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calkale · 5 months
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guys ngl. i am at my limit
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stupidnaturals · 1 year
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#GAH hate not knowing how ppl feel about me#bc i used to be SUPER close friends w this person like they were ~25% of th reason i came back to my uni town after moving away last summer#and i keep texting them like ' hey we should meet up sometime! ' and they respond ' omg YES 100% i have SO much i need to catch you up on !#unfortunately i am out of town every single day. also so busy. '#and like yeah okay college very busy life very crazy. but how are you out of town every single day and also why have you NEVER reached out#and i saw them in person at target and they seemed genuinely pleased to see me! and also said something like#' we gotta hang out i have so much to tell you!! *ill* message *you* ' in a way that seemed to convey guilt at ^^ all that#but then how in the WORLD do you happen to be driving out of town immediately after the one event i know we'll both be going to???#and also casually gracing over the fact i also mentioned getting dinner beforehand??#also i dont know any reason they wouldnt like me unless its one of those ' im autistic and didnt notice you getting fed up w me '#or if theyre just actually that busy or too anxious to see people or anxious to reach out or fucking whatever#and like even when i saw them at target they told me a bunch of stuff that i dont tthink youd say to a random acquaintance#which if they do still like me makes sense! bc we were super duper close once! but doesnt make sense if they dislike me/want me to go away#like UGH just either ask me to hang out or say yes to a hang out or tell me to fuck off already!!!!#oh and ALSO the one time we DID have plans we didnt set an exact time but they texted me at like 11 and said ok we can hang out now until 2#or they texted me at 11 and said ' i work at 2 but i dont think thats gonna be a problem also are you okay w hanging w my roomies too '#and i know their roomies so thats fine but i was like ??? WHAT shouldnt be an issue? r you gonna call off to hang out for more than 3 hrs?#or are you gonna friend break up w me so it wont take 3 hours#anyway i was like uhhh shit we didnt set a time so im actually at a tattoo place like an hour away w my roomie?#so we rescheduled for the next day when uh oh they hung out w someone who was exposed to covid so had to cancel again!#i cant think of a single reason they wouldnt like me except that they never did but we had an activity together so they were stuck w me#and they seemed genuinely happy to see me and also seem upset declining plans but like if thats true what the FUCK is happening????#anyway this was a mile long if you e read this far i love u if you have tips feel free to reply or dm me
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virgincels · 4 months
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ok ok ok this has been sitting in my head for literally too long and now i’m under an anon to share it w u cs president kennedy my beloved 🤞
imagine if u were like . president! leon’s illegitimate daughter (this is the one for the poc readers who want president kennedy as ur father aka ME cs im projecting) as a result of him sticking his big white kennedy in another lady at a bar or party !!! n id imagine ur like . little younger than ashley and leon’s a little bitch and doesnt want a bastard child along w his actual daughter but ur mom wants to have u !!! so he doesnt wanna be a dick and is like ok . and then gives her money to never ever talk ab it again so its all hush hush
fast forward ummm reader’s in college / uni and made it into the same school ashley goes to woohoo !!! but !!! the school is super expensive (considering ashley is attending) so out of like lowk desperation readers mom contacts leon to like . ask for sooomeee money cs she doesnt wanna go broke sending her baby to school !!! ashley overhears the call or whatever n is like “omg i have a little sister and shes going to school in the area ?!? 🥺” and leon, seeing how happy ashley is, lets reader come live w them while shes at school instead of the dorms provided she pretends shes like . a niece or smth to avoid some scandal (stupid ass leon thinks thats gonna cause an issue cs hes LITERALLY fucking his daughter on the down low. not beating the accusations!!!)
reader moves in and ashley is all over her little sister !!! wants to dress her up like a doll cs she sees the state her secondhand clothes r in and how little she has !!! eventually begs leon to take them shopping so they can have a sister/daddy-daughters date !!!
at first its . tense w leon cs he didnt want another daughter around ! he has ashley ! hes doing this to make ashley happy but reader is sooo desperate for a relationship w daddy :( (think of jingle balls reader tbh i think ???) mopey whenever dad downright refuses to acknowledge her, seeing all the hugs and kisses he gives ashley . n ashley isnt dumb ! mostly ! she sees how sad reader is n is like i have an idea >:)
ashley literally like . makes leon sit in a cuck chair in the corner of her room while she fingers reader n forces her to tell leon how she feels ! and reader is literally like . sobbing and creaming all over her older sister’s fingers ab how close she wants to be w leon like he is w ashley !!! eventually like . leon gives up cs he’s already hard from seeing two girls get it on n joins them n promises to start treating reader better (n he actually does cs i want this to have a happy ending 😭)
- 🖇️ anon
oh my god anon u don’t understand how much I LOVE THIS.. I have ocs in like my original work where the rich scumbag dad kind of pays off a girl he knocked up to just shut up the baby.. and it reminds me of this cuz his other daughter is rich n spoiled like omg :3
and yeah.. he probably got ur mom a boob job and called it a day. has the money to pay her regularly but he’s a fucking disgusting deadbeat so he stops the minute u turn 18 and there’s also the fear that journalists and media will go digging and find out ab this account he’s sending money to :3 and the thing is ashley wouldn’t even care.. she would just be so happy to have another sister his wife wouldn’t even gaf.. like she doesn’t care ab leon she’s a gold digger!!! so he’s being needlessly . cruel LMFAO but he’s just so . focused on ashley just has tunnel vision for her it’s sickening !!
and he would also be pissed off. that you got into the same university as ashley? takes it sort of as a threat like.. he’s mad omg cuz he thinks you’re there to fucking expose him and ur not? ur just!! a smart cookie omg and ashley is so lovely.. she wouldn’t leave ur side whether it be on campus or at home she’s so excited to have a sister like she grew up pretty lonely? even if leon’s first priority is her he’s still a busy guy and he’s not much fun like he’s a gross old man how much fun can she have with him?
she would be so pushy ab it too.. insists that he gives you a kiss when he gives ashley a kiss! tells him to hug you and hold you when he does it to her:.. and leon’s like tweaking omg he’s usually with her as much as possible fucking her openly. sticking his hand in her panties when he wants but yk you’re there and. not exactly exposed to what they do as of now LMFAO
and ur kind of like. u half resent him? bc how could he do that to you and mom? fuck her and knock her up and then just leave her? when he has a daughter here who just gets everything at the drop of a hat and it’s not Ashley’s fault so u don’t blame her at all its just him omg but at the same time u want him so bad.. when ashley insists that he’s affectionate with u too ur like nonono! it’s ok it’s ok but :3 really you do want him to do it bc u want a dad so bad..
and omg.. big sis ashley she’s so.. she’s so pushy towards leon tbh!! like she will get what she wants from him.. OMG just. she won’t let him touch until he swears to be nice to you and he has to touch you so sweetly and get you off and fuck you while your big sister talks you through taking dads cock .. like trust she will whip him into shape
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wulvert · 1 year
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SQUINTS AT MY DRAFTS SWEATING AFTER READING UR PARAGRAPH AND REALISES IVE MADE SCARLET WORSE its fine though she can be extra deranged as a treat. she deserves it. also the "wants to leave town" part makes me feel so validated in one of my song choices in the paperteeth playlist. (this one if anyones curious https://youtu.be/MPwzFs1BiSw)
I DID GET THE "PAPERTEETH CAST ARE ALL FRIENDS HEHE" PART DOWN THOUGH!! i write them like.
[KELLY TAKING A PHOTO OF HIM AND THE ENSEMBLE] "SELFIE WITH THE BESTIES!!" [SCARLET, AVERY, AND TRISHA'S EYES ALL GLOWING LA CREATURA LIKE HOW CATS EYES DO WITH FLASH ON (example below) WHILE KELLY IS CASUALLY JUST PEACE SIGNING IN THE MIDDLE SMILING]
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i love trisha nd kelly nd avery nd scarlet so much. im so weak for the "found family"(?) trope where everyones messed up in their own ways but they have each other in the end. im also very interested in what trisha and kelly are like (their flavor of. trauma?) but that. maybe might be TOO spoilery for u to answer,,,
SCARLET CAN HAVE AN UNDERCUT IF I BELIEVE HARD ENOUGH!! tht reminds me. how does scarlet dye her hair so fast,,,i came up with the goofy headcanon all the dye she uses is like. that temporary party hair dye nd she just drenches her hair in water and its all Gone in Seconds. nd then repeat waskwkdwkdakd
miscellaneous questions!!
-did scarlet/avery/trisha/kelly all go to college at some point? not the. same one obviously. vampire hunting doesnt seem like something u need a degree for but i have a silly headcanon explanation in my head 4 my fanfiction for how kelly knows avery thats just. "avery and kelly were randomly assigned roommates in college and avery could NOT get rid of him"
-do scarlet/avery have prior relationship experience or r they both just two absolutely clueless disasters trying their best
-whatre everyones family's like!! we know a little about avery's entire family being like. #KILLVAMPIRESFOREVER #ONTHATGRIND🔥 but im curious about more like. in depth i guess?? was averys family. Good? ive been writing her like they. weren't but then i realized i actually have no idea how her family treated her. sory this turned into avery its still a general all-character question!! i m just. very normal about her. this question could be very spoilery so pls feel free 2 avoid answering!!!
NOOO its fine she can be worse! i think her avery tolerance qualifies her 4 it. reading back my paragraph i dont think i quite got across how like... abnormal she is
YEAH so trishas trauma flavour is she cannot feel emotions strongly without turning into a giant murderous wolf- kelly hes chillin. hes achieved his goals. happy little guy. insults slide off of him, he has a positive mental attitude.
oh man dw scarlet actuslly wears wigs, she styles them herself its vry impressive 2 avery who cuts her own hair and has never had it turn out even. i dont think even scarlet could cut and dye her hair that fast even with all her free time to practice- & her hair wouldve been fried by now even with the carefullest bleach sesh.
Trisha graduated highschool- kelly & scarlet went to uni (seperately) and avery dropped out of highschool as soon as she turned 16, 2 become a vampire hunter- you only need a license to do it as a hobby but u can also be employed as one which avery scarlet kelly are, trisha is unemployed. avery joined the lumber co at the same time kelly did- avery has to kind of make sure. he doesnt die. he did stick to her but avery eventually did start 2 appreciate his friendship. avery, despite everything is like insanely good at killing vampires, kelly joined on a whim and sucks. scarlet joined bc it pays pretty well, but she was pretty averagely skilled at it.
do avery/scarlet have previous relationship experience is a good question i absolutely cannot decide at all- i rly go back and forth on how pathetic either of them were before becoming vampires. sometimes i think scarlets probs had a few relationships b4, and for avery its like. shes shy. she would only date someone if they confessed first. and so would scarlet. which is an issue. either way for scarlet she hasnt been in a relationship for years and avery is avery.
no for sure averys family sucks, she has 11 brothers, shes the youngest child, they were all raised to be vampire hunters, the only one who didnt turn out to be one is estranged. they would absolutely kill her if they found out and would fight abt who gets to be the one to do it. avery is actually pretty close with the estranged brother though. they do get together at like, christmas but outside of that they dont rly talk much as a family
Scarlets family is nice i made a post abt them before, she knows they would still love her despite the vampire thing but shes too embarassed and scared 2 tell them, so shes distanced herself from them as well, they worry a lot.
kelly im ngl he just spawned into existence. i imagine his family r like clones of him
trishas family is a whole thing, her dad is avscrletkellys boss so theres that
did i miss anything? i usually wait to answer things ik r gonna be long on a computer but im on my phone and i wanted to talk abt my creatures right now
also this made me realise averys been a vampire hunter for 10 years which like obvs 16-26 is 10 but i cant do maths.( shes been 1 for the longest out of the three)
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daedalusdavinci · 1 year
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Put “📓” or some other version of a book emoji into my inbox and I’ll explain the plot of a fanfiction that I haven’t written but daydream about.
ive spent a lot of time recently trying to remember the hs fics i always dreamed id write one day, but lost motivation for before i ever could. i feel like i used to have endless inspiration and i guess im hoping reflecting on that will help me reconnect with it now
i think i wanted to write a collegestuck fic, where dave and sollux were roommates and dave had a shitty job at a coffeeshop and that he swore was basically step one to becoming a dj because they had live music sometimes and thats *almost* a club (but he doesnt want to be a dj, bro was a dj, hes studying archaeology and hes never been happier and he spends too many hours bent over textbooks in the library with aradia just because he loves it, its everything he wanted when he was a kid and it feels like freedom in his hands, but jade asks him what he wants to be and he says the sickest dj there is, and college is just to tide him over until then, and john asks him what he wants to be and he says a director, so he can make movies even shittier than johns dumbass favorites, and rose asks him what he wants to be and he says solluxs sugar baby, because if you dont admit you want something its harder for people to take it from you)
i dont know what the ship wouldve been, im sure there were times where i was full on applebee2 to the end and times where it wouldve been dvekat and so on and so forth, but i know that dave moved across several states so he could go to school with his friends and i know that he and sollux were assigned to the same dorm and get along in the way that only two irritating nerdboys confined to one room can (which is to say that theyre besties and also they hate each other), because i feel very passionately about sollux and dave being friends just as much as dave and aradia being friends.
i think it would be funny if eridan was studying abroad and was one of those annoying europeans that cant go ten seconds without shitting on america (why are you here then, karkat asks him every ten seconds) and was generally just. literally so insufferable but also had no real idea what he wanted to do w his life so he was just majoring in business even tho he hated it (he switches to history, eventually, and is much happier for it), and i think he studies at daves coffeeshop and gets the kind of coffee that makes dave think hes a pretentious hipster (he is), only he doesnt actually do a lot of studying at all and spends most of his time checking out dave bc hes stupid, and instead of flirting with him he insults him constantly, bc hes stupid. dave literally hates him.
on the side i think id want to spend some time exploring dave reconnecting with rose as long lost siblings and john and jade navigating that weird space of "okay ive known you online forever but this is what knowing you in real life is like huh". i think id go jadrose for this au and emphasize jade having a very complicated relationship with romance bc who am i if i dont make someone aspec. john burns out bad towards the end of their first year and is in his depression era
but yeah. all that, i guess. i came up w a lot of ideas for college aus when i was finishing up community college bc i was so excited to get out and go to uni and so theres a lot of like, idea scraps floating around and maybe someday id like to do something with that, especially now that ive gone to uni and know what its actually like
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transrightsjimin · 4 years
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jfc i have so much work tomorrow this isnt funny
#if only like. mail delivery was a job that got paid accordingly#like yes it is minimum wage but the minimum wage is based on a 40 hr contract#u cant do mail delivery 40 hrs!!!#they only count the time in which you actually walk / cycle through the route and deliver mail#so even if youre busy for like 7 or 8 hrs you just get paid for the route itself and not cycling back and forth and loading bags at work#so it rly doesnt feel rewarding nd its super exhaustive#i knew a person who was clearly at the verge of a burnout and she had a 20 hr contract but worked 34 hours per week#which of c is way longer irl bc they only count the routes#she was so overworked and started early but was done super late so that she couldnt even make it to a meeting of (a bad) union#like daily life would rly probably improve a lot for me when i have a stable job nd some structure#and oh my god i normally hare vacations bc i get so bored nd depressed yet stressed in them#but what if i for one time truly have a proper break where i dont need to stress abt family and work and homework (bc im a graduate)#just SUCKS that i hate everything abt working#ppl r like oh but ur so smart!!! :(#first of all im not that smart#like i guess im intelligent but i also dont remember anything that i learned in primary - high school - college - uni#just nothing. nd i dont read ever bc im fucking stupid nd have no concentration and hate doing stuff that takes a lot of focus#i hate reading i hate cooking i hate learning stuff im not interested in#nd im a rly slow learner w practical stuff which is not exactly a good trait w jobs#i cant focus i cant remember stuff i hate work i hate having to deal w colleagues but im also a very dependent person#IF ONLY i got help w a job coach sooner but no i have to wait until december for an APPOINTMENT where they#evaluate how much i can truly work bc i stated i can work 'only' 32 hrs so instancies feel the need to check if thats true#nd im just so fucking stressed#my housemate now has a job so we'll soon lose our rights to welfare benefits#i need to work but im so bad at lying#i feel so useless nd also bad for consistemtly crying abt this to my friend#i DONT KNOW WHAT WORK I COULD DO OR HANDLE#rambles
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night-rhea · 3 years
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Do you have any no-magic AU ideas that involve Night? Like a college AU or a coffee shop AU? -🍦
I do 🙈
Im a sucker for Coffee shop au, and i want it to be Ben x Night... Little bit suprise huh? But late or not i must talk about them... So this is the day... Now!
Pls imagine, there is a lovely small town. And Ben is studying to be lawyer. He lives here and goes to univercity here. Its not the best uni in country but eh not the worst one either. He is repeating his last year in uni, and this year he r e a l l y wanna graduate and finally get faaar far away from this tiny town. Not that town itself isnt beautiful, its actually very lovely place to live. His problem is with people.
You might think in small town people must be lovely. At least thats how i imagine, as a person who lives in big city. But ho boy, Ben can talk about how shitty it is. Especially for a people like Ben... He was never the bravest guy okay? He never wanted trouble. Whats wrong with living a calm life and enjoying it? He didnt get into fights, he stayed away from troublesome people, he didnt wanted to be any chaos in highschool, in uni. But the chaos always find its way to him.. He never actually be able to stay away from bullies. He doesnt even know how many time he wished Merula would just, dissapear... He was just so tired, his whole soul was so tired of that life.
But one day, everything just changed. He lost his dad. No no his dad didnt die, his dad left him and his mother. Suddenly, just like that his dad was gone. Ben was the only child, so now only thing he had was his mother. His poor heartbroken mother.. With that, he changed. He realized he has been living in fear. Fear of getting bullied, fear of having bad grades, fear of his father coming home drunk again and fear of seeing his mother cry again. Thats why he was so tired, always. So, he decided to not live like that.
'New' Ben was as alone as old Ben. But now, no one was daring to look at him wrong, calling him names. Now he was feeling free, powerfull.
What he didnt know is, that he wasnt happy.
'Why he is so damn happy in seven am?' was the first thing he had in mind about Night, when he entered his fave coffee shop. He knew shop has new employee but damn he wasnt in the mood to talk with that energetic person. Especially in seven am. He just wanted to order his (as black as his soul) coffee and be right in time for class-
"Good morning! What can i give to you this morning sir?"
Okay thats the au im daydreaming about so often 😌 but besides i have Ballet Talbott and Boxer Night au which is still wip but surely exciting 👀👀 my other aus are mostly alternative lifes in hp universe 😂
Thanks for the ask i feel so relieved to finally say something about coffee shop au ✨
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dizzyingflicker · 3 years
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frigid air (fic commentary)
literally no one asked for this but hello! hi! if you didn’t know, i wrote a 11 chapter fic called ‘frigid air’ a few weeks back. the fic started as jayhoon centric, but it kinda got off the rails from there hehe
the birth of the idea
so the bri from a few weeks ago was already thinking about writing a lengthy enha au. 
i just finished writing a jakehoon one shot and wanted to try my hand at writing another ship! at first, i thought of typical au ideas that were college themed. those are the most fun to write and read imo, bc it’s so grounded in reality. and also bc the jakehoon one shot i wrote was a lot heavier and angsty, which was something i think i’m better at doing! there’s this really great fic i read that inspired me to try my hand at some lighter themes! 
after reading that au, i was like “hmmmm im gonna try writing some romcom type of stuff.” i always ALWAYS write angst, so this was a really nice and fun change! 
yes, back to the college au ideas. i then began to think about what majors the enha kids would do if they went to college. my notes for the first outline kind of went like this: 
Jay - fashion major, new addition to the dorm, is rich but doesnt want anyone to know, is kind despite being taken advantage of in his hometown, just wants a normal family 
Heeseung - music production major, has a soundcloud lowkey but doesn't let anyone know, is going thru his first real heartbreak and is using music to deal with it 
Jungwon - hasnt decided on a major, came to uni w a full ride taekwondo scholarship, secret boyfriend, coming to terms w sexuality 
Jake - australian exchange student, architecture major, maybe gets a weird stalker? 
Sunoo - beauty school, wants to be a hairstylist, kinda eccentric, knows everyone’s business
Sunghoon - figure skater, doesnt go to school, is close to getting on the national team, lives in a dorm to avoid his tiger parents, softspot for his younger sister
Niki - dance major from japan, is a little too clingy, feels lonely away from his family 
in hindsight, the characters here seem a lot more deeper and fleshed out as compared to what i ended up writing, but i realized that if i kept all of this in - it would’ve been really overwhelming for the reader. i had to remind myself that this was a jayhoon centric fic LMAOOOOO 
after writing this, i was like “WAITTTT A HOT SEC” this sounds a lot like hello my twenties! which btw, is an amazing show on netflix that you should definitely watch. i watched this show with my girlfriend and man, the way it handled all of the a,b,c, etc plots was so fantastic. 
every character had their own stories and that’s what i loved. usually in fics or aus, a lot of the side characters sort of fade into the background. they also do this thing where their main reason for existence is to lift the mc or main ship up in the story. i wanted to avoid that, so taking inspo from hello my 20s, i decided to give every character a story. whether it be something big like sunoo’s stalker or something small like heejake’s and jungniel’s development, i wanted to give them all something to tell. in hello my 20s, each of the girs living in that house had their own unique stories that fit them really well. whether i did it as well as the writers of the show - that’s something else to unpack, right? 
the characters and their developments 
so this is something i’m not sure if i did well in or not. the original plot was to have jay and sunghoon not get along at all. with jay’s abrasiveness and sunghoon’s surface coolness, i thought it would be fun to see them butt heads. but i realized that it wasn’t so realistic because they don’t really see each other enough to butt heads that much. i thought making sunghoon shy and reserved (thus standoffish) while jay tries his best to make sunghoon open up was a lot more cuter. 
jay is a lot more bold in this, even through his embarassing moments. he’s self-assured, determined and open to pretty much anything. he’s generous and friendly. the only weakness jay has is he’s too presumptious sometimes and assumes stuff without any real basis, as seen with him assuming that ryujin and sunghoon were dating bc of a passing remark from jake and some yt comments. i gave him a dead dad at the end of the fic bc hello we’re projecting but also to explain why he’s super close to his mum and why he’s just a tad bit behind everyone else his age. i wanted to expand on this a little but sadly, i kinda ran out of words to talk about this. if you know what i mean. tbh, jay doesn’t have much of a development in this. that’s something i really want to improve on in my next au, giving my mc some actual development instead of getting carried away with other side characters. 
sunghoon is, as i said, shy and reserved. he has a lil trauma from being rejected by seon years ago. you can tell that his experience was not pleasant at all - so he keeps feelings of attraction and want farrrrrr away from him. sunghoon is sorry he’s an anti-romantic, if you will. throughout this fic, you see him open up to jay and realize that not every guy he’s attracted to will reject him painfully. he also learns that he doesn’t need to keep people at an arms length away and that opening himself up to more people will bring about very nice things! very cliche but hey, it iz what it iz. 
jungwon was a fun one to write! not bc i feel a little of what he feels, but bc he’s adorable with daniel and having him be unsure was fun to write. jungwon is pretty self-assured in this fic, but with daniel, he’s not really sure what he’s doing. 
heeseung feels secure enough with jake that he’s willing to sing in front of him, which is something he doesn’t do. jake is very naive about relationships and hee’s feelings for him, but heeseung kind of brings him down back to reality with the scene from han river. heeseung is getting over a breakup and that stuff takes a while, so that’s why i didn’t let them get together too fast. hee knows how jake feels about him and he doesn’t want to ruin it by jumping into things so fast. 
sunoo is super friendly and too trusting with people, which is both a blessing and a curse. niki and him have been attached to the hip since their friendship started and niki sees sunoo as a very very dear friend to him. bc who else lets him sleep in his bed and who else buys him taiyaki everyday? that’s right, it’s his sunoo hyung. sunoo also cares for niki a lot and they’re just very sweet. 
what i did well and what i didn’t 
okay this is debatable, but i did like how i wrote the developing relationships in this, mostly the ones that weren’t the main jayhoon arc. i liked the way i wrote jungwon and daniel’s little friction and i loved heejake’s confession scene. 
the humour in this was a little weak for me, but it was my first attempt at writing it so it’s forgivable. 
i just wished i wrote the main relationship better. i feel like it took a while at the beginning and suddenly went from 49 to 27403 real quick. if i were to rewrite it, i’d give them a lot more time to pine as that stage before friends and maybe insert more conflict. 
i’d give jay a stronger conflict other than trying to befriend with sunghoon. his character felt very 1d for me and i didn’t like that. i needed to develop him more tbh LMAOOO 
music! 
anti-romantic by txt
perhaps love by eric nam ft cheeze
love poem by iu 
give love by akmu 
hope ur ok by olivia rodrigo 
only yoou by yand da il 
references for sunghoon’s ice skating 
sunghoon’s white outfit in the youtube video with ryujin 
sunghoon’s black outfit in nationals 
the reference pic jay draws of sunghoon (which seon sees) 
if you read the fic, i’d like to say thank you! i had a lot of fun writing this and seeing everyone’s reactions to the plot twists was super fun hehehehe i genuinely loved doing it even tho it gave me a lot stress! thank u for reading this if u read it too LMAOOOOO 
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would u like to share some emma hcs u have? :D
ily /p ty for the ask
okay so uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i swear as soon as i get these asks my mind goes blank ummm
okay so like my main hc is that shes trans which i saw once like the reason she doesnt like singing in beanies is voice dysphoria which makes so much sense
okay putting the rest under the cut coz this getting a bit long
also that the reason it was easier for her to travel in guatemala was because no periods/cramps which also makes a lotta sense
i have this like, its not a full headcanon yet, but like im testing it out but not sure if i fully like it yet, is that emma is adopted, like shes not biologically janes sister which explains the like oh emma is the lesser sister and always in janes shadow
(either that or she like had a different dad or mum to jane, but like in some way she and jane arent related/fully related)
also i feel like emma smoked a lotta weed in high school (probs canon tbh) and ended up failing a lot of her classes coz she just turned up to class high a lot
i havent seen perkys buds btw so idk much about emmas weed habits LMAO
also i feel like a few times emmas got in trouble jane used to try and get her out of it/save her but emma ended up just getting pissed like oh just coz youre the perfect sister doesnt mean you have to save my ass all the time jane and they got into a big argument
so jane ended up just not helping emma out of stuff at all after that
also bet emma got drunk at parties a lot
also since like i hc her as trans i feel like her parents wouldnt be too accepting of it especially since shes like 30 so like in that time it would be unlikely for her to be accepted
i do feel like emma would have a kind of "fuck you imma be me idc what you think attitude" and would end up just presenting how she wants to and not caring much what people think of her
but also i feel like she could have just stayed closeted out of not being bothered to get into any more trouble if that makes sense?
like shes already the family disappointment by smoking weed and failing all her classes so why make things worse by being trans? yk?
maybe in high school she just stayed closeted but in college/uni she decided fuck it emma time
also i feel like emma realised she was bi (i hc her as bi) before she realised she was trans, but still had a female pref so just didnt mention it, probs had a secret bf at one point in high school, but was probs mostly like flings at parties and nothing superrrr serious
yeah also i feel like when she first met paul she was kind of reluctant to like Be Romantically Involved With Him because she didnt want it to end up as another meaningless fling that either broke her heart or she broke his even tho paul is so not the heartbreaker type, then when she realised paul fully really genuinely liked her thats when she allowed herself to actually let her feelings be there instead of pushing them down
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miaxeu · 4 years
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      though the mist might prevent some from seeing it, MIA STOEGER is actually a descendent of DIONYSUS. it’s still a question of whether or not the TWENTY-ONE year old MYTHOLOGICAL STUDIES MAJOR from LOS ANGELES, USA has taken after HER godly parent completely, but the demigod is still known to be quite CHARISMATIC & DUPLICITOUS. 
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( y’all dont deserve this real messy intro but im workin w half a bwain cell at 4am so i beg thee 4 mercy. nywyy im the excited new girl who’s hella pumped to meet all ur charas : katya ! feel free to hop in my ims to plot or drop a like and i’ll hop in urs ! x  )
POWERS
natural acting abilities — her ma’s a hollywoo agent so she started actin real early & now shes a big shot actress. there r more deetz on her career below !
chlorokinesis — it wasnt as natural as acting n she only started working on it when she turned 13 n started going to camps. b4 she just noticed shes good w plants but it wasnt super crazy or nything. its p good now tho ! shes prioritizing vine binding and manipulation 4 the self defense bc awards r cool n all but they dont rlly protecc from monsters ykwim 
levitation — shes trying her best ur honor
alcokinesis  — she cant conjure it or anything, she’s just immune to it ffff
BIO POINTS — cw: drug use ( full biography here )
her mom raised her by herself bc dionysus the party god was out of the picture immediately. she never told mia she’s a demigod & it was always just “ wow ur so talented ” or “ aww u got a green thumb ! ” but when she saw him claim 13 y/o mia by placing a weird hologram over her head while she slept, she knew she had to spill da beanz & tell her kid
ofc mia thought her mom was jus playing sum weird acting exercise w her bc her powers r so lowkey she could highkey just be a Mortal but insert sad whistle, the realizashun & the claiming meant heightened monster threat !! so yea ,,, one ended up chasing her a couple days later rip 
aside from the trauma, mia was ok. mostly bc she ended up cryin for dionysus like any child would n lo & behold he came & helped !!! as he should. nywy she made sure to go to summer camps every year after that but mostly just for protection purposes
she lowkey rlly hates this whole god business esp now that shes grown lmfao deadass thinks she got a bad deal bc life threats arent sexy !!! went to eonia eventually bc its Too Much Man. she just wants to go back to work and her life w the mortals w/o worryin for her life. would deadass fade her father if she could. may or may not be majoring in greek mythology to figure out the logistics of it all out of spite, who knows !
PERSONALITY
not ! a Drama Queen  —  dont get me wrong, shes hella Extra in the way she moves n acts sorta like shes always bein captured on film. is quick-witted & playful & can be a huge tease/flirt if she feels like it, but miss her w Real Feelings ! totally not sentimental. srsly she will try to rationalize away everything and is just,.,., not good w it. so soz folks, we just keepin it breezy here
ugh, she’s an Actress — aka she can act like she cares tho ! shes very much into keeping ppl on her good side. shes friendly n palatable to everyone bc its how shes been trained & while it doesnt seem fake, its def diff when its genuine
The Mortifying Ordeal of Being Known —  lemme circle back to the first one, ok so shes good w emotions but only in theory. does intense character work with her roles so she thinks that counts as her having eq when rlly shes just emotionally stunted, projecting n repressing like an idiot
blonde, skinny, rich, & a lil bit of a Bitch — shes only a bitch inwardly or to ppl she trusts enuff to let in on the gossip. if anyone full on opposes her or becomes real emotional, then this lil diva will rear its superiority complex head n snap a lil. will most probably do it v underhandedly n w a smile but it will be Brutal
girls just wanna have FUN ! — shes the child of da party god, so ofc she a true party girl. officially off the rails when she parties. inhibitions ? we dk her. can be insensitive in that case bc smtms its truly no strings attached, tis all abt the fun. likes company a lot & it doesnt even have 2 be loud or particularly abt her, she just likes having people around n the escapism of it all. will make friends with everyone n make sure they have a jolly fun time guaranteed at dionysus parties 
Work Hard, Play Hard — real responsible when it comes to work and commitments and if she trusts/likes u enough, she’ll give it 2 u straight, no bs. def thinks Calling Out is an act of love but maybe does it a lil too harshly smtms. v much into efficiency, sentiments be damned. not the feely words type. will sit next to u or party w u or even pay 4 ur therapist if u need sum1 to talk to. she will Be There while u work thru it, so long as u dont expect her to change n be all emotional n stuff
if she seems a lil contradictory thats bc she kinda is. tis the good ol nurture vs nature. her ma’s a real no nonsense chick n her pops is a frat guy drama geek greek god whos rlly into cottagecore so u get this lil blonde bitch whos sorta teetering on the edges
OTHER INFO  — cw: drug use ( full headcanons here )
re her career, she achieved pegot status when she was 18 aka she truly b dat bitch. shes not super mainstream famous tho, more like indie sweetheart, film snobs/critics fave typa gal. if ya want a trajectory she started w baby commercials then a sitcom from 4-10 ( think modern fam’s lily ) then it was off to the big screen & the stage ! 
mia has a lil bit of a drug habit. its not abusive or dependent, but it is a staple whenever shes parties bc alcohol is useless 2 her. started a lil young too bc hollywoo. primarily uppers/hallucinogens. she smokes weed a lil more liberally but the rest is mostly just an on occasion thing ( which, ngl, is a still a lil problematic when u party a lot rip )
after she got claimed, mia ended up going to demigod camps in a lot of diff places n countries, depending on where production would take her. there was never an established place, more like wherever was nearest when they wrapped up shooting bc monsters afoot n wutnot  
she was always homeschooled but she still managed to go to a prom and homecoming bc party is life. that makes eonia uni p much her first chance at having a normal educational environment & experience and even then its anything but. still tho this is her moment !!! im lit rally begging her to get a personality that isnt her internally rolling her eyes going “ its not that deep ”
might put up a bio/stats page if im feelin sxc but i wud jus like the records to show that mia stoeger is a bi sxc babe bc me ? write a het ? no grassy ass.
POSSIBLE CONNECTIONS — cw: drug use ( full connections here )
omg danny devito i love ur work ! 
,,, p self explanatory sdkjfs sum1 who loves her work ! it can be lowkey/highkey fangirl to a civil admiration
OR alternatively, y/m can Not Be a fan of her work. they might think the storyline of the projects she takes on r too out of touch n highbrow yada yada yada, but yes, we love to see either of it ! 
summer camp sweetheart !  
someone she met when at camp when they were teens ? doesnt matter in what country/city, but mia was only visiting so it was truly a one summer romance typa thing. bc she was younger, im thinkin 13-17 or w/e she was probably sweeter n a lot more emotional then. was it either’s first puppy love ? first kiss ? first “ relationship ? ” idk, do yk ? truly, so many possibilities. nothin set in stone just hmu bub 
summer camp pals ! 
p much the same as above but make it Platonic
party buddies !
or druggie pals. either way works but she wud luv it if theyre both xoxo
friends w benefits !
most probably ( but not limited to ) sum1 she met at a party skdjhsjk is it exclusive ? is any1 starting to develop feelings ? im down 4 nthing n evrything
alexa play true friend by hannah montana !
give mia her college bestie ! her confidant who knows her feels and can call each other out viciously with no ounce of resentment. we stan the friendships !
omg i love ur skirt !
that is the ugliest effing skirt i've ever seen. lmao basically sum1 mia pretends to like or acts civil w but rlly ,,,, Cannot Stand for w/e rzn   
im p much braindead rn but those are just sum ideas !!! ofc the usual staples like the pals, enemies, wutnots are also v welcome we love to see it. if u also have a wc that u think mia would fit in, id luv to know more ! there are also a couple more detailed ones here, but pls feel free to shoot me a msg n we can get 2 plotting x 
( * wipes brow * how did i type so much n say so little rip. mia is also a completely new muse so pls b patient n if i fuq up from time to time, pretend u do not see >.< nywy thnx 4 readin, sweets ! feel free to hmu here or at discord if ya wanna <3333 )
FULL INFO  ||  EONIA TASKS 
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moonlightjeno · 4 years
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college!jeno
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a/n : it has been a long ass time. but hey i’m back if anyone cared lol. enjoy this bullet point scenario about this precious boy. also peep his blue hair, we young was his bitch. 
genre : fluff 
pairing : jeno x reader
request : open !!
word count : 1.07 k
oml okay im rlly excited for this but if its ok i might just do jeno as a high school au bc bb boy is 18
warning this is all over the place and v long have fun
k so jeno just moved to this new high school called zuhos uni, but i mean boy is takin the highschool courses that are specialized in science bc hes a geek
a v cute one but ya know
so hes bew and hes transfered like one quarter through the year,,
bc jeno is a v shy shy boy he doesnt have many friends the first week until he joins the music club every friday after school
there he makes friends woo, shy bb opens up to haechan, jaemin and renjun even if renjun isn’t really part od the music club and more of the art club
oof details
k so this bb is rlly rlly bloody smart and hes rlly good at biology and physics but he struggles at chemistry
hes like wtf,, this doesnt make any sense one lement another makes a new one withh a different number ?? heLP
its comPLICATED
thats is until he finally asked for help
he has seen you around school, always next to your locker, head in the books, but he hd seen you around music club
you tended to stay by yourself, strumming your guitar and always writing this in your notebook
but he also knew that you were rlly good at chemistry
he didnt ask you for help perse
more like jeno asked his best friend jaemin who was one a close friend of one of your friends and who he also had a crush on to ask you if you fould help jeno
protect this bb he’s shy
you where like “huh? me? jeno wants my help? pretty boy?”
your friend was like “omg yes noe go talk to him and tell him youll help. k? k.”
so you go “talk” *cough* hyuck sets you tf up *cough* and you guys meet at the library??
at least you thought so?? but he didnt get the memo so he showed up like 30 mins lates so it wasnt that bad but like bruh??
so u were a lil annoyed bc boy asked for your help and showed up late, and jeno was a nervous mess when he finally arrived and kept apologizing seeing you with a frown
he kept saying how sorry he was and that he would make to you,, poor bb
and seeing him be a shy and nervous mess made you forget so obviously it was easy to forgive and you guys tried to start your study session
hmmm “tried” is the key word
bc everytime you guys would start their would be noises and other ppl talking so yall gave up and jeno was like “oh we could go over to my place bc my parents r out and it should be quite?? i- ii could h-hhelp youu wwith ph-ysics??,, if you want??”
akdhaj precious shy bundle nervouse mess
ofcourse you said yesss bc physics is like wtf is this ?? no one understands and i neED HELP
and you liked jeno like had a major crush on him and yku needed to help the poor boy out with chem chem
k. so yall walk home and you get to know each other and jeno starts to fall harder for you bc your so cute, the way you keep tucking your hair behind your ear
and biting your lip when your nervouse and just silent
he found it rlly cute aight
so yall finally arrived to his home, and hes a bit messy but thank GOD HIS MOM MADE HIM clean up the day before
wooo
so yall go through w your study session that lasts like an hour and a half and jenos like dam you make everything make sense
poor boy didn’t actually say that but he thought it and how you looked really pretty
but thats another time
and he explains physics to u and your like oh gotchu gravity makes sm more bloody sense
so after studying you guys go get ice cream bc he had to “make it up to you”
when he offered to lay you where a blushing red mess bc you rlly like him and ut feels like a date but he could never like u back
hes so smart and talented
but jeno just kept thinking your looked adorable with your blush and whenever you spoke to him about chemistry and biology your eyes would light up
yoy noticed though that jeno would smile *that eye smile that cures cancer* whenver he spoke and talketed about music and his friends
and it got late real quick so yall had to say hoodbye but you were rlly sad
bc he got you and you got him ??
perfect chemistry ,, mi dudes
k so like right before you left hes like “umm umm so you— want to like,, meet again??” silence “like as a date ?? — i mean if u dont want to its all— good”
and you were just like dumbfounded??
like what?? he lee jeno the most adorable smartest talented perfect boy in school just aksed you out??
you kinda justs tood there and then slowy noded
and he gave you that eye smile,, precious boy was so happy omg omg omg
so yall meet again and again and again for study sessions and a couple of dates
jamein and your friend had been a couple for a couple of weeks and hyuck just wanted jeno to shut up about you
bc bb boy was falling in love
so in one of your study sessions it was late and you guys had order dominos and were just hangin on the couch when he kept lookin over and just kissed you
boy was scared but you kissed him back bc akgshags
best day
when you broke the kiss you bith had the biggest goofiest smiles on your face ,, like how did i end up with this beautiful person right in front of me
he gave you a lil kiss in the forhead that melted your heart and you bith smiles like idiots
the end ,, jk i just have no idea how to end this
ajdha and yall just cuddled it was great
a bish is really bloody soft for jeno
i hope y’all enjoyed this mess lol. peace. 
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selfcareparker · 3 years
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(lovely anon) ok so this may sound so dramatic but; let me paint you a picture: i’m responding to your latest message, sitting on the edge of the sofa. i type in “lovely anon” into the search and see this longgg post come up and i’m like uhhh... i scroll down and see the people you tagged and literally. when i saw @ lovely anon. i . cried . like full on tears. my brother goes “what are you doing” “she tagged meeeee” and he continued what he was doing and didn’t care LMAOO but i was so emotional? i love and appreciate you too and aAH IM CRYING!! you’re just really sweet and i didn’t expect it at all and it was really lovely to be a part of something :’)
the kermit pic sent meee but yes yes yes!! when you start uni let me know, lol i’m so excited for you!! let me know how it goes cuz i’m literally hype hahah & yes we will be in our sad corners of the world, missing england but you’re right it’ll be sooooo worth it in the end!!! and oH i’m glad you talk to them lol i truly thought you like haven’t seen them/haven’t spoken to them this whole time😭 that would’ve been awful!
also i totallyyy get what your saying about the english speaking thing. and idk why you’re insecure (well i *knowww* bc it’s not your first language and you’re studying it in college so yuh) but your english is great :)))
lol yeah that makes sense.. my mom took french in college and she remembers NOTHING HDJSHSJ (the fact that you wanna learn MORE languages i- ahh i so admire you.. you literally know so many languages🥺) yea i mean you know a bunch of languages bc you know the base of words lol, but i wonder if because you know latin it’ll be easier for you to learn french? oh- oh wait you said it’ll be easier HAHHAHA
THERES SO MUCH EXCITING STUFF TO TALK ABOUT HDGSJSJSL it’s so wild to me that you can’t watch chaos walking :( i’m a professional hacker tho so i’ll try and find a way for you LMAO (by professional hacker i mean i literally have gotten multiple free trials and i’m pretty sure the hulu police are after me bUT ITS THEIR FAULT BC WHY IS IT SO EXPENSIVE???) i mean the movie was good? and cute? and funny? but yea don’t think it’s gonna be the most fantastic thing haha AND THE DOGGO AWWW (i saw it again today- or my today lol, saturday, aND THESE OLD PEOPLE CAME AND SAT IN FRONT OF ME AND MY FRIEND LIKE ITS A LONG STORY LMK IF YOU WANNA HEAR IT)
SHARK FILMS?!?!! PLEASE READING THIS I HAD NO IDEA YOU WOULD LIKE SHARK MOVIES TOO FHSKSHSHDJDJGAJAYSJS ok so i haven’t seen any of the classics (i’m working on it) but i would probably watch jaws to laugh at it? not like that lmao but like comparing it. OKAY BUT HONESTLY I BARELY KNOW ANYONE WHO LIKES SHARK FILMS AHHH OKAY im adding “the shallows” to my watchlist bc it sounds super good AND SAME AHSJD ANY BODY OF WATER IN A MOVIE I JUST KNOW ITS COMING LMAO watch me not go in the water anymore after seeing that picture HHDJSJ
WHEN I READ THIS I JUST GOT DONE TALKING TO MY MOM ABOUT THE MEG AND THAT SCENE WHERE THE SHARKKK JUMPEDDDD AND ATE THE OTHER ONEEEE AND THEN JONAS HAD TO DO- bro i cannot (i think that one is my favorite because i love me a bit of romance and the subtle romance hAD ME) 47 meters down PHEW could you imagine?? i try not to think too hard about it i’m like “don’t be dumb catherine, don’t put yourself in a dumb situation” (not autocorrect having “dumb bitch” ready i am not lying) and i literally understand... there is no other way to explain 47 meters down
i CANNOT watch horror movies, can’t can’t can’t, i literally hate them i cannot do it!!! the thrill is tempting and it’s cool in the moment but i cant lmao. i don’t have nightmares about scary things (for the majority of the time) but going to sleep i’m like oooohhhhhh shit 🥲 literally what you explained
music !!!! music !!!! music !!!! (u ever write a word and now it looks weird lmao) MY BROTHER DOESNT LIKE MUSIC AND ITS SHIT IM LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU- anyway, my music taste is all over the place i mean......... it’s crazy. earlier today i was listening to meghan trainor’s album “title” oUT OF NOWHERE, but just a few minutes ago i was listening to fall in love with me by earth wind and fire soooo lol .. megan is *chefs kiss*, i’m not familiar with stormzy🙈, harry styles.... IM SORRY IM THAT PERSON but i don’t listen to his solo music EEK i only listen to adore you... and not that frequently... the music video freaked me out... i like niall’s solo music a lot more, which i listen to a lot more. now. one direction. favorite. please & thank you. i have a playlist called “boy bands” and it consists of one direction and the vamps (obsessed with cherry blossom btw) but as you can see my taste is all over the place!! fr fr if i sent you what apple music has as my “favorites” it went from ariana grande to carrie underwood to glee (OBSESSED DONT LET ME TALK ABOUT IT) i mean please if you let me i will nonstop (hamilton HDJSH) talk about music all day😩 & NOOO UR MUSIC IS GREAT HAHSK IM NOT A BIG RAP PERSON BUT DOJA CAT IS MY FAVORITE!!
okay good, i’m glad :) i was just nervous that you did feel that way <3 and GOT IT HAHAJ healthy pressure is always good :’) my friend got me these pens cuz i love stationary and school supplies lol and was like “now you have to write something” soooo yea i feel that! and i saw you posted the ficcccccc literally so proud of you 🥺🥺 i’m trying to decide if i read it tomorrow or tonight..... sleep or a literal beautiful creation made by the sweetest person and is v v nice smut and college!peter and 4.7k...... sleep aint really calling no more.
GIRL ALL OF MY SENTENCES ARE TOO LONG HAHAHAH IN FACT THIS IS TOO LONG SOOO (also why am i 3 days late..😑) anywho it’s 1 in the morning so <33 lovely anon
🥰
oh my god the fact that you cried nearly made me cry too😭😭🥺🥺 (also, your brother LMAO), i wasn‘t even sure if you‘d see it but i immediately thought of you so of COURSE i included you <333
the hulu police lsjsjaiaik, girl i was ready to get a hulu membership when i wanted to watch big time adolescence and i couldn‘t find it anywhereee, and when i got to the payment it said i need a bank account that‘s based in the US or whatever. like bro i was about to pay you!! but i was forced to find it somewhere (and i did, on levidia,— not that i‘ve ever used it because it‘s illegal 😤 i would never!!! i‘d rather support billion dollar companies and spend my money on watching films that i can find for free 🥰🥰🥰 not
i‘ve found chaos walking online so i‘ll watch it som time this week!! also YES TELL ME THE STORY
okay so idk if you watched/are planning on watching falcon and winter soldier but i watched the first episode the other day and they were speaking french (just a few seconds) and I UNDERSTOOD SOME WORDS DLDJDJ and i was so proud of myself. i‘ve only ever learned french with duolingo lol (i only do like 5 mins a day and that‘s why i was so surprised that i understood some of it!!). and yeah apart from latin i feel like italian, german, french and english are all similar in a sense.. i mean obviously they‘re completely different languages but for example there are some grammatical constructions in french that i think i wouldn‘t understand if i only spoke english? so when i translate those things into english you can‘t directly translate them bc you say things differently, but when i translate them into german then it makes more sense to me. idk that‘s something i noticed so i feel like if you already know multiple languages it‘s easier to learn another language compared to if you only know one language and are trying to learn a second one. even if the languages aren‘t similar then i think you get the hang of it easier.
ikd slsjsjs also i don‘t want you to think that i‘m a linguistic genius or anything lmfao, like i‘m only fluent in english and german and i‘m just a wannabe (ew that word) polyglot sksj (yes i had to google polyglot— i do think learning ancient greek would be super cool tho? like imagine studying latin AND ancient greek, whew). and honestly i don‘t think i‘ll ever be fluent in another language bc i don‘t plan on living anywhere other than germany or possibly england and i‘m not dedicated enough to properly learn any other languages esp if i don‘t have anyone to speak the language with. but i still try my best and i just love language/languages as a whole so yeah i‘m happy & just learning as much as i can dkdjh🥰
(I guess language/linguistics are/is my passion (which sounds sooo lame lmaoooo) and the word passion comes from the latin word pati (i think💀) which means to suffer, and in german passion is called Leidenschaft which basically means suffering too, idk why i‘m telling you this maybe you know it already. but ok dumb fun fact, in german you can make compound words with as many words as you like, and the longest official german word is Rindfleischetikettierungsüberwachungsaufgabenübertragungsgesetz which is a law for the monitoring of labels on beef... this is such a dumb fact but i think about that word like once a day idk why dodjsjsj so... 👁👄👁)
but i‘ll stop boring you with my linguistics talk because truly i don‘t know much about languages but i am interested omg i‘m gonna shut up now.
now water + sharks. (so in non-covid times i always go to croatia with my dad during the summer, and even before ever watching a shark film i was always kind of scared in water.. but after watching so many shark films wldjdj HELP Like you know when you go deeper into the ocean and you can‘t see or feel the ground/floor? anymore.. then i just start imagining sharks. like i can‘t help it i just imagine a shark sneaking up on me or feeling something graze my foot ABD I JUST START FREAKING OUT SSKJSHSJ. idk. anyway kdkdh i do love the ocean/swimming though but the older i get the more i realise how fucking scary the ocean is ( even if we’re gonna disregard sharks)
your brother... what‘s wrong with him? HOw CAN YOU NOT LIKE MUSIC LIKE WHAT THE FAWK
OKAY BUT SAME ABOUT THE ADORE YOU MUSIC VIDEO DLDKDJSJSKSLSLKSKSJSHSH and yeah i have to say harry’s style (styles lol) as a solo artist isn‘t reaaally my cup of tea, and i only like the popular songs from his second album and the first album is only good when i‘m in the right mood (haven‘t actually listened to it in a while though, but kiwi is one of my all time favourites along with only angel but i hate the start, like it takes 40 seconds to actually begin properly). i like mgk and because of him i watched the dirt which is a film about motley crue, and now one of my favourite songs ever is same ol situation and i‘m into rock now lol. +++ justin bieber. I had a justin bieber cardboard cutout thingy😭 i was the biggest Belieber on earth when i was 13-16, but i didn‘t like his last album and tbh he‘s become a bit weird lately, BUT OH MY GOD. i Listened to his new album yesterday and i‘m in LOVE with the song hold on
i really like niall‘s music toooo!!!! And doja cat 😌😌😌😌 And THE VAMPS OG MY GOD. i got to see them live bc they were the opening/support act for little mix and ajdsjskslslsjsjsj. (Also i love concerts, some of the best memories of my life are concerts, i‘ve seen nicki minaj live 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and justin twice and my heart fills every time i think about how excited i was, it was my first concert ever (16th of September 2016 😌) and i was the happiest person alive seeing justin drew fucking bieber (even if i‘m not tooo sure about justin nowadays)
i have a confession? Idk what hamilton is. I mean I‘ve heard about it and i keep googling it but i‘ve never watched it (is it even a film???? or like a proper musical? also pls tell me you grew up with high school musical. i have a few friends who didn‘t and it makes me so sad 😭😭😭 hsm is the best thing to happen to my childhood , the sooooongs— i still listen to some of them every week or month lool they make me so happy)
(Okay wait i was about to recommend some stormzy songs but you said you‘re not that into rap so i won‘t dksksjl)
What you said about my fic AHSLSLSJB (i wasn‘t sure if you sent an ask about it earlier? idk that might have been someone else, so if it was (and you‘ve read it already) i hope you liked it sksjsj i was...... unsure about it. and i have this reeaaallly long peter fic that i started writing in december and that‘s the only peter thing i currently want to write but also i can‘t because idk how to continue kddjj.) but I’m definitely getting back into writing i have a few blurbs that i want to write so 🥰🥰🥰
Oh and pls as soon as you read this let me know: violet or yellow? (it‘s just a tiny thing for my new theme slsksj)
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prorevenge · 5 years
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After months of putting up with my roommate from hell, I got the revenge of lifetime and screwed her over out of a fuckton of money and got her to pay rent and life has never been sweeter! (This is a long one)
This is a long one but very much worth the ride, so buckle up. (also, English isn't my native lang, sorry if there are any mistakes)
This story takes place a couple of years back. During college, I lived with several roommates, all of them were nice and we got along well, except for this one bitch, let's call her Karen. if Satan and Hitler had a child and that child had a child with Stalin and Cruella de Vil, that would be Karen for you, she is a loud-mouthed stupid, egocentric bitch who has the face that scare the shit out of a toilet. She would never clean up after herself, she would always leave her plates and things at the spot where she last used them. I have lost counts of how many times, I caught her stealing my clothes without asking and if you so much as touch her clothes she loses her shit on you, or her drinking our lactose-intolerant roommates almond milk and any time we confronted her for drinking it, she would shrug and say "I only had a sip, stop being so stingy." She plays her music loud at night, invites stranger without giving any heads up, a time or two she didnt pay rent even though her parents are FILTHY RICH and she is wearing gucci and prada shit, Karen also fucking lies about everything, even things that are not worth lying about. like if she woke up 7, and you ask her, she'll lie through her fucking teeth and say she rose with the sun rise because she is a natural. (ps, this is something i actually heard her say to her parents while she was skypeing them....so cringy, who the fuck says that? but i digress)
Months we have fucking put up with her, of course we tried to get other roommates but unfortunately when we all moved in everything, all documents and contracts were done in her name so kicking her out would require a lot of effort and most of us were busy with school and work and life happens. So we ignore it as much as we can and try to move on.
We are now all seniors and in our final semesters, meaning graduation was coming, AND Karen is planning a backpack trip across Europe with her friends as a graduation gift to herself, this is important so remember this.
One of our roommates and my closest friend, Sasha, has had a crush on a guy that lives down the hall. Any time the two of them are together, Sasha and the Guy keep giving each other googly eyes and blushing faces; it was sooo cute. Sasha is a verbal autistic person and has never dated anyone because she has a hard time with socializing and understanding social ques and subtlety, which lets face it, that is the core of dating, especially flirting but with a lot of encouragement from me and the final roommate, Lola we got her to ask him out. He said yes. She was so happy, you guys, she flew back into the apartment and did an hour of happy dance with her arms flailing about and a shit eatin grin on her face; needless to say we were all so happy. Karen caught wind of this and it just so happens at that time she was having relationship problems, I guess her bf finally realized he's dating human garbage. Not one to be outshined, Karen behind all of our backs went to the guy's place and spun lies about Sasha, saying she is a serial cheater and even made a fake account for Sasha's so called bf. the guy never called Sasha, and eventually weeks passed by he told us why but by then Sasha felt like the damage was done and lost interest in him.
I. WAS. FUCKING. FURIOUS.
This, this level of dickery and bloody pettiness is the straw that finally broke the camel's back and I vowed I wouldn't fucking leave until I served my slice of justice. Here's another character that you must know about, Prof C. His wife two years ago was in a horrible car accident and as a result is in a wheelchair, this is especially problematic because she was a stay home mom that took care of their two special needs kids and they have a toddler at home. Home life is a mess for him, he is running ragged between working and single-handedly is taking care of his family, the uni took pity and also feared the workload would see one of their best and most beloved teachers leave the school struck a deal with him to help him out. In all of his classes there will be quizzes and midterms, this doesnt change, but assignments you submit and he corrects at the end of the year, this is important cuz our uni has zero tolerance on proffs that dont constantly update the students course works so that students have the chance to improve their grades.
Karen, the lazy and stupid bitch she is, is somehow skating through his assignments, even though they require a shit tone of research and writing. I accidentally learned that one of her older friends told her that she only needs submit the paper on its due date and to only write the first 3 pages and use a paraphrase tool for the rest of the paper so the plagiarism software wont detect it and would think its original material and when the end of the year comes, submit a hard copy but with the first pages being her actual work and the rest being completely plagiarized, professional work. Prof C won't know cuz the likelihood a man as busy as him thoroughly checking the work of 120+ students is pretty low. I grinned. A plan was beginning to formulate in my head. Oh, sweet mother of Jesus, she is going down! All semester long I let her do this for all of the 7 papers, one of them which is a term paper that has 20% on it alone, all the while I spied and gathered all of her pass codes, social media, her student ID, everything.
The end of the year came and I compiled all of her assignments, both the original one with the paraphrasing tools she used to circumvent plagiarism and the one she finally handed them in, and I even made photos were there are side-to-side comparison of the assignments. This is a good start but not enough. So, One day chillin at the living room I open a conversation about relationships, Karen is two timing her new boyfriend and is sleeping with some other Person. so, I ask her questions like "don't you feel guilty for cheating?" and "You do realize this is wrong?" and I even paraphrase my words in a way that is vague but also clear, for example I would say "It's not fair, so many people work so hard everyday to be successful and you are here cheating and lying your way to success." Karen, narcissistic as fuck, would respond with snippets of I dont care and how she isnt cheating, she is only having fun and that everyone does it so why not her too. This is too good to be true, even her answers are vague, its like god put his hand on my shoulder, looked me right in the eyes and said, "burry this bitch". and Id be damned if I didnt. As you probably have guessed it by now, I was recording EVERYTHING. The recording plus the photos, and her assignments were more than enough evidence, I sent an anonymous email to the Professor, and i tell the girls so that they can prep for the shit storm thats coming. Three weeks later, results are out. she failed and LOST HER SHIT. She was screamin, crying, wailing, what a sight to see! you best believe, the girls and I were laughing. She tried to talk to the prof, but he was not having it. she cried and begged for a second chance but he said a hard no. So now she has two options: she goes ahead and doesn't graduate with us, and takes on a whole 'nother semester for one measly course or take summer course and cancel her trip to Europe, which mind you she spent a fuckton on, something like 13, 000$ and I know it could have been much cheaper but Princess Karen only wanted the best so yh. The next couple of weeks she spent sleepless nights because she was calling and cancelling all the reservations she made, tryin to get her money back BUT (again, GOD really was out for blood that day) because the cancellation was so close to some her trip most places refused to refund, or some charged her cancellation fees. She only managed to scrap 5.5 K back together, lossin 7.5 K. OUCH!
Its not over, having damning evidence I, with earned gusto, told her she was going to pay all of the bills till we move out, which was in two months, payback for all the times she was late on payment or defaulted and she would from now do her part of the house chores or else Im gonna send it all to the admin and faculty dean and she will fo sho be kicked out and all those uni years will have been for nothing. She hated it, she fucking threw tantrums and cussed me out but my god if she didnt do whats told. she cleaned her stuff, apologized to Sasha for what she did, I forced her to come clean to her BF (dont know the guy but the few times i met him he was super sweet to us and i felt bad for the guy), I watched her actually do the dishes for the first time in like years. IT was fucking amazing and I don't regret it one bit. In fact, anytime I feel sad now as an adult, i kick back my feet and reminiscine and a slow shit eatin grin draws itself upon my face.
tl;dr roommate was super mean, i found out she was cheating on her assignments and so i snitched on her and as a result she had to stay the summer and retake the class again or else she wouldn't graduate.
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{Special} College!AU Bang Chan
*this post was commissioned | find other stray kids writing here 
major: music theory & composition 
minor: linguistics 
clubs: tried to turn some members of the music club into a busking group called 3racha ,,,, lets just say they got chased off campus by some of the professors LOL, briefly did tango club against his will because yugyeom dragged him to it 
sports: co-captain of the mens swim team 
chan is the kind of college student who you meet for the first time and you think ‘wow he’s so social and popular and cool!!!!’
and then after getting to know him for a week or two
you realize he isnt cool at all - he’s social and popular - but he’s a downright GOOFBALL 
he takes his studies seriously, music means the world to him and it’s obvious
but he’s also such a ,,,,,,, in the nicest terms possible,,,,,,a big nerd about it 
because he’s gotten into heated debates in classes over who the best modern composers are 
written long, detailed editorials that he’s submitted to the uni magazine about how much he adores the new travis scott album 
and once had to be (forcefully) dragged out of a local tattoo shop by both felix and jisung 
because he was sure he needed the lyrics from drakes ‘in my feelings’ somewhere on his body
quote on quote “dude, that song is a religious experience for me”
but he’s also just devoted to it 
like he lives for all aspects of music 
singing, composing, producing, rapping, he even tries his hand at a dance class as an extracurricular 
much to the shock of minho, an actual dance major,
who got called “my son!” by chan in front of all of his other dance major friends
and has yet to forgive chan for this horror
chan actually got offered to join the welcoming committee at the university for his sophomore year 
because he has this natural leadership ability, coupled with the fact that he always wants to make everyone laugh
like he goes out of his way to make freshman and nervous looking newcomers feel like they belong
even at the expense of looking or sounding like a fool
seriously, like he was showing around some of the new music theory majors and made a bunch of attempts at corny jokes
“guys, if a cow played music what would be called? A MOO-SCICIAN!”
“what do classical composing majors say when they’re parallel parking? BACH IT UP!”
“please laugh,,,,,im begging you,,,,,”
but of course,,,he’s not a goof all by himself
him and changbin see each other on the way to class and stop in the middle of the quad to do the floss enthusiastically for one whole minute as everyone watches in disbelief
him and felix agree to photobomb literally any photo woojin tries to take of himself
and just in general,,,,,they are that loud group of rowdy boys who sometimes can get too hype and loud
but it’s hard to hate them or be annoyed because let’s be honest,,,,,they’re all adorable
chan does of course have a serious side, he’s actually incredibly caring and sensitive to those around him
when jeongin and seungmin come to visit them on campus, he takes care of them 
in subtle ways, but in ways that matter [he makes sure theyre doing well in school and have plans for college too]
he can tell when a friend is feeling down or is having trouble 
and he always lends advice or tries to get them to come out and do something fun with him to lighten the mood
there are times in college when his own work is piling up, he has responsibilities to his major and to the swim team he’s on
but he’ll do his best to cram time in to take care of those close to him,,,,,
sometimes at the expensive of his own wellbeing 
but it’s hard to tell if chan is ever upset - he covers it up with funny jokes and body gags 
him and felix love to talk and switch between english and korean super fast, mostly to annoy their friends 
but they also end up blundering over simple words and hyunjin just lowkey is like 
“hmm chan maybe you should pick up korean as a major,,,,,but it might be hard because youre at like a middle school level right now-”
chan, pretending to faint from that burn “when did i raise such a savage little monster,,,,”
his minor in linguistics comes from his ability to pick up languages 
he actually finds them fun to learn about, but he doesnt give it the same attention as he does to his music theory major
so he kinda sometimes has to go to a tutor
(he hides this from his friends because he knows he wouldnt able to live it down)
did i mention he’s co-captain of the swim team,,,,,,and he’s like oblivious to it,,,,,,, but there are literally students who just come and watch the practice to see him in swim trunks,,,,,,
jisung once came to hangout after practice and he told chan like “did you hear your friends screaming your name back in the pool?”
and chan was like huh i thought that was just in my head
jisung, looking into the camera like he’s on the office
but no again, not matter how packed chan’s schedule is, he always makes time for people when they need him
and sometimes he’s a little too self-sacrificing,,,,,,,,
also id just like to mention that he shows up to instrumental practice with his bag over his shoulder and his hair all messy and curly after he blow-dried it after swimming
and he looks cute
like mega cute
anyway
you’re a dance major who doesnt know chan all that well
you’re much closer to minho since you share a major and youve only heard of chan in stories from him
the first time you meet face to face is when the musical theory majors are tasked with organizing a song that’ll be performed by the dance majors
you’re being paired off, two dancers to one producer 
and by sheer luck you and minho get put in with chan
the first thing you notice about chan is ,,,,,, 
his big almost lopsided grin
“you guys know we have to win and make this the best collab this university has ever seen - right?”
minho crosses his hands and rolls his eyes from beside you
“dude it’s not a competition”
“ok, but im making it one. and we’re winning - right?”
chan turns to you, eyes bright and a bit of a dimple coming out when his smile manages to get even bigger on his face
you nod, a little shy at how friendly he’s being right off the bat
he plops down, minho following suit on the floor of the practice room and you take a second till you join them
“i think we need to make something powerful, something show stopping. i was thinking id use some old tracks from 3racha that i made-”
minho scrunches up his nose
“i dont think the professors would like that, i think theyre looking for something classical”
chan puffs out his cheeks like an upset third grader
and you cant resist a tiny giggle
chan catches it, smiling your way before looking back at minho
“well i guess we can do that. but what about something more,,,,classical meets modern,,,,,do you guys think that’d work for you two?”
you shift a little and chan points to you all of a sudden
“c’mon, you can tell me! i wanna make sure you guys are comfortable and can perform your best! so feel free to drag any of my ideas through the mud,,,,,,,or tell minho off for me”
he chuckles, earning a light punch in the arm from minho
but you actually feel a sense of relief
you were a tiny bit worried that you’d be ignored, working with two people who were already super close
but chan was putting in the effort to include you
so, you mentioned that maybe a more high tempo beat with orchestral influence could work
chan nods - whipping out his music notebook to start scribbling down notes
you notices that the pages are covered in a mix of english, korean, and musical notes
it looks like a total mess, but somehow chan gives off a trustworthy feeling
and when you guys are all done discussing, he promises to have a demo by next week
it’s when you’re gathering all your things that chan pops back in and drops a note in the palm of your hand
“my number! so we can talk about the project and stuff”
he says easily, waving one last time to you and minho before disappearing out of the room again
you stand there, the warmth of his hand is on the paper and you don’t want to think too much about it
but your heart definitely skips a small, minuscule beat
when you finally get the message from chan that the demo is done
you and minho meet up with him after classes and chan, with trembling hands, puts the music on
you can tell he’s nervous, he looks like he might pass out from holding his breath
but the moment you hear the audio - you fall absolutely in love
and just from this one instrumental it’s obvious chan is talented
when it’s over, minho says what you’re already thinking
“it’s perfect bro!” 
he gets up and highfives chan, who rubs some sweat from his forehead afterwords 
“now you guys have to do the actual hard part and come up with a dance”
you shake your head “this song is really great - it’s whats going to make the performance”
chan teeters a bit with his response, for the first time he’s a little caught off guard at the compliment, and you can see the reddening of his ears
“ah,,,i mean it’s ok,,,,but really you and minho are going to have to work hard to-”
he’s interrupted by the sound of the door swinging open 
an upperclassmen that calls chan over to answer some questions
you stand there, holding the USB with the mp3 of the song in your hands 
your mind racing with ideas for choreography 
but when you turn, you see past minho whose saying something to you
and you see only chan in the blur of the rest of the room
he’s glowing, in this halo that you’re sure isn’t actually there
and you force yourself to snap out of it 
because this is weird
you shouldnt see him as anything more than your partner in this project
and that’s what you do see him as
you’re sure of it
but,,,,,,as time passes and chan starts hanging around you even more 
you start to be a little unsure of where he stands in your mind 
most of the time it’s you, him, and minho in the dance practice room
the song on repeat as you and minho show off anything new you’ve come up with 
sometimes you end up being twirled around by minho, sometimes he’s throwing you up in the air, sometimes you’re both laying on the floor making dramatic pulls toward each other
you plan solo parts for each other too
and even though chan admits he has not much experience in judging other peoples dancing
he thinks you two look great together 
he’s always supportive, and he’s always being funny to lighten the mood
there’s moments were either you or minho start to panic about it all coming together
and chan is there with some corny joke
or the usual “what did i say you guys, we’re going to be number one!”
to cheer you guys up
but when you really start to worry about your feelings 
is when one weekend you get a knock on your dorm door
and to your surprise, it’s not someone on your floor asking for an extra charger or an RA trying to find your roommate
it’s chan
he’s got on a training suit, the uni’s name on the back and a duffel bag you’re sure isnt big enough to fit a guitar or anything like that
“chan?”
you ask, shocked
“did you just come from practice or something?”
he laughs, “actually a swim meet - i just thought id stop by and ask if you had time to show me your solo part of the performances.”
you blank for a second
you’d thought this would be another saturday of you laying on your stomach in your mismatched pajamas
watching videos of dancers on youtube, maybe texting a friend to go out and eat
but, even after you agree, and ask chan to wait in the hall while you change
you realize this is going to be the first time you and chan are,,,,,,,,alone
thankfully one of the practice rooms is free when you get to the building
and you suddenly feel really anxious
chan slides down against the mirror and claps
“im excited, i saw minho’s yesterday and thought i should ask you out - i mean ask to see yours too. i was going to invite him, but i think he’s doing something with jisung today”
you hear chan’s voice
but because of your anxiety, the beating of your heart is much louder in your ears
he puts the song on and you try hard to focus
you know what your solo dance is - you know the moves - youve practiced it on your own
but you cant move an inch
“h-hey are you ok?”
chan sees the way your eyes have gone wide, how you’ve frozen and cant seem to snap back out of it
he gets up, stopping the song, and suddenly you feel his hands on your shoulders
you look up into his kind brown eyes
and he gives you that smile, that’s kind of silly but still somehow so genuine 
“are you nervous?”
you nod slowly, embarrassed
“s-sorry, i dont know whats going on i just-”
chan gives your shoulder a gentle squeeze
“it’s fine, but minho told me that your solo is amazing. i know you can do it. just imagine that im like,,,,wearing a big clown nose or something and relax. plus,,,”
he grins
“even if you mess up - i promise im too dumb in dancing to tell”
you laugh a little and chan goes back to sit down and get the music up
this time, you focus on yourself in the mirror
and just let the song chan wrote flow through you like water
the room melts away
even chan’s presence becomes muted
and you just dance
and when it’s over, you look to see chan’s reaction
and he just looks,,,,,,,mesmerized
he scrambles to his feet, but doesnt even say anything
his mouth open, agape like a fish out of water
“i,,,,i cant tell if you liked it,,,”
you ask with an unsure tone 
and chan just shakes his head, his soft curls falling all over the place
“i loved it - i didnt think it’d be that - that beautiful you know? especially to my mediocre song-”
“your song is the reason it’s beautiful”
you blurt out, but then turn a little red when you realize what youve said
even though it’s true
a dancer has to work with something good in order to create something nice to look at 
and chan’s song had resonated with you 
chan stops in front of you and for a second neither of you know what to say
until he puts his hand out and goes
“let’s go get lunch. all that dancing made me hungry.”
you lift an eyebrow, “but you didnt dance,,,,”
“but you did, aren’t you hungry?”
you shrug, “i could go for,,,,pancakes maybe,,,”
chan grins, and leans down 
his hand takes yours and you gasp a little when he laces his fingers betwen yours as well
“pancakes it is!”
he takes you to a nearby place, and even though it’s way past breakfast and the waitress kind of stares when you two order your pancakes and coffee
neither of you really minds
because for the first time it’s just you and chan talking
and to your surprise, there’s a lot you have in common
and it just feels comfortable
he makes everything so easy and free flowing
like you guys talk about your majors, but you talk about aspirations and traveling
and chan tells you about australia with sparkling eyes and a wildly good imitation of a koala bear
and you laugh so hard you have to hide a snort when chan ends up getting maple syrup all over his chin
but he also tells you not to hide a snort, because a snort is cute 
he calls you FREAKING cute
afterwords you two return to campus
but chan runs into park jinyoung, an upperclassman, who apparently works at the college bookstore
and who pinches chan on the ear and says
“instead of dates, you should be studying. but also be sure to be a gentlemen to them.”
you blush so hard, but chan is too in pain and begging jinyoung to let go of his ear to notice
you tell chan that if he has to go, he should
but chan insists that he has time - his linguistics tutor is meeting him at 7 (please dont tell minho that) 
and that maybe you guys can like watch a movie before then
you stare a little and ask “w-watch one where?”
“in my dorm!”
chan grins
but a moment later it falls into an embarrassed, worried look
“i-i-i didnt mean it- li- i just - i - we could - i just - i stole felix’s netflix password so i just thought like maybe youd want to watch like stranger things with me or something - i didnt mean i - i”
his flustering is adorable 
and you do end up watching stranger things on his laptop
but it’s in the common room and you guys have to share his headphones
and when it’s nearing time for him to go
he walks you back to his dorm and gives you the longest, warmest hug of your life
when he leaves, you walk right into your room and fall face first into your pillow because
was that a date
it was totally a date
but after that,,,,,,,,you and chan don’t get to hangout one on one anymore
not to say he changes how he acts around you or anything 
he’s still this sunshine goofball full of positive energy
but he doesnt,,,,,show up at your dorm asking to go out 
he doesnt text you outside of the group chat with minho
and you’re just left confused
because you were sure there were signs - there had to be
it’s clear as day, the memory of chan laughing - watching you as you had leaned over the table to help him clean off the maple syrup
or how he’d let you practically lay your head in his lap while you guys watched stranger things
so why did it suddenly feel like that day,,,,,didn’t happen
as the days to the performance in front of the professors get closer
you fortunately have that to distract you
alongside other schoolwork and responsibilities 
minho asks you at some point if you want to come and get dinner with him and chan
but you feel like you cant,,,,so you refuse
and it’s like being around them - your nightmare comes true, but not because they exclude you, but you start to push yourself away
the last practice before the performance
you’re running a bit late to meet up with minho and chan 
and when you stop infront of the door, you hear the two of them talking
but it’s,,,,,,,,,,tense?
“so you did spend time alone with them, didn’t you?”
“yeah, they showed me their solo part. it was for the project.”
“woojin says he saw you hugging them outside of their dorm,,,,,,dude just tell me straight - it was a date right?”
there’s a pause 
and you realize that they’re talking about you and chan
“no it wasn’t a date. you know i wouldnt do that to you.”
it feels for a second like the air has left your lungs
it wasn’t a date? 
“i dont think of them like that.”
a second twinge of pain shoots up through you, chan’s voice resounding through the room 
had you really misread the signs? was he just being friendly? did you just foolishly think that the first guy to be sweet, would inevitably fall in love with you?
you feel like running away, you really do
but you know that tonight is the last practice - after that it’s just the performance
and then you wont have an excuse to see chan, and he wont need to see you either
so you take in a breathe, plaster a smile on your face, and walk in
the two boys stop talking
there’s no change in expression from minho
he just chooses to look down
but chan does his best to match your smile, but it’s so painfully forced that you cant look at him for too long
“ok, tomorrow is the day so we just have to-”
“i know.”
you cut him off, not necessarily trying to sound angry, but just wishing that this whole thing would be over
the practice goes smoothly
but everything feels like it’s being held in a chokehold
neither you or minho is dancing to your best abilities
and chan excuses himself after the first run through 
and when you find yourself in bed that night, you turn on your side and stare at the blank screen on your phone
“i guess im just an idiot huh,,,,,” you mumble
the one time something nice happens, with someone i could really come to like, it always has to get ruined
chan is nowhere to be seen in the morning
minho is adjusting the shirt he’s wearing beside you and you don’t want to admit it to yourself
but you know you’ll be super hurt if chan doesnt show up
“he’s coming, don’t worry”
minho suddenly reassures
his hand hovering over your shoulder before he pulls it back
you hear the professors call you and minho out, commenting that the instrumental had been produced by musical theory bang chan
you step out in front of the panel of teachers and scan the room quickly
looks like he really didnt come
you turn to face minho and notice he looks just as down as you do
but that’s not what matters now
you have to do a good job on the performance at least
the music starts, the music chan made for you and minho, and you let it flow through you like the first time you heard it
regardless of whats happened - the music is perfect
it fits the movements of your body like glove
you and minho look like you were born to dance this dance for this song
and because you’re so focused
you don’t see the door open quietly, chan leaning against the back wall and watching
his eyes following the tips of your fingers, the bend of your waist, the way you twirl past the professors and minho
how you take what he’s created and channel it throughout every muscle and bone in your body
he had meant it 
when he said you’d made his music look beautiful 
and when it’s over
you face the professors, catching your breath professionally 
and then you see 
chan
the professors are saying nothing but good things, praising you and minho and the music 
but again - the room blurs and it’s just him
once it’s over and the other dance majors are all fawning over you two
you think that maybe you should at least go over and say thank you to chan, one last time for the music
but you cant find the strength to do it right now
instead you try to get your things together quickly and get out of there
but halfway across campus, you hear someone call your name
you turn, shocked to see chan
he’s standing maybe three feet back 
and you have the urge to lie, tell him you’re late for something
but you cant say anything because the expression on his face is nothing like usual
no lopsided smile, no goofy face, no sincere and gentle reassurance
it’s pain
“hey - you heard us yesterday didn’t you?”
his voice is low, and you think you can even hear it shake slightly as he asks you 
“w-what are you talking about”
you play dumb, clutching the strap of your bag so hard you feel the texture dig into your skin
“you heard what i said to minho, that i didnt think ,,,,, what we had was a date. that i didnt see you romantically,,,,”
you swallow a lump you hadnt known was in your throat
you dont feel like dealing with this now - being humiliated after a performance that took every ounce of your energy
“so what if i did, i get it. it’s fine. you don’t have to pity me or any-”
“i was lying.”
you catch yourself on the last words of your sentence
staring at chan you see that his shoulders are stiff 
“i lied, to minho and to myself. it’s just,,,,,i know he likes you. and he’s my friend so i want him to be happy but i,,,,,,but i ,,,,,,”
he takes a moment
and there are students walking past you
the world is moving all around
but it doesnt feel like that, you cant tell the faces apart, you cant overhear their conversations
“but i like you too and i dont,,,,,,,i dont want to hide it anymore.”
you think this should be a happy moment, a moment that overflows you with warmth 
but it feels like it cant be that
not when you now know that there are minho’s feelings involved
but past that - you know your feelings 
and you know that they’re for chan
so you step forward 
and so does chan
until the distance is closed between you two and you look up into those brown eyes
that are always so sweet, so kind and nurturing 
“i like you too. i dont want to hurt minho, id never want to see him sad. but i want you. i want to be with you.”
chan’s lips twitch a little, like he’s fighting against a smile or a frown
“i want to kiss you”
he suddenly whispers
“but i think it’ll be bittersweet.”
you agree, eyes shifting from the curve of his mouth and back up into his gaze
you both decide that the first order of business is to tell minho
you think it’l be awkward and hard
but the moment you and chan walk through the dance practice room, minho just sighs
“i already knew it.”
he announces, before even you or chan can get to the apologizing and explanations
he looks at you gently, “i didnt want you to find out this way - but dont worry. chan is the best guy and the only one i think deserves you.”
you dont even get to thank minho
because chan throws himself into the other boys hands
sobbing about how nice that was of him to say and how he’s going to do everything in his power to find minho his soulmate
and minho is just like 
“please get your boyfriend off me”
you manage to pull back chan
but you’re also like, ,,, huh,,,,,,boyfriend,,,,,,right i guess he is
but just in case
as you two are leaving the dance studio you ask
“are we like,,,dating”
chan puts a hand under his chin
“well, let’s see. i like you. you like me. minho seems to not be hurt at all about this. i want to kiss you so bad im going dizzy. i think it’s safe to say we are dating.”
you giggle, lifting up to kiss the side of chan’s cheek
“there, it’s a kiss i think we can both agree on for today.”
chan pinkness, but agrees
your first,,,well second? date is the next week
you have to wait for chan to leave class and you’re surprised to see him carrying a guitar case
he explains that he isn’t all that good, but it’s part of his major to learn instruments 
and when you guys grab lunch you end up having chan teach you some chords 
it’s a simple kind of date, you get to talk a lot and just enjoy each others company
but of course
chan finds some way to make it funny
(like when he tries to play the instrumental to a song you said you liked and you could tell three seconds in he had no idea what he was doing)
as you two continue to go out and grow closer you come to know more about chan
than just his goofy and caring side
there’s the chan who, in one way or another, is the dad friend
you see first hand how he worries about younger friends, how he reminds felix to call his parents after finals, how he shoves all the snacks he has in his bag into jisungs hands when jisung says he hasnt eaten
there’s the chan whose a perfectionist, critiquing his own work and musical abilities to hell and back
there’s the chan who also,,,,,,is super naive and new to this whole romance thing
surprisingly, he’s unaware of how attractive he is 
and when he wears a lowcut shirt under his jacket out on a date, he keeps putting his hands over the skin and getting all shy
and you’re just like 
“chan,,,,,you know you’re hot right?”
and he almost hits the ceiling like 
“WHA,,,,,stop joking around!”
you: “i can’t call my boyfriend hot?”
chan, digging a whole in the ground to hide in: “yo-you’re the only hot person here,,,”
but really, dating him is such a great and positive experience
because he really is your number one fan and supporter 
and it’s impossible to really argue with him - because if you want to do something, chan is down for it
even if it’s something he’s new to or owrried about
you can tell he fights through his own worries in order to make you happy
which you actually tell him he doesnt have to do
you sit down with your hands on his and youre like chan i want you to be happy too, relationships are about equality 
it makes him so happy he tackles you in a hug ,,,
gosh he’s like an overexcited and loveable puppy
he does this thing where you’ll just be doing something like scrolling through your phone
or looking through a magazine
and he’ll stare at you and go “i love you”
and you’re like,,,,i love you too but why are you just saying it 
and he just shrugs
“felt like it”
“when do you not feel like saying it then?”
“never. i always want you to know i love you.”
is the boyfriend who claims you think all his jokes are funny
and you’re like sure :-) *shaking your head no the moment he looks away*
pulls little, cute surprises for you every now and then
like he left a teddy bear outside your dorm with a heart balloon once
or stuck a sticky note in your bag about how you’re the cutest person ever
“love you possum”
“did you,,,did you just call me a possum”
“it’s an aussie thing. plus possums are cute”
guess who got a plushie of a possum for valentines day? you did!
guess who got a plushie of a koala for  valentines day? chan did!
to be honest get ready to be called every cute pet name that’s available in english, korean, and any other language chan can remember 
you become known on campus by a bunch of upperclassmen when you start dating chan
like this kid named yugyeom walks up to you and is like “did chan take you somewhere fun yet!”
or you met jinyoung again and he told you to make sure chan is studying for his minor 
you and chan were just sitting on the quad once, with your legs over his and his hand stroking your hair
and it was super cute and adorable
and then woojin plopped down next to you and was like
“we found old 3racha videos we want you to see”
and you’re like “3racha?”
and woojin is just like OH YOU HAVENT HEARD
chan tried to chase him off, but jisung - who isnt embarrassed of 3racha era at all - whipped out his phone and was like “let me show you”
jokingly rapping chan’s iconic lines at him and him scrunching up his cute nose
remember when chan got those little cuts in his eyebrow ,,,, you didnt say it but you were like ,,,, ok wow,,,,,how did he get even more handsome
kissing chan? an experience
he shyly admits that his knowledge is kind of limited - and at first it’s a little sloppy 
but he knows what to do with his hands, you dont know how, but he pulls you close or holds the back of your neck
and you melt
but the moment you get flirty, it literally K.O’s chan
if you as much as wink at him or slip your shirt off your shoulder he turns to color of a tomato it’s hilarious
he also really likes when you sit in his lap
he always pulls you in when he has you listen to something he’s composed 
or when he’s got his computer open and he’s like come watch this
and you’re like scoot over
but he’s like no, you just can sit on my lap, it’s yours, forever
swim team chan! coming out of the changing rooms with his hair still wet and shaking it so some of the water gets on you
you get to wear his team jacket :-)
chan lowkey takes all romantic holidays and stuff super seriously, like he goes all out for anything that involves couples
and even if you’re a little embarrassed by it, he’s like no we gotta do it
matching from head to toe? probably corny - but chan is living for it
you and chan mutually agreeing to dote on jeongin like he’s a baby is just a given
because you’re both busy in college, lots of dates are like getting coffee and holding hands and being cute around campus
jisung and bangchan making gagging noises in the background
but chan always muses about taking you somewhere abroad
traveling with you and just being alone 
you tell him that neither of you has the money right now but maybe in the future
you bet chan is like “oh yeah, im talking about it like our honeymoon”
“h-honeymoon?!?!”
chan, covering his outh and turning red: “i ,,, uh,,,, what,,, huh,,,”
but honestly does he daydream about marrying you? im just going to let you decide that
(it’s a hard yes. of course he does. he’s a romantic fool) 
OH how could i forget
the corny texts
sure there are chan’s bad dad jokes, his selfies where he’s doing dumb faces, and the usual complaining about bangchan being mean to him
but there are also the
‘forget to tell you this, but you’re always on my mind’
‘im such a mess, im thankful you still love me’
‘when the world overwhelms you, ill be there to listen to your fears’
and the one that made you nearly break your phone in half because ,,,, cuteness and corn overload
‘im yours, so you better take responsibility for that’
chan is the kind of guy who’d let you draw on his face with a sharpie or lipstick and he’d wear it outside proud because this is my s/o’s art!
if you asked him to run across town to get you cheesecake at 2 am? consider it done
he just loves you with his big heart and,,,,it’s amazing 
but you love him with as much passion - and that’s what makes him truly feel like you’re the one
because you match him perfectly
slow dancing in his dorm to the sound of a self composed instrumental he made just  for your anniversary
and then kissing softly with his hans on your hips and your hands on his face
and him leaning back to tell you
you’re the best thing that has ever happened to him
yeah that’s just one night dating chan, can you imagine dating him forever??????
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I have wanted to be an Egyptologist since I wad 4 years old. And I'm not going to lie, I'm terrified of failing my dreams. Rn Im only in my 2nd year of my bachelors (For a classics degree as a base- the college I had to go to doesnt have Egyptology but it seems compliant with the place I'm looking for my MA/PhD- which will be in Egyptology) I make good grades and even try to research outside of class. I still feel like I'm never doing enough. Should I be so worried at this stage? (In u.s.a.)
I spoke with the Egyptology discord on how to answer this, and we came to the conclusion that you need to ask yourself why you’re so terrified of failing? 
You’re obviously getting good grades, and doing extra research, which is good and will likely give you a boost when you get to MA/PhD level. You’re obviously on the right path, even though it’s in a separate discipline, so that’s good. What is it that you think you’re doing wrong? What is it that you think you’re missing? I’m UK based, so for me to get into Egyptology it was taking history based GCSEs and A-Levels (a history qualification isn’t even necessary to get on the course! Many people have other qualifications when they start), applied to a Uni that did Egyptology, and then worked my way through. 
The thing with failure, and the thing I had to learn the hard way, is that you can’t be afraid to fail. To quote the great Jean Luc Picard (who isn’t real (don’t @ me star trek fans), but gives good advice):
It is possible to commit no mistakes and still lose. That is not a weakness; that is life.
70% of all research I did for PhD was outright rejected by my adviser as ‘not good enough’ even though I’d worked my ass off to get it done and ready for him. I felt like shit every time this happened, but I had to learn that, no, it wasn’t good enough. I had to learn to be a failure, because all my life I’d always been top of my class and got good grades. There was a point during my PhD, when I was depressed as hell and struggling to do anything, that I realised that I might not make it to the end of it, even though that’s all I’d wanted since my 1st year of UG. I’d never learned how to accept that what I wanted might not actually happen despite all my best efforts. I think you’re putting too much emphasis on this being the only thing you’ve ever wanted. It’s good that you want to be an Egyptologist, and have known this since you were young, but there might come a point that despite your best efforts things just don’t work out. It’s ok for this to happen. It doesn’t make you a failure as a person. 
Right now you’re on the right track and doing everything I’d expect you to be doing in order to get to the higher levels of academia. One thing I would suggest is to not do too much extra reading on Egypt quite yet, as this may end up being detrimental to your current course and also you might get Everything You Know or Have Read About Egypt is Wrong Syndrome™ because your MA will contradict what you’ve read. It’s common and I see way too many people go through it when they start Egyptology.
The only other things we would suggest is finding classes to begin learning Hieroglyphs (you will need at least the basics if you’re starting MA) and learn a foreign language (German is your best bet with Egyptology, but French will also do). You don’t even have to do those things, as I’m sure there’ll be classes on them as part of the course. 
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misunderstanding | han mubo
Han Mubo doesn’t like you, but you’ve literally never spoken to him before.
for anon:  I would like to request a "Hate to lovers" with him. Like y/n was a new staff member but she was always fooling around, joking and being loud with the baby line... Which according to Mubo only made them more difficult to handle and that's why he doesnt like her, because she was "unprofessional".
yall im really sorry i didn’t like how this turned out but im so exhausted maybe i’ll come back and rewrite yikes
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so you were a new staff member on the idol producer set
you were hired as an intern, since you were still in college and majoring in film production
it was you and two other people from your university who were hired, so the three of you mostly did things together
and since the three of you were younger, you quickly became friends with the younger trainees on the show
they were under a lot of pressure, so it wasn’t uncommon to see the three of you with the usual suspects-- zuo ye, li quanzhe, justin, qian zhenghao and the other munchkins
you’d joke around and tease them, and it really seemed to help them take their mind off of how stressful everything was
and you formed a particularly close friendship w zuo ye!!
he was just so sweet and kind and you felt super protective of him
but one night, you were cleaning out the practice rooms when you found him crying by himself????
and so the two of you talked and he explained that he felt like he would never be as good as his ges
and ofc after that he came to you for a lot of advice
one afternoon, you and zuo ye were chatting about the upcoming position evaluations
zuo ye was laughing at a joke you’d made when han mubo came down the hall, both of you quieting at the sight of him
you hadn’t ever really talked to mubo, so you were confused as to why he was glaring at you like that???
you’d literally never spoken to him, but it really seemed like he didn’t like you
“zuo ye, shouldn’t you be practicing?” mubo asked casually, still glaring over at you
you raised an eyebrow at that, patting zuo ye’s shoulder, who nodded and trotted off quickly, obviously intimidated by the dark atmosphere
there were a few beats of silence, and then mubo spoke
“can you maybe not distract my trainees? i know that it isn’t the same for the staff, but these are our dreams, and zuo ye really doesn’t need anything distracting him.”
you scoffed at that, glaring back at han mubo
“if you think what i’m doing is distracting, maybe you should check yourself and your ability to lead,” you shot back before stalking off, fuming at the encounter
as filming continued, you kept noticing instances where you’d be joking with a trainee or something and mubo would roll his eyes or cross his arms
you’d even spoken with qin fen about it, who was pretty chill, and he just shrugged
“this means a lot to mubo, i know it’s hard to understand but he really cares deeply about this project.”
grudgingly, you did admit to yourself that you understood his perspective, but you were still pissed about how he’d approached the situation
when zuo ye and the others were eliminated off the show, of course, you were heartbroken
but you and zuo ye stayed in touch (ofc !! he’s ur son???) while you continued with filming
and you could just sense mubo being salty about it
anyways so eventually, the final episode rolls around
all the staff are super stressed and pressured bc it’s a live show
so literally everything has to be perfect
mannn they got you running around the place, buying gallons of coffee as the writers and producers pull multiple all-nighters
you chat with qin fen a few times, asking how zuo ye’s doing and such
a few nights before the livestream of the final episode, you’re in a training room helping a few members of the ‘mack daddy’ team get their timing down, since the dance instructors were all busy
qin fen is sitting next to you, citing his old bones as the reason why he wasn’t practicing
as ziyi shows chen linong a move again, qin fen turns to you casusally
“you know, mubo feels bad for yelling at you,” he said offhandedly, making you roll your eyes
“han mubo can tell me this himself,” you retorted, leaning back against the mirror as linong copied the move. “linong, you were a beat off.”
linong shoots you a thumbs-up as qin fen groans, running a hand through his hair
“mubo...” qin fen’s voice trailed off, “he’s bad at expressing his emotions. trust me, i’m the one who he vents to.”
you glanced down at the clipboard in your hand, “that’s nice.”
with a sigh, qin fen got to his feet, rejoining the formation of sweaty boys
your conversation with qin fen is forgotten until the day of the final filming, when zuo ye tackles you with a huge hug, clad in his grey idol producer suit
he’s immediately chattering away as you guide him to where the boys are supposed to sit, peiyao, zimo and mubo a few steps behind the two of you
as the two of you talk, you can feel mubo’s stare trained on you, and as you turn and make eye contact with the older, you feel your heart speed up for a quick min??
but you shrug it off, running to join the film crew that you were assigned to
about an hour before the show goes live, one of the cameramen asks you to grab his clipboard
“it’s in the office on the floor of the dorms,” he says, shooing you off, “hurry, hurry!”
you nod, trottiing off towards the main building obediently, feeling your lungs burn with the simple exercise
rip
anyways you grab the clipboard and hurry back to the elevator, punching the button as many times as possible
“wait, hold the elevator!”
you watch with wide eyes as mubo barrels into the elevator, clutching an inhaler in one hand, obviously out of breath
“um,” you say intelligently, refusing to acknowledge how good mubo looked with his hair and makeup done
mubo looks down at you awkwardly as the doors of the elevator close, hand going up to ruffle his hair
instinctively your hand shoots out to stop him, grasping his wrist
mubo’s eyes widen at the contact, hand going back to his side
“sorry,” you say softly, blinking quickly, “instinct. the stylists are always scolding us for not monitoring you.”
mubo chuckled at that, shifting his weight slightly
“no worries,” he replied, a little less awkward now, “i just had to grab qin fen’s inhaler, don’t want anything to happen.”
you glance over at the inhaler in his hand, nodding in understanding
there’s a few moments of silence, and you’re actually about to die from how awkward it was
“hey, um,” mubo coughed, “listen, i’m sorry for what i had said before. it was out of line.”
you peer up at the taller, raising an eyebrow
“did qin fen put you up to this?”
“peiyao, actually,” mubo grinned, and you chuckled at his joke
“it’s fine,” you replied as the elevator doors open, the two of you walking back to the big filming studio, “i mean, it wasn’t fine, but i understand why you said what you did.”
“i’m really sorry, though,” mubo reiterated, “i tend to get really tense and weird around people i--” mubo’s voice cut off, and he coughed awkwardly again, “um, around people. i’m weird around people.”
you raised an eyebrow as mubo metaphorically crashed his car of a sentence and watched it burn
“fuck, sorry,” mubo groaned, almost dragging a hand through his hair before you sent him a withering glare, “ugh, fuck, i’ll just stop talking.��
you giggled at that, the two of you entering the big studio
immediately, the sound of staff and trainees alike yelling, chattering and practicing their various songs washed over you, making you wince at how loud it was
mubo had a similar reaction, visibly flinching before starting to head over to where the oaca trainees were seated
“hey, mubo,” you called out suddenly, surprising yourself as well as the other, “good luck today.”
mubo paused in his steps before sending you a smile
“thanks.”
the final filming went past in a blur, and soon you were congratulating the trainees who made it and comforting those who didn’t
and before you knew it, you and your classmates were packing your things and on the long bus ride back to beijing
(rip)
on the bus ride back, you had a lot of time to yourself to reflect on the events
and your thoughts kept coming back to that moment in the elevator with mubo
like bruh that’s some shit from a fucking drama or something
you’ve finally figured out that you have a crush on mubo, and you’re traveling miles away from your one chance
your friends from uni pick up on the fact that your mind is clearly somewhere else, but at this point, you know that there isn’t anything that you can do
your only connection to mubo is through the other oaca boys, but you knew it would be awkward to reach out to him in this way after the odd way you’d parted
about a month after the end of idol producer, you’re sitting in a cafe near your university, working on a paper that was due in a few days
as you sigh, rubbing your eyes, you hear someone cough
“(y/n)?”
you look up from your computer screen, and your eyes widen in surprise as you see han mubo standing there, also looking a little startled
“oh, mubo?” you raise an eyebrow
“do you mind if i sit with you?” mubo asked tentatively, taking the seat after you nod quickly, moving your notebooks off the table quickly
“what are you doing here?” you ask in confusion, tapping your fingernails against the keyboard on your laptop
“oh, we’ve been coming to this cafe for a while,” mubo explained
the two of you struck up a conversation after that, catching up on everything that had happened after filming ended
you felt bad for zimo and zuo ye, with the amount of homework they were still catching up on
and to your surprise, the conversation with mubo wasn’t stilted or awkward at all
in fact, you found yourself giggling as he made a few jokes in between sips of his coffee
mubo glanced down at his phone offhandedly as you laughed at his latest joke, swearing under his breath
“shoot, i’m late for practice,” he said, quickly tugging his sweatshirt on over his head
“oh, i’m sorry to keep you,” you apologized quickly, instantly feeling bad
“no, no,” mubo shook his head as it poked through the neck of his hoodie, “this was really nice! i just lost track of time.”
you nodded a bit awkwardly, unsure if you should ask mubo for his number or social media or something
“hey, we should do this again,” mubo said suddenly, hovering over you with his fingers running through his hair, “chill at a cafe or something, i mean. you’re really chill to talk to, and qin fen has been on my ass about asking you on a date.”
you laughed at that, shaking your head as you imagined qin fen scolding mubo
“get my number from zuo ye,” you said playfully, smiling up at the trainee, “you’re already late enough for practice.”
mubo’s eyes got wide as he fully realized just how late he was, hurrying out of the cafe in a dash
“i’ll see you later!”
was the final episode of ip filmed in a different city from the training site? yes. does this make this scenario factually inaccurate? yes. do i care? yes. am i tiredt and not willing to figure out a better plot device? yes.
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