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youuuimeanmee · 3 months

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SxF Chapter 95 Thoughts

The drought is over.

And HOLY MOLY

AAAAAA I know we're nearing the end-semester gala but I never thought we'd get it on THIS chapter AAAADHJDJSKDN

When I saw the chapter is 21-pages long, I made sure to savor it well sskskjs

"Guardians will not be attending the gala." DAMMIT. Oh wait, Twillight can just disguise himself as a volunteer. I forgot.

Lol this is really not good for Damian's poor little heart.

WOHOO Becky cute!!

Huh, looks like Henry and Martha had a history together. Maybe they used to be classmates in Eden? Or something else, maybe.

The party is different than I expected. I thought ALL students will mingle in one place. I thought we'd meet Demetrius here. Oh well.

Damn this is depressing. Reassignation class based on academic performances. It's really happening. Anya will be separated from Becky. Hopefully their classroom will not be that far off 🥲

Damn Damian. Looking fine there, like a true young chaebol.

ANYA IS CUTE!! She's a princess!! 😭💕 I was surprised with her hair, I thought she'd keep the haircones. It's almost like as long as the little bundle of her hair is protected, any hairstyle is fine. Her dress though... It's darker than I expected; I thought she'd go with light color. But this is fine too. She's cute either way. (lowkey reminds me of a little witch, lol). It's also cute how she and Damian looks matching with black-and-white outfits, hehe. (Then again, this is b&w manga. Will their outfits have different color in the colored illlustration?)

Nicee Ewen, you do know when to give credits when it's due.

Nah Damian you're just making up shit now. You have excellent eyes, you know her dress is not cheap.

Of course Damian would fo anything for any imperial-scholar related. Cute.

Now this is interesting.

Some people say it's a reference to Harry Potter, so I wonder if some of it will turn out to be true. Especially the last two: "the cursed underground maze in section 4" and "the sealed chamber in the tower of wisdom." Sounds like hella suspicious places for a school filled with top political figures in the country. What if those are the places Donovan entered often? Hmmm. *sus glance* Wonder if DamiAnya gang will tackle the 7 mysteries like in Jibaku Shounen Hanako-kun and see something they shouldn't see like in Promised Neverland, lol.

Anya, you got this! It's the name you learned in the school's interview! She already forgot, lol. But at least she got the "Ben" right!

Wonder if any of these kids will become Anya's new classmate, lol. Endo really used his break time brainstorming new characters here.

OMG IM DED. Narcis Hubrisse. Brayzen. These fucking fitting names I swear 🤣🤣🤣

Yesss you go Becky. Set your standard high. Don't mingle yourself with these lowly boys.

YAAASS. A GENTLEMAN ASKING ANYA OUT. YOU GO BOY. Even if it's a facade at least it's better than these Hubrisse and Brayzen boys.

OH.MY.GOD. FFFUUUUCKKK AJDNSKDBKDJDJSKHDUDJXNJDKDHDJJSJKSJSJSYEEEESSSSSS

HE'S HEREE HE'S FUCKING HERE. His hairstyle is ugly but HE'S HERE. I was wondering if we're gonna meet him soon. I was righttt, he iss gonna be a recurring character. I mean look at the name reveal from chapter 93. Look at that damn edgy hair. Hopefully he will be Anya's new classmate. But I never thought he'd put an interest in her as a runner-up in the classical language test. What is his background? How is he so good with the classical languange to even reach 90-ish points even though it's rarely taught? Does he have a connection with Anya with his gift in classical language and weird hairstyle? Why does he have such unsettling bow tie? I need to knooww

And he even pull off such a strong reaction from Damian too, skskjsksk. 2nd ML candidate? Lmao

Good to know Arnold's family is B tier. Not bad.

Twillightt you got soft. Letting Anya and Damian do whatever they want? What happen to the mission?

Lowkey sad to see Anya trying hard because Twillight didn't trust she would do a good job in plan B.

Oh mah gahh these preciouss kiddss 😭True homiess 😭😭💕💕

At least this will ensure Anya to get her place fair and square.

I wonder if Twillight realize Anya is approaching Damian for the sake of world peace she mentioned. Or he's simply motivated with Anya's motivation.

But at this rate, the dance will be over the moment Damian got his partner, lmaoo

Great comeback chapter! 🔥🔥🔥

*Edit: Screw what I said that Arnold might be the 2nd ML. I don't trust his hairstyle, his droopy eyes, his bow tie, and his polite manners. So far we've seen only adorable children but he could be evil for all we know. Better be cautious than sorry.*

#spy x family #spy x family manga #spy x family manga spoilers #spy x family 95 #sxf #sxf manga #sxf manga spoilers #sxf spoilers #sxf 95

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ticklishfiend · 1 month

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3, 4, 6, 7, 23, and 26! 💖

3. What are some of your favorite tickling related stories, art, videos, or other posts on tumblr?

oooo amazing question. okay these are gonna be some recs for fics i’ve been rereading recently. so any fics by @tklpilled are so good and re-readable, i’d rec lose myself in you , and dandelion. anything by @thebest-medicine is gonna have me in a chokehold but these kill me every time lustige-geschichten , relentless , arms up , and this lovely piece of art by @ticklishfanart is sooooo <33

4. What is your favorite tickle story trope?

aaaaah that’s so tough pls. maybe not my favorite but i’m a sucker for the ler discovering the lee is ticklish and tickling for a second just to tease them, before stopping cause they don’t wanna go overboard. then they realize the lee has gone all quiet and blushy, so the ler playfully interrogates them with teases and tickles til they admit they like it dhsjfjd

6. What fictional character(s) would you love to see have a canonical tickle scene?

oh so many. literally. every fav character i’ve ever had. definitely zuko, nothing crazy cause im canon i rlly think he’d Hate That LMAO but like. lil squeeze maybe. make him snicker 😝 and also bakugou, either in the exact same way as zuko, or getting wrecked by his friends or even some weird tickle villain LMAOO my boys deserve to laugh 🙏

7. What fictional character(s) would you love to tickle and / or be tickled by?

blushes. okay i would love to be tickled by korra hdjsjf she’s just so strong and teasy i would die. if i were to be the ler, probably either robin or steve from stranger things LOL they’d be the cutest lees (would not hate revenge tickles from both either……)

23. What’s your favorite way to tickle someone and / or to be tickled?

ooooo okay so when i’m tickling, i love being like. methodical with it. when i tickled my friend/partner for the first time, i laid them across my lap and slowly but surely found all their tickle spots before wrecking their worst spots at the end lol. when i’m being tickled, i either want Exactly what i do when i ler, or i wanna be pinned bc im a very big squirmer fhskjfd

26. What is your favorite thing about tickling?

oh goshh that’s so hard. so when it’s me getting tickled, i love being made to laugh like that, it genuinely feels so good getting to let go and just feel. i love the power dynamic, i love how it’s a little embarrassing and makes me get flustered cause hardly anything else in the world can make me flustered like that. it’s dynamic in a way that can be both fun and playful with no ulterior intentions other than having fun, while also able to be sensual and intimate in the right contexts. i could talk abt my love of tickling for pages and pages so ill just stop there LOL

#ask #ask game #tickle community #tickling

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gu6chan · 2 months

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So What Was Yaha's Deal? Drakengard Things You Might Not Know

GOD okay so im finally rambling about him okay so

I've been thinking about Yaha lately and it's really dawning on me how a lot of people just do NOT know about Yaha's past and it makes sense!! Literally NONE of this is available in English and it's so :( but also it makes me sad both because it's SO good and also because when people shrug him off as just "Reason Drakengard 2 sucks: it has a gay stereotype" like oh you do NOT even know omg

anyways, just so we're on the same page: this is NOT a theory discussing what happened to Yaha, just the best collage of what's ACTUALLY considered "canon" that I've picked up from different side materials and interviews (Most notably, Memory of Blood and World Inside). If I ever find anything else I'll be sure to update it :3

I WILL dive into a bit of personal interpretation/rambling over his battle lines (i have them save lmao) a bit later, maybe even in a separate post, but BOY

So TW: Mentions of noncon, dubcon and CSA up ahead

So i think the first thing that's to be established about Yaha's character is that the Empire DID wipe out most the elf population in DOD1, and while he did survive this, he was more or less still a victim in the respect that his parents WERE killed in likely less-than-painless ways as the Empire sought to use the elves both to use their blood for magic-repellent armour (While it looks like it was only introduced the the third game, it's actually been plot point for a while!) and the children to open the seal.

Given he's 25 by the events of Drakengard 2, he'd have to be around 7 at oldest before he arrived at the orphanage where met Urick. (He's not even 10 and he's already been through it...... baby...........)

Fortunately or unfortunately enough, Yaha DID manage to find a way to "survive" in this world from a very young age, and that was due to the fact that even as a child, he wasn't just commonly mistaken for a girl, but an absolutely "captivating" one. As it reads in his glossary section in Memory of Blood:

"He grew up an orphan, and even though he was a male, he boasted such beauty that he was frequently mistaken for a woman from an early age [...] For this, he uses his beauty as a systemic tool for survival. He captivates everyone, both male and female, and gains both status and protection in exchange for his body, which he used to escape life in the orphanage." (Glossary section from Memory of Blood)

It should be noted before I go on that the director, Akira Yasui, DID hint in his world inside interview that he thinks there was "something" between Yaha and Urick during their days in the orphanage, but whether that means feelings or an actual relationship isn't really clear (Though judging by his tone, it seems to lean more towards the short-lived, childlike-fling interpretation than anything imo i could just be biased though lmao):

"...As for his relationship with Urick, Yaha had liked him since they were in the orphanage together. I think there was definitely “Something” between them before Yaha left the orphanage. The powers of his pact didn’t reach Urick because he already knew how to deal with it; Urick was also once mesmerised by Yaha’s charm." (Yasui interview from World Inside)

(That last line is included for those tragedy points from when we get to the ~Split~ and BOY)

As for the orphanage, Yaha was...... "Adopted" by a well-to-do man when he was 14 years old. As for why and how he got adopted, it's unfortunately stated right at the end of his glossary entry which isn't even the worst part when you take into consideration that he's already been doing this for a while.

At any rate, Yaha DOES decide "You know what? Fuck it, we splurge" and uses all adoptee's fuckass money to buy useless shit until he turned 16 and joined the Knights in search of a better standard of living (How can he get that if he's already pretty much rich? given what he's going through at that point, you do the math)

and you know what? he deserves nice things <3

(And to note, Urick was also taken in by Oror from the orphanage as an apprentice when he was 16 as well.)

Anyways, Yaha was back to survival mode after joining the Knights, and just as he did when he was in the orphanage, used his body to climb the ranks of the KotS in search of a better standing in life. It's just repeating what his glossary says, but Yaha WAS slandered for this and got a lot of shit and rumours spoken about him behind his back for it. And the list...... wondering why gismor isn't on that list.... is there something he's not telling us???

"He joined the Knights of the Seal in search of a better standard of life; his successful climbing of its ranks being more due to his "body" than his skill in battle. The only people of notable standing who had not had a relationship with him are Oror and the Hierarch Seere (It is rumoured that he may have also had a relationship with Verdelet). Behind his back, Yaha was labelled a nymphomaniac." (Glossary section from Memory of Blood)

While working on an excavation site during the creation of the different countries of Midgard into districts (It's own can of worms), Yaha comes across a beautiful jewel unlike anything he had seen before. SO beautiful as a matter of fact, that Yaha, who by merit made beauty his everything on the basis that it was all he had (aside from Urick), took personal offense to this and pointed his sword at it. However, from the jewel came a gnome who would go on to offer Yaha a pact, offering him irresistible charm so that he could get whoever he wanted. Yaha, seeing the opportunity to move up even further in the ranks of the Knights of the Seal (both due to his charm and his status as a Pact-Partner, as Gismor was looking for Pact-Partners specifically SO they could guard the Seal Keys and manage the districts) and also claim Urick's heart by doing it, accepted the pact in an instant. But as you all know, that came at a VERY high price. Of course, Yaha lost his ability to feel pleasure, resulting in whatever "barrier" from his mental scars he had whenever he tried to do the deed being removed. The act of sex, for Yaha, was filled with not just mental pain made lighter by the aspect of pleasure, but now was just sheer psychical pain as well. What a lot of people may not know, however, is how literally Urick meant it when he said "Don't look into his eyes, he'll trick you with his lies" and followed up with "It's the power given to him by his pact-beast. Or maybe it's the price he had to pay." Urick was not joking.

For those familiar with Junji Ito's Tomie, it was essentially just that: Yaha wasn't just in possession of extreme charm, but enough to bring people to lose all rational thought and reason when they were around him. And the way the glossary talks about this...

"[...]As a result, his beauty became even more ebullient, to the point it lead to people easily losing all sense of reason. However, his body was no longer able to feel the sensation of pleasure. This was the price of his pact. Although Yaha had come to immensely regret it, it was already too late. He now lives every day being swarmed by those who have lost all reason and is forced to engage in sexual acts filled with nothing but fear and pain."

Yaha............ :( SO this is what leads to the real final kicker: Yaha has gotten his position, has more beauty than anyone could ever imagine, but what he really wants is Urick, right? Of all the pain of sex both psychically and mentally, if he could at least be with Urick, the one person he saw differently, the one person that at least wouldn't be mentally scarring to sleep with, maybe it could all make sense. So Yaha confesses to Urick. But Urick turns him down - not because of any sound argument, but because all he sees is a self-absorbed narcissist in his friend's place, manipulating others and sleeping around carelessly just to up his own ranks in society. For two seconds, it would make sense - That's technically what it is. A honest flaw in Yaha's character is that he's genuinely greedy and materialistic. He uses goddamned slave labour, for Christ's sake. On the other hand, is he really looking for a higher place in society? Or is he looking for stability? A place to get away from his past and be the one in control for once? Of course, being perfectly aligned with Urick's own version of "self-absorption" (All the Lieutenants have it!), he completely failed to realise where all that stemmed from. He saw Yaha as just being greedy and narcissistic from the lens of him being inherently bad, didn't for a second take into account Yaha's origins which led to that behaviour. His own best friend. So, long story short: Urick thinks Yaha is a bastardisation of his best friend and, following in his cowardly character, takes that as personally as you can (as you see in all his scenes and lines relating to Yaha together, im going to slap that little cunt) - despite the fact Yaha SHOULD have had the upper hand via his Tomie-like powers, as I mentioned towards the start of the post, Urick was already charmed by Yaha - he had just grown used to it because of how close they already were.

Brief Personal Analysis:

Personally reading into it, Yaha doesn't really care so much about his position as, beyond just being about as high as you can get, and it wasn't what he really wanted. The underlying source that got him that position to START with was his beauty, which Yaha cherishes like a narcissist would. He's used to people changing their tune whenever they lay eyes upon them, which Urick specifically instructs not to do towards the beginning of the battle, and is the source of such lines as "If I die, my beautiful body and the holy crystal shall perish. You would let that happen?" At the same time, a player death results in a VERY different tune from Yaha, where he dejectedly says the line "My beauty... It is my sin." Possibly hinting towards his own conflicted feelings and sorrow towards it as again, he goes from "My body is perfect, is it not?" to "My beauty is my sin" as soon as Nowe or his crew is too dead to question it. The difference is VERY jarring between the two, and I also bring into question the tone he uses to speak about his gnomes on whether he intentionally sounds exhausted of them (It would make sense, given the hinted resentment he has towards his pact-beasts for doing him dirty like that) or if he... Just sounds like that. Granted, a LOT of Yaha's lines sound similar in their sultry, somewhat sorrowful and tired tone all around. Of course, there are also his lines directed towards Urick, which should be self-explanatory given the context, but a few other notes and trivia and whatnot before i wrap up:

Just to note and say the obvious a final time since I know how this fanbase can be: Yaha IS genuinely a narcissist, that being his leading character flaw, though of course it should go without saying that while his actions as a result of that (re: slave labour) are definitely not to be swept under the rug, it's just as important to note the context that led to that and the tragedy of his character because of it. As Urick says, "He was very different then."

Yaha is confirmed bisexual! It surprised me too, but...

"Similarly, when I designed Yaha, I designed him to be a typical narcissist — a character who would probably go and describe their own self as "Beautiful". But even though his character is supposed to be one who is attracted to both men and women in the story, people who are attracted to both genders in real life are usually not of this type. Like Gismor, he also largely captures the image of "Bewitching"." (Character Artist Fujisaka commenting on Yaha's design in Memory of Blood)

Just a fun little detail: During Yaha's battle against the Rock Gnome, when it lifts the jewel above it's head in order to throw it at you, you can throw out a magic attack at just the right time and it will drop the jewel on its head for massive damage! And of course, similarly you mainly attack the Rock Gnome by using jump attacks to bring your weapon down on its head. And if you look at Yaha's portrait during his death scene...

Similarly, Urick is strong against monsters, which encourages you to use him to bring the final death blow to Yaha. And given their lore together I'd be damned if this cruel little snippet wasn't done intentionally.

The drawing of Yaha's death with the gnomes is titled "End of Agony", and hopefully after reading this post, you now know why.

A bit more interpretation than theory, but I have an ongoing hunch that each of the layouts and/or "gimmicks" of the Lieutenant's fortresses are based off the personality and story of the Lieutenant itself. Hanch is based around walls, closed doors and of course, water, Urick's is a twisting maze based off of sacrifice with the themes of life and death, Gismor's is based in fighting your way up a tall tower to reflect his ego and overlying reach as an antagonist, and Yaha's, primarily, is based off of illusions. The more you get past them and through the fortress, the less "ebullient" and fancy it looks until you reach its end - a single, shabby room filled with sand and dirt with nothing but a few musty crates and a bunch of jail cells meant for holding sacrificed prisoners to the Seal Keys. If that doesn't reflect Yaha's whole character, I don't know what does.

Either way, that's about all I think I have for him! Hopefully you learned something new, and if you have any questions, do let me know~

#Drakengard #Drakengard 2 #Yaha Drakengard #drag on dragoon #drag on dragoon 2 #urick drakengard #i hope y'all see now when i say that context makes urick shrugging yaha of during his death go from cold to just fucking EVIL #yaha; honey; im so sorry a bitch like him would even SAY that oh my god #anyways yaha deserves a little movie night with popcorn and ice cream (whatever flavour he wants!! i recommend yoghurt) and lots of blanket #and he can get whoever he wants there and they MUST NOT COMPLAIN OR MAKE ADVANCES #this is for HIM #anyways yaha sweetie if you ever want to break uricks fucking knees im here for u #(<- definitely not refrencing a fanfiction which changed the way i think about them and life forever)

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bunglegaydogs · 9 months

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im fucking feral

edit: basically, ignore most of this, i was delirious. i read a few different things that made sense, im dumb and im just ignorant LMAO so sorry about that anyways, im scared as balls for the next episode.

ofc spoilers for the newest bsd episode i would say manga spoilers but SOMEHOW we're fucking caught up? im still so baffled at how they managed to animate AND voice chapter 109 AND the first 7 pages of 110

what the actual fuck

anyways xoxo

im only writing this bc im confused at what the fuck is going on with the next episode, because ive been under the impression that season 5 was only gonna be 10 episodes long 💀

yeah so im a bit lost

im gonna make another post analysing the fucking chaos we've just been given in the form of episode 10 but rn i just want to talk about the apparent episode 11 we're being given

does everyone genuinely think that it's gonna be a continuation of right now? because i really dont

i dont know what its gonna be, maybe another adaptation of one of the light novels

but i really dont think its going to be a continuation. would asagiri really put the anime ahead of the manga? idk. but i genuinely dont know bc the episode title seems to be in line with the current fucking calamity that is this vampire arc, irdk, genuinely ive never been so baffled lmao

the anime watchers are now caught up with the manga, and that genuinely blows my fucking mind, based on the fact that the end of episode 10 was literally only released a little over a week ago (manga) like what

anyways. idk whether the next episode will be the last, whether we'll have up to 12 or 13 episodes, whether it takes a complete new direction, idk. idk whether itll somehow switch into beast, or stormbringer or the time i picked up dazai - i really have no fucking clue lmao

im so baffled

and pissed off at a fair few things in the newest episode, but also pretty happy with it

anyways have a great day/night wherever you are, bc i sure as hell wont LMAO im gonna be thinking about this shit all night

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd season 5 #bsd season 5 episode 10 #bsd spoilers #spoilers #manga #anime #harukawa 35 #asagiri kafka #bsd anime #bsd manga #bsd 109 #bsd 110

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thatumbrellaoni · 11 months

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like I said earlier this month, Im rereading the ygo manga in jp for fun

(maybe Im in a different timeline where shounen jump didnt rush takahashi-sensei and itll end differently/better this time!!!)

and its always funny to me how everyone's just yelling at atem all the time. in general, like the weekly villain, and then theres the kaiba brothers, particularly seto.

in their DEATH-T duel, seto yells at him to draw his next card/take his turn 7 times 🤣

8 total so far if you count the one time during their very first duel

sometimes these are back to back pages too. seto doesnt waste time.

lmao at atem's "yeah, Im drawing right now!"

I think I got all of it. Ive bookmarked all instances. this is my mission now. to count how many times total atem is yelled at in the entire series to take his damn turn

#yall give this guy a break #hes a 3000 yr old dead pharaoh #his hearing and mobility aint what they #used to be #Im on vol4 btw #about to meet the BAKURAS #さぁ！カードを引け！！遊戯！#tsuda kenjiro in my head 24/7 #you cant take yugioh out of the girl

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the-scarlet-witch-22 · 5 days

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Hiiii again!!

I had a phenomenal time at the concert!!! I went to see was Yuja Wang's piano recital and when I say my mind was blown I truly mean my mind was blown. I couldn't even form proper sentences afterwards. She also played like 6, maybe 7 I lost track, encores after having played 8 pieces. She is truly so talented and so captivating to watch. She is such a beast and played for almost 3 hours!! Although I did see that she did a Rachmaninoff marathon so she definitely has the endurance! Also the outfits, shoes, and her iconic bow was EVERYTHING!! sorry I'm just geeking out over here 😂🥴

Ahhh that's so cuute and I'm glad I was able to bring some happiness to your day!! 🫶🏽 I've definitely just been lurking in the background quietly cheering you on lol but the second I saw the sequel I literally screamed and needed to tell you how excited I was!! It feels like sending letters to an old friend now 😁 anyways hope you and your gf have a wonderful week!!

- Paganini anon 😁

p.s. during Yuja Wang's Rachmaninoff marathon she wore a heart rate monitor and there's a super cool video showing how her heart rate matched to the bpm of each piece!! Highly recommend watching it if you haven't already!!

Paganini anon!!! 🩷

Oh my gosh, Yuja Wang- I absolutely love her. I follow her on Instagram, she’s so crazy talented. I’ve heard nothing but fantastic things about hearing her live, and I’m so happy that you had such an amazing experience!! I can’t even imagine tbh, she’s definitely on my list of artists i want to see 😭 Also the number of encores she played?!? The stamina that has to require oh my god I’m dead, like I really could never lmao. The Rachmaninoff marathon is truly insane to me, it blew my mind when i read about it. She’s just so on top of her game, constantly. A queen, truly. Again, I could never. She has AMAZING fashion sense, i always scroll through her page and im blown away by the dresses and the HEELS. The heels!!! I would trip and fall off the stage. Please don’t apologize for geeking out- she’s absolutely amazing and i would do the same thing!! Again im so thrilled you got to see her oh my gosh.

Paganini anon, i truly love your asks 😭 Thank you for always being so kind, and taking the time to read my stories and send me such nice asks (they do remind me of getting nice little letters for sure!). I’ve managed to make some really nice friends on here, and I’m thanking Miss Agatha Harkness for bringing us all together 🫶🏻 And thank you!! I hope you have a wonderful week as well!

The Rachmaninoff marathon is genuinely so insane to me, and it’s so cool 😭 i only read about it online but now im going to go watch!!! Again, she’s insane but I love her.

Thank you again for the ask, I love hearing from you! 🩷

-Lizzie

#anon asks #Paganini anon #asks

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hardtchill · 4 months

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For me it’s very similar to the other anon. I’m turning 25 this year and I’ve still not got my bachelors degree because I had to quit my first go around at uni since i physically couldn’t learn for my exams. Granted it was compounded by other issues such as depression and anxiety but i genuinely believe that a not insignificant part of those issues come from the fact that adhd makes it near impossible to organise myself (unmedicated btw).

Seeing this on my feed rn is kind of ironic since even though im in my third year of a degree that I actually enjoy now, I literally dropped out of an exam that I was supposed to write today cuz I couldn’t revise. It’s not like I didn’t have the time and I’ve known for weeks about the deadline, but with every assignment or exam I push my own boundaries further and further back until I can’t do it anymore. Last semester I crammed 84 pages worth of notes in under 48h, an exam mind you that I’d pushed back over a year and was literally my last shot or I’d not be allowed to continue with my studies. I barely slept, I was throwing up, but I somehow passed, and with a good grade at that. Since then my brain is like, well you managed to do that that one time so you can totally afford to wait until the DAY before an exam to finish it. Or write a 15 page paper in a day.

And you know what, maybe I can. But the problem is the cost. It’s killing me. I find that it’s also very isolating cuz generally people don’t have a lot of empathy for this? So I end up pulling back from everyone including my best friends until I’m at a point again where I can be around people without letting on how incredibly bad I’m doing. Or I just straight up lie so they don’t know that I’ve not done the things i said I would do.

And all this is not just within the framework of academia. It’s also impacted my wellbeing in a more general sense - cooking for myself is hard because I tend to not listen to my body’s cues until I’m on the verge of passing out cuz i forgot to eat or drink, or by the time I’m hungry I still have to make a meal so I end up ordering something cuz it’s faster. Same with showering daily or brushing your teeth. Getting any routine started in general and sticking with it. I’ve been meaning to start exercising again but I keep delaying it for no reason. I’ve worked out regularly in the past so I know it’s something that I enjoy and that makes me feel good but despite that I’m still stuck in this place of inertia? It’s awful.

I’ve talked to some friends who also have adhd about it and the inability to start something cuz it isn’t instantly gratifying or that doesn’t align with an interest but is an obligation is quite common. Can I binge 7 seasons of a reality show in a week if it really interests me? Hell yeah! (I do watch everything at 2x speed cuz everyone talks too slow lmao but still). Will i fly through a massive book and literally forego sleeping if it means getting through more of it if im really invested? Absolutely. 1500 puzzle? Massive Lego set? Yep! Taking notes from a textbook for an assignment? Literally kill me right now.

I’m sorry for this long ass message and idek if you’re gonna read all of this but yeah just wanted to share my experience. Adhd is absolutely not quirky or a superpower and I wish there was a better understanding of it out there because it makes me my own worst enemy every day.

Ugh anon i feel you so much. I have skipped on many an exam during my bachelors because i just couldn't concentrate, focus or start revision. It's completely miserable to literally see the time go by where you feel the stress but you just cannot get your brain to start on what you need to do.

Any time i told teachers and now colleagues that i work well with deadlines i get told i'm not motivated enough because if i was i wouldn't need deadlines. That's just so unfair! My brain is graving dopamine, it's not laziness that my brain does this, it's literally just ADHD.

This is the same reason why your brain (usually) jumps into action when that crippling anxiety hits, because you're so close to a deadline that your brain can smell the dopamine.

The only reason that i finished my 6 month thesis is because i had many mini deadlines during those 6 months. I felt the anxiety to finish a part of it every month and i had a teacher who was very nice and gave you compliments when you did (DOPAMINE). If i didn't have that i would still be writing my thesis now.

ADHD is so misunderstood by so many people. It affects every part of your life and the negative consequences are so much bigger and impactful than the potential positive outcomes. I mean yeah i'm creative and can think fast, awesome but that doesn't make up for the anxiety, stress and grief you go through anytime your brain just doesn't want to start something.

#ask #adhd

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1, 2 (you know who this is about), 3, 6, 7, 8, 16, 19, 23, 25 for the voiolence ask game :333

17 (Strinker), 23, 24 (Vox), and 25 (Stolas) for the other fandom ask game :333

YAYYYYYY I LOVE ANSWERING THINGS!!!!!!! :DDDDDD thanks babe ily!!!!!!!!! <33333333

violence ask game og post here!

1. the character everyone gets wrong i suffer from a disease called "im the only one with correct opinions about every character ever" so i kind of feel this way about everyone all the time HJKLSDFHJKL.......but maybe its just bc im so Him For Real, but i feel it a lot with blitzo????? i feel like hes the character where i see the most takes about him that i fundamentally disagree with. it doesnt help that his character writing is so shitty tho.

2. a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom I DO KNOW EXACTLY WHO ITS ABOUT. BLITZO. sjhkdfhjksdf kind of ties into the thing i said above and not EXACLTY what the question is asking but. that man is a SUB. i am being so so serious when i say that everyone who thinks he is/writes him as a dom and/or top doesnt understand him as a character. its partially bc stolitz's writing is so godawful, but like. its not even. subtext??? that this man is a sub/bottom??? its just text. its so obvious that they basically say it. YES he ACTS like a dom thats the FUCKING POINT. HES LYING. hes putting on an act and YOU ALL FELL FOR IT. this man is not emotionally vulnerable enough to let himself indulge in the side of kink/sex that he wants, so he never does. especially since stolas only wants him when hes acting like a top/dom. blitz rolls his eyes and drags his feet in sex because hes not getting anything out of it. again it doesnt help that he doesnt LIKE stolas but he would LIKE HIM MORE if they were on the same page in bed. AND LIKE??? the reason i say its not even subtext is because this is a preference blitz obviously has since SEASON ONE (see: STRIKER), but as stolitz develops romantically in canon, we can see stolas indulging him more. the only time blitz has EVER been aroused on screen is when stolas (and striker) is taking control. the one other time you could argue is at the end of truth seekers where AGAIN they practically STATE that hes not by showing that blitz is only acting this way in the bedroom for stolas. hsjkdfhjksdf if i keep talking about this im gonna start foaming at the mouth I HAVE TO MOVE ON

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr LMAO SJKDFLHJKSDFL there are too many. some of my (least) favorites include takes such as "stolas is introduced as a good father", "blitzker is more toxic than stolitz", and "husk is in the wrong during loser, baby". you are all so fucking stupid. i hope you get well soon

6. which ship fans are the most annoying? RADIOAPPLE. they are SO FUCKING ANNOYING. I HATE THEM. its one thing to have the worst shipping take ever but then theyre always the loudest and most un-based motherfuckers in the world. nothing quite makes me seethe with rage the way seeing that fuckass ship appear in EVERY TAG does. go on try it. look in any hellaverse tag right now and scroll 3 times. i guarantee radioapple will come up. i know because i HAVE THE TAG BLOCKED.

7. what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because of how the fandom acts about them? alastor :( i mean i knew it was coming. i LOVE LOVE LOVE our rewrite/""yarnsnake"" alastor so much but canon and ESPECIALLY fanon alastor is so fucking boring. they took out any intimidation from his character at all and made him just another guy who swears every 3 seconds and that only exists to be o.p and give cringey quips. and the fandom LOVES that for some reason?? as if the SHOW hasnt toned him down enough, all the fans either turn him into this weirdly sexualized dom character or this cutesy villain with a secret soft side and UUGHHHHJKSDFHJK SHUT THE FUCK UP. he would not fucking say that!!!!!!!!!

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about OOOHHH this is a good one. umm......kind of ties into the above answer, but i genuinely keep seeing people saying that they think alastor is gonna get a redemption arc/saying that he has a secret "good" side and loves the people at the hotel. yall. youre being manipulated HJKLSDFHJKLHJK. i see a lot of "lute was in love with adam" and vise versa too which. idk. its fine. im sure itll probably be canon. but im too obsessed with them being close friends with benefits that play cod together and otherwise have no attachments LMAOSHDJKFLHSDJKL. there are for sure more but im blanking, might revisit this later

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc) ANOTHER REALLY GOOD ONE. stolitz instantly came to mind HJKSDLFHJKL just the whole ship. specifically the arc in the show. also huskerdust? not the ship itself but the characterization. its the same flavor of evil that stolitz is just without the power imbalance. vivzie wants sexual assault in all of her leading ships soooo badddd. i hate the fandom take (loosely based on canon) of husk being ""into it"" the whole time angel was harassing him. makes me fuckin GAG.

19. youre mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like... STOLITZ BEING CHILDHOOD FRIENDS. omg critics usually HATTTTEEEE this shit!!!!!! and i totally see where theyre coming from. ""the circus"" was OBVIOUSLY just meant to humanize stolas/shift the ""blame"" onto blitz instead by making it seem like he initiated it/made stolas think he wanted this (which doesnt make it right but wtever). and the childhood friends (if you can even call them friends) IS so nothing......but im such a sucker for this trope. i actually think its really cute. IDKKKK i think it ties into how i genuinely think that stolitz couldve been good if they had lead with this. since he started off as a villain and had a very rocky transition into being """not a villain""" despite still being horrifically evil, the show is stuck in this weird place of trying to TELL us that stolas is good and worthy of redemption while SHOWING us that hes not. if he was a villain at the start, they shouldve stuck to their guns and kept him that way. if they wanted him and blitz to have a romance, then they shoudlnt have fucking started the show like this. its too late to go back and fix it and the circus is a very clear showing of them trying and failing to do so.....AND YET. i still think its sweet. it makes me yearn for a show where they remeet as adults and start reforming a FRIENDSHIP instead of a weird sex deal. it wouldve actually been cute and compelling to see them observe how the world has hardened and changed the other and finding out that they still love each other despite it. how they both were so deply hurt by the circumstances and yet still managed to grow in a way that left room for the other. AUGHHHHHH. << ripping my hair out

23. ship that youve unwillingly come around to sighhh. stolitz and huskerdust. <///////3 but ONLY our very specific rewrites of them. also honeymoon??? i was really NOT convinced about them at first just cause i didnt like bee but idk, ive changed my tune a little <3333 honestly ive kinda willingly come around for everyship JSDJHKF like chaggie/fallenstar??? CUTE. exceedingly boring in canon but cute.

25. common fandom complaint that youre sick of hearing i guess i dont really get that sick of fandom complaints......at least i cant think of many off the top of my head......this kind of goes for all fandoms but im very sick of hearing "UGH can everyone stop saying (insane take) 🙄" and the take is just something that no one has ever said. like one person has a sort of lukewarm opinion and 300+ people have to make a post bitching about it like its a real problem that exists. it doesnt. calm down.

fandom ask game og post here!

17. What's a book, movie, or show you think [Striker] would like? OOOHHHHH...........damn this is hard......i cant get into his head as easily as you (presumably) can.......shkdjfhjksdf he kinda strikes me as someone who would be a little snobby about literature tbh. he likes the classics <333 maybe especially classic horror <333 phantom of the opera came to mind which i think is fitting cause weve also established hes a musical theater guy <33333

23. Has your favorite character/ship changed over time? OH yea. i remember back in the Early Hazbin Days my fave was angel dust and my favorite ship was radiodust. i was thirteen so im gonna give myself a little slack here but i still shudder when i think about it JHKHSFJKHJK. now my fave hazbin character is probably vox or rosie <3 and my favorite ship is polyvees!!!! they are so evil polycule. to me. as for helluva, back in the day when i genuinely like the show it was only just starting out. i think my favorite character was robofizz? which is so funny now that ive got a user based on him JHKSDFHJKHJKSDF he is so nothing now </////3 i DID like stolitz but TO BE FAIR. that was in its crackship era. like when we were all like "imagine if they started getting serious about this LOL wouldnt that be hilarious". (it was not hilarious). now my favorite character is STRIKER by a MILEEEE. and my fave ship is blitzker/rewritten stolitz!! <333

24. What's your favorite thing about [Vox]? well. he gets Christian Borle points. we only hatewatched this show in the first place for His Voice. but i do also just really like his general little mannerisms :3 i like how he glitches when he gets flustered/overwhelmed, and how his smile raises and falls depending on who hes with/around. i actually think his body language is really interesting and fun to analyze!!! manipulative little shit. i hope he overheats and explodes

25. What's your least favourite thing [Stolas] said or did? where do i fucking start. there are so many things about this fucker i cant stand. the one that always comes to mind is the interaction at the beginning of LooLooLand. TWO things he says are SO YUCKY GROSS SLIMEY. these lines:

i hate that blitz had to ask. it makes me feel so gross. i know this was still stolas' villain era but it genuinely icks me out SO MUCH seeing how MISERABLE blitz is early on in their relationship. he is so desperate for this job that he would put up with being sexually assaulted/humiliated in public. im so sorry blitzy, one day soon youll find a cowboy who treats you right :///// the other one (from the same scene) that i HATTTEEE is this interaction with via he has right before

Stolas: I'll pay you.~

Blitzo: ...Pay me what?

Stolas: Money.~

WHY. WOULD YOU SAY THAT. TO YOUR UNDERAGE DAUGHTER. and hes so confused when she doesnt like him?? :/// this isnt even mentioning that he openly, sexually flirts with blitz in front of her both on the phone immediately afterwards and all day at the park. i think he should die for real actually. a few honorable mentions include the infamous murder family phone call, assaulting his imp butler, neglecting his daughter, and (intentionally or not) implying that he only wants blitz for sex post-ozzies.

Stolas: They want our money and our bodies.

Octavia: Our money, maybe...

Stolas: Speak for yourself, princess.

THAT TOOK SO LONG IM SORRYYYYYYYYYYYY I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN READING ALL THESE THANKS FOR ASKINGGG :DDDDDDDDD MWMEMWEMWMEWMWEM <33333

#hh #hb #critical #answers #vivziepop critical #hazbin hotel critical #helluva boss critical #rocketstags

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elliestoybox · 5 months

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Ok i just caught up on chapters 21-22 of aqua and like

Its not as rage inducing as the last batch i read but man ... they're still aqua lmao and i have questions

Dont you love explicitly admitting this shit has to be incest? Like also the way its worded implies that kaitos descendants wouldnt count which us weird lol. Also like how the fuck would kaito pass down his blood?? Idc how sexy any of us think he is that man didnt interact with anyone and the like maybe 7 women he even remotely regularly talked to are either dead or revived lesbians

This is genuinely funny to me and like..... i actually think the idea of that disco ball fragmently reflecting its victims inward is really cool ...when you think about it ...and not at how they actually show it ...it still made me laugh out loud at how dumb it looks when it was 1st shown

Ok but like actual real question- which one is which in this page? Like the more i look the more confused i get. Like at 1st i assumed the right one was lucia because it makes sense she would be more agressive than scared and also because they gave her bigger boobs. But then i went a couple of pages back to try to see if there are ANY design differences and it looked like lucia had denser bangs?? This is why you need to make your characters distinct, kids.

Also they didnt explain at all why laurent getting ditched by a girl made him kiss a boy and invite him to his secluded house 13 years after like are you actually going to say that being scorned as a child made him commit gay?? (Can you tell im not excited for this subplot lmao)

#rambelings of el #mermaid melody aqua #liveblogging #cw incest #incest mention #just in case #let me know if i should tag anything else #ykno for filter purposes #i love when this manga just attacks me with word with no structure #i love being confused by the composition in every single page and panel #never change aqua (i am actively praying for change)

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you seem like you read a lot of books and honestly how do you do it? because I want to read more but it’s so hard to find the motivation to sit down and open a book haha

ok im gonna give you my personal advice, but im def not the most well-read person I know, so don’t take any of this as gospel, just one guy telling you what works for him lmao (and thanks for asking this is very sweet ❤️)

(below to the cut 2 save your dash)

1) Read what you WANT to read. I know this sounds dumb but it’s so true. I was in a rut last year and wasn’t able to finish anything, but I do like star wars, so I literally only read star wars tie-in novels for like 2 months, and that got me back on track. Read about your hyper-fixation, read things you’ve already read, read stories that take place in your fav city, read sappy romance novels that no one recommends, but do it FOR YOU!!

2) Take a book out of the house with the intention to read it. Like make a date for yourself and say ‘ok today im gonna go to my favorite cafe, order a latte, and read 25 pages of x book’ I find that’s a much easier way of finding reading time than trying to put your phone down at night and read a book in bed (sometimes)

3) If you’re up for it - read shocking, disturbing, boundary-pushing books. If you need a story to make you actually turn pages, try to find something that scares the shit out of you, grosses you out, (is really sexy 👀), ect. A lot of people complain that books are ‘boring’ but it’s just not true. (these are not the only 'exciting' types of books AT ALL, but-) Horror, erotica, thrillers, murder mysteries, ect. are a great way to get invested in reading again, but as always, please do research on content warnings, ratings, and also maybe seek out reviews from other readers (like those on goodreads.com) who can help keep you from reading something that may harm you

4) read short books! high page counts can be discouraging sometimes, so pick up the slimmest little novella you can find and go crazy. Some of the best stories on earth are 25 pages long. Also graphic novels!! they are books, they are incredible and exist in every genre, I love them.

5) if you’re 1/3 or 1/2 or 7/8 of the way through a book and you hate it, you’re bored, you feel disrespected but the author, you’re avoiding it and not reading anything bc you don’t like the story or it upsets you…. don’t finish it. Fuck it lmao, shelve it and move on to something you enjoy

I could go on forever but essentially, don’t worry about the quantity of books per month or pages per day. Reading is good for you, and it’s informative, enriching, all that holy stuff, but also it’s fun and it should feel fun, so just chase that and I think you’ll be good

#thank you for again asking me 😬❤️✌🏻 I hope this was helpful! good luck!!#ask #anonymous #double shot

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mylittle-team-stuck-tale · 1 year

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ykno what. i rlly wanna answer these but i dont really have many ppl who are actively following me. so i will just answer all 100 homestuck questions

When did you first get into Homestuck? in grade 7. i was about 13.

How quickly did you finish reading the comic? a few months maybe!

How many times have you read HS? ive read HS proper twice, and the epilogues too many to count.

Ever made your own chumhandle? many times... i think my first one was gentlemanlyTerror. my one now would probably be hazardouslyToony or something

Ever made a trollsona? dozens!!

Ever made a kidsona? yeah a couple

Ever cosplayed a HS character? yes!!! my first one was terezi (it was SOOO bad. i literally mixed white face paint with eyeshadow, taped red see-though paper onto my old glasses, and made horns out of paper), then my second one was horuss, that i spent a lot of effort on, and then last year i went to a con as jake :3

Ever bought HS merch? yeah i have lots!! i have a lot of merch you cant get anymore. posters and stuff. i also have the jake shirt and the vodka mutuni plush. and i also have charms.

Ever made an MSPFA? i attempted to. only got a few pages in though...

Ever drank Faygo? they dont sell it in my country

Favorite Alpha kid? jane, surprisingly. jake is just the character who is Me.

Favorite Alpha troll? aranea by fucking far.

Favorite Alpha character overall? calliope!!!!!!!! CALLIOPEEE!!!!

Least favorite Alpha kid? dick rider

Least favorite Alpha troll? i hate most of them but the racial stereotype ones i guess would be the worst

Least favorite Alpha character overall? i honestly dont even know

Favorite Beta kid? ROSEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Favorite Beta troll? terezi and vriska!!

Favorite Beta character overall? ummm allof the ones i just mentioned

Least favorite Beta kid? i like all of them. but i guess i spend the least amount of time thinking about dave so him

Least favorite Beta troll? GAMZEE. GAMZEE.

Least favorite Beta character overall? gamzee.

Favorite guardian? ..................bro strider

Least favorite guardian? um? alpha john i guess idk

Favorite Alternian ancestor? mindfang MIND. FANG. !!! theres something so wrong with her <3

Least favorite Alternian ancestor? whatever the fuck the sollux one is idgaf about him

Favorite carapacian? aimless renegade he holds suuuch a special place in my heart

Least favorite carapacian? Ms. Paint

Favorite Friendsim character? tyzias <3 <3 She is sooo . so hot. so arelynera and elwurd. also dammek! i love dammek

Least favorite Friendsim character? tirona i want her dead

Favorite sprite? gcattavrossprite and jasprosesprite

Least favorite sprite? umm the aradia frog one

Favorite pale ship? i like pale davekat. okay? i get it. i know. stfu

Favorite pitch ship? janerezi LMAO

Favorite flushed ship? JUNEREZI!!! JUNEREZZIIIIIIII!!!!! also callijane or calliroxy. i dont really like cotton candy im sory. i also like rosemary a lot

Favorite ashen ship? karkat c3< vriska and kanaya but in a really fucked up way

Favorite vacillating ship? .vriskan

OTP? junerezi :3

NOTP? absolutely dirkjake i hate dirkjake

BROTP? tavros and jake!!

Character you’d choose to be your moirail? if im allowed to choose hiveswap characters, bronya. if not, porrim.

Character you’d choose to be your kismesis? aranea ooough...

Character you’d choose to be your matesprit? i dont want to date ANY OF(tyzias.)

Character you’d choose to be your auspistice? ALL OF THEM ARE TERRIBLE AT IT

Character you’d vacillate quadrants with? jane crocker. get over here kiss me on my mouth

Character you’d be best friends with? jade.pls :3

Patron troll? Are you happy with them? tavros 😭also YES I AM! hed be annoying as heck though.

Zodiac troll? Are you happy with them? karkat.NOT HAPPY.. though i like to pretend im a libra so terezi.

One character you didn’t like at first, but like now? i didnt really like rose i thought she was boring but now shes like my fav ever

One character you liked at first, but don’t like now? dirk......... i used to jokingly hate him but now i seriously dont like him!!!!!

One ship you didn’t like at first, but like now? i used to be Meh on vriskan. i like it a lot now (in a studying u under a microscope not an i think its healthy way)

One ship you liked at first, but don’t like now? confession guys i used to be a dirkjaker

Alpha kids or Beta kids? i have to pick alpha kids since i think about them constantly but i like the beta kids more universally.

Alpha trolls or Beta trolls? BETA who tf chooses ALPHA trolls

Beforus or Alternia? alternia? we barely even see beforus

Derse or Prospit? #pissmoongang

The Felt or The Midnight Crew? the midnight crew absolutely

Grimdark or Crocker Tier? crocker tier i love the concept of it

Red team or blue team? red team i barely care ab anyone on blue (apart from neppers)

Meat or candy? i love both!!! meat and candy epilogues are both good in their own ways.

Trolls, humans, carapaces, or cherubs? cherubs

Have you played Hiveswap? Do you like it? I LOVE HIVESWAP!!!! its so fun!!!

Have you played Friendsim? Do you like it? i played a few of the routes. its alright

Have you played Pesterquest? Do you like it? i played it as it was coming out. its on my steam! i hate it.

Have you read the Epilogues? Do you like them? 😁😁😁you must be new here (I LOVE THEM i have a physical copy)

Have you read HS2? Do you like it? i hated it

Have you read SBAHJ? Do you like it? i have read every single one.its okay!

Classpect you identify with currently? page of hope :p

Classpects you’ve identified with before? - seer of light - seer of hope

Do you like your God Tier outfit? HELP MEEEE yeah its. it sure is an outfit

Do you like bloodswaps? Do you have a favorite? its whatever

Do you like kidswaps? Do you have a favorite? as someone who likes underswap, its odd to me how much i hate kidswaps? like its a huge pet peeve of mine in hs fandom

Do you like speciesswaps? Do you have a favorite? Mehh.

Do you use quadrants IRL? i used to! i dont anymore lol

Do you like celebrating 4/13? yeah!!! definitely

Do you use Pesterchum, MxRP, CheRP, or other HSRP platforms i DO have pesterchum yeah

Favorite Homestuck act? act6

Favorite Homestuck moment? tricky one but one has to be the johnrezi scene in the meat epilogues where (SPOILERS) john dies Favorite Homestuck panel? this one is pretty great

Favorite Homestuck flash? iiiim a member of the mid nigh t creww

Favorite Homestuck soundtrack? beyond canon. its fucking beautiful

Favorite Broadway Homestuck song? fucking. um. look its karkalicious okay what more could you want. i picked the obvious one etc etc

Favorite Homestuck fansong? okay this isnt really a fansong but everyone please listen to The Leaving from beyond canon its beautiful

Favorite Homestuck fics? house of dirk hands down!!!! its so funny and awesome i want it to update so bad. apart from that, godfeels.

Favorite Homestuck fanartists? meeee:3/j . no jk my fav artist who does hs fanart is @hal9000fanboy . i also LOVE @deathbycatgirl 's homestuck art, its all so unique and the characters are drawn in such a cool scrungey way im wrapping them into a ball

Favorite Homestuck AU? Demonstuck, Kingdomstuck, etc.? i havent heard those names in so long hearing "kingdomstuck" was like a shot to the heart. amino group chats

Favorite hemocaste? teal! and indigo and jade

Favorite typing quirk? i love kuprams from hiveswaps bc its 4chan greentyping

Favorite MSPFA? deadbert bc my friend made it idfk

What would your strife specibus be? scarfkind mb

What would your lusus be? sparkledog

What caste do you feel you’d belong to, regardless of your zodiac? teal

What characters do you relate most to? JAKE ENGLISH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One unpopular HS opinion you have? dirkjake is abusive and dirk is a bad person and also cis. and gamzee isnt redeemable

One popular HS opinion you agree with? jane is Fucking gay!

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lesbianwithchainsaws · 1 year

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hi, i’m getting into the community side of tumblr (i’ve been a fan of the show for a while but im only just now following community blogs) and i just followed your page! i saw your ao3 and your trobed fics, which im definitely gonna be reading, but i also saw your daredevil ones and!!!!! omg!!!! i can’t believe you’re the same account!!! i love those fics so much and i can’t believe you’re the same person!!! :D i love the way you portray him, it’s very relatable, 10/10!!!!

anyway, i saw that you wanted fic prompts and idk, this is kinda specific, but have you watched psych? it’s another 2000s sitcom, and if you wanted to write a crossover i think it’d be so good. i just think shawn and gus’ friendship is really similar to troy and abed’s relationship bc they’re all silly4silly and unconditionally supportive and also soulmates :3. (i do interpret shawn and gus platonically tho, but that’s just personal opinion) (also psych is somewhat copaganda tho, so there is that :/ )

if you did want to write this, tho you totally have zero obligation, i think it could go something like: the santa barbara police have a suspect flee to colorado and pursue them/shawn and gus take a case about a missing person or something (star burns??), and shawn and gus maybe go under cover at greendale? i think they’d fit in pretty well, but shawn would definitely fuck w jeff’s ego lol. i think troy and abed would think shawn and gus were super cool, but i think that at some point abed maybe realizes shawn isn’t psychic? i don’t think he’d say anything about it tho, just sort of keep quiet about it bc it’s more fun to pretend and go w it. but things can go from there!

and if you haven’t watched it you can disregard the previous two paragraphs😅

something else that would be just community would be a collective queer awakening for the study group! like, trobed happens, and something about it makes annie realize she’s a lesbian, and talks to shirley about it. shirley is like “everyone has those (gay) thoughts about women, you just need to pray about it” and annie points out that no, she’s been informed that not everyone has those thoughts, and asks if prayer has ever worked? and shirley realizes that no, it hasn’t, and annie and shirley go on that adventure together. and jeff and britta act as queer mentors, bc they’re both practically bisexuals (and dating?). at some point i think shirley would apologize to the dean for some of the things she’s said about him, he forgives her, and they go to brunch. eventually, jeff joins them and they have a nice little weekly brunch thing where they gossip :). this is all happening while troy and abed are being soulmates, and maybe shirley gets past some internalized homophobia by seeing them so happy and realizing there’s nothing wrong w them. maybe annie does, too, bc she wants to be that happy/also realizes that there’s nothing wrong w her for liking women,, etc. but trobed heal the study group. and maybe pierce either doesn’t exist, has a different personality and is supportive, or is kicked out for being homophobic

anyway this is extremely long, but i just wanna say that i love your work!!! whatever you write will be great, even if you don’t write anything!! <3 <3

First of all, welcome to the Community tumblr! The blogs here are lovely!!!

Second, oh my god??? Thank you so so much!!!!!!!! aaaaa, that's so sweet!!! I have a Daredevil fic I still need to finish and this might just motivate me to finish it. I absolutely love writing Matt and projecting onto him lmao!!!! Thank you <3 and I hope you like the trobed fics too!!! Those two consume my brain 24/7

I've never watched Psych so I don't think I can write a crossover fic anytime soon. But I will keep the other idea in mind! Writing everything and everyone to be queer is always the best, and we can just pretend Pierce doesn't exist.

And genuinely thank you so so much!!! It means so much to me to that you like my writing and I think I might have to go cry about it (in a positive way like happy tears). Thank you thank you thank you!!!!!! 💕💕💕

#beaming all the love in the world your way

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nerice · 2 years

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oc ask meme! 1, 2, 3, 5, 7, 11, 13, 17, 19, 23, 29, 31, 37, 41, 43, and 47!

*rolls up my sleeves all the fucking way* let me introduce u to so many freaks. also linking my oc page again here not everyone's on there but for refrance!!!! this got long so im actually using the humble readmore function for once but im gonna showcase one answer up here and that is:

has anyone drawn fanart of your ocs? if yes, maybe show a picture or two here (remember sources & permissions!)

i love all the art you n charlotte have drawn but this pic you did of reina. man (i cry everytime i look at it, she's SO BEAUTIFUL here you got her down better than i have ever drawn her <33333)

first oc ever: a young girl who gets her throat taken out by a big cat at a circus performance; who is now a young boy called honey who gets his throat taken out by kizuna while he wanders the swamplands searching for his brother! :D

personal favourite oc: absolutely without any doubt or competition whatsoever this goes to sky lmao. rabbit daughter of my life <33333

have you ever adopted a character or gotten a character from someone else? nope! all organically grown ocs in my brain tbh i find the practice of adoptables etc a little weird but that's just bc it, for me personally, conceptually, just does not work at all lmao

if you could make only one of your ocs popular/known, who would it be? nightmare scenario that guarantees callout posts tbh but after reading a billion articles on traditional female villains for my thesis i am slightly tempted to blaze knowledge abt faye lmao. high femme lesbian villain (power armor notwithstanding) we need more of em <3

are your ocs part of any story or stories? only have story ocs!! if i think up a guy he comes pre-equipped with problems which i will somehow slot into the grander verse, i don't make the rules

sunshine oc: alissa!!!! tragic girl who dies too young but before then is the absolute light in the life of everyone she touches ;_; there is one au where she lives and aims to use the lifesong to help more people, in the process of which she becomes eliada's sworn enemy & also possibly romances damia. long story

troublemaker ocs: handsdown linn wins this category lol. always up to no good, a nsfw criminal menace <3

oc otp: YOU KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT IS JUMIE/REINA. thank you for drawing them make out it gives me life <33333

introduce an oc that means a lot to you (and explain why): gestures at reina. gestures at sky. gestures harder *camera pans over i am now on the floor sobbing* yknow?

introduce oc that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would be like: jumie used to be very mellow and leaned most strongly into the caretaking persona (it still comes out with sky a lot ;_;) but when i actually got around to writing her boy. oh boy. takes no shit and vibe checks every single person she comes across (for better or for worse) lawful good paladin behavior

which one of your ocs would go investigate an abandoned house at night without telling anyone they’re going? leah!!! unfortunate tendency to disappear on people bc of whatever piqued her interest & also knows no fear/loves freaky and spooky stuff. noah, her scaredy-dragon bodyguard, is as exasperated as he is close to a heart attack at all times

pick one oc of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really) cait, avery, and jumie wld all run weapon aes focused blogs (swords, knives, spears&bows respectively) and would probably end up sending each other hatemail over their weapon preferences lmao

introduce an oc who is not quite human: kizuna!!! typical choice here lol but. fun-sized (bear shaped) omnivorous murder bunny who can shapeshift into the people she devours. has a little identity crisis from it eventually, its ok

do you have any certain type when you create your ocs? do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? it’s time to confess: i dont set out to create ocs so much as they just show up unasked on the doorstep of my brain but i absolutely love 2 give ocs a truckload of extremely visible scars (and some hidden ones for funsies) face scars are one of the greatest honors i can bestow <3

has anyone ever (friendly) claimed any of your ocs as their child? various yeah most frequently adopted are leah (statistical daughter of all time) and belle+sky for trauma reasons lmao

#aaaaaah sorry this was kinda basic. i think im more burned out than i realized :')#BOTTOM LINE IS THANK U FOR DRAWING AND CARING OCS I LOVE YOU #oc asks #askbox #ispybluesky

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dreamgirledward · 2 years

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tag game ! :)

ahh ty for the tags lu & billy ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 @castieldean @manforsale ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

rules: answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to get to know better

name: sammy!

star signs: virgo sun, gemini moon, capricorn rising

height: 5'1"/ 155 cm if u want to laugh at me dw im used to it 🥲

time: 1:32pm

birthday: aug 25

favorite bands: (not all of these are bands!) florence + the machine, bts, tame impala, brockhampton, mitski, paul simon, bruce springsteen, fleetwood mac, orville peck, rina sawayama, christine and the queens, lcd soundsystem, david bowie, joni mitchell, the rolling stones, chvrches, hozier

last movie: thor 💞 and ⚡️ :^)

last show: wwdits 🧛🏼

when i created this blog: 2012 LMAO

what i post: literally anything - im sure most people know me as a spn blog which is fair ! but anyone who knows me knows ive got range (🤡) so ya my blog is whatever i want it to be !!

last thing i googled: "how to remove pages from a pdf without acrobat" SDJKFHSDJKHGF

other blogs: ough i used to have sideblogs but theyre dead now and honestly! im not rly a sideblog girlie, i dont have the energy lol

do i get asks?: depends! for some reason i got a lot when i was busiest last semester but virtually none now. id love to receive more if theyre nice <3

following: .......2197...... that's what happens when you have the same blog for 10 years ig 🤪 i need to go through and unfollow tho im sure 70% of them are inactive or dont interest me anymore

average hours of sleep: maybe 6 or 7 on a good day if i sleep at a relatively normal time (which is like 1 or 2am i know i know that's not good trust me i know) ?? it's usually less tho, and not enough, i frequently wake up very tired

instruments: none i am musically challenged 🥰

what im wearing: a black oversized mitski shirt and black flowy culottes :))

dream job: [a successful] film editor!

dream trip: cant think of a specific type of trip so im just gonna list places ive been wanting to visit: ive wanted to go to hawaii my whole life but i know tourism is fucking the islands up so :''') yeah lol rip, egypt without having to worry about heat stroke so sometime in the spring, iceland would be so sick (actually anything as far up north as you can get would be the sickest), hong kong with my best friends, lots of places! i just really want to travel 😭

nationality: canadian but my ethnicity's egyptian!

favorite songs: pink in the night by mitski (nobody say anything 🔫), immaterial by sophie, graceland by paul simon, hungry heart by bruce springsteen, kalahari down by orville peck, she's a rainbow by the rolling stones, hammond song by the roches, sweet by brockhampton, river by leon bridges, i by kendrick lamar, breathe deeper by tame impala, epilogue: young forever, butterfly, trivia: love, respect, and telepathy all by bts OUGH forgetting so many but i wont bore u these are just what i thought of without checking anything hehe

last book ive read: the marrow thieves by cherie dimaline (for my 20th cen children's literature course, of which this book is not 20th cen but we're doing comparisons rn lol)

top 3 fictional universes id like to live in: billy said wwdits which is a rly good answer. all i can think of is middle earth and specifically the shire bc those hobbits rly do know how to just chill. cant think of anything else skjhdfj

tags! <3

@crosbystillsandhash @taikacohen @bronconatural @monstermoviedean @caskarass @twocarsonenight @hotgirlhirsch @citruscas @danneelswife @emeraldcas @gayangelsmp3 @jewishdeanwinchester @agentgayngel @heartshapedcas @girlblocker @kellyscabin @clairewolf @katebushstandean @skepticalfrogg @risencas

#no pressure of course 💞#tag game #sammy.txt

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itsdappleagain · 2 years

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1-10!

1) Who is your favorite character to write for and is this the character you find easiest to write for?

I love writing for Carmen if it wasn't clear already. She comes easily to me and its easiest too put her in scenarios tm. I actually don't often write for others but I really want to experiment with it.

2) What is your favorite fic of yours?

Hmmm. Good question and one I'm not sure I know the answer to. I like Upon the Sword, and I also really like a few of the shorter ones like the cardinal and the kitten and and the world was framed with red. currently a few wips are occupying my headspace as well

3) What fic of yours do you think is underrated?

uhhh and the world was framed with red I guess. I'm happy with all of my fics though. i think i could have made that one more engaging and have better street appeal tho

4) What fic of yours were you surprised by how popular it was?

well, I started out writing on wattpad- I posted two chapters of a fic and came back months later (i forgot lol) to a bunch of requests for me to continue. that really surprised me, and the relative popularity of upon the sword and love, carmen surprised me there too.

5) Do you like one shots or multi-chapters?

I like both but I usually do multi-chapters :D

6) Do you outline your fics? If so, how?

very, very chaotic bullet point lists usually. I will generally jot down an idea I have and if its lucky ill come and write down some base plot points. from there i'll usually fill in points for an "arc" and then set off (or start the fic and then fill in the plot...more usually. oops). one time for i think hearts and stars i did a full 20+ page document full of character outlines, motivations, emotions, and relationships with others plus plot, character goals, brainstorming, notes, title ideas, tons of blurbs, scene ideas, and even a mini screenplay format scene which i eventually added back in.

7) How do you edit your fics? What do you look for in your edits?

I usually write chunks at a time and when I start a new writing section I read the entire thing over and edit what doesn't read correctly for me. If something doesn't work and its a really big mistake I either ignore it (wow such writer lol) or entirely rework the plot to fix it lmao

8) Do you take inspiration from real life? If so how do you incorporate it into your fics?

Uhh sometimes, yes. It sort of depends on what you mean- when I get injured, I take pictures of the blood or bruises for future reference. I write detailed synopses of pain and unique traumatic medical experiences, plus any depressive or anxious episodes I may go through. Uhmm lets see...I do a lot of research for some bits of the story and I'm often inspired by other things. they help me incorporate a sense of emotion and some realism. i also take inspiration from romantic body language I see portrayed in real life and media because I have 0 experience in that department

9) Do you visualize scenes in your head before you write them? (Can you picture the setting, character body language etc)

oh GOSH yes. currently for say you'll share with me one love one lifetime the scene I have planned for the (eventual) chapter 3 has been runnign through my mind for...maybe months. I plan out a basic action first, usually- in this case a specific consequence of carmne's injury and build a scene around it- who, where, the reaction, the aftermath, how to make it gayer, and how to make it tie in with everything else.

10) How do you feel about writing plot, setting/description, inner thoughts, dialogue?

hate plot honestly. could do without it, but you cant is the thing so i usually wing it (im trying to get better lol). i thrive on setting and description, LOVE that shit. inner thoughts are very fun to do and I like trying to weave a lot of emotion in there. dialogue is...ok. usually i feel a bit awkward with it unless I really get lucky (like a bit of dialogue I feel pretty proud of is the scene in hearts and stars where ivy asks carmen why she doesn't see herself as a person in chapter 11 and i think that confidence is reflected in my reader's reactions from what I've seen :3)

thank you for the ask jo!

#realizing my answer to number 8 might be...a little concerning?#but does no one else ever just take note of injury in the back of their mind for writing reference? or think about it while crying? idk #speaking of the evil carlotta au i need to try to get that done #its hard to write for whatever reason though #oh well #anyway

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