#b4 anyone starts: i had to leave some out
Text
⚡︎ the gym bunny
sfw | tws : mild yandere behavior, some violence
i’m doing this b4 i do mykolas bc i’m rly stumped doing his intro 😭 for now, heres valentina! this one goes out to my girl likers 🫶
valentina could see it as if it was written all over you the moment you entered the gym — you were a first timer.
the way your eyes darted around the building, clearly having no set plan on what you wanted to do, to how you paused and seemed unsure when you were trying to use a machine you had obviously never touched before, she knew you'd probably never been to a gym before that day.
it was a common enough occurrence, though, so she paid no mind to you at first. what reason did she have not to? but she couldn’t help the curiosity piquing in her mind as you lingered on her thoughts…
so she was quite surprised to have her workout interrupted by you, wandering up to her and shyly asking how to operate the bench she was using.
and she even surprised herself when, rather than counter you disrupting her routine with an annoyed look or rude comment like she’d do to anyone else, she completely ceased her workout to respond to you.
“oh, this? no way, this is way too much for someone just starting. let me show you somethin' better.”
and just like that, the two of you became acquainted by her whisking you off to work out together.
it was simple enough of a day — you stretched together, chatted, she offered you her special enhanced water to ensure you stayed hydrated (and pretended her heart didn’t skip a beat when you accepted), and finally, she deemed you ready to actually begin to exercise.
it didn’t take long for valentina to fall for you after that. you were so attentive, so curious for her! the way you tilted your head as she explained the various buttons and modes for her favorite workout machines, the little “oh!” you exclaimed when you understood something, those cute noises you made when you did your stretches…
the lady was usually so dedicated to her body. the fact that she had grown so keen on helping you with yours was definitely a first for her.
“look at you! you’re getting the hang of it so fast!” she’d praise when you successfully did a rep on your own.
“awh, your form’s way off. let me help you…” she’d say with teasing pretend disappointment when your posture wasn’t right.
the way you thanked her every time you got something done with her help was enough to drive her wild! you were just so cute! so fucking cute! you were exactly her type!
and she was just so helpful, you thought. every time someone dared to interrupt your time together, they were met with valentina snapping at them, demanding they'd buzz off and leave the two of you be. any fears you might've had of being harassed by crude gym goers was completely quelled with her by your side.
you could've almost believed that the weight she dropped on the foot of the guy who started to bother you when she had stepped away probably didn't slip from her hands on accident... but what proof did you have? the guy was leaving anyway...
by the time the day had ended and you were ready to go home, you had gotten far more done than you ever expected to. and sure, you were sore and ready to collapse, but your new friend was nice enough to order you an uber home! something she wish she'd done when she first started, she claimed. having your address was a nice bonus, too... but she definitely didn't think about that.
the two of you came to sort of an agreement when the day had ended and you were ready to go. you exchanged numbers, deeming each other as training buddies of sorts, and said your goodbyes. it made her heart swell knowing you liked her enough to come to her every time you came to the gym!
valentina had never felt this way towards anyone she had met before that point, but she grew to like the rapid pounding in her heart when the two of you interacted. the rush was even better than working out.
so when you parted, she made sure to mark her calendar to the day you'd return. she was gonna be ready. she'd push you even harder, she decided.
she was gonna make your heart race the same way you'd made hers.
#💪 valentina everett#lovesick | ocs#mine | fics#yandere x reader#yandere x you#yandere x oc#yandere headcanons#yandere imagines#yandere girl#yandere girlfriend#yandere#yandere nsft#this is a bit rushed but idrc 🫶
389 notes
·
View notes
Note
ooh i'd love to see a character x reader where the reader has a really busy job and maybe like the CEO of a company, and recently they've been coming home at ungodly hours compared to before, (maybe like b4 it was 9-10pm, but now its 2-3am)
and now the character is getting suspicious of them, so they wait for them one night and confront them. reader tries to reassure them but...
you can decide if its a fluffy ending or maybe angst~~
CHARACTERS: any of your choice, i'd like to see multiple but if you can only do some i'd definitely want to see: tighnari, cyno, alhaitham, zhongli, tartaglia, kazuha, (GOROU PLEASE)
this is kinda long sorry for that! have a nice day!
Okay so angst with no happy ending here - going with Gorou. If anyone wants another character with this idea please do ask, I really love the idea! Gender neutral reader, when I say this is an unhappy ending I really mean it. Modern AU
--
You knew your relationship with Gorou was going through the ringer with the demands at your work increasing. People slacking off and making it difficult to just sack them when they suddenly decide to get their act together after a disciplinary, only to go back to their old selves. People getting fed up with these individuals and understandably leaving, dealing with the press.
Everything was just so stress inducing, and due to being a manager you had to seal with it. You were under the process of getting more people, but in the meantime you needed to pick up more and more work.
Gorou had understood this at first, knowing he'd still see you at home. When it got to the point of only returning after 9pm at the earliest, that's when the cracks start to form. He hears from friends how you had been talking to someone who was so obviously interested in you, someone who you were speaking to for a good 30 minutes undisturbed.
His friends were truly horrid, planting the idea in Grouse mind that this interviewee was flirting with you when they were just engaging in a potential job offer. Gorou never had the chest to raise this with you, however, opting to be silent when mentally leaving your relationship.
When you got to the point of only returning home at 1am, the relationship was really hanging on the cliff. You love Gorou, so when you saw him being so...awkward with you returning to your shared home, you knew you needed to get your act together. Maybe bring your wok home to spend time with him, or better yet arrange for a day off to treat him.
One day, you manage to get out of work at 5pm, and you get a bouquet that was freshly made (lucky you!) And your boyfriends favourite luxury sweets (you found out during an anniversary date). Driving home, you tell yourself you fully plan on showering Gorou in love.
Opening the door with the gifts you could pick up quickly, your face drops when you hear two voices - one familiar and one not.
"What about your partner?" You hear the stranger ask. "I can be so much better for you."
That's absurd, you think as you begin to walk towards the room the noise was coming from.
"I know, it's just that I'm scared of being hurt again." Gorou sighs, you dropping your gifts at that moment. Hearing gasps coming from the room, you run away like a coward before you could put a face to Gorou's new lover.
--
"Hey boss! I got your...oh..." Yoimiya calls out, realising your night was cut very short. "...I thought you were going to rest tonight. Why not come back tomorrow, after you get some sleep, a meal, a shower."
Shaking your head, you walk right to your office, slamming the door behind you before getting back to work.
#gender neutral reader#genshin impact imagines#angst#gorou#gorou x reader#gorou x gender neutral reader
56 notes
·
View notes
Note
hi zak! I saw the tags you left on a reblogged post about Luke and suffering in relation to catholicism and that made me think. one of my classmates used to mention "the catholic guilt" (particularly about having desire), and I just thought it fits Luke so well. He felt so guilty about loving Rosa (and leaving her alone...) for so long T-T. Also, I'd love to hear more of your thoughts about catholic and filipino luke if you'd like to write about it!
irt to these deranged tags i left on this post abt suffering as salvation and luke forever ago, screencapped below for reference
hello hello! sorry this response took Ages but now im finally down to answer this so....
//steeples hands.....is luke pearce catholic coded? to Me, yes, and ive been casually throwing around this concept ever since 2021 HAHA. the filipino bit is actually just me projecting, so i wont go too much into that, but the religious bit Is something i wanna talk about. and i apologize in advanced for how long this response is gonna end up being
quick disclaimer b4 i start tho: im Not a theologian or an expert in religious theory, im just some guy who went through over a decade of catholic school and lives in the philippines, a primarily catholic country. this whole response is not saying "catholicism bad." it's more the institutions from where we experience catholicism from can twist it into something harmful, and i got to experience that first hand and how it affects one's view of themselves
ANYHOO, LET'S START FROM THE BEGINNING
like....the Beginning beginning
part 1: in the beginning, adam and eve did an oopsie so now we're all saddled with original sin (i swear this is important to luke pearce, bear with me)
quick recap on those who are unfamiliar: in the book of Genesis, god told adam and eve not to eat from the tree of knowledge. and then they did. this was the first ever sin in the history of humankind, and it is inherited by all humans through birth. so like, yay, happy entrance into the world, newly born baby child! you are guilty of sin already. this original sin is most usually absolved though through baptism, so it's not too much of a problem. but what im interested here is less of the nitty gritty semantics and more of the concept this all puts forth:
that under catholicism and similar denominations, a child, somebody who has not done any wrong at all, is inherently tainted by sin
now, the Good reaction to sin or any wrongdoing one has done is to recognize it and to atone for forgiveness. and within the "recognition" part is where guilt lies. functionally, guilt has a purpose. it makes us realize that we had done something wrong, it makes us feel remorseful, and it adds motivation to atone, to turn a new leaf, and to be better. in healthy amounts, guilt is useful and a natural part of being conscious over the things you do. and in unhealthy amounts, guilt is agonizing.
but thats for stuff you actually Did.
if the thing you are guilty for isnt actually something you were responsible over, the guilt cant do anything to make any of it better. you cant be a better person from it, because you didnt even do it. it just sits there, making you feel horrible for something that was out of your control. but because guilt is a Good thing to do, it doesnt matter if it's functional or not. it needs to stay. because it's Good, and the sin youre saddled with (whether or not you were responsible) is Bad
now let's bring in luke
luke's parents died when he was very young. this led him to living with mc's family, and a huge insecurity and fear he had from the beginning was that he felt guilty for burdening them, for stealing the love and care from mc's parents when that shouldve been for mc alone. the story SSR Shape Of You goes into this particular childhood experience extensively (and i highly reccommend it to anyone who hasnt read it yet), and tells us that his guilt was so bad that he wanted to run away and even erase himself from existence.
but luke didnt even do anything wrong
at the time, he was a child. he had no bearing whatsoever in the accident that killed his parents, he had no sway over who wouldve ended up looking after him, he had no control over the situation. like a newborn baby born under catholic doctrine, luke finds himself inherently tainted by and guilty for the circumstances that landed him to where he was.
this kind of pattern is going to follow him for the rest of his life, and the concept of inherent sin and inherent guilt begins to evolve. if luke can find himself guilty for things out of his control, then he can also find himself guilty for things that arent even sins in the first place
key example: love
like you said, luke feels immense guilt over loving mc. but why? love is the opposite of a sin, afterall.
it's just a sin when luke does it. because luke sees himself as inherently bad, and sees mc as inherently good. he sees himself as unworthy of her or someone who will just bring pain into her life, and causing pain someone you love is bad. if love is the knife he uses to hurt someone he loves, then that love is bad. that love should not be realized, and luke should feel guilty for even yearning for her.
by this point i think it's obvious that original concept has become twisted and overly punishing, even cruel. and thats because:
a lot of institutions teach catholic doctrine in an unhealthy and harmful manner. this is why many catholics and lapsed catholics experience The Catholic Guilt(TM). what was originally a pretty reasonable thing gets blown out of proportion from the places we learn these things from, and then getting exposed to this for majority of our lives lets it worm its way into our brain where it'll tend to stay
and if one's brain also has a tendency for self hatred and/or mental illness........well. it all gets worse.
it's clear in canon that luke is uhhhh not the most mentally well individual. his guilt is so overwhelming that it's the driving force in so many of his choices, stories, and experiences. which is big reason #1 for why luke just seems so catholic to me, because of the sheer intensity of his guilt and how he sees himself as inherently bad and unworthy.
but in the roadmap of sin, thats only the beginning. because the process goes:
sin (bad) -> recognition of the bad aided by guilt (good) -> atonement to become better (good)
which leads to big reason #2
part 2: suffering, pain, and misery as atonement
it's important to note that catholicism does not posit that "suffering is good", but there is a clear pattern of veneration for people who endure suffering under noble causes. many, many people in catholic history have been martyred (and many also sainted), one of the biggest examples being jesus himself.
pain is not good, but someone who chooses to take it on for good reasons (self-sacrifice, martyrdom, putting others above one's self) or stays good in spite of all the pain they experienced (unwavering faith, a heart of gold), well, THAT person is good.
however, like a lot of stuff in catholicism, things get twisted into extreme variations because of how it gets taught or experienced. it doesnt take a genius to see how "people who endured pain for good reasons were brave and devoted people" can transform into "to experience pain is inherently noble" when you take into consideration that many sins (like, of the seven deadly sins variety, pride, sloth, lust, etc etc) are variations of indulgence.
specifically over-indulgence, yes, but there's a dichotomy now. here, in the list of Good Stuff are things that feel not-so-good, and over in the list of Bad Stuff are things that do feel good
bad stuff is a sin, and from part 1, sins are things you should be guilty for
and now, to feel good is also bad, so you should be guilty for that. which reinforces the concept that to feel bad is good.
congratulations, you've unintentionally glorified suffering and demonized pleasure! //sad trumpet noises
you can see this kind of thinking pretty clearly in luke pearce. there are the big examples like the previous one i brought up, where he feels so guilty for his feelings for mc. but it appears even in smaller casual situations, like in his 1st birthday event story. this moment was seared into my brain
"can i look forward to this?" is indicative of hesitating in the face of happiness. even something as mundane as anticipating a birthday surprise is something to be approached with caution, feels too good to be true, to be allowed, because feeling good is bad and luke doesnt see himself worthy of it
but okay, we're all guilty now of the horrible sin of enjoying life. what comes next? atonement, becoming better, growing from the bad to become good, right?
and what better way to cleanse one's self from the sin of feeling good but through the nobleness of enduring pain?
luke is guilty over the sin robbing burdening mc and her family -> thats okay he's leaving for college anyway! wont be able to burden them there -> oopsie the NSB happens but hey at least this lone wolf suffering is a great way to atone for his past sin -> oh god the guilt of abandoning mc though -> oh GOD the mission that killed everybody but him -> NEW ACHIEVEMENT: SURVIVOR'S GUILT ON TOP OF THE CATHOLIC GUILT! -> oh GOD he's even guiltier now of his feelings for mc because of his illness, he'll only bring pain to her, how selfish of him to have feelings like this, bad and wrong -> the best way to handle this is to stay away from her to let her live in peace (lacking the pain that luke will bring) and deprive himself of her who brings him joy (inflicting pain of separation onto sinner as punishment) -> the path to salvation (to being good, because only in being Good is someone worthy of love) is through constant suffering and endless self-deprivation
kinda insane how luke's self-perceived sins and self-inflicted sufferings gain compound interest of misery, but his spiral into self-loathing is littered with this kind of nonsensical "because i did [THING], i should deserve pain/NOT deserve happiness"
for luke, suffering became the mode of atonement, it became the solution for sin and guilt.
part 3: conclusion
to wrap this all up, i wanna make it clear that i dont necessarily think luke is like, catholic in the story. nor is even it a headcanon i have. it's more that the intensely self-punishing thought patterns luke has in relation to guilt and suffering are very, very familiar. it resonates in a way that is horridly relatable to people who have experienced these specific catholic experience woes, but it can also resonate in completely different ways to other people as well.
but given that....yeah. based on my own experiences, all this //gestures at too-long response, is why i keep using catholic language and imagery whenever i talk about luke. it's so familiar. he's so familiar. luke would not be out of place in a filipino catholic high school crying during a 3 day retreat
thanks for the ask!!!
69 notes
·
View notes
Text
Imma talk about consequenses Au
aight so bassically
its a family au
where the samadhi fire is sealed away, where wukong ends up retiring and also an au where Wukong is Nezha's dad. adopted but still.
so yeah the au really starts there, Wukong and nezha bond over both being fucked over by heaven yet still bowing down to thier forces. after the journey they just end up *twists fingers togethor* like that.
Sun Nezha || Lotus
now 100's of years after the journey the samadhi fire happens, it
it happens like in cannon.
then dbk is sealed away.
normal cannon stuff exept nezha is around wukong more often and is one of his only companions so the guy isnt COMPLETLY alone.
now macaque interferes in wukongs like more too in this au b4 mk comes along but i havent developed that enough.
also my hc for mk HERE
one day heaven calls swk to meet with them under URGENT bussiness. like end of world bussiness as they say, they call nezha to come too. bassically anyone important and powerful is called to this meeting. not a whole lot of people only the most powerful and important. this includes but is not limited to
swk, nezha , erlang, Kuan yin, the jade emporer.
apparently a piece of the samadhi fire was not sealed away correctly and escaped the ritual and is now in the hands of a young baby girl.
a dragon girl.
they all freak out and erlang blames swk, but kuan yin calms everyone down using magic stuff. idk i hc they have a magic calming power that makes everyone chill tf out and think clearly.
they propose to take the fire out of the child but apparently (bc she was born with it) if they take it out it will kill her.
so kuan yin and nezha mumble to each other for a moment then kuan yin stands up and proposes an idea, swk is a being who has had to learn how to control power equal to the samadhi fire. so perhaps he could teach the child how to control it.
if it wasnt for kuan yins calming magic all hell would have been let loose. no one likes the idea of-of MONKEY teaching a CHILD to control an uncontrollable power.
(nezha and swk have one hell of a headache rn and its only gonna get worse)
so while theyre arguing and bitching over what to do little baby mei is about to change her entire life.
someone rushes into the meeting and informs everyone that the girls home is lit on fire.
red and black fire.
Swk and nezha are the first and only ones to leave, kuan yin stays there and insists everyone else stays. (that includes you erlang)
Swk and nezha make it to Mei's house and swk makes nezha stay while he goes in and gets everyone out.
Mei is the only one who makes it out alive carried in swk's arms.
She's barely a hundred days old.
swk tells heaven he will be taking this young girl in and act as her father. he creates a strong seal (bc this is only a third of the fire a seal works well enough to stop the fire from combusting again) Kuan yin and nezha both endorse this decision and swk ends up with a baby girl.
Sun Xiaojiao || Kiwi || Mei
so for four years mei is the daughter of swk and little sister to Nezha, theyre all happy and swk teaches mei little small magic stuff. nothing too crazy just baby magic.
one day swk goes grocery shopping wile nezha stays with mei.
he's felt it all night, growing.
power
it starts small but large enough to reach across the city, then steadily grows and swk is forced to stop what he's doing and search the city for this overgrowing power source. one that just wont stop getting bigger by the second.
he eventually finds the source of the power but its not some demon stronghold or spell.
its just an apartment building.
one that's door is ripped to shreds.
blood stains the floor's and turns himself into a fly to avoid stepping in the piles of gore on the floor. suddenly he hears a baby crying. the power source is still here.
he rushes in (still a fly and finds a demon looming over a crib claws bared about to strike the young thing)
swk poofs back into his normal form and within the smoke the poof left he grabs the baby and jumps out the window. after he's landed and rushed to the side of the building he does his best to soothe the young monkey...demon...
one with...with his eyes...
not his red ones, eyes from before he was burned
a monkey demon with power that shines just like his.
His succesor
he panics for a moment, internally. he's still as a rock in this moment. and in this moment macaque decided to appear to mess with him. (wrong timing macdonalds)
he tries to fuck around but a smile grows on swk's face and he pushes the baby into mac's arms. smiles with to much teeth and tells him to watch the little guy for like...three minutes.
Mac is dumbfounded and confused af screaming at swk as he goes back up to the apartment but shuts up once his sensitive hearing picks up what wukong is doing.
ps. its murder.
bloody murder.
then something reaches up for him. oh yeah he's got a baby in his arms. then mac panics.
THIS IS A CELESTIAL MONKEY BABY
and it...well he kinda looks like mac doesnt he?
The face marking forming on the little guy's face is a similar color to Mac's, his fur is dark and long just like his own but brown.
little guy's really cute.
Mac ends up playing with little baby mk and swk appears in the shadows of the alleyway covered in blood and askign for the babyback. Mac tells him fuck no, not until you clean off that blood. you expect to carry a baby like that?!?! dumbass.
Swk blinks and realises then he awkardly asks mac to come back to his house so he can take mk home.
mac agree's but on one condition.
he gets to babysit.
swk refuses.
mac leaps into his shadows.
mac teleported to ffm but swk doest know that. when nezha see's him he almost attacks mac but the baby with swk's powers makes him stop in his tracks. Mac explains (what he knows) and tells nezha to call swk while mac goes and gets some fruit for the baby. when swk gets there nezha takes baby mk into mei's room and mei (half asleep) instantly turns into a big sister and claims the little guy, the nezha climbs in bc he does not want to deal with the god's of complicated relationships . so yeah they sleep together while chaos ensues outside
bassically swk and mac talk for a while
then argue.
then mac leaves.
then he comes back like two hours later
more arguing.
then a real conversation
then crying
then swk and mac kiss
nezha throws up bc ew guys pls its 7 in the goddamn morning what the fuck
and bam thats how swk adopted mk and Mac became thier babysitter/mom
Sun Xiaotian || Mk || Monkey Kid ||
so yah consequences AU. one big family and rlly the entire plot is just the kids growing up and then turning into vigilante's with thier amazing powers and everything.
#ConsequencesAU💫#wordscribbles#lmk#lego monkie kid#monkie kid#sun wukong#six eared macaque#liu er mihou#mk#monkey king#sun wukong lmk#nezha lmk#nezha#lmk mei#mei#long xiaojiao#lmk xiaojiao#lmk mk#spring gardens
172 notes
·
View notes
Text
feelings in the cabin chapter 3 - reflections in the tracks
clarifying things, this story is in imanis pov
my age 4 the band
jesse - 26
aaron z - 23
aaron t - 22
robaire - 21
imani - 21 (ignore the 22 in ch 1 LOL little mess there)
tae young - 18 ( he is also lack toes intallerants T-T)
Aaron Z is referred to as 'Z'
Aaron T is referred to as 'T'
i decided to just use t and z bc i was scared it would be confusing and i also got confused XD
SEVENTEEN is a kpop group and so is SHINee
spoiler translationnnn "por favor fale comigo" means please talk to me
i am definitely not finishing this b4 the end of the month LOL
ok plz read and leave comments k bye
After driving for a bit and accidentally getting Robaire and Z into SHINee and SEVENTEEN, we make it back to the cabin. I get out of the van first, followed by Robaire, then Z.
Robaire grabs the drinks that he talked about before, he must have bought them when me and Z were shopping. My mind suddenly reminds me of that flustering moment we shared, making me feel frustrated with myself. I'm in a loving relationship, I shouldn’t be feeling how I am about this.
But, wouldn’t anyone feel flustered if that happened to them? That’s my justification. As Robaire goes inside, assumingly to put the drinks away and hopefully tell the guys to come and help, me and Z grab our fair share of groceries before heading inside as Jesse opens the front door for us, only wearing a jacket, although I can’t scold him, this stuff is getting heavy.
Me and Z make our way to the kitchen to place the bags down as Taeyoung and T head outside, thankfully bundled up. The two of them, along with Jesse, come back inside with the rest of the groceries, joining us in the kitchen.
The six of us put everything away in the fridge, cupboards, and pantry. With all of us, it’s a fairly easy task, and we finish rather quickly. I grab the big bag of Doritos that I got for myself, and head to the living room as everyone else grabs their own snacks and follows suit. T stands in front of me, no snacks in hand.
I assume he wants some of my chips, but then I remember him telling me he wanted to talk before we left, and he looked oddly serious. “Imani, can you come here?” He asks, and I unflatteringly shove some chips in my mouth before getting up. He gently grabs my hand, leading me to our room.
“Ey! What are y’all ‘bout to do?” Robaire shouts out in a suggestive tone, making me shake my head.
“Just start the movie!” T responds back as we turn the corner to the hallway and disappear from their sight. He pushes our bedroom door open, letting me go in first before cutting the light on. I sit down on the bed as he shuts the door and he sits beside me, the radio I brought playing nonstop Christmas music saving us from an awkward silence.
“What’s up? Are you okay?” I tilt my head, turning to him with a slightly concerned expression.
He sighs, shaking his head. “I’m okay, but are you?” Okay… what’s going on?
“Yeah, I’m fine. Why?” I ask, my voice laced with confusion as he grabs my hands, holding them in his own. “On the way here, when you came back from the gas station, you… were crying.” He reminds me.
Oh, that. “Uhm, yeah. Uh, it was just these two fans, they thought I was Robaire at first, they didn’t seem to like me much.” I half explain.
“What did they do?” He asks, concern etched on his face, making my heart melt. Gosh, I love him. “Uhhh..” I begin fiddling with his ring.
“They didn’t really do much. They were just kinda mean, and…” I stop, genuinely trying to recall, but then I remember the event, making me grimace, I don’t really want to bring it up to him.
“They… just said some mean stuff. You know I’m sensitive. They just wanted to see Robaire, that’s all.” I try to explain without saying too much, but he obviously knows that isn’t the full story.
“Meu amor. Por favor fale comigo.” He pleads, making me look away. He just had to switch to Portuguese, just to make me give up, but I won’t.
“I-I am! They just thought I was Robaire and they were a little upset that he wasn’t with me. Apparently I shouldn’t be in the band because I’m a girl.” I say with a chuckle, beginning to find it a bit amusing.
“And maybe they brought up what happened on my birthday for some reason.” I mutter under my breath, but he, with his super hearing, heard every word.
“They what?” He exclaims, letting my hands go to throw his hands in the air in annoyance. “It’s not a big deal. I was just feeling a bit emotional that day anyways. It’s in the past, babe.” I try to make him see that the memory doesn’t affect me anymore, although it does, in ways more than one.
“Imani, you know I’d never do anything to hurt you, right?” He asks, referring to the non consensual kiss he received from our ex manager. I know it wasn’t his fault, he just naturally attracts people, it’s his silliness and charm. I know he loves me. I know that.
So why did it hurt so bad? I saw it with my own eyes, I saw her kiss him, and he pushed her away just as quick as everything went down.
“Yeah, I know.” I simply respond as he pulls me in for a tight hug. He gives the best hugs, he’s just the best. He pulls away, giving me a peck on the lips before we hear a knock on the door. We both stand up and walk to the door, it’s Z. His gaze goes to me, staring for a bit before looking at T.
“We’re watching Home Alone. Are yall okay?” He asks, his trademark stoic voice barely showing emotion, although we’ve known him long enough to know that he’s not some heartless robot, so don’t worry, he’s concerned, just on the inside.
“Yup, we were just talking.” T nods, his usual cheerful demeanor coming back, although a flicker of… something in his eye as he looks at Z, I can’t put my finger on it, doesn’t go unnoticed by me as the three of us walk back out to the living room.
I grab, well, snatch my chip bag from Robaire's hands, that little heckler stole my spot, before sitting down on the spot on the couch that Jesse was lounging on, pushing his legs away to make space, earning a glare from him. “Sorry grandpa!” I say with a grin, plopping down in the empty spot, before T sits to my left, and Z joins, sitting on my right.
Me and Z haven’t said much since the whole thing at the store, so it’s a tiny bit awkward at the moment. He leans back, crossing his arms, seeming intrigued by the classic movie we watch all the time each year, but lowkey, I am too. I catch him glancing at me every once in a while, so I assume he wants some chips.
“You want some?” I ask, tilting the bag toward him, but he turns his head to me, simply shaking his head no before turning back to watch the movie. “I want some, I want some!” T jokingly whines, and I happily tilt the bag in his direction, though I end up just leaving the bag between our legs, just in case he wants more.
“Man, I wish I was in that family.” We hear Taeyoung say, making us chuckle. “Why?” Jesse asks with a grin. “Just look at that house! All that food! I’d be like,” He makes a cute face, puppy eyes and all. “Omma! Can I please stay at cousin Kevin's house tonight?”
“Dude, we can make that here! We just have frozen stuff.” Robaire chimes in, making Taeyoung remember that we just majorly stocked up, and since they brought me along to shop, I may or may not have bought a bunch of junk.
“Oh. Em. Gee. You’re totally right!” Taeyoung practically jumps off the couch and heads to the kitchen, and I decide to come along with him, suddenly having a taste for that ice cream that Kevin is chowing down on. “Tae, look.” I bring him over to the freezer, opening it and showing him the multiple options of ice cream. I may have gotten a lot but, there are six of us, it’ll run out quickly. Vanilla, strawberry, chocolate, mint chocolate chip, moose tracks, coffee, cherry, so many more. We have a big sized freezer, so it’ll be okay.
As he excitedly pulls out the moose tracks, I head over to a cupboard and grab chocolate sauce, caramel sauce, and mini marshmallows, setting them down on the counter. He brings the ice cream over and sets it beside our ingredients for sweetness galore. I grab two bowls, setting them down as Taeyoung gets a scooper and puts it down.
Jesse comes in, wanting to join in. He grabs the pista ice cream, making me grimace.
“Pista… I got that for you, by the way.” He's the only one who actually enjoys it. “Yep, thanks pookie.” He says, making me wheeze.
“Did you just call me pookie?” I clutch my stomach, trying not to laugh. “Yes I did. Everyone keeps saying it so I’m joining in.” He walks over to me and Taeyoung, grabbing another bowl and the scooper from the counter, giving himself two scoops and going to rinse the scooper off for us, putting it back down and getting a spoon.
“Bye, pookies!” He calls out before walking out. “Bye…” Me and Taeyoung say in unison, looking at each other and laughing. “I didn’t teach him that word!” Taeyoung exclaims, putting his hands up before scooping us up some moose tracks, two scoops each. I grab the chocolate sauce, being generous with it, a big helping for both as Taeyoung gives us caramel sauce, being equally generous.
I open up the bag of marshmallows, pouring them into our bowls, making our dreams complete. “Wow.” I step back, putting my hands on my hips and admiring our work.
“This is gonna be so good!” Taeyoung grabs two spoons, giving me the smaller one, aw, little bro knows me well.
We grab our bowls and walk back into the living room, sitting back down in our seats. I immediately slam down on my sweet treat, but also taking my time and savoring it. I can see Z side eyeing me as if he wouldn’t scarf this down, and he so would. Well, maybe not with all the extraness.
The movie goes on, the vanilla ice cream runs out very quickly. We get to the point of the movie where Kevin hears his mother, runs out and sees no one. Then, he finally gets to her. They hug, how cute. The moment just… makes me feel bittersweet.
Yeah, his mom seems a little harsh in the beginning, and even forgets him at home. Okay, this isn’t sounding too good. But, she tried to get home as soon as possible and was so happy that he was safe. She apologized too. For everything. She meant it.
She truly cares about her child.
“Oh my gosh, Imani! No way you’re crying at Home Alone!” I hear Jesse shout out, and I realize I’m full on sobbing. I quickly wipe my tears away, feeling a little embarrassed. I can hear everyone chuckling, well, all except Z.
“Ah, she will cry at every movie, cut her some slack!” Robaire says, hopefully knowing why I’m really crying. I feel a hand patting my back, the hand of Z. I look over at him with a small but grateful smile.
“Ha ha, yeah.” I try to play off as I don’t care as I stand up, getting Taeyoungs bowl with my own as he is now in the bathroom and will definitely be a while. I head to the kitchen, rinsing our bowls and putting them in the dishwasher, shutting it with a sigh.
It’s late now, not late enough for me to sleep but I’m not really feeling like staying up. I walk back into the living room to grab my bag of chips, and I notice that T and Z are gone. Robaire is on his phone and Jesse is somehow knocked out cold despite me being gone for like two minutes.
Maybe T is in our room… I head to the bedroom, pushing open the door and fully expecting to see him in bed or whatever, but he’s not there?
“Why didn’t Imani tell me?” I hear T… from Z's room?
#4town#4townie#turning red#turning red 4town#4town aaron t#4town aaron z#4town robaire#4town taeyoung#4town jesse#4townimani
9 notes
·
View notes
Note
I wanna know more about ur oc Pumpkin 🎃!!
Okay! I don't know where to start but THANKS FOR THE ASK ♡♡♡ I understand this is very rambly and I do not expect anyone to read this shit‼️
Um okay this is nothing information but im noting it anyway thats shes number 4 out of 5 children (3 older brothers and a younger sister) and was born in Texas. She moved away from home in her mid 20s. She always lived in a trailer park so she continued to just moving about every year or so, mostly less than that tho.
This is how she meets dude! They just happen to be in the same trailer park at the same time and, as an animal lover, Pumpkin pets Champ when she walks passed him. She strikes up a conversation with dude....so kn and so forth ig :)
Now I do wanna note that I put her with P1 and P3 and, like i do with alot of my OCs, have slightly different versions of her for each sinareo. For P1, she's more manipulative and co-dependent because if im doing OC X cannon I'm going all out. Part of dude doing what he did was encourage by a shared delusion between the two of them. Pumpkin would also be controlling and angry if dude tried to leave, she's a bad person to him.
When with P3, she's more mellow and independent, she still likes the Dude (loves him really) but she knows they both like to wander and wouldn't be as upset with a separation. This doesn't its all ouppie and kitties, because she will just shy of torture this man in the bed room. I'd say he's into it, but she wouldn't care if he wasn't. There's still a controlling part of her that wants to own her partner.
Small note also, I get P3s whole cannon is complicated, but as far as he states, he had a wife and the events of P2 happened to him. All this to say I think him and Pumpkin had an affair, Dude didn't think she knew about his wife but of course she did. They're always yelling at each other and she would have found out anyway lol.
Anyway, she's encouraged to move out of town before you know. The nuclear bomb. But she loses her trailer. They go to Catharsis. Then another town and another. They just travel for a few years. She's a cleaner, she picks up odd jobs and Dude does what Dude does. Very boring and nothing story lol.
With the interpersonal, Dude does love her and has a loyalty to Pumpkin like he had to his wife. (And also part of that is because Pumpkin treats him kinda bad in some areas, not TERRIBLE! but she's a little mean) that's love to him. He really hates it tho, it sits funny with him and he's kinda awkward around her at times but slowly, slowly he submits and he's all hers >:)
And I said this b4 but her name is not Pumpkin! Ifs a nickname from the Dude, like a pet name. I do have "real" names in him for both of them, but that's for me >:) lolol
#i noted about her family bc my new pc for OP (new vtm game) Tucker is the middle brother :)👍#me op#ummm. anyway. sorry for the splurge i think abohtbher alot.#i was also thinking about in P4 when he turns into a cat shes go. BOYOND insane over it lol#i put this under a read more (hopefully. if it works) bc its so long but. i really.RWALLY appreciate the ask ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡#also!! i didnt draw anything yesterday but i really wanna draw sam! in that postal babe out fit lol#i like sam. *marge silpson voice* i just think hes neat!#asks#strawbrygashez#oc: pumpkin#you can not handle the uber instincts of my uber autism. OBSERVE.#i was talking about this briefly with ren last night. man these guys have had to have an abortion AT LEAST once.#and then dude was blue balled bc u cant fuck after an abortion. so. idk thats some non information right there.
9 notes
·
View notes
Note
SQUINTS AT MY DRAFTS SWEATING AFTER READING UR PARAGRAPH AND REALISES IVE MADE SCARLET WORSE its fine though she can be extra deranged as a treat. she deserves it. also the "wants to leave town" part makes me feel so validated in one of my song choices in the paperteeth playlist. (this one if anyones curious https://youtu.be/MPwzFs1BiSw)
I DID GET THE "PAPERTEETH CAST ARE ALL FRIENDS HEHE" PART DOWN THOUGH!! i write them like.
[KELLY TAKING A PHOTO OF HIM AND THE ENSEMBLE] "SELFIE WITH THE BESTIES!!" [SCARLET, AVERY, AND TRISHA'S EYES ALL GLOWING LA CREATURA LIKE HOW CATS EYES DO WITH FLASH ON (example below) WHILE KELLY IS CASUALLY JUST PEACE SIGNING IN THE MIDDLE SMILING]
i love trisha nd kelly nd avery nd scarlet so much. im so weak for the "found family"(?) trope where everyones messed up in their own ways but they have each other in the end. im also very interested in what trisha and kelly are like (their flavor of. trauma?) but that. maybe might be TOO spoilery for u to answer,,,
SCARLET CAN HAVE AN UNDERCUT IF I BELIEVE HARD ENOUGH!! tht reminds me. how does scarlet dye her hair so fast,,,i came up with the goofy headcanon all the dye she uses is like. that temporary party hair dye nd she just drenches her hair in water and its all Gone in Seconds. nd then repeat waskwkdwkdakd
miscellaneous questions!!
-did scarlet/avery/trisha/kelly all go to college at some point? not the. same one obviously. vampire hunting doesnt seem like something u need a degree for but i have a silly headcanon explanation in my head 4 my fanfiction for how kelly knows avery thats just. "avery and kelly were randomly assigned roommates in college and avery could NOT get rid of him"
-do scarlet/avery have prior relationship experience or r they both just two absolutely clueless disasters trying their best
-whatre everyones family's like!! we know a little about avery's entire family being like. #KILLVAMPIRESFOREVER #ONTHATGRIND🔥 but im curious about more like. in depth i guess?? was averys family. Good? ive been writing her like they. weren't but then i realized i actually have no idea how her family treated her. sory this turned into avery its still a general all-character question!! i m just. very normal about her. this question could be very spoilery so pls feel free 2 avoid answering!!!
NOOO its fine she can be worse! i think her avery tolerance qualifies her 4 it. reading back my paragraph i dont think i quite got across how like... abnormal she is
YEAH so trishas trauma flavour is she cannot feel emotions strongly without turning into a giant murderous wolf- kelly hes chillin. hes achieved his goals. happy little guy. insults slide off of him, he has a positive mental attitude.
oh man dw scarlet actuslly wears wigs, she styles them herself its vry impressive 2 avery who cuts her own hair and has never had it turn out even. i dont think even scarlet could cut and dye her hair that fast even with all her free time to practice- & her hair wouldve been fried by now even with the carefullest bleach sesh.
Trisha graduated highschool- kelly & scarlet went to uni (seperately) and avery dropped out of highschool as soon as she turned 16, 2 become a vampire hunter- you only need a license to do it as a hobby but u can also be employed as one which avery scarlet kelly are, trisha is unemployed. avery joined the lumber co at the same time kelly did- avery has to kind of make sure. he doesnt die. he did stick to her but avery eventually did start 2 appreciate his friendship. avery, despite everything is like insanely good at killing vampires, kelly joined on a whim and sucks. scarlet joined bc it pays pretty well, but she was pretty averagely skilled at it.
do avery/scarlet have previous relationship experience is a good question i absolutely cannot decide at all- i rly go back and forth on how pathetic either of them were before becoming vampires. sometimes i think scarlets probs had a few relationships b4, and for avery its like. shes shy. she would only date someone if they confessed first. and so would scarlet. which is an issue. either way for scarlet she hasnt been in a relationship for years and avery is avery.
no for sure averys family sucks, she has 11 brothers, shes the youngest child, they were all raised to be vampire hunters, the only one who didnt turn out to be one is estranged. they would absolutely kill her if they found out and would fight abt who gets to be the one to do it. avery is actually pretty close with the estranged brother though. they do get together at like, christmas but outside of that they dont rly talk much as a family
Scarlets family is nice i made a post abt them before, she knows they would still love her despite the vampire thing but shes too embarassed and scared 2 tell them, so shes distanced herself from them as well, they worry a lot.
kelly im ngl he just spawned into existence. i imagine his family r like clones of him
trishas family is a whole thing, her dad is avscrletkellys boss so theres that
did i miss anything? i usually wait to answer things ik r gonna be long on a computer but im on my phone and i wanted to talk abt my creatures right now
also this made me realise averys been a vampire hunter for 10 years which like obvs 16-26 is 10 but i cant do maths.( shes been 1 for the longest out of the three)
9 notes
·
View notes
Note
You asked for Mileven fic ideas:
1. Mileven navigating questions about future plans. El is still hiding from the authorities at the end of mike's junior year in his, and she starts to worry about the future once she hears the party starting to worry about college. When will she be free, at least to the extent she was in Lenora? Will she be free B4 he leaves for college? Even if she is, what does that mean for them? It's not like she would get into the same colleges as him. Jopper doesn't have that kind of money, and she has been studying for the past year (unofficial home schooling) but she isn't sure she is ready for senior year academically speaking even if she got the government of her tail right now, and got some fake id showing she had finished all the other grades. And would she fit into his post- high school life? She didn't really fit in back in Cali. I know this sound like jancy S4, but Mileven are different ppl, and have different circumstances.
2. Mike getting caught sneaking out at night by jopper, prompting an awkward conversation ( and perhaps Joyce decides will should get involved too, since they have to discuss these things with him anyways, so why wait until he is in a relationship, instead of getting it over with now).
3. El comforting mike over Eddie's death. 4. El telling mike about the other lab children and mourning their death.
5. El and mike watching their friends get drunk and either messing with them, or trying to stop them from doing something stupid ( this is admittedly more of a party fic, but if the focus is on them, and how they deal with their friends drunken antics, it counts as Mileven, right?).
6. Mileven discussing the morality of murder, as el questions her past actions, and her disagreement with Kali
7. Mike doing el's make up for some event, bc Joyce and Nancy are available.
8. Terry Ives died, and mike helps her through it
9. El and will have a fight about will saying something negative about hopper, bc hopper is dealing with the trauma from his time in russia by drinking a lot, and bc Will has some issues thanks to lonnie, so he worries a lot about hopper hurting Joyce somehow. El wents to mike, and mike tries to mediate, and help el understand why will is so sceptical of hopper, despite being grateful for everything he has done for him and his family.
These are some great ideas! I think there are a couple that stood out to me immediately!
Definitely 3 since I feel very strongly about that not being included.
6 is very interesting and I think I could explore that.
Thanks so much for your ideas! If anyone else has any Mileven fic ideas, send me asks!
15 notes
·
View notes
Text
hi. can i share something. its pretty personal...its sad but also a message of hope.
so. ive been freaking out rly bad about attending this bladee show tomorrow, august 6th. the real reason for this is not just my ocd and social anxiety but also.. last year on august 6th my really good friend died. they were going by the name saint at the time. i only knew them online but we were extremely close since around 2014. we would talk often, and in-depth, bcus we both had extensive interest in metaphysics, god, angels, etc. and we both had dead parents, specifically dead from illness, so we rly deeply related to each other on those matters. they were like 9 years older than me, so i looked up to them as an older sibling. it absolutely shattered my heart when i found out they died because i know it was an accident. i think they OD’d on fentanyl cus they had been posting about relapsing shortly b4 they died. but i dont know for sure, there’s no obituary for them since they don’t have parents or family. i have cried about it every day for a year.
when i saw what day the bladee show was, i felt a million feelings at once, like, oh my god, is this some kind of orchestrated angel event? saint had the most unwavering faith, they believed in angels more than anyone ive ever met, there was no doubt in their mind. we would talk about our synchronicities constantly. it was our fav thing to discuss. they were so validating of my experiences. so in a way, i rly feel like, their angel is escorting me to this show as some sort of gift for making it thru the past year. ive been going thru my saturn return on top of grieving their death, and idk, its just been one of the worst times in my life, ive never been closer to giving up. the timing of this show rly makes me feel like saint is blessing me. bladee, saint and I are all life path 9s who r obsessed w metaphysics n spirituality, which adds to the meaning of this synchronicity for me.
the reason ive been so terrified to attend the show is because i keep having ocd freakouts that someone is going to die or that, like, this date is evil and tainted or soemthing. like literally to the point that ive spent a few entire days this past week just crying in my bed because im so terrified of losing anyone else in my life. but as the show gets closer, i am realizing i just need to trust god and believe that im allowed to enjoy myself. believe that saint’s angel is protecting me and my loved ones, just like they have every day for the past year. they have sent me so many signs, and ive known a lot of dead people but never have i received so many obvious signs from anyone, even my own father. it makes me wonder if saint graduated the rebirth cycle, since they were a 9, and they brought so much goodness to this world. i think they graduated and are now a very powerful angel forever.
its been so hard to go on without them. they were my grief councellor fr. there were some years of my life where they were one of the only people i talked to because no one else could understand. they loved POSTING, we met on tumblr and they were always so supportive of the way i express myself. after they died was when i started drawing and posting on here again bcus i knew i had to honor them this way. i cant put into words how much their friendship impacted me and i wish i could do more, i wish i cld plaster their face onto every wall and scream from the rooftops “THATS MY FRIEND AND I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!”. god i am going to cry so much at the bladee show, i know they’ll b rite there on my shoulder the whole time.
if u read all this, thank you. it weighs on me massively n i try not to show it too much online but man. i have been a mess. n sometimes i just wanna spill my guts. i cld say so so much more about my dear friend but i’ll leave it at this for now. im praying that the show goes well tomorrow and everyone makes it there safely. if u guys cld pray for me too id rly appreciate. i rly feel like saint is with me and im allowed to have hope now. i love you saint. thankyou for posting so much so i have plenty to look back on. <3
48 notes
·
View notes
Note
so it’s mostly actually just lore for their family but,,
new victor lore! he and louanne (twin sister who died in 1905) also had a half brother named jesse from a previous marriage of their father’s. jesse was four or five years older than victor and victor is also really jealous of jesse but he keeps it on the down low. mostly, the jealousy is due to the fact that jesse was always much more well liked by their father and then later on, their peers. victor was also jealous of jesse because jesse was much more athletic and he would win sports competitions left and right at the institution, jesse also had a *chef’s kiss* ability to pull literally anyone (and by anyone i mean anyone bc jesse was a raging bisexual, it’s just that no one knew 😭 so he did actually end up dating a few guys and gals ykyk! i love jesse a lot actually… you can probably tell.)
also new 013 lore!! the new 013 lore is mostly that i just mapped out all the major health conditions she has i think. and almost all of them are genetic which is a :( move for wren. like after she had wren and realized how messed up wren’s health would be, 013 actually felt guilty for procreating so. oh yeah 013 kinda has shitty mental health and she always has, probably just all the shame that she brought upon herself when she lived her life thinking she was some useless defective person yk?? but she wasn’t, she just didn’t know yk?? anyway. oh and i think i told you all about 013’s main interests but wait!!
did i tell you about joey? joey is the 20-lb formerly stray maine coon that 013 found one winter morning. he was lying in their front yard, in the snow, sick and on death’s door. unfortunately, the concept of rabies does not scare 013 so she just… BROUGHT JOEY INSIDE?? and fixed him up. and then she got too attached to him and gave him a name and started setting out food for him…. and then she ended up begging victor to let her adopt joey, which he reluctantly agreed to, so now they have a maine coon. they just have to be careful whenever joey is around wren since joey is sort of aggressive with little kids.
anyway the new wren lore is that wren is still a little sweetie pie actually. she’s so cute i love her. anyway victor still lets her use power tools he just uses more safety precautions. “what could go wrong? i mean, all i’m doing is giving a six-year-old a chainsaw with no safety on!” —victor andrea cirelli, 1927, probably. as for wren’s design, i can just imagine her having dark skin like her father, her mother’s soft-looking facial features, and her mother’s short stature. i imagine her having poofy but straight black hair, poofy like her father’s curly hair but straight like her mother’s hair yk. wren would probably also be sickly af like her mother but i dont think she’d give a shit like “mom what on god’s green earth is haemophilia, i’m gonna live my truth and actually no, i’m as healthy as a horse thanks bye mom i have to leave to go play with daddy’s power tools in the basement”. also i feel like she would be really close with her uncle jesse! they would have a cute relationship for real-! jesse would probably do all the babysitting when victor and 013 need a night to themselves too.
also, i found 013’s real name now! i couldn’t decide on it b4 but now i made her a real name. her real first name is minji (민 지) and her real last name i’m a little conflicted about but i think i’ll settle for loe… MAYBE IDK. all i know is that i love the name minji for her so much!! anyway did i say about her ethnicities at all? idk if i did. anyway.
victor was born in italy, his mother and the majority of her side of the family were born in spain, his father and the majority of his side of the family were born in italy there. there’s also a little bit of influence of french culture that victor and jesse had as well bc mr. morreno, the nice, watari-esque old man who raised them after their parents died was half-italian half-french. did i explain that timeline? prolly not.
so, victor and his family (louanne, jesse, their parents, and victor) lived in this little village in italy right?? so after louanne and their parents died, jesse and victor went to go live with the town shopkeeper mr. morreno bc mr. morreno was the only person that would take them in probably anyway mr. morreno was pretty nice and he cared for them alot during the almost two years that they lived with him. after a while he couldn’t care for them anymore so he sent victor and jesse off to an institution in england for gifted children where they lived for the next few years.
so anyway now that that’s explained, anyway.. as for 013, she was born in korea, her dad and the majority of his side of the family is korean, her mom and the majority of her side of the family is japanese. 013 didn’t know her family though, as she was abandoned when she was a few weeks old.
anyway thats the end, i might add more later tho!! thanks for letting me infodump.
I AM SO SORRY FOR TAKING THIS LONG TO ANSWER i am very sick coff coff 😔
Poor babiess💔 wanna give them a hug fr
I have questions though do they have a RABID DOG??? Wild. They probably shouldn't let him in the house 💀
I read the whole thing they cute :] does Wren ever meet her uncle Jesse?
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
oh yeah i forgor the terrible shit i came up w/ for char yesterday. wit fren. we did little generator prompts and then i completely brainrotted and suggested a bunch of story. cw for a cult, death, mention of substance abuse, yeah.
there's not a lot of specifics but basically the setting is a sort of rural town which has a an established cult that nobody really likes but presumably cant rlly do anything abt. my character has lived in the town all their life and basically THE main part of their story is that when they were younger, they were playing with their friend in the woods, and they came across this old well, but when they were playing they accidentally knocked their friend into the well and they DIED and my char was too scared to tell anyone abt it. people tried looking for the child but the specific place was so far out of the way that no one found the body, and the cult was already an established disliked group so they quickly blamed them for it, but couldnt do anything abt without any proof, and so my char was basically let off the hook but now they carry a terrible fucking guilt.
flashforward when they're older. they're having significant problems because they're frankly very sickly mentally ill, and struggling in their day to day. a recruiter from the cult comes around to do their shtick, and long story short my character gets pulled in. they get some free acommodations but they dont ENTIRELY trust the place, so they're still somewhat independent, but slowly their guard gets lowered and they start growing more dependent. they're basically being flooded w/ so much affection that they end up pretty deep in, and they've been emotionally constipated all their life, so they spill their guts to one of the members, and for once in their life they feel like there's a lot less weight bearing down on them.
PROBLEM. shortly after they hear stories from inside the cult that someone had tried to leave b4 but had been pretty blatantly blackmailed and forced to stay. and my char quickly realises. oh SHIT what am i gonna do? nothing bad has happened yet, so they dont act on anything yet, but they're WORRIED now. of course things eventually start going downhill, and they REALLY wanna leave, but oops you can see what's coming, they're being threatened w/ being exposed if they try which would obviously turn out BADLY. so when my character starts getting so SO desperate, they do the only thing they can think of and go back to the well. it is frankly very horrifying and traumatising when they descend into it and fish out the remains of their childhood friend, probably having panic attacks and being sick, but they know if they cant make this evidence disappear forever then they're going to be stuck in the cult.
BUT IT GETS WORSE, because after undergoing their horrifying ordeal, they return to find out someone TAPED them. so not only was that devastating effort all for nothing, now they're trapped for fucking ever. luckily that doesnt end up being the case but yeah you know. they spend the next however long being in complete utter misery as they're at the whims of this group who can expose them for their crime at any time. but tldr, the same person who recruited them vents to THEM abt shit they've been through. namely that they're an addict and while the cult had been providing them substances that's kept them placated until now, they'd abruptly decided to stop doing that. so now they're actually sober and reflecting on how shitty the whole situation is and how much soul destroying guilt they have knowing that they've basically destroyed so many other people's lives.
they're definitely not a good person, and yeah they pulled my character into the cult, but my character has hit rock bottom. my character is like "no, we DONT have to stay here. we can get out. but i need you to help me. please get the incriminating tape of me and we can leave together. i am desperate, i dont care what you've done, please jsut help me". and then they probably go through whatever it takes to get out and just leave. no, they probably dont help anyone else get out (tho maybe they do spark some hope in other ppl), but they're finally out of that shitty town. and they can live their own lives.
we came up with this all within probably an hour or less. so the fact it's basically a complete story is a bit surprising. usually i struggle w/ characters stories. i guess it helps that this is a pretty simple premise.
3 notes
·
View notes
Note
I’m gonna watch ur elysium stream now is there anything I need to be caught up abt ur character b4? (Like did u appear on other ppl’s streams first and then started streaming)
oh hcrist ok so. here's a speedrun for all of the lore since the end of renn's resurrection arc
vod of c!aster's fever dream (takes place during their time exploring the the world outside of haven. aster meets an allay in their dreams. electron the blue mage also makes an appearance, he's a powerful mysterious guy who's probably not human and no one knows all that much about. a dream version of renn shows up too and aster confronts their guilt about their experiments. prime anst here gamers)
they make a bunch of appearances on other people's stream with invisibility potions. the usual c!aster lurking. they don't chat or interact with anyone but people commonly notice someone lingering with invis on and opening chests and whatnot. theyre very bad at this
lux shoots them with a flaming arrow at some point and c!aster gripes about it on kota's law day stream. they also leave lux an angry message and fuck around in his room later
meeting with kota! i don't think kota's uploaded a cut video of this stream yet but a quick summary: aster introduces themself officially to kota and soleil. they also meet up with renn which makes this a breach of their contract with sleep. surely htis will not have consequences. the captain is also there and is vaguely threatening towards aster
aster warns kota against sleep, hangs out a bit, and makes friends with soleil. renn mentions finding a copy of themself in their enderchest? wack i wonder what's going on there. aster pays everyone off later to keep this meeting a secret
catching up with the skelly man. this is sleep's first ever lore stream. he finds aster lurking around the anchor vault and they trade insults, the usual dynamic, before going to the castle to discuss aster's responsibilities. aster's very flippant about this and brushes sleep off for the most part before agreeing to move in to continue their experiments under his supervision
a fun time if i do say so myself i had fun being an asshole to c!sleep. also important: they mention buildings they found in their time away from haven and figuring out who they were before waking up. their enderchest contents have also apparently changed. they mention asking renn about their enderchest contents and sleep flips his lid
general takeaway is aster has had some time to kind of collect themself and stand up more to sleep. theyre also going to be able to continue their experiments in a safer environment
okay NOW we get to law day. i slept in so. this starts pretty abruptly. my computer also overheated partway through so defer to kota's vod here starting at 1:30:00 ish for the rest of it including his conversation with aster. aster sneaks into the law day community meeting and continues brushing shit off, clowning around with soleil, and prodding sleep
IMPORTANT NOTES:
this is c!aster's first time meeting anathema so if you're watching the video and youre confused. so are they. according to everybody in haven anathema's been doing some warcrimes, some of which mentioned in the vod include burning down a shop and destroying navn's anchor (sleep said in his vod that he was actually the one to destroy navn's anchor so. he framed anathema on that part)
aster offers anathema some pumpkin pie to get on his good side because they know it's very likely anathema's not as bad as sleep makes him out to be
angel (who's kind of renn's mom) and the captain (knows about aster's shady stalking and fucking around in the castle) both seem on guard against aster. which ofc in turn makes aster a bit paranoid
more soleil and aster shenanigans. they approve of soleil's general fuck this government attitude and questioning of sleep
post law day kota and aster have a chat. aster mentions wanting to trust sleep but cites the arguments during law day as proof that he probably hasn't changed from being a manipulative fuck
they also tell kota that sleep has blackmail material against them because they fucked up bad in the past. this is another breach of contract for everyone keeping track. sleep now legally has double rights to kill them on sight if he finds out. kota also explains about anathema. whether or not aster believes him about how horrible anathema is remains to be seen
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
…..After she and her friend walked away into the dark night, I quickly got up, and gathered all the pieces of the toys that she’d thrown onto the concrete….as she disappeared into the darkness, a man walked up to enter the gate into the apartment building, ofc he took it all in, prob giggling but i couldn’t look at him ofc…I hesitated until he got in the gate, then hopped up and put everything in my bag, and scampered off into the night….When waiting for her, I’d walked around the area a lot, and recalled seeing a dumpster with tons of clothes in and around it..The reality of my situation beginning to hit me- i’m in downtown denver, wearing only a sheer thong and wife-beater, At least the wife-beater was size Large, and i pulled it down as much as i could and when i’d do that, it would just barely cover my very visible ass crack. As i’d run down the sidewalk, ofc any and everyone who saw would laugh….Didn’t bother me too much while still on the same street, as I’d assume that anyone looking had seen the beautiful woman who did it to me….I’m far more comfortable dealing with that kinda humiliation, ppl thinking “look at that pervert lol” rather than “wtf is THAT? Ugh god, some middle aged freak who’s flashing i guess? Fucker better not be tryna get near any women, prob a sexual predator”
Lol yeah, that’s a lot to assume and/or just make up🤷♂️ But ya know, must’ve been like 10ish when i saw her, and i didn’t walk into my front door until nearly 2:30am!
I saw that the last light rail train left at 1:30am from union station…I couldve gotten there much faster, if i’d have taken the free mall ride bus…but even just getting to where that bus left from, wouldn’t be easy….I did make it to that dumpster, and got a sweatshirt, and tied it around my waist; I used it to cover my front, figuring my thong-clad ass wouldn’t be quite as bad, if cops did indeed see me…Don’t think that’s quite enough for “public indecency” But when i did walk down the sidewalk, or where many ppl were around, I’d hear lots of shouting, laughing, and lots of “pull ur pants up motherfucker!” “Nobody wanna see that shit!” And lots n lots of more quiet talks about me…I still don’t know if i should’ve just walked directly where I wanted, or if the route i took was better…it was just…beyond embarrassing, beyond humiliation…oh and for those who know denver…I was relieved when i finally passed east colfax, but then realized “ah shit, i’m in Five points now”(historically black neighborhood w/lots of crime, recently they say it’s gentrified, but still mostly black) Now, I don’t mean that as a racist fuck, but 🤷♂️ just saying is all….I feel like in general? Most grown black men aren’t gonna be as passive as white neighborhoods…there, id expect cops to come and get me….whereas i’d imagine black ppl would wanna make sure i’m not gonna be sexually harassing women….but i think they prob saw my demeanor…anytime any woman was in sight, I did all i could to cover myself up…when passing ppl on sidewalk, i’d look down, tryna have a look/attitude that I’d had something crazy happen to me and didn’t want to be wearing what i was….In my mind, I’d created the story that “My gf and I had been together only few months, and i’d cheated on her. We were together in her car downtown, she’d told me to bring sex toys; said she was planning on punishing me for cheating…then had me put on the thong, and taken off my button up shirt, leaving me only in my thong and wife beater. She said she’d forgive me if i got out of her car, just like that and danced around for all to laugh at. I did this, she turned her headlights on…then threw my bag out to me, saying “have fun getting home! oh and i changed passwords on ur uber and lyft accounts! Ur wallet n phone r in ur bag, ur debit card will be in ur mailbox hahaha” and she started her car, just b4 she drove away, she threw out this pair of underwear too, saying she’d have mercy so i wouldn’t get a public indecency charge”
There was another little zipper pocket in the backpack that Goddess didn’t look in. It had teeny tiny see thru baby blue “boxer briefs” If u can call em that…Got em on Temu.com so sizes are all asian, meaning extra small, and these were size small, made for like 27in waists, so they left nothing to the imagination…Almost felt like they made it worse and made me even more visible due to being so bright. I still wrapped the sweatshirt around my waist, as I desperately needed to find a way to get into a 7-11 and get something to drink!
All the adderall, and vaping had made me incredibly dehydrated, along with the running around…on my journey, I’d be walking down a street and realize a bar was on the corner with tons of ppl partying(not exactly the groups of ppl i wanted to see me) and i’d double back the other way…after well over an hour of this, i went down an alley way to find that….I’d made no progress whatsoever!
Finally realized I had no options and would have to pass many ppl…so i did but ofc I’d run across any major road etc…even this proved to be very difficult, as i’d still change my course upon hearing women talking…Being seen/laughed at by them was bad enough, but the one thing I couldn’t have happen, is a woman thinking I’m some sexual predator or something!
During my journey, I remembered the recent news…about a man, i believe in either Golden, or Boulder, who’d been butt naked, and harassing women, not only harassing but it’s a big news story, and they’ve been saying he’s def dangerous!
Now i was scared! I still had an empty water bottle, that i’d brought with me, so if only i could find a faucet somewhere…I did see sprinklers on, watering ppl’s lawns. I went up to one, tryna fill up the bottle, but only got about a third of it…while doing this in a neighborhood, an SUV pulled up, i heard ppl talking, it stopped and obv they were watching me…the types of whispers i heard, the way the vehicle stopped, def had me thinking they were looking for someone to rob…dark residential area, Im alone and nobody in sight. After observing me for a min or 2, swear i heard, “nah, tf he gonna have? look at him!” and they pulled away….Just then i stepped in a deep puddle caused by the sprinklers…tbh this added to my humiliation(nothing i hate more than soaking wet socks!)which ofc turned me on..i went back to tryna gather water, as I realized i was in desperate need…but doing this wasn’t easy, and to get 1/3 of a bottle took time and eventually got me pretty wet! But it was worth it for the water….Just felt so exposed and vulnerable having to bend over and expose myself.
At this point, I’d yet to remember i had the lil boxer briefs in my bag, so just had my thong on, and the sweatshirt tied around, but u could def see half my ass and see i was wearing only a thong underneath.
I decided to go to 7-11, id just tie the sweatshirt well, and try to cover my ass with backpack….So i went towards it, ran across the street, and saw a long line inside…all ppl who were dressed up, obv had gone out partying all night; likely drunk..drunk being an issue cuz ofc ppl are a lot more likely to say things and/or DO things, possibly violent things…so i couldn’t and set a path for the next closest 7-11 even tho it was the wrong direction. Finally got there, and only a couple ppl inside, but it was right next to and across the street from bar/club with tons of ppl outside..so again, I just couldn’t…Got some more sprinkler water, and said fuck it, gotta get to union station before 1:30!
If ur familiar with Denver, I was close to where 16th st mall ends on the south side, close to Colfax and Broadway.(very busy intersection. if a weekday, would only be homeless ppl n junkies around. but weekend? Everyone’s around) and I knew i just had to go parallel to 16th st mall to get to union station, but this proved more difficult than i’d imagined!
Many more bars and people than I’d ever seen in the area; by this time i’d put on my tiny lil undies, figured they’d prevent the indecent exposure charge, but still tryna avoid ppl..took way too long and before i knew it, was no chance i’d make the last train. That’s when i noticed just how exhausted i was…the beating, the adrenaline etc was too much, so i began heading straight home
Finally, I knew i wasn’t too too far, but just had one final gauntlet of bars to pass, with tons of ppl outside….many commented, but by this point, extreme dehydration was what concerned me! i passed ball arena(where avalanche and nuggets play) followed by Mile high stadium, obv not the best areas…. finally got onto a bridge, passed “meow wolf” and was home free…except which way to take? Fastest way was straight down colfax(Thee road in denver, old rt 70) Which got plenty of yelling and even “catcalls” I suppose ppl saw the thong and had wishful thinking lol
oh and before this, i’d made it to 3 7-11’s and all were closed! Apparently they all close at midnight downtown cuz they all just get robbed….Eventually i made it to a 7-11 close to me, took a deep breath, said fuck it, and went in…as going in, a large black man approached from behind me, and fuuuuck, Tbh im more easily humiliated in front of black guys rather than white….Just in my experience, black men have far more common sense, and far more likely to state the truth of any situation…anyway, i tried to hurry but 🤷♂️ he was right there so I held the door long as i could then kinda pushed it and walked in, ya know so it’d be open for him, but i could save myself another moment of humiliation…ofc after i went in, everyone stared; I tried to get into the “ahhh these damn scornful women” demeanor, might’ve even said something like that aloud.
Got drinks, paid for em in absolute shame, and headed out….after leaving, the sweatshirt kept falling off…I chugged down a ton of the generic gatorade quickly as i could….sweatshirt fell again and i’d had enough and let it fall and began walking.
This is what i’d wanted! Part of me, deep inside, wanted to be stranded, half naked, with no option but to be seen by all….funny enough, i was directly across the street from Pleasures, a sex store. This location had the biggest “adult arcade” I’ve ever seen…Its just a dark place, kinda like a maze, with little booths to watch porn in…some had doors, others didn’t, but most have gloryholes…so yeh, lots of perverts around.
I ran across colfax, and headed down the dark street, i’m sure getting plenty of looks and i did hear lots of shouting…but at this point, i wasn’t horny in the least, just desperate to get home…the gatorade made my body realize how fucked up it was, and i immediately felt nauseous…with stomach pain as well.
So, i continued on in the sleepy quiet enough neighborhood…but ofc, every so often a few ppl walked by..was almost more humiliating since they’d be the only ones around….couple times i saw women walking their dogs and didn’t wanna worry them; or them to think i’m some fuckin rapist or some shit so i’d avoid them like the plague!
Then yeh, finally did get home, covered in sweat and shame…..barely enough strength to piss, and get water. I drank it, but slowly, as by this point, i realized i was extremely dehydrated. Thought i was gonna puke, but kept slowly drinking water…luckily barely had strength to wash my gross face…but not enough to shower…put on clothes to sleep in and passed out.
0 notes
Text
40th day of 2023; how ironic.
"The feeling that I want to unalive myself today. Now, do I qualify for your time Mr/Miss/Mdm Psychiatrist?"
Do you feel unaliving myself? That's the first question they ask. I actually hesitated for a split second, and due to the need for self-preservation and habit, I lied. So you don't need help fuck off. Don't waste my time. You don't need me. You need a friend, so fuck off.
Yup, that's what my therapist or one-time only said.
So life taught me I don't need anyone else help. Just do it myself. However, not everything can be solved with a friend. They have their own demons to fight. Also, I don't want to give my 2 only friends a panic attack by proclaiming that out of the blue.
Truth is, I felt that ever since I came into this world. Ever since I waited long enough to start to walk, I had to work harder than a normal person. Because sometimes I don't feel I'm normal. I mean, what is normal to me, might not be normal to you. Some people say I'm too straightforward. Some might say I'm too blunt. Either way, I can't please anyone just know how to read the room. Fuck I've been reading the damn room for so long; it's just damn tiring. Although, at times, it's necessary. I get it. Yet, I get the feeling sometimes. It went away for almost over 10 years; however, ever since 2019, it has started to creep up again.
2022 had been a crazy year of trying to find myself, ending my losing the battle against reality. A total of 4 jobs, except for 1 job, lasted me only a week. So technically, it's 5 jobs. That sucks, by the way. I felt I was going crazy. The first one was crazy, like people can't just leave me alone. Here I'm trying to learn, and these fuckers won't leave me alone. Like none of them gives me any fucking respect. In the next one, everyone puts the boss on a pedestal. I mean, if you did something significant, he knowledges but god forbid if anyone pointed out his shit. Yes, I also did my fair share of stupidity over the 6 months. I must give them credit for covering my ass for that. The last straw was when I had to be the messenger of bad news. I was trying to understand how they count their shit, but the big boss decided to change the MF calculation 2 months b4 oath-taking. ARE YOU FUCKING INSANE? Then he told the snr mgr to tell us the NEW way and inform the candidates; one of them, I had painstakingly handheld to make sure she understood and to tell her the revised way of calculating. I was livid is an understatement. Nope. I'm not going to take that BS way of making your staff listen to you and your staff to get abused by the candidates. The big boss did not care for his staff's well-being. I can't understand why my snr mgr could withstand his abusive ways for over 10 years. For the 3rd one, I was alone in the 2nd mth of the job. It was painful. My accounts were so far behind when the accounts asked me for it I was confused as I wasn't taught that. TL was an amazing pinoy. couldn't ask for a better team leader; they don't deserve her. But I felt so alone, and the tasks were piling up, and I was trying so hard to catch up. There were so many acrobatic moves to understand. It wasn't bad environmentally, but I don't see myself forever there. My last job broke my record of 1 week can be summed up with 1 word. Bitch/s. I guess I don't have the stamina to stand for uncultured swine. Work, work, work.
Now we come to the latest episode, Will I unalive myself today? I went for a job preview yesterday at a parks board. Their office is smack in the middle of it. No kosher food within 20m of the building. there are only 2 timings of free buses. oh, and no air-con in the storage room where they kept the boxes and boxes of paper files. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? Even a library full of old books has air-con. Fine. Today I went to another informal/chit-chat session with the snr officers transport office. I admit I like the sense of power having to issue summons. Exciting. However, I felt like I shot myself in the foot again, and the environment would be exactly like the hospital, but I hoped it would be something like the clinic.
Overall I may lose both of them. I don't mind losing the park one, but...I can't cope with the transport one. Hence the episode, will I unalive myself today?
All I want is to be happy.
1 note
·
View note
Text
*me ranting abt idek lmao*
theirs something abt period sex that is just so soul bonding, i love it. having sex on my period has made me look forward to it and its even made them significantly lighter. im so so lucky to have a boyfriend who not only isn't scared of period blood but finds it completely normal and apart of being with me. for a second, hes dealing with my period rather than me dealing with it like he takes off my pants and underwear with my pad still on and bloody, he sets it aside and cleans me up some bc i cant see what he sees and hes so present, and so gentle with me. hes even starts eating my out once i dry up alittle (for some reason my period gets super light during sex and even foreplay, i used to be super heavy b4 him ;-;) ive explained to him that periods are almost sacred on my eyes, like your taught at a very young age how to dispose of things and how no one should ever know bc its so taboo and some even call it yucky or disgusting but he doesnt care. something ive always been insecure abt and dreadful of, he doesnt care a bit. he says theirs difference with how i feel when im on my period vs off, apparently im alot warmer and my vaginal secretions are thicker than usual ^_^ i also act like im in heat when im on my period, i get soooo horny that i just cant deal with myself and melt into his hands♡ i love him so much and the sex we have is amazing, hes my first and is gonna be my last bc im so in love with everything abt him. the fact that hes my childhood crush and we have such amazing communication and we have been each others firsts and he consensually asked me for the smallest things like holding my hand and kissing my cheek and kissing my lips. its all the small things, him remembering i like peach redbulls, and that my hands get sweaty when im nervous. one time we had a fight and we started talking abt it and i hugged him bc i needed it and he started crying, in that moment i froze bc i didnt think it was possible for him to do such, i wanted to react properly tho bc i wanted him to know thats its always safe so share hard emotions with me without directly saying it so i rubbed my hands through his hair and told him he never had to worry abt me leaving because im exactly where i wanna be and i wouldn't wanna have a fight with anyone else in the world. i always try to put my feelings for him into words but it never flows properly, it never sounds like how it feels in my heart and mind. i love him so much
0 notes
Note
Well I was gonna ask about Switch, but... Instead I want you to post stuff from "Vampires Pitch 3Sem1." Since you have so much of it, of course. (Kimmi's Wardrobe sounds adorable though)
luna, you're allowed to send more than one ask <3
so, the premise of this one is that being a vampire is Cool And Trendy for the upper class, and Hell On Earth for anyone who can't afford to buy 'blood alternatives' - a handy-dandy capsule that contains everything a modern vampire needs. (it's blood.) they're sold in dedicated pharmacies where price gouging is rampant. the media sells the idea that wealthy vampires are Clean and Your Friend (bats.) and the lower class vamps are all bloodthirsty murderers and should be exterminated. (rats.)
here's a rlly short bit of it- I chose the fucked up part.
tumblr might make the comic formatting awful to read, sorry. there's more pages b4 and after this.
TW for like, murder, gore, human trafficking, and capitalism <3
Cut to CEO standing, leaning against a window. Ads outside his skyscraper promote the pills and various other alternatives.
A nervous employee knocks on the door and enters the room.
E: “Sir?”
CEO: Yes?
E: They’re ready for you to view the new shipment.
CEO: Eurgh. Do I have to?
E: Yes, sir, it’s-
CEO: Regulation, I know.
CEO: Let’s get it over with, then. (he puts out a cigarette.)
They walk through a factory floor. it's grimy, and dingy. it's like a slaughterhouse, but more under-the-table.
A shipping crate sits on the factory floor. Two armed guards (cow-prods.) open the doors at their request. (a nod.)
A group of scared people are inside, shrouded by darkness.
E: jesus.
CEO: where did we get this lot, then?
(E opens their mouth to speak.)
CEO: nevermind, I don’t want to know.
E: legally, we have to tell you, sir.
CEO: put it on my desk, I don’t care.
E: It was monaco, sir.
CEO: I told you, put it on my desk. I’m out.
Another cigarette butt drops on the floor, and the CEO leaves. E hesitates.
A creepy-lookin scientist guy creeps up behind E.
Earl: How’s it going, E?
E: jesus. Hello, earl.
EARL: heheh, cm’on man, you know that jesus aint down here. Not to them, at least. (he gestures towards the rows of skeletal people. they're hanging from the ceiling, covered in tubes and machines. basically unrecognisable as people.)
E looks deeply uncomfortable.
EARL: follow me. I’ll show you how our latest batch is going. (he disappears through a PVC strip door.)
EARL: this unlucky lot are going great. They’ve been on the run for over 6 and a half months now.
E: wow. 6 and a half?
EARL: I know, right?
But check this out: new drug we’ve been testing. Not for the consumer end, for our side of things.
Eight times as much blood production. Sure, it wreaks hell on the body, can only get them to last a month, two at a push-, but the quality’s just as good.
I mean, hell- swapping people in and out when needed, pumpin’ em full of vitamin C or whatever- that’s great and all, but imagine what these could do.
A souped up version of one of the skeleton people we just saw, in a fluid tank. They look in even more pain.
E: Jesus, man, are you sure that’s moral?
E: We’d have to disappear more people. The world only has so many criminals. We’d be going through the population at… i don’t know how fast of a rate. People would start to notice.
People don’t give a shit. They know it has to come from somewhere.
Sure, in the first couple of months of business, there were protests, but the rats took care of all that. The rest of the ones who had shit to say probably ended up in here at some point.
EARL: morals disappeared a long time ago, my friend.
E: yeah.
E: yeah, I guess you’re right.
E: see you next week, earl.
EARL: See you around! Don’t let the rats bite.
0 notes
Last Seen Blogs
snowydawn17
Heyo, Snowy here!
kdrama-obsessed
~•Lost in K-dramaland•~
fotoresearch
FotoResearch.com
superbyouthcollection-blr-blog
Untitled
beachyserasims
The shadow of the Uncanny Valley