one thing about me is i am not watching ahsoka

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this is very much an au. like very much. and also. very long.

so ezra and thrawn are stranded for about a year, and they’re not just in one place, they move from planet to planet trying to get to the ascendancy. you’ve probably read it many times, they become unlikely allies and then maybe perhaps friends. ezra also finds a kyber crystal, but doesn’t build the lightsaber since something is telling him not to. either they get to the ascendancy or it gets to them but that’s where they end up for the next five years. during their year thrawn taught ezra cheunh and very much how to be a strategist and tactician. thrawn wanted them to get along, but didn’t expect such close camaraderie to come out of it. girl let’s face it, if there’s one thing ezra can do it’s make friends. and ezra was also not the only one learning here, thrawn definitely loosens up and starts understanding the rebellion and how they had so much heart. and ezra brings out something (fatherly tendencies) in thrawn, and thrawn learns to let his guard down, at least around ezra. the alliance was formed before the genuine trust was, but once they get to the ascendancy the trust is definitely there. they make a goooood team. thrawn plans and ezra carries out, improvising on the way (ar’alani and eli hate this and thrawn pretends to).

ezra stays to help the chiss with the grysks, and also to see what’s up with the navigators. it takes a while before he can spend any time with them, but the constant risking his life against the grysks does help build trust with ar’alani. on one of his missions he finds another kyber crystal and this time he does build the lightsaber, and it’s like mauls but can also break apart into two. (if you think this is over powered maybe consider that i love him and he deserves it). he pretty quickly forms a bond with one of them (the one in the art, she’s unnamed if u have any ideas tell me) and she’s not his padawan by any means, but he does train her.

anyway five years pass and he sees his work there is done, and leaves (his new home) the ascendancy with his not-padawan. he’s ecstatic to go back home, but there’s also this great fear that he won’t be needed anymore. everyone’s excited to see him and asks him about where he’s been, but he never quite tells the truth. he thinks they won’t trust him if they learn he’s been out working with one of the rebellions greatest enemies for years. and let’s face it, some rebels probably won’t trust him, so he keeps a tight lid on what happened. he’s better at hiding things now, but sometimes he’ll look up over his shoulder for advice or approval and be met with nothing, and he can never quite hide his disappointment. there’s no one he can share his sadness with either, how do you tell someone you miss (your weird uncle) your old greatest enemy (your older brother), when they’ll never really understand it. the only person who understands is his not-padawan, and you can’t really rant to a 9 year old. what people notice more, though, is how much he’s changed. he’s more serious. stands up straight during meetings, giving input that no one else would have thought of, saving the rebellion on multiple occasions. and it’s not that thrawn made him smart, he was always been smart. but he used to rely on being underestimated. and the chiss don’t appreciate that, they appreciate strength. he had to be more upfront about his strength and intelligence over there, and it carries back to the alliance. he’s sharp, wins arguments and changes minds, and hera can’t be more proud of her kid but also can’t be more confused at where he learned that. he tells her, more than others, but he leaves out the times thrawn would carry him back from fights he shouldn’t have picked, and they way he taught him how to win them next time. they also don’t get how he’s become fluent in two more languages in six years, the one he talks to that girl in and the one he curses in (sy bisti, learned it to listen in on thrawn and eli and it became one of his biggest regrets). he knows he’s back where he belongs, but it’s hard, especially when there’s some other jedi around now. he does not exactly get along with luke. luke luke is very much in awe of him, he’s always heard of this other jedi who made a great sacrifice, and just wanted to meet him. ezra knows he’s really not what luke expects, he’s not a perfect jedi at all, he’s a grey one. he tries not to be around luke so he doesn’t disappoint him, but helps him train when asked. his fighting style has also changed, become less of a lightsaber form and more of a mix of everything that influences him. the chiss techniques always get him a win, no one has a clue what he’s doing when he pulls them out. he’s also not what jacen expected either, but it a much different way. ezra’s been working with kids for five years, and jacen was not expecting an expert older brother. that’s all i’ve really got, feel free to do what ever with this, just tell me cuz i wanna see.

oh also they have great healthcare on ar’alani’s ship and that’s where ezra got his top surgery

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i thought my laptop was on its last leg because it was running at six billion degrees and using 100% disk space* at all times and then i turned off shadows and some other windows effects and it was immediately cured. i just did the same to my roommate's computer and its performance issues were also immediately cured. okay. i guess.

so i guess if you have creaky freezy windows 10/11 try searching "advanced system settings", go to performance settings, and uncheck "show shadows under windows" and anything else you don't want. hope that helps someone else.

*yes sorry i mean usage i posted this before bed :( i do not mean the hard drive is full aaaaghhhh

i must not get takeout. takeout is the wallet-killer. takeout is the little-death that brings total obliteration. i will face the kitchen, fridge, and pantry. i will make choices about what to cook and then execute them. when hunger is gone there will be nothing. only i will remain.

40k note oli theorionsound

@roach-works // Melissa Broder, "Problem Area" // Mary Oliver, "The Return" // @annavonsyfert // Koyoharu Gotouge, Demon Slayer // Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance // David Levithan, How They Met and Other Stories // Tennessee Williams, Notebooks

not romantic not platonic but a secret third thing [what would happen between earth and the moon if the earth stopped spinning as illustrated by xkcd randall munroe]

I don't know who needs to hear this, but

YOU DO NOT NEED TO START A NEW HOBBY!

STEP AWAY FROM THE TEXTILES!

YOU DON'T NEED MORE YARN!

THAT FABRIC IS NOT CALLING TO YOU! LEAVE IT ALONE!

“The average US president has been charged with 1.54 felonies” factoid isn’t true. The average US President has been charged with 0 felonies. Donald trump, who has been charged with 71, is a statistical outlier and should not have been counted

Expertise can't help you here.

served my duty as an autistic artist and made a bunch of autism creature reaction images

Suzanne Collins gripping my face with her hands: listen listen the first step to evil is dehumanisation, always, the second you start to see people as less than people no matter what they've done to you that's when you start heading down a path of selfish destruction and violence

maya angelou saying the funniest thing anyone has ever said about editing, which i can never let myself forget EVER AGAIN [x]

the woman who holds the moon

prints available here. my cover for this month's issue of baffling magazine.

Alright now this pissed me off

What do you MEAN you're going to remove one of the most important aspects of Sokka's character arc in the first season? What do you MEAN you're going to remove Sokka unlearning misogyny, accepting change and embracing his role as a fighter and protector of the Avatar in order to end the war? What do you MEAN???