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masked-and-doomed · 5 months

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heya do you got any oc's or anything? like funger oc's n stuff? i'm obsessed with oc's

*since this post mentions her relationship with pocketcat, implied csa warning. also she's depressed so suicide warning ig*

Also. this is 2k words. waow.

Not specifically funger OCs, but I do have a self insert character that I've put in the funger universe!

(the hair is supposed to be black btw it looks more brown to go better with the colour pallette)

I welcome you to- uh. Right. *Turns to face her* You don't have a name. It's been what, fuckin' 3 years? You still haven't decided anything? Oh, now it's kinda maybe meaningful for your character to have no name? Poetic shit? Yeah sure. *Turns back to face you* So, no name. For our sakes, I'll call her Unnamed Girl(ie). UG for short.

She was a human that suddenly got snatched from Earth and put into a white void. And she was trapped there. With memories of nothing. Why she has no name. Well she has some vague memories of her previous life, like her being fatherless, she doesn't remember any names, faces. Just some interactions.

We dunno what the hell happened to Earth nor her, really, all we can assume is that there's probably some sadistic ass higher being that's putting her through that shit? Watching her suffer every moment here. But, we never got to know. They don't really matter to us really, they've never showed up. Not important.

In the white void, she also gained. Some sort of Godhood? She got powers of some sort. So that's one upside. Downside with this is that she's immortal. And as you see, a white void. Is well. A white void. Nothin in it. Sure, she's made a room for herself to get comfy but then you start to go insane with the fact that you're isolated and that there's no one to talk to and you have no purpose in life and that it feels like you were an unwanted part of the universe that wasn't meant to ever be existing but yet you still do, and then erm she can't take it anymore and tries to. Off herself. Multiple times, in fact!

Too bad for her, immortality exists. Or perhaps better called, eternal youth. She hasn't aged since she got here. Perpetually 12, what a hell to be in, huh buddy? Fucked up thing to add on, the way her immortality works is that she suffers the wounds, damage, pain, before her body starts to regrow it back. (Usually like a minute but if she pushes it, it can be instantaneous.)

After a few days in the white void she starts conjuring up friends in her head to try and combat the eternal loneliness. Barely works. She's got three guys in her head, that talk to her from time to time. They're pretty flat and 2D in personality, UG really isn't that much of a creative girl.

(Oohh tumblr compression...)

So, with these characters, let's show you how horrible she is at naming, hm? We got the furry one, Kats. Sadistic and mean one. Guy with the hat is Meowzerz. Cheerleader, also tries to advise UG to be kind. Gas masked fellow is Koolmeow. Wild card, she does whatever she finds fun. Mostly burning things up.

Really shitty names for those last two. No wonder she hasn't picked a name for herself if these are the names she gave these mfs.

...

Well, fuck. Friends aren't really friend-ing great unfortunately. What to do?

Oh, lookie that. That's a buncha.. games and anime. Huh. Well, might as well get through them. All this white is awfully boring.

So after some days of hell, she got to see stories she's vaguely familiar with. Must been stories she experienced back in her previous life. Entertainment is entertainment.

With nothing else in the void really, she gets heavily attached to these media. Filling her time with making fanart and obsessing over the characters. Three in particular she got attached to, but only one of them is of importance considering where we're headed to in this timeline.

Ahh the cat. The horrid horrid cat. I mean she's a young child, having a man tell him she loves her even when it's just a character written by someone else to be a creepy piece of shit is. Well a charming and interesting specimen such as him sharing affection? She can't help but reciprocate back.

With all the time in this non-existence, she makes a whole shrine of shit. Plushies, posters, figures. She loves recreating his likeness and having something physical to hold. Well, she is most well versed in digital art. That she does remember about herself. She was an artist. And most of him is drawn in a computer over and over again. She has no other way to show her love other than to put him in silly situations and emulate how he reacts. Yes I do mean fanfiction. She has a lotta files of just art of him she made, you don't wanna know how big it is.

Even besides him, she's pretty enamoured with this world of Funger. She'd much rather go through that hell than this hell. At least you can die there. And things actually happen.

...

Oh? We can finally go out? After all this time?

You really did get to find a way out, Kats?

It's.. Ahah. The multiverse thing does actually exist, doesn't it? This.. this is the dungeon...

...

Ah, so much explaining her backstory and I haven't gotten to her personality! Well she's. Seriously mentally ill for one. Isolation for god knows how long and all that. I can only conclude Depression or some variation of it for now, though there is definitely another mental disorder at play here. Erm. We might never know. I don't think she'll ever go to therapy or a psychiatrist.

Due to her being in that void for so long, and with barely any memories, there's some things that she's real bad at. Of course, she retains her memory of how to walk, how to speak and communicate, and most basic human things.

However, this bitch cannot social interaction. How unfortunate, my friend.

She can be very blunt and clear with her words. Oh she also has this stupid thing where she's either really crass and informal or just talks fancy and with a thesaurus. Fucking weirdo. can't talk normal ever.

Next note, she has no respect for anyone. That's not to say she doesn't appreciate anyone's company, she definitely likes a good amount of people. Thing is, since she saw this all in a game she played and saw as fiction. Little dolls for her to play with. She never really got to get out of that thinking. Also that with her being some sorta higher being? Yeah, she thinks a little high of herself. Sometimes. Sometimes. (She also think she's the worst thing ever that existed lmao)

Adding on, she also possesses no self respect. No shame. No dignity. No regrets about anything ever. She just lives on. She's a very YOLO it is what it is kinda gal.

UG has a very normal perception of love. She thinks of violence as a sort of love language to her, she just wants to rip her beloveds to shreds. She also has an intense hatred for the cat, despite him being the one she loves most. The hatred plays along with her obsession of the cat. Also. Um. Yandere. yeah. She's obsessive. Isolation and all that. Makes you intensely crave affection and attention. And also being a child. Forever. Yeah she's quite an attention whore. (self label)

Other effects from the isolation also happen to be extreme boredom. She wants to do anything. In her life. And hey, she's got a lot if it to spare.. plany of time. It is mildly boring her that she knows she's most likely gonna win any battle with enemies but still, the experience of fighting is pretty banger. The adrenaline... Thrill seeking. Ahh... She loves fighting.

So um, with those last two paragraphs, she does normal things to both the party that dared step into the dungeon, and the termina contestants. She's normal about them. She is both heavily protective and extremely violent murder maim.

Ah, next thing! She's quite the contradictory thing. Mental disorder again, she can go from one extreme scale to another. Like her love and hatred, protecting her allies to killing them. High self confidence and self praise to self loathing. Sometimes a little bit of a hypocrite. She's weird.

Her morals are. Eh. Eh. Again, she both cares about everyone's lives yet is also apathetic. She doesn't mind murder too much, as she'll dirty her soul a lot through experiencing the funger universe. This. Image.

Everything might as well just be a game to her.

With all o' this. There's multiple timelines of her doing many different things because of how much she can vary and still be in character (well to me, at least). She can do so much. Silly girl.

That's all I can think of for now about personality! Little tidbits about her powers before onto the brief timeline. She has some future telling. If the future is far, she can see more possibilities it can go in, not giving an exact determined route of what will happen. If the future is soon, as in, will this guard swing at her right arm or her left arm in 5 seconds? She can check and the future will be certain, that it will be her left arm that will get cut if she doesn't prevent it.

Most of her powers stem from the other media she watched during the isolation period; she rarely uses the Gods' powers in funger purely to fuck around with it and also confuse smart asses. (enki)

After finding an escape from the white void, she wakes up in front of the.. dun dun dun... funger dungeons...

She does what any sane person would do and explores with glee.

They aren't really all that scary to a creature like her, only serving her to activate fight mode and get a rush.

She recruits everyone possible with her knowledge of these dungeons, and decides to change some things.

She approaches Pocketcat as she is done with her journey. There are no more battles to fight. No more exploration to be done in this dungeon. She is satisfied. The girl wishes for Pocketcat to eat her, since she hasn't tried that method of killing herself. (Also because she is crushing hard on this man and she knows he loves her too)

He instead gives a different proposal...

...

Remember how she's a sort of 'god' (but not in the funger way) and has OP ass powers? Well there's actually 2 drawbacks to them.

First one, it is quite exhausting. It is also exhausting just living and breathing in fact, but that's the mental disorders. She can go on long without rest but she will be extremely fatigued if she pushes. And my, she pushes a through a lot.

Second, there's one thing that nullifies her powers. Fear. But ah, with a soul like hers, it is quite difficult for her to fear anything. With problems in her way, she either brushes it over, gets enraged, or drowns in sorrow. How on earth could anything scare her?

Ahaha... Well a few actions made by a specific person could scare her...

(he soo gets off being the only one that can get her into such a submissive state, btw)

The one thing keeping her heart from total darkness, now entirely painted black. What a sad soul.

...

So, he didn't kill her. big whump. Fine though, she thinks about the termina festival in 350 years. She wouldn't mind living for that long to see more silly people. Plus, the dungeon took a lot out of her. A lot more magic she used than usual. This period will be... A nice and long break, she thinks positively. One hell she has endured in here, she will prepare to live through and enjoy another. Plus, if it's all adrenaline rushes, how is she meant to savour Termina?

She occupies her time by living with Pocketcat, and.. His usual activities. She joins in on his child murders from time to time. Not as fun as killing monsters that are fully intending to end her life but snuffing another life is still somewhat satisfying, nevertheless. And hey, fun bonding activity, right?

She also does the same as she did in the void, making a bunch of art and stuff. But this time, she actually has someone she can show it to! Speaking of the cat, they do typical lover activities time to time. Dates, and stuff. Doing things together. Fun!

Both of them had their fair share of isolation for a long period of time and needless to say, their 'eternities' are much more lively and worth living through with a like-minded being by their side.

She also.. has a little fun with the contestants before they enter the worst period of their life..

(This part is totally not because of recent events) After spending 350 years with Pocketcat, she picked up some of his mannerisms to her misfortune. Her hand feels like it should be doing something within conversation, so her subconscious makes her jack off a ghost dick. She's gonna have a fun time with talking to people.

...

Now we're at the festival, one meant to end all festivals! And boy it'll end more than just festivals, alright! Hehe.

At the end of this festival, she has one plan.

And that is to finally rest.

She will not be returning from this trip.

...

So, some stuff were left vague because. well. yeah. I don't fully expect to write this into actual fanfiction, but no worries, I'll reveal the gist of what happens at some point. Whether I actually can find it in me to write it out or just make a post about what happens, we shall see.

Extra stuff to mention:

This is basically her. In every universe she visits.

You can check out the '#unnamed OC core' tag to see. More of her vibes.

I also got a playlist.. of her..

(Also, since this is a self insert about half of the traits mentioned are. me. so. yeah. I should try getting diagnosed for something but idk man I can't find shit)

Got any questions! Feel free to ask anything!! >:3 Hell, I'll even answer in character for fun.

#hello asker #unnamed girlie #long post

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diagonal-queen · 8 months

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thungo thursday pt2

ep 6 (put it under a cut because this one is LONG)

fukuchi be like 'the agency couldn't possibly be smart enough to- oh wait nvm i forgot ranpo existed lol' like more than once and i think that is testament to the fact that RANPO BEST BOY

'have you forgotten? we're terrorists' ICONIC BEHAVIOUR

man and i complain about doing one 37 hour work week. after this one week the agency needs to take a NAP. AND THE MAFIA TOO. imagine there's like just no criminal activity or anything for like three days and everyone's like ?? but on day 4 atsushi and akutagawa are fighting to the death at the port and everyone is like 'ah. business as usual' lmaoooo

omg every time the hunting dogs song comes on i get so hyped lmao im like yESSS ACTION

'that man, that demon, the evillest most scawy man ever in the world....etc etc' and its just some guy doing the most coy babygirl pose a guy can possibly do

wait DAZAI WHAT DID YOU DO. HOW DID YOU DO IT

taneda btw deserved none of this he was just some nice old dude and then sigma fucking stabbed him lmao

dazai is like the personification of the perjury mechanic in drv3. 'go on lie. you gotta. lie now. cmon pussy you wont'

OH MY GOD CHUUYA

my god fyozai is so fucking babygirl. also wdym dazai?? if the two of you were the last ones on earth you should just have gay sex. its not that hard smh

oh no dazai falled down through the flore

OH MY GOD MYKOLA AND SIGMA

BESTIE??

BESTIE?????

BESTIE????????????????

BESTIE??????????????????????

dm me if you want to receive a free 2min audio file of me laughing about this (i have a headache from laughing. my throat fucking hurts so bad. i'm pretty sure it's actually bleeding. my eyes are moist with tears. BESTIE???????)

do you even needa ask why i'm here?? ⭐️❤️☺️ *voice drops 6 octaves* i'm here to murder you 👹👹👹

and then after that fyodor was just like 'teehee he's so romantic x' like bro

dazai: *turns to the camera like he's on the office* waow

i love mykola's little laugh it's so silley

omg they're actually animating him so well. bones must've seen the reception from s4 and decided to step it up 💀

dazai and fyodor are simultaneously evil grown men and bimbo highschool girls and it's such a look. 'omg ur friends are so cute <3' 'omg right???' also mykola my beloved i want to be yours forever pls

i love how bram's acting all tough like aya can't just open the casket and leave and render him thoroughly powerless lmao

omg the official anime aya and bram sillies begin. we've been waiting for this for months folks so far so good

it was already pretty funny that aya is carrying bram like a backpack but actually seeing her running with him on her back is like a billion times funnier especially since this shit is life or death. but she just got a whole entire vampire on her back no problem sjhsksjssjhj

sigma: watashi wa shiguma me: fucking superb you funky little toddler

imagine if it was a fucking prank this whole time and mykola just injected them with a slow-working sedative or something that would be so funny. like all of this for nothing sksjksjsjks and then he just stabs fyodor or something the end. boom world save

oh ok nvm the vampires can talk just fine i guess lmao. also i genuinely cant tell if im supposed to be taking this episode seriously or not. one second people are being brutally slaughtered next moment silley little guys??? such is the way of bsd i guess

'you're a failure of a woman' my dude she is literally 10 years old she is nowhere close to being a woman shut your misogynistic ass up lmao

OKAY BECAUSE ok ok listen i was wondering what music they were gonna use for bram and when i heard the ending music i was like 'ok a little anticlimactic but i understand' and then it TRANSITIONED into the ACTUAL ENDING??? 10/10

hehe. bestie

#dia's daydreams #thungo thursday #bungou stray dogs #BESTIE #BESTIE???????????????????#'I MISSED YOU BESTIE'#mykola canonically uses gen z slang #you guys need to make sure to put this in your fanfics now

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residenthesitant · 4 days

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⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

i just like hearing you talk about your fics. tell me more about any of them (=ↀωↀ=) <- giving u a stare like a cat

waow. thatsa lotta stars. i will do. three. my three most recent. because i have commentary about all of them.

i recently put up THIS FIC for the mcytrecursive. the title is from "whose eye is it anyway???" by jhariah (which i recently heard live!!!) bc that entire song is about revenge and what happens when you try to get it. important lyrics here are "If it’s an eye for an eye then we all go blind / If it came to it would you cross that line?" which generally just explains quackity's whole thing of getting revenge against techno for punching him out at wilbur's funeral (a fight which HE started, in the first place), and the lines "And the weight of your crimes weighing on your mind / Is it a knife or a lie is it in your back? / Is it all I need? Is it all I have?" which imo really is what eret's whole deal is in this fic. she's haunted by what she's done and is doing everything to try and not be that person, and maybe by helping others she can help! but. no. no, instead, her ex-boyfriend gets murdered in her living room and she has to call his CURRENT boyfriend to come pick up the body. lol.

i participated in the dsmp rare pair big bang and wrote a canon-setting courtly love au, because if there is one thing i have a special interest in, it's middle and early-modern english literature. the thing i want to talk about the most with that fic is all of the allusions to literature and all the characters eret gets compared/compares herself to. she is repeatedly compared to Tamora from Titus Andronicus for marrying her enemy's leader and becoming a pawn in his political game while also using him in return, which is kind of seen as a betrayal to her prior people; to lady macbeth for the way she is Fucking Haunted by her crimes; and to criseyde from Troilus and Criseyde for her role in her relationship specifically with quackity, in which she kind of winds up betraying him by not choosing to run away with him during/after manberg/pogtopia. she also gets compared to queen gertrude from hamlet for marrying the enemy king, at which point she fully just quotes the play because i love that trope.

and finally. ive been doing a sweeney todd au. the one thing i REALLY want to talk about most with this is a MAJOR spoiler for the final chapter, though i've been dropping hints here and there throughout (go 2 the comments comment on my fic read it please). instead, i will discuss why people are american in a fic that takes place in Victorian England and how everyone has a Full Name in that fic.

bbh: full name is b. addison halo, "bad" to his friends, and he stowed away on a sailing ship bound for london when he was a teenager

schlatt: actually he doesnt have a full name, but he came to london after running away from NYC 30 years prior to the start of the fic because he was doing Crime in his 20s

ranboo: full name is Ranboo Love, first name is chosen. in london because he decided to become a sailor at 16 and see the world. unsure if his surname is gonna come up, but if it doesnt, that's okay because neither does anthony's and he's the anthony character

dream: full name is reeve taken, "dream" to his friends. based on the french word "reve" meaning "dream." came to london 20 years ago after inheriting his grandmother's pie shop. originally from virginia!

quackity and foolish arent actually from north america in this fic but arent english - foolish is egyptian and q is spanish, neither of these things will probably come up Ever.

tubbo's full name is Tybalt.

#reshes answers #reshes fic #click those links! read my fics! ask me stuff and give me comments! i love attention <3 #latter two fics are shippy. be aware.#and what do these fics have in common?#all of them include at least one c!eret rarepair. thats right.

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theyogs · 2 months

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May i humbly request that you ramble on abt anything to do w jar/ihe plzplzplz? Hot takes, silly assumptions/headcanons, favorite vids, fanfics or fanart you wish you could make (or see someone else make), anything at all!!! Make it as long and annoying as you please even if you think no one will care bc I WILL care <3

I NEED to hear other ppls thoughts abt these boys or i will go crazy

posdacted ily but you have put me on the spot and now i fear Every single piece of ihe/jar media knowledge has left my brain……….

my favourite jarcast of maybe all time is the snugglebrothers cast they did recently… like wow.. if there was no james upskirt censor it would be the most Perfect video of all time Let me see up there. i loooooveee when the boys are all comfy and cosy looking it’s so heartwarming and cute Plus this moment was so cute

i think my favourite stand alone alex video is trying to watch star wars christmas special idk why but when alex sings porn helmet wookie time it changed something in my little 14 year old brain and at 21 years old i still sing that to myself skjdowjdi

i want jartists to draw the boys in Cute pyjamas and i think they should have a Pyjama cast where they’re all in cute matching pyjamas and it’s dark outside and they have candles going…… WAIT I JUST REMEMEBRWD SOMETHNG There was a james blab on the og jar channel called is james racist - james blab and in 2022 i was GOING THRU IT emotionally like crying all the time and that video was genuinely the only thing that would cheer me up but it’s deleted or got taken down idk it’s not up anymore and i’m so sad about it because it was so funny… alex’s editing on that was Cwazy in another life he would be making ytp.. all old jar is so nostalgic and especially like old fan videos… ;-; i love jar so much they’ve changed my vocabulary permanently. i also really enjoy “the WORST video on youtube” idk what it is about that specific video but it just Gets me

i don’t really have any hot takes i don’t think i guess i think james is Really Awesome and cool for his opinions on pornography and i admire him a lot for that especially when all the comments were kind of disagreeing with him but i thought it was Epic And Cool especially coming from three different men :p i disagree with his opinion on the film cars tho, that is one of my favourite movies and i had a (serious) cars fan blog on here at one point.

i want more stand alone videos about Vidya game because even if i haven’t played/don’t have a desire to play any of these games i loveeee to hear their opinions on them like yayyyy ❤️ i think i just love to hear their opinions on anything because it’s like a Trip into their brains and i enjoy that :3

i’ve seen liek 2 or 3 tweets recently like hating on alex/the i hate everything culture of the 2010s and Waow i did not think i was still so autistic about alex&jar i got so offended because YOU FONT KNOW HIM LIKE I DOOOOOO you’ll never know the first and only podcast on youtube you don’t know Smosh hates us?! they will never understand just how meaningful i hate everything and jar media was to me as a teenager like they got me thru so much and continue to get me through hard times JAR MEDIA IS FORVER <///333333 ok i’m emotional now and i think i’ve ran out of things to say so

tl;dr make more fanart of boy in Pyjamas and allow us to have james upskirt as a Treat

#posdacted #idk how long this post is but #i hope you enjoy #asks #i really did not tbink i had this much to say i wish i had more but my brain is EMPTY

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seek--rest · 1 year

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We're three months into 2023, and I have read zero fanfcition. I really gotta change that.

Your stuff, and the collabs you do are usually amazing. But you have so much stuff going on at all times that I don't know where to even start.

Plus... I guess I'm a little scared of fanfiction in 2023. I've loved Marvel for as long as I can remember, and enjoy the movies and fandom as a general thing (it has issue, but everything does.) But the movies has been so... idk what the right word, slow? Disappointing? Unfinished? Rushed? Lately that I can't even bring myself to watch them anymore. And I'm scared... that if I sit down and read - or write anything myself - that I'll get that same feeling of it not feeling right anymore.

(That's a whole thing, and I've got a lot of choice words for Marvel lately. I mean... damn, I want to rewrite fase 4 so bad, cause parts of it is good, but parts of it also sucks like... waow, are we even trying anymore? But also I won't, cause... idk. I doubt people would read it.)

Anyway. Back on track.

What should I read? Yours, or something from an other amazing author? Any recommendations? I prefer SFW stuff, but otherwise I'm really open for anything - with the exception of no power AU's.

I am very happy to give some recommendations!!!!!!! Here are some fics I’ve read this year that I’ve really enjoyed and think you will to! (Not always published this year but ones I’ve read!)

Broken But Mending by @hale-13

To Be a Real Thing series; cut through all the noise by @abc2411

Quite Uncertain Times and Places by @pepperminttegan

The One Where Peter is Peter’s Weakness by @jinxquickfoot and @spagbol99

Sit in the silence of a friend by @friendlyneighborhoodsecretary

#seek speaks #spideychelle #my boi #Peter Parker #I can rec some of my own if you REALLY want me to but otherwise that’s always so odd to me #to include yourself in a fic rec request lmao #hope you enjoy these!

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multi-lefaiye · 1 year

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ok i'm gonna get really venty real quick b/c it's 3 am and i feel emotional (in a good way!!!!! just. contemplative)

uhhh under the cut but i'm talking a bit about like. the one (1) almost relationship i had before i started dating cal and eventually astro and shadow. also body image stuff ig

anyway i almost dated a dude named warren in middle school and like. idk what it was but i was really into him but he made me feel so fucking self conscious all the time, and idk if that was just my own insecurities or anything he said or did but i remember feeling like. gross and embarrassed about being fat and not easy to pick up and yeah i kissed him once and regretted it and then we stopped talking

and it's a little thing but idk i was just thinking about like. wow being consistently loved and cherished by calem for almost three years and now being loved and cherished by astro and shadow too i'm like. the insecurities aren't Gone but idk y'all i'm getting emotional thinking about like Oh wow being loved by people who really understand me and love me for who i am.... waow.....

idk where i'm going with this actually nvm i just got off a call with two of my partners and i wanted to cry a little b/c they kept saying they love me and i love them and that made me really happy

i wanna cuddle all of them.

#multi makes text posts #if i delete this in like 10 minutes dw about it #ask to tag #body image cw #i guess???#idk i did not like myself or my body when this all happened #also to be clear i don't think i have like. trauma. from warren or anything #things just didn't work out and that's ok #i don't think i was in a place where i could be in a relationship #and he was not the kind of person i could have a healthy relationship with #OK BEDTIME JESUS CHRIST

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shuxichi · 2 years

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Waow I haven’t uploaded anything since November last year.... whoops. Anyway! Can finally share another mastermind design for @hopes-archives that looks insane without context. I’m actually pretty proud of it! It’s definitely the most out there design I think I’ve got or ever will have, but it was super fun to come up with. Even if it is insane. Hello tags. Sorry tags.

Hopes Archives August 2022 DS mastermind number three! He was partnered with Oowada and Komaeda for a week themed around Hellbound, with originally some warriors influences, hello Scourge Warriors. Hence, he was the leader of the Blood Moon! Got to go crazy stupid insane for a bit.

#shuuichi saihara #danganronpa #danganronpa v3 #shuichi saihara #remnant shuichi #remnant au #hopes archives #I have a full ref sheet with a bunch of Scourge art influences and a Litten Gjinka...#also have an old sheet for the original design that isnt here #the little cat is called a feliseer! the other two had their own creatures too being dogs and rabbits #based them on the lens of truth from zelda #anyway. sorry for the insane image in the shuuichi tag #i am proud of this though

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frogsandfries · 11 months

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I'm so mad about this stupid fucking relationship

I'm so fucking stupid. Why do I just let people take advantage of me? My ex always had to be in charge of the fucking narrative and strike hardest and first-est. She had a fucking free meal ticket off me, free rent and utilities for three fucking years until she finally found someone dumber than me and even more desperate for a crumb of affection and recognition.

Relationships are supposed to be teamwork, between at least two people. So why do I always end up with these schmucks who make me feel like I'm doing it all myself. Like, waow, you pay the bills when the checks come in and that's all you fucking do all month. Oh, sorry, credit where credit is due, you also bitch about how I'm not earning enough for us to save and for you to have quadruple the clothes that I have.

Nah. That's what babies are for. If you were just sitting there and choosing not to make shoes or help me with the crops, I have a weird feeling you wouldn't be getting much to eat. I can obviously fucking do everything around here on my own but produce sperm. Why do I need this person weighing me down, making more messes that I have to clean up and I'm the only one who cares about the consequences of letting my kitchen run away with itself.

You know goddamn well when they get back, my ex is going to blame me for the fucking roach problem. She can't take fucking responsibility for a goddamn thing. It's fucking incredible. Like, the mountain of empty soda boxes--of soda I don't fucking drink--should be a fucking sign. The bedroom looking like an explosion in the back of a Goodwill should be a fucking sign. The shit in the toilet that there's no way I could have produced. Should. Be. A. Goddamn. Sign!!

Maybe I'm fucking neurotic for caring about how clean my home is.

Maybe being a fucking au pére to my own fucking parents fucked me up.

I don't fucking care. Adults take responsibility. Adults clean up after themselves instead of leaving it for the maid, because adults don't want to live with bugs. And most adults can't fucking afford a fucking maid. And a maid won't fix the fucking problem if you don't do your own goddamn dishes, you spill food all over the place, and throw food packaging and garbage all over the fucking kitchen.

But she'll blame me, behind my back as she has to my face, for starting it 🙄 I'm not over here pretending I'm perfect. I probably did like, leave ramen seasoning packets and lids as I rushed to eat my lunch at work. I've never left a food wrapper for a fucking month.

I'm so angry, and I'm being unkind to myself.

I'm not the one who spent over three years lying and being disingenuous. I'm not the one who ended the fucking relationship, knowing for weeks, if not months, that that was my intent, and cashed the fuck out on someone else's fucking dime, and doesn't realize or appreciate how sociopathic that is.

I'm not even pretending I was a perfect partner. After a point, I stopped trying to be a spouse because I knew at some point, the relationship would have to end--either because we were going to have a child, or I wanted to start separating my finances, something, whatever..... The relationship was only benefiting one party. Although that party wants to claim that I'm abusive because, after being awake for four to six hours by myself, I might wake them up, impatiently reminding them that there's plenty for them to be doing to participate and make me feel "dear". Week after month after year, they chose not to.

I don't fucking believe depression is a fucking barrier to taking care of yourself. I've been to points where I don't want to get out of bed. No one is going to take care of me. This has been proven over and over--and the ones who claim most loudly to want to take care of me are the most full of fucking shit. You have to put one for in front of the other, take a fucking shower, rinse your fucking dishes, get off your ass and step away from the fucking computer.

I don't know what the fuck it's supposed to mean that a relationship not be 50/50. In this world, it has always taken a village to come together and get through life, season by season. Nowhere in history do you see a village, a neighborhood, a community, dragged through by one stolid individual. If I'm working forty hours a week, the least the other adult in the home, taking up space, using the electricity and water that I pay for, can do is--and I said this over and over--just. One. Thing. Just one. Put the dishes in the washer, you don't even have to start it. Put the meal in the slow cooker. Get a few items from the grocery store. I'm not even asking that my spouse necessarily work and earn money, but if you must, make it easy for me to earn the money.

I was far more patient and kind and tolerant than my ex had any right to and I can't stand that they had to have the last word. I can't stand that they used me and lied to me over and over and over, every single fucking day. I don't believe that she can be an independent fucking adult, but she can sure be not my fucking problem with her fucking enmeshed dependence.

Eventually, I'll be moved out, into a fresh new apartment and I'll finally have space to stop being stuck on it.

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top 5 shows you’ve photographed 👀

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1. mcr la5 2022 best night of my life i would live in that show forever if i could and i could not be more proud of the silly little images i got to take. the fan reaction has like actually made me cry so many times. theyve been my favorite band for so many years and the two shows i shot were opportunities i do not take lightly and i truly truly think nothing is ever going to top that feeling. also getting to do it alongside camryn who i hadnt seen in years but have known for the majority of my career in internet posting was so wonderful

2. boygenius st louis 2018 this was the first time i photographed any of the three of them and looking back on it now is just. waow. i still dont have the words to talk about how insanely beautiful this show was.

3. maggie rogers kansas city 2019 hiiapl meant the world to me and i cried in a venue bathroom when i found out i was shooting this show and i cried so so hard the entire night and it think my work from it is still some of my favorite. for her notes record she used one of my photos from this show on a shirt and i still feel lightheaded when i think about it.

4. julien baker in chicago 2022 ive photographed jb close to 10 times now and this was by far my favorite!!!! i love getting to know an artists set so intimately that i can move past the “get perfect shots” part and go straight to the “get silly do weird shit let yourself have fun” part. this day was so stressful for me but its some of my favorite shit i made this year

5. lucy dacus at all things go fest 2022 i am so utterly grateful for all of the things she has allowed me to do and being granted stage access was mindblowing. her team are the most beautiful souls on the planet for making that happen and treating me with such insane kindness 🥹

ty i love getting to talk about my silly little photos and silly little shows so much :’-)

#ask

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crunnchybunnch · 2 years

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waow. Three years ago today i eated a poptart

#crunchposts

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onepoly · 9 months

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The 25th Year | Week 1 | The Beginning

Hi, I'm Bradley! I'm a solo developer working on an open world RPG called The 25th Year.

Every week from now until I release the game, I'll be posting an update blog where I share the progress I've made. This is the first time I've ever done anything like this, so I’m sorry if it sucks.

Most of this week was spent moving to Godot from Unity and figuring out how I'd make this game work in this new engine, so unfortunately there's not a lot of visual material for me to show off.

Instead I'm going to talk a bit about some technical stuff. Specifically, I’m going to talk about the three most important things an open world game needs:

World streaming

Terrain

HLOD

First off, streaming. For those unaware, world streaming is a technique used by all open world games (and a few linear ones) to determine what stuff should and shouldn't be loaded.

There are a few different ways to go about this, I've chosen to use the grid-based cell system. (similar to what Bethesda uses)

For this, we simply split the world into a big grid of cells and only load the ones closest to the player.

This system should be fairly easy to implement, however, I haven’t started working on it yet. Why? Well, there’s a problem. You see, I want mod support. And for that, I need to support stuff like adding, editing, and removing stuff from cells.

At first glance, this doesn’t seem too hard. To add new stuff, I could just load any additions the mods make after the ‘base’ cell. For editing… well, I’m not exactly sure how I’d do that, but I’m sure it wouldn’t be too difficult. Deleting, though? That’s where I’m a bit stumped.

So far, I’ve come up with three possible solutions:

1. Load the map normally, then delete stuff.

Problem: Loading and spawning an object just to delete it is dumb and inefficient.

2. Copy the base game’s map files, apply the edits, then load the copy.

Problem: This one also feels a bit inefficient, because it’d be using more disk space than necessary.

3. Ignore Godot’s built in scene system, and create my own.

Problem: That’d be a lot of work.

I’m probably going to go with option 2 because I think it’ll require the least amount of time to implement. Though, I won’t be too happy about wasting the extra disk space.

OK, that’s enough about streaming, let’s talk about terrain!

Unlike streaming, I actually have something kinda presentable, so here it is!

Waow.

Now I know what you’re thinking. “Bradley, it’s all one color! Where’s the grass? The dirt? The sand?????” Well, I technically already have a system for coloring the terrain… but it looks like shit right now, so you’ll have to wait for next week’s blog to witness the incredible magic of colors.

As you might’ve noticed, I’m going with a heightmap system. Basically, it’s fast and easy to implement, but I can’t easily do things like caves and overhangs. I’m fine with this though, as the alternative would be to implement a voxel terrain system, which would take way longer, and would probably run way worse.

Alright, onto the last system, HLOD!

You’re probably wondering what those funny letters stand for. Guess.

WRONG! It stands for Hierarchical Level of Detail.

Basically, you take all of the models in an area, reduce their quality, and combine them all into one big model. If you’ve ever played an open world game and seen something like a town or ruin in the distance, it was probably an HLOD.

Technically, Godot already includes an HLOD system, but I can’t use it for this game. It seems like you can’t just load the HLOD on its own, so I need to come up with my own system. I’ve got an idea cooking in my head, but I want to try it first before I reveal it.

Alright, that’s the end of the first blog!

I actually wanted to include more detail in this post, but I’ve had to rewrite half of this fucking thing 6 times now thanks to Tumblr’s garbage undo system. This was actually meant to come out yesterday, but I felt was going to punch a hole through my fucking monitor, so I delayed it.

In the future, all new posts will come out Saturday, at whenever-I-feel-like-writing-it PM! Like I said at the start of this blog, this is my first time ever doing anything like this, so I hope you liked it, and I’m sorry if it sucked!

#game development #godot engine #low poly #RPG #open world #indiegamedev #gamedev #made with godot

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