it's always one step forward and three steps back/i'm the (") love of your life (") until i make you mad but it's me and my mom.

(hence the quotation marks. you know how sometimes parents claim they'll never love anyone the way they love their child and do anything else but to show just that?

yeah. me too. me too, buddy.)

crazy to think that people my age want to have sex… and that many of them have had sex before… and that they are actively seeking out people to have sex with….. and that they talk about sex with their other sex-having friends……. couldn’t be me but y’all have fun tho! stay safe out there and stuff

guys this "keeping myself busy with distractions so I don't get sad" thing isn't working

🐁☁️🌫️

So apparently two of my co-workers were talking shit about me and another new hire bc we’re “dead weight” and said that we should get less hours or just quit. Another girl overheard them and reported them to the manager and they got in trouble. I didn’t know about this until today so idk when this happened but man I’m so pissed

not Super Pumped about the comments about my weight ill b receiving this holiday break

Just canceled all of my future therapy appointments. Big fudgin’ bummer. Did I mention I lost my insurance? Didn’t even find out about that until the day it lapsed. Trying to find a way to fix it now, reapplying and whatnot, but ya know, it’s bureaucracy so who knows how long it’ll take. Just fingers crossed I don’t run out of meds first.

lol it’s underwater 🐠

I'm so tired of my mom.

So my dad made gumbo tonight because my sister is home and she LOVES it. which I also LOVE, and he puts big chunks of green peppers and onions in it, which I don't. I'm not a big vegetable person in general, but most I'll eat. I don't like green pepper, so I just pick it out. And I like onion but I don't like the big pieces so if they're too big I'll pick them out. And when I went to go out my dishes away she side eyes my pile of peppers and goes "this is ridiculous" in the most passive aggressive condescending tone and I just????? I'm sorry I've told you I don't like them?? I don't care that they "don't have a taste", I can taste them and it's also a texture thing?? Like??? I eat everything else in the gumbo, including the diced tomatoes, why the fuck does it matter leave me the fuck alone.

Between Millie not responding to me since getting back home, ignoring 💨 bc my family hates her and think she’s a bad influence on me, and now Levi’s account being deactivated,,, it’s like the universe simply does not want me to have any friends. I am not built for it I guess. I just want to have anyone to talk to other than my mom and my brother who my mom likes more than me 😭😭😭

all of the sudden i do not like living at home anymore

I wish capitalism was a tangible object I could bite and claw at I start foaming at the mouth like a rabid dog when I think about it gwrrwhrwgwwrgwr

If this doesn't end Very soon I'll have to ask my professor to register my thesis in April rather than March because i don't think I can do this in the remaining 2 weeks in this state ahahaha

kindof losing my mind bc uhhhh. how am i supposed to like. afford to live.

I’m doing better about it than I was at the start of this week more or less, but

good goddamn, the things going through my mind because of my fcking mom right now. I don’t even know if it’s anger or exhaustion or unsurprise or what anymore. At least it’s not as loud as it was yesterday.

Anyone else having an absolutely unhinged week or is that just me

i want die