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engagemythrusters · 7 months

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I have to give up Milo. It is no longer safe to keep him here.

#I have to be very careful about when I go into rooms #and even still #he managed to get into the room #and beeline to attack Gwen #it is very literally dangerous to keep them both #and it isn’t possible anymore #my world feels like it’s ending

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kikiknits · 2 years

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Project 23/33 for 2022!!

A few months ago, I saw this beautiful work of art by @checaria and was absolutely inspired to make the sweater Xie Lian is wearing! Behold the fruits of my labor!

Pattern is the Be Thankful Cardigan by Lily Kate France.

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rubarb69 · 3 months

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Theres something so special about cutting your own hair; maybe it is uneven and choppy, and maybe it does frame your face poorly. But its still uniquely yours. Self actualization or something

#poetry #something about trans joy #maybe #idk #only you have to wake up with yourself every day #be happy with who that person is #plus. the choppy at-home look is in.... right?#and like if you say you slay and serve then you will. even if your hair is a botched mess #infact it might add to it #its a silly goofy element #ive spent my whole life being considerate #being palatable #and even still #people are disgusted by me #so why try #why not be myself 100% of the time #if people are gonna call me a freak i might as well put on a show

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dawntheduckrb · 4 months

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They put me downstairs at work :(

All thumb healing progress was undone in one evening apparently. It actually felt mostly fine on Sunday, until after work. They put me in an area I'm rarely sent to on Sunday evening, and I had to do a ton of heavy lifting. My arms are sore but it's like a post-exercise soreness (painful, but still very normal). My thumb felt fine allllllll day today, until I started to draw. Even with breaks, it still feels super tense, and now it's hurting even when I'm not using it. I'm gonna take that as a sign to stop for the night lol

I have one drawing I want to finish before school starts back up, because I'm worried it'll distract me if I don't have it done before then. Of course, if my hand prevents from finishing it, I'll manage, but that'd suck :')

On a lighter tone I feel very strongly about this cat in a blanket I found, I don't know why it amuses me so much but it's such a mood

#for those of you who dont know; i work at a package sorting/distribution center #I'm normally in the small package team where people who can't constantly lift stuff go (i have double curve scoliosis and back hurty)#but they moved me downstairs to a truck loading area to help the people that are normally there #most packages come from a series of overhang chutes and I didn't have to do anything with them #but everything thats too big/heavy/oddly shaped comes down a seperate larger belt system #these have to be manually sorted #my job was to take a barcode scanner and find a barcode on each package #then a little printer i was holding would make a sticker w/ that package's destination after i scanned its barcode #the thing is #those packages got up to 80 lbs and sometimes the barcode label was on the very bottom #i had to flip quite a few packages in a hurry because that belt does not stop while I'm printing the stickers #i guess between holding the barcode scanner and flipping over ridiculously heavy boxes #i completely destroyed my thumb again #splatoon didn't give me a problem today but i guess i dont really use my thumb much for that game #and even still #i took a whole four hour break between that and trying to draw #and i didnt even draw for that long #but now moving my thumb hurts worse than it did last week #idk what im gonna do when school starts :/#this is where i'd say 'crying and sobbing atm' but im actually starting to tear up holy shit #wanted to post a drawing tonight but i cant finish it :') gonna grab some chocolate and curl up into a ball instead #will also try icing my hand tonight #i have also memorized those hand exercises and they are my lifeline right now

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niishi · 11 months

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just fyi I turned off my discord notifications bc it's just..... overwhelming. and then I forget to check it... so like..... idk... message me on here if u need me to see a message.. still might not check it or respond tho... it's just so overwhelming for me idk how to manage all that. I have like 3 ppl on Tumblr I just haven't responded, like 5 on insta, and 3 ppl in texts, and then I just haven't checked my discord in like 4 days bc that's another can of worms. idk how ppl have the focus or time in the day to handle messaging ppl back so much... bc I know when I do then that person's gonna then respond to me again and I'll be busy at that point and then ignore them again for the next 3 days until I remember and then I feel like shit.... idk man I think we should just destroy the internet and write each other letters again.... it's all seriously way too much for me.

#but i want to talk to ppl....#i dont want ppl to quit messaging me or anything #some days im normal and can respond #but most of the time it just paralyzes me #part of the reason is bc i dont know how to talk #going thriugh my bullshit and being half mute for a yr #and then isolating and keeping myself alive through doing nothing but dissociating and playing idol gsmes #made it rlly hard for me to talk to ppl online #bc i dont know ehat to say or how to talk #and im so scared everyone hates me #i need to see your body langusge and everything when we talk #or else im going to think everyone thinks im stupid and hated everything im saying #when ppl stop responding in group chats the moment i start talking in them?#it truly makes me think everyone fucking hates me and wants me to shut up #ive been so severely abused by 99% of the people i love/have loved #and my rsd is so bad #like so so so so so bad #and even still #ppl i love do things on purpose to make me feel insecure #and don't put an effort in to reassure me #so im just paranoid 24/7 #the abuse i faced from ppl i love is something youd see in a horror movie #or some really fucked up book about abuse #its so disgustingly sinister and evil its no joke #its hard to come back from #i truly dont think i ever will #i know my friends love me and i know this isnt fair of me #but it's hard #my whole entire life #id think someone loved me and then theyd do ghe worst thing imaginable&then abandon me&tell me they hated me and i never even knew why

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stitchthesewords · 1 year

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....I really hope he's not trying to be subtle. Cause wow

No, don't worry, this...this robot has no ability to be subtle

#Asks #aceofthefandoms #mutuals #portal #mumbo has a lot more subtly in him in the au #and even still

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whatudottu · 2 years

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Retrospectively, watching as Starscream so callously slew Cliffjumper at first confrontation but seeing him capture Wheeljack for information he doesn’t even know (yet), the opening to Transformers Prime really does not make sense. So for today’s rambling- it’s Cliffjumper’s turn for backstory and rewrite for Altered Loyalties.

Before I get to the introduction to Cliffjumper and the subsequent rewrite of TFP’s openning, let me get into some backstory context for Mr Jumper. Of the two appearances that Cliff shows up in Prime, he begins the episode as a captive of the Decepticon forces, and specifically under Starscream, once again in both instances. Either he has the worse track record for getting captured or...

That’s somewhat what he does as his little job.

Vaguely inspired by the Cybertronian rank emblems - and also not rooted in any such knowledge of actual strategy - Cliffjumper’s currently 2 for 2 capture rate, I’d like to think that Cliff is a rather unorthodox Recon Specialist who gets himself captured on purpose to help break out ‘Bots held prisoner. Of course, not every Decepticon Commander is going to be so ‘merciful’ in capturing fallen Autobots as still alive POWs, but that’s what the Intelligence Division is there for and, excluding the very first episode of Prime, Starscream seems to be rather notable in keeping living ‘Bots for intelligence of his own.

And this, were it not obviously building up to something, is how Cliffjumper and Arcee meet on the field side-by-side. Arcee - in some way - managed to fall in battle against a division of the ‘Cons lead directly by Starscream, and Screamer - ever the witting mech - understands the significance of her position and deems it a priority to keep her alive for information extraction. It worked once before, after all, even if Arcee simply did not know the information being asked of her.

Not one to lose a significant member of the Autobots however, Intelligence points to Cliffjumper to go again and go crazy, go stupid, and get himself captured whilst feigning defeat in the same blow. Though specifically working in espionage (even if it seems to be only a ‘Con rank, which seems kinda really biased - that alongside the Autobot special forces versus Decepticon black ops) Cliff is a field worker and can easily be mistaken as a simple scout something something ‘i was thinking about going red but then i’d be mistaken for cliffjumper’ quoth cyberverse bumblebee.

With another Autobot in his capture, Starscream finds that Arcee may very well have some... motivation to talk after all, if any advice from Airachnid was recorded and reached his audials.

Everything that happened in ‘Out of the Past’ happened mostly the same, even if Cliff had a bit more incite (going in a little more prepared) and Arcee having known a little bit more about the uh... promises that were going to come as a prisoner. Kaon laboratories, Shockwave and the Cortical Psychic Patch, some regular old wartime deception in faking one’s own death. The only major difference would be the predisposed knowledge that the ‘Cons already had about the presence of Autobots on Earth, no thanks to the helpful information of Skyquake’s guardian team having already been on Earth for a hot while.

Then, of course, there was the space bridge and it’s following explosion.

It goes - to Cliff at least - just as well as expected, for the most part. Finding himself on Earth with an extracted Arcee was not completely expected, and in doing do being separated by the stars from the small Intelligence team he traveled with. Arcee too wasn’t entirely hoping to find herself on the planet she was essentially informing ‘Bots not already there to head to, but the wonderful bonus to having seen a very helpful transmission from Earth ‘Con to ‘Con, the duo of ‘Bots have at least some information of their own.

In the time it takes for them to rendezvous with Team Prime, inform the Earth stationed Autobots of the ‘assumed’ death of Shockwave, the destruction of the space bridge the Decepticons were going to use to transport their forces to Earth, and the location (or at least the transmission frequency of the preestablished ‘Con Comms Tower), the remainder of Cliffjumper’s team are still on Cybertron. Intelligence ‘Bots gotta Intelligence, but without their main recon guy, they take brief (or even rotational) residence on the currently dead dirt that is their home planet.

Essentially, that Intelligence team finds out that Shockers was - shocker - not dead from the sudden explosion that popped somewhere in Kaon, and get to scout out and keep an audial out for his newest ‘pet’ project, heheheh.

That brings us up to the first episode of TFP, where Cliff now kneels, battered and bruised, before the Decepticon commander he successfully japed 6-ish Earth years ago.

Starscream, though thoroughly unimpressed, annoyed and very eager to put Cliffjumper in his place for marring his not-as-effective-as-he-wants-it record to something more equivalent of how-in-primus’-name-did-you-fuck-THIS-up-so-bad mission status, does manage to restrain himself from gutting Cliff where he lay. Instead, our local espionage expert Cliff got himself in this mess rather unexpectedly and has found himself not needing to feign being caught for a loop.

“Scream, it’s been a while. So, where’s your master?”

The silver Seeker looked down at the mech that eluded him not quite so long ago, optics narrowing to a glowing red seam.

“Nevermind him,” Starscream growled, irritation burning his wires. “I am my OWN master!”

Bright blue energon stained his claws as they raked across the faceplate of the dirt covered muscle car, the mirth in his captive’s tongue muffled under the sting of pain and the extra layer of hurt against his helm, the gasp wringing out in the cold otherwise silent Nemesis.

“That-” he hissed through clenched dentae, anger rippling to a still, “Was for slipping from my grasp.”

“Now, send him to a cell.” Screamer turned to face the bridge once more, neon claws flexing as he crossed his arms behind his back. “Make sure he won’t expire too soon.”

“We still have much to discuss.”

And so, by proxy of having been on Earth for a hot while, having Starscream go through the trouble of setting up a rather heavy handed trap and just having a personal vendetta to sweeten the treatment, Cliffjumper holds a lot more valuable information in a significantly more beaten up body. However, if one as watched any longer than the first episode of TFP, Megan certainly comes back real quick with a little treat much sweeter, where a very easy chance to kill of Cliff a little later than the show (but still earlier than I am trying to aim for) comes about with the presence of dark energon.

How do I deal with this?

...

Let me sleep on this and leave you with some background to Cliffjumper and also- if you watch the first episode of a series with ‘and that was [revenge] for [x]’ or whatever, I just think that that’d be cool.

#cliffjumper #tfp cliffjumper #though not focused on them- there is significant mention of #starscream #tfp starcream #and even still #arcee #tfp arcee #sure- there's mention of shockers and skyke in the first half- plus megs in the second- but not enough for a tag #transformers #tfp #tfp au #tfp rewrite au #altered loyalties #maccadam #i know what i want to do to cliff later on- but i guess i have to figure the connection point between point a and point b #because near the end of writing i realised- there's not a whole lot of motivation stopping megatron from executing a pow #outside of trying to make him competent early game and sorta make him go down a decline throughout altered loyalties #hmmm probably by making him show off dark energon NOT in the top most efficient decepticon mine perhaps #or maybe going ahead and searching the medbay and offlining a not-doing-so-hot patient because 'he's going to be dead anyway'#plus a little introduction to the fact that they've actually got stationed medics outside of the implication that cliffs not dying to wounds #who knows- it'll probably be mostly screamer thinking 'i need the information' and skyke (who is very much HERE)#going 'where's the honour in killing a very much injured prisoner for unethical experimentation of life and death'#'where's the honour in bringing back someone from the grave in the first place' he might also say if it wasn't MEGATRON doing so #he may have a better opinion on starscream than he used to but this (to him) is the first major faults of megatron #or at least the first utterly unforgivable faults - the competency of a ruthless leader makes more loyal 'cons brush over other #less supernatural 'bid the dead to continue the fight forever' ethical concerns

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bim-mba · 2 years

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Baahubali: The Beginning >>>>>>>>> Baahubali: The Conclussion

I am sorry but I will die on this hill

#Baahubali #And I watched The Begining with the latinamerican sub #and even still

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stormkobra-5 · 2 years

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Somebody: You can't eat an entire bag of Cinnabon donut holes in one sitting!

Me:

#and even still #i want more #in fact now i want lofthouse cookies and maybe some cheesecake #looking at me you'd be surprised #i'm an awfully frail-looking thing #so #upon first glance #where the fuck do i put the sweet things i devour #i don't even know #sweet stuff is my weakness #and thanksgiving #the one time of the year i'll have thirds and fill my plate each time #then aside from sweet stuff i eat like a bird for the rest of the year #oh my fucking god is thanksgiving just the way i prepare for my unhealthy lifestyle?!?!#stormkobra 5 ramblings

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who-canceled-roger-rabbit · 8 months

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Some spins on the "mostly male team with a token woman" trope:

The woman is trans and stayed in her old circle of bros even after transition

The woman is the only one in her circle of "girls" who didn't turn out to be a trans man

#of course even in that case i'd still make plenty of other characters female OUTSIDE the main team #there's a they wolf in my closet #gender #transgender #trans #lgbtq+#queer #story ideas #writing prompts

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captainjonnitkessler · 5 months

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Sometimes I wish we would start calling out the performative radicalism on this site for the poser bullshit it is. "Remember, it's always morally correct to kill a cop!" "Don't forget to firebomb your local government office!" "Wow, it sure would be a shame if these instructions on how to make a molotov cocktail got spread around!"

Okay. But you're not killing cops or firebombing government offices. You are posting on a dying microblogging website to a carefully-curated echo chamber that has radicalized itself into thinking that taking the absolute most extreme position on any subject is praxis but that anyone discussing the most practical way to effect actual change is your sworn enemy. You do not have the street cred OR the activist cred to be talking about killing cops, babe.

#thinking about the person i saw saying that if you're at a protest #and other protesters try to stop you from becoming violent you should just kill them bc 'peace police are still police'#even taken as hyperbole that's simply dumb as shit on every conceivable level #it's also pretty blatantly hypocritical coming from people who are usually self-avowed prison/death penalty abolitionists #like i'm sorry but you don't get to be a death penalty abolitionist and also call for the death of your political enemies online #this isn't a major issue or anything i'm just bored and annoyed

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noelledeltarune · 7 months

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EVERY SINGLE DAY there are MILLIONS of characters in their late 20s who get falsely accused of being father figures to teenagers when in reality the description of "weird older cousin" or "step-sibling that moved out before you were born" is 1000000x more apt

#talk tag #IT KILLS ME. REIGEN IS NOT MOB'S DAD. HE HAS A DAD. INGO IS NOT AKARI'S DAD. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD CAN ANYONE HEAR ME #(not even necessarily to say that ingo is in his late 20s but still)#(even if he was a 30-40-50 year old no matter how old he is no fucking teenager is gonna call some guy they met as a 15 year old ''dad'')#GAI IS NOT A FATHER FIGURE TO ROCK LEE HE WAS LIKE 13 WHEN HE WAS BORN! PLEASE!!!!!!!!#one time i saw that a person wrote a fic where mario was like a father figure to luigi.#they are TWIN BROTHERS.#not what this about but idk where else i can say anything about this.#just horrible #also sometimes someone is just An Older Friend like no familial relationship just a friend or acquaintance who is a lot older than you

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captainsaltypear · 3 months

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IS ANYONE ELSE GONNA TALK ABOUT THIS OR

#hazbin hotel #huskerdust #hazbin husker #hazbin angel dust #hazbin angeldust #angeldust #husker #hazbin husk #look man im all for overlord husk but EXCUSE ME????????#WHERE DID THIS COME FROM #I LITERALLY YELLED W H A T AT MY COMPUTER SCREEN WHEN HE SAID THIS #I KNEW HUSK WAS STRONGER THAN HE LET ON BUT AN OVERLORD???????#GURL??????????#DAMN SON #THIS new piece of information caught me so offguard that i was still reeling from it even after the emotional bomb that was loser baby #anyways huskerdust truthers how are we feeling #HOW DOES VICTORY FEEL #NO LONGER CRACKSHIP BROTHERS #WE'RE REAL #AND IM FEELING SO GOOD ABOUT IT #anwyways im doing very emotionally good how are you guys #im...gonna put a hiatus my own personal webcomic to cry over this for the next 6 months #girls help #keith david...........im so sorry i ever doubted you he ATE THAT UPPPP #hazbin hotel spoilers #pear post #scheeze art

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marypsue · 5 months

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Keep seeing that post where OP starts like 'Thinking about...grieving the undead' and then adds on about like. Real life situations where people have not died but have left your life and you would have reason to grieve them.

All respect, that's an important concept, but that is not what I am thinking about when I read 'grieving the undead'.

#your brother is a vampire. he's sitting across the table from you chatting with your mother about her day #and he's dead and he's gone and he's never coming back.#he laughs the same and he talks the same but his arm is cold when he grabs you in a headlock and your dog won't be in the same room with hi #he'll still hang around watching TV with you and give you wedgies and make stupid jokes #but you can't tell him about the bullies at school anymore because this thing with your brother's face will just find them and kill them.#and not even stupid fucking Jason deserves what the monster in your dead brother's skin would do to him.#your brother is dead and lost and right there in arm's reach and gone forever with no hope of ever getting him back.#i'm sure there are corollaries to be written about like ghosts and zombies but this is the one i'm personally hung up on recently

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eosofspades · 9 months

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i didn't have "i'm broken" teenage asexual angst i had "i'm literally being the only reasonable one about this concept and the rest of you are behaving like fucking freaks" perception issues

#oh the experience of being 13 years old and seeing all my friends talking about wanting to have sex and obsessing over it #and being like 'we are all literally WAY too young to be having sex what the actual fuck are you talking about #why are you even considering it when we have much more important things to worry about. like how much middle school sucks'#you know what though. i still stand by this. that was an entirely reasonable thought to have and i WAS being normal about it #anyway #mine #asexuality

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mrtequilasunset · 6 months

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Listen man, you guys can't be like "you guys need to be normal about asexuality" and then turn around and get weirdly judgemental when you find out someone doesn't have sex by choice. Like that's weird that some of you do that.

#like I love sex im glad we're hyping it up #but also genuinely some of you have got to learn how to be normal around people who dont want to have sex #even if you're not talking about asexuality when you say stuff like that you're still being a weirdass #im not ace myself but i keep seeing posts that come across like they're taking it personally that other people don't want to have sex #it sounds like theyre trying to prove something to someone

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