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anton-luvr · 6 months

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Hi, how have you been? I love your blog and the way you write!💖 I have a request to make, if you're comfortable with that... How would Riize react when you think they are cheating on you, but in reality it's all a misunderstanding, and they're just too busy. (English is not my first language so I'm sorry if this is a little confusing!)

# WHEN YOU THINK THEY'RE CHEATING ON YOU ; 7riize.

⚝ bf!riize x gn!reader | angst | bf au ⚝ note ; im kinda busy, but im doing good!! thank you so much ily :( and don't worry abt it i understood your req perfectly!! thank u for requesting, i hope u like it <3

# SHOTARO. - for the first time ever, shotaro doesn't smile. he can only sit in silent shock while he processes your words, and the first thing he can think of to do is to hug you. holds you tight as he whispers apologies over and over again, feeling terrible that he made you think that he was cheating on you. reassures you gently that he would never, and promises that once he gets a rest day, he'll spend all his free time with you.

# EUNSEOK. - eunseok isn't one who usually shows his emotions, but pain and guilt is so evident on his face after hearing what you said. he had no idea that you were feeling this way from how busy he's been these days, and he feels awful about it. tells you that he's sorry while wiping your tears away, and he swears to himself to start treating you with more love and care from that day onwards, starting from right now.

# SUNGCHAN. - he hates himself for making you think that he was cheating on you. calls up his boss immediately with the fakest cough and sneezes, lying without batting an eye about how he was 'terribly sick' and needed 'at least two days off' to 'recover'. he spends those two days with you, never once leaving your side as he takes you out to all your favorite places and showers you with love and compliments.

# WONBIN. - even though he immediately reassures you that he's not cheating on you and spends the night with you in his arms, he still feels so bad. life still goes on as usual for the both of you the next day, him busy at work while you were busy with yours. but just to make it up to you, wonbin has a bouquet sent right up into your office - a bouquet of a hundred and one roses, reminding you that you're his one and only lover.

# SEUNGHAN. - he understands how you feel and why'd you think that way, so other than seunghan promising that he'll try to spend more time with you, he also lets you voice out your worries in detail. he listens with full attention, nodding when you mention how you didn't like one of his female coworkers because she seemed so close with your boyfriend. and right after the words have left your lips, seunghan slips out his phone and blocks her on everything, right in front of you. he wants you to rest assured knowing that he couldn't care less for anyone else in this world other than you.

# SOHEE. - sohee has not and would never cheat on you. he loves you too much for that. he tells you just that as he gently kisses away your tears, holding you tightly in his arms for the rest of the night. he feels horrible for making you feel insecure in your relationship, so he makes sure to shower you in extra affection for the next few days. breakfasts in bed, long kisses before he leaves for work, and constant updates with photos about his day to you.

# ANTON. - his heart literally shatters into pieces. he can't help but cry too, because how could he make the love of his life feel this way? he apologizes to you through sniffles and sobs, promising you that he'd never cheat on you. tries his best to finish up his work faster the next day so he can come straight home to you and into your arms.

taglist : @wonbons @mxlly143 @keehobaldboy @shawyle @yenart @lycheecheeseyogurt

#got kinda sad writing this...#got even sadder proofreading it.......#sarah's 400 ! ☆#riize #riize fics #riize angst #riize fluff #riize drabbles #riize imagines #riize reactions #riize scenarios #riize anton #riize sohee #riize seunghan #riize wonbin #riize sungchan #riize eunseok #riize shotaro #riize x reader

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havenofangelica · 2 years

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vent #1

TW: mentions of near gun violence, SA, emotional abuse, gr00ming, depersonalization, derealization, death, attempted su1c*de

i hope people understand that the picture above is sarcasm.

anyways, screw it. screw aesthetic bullshit. that's not how real life is at all anyway. that's not how mine was. this shit is NOTHING to actively want or be glorified. this entire blog is meant for me to let it all out with a comfortable layout. i don't care about fucking borders or fonts anymore. im done. let me tell you about the shit i've had to put up with.

my childhood was taken away from me by my dad. he held a gun to my mom's head and almost killed her in front of 7 year-old me's eyes after MY FUCKING CHOIR CONCERT. i remember it vividly, and everyone i know thinks that i made it up in my mind or that it never happened. IT DID. I REMEMBER IT. for obvious reasons i never want to talk about it with my family again after how they dismissed it. That started all of my hell. Then, my dad kissed me on the lips when i was 11 when i told him that i didn't want to. my mom said that "families with different cultures do it all the time". i don't even know anymore. i didn't want it. Speaking of my mom, I'm pretty sure I found her suicide note at like 10, but i don't want to delve into specifics about that. She didn't do it, thank god.

eventually, my childhood nearly came to an end. in middle school, i almost died due to an allergic reaction to a vaccine. i had to detox for three months. i'm fine now but i still shake violently sometimes and have to deal with that stupid side effect. the doctor's dismissed it as PTSD, but it can't be that, bc even AFTER the traumatic BS, i never shook like that in my life. but, immediately after i got the shot, i started shaking. make it make sense, fucking USA healthcare.

my freshman year of high school, i was a doe. i was an innocent creature who only thought of soft music and comforting things. of course i was an easy target for predators. i didn't know any better. so i was as shocked as the deer in the fucking headlights when someone who i considered to be a friend (i was 14, he was 19) started grooming me. he only befriended me to get in my pants. he tried picking me up one day after school, and i thought he thrusted himself against me. this resulted in scarred me calling the cops. they didn't do much but order that he should stay away from me and not touch me again. i went to the school, my principal just said "boys will be boys" and moved on. of course we didn't listen to the cops, i was a pathetic, hopeless romantic who wanted to keep talking to him, his tactics fucking worked on me. he continued to sext me for a year, and my parents found out and took away my phone for an entire summer. it was honestly relieving. on the last day of school sophomore year, shit hit the fan again. he entranced me, so i talked to him then, and he made out with me. i haven't told my parents this because i never want them to know. i felt so dirty and ashamed after. it hurt.

once that whole thing ended and he "graduated" (fucking finally), i blocked him and focused on my friends. this one friend i had was manipulative, and would always paint what i liked and who i was in a bad light. i would try to help them with their many "health" problems, and they would dismiss it and complain more. bitches like that can't be helped, i guess. eventually, i had enough. i said something that i deeply regret towards another friend who knew them, and she ended up telling the manipulative friend what i said. they sent a selfie of them hanging out without me, and then proceeded to tell me what a horrible friend i had been the past three years. i blocked them all. it still carried on when the manipulative friend started shit-talking me to my sister, who had nothing to do with it. that erupted into a giant fight over DMs, and we eventually cut each other off. i feel really lonely when my sisters hang out with their friends that they've had for so long, because i had to ditch the one's i knew the longest. luckily, i have one best friend and boyfriend who i know will love, help, and inspire me always now. phone calls and texts will have to do until we can finally live with each other, though.

anyways, while all of the friend drama was going on, i was dealing with an abusive ex. we would always get into fights, i can't remember exactly over what. i just remember people telling me to get out of the relationship asap. he would only love me when he smoked weed, so that was fun. we were on and off, but i finally broke things off when he said that acid was good for you. to each their own, but high school me wasn't having that.

transition to freshman year of college. i had just graduated, and was looking to make new friends. i had made a couple, two i still actively keep in touch with and am really good friends with to this day. i met a guy, and long story short, he SAed me. I wanted to stop doing something, and he forcefully made me keep doing it. When i left, i sobbed like a bitch. I felt so worthless, like i was only an object. I felt like I was good for nothing but sexual acts. My roommate (one of my good friends) saw me afterwards, and comforted me. His assault would eventually land him fired and hated amongst students at my small college, so that's good, at least.

Okay, now go to March, junior year, 2021. I'm in a sorority, things are looking up. Then, I had a complete mental shut down. I don't even know how. I wasn't living on my sorority hall at that time due to my declining mental health. I said this in chapter (I can't really remember what the context was), and this one girl stands up and looks at me while addressing all of my sisters in the chapter room. She said that our hall could get removed if not enough sisters live on it, which is total BS. I teared up and left. Later on, I turned so suicidal to the extent to where people had to come in my dorm to check on me. One day, something snapped. I was hanging out with my bf, and we had a minor disagreement, it wasn't even that big of a deal. But for some reason, i thought it was. i told him that when i got to my dorm, i would OD on pain meds and kill myself. he called the police, who then escorted me to the hospital. they wanted to admit me to the mental floor, and my parents knew i was crazy bc i hadn't been getting sleep, apparently. i asked to leave, and i asked for water, even, but they wouldnt work with me. apparently, while i was in the hospital room, my dad said that i was worthless, fat, and that i would go nowhere in life. i didn't find this out until after the fact, when my bf, who was sitting by him at the hospital, told me.

now, my grandma just died. she helped me through so much and now i can never talk to her again. and there's a load of family drama behind that that i don't even want to get into.

now, i'm listening to music and realizing that the only reason i'm alive is just to keep my little sister and my bf happy. i genuinely resent who i am. people call me strong for going through all of this, but i feel weaker than ever. i'm honestly feeling suicidal again, knowing that i can't die because both my family and my boyfriend need me. but the pressure and weight of everything feels like so much. it sucks to live through. i'm just so tired of disappointing everyone. i need to take care of my mental health, but i'm afraid i'll be deemed "lazy" if i do. my family never really prioritized mental health at all, so now mine is, to this day, rapidly decreasing. i can't afford therapy. i don't like the counseling service at my school because every time i go, i feel judged. hell, my counselor even asked me why i still go there. like, why do you THINK i go there? anywho. i called the support line my school has several times and someone is constantly trying to call me back at inopportune times (lunch, night, in class). luckily, i have my phone off, but still. idk what to even do. i feel so worthless. my boyfriend knows about my trauma, but i can't always vent to him, and my family follow my venting insta, so i have to talk about everything here. it just sucks.

sorry for trauma dumping, i needed to let it out. this'll probably get taken down anyway, don't worry.

#vent blog #vent #trauma #childhood trauma #tw #vent post #trigger warning

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vinnival · 3 years

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Funny idea!!! I havent seen any other blog explore this and its been stuck in my head… Deimos is a defected Agent, right? Im just saying, it must be difficult for Sanford to kill so many people everyday that look and sound exactly as your boyfriend… youve got to have a breaking point eventually.. :)

Another call at Angst Central? My, this is certainly getting popular! Ahh, good ole SanMos angst? Gotcha ;}

Tipping Point

It haunts him.

He'd be lying awake next to him, watching him sleep, yet Sanford would still think he's dead.

All the time, all the time... he kills so many. So many agents that look like him.

He REEEALLY shouldn't think too hard about it, but he does. They all look like Deimos. They all SOUND like Deimos. The way they say his name when they recognize him amongst the fighting, it's all too similar to when Sanford surprises Deimos with gifts. It makes him disgruntled.

Every time he sees an agent, a thought flitting through his head says, "what if this is him?"

It scares him. Sanford is terrified.

He's heard countless screams that sounded like his boyfriend, thousands of pleads of mercy. It's a miracle how he keeps a straight face when zipping through enemies.

Every time he kills another, he can't help but picture in his head, his boyfriend's visor, mic, and bandages surrounding his victim's head.

How can he escape this hell?

Forcing Deimos to have plastic surgery? No, thank you!

Eventually, it all spills over.

He hears a cry of pain from yet another on a mission one day. He's trained himself to block it out at this point- how he did that, no one knows.

He just kept fighting on, but something in his head told him to check back. Reluctantly, he forced himself to make a u-turn.

He was so glad he did. He saw the REAL Deimos, on the ground, heaving in pain. He's been shot in the shoulder and on his side, losing blood at a very rapid pace.

Sanford hated himself. He's trained himself to block out the cries of so many that sounded like him, but that also included the actual him.

He abandoned the mission and carried Deimos out of there.

When Deimos joked about how Sanford ignored him back at base, that was when his mind broke.

Deimos was shocked to see his boyfriend crumple to the ground. He watched, confused and scared, as Sanford wailed about his struggles. He's been traumatized.

Hank and 2B rushed into the room in worry, automatically homing in on Sanford to try and calm him-they carried him to his room.

Deimos was still confused. Was his situation of being a defected agent that bad?

After thinking it over- while wincing at the occasional sob he could hear from Sanford's room- he sort of understood the struggle. If he had to kill countless men that looked and sounded like Sanford, he'd most likely act the same way, too.

When Deimos finally heals, he checks on Sanford.

He's a mess. Wrapped up into his blanket, tissues surrounding him. He still hasn't stopped crying. It's been a couple of days.

It now consisted of the occasional little shake, followed by tears trailing down some obvious tear trails. His skin burned when the salty tears passed over it, but he couldn't stop it.

Deimos felt horrible. He shouldn't, since he had no control over it, but he still did.

He called his boyfriend's name.

Sanford jolted, suddenly hiccupping. He immediately pleaded for Deimos to come cuddle him, and Deimos wasted no time taking off his armor to help solace his boyfriend of his depression and trauma.

He couldn't do anything about the constant problem of clones of him, but he sure as hell wasn't gonna leave Sanford alone anymore. Ever.

Kind of all over the place but this was too good of an ask hohoho my brain kept on pouring out the words and I had to write it down

#madness combat #madness combat angst #sanford x deimos #sanmos #madness combat sanmos #deimos x sanford #madness combat deimos #madness combat sanford #madcom deimos #madcom sanford

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twopoppies · 3 years

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Firstly No pressure to read any of the below it’s just a lil rant after I ended up on the wrong side of tumblr!! ( + I have ADHD and i forgot my meds lol so its a bit disoriented and all over the place) and no response necessary unless you want to!

Oh god I accidentally ended up on the wrong side of tumblr....never ever ever ever again, I went back so fastttt lol im laughing at myself rn for how quickly i clicked away from disgust

i ended up on a blog that stalks u and some other larries and says absolutely atrocious things abt louis (I can send u their @ if u'd like so u can block them) and fully bought the stunt bs happening rn and it was horrible obvs but like i just do not understand like it was so creepy gina and im just so disgusted bc why? yk?

like u were not joking abt anti's actually being obsessed with larries - like half this person's blog was talking abt you and amy and i was just so shocked cause why??? like mate come on what the actual f? get a life please?? (im quite new so im like just now realising how insanely weird and obsessed these anti's are)

Also it was just an overall eye opener for multiple things:

Starting with that 1. the way 1DHQ and 1D Management managed to alienate larries actually worked and i like knew but truly doing a proper deep dive and seeing multiple blogs hate on larries and like obsessively stalk us was insane?? Like they truly believe everything they’re being fed???

Side Note: Lowkey feeling very lucky to have had the education i have because even before i even joined this fandom i believed partially none of the relationships in the news bc like i knew abt this industry and how it worked yk? i mean its logic? i have so many mates that arent even in the fandom that know i am in the fandom and texted me when the articles started rolling out calling it out for what it was: A PR stunt

Hell someone i know whom i had never even talked abt fandom stuff/stunt stuff fully texted me making a joke out of it!!! like people who aren’t even in our fandom can see it and its just insanely surprising that if they can why cant the antis?? im just a bit shocked rn

both from 1. finding someone who actually believes in this stunt and 2. multiple blogs that fully commit their time to stalking u and other larries and once again i knew but fully seeing it

YK AT FIRST I WAS LIKE IS THIS A JOKE I DIDNT BELIEVE IT GINA I THOUGHT SOMEONE WAS PULLING MY LEG OR THIS PERSON WAS IDK BEING SARCASTIC AND HAD A MESSED UP SENSE OF HUMOUR but ye anyway

It made me realise that 1DHQ knew what the fuck they were doing when they were trying to alienate larries from the rest of the fandom, once again i am feeling extraordinarily grateful to have grown up with an education where i was literally taught to never trust anything and to always think things thru using logic - “does it makes sense to you? if not find out why, there usually a reason behind everything” my yr 9 english teacher used to say smth like that all the time and it just never left me bc she was always teaching us to judge everything and to take every piece of news we read entertainment or otherwise with a grain of salt and to always if we’re gonna give someone else our opinion or spread this information do our research (its what i am when i say i feel lucky to have had the education i have had)

Eye Opener 2: Anti’s are fully standing y’all u were 100% correct this is some next level stan behaviour if i’ve ever seen some, you’re famous gina!!

It is while surprisingly to realise that anti’s fully believe these things, more surprising to see how they treat larries bc why on earth would u treat any other human being this way??? like dont get me wrong they’re horrible ppl and i fully felt like sending them a message telling them exactly that but i would never bc i just dont want to make another person feel bad abt themselves even if they are that shitty of a person and it was very tempting

I just would like to understand why they feel the need to do this? like why hate on a whole other person? for what believing smth diff to u? having a difference of opinion? how tf are they gonna make it when they get a job??? like??? do u know how often i run into a person with a different opinion then me? it shouldn’t be that big of a deal! we should still be able to be friends with antis! but we’re not - not for lack of trying btw!! they’re just so mean and rude??? when i was in other fandoms when someone believed different things there was never this much hatred at someone for it!! hell there was barely any bc it was understood that it was normal to have diff opinions abt things and i just am truly fascinated by these ppl i swear they remind how stupid the human race can sometimes be not for what they believe (altho ngl a lil of that too) but for how they treat other ACTUAL human beings with different opinions to them

Eye Opener 2.5: Some people need lives, man like they proper do need lives and something to do maybe a hobby or smth? just like a life they need to get one of those and actual live it

and Eye Opener 3: I already felt this way but like even god damn stronger now you deserve a formal apology from both 1DHQ and the universe

and until we get that u deserve amazing things coming from the boys on your bdays to make up for it

Lastly Gina I hope you didn't read thru all that bc I couldn’t even read it over and thus sorry for any grammar/spelling mistakes and I would also like to say that I love your blog and everything about you! you’re an absolute angel and one of the kindest ppl I have ever had the pleasure of well not meeting but stumbling across, you truly make this fandom a much much much better place with your presence (I shudder to think of it without u) that said if you ever need to take breaks or leave Im sure you already know but you should 100%

You first!!! Always! :)

Have a good day Gina, I hope its an absolutely amazing one!

Hi darling. LOL! Reading this was like talking with my kids when they don't take their ADHD meds. Lots of excited thoughts!! I loved it.

And yeah, that blog and their 4 followers are really... not well. But you're very right. 1DHQ made this fandom a breeding ground for people to hate larries and to think it's something Harry and Louis would both approve of. It's gross.

The gaslighting here is powerful, so thank goodness for fans like you who know to question what they're told and to look at things with logic and to do their best to see through their own biases.

Thank you for all the sweet words and your offer to kick butt (in your other message). I really appreciate it!

#long post

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rebeccccccaaa · 3 years

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ғᴏʀᴇᴠᴇʀ & ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs

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ʙᴜᴄᴋʏ ʙᴀʀɴᴇs x sɪʙʟɪɴɢ!ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ

ʀᴇǫᴜᴇsᴛᴇᴅ: ANON Yay it’s my bday ^^ can I ask my favorite blog for an imagine? One where you’re a winter soldier but were trained secretly so bucky don’t know you. But you’re also buckys sister. So as you get the mission to kill him you found him in the tower when all avengers sit together. First buck is happy that you’re still alive and most likely can’t believe it but as you start attacking him, he knows what’s going on ( & you also have a cyber arm). In the end you remember him and he helps you through this?

ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢs: angst, gun use? Also this kinda an au but like kinda sort of lol; in other words timeline fucked up lmao

ᴀᴜᴛʜᴏʀ’s ɴᴏᴛᴇs: Happy Birthday bug! Omg! My birthday is on Saturday fellow aquarius ;) Also thank you so much for calling me your favorite writer that makes me so happy I can't even begin to say much that means to me.

ps im posting twice today! what omg! so yeah stay tuned really soon for a really good steve smut i just wanted to get this one put today for the anon’s birthday :)

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Betcha ya never thought sibling rivalries could get this out of hand.

You and your twin brother James Buchanan Barnes stood across each other on the roof of the Avengers Tower. Bucky had settled with the team when Hydra was defeated in DC. thighs were going very well and he finally felt like he was doing good again in his life. He felt like he had a family again, especially when Steve was still alive.

Speaking of family, you barged in the Tower earlier today looking for Bucky and when you found he couldn't believe his eyes. He was so happy and confused to see you but nonetheless rushed over to give a long needed hug.

The second he took a step forward you aimed your gun and shot several times at him. His metal raised up and blocked the bullets but that didn't stop you.

“Who the hell is that?” Bat aske Steve while hiding and loaded her gun to fight back.

“That’s Y/n,” Steve said in distress.

He had a sort of crush on you back in the 30s when you guys were teenagers, but like Bucky, he thought everyone he knew then was dead. First he found Bucky who tried to kill him, and now he found you, or you found them, and you also trying to kill Bucky.

“Who’s Y/n?” Nat asked.

“Buck’s sister, they look nothing alike though,” Steve explained.

“There’s another Barnes?” Tony shouted.

“I thought she was dead.”

You threw Bucky across the room and while he stayed on the ground groaning, you pulled out your gun again and shot at him missing every single bullet because of his stupid metal arm. Two can play that game. Literally.

You stormed up to him and grabbed his throat pulling him up and choking him. Bucky’s eyes bulged out his head; how were you so strong? He tried to hit your head but was unlucky, so he took his metal hand and chopped it down your right arm hoping to buckle your elbow so you’d let go but to his and everybody’s surprise you didn’t budge.

Istead the prominent sound of metal against metal echoed loudly throughout the room and everyone’s expressions were shocked, confused, scared. You threw Bucky again to the side and his hand was wrapped around your wrist so when he was thrown he took your hand glove with him and as he guessed, bright shiny and silvery metal glowed for everyone to see.

“She’s a winter soldier,” Nat said.

“What?”

“Before the Black Widow academy became what it is, what I am, they experimented on others to turn them into people like Bucky; Winter Soldiers. They all had bad effects, turned aggressive and too violent to be trained. But it was rumored another person was a success but I didn't think they used them, well her. You said she was his twin?” Nat said.

“Yeah, fraternal,” Steve said.

“So they share similar DNA, it makes sense for the serum to work on her if worked on him.”

“Do you think she was kidnapped?” Steve asked.

“I wouldn’t doubt Hydra,” Nat said sadly.

Bucky ran to the roof in hopes to get away but you were just as fast and light on your feet. You trained the same way. So now you and James Buchanan Barnes, traitor, stood across each other on the roof of the Avengers Tower.

“Y/n,” Bucky said calmly. You grumbled and huffed not liking the name he was calling you.

“Y/n, I know you know me.”

“I do. You’re the soldier who betrayed your fathers. You left your home,” you said harshly.

“That’s not my home. And it’s not yours either. I know you remember me,” Bucky took a step forward slowly.

Steve bursted through the roof access door stopping when he saw you and Bucky talking. Bucky looked back at him and motioned Steve to stand next to him.

“You remember this punk, looks different but he had googly eyes for you, remember? You told me you wouldn’t date someone younger than you. I told you it was only a year but you didn’t wanna admit like the fucker back,” Bucky explained. Your head was beginning to pound and a ringing sound pierced your ears.

“You’re my mission,” you said with teary eyes; you felt this connection with the long haired traitor but you couldn’t pin it. Your brain was too scrambled from the electroshocks.

“I had a mission too.”

“And you failed! You betrayed your family!”

“They are not family! You’re family!”

You huffed opening and closing your fists anxiously; they were beginning to look more and more familiar.

“Y/n, it’s Bucky, Buck-a-roo, B,” he said the nicknames you once called him so long ago.

“I don’t remember you,” you cried, “I have to kill you.”

“No you don’t. Those people, they’re not good. They’re not family. They don’t love you. I love you, Steve loves you. Come home,” Bucky sobbed.

He picked up your hand and you looked at him in his vibrant ocean blue eyes. Those same eyes you were always so jealous of growing up.

“Stay here. We can help you remember. We’ll keep you safe, I’ll keep you safe. You’re my sister,” Bucky cupped your face gently.

Your head ached horribly, flashes of memories you didn’t know you had came up and tears flowed down your face.

“I know what it's like to be scared they’re gonna hurt you but I swear on my life, no one’s gonna hurt again. I promise, just come home,” Bucky whispered. The rest of the team watched and anticipated what could happen, complete shock with what was happening in front of them.

You looked at Bucky and your face dropped into an expressionless cold look. He was tricked. He grabbed your hand and pushed away the gun shooting at nothing thankfully. He pinned you under him.

“Get off of me!” you screamed and wiggled.

“Y/n! Please, look at me!” Bucky said.

“I know how you feel. You're confused, angry, helpless. It feels awful, I know.”

“I hate this, I’ve killed so many people,” you cried.

“I know,” Bucky sat up and hugged you.

“You’re safe, with me. Ok?” He said.

“Forever and Always?” you asked.

This was something you always said to each other. You were sort of jealous of Bucky and Steve’s ‘Til the end of the line’ so you came up with ‘Forever and Always’ and it was your promise to be there for each other just like he promised Steve. Bucky’s tears spilled over and he hugged you tightly knowing you were already starting to remember.

“Forever and always, doll.”

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@mathletemadison

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chemiste · 4 years

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Voicemail. ~one-shot~

a/n: howdy babes, last night i was reading through @toothpastekissy masterlist, basically gobbling up everything and came upon Leaked Feelings! I loved the concept of it so I decided to write my own version :) lmk if y’all want a part two!

ALSO, i recorded myself singing both songs i wrote for harry,,,, if ya want to know the tunes i was thinking for them, comment if you want them and ill post em.

my masterlist

There they were.

The leaked files.

When you got a call at 4 am this morning, you did not expect your publicist to be telling you some of your exes songs were leaked.

“What’s that got to do with me?” You asked, still half asleep.

“They’re about you, Y/N.” Well now you’re awake.

“What?” You shot up out of bed, padding over to your white desk, fuzzy pink socks on your feet. You opened your laptop and jumped onto twitter, scrolling through with one hand while the other held your phone. #StylesLeak was trending worldwide, as was #Y/N.

HarryUpdates tweeted:

OMG OMG RED ALERT WE GOT LEAK SONGS Y’ALL

FineFuckinLine tweeted:

OOF, what the fucccccck did harry do to Y/N? These are all apology songs!!! No wonder the break up was hush hush

E!News tweeted :

Hey everyone! We know Harry Styles and Y/N L/N stans are up early this morning! Leaked songs from Harry sales have been put out on the web for everyone to see. The two singers had called it quits 3 years ago, but now they’re the trending topic again! #shipname is now trending #1 worldwide, I didn’t ever think we’d see that one again! Go to our website for more!

You heard you publicist let out a big sigh, you put your phone on speaker and set it down on the desk next to you so you could keep looking.

“There are 7 songs, and each one has your name in it or as the title.”

It was a bit of shock, to say the least.

You had hung up with your publicist a while ago and were now debating on whether to listen to the songs or not, you had found a fan account that had the leaked files all ready to go for your entertainment, but something made you hesitate clicking the url.

“You Bastard!” You screamed, shoving him back into the wall.

Mascara was streaming down your face, the satin red cocktail dress you wore now crumpled as your crouched to grab your suitcase from underneath the bed.

“Please listen, it’s not what you think—“ Harry started, you whipped around to the man before you, fire burning in your eyes.

“Oh, really Harry? How is me hearing you say ‘yeah Y/N is alright, but gotta keep the media happy ya know’ on a voicemail I probably wasn’t supposed to get not what I think?”

Quickly, you zipped the bag closed, kicking your heels off and shoving your feet into your beat up converse. He let out an exasperated breath, tears starting to shine in his eyes.

“I—I was drunk Y/N! I was with some friends just joking around and—“

“Drunk words are sober thoughts Harry.”

You snapped back, slipping your tench coat on and racing for the stairs, luggage in hand. You rubbed away the endless tears running down your face as you made it to the living room, collecting your keys.

H raced down after you, mumbling over words—

‘Excuses’, You thought.

Right before you opened the front door, he grabbed your hand that was wrapped around the handle of your suitcase.

“Please Y/N, can’t we just sit down and talk this out—“

“There’s nothing to talk about Harry, you made that perfectly clear when I had to listen to you compare me some ‘other models’ while at a very important record dinner! I had to fucking sit there, eyes on me, and act like you weren’t ripping my heart out one word at a time!”

You snatched your hand out of his and moved out the door,

“Don’t call me,” was the last thing you said before slamming the door shut.

Bringing back those memories was something you didn’t want to do, it had been 3 years since the break up. Harry didn’t come after you, even though a part of you wished he had. Wished he had tried harder to get you back. But alas, shortly after, he started dating a model, Camile or something, and your relationship was tossed aside like yesterdays newspaper.

You moved back and forth with your mouse on the link, eventually you closed the page. Instead of fully chickening out, you decided to go to your favorite platform for celebrity gossip, tumblr.

“At least one of his die-heart fans must have the lyrics written down already.”

You mumbled to yourself, logging into your secret side blog about cats, Captain America, and cute outfits.

After not that much digging you found a blog, harrysmygod, (you definitely rolled your eyes at the name) had a whole posting written out about it already.

“They’re sure on top of everything, I’ll give them that.”

You started to read.

Hello my harries!

So if you’ve been up these past few hours, something big has happened! HARRY STYLES HAD SOME FUCKING SONGS LEAKED!!! And no, I don’t mean songs that could have been on the FineLine album, I mean OLD songs!

And they’re about, you know my fav girl, Y/N! Now, we know their break up 3 years ago was very quick and hush-hush, not much details ya know?

BUT WE GOT THE JUICE NOW LADIES!!

The boy wrote 7 songs that got leaked, and you wonder why I know they’re about her? Y/N is a lyric or title word used in all of them! Thats right, all 7 songs. I’ve done the best thing for everyone and written out the lyrics for you to look through, I’ve only kept one chorus and each new verse, if you listen to the song and its repeated I only wrote it down one for you, blah blah you get it?

Great! Heres the first one, it’s called Voicemail.

You took a deep breath and scrolled down.

The look on your face,

The hurt in your eyes,

Made me realize, my lover was gone,

I never got to say goodbye.

Oh, Oh, Ah, Oh.

The words I had said, not true,

I’m so sorry you heard them too.

When you came home in that dress,

Mascara dripping onto your chest.

I knew I had fucked up,

One voicemail turning us to dust.

If you ever hear this song,

Know that I was wrong,

You were the best thing in my life,

Now those flames have turned to ice.

Oh, Oh, Ah, Oh.

Y/N, please remember the love we once had together,

So I know I am real

And then maybe, we could try to heal.

Heaaaaaaaaaal.

Wow you guys, this SONG! Totally sucks that harry didn’t mean to release them cause totally invasion of privacy (sorry harry), but lucky for us we’ve got some info on what happened between Y/N and him!

I’m thinking maybe a voicemail gone wrong? They could have been in a fight and he said something that cut too deep? Lmk what you guys think, heres the next on called Gone.

You scrolled through them, you read all the songs. Lover’s Funeral, Drunk Thoughts, Empty Seat, Your Sock Drawer, and then finally, Y/N.

Alright, we’ve made it to the last song my dudes. And personally it’s my favorite!!!! This was the last song leaked, but I feel the most important. Here’s Y/N.

Oh, Y/N, Y/N, Y/N,

You make my heart fly,

I feel as though I could touch the sky,

I only need your love to try.

My love, love, love

You shine brighter than any star above.

Make me count everyday,

I should have tried to make you stay.

Oh, Y/N, Y/N, Y/N

I know we can agree

That I’m a bastard

Im a flake,

You made the right choice

Walking out on me

But could I have

A second chance,

I know it would be worth it

In the end

Because I’d get,

On one knee,

And promise myself to you

For all eternity.

Oh, Y/N Y/N Y/N

My love, love, love

Oh, Y/N Y/N Y/N

My love, love, love

You gasped, basically jumping away from the computer like it was on fire. Thoughts raced through your mind, you grabbed your head, trying to keep it all together.

He wanted to marry you? Impossible. 3 Years ago this man was thinking about proposing, then how could he say all those horrible things about you?

“He’s not worth another heartbreak, stop it, stop it!” You chanted to yourself.

While you paced back and forth making a dint in your soft white carpet, you had tuned out the notifications for instagram, twitter, and calls coming through to you.

But then a certain dial tone popped up that you had only set for one person.

Ding!

You glanced to your phone on the table and froze.