#and billy taylor feels | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

hoosbandewan · 3 months

Text

THE Billy Taylor Post

I have a love/hate relationship with The Halcyon as a show overall. I don't feel like all of it is written well, but the area in which it definitely excels is Billy Taylor's story. You know, the cutie pie bellboy that Ewan plays and who is always bugging out in all of the gifs we make of him. He's young, he's sweet, and he's insanely adorable.

And his story is also the best in the entire show. In my opinion!!

I also cry whenever I think about Billy for too long but we'll get into that later, hehe.

Spoilers for The Halcyon, btw!

If you haven't seen it, The Halcyon is set at a fancy hotel in London just as WWII has come to Britain. Also, fair warning that this post is a little bit all over the place because I have SO MANY BILLY TAYLOR FEELS

At the start of the show, Billy is seventeen and working at The Halcyon as a bellboy. He's portrayed by Ewan as someone who's maybe a little bit... no thoughts, head empty. I jokingly refer to Billy as having big NPC energy when he's in the background of scenes because it looks like he has radio static going through his head whenever he's not being interacted with. And like to think that it's not because it was Ewan's first gig as an actor. I think Billy genuinely is a little bit daft. He's the baby himbo. He's the golden retriever puppy who isn't the smartest in the room but he makes up for it with hard work and dedication and pure sweetness.

I mean, he's only seventeen and he appears to be one of the higher ranking bellboys at the hotel. He's given important tasks like welcoming ~secret guests to the hotel, showing new hires where to go, and personally taking care of high ranking guests' belongings. He's clearly trusted by the management and is, more importantly, very good at his job.

But, bless his heart... Billy can be kind of a mess. He's forgetful and sometimes just plain thick. He loses the family dog of the lord and lady who own the hotel while taking it out for a walk. (Literally how does that happen. Billy.) He bungles the staff poker game by revealing his hand without realizing. He's also a silly little dumbass when he and a couple of the other hotel staff are at the movie theater and see the lady who owns the hotel (who's there on a !secret date) and he straight up points at her from several aisles back with his eyes all bugging out. Be more obvious, Billy!

Billy is young and naive and maybe not the smartest guy around, but you know what? He's good at what he does (most of the time, lol) and he's a damn hard worker.

He's also someone who knows that people are reluctant to believe in him and he clearly doesn't like that. Billy signs up to join the army the moment he turns eighteen and, although we don't see it, his mum Peggy (who works at the hotel as the telephonist aka switchboard operator) mentions to the hotel general manager that there was a bit of an argument between them over it.

“Do you know why he was so upset that I didn’t want him signing up? He thought I was saying he wasn’t good enough.”

He also gets angry with his mum when his call-up papers do arrive. I know I called him daft before, so I'm giving him credit where credit is due - he actually very cleverly notices that the letter should have gone to his family's house, but it showed up at the hotel instead. And, upon learning that he's been assigned to the Royal Artillery instead of what he wanted - the engineers - he knows it was his mum (with the help of the hotel general manager, but he doesn't know that part) who moved things around so that Billy could stay close to home.

He angrily tells her, "I ain't a child no more," and storms out of the room. Billy wants to prove himself. He wants to be a grown up with responsibilities and he wants to be believed in.

You feel for him, but you also feel for his mum, who is watching her only son grow up and enlist in the war effort. At one point, Peggy mentions that she was only 19 or 20 by the time she'd had Billy, so she was a young mother (and still is!). Her worrying and fretting over him clearly annoys him because he's a teenager, but, god you feel for her. We also learn that Billy's dad, Jim, was drafted to fight in the war so she must be out of her mind with worry. I'll get more into my Billy feels as related to his mum in a bit. But I mean... just look at this line of Peggy's after Billy's joined the army:

“I pray. I fuss. I hold him a little tighter each time I see him."

Before I move on, GOSH, Billy is such a teenager when it comes to his interactions with his mum, lol. He doesn't want her fussing over him or being affectionate. He shrugs her off when she tries to fix his collar. He's reluctant to let her kiss his cheek... but he lets her do it anyway, of course.

Speaking of his family, Billy's relationship with his little sister, Dora, is also so cute and I love them. She tells another character that she doesn't miss him once he's moved out to join the army because she thinks he's "annoying" but she really does love him, lbr. And he's clearly very close with her, too.

At one point, their family home is destroyed in the Blitz so Peggy and Dora move into The Halcyon for a while. Billy watches his sister on mornings that he can get away from his army duties. He carries her around piggyback style. He lets her wear his army hat. He calls her "squirt." They're freaking adorable.

There's also a cute little moment during one of the Blitz raids where Billy's mum and sister are in the hotel shelter and Dora is frightened. Her mum tells her to listen for the sounds of the artillery and says, “That’s our Billy. He’s protecting us.”

And he is. Billy is a protector. He's always looking out for the people he cares about. When Kate, the maid he has a crush on, is SA'd by the Count, Billy angrily confronts him and even points the Count's own fucking gun at him. AND HE PULLS THE TRIGGER. He was about to fucking murder this man for doing what he did to Kate!

Billy is a fucking real one. God, he's the best character.

I don't have anywhere specific to put this, but I wanted to mention how much I love the little detail the writers added in about Billy's handiness and interest in machinery:

He is seen chatting with one of the waiters about the guns they use in the war and is later able to correctly identify the type of German plane flying over the hotel.

Later on in the season, The Halcyon's general manager and head concierge are trying to fix the hotel generator and lamenting that Billy was the one who always maintained it before he left to join the army. (I will come back to this later because omg)

Billy himself mentions to his mum at one point that he's planning on helping a neighbor with some things she needs done in her shelter and that he expects it to be a quick job.

When he joins the army, he's put in charge of operating one of the anti-aircraft guns - directing his fellow soldiers and being the one to manually operate the machine itself.

Now that I think I've covered every other Billy feel, I have to talk about... the worst one. The saddest one. His death. /:

I don't know how to say this without sounding like a complete [Michael Gavey voice] loooser, but I can't really think about Billy and his story in this show for too long without... crying? Oof.

I think that's a testament to just how well written his storyline was in this show. They make you care so fucking much about this sweet, innocent, pure-hearted, good to a fault, daft, brave young man so much that, when he dies in the Blitz, it really fucking hurts.

I swear, thinking about Billy Taylor deals psychic damage to me every time.

And I think that, part of the reason that Billy's death hurts so much is because of how it's shown to us. We all know the famous orange scene between Billy and Kate so I'm sorry for ruining it by making it sad, lol. But that scene ends with Kate telling Billy that she'll meet him the next morning to share the orange with him. So when morning comes and the hotel staff are arriving and see Kate waiting impatiently for "someone" who hasn't arrived, your heart fucking sinks immediately.

They don't even tell us about Billy's death by showing Peggy learning of the news. We're told through Kate's POV. He doesn't show up to their meeting in the morning and, when she arrives for her shift, the staff has been gathered around by the general manager. Only then do we learn that Billy was killed by a parachute mine the night before. And we follow Kate to the same closet where Billy gave her the orange, where she's sobbing and cradling the fruit in her hands.

But what's even sadder is that Billy remains a presence throughout the rest of the show. You, as the viewer, grieve him alongside not only his family, but also the people who knew him and worked with him.

When the hotel loses power during a bombing one night and the general manager and head concierge are trying to fix the generator, they're lost for what to do and even lost for words because Billy was the one who always handled the generator. They end up fixing the thing by taking a wrench and banging the side of it because "That's what Billy used to do." And it works. The generator turns back on thanks to Billy. Thanks to the memory of him. And the concierge look up and says, "Clever lad," as though Billy can hear him.

Of course, Peggy spends the rest of the season grappling with the loss of Billy, too. The other characters mention more than once that she's "talking about Billy as though he's still here" and that it's worrying them. Eventually, the general manager sits down with her and she says that she does know he's gone but that it's so hard to believe because she wants to think that he could just walk through the door at any moment.

But, oh my god, the saddest moment of the show for me... is the moment when Peggy is walking through the hallway in the staff area of the hotel and she sees one of the bellboys walking towards her. He has his head down so his face is in shadow but he's about the same height as Billy... and you can see in Peggy's face that she's allowing herself - just for that one moment - to imagine that it's Billy. To let herself think that he's still alive. You're watching her process the scene before her and seeing her think, "Could it be him?" for those few seconds... until she sees the bellboy's face. And, oh my god, it absolutely wrecks me every single time.

Billy's death is the reason that Peggy gives up the one thing she has left - Dora - and sends her away to the countryside along with the other children who are being evacuated from London. Because she can't bear the thought of losing her last living child.

Billy is the character who shows the audience how cruel and unforgiving the war is. That it can take anyone, no matter how sweet and kind and young and good the person is.

And it illustrates the enormity of the chasm they leave behind.

Billy's loss is felt in everyone, from his family to the people he worked with to the girl he had a crush on. AND IT'S FELT IN ME, TOO, GODDAMN

This was so long and I may not have even touched upon all of my feels but thanks for coming to my Billy Taylor TED Talk. I fucking love him. The writers did an amazing job writing him. 10/10, no notes whatsoever. I cry every single time.

He's such an underrated Ewan character and, I know I haven't mentioned it much, but Ewan's portrayal of him is flawless. He's perfect at capturing all the silliness, daftness, and earnestness that makes up our sweet little Billy!

Tl;dr - Everyone should love Billy Taylor!

Aaaand here's another gif of our sweet boy to end this massive post:

#welcome to my billy taylor ted talk #this is a mixture of billy taylor observations #and billy taylor feels #this character deserves so so so much love #billy taylor #ewan mitchell #the halcyon

102 notes · View notes

moonys-mirrorball · 1 year

Text

but my sleepless nights are better with you than nights could ever be alone.

i once believed love would be burning red. but it’s golden.

daisy jones & the six - taylor jenkins reid // feels like - gracie abrams // the kiss - gustav klimt // taylor swift talking about daylight // long story short - taylor swift // howelljenkins on tumblr // halley’s comet - billie eilish // prologue of “red” - taylor swift // campanella on tumblr // sweet nothing - taylor swift // the notebooks of malte laudris brigge - rainer maria rilke

613 notes · View notes

notwiredforthisworld · 1 year

Text

when lorde said "it feels so scary getting old" and when taylor swift said "i wish i'd never grown up" and when conan gray said "lately I've been feeling strange and everyone's telling me to act my age" and when one direction said "does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes?" and when adele said "i miss it when life was a party to be thrown but that was a million years ago" and when lorde said "it drives you crazy getting old" and when zayn said "i pray to god i didn't waste all my good years" and when billie eilish said "i'm getting older, i got more on my shoulders" and when taylor swift said "i hit my peak at seven" and when fletcher said "i don't know where i'm going but i think i'm growing and it fucking hurts" and when fleetwood mac said "time makes you bolder even children get older and i'm getting older too" and

#on getting older #it feels so scary getting old #lorde #taylor swift #one direction #zayn malik #conan gray #adele #fletcher #fleetwood mac #billie eilish

558 notes · View notes

itsallaboutbl · 4 months

Text

10 BL Boys That I Want "Carnally"

I was tagged by the lovely @my-rose-tinted-glasses ❤ (i know that you know part of the boys i'm gonna put here but thanks for remembering and tagging me anyways 😅🥰❤) ALSO, WHY STOP AT 10? sorry but not for me 🤷‍♀️😇😏 this has not particular order btw.

King (Bed Friend) - Played by Net Siraphop

Phaya (The Sign) - Played by Billy Patchanon

Babe (Pit Babe) - Played by Pavel Naret

Payu (Love in the air) - Played by Boss Chaikamon

Teena (Playboyy) - Played by Kaowoat Supasin

Win (Between us) - Played by Boun Noppanut

Jeng (Step by Step) - Played by Man Trisanu

Tew (My dear gangster oppa) - Played by Meen Nichakoon

Hia Lian (Cutie pie) - Played by Zee Pruk

Alex Claremont Diaz (Red White and Royal Blue) - Played by Taylor Zakhar Perez

Choi Jun (Jun & Jun) - Played by Ki Hyun Woo

Day (Love Syndrome III) - Played by Long Lee

Joke (Hidden Agenda) - Played by Joong Archen

Peter Lue (Chains of heart) - Played by Boom Raweewit

i'll add a bonus just cause it's Jeff

Kim Theerapanyakul (KinnPorsche) - Played by Jeff Satur

idk who already did this so ignore if you did: @bellepark @25shadesoffebruary @ueasking @alexshenry @sparklyeyedhimbo @smileytharn @khaotunq @khaotunqs @khaotungsfirst @markpakin @celestial-sapphicss (feel free to ignore 😘)

70 notes · View notes

frommyfavoritebooks · 6 months

Text

Everything that made Daisy burn, made me burn. everything I loved about the world, Daisy loved about the world. Everything I struggled with, Daisy struggled with. We were two halves. We were the same. In that way that you're only the same with a few other people. In that way that you don't even feel like you have to say your own thoughts because you know the other person is already thinking them. How could I be around Daisy Jones and not be mesmerized by her? Not fall in love with her? I couldn't. I just couldn't.

- Daisy Jones & the Six, Taylor Jenkins Reid

#daisy jones and the six #taylor jenkins reid #daisy jones #billy dunne #love #burn #burning love #soul mate #music #feelings

37 notes · View notes

yantao-enthusiast · 4 months

Text

can some fucking people stop being to celebrities like “oh this person is either gay or queerbaiting because their personality is making me interpret them as queer because they act ‘stereotypically’ gay and that if you act like this you have to be queer. so we’re gonna either force this person to come out via peer pressure when they may not want to or be ready to or bully them for acting a certain way if they’re not queer because that’s the only way i can accept these people acting this way.” it’s really fucked up, based on toxic patriarchal values, and plain homophobic. analyze these parts about yourself and put a stop to it. it’s not funny. it’s not doing the lgbtq community a favor. it’s an asshole thing to do and you better be leaving that shit in 2023.

#this shit upsets me so deeply i hope you noticed #kit connor #harry styles #billie eilish #shawn mendes #honestly i’m not even a huge shawn mendes fan but what some people did when they were look omg he’s gay bc he acts 💅#fucking disgusting #let’s not even start with how people made gross speculations about him and camila’s relationship #don’t forget the fact that billie had to come out bc she was put on the spot and she can’t just exist as a queer person #it really rubs me the wrong way all of it #and the kit connor situation is self explanatory #oh right i forgot to mention #taylor swift #like read the prologue please #also i feel the large majority of the community drowns out the g*ylors but it still clearly gets to taylor y’all #she’s stated multiple times she’s straight. stop insinuating otherwise.#even if she didn’t #the public doesn’t have to act like they’re entitled to sensitive details of someone’s life bc they’re famous.#gain some empathy. grow the fuck up #lgbtqia #lgbtq #queer

33 notes · View notes

daenerys-targaryen · 1 year

Photo

❣

#swiftiebingonight #:)#i feel like there is some missing. but these are what i came up with #also the stranger things one and the lord of the rings one is about ALL seasons / movies xoxo #halsey Taylor and billie >>>#my main pop besties #almost added g*me of thr*nes soundtrack for light of the seven ALONE #but nah #leah rambles

115 notes · View notes

celestial-sapphicss · 7 months

Text

reblog and put in tags the prominent musical artists phases in your life

#im just intrigued what music would consume you beyond repairrrrrr #if you're not acting a little crazy while consuming music are you really doing it right????#bon's queen gifset of sand made me think of this so bon if u see thissss #prior to 2013 i was a bollywood girlieeee and bollywood is almost entirely playback singing which an entire different thinggggh #2013 - enrique iglesias #2014 - maroon 5 #2015 - coldplay #2016 - sam smith #2017 - ed sheeran & calvin harris #2018 - Queen & george ezra #2019 - p!atd (i KNOW) & khalid #2020 - harry styles & idkhbtfm & troye sivan #2021 - billie eilish & conan gray & hozier #2022 to present - taylor swift #vi.txt #the embarrassment i feel when i remember some of the absolute unhinged stuff i have done in some of then phases AAAAAAAA #i have never truly been a normal fangirl smh especially as a fucking teenager #in class 9 my friends and i LEGITIMATELY CUT A BIRTHDAY CAKE for shahid kapoor IN THE CLASSROOM during recess infront of all #he wasn't even really that popular at the time WHICH IS EVEN MORE STUPID GOD THE THINGS I HAVE DONE #and like i wasn't even that big of a fan but my closest best friend at the time was into him hence so was i #although in hindsight it was just because i had started exhibiting gay feelings subconsciously but wE wErE jUsT tHe bEsTeSt oF fRiEnDs ufff #im not wiser of course i can be tempted to be that unhinged again #the reblog game is just an excuse for shitposting this in the tags tbh #idk why i am even making this post tho #only friends has rotted my brain tbh #ALSO in 2015-2017 the internet stand up comedy scene was booming in india and that phase was truly even more embarrassing for me #it was the reason i joined instagram and the CRINGE i feel when i sort my likes and comments from oldest to newest GOODNESSS #truly an insufferable fan rip my mom and my friends #such a core teenage girlhood (genderneutral) experience methinks #if this flops.....you never saw it heheh

22 notes · View notes

fan-goddess · 25 days

Note

Crumbs Asks:

You've taken the Ewanverse lads out to a traditional sweet shop. They can each choose from one jar - what sweets are each of them getting?

Here we go sweetie all under the separator divider thingy! 😊

Aemond: Alphabet letters. He likes to get a handful of letters and see what words he can make from them, and if he does he gets to eat them. If not, he adds letters slowly one by one till he does.

Abraham: Candy sticks. Cause he quit smoking and at least with candy sticks he can at least still pretend he’s smoking a real cigarette and not some sugar filled stick. Plus at least he can jokingly give them to his kids and let them pretend their smoking, or watch them be proud as they pretend to be daddy

Billy Taylor: Kola cubes as cause of the war he never managed to get them too often, so they became a special treat for him for like his birthday.

Billy Washington: Jelly babies cause they’re cheap in the corner shop so Billy would get a packet or two for a snack or something. They’ve became a quick meal once or twice too and Billy likes sticking to what he knows he likes. Doesn’t want to risk buying something new and finds out he hates it and get regretful that he wasted his money

Ettore: Aniseed balls cause theyre an acquired taste. He doesn’t mind it, yet he relishes in allowing people to try the sweets and seeing their faces scrunch up in pure disgust

Genyen: Who said one jar would stop him? He’s picking out some random jar, let’s say jazzies cause they’re close to the top so the shop keeper is distracted longer, and takes advantage of the time by filling his pockets with little sweeties from various surrounding shelves while the owners back is turned.

Michael: He’s an old man getting Werthers originals yet that caramel addiction had to start somehow am I right? His grandparents most likely have them too him when he was younger as a reward so blame them for they addiction.

Osferth: Chocolate raisins cause he likes to believes he’s being good by being healthy. Yet that doesn’t stop him from sucking off the chocolate and swallowing the raisin whole, not even chewing and allowing himself to taste it.

15 notes · View notes

solarsleepless · 11 months

Text

49 notes · View notes

daughterofchaosstuff · 21 days

Text

6 notes · View notes

crispyflowerblaze · 2 months

Text

my ranking of The Bridge by Billy Joel, just how i'm feeling right now

1) Getting Closer - this one just has such good vibes, i really love it, but there's not much specifics i can point out besides like there's a bunch in the main part of the song i love and definitely like the last 30 seconds are so nice

2) A Matter of Trust - yeah with this one too it's not like a super strong knowing it's one of my favorites, i just have fun with it, and i really like how it starts

3) Code of Silence ft. Cyndi Lauper - this one hits pretty close for me and it always makes me think a lot, i really like that, and yeah i really like this song

4) Temptation - i think this song is funny lol and i also really like how it sounds

5) Modern Woman - i also think this one is funny lol, and i always have fun with it

6) Big Man on Mulberry Street - i really like parts of it but overall it doesn't stick out to me too much, like i feel like i have a vague sense of what it sounds like yknow? cus it doesn't stick too much when i listen to it

7) This is the Time - has a lot of really nice moments, just overall not an absolute favorite

8) Running on Ice - yeah this is a good solid song, i do like it a lot, it just doesn't stick out in my mind very much

9) Baby Grand ft. Ray Charles - i still really like it, it's just not my favorite. it's funny when they're just talking to each other though (like that Michael Jackson song where he and Paul McCartney are just talking to each other at one point lmao) (right, The Girl Is Mine, that's what it's called)

#billy joel #the bridge #yknow i love the nine song albums cus it's so satisfying to rank groups of nine #cus you have the top three and the middle three and the bottom three #i love it lol #but for some reason i always think this album should be eight songs! it's so weird i don't know why #but yes please tell me if you have similar opinions or different opinions!!! i want to know lol #also going back to the nine song thing it's so funny with taylor swift having previously been my favorite artist and now billy joel instead #cus like taylor swift albums are just too long for me now lmao #maybe that's silly but i dunno i like a shorter album #and it's so nice with billy joel it's like the longest (out of his main 12 at least cus those are what i listen to) is just under 50 minute #it's awesome lol #but like some albums feel longer than they are so that's weird #like an innocent man definitely feels longer than it is lol

7 notes · View notes

daisyandbilly · 1 year

Text

Camila and Billy, Track 10

#she looks how i feel lol #camila #billy #camila dunne #billy dunne #daisy jones and the six #daisy jones & the six #djats #taylor jenkins reid #camila morrone #sam claflin

45 notes · View notes

mbat · 1 year

Text

real people cant queerbait. queerbaiting is the practice done by media creators, usually showrunners, of making what is essentially a couple of two people of the same gender but never confirming it, usually to keep viewership in less accepting places and at the same time keeping the viewership of those who love watching that couple, rooting for them to get together.

real people dont owe us their sexuality. they dont owe us anything, actually. especially not celebrities who are strangers to us.

"b-but theyre appropriating queer culture!" not really? men being feminine is typically in queer spaces, but i thought we wanted that to be normalized, for everyone to be allowed to express themselves however they please as long as no one gets hurt. i thought we wanted clothes and makeup and hair to be genderless, as they shouldve always been.

do we want cishet people to stop playing us in media? yeah, sure, but theyre still allowed to, its not illegal and they can still give decent performances. they dont have to match up to their identity on screen to play a role, even though it would be better for quite a few reasons. id prefer if they did but im not going to grab a pitchfork if they dont.

hell, even if someone was kissing people of the same gender in public but not confirming their sexuality, they still dont owe it to us. its their life, and literally if they are not hurting anyone, which they arent, then its not our business.

real people cant queerbait, they are not characters in a show, theyre not there for you to change and use as entertainment. theyre just as real as you and me and you need to consider real hard how it would feel to be on the recieving end of your behavior before you do something awful. hell, not even just in this situation of insisting people give their lives to us, but in any situation.

celebrities are still people, whether we like it or not. treat them like human beings, you weirdos. theyre not your friend, theyre not a character, theyre not there for you. theyre not a doll that youre playing with.

words have meanings. queerbaiting is a word for media discussion. it was made for that and it should stay for that. stop being cruel to real people because you think youre the center of the universe.

#queerbaiting #queerbait #heartstopper #harry styles #my post #taylor swift #im just tagging fandoms slash people who ive seen people make these claims against #kit connor #billie eilish #im just also thinking about that one performance where 3 famous straight women kissed on stage #i think one of them was britney spears. you could tell they did that just to appeal to straight guys lol #appealing to queer people vs cishets is so different imo. you can feel the difference i think #like girl dont do that you can do so much better than appealing to cishet men i promise you #also its so fucking biphobic to insist that bi people can only be valid if theyre only interested in people of the same gender #or even the opposite!#we are bi for a reason you freaks. we like both and are valid and bi no matter who were with. fucking freaks.

137 notes · View notes