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bonefall · 10 months

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Are you going to keep Goosefeather's curse? If so are you going to change anything about it? From my memory the book was... depressing.

It will probably get rolled into Pinestar's Crusade, building it up into an SE rather than just a novella. There's actually a lot going on in that specific moment, and it makes sense to go over it all at once.

So to answer your question, yes, most of Goosefeather's Curse is staying. Most of the Crusade Generation have depressing stories to tell. If the Thistle Period is defined by the fact that Thistle Law metastasized and went terminal, and if the Campaign Era was when it was newly born, then the Crusade Era was when it was first conceived.

I've been thinking about Pinestar's Crusade idly and mentioned it a few times, but here's my fragments so far;

PINESTAR'S CRUSADE (Fuses Pinestar's Choice and Goosefeather's Curse)

We start in the Crusade Era; there is now more focus on 3 major characters, though it's still built around Pinestar as the POV

Pinestar, Goosefeather, and eventually Pinepaw's apprentice Speckletail.

Pinepaw is born into the start of the Crusades, a bloody period where the Clans are invading Chelford and brutalizing cats in the hopes of appeasing StarClan. He only begins to learn the full story of what happened in Darkstar's Commandment once he begins going to Gatherings as a warrior

The truth being that Oakstar came up with this idea because he couldn't take an L

But even as an apprentice, it becomes quickly apparent to him that what they're doing is evil. They were brutalizing kittypets who aren't trained to fight back.

During his first raid as an apprentice, he allows a ginger-and-white mother and her kittens to escape

This came back years later, when that queen, Crystal, forms BloodClan in response to the Crusades.

Pineheart watches Oakstar die barely a year later to the queen he saved, using early claw extenders to cut right through him. Even if he hadn't been on his last life, it would have ended him.

But, Crystal lets Pineheart go, recognizing the Clan cat who had saved her life.

Watching his dad die along with several friends, and countless more innocent Chelford, plus being released by Crystal, is a Formative Moment.

Doestar continues the Crusades in the name of revenge for Oakstar, but now that BloodClan exists and is ARMED, the easy raids become bloodbaths.

They slowly peter out, not with a bang but with a whimper. She never announces an official end, eventually she just stops organizing them. No one gets closure, especially not Pineheart.

But the 'peace' doesn't last. Just before Heatherstar takes power from Smallstar and begins the Campaign to take the Mothermouth Moorland, ThunderClan deals with the Great Hunger

Pineheart and Goosefeather become very good friends, part of a little buddy group that also included Tawnyspots and Pheasantfeather (who will become One-eye later)

Pineheart was given his first apprentice, a rowdy little one and the niece of Doestar, Specklepaw. He's tasked with helping her fill the pawsteps of greatness she's destined to walk in.

Just like canon, Goose predicts the Great Hunger... though, he is an adult this time around because of some timeline changes.

And, like canon, it fails. They couldn't stockpile enough food to last an entire year of famine, a scorching summer and a frozen winter, they end up losing a huge stock of their food as if it was destiny.

Goosefeather was forced into a role he hates, given horrible visions of the future, and argues ferociously with Pineheart; if they hadn't tried to stockpile, they wouldn't have lost all that food to begin with.

It is in this moment, he comes to realize that every time he's fought back and used his visions like a warning, it's backfired.

So, perhaps, they are instruction.

But, meanwhile, Pineheart can't loose his apprentice or his friends. While others were hunting desperately, he was keeping cats alive through scouting for grubs, foraying into other territories, and...

Every bite of kittypet food he took for himself was a morsel in someone else's mouth. But this... this he kept quiet.

It started a "bad habit" he could never break.

Having lost the previous deputy to starvation and on her deathbed, Doestar nominates Pineheart to the position. He was shocked and upset by this, but he was the obvious choice.

Son of Oakstar, Hero of the Hunger, the cat who had kept Specklepaw alive when all the other kits and apprentices starved.

But, Pinestar took the helm to extreme controversy.

Everything Pinestar's ever done that worked was nonviolent. He's never seen battle do anything but bring harm, and the thought of leading people into war... it makes him feel sick.

But the rest of the Clan can't see what he sees. They yearn for the glory days (even though they were not glorious at all), itch to die for a cause, and leave this old, disgusting subsistence survival behind them. ThunderClan wants blood and Pinestar just wants peace.

Taking back Sunningrocks is an example of this. To avoid losing Clanmates, he proposed to Hailstar that they would have a Joust, instead.

ThunderClan's strongest against RiverClan's strongest. Adderfang vs Mudfur.

It didn't go well.

The problem with those sorts of situations is you have to abide by the deal. RiverClan took Sunningrocks for 6 months. It was humiliating for ThunderClan.

Even the cats he'd saved from the famine were furious with him

The only things that DID seem to please the Clan was when he would throw them fully into battle. Such as Goosefeather's prophecy that WindClan's herbs needed to be destroyed...

Every time a situation like that happened, where Goosefeather would phrase things as a Holy Struggle, Pinestar was thrown right back to the Crusades

Terrified eyes, screeching, cats begging for mercy, his father dead at his paws and feeling horror and relief swirling

Sitting vigil for old friends killed in these horrible fights, like Moonflower, it made him feel like how he felt the day he buried Oakstar.

And the bile rose in his throat, remembering that Oakstar was not there at his Leadership Ceremony, damned to the Dark Forest.

A thought was born, here. What does StarClan truly want? What do they expect of him? If they will send the architect of the Crusades there...

What of a cat who stayed fed on human food and fed grubs to his Clanmates? Or a leader who never knows the right thing to do?

When Mumblefoot retired and Sunfall became deputy, the Clan seemed to love him more than Pinestar. He found himself just... sitting back, and allowing Sunfall to call the shots.

It was towards the end, when Leopardfoot proposed an Honor Siring. He was from a glorious legacy, she wanted kits... and on his end, he wanted the peace that raising kittens could bring.

The warmth of human dens was calling him, but perhaps the warmth of love for children could keep him home.

UNLIKE CANON; Nothing about Tigerkit was born evil.

There was no StarClan vision of Tigerstar; Goosefeather knew full well that Thistlestar was the Leader of Prophecy.

But Pinestar would never give Thistleclaw an apprentice in time. Nor would he ever give his own little son to a cat as vicious as him.

Goosefeather never hurt anyone... but Pinestar just needed a push.

Pinestar was already anxious, unhappy, clinging to the goodness that was his little kits. Even as two of them were lost to minor illnesses, shortly after receiving their names.

It wasn't a lie. It was just half of the truth.

"Pinestar... you have a choice to make. StarClan has given me a vision of blood and war, and Tigerkit will have a role to play in it."

He DID have a vision... of Thistlestar. Not Tigerkit. But that was enough for Pinestar, his fear and trauma took the helm from there.

He'd seen his friends, his apprentice, the kits who had been born and died in his rule, all of them turn into the monsters Clan Culture demanded

Nothing he did ever seemed to work, why would THIS moment be different?

How could he prevent Tigerkit from becoming like that too?! Was StarClan telling him to KILL his son??

Pinestar's never had a vision from StarClan. He doesn't have the aptitude like a Cleric... what he has is a nightmare, of Tigerkit growing so large he crushes the whole camp under his claws

After a week of agony, Pinestar unknowingly creates a prophecy of his own,

"Can only the death of a child break fate?"

Sensing he was close to victory, Goosefeather dipped his head, not denying his question.

And it's the last straw.

And that is the climax of Pinestar's Crusade. Broken from his experiences, every turn taken for peace causing him more pain, the idea that he might have to hurt his own son plaguing his mind, he makes the choice to leave.

It wasn't hard, he'd still had that old bad habit of taking bites of kittypet food, a couple friends on the other side. But what he doesn't know is that by leaving with his life... he prevents Sunstar from acquiring his own.

Sunstar had ONE single life, StarClan was not able to give him more with the previous leader still alive. For leaving his Clan, for unknowingly preventing the transfer of power, and for dismissing the Warrior Code, Pinestar is sent to the Dark Forest after his death.

He can choose to walk there, or spend time in the mortal plane as just a spirit, but StarClan offers him no place in the cosmos.

#Pinestar's Crusade #Better Bones AU #So yeah it's still depressing LMAO sorryyyy #im a sucker for the theme where someone you raised and loved became part of an evil system #failure to protect. How COULD you have done differently? Was there anything at all that could have saved them?#i've mentioned it before but I love Pinestar most as the foil of Firestar #and it's very underexplored as an idea #How Firestar succeeded where Pinestar failed #Literally like a brighter version of you #someone who never gave up past the point where you would have broken #and how painful and uncomfortable that idea must be #It doesssss things to me #Also I am still shuffling the timeline #Pinestar might end up being old enough to remember Mapleshade... BUT we'll see #It might be pretty funny to have Pinepaw watch his dad take several Ls in Darkstar's Commandment #''this is my cringefail boomer dad who I have a complicated relationship to. he cannot swim. oh god. oh fuck''

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smallsdotcom · 1 year

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EXPECTING … drabble

pairing : hoseok x idol!f!reader (background poly bts) genre : fluff, comedy, idol au warnings : drunk hobi, drunk hobi is dramatic

hoseok notices how you’ve been acting strange and automatically assumes something that’s not necessarily true. oops, but he already told the others.

hoseok wasn’t one to assume things. especially when it came to you, he was always the first one to talk to you in order to figure out what’s wrong.

but this is the first time he’s so sure about something that he doesn’t talk to you about it. instead he immediately sends a text to the group’s leader, so many spelling errors thanks to his rushed and slightly buzzed mind.

I THINK YN IS OREGENRT !!! SHES NOT DRUNKING LIKE SHE USUAL DOESSSSS!!!

namjoon could only facepalm at the text before he ends up just calling the rapper.

“what are you talking about?” namjoon does well in keeping a calm tone, but can’t help the butterflies that begin to form in his stomach.

“i’m teelllling youuuu that i think our baby princess cinnamon roll is cooking a bun in the ovennnnnn,” hoseok is probably more than buzzed right now and namjoon realizes that the longer he listens to his boyfriend speak.

“why do you think y/n’s pregnant?” namjoon asks and a gasp is immediately heard from behind him where he sees taehyung looking at him in shock.

“y/n’s pregnant?” his tone is so cheery that he would really hate to be the one to break the news, but knows he will have to do it anyways.

“hoseok claims she is, but hoseok is also drunk right now,” namjoon says which is a roundabout way of saying don’t get your hopes up.

taehyung will still get his hopes up.

“listen, she’s not drinking anything and she ALWAYS drinks when we go out. why else would she not??”

“because it’s your night and she’s trying to watch after you while you have fun?” namjoon responds back with a raise eyebrow and he knows hoseok is probably rolling his eyes.

“if she’s pregnant does this mean i’m gonna be a daddy?” hoseok completely ignore namjoon and is now in his own little world. “does this mean we are ALL GOING TO BE DADDIES??”

“hoseok calm down.”

“I AM CALM JOON BUT AM I READY TO BE A DADDY!? oh god, i think i’m going to pass out.”

“hobi give the phone to y/n,” namjoon says making the male groan.

“i can’t she went to get me more drinks. oh god i don’t deserve her. she’s here with me pregnant and also getting me more drinks. what a beautiful mommy.”

namjoon feels his eyes roll so far into the back of his head that he fears they might get stuck.

“is y/n pregnant?” namjoon turns to see maknae line, minus you of course, now standing behind him. their eyes all twinkling at the news of their girlfriend being pregnant.

“i don’t know, go away,” he shoos the three off, but instead jungkook is quick to pull out his phone in favor of trying to call you.

“hell—

“ARE YOU PREGNANT!?” you pull the phone away from your ear at the sheer volume of jungkook’s voice.

“umm… ow. no! i’m not pregnant, why are asking something like that all of a sudden?”

“cause hobi called namjoon and is crying about you being pregnant,” taehyung explains and you are the one who rolls your eyes.

“i’m not pregnant. there, happy now? gotta go bye, maybe love you,” you say quickly hanging up as you make your way over to your drunk boyfriend. you are quick to take the phone out of his hand, hanging up without a word.

hoseok is quick to pout at you but you grab the sides of his face making him look at you.

“my pretty mommy,” he says with a drunk slur, eyes glazed over as he looks at you.

“i. am. not. pregnant,” you tell him with a stern tone which immediately makes his pout bigger.

“you aren’t? so i was worried for nothing?”

“why would you be worried about if i was pregnant? is that a bad thing if i was?”

“no! i’m just worried if i would be a good dad or not. what if you have the baby and then the i turn out to do a terrible job and let you and the others down?”

“hobi, you will be a wonderful dad someday. me and the others would have nothing to worry when it comes to you being a good dad. so don’t worry okay?”

“okay… but wait, if you aren’t pregnant then why aren’t you drinking?”

“because i need to take care of you, silly boy,” you laugh before kissing his nose making him smile warmly at you.

“come on, let’s party a little longer!” hoseok says before dragging you with him to the dancefloor.

#girlzilla.#poly bts x reader #bts x reader #bts 8th member #bts added member #bts addition #idol!reader #idol au #bts fluff #hoseok fluff #hoseok x reader #bts female member #bts imagines #bts drabble #[ 🧾 ] — diary entries

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adventuringblind · 1 month

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Jos hate jos hate jos hate

He just gives me the creeps. Like Max’s tone when talking about him reminds me of myself talking about my parents.

Detached. Wanting to move on but still try to be open about it even though it’ll make ppl ask questions especially if you avoid and don’t answer the question. (Did that make sense?)

So yeah. I don’t know him, but from what I can observe through a screen I’m not a fan.

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IT DOESSSSS

(Hello new anon! Thanks for joining me and starting a rant!)

Don't get me STARTED on the psychology that is Max Verstappen. His mind is my obsession and how anyone could ever paint him as a villain hasn't been through trauma with a parent (or hasn't realized that they have).

Like, joking about trauma is a very clear indicator?? "My dad did that once to a mechanic??" I'm sorry??? Max, baby, that's not something you're supposed to laugh about...

Key word here is supposed. I laugh about my trauma all the time and it concerns my therapist.

It sucks that Max's personal life is out there for the media to pick apart. I've seen debates about Jos' parenting style and how he has given Max everything. I don't see any ungrateful bone in Max's body. If he was, then Jos would've been out of Max's life the second he turned eighteen.

So then people ask: if Jos is a bad parent, why is he still around Max?

Answer: Traumaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

(Rant under the cut about abuse trauma... you've been warned)

Good god, are people so ignorant? It's hard to detach from a parent! Specially one who you spent all your time with! You get used to it eventually, you figure out how to cope and then you know nothing else aside from that.

All those times Max was driving recklessly when he was younger? I've listened back to his radio. He was in fight or flight because he had learned early on that it's better to risk crashing and injuring himself then placing lower.

I did the same thing! I was good at archery. Like, I was giving adults a run for their money at the age of thirteen. I switched from a recurve bow to a compound and about two weeks before a tournament. It was an absolute pain because it was an entirely different way of shooting.

I have this memory of my dad driving me to his friends house to sight in some longer distances the day before. As in, crunch time. We were out there in the cold and rain for hours. I was sore already because constantly pulling back sixty pounds of resistance with just your arms gets tiring. I broke so many fundamental rules; the ones my instructors were specific about. However, I knew it was break myself or my dad was going to lash out.

Anyway, I tore two muscles in my dominant arm by the end of the day. I got home and my dad went to shower so I hid with my mom in the kitchen icing it to hopefully lessen the pain.

I placed second in regionals. My dad lectured me in the car on the way home. He said the injury was my own fault. The doctor I saw said they didn't know how I managed and my instructors said I couldn't shoot at the range for over a month.

My dad hailed me a hero to everyone who asked about it.

Jos Verstappen is so outwardly aggressive that anyone who has been through something similar can see what's happening. Just because he's done a lot for Max doesn't negate the other behaviors. This isn't math, you can't cross cancel, two negatives don't make a positive.

Rant over! :)

#Ren's.inbox #Ren's.thoughts #maxverstappen.things #🦒.anon

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xotication · 1 month

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☆,

a tattoo artist kaneki who’s inked from head to toe & does all yours for free.

he’s extra gentle with you in his chair. he makes sure that every stencil is placed perfectly & kisses the flesh he’s about to torment with a tattoo gun.. he even makes sure to keep a plush on stand by, just in case you wanna squeeze it.

when things maybe get too painful, he’ll let you take mini breaks to breathe. usually he would just encourage his clients to stay seated & tough guy it out.. but you’re his sweetheart, he can’t do that to you :(

you could be murmuring curse words under your breath when the needles sting a little extra & he’ll tell you how good you’re doing for him.

“you’re doing so good, baby. we’re almost done okay?”

“just a little more, y/n. breathe for me”

“cmon angel, just think about how pretty it’s gonna be when it’s all healed”

not only would the words get you, but his voice would get you. it’s because he’s so focused on his art, so he’s barely talking & when he doesssss? it’s low & it’s raspy. almost like he’d just woken up. you’ve wanted to hop off the chair & hop on HIM so many times. but you knew better than that..

there’s even times where ken has different clients that’ll get a little too comfy around him. small touches here & there, once a girl tried to hold his hand for comfort & he had none of it. he fully smacked her hand away.

ken took this as an opportunity to ask you to grab a couple supplies for him. when you retrieved them, he’d pull you in for a kiss & thank you, before giving you a couple more pecks.. just to prove that he was indeed, not single.

kaneki LOVES you. with all of his being. i mean shit- part of the reason he even began tattooing was because he wanted to give you everything you ever wanted. sometimes he was doing multiple large projects in a day just to bring in a couple more racks. ken is good at what he does, so he makes sure he gets paid well. just means more money to spoil you with.

your boyfriend also tries teaching you how to tattoo sometimes. first you practiced on fake skin, & when you felt that you had gotten the hang of it enough- he let you tattoo him.

it was nothing crazy, he let you freehand whatever you wanted. it ended up being a sloppy “i love you” but it happened to be his new favorite tattoo.

the whole time you were inking his skin, he was just gawking at you. you were so focused; constantly pulling your hair behind your ear, bringing your bottom lip between your teeth, turning your neck at certain angles to make sure you were getting somewhat crisp lines.

when you’re wrapping up the tat, he brings your head into his hands & kisses you.

“thank you so much baby, i love it”

“you love it..?”

“i love it. i really do.”

you genuinely wanted to sob upon hearing that, he was always so sweet to you. ken could never manage to hate or be disappointed in anything you did. unless it was within reason of course.

kaneki considered letting you tattoo whatever open skin he had left, just so he could be able to watch you. plus, he’d have more excuses to talk about you.

“what do your tattoos mean..?”

ken will always start with the one YOU gave him. even though it’s barely noticeable in the sea of all the other tattoos he has.

bla bla, i was just yapping with this one. srry :3

#anime #manga #fanfic #headcannons #kaneki ken #kaneki x reader #tokyo ghoul #fluff #tokyo ghoul re #kaneki #tattoos

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eunchancorner · 1 month

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Holyfire feels like prime enemies to lovers potential tbh

It doesssss

Gregor hates him at first but then starts to pity him, and begins to care about him, and then it's 'Why am I in love with him-'

Ignacio hates him, then is like 'I don't need your fucking pity but the attention is nice ig' and then it's 'Why do you care about me sm? It's making me feel things stop it'

#eun rants #sm #spooky month #father gregor #ignacio #holyfire

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blank-house · 4 months

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"all the piercings he does have are pretty much the only ones he's ever had. most of which, he just got to be cool in the first place." Percy really now?! 😭 Just to be cool? He gives off vibes of being self confident :") Does he even like them lol

He doesssss— if he didn’t he wouldn’t buy more. He likes the way he looks with them, especially when he pulls his rings and necklaces out to match but it is true he only got them for the physical appeal.

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Also everyone say thank you to our writing director for taking their time to answer some of the asks! They were running through some of the answers to me last night and I kept cracking up at how different we approach things

But yeeeeee hope you enjoyed their answers lmao

#keyframes vn #keyframes asks #perseus tozaki #I’m half torn at how well they can run a blog #pls the tags had me cackling at some points #but anyway yeah Percy Tozaki is a dork— I want everyone to remember that

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hypnoneghoul · 8 months

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Happy Friday!

Tell me this...what is this witchcraft that makes it look like Dew has more of an ass than Swiss? Just..wtf is happening in this photo??

WHAAAAAA HE DOESSSSS

I mean, I love swiss dearly, and he also has an ass but I love his tits and thighs more

but dew... I wanna bite

good thing aethers ass is covered tho havshs

HAPPY FRIDAY TO YOU TOO <3

#hypnone's asks

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theosconfessions · 6 months

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They are everything to me. River and Blake are so precious- I am so scared bc the content with them even with lack of communication earlier things have been so nice! Too nice. 👀 I feel like something is about to rush in and throw River or maybe Blake off. I don’t know what or who, but right now I’m just glad things are going well!! Also once again thanks for the content! I may have started this for Dustin and Theo but now these two have my heart!

AHHHHH my heeeaaaartt! im screaming , thank you thank you! YES its kinda like a cautious feeling right? everythings going great but youre just waiting for the other foot to drop at some point . whoever or whatever that may be. buttttttt even though blake fell harder and for longer i think river really is kinda getting swept up too and its hard to say how much of it is the v card thing and how much of it is a rebound thing or how much of it is genuine in the feels but he doesssss really really like blake. blakes just IN LOVE which is a very different point from what and where riv is right now. but theyre babes! and theres more dustin and theo on the way as always ! :3 thank you so much you literally make my day !

#asks

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toomuchracket · 11 months

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Matty looks so boyfriend in the new photos from the stoner interview 🥺🥺 Can you write something about him being cuddly and just really boyfriend <3333 Lots of fluff

he doesssss i want to kiss his stupid pretty face!! anyhoo. i have actually been thinking a lot about going to ikea with matty - i know he's rich as shit and he has tables in his gaff that probably cost more than my parents spent on raising me, so for the sake of this blurb you guys have yet to move in together and it's you who needs some new bookcases/bookshelves to house your ever-expanding collection, so you drag matty with you to get some. and of course he tags along because duh! it's ikea. it's a fun day out. at this point, i see the relationship being established - you've definitely dropped the l bomb - but not quite at the "move in with me" stage. not that that stops either of you from being delulu about it; you're walking around holding hands, both imagining you're picking out things for the home you share, smiling like idiots. matty's insistent on going into all the fake kitchens to look inside the drawers and cupboards for fun things, being like "babe! look how smart that is!" when he finds them lol. you're insistent on looking in the fake living rooms to judge interior design choices - matty makes mental notes of everything you love and everything you hate, and collapses into giggles when you glare at some other person walking into the same fake room as you and angrily mutter "get out of my fucking house" under your breath. when you get to the sofa section, matty flops down on several and pulls you into him for a cuddle, which is sweet, and then does a similar thing in the beds department, which is less sweet; he's like "ah fantastic i've always said we should be able to spoon in the middle of the day", you're giggling in a half mortified half lovesick way, and there's wee old ladies going past looking absolutely scandalised lmao. the kids section is also kinda fun - matty tries to fit through the little tunnels between the rooms and fails miserably, and gets pouty when you pick up a djungelskog (idk how to spell it) bear and announce you're buying it, very like "but what about cuddling me?", so naturally you end up hugging tightly in the middle of the ikea kids toy section lmao. but yeah, it's a very cute and domestic day out (and you get the ikea meatballs for lunch. absolute win) <3

#mads muses #mads answers asks #matty asks #fluff asks

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sus-panicattac · 7 months

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was thinking a bit on how i somehow attached to drew tanaka this fucking hard during my less than 2 day long PJO fixation (to clarify ive had a pjo hypfix before this is just the witch coming back from the dead)

its 2 things

1- HOLY SHIT A JAPANESE PERSON IN POPULAR WESTERN MEDIA LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO- no because im fully japanese both my parents are japanese and i struggled with that a lot being born and raised in america (yes american point and laugh) you dont understand how happy japanese people in western media make me drew is such a little silly to me i love her- it makes me wonder if she thinks a lot about her ethnicity and culture in her pursuit of beauty. how often does drew ponder how to do her eyeliner to not well up in her eyelid creases? does she think about how she tans, or how she sweats all her makeup off, or how she runs a bit cold? does she have a short internalized racism era like i did because i think she would- as a character so involved in ideas of what it truly means to be beautiful? drew is the type of person TO ME who looks at her classmates wearing shorts in the snow and goes "euuugh white people"

2- drews character arc has a lot to do with conventional beauty. i have to preface that her canon depiction is borderline misogynistic, however the focus she has on her looks and conventional attractiveness during majority of canon reaches out to how i acted as a wee lad and how my sister acted like a wee little toddle?????? it doesssss- drew to me is just my sister coming into my room at maybe 9 years old asking if she would be prettier with blonde hair, sparkly blue eyeshadow, and a thinner yet curvier frame. drew to me is myself in elementary thinking if i looked older id be taken more seriously. drew to me would have a wonderful character arc where she slowly becomes more beautiful the more she lets herself be beautiful.

so yes i am throwing my entire family's long term trauma onto a silly side character whose main canon purpose was to be a foil to a quirky not like other girls main character

yes i am

#drew tanaka #aphrodite #aphrodite cabin #pjo #ppanicposts #japanese #childhood trauma #trauma yass queen

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strangermask · 3 months

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Haaaaaaiiiiiii

So, I’m in my self-indulgent era and decided to create an elemental master that existed while the first elemental masters were alive. On account guessing that wind and water are already elemental powers, the new elemental master has the third element to exist without having a direct connection to FSM. What is the element you ask? The element of reality. And hoo boy, it is not fun to have. Giving that example below with Master of Reality Dialogue.

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Sai: [#####], may I asssssk you sssssomething?

[#####]: Sure.

Sai: You sssssaid you are unable to hear your name, correct?

[#####]: … Yes. I apologize for the way I revealed it. I didn’t mean to have that emotional outburst.

Sai: No, no. It isssss alright. Our companionsssss and I have been ssssspeaking. Sssssince you are joining usssss for the Dark Isssssland quessssst, we thought it would be a good idea to give you a nickname.

[#####]: A what?

Sai: A nickname! I imagine you wouldn’t want to hear thisssss “ssssstatic” every time we call for you.

[#####]: I’m not sure how well a nickname will work. Or if I’m even allowed to have one.

Sai: It’sssss worth a try I sssssay.

[#####]: … Alright, what do you got?

Sai: Well, we have talked and written sssssome ideasssss down. Even Firssssst Massssster threw an idea in. You can pick one of them from thisssss bowl.

[#####]: …

Sai: What doesssss it sssssay?

[#####]: … Genjistu.

Sai: Oh my devourer, I am ssssso sssssorry! I don’t know why that one isssss in there. Oh, Yukito wasssss right to not asssssk Firssssst Massssster for input.

Genjistu: …

Genjistu: No, no. It’s fine. Has a nice ring to it in some way.

Sai: Are you sssssure? You can pick a different name, you don’t have to ussssse that one.

Genjistu: I promise. It's fine. Thank you, Sai.

— — — — —

So, yeah, master of reality cannot hear or remember what his real name was due to having the element of reality. He accidentally created it while trying to find out how to make elemental powers to benefit the first masters. And thanks to that, there are some things he will never know or see completely. He will never what his real name is because I never gave him a real name. And while he does have one because why else would someone call him [#####], he won’t ever know due to his new nickname taking over (and fun fact, Genjistu means reality. Hence the reaction of Sai). On the other side of things he’ll never see, I made a lil dialogue to explain that.

— — — — —

Yukito: Wait. Genjistu, you saw their face. You know who it is then.

Genjistu: Uh, not entirely.

Yukito: What do you mean not entirely?

Genjistu: I saw them without their mask, but the face was uh… spoilered out.

Yukito: What.

Genjistu: My elemental powers refused to let me see who the culprit was.

Yoshimochi: You’re joking.

Akiharu: Wait, so you couldn’t see their face at all?

Genjistu: Nope, it was just… completely blacked out.

Yoshimochi: Why wouldn’t your element want you to know who the culprit is?

Genjistu: Because my element is very tight about the script and will maim me if I reveal anything too soon.

Sai: It will what?

Genjistu: Not literally maim me, just inflict pain until I stop spoilering how things go.

Akiharu: Question, is this why you make strange faces at First Master?

Genjistu: Yeah, I cannot see his face for silly. I promise I try to be respectful, but it is hard to tell what emotion is in his face when all I see is a bloody black blob upon where his face should be. Hell, I can’t even tell what I look like.

Yukito: What do you mean you don’t know what you look like?

Genjistu: Every time I look at my hand or even my reflection, I am nothing but a black blob.

Sai: Oh dear devourer.

Akiharu: First your name and now how you look?

Genjistu: Don’t worry, I’ll know what I look like soon. I just can’t see what I look like now due to the Maker not yet drawn me.

Yoshimochi: Draw you?

Genjistu: Yep.

Yoshimochi: … If we were to draw you—

Genjistu: Would not work.

Yoshimochi: Shoot.

Genjistu: Yeah, I have to wait until Maker finally puts me on digital paper.

Sai: Thisssss feelsssss like you’re implying the maker already knowsssss what you look like.

Genjistu: That he does.

Akiharu: If he already knows what you look like, shouldn’t you be able to see what you look like?

Genjistu: YOU’D BLOODY THINK SO—

— — — — —

This is just me calling myself out for not drawing him yet. Also: I m having fun inflicting angst upon the Master of Reality

#ninjago #mask talks #ninjago oc #first elemental master #first elemental masters #master of reality

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theophagie-remade · 10 months

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The way my grandpa keeps being the only cool person in this family...

My brother doesn't go against me either, but there's always that... undertone of teenage boy mockery to his comments, you know. And he's not exactly stellar when it comes to respecting queer people in general.... (I try to work on it as much as I can without exposing myself but. Teenage boy in Italy. yeah.)

Grandpa, on the other hand... 🥺😭 Like. I'm not out to anyone in my family, but *gestures to self* it doesn't take a genius to figure out that there's something here ! My mother (about every -phobe on the face of the Earth) is half convinced that I'm a lesbian, and while I don't know what he thinks, from certain things he's said my grandpa probably suspects something too. And unlike my brother (whose thoughts on this matter I don't know), he's sooo 🥺🥺

When I shaved my head last year he was the only one who complimented me and said that I should do whatever I want. He said the same thing the first time I got my hair cut at a barbershop. The second time he went with me because he had to cut his hair too, and while talking to the owner (who was like "Oh, female clients are so rare" in the not-shitty you know ͡• ͡• way), he said that personal freedom is the most important thing. When it comes to clothing I've been more vocal about wanting to wear men's things lately, and I've been getting in a lot of fights with my mother and partially more lowkey-ly with my grandma over it. My brother is very "whatever" about it, he doesn't attack me, but he doesn't take my side either. But grandpa always doesssss, and he always tells everyone to leave me alone and let me do what makes me feel comfortable T-T And. While I don't know what he thinks I am, I do know that this is genuine ally-ship on his part, because he's always been like this... Eg an episode that I remember very clearly is this one Christmas lunch from a few years ago, before I began pushing the line. I don't remember exactly what the conversation was about, but my mother began talking about some gay guy by calling him slurs and all, and grandpa (most chill person in the world, hardly ever raises his voice) got angry with her and shouted at her to stop speaking like that... and I was there like. Waaaaaaa 🥺😭 so. Yeah.

#(„ಡ﹏ಡ„) (つ﹏<。)#mytext

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