blasting my silly little music and creating my silly little daydreams so i don’t lose my silly little mind

"My child is fine-"

Your child is so lonely and emotionally numb that they cope by living in a dream world to the point where they are terrified of living in reality itself

Fantasizing about extremely traumatic scenarios bc it doesn't feel like my trauma is enough

the madd-autistic experience of finding a new hyper fixation and it immediately becoming the focus of all your daydreams

-The Reality of Being a Maladaptive Daydreamer-

Your legs hurts from pacing/jumping

You neglect personal care such as eating to have more time to daydream

Hours of your life gone due to being in your head

Creative ideas, stories, and characters are often not written down

You make weird faces out loud

You say what you were saying in the daydream out loud

You reflect on the time you wasted daydreaming

Being caught pacing, you feel embarrassed.

You isolate yourself from others more.

You feel sad knowing the fictional world you created is just that

Music and other media are triggering

You feel a withdrawal after not daydreaming for some time.

You never fully feel grounded in reality

You feel it's out of your control

You get jumpy and anxious when you think there is someone coming by who might've heard or seen you pacing/jumping

You feel, when not dreaming, alone

"my child is fine"

your child is looking up the birthdate of fictional characters so they can accurately place their own self inserts into the proper timeline.

You child preforms receptive moments like a stressed ape at the zoo for hrs a day

Your child listens to music so loud on their headphones that they no longer see what's in front of them but a whole other universe

me, I am that child

ya mean daydreaming

*daydreams to avoid my trauma*

*gives myself a story 10 times as traumatic*

i feel like maladaptive daydreaming is so fucking hard to cope with or manage because it just creates this never ending cycle of relapse where your heavy daydreaming takes a toll on your life so when you finally try to limit it you're so ashamed and disappointed by what your real life has become/what you done or haven't done that you just collapse and continue the bad habit that caused it in the first place. it becomes so engrained in your daily life and the way you think that you don't realize how much you rely on it until you try to stop. next thing you know, you're on the shower and you realize you can't go more than ten seconds without slipping away. the days go by so fast but in the moment, you're so desperate for any kind of escapism cause you're just not used to sitting in the real world. i have no identity. my entire mental state is dependent on it. how well i'm doing is entirely defined by the daydream ideas i can scrape up. i'll have a complete mental break and then the next day i manage to be whisped up in another dream, one that promises to stay, to be kind. to love me, and then the cycle starts all over again.

i'm fucking tired

being neurodivergent in this world is exhausting. im so fucking exhausted.

let me rest. please.

i am just trying to get by in this world built for different brains.

let me be myself. let me be loud. let me talk to myself. let me stim. let me run around. let me daydream. let me experience my joy. let me live.

let. me. rest. please. i am. SO FUCKING DONE.

MALADAPTIVE DAYDREAMERS I HAVE AN APP FOR Y'ALL

So, it's called Story Plotter on android and you can make a load of characters as well as their whole backstories and also plot and very handy diagramms where you show the characters relations to each other.

This is what part of mine looks like, its very easy to navigate and you have infinite options for everything!

I dunno if I’d be alive without maladaptive daydreaming but at the same time it’s ruined my life so badly.

Maladaptive Daydreaming things

making AMVs of with your paracosms

losing sleep to daydreaming

lying in bed daydreaming

acting out daydreaming

having multiple paracosms you switch from

daydreaming in everyday life, getting lost in daydreaming when you're supposed to be doing things

daydreaming mid conversation

listening to music to get you in a daydreaming mood

starting to daydream after getting triggered

not being able to talk about your paracosms cause theres so much of it and its very complex

daydreaming irl scenarios to see all the options that could happen

maladaptive daydreaming instead of other coping mechanisms like cutting

Dissociation isnt enough I need to live in my paracosm

in my daydreams i am loved and cared for. i will hide in my mind