Neil Gaiman hating me would be justified actually because one time when I was very very sad I decided to spend time and energy conceiving an idea of Aziraphale self-harming that would be as realistic and canon-accurate as possible because I was sick of 'character cuts arms because that's all author knows' fics in every fandom and then I realized I was writing a self-harm fic concept for AZIRAPHALE from GOOD OMENS and I closed my laptop.

Heyo, sorry I haven't been posting much lately. I haven't had any time (or motivation honestly 😖) to write or draw, but then I remembered that I have sketchbooks full of doodles, so maybe I can share those???

Here's a handful of Shadowpeach doodles, I'll try and post more in a few days!

Here's the first time I drew these dorks. I hadn't figured out Wukong's fur color quite yet, so he's kinda orange. 😅 (also this was one of those "draw the squad" poses)

This is just a little doodle for a Shadowpeach fic that @amalgamorph and I have been working on. I wanted to design Macaque and Wukong's wedding rings. 👉👈

This was one of my first attempts at writing a Shadowpeach fic, because I love ballet and I dunno, y'know??? But I couldn't figure out how to, like, write dancing, so I gave up. I'd love to make it into a comic instead, but I've gotta get better at drawing comics first. (The basic gist is Macaque does ballet to keep in shape, and Wukong finds out and wants Macaque to teach him.)

And lastly, this was based off of some TIFU post I saw on Reddit where someone insulted their spouse and I thought it was really funny. I don't really remember, it was over a year ago now. 😅

Anyway, there you go! I struggle to share WIPs and sketches (thank you, my perfectionist brain), but I'm trying to teach myself that it's okay to share unfinished art. Not everything has to be a masterpiece.

Up next, I think I'll share some character designs I was working on. Mainly, I was trying to figure out the LEGO Monkie Kid crew in my own style. 😩

Mando Arc Au:

Ruby bumps into Jaune again just before Initiation. Her curiosity overcomes her and she’s rapid firing questions at him about the rumors and such. She learns a lot about how varied the subcultures in Mando culture are, just like normal cultures. It doesn’t hurt any that he has a lot of gear and weapons on him for her to geek out over. How deep do those lockers go? Unfortunately no jetpack, motion sickness and all. The first part of Initiation is going to suck for him.

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"Um, h-hi, Jaune." Ruby said as she nervously approached her newfound mercenary friend. He stood by the empty locker, checking the equipment strapped to his body. He glanced down to the red huntress-to-be. "Uh, did you sleep good. Well. Uh, good and well?"

"Mhm." Jaune replied. "Kinda wish I brought something to sleep in, but I'd be in real trouble if I started slacking off now."

"Oh, did you not change your, uh... stuff?"

"No, I, uh..." Jaune chuckled. "There's no spares for this stuff. Not for me, anyways."

"Because you haven't earned it." He shot a look at her. It was one of curiosity, but with his helmet hiding his expression, she could only interpret it as anger at best and hostility at worst. "I-I'MSORRY! IDIDN'TMEANTOMAKEYOUANGRY! PLEASEDON'TSKINMEOR-"

"Ruby." She flinched as she felt a hand press onto her shoulder. "You okay?"

"Y... Yeah..." She sighed. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to insult you, or your culture, or your-"

"You're fine, Ruby." Jaune chuckled. "You didn't know. There's no law against not knowing." There was a pause. "Not that I know of, anyways." They chuckled. "But I'm guessing you only just learned about Mandalorians, huh?"

"Yeah." She gave a sigh. "You don't... hurt people, do you?"

"No." He answered simply, honestly. "Not unless it was for training." She flinched. "Bounty hunter training. That's why I'm here."

"So you're not gonna... I don't know..."

"Burn down villages and sell people into slavery? No." He shut his locker. "I'm not like those kinds of Mandalorians."

"Well... What kind are you, then?"

Jaune thought for a moment. He and Ruby walked silently to the bullhead that awaited them to take them to the initiation. He grimaced the thought of riding through the air again and risking his breakfast making an emergency ejection. Ugh, the thought of the word ejection made his stomach turn.

"Well, for one thing, the kind who hates flying."

Hello, I have a question and you're the only person I can think of who can answer it properly. Not sure if you subscribe to the "Akutagawa fell first" belief for sskk, but if you do, what do you think was the moment in canon that made him fall for Atsushi? Or was it more of a gradual process?

I personally can't pinpoint it because he seems hopelessly smitten during the Moby Dick fight but before that there's nothing. What do you think?

Omg thank you for asking me this I have extremely strong opinions on the matter. This got way longer than I predicted but honestly what did I expect?

I DO firmly stand by the “Akutagawa fell first” statement. I mean, as I've said before, it's hard to interpret the canon events in a way that doesn't frame Akutagawa being in love with Atsushi, while when it comes to Atsushi it's arguable he would even fall at all, and definitely didn't within canon¹. SO, in my very unbiased perception of canon (lie), here's the story of Akutagawa falling for Atsushi:

Akutagawa gets assigned Atsushi as his target for a mission. He doesn't have any strong impression on him. He doesn't know anything about him.

Akutagawa talks with Dazai. Now he's got very personal beef with Atsushi.

Akutagawa and Atsushi fight on the trading ship. There's clashing of morals, the personal beef becomes even more personal and it's surely accentuated by Atsushi defeating him. He definitely hates him with all his guts at this point.

Akutagawa and Atsushi meet again on the Moby Dick. Akutagawa still hates Atsushi, but talking their feelings out on the bridge and on the elevator is a first step towards actually understanding and warming up to each other.

Akutagawa and Atsushi fight together against Fitzgerald and share some heartfelt words of support right beforehand. I'm like, 200% sure the exact moment Akutagawa fell in love with Atsushi is when he told him “if you asked me... I'd say Dazai-san has already recognized you long ago”. Because that's everything for him!!!! More exactly, that's everything Akutagawa ever wanted to hear. That's the most valuable words in the world for Akutagawa, and them coming from Atsushi... I think that made them all the more meaningful for him. Atsushi saying those words meant signing a death sentence for Akutagawa.

They fight together against Fitzgerald and I like to think Akutagawa found it a particularly romantic experience. He's fought alone his whole life, it must have evoked a warm feeling in him. He falls harder.

Now, Akutagawa loving Atsushi doesn't mean he will accept he loves Atsushi. I mean, it's Akutagawa, he's bsd's most stubborn character, and on top of that hating Atsushi is his main drive– he's definitely going to spend ages in denial. He'll meet Atsushi again looking all gloomy one day and he'll be like “Oh shit what's up with that sad puppy face. Oh shit. I guess I'm not fighting Jinko today because.................. Defeating an enemy while he's unhappy will earn me no honour. Yeah, that makes perfect sense. It's not that I like him or anything”.

The Cannibalism events happen; Akutagawa and Atsushi beat up some more people, share some more heartfelt moments. Convincing himself that he doesn't like Atsushi is getting harder by day for Akutagawa, and that perhaps makes him the most hostile he's ever been to Atsushi; but he also is in the most harmless way anyone can be hostile. He keeps threatening Atsushi, but he never follows up to his words. Atsushi insults him in the most hurtful way, and he just kinda lets him. He tries to leave Atsushi behind; he turns back to see if Atsushi is tagging along. In the mines, Atsushi is endlessly cruel to Akutagawa, but that's really nothing new; what's new is Atsushi saving his life, Atsushi showing compassion to him, Atsushi wearing Rashomon. What's new is that now he understands Atsushi a little better. And now he's back home with new vivid images of Atsushi in his mind and a freaking self-sabotaging deal he had no reason to accept, and he really can't keep pretending he doesn't love Atsushi anymore.

There's a long narrative break between Akutagawa's Cannibalism appearance and his next appearence. Thirty chapters pass. I like to interpret this long pause as a moment of self-reflection and change for Akutagawa: he finally admitted to himself that he loves Atsushi; he knows that Atsushi doesn't love him back. He stopped killing. He started revalutating his life choices. He knows he doesn't have much left to live. He starts spending more time with his family– maybe even with his coworkers. And he goes to meet Dazai when he calls, and Dazai tells him that he will save Atsushi and he knows the reason why, and Akutagawa knows the reason. And he dies to save Atsushi because he loves him, and it doesn't matter that Atsushi doesn't love him back, what matters is that he does and that his life is worth dying for.

1. I mean. maybe it is arguable. I warmed up to the idea a little more than what I could have said six months ago. But it's still only remotely possible.

last twilight e3 thoughts feelings etc

so in the past ive watched the episodes and digested them and come back and rewatched to put together my thoughts but im kinda crunched for time today and have a mountain of work to do sooo i'm just gonna do this in one sitting and i'm so sorry if it's not as good or as coherent as what i usually deliver aaa. it's also going to be a bit longer than normal probably but i'll try to cut down on stuff that seems unnecessary or maybe just too obvious to comment on.

OH ITS STILL REALLY LONG EVEN WITH EDITING I'M SO SORRY.

oh them being playful with each other is everything to me. oh my god and Mhok learned, he listened to Porjai and he learned to organize and clean and do things with Day as an active participant so he knows where everything is and is taking control of his own life. oh we're only 3 minutes in and i'm emotional, okay.

i do love that we get to see the way Day has isolated himself and that while his family haven't helped there's also a large part of it that is his doing. ive said it before but when you're newly disabled it can be so so easy to isolate yourself. hell, i've been diagnosed for almost 10 years and i still do it from time to time as my condition worsens because it's hard. there are so many questions you have to answer, there's the anxiety of not knowing if people are going to be accommodating to your needs, and sometimes it takes twice or even three times the energy it used to take before because every action is a little harder now. it can be terrifying to put yourself out there again and you will lose friends in the process. there will be people that don't understand, that find you to be an inconvenience, that won't make accommodations for you, and it will hurt every time but saying goodbye to those people is always ultimately for the better - but it doesn't make it hurt less. as much as i'd love the realism of it, i hope we don't have to see Day go through that.

Day's story about his friend is interesting, too. he says he doesn't want to be pitied by his friends but the thing is. they just did that, they accommodated their friend, and from the sound of it they did it without judgement. so why couldn't it be the same for him? it just shows more of his anxiety and his fear.

"once i'm ready you'll be the first to get my invitation card." Porjai and Mhok's friendship means so so fucking much to me.

"i felt like my life was worthless. all i saw in people's eyes was insult."

screaming. crying. throwing up. i don't need to say anything about this but i thought you all should know it made me ill.

here's the thing, my best friend and i dated in high school, we were 16 and fucking stupid and toxic and our home lives were shit and we took it out on each other and we made each other fucking miserable by the end of things. we didn't talk again for over five years. it took time to come back together, to heal and accept our own faults in what went wrong. we stumbled here and there as we came back together but now? almost 10 years later i don't know what i'd do without him. that's my platonic soulmate, that's the one person besides my husband i can share anything with. fuck, he knows more about my life than my husband does because he was there to see me at my worst, at the scariest point in my life where i almost wasn't around anymore to see tomorrow. that kind of friendship is so fucking special, i cannot even properly put it into words, and for Mhok to keep that? to have that with Porjai? i'm so fucking glad he has that. i'm so glad he got to keep his platonic soulmate.

small aside, i love that Mhok consistently announces himself to Day. it's a little action but it's so considerate. he's honestly doing such an incredible job.

Day puts his sunglasses on like armor; like they can shield him from the judging stares or looks of pity he can't see. maybe someday he won't need them, not because his heart has hardened to take the blows, but maybe because he knows Mhok is by his side. because remember - it's the way they look at us.

"i heard you wanted to take time off and focus on badminton" Night i'm going to drown you in your own toilet. this is just furthering my thoughts from episode 2 that Night is ashamed of his brother and his condition, or perhaps that the family is trying to hide his condition for some fucking stupid reason.

the bravery it took Day to come here and admit whats happening to his is huge, but i'm also in love with the admissions admin saying sure, you can have time off, but you're not allowed to quit. you're not allowed to give up on yourself.

"we must live with hope, Day" and that's it. you have to. you just have to. every day is going to be so hard and so much, you'll have good and bad days, but at least in all those days you'll have hope. and maybe someday that hope won't be for new eyes. maybe that hope will turn into acceptance, into determination, into pride at what you've accomplished in spite of it all. in my opinion, hope is an amazing fuel but it's not sustainable, it's just a vehicle to get you to where you need to be.

Mhok asking a blind man for a tour, oh fuck fuck fuckfuckufkcufk-- Mhok essentially saying show me your world exactly as you remember it, let me in. see how things have changed and how they've remained the same and do it with me by your side.

THE WAY MHOK SHIELDS HIM AT THE LIBRARY. DAY DOESN'T NEED TO WEAR HIS SUNGLASSES LIKE ARMOR BECAUSE MHOK IS BY HIS SIDE AS HIS SHIELD. chewing my own arm off brb.

"and you also have me. nothing to be afraid of" because i will always shield you, i will always protect you, i will stand by your side AAAA--

on part 3/4 now, i promise i'll shut the fuck up soon. if you've read this far pls take this as a smooch checkpoint, i'm giving you a little forehead smooch. have you had any water today? taken your meds? relax your shoulders, unclench your jaw.

ok back to it - Mhok continuously having Day make his own selections in these various machines. Day's fate is in his hands, he can do these things himself, but Mhok will be there with him the whole way.

"my eyes don't work well but my legs do just fine." this is such a massive leap from the man that wouldn't even leave his bedroom, from the man that was suffocating in his environment. Day is no longer a dying man, a shambling corpse. he is an active participant in his own life again.

"stay close to me, that's all i need" bitch i'm gonna throw up, you can't just hit me with that after that's all i've been saying this whole time what the fuck.

OH FUCK ME. okay. alright. hang on. so when they enter the shop Mhok describes it to Day, explains where the jeans are, where the shirts are, asks him what to do and what he wants to take a look at. this is a direct antithesis of Night in episode 1 asking where Day was going to wait for him, where he could leave him so he could get his shit done. Day isn't being asked to wait, to just sit idle while life passes him by, he's being asked what he wants to do, where he wants to go, what he wants to see. FUUUUUCK. and knowing Mhok is doing this because Day expressed that he liked dressing nicely? how the fuck am i supposed to just go to my job like a normal person after this episode.

wow the shirt buttoning scene just made me so mentally ill. right now, Mhok is doing his job. he's helping Day get dressed. but someday? someday this could be Mhok dressing Day not because he needs him to help but simply because Mhok likes doing to for Day. there's the sensuality of caring for your partner, of running your hands over the planes of their shoulders, of skimming your fingers down their chest to pluck every button. it's an exploration and a declaration of love. if we get this again in a future scene and it's something like that please remember me fondly because i will perish.

at the bookstore Mhok recognizing Day doesn't want to wait, but Day has become so accustomed to the other people in his life telling him what to do that he falls back into that behavior - but Mhok doesn't let him. he prioritizes Day's needs and desires, even if it's something as little as finding a book, without being asked.

THE LAST PAGE IS MISSING.

(because one can't see his future and the other can't see in the future, but also because they'll make their own ending, they'll face that when they get there, but they'll do it together -- what if i lost my shit completely of it?)

when Mhok leaves Day to get him a drink the camera is focused on Day and the clear warring emotions on his face but if you look in the background Mhok hesitates, he stops and turns a few times to look at day. he's reluctant to leave him and worried. Mhok worries so much but it's always so understated or in the background, covered by the emotions of others he values above himself. (or overlooked because of 'what type of person he is')

while its anxiety inducing i do enjoy this regression of behavior because adapting to a new life is hard. you will regress, you will stumble, you will fall into old habits or sometimes old fears will return. its what you do after that that is important. the one thing i hope doesn't happen is i hope this doesn't cause a rift with Porjai. i think Mhok needs her right now, maybe not forever, but definitely right now.

HE PUT ON THE FUCKING SHIRT. THE FUCKING SHIRT DAY COULD SEE FROM MARS. OH MY GOD. i know this doesn't need to be commented on, i know it's obvious, but FUUUUCK.

Day's mom trying to weaponize Mhok's past and Mhok taking the ammunition from her hands and telling Day himself. the acceptance of the past and the determination to move on and grow from it. Day's refusal to let the past repeat itself with a new caretaker. whoo boy.

and again Day wants to see Mhok, because even bruised and battered Mhok is worth seeing.

if the last episode ends with "sweet dreams/good night" i will be burying myself alive, thanks.

tagging @benkaaoi and @callipigio as requested (if you want to be added to my last twilight meta tag list just let me know!)

THE PINK SHIRT RUINING HIS BAD BOY IMAGE BECAUSE IT IS BEING RUINED. HE'S MOVING ON, HE'S GROWING, HE'S BECOMING A NEW PERSON. FUCK OFF.

i'm so so sorry this was so long, every episode makes me feel more and more things and makes me analyze shit more and more.

What allegories (alcoholism, classism, social pressure/repression etc) do you prefer reading into The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde and what are your personal headcanons?

MAJOR SPOILERS TO ANYONE WHO HAS YET TO READ THE NOVELLA (Even though it's old as hell 💀💔)

When reading it, initially, definitely got a LOT of strong allegories for drug/substance use/abuse, which was definitely something fascinating, as we've seen it happen around us a lot of our life, and based on what we know, it really did fit a lot on how Jekyll acted during the story

However, the take of it being about things such as being transgender/homosexual, or social norms, or even the stigma on how neurotypical allistic people perceive neurodivergent (this is including everything besides ADHD, too, as I think people tend to forget any mental illness is part of neurodivergence, and not just ADHD) autistic people as "bad" or "savage" or all of these ableist stereotypes is a fascinating take we adore too, as it resonates with us a lot harder than substance use and addiction

Yet, I do truly believe the strongest and most accurate of the themes in the novella are in fact the ones referencing the aforementioned substance use/addiction/abuse, solely for the fact that Jekyll is able to recognize that this would be something he can control (unlike the other things we've mentioned) had he not began this, and that this thing he'd placed upon himself had actually caused severe damaged to all around him (not to mention himself)

Yet, since it snow balled so far that he has, essentially lost all control, it results, in the end, with him commiting suicide via overdose in hopes of preventing more damage (this could also be seen as him desperately needing a high that he ends up killing himself, although, that would be far different from what the text actually says)

To us, it just makes more sense this is the message than the other ones, though they're all fascinating takes

As for headcanons, I personally headcanon Jekyll as Aroace spec and gay, Hyde as Aroace entirely, Utterson as gay, and Lanyon and Poole as either either token straights or bisexuals

Honestly, kinda forgot the rest of the cast 💀

One thing that we don't really consider a headcanon, since it's not the message of the text at all, though something we just like, because it gives us comfort and a fraction of representation we don't have, is that Jekyll/Hyde are part of an OSDD-1B sys, and that the drug never really did anything, besides trigger out Hyde (and allow alternation of his body), who'd been there the entire time, and Jekyll just had no idea, because he had no memory of any sort of vivid trauma (courtesy of Hyde)

Also like to think Hyde isn't evil, because let's be honest... And old man and a young girl??? Those are like... The two most annoying types of people to deal with... Probably deserved it, dude /sat

I'd stamp them near or to death, too, dude... /J

But, yeah, would never truly say that they ARE an OSDD-1B system, since it's just not canon, but in my personal AU or whatever you wanna call it, they're a good representation system

Oh, also, Hyde is definitely a cry baby, that dude cries himself to sleep after losing anything ever, or dealing with the slightest insult, dude has a GLASS ego...

Some could even say that of a scientist's... /J /ref

…that Whitney post was just beautiful despite that tragic past.

I think the worse part about this: when weiss came back again she insulted, look down on Whitney and worse of all pointed a sword at him. (A gun sword where god forbid it goes off: accidental or worse)

Honestly I truly hated how Whitney was supposed to give that hug to weiss despite weiss not earning it.

Whitney should had pushed her away or even slapped her. (Maybe I am too harsh but you don’t get to do all these awful actions and expect me to be civilized with you)

If anything those scenes made me hate weiss, winter and especially willow for their actions.

I'm pretty sure I've made this joke before but -

Because, like, we get the set-up for a reconciliation where Weiss recognizes why Whitley would be angry with her and take that chance to reach out to him with her scene with Willow, but then the next time she sees him, she threatens and scolds him, treating him like a child. Then the next scene after that is her acting like she forgives him and hugging him and all is well, and that's all well and good on her end since we've never seen Whitley do anything but be a brat so it's easy for her to forgive him, but then what about Whitley?? Like - you still left him behind, multiple times, and until this very moment when he does something genuinely kind and decent for a friend he has no reason to give a shit about, specifically saying he's not doing it for you, you decide that that's the end of it? And then Whitley's anger just vanishes and it's all good? That's bullshit.

Whitley still has every right to be upset and angry when nothing on his end of the emotional situation was concluded. Weiss never talked about anything with him or acted like she did anything wrong - and let me be clear, leaving an abusive environment was not wrong for her to do, but that doesn't mean it didn't still hurt Whitley - or even apologize for forcing her way in and threatening him with her weapon. Weiss does nothing with the insight Willow gives her and does nothing to earn any sort of goodwill on Whitley's part, but because Weiss has chosen to forgive him, Whitley just has to accept it I guess because we can't have anyone actually remember their motivations when it's time for them to join the good guy squad. Doesn't matter how angry you might have been about being left behind in a neglectful and abusive environment, boy, your sister has forgiven you for the sin of being pissy with her, so it's all in the past now! I'd rant more, but I've actually got an entire breakdown on these scenes here, so, uh, check it out if you're interested, lol.

I... can't see Whitley actually slapping anyone, it doesn't seem his style, but he sure as hell looked very uncomfortable to be hugged by Weiss until he was forced to accept it!

And God, Willow. The fact that she's well aware of what she's done with regard to raising Whitley but then just... doesn't seem to care until he's almost killed? Miss me with hasty redemption - you abandoned your children for years, abandoned your son for the past day or two, and suddenly because you saved his life it's all okay? No. It's not. And the fact that Whitley is made to just smile and nod is frankly a bit sickening.

(Thank you, though! Just kinda wanted to put into perspective how young Whitley was when all of this was going down. Like I said in the post, I do personally lean more towards him being 15 or 16, the idea of him being 12 when Weiss leaves for Beacon just feels wrong, but with how vague the timeline and their ages are, Whitley being 5 when their family falls apart for good is a very real and very tragic possibility.)

One thing I found particularly interesting in Final Horizon is that in one conversation with Amy, the doctor seems to express sympathy for the remnants of the Ancient's consciousness that only come out at night due to their fear of The End even many years after their extinction. I dunno, it adds dimension to his character IMO that even though he's an awful person through and through, he's still capable of at least expressing some sympathy towards others.

I don't mind if this was the intention with it or if what I'm personally hearing it as was for reasons I'll explain in a moment buuut- I honestly kinda can't really hear it as being genuine sympathy. His tone and the little "hmph!" before saying it sounds slightly amused almost. I keep trying to unhear it and read it as sympathy but I can't.

Putting with sound here to see if anyone else can see what I mean with that in mind:

That's not just me saying this out of wishful thinking or anything as like I said, I don't mind if that wasn't that the intention. He absolutely has low empathy from all I've observed but that doesn't mean he couldn't ever have any at all in any situation ever hypothetically, so I wouldn't be mad if it was the intention for him to feel slight sympathy.

Though I think it'd be a liiittle ooc in this specific way as he's never given a shit about anything bad happening to anyone before, so why would this be the time and way? It'd be a strange way to suddenly throw in now this way after many opportunities before. Cute little creatures don't make him care and feel bad, otherwise he would've felt that way about those he captures and uses in robots.

But it doesn't sound like he genuinely feels really bad for them exactly to me. His tone and his "hmph!" makes it sound like he's more a little amused and says it with a lilt, that was my first impression and I can't unhear it. With subtitles alone, you can imagine a sadder tone more along the lines of what Sonic and co express when saying such things but that isn't what it sounds like from him in comparison. That's why it didn't raise any brows at all when I first heard it.

Going by tone, I'd say the delivery on the memo where he acknowledged The Ancients dying out sounded more like they could've set it up for him feeling sympathy as his tone would've been more appropriate. But instead three memos after, he's just like "Sure it wiped them out but I could handle The End because I'm just built different I'm a genius!" -

He basically brushes off the severity of the tragedy and insults their skill and intelligence with that, like they just needed to get good like him, so he clearly wasn't actually sympathetic then either.

BUT if he somehow was even just a little bit sympathetic for even a second, it would be an even more of a deliberate fully aware choice of his to still be an asshole about it like that, so that would just make him worse and would mean he has a very low amount if any at all to still be able to do that. And that would potentially make him even more dangerous and threatening if he had the emotional intelligence to feel that sympathy, yet he still chooses to be a jerk about them dying out and still choosing to be horrible person. So that's why it's good and funny either way to me lol

But it's not like he changes in tone when talking to Amy like he's just pretending not to care about them or something, if he was feeling sympathy then I don't think he'd even say that in front of her at all. And especially because in the memos he made it even obvious that he doesn't feel sympathy for The Ancients getting wiped out and still chooses to be a dick about it a few memos later- and that's when he's alone speaking to himself and could've been honest and open.

So I'm currently interpreting it as an example of his low empathy shown through a way where he's saying something that could be sympathetic coming from anyone else with the feeling and tone, but he just doesn't have it to match the words he's saying and it just seems detached. Since usually it's through him blatantly stating he doesn't care about something or brushing something off as insignificant. The latter is there a bit by how it sounds like he's bemused and detached but the words don't match like with the common former with him.

But the way it sounds a little amused and attached just almost loops back around to his cruelty because while he doesn't particularly revel in it, him sounding even slightly amused at the idea of them still being in hiding in fear... and how he talked about how he could've handled it better than the ancients... well. XD That kind of makes it seem almost the opposite of sympathetic to me. Not amusement to the point of it being another case of his sadism, but rather just an example of him being a lot more detached and a little apathetic really.

To put it simply, the vibe I'm personally getting is that it's like he's just going "ha! funny how it's like it's just happened and they still hide in fear of what wiped them out." And that alone is far from "he's actually showing sympathy towards something" to me. But as I said, even if that was the intention, it's not a bother to me and I'm willing to entertain it for how it could make him even more dangerous for that (though he absolutely is enough already if not of course). But I can't say I can hear it as being a moment of genuine heartfelt sympathy from him.

ur post abt leon with chubby reader is so true 😭

like, bless him, i'd lose my shit if he were real but i feel like he's that type of person i'd avoid being in contact with 😭😭 like the type that just makes you insecure for no reason, like u're always on guard on whether he'd insult u or something IDK bc i mean look at him, i feel like not only does he strictly only date hot blondes, but like he can't handle being in the same proximity as someone 'unattractive' or whatever (ok maybe im referencing this from ur fic but it IS kinda accurate 😭)

like, you know when ur chubby but hes still bigger than u, but if ur not like those skinny, tiny, petite girls, its still unacceptable even if hes literally still twice as big as u 😭😭😭

OK SORRY FOR YAPPING

honestly like omg i don’t even think he’s that bad? like he probably dgaf he just. would say tone deaf stuff and make you upset ESP DI LEON he’s like a grabber and doesn’t get why grabbing you is like so. upsetting to you LMFAOOO he’s like what but I like it it’s cute :(

Before seeing that old man I always thought my type is refined, classy older gentleman like Colin Firth(He's a major character in that movie series and I did fawn over him) but????

HIM???

He makes my mouth water for real

You see for another of my major fictional man needs me to be the bigger person around him, like cheering him up and always casting positive energy to balance out the negatives he has... Essentially being like an older sister figure looking after someone, it could get tiring at times.

But I can be the bratty little girl all I want with this old, perverted man (he is a pervert in the movie so this is not a baseless insult)

(Also I am frantically scribbling down your *ideas* on that man for my self-indulgent fic that I'm drafting)

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There's always going to be "THE ONE" that completely revamps your taste and leaves you questioning your life.

Honestly, that's the best thing though!! Getting to experience the duality of your personality through fictional characters. One bringing out your more nurturing side. The other makes you want to misbehave (and crave punishment). It really is fascinating how we not only learn so much about ourselves through media but discover/hone parts of ourselves we never thought we had.

Sorry, that kinda got philosophical there lol.

But yeah!! YOU GO GIRL give that old perv a run for his money!! Make his blood boil and give him unneeded stressors in his life!! Every old man deserves a bratty girl to make his life a living hell!!

Tag me when you write it!! I'd love to read it!! I'm unfamiliar with his character but if it's general ideas for older men/younger women that you need then…

leaving lipstick kisses all over him!! Thank him walking outside with those markings still there.

Getting your hair pulled from behind, while he whispers just the most degrading, filthy thing in your ear. Why does it feel like he can read your mind?

He sees past your physical form. He sees the springy soul trapped within, whether yet still so juvenile. He feeds off your exuberance, longing for a time he felt the same way.

this is a classic but…tying your hands with his belt or tie. Or even using his tie as a gag.

Sleeping in his oversized shirts and waking up to him making breakfast.

feeling so insignificant in this world. Feeling like time is ticking too fast and knowing that losing each other is enviable. Yet finding comfort in each other's arms for mere feeble fleeting seconds.

Hope these kinda help darling!!

hello!! i saw your requests were open so I wanted to go send this one in to you, how’s today going? I’m kinda bored rn so this is why I’m sending this one in, but here i go (:

Could I request Any SallyFace Characters(also can you also include Sal Fisher?) with a S/O who has a AUBREY personality from Omori

Ok so far I’ve gotten for you is that she can be clumsy at times, a tad emotional when things go south, can be hard in herself at times, one article says she can be short tempered and hostile & she also carry’s a bat around with her that had nails in it whenever she’s going into a fight

this is what she looks like⬇️

that’s it!! I’ll be happy if I need to explain anything to you, Female (or GN!) Pronouns pretty please (: and have an amazing day :D

Thank you! I hope you also have an amazing day :) (Omg thank you so much for specifying her personality)

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I was thinking about doing Ashley as well but decided not to since I would end up messing up-

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Also I didn't realize until after I'd finished this that I don't think the reader is supposed to generally carry a bat around- apologies 😭

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Requests: Open

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Larry and Sal with a Fem! S/O who is like Aubrey from Omori

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Sal Fisher

🎭He always thought you personality was unique

🎭Which was also something that made him fall in love with you

🎭He always keeps and eye on you when you're doing something potentially dangerous (such as using the stove or something like that) since he knows you could burn yourself

🎭Honestly he had no issues at all with you carrying a bat around, it makes you both stand out now

🎭He panicked once when you charged at someone with your bat when someone insulted him-

🎭Basically he just held you back so you wouldn't get yourself into trouble

🎭He tries to encourage you when you start being hard on yourself, making sure you take breaks every now and then.

🎭He's always there for you when you start feeling down as well, reassuring you that you're not alone.

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Larry Johnson

🎸Larry would find it "dope" or "rad" that you have a bat with you

🎸If you're feeling angry, he lets you strum on his guitar as hard as you want (as long as you don't break it lmao)

🎸Bro probably finds it hot when you're mad

🎸(If it's something serious then he wouldn't)

🎸Like Sal he also tries his best to encourage you but he probably isn't the best at those types of things

🎸If you end up accidentally falling or something he panics-

🎸He's probably a good person to vent to if you need to, as he's a good listener.

🎸Also makes sure you take breaks sometimes, pulling you away from work and has you sit down with him and do something more relaxing.

Hi Lele ! Hope you’re doing good <3 and yeah shippers didn’t get the fact that he have a big platform and mistranslating things ( not the first time ) just to satisfy a ship is kinda harmful when the op didn’t said that, in that context.

Yes he has a second account but he still has a huge number of followers and he continues to mistranslate what a staff or even the mengaka says just for his ship and to please people who love this ship. They don't realize that it changes a context of a lot of things just because it's poorly translated.

and i talked to s-san he had to deleted his tweet bc those fans where attacking him just bc he said that it’s dangerous when you mistranslate things for a ship. which is right.

And the thing that is mind blowing is when for example, if someone says satoru and suguru are besties, they directly say that you are h^mophobic! And says if it were a ship with a female they would never say that! But I remember in SNK half of the fanbase in 2021 was against the relationship of mikasa and eren while isayama-sensei gave more details in the manga about their relationships than gojo and geto. hell even historia and ymir which is f/f were more accepted bc they had more details that they love each other in a romantic way than gojo and geto. for me, who experienced the same with my best friend in the sense that she was my first friend and 15 years later we lost sight of each other bc of an argument. These fans needs to know that there are friendly soulmates and tbh it's a thousand times better than romantics one lol. and if like i want to tweet about it i’m like hell no I don't want to be harassed or insulted.

For me Akutami sensei managed to make their friendship magnificent and I think many recognized themselves in their, myself include.

The worst thing is that these same fans tell you that you don't read the manga or translations ???????? I don't know if Akutami sensei gave them another manga to read but in each panels he wrote best friends clearly ! And when you ask them out of curiosity to show you the translations ? well, it's downright taken out of context and even false and when you tell them that, they insult you too.

i love jjk, love the relation between gojo and geto but i really really hope the manga end this year bc the amount of toxicity is mind blowing.

that’s why i think anon said about changing the whole plot of their relation bc tbh with you i’ll not be chocked if gege change it to satisfy this ship. i really hope japanese fans are not toxic like this. and gege will not change it.

and i’m so sorry if it was long :/ i really hope your have a wonderful day <3

Hshs, hello, anon!

To be honest, that is the same wish I have; for the manga to end quickly. I hope gege stuck in his way and end the manga sooner than later. I'd hate if he drags the story more and more. The longer the story goes, the more my braincells go from all the drama :")

Honestly I really don't have any problem with Gojou and Getou's relationship, as I said before in this ask. I honestly appreciate how gege draws their canonical relationship but precisely because of that, I can't see them as a ship. However, just like you, my vexation over this particular ship comes from the shippers. I know in any fandom there'll be that some ships where the fans are very loud, but at least I hope akutami-sensei doesn't see this... mess. I will be so embarrassed as a fellow fan if he has to see this uncivilized behavior over a ship.

Although the japanese fandom does have their share of toxicity, I can say that it's very rare for ship fans to attack others. Shame them, probably, lol, if they tag things wrongly. But at least I can find solace from the sideline, unlike the other fandom which cause me headache from just watching them.

FOR @georgie-abhrams

LOCATION: Her place.

Growing up around addicts leaves an unfading scar on anyone who's had to do it. Some would die trying to save the person they love, despite the fact they didn't care to save themselves. And others eventually learn to let go, and let learn. It was kinda fucked up, that that was the way Liam started seeing Georgia. It wasn't like she was anything like his parents, in fact, she couldn't be further from them if she tried. But there was something about her decision making that had wore him down. A lot of years were spent picking up her pieces, and while he never thought twice about it, since he did love the spoiled blonde princess; it became clear that that was going to be his role in her life for the rest of his. The guy hanging out to pick up the pieces of whatever shit storm she threw herself in for that moment. It started getting worse when he began to realize he could be that guy for her. Liam wasn't sure where platonic ceased when it came to the blonde, but he didn't particularly care for it. If that wasn't bad enough, to add insult to injury, he also started to realize her father was right. This wasn't his world, and what little place he tried to shove himself into was always going to be that; little, unappreciated, hopeless. Normally he didn't care that much about social differences, but even he'd be lying if he said they didn't sneak up on you after awhile. He glanced down at the box in his hand, a mixture of stuff resided within it. Stuff she's given him, stuff she left, pictures, memorabilia from shit they did together. How the fuck he ended up with a whole box full of this shit; even he didn't know. Apparently he was more sentimental then he realized, which honestly-- just pissed him off more. He had a few different ideas as to how approach this. He could burn the shit, to be honest, that sounded the most fun. He could toss it. Or he could give it back, and have her do whatever the hell she wanted to do with it. None of those options sounded like something he cared to do, but he figured the most mature one would be to give it back. And to let her know that he was placing space in between them, instead of just ghosting her princess ass. Cutting the grace out, he pounded on her door, and waited for it to open. Once it did, he shoved the box out at her, "Normally, I'd set the shit on fire, but its been well over a decade, and I figured you deserve more than a burning box on your door step." No shit.

UNTITLED HEADCANON QUESTIONS.

@mechahero: What would make your muse consider someone as their enemy?

honestly ... if you Exist in a way that bothers him. but in more classic terms of an "enemy", harming him or anyone he cares about or anything he stands for is enough to make him think of someone as an enemy. being part of the military, he has a kinda. strict perception on who and what is The Enemy in militaristic terms, but on a personal level, yeah, anything that typically harms him or those he cares about will make you an enemy to him.

he considers big boss, eva, and revolver ocelot to be his only really true enemies for their parts in volgin's death. hell hath no fury than a feminine boy scorned

What would be your muse's reaction to criticism?

depends on a lot of factors ; who it's coming from, how he's feeling at the time. for the most part, he can brush it off without much of a care -- he does get annoyed, but more at the audacity of someone daring to criticise him than anything they actually say. he has a somewhat stable sense of self esteem due to his position as a major, but if he's not doing particularly well, it's more likely to hit him harder. any insults to his appearance tend to hurt him too, and any of those ones that are like ykno. a deeply cutting and revealing psychological reading. he hates that shit. unlikely he'll get upset, at least in front of others, but he will get angry because he does NOT enjoy being psychoanalysed like that.

@bladeinstinct: Does your muse have a morning routine after waking up, a night routine before going to sleep, or both? Describe it. / YEAH????

YES TO BOTH BECAUSE HES SO ANNOYING &lt;;/3

morning routine starts with him taking far too long to get out of bed because he's sleepy and comfortable. and lazy. but when he finally does, he probably brushes his teeth, has a shower, dries and brushes his hair which takes the longest time because he brushes his hair 100 times, does his gay little skincare routine ( which isn't much more than like cleanser and moisturiser because that's how it was in the 60s, ) puts on the small amount of makeup he wears, gets dressed, and then he has breakfast probably at like literally 11:59 because that's how long it takes him to get up. he's so silly

his night routine is probably more variable ; he does his rounds in the evening before heading to him and volgin's room, which is the only really consistent part, but it differs from that point on depending on whether or not the colonel is there. he is a busy man, after all. so raikov's night routine either starts with some much-needed intimacy, or with him whining and huffing and being lonely because he has the separation anxiety of an oupy dog. if volgin is away from groznyj grad at the time, i'd imagine they'd call each other to talk before bed and ivan hates having to say goodbye because he's dependent like that ^-^ he has a very vague routine of eating, cleaning his makeup off, and getting undressed before bed ; but oftentimes he ends up falling asleep without much else, whether it be from exertion or exhaustion. though when volgin isn't there, it's a lot harder for him to fall asleep and stay asleep. he passes the time by reading :3

i have conveniently omitted the amount of hardcore electro sex from his routines because it would turn this ask meme into a novel but his night routine w/ volgin is genuinely like. has sex. has sex. has sex. has sex. reads a book for 5 minutes (during sex). has sex. falls asleep. wakes up in the middle of the night to scrounge for food like an animal. has sex. goes to sleep

What is your muse's favorite art medium, if they have one? Why?

depends on what you'd define as an art medium ! in terms of like traditional art i'd imagine he wouldn't be too fussed about any of them, but he seems like the type to enjoy oil paintings and watercolours the most. marble sculptures, too, and art through fashion are things he'd be super interested in as well. the latter because... look at him. the rest because they seem very ethereal and dreamlike, almost fairytale, and we all know he loves those.

in a more general sense though, his favourite art medium would be dance, specifically ballet. he was exceptionally drawn to it as a child, particularly the way of how stories and emotions are expressed through the body alone. the amount of physical work that goes into it, the literal blood, sweat and tears of it all, is something that only deepens its meaning to him. there's something very sacrificial about it.

oh, and torture, of course. blades and chains and wire and such. but like... obviously

I've met some really rude people who've said Aidan is ugly/gross/old/looks like a pedo and questioned my taste in men. How do you stand up to those types of people?

Honestly, I've never had anyone say anything like that to me about Aidan. Most of the people I know in my real life actually think he's very handsome.

Just out of curiosity, how old are you and your friend group or the people saying these things? Because this sounds like something children would say. Infantile even for teenagers too, to be honest. My 17-year-old son thinks Aidan is very cute and attractive. I'm not saying this to insult your age, obviously you have very good taste indeed, but these people saying this shit to you are infants

I can tell you what I WOULD say if someone did say this shit to me. I would very calmly, with an expression that says their opinion is beneath me and not worthy of even slight irritation, tell them they're the ones with shit taste in men. Period. My taste is superior in every way, and it's not my fault that they have the taste of children and can't see beauty when it's plainly right in front of them. And I'm not exaggerating. Ask my sister @papa-evershed . I DO see Aidan as superior in every way, and I won't waste my breadth listening to a little idiot who obviously needs bifocals. I haven't had people say anything like this to my face, but I have ran into a few that kinda scrunch their nose and clearly think I'm nuts, and I still act like my taste is superior and that they're the ones who have shit taste in men.

They're saying this to get a rise out of you, and if they keep doing it, then it's probably because they've seen that it bothers you. So you don't let them bother you. You have to make them believe that YOU believe that your taste is more refined and that they are absolutely insane and inferior for not seeing it. If that doesn't get them to stop then they're trolls and I'd just ignore them. The best way to get a troll to stop is not to reply to them. Not to acknowledge that they've spoken at all.

And whoever is calling him a pedo very clearly can't separate fiction from reality and is associating Aidan with Petyr.

Oh and "old" just means he knows how to properly fuck. They can keep their two-pump dumps, I'll take the old guy.

shoot forgot to ask earlier, but what does despair kaito do? and what do maki and him do together? (honestly just fishing for more maki info, but thought i'd ask about kaito too)

Huzzah someone finally asked about Kaito! I designed him the same night I did Maki, but it didn’t feel right to just shove him into her bit, and no one’s asked about him since lol.

Kaitos personality would stay largely the same, he’d be upbeat, encouraging, and happy, but some of the pregame personality would bleed through in him wanting to just kill as many people as he possibly could, thus spreading despair to others and himself!

A lot of his relationships with the other v3 kiddos would likely stay the same too, he’d still consider Suichi and Maki his sidekicks (Maki likely closer to a partner, they spend the most time together), him and Kaede are like despair cheerleaders for the rest of the remnants lol, and he’d definitely still butt heads with Kokichi.

Those two have a little bit different of a dynamic, because thanks to the despair they’re both equally invested in irritating and being a dick to the other, so it’s less just ‘Kokichi annoys Kaito for shits and giggles’ and more ‘Kaito and Kokichi are in a constant back and forth game of trading insults and pranks between one another’. Miu helped facilitate one time they had a giant robot battle that leveled a large metropolitan area. The collateral damage was insane (and the main point of the activity) and both boys had a great time.

I’m trying so desperately to pin down what Kaito and Maki’s relationship would be like lol, I know they’re dating as much as anyone in despair can be. But the actual dynamic is alluding me. I think something fairly Bonnie and Clyde like? They’d probably be kinda mean to each other, despair and all that, but I don’t think there’d be too much physical violence between the two of them. Neither of them likes seeing the other upset or in pain, but because of the despair I think they’d constantly be egging each other on to do worse and worse things.

Kaito! He’s a hero right? Well all good heroes need a suit! And maybe if the suit he’s parading around in is the goofiest thing I could think of, well that embarrassment will turn to despair really quickly lol.

It’s clear from the everything about Kaito that he wants to be seen as this super cool and brave leader, so having to wear an outfit that just makes him seem ridiculous (the underwear on the outside really seals the deal) would give him a lot of despair from being the butt of the joke.

Honestly I just went ham giving him the most ridiculous golden age of comics spandex super suit possible. All the stars glow in the dark too so he’s definitely not great on stealth mission (tbh he wouldn’t be good on those anyway this man is Loud)