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inkskinned · 5 months

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it isn't really complicated, but i still can't tell my grandma about it. my girlfriend is also my boyfriend and i'm her girlboyfriend and there are a lot of days this feels like smoothing sheets over a good mattress. it feels like getting a cup of good hot chocolate. we paint our nails lesbian flag pink, and i watch her eyelashes make shadows on her cheeks. she wants to kiss me because i am really good at baking, and i want to kiss her because when i am freaked out about how i spilled coffee, she just hands me extra napkins and helps me clean. he is so handsome i want to eat my fist. they once just winked at me and i couldn't talk for like the next fifteen minutes.

i haven't seen the L word and i was raised catholic. my earliest experiences with queer relationships were through harrowing conversations and hushed questions and blood on the ground. i didn't like boys soon enough. what, are you gay? asked to a 6th grader, almost like a demand.

when she is asleep next to me and i can feel the dreams run up and down her body, i pretend we are both somewhere in the stars. i like to picture a future full of fruit trees, and writing him poetry. sometimes she wakes up, has a whole conversation with me, goes back to sleep, and utterly forgets that we ever even spoke. she is always kind to me, even in that liminal half-there ghost. i like the croaked, raw way her voice sounds in the very-early morning, the way she always seems surprised i'm still here, and home.

on the internet, there are a lot of people who would be annoyed by both of us, and how labels must be pruned into orchids. a box has to hold and define the insides. people must be organized.

we went on a date last night, and the host said, oh, table for 2 nice ladies? neither of us are ladies, but also we are very much 2 nice ladies. i have been wearing her sweater nonstop. he has frequently been forced into wearing my taylor swift official merch quarter-zip because i was worried about him catching a chill, and you simply cannot be cool in an official taylor swift quarter-zip. do not worry: they listen to better music than i do, and their voice sounds like leaves falling.

i wear the skirts and makeup and i am better with spackle and know how to drive stick. recently someone commented on my work - you're just a man trying to reappropriate lesbian spaces. sometimes i feel like she is a clementine to me, and sometimes i feel like he is a german shepherd and sometimes i feel they are a bird. i like watching his hands over a guitar. can i write this poem, even? how can you be a lesbian if you're sometimes with a man? or you are the man?

how can i, huh. you know, our first date lasted 3 days. we'd been flirting for over a year before i finally asked her out. i'd already written her into poetry. she'd already written me into songs.

last night, in the late night, when they woke up again, confused about where they were, they said - oh, thank god. this is your arm. there's just something so precious to me about the specifics, the denotation that the arm was (thank god!) mine. i really liked that definition. i liked the obvious relief because i understand it.

i say yeah, i have a partner. i mean - oh. thank god. it's your arm.

#writeblr #warm up #on gender politics lol #inkskinned try not to have feelings for someone challenge #time of death: they put my earring in their ear. they were wearing an unbuttoned black buttondown and a necklace with my name on it #you can just send me the coffin i was ready to crawl in

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leondickrider · 8 months

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love languages | simon "ghost" riley x gn!reader + könig x gn!reader

💭 . . . first time writing for these pookie bears | wc. 561

synopsis: what is ghost and könig's live languages and how do they express them?

before you read: fluff, maybe angst???, seperate, not proofread or beta'd, listening to the entire ultraviolence album as i write this | warnings: mention of ghost's backstory (sa)

ghost

words of affirmation

this is most likely one of Ghost's bigger love languages but specifically when it's farther into the relationship if that makes sense ?? like after the "i love yous" and stuff simply bc he doesnt want to rush himself or you. he's also slow with relationships in general so... however, over text he is very passionate and literally floods your texts with compliments !!!!! he wants u to know you're the only one for him and stuff, even if he can't vocalize this all the time

physical touch

physical touch is one of those love languages that he barely expresses, he warms up to it as time goes on but w his trauma he has a hard time with physical touch esp in early months of ur relationship. however. after you gain most of his trust, hugs are a daily occurrence! however this one is very important to him since he never knows if he'll come back alive and if he's gonna die he wants to die remembering how your hands felt wrapped around him or something idk???

receiving gifts

he feels bad for his lack of physical affection, so he will buy you any gift you want and not expect anything in return :( these gifts range from lil trinkets he found while deployed and reallyyyy expensive jewelry you looked at a second time :(

quality time

his second favorite love languages bc it could range from sitting with him in silence, to going to a shoppe, to spending a couple hours binging on your favorite show

acts of service

most common since he feels like doing things for you makes up for all the things he feels he cannot do for you. like being there for you all the time. he's always deployed so he feels like he simply needs to do things for you with the time he can to make you stay (i worded this weirdly)

könig

words of affirmation

okok! social anxiety, i have it, and i understand that it affects everybody differently. but i feel that he is good with compliments/words of affirmation however he words them in a very odd way?? he's the type of guy to say "you have a round head" or something, but mean it in a nice way. HOWEVER he calls you the cutest pet names in german, "liebling" "maus" "mein kleiner pookie wookie bär"

physical touch

absolutely adores physical touch!!! esp if ur shorter since he likes looking all tall and strong with his lil partner clinging onto him likeee ?? he is a bit awkward at first since he isn't really a softie but eventually he becomes a big cuddly bear lmfao

receiving gifts

he really likes to receive gifts from you (not that he doesn't give you gifts, he's a literal colonel he makes enough money to buy you a diamond ring) but he love love loves little homemade gifts. like a little card with little doodles and a little message (even happier if there's german if u don't know german!!)

quality time

i think he enjoys private quality time the most, just in the house together and watching movies or playing games. he has social anxiety so he probably doesn't like leaving that much. especially not when he feels as if all eyes are on him the second he enters a room, esp w his height and his mask :(

acts of service

he'll grab anything you can't reach 😪 but yea acts of service type of guyyy

reblogs and replies always appreciated ty <3

simon "ghost" riley masterlist | könig masterlist

#vivi writes ౨ৎ #ghost x reader #simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley x reader #konig x reader #könig x reader #ghost #simon ghost riley #könig #cod #call of duty #cod x reader

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apersonwholikeslotus · 4 months

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do you have any fluffy aushun headcanons? (we need more loving content of aushun, I feel like there are so little of it😔❤️)

BOY DO I and I completely agree!! I feel like there’s so much angst and not enough fluff 😭

Erzsébet is a terrible piano player, just absolutely cannot get a hang of it, Roderich writes simple duet parts to songs so they can play together <3

Erzsí can speak German with a perfect Viennese accent but purposefully exaggerates his Hungarian accent anyway to annoy Roderich (jokes on her he thinks her accent is adorable).

opposite way except Roderich couldn't speak Hungarian sounding like a native speaker if his life depended on it, honestly he borders unintelligible, so he's very self conscious about speaking it. (jokes on him they think his accent is adorable)

they have so many pet names its not even funny, you think you've heard them all you are wrong and fool for thinking so.

On a similar note usually they call each other pet names in their own languages but Erzsí will call him süße or he'll call her szívem and u can just watch both of them melt over it <3

the whole thing sometime in the late fifties where they had to decide to love each other is really soft, like the shift in their relationship from being forced into proximity, and then the technically arranged marriage to the "I want you as a person, not you as a nation"

they refer to each other as if they're still married to the point that other nations have started referring to them as if they're still married.

they are the couple that gets into serious arguments in public but then you actually listen and realize they're fighting over like,,, idk the best type of cake frosting.

Roderich's response to Erzsébet being sad is to bake for them, Erzsí's response to Roderich being sad is to cook for him.

They realize the other is sad and make food for them. That's it. That's the hc.

They go to balls still and Roderich can't dance for very long (and as much as she'll deny is Erzsí's age is catching up too) but even then they'll stay all night just to watch everyone else because it reminds them of when they were younger.

Also to show everyone else up by being the best waltzers there.

Also also Erzsí literally thinks Roderich will never look more handsome then when he's in a tux so :\

They both actually HATE snobby art museums but will spend all day at small local art shows

idk what they're snobby about and what they're not is kinda funny bc they do still have date nights thats shit like going to opera's and to see symphony orchestras.

music nerds of the highest degree named both their sons after composers

Roderich hates horse riding with every ounce of his being, simply despises it, cars are his favorite invention ever bc they insured he would never have to ride a horse again.

he'll go horseback riding with Erzsí because it makes her happy.

i ended up rambling i'm sorry but yeah i love them <3

#hws austria #hws hungary #aushun #hetalia #i know a lot of these are music related idk i just think music is such an insanely important part of their relationship

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bidonica · 2 months

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Hey! I see you're into fragile/higgs ship and caught myself quite like them too recently (tho i've been in DS fandom already for a year and mostly thought about them as a friends)

Just wondering why do you like them? Do you have any headcanons/interesting thoughts? I'm very curious 👀

Hi! First of all apologies for the wall of text you're about to get, but unfortunately you came knocking at my door after I spent nearly two months ruminating about this ship basically by myself sooo I'm dumping it all here

Well the short (lol) version is that in my first playthrough I mostly just absorbed the characters and storyline, but by the time I got to their final scene on the Beach I was like wait a minute... their whole shared storyline feels way too loaded for them to simply have been business associates, that shit is personal, even Higgs wanting to damage Fragile feels way too pointed to just be justified by "he was a turncloak with a secret agenda." Now, I'm not against a "they were simply close friends" interpretation, it works just as well to explain the emotional weight of their falling out, BUT I also cannot ignore the zest, the flavor, the spice of them actually having been involved romantically at some point. And honestly going into my second playthrough with the shipping goggles on I can't help thinking that Fragile speaks about Higgs like he was an ex that hurt her, and the way that she is suspiciously cagey about the specifics of their relationship makes my ears shoot up like a German shepherd.

On a Doylist level I also find it interesting that Kojima gave Higgs extra backstory that connects him to Fragile in the Director's Cut, and also how the behind the scenes for the DS2 mocap show Troy and Léa sharing a scene... I think Kojima is not done intertwining their story and we'll get more info in the sequel.

Now for the headcanons... I have enough that I might or might not be writing a long-ish fic about it, but I want to finish this Director's Cut playthrough before completing it (I could just look stuff up on the wiki but that's not fun). Also I have some art in the pipeline about it that I hope to post within the week. Anyway, the bite sized version of how I envision their relationship:

I hc Higgs as being immediately attracted to Fragile but not really acting on it, while she develops her attraction after getting to know him a little. Then she's down bad but she doesn't even realize it until it's so obvious it hits her in the face

A few people at their joint Fragile Express/whatever Higgs' operation was called co-op assume they are an item long before anything ever happens, because they just hang out together a lot. They have a similar penchant for corny jokes and puns and enjoy some light banter; Fragile finds Higgs' flair for theatrics endearing, while he is drawn to how gentle she is because he has known so little softness in his life (also he thinks she's insanely pretty, which duh. It's self evident because Léa Seydoux) (it's his first serious girl crush anyway; I hc him as bi and as having had mostly experiences with men before her)

They bond over their DOOMS condition and Higgs is fascinated by Fragile's powers, while she is less enthused by all the collateral effects. In my hc, at this point she has yet to become as skilled at traveling through dimensions as she is in the game, which makes her reluctant to agree to Higgs' requests to show him the Beach. This sows the seeds of his resentment towards her, because he feels she has a privilege she doesn't make use of and doesn't want to share.

They are both pretty touchy feely (canon!) so when their relationship goes from friendly to romantic it gets physical immediately and enthusiastically. Yes even accounting for the worldwide lowered sex drive. If there's one thing I never do is put characters in horny jail 🫡

I think Fragile got to know a version of Higgs that was quite different from what we see in the game, which you sort of can gauge from the more optimistic pages of his diary. Like there's a part of him who's starved for love and connection and a sense of belonging and gravitates towards people like Coffin (he never had a mother) and Fragile herself; ironically, the pull towards Amelie answers to the same need but in reality it feeds on his more nihilistic, call-of-the-void side. I'm not saying that Amelie brainwashed him or anything, but I think she saw what was already there – a deep seated resentment towards a hostile world and towards those he feels got handed a luckier deal than he did, that he countered by clinging to the notion of being special because of his DOOMS, but then there's someone like Fragile who's even more special and doesn't seem to be doing much with it. Amelie gave him a chance to fulfill what he felt was his potential and shared her power with him, but the tradeoff was severing the connections he had, "killing" the part of him that wanted to be loved to make space for what he perceived as a higher form of love ("I found someone who completes me" which he says to Fragile specifically like he wants to rub it in her face? Like she wasn’t enough to fulfill that role?)

That’s why I think it’s significant that he lost his hands with his power-up, because the (holding, welcoming) hands are strongly associated with Fragile; and to me it makes sense if he purposely ruins her body also because it’s a way to stifle his attraction to her. There’s also a lot of projection because HE is the one who’s felt like damaged goods all along, who grew up being crushed psychologically and physically. I also think that both of them coming close to annihilating the other but choosing not to – leaving them in a dicey situation but not entirely without escape – shows in some twisted way that their bond still exists, which makes me giggle and rub my hands like a nasty little goblin knowing we have another game coming.

So… That’s the gist of it. Sorry for rambling on but as I said, I don’t really get the chance to talk about this ship much – greetings from rarepair hell, etc.

#replies #death stranding #fragile x higgs #higgs x fragile #greetings from rarepair hell #embarrassing amounts of mental real estate have been allocated to this... The mental illness is in full display i fear #i dunno they just make so much sense. to me #and i just enjoy the inherent tragedy of it all because i love to make myself suffer

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thatlittleegyptologist · 2 years

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I think the proportion of dumb Americans is just higher due to statistics - if there are more people from the US on a website in absolute numbers the probability you run into a stupid person who also happens to be from the US is higher.

Also Tumblr is a US-based website so there's probably some bias there that if you're not from the US and also on Tumblr you are probably more intelligent. Especially for countries that aren't the UK or other native English speaking ones. A person from Japan or Brazil who speaks English as a second language well enough to function on English-speaking tumblr probably knows more about the world around them than the average US-born native english speaker.

No, not really, and this is where you're gonna have to unlearn some things.

There are not more people from the US on this website. People tend to think this because: a) a lot of people speak English as a second, third or even fourth language, and so use it primarily on this site, and because of this b) the number of times I have seen people assume people are automatically from the US is pretty high at this point.

People to this day still think I'm from the US, even though I make it very clear in my bio and when writing here that I'm from the UK. I've had an Irish friend living in Scotland be told her followers thought she was from various parts of the US after one person thought she was from Louisiana. I've seen so many non US users get weird anons telling them 'hey you can't do that in the US' and they're like 'hey not everyone is from the US y'know?'

It's literally no excuse to be like 'well there's more of us here' because the only time I expect that to happen is when I am physically standing on US soil, not on an international website. And it is an international website. It doesn't matter that the servers are in the US or that it's base is in the US. It has an international userbase who use it daily. You simply cannot assume that just because a website has it's base of operations in the US that it is not frequented by users from other nations. That's like saying 'Whatsapp is an American company ergo there will be more Americans using it' because that's just simply not true. There are far more people from outside the US than there are in the US. On the internet you are massively outnumbered, and it's only down to the fact that most of them converse in English for the sake of being able to operate on an Anglocentric site (linguistically) that you don't notice them. If you dig below the surface on tumblr, you can find plenty of people conversing in different languages. The part where Tumblr asks you what language you want Tumblr to be in is there for a reason.

As for the 'well people who know more than one language are smarter' is such a dumb argument. Many people in the US speak more than one language. They speak Spanish, German, Korean, Mandarin, Navajo etc. You cannot write this off as 'well we're dumb, we only speak one language compared to everyone else' because that's simply not true. Speaking more than one language doesn't automatically make you more intelligent either. It helps you in many ways, but it's not an automatic sign of higher intelligence. If this was a problem for people who only speak English, I would expect to see more stupid comments from people in the UK, Australia, New Zealand etc, but I don't. In fact, the Aussies on my political posts yesterday were like 'hell yeah BoJo got ScoMo'd!!' and all they'd done was get up and see the news. I didn't have to explain anything to them.

Even if a website was in an entirely different language, google translate exists. It's not perfect, but you can get the general gist of something. I've been reading news from other countries all day, including on the assassination of the former prime minister in Japan. I don't need another language, or to be 'more intelligent' to do this. All I do is click the 'World' news button on the BBC news' front page and off I go to learn about what's happening. If I need more in depth I'll visit that country's news sites and select the 'English' option (because news sites do display in other languages) or I let my browser translate it.

The reason ESL speakers (and others) know more about the world than USians do is because they actively seek it. The problem here is that USians are incurious about the world, and usually unwilling to learn more unless directly given the information by someone else. Then, when confronted with the problem of that incuriosity they make excuses like this rather than taking accountability for their own self improvement.

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abidethetempest · 8 months

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Eliksni Formal/Informal Speech and House Dialects

The Eliksni discord server lovingly bullied me into making this post so if you're upset that this isn't an update on the Null Composure lore translation its not my fault /lh

long stuff under the cut bc this post got away from me (but then again, dont they all?)

Registers

Levels of formality (aka register) is a topic I have always wanted to include in Eliksni but haven't been able to develop highly yet because, well. kind of need to get the basic language down first. Speaking of, the Eliksni seen in pretty much all of my current material would be known as neutral Eliksni. It is neither formal nor informal, the kind of speech you would use to address someone of your rank or lower who you aren't particularly close to (or perhaps you are close and youre simply being polite. Socioloinguistics is complicated).

Informal Eliksni is what you would use with a friend, family member, or ✨lover✨, if youre into that sort of thing. It displays a level of intimacy and closeness, even more so when used in a formal setting. Who you use informal register with, and when, depends not only upon your rank relative to theirs, but also the kind of image you both want to potray to others. Examples of informal speech are few and far between so far, but here are a few things that are decidedly informal:

slang terms or contractions. one example from my lexicon is "eima", a portmanteau of the words for yes and no; used as a word to say “it depends, kind of/sort of, maybe” or a rhetorical prompt for agreement like “isn’t it?, right?”

dropping the rank honorific from someone's name (not quite as informal or impolite to do, but definitely implies a certain degree of closeness)

Formal register is used to address someone of higher rank or who you want to show respect to. Formal register is also used in poetry and traditional storytelling. It's the safest way to go when speaking to a stranger for the first time, tho with someone of equal rank you don't have to go all the way. Sticking to little stuff like full formal greetings is usually polite enough.

there is a unique pronoun in formal speech known as the "formal you" (why yes, i do speak a little German and it does influence this conlang. however did you guess?) as the name implies, this pronoun is used to refer to another person in the formal register. For true, ultimate formality, you can even abandon it entirely and refer to someone with their full name and honorific all the time. This is Capital F Formal though and can border on obsequious or mocking.

unlike neutral and informal, you cannot drop the subject of statements that refer to the same thing as the preceding statement (this is occassionally okay to do in writing if you need to save time/space, such as giving a report)

the conjunction mroks (meaning "for) is exclusive to formal speech-- mostly in poetry-- and replaces the conjunction liium (meaning "so"). When this happens, the order of the sentence must be flipped.

House Dialects

A topic I am also going to expand upon more later, since I haven't thought of that many ideas yet. Here all the bits what I have so far. Mostly based on headcanon.

House Judgement:

High Speak is a concept referenced only twice in the lore, both times referred to specifically as being the speech of House Judgement. Therefore, this register is primarily used in writing laws and-- you guessed it-- passing down judgements. It can be applied to other kinds of speech, but the only House that ever used it that way was Judgement. I have no examples yet bc there's a grand total of two canonical words in High Speak in the lore.

House Rain:

Rain dialect pronounces the sound "aa" as the same sound as the "ey/eh" diphthong when it comes at the beginning of a word. This arose due to a shift in pronounciation in other Eliksni dialects; at one point in the past, all Houses pronounced the "aa" sound as "ey" when it came at the start of a word. Other Houses shifted to pronouncing "aa" the same in all positions, but Rain preserved the difference in their speech and spelling.

House Kings:

Talk about pretentious-- Kings consider themselves so above the other "common" Houses that they use formal speech for almost everything, even among close friends. Getting a King to refer to you without an honorific means they must really like you... or they're insulting you. Could go either way.

House Wolves:

Their dialect is taken often as the "standard" Eliksni due to the high volume of recordings and translations done of their speech during their time among the Awoken. Odds are good any kind of field guide to Eliksni would be Wolf dialect. The only other concrete idea I have for Wolf dialect is that is more rigid about word order rules (such as where adverbs or secondary verbs may be placed in a sentence.)

House Devils:

Seen as a "lower" or less polite speech by other Houses, especially Kings. Informal speech is used with greater frequency between those of equal rank (and occassionally even to one's direct superiors). This is not, as often assumed, because the Devils have a disrespect for authority or traditional House hierarchy; it is more due to a cultural emphasis on unity and House loyalty, a focus that helped them function with a Kell for so long after the death of Solkis. Dividing the House so rigidly through every aspect of life, including the words you use, is not something that appeals to the Devils.

House Exile:

Lack of a traditional House command structure means a breakdown of the rank-based registers among Exiles, and as such formal speech is nearly non existent.

#destiny 2 #destiny #eliksni #conlang #indee's eliksni conlang adventure

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ohsalome · 10 months

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I am so sorry for you that some of the Western press is just garbage when it comes to ruzzia. More concerned to write dozens of articles about like one isolated case of a ruzzian who appear to be anti-war, often picking examples were the impact is grossly overstated in Western press, having had no impact in ruzzia at all. I'll say that there are very very very select few ruzzians helping Ukrainians such as those helping Ukrainians to leave ruzzia. But guess what? They are not necessarily anti-war and even if they know to keep themselves anonymous and out of the public eye. But if anyone from Moscovia publicly denounces the war, they'll get a shit ton of coverage and even more asylum offers. It's ridiculous. Let them fix their own country. Europe literally tries to get Syrians to go back (or forces them to) to a country in which the ruzzian state also occassionally just decides to bomb full neighbourhoods until there is nothing left of them. But god forbid the poor uwu "anti-war" ruzzians aren't giving visas. The Ex-Soldier with his stupid book is a prime example of how ruzzians will exploit the heck out of Europe while not ever even considering to shed a single tear for Ukrainians (the worst being the absolite ridiculous excuse from the exiled ruzzian opposition org that they never would have thought he would lie to them - fellow ruzzians :O like no eff you, you willently ignored that he voluntarily rejoined the army and never gave a shit about how Ukrainians responded to the disaster). Same for Navalny ofc (and while I do consider it correct, that he was treated for being poisoned, I still know he has never renounced his right wing connections and is just as imperialistic as Putin so no - he ain't a viable "alternative" - as much as the press tries to whitewash him).

The most rational statements from ruzzians about ruzzia have come from those who left because of the regime before or right after Crimea liek Kasparov and even with him not all he says is perfect, but you know, he also has 0 ambitions to return.

On the other hand, where are all the heartwarming stories about Ukrainians? They are way more interesting, there are countless of those. There are so many Ukrainians who also willingly speak about the trauma experienced by ruzzians during occupation but I guess rape, torture and execution just gets "boring" after a year.

While I think that, as an East German, German politicians have come quite far - took 'em long enough - I totally can see what the other anon mentioned. Our press is absolutely desperate to romanticize ruzzians all the time. We hate the idea of "all ruzzians" so we latch onto "not all". Which I find particularly upsetting, since this debate has been had in Germany. Extensively. And what was largely agreed upon in German politics, culture etc.? That all Germans carry guilt for the holocaust and destruction wrought upon Europe. That being a bystander is not enough of an excuse. Sure we also latch onto the Germans that were an exception to the rule like crazy because we need the affirmation that not all Germans were okay with this, but there are some unspoken and actual laws in place. A whole chunk of put constitution is build around the concept of the common guilt for atrocities.

Aaaaand yet. When our press looks to ruzzia they simply cannot cope with the idea that maybe in some ways, history is repeating itself again.

Sorry for the vent. But I hope you know, that there are also some Westerners (if I count as such... always bit complicated as East German) that seek out Ukrainian sources to understand and see the war through your eyes.

Nothing much to add. I feel the same outrage.

#response #ukraine #war in urkaine #russia #germany #not all russians #politics #very good comparison with the way syrian refugees are treated. never thought about that before but huh

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alintheshitposter · 3 months

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It is currently 4am in the morning, I can't sleep, so let's do this now. (Pretty sure I've done it before but this is simply going be the updated version🤪)

15 questions + 15 friends; I was tagged by @spezialgelagerte-rokokokokotte thanking youuu <3

It got quite long, so I'll put a cut here😅

1. Are you named after anyone?

No😊 (and I say this confidently because I named myself)

2. When was the last time you cried?

Two days ago, on my birthday (I was just a little emotional), but @maxwellshimbo was there to comfort me💚

3. Do you have kids?

Not of my own, no. And it's unlikely that is ever going to happen.

4. What sports do you play/have you played?

I did ballet as a kid but quickly got tired of it and started playing football, which I technically STILL play (it's been 84 14 years💀) but I am falling out of love with it. I used to do archery for like a year which I absolutely loved and hope to do again sometime! I'm in a club for lifeguarding (German peeps will probably have heard of DLRG👀) so I spent quite some time at the swimming pool as well. Though I am not as active in actual training anymore. And I did ballroom dancing for a while. Like standard and latin dances. My favourite was probably Cha Cha Cha and my least favourite was definitely Quickstep😵‍💫 it was fun tho! I danced with one of my best friends and I did the leading parts which made me feel kind of gender euphoric. I also like to go for a run every now and then but overall I'd consider myself a not so sporty person. I like to relax a lot🥴

5. Do you use sarcasm?

I cannot live without. It just comes naturally.

6. What is the first thing you notice about people?

Just the overall vibe I guess. And whether I like them or not.

7. What is your eye colour?

It says blue-grey on my ID but I've been told they're actually more green-ish and I kind of agree.

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings. I don't like scary movies, I think they're ridiculous.

9. Any talents?

Hm. Well...my dad jokes are pretty good🤪 but apart from that...I guess I'm quite creative?🤷🏻 I speak 3 languages fluently? I can touch my tongue to my nose? Idk xD

10. Where were you born?

In some small town in northern Germany. Fellow Germans will probably know it for one (1) big tourist attraction but I'm not going to specify it here.

11. What are your hobbies?

I play theater. I play several musical instruments (bass, flute, ukulele, kalimba and some more but I'm not as good). I like taking pictures and editing them. Sometimes I write fanfic and/or poetry. And I like to relax in my bean bag🥴

12. Do you have any pets?

I have a cat but I haven't lived with her in 3 years. (Due to an allergy🤧 and me moving out of my parents' house.) I visit her from time to time tho!

13. How tall are you?

It used to be 1,68m on my ID but I recently had to renew it and now it says I'm 1,71m...I think I might actually be smaller than that though🥴

14. Favourite subject in school?

Always all the languages. Never any of the sciences. I loved music class as well. And all the school bands I played in. I miss that.

15. Dream job?

Please, that is the WORST question you could ask me right now😩 I feel a little lost. I'm currently studying to be a translator but is it what I really want? I don't know ;-; I miss working at the kindergarten lately. But I don't know if I'd wanna do that full time either. I'm so insecure and I hope I'll figure it out soon.

Phew. This took me almost an hour. Well. Let's see if I can fall asleep now. 1½ hours left until my alarm goes off. Good night😴

No pressure tags: @daughterofhecata @miaisreadytorun @bistdueinbaum

#alin answers tag games

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Hi friends, I illegally logged into tumblr on my work computer on the first working day of 2023 specifically to make this post properly. I don't have a good computer and I simply could not do this on my phone.

Ok, Time to get emo :)

I discovered SKZ at the end of last year, I personally date my anniversary to somewhere between December 29th 2021 and January 2nd 2022. It's a good thing too because I get overemotional at the end of the year anyway and now I can just schedule all my gratitude and emo times at the same time.

I want to start from the beginning bc the only reason 2022 was a good year for me was this discovery. this is a bit of recap for me because I wanted to do it. If you're tagged in it it means that you played a part in my year and meant something to me. Feel free to only read your little paragraphs (or nothing at all, theres no obligation), this is bound to get unspeakably long.

first, I want to give a quick shout out to the people I started talking to/followed more recently @hyunpic (I haven's checked twitter today, did hyunjin kill you yet or did he get all of that out of the way in 2022?) @mybodyfails (did u ever listen to stromae?) @jisungsjaistandjeekies (how was the first day of your new job?) The best thing about getting another year on tumblr is the promise of getting to know you all more <3

@quokki you were literally the first person I ever followed for stray kids content. It was around february, when I looked for fanart for the first time and reactivated my twitter and I found your hannies. It took a little longer but I'm so glad we are friends now. I really love our chats/meltdowns abt hanji and you're incredibly talented and kind and also just correct abt a lot of stuff lmao

@alexenglish alex, I know we don't talk that much but you were the first person to really talk to me abt k-pop stuff and I will never forget that. I also cannot thank you enough for showing me rolling quartz and for reading the stupid thing that i wrote that one time. it seems trivial but i literally do not show anyone my writing ever and anytime I do and it's a good experience it makes me a little braver so thank you, seriously. and also thank you for sticking around even when I'm a dick

my first comeback in march was soso special because I had people to freak out with. I was in Ireland at the time and even hough I was brand new in online stayville I felt a lot less alone than I could've.

in april i started talking to @sailsflyseaward but I honestly can't believe it has only been 9 months. We've met 3! times since then and you're already one of my most precious online friends and I feel like I've known you way longer. I have to try very hard to stay cynical and not believe in fate and the universe being a good place when I think about how we could've just never met.

I was EXHAUSTED the first 4 months of this year, I hated most of it. I turned 30 in april, i had been to ireland and to the north sea on vacation in march and april but all of it felt hollow and exhausting and terrible. In germany we say that may makes everything anew and it certainly was true for me this year. I planned a trip to toronto, I got a raise, I got to see mamamoo, ive and a bunch of others live and i spoke a little to so so many sweet people.

@nevoono who makes literally the cutest fucking things ever and was my first german k-pop friend ever and also is just... really cool in such a unique way. idk I'm sorry I'm terrible at keeping up.

to @ambivartence who I don't talk to a ton but who also is literally the coolest artist alive and made me feel very happy to know that others also travel very far to see their groups. I stare at your paintings so much, i honestly should not admit it but there's just always so much to see.

and to @pvddins-art who is one of the sweetest and kindest and most generous people I've ever met, which is a high bar because I use those words for a lot of people, but for you they are more true than for anyone.

getting to go to a k-pop festival in germany as my first experience was so good too. I really had no idea what it means to ba a k-pop fan and the whole community and culture and incredible vibes around it when you're there in person. I had a very exhausting day and it was hot as hell and I had a migraine after but it was all worth it

interlude because I don't remember when I started talking to you:

@brianbangs tay my sweetheart, i love you so much. you're just one of the people who get it. like. idk, it's hard for me to put into words properly but you get it when I'm being a hater and you get it when I'm being emotional and you get it when I'm being horny and you accept all of it. I also think you're really fucking creative and talented and I love being here with you so much

then june came and it was one of my best months ever ever. I went to another festival and got to relive the music I loved as a teen. seeing the strokes 16 years after I was a fan made me cry a lot lol. I went to see my favorite people alive @starmotions, @fromadifferentphase (and the third one who is missing but u know who u are) in toronto. and I do mean this literally you're my favorites. I'm the most me when I'm with you, I think of everyone who knows me no one knows me so completely. there isn't anyone I share more parts of myself with. the 1 week I just got to hang out with you was so incredibly precious to me, it made me power through most of the rest of the year. moments of joy! I got to see toronto and got to spend time with people I love. one of my friends came all the way from salt lake city just to see me.

then I went to new york and now there's a long ass list coming because 1. it was the first time I met my beloved julia, 2. it was when i met my beloved kay 3. i got to travel with my beloved di and we got to explore new york and eat so many tacos and learn about queer art and history and also it was when I met both

@chanstopher and @lonelystreetlight and I'm puting you both in the same paragraph bc I started talking to both of you at the same time and also discovered that we're literally the same tumblr user, I cannot believe that I found the old 1D crowd again and the old glee crowd AND even the old starkid people. ok, I had to google the songs from the space tour just now but it's insane that I could text someone about both status quo by starkid AND zone by 3racha.

and lastly it was OF COURSE when i fucking saw fucking stray kids in fucking person (sorry) I was so numb from everything going on, and from the heat and from newark airport that I didn't even cry but looking back on it I honestly can't even begin to believe how lucky I was to be able to do all of that in just one month.

july was the month I went to see harry styles (meh) and hang out with an old friend because of it (yay) and I have literally nothing else in my calender for the entire month but I know I was a bit stressed. however I don't think it was a terrible time.

In august I went to the south of germany on vacation to celebrat my moms birthday, we went to the opera outdoors and I felt extremely fancy the entire time and also saw so many flowers. then we started the stayblr discord.

@snug-gyu @hanjesungs @ggthydrangea @littleclouds @shmalll @babychicklix and everyone else in there! I am so glad it's a space to hang out and message each other and talk about skz. I know I left very quickly (unfortunately group situations are terrible for my mental health and I felt very bad very quickly) but I still got to start chatting with so many cool people and I'm always so happy that we did that.

@bangchanies king of the dumpster that is new jersey, my absolute favorite eyeshadow model and another one of the bitches that just get it, u know? you just get what I'm trying to say and I am grateful to have you to text when I want to be annoying. (you're also secretly incredibly sweet and I think you're honestly just a very kind and empathetic person and i would be sadder without you but i will not tell anyone that you're secretly nice)

@cheekyquokka even though you're not IN the server, I feel like we started really talking around the same time so you're getting put in here as well. you're so generous and sweet to your friends, I remember the surprise and amazement from both bee and ale at the packages you sent them, you're such a great fucking mutual to have because you know yourself and you make really cool gifs, every time one of yours comes across my dash i know it. idek why. anyway, thank you <3

around september was when I finally started the group chat and seven made it complete, so here comes that bit. I needed to make sure you all know how much you mean to me.

@bourgeoix I swear in some off-kilter way we are soulmates. you make both my fandom brain and the little kid that didn't know popstars but could draw the shape of gorbachevs blood spot feel at home. you're soooo fucking smart and we have like debated moral philosophy and learning and reasoning styles at length so I won't go into it but it's one of those amazing fated coincidences that we both befriended seven and then each other. you think it's cool that I live near to Olaf Scholz's barbershop. you're my favorite of all the nerds. I could read the stuff you write for years and years and never get bored. I need to eat your brain (as jace or seven would say) and I love that we get to be both smart and very very very dumb together.

@hyumjim I honestly cannot top what mel said but you're like. my only grown up friend. You genuinely have a patience and kindness with people that is really hard to find. I know you don't show this to everyone but it makes me all the more grateful that I get to experience it. you're also insane. when seven first added you to the gc I had sth to say that felt really crazy to me and was nervous in front of you and seven said 'emily is also insane' and so i posted it in the gc and now we're friends. i don't remember what it was but you gave great advice and i sort of feel like we disagree and fight in all the ways that makes a relationship better and you make me insecure but in a fun way. you're a huge hater and yet you genuinely love people and humanity more than most people alive. thank you for listening to me.

@jellino jace idek how to describe you but you're like....... my little brother but not in a lame way. you're also older than me in some ways. idk, I just love how much you love stuff. I love how sure you are of what you're not, even while always wondering what you are. I think of you so much when I see sea creatures and ice age characters and dumb stuff. the other day I saw a squirrel irl and i thought 'I have to send this to jace' bc it reminded me of scrat from ice age. i cannot look at a penguin without thinking about you. I don't think I'll ever go to a zoo and not think of you. I also am always hoping that you are ok, that you find your way, that you know I'm happy and proud to know you...

@bewby my love. seven. I think it will never not be complicated how much I love you because I want you to be ok so bad. but it doesn't matter if you are or not for me to love you a whole lot. you're so funny and so smart and I say neither of these things lightly, like you have such a quick wit and you want everyone to be ok so bad and you love people so much and i hope that some day you will know that it is enough and you are enough. meeting you that one time was so fun, like we literally did not need more than a half hour to find sooo much stuff to talk about. I love having a german kpoppie friend, I love your tender heart, I love how understanding you are! I hope you know how much!

honestly it's all 4 of you that got me through fall and winter so far, it's venting and bitching and joking and writing insanely long messages to you that make me feel like a human instead of a gremlin. It's knowing that you like me and think I'm someone you want to listen to. You mean so much to me, I can never pay that back.

so much happened in my personal k-pop world in october PLUS most of my friends had their birthdays too so it was a bit stressful and it ended with my great uncle dying but i did get to see my old friends and family, so it was good in the end.

november was cold and dark as always but i got to feel so much warmth in scotland, just spending a few days going to museums and coffeeshops and nothing else and then seeing my love julia for the scond time, learning about history and eating pies. then I went to london to see @sunflowercocoa again after 5 fucking years and it was so much fun. I know you know how much I love you, I had such a good time, thank you for being my friend. Thank you for making me leave the house, thank you for being generous and fun and spending time with me. I know you're strong enough to get through the next year or so and I know you're gonna be so happy and so successful and you have a great life ahead. I know you're not here much anymore and that it kind of annoys you but you were a big part of this year and this is like my diary at this point tbh.

i also met @geniaparadox my homie and so much fun to hang out with. honestly our day together kind of made me wish i could've gotten to hang out with you in high school, i feel like we would have been friends. thank you for talking to me abt how underrated felix is and for looking at the bts stuff in hmv and despair because being a k-pop fan in europe is very sad and for buying japanese tea and just being cool. i am so happy that you get to not go back to that job

december was november but worse but I started it off sososo well, seeing julia the 3rd time and going to nuremberg and munich and being slightly tipsy at the christmas market everywhere and going swing dancing for the first time and trying so many fun food and drink things. It was a sad and anxiety-inducing month because so many people I know were ill or dying but in the end we mostly made it through and I am grateful. I got to spend the end of the year surrounded by babies and puppies and it felt good to not have to deal with grown-up things for a few days and just play.

#personal #life #middle of the day text posts #i love u all im so sorry for this

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This topic of modern fairytales leads me to talk about a strange sub-genre that hasn’t been clearly identified or codified by any specialist, and that yet still exists and that people recognize.

“The fairytale fantasy”.

There is a lot of works that could fit the idea of a “brand new fairytale” or the “fairytale 0%” as I called them... but it is hard to pinpoint exactly when a modern fairytale begins and where a work of fantasy ends.

“The fairytale fantasy” is a strange fantasy subgenre that, to my knowledge, can be noted through two things. 1) It is a fantasy story aimed at children. Whenever someone intends to do a great fantasy story but for a younger audience, they will be drawn by fairytale structures and conventions. It is a phenomenon that cannot be escaped and is as old as fantasy itself - when J. R. R. Tolkien wrote his Lord of the Rings, for adults, he drew from ancient British and Celtic legends, from Norse mythology, Germanic legends and the Kalevala - and yet, when he wrote the Hobbit, in the same universe but for a younger audience, suddenly you see a much stronger influence of fairytales (from the funny dwarf party to the whole idea of fighting a dragon passing by the fooling of the talkative man-eating spiders...). 2) A fantasy becomes a “fairytale fantasy” whenever it starts delving into what I would call “fae lore” or “fairy folklore”. When a work of fantasy digs into the actual legends of the fair folk, and in topics ranging from changelings to Elfland, then it will either take a strong fairytale-tone or it will reuse fairy tale elements to build itself (thanks to fairytales being tied to the “fae lore” though not always identical).

These two points at the “bridges” that form a path between fantasy and fairytales, but also blurs the line... Where does an attempt at writing a unique unseen before fairytale begins, and where does the creation of a fantasy story inspired by fairy folklore ends? Should some work be classified as “fairytale films” or “fairytale books” ; or as “fantasy books”?

In terms of movies, two examples come to mind: “Labyrinth” and “The Last Unicorn”. Two works that clearly draw upon fairytales, use their tropes and conventions, and yet are fantasy movies, seen and classified as such.

Neil Gaiman is also a master of this genre - his novel Stardust being actually described as a “fairytale fantasy” (though officially it is a “romance in Faerie”), even though the movie that adapts it relies more on the “fantasy” aspect than the “fairytale” one. Neil Gaiman also wrote what is often considered a “modern dark fairytale” and yet also feels like children fantasy - the celebrated “Coraline”, which occupies a very odd and strange place alongside its mirror-book, “The Thief of Always” by Clive Barker.

And this odd, strange place is the place of “children fantasy”, which by nature as I said has a fairytale feeling and yet could easily not be considered a fairytale. Some people date back this phenomenon to Alice in Wonderland, its sequels and the other children book of Lewis Carroll - but I refute this idea. Simply because (as an Alice enthusiast I can tell you that) the Alice books were never intended to be fairytales, were not inspired by fairytales - and people simply assumed that it was a fairytale thanks to it being a popular “children book” and a monument of fantasy-like children literature. Because again - when a book involves some sort of marvel or supernatural, and is a popular children work, then people had the habit of classifying it among “fairytales” - especially if Disney DID adapt it alongside other traditional fairytales. In fact I do believe the reason why works such as Alice in Wonderland or Pinocchio are considered equal to the Grimm fairytales or the Perrault ones is because Disney considered them as such.

But Alice in Wonderland is not a fairytale - and is Pinocchio a fairytale? Not really. It does have fairytale motifs, but it is too complex, too long, too novel-like to be an actual fairytale. It is a novel for children, a children book, but not a fairytale equal to the ones of Perrault and Grimm. It would be closer to the long, complex fairytales of Andersen as exemplified by “The Snow Queen”, but even then it doesn’t fit because while being long and complex, The Snow Queen was still embracing a form of simplicity, shortness and “collection of stories” aspect typical of fairytales, where Pinocchio really is a full, complex novel with a novel-like storyline.

Same confusions, talks and discussions could arose for many other big names of early 20th century literature. Peter Pan for example - though I do not know much about this, so I’ll rather let people with more expertise talk about this subject.

And it doesn’t help that there are cases that blur the line EVEN MORE. I am thinking here of another subject I have some knowledge about: The Wizard of Oz. The original Wizard of Oz story, as designed, written and created by L. Frank Baum was intended to be a “modern, American fairytale” able to rival the old European ones. And it did! But... while it was conceived in spirit as a fairytale, it still had the structure and format of a novel. A children novel. Which made it feel much more like an example of “children fantasy book” rather than a fairy tale. And Oz delved fully into the “fantasy” concept when it had a sequel, then another sequel, and then became an entire franchise, losing the fairytale aspect. We can compare that to the Chronicles of Narnia - the original book similarly has a modern fairytale feel, though it is also clearly a children fantasy novel, and then delves fully into the fantasy by having sequels...

Overall, this is one complex, muddled, strange topic that can lead to endless debates but that proves one thing: classification systems are always artificial tools that can easily be broken by mere human inventivity. Works of fiction are always hard to place into boxes and genres are fluctuating things changing all the time...

#fairytale fantasy #fairytale 0%#coraline #the wizard of oz #the thief of always #labyrinth #the last unicorn #stardust #the chronicles of narnia #peter pan #pinocchio #alice in wonderland #the hobbit

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salvadorbonaparte · 3 months

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do you have any advice for people learning a language that reads right to left? i cannot get my brain around it at all but i want to learn hebrew or yiddish. also which of the two would you say is easier to learn?

I struggled with this in the beginning but it's something that definitely comes with practice. I believe the writing system itself is pretty easy to learn so you can concentrate on getting the order right. Bilingual note taking is really annoying though.

Easy and difficult languages are all relative and subjective but Yiddish is likely to be easier unless you know another semitic language like Arabic.

Hebrew grammar is fairly different from English. Yiddish is a Germanic language and closely related to German, so some concepts will be more familiar to you. (obligatory mention that people are different and some people thrive when exposed to different grammar concepts). This affects the vocabulary as well. Yiddish vocabulary is derived from a lot of German words and a fair amount of Hebrew and Slavic words.

If you struggle with the writing system, Yiddish is going to be easier as well. This is really overly simplified but Yiddish uses vowels and Hebrew doesn't. Hebrew mostly writes down consonants and only writes down some vowels (although there's material for children or learners with vowels added). Yiddish uses the same letters but said screw it, let's use vowels for everything but words derived from Hebrew. For those words you simply have to learn the pronunciation but you get used to it.

I wouldn't base your decision on difficulty alone though. No matter which one you learn first, you'll have an easier time with the other one later. Which language are you more interested in? Why do you want to learn them? Which would you be able to use more? Those are all also things you might want to think about.

#asks #Hebrew #Yiddish

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ragingbookdragon · 2 years

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On The Long And Starry Nights

JayKyle One-Shot

Word Count: 490 Warnings: Explicit Language

Author's Note: Why is it that any time I write things for people I don't know I feel like I just showed up at their doorstep like Doug and am like, "I made this because I love you :)" anywho, @d-bread-d I made this for you...<3 BUT ALSO BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT THE WESTERN AU OMG IT'S GREAT! -Thorne

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Kyle watched the wisps of crimson and auburn float away into the starry sky as the fire crackled beneath, only the sound of it, the horses near, and the coyotes crying in the distance. His side still hurt from the bar fight in the town they’d left miles behind, and if he lifted his shirt, he was sure there’d be a dark bruise bloomed across his ribs; he probably broke one or two if he was being honest.

The sound of a flicking page captured his attention, but he didn’t bother to look over as he asked, “Do you ever get tired of reading the same book over and over again?”

A snort came from his companion who simply retorted, “You ever get tired of complaining about the same book I read over and over again?”

“Can’t you ever answer a question without being a jackass?”

“I can, but it’s more fun to rile you up.” he turned another page and lifted his eyes to his partner. “You’ve never read this, have you, Kyle?”

“No, Jason,” he answered, kicking an ankle over the other as he laid his hat over his eyes and rested on the pillow to his bedroll. “I have not read it. If you hadn’t noticed, we’ve been a little busy the past few months.”

He shrugged. “Your loss. S’a good book. Probably full of big words you couldn’t pronounce.” He dodged the boot Kyle chucked at him.

“What’s it about?”

Jason shifted against the log. “Man gets falsely imprisoned and spends the sentence plotting his revenge by becoming wealthy with the help of another prisoner.” He looked over. “You goin’ to sleep already?”

“Mhm.” Kyle waved a hand in Jason’s direction. “Read to me.”

“Excuse me? Do what now?”

“Read. To me.”

“Were you raised in a goddamn barn? Mama not teach you to say please? Say it and I’ll think about considering it.”

Kyle sighed heavily and lifted the hat from his eyes, turning his face towards Jason as he popped his bottom lip out and said, “Please?”

Jason chuckled and reached over, shoving the man in the side before he set the book back on his stomach and flipped to the first page. “Le vingt-quatre février mille huit-cent quinze, la vigie de Notre-Dame de la Garde signala le trois-mâts—”

“Woah, woah, woah,” Kyle interrupted. “Are you reading in French?”

He blinked, unimpressed as he stated, “The book was written by a Frenchman, Kyle, so yes, I’m reading in French.”

“Oh, for the love of God above,” he griped, rolling over and pulling the blanket to his ears. “You’re ridiculous. I can’t believe you know French.”

“And Spanish, Apache, Latin, little bit of German, a bit of Gaelic, some Cherokee…”

“Shut. Up.”

Jason snorted and settled back again, repeating the sentence. “On the twenty-fourth of February, eighteen-fifteen, the look-out at Notre-Dame de la Garde signalled the tree-master, the Pharaon from Smyrna, Trieste, and Naples…”

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cin-nna · 3 months

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Hihihi!! this is simply an introduction, because I got bored so I decided I would just introduce myself to those who come across me!!

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•°☆ More about me!!☆•°

Hello! , just a reminder!

my name is Cinnapide! but, you can call me Cinna for short.

I love any and all animes, correction i do hate some like mha!! but anyways, My personal favorites are; Yuri on ice, Bsd, jjk and buddy daddies!!

One of my hobbies is drawing. I personally love doing digital art rather then traditional!

i can speak a BIT of German (thank you to some language apps), but I can't speak it fluently just yet.

an example sentence I know is; Milch und Wien Bitte.

i also know one swear word in German because yes !!

i want to get asked questions because believe it or not I love getting asked stuff !!

I have a very short temper ig?? like very short.. according to my friend (ily val!!!!)

my favorite song(s) as of current is; A pearl, Writing on the wall, more jump more, and todemo wonderz!!

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random facts about me!!;

i hate cinnamon for some reason.. like, it depends on how much is in deserts or anything in general.

i am Korean, Japanese and Chinese on my (bio) mom's side, aswell as german and hawaiian!!

my stomach cannot stand cucumbers, or carrots. I will throw them up.

ive tried various alcoholic drinks as a child, trust me, it's not good, i think i only liked wine when i was younger to the point i asked for like three more sips every time i got the chance to try it.

I read alot, like, alot of fanfics. like. an unhealthy amount of fanfics..

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time to wrap this up!!

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If you have questions, you may ask me them!! I'll happily answer!!

but for now, buh bye!!

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teejaystumbles · 1 year

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Ten Books To Know Me

Rules: 10 (non-ancient) books for people to get to know you better, or that you just really like.

No one asked, but @landwriter said go ahead anyone who wants and I wanted to sit down and think about this (instead of doing my work lol), so. (Dalek voice: Procrastinate!)

I am bad at remembering - things. Like, in general. and my English isn't good enough to properly do this. So I cannot give good overviews of these books. There are enough ways to find out more about them. All I can do is jot down what has stuck with me. That alone gives an insight into my mind I guess.

The Left Hand of Darkness - Ursula K. Le Guin One of the latest books I've read and one that has really made an impression. The exploration of the concept of humans as a non-gendered species, only taking on a sex for procreation, is wonderful to read and still so valid to think about. I would love to see us get to an evolutionary point like that. The story itself isn't even about that as much as it is an arctic rescue mission, and about friendship and love that transcends gender assumptions.

Fahrenheit 451 - Ray Bradbury

"Montag looked at the river. We'll go that way. He looked at the old railroad tracks. Or we'll go that way. Or we'll walk on the highways now, and we'll have time to put things into ourselves. And some day, after it sets in us a long time, it'll come out of our hands and our mouths. And a lot of it will be wrong, but just enough of it will be right. We'll just start walking today and see the world and the way the world walks around and talks, the way it really looks. (...) I'll hold on to the world tight some day. I've got one finger on it now; that's a beginning."

I read this book in my late teens and I have bookmarked that page and I have reread it when I felt lost and I want to put it on the flag of every teenage generation to come. Shout it from the rooftops. Put it on my fucking grave with the addition "they tried as best as they could". brb, crying shivering breathing in a bag

Guards! Guards! - Terry Prattchet Prattchet's books were among the first I read every one I could find in our library in my teen years. Now I own them all. I could add every watch book to this, because Sam Vimes' struggle to become a decent person and be better than his own prejudices, pulling himself from the literal gutter - that man is a symbol and will always be one of my favourite fictional characters. Also, tumblr made me ship him with Vetinary and I am not looking back.

City of Bones - Martha Wells Underrated fiction that has all the good things, adventure, absolutely awesome world building, great characters, again human evolutionary advancement that simply collapses pre-conceived sexual stereotypes - love it and want to reread it now I've been thinking about it.

Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell Bit long that I read it but the way the stories of several people transcend lifetimes and lifes is simply magnificent. I also loved his book Ghostwritten for similar reasons.

The Hitch-Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams One of the first book series I ever read, probably, started in my young teens, probably at first read the graphic novel my dad owned when I was 12 or sth and then the books. It has definitely shaped my sense of humor. I'll never forget how I did a book presentation on it in school and was very confused when the jaguar in the toilet and the descendent of Genghis Khan jokes fell flat - while I was struggling to even read it aloud without laughing. Philistines.

Steppenwolf - Hermann Hesse Another book that shaped my teenage self because I felt known. It is about a man who is unhappy because he feels he does not belong - he is of two natures, one sophisticated and one wild, untamed. Perfect for adolescents. I got bad marks in German class because the way I was writing essays had become too much like 1920's German and lots of words and phrases aren't used anymore lol

The Crystal World - J.G. Ballard I could add every other story or book by this man because I feel like they all have a certain tone - a kind of fatal sense of the inevitability of change, often not for the better, but the protagonist feels compelled to seek that change anyway. (Suddenly Morpheus feels) Something about it makes me ache and yearn, like these characters, because he writes from a mindset that is slipping into insanity quite masterfully I'd say.

The Stars My Destination/Tiger! Tiger! - Alfred Bester Absolutely made an impact with how a completely unlikable character, who makes his way through the world and universe without remorse and kindness, can achieve the highest form of meditative stance needed to space-travel. I don't remember much of the plot but that bit stuck. He's awful and you made him awful and then he goes and surpasses all of you anyway, despite being a brute and idiot. (A bit of Hob Gadling energy, if he wasn't as nice)

The Never-Ending Story - Michael Ende I could put Lord of the Rings or Harry Potter here, but this was the fantasy book I read before those and therefore it has shaped me more I guess. The beauty, and utter importance of imagination, the escape into a fantasy world to fix all real-world problems. Adventure, friendship, overcoming of fear, finding what really matters. There's a lot in this book that will never get old.

Now I feel like I bared my soul. You're welcome.

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this !!! ask game for ajax. questions 1-10. observes

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How does your OC make ends meet? What do they do for a living? How is their occupation viewed in the social context they’re in? Does it come with social prestige or financial comfort, and are these two things aligned in the society you’re writing, or are they separate metrics?

Many know the Nikolaev name, the scourge of Sieveronia, the terror of Europe. Ajax is not unknown, especially not to those with darker ties. Many fear him, as such, he can simply intimidate others for money if he so wishes. Most nobles won't say no to the man known for his blood curse. That being said, Ajax often takes jobs he finds Interesting. Mercenary work, bodyguarding, fetch quests. If you interest him with your request, he may just do it!

His previous duty however, brought more than just prestige, more than just financial comfort. It was more an identity than his own. In the world of Amant, social prestige is not something one should seek, however. To be known, is to be in constant danger. He misses the money though.

How does your OC communicate? Are they monolingual or multilingual? What is the linguistic environment they’re in? If they’re monolingual, is there a social penalty for only speaking one language, or is it the norm? If they’re multilingual, which of their languages or sociolects has the most/least prestige? Is there a separation between written and oral forms of the language? Can your OC blend in or does their language mark them in some way? What are their levels of fluency, and how do they feel about them?

Ajax is multilingual! He speaks Russian, English, some Japanese, and some French. The first two he's fully fluent at C2 level. And the last two he'd be A1-A2 in. He really wanted to learn German, but he's kinda shit at it. He only knows German swears. He also lies and says he can understand Latin. He cannot.

Whilst the language of Amant is mostly the same as today with older linguistic quirks, there is no real linguistic prestige in any way that differs from what we see today. As in, if he's in France, for instance. Where Amant mainly takes place, some may scoff slightly at his broken French while others will at least appreciate the effort.

His accent is incredibly thick however, and is easily notable as belonging to a Cyrillic language of some kind at the Very Least, if not called out immediately for being Russian. As such, even speaking in his second fluent language, his accent marks him as a foreign speaker of it. That being said he likes to shock native English speakers by using "big fancy words" with his silly little accent.

What is your OC’s concept of social debt? What constitutes a sense of social obligation for your character? Is it based on individual feelings or collective principles? What do they do when they feel like they owe someone? Are they likely to default on a social obligation, or repay it? What are the costs of either approach in the society you’re writing?

He has no concept of social debt. It isn't that he doesn't know what it is. It's that Ajax is more self interested. So, Ajax will repay a social debt, but only if it benefits him later on or in some way. If somebody helps him, he won't instantly feel obligated to repay them, unless he can see a way to use that for himself later.

However. As I mentioned before.. He will do things that interest him. If Ajax can tell that doing this will lead to something interesting? Well. He's all over those obligations! Let him help you~

For the average person, there's a cost to being so selfish. Of course there is. Selfishness won't get you far. However, because of his social prestige, most people won't help Ajax ANYWAYS. People cross the road to avoid him, kinda deal. But yk, there's outliers.

What does it take for your OC to consider someone a friend? What constitutes friendship in the society you’re writing, what expectations does it come with, and how does your OC fit into that structure of expectations? Do they make friends easily or do they struggle? How intimate is a friendship for them, and what does it include?

Growing up Ajax was really friendly, he made friends easily at the Academy. And while he didn't easily grasp the material he was studying, his penchant for making friends meant he always had somebody to tutor him before any major test or help him with any homework. His meaning of friendship was loose, because everyone was his friend!

When he became afflicted by his curse, however, he learned how fickle friendship could be.

Now that he travels alone, he does his best to be charismatic, anybody who doesn't know him is treated with kindness first, unless they warrant otherwise. But ultimately, friendships come at a cost. And Ajax can't afford to really pay that right now. So yeah he makes "friends" easily.

What does it take for your OC to consider someone kin? What constitutes kinship in the society you’re writing, and how does your OC relate to that set of cultural expectations? Is kinship defined only by blood, or through other forms of social intimacy? Are there symbolic gestures that might establish a kin-like relation? What is family for your OC?

Family is family typically. Every dynamic is different, it depends on the family. Ajax is someone who very much values family, though. It's why he left Her Majesty's army when his disappeared. He fought for them, he cared for them, everything was for them. Now he searches for any clues to what happened to them. Any answers at all.

Family is defined by the expectation to always aid one another in his small village where he grew up. "It takes a village" and all that. The bigger world at large doesn't operate on that philosophy. But he doesn't pay much attention to that.

Back home, one could go to the neighbour and ask if they had sugar in exchange for some eggs. That was kinship, that was family. This outlook has slightly been soured, of course. He doesn't view anybody as family anymore, not really. Even if he wants to, it leaves a bad taste in his mouth, a guilt in his gut.

What are your OC’s religious beliefs? Are they aligned with the beliefs of the society you’re writing, or are they orthogonal? Does your OC question their convictions, or do they feel a degree of certainty? Does your OC feel a personal connection to a sense of divinity, or is religion empty social ritual for them?

Ajax believes in a higher power because he needs to believe in something. He's not religious in any way, he isn't even sure WHAT exactly he believes in. But he simply believes there is more out there because there HAS to be.

Russia in general has a thing with religion, and being from Russia and growing up in that, his family was Orthodox. He's separated from this specific belief and would be considered to more believe in mysticism. Ultimately, something is there. He's not really sure what anymore. Only that it is uncaring.

As such, empty social ritual best describes Ajax's involvement in religion. I'm covering several countries and thus several societies views on the world. It's hard to say if he fits into one society or another, as its so dependent. Ultimately, nobody would bat an eyelash at his beliefs.

What does your OC consider unspeakable and/or repugnant? What are the topics or issues your OC finds viscerally difficult or impossible to talk about? Are these topic socially unacceptable, or is it personal? What do they react to with revulsion ahead of any intellectualized response?

I read this question out loud and immediately went "Nothing." to which Etienne responded "Nothing is off limits." That is our combined answer to this one.

HOWEVER. If Ajax sees you harm a child, you will be ripped limb from limb and have your sinew strewn upon the street. Anyways, that's it.

How does your OC approach the line between public and private? What sorts of things does your OC not share with anyone, what might they share with the people closest to them, and what do they happily share with anyone who might ask? What is their definition of property if they have one? In turn, does your OC think they belong to something as well? (A state, a collective, a cause, a person, etc)

See because of his previous position, private didn't really exist. This ties back into what I was saying about being known is a very dangerous thing in this world. Because so many people talk. Ajax would like to keep some things private, but its hard when most things about him are known.

Ajax won't ever truthfully answer what happened to his eye though. He'll tell a different story every time, each one more entertaining than the last. The truth hurts. So he keeps it close to his chest and makes a joke instead. So he'll tell anybody who asks! But not the truth.

He wouldn't really consider himself as belonging to anything any more, and that leaves him a little lost at times.

What would it take for your OC to change their opinion? Does your OC change their worldview often or are they set in their ways? What does it take for them to change their mind? Do they admit they were wrong, and if so, under what circumstances? How do they handle it? What do they do when their beliefs are threatened?

Ajax's worldview has changed twice majorly. First when he became afflicted by his blood curse, and the second time when he lost his family. Ultimately, he's very stubborn about his opinions though. He tries not to change his mind, even if his heart stirs.

He SUCKS at admitting he's wrong though oh my godddddddd. He'll just avoid it!! He's out here gardening for you instead of saying "I got that wrong, soz" like kay. okay.

He will kill if his views are threatened in a certain way though. Like, he'll go that far if necessary. What a guy.

What social persona does your OC perform most frequently, and when do they show other aspects of themselves (and to whom)? Is your OC code-switching between social persona depending on context, or do they stay consistent? Is social adaptation something they feel is necessary or are they uneasy about it? Do they believe that one has to be honest in their self-presentation, and is that aligned with the society you’re writing or is one expected to have multiple social “faces”? Under what circumstances does your OC show a different facet/angle of themselves?

This is a really hard question. So I'll start with multiple social "faces" is almost a requirement for survival. This goes for anybody, but especially anybody with any magic or special ability or species. Anyone who isn't by the normal citizen's standard of "normal" MUST perform for survival.

Ajax is very charming and upbeat, for those who do not know him and thus do not have time to fear him, he's a great guy to be around. This is one of many personas he has to uphold to survive.

Other times however, he has to lean into the intimidation to get out of a situation that would otherwise SURELY see his death.

He tends to switch it up depending the circumstance and who he's talking to. However, Ajax often slips up. It isn't that he's bad at lying or pretending, it's that he finds the whole show and dance so boring sometimes..

Ajax once believed however, you should always be honest in your presentation. Funny how things change, I guess. He tries not to be too honest about himself, but he doesn't want to stretch the truth too far either. Ie, he's not as bad as say Ohm or Decord in terms of lying. Or as bad as Katsumi in terms of telling the truth.

#☾*✲⋆. essence of myrrh #from the fate ; ash #༺☆༻ Amant Éternel #⋆｡°✩ Ajax #some of these things ARE subject to change as he whispers in my ear a lil more but yk

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