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emelinstriker · 1 year

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Macaque ♡ Private Play

I can't help but imagine Macaque using his Shadow Play skills to get money- now imagine the reader, his lovely spouse, being a regular of his shows and boom :D

Pre-Shadow Play episode btw cuz he do kinda be needing that lamp still

The pain of having to write this level of wholesome fluff when you've never been in an actual romantic relationship yourself- So I had a lot more fun telling the tale at the end and making it all more dramatic- omegalul

♡ ~ Fluff ~ ♡

It was yet another night at the theater, and a certain shadow monkey was doing his usual routine of retelling tales that he knew of from his own perspective and memories. Nothing out of the ordinary happened of course. He didn't get many people to see his performance, as usual, due to his plays' times and because of people not usually being interested in the concept of shadow plays as they preferred movies.

Such a shame, really, they were missing out on a great show! At least that's what you thought everytime you would see only a portion of the audience seats having been filled. Your husband did such an amazing show and you would be awestruck each and every time at the visuals he was able to create. Not to mention, his soothing voice was a nice bonus no matter which tale he told. He even used his powers to spice up your private wedding a few years back, using his shadows to calm you down from your nervous high, as well as putting on a shadow play for the few guests you had.

Once the play you were currently watching was over, you and the other people in the audience clapped, delighted at the performance. Some even stood up while the demon man on the stage bowed at the applause.

It didn't take long for the last people to leave the room while you simply sat in your reserved VIP seat as usual. And it didn't take long for your shadow to become a portal for the hooded monkey either as he emerged from it, wrapping his arms around you from behind.

"Hey there, sugarplum, how was work?", he said while nuzzling the crook of your neck. He was still in his human disguise, so unfortunately you were unable to appreciate his fluffy fur. But that didn't make you appreciate him any less as you leaned back into his hold.

You actually showed him your workplace before, which is a rather small thrift shop. Macaque needed some human clothing because the red and black cloak he's using during his plays would not suffice in certain areas of the city. Him in a hooded cloak, being all dark and mysterious, would most certainly garner unwanted attention from demons and humans alike. That's when you showed him some stylization options. Everything you showed him was extremely casual and he loved it.

"It was alright. Not much happened today, besides one customer who didn't understand how a warranty works", you muttered. The monkey let out a low chuckle as you could feel his chest's vibration on your back, leaning further into you. "Anyway, once you're free we can go take a stroll. There's this new 24-hour shop we haven't been to yet." Finally, you decided to turn a bit to give him a quick peck on the lips, making him smirk.

"Well, you're in luck. This one just so happened to be my last play for the night. Just gotta clockout at the counter and we're off", he said as he removed his disguise with his ability, revealing his demon form. He was still wearing his hooded cloak however, nuzzling you with his fur now.

And as he said, he clocked out at the counter... Or rather a shadow clone did while he himself carried you bridal-style outside the theater and onto the dark streets. He didn't let go of you until you were in the darkness of an alleyway, embraced by the shadows. You knew he specifically did this to make you feel safer. Because something he told you early on into your relationship: 'You're a lot safer in the shadows. So don't be afraid of them, especially when I'm here.'

The two of you walked hand-in-hand down the alley, talking about whatever else happened at each of your respective workplaces. Apparently the theater had a major fangirl come in who couldn't stop squealing at Macaque's voice, overall mysterious demeanor, as well as shadow abilities.

You laughed a bit at the image of a random girl in the back of the audience having a fangirl meltdown. "She did stay behind after the play to ask me for my number. Of course I said no and showed her my ring, but can you believe that?" He rolled his eyes at the memory.

"Yes, I can believe that would've happened eventually. After all," you started as you made your shoulder bump into his in an affectionate manner, "you do have an irresistible charm on the character you're putting up while in disguise."

You could've sworn his tail wagged underneath his cloak from the faint movement of fabric your eyes were able to catch behind him, giving you an amused smile. He pouted at your word choice.

"Just while in disguise? Damn, guess I'll need to step up my game as amazing husband to top that character", he chuckled before pulling down his hood. "How about I top the 'mysterious storyteller' right now with a tale I know you'll love?"

You simply stared at him in awe before excitedly nodding your head to give him the 'go'. In response, he let go of your hand and pulled out his lantern from underneath his cloak, twirling it in a fluent motion before it abruptly stopped and lit up in all its purple glory. He then winked as he handed it to you for safekeeping before taking a few steps back towards the opposing wall.

Macaque used both his hands and body to make the shadows behind him move in the usual shadow play fashion you knew from his public plays. Despite being fully aware of his abilities, knowing he doesn't need to do such thing to create those visuals, you appreciated his need to be a bit more dramatic than necessary. It simply added a bit more flare to the experience and made it a lot more enjoyable. But this time he actually incorporated his tail into the play too.

He started out with his eyes closed and his hands behind his back, using his smooth voice to his advantage, "Welcome my loveliest viewer, to a shadow play. The likes of which have never been seen." The simian's eyes opened as he threw a loving glance at you before raising his hand to the night sky. His arm's shadow formed a monkey man behind him. You knew that was him from his previous plays.

"The tale follows up on a warrior's story told not so long ago... There was a lonely warrior, wandering the most darkest corners of an unknown town. Cast aside by his former source of light, the hero, he sought out to find another source to feel whole once more", he started as his shadow now depicted himself and Sun Wukong. The Monkey King seemed to vanish as if turned to dust before being blown away by the wind. Macaque's expression held a sliver of hatred, but was quickly replaced with a gentle smile as another memory resurfaced.

"One day while roaming the town in the dead of night, a thunderstorm approached. Desperate to find shelter, he came across a different kind of light. A light so powerful, its source did not seem to mind sharing it with everyone they met." His eyes dilated a bit as he turned to face you, seeing you hold onto his lantern with extra care, making sure not to block its light. You didn't even notice your own lovestruck smile until he smiled back. "That light was a generous and kind mortal human, who offered him their home to shield him from the cold and damp. They even offered him silent comfort from the sounds outside as lightning continued to strike."

The shadows now depicted a human holding their hands over the warrior's ears, making both gaze at one another in close proximity. Then it switched to a scene with both holding hands while looking at what could only be described as sunrise.

"As the storm faded into the night, so did the moon. The sun started to awaken as its rays made the warrior realize that this human was his new source of light. And yet he told himself he had to leave, for he did not feel worthy of their compassion." The shadow of the warrior let go of the light's hands, but then was quickly stopped by the light refusing to let go of one hand, lightly tugging him back towards them.

"However, the light proved him otherwise. They did not agree with his mindset and instead asked him to stay longer." The human now pulled the warrior closer to them before giving him a hug. Macaque couldn't help but let out a little chuckle as he recalled the memory. "And eventually, the warrior seemed to have been put under a spell so strong it sent him into a spiraling trance. One that would bind him to the light for the future to come." Your husband then slightly leaned closer in your direction with his signature grin. "It was a spell of love."

The scene shifted once more to show both of them kissing while sitting on a bench under a tree, one familiar one you recognized with ease. "Over the coming months, their love for one another grew, and so did the shadow's courage to propose marriage to his beloved light. He came up with a plan to meet up under the tree's branches once again, and he expressed his devotion to the loving light of his life..."

Suddenly, the lantern became dimmer by the second as he approached your now blushing form with his arms crossed, clearly hearing your heartbeat. "I believe you already know how this story ends."

And as the lantern's light faded away, you launched yourself forward to capture him in your embrace, giving him a passionate kiss on the lips. You were still holding onto the lantern with one hand behind his back. He wrapped his arms around you in return and leaned more into you. Once you pulled away for air, you gave him a bright smile as a few tears formed in your eyes from the joy you felt. Despite the dark that surrounded you two, the simian was able to see your happy response to his small, private play. Macaque knew how to pick his words far too well.

"You dork... I love you, Mac", your mumbled voice said as you nuzzled your face into his chest. His lips made contact with the top of your head as he pulled you closer to him, letting out what sounded like a low purr.

"I love you too, sugarplum."

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#lmk x reader #macaque x reader #six eared macaque #lego monkie kid #shadow play #fluff #dear god this is so sweet i might have diabetes #the fact that i can even write this while still being aroace is funny tho #srsly i should be in bed rn it's past midnight

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sameschmidtdiffname · 2 months

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I’m so fond of Soft for her Loved Ones Katniss and a Peeta who knows his grumpy wife is the soft one. I think that he always knew she was soft since he saw her with Prim, and that was part of him realizing she loved him. “She lets me get away with murder and my smile and baby blues get me anything”.

On a serious note, I do feel like during their growing back together period, Katniss is just so incredibly gentle and careful with Peeta when she can be. Like when they get close enough they're back to spending every day (every hour, every minute) together again Peeta has to barely suggest something before Katniss is up and running to get it for him. He nics himself once with an exacto knife during a project and Katniss is suddenly all "Doctor Everdeen" again and Peeta 'never had genuine care and affection growing up' Mellark, who somewhat remembers how she used to care for him pre-hijacking, is just slowly melting at every fret and touch, just watching her care with the biggest, lovesick puppy eyes he's ever had because it was tortured out of him to remember how nice it feels to be genuinely cared for.

I feel like this is even more exaggerated by the fact that after Mockingjay Katniss and Peeta I think switch some aspects of their personality. Like I would imagine Peeta is more akin to Katniss at the beginning of the series with falling in love now because he's very skeptical even though he can now remember how he used to feel, but that's like a completely different person in his head almost, so it's more a theory than a memory. So everytime Katniss is kind or loving to him at first he's nice about everything while internally semi distrustful of the whole thing, and definitely not fond of the idea of allowing himself to be vulnerable. Meanwhile Katniss has switched to needing validation and affection so bad it hurts, but knowing she can't demand it because that's not fair to Peeta so she just pours as much love as she feels she's allowed into all of her actions without trying to reveal her state of longing for him because she's just glad he's returned to her period. It doesn't have to be romantic.

I also feel like this would apply to when Katniss has nightmares and Peeta eventually begins comforting her via physical touch. I think it would be extremely obvious how touch starved Katniss is post-Mockingjay even though she tries to hide it for Peetas sake, and eventually Peeta just can't handle not doing whatever he can to help ease her mind, even if it's just holding her hand (which helps a lot) until all the subdued feelings just come pouring out that night they finally confess while tangled in their bedsheets.

Once they're well settled into their relationship? Peeta is 1000% abusing his husband privileges. One time he's three days into a painting project, there's acrylics all over the floor and Katniss tries to clean up but Peeta is insistent that it's fine because once they dry he can just scrape them off the floor with a washcloth. No, really honey, I used to do this all the time, as he pushes her quickly out the door of his study because he's way too invested to chit-chat and wants her to be surprised by the work anyways (he likes the praise from her seeing it go from a rough sketch to a full blown painting, especially since it's turned into a where's Waldo situation of her looking for themselves in his paintings.) And then he goes to clean up the paint himself only to realize this is really nice paint that has stained really nice Capitol-grade imported wood and it is not coming out. Katniss is fully aware of what happened the minute Peeta comes home rambling quickly about these "wonderful rugs Effie had" and "I just had to get one for the house" because "It's good luck" and he'll tell her about it some other time, he's gotta get this rug upstairs. Ignore any bumps you hear! (She does not. The bump is Peeta falling down the stairs cuz his prosthetic glitched and between the giant woven rug and his natural clumsiness that fucker went down.) But she doesn't say anything because he has this stupid smile as he presents her with three paintings and a basket of cheese rolls because he just loves her so much, that's all.

Then there's one time a load of laundry goes missing and Peeta is just insistent that the clothes must be in some odd corner unwashed, even though she could've sworn she put that load in the wash. So for two weeks straight she's just constantly thinking about this load, sometimes getting out of bed in the midst of the night when she can't sleep anyways to look for the damn clothes because they're obviously somewhere. Clothes don't move. But then her husband starts asking her to give up, they'll pop up sooner or later, and she's starting to wonder why he's baking so much bread. Like, lots of bread. Bread with cheese, or honey, or nuts. Just constantly kneading dough in their kitchen while chewing on his bottom lip, lost in thought. And at first she's convinced she's actually losing it. Maybe she's starting to have black out episodes. Is that even possible? To do something and just have absolutely no memory of the event at all? What if she starts hurting people during these episodes? What if she's already hurting people while she's in these episodes?? And that's why Peeta is so nervous now???

She's got an appointment with Dr. Aurelius next week, she'll bring it up to him. Peeta is definitely hiding something from her. But then one day after she comes home from her hunting trip, longing for her favorite sweater instead of the one she's wearing today, Peeta is beaming in the kitchen saying he found the load and it's all washed and hung up in the closet. "Oh, it was just behind the washer! Who knows how it got there."

Except Katniss knows she checked behind the washer. Three times, actually. And Peeta doesn't smile like that naturally. So she's not crazy, and Peeta has got something going on. So, when they go to bed that night, Katniss waits for three hours before she finally slips out of bed, knowing he's too konked out at this point to notice her missing and sneaks into his study to see what all could be in there. And after an hour of looking, she doesn't find anything, and now she feels bad for suspecting something and going through her husband's things. She's about to click off the light when she notices a bottle of oil paint missing in a set she'd bought for Peeta a little while ago for his birthday. And things start clicking together. Because first off, he doesn't go through paints that fast. Second off, even if he does, he never throws away the bottles. Like, ever. There is an entire drawer filled with empty bottles and such of paint and other supplies partially because Peeta needs to remember the names or brands, and partially because Peeta hates the idea of potentially wasting something unless he is fully convinced it's done. Which he never is.

It takes one day before he confesses, and when he does it's because Katniss casually mentions how her favorite sweater doesn't seem to have an old snag from when her ring caught on the yarn and nearly ripped a hole in the arm. And that's how she finds out Peeta accidently left a poorly closed bottle of azure blue paint in his pants pocket and not even Effie had been able to save the load, so she helped him reorder everything. Thus why he's been stress baking. And Katniss is way too entertained to be mad because at this point, there's no better reprimand than the one Peeta has given himself.

But idk tho. I don't think about them much :)

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kyupidos · 2 months

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02/18/24’s delivery 🏹✉️ twisted wonderland

paper cranes and origami heartsヽ( ･∀･)ﾉ_θ彡☆Σ(ノ `Д´)ノ,ヽ( ･∀･)ﾉ_θ彡☆Σ(ノ `Д´)ノ ;; summary. ‘your means of communication is now through two things—letters hidden within pages, and leftover snacks.’

part one. tit. dear messenger

characters. diasomnia : sebek zigvolt ;; romantic . 🖇️ tags. reader is gender neutral ( you/your ), reader is yuu, pre-relationship ( gettin there..? ), romantic fluff

📡 _a/n. chat am i cooked if i continually forget to write for the fic series that are piling up.. ( to the person who asked for a prt two..sorry it took literal months heueh )

— you began to visit the library even more often than you thought possible since then, with books by your side, and though you’d reread them all practically a hundred times now, it was always like a breath of fresh air. after all, though you hadn’t a clue who they were, and they certainly weren’t by your side at the moment, you had someone to talk to—a pen pal, if you will. a sincerely sweet one, at that.

— in your signature penned handwriting, your hand moved in sync with the way your leg bounced lightly in subtle excitement to be able to send another reply. some time had passed—you’d like to say some weeks, though, considering yet another overblot had occurred, and winter break was freshly over. you never do seem to get a break, do you? but at least, you have good friends to get you through it, for instance, the pen pal you’re trying to write a response to at this very moment. you tapped your cheek with your pen, trying to come up with a satisfying response though you know for a fact your pen pal doesn’t expect shakespearean from you.

— ‘that’s a nice way to interpret it, right? not like a tragic ending, rather..an open one? leaving it up to the imagination may be frustrating, but the imagination’s also where the magic happens.’

— recently, your conversations had been feeling more..organic, if you had to describe it. almost as if, despite the fact you didn’t know each other’s appearances, voices, and you weren’t by each other at all, you knew each other as good friends all the same and were having a conversation right then and there, albeit through writing. it felt nice actually; a score considering this all started because silly you couldn’t bring yourself to talk to a therapist or something and write letters inside books instead, but it’s a pretty good coping mechanism if you had to say, so you’re pretty sure you’re good..

— bringing you back to reality though, the way you unconsciously let your hand drift to bring a baked treat to your mouth to chew on. some moments ago, trey came over to deliver some leftover goods, figuring you’d appreciate it—and obviously you did, but it sure was a struggle to get it out of grim’s paws. you had to promise him premium tuna for that one ( you can only imagine the fly that’ll escape from your wallet, singing about how poor you are ). you had your own little spot in the library of course, hidden by the bookshelves. you prided yourself on your cleanliness, so you swore up and down to the library ghost staff you wouldn’t make a mess; though they reassured you they wouldn’t mind anyway.

— you were well aware of how good trey’s baking was, but you were constantly rereminded of the fact with every bite you take. not like you were complaining, the snacks were heavenly, you’d have to thank him again later. just about then you were once again settling in, ready to continue reading since you’d finished with your response already, simple despite how much time you’d spent on thinking it up.

— but then disaster struck.

— “hey, henchhuman!! tell ace i’m not gonna fail the stupid exam, would you?! he keeps getting on my hide!” grim complained, leaving you with an exasperated look as you watched ace quickly jump out of his chair from the corner of your eye, grabbing onto the chair to shake it a little making his point even more clear that it was true, considering the fact that grim was right about to fall asleep before he pointed it out; grim of course arguing that he wasn’t. honestly you felt a bit bad you didn’t even realize they were also in the library but to be fair, they probably didn’t even realize either until grim noticed you from the corner of his eye.

— with an amused snort that thankfully wasn’t loud enough to be heard, you just pet grim’s head ( who seemed to be pleased before realizing it was visible, so he pouted and lightly slapped your hand away with his paw ), guiding your way over to their table with grim following suit, holding onto ace’s chair with him sat again, looking at his, grim, and deuce’s study guides. a mere squint and a head tilt told them the teasing mood you were in, “you sure you didn’t sign a contract with azul for this?” that little quip eventually turned into fun banter, the four of you eventually getting lost in conversation over your studies, until it got late—and before you could get to scolding, deuce mentioned the need to return to your respective dorms, ace joking about how you tended to act like riddle when during late hours like this ( which you quickly tapped at his forehead with your knuckles for ).

— though your book was left open at your table, the plate of baked goods beside it as well.

— safe to say, you were very much a wreck when you came to that realization literally the morning after. well, it was a sunday so at least you didn’t have to worry about getting through school first, but you’ve still got your point! once your outside shoes were on, you sped walk over to the library, tripping a little as you greeted the library ghost staff in apology over the mishap, though you knew it wasn’t a big deal to them. when you returned to the scene of the crime though, the book was closed, though bookmarked, and while the plate was still there, you’d think it was licked clean, though the crumbs prove otherwise.

— and when you opened the book up to the bookmarked page, it became clear why— a more domestic scene in the book, where the characters are described to be baking together and feeding each other cookies. you remember finding it cute, though your pen pal didn’t really see why you were hyping it up, in his own way of talking that was; you don’t think he’d ever use that sort of lingo ( or rather ever write it ). right by his old commentary making that exact note, in newer writing, and you could tell by the way the strokes were more crisp and the distinct smell of the ink seemed more fresh.

— ‘i can see why you like this scene now.’

— really, even in one sentence the words charm you, and you feel like you can hear him saying them to you in the moment though you don’t even know what his voice sounds like. and you couldn’t help but smile, taking into mind that one sentence a little more.

— maybe you should bring snacks to the library more often; this time around specifically made by you.

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taylorswiftstylequestions · 1 month

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I agree with you Sarah. When the TTPD track list was revealed, not once did I think about Joe at all or what his experience might be. I even completely forgot that whole Matty Healy thing happened for a while lol. I just... don’t care? Taylor is the one I fell for, not Joe or Jake or Jim Bob. It doesn’t matter what she writes, the point is that it’s her experience. Of course I don’t believe in “trashing” anyone, but I do think “all’s fair in love and poetry.” Imagine having a relationship with someone, and after you break up, somebody tells you you’re not allowed to process your emotions in the way you feel you need to. For Taylor, it’s necessary to write songs. It’s just as necessary as breathing for her in some ways. Trying to dictate how she writes about her exes in HER SONGS is not only wrong, it just adds to the stereotype that females are either bitches or crazy. Because God forbid she writes something negative about Joe Schmo, she must be a bitch who is “trashing” someone and manipulating the story. I’ve been keeping a daily journal since 2007, and in my past relationships at the time I would often write good/romantic things about them. And in hindsight, as I get older, I am allowed to go back and recognize when I was romanticizing things, or when something was gaslighting or inappropriate. And if I want to, it is my right to “revise” my history in order to get over someone or process what happened to me or how I feel about it. Anyways sorry for the rant Sarah, I digress!!

Who is Jim Bob anyway? … Ew!

Actually though to your point I never really sunk in the reason why she used “all’s fair in love and poetry” from the outset as a reminder/disclaimer - as if to set the stage and clear her throat pre-release to say, “It’s my right to untangle the intricacies of my life in my art.”

#tss ttpd thoughts #baby taylor would say #’If guys don’t want me to write songs about them they shouldn’t do bad things’#it’s giving im you but older

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Hi! I love your blog and your opinions so i've been thinking about some stuff. I don't know if you received this already and i'm sorry if you did. Ive been reading some fics, post BD canon, and thought about some stufff. Especially about nessie/jacob. I have no ideia how this will play out. Do you think the cullens will have to leave the town by the time nessie reach maturity? i think so, considering theyve been there for 8 years and carlisle will have to be what, 33?

If so, what will happen to jacob? he will tag along with nessie, of course, but what about his alpha duties? he will be far from his family for the next 80 years? that sounds so fucked up. i simply cannot imagine how stephanie thinks this is a good thing. nessie cant have children once she reaches maturity (even tho i DOUBT smeyer will leave her without children) so her child will have to turn into a vampire later? she wouldnt make ness/jacob lose their child. or shell make ness pregnant before she turns seven?

Anyways, another question: how do you think Edward (and bella and the cullens) will react to jacob/ness wedding and pregnancy? Some fics show edward pissed the fuck off but some hes just okay, having accepted the fate (he had 7 years to get over it). Also, i'm pretty sure he'll flip on jacob if they have sex before marriage and the thought of nessie being married at 7 years old terrifies me. i doubt they'd wait until marriage, tho. they are young and non mormon i mean, i'm sure smeyer will make them wait for marriage and have renesmee married AND knocked up before she reaches full maturity. but realistically, they wouldnt wait till marriage and i hope they wait long before marrying. what are your thoughts? how would edward, especially, react to marriage/pregnancy and pre marital sex? sorry for the long ask. i've been spiriling around twilight after some years hehe

The whole thing is just such a nightmare that I have to hope she "did not think it through" because the idea that she DID think it through and thought "yes this is great!" is even worse.

She HAS said that "the lovely thing about Jacob and Nessie relationship is that as long as he keeps phasing, he won't age." Which implies to me that a) she does intend for them to be a romantic couple in the future and b) she does intend for them both to be immortal.

The full maturity at 7 years feels so much like a "ugh I don't want to have to wait to write about her as a grown up so let's just skip ahead" sort of cheat to me, but again . . . did she think that through? The logic I've seen some fans apply is basically like, well different species reach maturity at different ages. A cat is an adult after about one year, while we think of humans becoming adults at around 18 years. Renesmee's not human, she's a hybrid and for her species adulthood is reached in 7 years so there's nothing 'bad' about it. But like . .. the optics? Terrible. And she's only been alive/on earth for seven years. She's only had seven years of life experience. That's . . . that's REALLY uncomfortable to think about. Physically she might be an adult, maybe even mentally in terms of brain development, but emotionally? Socially? Especially compared to Jacob's 20+ years of life experience at that point.

And given SM's questionable relationship with science and biology, I honestly kind of expect that she'll let Renesmee have children even after the seven years. I think that's the reason that female hybrids aren't venomous. That she's set THAT up to be like "oh they're not venomous . . . so they can get pregnant!" and Renesmee will be fertile until her eggs run out. But that's assuming that her reproductive system is anything like a human's and SM could fully just be like "oh it's not!!! she is fertile every 7 years and will always have twins" or whatever she invents (I think they will have twins because twins run in Jacob's family and while that's Not How That Works it seems like a set-up for super-amazing wolfpire hybrid twins who save the world).

In canon, Edward and Bella will probably be fine with it? SM sees this as a happy ending for Jacob (he gets his predestined soulmate) and a happy ending for Bella (she gets to keep her best friend around forever . . . as a son-in-law???) so I don't think she'll have them feel anything but normal parental feelings about seeing their little girl grow up and get married. She'll write something about Edward seeing the love in Jacob and Renesmee's minds and while Bella might be lowkey a little jealous she'll tell herself she's happy for them blah blah blah.

The headcanons of Renesmee rebelling or becoming evil or breaking the imprint are probably all more REALISTIC to what someone growing up in that nightmare of a situation would do, but I don't think that's what SM is imagining here at all. I think it will be about a girl who doesn't feel like she fits in, oh woe is me, a lonely hybrid. Nahuel will come back and there will be a love triangle with him and Jacob, because Nahuel is like her and understands, is the only male of her species and she's the only female who isn't his sister. But in the end she picks Jacob because "he's always been there for me . . . since the moment I was born" (BLECH) and they'll have amazing twins with powers that will somehow be able to stop the Volturi when they come back.

And yeah Jacob will be stuck living with the Cullens, or at least with Nessie, for the rest of forever. Maybe once Nessie's an adult they'll travel independently, but they are immortal and don't age, they can't stay in one place forever. Maaaaaybe in La Push if everyone's in on the secret, but canonically not everyone is. And how IS he supposed to be a good leader for his community if his #1 priority is being whatever Nessie, a half-vampire, needs? It's a huge conflict of interest and super unfair to him.

#asks #long posts #anti jacob/nessie

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milgramimaginesblog · 1 year

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˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Haruka Sakurai (Pre Trial and First Trial) Relationship HCs!

Synopsis: General relationship HCs and mini scenarios of Haruka Sakurai. Pre Trial is platonic, First Trial is platonic/romantic(? , can be seen as either). Word Count: 1702 Genre: Hurt/Comfort Reader: GN (no pronouns mentioned), Prisoner in MILGRAM Spoilers/Warnings?: Implied of Haruka's victim's death in Pre trial part but was never directly stated on how victim died, Haruka's 1st voice drama spoilers in 1st Trial part where he is slapped by Es.

a/n: I accidentally might've made it a bit too ooc in the Pre Trial part?? Only because we still don't know much about Haruka's life before MILGRAM ⎯ aside from his mother, how he was treated by her, and his victim. So hopefully that isn't an issue....?? Also the ending in the Trial part was a bit rushed cos I wanted to get this over with ngl😭 .... But anyways, enjoy!!

ೃ⁀➷ PRE TRIAL

It was hard trying to get along with Haruka at first, not because he was unpleasant to be around, but because you don't get to see him out often.

The first time you met him was when you were both kids attending the same daycare.

You noticed how secluded he was from the other kids, and tended to stay by himself all the time ⎯ until his mum had came to pick him up at least. Which.. Honestly, as a kid, made you weirded out by him at first.

But after being paired up with him for an activity (action or just talking to each other) you got to know him a little better. Just a little bit though, since he looked wary of you still and looked as if he didn't wanna be here, or with you right now.

But just from that one interaction made him come back to you still. The first few times he approached you, he was hesitant, and stuttered a lot whenever he tried talking to you about something (the topic being smth he's interested in or tried to ask about your interest.) Though that quickly changed when he got accustomed to your presence.

Not a lot has changed, but he looked fairly more relaxed than before, maybe a bit louder too perhaps? Over all enjoying the time he spends with you, to the point where he doesn't even notice when others are watching, or talking about you two ⎯ as you were currently his sole focus as of now.

If you and Haruka were partnered a lot after your first interaction with each other, I think he'd be thrilled to stay closer to you! Staying glued to your side as you helped instruct him on what to do, or even trying to bring him with you to your other friends.

However.. The happiest moments don't always tend to stay the same for long. As you were sudden told by your mum to stay away from him, and how you noticed afterwards, Haruka was being shunned even more by the other kids.

Not long after, Haruka eventually stopped attending the daycare.

You thought that maybe you'd see him again when you started High School, but that doesn't seem to be the case. As no one knew where he or his family had gone off to ⎯ not even your old friends remember who Haruka was.

This makes you wonder... Was Haruka just a figment of your imagination, or was he actually a real, living, breathing person you met in your childhood?

ೃ⁀➷ FIRST TRIAL

Suddenly waking up in a random facility with other people, who were in the same position just like you, was already nerve wracking.. But finding out the reason behind it? And seeing your old friend since childhood be here too?? You were far beyond just 'nerve wracking' now.

It took a while to settle in this...'place', but you forced yourself to get used to the environment.

And for the sake of your own sanity, you needed someone to talk to here, and well... the closest person you knew happens to be here as well so, might as well give it a shot, right?

With a few steps forward, you found yourself standing in front of his supposed cell ⎯ where seeing him all huddled up in the corner of the room, reminded you of the old times where you were both just kids. How he'd be all alone.. in his own world, waiting for his mum to come pick him up. But as of right now, she won't be coming. No, no one would be coming anytime soon to get you all out of this prison, especially considering you were all 'murderers' here.

"Uhm...Haruka?"

Just the sound of your voice made him flinch. He looks petrified, his fingernails were digging deep into his sleeves as his form began to tremble ⎯ was he crying? or was he just anxious by being in a room with total strangers? You being one of those strangers, after not seeing him for quite some time... But surely he'd recognise you, right?

"It's...It's me (Y/N), remember? We grew up together and went to the same daycare?" Hearing nothing but silence in response, you take a moment to really come up with an idea on what to talk about ⎯ saying the most randomise things that came to mind. But after talking for quite some time and seeing nothing had really changed since walking in, you decided to leave things as is. Thinking it'd be best to try again later, tomorrow, or maybe even the day after.

But as soon as you turned to leave, Haruka takes a brief peek at your retreating form through his bangs. A lingering feeling plaguing his chest as he thinks back on your words and what you could've meant, or what he should've remembered.

With a trembling sigh, he buries his head deeper into his arms, squeezing his eyes shut as hard as he could ⎯ as he continues to think back on a lot of things that you mentioned ⎯ trying his best to remember all the littlest details so you'd come back and he can finally respond to your queries.

If he doesn't... you'd leave him all alone too, and with that wretched feeling in his chest ⎯ he knew he didn't want that to happen.

It was a surprise to Haruka when you returned to his cell later on, calling him to come eat with the others and you for 'Lunch.'

When he did, you insisted he sit right beside you and Yuno.

Making small talk with him on the first day wasn't easy, as he was just as reclusive as he was when he was a kid. But did that stop you? Not really, since you've seen that side of him before ⎯ and knew how it'd take a while for him to get out of his shell. So no biggie!

Or at least that's what you'd thought it'd be like.

MILGRAM .. With its environment and all, it's hard to trust others so easily. How everyone residing in the room were killers, in their own way ⎯ or 'MILGRAMs' way.

You aren't sure what Haruka's murder was exactly, not that he'd tell you anyways, it still ... kept you on edge trying to think about it.

But surely it wasn't that bad, right?

Well, seeing as he came out of the interrogation room not too long after with a slap print on his cheek, makes you doubt what you initially thought. Somewhat, at least.

But whether it was god awful or not, you still needed to check up on him ⎯ Since he is your friend after all.

"Haruka?"

Again in his cell, curled up into a little ball, was Haruka. Ashamed? Scared? All he looked to you right now, wasn't a killer, but a pitiful Haruka unsure of how to cope right now.

Unsure of his emotions, unsure of everything. It felt suffocating ⎯ almost like he was drowning in an endless tank filled with water, unable to swim back up and get fresh air into his lungs. He was so sure he was gonna die here, right in this cell.

However, you weren't planning on just letting that happen.

With the squeak of his mattress dipping itself, he sensed you were the one in the room with him right now ⎯ even as he was mind was blurred with unpleasant thoughts, he just knew it had to be you sitting right beside him.

"Haru, I need you to look at me," he shakes his head in response, a whine following suit to his refusal. But with the gentle touch of your hand meeting his shoulder, he hesitantly glances up ⎯ just a bit to see your hand and look at it.

"... I'm not sure what went on during the interrogation, but getting slapped is too much ⎯ even for you, or any of us to receive. Whether we did something to deserve it or not... It just.. It just isn't right, okay? And I want you to know that too, so you don't blame yourself because of it."

Again, silence was his response. You didn't want to push him into talking either, so you had planned on leaving right after saying what you wanted to say ⎯ but just as you were about to pull your hand away, his hand quickly snatches it back in place.

It was then that you finally got a good look at his face, tears brimming at the corner his eyes, his lip jutted out with clear bite marks on it ⎯ and most importantly, the now semi-faded hand print on his cheek.

"I-I .. I.. I'm not sure about what you meant. Frankly, I don't.. really mind it, being treated this way, I mean-" "But you should mind it, you got hurt! Badly hurt." He recoiled at the sudden loudness in your voice, eyes darting to everywhere but you to steady his nerves ⎯ and even so, despite your outburst towards him ⎯ with a gentle squeeze of your hand in his, you silently ask him to continue with what he was saying.

"...B-But if it bothers you then I-I..!! I'll try my best.. not to make Es angry with me anymore, I-I'll also try my best to uhm uh... to uhm.. to not... blame myself too... I guess.." Although he muttered the last part as softly as he could, you caught a bit of it to smile ⎯ enough to really catch Haruka off guard from his loathing towards himself.

"Then it's a promise, okay? No more taking the blame, and no more trying to put others above yourself."

"W..What if I break the promise, n-not that I would but...!!"

"Then... I guess I'll have to come teach you about what to avoid and what to do in certain situations." "Eh...? But, why would you⎯" "Because we're friends! and that's what friends are for, right?" With another smile and another squeeze from your hand in his, Haruka felt the weight on his shoulders being lifted off ⎯ that it makes him also return a smile back towards you.

#MILGRAM x reader #MILGRAM Haruka x reader #MILGRAM Haruka Sakurai x reader #MILGRAM Haruka #MILGRAM Haruka Sakurai

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beanghostprincess · 3 months

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The other night I read your headcanon about Sanji being an enjoyer of romantic novels. And I thought: what if he had to experience something akin to a romantic fairytale in real life?

So I had this epiphany. What if, after Usopp unsuccessfully confesses to Sanji, who politely rejects him 'cause he's an idiot [affectionate] still struggling with his internalized homophobia, Sanji is forced to face his own feelings when Usopp falls under a spell [falling asleep and never waking up] that only someone who loves him wholeheartedly [and romantically] can break?

Like, imagine this being set right after the Water 7/Enies Lobby arc. THE ABSOLUTE ANGST! THE DRAMA! THE TEARS!! THE CHAOS!!!

This would be such emotional torture for Sanji. He'd have the worst time of his life and he'd feel so so guilty about it. And I absolutely adore it. Everything about this is just perfect.

Sanji rejects Usopp because of so many reasons. Internalized homophobia. Not feeling worthy of his love (because it's pre-ts and he doesn't know anything about his past and Sanji is still tormented by it). Thinking, once again, that Usopp deserves better than him. Thinking loving a man (his best friend, specifically) is wrong and would ruin their whole relationship. Etc etc etc. Usopp feels like shit, to put it in simple words, but accepts the rejection anyway with a bittersweet smile and just says he perhaps will need a little bit of time away from Sanji to deal with it, if that's okay. Sanji says it's fine but it's not, because it's happening exactly what he didn't want: Losing Usopp. Because he's a coward and he can't accept his feelings or Usopp's in any way. At least not yet. At least not without any help.

And I don't really know how this would go. Maybe it's a devil fruit user. Maybe it's something about the island they're at. Maybe it's a magical flower or something, because OP loves doing these things with evil flowers, apparently. But Usopp faints and doesn't seem to wake up. Robin asks for information about it around the island and turns out that, yes, he needs a true love kiss to wake up. Everyone keeps saying it can't be real, because what the hell, it's exactly like a fairytale. But it is real, and Sanji thinks the universe hates him. Nobody knows about them (they definitely know about them. It's just a topic they haven't explicitly touched verbally. At least not yet. I think the ones who know, know are Zoro and Nami. Robin too, of course) so the first thing that comes to Luffy and the other's minds is "okay, we could do this if Kaya was here. Because with how much this guy talks about her, she could be the one waking him up". But there's no time (because let's say that he'll never wake up again if ummm 5 days pass without any kiss) and they know, deep inside, that it won't work. At least a few of them know. Luffy says he could just kiss him himself because he loves Usopp! But Nami says it's not that way. It has to be romantic love. Luffy gets all frustrated and angry about it, I'm sure. It's just not fair. He wonders how that could've happened.

Sanji knows it's his fault. He knows he should fix this.

He knows he loves Usopp. Deeply. Desperately. He needs him in his life and wants him romantically. As best friends, too. In any way. But there's this layer of insecurity-- Maybe they're not meant to be together. Maybe the kiss doesn't work. Maybe he doesn't love Usopp as much as he thinks or maybe it's not in that way and he's just confused (he's always telling himself it's just a phase he's going through for not having a girlfriend yet). Maybe Usopp doesn't love him that much, either. Maybe he's the one confused (because how could he love somebody like Sanji?). So Sanji scared. Sanji is scared Usopp might not wake up. He's scared of what others might think. He's scared of what could happen if he does wake up and they have to talk things out. Yadda yadda.

But Nami confronts him because she knows about them. She asks him to do it. To stop being such a coward when Usopp's life is at risk. And it's pretty much the first time he ever tells no to Nami, refusing to do anything. The helplessness he feels is painful, but thinking about Usopp never waking up is even worse. Two days go by. He never leaves Usopp's side. Nami is growing impatient and Zoro looks at him with true hatred this time. Robin is the one to talk to him next, gently reminding him that nobody is going to judge him. That he can be free to do whatever he wants. That is better to take risks than living with regrets. But Sanji doesn't do anything but thank her. He needs time. But Usopp is running out of it. And then, on the fifth day. Well, fourth day at night, almost the fifth. Then, Zoro talks to him. Sanji is not okay. He has barely eaten. He won't leave Usopp's side. He's acting overly romantic for somebody who can't bear to use the word 'love' to refer to Usopp yet. And Zoro is done. After arguing for a while, Zoro tells him to stop being such a fucking coward and grow some balls and kiss Usopp so he doesn't die on them because, apparently, he's the only one who can save them this time even if Zoro despises the idea. And Sanji goes "But what if I can't?!"

Zoro: What are you talking about? Of course you can. Just go and kiss him. Sanji: No. It- It doesn't work like that. Zoro: To me it looks like it does. Sanji: What if it's not enough? What if I'm not enough? What if it's not- It's not right. For me to like him. I shouldn't, so- What if we're not meant to be and he dies and it's my fault? Zoro: It is going to be your fault either way if you don't try. Sanji: Pfft. Not like you've tried either- Zoro: Because we're smart enough to know we aren't the ones in love with this idiot. You're, quite literally, the only one who doesn't see it. Sanji: What the hell do you know? It's not- Zoro: It is like that. Sanji: I can't do it. Zoro: You won't know unless you try. And I don't give a single fuck whether you can do it or not. I don't care if you want to or not. If he dies because you were too full of yourself to stop being a coward, I will slice you open. Sanji: I'll let you. Zoro: Yeah, no. I know. But I won't give you the satisfaction of following Usopp if he dies. You'll have to live with it. Sanji: What if he doesn't wake up? Zoro: Could you stop being so damn selfish for a second and think about him?! Sanji: I am thinking about him! He's the only thing I can think about right now! Do you think this is easy for me- Zoro: Then stop torturing yourself and Usopp and start acting like you give a fuck about him dying instead of drowning in self-pity. It's ridiculous. Sanji: Fuck you. Zoro: One thing we know is that he'll never wake up if you don't try. And he won't be dying by the hands of some fucking spell, but yours. So do whatever you want, but stop blaming a future you don't know and at least admit you're too much of a coward to face your feelings.

So Sanji realizes, then, that it doesn't matter what he wants, but what Usopp needs. It doesn't matter if he's afraid. He would do anything for Usopp, even facing his fears. He will never know unless he tries, right? He hates that it's mosshead the one to put the idea in his head, but he has to thank him for that. He really did need that.

Long story short, he kisses Usopp. Nobody is around when it happens, but he does. It's painfully slow because he doesn't want to look. He doesn't want to face reality yet. When he finally moves away, though, Usopp isn't opening his eyes. He isn't moving yet. He has this moment, thinking he was right all along and he couldn't do anything to save him.

Until Usopp quickly wakes up from the coma. He asks what happened. Where he is. He says he just had the most annoying dream about one of Sanji's fights with Zoro. Then he says he's hungry, too, for some reason? Like he's been sleeping for days. And Sanji doesn't have time to tell him the truth because he goes to hug him tight. Usopp is still... Having a hard time processing the rejection, so it's a bit uncomfortable. Besides, he doesn't understand this sudden act of affection. But then, Sanji goes "I'm so glad you're okay, idiot. Never do that to me again. Never scare me like that again. I'm so sorry. I should've- And I didn't- I- It's all my fault" / "Wait, what? What are you talking about? Sanji?" / "I- I like you. I- No. More than that. I just- I want you" / "Yesterday you told me-" / "That actually was pretty much a week ago" / "What???" / "But it doesn't matter. Forget that" / "What do you mean a week ago? How long have I been-" / "I can't say it now. I know I can't say it now. And I am sorry, but- But I- I'll stop being a coward. For you, I will do it. Anything. I need you, so, please. Don't ever believe I don't want you back" / "But you said-" / "I was scared. And I am an idiot. And I almost let you die-" / "You almost wHAT?" / "And it's selfish and I am a shitty person for this but will you wait? Until I'm ready to say it? I like you. So much. More than you could ever believe. And I know I need you here. And I know I... You mean everything to me. Is that enough for now?" / "Moron. Of course it is. You could've said so sooner, you know?" / "I know. I'm sorry" / "Now that the fact that you love me and want me and need me yadda yadda has been established... What the fuck do you mean by you almost letting me die?"

And it's, uh- A really funny story to tell that Usopp will forever remember. But Sanji owes him a kiss. A real one now. And Sanji can't deny his sleeping beauty such a petition.

#they make me go insane #imagine wci and usopp going to save him and saying 'huh. this time i'm the knight in shining armor. right prince?' and i cry #sanji is having issues leave him alone #his internalized homophobia will forever be famous #but he loves usopp too much for this #also nami doesn't talk to him in like a week and usopp is the one to tell her to go easy on him #sanji overcompensates after that for hurting usopp btw that leads to more angst #but they have a happy ending so it's okay #one piece #black leg sanji #usopp #sanuso #roronoa zoro

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softquietsteadylove · 8 months

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Secret Lovers AU???

Heyyy

I just wanted to know if you could write an AU where Thena and Gil have to keep their relationship a secret? In this AU I imagine that Arishem is Thena’s father, and he is very controlling. He keeps Thena in the house all day and has decided that on her 25th birthday she will be wed to Kro. Thena hates this

(Bc she’s already in love with Gilgamesh, Duh)

And she has to sneak out the house to see Gil.

So what do you think?

Tysm Byeeeee 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

"Delivery!"

"Gil!" Thena rushed to the windows, opening them fully for him to climb in and onto her window bench. "I told you not to come tonight."

He just smiled at her, setting down his picnic basket and pulling down the hood of his jacket. "Yeah, but that's when I know you need me the most."

"I thought Father took the lattice down," she frowned as she helped him into her room.

"Yeah, but Karun did us a solid and left the ladder out for me," he chuckled, completely unbothered by her father's efforts to keep them apart. Not that he knew that Gil used it to sneak in. He thought Thena used it to sneak out.

If he knew Gil used it to sneak into her room at night, he would sooner burn down the whole estate.

Gil had been using it for years, though, even when they were just children, whispering about books on Thena's roof under the stars. He had scaled the wall lattice as a pre-teen just trying to get to know his rich and mysterious neighbour. As a teenager, working up the nerve to ask Thena if she'd ever had a boyfriend before. He had scaled that lattice and recited the speech he had memorised from Romeo and Juliet, just to get told that it wasn't exactly Shakespeare's most romantic, despite popular belief.

She had kissed him anyway, though.

"Hey," he smiled, leaning in and kissing her gently. He ran his hands down her arms, "I know you're scared."

She sighed, plunking her forehead onto Gil's chest, laughing when she felt the traces of leaves and bristles from the ivy leaves. "He won't give up on this 'Kro' business, you know. He's determined to marry me off to that monster."

"That won't happen, baby, I promise," Gil attempted to assuage her worries, rubbing her back over her satin robe.

She shook her head, "we got in another fight about it. That's why I told you not to come; if he gets even the slightest idea you're here, he'll have me shipped to the Antarctic."

Gil shrugged, holding her by the waist, "I'd still visit you. Wouldn't have to climb a lattice to do it, either."

She laughed, toying with the strings of his sweatshirt hood. "You shouldn't have to, though."

"I would anyway."

"Gil," Thena insisted, looking up at him, her in bare feet and him still wearing his heavy steel toed boots. "I mean it. I thought now that we were graduated he would have let this go, but-"

But Arishem had only pushed even harder for Thena to form an alliance with his chosen protege and CEO-to-be.

"What did he say?" Gil asked her softly, guiding her to sit with him on the plush window seat, where they'd spent some of the most important moments of their lives, by this point.

She sighed, wilting against Gil's side. "On my 25th birthday he'll announce our engagement to his associates and the whole world. And if I don't go through with it, he'll disown and ex-communicate me completely from the family."

Gil scowled, "that's a bit harsh, hon. I know your dad's a psycho, but we were pretty sure he wouldn't actually kick you out, right?"

She sighed even more heavily, her shoulders dragging down so far it hurt. "Apparently, I thought wrong."

"Oh, Thena," Gil made a sympathetic face, which was all it took for Thena to move closer, clinging to him. He held her just the way she liked. "I'm sorry."

Perhaps she hadn't been hoping that he would suddenly change his mind on things. But was it so foolish to think that he would want his daughter in his life in some way? And he still didn't know anything about her and Gil, and she intended to keep it that way for Gil's safety.

"I shouldn't be surprised," she conceded quietly as Gil pulled her into his lap. "Father has never hesitated to choose his work over me before. I just thought...I thought for once-!"

Gil kissed her temple, "I know, honey, it's okay."

Was it, though? Not that she had any intention of going through with marrying Kro, but her father was far more powerful than she cared to admit. Even if she didn't want to go into the same line of work, she wasn't sure there was any field of society where she could be guaranteed safety from him.

"Hey," Gil whispered again, tipping her chin back to him. "What do you wanna do?"

Thena sniffed, pressing her tears into his shirt and then shaking them off. "I'm not marrying that cretin."

"Great start, babe," he chuckled, and even got a smile for his efforts. He brushed the last of her tears away, "what else?"

Thena inhaled, trying to wrap her mind around things. "I have my own job prospects, although I'm afraid I wouldn't be surprised if Father was capable of rescinding those, given his influence. I might have to start over, maybe even...somewhere new."

This was her most dreaded reality.

They had always known her father would never let her so much as be alone in a room with him, even as children. It was against all odds they had managed to steal what time they did. They had faced being in different classes in school. They had faced Thena's extracurriculars and Gil getting a part time job to help support his family. They had faced her going into university and Gil starting trade school.

They had even faced her being entrapped into a date set up by Kro and her father.

"Okay, where would you want to go?" Gil asked gently. Despite his smiles and joking tones, he was serious. Because wherever she went, he would follow.

"Gil," she shook her head, new tears arising. "Your mom and Sersi are here, you can't move just because I'm getting thrown out."

"They know I'd go anywhere for you."

Thena smiled against his lips as he kissed her again. For all her father's efforts not to let any love into her life, she had been able to sneak Gil her heart, and he had kept it safe for her ever since.

"Really, Thena, you say the word and I'll pick you up, we can go to Mom's until we figure something out," he suggested with a shrug of his shoulders. His tone was light, but his hand on hers was solid. "You don't have to be scared of him, honey."

She rolled her eyes, "I'm not scared of Father, or Kro."

"That's my girl," he winked at her.

Her smile faded slowly, but it did eventually. She squeezed his hands, "But I am scared to not be with you, Gil. And if Father has me thrown out and cuts off all my accounts?--I struggle to think of how far I would have to go just to find a firm willing to let me intern."

Gil tilted his head at her, letting himself smile again. "You say that like you like being rich."

She rolled her eyes again. She hated when he called her 'rich'.

"You already don't use any of that money you have hidden away," Gil shrugged. It was him who had told her that if she took out a little at a time in cash and stashed it away that she could use it without him knowing about it. "So, take what you can and get outta here. He's gonna kick you out anyway so just...come with me."

Thena stared at his outstretched hand. How many times had she dreamed of this?--Gil offering to help her run away from her father and her gilded cage of a home. The delusional and romantic notion of running away with the boy she loved (now the man she loved).

"You're your own woman, Thena, you don't need his name, or his money, or anything!" Gil urged, eager to pull her spirits out of the pit he could see her spiralling into in real time. "I always knew you'd be a badass lawyer, whether he wanted you to or not!"

Oh, Father wanted her to be lawyer, but one that would make good money. He wanted her to be a corporate lawyer, or even a criminal defense. Not a divorce lawyer who worked pro-bonos all the time.

She shook her head, "I'm just done law school, Gil. I haven't even taken the bar, yet."

"Which you'll nail!" he shrugged like it was nothing at all. "I always knew you would, and your dad knows you will, too. That's why he wants you to marry that creep! Because you're too badass on your own and you could take him any day of the week."

"I do not want anything to do with either of them," she shook her head and pulled her robe tighter around herself. She looked around her room, immaculately cleaned for her, full of expensive clothes picked for her. It was a very personalised hotel room, as far as she was concerned. "I should pack."

"I'll help you."

"It's okay," she whispered, kissing his cheek. "You came for a date, not to help me uproot my life."

"Actually," he chuckled as she stood and went to her desk. "I came after you told me not to, because I knew my girlfriend needed me."

She attempted to contain her smile but couldn't. She loved it when he called her his girlfriend.

"And because I will always be right here, babe," he finished more softly, kissing her hair as she collected up what little of her possessions she actually cared about. "You wanna leave tonight, we'll go. We can go anywhere, do anything. I'll go downstairs and fight your dad bare handed if you want me to."

She gave Gil a dry look. He was big, and strong in every sense of the word, but her father was like an eldritch horror out of a fantasy book.

"Okay, fine," he conceded, pulling out the bag she'd used to sneak herself over to his house plenty of times before. "What else do you need?"

She shoved her work materials into the bag. Her textbooks she could access online, and it wasn't like she could keep them physically after the bar, anyway. She bundled up her laptop and phone charger. "Just the stuff in the top drawer."

Gil unceremoniously opened her dresser and shoved everything from the top shelf in. "We can get you new stuff, too. You know how mom loves to go shopping with you."

Thena smiled; Gil's family always felt more loving than even her most fond memories of her father. "Yes, she does."

"Cash?"

She turned and smiled. Gil had no discomfort with the idea that he was going into carpentry and contracting while she came from an ivory tower. As far as he was concerned, she could rob her father for all he was worth and then be happy to sneak cheap snacks into a movie for a date. "Underwear drawer."

"Ooh!"

"Gilgamesh," she drawled, needing to remind him to grab what was necessary, and not whatever of hers was his favourite.

"Feels kind of exciting, right?" he grinned at her as she zipped the main section of the bag closed, including the cash that could keep her comfortable while she was literally finding her footing. "Like we're running away together?"

"Well," she raised her brows at him as she grabbed her hairbrush, "we are, aren't we?"

"Always said we would," he whispered before kissing her again. "You wanna put something else on or go like this?"

"And climb down that ladder in this?" she scoffed, gesturing to her silky little night dress, "no."

"Aw," Gil faked pouting before laughing, "I'd carry you down if you wanted me to."

"I know you would," she answered from her walk-in closet. She truly wouldn't miss anything from in here. Anything of hers that she liked and Gil liked was in that top dresser drawer, for all the other times she had left in the night like this.

Karun had helped them many, many times before.

"Okay," Gil smiled as she stepped out in a perfectly normal looking white sundress. "Ready?"

"Ready," she nodded, her resolve continuing to firm up with everything they packed. She looked up, "what?"

Gil shook his head, setting the bag down, "you look beautiful."

How she loved him. Thena smiled down at her feet shyly before slipping on the sandals she kept hidden in here. They were her only decent walking shoes. "Okay, let's go."

"Hey, you need one more thing."

"What?" Thena blinked, going over everything they'd packed. She had been planning this escape in the back of her mind for years, she was absolutely certain she wasn't forgetting anything. She looked at Gil.

He smiled at her, equal parts terror and excitement. His hands were shaky as he reached into his pocket and knelt down in front of her. He pulled out the ring box, gulping. "You'll need this."

#Thenamesh AU #I hope you like it my dearest #I know how patiently you've waited #I loved this idea so much #so star crossed lovers I can't stand it #it's giving childhood friends #it's giving friends to lovers #it's giving soulmates #young Thena meets young Gil because he snuck into her yard to pick from the apple tree by her house #Father says not to talk to strangers but he's so sweet #and she's never been allowed to have a friend ever #unless Father picked them #she and Gil like adventure books and books about stars #she's never been allowed to meet a real boy before #and they're inseparable #They become teens and Gil finds out he likes girls and oopsie he's deeply in love with his best friend #he continues to sneak over and he starts to wonder if she likes him too #he memorises that whole speech and Thena is like that play is really depressing and gross and weird #but she loved it anyway #and she kisses him half out of her window under a full moon #everything Gil's ever given her is either already hidden away #or she makes him keep it at his house so her father doens't find and take it #did someone say elopement? I thought I heard elopement #I really do hope you like it darling!

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By this point my brain is pretty much just an Imodnascape, so here are some thoughts:

I won’t lie, the thing that finally convinced me to start Critical Role after years of meaning to was Laudna and Imogen, specifically the way Marisha and Laura play them. There’s no denying the chemistry between them as these characters - hell, the campaign started with just the two of them at the table. And the way that the others are utterly transfixed on the two of them when they interact says it all really.

Yes, I want it to be romantic. And there are so many reasons why it seems that way, most coming from Imogen. The RING ???? I think that’s enough on its own... But also the way she hesitated when asked if her and Laudna were a thing, like she hadn’t really thought about the nature of her feelings until then. And then the ‘yeah it must be strange to access that’ when Laudna spoke of not having those kinds of feelings for so long. While I don’t think it was planned by either Laura or Marisha beforehand (although the Laudna’s mind was musical line right at the start ??? Laura Bailey what the fuck was up with that ?!!) I don’t think it’s outrageous to think Imogen now has romantic feelings towards Laudna - whether they’re reciprocated is a harder question.

It would be my hope that Laudna does share those feelings, but just isn’t ready to face them, and watching her work through that through the rest of the campaign, with some awkwardness with Imogen and more talks with the rest of the gang - specifically FCG - would be so good (Sam also seems to be the biggest Imodna shipper, I thank him for his service).

Saying that, I want to try to be objective. The more time goes by without anyone acknowledging it away from the table (nobody talked about it on 4-sided dive even with Erika there ??? Really ???) does make me a little nervous. Robbie was asked if Dorian had a crush on Imogen way back when and Ashley was asked if Fearne really would with Chet, but nobody has outright asked Marisha or Laura if their characters have feelings, when it’s clearly been a talking point in-game. By this point, the omission feels purposeful and I’m uncertain why.

It’s entirely possible that they don’t want to draw attention to it or give much away to have the space to work through it themselves as their characters, to see how it will play out organically. It’s also possible that Imogen and Laudna might stay best friends and nothing romantic will happen.

The bottom line for me: I’d be okay with nothing romantic happening between Imogen and Laudna; the relationship they have as it is is so wonderful, even if I want a romance. Saying that, I think at this point (38 eps in) any other romance for them within the group - can’t even imagine outside of it - just doesn’t feel organic.

The chemistry between Imogen and Laudna is just quite frankly in another league to everyone else. And having watched some of the other campaigns, seeing them play different characters who arguably had some flirtation and potential for something, I think how they’ve been able to create this new dynamic on another scale that’s so tender and unshakable is truly wonderful and impressive.

I don’t think this is a wild take to have about romances in general given what I’ve seen from the previous campaigns; all the romances there seemed to have their foundations set by now, right? I also think it’s a fresh take in that most of the other relationships developed between characters who weren’t necessarily best friends pre-campaign - not to this degree anyway. There’s less blatant flirtation here because as feelings (supposedly) take a different form, there’s so much at stake since they already mean the world to one another. But the love is there, the tension is there, it’s so immense it feels like it could overflow.

Also a biased point but it’s so lovely to see the overwhelmingly popular ship be between two women. Likes yes, thank you.

So yeah, that’s where I’m at. I really just think Imogen and Laudna belong together. They’re each other’s person, in whatever form that takes.

#imodna #critical role #sorry I just got so anxious reading some takes and uuuhhh scared ngl !!!!!!#share my pain

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doggernaut · 9 months

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OMGCP Fic Rec BINGO - Day 4

(Previous BINGOs here, here, and here)

pre-canon • sweet creature by ExceedinglyPeculiarChick

A sweet little Alicia Zimmermann character study as she prepares to become a mother. There is something especially poignant about it knowing what we know, but Alicia doesn't, about Jack's future. I don't know if this author is a parent, but so many of Alicia's thoughts and feelings are true to my own experience. I cried.

recced by a friend • What the Water Gave Them by suburbanmotel (@suburbanmotel)

I would have read this anyway, but @wrathofthestag's recommendation carries a lot of weight so I was especially looking forward to it. This is an AU in which Bitty, Jack, and Shitty meet under drastically different circumstances. But at their core they are the same people we know and love—there are conversations between Jack and Bitty that really feel as though they could have taken place off-page in canon (or, are certainly conversations I have imagined them having). There is a lovely ebb and flow to this fic, which is especially fitting given the author’s use of water imagery throughout. This is a fic you can get lost in.

makes you think of a song • Graduation Day by IBoatedHere (@iboatedhere)

This fic, a riff on Groundhog Day, is the second time loop fic I've put on this BINGO card. I just like time loops, okay? In the movie Bill Murray's character wakes up to Sonny and Cher every morning. In this fic, Jack wakes up to Beyoncé. I can no longer listen to "Schoolin' Life" without thinking about this fic.

main character is a side character in the comic • Little Sour Hearts by omgericzimmermann (HMSLusitania)

I guess Holster is technically the main character in this fic and it's the second lead, Esther Shapiro, who is the side character. Who is only mentioned once in the comic (The Closet Story, Part I) so I’m not even sure that qualifies her as a proper side character, but I think more people should read this fic, so I'm reccing it. With little to go on, the author took the concept of a person named Esther Shapiro existing in this universe and ran with it. Holster's relationship with Esther is both antagonistic and tender, and I also really enjoyed reading a Holster-centric fic in which his main relationship isn't with Ransom or the other members of SMH.

canon divergence • 52 Hertz by onawingandaswear (@whoacanada)

First, let me say that like many authors on my BINGO card, @whoacanada is a favorite. You can’t go wrong with any of their fics. In this AU, the graduation kiss doesn’t happen and Bitty eventually goes on to play in the NHL. It explores what happens after that, and how he and Jack return to one another. The meaning behind the title, 52 Hertz, becomes apparent fairly early on and the repeated references to the concept are at turns heartbreaking, amusing, and romantic. I love @whoacanada's characterizations of Bitty and Jack in this (or any) fic; they have such an easy way of being together that feels true-to-life, and their banter is top notch.

#omgcp #omgcp fic recs #omgcp fic rec bingo #I've got one more line to go for the blackout and I'll probably wait until Monday to post.

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Hello, i can’t stop thinking about all the dangling plot and character threads left by chapter 9, it’s taking up so much brain space man. Reading your thoughts about it has been really fun though so thanks for that!

I personally believe the main story timeline includes all the card stories available at launch (everything pre-qixi) as well as the first two personal story chapters of each guy.

But speaking of separate timelines (the way i see it), i really wonder what chapter 9 would look like in the world where lukerosa are dating. Because the main story cases would probably still occur in the other timelines and the NXX team would still go investigate them.

Like luke would probably be less aggressive and secretive and desperate and sad throughout… But also if the Oedipus here is the same Oedipus from luke’s personal story, then he’s either been caught, or they know his identity (daniel song, i think it was?) and have evidence against him. I feel like SO MUCH would be different.

Also, this verges on headcanon territory, but I like to imagine that in worlds where rosa started openly dating one of them from the 1st anniv, the boys get along slightly better because they’re no longer aggressively competing for her attention. A year should be enough time to move on (i have no idea tbh) but they’d still have a soft spot for her, something like that. So there’s that possibility to consider.

(Please hoyo… let them be friends… let them care for each other and actually like spending time together… i beg. The current relationships are complex and fascinating but I like it so much better when the love interests get along…)

Anyway, thanks for reading through this super long ask, i hope you have a wonderful day!

// spoilers for tot main story 9

hi anon!! hehe im glad my main story 9 ramblings have been enjoyable to read! im tryna calm down on them a bit because i realized i rambled a LOT AJHFSVASOFAL but in my defense….there was just SO much to chew on

as much as i didnt wanna think about timelines since it gives me a headache, i eventually did HAHA and i agree with you!! the first available card stories are also super aligned in to the beginning of main story (ex. in SR Timely Rescue, mc does not yet know that luke is an NSB agent, meaning that SR Timely Rescue must have happened before main story 5)

like in my brain, the now General Timeline Of Things That Possibly Happened In The Main Story Universe Are, In Order:

Main Story 1

Any and all of luke’s cards available at launch

Main Story 2

Any and all of vyn’s cards available at launch

Main Story 3

Any and all of artem’s cards available at launch

Main Story 4

Any and all of marius’ cards available at launch

Possibly all of the boys’ personal story sweet chapters 1-2

Main Story 5.1, 5.2, 5.3

ARTEM’S XMAS PARTYLAND CARD FOR SOME REASON??? (it was vaguely referenced in 6.2 and this never stops haunting me logistically)

Main Story 6.1, 6.2

Main Story 7

Main Story 8

Main Story 9

like, this timeline is the general thing my brain has accepted since it means that at least mc has Gotten To Know the boys more (and all the launch cards go after each boys' respective First main story focus episode because she'd need to be re-introduced/introduced to them first....though after main story 2, the boys' respective launch cards can get more shuffled. since in main story 2 she meets Both vyn and marius, and artem's can also be shuffled around since shes known him for a while already anyway) BUT has not yet started the deeper chain of events that trigger the boys’ respective character arcs (and also their romantic routes). but again this is….very general. very wibbly wobbly timey wimey. after making that chronological list i tried thinking about the event stories and then my brain just exploded so i’ll stop here HAHAKJFSKDJF

the AU of a chapter 9 after luke’s gone through both emotional development and also being less of a sad sack of shit thanks to mc is VERY INTERESTING TO ME. i agree on the pragmatism that the Oedipus investigation would be affected, theyd have people they can already question and leads that they could check through again. and on the emotional side……he’d be less aggressive deffo, but i still think he’d be quite upset and affected by everything. the big thing that interests me with chapter 9 and luke’s character is how his worsening illness changed his behavior so much. he’ll be doing Better having mc as his support and also having learned more honesty and vulnerability, but his progressing illness would still deffo have him on edge because currently....his illness has progressed and worsened Only in main story 9, nowhere else. his personal story sweet chapters dont mention it, his post-anniv cards dont mention it except for in SSR Dream of Benji but we're not shown any symptoms at all, much less new ones.

...man it's kinda sad to think about now honestly because right now, ch9!luke is the one who goes through the more intense version of the nightmare hes always been afraid of. and yet, hes also the only one without the support system and life outlook to help keep him afloat.....

//LOUD SOBBING

aNYHOO, i love ur hc on the boys having a Romantic Feels Armistice. frankly the timeframe of “moving on” varies a LOT, but all the boys care about mc deeply. itd hurt, yeah, but seeing her happy is most important ;w;

which is to say, I WILL NEVER STOP BELIEVING IN NXX INVESTIGATION TEAM DEEP FRIENDSHIP!!!!! NEVER!!!! //HOLDS ONTO THE TEAM GENTLY, PROTECTIVELY!!!! ;^;

#tot spoilers #the event stories are tough cuz...a bUNCH of them also reference the overarching nxx case!!! like SOTT and BTR!!! but wHEN? CAN THEY HAPPEN #and the Actual In-Game passage of time is weird too cuz my god remember how main story 7 happens just HOURS after 6.2??#...i need to stop thinking about this or im gonna pop a blood vessel jkvKJVSJFS #asks #anon

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Meowdy, I hope you're ready to take a peek at all of the books I've read the last 3 months!

By read, I do also mean listened to. I'm a huge fan of audiobooks, because my brain is bad.

Everyone in My Family Has Killed Someone - Benjamin Stevenson

I love a good mystery book, and this is a good mystery book. The narrator has a strong voice and is up-front about their unreliable nature. This book does a great job of making sure you are on the narrator's side, it never feels like they are purposefully keeping readers in the dark in order to pull a gotcha.

Pacing and suspense are SO well balanced to the point where I devoured this book in a day.

Paladin's Grace - T. Kingfisher

I was so prepared for this book to lean way more heavily into a fantasy world where I'd have to learn more terms and how social systems work, and just 1000 other things that can put me off of fantasy books. It's part of the reason I put it off for so long after getting it recommended to me (sorry, Ben.)

THIS BOOK, THOUGH, is not that at all. We don't have to learn new names for "church" or "palm tree". The author manages to thread the line between assuming that readers know the world already, and not creating a bunch of buckwild new words. The handholding though the worldbuilding is so light that you almost don't even feel it.

The setting manages to feel modern and fantastic all at once, which is just... The perfect food for me. The pantheon exists, but it isn't the focus.

This is a romance novel but not a bodice ripper, or overly erotic. I feel the depths of the emotions between the two main characters, which is what I really want.

My one gripe is that the final resolution feels very deus ex. Now, if I was going to pull out my fancy degree and analyze this, I could make an argument that the ending is supposed to feel that, for [spoilers]. But... I'm not sure how true that is. Maybe I'll have to re-read the book and keep that argument in mind.

Even with the ending, this book is lovely.

The Cybernetic Tea Shop - Meredith Katz

This book is short and sweet and a lovely look at an ace relationship.

I haven't read a book sub 200 pages in about a billion years, so many modern books are 600+ pages. Some of them! So good! Others!! Painfully long! This book manages to build an amazing world, atmosphere, multiple characters, and a believable romantic relationship all in the space of a few hundred pages.

Not just that, but the story happens to be about grief, and life, and what it is a person really wants. There are a handful of books I've read in my life that I connect with on such a deep level that I feel seen and changed, Convince Store Woman is one, and this is one.

Cults - Max Cutler

Taking a hard swerve into some non-fiction. I'll be honest, I wasn't sure what I was getting into with this one. I'm not HUGE into true crime (anymore, 14 year old me S U P E R was), so I was a little concerned that I was signing up for some grim, overly detailed, look into the crimes.

What I got instead was a thoughtful look at the psychology behind cult leaders. Yeah, there are a few sections that are pretty grim, but the book doesn't revel in them, if that makes sense. There is never a point where I feel like I am supposed to be ENJOYING the crimes being detailed.

The focus on not just the leaders lives pre-cult, but the lives of the cult members does a ton of work to unmythologize (.... new word alert) some of these leaders.

House of Salt and Sorrows - Erin A. Craig

So... I don't know. I didn't dislike this book, but I'm not sure I'm a fan. I will read the second one when I have access to it, but I don't know that I'd read this one again.

Here is a true fact about me - I don't read summaries of books or horror movies. This, as you may imagine, leads me to having to some WILD times with media.

Anyway, the point is: I was expecting a mystery period piece. What I got was a fantasy mystery period piece. It was fun, it was a little overly complicated. At the end of the day, I was definitely not the target audience for this.

I'm Glad My Mom Died - Janette McCurdy

Jesus. Christ.

When i-Carly was popular I was juuuuuust old enough to say I hated it, while watching it with my younger sisters pretty frequently. I didn't make sure to watch any of the big event episodes. I didn't see every episode, but the show was a constant in my life.

To get such a raw look at someone's life who was molded to be a 'peer' was WACK. Jennette doesn't sugar coat anything. Her experiences are raw and honest and it is probably the only way these experiences could be expressed.

Paladin's Strength - T. Kingfisher

You may be asking "why didn't you put this up next to the first book?"

Great question.

I'm putting this list in order that I read them, so like. Ease off.

I equal parts liked this book just as much, and had trouble getting through it. I am once again in love with the world and with the characters. During some of the middle of the book it felt like the book was 600 pages just to be 600 pages, and not because things needed to be said.

When I was in college I was accused of writing too many "stage directions" in my literature. I blame my years of RPing on Gaia Online and fan-fic writing on that. There is a definite style that comes from those writing exercises, a style where you want all of the readers to know everything from point A to point B. The thing is, not all of that is needed. I don't need 200 pages of sexual tension and flirting to believe in the relationship of two people. It's the "show don't tell" rule taken to the extreme.

There are some times when it's okay to tell and not show.

I like this book, I wish it was shorter, I will be reading the next one in the series because, damn it, this series is fun.

The Curse of Chalion - Lois McMaster Bujold

I don't tend to read fantasy books Like This anymore. When I was younger this type of book was my bread and butter. I've found that a lot of them (to me, at my advanced age) are tedious. And I'm tired.

This book! Manages not to be tedious and absolutely cradled me in the arms of fantasy I loved when I was younger. The book isn't, plot wise, comforting and yet I felt comforted reading it. I understand that the sentiment makes little sense. I'll say, though, if you were like me and were/are a big fan of Tamora Pierce's work - I cannot recommend this book enough.

Mrs. Sherlock Holmes - Brad Ricca

What is more cool than a woman lawyer, investigator, and social rights advocate in the 1900s? Basically nothing. This is another non-fiction book that truly brought to life the folks it detailed. I am OBSESSED with this woman.

I had never heard of Grace Humiston, which seems like an absolute shame, not just because she was cool as all hell, but because she spent so much time and effort protecting the underserved classes of 1900s New York. She was a lawyer who often worked for free to represent folks who could either not speak or write in English and were being taken advantage of.

She became an investigator, basically, because she knew the police were not putting effort into it.

The Salt Grows Heavy - Cassandra Khaw

This was another one that I didn't read the summary for before jumping in. I knew it was a queer book and I knew there was a mermaid, I didn't need any other convincing.

Here we have another sub 200 page book that tells an amazing love story. A story of personhood and growth and revenge.

It is not an easy read either in content or syntax. I haven't really put any trigger warnings with any of the other books, maybe that's a system I'll implement if anyone is interested. But this one: Body Horror, and Gore. If you have a weak stomach I would, sadly, not recommend this to you.

That said, this book is one of the more poetic ones I've read in a long time. Every word feels purposeful in a way that I don't run into often. Keeping the book short works perfectly for that style. If it were any longer I could easily find myself getting lost in the writing.

Legends & Lattes - Travis Baldree

This book has been on my TBR for... A While. It took my friend starting it and sending rave reviews for me to pick it up.

Here's another fun fact about me - My brain is broken. I have a hard time engaging with media that I KNOW I will enjoy, simply because. Because why? I don't know. To be contrary? Because I don't want to be disappointed? Because I'm scared I'll like it too much?

Who knows, don't recommend shows or movies to me and expect me to get back to you in a timely manner. You have to wait 3-5 years.

So, knowing that, I am glad I forced myself to pick this up. This is the coffee shop AU that we all love. The creation of this AU was treated with such love and care, it's clear the author knows what's up. All I want is a big strong character to fall in love with a smaller, softer, character and also run a little shop.

This book delivers on that and more. I cannot WAIT for the next book.

Leech - Hiron Ennes

I'm going to start with the easy stuff - This is a wonderfully dark book. I'm not usually a gothic horror reader, but wow. This book is about horror, identity, reclaiming the self. My library had it miss-tagged as romance which??? It is SUPER not.

The harder part is putting into words how I feel about this book. I like this book, it is complex and poetic. There were times where I felt like I was about to crawl out of my skin, in a good way. Emotions are so viscerally described that I could feel them in my gut.

The history of the world feels so deep, and the author does an amazing job at making me feel like that there are things going on outside the view of the character. That is an amazing skill to pull on, making the world around the character feel truly alive.

I told my friends when I finished it that sometimes "u read a book and the book read u."

I haven't put on my literature analysis hat on in nearly a decade. I would LOVE to spend more time to sit with this book and peel back the layers and figure out all of the ways this book makes me feel seen as a queer person. I don't have the words for that right now. Just know that I felt it.

Ghost Eaters - Clay McLeod Chapman

I don't know how I feel about this book. I think, overall, I like it. I think the plot is interesting, but the book isn't really about the plot, it's about the character. It's about grief and relationships and healing.

I felt like the first 200 pages were a real struggle for me. Unlike some of the other books I've read on this list, I did read a blurb about this one. I wonder if that was why the first 3rd of this book was a struggle. I was waiting the hook to find me. Instead, I had pages and pages of character exploration. I don't hate character exploration! But it wasn't what I was expecting.

The end... Left me feeling sad, and a little hopeless. Which, I think is the point. I think is why I don't read a ton of horror books. I love horror movies, I don't mind if the endings of those are bleak and hopeless. I think the difference is time spent. Reading a book takes so much more time and dedication and like... I want to be happy, is the thing.

I like this book, I think it's a wonderfully written look at addiction and grief and the ways those can eat a person alive.

Paladin's Hope - T. Kingfisher

I devoured this book in 5 hours. I... I opened it and did not put it down. I think this one may be my favorite of the three. I think the author managed to strike the exact right balance of tension, romance, and action.

Unlike Paladin's Strength, I never felt that there were these big empty spaces -- There was momentum.

I want to once again say that I LOVE that the characters are into their 30s. As a person also into their 30s it's just nice to see folks who feel real. Maybe I've been reading the wrong books for years, I simply feel a deep connection for characters similar in age who are just so... Normal (ignoring that some of them are paladin's of a dead god... you know what I mean).

#book review #reading list #Everyone in My Family Has Killed Someone #Paladin's Grace #Paladin's Strength #t. kingfisher #saint of steel #The Cybernetic Tea Shop #House of Salt and Sorrows #I'm Glad My Mom Died #jenette mccurdy #The Curse of Chalion #The Salt Grows Heavy #Leech #hiron ennes #Ghost Eaters #Paladin's Hope

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apollotomyicarus · 2 years

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thinkin about klapollo again

i see a lot of aus where they meet outside of canon and go on dates and fall in love and as cute as that is i just dont think it would happen like that?

like, we see polly brushing klavier off over and over again in canon. i dont think he would ever fall for a personality like klavs unless they were stuck in a situation together where apollo cannot escape.

like, if apollo and klavier just so happened to be at a bar together and klavier flirted with him, i think apollo would roll his eyes and talk to clay or ema or any other 3rd party. i can only imagine klav would lay on the rockstar (or the complete opposite "here you are mr gavin, loved the most recent album" "album?" "i told you im a rockstar, ja?" leaves) and the rockstar persona would do NOTHING for apollo. any sort of heavy, laying it on thick flirting would go right over apollos head or he would ignore him and be disinterested. maybe on repeated attempts klav could draw some interest from apollo, but that would require them to be in the same place more than once.

maybe its just me projecting but i dont see apollo as the type to commit to relationships very easily. he needs a bit of poking and prodding to get him comfortable with another person, let alone intimate with them.

whenever i try to think of him as someone who has one night stands, i cant get my head wrapped around it. i dont see apollo as the type to bring someone else into his home very easily. or maybe im just projecting my own trust issues onto him, who knows. so he needs someone who is willing to break down barriers and push boundaries in order to even consider a relationship with them.

also apollo is dense to other peoples feelings unless theyre lying then he can tell, but pre aa4 he wouldnt explicitly know what he knows someones lying, only that theyre acting strangely.

klav on the other hand has a facade of wearing his heart on his sleeves, but really his boundaries are firm. i imagine he is open to one night stands as a part of his rockstar persona, but longs for a deeper connection. so when he sees pretty brown eyes and someone who doesnt care about the rockstar persona, i imagine instant intruige, not necessarily romantic, but still intruige none the less. he would have a desire to know more, and in order to know more he would have to see apollo more than once.

anyways look for my upcoming fic craigslist - missed connections coming soon to ao3

#klapollo #klavier gavin #apollo justice #ace attorney #ace attorney 4 #aa4 #character analysis #that last line is mostly a joke #maybe it'll come one day #but i like writing essay style analysis tumblr posts a lot

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When these kind of events happen you will finally understand what Jikook says and does are not exclusive with each other. I hope you read about Jinmin and Namkook. I dont know which 2 people in relationship say things like that. A member saying he will kiss another member who's already in a long term relationship, that too infront of his bf ??? Especially knowing the bf is a lil possesive type. And the said bf saying he fell for their leader for 100th time but completely avoiding his current bf ??? Ohh mate I wonder in what world things like this happen. Unless the world is just imagination of jikookers.

Usually, I delete this type of anon askes without responding to them, but suddenly I got a feminine urge to answer this one. I guess you are lucky, anon. lol First of all, you're wrong about Jinmin's moment. Jimin wasn't the one mentioning the kiss, in fact, he called it dirty and asked Jin to stop saying obscene. Jimin has recently talked about not liking fake things. He said he doesn't do fanservice, and whatever he does with the members is just a part of their genuine relationship. The same goes for JK, just remember his reaction when Jin tried to lick his hand jokingly in the recent vlive. And about Namkook, JK has admitted having a man-crush on Namjoon many times, (how old was he? 13?) and called him his role model. He has talked about him being very handsome which are pure facts, and he has stated that (handsomeness) about another member very recently either, and as you said it yourself, it just doesn't mean anything special. Now back to Jikook. They have never publicly joked about kissing each other, never discussed having crushes on each other after 2014, and only called each other "cute" publicly. Jikook have never done the things you are trying to normalize, so where is the punchline exactly? So far, you have been wrong about Jinmin and Namkook, but you are also making another big mistake by taking their words literally. Since you have followed all the Jimin and JK ship moments in the Pre-recording, you might have heard about Jinkook bickering about age and growing up bad. If you take these words, they (especially JK) will turn out as rude, impolite, and even mean. Do you believe they are rude, mean, and bad-mannered and insult each other for fun? If the answer is yes, you have just come out as a hater, and your opinions over jikook or any other member don't matter. But if you already know that they were joking and entertaining the sleepy audience, this has to apply to the other parts, either. Another mistake you are making is to compare them with yourself. "You" as a common person, might get jealous when your s/o is having some little interactions with your trusted long-time friend, but Jimin and JK are top idols of the industry, and they are doing their job. So nothing is comparable here. Anyways, the point of this reply is not to argue with some shallow perception of a joke or nice and flirty words between seven friends and ignore the years of consistent demonstration of a special bond between Jimin and JK. The point is you are expecting jikookers to leave the world of imagination. Well, I don't see any single reason for that, I didn't become a Jikooker just because they were flirting or being nice to each other, I had other reasons and still have them, stronger than ever. But I'm not insisting on anything, I don't know about other members of my community, but I can end this "imagination" the moment they directly ask me to get out of it, I can end this "imagination" when they ask us to stop shipping them romantically, I can end this "imagination" when they call the whole ship a big conspiracy theory, I can end this "imagination" when they start dating other people openly. These things have happened to the other big ships so far (T/K, Eun/hae, L@rry, Chan/Baek, etc.) but Jikook haven't given us anything remotely close to that. In fact, they have done the opposite, "Keep being Jealous" and "Jimin is mine" was only a couple of months ago. Yes, I know I already said don't take anything literally, they joke around and flirt a lot, but they don't mean the exact opposite of what they are saying, either.

What you are doing here, is overanalyzing and making big conclusions out of small things to debunk Jikook because their bond bothers you for some reason. Overanalysing is wrong, and it always goes wrong whether it's done in favor of a ship or against it. But when shippers (not the toxic ones) do it in favor of their ship, at least it's out of love and affection they have for the relationship between two people. But when people like you do the overanalyze to debunk a beautiful bond between them, it's simply out of anger, jealousy, and hatred.

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I know we are on a carlando lockdown atm for obvious reasons, but! ever since you made that post about sewis angst, let me tell you I started Thinking - capital T. literally on my notes app writing this. ngl i suck at writing fr.

let's begin...both of being young in the sport which implies a lot of just being young not fully formed people. They just want to go fast ok..."who's this other kid? ok maybe hes nice...ANYWAY...i get to race!!!!!!"

Then Seb starts winning! and like he has his fun ok - do they get together in 2010-11? possibly... once they were both drunk (were they tho??)- it was HOT + unresolved gay feelings for the both of them - they dont think about it for years until...well they do. They never talk about it, is this their first time with a boy? meh I dont think so, still theyre both young experience is limited for the both of them.

But going back to evil child seb, he is immature and not the best at communicating...the whole webber teammate competitiveness, like a bit of a hothead after all. He goes out, he experiences things, he figures his shit out and is relatively chill about it, he can keep it lowkey. Of course, sprinkle some tension of them seeing the other pick someone up at like idk a party, theyre like "uh good for them" but still they LOOK.

2015 happens and years have passed - seb has matured a lil bit, learnt to be professionally mature and maybe more secure in himself, but also he has never had to undergo all the racist abuse LH always had to face - so like liking guys doesnt feels as much as a freak out. + got hurt a little less by people around him?

Seb goes to ferrari in 2016 and LH keeps winning, but! nico...childhood friends turned maybe lovers around 2015 turned enemies. Personally I wont pretend I know what it feels like to be the only black person in a sport, where you're constantly pushing back against undeserved hate - because well Im not a poc so I have 0 knowledge of that nor I feel comfortable pretending that i can imagine it ??? idk how that would factor into lh growth as an individual. But being black and gay? some internalised homophobia must happen somewhere when you're competing in the most sexist of sports( it is sadly).

anyway, the point is...the whole rosberg drama (i hate that anti vaxxer fuck that guy frankly) happens. see THAT interview where lewis almost looks embarrassed of the things nico is saying about seb feeling bad his teammate didnt finish the race...bc well maybe he has got to know seb a bit better and sue him he likes the guy, he respects him and admires him, therefore the "not all of us think like this". They are not romantic feelings he has for him, the relationship with nico and the championship run definitely are definitely enough for him to not have just the mental capacity to even consider that. But, he does feel connected to seb as a person, bc they've both winners ya know - seb in 2016 still had more championships than lewis. So like nico publicly pulling out all the dirty laundry (is this even an english figure of speech?idk) for the world AND seb to see is humiliating. Also, because he did play into all the mind games and over the top macho bs rosberg pulled that year...and that maybe says something about himself just as much as it does for rosberg. for example idk spain 2016 (idk the chronological order between that interview and the spain gp but oh well this is fantasy anyway its doesnt matter). seb being seb sees this, but still they're professionals and competitors! so he makes a joke about it, keeps it not personal bc wtf?! we are f live doing media, leave me out of your pettiness. Still he is very aware of how f up the dynamic is between the 2, say when he talks to lewis pre races and nico is never mentioned - lewis isnt easy to see through but maybe some times he is (poetic description of lewis staring into the void looking very pensive, seb is looking platonically ty very much).

Say towards the end of the season lh and nico stop being intimately involved, things arent good and lh really needs less of whatever the f is going on there.( Lh being more involved in social matters, more outspoken has played a part so far - or at least it should be mentioned, bc you know lewis too did say some ignorant stuff at some point, changing that shows growth and a more open mind...he grows more serene with the idea of being who he is).

2017 and 2018 seb and lewis are both championships contenders, they get together eventually- end of the 2018 season?you choose. But maybe say there's a whole episode about seb showing basic human decency and being able to separate the on track competition from their off track relationship and lewis going "oh". and then they get together again, the sex is still very much HOT, but it just...isnt done with the intention of hurting the other (aftercare happens!) and then lewis goes "OH". Still, because they're still men and obtuse at that they keep it very casual, but they're both clearly falling for one another (i hate having seb being the one pining after lewis during his early ferrari years- let my boy have his love life while those other 2 destroy each other).

ferrari sucks in this universe too, so like seb has to deal with that, bc disappointment is hard to take for so long. Lewis is there, just honestly trying his best, because he has never had to reconcile him winning with also being there and good for someone he's involved with. lewis doesnt know if hes able to step it up...sebastian deserves the best! whilist seb is there being like why is he even there if every weekend im miserable? followed by a misunderstanding about lewis opening up about nico and snapping at seb bc he feels vulnerable. They're a bit distant for like idk a couple of moths, after all this isnt a relationship is it??? we are being adults about this and not acknowledging any of our feelings.

by 2020 they go on winter break with no plans of seeing each other during those months but then one or the other shows up in monaco/switzerland being like "ive never been casual about this like ever pls be my boyfriend? 🫣🫣"and then the other is ":) of course im absolutely not normal about you either:) " 👨🏼‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏾

ty for coming to worst ted talk ever conceived,prolly conveyed 20% of the angst and feelings i was trying to convey but oh well...im going to sleep. Also, hope tumblr staff wakes the f up :) cheers!

holy shit. presented without comment.

ok maybe one comment: i read this last night while i was half asleep and now i'm reading it in the morning and i'm STILL emotional algjakljga I'M ABSOLUTELY NOT NORMAL ABOUT YOU how is this so romantic LMAO

#hibi answers #AHHHHH #agkajlgjagja #sewis

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