if someone doesn’t take a restored gideon nav’s face between their hands in alecto the ninth to tell her that her life meant everything and that she has inherent worth just as she is, and that she should live for herself and not for others, and then give her a tight hug, im going to do a john gaius on this bitch of an earth

something something isn’t it significant that the first thing augustine does in htn is criticise mercy? isn’t it so upsetting that she is so aware of how resented she is? isn’t it horrible that one of the last things she says is “this is the chance for unlovable mercymorn—critical mercymorn—to show she is the most capable of her name… every time you’ve said i did not understand the human heart, that i was unfeeling, that i only knew worship without adoration […]”?

the fact her house, the eighth, is the most devoted to the emperor, and yet john still degrades her so publicly and casually.

mercymorn died one of the only few victims of 21st century misogyny after living 10,000 years with it.

Pyrrha Dve, stone-cold fox

It was many and many a year ago,

In a kingdom by the sea,

That a maiden there lived whom you may know,

By the name of Annabel Lee

tossed these guys into a 1920s au just so i could draw them in neat clothes, they're my dress-up dolls now.

— as per usual, credit to @whisperingrockers for harrow's design. pls go check out her blog, her content is always killer!!

i like dressing up my favorite characters in silly little outfits. this time it's griddlehark as 60/70s japanese high school delinquents... LOL...

Pre-orders are open for the Jawless Skull ninth house leather crossbody bags! These will be hand made by me to hopefully ship in time for the holidays, so I'm only taking a limited number through 11/17.

There's some material customizability options AND some awesome griddlehark stickers you can also see in the store at mothgeist.com/shop ❤️✨

i think specifically the most difficult thing to articulate to straight people in your life is the extremely specific gay loneliness. like it's not so much even the lack of a social circle but the loneliness of exclusion from so many of the predetermined experiences that culture and society teaches us that we must have or whatever and then in turn the loneliness of the fact that cishet people will understand eachother through their relationships to these events that gay/trans people just have no access too. like of course this isn't always the case but ive often had the experience of talking to someone and knowing i see them as a fullly realized person and they find it difficult to do the same for me.

the prevalence of "yes or no" in The Locked Tomb Series

bonus!:

My father, the devourer.

My daughter, the unpalatable.

Eat me, eat me, spit me out.

Or poorly gathered quotes on consumption and becoming.

and it’ll carry me to greatness somehow

🎵The Front Bottoms- Ginger🎵

Never seen a homoerotic rivalry I wouldn’t ship.

hi friends! i would love your thoughts and ideas abt something if you are willing:

imagine you are harrowhark nonagesimus and have abruptly remembered your cavalier was not ortus nigenad and was in fact gideon nav. all your memories of her come flooding back. what moments or details of gideon flash through your mind at this point?

I've been rotating these songs in my head for two years now. even if you listen to nothing but the first two thats all im asking....... i feel insane

☕️ if you’re still doing these, and because it’s currently relevant: thoughts on fandom framing harrow as canonically beautiful?

OKAY SO. i have two separate problems with it. the first is that (mean girls voice) you can't just call someone "canonically beautiful." there's no objective standard of beauty that could be separated from culture and time and place that could make a character canonically beautiful vs. canonically ugly. this lack of an objective beauty standard is literally demonstrated in the text of ntn with nona finding her body beautiful while the kids find it ugly. i think (i hope) most people acknowledge that beauty is subjective superficially but demonstrate that they haven't actually internalized it when they say shit like "canonically beautiful."

my second problem with it is that even if "canonically beautiful" referenced conventional attractiveness based on the way mainstream western (white) society currently decides attractiveness (which even then is a pretty nebulous concept but let's pretend it's not), i think nona the ninth makes it pretty clear that harrow doesn't fit that standard. kids tend to be brutally honest, and the kids are quick to inform nona that she is not beautiful, that she has "the face of a rat and the body of a dead person." we get constant references to the fact that nona is malnourished, that she looks like a child, and that she's dying. frankly i think people put a lot of stock into nona getting hit on in the grocery store as proof that she's "canonically beautiful," but i think that scene has much more to do with her looking like a young teenager who was alone, cheerful, and naive. people point to ianthe, gideon, and alecto being into harrow as evidence that harrow is canonically beautiful too, but i don't think it's that much of a stretch to say that those three aren't really operating with our current standards of conventional attractiveness in mind.

i think that people really just want harrow to be beautiful, because a lot of people are still subconsciously operating with the beautiful = good and therefore the (female) protagonists that i like need to be beautiful. to which im begging you: can we just let harrow be.

Miranda Beach (Gideon's perspective)

"Alone in the balcony My two left feet on the mezzanine A tear in my chest when I least expect it Ignored so naturally Yet so unaware accidentally Right? That's alright, yeah

Oh, you're wasting all of my evening With eyes just like a television Oh, baby you make it look easy What's going on in her head?

Oh, no She's got me feeling undone And she knows it, yeah"

Hallelujah (Gideon's)

"There was a time you let me know What's really going on below But now you never show it to me, do you? And I remember when I moved in you And the holy dove was moving too And every breath we drew was Hallelujah"

Origin of Love (Gideon's)

"The last time I saw you we had just split in two You were looking at me, I was looking at you You had a way so familiar I could not recognize 'Cause you had blood on your face And I had blood in my eyes But I could swear by your expression That the pain down in your soul was the same As the one down in mine That's the pain That cuts a straight line down through the heart We call it love We wrapped our arms around each other Tried to shove ourselves back together We were making love, making love"

Shrike (Both tbh)

"I was housed by your warmth Thus transformed By you're grounded and giving And darkening scorn Remember me, love When I'm reborn As a shrike to your sharp And glorious thorn"

Nailed (Harrow's)

"He died for me He died for no one else He died for no one And he'd see and complain Oh the sweet and the sigh, to pain

And your heart is left out naked and exposed I wish that you had left more to the eye And I can't find the words to say I love you And why and why and why and why and why"