gatekeeping my male muses for now on.

Mako really only has 2 flirting tactics.

In Book 1, he insulted Korra until she fell in love with him.

Also in Book 1, he just was sugar baby until Asami fell in love with him.

In Book 4, he combined these two tactics until Wu …

anyway an ending where everyone is mostly happy and gets what they want except loki and mobius who are visibly utterly miserable without each other??? lmao here's how lokius can still win!

Truly we need a comeback of the KH2-style prologue. I want to boot up KH4 and the first seven hours of gameplay are you playing as some guy named Akihito from Accounting who's just trying to get through his work week as giant monsters attack the city. (He is secretly a character important to the plot).

The character we are analyzing and expressing sympathy for, the one that was truly a subject of detestable circumstances and Shinra’s cruelty and control, the character with tragedy written into his very conception, and that deserved a much better life…does not exist within the Sephiroth that left the library and burned Nibelheim.

He died during those seven days and while the writers may have included nods to the tragedy of that loss…

“FFVII Rebirth Director Hamaguchi says that, in FFVII Rebirth, when Sephiroth burns Nibelheim to the ground, there is a slightly lonely look on his face as he breaks into a grin. So, he's looking forward to how people will react to these more human aspects of Sephiroth.”

…while they may hint at his deeper grief, it is still truth that what drowns any of his sadness out is violent anger and hatred. The dark feelings that drive him to be cruel, sadistic, and merciless towards the innocent. Who Sephiroth once was is gone…and we can say how tragic that is and we do, but this never means we are standing behind him or supporting who he is now.

This reborn Sephiroth is a walking dead shell with nothing but his old soul’s rage and madness left. He is just the villain with evil motives now. Very few think he is in the right without being ironic.

I say all of this to make it clear that people ought not to be attacked for studying and sympathizing with his old self.

i want all meta writers and/or people with s3 predictions to please. pretty please. write the fic. otherwise SO MUCH is being lost in translation in your explanations and your 15k theories with screenshots and sources in a format that would rival my grad school essays. like have you heard “shakespeare must be performed not read”? that’s the exact same principle with s3 predictions. all the academic writing and web weaving posts in the world won’t accurately depict what you’re seeing in your head, it HAS to be experienced in practice both on the writing end and the reading end. JUST WRITE THE FIC!

stobin is like. robin making coffee for steve early in the morning because she knows hes grumpy when he wakes up, and knowing exactly how he likes it. when theyre leaving the house together steve always gets to the door a little earlier so he can untie robin's laces because she always just kicks her shoes off and then it takes ages for her to actually get them on again when they go out. robin knowing how to comfort steve when he's upset (he doesn't like anyone to see him crying - except robin of course - so if they're with the others she'll discreetly escort the pair of them into another room). steve knowing robin's triggers, and the certain materials that make her feel all too much, and actively going out of his way to make sure he doesn't have any in the house. all these little things that aren't so little, not in the long run.

something to be said about how kristoph's only known mentee is a loud young man who dresses flashily, is particular about music and so passionate about the truth that he forgets to take people's feelings into account sometimes and follows the thread of logic even when it's disadvantageous to his case or people he cares about/admires. and who also does vocal training. like. just admit you miss your brother and go visit him. freak.

oh my fucking god i feel. SO stupid rn at How i didnt make the (super sane very normal just absolutely. Yes. Surely) connection earlier but uhh

so anyway im now like 89% certain that whatever the "traces" of the narwhal that remain on ajax and facilitate their (ever-growing) innate connection are like. an actually fundamental aspect of it (them?) more or less.

why? because if you consider its pov just for a moment. the narwhal was literally about to depart teyvat for good. it had nearly finished consuming the primordial sea and preparing to breach surface to finish the job by eating the french for the leftovers their human bodies were made from. its an interstellar voyager it does not linger on planets it devours. it goes glug glug and it leaves.

and like if it wasnt for traveler intervening its confirmed through narzissenkreuz and renes world formula that teyvat wouldve just been destroyed. no one could have stopped the narwhal not neuvillette not focalors not anyone.

so what was the one other thing it did right before going for that french brunch? calling for ajax. getting them reunited in the primordial sea. like all the possible implications aside bc theres many different ways to speculate on the exact reasons why and the nature of that link. the point remains.

it wasnt leaving teyvat without finding him.

like the narwhal is about to fucking Dip from this cringe planet and whatever part of it that ajax carries within himself his narwhal Absolutely wanted to be reunited with. what the fuck am i supposed to read from that. hoyo???????!??! answers?!?!?!

and its not only the calling from the narwhal side itself either bc this is ALL coinciding with the growth of a 'restless power' within ajax and his vision malfunctioning (the things celestia is literally confirmed to harvest energy thru to repair its damaged authority) and his connection with the narwhal reaching an actual conscious level (arguably subconscious n emotional too bc i find it Curious his mood is poor right as the narwhal is repeatedly described as positively malding to the point its boss fight mechanic is literally a rage meter). ajax' power is growing. his destiny is starting to shift and something is drawing him to fontaine... right as the narwhal is getting close to finished with the primordial sea. funny how it overlaps eh. how it aligns 🤨🤨 why are they orbiting each other like this (they should kiss)

(& not to even Mention how ajax just Happened to get that absolutely exponential and borderline unbelievable feat of power spike in extending his foul legacy endurance as massively as he did. while. within the primordial sea. with his narwhal. who had at that point all but incorporated the power of that sea into itself. i s2g if childe was getting passive home turf co-op bonus exp with a 4x multiplier automatically the whole 40+ days 💀💀)

thanks to lemuen complaining about aulus not shutting the fuck up, I think we can safely conclude he was in fact the guy thorns was fighting in leonhardt's kin memories

this still doesn't explain why leonhardt has thorns kin memories but I don't think that one is ever being explained

Payment for surrogacy gets really complicated because on one hand paying for it means most surrogates will end up being lower class women who need the money and will be easier to exploit, something which is rife in the current implementation of surrogacy, but on the other hand being pregnant is genuinely like body horror to me and I think that if you go through that for someone else you should get a billion dollars.

i love when people draw all the mxtx protagonists together but i’ll be real the generic anime boy face curse is alive and well

more often than not the art itself is fantastic it just takes me like a solid minute to figure out who’s who. bonus points if lbh is robbed of his wavy hair and the only way i can tell him apart from wwx is his forehead

In honour of Penacony coming out tomorrow, here’s a list of things I hope will happen in Penacony:

Power of friendship joke

Sparkle or Sampo turn to address the player directly and someone like March 7th or Dr Ratio says something along the lines of “what are you looking at?”

Spiderman joke after we walk on walls for the first time

Someone calls Sunday a different day of the week, bonus if it’s a running gag and they keep using different days

Someone makes an Inception joke somewhere

We meet at least one character or NPC who just will not shut up about SoulGlad

Some sort of comment about whether the emotional manipulation thing is ethical or not

An in-game version of the dancing animation, doesn’t have to be the same one but that Trailblazer better break it down

Someone from Belobog sends us a text asking if we’ve seen Sampo recently (assuming Sampo is actually on Penacony with us)

“Ya like jazz?”

hey. Sleepyheads. c'mere a sec

when I say I have insomnia or that I can't sleep I mean for real. I mean. I have chronic insomnia. so all the normal things you could do to help induce sleep (peppermint or chamomile tea, melatonin, dyphanhydramine however you spell that, no blue light, warm milk, asmry beloved, rain or white noise, etc) they don't really do anything for me. they might make me feel sleepy, but nothing helps me actually sleep. whatever phase my insomnia is in is however I'm sleeping. so either wake up every hour or so, sleep through but only get 2-3 hours, sleep through the normal amount (5 hours) but have vivid dreams, wake up only one time but I'm awake for ages, I only want to sleep at 7pm, I literally can't sleep at night, etc. and I can't change that.

I'm mentioning this because my boss knows I have chronic insomnia and still asks me if I can take melatonin or whatever to help. I mean, sure. I could take it. But melatonin is weird to me and dyphan-whatsits might work but only the one time and I can't use it again for like a month. tea is nice but it's just nice.

caffeine does not necessarily keep me awake unless it's coffee caffeine, but I do avoid that. blue light from my laptop or phone does not affect me. I mean. it probably does but not my sleep. it's a wonderful dream to think that if I just didn't use screens before bed and drank chamomile tea and went to bed at exactly the same time every night that I'd get good sleep. but uh, I've tried that. and my insomnia doesn't care. it does what it wants.

at the moment I am following up my least favorite phase with my second least favorite phase: vivid dreams was last week and this week I've slept 7 of the past 76 hours. this happens. I can't change it. I just live it until the cycle switches out.

so um. this isn't even a rant, really, it's just a hopefully one-and-done post because people are very nice, but while taking magnesium will probably be good for me, it's not going to cure my insomnia, random customer. it might’ve cured your son's regular, temporary insomnia, but it will not cure my chronic condition, the one I've had since birth. just ask my mom.

okay so this was a rant. forgive me. I haven't slept.

you know I miss them soooo much and my wrist has been messed up for a super long time and IDK when it's getting fixed so like. What if I post some unfinished fanart from 2021? The first one is referenced off of Frederic William Burton's Meeting on the Turret Stairs except it's an Eridian ruin I guess? And also flipped because I thought it would make more sense for Zer0 to be "kissing" the flesh arm which in retrospect is silly as they are still just bonking their helmet against his arm.

the second one is a screen redraw from The Princess Bride that started as a joke??? I think?? I honestly don't remember why I did this. Rhys's silly poofy outfit leads me to believe it was meant as a joke. But then i kept painting because I was having fun