#Idk if I should sleep or not at this point | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

cambrinkownsme · 11 hours

Text

.·:*¨༺don't leave ༻¨*:·.

paige x reader

word count - 586

themes :

-angst

-just pure sadness

warnings :

-arguing

-sad ending

-cursing

a/n - sorry this is so short, i just had some...feelings i needed to get out. i might make a part two idk....

paige slammed the door behind the two of us, locking it aggressively. "can acknowledge what happened?" she said while i had my back turned at her.

we had been out for a while, she was obviously drunk out of her mind and i had to deal with that mixed with the fact that i was hanging out with another girl most of the time we were out.

"acknowledge what paige? acknowledge the fact that i was talking to someone else while you were getting shit faced? it is not that big of a deal."

i snapped and immediately regretted it. i knew how jealous paige could get and she was convincing me that this was her highest point of jealousy. but to be fair it was my fault that she wasn't even talking to me tonight.

i heard her take a long but sharp breath and when i turned around her hands were tangled in her own, already messy, hair. i could feel the anger surging through my veins when she spoke again.

"y/n you can't fucking do that to me. if i'm drinking without you it's not my fault if you don't follow. but the last thing you should be doing is going and talking to other girls." she was practically yelling now, flailing her arms in the air in between us.

"it was a girl. just one. do you think i'm the kind to just go and flirt with someone else the second i'm not getting attention?"

paige scoffed, turning her head around to hide the obvious smile on her face.

"i mean i wouldn't be surprised." she whispered under her breath.

i could feel tears welling up in my waterline. i quickly swallowed the hard lump in my throat, shoving it down to my stomach.

"what the fuck did you just say? you cannot be serious paige." i took a couple steps closer to the blonde.

"be real with me y/n. let's get logical. everytime you get in a relationship you get all touch starved and need someone new within two months."

i wanted to punch her. the rage built up behind my face had never been here before. especially not for the one girl i had done anything for. i've always beat myself up thinking about if i fuck something up with her and here i was being accused of doing so.

"i-" i stumbled upon my own words, not knowing how to come back from what was just said to me.

"yeah." she snarled.

my lip began to quiver at the thought of losing paige but i quickly got rid of that hesitation.

"fuck you." i said plainly before leaning down and picking up my bag along with a pair of shoes and my keys.

"wait shit i'm sorry i didn't mean that" paige quickly rushed to apologizing, while trying to cup my face and hips.

"no! get the fuck off of me paige." i pushed her off and stormed out of our apartment. my first instinct was to head over to azzi's place or nika's but i couldn't even be around them.

i ended up staying at a hotel for the night.

my heart was heavy. paige had never said anything like that, even while she was drunk. and if she actually meant that i don't know if id ever be able to forgive her. i fell asleep on a tear soaked pillow without any covers over my body. no blanket could replace the warmth of paige that i still needed to sleep.

------------------------------------------------------------

again i'm sorry this is short....i didn't spell check btw!!!!!

#paige bueckers #uconn wbb #uconhuskies #paigebueckersxreader #paigexreader #paige #paige x reader #angst #paige angst #paige bueckers angst

50 notes · View notes

ravidrws · 1 year

Text

Happy Birthday Xiao‼

#Xiao #genshin impact #genshin fanart #Venti #xiaoven #xiao x venti #xiao genshin impact #Its 5am #one hour before my alarm #Idk if I should sleep or not at this point #I have an exam simulation in three hours :'D #ravidraws

136 notes · View notes

p2ii · 7 months

Text

Yea...

youtube

#NEW ZOLU FANS IF YOU HAVENT SEEN IT YET GO DO THAT ITS SO GOOD AUGHH #actually ill just embed under cut. i love it so much #i will watch this animatic daily before going to sleep at this point #psii.txt #zolu #mi capitàn - kiltro #id in alt text #but it kinda sucks sorry idk how to describe memes #Youtube #(should clarify i am also a new fan. sososo happy to be here btw)

120 notes · View notes

why-the-heck-not · 1 year

Photo

21.11.22, monday

always a mindfuck when you go outside and it has snowed about 10cm since u last stepped out, and it’s suddenly very “middle of the winter” and even tho u knew it was coming, you did not mentally nor physically prepare for it. So now you’re there with no scarf, no hat, useless gloves, leather jacket, and a very confused sleep schedule. And it’s never “ah it’s winter soon” oh no. It’s sunshine and then *WHOOMP* winter started overnight didn’t u get the memo???

387 notes · View notes

idontwikeit · 10 months

Text

Did you go and make promises you can't keep?

#iwtvedit #tv: interview with the vampire #interview with the vampire #louis de pointe du lac #lestat de lioncourt #vcreations #idk i guess #should have prb uh sleep and gif them but oh well #scheduled

91 notes · View notes

oatbugs · 17 days

Text

oh my god u rly are everyone you've ever loved !! for better or worse !! a part of you becomes them!

#i had a moment of lucidity idk im in this café the person i went on a few dates w is coming to see me i said come study w me #and they said okay immediately even though im a town over and i dont like them i really dont feel even a little attracted to them that way #but i did let them bite my neck a week ago and it still hurts i let them hold my hand i just #i never start anything #i let them kiss me. why do i do that? i dont feel anything towards them #and i told them ill probably never sleep with them and i thought thats enough but it really isnt is it #they write poetry about people they meet even once #theyre coming a whole town over to study w me but its not a date i feel nothing towards them romantically and i dont want to lose them as #a friend. this was her line of thinking wasnt it? i would take the train and meet her near her place in ldn and wed study together and #shed let me hold her and she would never initiate much and we were just studying together and it wasnt a date #like . fuck. i dont want to do what she djd to me to another person ever #their shared location map went offline at london bridge like ok theyre in the underground they are fr coming a whole town over #its a short distance but the point is i think i should have taken what my friend said more seriously . she told me i was kinda leading #them on bc what i thought to be just meetups dates might entail more for them #anyway im gonna be clear w them this time maybe #....IT JUST NEVER COMES UP IS THE THING #do i have to clarify even if it never comes up #i do in fact hear myself #ok #the parallels r lining up #aaa

15 notes · View notes

wantonlywindswept · 9 months

Text

me: hmm who to romance who to romance

me: gets to the party scene

me: wait why is everyone all ready for sex now I BARELY KNOW YOU

#bg3 #ace problems #i know bg3 is all about catering to the people #infamous bear scene made that obvs #but like #i need a romance first! backstory! history!#it should take more work than this to enter a relationship with companions!#why yes i did romance fenris in da2 why do you ask #also kaidan in mass effect including no romance in me2 #look i'm too ace for this shit #anyway can't get over gale talking about his ex all the time #(tho he did compare me to his cat so point in his favor)#so i'm def gonna go karlach and maybe?? halsin?#cos apparently there's poly #larian how am i supposed to decide if i wanna sleep with halsin when i've said .5 words to the man #honestly #maybe i've missed out on a bunch of companion interactions??#idk man #EDIT TAGS: OH APPARENTLY YOU CAN'T SLEEP WITH HALSIN YET #okay that makes more sense now #edit again: ALSO WHY IS 'SHARING SOME WINE' AN INVITATION TO SEX #LARIAN PLEASE I'M WAY TOO ACE FOR THIS #this party is a minefield #EDIT 3 THERE IS NOT NECESSARILY SEX AT THIS POINT IN TIME

51 notes · View notes

arcademyth · 3 days

Text

something doesn't feel quite right

#arc.png #bg3 #oc: lan #astarion #astalan #tav x astarion #i restarted lan's save. again. idk how many times this is now #i restarted because i downloaded the party limit remover mod #and let me tell you i am having SO MUCH FUN......#the game feels so much more alive now it's wild #that all said it means i have to live through these idiots' angst era again #that delightful mid-act 1 time where they're sleeping together but astarion doesn't really care yet #and lan (who is a full on charisma build proficient in insight and persuasion and such) SHOULD be picking up on it #but he's so absolutely rattled by things like meeting mayrina and seeing waukeen's rest and learning all his friends' fucked up backstories #that he just. doesn't. he does not acknowledge the weird vibes.#so they're both acting like they're having a great time on the surface. but the second they think the other can't see them. well #(also side note that from now on it's lan with one n. it was formerly lann but that extra n has always bothered me)#(i think i was trying to avoid confusion with HSR lan but at this point i don't fucking care i hate that extra letter ksdhgdks he's lan.)#(ALSO FUN FACT I FEEL LIKE I FORGOT HOW TO DRAW. this is the first thing i've drawn in. too long.)#(was genuinely surprised i managed it tbqh. i kinda just blacked out while the spirit of gay video game men possessed me and made me draw.)#(gonna... try to figure out how i did it and see if i can make art again... i miss it orz)

10 notes · View notes

swordmaid · 9 months

Text

why is this dialogue in astarion’s sex scene im crying

#she really said don’t fuck with me I have the power of god and anime by my side 😭#she had like three options to sleep with one was gale but I’m not rlly feeling him for shri’iia so I did not #second was lae’zal BUT I want her to romance shadowheart not SHRI’IIA 😭 like pleek go to her j want y’all to continue #ur enemies to lovers arc (delusion)#so I went with astarion but that dialogue made me howl like relax??????? omg unclench a little 😭😭😭#but now idk if I want continue his romance good thing I’m not locked ..!!!#but tbh I don’t interact w the companions unless there’s like an exclamation point lol I should prob do ….#shut up about bg3.

35 notes · View notes

tearlessrain · 1 month

Text

seriously can catastrophes stop happening for five minutes my brain is already fried from the ones we're already experiencing

#I fucking. missed d&d tonight by accident #I straight up forgot #and just didn't show up to the session #my sleep schedule is absolutely fucked #I should be sleeping now but brain won't shut up #my creative output is the lowest it's ever been and I've been in some level of depressive funk since like early january #I am just deeply unfathomably exhausted #like mentally and spiritually #all the time #my memory and sense of time are both shit #my spelling is worse than it used to be for some reason??#I really don't know what to do to make my brain start functioning again it's frankly worrying me #I couldn't even handle college so it should come as no surprise that I'm reacting poorly to the world being a perpetual screaming trash fir #and yet #idk it's been hitting again lately that I have never succeeded at anything in my life and just keep tripping and falling up for some reason #fucking everyone is in hell right now and with my overall success rate I should be dead in a ditch but I'm actually doing spectacularly #due to a series of improbable accidents and weird circumstances that happened to turn out in my favor instead of completely fucking me #aside from the looming spectre of my various failed attempts to have some kind of life trajectory #it just doesn't feel like this can keep up forever #like surely at some point the luck has got to run out I can't just keep living like some kind of folkloric trickster archetype #but my motivation and sense of purpose kind of died after the last failed attempt so I'm still just here #doing whatever this is #maybe I should drive out to the coast #maybe staring at the ocean would fix me I've been away from it for too long #I mean it can't make me worse #I should wait until further into summer though so I don't have to drive back in the dark #everyone around here has trucks with those goddamn LED headlights and I've got a little sedan that's directly in their blast zone

19 notes · View notes

pearl-kite · 4 days

Text

Before I go to bed

#kite rambles #religion has been so awkward since That Talk #for those not in the know my mom found out i identify as nonreligious and queer by reading a confidential medical document #led to the Most Fun Talk Ever in which she was most upset by me thinking i was agnostic #and i think it evaporated every shred of religiosity in me to the point that hearing other people express their faith almost made me angry?#and not just xtianity like any kind of spirituality or religion #and it was fuckin WEIRD because I'd have this reflexive revulsion but would consciously be like “hey that's a bad reaction cool it”#like a knee-jerk how can you believe that #but I've tried to remind myself it's not the faith itself it's the institution that jaded me so badly #and the more I've done that the more i almost miss it? while at the same time still having that knee-jerk ew praying reaction #and it's weird and i don't like it and I'm tired it's almost midnight and i forgot where i was going with this #but i guess i just feel lost #i should just shut up now. I'm going to sleep. i might delete this in the morning idk #but i fought with my swipe too much to just not post it sorry folks #there are probably tons of fantastic typos i didn't even spot have fun sussing out meaning between those

7 notes · View notes

latenightsleeper · 7 days

Text

I think my favorite thing about Tank, as a character that I’ve made, is how many contradictory characters traits they have. Anyone who has gotten me into DMs to talk about Tank knows it’s one of my favorite things to talk about with Tank.

How Tank, even at the core of their being, is NEVER truly honest with himself. Is almost constantly passively lying but so desperately wants the truth.

Tank hates fighting but is so damn good at it, good enough for a while they had a profitable business with it.

Tank reacts to affection and attention like he’d break out in a rash from even a touch but we all know how much Tank craves it like a starving dog.

Tank bites, makes other people bleed and fall to the floor, no easy fight. Sharp tongue and even sharper teeth, violence a well cared for and crafted blade in Tanks hands but still..

Still Tank is so afraid, all the time. Of everything, of everyone truly.

Tank is a hunter, a predator, a dog tugging at his leash but they have prey fear AND prey rage. That abstract mix of horror and desperation of a cornered animal about to be skinned. The desperation of not wanting to be the next lump of cooking flesh on the floor, even if they had to be the one skinning someone else to make sure of it.

It’s almost funny, how much blood Tank has on their hands to make people forget the sound of their scared heart.

They can never stop hearing the quickening beating in their ears, even if their heart feels stone still.

No matter how many times people point and yell wolf, Tank will always feel like prey

#sleep speaks #latenightsleeper #oc: tank #me poking at my characters #anyone who’s been in DMs with me know how crazy the rabbit hole of tank lore goes #would you call this a tank fact?#idk #i enjoy picking at characters brains #I like knowing what makes them tic #even if I’m the one who has to make it all work in its odd ways #tank really is just my own character at this point #I should really give you guys lore on him #the lore is coming i promise i just suck bc the wips are beating me up in the Dennys parking lot with bats and im drunk and blindfolded

7 notes · View notes

front-facing-pokemon · 10 months

Text

#bonus under the cut getting that snout facing right at the camera #camerupt #early 2000s animation cow‚ apparently. that's what someone just said about the bonus image. i honestly never understood this thing's name #i always thought it was pretty obviously a cow. but then its name implies camel. camel erupt. camerupt. is there a specific kind of #camel that just looks like a cow?? or. what. or am i just misremembering what camels look like #either way‚ i still think this pokémon is pretty cool‚ but i don't really use it ever in my own playthroughs. i don't think i *ever* have #not even in pokémon colosseum where i'm pretty sure you can get a shadow numel at some point. bc i already had a fire-type #not sure which one it was but it was definitely one of them. maybe cyndaquil? because of the dudes with the johto starters #that you fight near the beginning in pppp uuuhhh the PHENAC city i couldn't remember the name. for a second there.#i wasn't aware as a kid that their outfits corresponded to the type of the starter they had and also that you could only fight one of them #i think as a kid i was under the impression that there was only the one. for some reason i remember fighting the green one #oh wait they have the second-evos yeah. cuz he had bayleef. and the red one would've had quilava. not cyndaquil #ugh my memory is not very good evidently. i'm writing these tags after work. normally i do them right when i wake up but this time i just #do not have an excuse for not being able to remember shit. this is just on me. maybe it's amplified by the fact that i have yet to eat today #which i have a very bad habit of doing. forgetting to eat all day and not eating until like 5 and then that being my only meal for the day #i'm trynna get better about it but it is Not easy for some reason. for something that should be decidedly very simple #but my brain doesn't often let me eat until i've completed all of my silly little Tasks. so. idk. this will however post the day after i've #arrived back home from my trip which is nice. the first time future me will be sleeping in her own bed again. good luck again future me #you might need it

41 notes · View notes

caemthe · 2 months

Text

Cú wishes he was the type of lover that wakes up early in the morning to surprise his partner with breakfast in bed, but he's cursed to not be a morning person at all. In fact, he will whine and hide under the blankets if one tries to wake him up before 10 am. Even if he's shaken awake and made to stand up, he'll be dozing off while brushing his teeth, taking a bath, changing clothes, etc.

You would expect the famed ulster warrior, child of a sun-related deity, to wake up before the sun rises and start his day early but, actually, Cú would canonically sleep till the middle of the day. So do be the lover that makes the breakfast for him instead, please and thank you!

#cu. ° ( lancer. )#hc. º ( mini. )#/ the fact that cú is mentioned to be a sleepyhead in at least 2 different tales kills me every time #/ and everyone decided to just let him sleep bc the one time someone tried to wake him up-#/ he accidentally punched that guy's brains out while still sleeping (he was like 5-7 at the time)#/ at some point i was like 'idk maybe he should be a morning person; it makes more sense' but his canon is much funnier tbh

7 notes · View notes

shitouttabuck · 4 months

Text

what do you do when the girl you spent the better part of the last decade in love with calls you up to tell you they dumped their girlfriend and quit their job and would you like to go spend a couple weeks on a beach in greece with them because they miss you and love you (not like that) . and you miss them and love them (not like that. anymore) and you’re probably not getting into grad school anyway and even if you did you can’t keep moving countries to start over because that doesn’t fix things and you could use the money you have saved that you were gonna put towards tuition to buy a plane ticket and sublet a beach villa instead. because you miss them and you love them and you’re tired of missing them and loving them has always felt good and you never feel good anymore and whatever maybe you can just have a lovely few weeks in fuckin greece and just. that’s enough you don’t have to try more than that they go back home and you stay on a beach in greece for as long as anyone else will remember . hypothetically. you should do that, right

#this is rhetorical look away!!!!#it’s an either/or : this or trying to go to grad school #but the thing is #at some point i convinced myself that a change of place and building a new life would make me happier than rotting in my parents house #in my hometown where i feel like im in a timeloop sometimes #but it wouldn’t? i Love my friends but. i am sad here and i was sad in scotland and i was sad in cambridge and. i will be sad wherever i go #it’s not a fixable thing #being around beth is a bandaid on it #so maybe i should slap the bandaid on buy a plane ticket and then. whatever i will be sad After or #i know i sound insane but the thing about being obsessive is that when one person physically has your back when you are 20 years old #it makes sense that they feel like the only thing that will help fix it #sorry this sounds strung out i have like three different things in my system that i will sleep off and be fine im not having a meltdown #this just feels like a Decision To Be Made and i thought typing it out would help give me some clarity or whatever #made a list but i wrote ‘washed your hair when you couldnt do it’ and i’ll be so honest that’s all the convincing i need to do #anything they ask of me ever #idk where my bank card is so no financial decisions tonight anyway #if u have read all of that. apologies and goodnight x #n

15 notes · View notes

frazzledazzlin · 1 year

Text

idk why it's cute to me to imagine him just standing there waiting for Reg to finish lame ass meetings

#thsc #the henry stickmin collection #that ring belongs to one man only and hes behind that door sleeping through a meeting at this point #i think reg sinply should sleep through non threatening meetings he deserves it #right hand man #reginald copperbottom #scriboozles #been going through it #and tried to be ok with drawing copperright but idk hands gave up on expressions today #realized soon my hands wanted to draw humanoid body instead of stick bodies today #so very tired

83 notes · View notes