kasi the assurance grabe umaapaw and the honesty top- tier plus kapag magmahal siya center of the world na. The way he would move heaven and earth for his loved ones 100/100 talaga. Pero siyempre hindi siya perfect. Ang pinaka-problem siguro kay Arkon is sinasarili niya lahat na kahit sobrang bigat na hanggang pwede pa, kanya lang. He knows na marami siyang support system pero he chose to keep it kasi nasa isip niya it will burden the people around him. Overall, mamahalin. 🤣

Olivia Maravilla-Laurent. You'll love her. Period. She's a softy but at the same time tough, yan ang nakikitang pag-potray sa kanya. Sa mga napagdaanan niya na hindi niya deserve and to fight it, tama lang ang word na survivor sa kanya. Wala lang ako mapintas kay Livi kasi pati si Helena na maldita love siya. Hahaha. Ang grabe lang siguro kay Liv ay yung overthinking and self pity niya dito malala pero ayaw ko naman invalidate yun kasi gets naman kung saan niya hinuhugot yon. Overall, mas mamahalin.

Story (scenes etc)

Eto yung story na akala mo puro nalang tragedy. Kasi naman hanggang dulo pagsubok malala tong peg ni te Cams. Hahahaha. Pero bumawi naman. 🤣

Ang galing netong story. Hindi mabigat pero hindi rin magaan. The only time na sinipon ako yung na-deds si Kim, after nun na-sad lang nang konti sa ibang scene pero the rest happy/kilig na. Hindi ko sure kung bakit. 😁

I always admire when te Cams brought two people together and etong dalawang tao broken na akalain mo beyond repair. Let's face it before meeting each other Arkon and Livi, they're not living. They are surviving nalang. Kung oras mo na, oras mo na. Parang ganun eh. Kaya as the story progressed nakikita mo yung glow-up between the characters ang laki. They started seeing life differently and i love how they became each other's strength na yung broken pieces naging whole. Destiny talaga sila. 😭❤️

Sobrang ganda rin ng mga topics dito sa stories na to. First,moving on. That is not easy to move forward dahil masakit, kahit hindi kaya pero I salute how the story shows that they do it for themselves na walang tutulong sayo kundi sarili mo na okay rin ang may inspiration pero kung gusto mo talaga, magagawa mo. Kaya let that sink in. Second, being a mother. For some importante ang magka-baby. In this story you provided adoption, surrogacy and pregancy-- different ways, same outcome and that's amazing. Third, awareness. Down-syndrome, Parkinson's and trauma other sensitive topics na alam na-tackle sa stories na to, thank you for that kasi eye-opening yon. Lastly, relationships. Bet ko yung hierarchy ni Arkon pag dating sa relationship nila ni Livi. Noted po.

The wedding scene po. For a person na dagat is life, nag-imagine ako dun talaga. Yung venue, yung suot ni Livi lahat. Sobrang magical. Deserve ni Livi yon.

Also yung heart kineme part. Remember when Arkon is begging Kim's heart to beat vs. Livi letting him know na her heart will beat and Arkon can listen to it everytime. Glow - up din.

Ano ba pa?? Ah yung Erwin scene. Deserve talaga. Sarap mag-cheer habang nagbabasa. Kasi like everyone else kung pwede lang pugutan si Erwin ginawa na. Hahahaha.

Lines:

Inipon ko to talaga. Hahaha.

Eto yung lines ni Arkon na alam mong para kay Livi lahat gagawin niya:

Also love this line.

And this:

Masyado na ko nag-enjoy. Nakaka-inlove kasi silang dalawa. Worth it lahat. Hahaha. Anyway, excited na ko sa mga susunod. Alam ko naman ginawa lang tong appetizer kasi baka madugo na yung mga susunod. 😂

#TPOT #Arkon #Livi #thexwhys

#Spotify

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haztory · 3 years

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𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐬

--erwin smith x reader; fluff, domestic, not canon compliant farmer erwin, there’s a mentioning of injuries but not enough to be considered graphic! (erwin lives!)

a.n: this is my attempt at swinging back into the ways of writing after a long, long, long hiatus! i wrote this in thirty minutes as just an exercise, but felt it was cohesive enough to post. its vague, abstract, and definitely not a magnum opus, but its something. this is more of an erwin story than an x reader one, but i hope you all enjoy regardless!

this was titled after a song on the pride and prejudice ost of the same name. highly recommend you give it a listen

anything for my sweet boy erwin ♡

(w.c: 1686)

At the initial prospect of it, retirement was somewhat akin to shooting oneself in the foot for a man like Erwin. It was condescending, debilitating, almost an insult were he any lesser than a reasonable man.

The word was floated around numerous times after the loss of his arm, spoken with a gentleness and, dare he say, a trepidation they believed must be adopted when speaking to the freshly injured man. For fear of upsetting him or for fear of making the situation real, he’s not quite sure. It was mentioned, nonetheless. In passing, directly, through implication; Everyone seemed to think that Erwin was less of a man and more of a liability because of his lost arm, and that retiring from the Scout Regiment would be the best option for everyone.

That was something he took offense to.

His physical abilities may be considerably limited now, yes, but he still holds inherent value to the cause he’s dedicated his life to. Still has goals, still has dreams, still has ideas that must be discussed and implemented if the fate of humanity is to even think about surviving beyond the next few days.

Erwin still had some fight in him, and he still had things to offer. Things that retirement would take away from him.

The word settled like a thick tar on his tongue and left a bitter aftertaste, one he couldn’t bear to swallow down. So he didn’t. He spit the word back out, removing it from his mouth and sternly asking others to rid themselves of it too. They followed his order, albeit begrudgingly, but the conversation ended then and there. Not permanently, unfortunately. No amount of power, Erwin imagines, could ever snuff out the growing fear his missing appendage has instilled in his soldiers. That even the most untouchable, unshakeable of leaders could be tainted by this cruel world.

He knows it's on everyone's mind, no matter how many times he can try to assuage the fears, for if the exchanged uneasy glances between his eccentric Section Commander and trusted Captain were anything to go by, then the fear his cadets must feel must be traumatizing. The looks they pass to one another when they think he isn’t looking.

Erwin lost an arm, not his intuition. It seems he’s the only one who knows that.

But they let it go. They all do, for now at least. They reluctantly put a pin at his assertion that he would continue his work, regardless of injury, and quickly filed this topic as one they would return to at a later date. Appease him now to make him more receptive to the future. They let him continue to work himself dry, let him continue with physical missions like he wasn’t missing a trusted appendage, and entertained his reckless and drastic thoughts to a certain extent.

When he lands himself back in the infirmary, this time with a serious rupture to the side of his stomach from flying debris, and a number of broken bones that will surely cause permanent hindrance to his mobility, the topic is brought back up again. Only this time, it’s non-negotiable. His near death was the final straw in forcing Erwin Smith into retirement.

∵

He hates it.

Hates how quiet his home is, hates how unexciting his routine is, hates not being able to know.

But he finds that making coffee is still manageable with one arm. The sun still shines as brightly inside the walls as it does outside. The birds still chirp excitedly in the morning and the wind still blows gently in the afternoon.

He hates retirement, but it’s manageable.

It gets better after a while, the presence of a neighbor making his nights substantially more interesting with the dinner she brings over.

∵

The house is quiet once again, only the distant chirps of the birds filling the empty space. It's familiar, but he finds it unsettling this time around. A feeling of anticipation creeping into his stomach, waiting for the other shoe to drop at any moment.

It doesn’t happen.

With a slight furrow in his brow and after a long analyzing gaze outside the window above the kitchen sink, Erwin makes his way towards the front door, granting him access to the front porch of the house. Settled away from the city, the land his house is built on stretches for miles; Fields of green spread out before him and littered with tall, blooming and swaying trees. The chickens squawk and run around before him and the horses huff their snorts of boredom. There’s activity in the Smith residence, but it’s not the kind he’s looking for.

There’s something missing.

Bringing his left arm up to his mouth, he curls his fingers below his tongue, blowing out a loud and sharp whistle that has all movement still for a brief moment on his farm. All attention piqued on him, the animals and the trees alike waited for Erwin’s response.

They wait, and they wait, and they wait. But still, nothing.

The crease between Erwin’s brows dips further. A brief flash of worry settles in his shoulders. He pulls his fingers into his mouth again, blowing a whistle that lasts for a few seconds longer this time. His eyes stay trained on the hill before him, hoping to see something. Anything.

He waits a minute before the restlessness takes over and he takes his steps down the stairs of the porch, his boots crunching against the crisp grass still wet from the morning dew. He approaches the top of the hill, the one that lays level with the foundation of his house, before surveying the land further below. He looks left and right, then left again and then right again, eyes peeled for that familiar flash of grey.

Where in the world could that damn dog have gone?

The dog is usually fast enough to return before he even needs to whistle a second time, never straying too far from the property for her to not hear Erwin’s call. But this time is different. She’s gone and isn’t returning to him and that can only mean one thing.

Trouble.

He begins his trek down the hill, the morning still early enough to not have him sweating on this irregular stroll of his, but he can feel the temperature slowly rising through the air. The wind serves as his only semblance of comfort as it continues its mission of cooling the exposed skin of his forearm and neck.

He must be walking for at least five minutes before he sees it. The scraggly grey hair of a dog's bottom, her top half hidden behind a large oak tree but her tail wagging ferociously. A small smile graces Erwin’s face subconsciously, the slowly building apprehension dissipating in an instant at seeing the vivacious mutt.

Or at least at seeing her bottom half.

He approaches the tree slowly, the noises of enjoyment and panting from the dog becoming louder as he draws nearer. But there’s another sound too that fills the air. A sound much sweeter and delicate, one that he’s heard a thousand times over the years, and yet, Erwin swears it's one he can never get tired of.

It’s a breath of fresh air, an instant drug in his veins, and the reason behind the swelling of his heart. His smile grows wider than he could have possibly imagined.

He gets close enough and the dog finally notices him, bounding over to him in an instant with a greeting bark and a perk in her step. He pats her head, a silent gratefulness at having found her finally and understanding why she refused to meet his calls. Why she continued to stay at the spot behind the oak tree a five minute walk away from her home.

He finally gets near the tree, peering around its large trunk to the spot the dog previously occupied and can’t help but laugh in surprise.

Sitting in the space between the bulging roots are his two girls, one aged six and the other three, huddled close together as they coo and giggle over an object resting between the two’s feet. Their backs are turned towards their father, too preoccupied with whatever was settled between them to even notice the beloved dog’s disappearance from her original spot and its replacement with their father.

His years of training to fight titans kicks in, his steps as quiet as can be as he gets closer to the girls to get a look at what they were currently fawning over.

A baby bird. Brown in color and more than comfortable between the two children.

“What are you two doing?”

His voice sends a jolt of shock through them, the two girls jumping in the air at the sudden disruption and whipping their faces around to look at the intruder. The fear quickly melts off of their round faces when they realize who it is.

“Daddy!” The two girls yell unanimously, unbridled joy filtering their features and Erwin briefly sees the beautiful face of their mother in them. The youngest in particular.

The eldest managed to take most of his features, much to his wife’s pleasure, retaining his aquiline nose, the vibrant blue of his eyes, and his own oval face shape, but her hair is a delightful mix between his and his wife’s. And while she looks the most like him, she acts the most like her mother; Joyous and giggly and a passionate ball of rays.

Now, his youngest, while looking almost entirely like a carbon copy of her mother, was in fact a replica of his own personality. Quiet, curious, diplomatic. A balance to her impulsive sister, a shining grey crater of peace in the sky.

His sun and moon. His reasons for orbit. The loves of his life.

∵

And as he walks his two girls back across the field to their home, their mother’s figure on the horizon and an excited chatter between them as they recount the tales of their morning in helping the baby bird, a single thought enters Erwin’s mind.

Retirement isn’t so bad.

#erwin smith x reader #erwin x reader #aot x reader #attack on titan x reader #erwin smith #fluff #my writing #baby boy erwin deserves the world #i just want him to be happy

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kojinnie · 3 years

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Why you should NOT date AOT boys...

Headcanon on what kind of headache you're bound for when dating the AOT boys, and why I advise you NOT to date them! Enjoy, loves!

levi - eren - armin - reiner

part two here | erwin - zeke - jean - connie

— LEVI

He's an incredible man with a lot of talents and he'd be doing real good at his job, that dating him would give you a huge sense of pride. However, this man suffers from being emotionally constipated. He'd always keep you in the fine line of "are we or are we not?", even though you’ve been seeing each other for a long time. He’d never say “I love you” or any type of flashy display of affection. His love language is acts of service and quality time, so if you’re the type to wanting outward reassurance of how someone feels about you, Levi’s not gonna be the person to give you that.

This problem stems from his deep, unresolved insecurity about the nature of relationship. It’s not just the “Am I good enough?”, he genuinely thinks that he is not a good person, and thus the inherent belief that everybody will abandon him in the end — something he picks up from his traumatic childhood. He’s wary about establishing relationship because he’s afraid to succumb into his own feelings and vulnerability. He fears at certain point he has to feel and suffer the emotional consequence of being left by someone he cares for. He dreads the idea of getting caught off-guard with being fragile.

You gotta be extremely patient and understanding when it comes to Levi, the reassurance needs to come from you, and frequently too. Bluntly saying, “I’ll stick around” or “I’ll accept your shortcoming” is really soothing for Levi, because although he never shows it, he really thinks he does not deserve you.

— EREN

If you wanna be frustrated in a relationship where you constantly feel like you’re in an endless coaster, then dating Eren gotta be your poison. Sure the honeymoon phase was intoxicating, sure he makes you feel like the prettiest girl in the world. The morning text, the playful neck peck out in the public, the butterflies you feel in your tummy when you catch him staring at you even from afar with those oh so enthralling green eyes. But once the honeymoon phase over, Eren is quick to get bored. Especially if you’re an unproblematic, matter-of-fact type of person. Eren likes to fight, he gets thrilled by it, and he’s high with the rush of adrenaline. He likes it if you’re jealous, if you sulk, if you argue. He likes you to be ‘childish’ because then he gets to be the adult, the savior, the knight in shining armor. It grinds his gears. If you’re unfazed by his antics, if you’re easy to forgive, if you’re chill, Eren will think that you’re not really into him, and will exit the closest door out before his ego gets bruised even further.

Eren is sort of babied by people around him – his parents, his friends, and constantly being compared to his older brother doesn’t help either. He realizes that he got saved a lot of times by a lot of people. And this creates a deeply rooted insecurity with him that turns into an incessant impostor syndrome. The constant thought of not being good enough and the idea that all the achievement he’s ever got was the result of someone else’s help really crush him. You can shower him with praises and reassurance, but he would completely dismiss it, because he thinks your compliments are not based on objective views and that he does not deserve it. He painfully seeks for approval from any authority figure that (he thinks) does not have any emotional connection with him. And it can be really hurtful when he constantly dismisses your sincere compliments while desperately chasing from others who don’t care about him.

— ARMIN

It’s really hard to hate Armin. He’s a really nice man through and through, but what is his strength can also be his deepest weakness. He’s too nice and unsure about a lot of things. He knows he is knowledgeable, but he often doubts himself for being too ‘text-book smart’. Which is a valid cause, because at times he would get very oblivious to how relationship works, and treat feelings like it’s a quantifiable system. It will literally take years for him to finally get down and say how he feels about you, because all these times he was so busy filling the check-list in his mind to convince himself whether you truly like him or not, even though you couldn’t be any clearer with your intention towards him.

He is perceptive with what you think and how you feel, unfortunately this does not materialize into any action as he doubts his own intuition when it comes to his significant other. He fears that his own sentimentality has affected his intuitive judgment and thus deems it invalid, which is completely untrue because every hunch he has about you has always been accurate! That’s just how much he understands and knows you from years of quietly observing and taking each of your word into account.

He really relies on you sitting him down and telling him in details how you feel and the things you expect from him. He will do it, in a flash with no hesitation, but really, he just needs that verbal affirmation that he is doing the things that you want, and it’s not just based on his assumption. So, if you like sweet surprises, impulsive dates and expect your significant other to read your mind, Armin might not be the person.

— REINER

Oh my, truthfully, he is such a sweetheart, and can be completely smitten for the entirety of his life if he has found that one person. However, it’s a treacherous road for both Reiner and you to get to that stage. Initially, when you start to get closer to him, he may seem rigid and uninterested. The first date you had with him probably went awkward and although you really liked him, you were pretty sure he didn’t like you back, until he texted you the morning after, asking for a second date. That’s basically how being with Reiner is, a series of you being sure that he feels nothing towards you, only for his following action to prove the otherwise. He is really awful in displaying his emotion, he tries to be stoic all the time, and it often frustrates you because you cannot really tell how he feels, and you fear that you might have hurt him without realizing.

He may start to open up, only when you open up first about yourself. He thrives in romance with someone who he thinks shares his inner pain, and that’s very important for him, because he is always in a position where everyone expects him to be strong, and to have a significant other that understands his struggle is all he wants. But this gets hard for you, because sometimes Reiner’s sadness can be quite extreme and you cannot match that. Once Reiner realizes that you’re not on the same boat, he may become withdrawn, as he thinks he’s a burden and inadequate for you, and may end up self-sabotaging the whole relationship he has with you.

Although he does not like to admit it, but Reiner often slips into his sadness too deep, that it almost seems like he victimizes himself with his self-hatred. He will be the one to say stupid shit like, “You deserve someone better.” Or “I cannot make you happy.” When in fact you are perfectly willing to be with him all the way through.

With Reiner, you gotta be the bigger person, with bigger gestures and bigger patience. It’s because Reiner needs an anchor and a figure to lean on. In returns he would be the best lover that you will ever have for he is selfless and will be helplessly devoted to you.

Racking my brain writing for the rest of the boys (Erwin, Jean, Connie, Pocko) because they're the ones we SHOULD date.

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tsukibraun · 3 years

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would the AOT men let you have a boy best friend?

eren yeager

you must be deranged if you think this boy would let you have a guy best friend. he’s your only guy best friend, no one else. kid would literally kill the man.

armin arlert

armin wouldn’t care honestly. he’d probably become good friends with him himself if they weren’t already before. if he gets too close or flirty then i think armin would address it, but other than that, he’s a chill dude.

connie springer

completely oblivious. probably the guy’s best friend too.

jean kirschtien

he would let it happen, but he wouldn’t like it. he’s not the type to be super controlling, but he would definitely be extremely passive aggressive and make smart remarks to the guy pretty often. also touching and kissing you more often when he’s around, or keeping an eye out whenever he was away from you two.

marco bott

are you kidding me? of course. similar to armin, he’d probably become friends with the guy himself if they weren’t friends already. he’d probably invite him to stuff as well, and even hanging out with him individually from time to time. anyone who is a friend of yours is a friend of his. (he deserves the world :’))

bertholdt hoover

berdolt honestly does not care, he probably wouldn’t even realize at first 💀 jean or reiner would probably be the one to bring it to his attention, but he’d probably be like “so?”. doesn’t care as long as the guy doesn’t blatantly flirt and knows his place, berdolt is cool with it.

reiner braun

huge. jealous. baby. he would be jealous, but he would also want you to be happy, so he probably wouldn’t say anything. he’d also probably compare himself to whoever it is, trying to see what he has that reiner didn’t. you’d probably catch on tho and remind him that reiner is fine the way he is, and there’s a reason he’s your boyfriend instead. 😊

levi ackerman

no.

erwin smith

also no.

zeke yeager

this also really depends. he might be cool with it if he likes him, but if he doesn’t trust him then you better believe that friendship is over. done. no longer existent.

hello, ty for reading this!! if i should do part 2 then jus lmk! i will also be doing this with mha and haikyuu, so stay tuned! stay safe and have a great day~!

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smallblip · 3 years

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You asked, I deliver! Part II of Accidental baby acquisition💖 I lost one of the asks 😩 but anon who asked about baby Udo, I named the baby in your honour! Saddle up cowboys! I’m not good with sequels but here we are-

Babygate:

the scandal that implies that a certain boy band member cheated on his partner (another band member) and had a kid even when the mom was never pregnant.

- urban dictionary

—

Reiner thinks things are alright. Life is definitely picking up. Pieck still sends him excerpts of her dirty fanfiction to proofread, Bertholdt is still doing all he can to “retire at 30”, Annie might have eloped with said boyfriend. But he’s seeing Porco on the regular now, he’s really cute, he’s got a nice ass. Reiner can’t complain.

He’s also recently donated his Levi Ackerman standee. Only because it’s getting increasingly hard to reconcile the fact that he has a life sized cutout of his colleague’s boyfriend in his room.

What he can complain about is said colleague (and friend) dropping bombs on him. He’s one of the moderators of one of the bigger No Name servers. Sometimes he wonders if that’s a conflict of interest because, well, he knows the guy on a first name basis. But today he has other concerns. He sees his notifications blowing up and decides to go on the No Name server. And lo and behold. There’s a paparazzi shot of Levi and Hanji with a stroller taking a walk in a new channel called “MYSTERY FAMILY?”.

He cancels his plans with Porco. “Don’t text me for the next few hours, got a fire to fight.” He clicks send, and feels kinda bad, so he sends Porco really dank meme to appease him. (That doesn’t stop Porco from doing exactly what Reiner told him not to do and demanding an explanation every five minutes).

He forces himself to take a deep breath before texting Hanji-

“Hanji… I don’t mean to be rude but…

WHAT THE FUCK?”

—

So here begins babygate. A conspiracy theory that took the Internet by storm.

“Levi Ackerman had a secret marriage! He was keeping this from us from the start!”

“It’s a publicity stunt to keep No Name relevant during their hiatus!”

“It’s an elaborate scheme by the company to punish Levi for announcing the hiatus without their knowledge!”

“Levi’s mystery partner was sent by the lizard people to take control of his mind and produce half-lizard, half-human hybrid babies to take over the world! What a bitch!” (This is Hanji’s favourite).

And the internet’s favourite- this is all an elaborate scheme to cover up the scandalous love affair between Levi and Eren- the band’s guitarist.

“What the fuck?” Levi had said during dinner once, to which Reiner had to swallow his food and pretend he never read or actively looked up ereri content. Yes. Reiner knows the name of their ship.

Levi hadn’t been too worried before, but when pictures of them shopping for baby stuff leaked online, something snaps. Something snaps and Erwin tells him he needs more time to figure out the biggest PR crisis in No Name history.

It’s Levi. Levi is the PR crisis.

So in the meantime, no shock reveals, no more social media, (if possible) no more leaving the house with pregnant girlfriend in tow. “Don’t do ANYTHING.” Erwin had said, “especially not you!” Erwin had directed that at Eren, who suggested he makes an announcement. Erwin shudders. He remembers all the past scandals they got themselves into just because Eren, bless him, didn’t know when to shut up.

“I’m sorry…” Levi says to Hanji when they’re cuddled up on the couch watching a documentary on whale migration.

“Huh?” Hanji says, voice muffled through her incessant sniffling because “whales are delivered tail first, Levi! They wear their mothers like hats!”

He apologises for putting her through the mess that is him and his job. And Hanji smiles at him. He wonders if their kid will look like her. He’s hoping they would.

“Levi…” Hanji sighs, taking his face in her hands, “that night at the bar I thought to myself ‘this man has a face I would risk it all for’… I think this counts within the realms of ‘all’”

Levi scoffs, but a smile is threatening the corners of his lips. Erwin’s nagging over the phone fades a little and he sinks a little lower into the couch. He sighs one more time for good measure before saying-

“So… you wanna know which my favourite babygate theory is?”

—

“And you’re really not bothered by all this?” Reiner asks, in an emergency meeting that he had scheduled into her calendar. He hates that he’s packing things into her already busy schedule when she’s about to pop but, he figures it’s better now than when the baby’s actually out. He had booked a meeting room and everything, figuring if he projected some of the crazy shit they’re saying on the fan boards up on screen, Hanji would start taking this seriously. Because if Reiner knows anything, it’s that the fans will do anything to keep their ship afloat.

He scrolls past another post on the lizard people and Hanji gets him to pause.

“I mean… A little?” Hanji pinches her fingers together.

“Hanji…” Reiner sighs, “you and Levi discuss and rate babygate conspiracy theories you find online I don’t think you’re taking this seriously at all…”

Hanji looks at Reiner- an absolute state of panic. And she considers panicking for a moment. She’s read articles dissecting babygate and although they’re absolutely batshit, Hanji appreciates how well-researched they are. Which is a little scary. To be fair to Levi, he’s been trying to get her to worry. “I can’t keep you safe all the time, you have to be careful” like he’s going off to war somewhere. But it’s not in Hanji nature to worry about things like this. She’s a researcher at a lab who lived an ordinary life up until the point the universe hit her with a-

Sike! Levi Ackerman is your baby daddy! What are you gonna do about it?

And now she knows what headcanons and lemons are, and she really doesn’t know what to do with that knowledge. So Hanji decides, she’ll do nothing. She’ll go on indulgently long walks Levi in tow, she’ll talk his ear off about work. And like a good girlfriend, she’ll listen to his demos (and enjoy them) and tell him “are you sure anger rhymes with danger?”.

“I don’t really know how to worry about anything beyond our samples getting contaminated…” Hanji says, sheepish. Reiner sighs. He doesn’t want to be a wet blanket on Hanji’s life. He wants to be fun Reiner. Cool as a cucumber. Reiner who manages to make it through dinner at Hanji’s without having to excuse himself to hyperventilate in her bathroom because Levi is right there. And he’s so afraid that he might just be able to read his mind and find out he had looked up Levi Ackerman x y/n fanfiction once in his foolish youth (youth being approximately four months back)

Reiner shudders.

“Yeah okay… That’s um… That’s cool… Right?” He says.

Hanji shrugs.

—

So Levi Ackerman is your baby daddy. Now what?

You go into labour of course, with a matter of fact- “oh. Look Levi. The water broke.” All while refusing to leave the house until you demolish that amazing sandwich he made for you. You go into labour and you yell and grunt like a beast as you squeeze the life out of your baby daddy because he kinda deserves it. You both kinda deserve this pain. Take it as heavenly punishment for being horny and stupid if you will.

And in the middle of it Hanji thinks huh, this feels like a mix of a reality TV show from MTV and a badly written fanfiction. Except Hanji isn’t a teen mom and she’s too old for self-insert fiction that involves a lead singer of a popular band.

But Levi is here, and he doesn’t complain one bit even though he looks like he’s about to pass out. So as far as drunken one night stands go- this is pretty damn aspirational.

The baby enters the world with a huge cry.

“Kid’s got a huge set of lungs…” Levi says, but his own voice is quivering.

“Just like her dad…” Hanji smiles.

As he watches Hanji fall asleep with their baby on her chest, Levi thinks fuck it. Fuck keeping this under wraps. Fuck the fans and them enjoying how Eren gets on his nerves. Fuck Erwin and his “Levi. You’re giving me a headache. You are the cause of this headache.” Because the baby has Hanji’s nose and his eyes and he loves them more than anything in the world.

He snaps a picture of them and tags bigdaddyzoë-

“Welcome to the world, my love.”

—

Reiner can’t help the tears that well in his eyes after seeing the picture Hanji had sent him of the baby-

“He says hi to his favourite uncle!” Was the caption, and Reiner could only reply with a crying cat meme and an incoherent text that Hanji favourites.

He’s on the bus on the way to the hospital when his phone buzzes incessantly. It’s Porco.

“REINER WHAT THE FUCK.”

“LEVI ACKERMAN IS HANJI ZOË’S BABY DADDY?”

“HANJI ZOË MY PHD SUPERVISOR?”

“LEVI ACKERMAN OF NO NAME?”

“REINER WHAT THE FUCK?”

He sends a reply at the entrance of the hospital-

“Welcome to my world”

—

Reiner thinks things are alright. He’s one of the moderator of one of the bigger No Name servers, so he can block and remove people at his discretion. Some days he lets it get to his head. It makes him feel like a king. But today, he’s putting out fires.

Erwin decided their PR strategy was absolutely no strategy, because “they’re zooming in on the pixels Levi. Once they doubt the pixels, they won’t believe anything we’re saying”. With that. Babygate has officially taken on a life of its own. Eren still sends Levi babygate articles to annoy him, and to Hanji because she asked very nicely. Hanji thinks Erwin’s strategy makes sense, Levi thinks it’s just lazy. But Erwin framed a certificate that says “survived a PR crisis (sort of)” that Hanji had insisted be hung up on their wall, so that closes one chapter. Besides, Eren has been spotted going out on dates with a mystery girl. Which has the double effect of diverting attention away from Levi and exacerbating babygate because “see? Told you the company’s doing all they can to prove they’re not together!”

“Can’t you keep it in your pants?” Levi had thrown at Eren, to which he had responded cleverly with a-

“Could’ve said the same for you!”

Touché…

“See? That can’t be Levi! Look at how he’s smiling!”

“That can’t be a baby! Looks like an animatronic to me!”

“Do they even make animatronics that realistic?”

Reiner pins his “no slander” rule- one day they’ll get it. Or at least he would’ve gotten rid of all the people that don’t.

“Who’s this bigdaddyzoë anyway?”

“Maybe she isn’t real? Company probably invented her…”

“Heard she’s a crazy groupie who got knocked up…”

“Heard she’s hot…”

… several people are typing

—

“So… I heard from Reiner you were defending my honour in the server?” Hanji quirks an eyebrow.

Levi shrugs. Whatever goes down in the server stays between Leviackerman173810 (leviackerman and all 173809 permutations of said username had already been taken) and the hundreds of people who haven’t quite figured out he’s the real deal. Besides, Erwin has issued him three warnings so it’s best to lay low for now.

“My hero…” Hanji chuckles, pressing a kiss on Levi’s head. Below them, baby Udo wriggles and yawns against the fabric of Levi’s shirt. Cute.

So Levi Ackerman is your baby daddy. Now what? You look at your son and know he’s going to break hearts like his father of course. And if you’re Levi, you pray to god he never asks about babygate because Hanji has read up enough about it to be considered a connoisseur.

One day the internet will break when they find out the identity of bigdaddyzöe. But for now baby Udo has his parents wrapped around his tiny fingers and he doesn’t quite understand the concept of him being the spawn of every typical band member x y/n fanfiction. Or the centre of a very popular, very absurd, yet strangely believable internet conspiracy theory. Or the canon plot that has sunk one of the biggest No Name ships. And that’s okay.

#babygate was a 1D conspiracy theory #levihan #whoopwhoop!#levi x hange #levi x Hanji #Drabble #inbox #anon #mine #again Pieck is me #un beta-Ed I’m sure it’s full of mistakes #shingeki no kyojin #Levi Ackerman #hange Zoë #celebrity au

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happybird16 · 2 years

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That one shot in Red Swan where Baby Erwin and Baby Levi walk past each other. Levi was either thinking "oh he's cute" or "oh he's cute. I wanna steal his lunch money."

I’ve always head cannoned that Levi was a good pick pocket when he was really little. He’s strong yeah, but there’s only so much strength one can have when they’re that tiny. Levi’s also fast and smart enough to use it for an advantage.

Kenny would have preferred he used violence; he taught him now to use a knife almost immediately. Levi was reluctant to hurt people though, a caring little boy through and through. Instead just observing passers by and swiping wallets and watches when he could.

This earned him quite a few beatings, swift kicks and bloody punches in order to ‘toughen him up’. I have no doubt that Kenny was a cruel man, using violence to incite Levi to do the same. To make blood seem almost normal, whether it be his own or that of some stranger on the streets.

This little rich boy though, all clean and shiny. Clothes bright and pristine, not a single hole in sight. Hair sun-brightened and carefully combed back like a good schoolboy. A nice, pretty bolo tie wrapped around his neck, a no doubt pricy purchase. He looks so innocent. So soft and unaware of the dangers in the world. Of the darkness lurking just below his feet.

He doesn’t deserve a knife to his throat, cool steel biting into the skin to give way to a line of red. He does, however, deserve to have his pockets lightened a bit.

#idk what this was either #I just woke up and apparent I’m in a mood #tw; child abuse #tw; blood #Levi Ackerman #Erwin smith #baby erwin #baby Levi #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #anon #ask

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theepisceswriter · 3 years

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AOT characters (Reiner, Jean, Pieck, Erwin, Zeke) comforting a stressed out/overworked significant other headcanons

TW: Modern AU, suggestive themes (slight nsfw for Jean), vague drug mention (for Pieck, it’s just tweed), GN!reader, mostly fluff

REINER BRAUN

Reiner knows exactly how it feels to be in your position, overworked and stressed out with the world on your shoulders, not a single positive thing in your mind, and no one seemingly noticed the heavy weight you’ve been carrying all of a sudden.

But he notices and that’s why at the first sign of you being in a sour mood he’s all over you immediately.

Well, not physically just yet. He doesn’t want to be a bother and feel like he’s being too overbearing, adding to the annoyance you must already be feeling from work, but he’s definitely keeping an eye on you from afar to monitor you as often as he can.

He’ll do little things like run some warm bath water for you, send you memes he knows will make you chuckle, bring water & fruit to you to make sure you’re nourished, and order your favorite takeout just to see you smile for once.

And when you’re ready to talk about it he’ll pull you into bed with him and press you against his soft pecks so you can feel comfortable while you lay there telling him what has you so stressed out.

JEAN KIRCHSTEIN

Jean can be a little insensitive to your emotions and just how heavy they weigh on you sometimes, not to mention that he’s always using comedy and his cockiness as a way to distract himself from his own emotions, so after complaining to him how stressed out you’ve been because of work he’ll hit you with the “You want some dick to help you feel better?”

Like yes, you do but some cuddles and words of reassurance would’ve been nice first 😭

It’s like everything you’ve said and been complaining about has went over your head, so of course you’re a little mad and might let something like “You’re such a jerk” slip out of your mouth 😕 it’s after that that he’s like “Okay, maybe I should’ve waited a little later to offer them some dick.”

He’s all over you in an instant; climbing on top of you and peppering your face and whole upper body with kisses, soft ‘m’sorry baby’s leaving his lip with each kiss. After about a minute of him doing that he’ll look up at you like, “I’m sorry for discarding your feelings like that. Can you forgive me? 🥺” pouty lips and all, and how can you possibly stay mad at a face like that!!

Of course, you take him up on his dicked down option soon after that. Playing a pillow princess/prince the whole night, Jean wanting to focus on you the whole night and rid you of any thought that isn’t his head between your legs.

PIECK FINGER

Modern!Pieck’s solution to everything would be a big fat blunt #sorrynotsorry. You don’t even have to be stressed out or overworked for her to come up to you and be like “You look like you need a blunt.” I live for stoner!Pieck.

You just being in her presence is enough to make you feel about your stress. She’s so carefree and relaxed 24/7 that it’s like she’s a natural relaxant for you and because of that she never has to worry about you too much whenever you’re in her presence.

Everything is all good when you’re around her. Nothing else matters but the blunt you’re going to smoke with her and the food you’re going to get afterwards because boy can Pieck out eat munchies. She’s such a sweetheart though, she’ll turn on some funny stoner movie to distract while she slips out the house to go get all of your favorite foods.

She’ll come back in the house with a bag from McDonald’s, tacos, a bag from Taco Bell, some drinks and treats from Starbucks, etc. Standing in front of you in the livingroom like “I also got you an ice cream but it looked too good while I was driving home so I accidentally ate it.” 🙈

The weed alone helped take your mind away from stress, so this just has you blushing and loving on your stoned girlfriend for the whole night. Grateful to have someone as sweet as her in your life.

ERWIN SMITH

Erwin knows that look of tiredness and exhaustion that plagues you every time you come in from work all too well. He’s been the victim of the negative side effects of nearly overworking himself to death to not notice them on you immediately. And he’s not going to let you succumb to them like he has on multiple occasions.

Like Reiner, he’s on you immediately but a lot more vocal and physical to voice his opinion on you overworking yourself. He flat out tells you one night “You need to take a break from all this work. It’s not doing you any good.” While forcibly removing you from your workstation by carrying you bridal style.

He ignores your pleas of wanting to be carried back to your desk and how “you’re doing just fine!” And lays you in your shared bed. Within minutes you’re sleeping like a newborn baby cuddled up into the covers and pillows, not stubborn enough to fight off how tired you truly were.

But that’s not enough for him, just one 2-hour nap isn’t enough for your body and mental health to recover, so every time he catches you working longer than needed he’s forcing you to put that pen and paper down and relax for once. Of course you’re stubborn and still try to work, what what does he do?

He contacts your job and requests some time off for you so you won’t have any excuses to be working for a good week or two. In this time he prepares things for the two of you to do together and spend some quality time with each other like actual date nights out, warm baths together, a vacation to a nice resort, and even a high end quality spa day to truly help you relax.

ZEKE JAEGER

I know we like to label Zeke Jaeger as a pretentious meanie, I know bully!Zeke really gets us all going.......but softie Zeke deserves some content too 🙈

Though he’s not too good at expressing his concern for others and has the littlest of ideas on how to reassure others ( *cough* thanks a lot Grisha *cough*) he would genuinely try with you!

After noticing a slight change in your demeanor and your excuses always being work related whenever he brought these observations up, it’s after his first time seeing you in a while with bags under your eyes that he’ll feel an obligation in his heart to make them, along with the stress you’re feeling, go away.

He’s very gentle and slow with his prodding. He’ll check up on you throughout the day through texts like “Hey, what are you up to right now?”, “You should probably take a break right now and go drink or eat something if you’ve been working for more than an hour” with some article that helps support his words, or and “Are you feeling alright? I’m free if you want some company.”

And you do want his company! You feel so bad for pushing your hairy bearded boyfriend away, so you finally invite him over and spill everything while he holds you in the middle of watching some shitty comedy on Netflix. He’ll tell you right off the bat that he’s not the best person to come to for reassurance and comfort, but him just trying is enough to make you feel better.

#Jujutsu Kaisen is next once I gain the energy ☝🏾#also might do a pt.2 for AOT characters I didn’t mention here #AOT.#aot x reader #reiner braun x reader #jean kirchstein x reader #pieck finger x reader #erwin smith x reader #connie springer x reader #zeke yeager x reader #levi ackerman x reader #aot imagines #shingeki no kyoujin x reader

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dancingazaleas · 3 years

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𖨆. 07 / all for us

summary: it feels as if god is blessing you personally when levi decides to spare you. but as the day goes on, you can’t help but notice things and ask questions, some of which you didn’t ask.

note: why was this chapter so hard to write

taglist: @voltairelesecond @baelo80 @the-sun-baby @uniquepickle @ascybous @messyhairday-me @stupid-stinky @saturnalya @megumitodoroki @kouyume @quacksonlover81 @gipumar

word count: +3.0k

warnings/notes: cursing, mentions of murder, mentions of drinking and driving, vomiting, mentions of blood, mentions of ocd, the reader is confused

LEVI ackerman knew he wasn't a good person. he knew from the moment he watched his uncle slaughter a man in front of him at the age of eight.

levi knew the moment he killed a man for theft. he knew the moment people would cower before him in highschool when he'd walk through the halls. he knew the moment he was sucking the smoke from a cigarette into his mouth.

he knew the moment he found himself fighting police officers. he knew the moment he was pushed against the hood of a car with his hands cuffed behind his back.

he knew the moment when erwin smith sat down in front of him with no emotion written on his face. the moment when erwin said he knew levi had done it, but he would be defending him either way. the moment when levi disobeyed the oath as he spat out his testimony. the moment the gavel was slammed down along with the verdict of 'not guilty'. the moment he stepped into the sunshine, erwin's hand in his, for the first time in months, knowing damn well he didn't deserve it.

but levi didn't care, he never did. the world he was born into was cruel. he had to fight for his place at the top, for his food, for his clothes, for everything. if no one cared about him, then why should he care for others.

but as he stares down at you trembling from fear on the floor, he can't help but think that he's incorrect.

"please don't hurt me again," you plead in a whisper, tilting your head to the floor.

levi only sighs, walking in and shutting the door behind him. he crouches in front of you, hand now awkwardly stroking your head.

"what happened," he asks, and it's something that comes as a shock to you. you were slightly prepared for a beating.

you snap your head up to look at him in shock.

"what have you got in your hands," he points at the scrapbook held to your chest.

"oh!" you fumble to show him, "i saw this earlier... i wanted to look but i didn't think you'd allowed me. i'm sorry, please don't hurt me."

"i would've let you, i barely look at this thing anymore. can you tell me what happened now," he scoffs at the front cover of the scrapbook.

"when i was going to put it back, a book on the shelf fell. then another book on the top shelf fell off, so i used the lower shelves as a ladder. as you can see, it didn't work," you look ashamed while you gesturing towards the shelf.

he just huffs, "go sit on the couch. we can look through that book after i clean."

you obey and watch levi heft the bookshelf back onto its legs. his fists clench as he looks down at the pile of books surrounding his feet.

hastily, levi's picking up the books by the color and placing them back onto the shelf. when he's finished, he takes a step back to look at it. he's unsatisfied, instead more frustrated as he starts to take all of the books off of the second bookshelf he has.

but in the middle of taking the books off the shelf, he twitches and taps the book against the wood five times. he's putting the books back onto the shelf, going back to the other bookshelf and taking all the books off of that.

you stare in absolute bewilderment. the shelves had looked perfect and identical to you, not to mention clean. as he's in the midst of taking the books off the shelf, he taps the book against the wood again.

and with that, he's placing it all back onto the shelf again. he sighs in relief after he's checked everything, finally trotting to you and plopping down next to you on the loveseat.

nervously, you scoot closer to him in order for you both to be able to see the scrapbook. he watches you flip it open past his baby picture, instead turning to the page that showed his mother feeding him.

"that's my mom, kuchel," he gently rubs his finger on the photograph, "think i was around a year at this point."

humming, you flip to the next page. when you realize it's the picture of levi at his mother's funeral, you try to flip the page but levi stops you.

a sigh, he explains, "my mother always had a very weak immune system, according to my uncle. because of where we lived, we both ended up getting deathly ill and we were too weak to get any help. i had to watch her die and wait for someone to come check up on us."

"i'm assuming it was your uncle," you tilt your head.

"it was. he took me in afterwards, gave me food and a shower. he even taught me how to hold a knife and how to fight for future reference. he had some work to do while i would fight for food."

you point to the one of levi standing in front of a building. to which he replies with, "first day of kindergarten. my mother was still alive back then so she decided to take the picture."

he turns the page for you, a relieved look in his eyes at he stares at the next photograph. it's a picture of levi, in high school, wearing a tux while standing next to another man with a bubbly girl holding onto levi as she holds up a peace sign.

the boy, who's also wearing a tux, has ice blue eyes and wavy dirty blonde hair that obviously hasn't been styled. he's got a gentle smile on his face while he looks at both the girl and levi, someone who levi was obviously fond of.

the girl has dark red hair in low and loose ponytails with freckles painting her tan cheeks. her eyes shine an emerald green along with her pearly white teeth.

"that's... isabel and farlan. met them in 8th grade, and we were at junior prom in this. farlan took me as his date while isabel went stag. i'm glad i still have this picture."

you resist the urge to fight back the joke of his type in men, instead asking, "are you not friends anymore?"

levi stays quiet for a moment, "they died in a horrible car crash a month later. some asshole decided to drink and drive while driving a semi. rear ended them at 45 miles per hour and killed them on impact. isabel was slouching in her seat and farlan was hunched over the wheel apparently. it was gruesome."

"i.... i'm so sorry," you reluctantly touch his arm.

he waves his free hand up and down in dismissal, despite hurt he actually was, "it's fine. happened years ago."

he turns the next page in order to distract himself from the sheer awkwardness that bathes the room. the next picture is of him, around the age of 24, standing in the sunlight while he smiles softly to the sky.

"erwin was my attorney, before he became a prosecutor, when i went to jail. he proved me not guilty and this was the picture he managed to take of me right after we left the courthouse. it was the first time i'd seen the sun without handcuffs on in months," he huffs with slight annoyance at the memory, something that surprises you just a bit.

"why'd you get arrested?"

"nothing you need to worry about," telling you would only make you fear him more. and that would be a pain to deal with.

the next page after is blank, along with the rest that follow.

"i stopped because i thought it was stupid," he crosses his arms, nudging the back of the scrapbook with his knee.

"i don't think it's stupid," you shake your head, fingertips gently tracing the grainy and textured paper.

"why's that?"

"well," you smile a bit while your mind wonders to the scrapbook pieck made you one year for your birthday, "it shows you the good memories that you might've missed as the time passed. reminds you that there's something in every little small day. it helps you keep the memory alive, even if some of it is upsetting, and i think it shows how much you've changed as a person."

levi stares at you, slightly flustered at your words as you relook at the photographs with gentle hands.

he stands up, "i just remembered the tea." ah, a sound excuse. if only levi had made tea.

you watch as he seems to rush out of the room, something you shrug off while gently putting the scrapbook on levi's desk and laying back down on the couch. you play another movie on the television that hangs on the wall, perking up when levi walks back into the room with a tray. it holds finger sandwiches and some lettuce mixed with some fruit in a small bowl along with tea. cracked sunflower seeds sit on a small plate on the side, and you feel yourself droll when you realize at there's cheese, lettuce, and ham on your sandwich.

levi places it on your lap, simply nodding at your kind, "thank you, levi."

he doesn't answer and just goes back to his desk, while you chew quietly.

it stays that way until erwin comes home.

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it isn't until your eyes are fluttering open that you realize you've fallen asleep. you flinch at the sight of erwin's face close to your's, but slowly relax when he pulls away.

"i'm sorry, i didn't think my kiss would wake you," he places a loving hand on your head.

"'s fine, probably needed to get up anyway," you reply groggily while rubbing an eye, "how long have i been asleep for?"

"levi said since a little bit after lunch. it's only three o'clock at the moment," he sits on the edge of the couch, smiling at how you shuffle to accommodate him.

"sandwiches must've been tasty.... did you just get off work," you sigh and snuggle up under the thin blanket that's been laid on top of you while you were sleeping.

erwin lays his large hand on your cheek, which has you tense for just a moment and then relaxing.

"i got off a little while ago but i needed to run errands," a thumb strokes at the apple of your cheek, something that you disgustingly find comfort in.

"where did levi go?"

"went to make himself some tea," he chuckles with a shake of his head, "he claimed that he felt withdrawals."

you shake your head while laughing, "i doubt he said that. how was work?"

"i guess i can say it was adequate. i missed you and levi the whole day, but would often get distracted by my clients and their necessities. i'm dealing with a kidnapping case at the moment. a girl around your age named ymir was recently found by her girlfriend, historia. i can't say anything more," he pulls his hand away from you and uses it to pinch the bridge of his nose.

you feel yourself get the chills.

he's.... working on a kidnapping case.

he's prosecuting.... a kidnapper.

he's punishing someone who's doing the same thing as him. someone who took away a girl and kept her trapped for months. god knows what the man did to the girl.

and here you are, letting erwin hold your cheek and looking through an old photo album with levi.

you feel sick to your stomach, shooting up while slapping a hand to your mouth and grabbing at her's shirt.

"i'm gonna throw up," you barely are able to speak without the feeling of your food coming out of your stomach.

startled, erwin stares, "what?"

"can... need a can," you gag and lean over the edge of the couch.

erwin gets up when he realizes just what it is you're asking for, rushing across the room only for you to spill your guts out onto the floor.

it's been forever since you've thrown up, minus when levi kicked your stomach, and it has your whole body shaking. the intensity of it all has your nose dripping with blood and tears falling from your eyes, forcing you to seal your eyes closed.

"what happened here," levi sounds scared as he stands in the doorway, but before erwin can even finish his sentence levi is slamming the door behind him while he storms out.

erwin sighs with frustration, helping you scoot down the couch so he can place the trash can in front of you without the bottom being dirtied. with shaky hands, erwin's pulling all of your hair out of your face while you sob and gag into the trash.

it's ten more minutes before you're able to lay back down. blood and tears stain your face and you dazedly stare up at the ceiling.

"i'll be back with a towel and some water, levi will be back soon with an avalanche of cleaning products," erwin reassurances while he stumbles out of the door.

just as erwin leaves, levi enters. he's got a mask that covers his nose and mouth and rubber gloves that match with his cleaning apron. he's carrying a sponge, some spray, a towel, a broom/dustpan, along with some breath mints.

levi squats on all fours, scrubbing at the floor aggressively as he rides the room of the stench and the stain.

"s... sorry," you croak and levi grimaces.

he ignores you in order to keep scrubbing at the floor just as erwin rushes in with a warm towel and some water. he wipes off your blood, tears, and the mouth to rid you of your vomit. you look at him dazedly as he helps you drink the water he's given you.

levi passes a few breath mints to you when you're done drinking the water, which you eagerly take. you plop them into your mouth, sighing as you rest back against the couch cushions.

"take her to her room," levi orders erwin while spraying the spray onto the floor and couch.

erwin does so in silence, carefully carrying you to your room and laying you on the bed.

"levi won't hurt me will he...? please tell me he won't," you grit your teeth while holding onto erwin's shirt sleeve, tears welling up in your eyes.

"no, he won't. he's just scared," erwin grabs the hand on his sleeve and holds it in his own.

"of what?"

"uncleanliness. a while after he started living with me, i took him to a psychiatrist as i had noticed strange behaviors. he ended up getting diagnosed with ocd, and the psychiatrist thought it had to do with his upbringing in poverty. if things aren't a certain way or clean enough, it causes him to spiral," erwin explains carefully, trying to find the correct words and meanings as he speaks.

"doesn't that... give him more of a reason to hurt me...?" you squeeze his hand tightly and pulling it closer to you in fear.

"it doesn't. why are you insistent at how levi might hurt you," he bunches his eyebrows up in concern while scooting closer to you.

"he's done it so many times before... remember? if i say the wrong thing... i'll get slapped. if i make a mistake, he'll beat me.. i just don't want to hurt anymore," you sob hysterically, bringing your free hand up to your face to cover your eyes.

erwin stares in bewilderment. he hadn't realized just how much levi's beatings effected you. of course, they were supposed to affect you in some way, but not enough where you were terrified of making a wrong move.

"he won't hurt you unless you've deserved it, and you've done nothing in a while. he loves you," erwin stroked his thumb across your skin.

you raise your hand from your eyes to stare at him, heat swarming your face, "he does? he doesn't act like it.."

"of course he loves you," erwin smiles, "i love you as well. we'd never hurt you unless given a reason."

something about his sentence makes your head throb in pain. maybe it was the secret confusion that lingered in your head. they said they loved you, even though they kidnapped you and beat you half to death. but then again, they did provide you with things you'd mentioned to them before in order to keep you happy. they even bought a grand piano for you.

it has your heart speeding up and your body hot, bashfully looking to the side.

you loved them back didn't you? they'd treated you with such care, hadn't they? bathing you, feeding you, dressing you, and even visiting you. anytime they were around you, your heart would speed up and you'd get a weird feeling in your stomach.

that meant love, did it not?

subconsciously, you furrow your eyes and grit your teeth. they didn't love you. they were just crazy.

well, maybe they weren't crazy, maybe just misled. you've yet to learn about erwin's past, but based on the way he acts, you assume that it might be a sensitive topic. that had to be the only logical solution, right?

but if they weren't crazy, they'd let you outside, right?

but then again, the outside world could be dangerous at times. when you went outside last time, you did get scuffed and bruised because of the concrete. maybe they just wanted to protect you? that had to be it.

you open your mouth to reply, but the sound of your door opening and closing has you slamming it shut.

"she's still crying," levi asks while walking closer, frowning at how you grip erwin's hand tighter.

"it's best if i let you and her speak about it," erwin says sadly, letting go of your hand and making his way to the door, "alone."

you gulp as soon as erwin shuts the door behind him, staring at levi anxiously. he plops himself next to your body, just like erwin did before.

"please don't hurt me..."

sighing, he lays himself down next to you and pulls you close to him.

"i'm not going to hurt you," he pulls your head into his chest and wraps his arms around you, "not unless you deserve it."

"but...," you quiver, "you were so angry earlier."

"i wasn't angry. i was just... nervous, i guess. and it wasn't at you, or because of you, it was at the mess."

a silence floods the room as you relax in levi's embrace, heat once again spreading to your cheeks.

"what made you puke? i know lunch wasn't that bad," levi grumbles while rubbing your back, arm slightly stiff.

"erwin... was telling me about his case. the one about the girl getting kidnapped...," you tense up again while levi sighs.

"why would he tell you that? i swear he's gonna end up shooting himself in the foot one day," he shakes his head, "you're not like that girl."

"how so..."

"we did it because we love you, not because we wanted to use your body," he scoffs, "surprised you think of us that lowly."

"n-no! i-i don't," you exclaim.

"i know, i'm just teasing. but don't doubt us like that. we want to love you and care for you, not use you," you trace your finger in a circle at levi's sentence, embarrassment washing over you like a wave.

"you love me?"

"yeah, wouldn't do what i did otherwise."

"i think..." you furrow your eyebrows, unaware of the slightly shocked expression of levi, "i think i love you too..."

#attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #snk #aot fanfiction #snk fanfiction #levi ackerman #snk levi #levi x you #levi x reader #erwin x levi #shingeki no kyoujin levi #levi aot #erwin x you #attack on titan erwin #erwin smith #aot erwin #erwin x reader #sorrels.allforus💒#sorrels.darkcontent👛

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heybeybey · 3 years

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No Regrets

Holy shit I finally wrote a full short fic!! I was inspired when @petra-realsnk posted this beautiful fic! I’m currently finishing up Chap 135 (so there’s spoilers for those who’ve only watched the anime!) in the manga and thought about a what if scenario where the Survey Corps didn’t try to stop Eren.

Note: I highly doubt that there’s a universe where Levi and the remaining Survey Corps members, especially Petra, would be okay with genocide but it was fun to explore the thought. (Felt masochistic, won’t delete later ✌️😘)

Pairing: Rivetra | Levi x Petra

Genre: Angst. And it’s Rivetra but I don’t think this can be considered romance.

Summary: [Mature] Canonverse AU. Petra survived the 57th expedition and Eren was successful in his Rumbling. Petra and Levi questions if they made the right choices.

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They never talked about it.

No regrets. That's what his whole being has been about since he joined the Survey Corps. Petra’s devotion to him pushed her to follow him to the end.

The end did come and try as they might to ignore it, they lived every single day questioning the actions they’ve taken.

Today's Liberation Day. The Eldians are celebrating the day the great Eren Yeager freed Paradis from the rest of the world three years ago. As with every year, the town square will have a play reenacting the Rumbling later this afternoon. They're also serving dishes from the now-extinct Marley. He can only think what Niccolo must be feeling right now.

It's their country’s way of showing that they've won. It's theirs. The world is theirs.

His comrades. Erwin. All of them died for this farce.

However, the biggest clowns were the Survey Corps.

Him, Hange, Armin, Petra, Connie, Jean, Mikasa. “The Great Heroes of Paradis,” people would call them in adoration and admiration.

Hange was still alive. She's still the Commander of the Survey Corps and she's been leading Paradis’s expansion with Armin across the flattened grounds beyond their little island. He doubts the both of them sleep well at night though. Last time he and Petra visited, he learned that Hange took down Erwin's portrait in her office. Petra cries whenever she sees Armin, remembering the boy who’d always talk to her about the ocean.

Connie went back to Ragako to build back his village. He never tried to make contact with them again after that.

Jean transferred to the Military Police shortly after. Commander Nile named him next in line. They needed to promote as many people as possible because there’s still a possibility that half of the military can turn into a titan anytime now, even with that fucking monkey dead.

However, a recent rumor reached his city that the Military Police’s next-in-line just shot himself in the mouth yesterday morning.

Mikasa, on the other hand, disappeared.

Levi tried to locate the Ackerman girl a few times. Mikasa can be downright disrespectful and insubordinate during his time as her captain but she's still family. They never treated each other as such but she still is.

His condition prevented him from pushing himself further the way he could before and he had no choice but to follow as Petra led him back.

With his injuries, he needed to retire from the Survey Corps. Petra, banged up with her own scars—physical, emotional, and even mental, also signed in her resignation the day he signed his.

They say it's because they are not in the shape to push through anymore. Besides, there's nothing else to fight except their conscience and inner demons.

The truth is that seeing the Wings of Freedom on their uniform made him want to retch his breakfast every fucking day. Levi once said that he'd kill Eren the moment he shows that he’s a threat to humanity. They all dedicated their life to humanity’s freedom.

You bore the wings of freedom but allowed a monster to clip away the wings of the rest of the world.

What a joke.

He’s snapped out of his usual episodes when Petra came in through the door.

“It’s true,” she says and he takes in the dead look in her eyes. He wished it wouldn’t look any deader as the day Paradis won but it does.

He remains silent, waiting for her to continue.

“Jean. It’s true. He’s dead. His fiance found him yesterday.”

Levi understands Kirstein. He really does. He used to be against suicide because so many people who want to live die everyday. Now though, if he had the will to point a bullet to his own head, he would.

But he can’t leave the baby in Petra’s womb fatherless.

“Do we deserve this, Levi?” At first, he thought she was referring to Jean’s death. All this sadness and self-loathing. “Do we deserve this? A home. A baby on the way.”

When so many beyond the island saw their own homes and children trampled on.

This is the first time she brought it up and he wasn’t surprised that she was the one who opened this conversation.

Petra is already a shell of her former self. He finds it hard to believe that this was the same woman who’d fight titans with fire in her eyes. Who managed to capture his attention since the day she graduated from the cadets. Who managed to survive when their whole squad and the fucking Scout commander couldn't. If they hadn’t fucked around one drunken night of loneliness and despair, he feels she’d lose all the will to push forward.

“How should I know? I told you before. The only thing we can do now-“

“-Is to live with the consequences of our actions.” A beat. She looks down and carefully places her hand on the bulge of her stomach. "Do you think he'll be proud of us?"

Another topic he tried to not approach is the baby. He knows that he'll never abandon her and the little boy or girl inside her but that doesn't mean he'd make a great father.

"Beats me."

She finally snaps. "Levi, just talk to me for once!"

When he imagined a future with Petra back when he was still her captain, he saw it happening with them winning against the titans. He'd kiss her on the battlefield in relief, not caring if fellow soldiers saw that he’s in love with his own subordinate all this time, as everyone cheers over the fact that everything's over and that they're now free to explore beyond the Walls. He'd awkwardly admit that her feelings have always been mutual and maybe he'd even propose years down the road. She'd laugh at him and tell him that age must be really catching up to him if he's actually considering marriage.

"Levi, please. You used to be so open with me. Please don't leave me alone."

She's downright begging now, her arms encircling around his waist as she starts sobbing in desperation. Petra clutches his hand, caressing the remaining two fingers on his one hand.

"Please talk to me. You don't have to carry this burden yourself. I was there until the end, remember?"

In a way, seeing her like this is a relief. Since they retired, he'd always see her walking around the house in a daze. The only time he hears emotion in her voice is when she screams out at night as she wakes up from a nightmare. She doesn’t talk to anyone else now besides him. Sometimes, he rarely even listens. When Hange and Armin visited, she'd make tea and serve them like a meek, little housewife and she'd force a smile on for their guests.

He hates it. This isn't Petra.

Her crying now and demanding him to open up. This is Petra.

He misses her.

And since he hasn't found his voice in the past three years, he answers her by abruptly spinning around, grabbing her ginger strands and roughly kissing her to shut her up.

His hand grabs the spot where her chin meets her neck and he clenches. He manhandles her to their room and he fucks her while also making sure he doesn't harm the baby. This is the only way they can communicate their sadness and understanding right now.

She accepts it all without question, her teary eyes staring at the ceiling above him. The only indication that she's okay with all of this are her quiet moans and whimpers for him to go harder and her arms clinging around him in desperation.

This isn't Petra.

He isn't Levi anymore either.

#rivetra #rivetra fic #fanfiction #rivapeto #levi x petra #petra x levi #petra ral #levi ackerman #petra rall

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kelluinox · 3 years

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My (negative) thoughts on SNK 138

I will say right off the bat that I was immensely disappointed with this chapter. This was definitely not what I had expected, and, frankly, something that I didn't want. I'm not sure that I will be able to even continue watching the anime, or ever revisit my favorite moments of snk after the way 138 has tainted the entire plotline and butchered so many characters. I'm not going to be polite about this.

Now, with that out of the way, the reasons why I hate this chapter:

1) I'm pissed that the silly reunions of the Warriors with their family members took up so many pages. Except for Falco (and maybe Reiner), I don't give a shit about any of these people, they are awful, selfish human beings, and nothing they've done has been able to redeem them in my eyes. I hate that they almost got their happy endings, as they did not deserve them in the least. Especially Annie who proudly professed that she would commit the Paradis atrocities all over again. Fuck these people.

2) I hate the praise Leonhardt got. A hero? You mean the guy who adopted a little girl and beat her ass daily so that he could mold her into the perfect soldier for a Nazi regime and live in comfort? No. Just no.

3) Literally no one was surprised by Eren coming back. No one. This moment was so contrived that even the characters barely reacted to it. They're like: "oh, you're still alive? Still breathing? Cool, let's kill ya."

4) Levi fucking ABANDONING his squad just like that. No parting words, no emotions, nothing. Does he even care for these people???? HAS he ever cared for them??? First Sasha, and now this?? "Smoke doesn't affect Ackermans and shifters fam, let's bail. Bye SUCKAS!" Just what. The actual. Fuck. Is this his character now? I guess I should've seen this coming. Ever since Erwin died he's only cared about the monkey, and now that the monkey is gone his character is officially dead and a plot device. A one dimensional soldier who's only good for battle scenes, nothing else.

5) What is even Eren's PLAN at this point?? Why the hell would everyone suddenly titanize, what does he GAIN from this?? This is so stupid?? I expected the Rumbling to restart, but no, I guess we're getting this shitty scene of Eren turning his FRIENDS into titans for NO REASON for shock value. Just no, fuck this. I do not accept this.

6) My boys Jean and Connie are really going to go out like this, huh? Titanized for no reason? Slow clap Bravo, Isayama, my expectations have indeed been subverted. But just like with Kathleen Kennedy, I was only impressed by the sheer amount of stupidity that you crammed in at the very end. Congratulations.

7) Armin's whole "you must love this hell" thing.. How, how can you misunderstand Eren so much??? Especially after you've been so desperately defending Marley and the Warriors, after you said yourself that Eren was doing all of this for you?!!!?! JUST HOW IN THE HELL DOES EREN LOVE HELL?!?! Shut up, just shut up you fucking Bertholdt loving idiot, I'm done loving and defending your stupid ass, at this point you should've died in the Serumbowl. But then it would mean Erwin getting butchered in this trainwreck, so I guess I should be glad that Levi made the selfish choice back then.

8) How does Mikasa know where Eren is? Just how?

9) Mikasa's entire dream sequence... I feel sick. Apparently Eren has been reduced to a spineless pussy. You really expect me to believe that the guy whose entire philosophy is to fight would just abandon fucking EVERYTHING to have pity sex with his adoptive sister??? AND THAT THE TWO OF THEM WOULD LEAVE ARMIN WITHOUT TELLING HIM?!?! Just goes to show what a great friend Mikasa is to Armin if this is her perfect world. "What blonde kid? Oooooh, yeah, fuck that guy. I ran away with my looove." Eugh. I can't believe her. She would abandon all of her friends, leave her entire country to sit in some cabin for four years with the guy she's been obsessing over her entire life. Mikasa is a disgusting human being. And her continued gross misunderstanding of who Eren is is just giving me so many stalker vibes. This is not healthy relationship material at all, she seriously needs to get some professional help.

10) If she had confessed Eren would not have used the Rumbling?!?!?! I'm sorry, I just... I can't. I could literally cry from this. My favorite character is now a guy who decided to destroy the world just because he got familyzoned. I... Isayama just spat and shit on everything Eren was, everything he represented, everything he believed in, all the development he went through... I just.. I have no words.

11) That. Fucking. Kiss. Eren did not consent to it and what the hell is wrong with you????? This is so disgusting on soooo many levels???? What porn for necrophiliacs IS this??? I mean, if this was like a Jango fett situation where she just held his head and said goodbye I wouldn't have been so revolted, but HERE I AM, trying not to puke my guts out. To make matters worse, you can actually see the blood pouring out of his neck.

12) Isayama went all out this chapter, that's for sure. He even butchered the character who didn't speak and barely appeared. Ymir, my baby, what have they done to you, sweetheart? I can't believe you're now a creep who's getting her kicks out of seeing people kiss disembodied heads.

All in all, I'm so sad, disappointed and angry beyond belief. I do not accept this.. whatever it is. There were so many ways to give snk a send off that would be remembered for years, but... Isayama really did lie when he said that he wouldn't GOT his own ending. Even if 139 is a masterpiece, it will not salvage this manga, not for me. I honestly feel like the author is so tired of SNK that he began to hate it and this is the result. I have never felt so sickened and betrayed before in my life.

#I feel sick #i was numb at first when i saw the leaks #but now i am angry beyond belief #this is such a huge let down #i really expected more #all the characters are ruined #the entire plot is meaningless #what kind of message are you even sending at this point #this is waaaaaay worse than got season 8 #way to ruin everything you've built up over the years #I'm done #I thought I had something to help me through my exams #but guess not #snk 138 #rant

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shugokairifatewin · 3 years

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An AOT Rant for a Freshly Finished Season 4, Part 1 Watcher

Alright, it seems like this has become a habit of mine when I can’t seem to expel something from my mind - so here I am, with yet another rant at the end of a devastating arc of story that has drawn me in, probably a bit too much, as per usual - oops! Time to set the tone and listen to the saddest songs from Attack on Titan that literally rip me to pieces now that we’re all the way in season 4! :’D

So big spoiler warning for anyone who hasn’t caught up on the Attack on Titan anime! Here’s your chance, turn back now or forever hold your peace!

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Alright, we are definitely going to start at the end of season three because um what the ACTUAL fuck? Did NOT expect some “this is the actual world and you’re just ignorant and underdeveloped” bs. I have too many feelings surrounding this and I definitely want to focus on a season 4 rant more than a season three and prior rant (I should really just a start live streaming this clearly!) but one of many feelings is just shock? Also OUR SWEET BABY ANGELS GOT TO SEE THE SEA but it felt... so sad, like this was a turning point? Like even though they saw the ocean and Armin was just so overcome with joy that he got to experience this with his best friends, I felt so sad :c And it felt very much like so much bullshit had happened that Eren really couldn’t bring himself to even enjoy that moment - WHICH CRUSHES MY SOUL *wheeze* SOMEONE GIVE THIS POOR BOY A HUG-

Buuuut this is about season 4, so we’ll continue with that. Honestly, really wasn’t a big fan of the first chunk of season 4. I was thinking about how much I really couldn’t care less about Marley and all their stupid, ass-hattish bullshit that they put my poor babies through - WE DIDN’T NEED TO LOSE PETRA OR ERWIN BECAUSE MARLEY HAS A GRUDGE AGAINST ELDIANS ALRIGHT YOU GUYS SUCK - so when they came at me with all this fucking bratty Eldian-raised-Marlian crap, I was NOT happy about it. Not a fan of Gabi, didn’t care about the other kids either, really, and I especially wasn’t a fan of the other titans (which...slowly changed, in some ways). It just all had such a bitter taste in my mouth after everything that happened in the previous seasons. Though I admit they did a good job of making me soft for characters I didn’t care for, like I feel terrible for how oppressed the Eldians in Marley are and I get that they don’t have a choice in most of it but it was just a weird place for me. Falco is really a saving grace character in that arc for me.

Also 1000% knew it was Eren as soon as he spoke / appeared. I really was thinking the whole time that he was there on a mission from the Scouts and he kept saying things about his family and I was like oh shit they done infiltrated, they ‘bout to get wrecked. And when shit hit the fan and everything started devolving I had to say - and God I am definitely not proud of it - but like this is how it felt to them in Shiganshina? But simultaneously I felt like a trash can because it just wasn’t like Eren to go so wholeheartedly ape-shit on innocents. (Again, it was a weird time for me - but I guess that was the point x.x) Something felt really weird about the whole thing.

AND BOY WAS I RIGHT BECAUSE WHEN LEVI KICKED HIM RIGHT IN THE HEAD I ALMOST SCREAMED - talk about a blindside? I wasn’t expecting him to have gone completely AWOL and start acting on his own!

Won’t lie though... >.>

THIS MAN CAN KICK ME AROUND ANY DAY MY GOD I LOVE LEVI-

AND FUCKING SASHA DUDE IMMEDIATELY CEMEMNTED MY ANNOYANCE AND HATRED FOR GABI - WHILE SIMULTANEOUSLY FUELING MY LOVE FOR FALCO BECAUSE HE FUCKING GETS IT, VIOLENCE IS NOT THE KEY

She deserved better, and I will never recover from her death. *Scout Salute*

ALSE WHAT THE SEVEN HELLS IS GOING ON IN ZEKE’S HEAD, SLKDOIRJFEORIJ I WAS SCREAMING OMFG

Anyway, lets fast forward to the last three episodes or I’ll talk for hours and hours. When Eren just straight up showed up in the room with Mikasa and Armin and Gabi in the third to last episode I was like:

BECAUSE FIRST OF ALL HE LOOKING DAMN FINE

SIR DO NOT LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT, THAT’S LEVI’S JOB.

Second, WHERE DID YOU EVEN COME FROM- AND WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE!

And here is when I really started spiraling because I was like no its gonna be fine because he’s finally going to get to explain himself and tell Armin, HIS BEST FRIEND, and Mikasa, HIS LITERAL PROTECTOR WAIFU LOVER, why he’s going nuts and acting like a sociopath, and everything’s going to be fine and it’s all going to make sense, and his reasoning will be sound and he and Zeke are actually going to help the Eldians take down Marley and save all the Eldians that are stuck in internment-

BUT OH NO THAT ISN’T WHAT THE HELL WE GET. INSTEAD WE GET PAIN. AND SORROW. AND DEPRESSION. AND MY FUCKING HEART LITERALLY BROKE IN HALF-

MY WHOLE FUCKING HEART ABSOLUTELY SHATTERED BECAUSE THIS HAS BEEN MY OTP FOR THIS WHOLE ASS ANIME AND I CANNOT FUNCTION IN A WORLD IN WHICH EREN TRULY HATES MIKASA

AND IF THIS WASN’T BAD ENOUGH THE FUCKING LAST TIME I SEE LEVI, MY HUSBAND, IS GETTING BLOWN TO BITS- *SCREAMS*

THIS IS UNACCEPTABLE, EVERYTHING IS UNACCEPTABLE!

There are only a few things in this world I cannot handle. Losing my favorite character in a horrible way - I still have hope that Levi is okay, though, he’s an Ackerman after all and I’m fairly certain he’ll survive...I hope so anyway or it’ll be one less reason to finish this anime x_x

Another is taking one of my favorite characters and TURNING THEM AGAINST THE PROTAGS - ESPECIALLY IF IT IS A PROTAG THAT IS BEING TURNED AND TWISTED AGAINST THOSE WHO WERE ONCE HIS/HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS-

HOW CAN YOU HAVE A WHOLESOME ANIME OPENING WITH THEIR CHILDHOOD FRIENDSHIP AND ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL BUILD UP AND THEN FUCKING WRECK ME WITH THAT BULLSHIT IN EPISODE 73 YOU SADISTS-

And so, as a coping method, I have invented a theory :’) Because that is how I must cope for the next two months. You manga readers keep quiet and let me dream, by the way! No confirmation or declines on here! ;P

*jumps into the rabbit hole*

So, Eren, whilst he was living among the Marlians, continuously kept mentioning his family and how he doesn’t think he can face them anymore, and yada yada. And despite everything, the scouts showed up and they were there for him even though they didn’t think it wise. He also made a great point while he was being held captive that at any point, he could break out but he didn’t - very well could have been because he was waiting for the right time, but again, I can hope that he really didn’t want to hurt anyone.

Which leads me to the fact that he HASN’T hurt anyone, not anyone he considered family, friends, or allies - not physically anyway :’) - He very easily could have slaughtered them all and after gaining the support of all the Military he really doesn’t have much standing in his way. So he still cares?

Something else that really, really rubs me the wrong way about this whole thing is how much most of this goes against what Eren believed for so long. Like why the seven hells would Eren want to just slaughter the entire Eldian internment district? Bro, those are your peeps being held captive, they aren’t your enemies! I understand the Marlians, definitely understand that, but the Eldians who’ve done nothing but be oppressed for the last century or so?

Definitely not Eren’s style. And his conversation with Reiner sort of proves that. He talks about how he and Reiner are the same. We see a certain amount of humanity in Eren here, in the beginning of the season while he’s in Marley and that humanity seems near nonexistent when he returns to Eldia/Pardis. It just makes me think that it’s for show even more. His wording is also interesting. “I’ll keep moving forward until I exterminate the enemy.” But what IS the enemy, who is it that he wants to exterminate? The wording conflicts with Zeke’s plan that he’s supposedly going along with because in basically sterilizing all Eldians, is he really “exterminating an enemy?” Just seems a little fishy to me.

On top of all of that, there’s the fact that he has literally done nothing up to this point to show any sort of hatred or resentment towards Mikasa. Nothing but kindness. Nothing but the same amount of devotion she has shown him, Ackerman instinct be damned. It CAN’T be as black and white as what was stated in that episode.

I’m thinking (and hoping and praying to every god in existence because I really just can’t imagine the end of this anime/manga without a redemption arc for Eren) that it’s all a farce, and that he’s acting the way he is because he actually disagrees with Zeke but the only way he can actually accomplish his real goal is to play into Zeke’s hand. It seems so seriously impossible - improbable and frankly unbelievable - that the two people who he loved and cared for most in the whole world mean nothing to him anymore. I think he’s trying to martyr himself. I think that Eren is trying to make himself the villain so that when he inevitably dies (really hope not but I don’t see this ending any other way T.T) the world will see Eldians as a people who overthrew the king and wish for nothing more than peace in the wake of a tyrant.

Honestly, that theory hurts my heart, too, but I really just want to see the good in people. Maybe it makes me naïve. But I have to see the good in people, even fictional people, or I feel like there is no hope.

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natsukitakama · 4 years

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LEVI ASSSK 🙃❤️ Comme d’hab du soft, c’est la minute crush, la minute mignon 🥰 j’aimerais voir Livai avec son nouveau née et oui avec un « e », une daugther 🎊 du style de l’annonce de la grosse à sa deuxième bougie 🥰 Voili voilouuu ~ toujours se faire plaisir dans l’écriture en first

Headcanon : Levi Ackerman being a dad

Author note : let’s be honest a minute this man with a cute little daughter ? This sound so cute he deserves something good on his life let’s give him the life he deserves ! I’m sorry it took me more time than I expected : let’s get our fluffy time.

I do not own that gif credit to the owner

Warning : Spoiler if you haven’t see season 3 otherwise it’s spoiler free / mention of curse nothing dirty but Levi being Levi

Masterlist

You could think this man won’t crave for a family : Well you’re not entirely wrong. After loosing Isabelle and Furlan he thought he won’t never be happy again, their death were a huge trauma for Levi (this is a part of the reason why he doesn’t sleep much cause he can’t stop thinking about it even if he tried to life without having regrets he can’t stop thinking about them). They were family to him, and he failed as a parent to protect his family : it hurts and Levi wasn’t ready to live that again.

But then he met you, at first he didn’t want to start any relationship with agin because he was afraid he might loose you. But day after day, baby step by baby step he was too in love with you and couldn’t stop thinking about you. And after what seemed to be an eternity for both of you, you confessed and start a relationship.

After gaining his trust and becoming an entire part of his life, you started to talk about serious project like what will you do after killing all titans after finagling be free from them ? Would you guys get married ? Would you start a relationship? Will he leave the survey corps to finally have his own tea shop ?

Again, at the beginning he was kinda uncertain : sure he loves you and the prospect of having is own child, create his own family would be great. But he failed couple of time of protecting his own family : he looses Isabelle, lunch, Petra hell he even failed at protecting Erwin his major. How could you trust him ?

Besides his own fear, having a baby is a huge responsibility it’s huge turn on your relationship you won’t be lover anymore both of you would be parent : you will have to educate your children, protect them, what if he wasn’t mean to be a dad ? He never has one : Kenny was barely family to him since he left him and he wasn’t the dad type according to him. He never experienced having a stable parent in his own life, : how could you be so sure ?

It took you a long time to make him believe that in fact he won’t be a shitty dad as he qualified himself. You mentioned how caring he was with Eren (if we remove their first meeting) or with any people even if he wasn’t good at expressing his feelings he knows how to take care of someone. You underlined the way he was around you, how he always make sure you were fine how he always has an eye on you.

Then he was afraid about the world, they both live on a dangerous place especially now that they know people were against us. You couldn’t disagree on that, during a long time you thought Titans was the only threat the would have to fight but now. He was right the world is dangerous but no matter how hard they tries, they would never find a place where they could be safe they always something to fight against : they survive against titan they will survive against no matter who they are.

Then you praised him about how strong he was : after all he was the strongest soldier.

+100 ego boost for Levi

After couple of days, Levi met you on country side you were buying some foods for the survey corps and a child was holding your leg thinking you were his mum. After he realized that in fact you weren’t his mum, the little boy was crying over you afraid he might loose his mummy for ever. Then Levi saw you kneeling down stroking the child’s cheeks while smiling at him telling him you would find his mummy. After giving him something to eat, you took his hand and walked until you found his mum running everywhere looking for his dear son.

The sight of you holding the boy’s hand literaly melted his poor heat : he swore he never saw something that cute before. You looked so happy with the little boy and he couldn’t help but picture himself walking around with his children holding both of your hand. It seemed good.

For a moment he felt selfish for stopping you : Was it right for him to prevent you for having a child with him. Doesn’t he really want to have a child ? Was he too weak ?

His number 1 rule forces him to never have any regrets when it came to decision he made : most of the time his instinct choses for him but today he needed to think properly cause no matter what decision he would take he couldn’t prevent your regrets.

To him having a child on his world would be a selfish decision but at the same times he never experienced having a family on his own, and he knows that with you he would be finally happy : I mean he was already more than happy with you but you being pregnant with HIS child ? This was like heaven to his mind.

He may have a pregnant thing right ? Don’t tell

There is one thing he knows : he couldn’t live the survey corp yet they need him . You on the other side you could leave the survey corp. With everything both of you did for humanity, you could expect military administration finding you a nice job with them and a house on the Sina wall.

So here was the deal : if you want a child You would have a child, but you’ll have to quit your military job and asking a transfer in a safe place. Levi and you would find a house on the Sina Wall so you and the child would be in a safe place. He on the other hand won’t leave the survey corp cause they need him, plus he needs (for the sake of his mind) to kill the beast titan so he could get revenge for Erwin’s death.

He will leave the survey corp when everything would be in order

Of course his deal implied that he won’t be 24/7 around you and your child but it was the better way to protect his family : He promised to visit you as much as he could and you know he will.

You have a deal

So know both of you were into the whole baby making : I won’t say anything since you asked for fluffy one. Things got dirty it’s all I’m saying

Two months later you woke up feeling sick, before you could notice you were in your bathroom throwing as much as your body need to (I’m sorry). After that your started to have suspicious but you couldn’t say anything you didn’t want to give flash hope or anything.

3 weeks after your first time being sick in the morning, you missed your periods. You decided to go to see a doctor before saying anything to Levi : Doctor was unanimous, you were one month pregnant

The second you knew that, you prepare yourself to say goodbye to your fellow camaraderie from the survey corps : after all you promised to leave as soon as you learn for your pregnancy.

You went to see Levi then, since he wasn’t comfortable with too much PDA or anything too expressive you decided to go straight to him. You were as his office and went directly on his lap for some cuddle. At first he was taken apart but it wasn’t the first time you does this to him so he let go. After some kissing you took his hand and put directly on his stomach with a cute smile.

He knows

he had suscipicious since couple of days but now he was sure : You were pregnant, holding his own child. He couldn’t prevent the soft smile of his face but quickly he holds you. You couldn’t be 100% but you swore you heard him whispering a soft “thank you”

Then you started your life as a pregnancy wife, if you thought Levi was quite protective over you (even if he didn’t show it you know better). Now you couldn’t make a move without him having his eyes stick on you : he was afraid you might get hurt or worse fall.

During your whole pregnancy and couple months ofter cleaning the house was a big no : Levi won’t leave you do it. Turns out you were too tired to the cleaning properly so he decided to do it so it’ll clean as it should be (he doesn’t mind so why would you complain ?).

Since he doesn’t need to train as much as his comrades, he took every chance to see you have a lunch with you or just enjoying your presence. He won’t admit it but he missed having you by his side during fight battle but he knows better than to admit it. He couldn’t take the risk of having you here while being pregnant with your child.

Since you couldn’t clean your house anymore you decided you’ll be the cooker : not like you got choice though Levi know shit about cooking he can live easily with bread and tea don’t ask me why that’s fact : as long as he has his tea he is happy. But you wanted to cherish your lover so everytime he was around you cook something for him : even if he was an easy man, he enjoys seeing you cooking something for him. He never has the chance in his life to have someone being domestically with him, so yeah his heart melted at the sight of you.

Plus you’ll be sure he has at least one proper meal in his stomach since he tends to barely eat because « he doesn’t need it » according to him.

Unfortunately having a child doesn’t mean he will finally have a proper amount time of sleep quite contrary he keeps his habits of barely sleep. His reasons are the baby could woke up early so someone will have to check them. He doesn’t need to sleep a lot so he’ll.

« Levi you know I can wake up I don’t mind you need to get rest

Nonsense besides I barely see them so I have to »

He is not the best when it came to PDA but he’ll work hard so you would always feel loved .

So when you felt down for whatever reason and he was here seeing you sad. He’ll open his arm looking at you as if he was bothered (but you know better) « well I won’t stay like this forever you better take this when you still can »

If he can’t hug because you were far too sensitive he’ll run you a warmth bath so you can relax.

He doesn’t mind rubbing your back or your foot as long as you clean yourself before

He didn’t know if it was because of your pregnancy but he constantly needs having his hand on your stomach. Even when you two sleep he always has his hand around your stomach.

He loves rubbing it it helps him relax and if he felt his baby kicking, expect him to crack smile he can’t help it he is far too happy

Speaking of baby I picture to him to want a daughter but a boy would be fine too

As long as they look like you (since you were the most gorgeous of you two)

After 8 months of being pregnant, things got a bit harsh. Not because you two had argument but because Levi wants you to stay on your bed all the time. At this point you were far too precious, he couldn’t stop being afraid you might fall or hurt yourself.

« You know that I would have to stand up eventually »

Much to his dismay he has to take two months off since he has to be there with you so you won’t move from the bed

Believe when I say you barely move from your bed except for natural thing like going to the bathroom. Even during those times he was right behind the door waiting for you. « Don’t you have crap already ? »

But it also means more of quality time with him : cuddle, lunch together, bath together

You took as a chance for him to get some rest since he barley takes care of himself

Then it happens you were walking outside with him ( he agreed to let you go in the garden with him by his side cause you complain about feeling pins and needles on your leg) and then you felt something rolling on your legs as if you were peeing on yourself which you weren’t. One look on the ground then you realized « crap I’m in labour »

Before a blick of an eye you were again in your bed while Levi was taking his coat looking for a doctor

4 hours later you finally gave birth : a gorgeous little girl named after his mum name Kuchel.

Levi was lost of word : first he was afraid he might loose you, holding your hand when you were labouring, screaming in pain was something he wasn’t prepare for. Of course he knows it is going to be hard for you but you look so painful and yet so beautiful as you were giving birth.

Then Kuchel was born, the doctor was holding the baby while a nurse was wrapping her with a towel he never stop staring at her.

He was a dad finally he gets his own family

During the whole process the baby was pretty calm and Levi was afraid something was wrong with Kuchel. But then the doctor give his daughter into Levi’s arm. The second he got her around her she starts screaming while looking at him directly on the eyes (she definetly got the Ackerman stare) as if she was looking for answers. All he did was stroking her cheeks looking at her peacefully, then Kuchel stop crying and giggling instead.

You on the other hand were looking at that sweet picture while a nurse was cleaning you briefly. You never felt that tired before and yet you were so relax. She was your baby you got your baby.

During a week Levi insisted on staying by your side you couldn’t be more thankful he does

It was a relief knowing your beloved was here with you, indeed taking care of baby was a huge work : No matter how cute she was Kuchel was still a baby girl and like every baby she has her needs and wasn’t afraid to show them.

You were lucky though she was quite calm like her husband but when she wanted something she wasn’t afraid to express this

You learned from your mistakes that your daughter doesn’t like eating some vegetables like carrot or tomatoes but she seemed to love pumpkin more than she would like to admit

She doesn’t sleep much like her father but she doesn’t make any sound, she moved a little bit to make know she is awoke and expect one of you to take her with you on your bed.

She is sucker for affection especially hug : she loved being hugged by you and even more by Levi. Can’t explain why but you suspected her to become a daddy’s girl

Unfortunately, Levi couldn’t stay forever and couple day later he has to go back into the survey corps but he always go back on your house every night when he wasn’t on expedition.

However despite his love for his daughter he doesn’t interact a lot with her, he is just very talkative or even expressive but he tries to create some bonds with her : He has her on his arm as much as possible. When he read he got her, when he works he got her. Excepts during cleaning he always has her close to him.

As he promised he always take care of his daughter during night when he was at home

He doesn’t mind run a bath and clean her : in fact he loves that he wants her to be super clean

He is not a fan of changing a diaper but if you couldn’t do it yourself well he will oblige

Big fan of history before night, it’s a rare occasion when he isn’t awkward cause all he has to do was telling her some stories about his past or anything she would fall asleep very quickly

Would definitely check the bedroom before she goes to sleep

Expect some soldier around your house, Levi talks with some people and well he is kinda convincing when he wants to (he scared them but shh)

He loves to feed her too, her expression are priceless

You see me coming with that : her first word was obviously daddy and oh boy does he tease you with that during the whole week.

When he thought he couldn’t be more proud of her daughter he was wrong, one day she decided to surprise you by standing herself and starting to walk by herself : You knew it’ll come soon, you saw her trying to stand herself, you felt her strength when she tried to stabilize. But still you couldn’t contain the ears from falling on your cheeks when you saw your one year old daughter walking into Levi’s arm

The expression on his face is priceless : he Is both shocked and so proud and yet happy all at the same time

That’s when the fun begin

She quickly learned how to run and wasn’t afraid to do it all the time despite you telling her to not run on the house : she was as stubborn as her father could be. And the expression she got when she runs in your living room without falling reminds you his dad, always cocky but neutral at the same time

Growing up, you discover that she was girl version of Levi and according to him she seemed to look at lot like his mum. You didn’t know if he felt nostalgic or not neither does he.

Remember when I said Levi was an overprotective lover ? He is even worse with is daughter. Even if he taught her to not play with knife (or anything dangerous) or to be obedient which she was 99% of time, he was still afraid she might hurt herself. But he knows better than force her to stay at your house where she was safe

So yeah time to time he allows her to play with children only if he could have an eye on them just to be sure.

At some point when she would be old enough he’ll teach her how to fight and he’ll feel less anxious knowing she could kick ass

He worked a lot on himself to not be awkward when she wanted to play with him, but wasn’t comlfortable enough to play with doll instead he proposed her to make so tea party with real tea : he’ll teach her how to make good tea properly (which she will use later to coax his dad when she’ll need something from him)

Tea party became their favorite game

He taught her too some card’s game but she wasn’t really into this

She loves when he read something for her though it could be anything from newspaper to her history book or just telling her some stories about his friends, his expedition : She was extremely curious and also loves the sound of her dad’s voice. Since she is baby it always relax her

Both of you were afraid she might want to join her father later into the survey corp but she doesn’t seem to be interest on that

At the age of Two years old, she knows a lot of curse word despite you trying to force Levi to contain himself he just couldn’t do that it was his nature. In addition he finds it quite funny (even cute but won’t admit it) when she cursed like him especially when she says « crap » if you listen carefully you would even hear him giggle a bit (it’s probably why her daughter keep going it)

If he saw one little boy walking around his daughter he won’t hesitate to kick his ass but you reminds him that they still children so it was purely innocent. You also reminds him that one day she’ll grow up and become her own person.

He agreed on that, but still he has an eye on that filthy bastard just in case

She was his precious daughter and no one would ever put a finger on her and he would make sure on that

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wall-maria-fritz · 3 years

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The Wingman (Erwin Smith x Marie)

Chapter 4: The First Letter

Reposting this because I am officially overhauling my @levi-lives blog, in lieu of this one because SOMEONE Tumblr won't let my posts show up from there anymore! grrrr.

@levi-lives blog is still up tho, if you would like still see my original posts

The Wingman: MASTERLIST

Author’s Note:

Daamn this is a pretty long one! I thought you lovelies deserved a thicc update for all the wait 💙

And because of that, we got more song inspos than usual for this chapter: Mystery of Love by Sufjan Stevens, Strawberries and Cigarettes by Troye Sivan, and come out and play by Billie Eillish

I also forgot to mention last chapter that I named Marie after my favorite impressionist artist, Piérre Bonnard! You’ll see why 😉

Chapter 4: The First Letter

Erwin was thankful for the cool summer breeze as he made his way into the nearby town’s post office to receive his letters from Derek and his mother. A small smile graced his features when he found the two envelopes greeting him when he opened his letter box. One bearing the Wings of Freedom seal of the Scouting Legion, the other a postage stamp from Wall Rose.

He quickly opened Derek’s letter first, Erwin’s blue eyes skimming over the words written on an official Scouting Legion stationary. Erwin was surprised to read that his brother would be visiting again very soon. Derek was under orders from Commander Shadis to retrieve some files at the Cadet Corps’ Archives Office. But more than that, Derek wanted to meet with him saying, “I met a very pretty girl, and I wanna introduce her to you.”

Which was code for, “The Intelligence Division of the Legion has made some discoveries you’ll want to know. Meet me at my aforementioned destination.” Which in this case, was the Archives Office.

Derek Smith was privy to all sorts of confidential information thanks to his position as Deputy Section Commander at the Scouting Legion’s Intelligence Division. Perhaps Derek sharing sensitive information to his brother could cost him his life, but the brothers— as true sons of Jonathan Smith— were adamant in doing whatever it takes to know the truth of the Walls.

Erwin grimaced.

‘And I’m no stupid little boy anymore,’

Erwin pushes back the dark memories.

Moping wasn’t going to help his father’s legacy.

Ever since the suspicious death of their father, the Smith boys have taken it upon themselves to prove their father’s claims that the history of the Walls is more than meets the eye. Which was why Derek— being the elder brother— decided to join the frontlines of the Scouting Legion in pursuit of this knowledge, while Erwin would climb the ranks of the Military Police and uncover the truth from within. The brothers agreed that they would cover more ground if they split up this way.

And worst comes to worst, their mother would at least still have one son around to take care of her.

Erwin opens his mother’s letter next, the familiar loopy scrawl, and the nostalgic smell of home which oddly seems to stick to all her letters, comforting him.

My Darling Erwin,

I’ve just received the carnations, darling. As always, they are beautiful! Please put in a good word for the florist who arranges these. They have such artistry! I will be potting them after I write this. Maybe I’ll place them at the kitchen windowsill so I’ll be reminded of my brave and handsome sons whenever I wash.

And perhaps my brave and handsome sons would remember to visit their dear old mother? Don’t worry, nothing is wrong. Everything is fine. Mother is quite content here with her tulips and carnations, but I do miss my baby boys.

Please tell your brother to be very careful out there. You too, Erwin. If you will not take care for yourselves, then do it for your father and I. Your father would never forgive me if any harm came upon you boys. And it would break my heart.

Mama loves you very much, and I pray that the Goddesses would protect you both everyday. Come visit me soon, darling. I promise I’ll bake you your favorite strawberry pie! With the extra maple syrup, just the way you like it!

Much love and kisses,

Mama.

Erwin smiled softly. It was always nice to hear from his mother. He was glad he chose a good florist for his mother’s flowers. His mother only deserves the best. And he definitely misses her and her strawberry pie.

‘Derek and I should visit mother again soon. ‘

Erwin was tucking in the two letters into his jacket pocket, when he heard a familiar name.

“You’ve got another big one, Miss Marie!”

Sure enough, Erwin sees Marie Bonnard accept a rather hefty looking box from the mail concierge. She gave a bright smile to the young man behind the desk despite the heavy bulk in her arms. “I got it, Tom, thank you!”

Tom blushed at Marie’s undeniably pretty smile. “A-are you sure? I could—“

Marie gasped at the sensation of two strong arms lifting the box out of her grasp. When she looked up to snap at who dared try to take it away, her hazel eyes widened.

“No worries Tom, I’ll help her bring it home.”

Erwin’s easy smile and smooth voice made carrying the heavy box seem like a piece of cake. ‘Well, considering how big this guy is, it probably was.’ The thought made Marie want to cross her arms and stomp her feet.

Tom looked between her and Erwin. Marie could almost see the gears turning in the young man’s head, and the unspoken ‘Oh’ in his lips. “I see, of course sir.”

She rolled her eyes.

“Don’t be ridiculous Erwin, I’m more than capable of carrying it myself.” Marie moves to get the box back, when she notices something.

“Besides,” she begins, as her hazel eyes rove up the unmistakable military uniform Erwin was wearing. They zero in on the crossed sword insignia of the Cadet Corps. “Don’t you have training to go to?”

Erwin’s brilliant blue eyes sparked in amusement. “It’s a Saturday. So no training for today. I got all the time in the world, Marie.” The blonde smirked as he easily pulled the full weight of the box into his arms. “And we both know you’re going to hate lugging this around beneath this heat.”

Marie regarded the man before her. If there was anything she knew about Erwin, it’s that he took what he wanted and there would be no stopping him to it.

And she will hate lugging the box around beneath the harsh sun. Marie harrumphed.

“Fine.”

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The pair walked out of the postal office and into the bright glare of the summer sun in relative silence. The nearby weekend market was having a busy morning, and Marie didn’t miss all the women who have stopped in their errands, pausing their weekend shopping to look up at the vision that is Erwin Smith. They would then notice her by his side, and would either turn away in disappointment or look at her with eyes that wished she’d go away.

Marie rolled her eyes. She’s seen so many girls beam with pride to be seen walking beside Erwin back at the College of Wall Rose. And now, Marie doesn’t understand what was so nice about having complete strangers stare and be hostile towards you for no reason.

Out of curiosity, she peeked up at Erwin’s imposing figure, seeing if any of this attention affected him at all. Unsurprisingly, it didn’t.

Erwin’s handsomely cut profile, with his straight nose, high cheekbones, and perfectly chiseled jaw simply looked ahead, paying no mind to all the longing looks he was receiving.

Of course. He must be so used to all this already.

The summer breeze picked up and slightly ruffled Erwin’s blonde hair, making it glint and gleam against the sun’s brilliance. He looked like a golden hero sculpted by the hand of a god.

It was also then that she caught that familiar whiff of sandalwood and aftershave.

As if sensing her gaze, Erwin’s blue eyes flit at her. A small smirk quirked at his lips. Marie hastily looks to her front. A blush already forming at her cheeks from being caught staring.

“Is the box from your family?”

Marie was just a tad bit miffed that Erwin still hasn’t broken a sweat from carrying such a heavy load.

She shook her head good naturedly, “It came from a very sweet old lady from Wall Rose. She’s been my penpal for a few years now. She likes to send me boxes of treats and goodies when she knows I’ll be away from Wall Rose for the summer.” Marie looks up thoughtfully, ”Well, she does like to say that I’m like the daughter she never had. More so now that her sons are away.” She smiled softly. “So I guess it sorta is from family.”

Erwin smiles back at the wistful look in Marie’s hazel eyes, “She sounds wonderful.”

“How about you? Did you have to clean out your admirers’ dozens of love letters from your letter box?” Marie teased. Erwin raised an eyebrow in mock surprise.

“What admirers?”

Marie lightly swatted at Erwin’s arm. He just laughed saying, “If by admirers you mean my mother and my imbecile brother, then yes.”

Marie glanced at Erwin, “You have a brother?” The blonde nodded, “An older one. He just wrote to me that he’ll be visiting back from the Scouting Legion.”

That made Marie’s eyebrows scrunch together in confusion.

‘Erwin Smith training in the Cadet Corps, now an older brother in the Scouting Legion? The Smiths clearly don’t need to pursue a military career if they don’t want to. So what are they doing playing soldier?’

It was then that Marie noticed that they’ve arrived at the corner of her apartment block. “We’re here.”

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The apartment was small, but homey. Just enough for one person to stay in. Erwin noticed the small personal effects that littered the space, which spoke about the girl living within it. Little things, like the paint brushes submerged in a jar of water, and the rolled up tubes of paint beside it. As well as a magazine featuring a popular musical that was showing in Wall Rose, sitting on the small kitchen table.

But what really stood out about the apartment was the variety of flowers which ornamented the place. Marie noticed Erwin’s blue eyes taking in all the flora, and briefly waved at the flowers, explaining that she liked to dabble in Ikebana.

Marie takes the magazine off the table and gestures for Erwin to place the box on the kitchen table she just cleared. “Would you like some tea?” Came Marie’s distant voice, already busy pouring warm water into two teacups. “Thank you,” Erwin replies politely as he approaches a nearby window across the kitchen table. A small plot of white and pink carnations at the windowsill has caught Erwin’s attention.

Marie turns to Erwin with the two fragrant cups of tea, only to find him admiring the carnations. She places a teacup in front of him at the window ledge. “My mother was a florist before she had me. So I try to read the botany and floristry books she left behind whenever I can.”

Erwin’s blue eyes look to Marie in disbelief. How could she be so nonchalant at downplaying an obvious skill.

“Try? Marie, they’re lovely.”

Marie blushed at the compliment, not quite sure if he was referring to the flowers or… something else.

The pair stood before the window, gazing into the view outside, as they took a sip of their tea. A comfortable silence enveloping them.

Erwin raised an eyebrow the moment he took a taste of the sweet tea. Marie smiled, “ That’s strawberry tea from the same lady who sent me the box. You like it?” Erwin looks back to the carnations at the windowsill. A softness settling over his features. “ My mother would make these for me back home. It’s my favorite.”

He turns to look at Marie only to find that her smile has turned into laughter. Who would have thought Erwin Smith would have a sweet tooth… or be a Momma’s boy.

Erwin’s lips and brows quirked in amusement. “What?”

“Oh nothing, I just didn’t think you’d be such a momma’s boy!”

Erwin rolled his eyes.

“Hey, if it’s any consolation,” Marie begins, her laughter dying down. “It’s my favorite too,” she winks.

That caught Erwin off guard. He hastily took another sip of his strawberry tea to fight down a blush.

Marie grew quiet and thoughtful.

“I’m sure your mother doesn’t like that fact that you’re out here. Especially with your brother serving the Legion.”

Erwin turned somber. “No. She tries to convince us to leave everytime we visit her.” The blonde felt the woman beside him take a breath, readying herself for the one question which burned at the back of her head.

“Then why don’t you? You’re Erwin Smith! You’re more than capable of excelling in whatever field you put your mind to in Wall Sina. You can be whatever you want. You don’t need to risk your life in the military.” Marie reached out a hand to gently caress the embroidered crossed swords on Erwin’s chest. “So what are you doing here?”

Erwin’s face was a picture of calm. For many people, the Military was a great gamble for survival and security. They would be willing to endure the hardships of Cadet Corps training, risking their lives in the process, if it meant daily meals, a place to sleep, and a chance to enter the Inner Walls if they were good enough to qualify for the Military Police.

Erwin understood Marie’s confusion on why he would willingly choose to pursue a military career. But she seems to have forgotten that some men take the hard path for a purpose.

His blue eyes were distant as he placed his teacup down. “Isn’t the simple wish to serve humanity an acceptable enough reason?”

Marie’s hazel eyes were unconvinced, but she gave a small shrug anyways. “I suppose,” she replied as she sipped her tea.

“How about you?”

Oh no.

Erwin’s gaze turned intense, as he asked her the one question she’s been dreading.

“What are you doing working as a barmaid? Why aren’t you off spending your summer looking for a husband like the rest of the girls at Wall Rose?”

Now Marie set her own cup down. Erwin watched in interest as something steeled and solidified in Marie’s hazel eyes.

“Because I don’t need one.”

Marie closed her eyes and sighed, “Besides, I’m nothing like the Wall Rose girls. I always have to work for what I get. And that includes College. I work during the summer and try to earn enough to pay off what my scholarship doesn’t cover.”

She looked Erwin in the eye. “That’is why I’m working as a barmaid.”

Marie was prepared to find pity in Erwin’s eyes. Instead, she found wonder. His lips slightly parted as he tucked a stray strand of ginger hair behind her ear. He moved closer to her and drew in a breath.

“You’re right. You’re nothing like the girls from Wall Rose,” Erwin’s smooth baritone sent shivers down Marie’s spine.

This close, Marie could feel the warmth radiating from Erwin’s body. She could smell the distinct sandalwood and aftershave that made her head go hazy. She could feel herself drowning in Erwin’s blue eyes again.

“You’re bright and brave. Entirely something else,” Erwin breathed, as he looked intently into the ginger girl’s hazel eyes. Trying to understand just what exactly was making him lean into her.

He was so, so close. She could feel herself getting surrounded by him…

By Erwin.

If she could just…

Stand on her tiptoes.

Marie felt her soft plump lips touch Erwin’s thin ones, and was thrilled to find him avidly returning the kiss. His strong hands immediately went to her waist, as he pulled her even closer. Her own slender hands wrapped themselves around Erwin’s thick neck. Her fingers brushing along the bristles of his undercut.

Marie felt heat pool in her belly, as the large man prodded a wet tongue against her lips. With a soft moan, the woman parted her lips without hesitation and found that Erwin Smith tasted like strawberries and cigarettes.

So Erwin Smith smokes.

She reveled in the fact that she’s just found out that the man smokes from kissing him. But then Marie felt Erwin’s calloused hands gently but firmly push her away.

When Marie opened her heavy-lidded eyes, she was met with cool and unfathomable blue eyes. The memory of Erwin pressing Elena up against a wall at the bar came rushing back to her. How he was so clearly delighted from taking her pleasure.

Her hands suddenly felt cold as she quickly stepped back as if she’d been burned. Marie stuttered out an apology, already hating herself for acting like a desperate girl. She’s really done it this time.

She squeezed her eyes shut, and clenched her fists. Panic bubbled up her throat.

What was she thinking? Erwin’s only ever liked brunettes. What makes her think he’ll want her over Elena?

“What? No, Marie it’s not that.” The reply of Erwin’s smooth baritone made Marie realize that she’s said her thoughts out loud. Erwin nudges her chin to look up at him.

When Marie opened her glassy hazel eyes again, as if a switch flipped in Erwin, she saw a rather amused look on his face, a small dimple showing on his cheek. “You see, I wouldn’t be a very good wingman if I start kissing you now.”

Marie blinked. “What?”

Erwin stopped the urge to kiss her adorable freckled face again.

“My best friend wants to court you, Marie.”

“Oh.”

Along with that realization, Marie recognized Erwin’s efforts to try and diffuse the situation. Marie started shaking her head in laughter, the awkwardness and embarrassment of the moment finally melting away.

“And you’re going to help him with that?” Marie raised an eyebrow and crossed her arms as she leant back. Erwin gave her a dimpled, boyish grin. “ Can you blame me? The guy promised me a bottle of Ragako Brandy for it. So you better say yes to him!”

“W o w”

Erwin and Marie laughed together. The morning light that bounced brightly against Marie’s ginger curls made the laughing, freckled girl look absolutely radiant.

‘Sweet Sina, now I really want to kiss her again,’ Erwin thought as he added,

“So get ready to see more of our faces at the Territory.”

Marie mockingly rolled her eyes in response.

“Oh Goddess.”

It was then that Marie decided that she quite liked Erwin like this— carefree and playful.

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When Erwin left her little floral apartment, Marie immediately sat down and wrote a letter to Agatha about the charming young soldier who just helped her carry the box the old lady sent. Marie couldn’t help the way the butterflies in her belly fluttered about at the thought. Nor did she notice it.

Two days later, when Marie stepped out of her apartment to finally send her reply to Agatha, she was surprised to find a small white envelope fluttering down from her door jamb.

She picked it up and found her name written on it with an elegant flourish. She excitedly opened the envelope in curiosity and read the elegantly written letter.

Marie smiled.

A/N: Ikebana is the Japanese art of flower arrangement.

*winkwink* to those who have figured *it* out by now hihihi

I’ll see you lovelies again soon, and as always, stay safe, healthy, AND WASH YOUR HANDS!

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