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zinziinziiin · 6 months

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#day 3 of my little Episode #I've been shaking #overthinking and overthinking and overthinking #I can't be the first to message my friends #cw vomit #cw sh #cw suicidal ideation #thrown up 3 times. likely 4 soon #relapsed self harm and then did it again the next day #likely going to happen today as well #I keep wanting to just leave life #hoping my meds get refilled #because if I have to go through withdrawal like this #that is going to be a hell I am not escaping from

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welcometogrouchland · 2 months

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[ID in ALT] I've made posts before about Talia/Dick co-parenting Damian moments (will never happen but let me dream) and this came to me in a vision. Took me ages to finish for some reason 😭 and then even longer to post

#dc comics #dc #damian wayne #dick grayson #talia al ghul #batfamily #dc robin #nightwing #anyway. yes im a self-indulgent ''dick as damians secret third parent'' truther #like i DO think it's way more complex and nuanced than the schmoopy affectionate fan portrayal of it #they're brothers they're father and son they're partners they're the dynamic duo except only in past tense etc etc #but consider! I'm not immune to schmoopy affection in fanworks. it compells me despite itself #anyway it's technically not that crazy when it comes to dick and damian. they hug! often! at least they did #it's not as big a leap to these types of scenarios #also talia ''somewhat absent for complex reasons on both her and damians part but very loving and loved by her son'' al ghul #you will always be famous to me #son of the demon origin...bwahhh #anyway. someone made a comic kind of like this/like a post i made abt this topic #but way funnier bc dick and talia starting trying to beat each other up #so go look at that as well #anyway. it's been a somewhat difficult few weeks so I'm. desperately trying to take it easy #i got some reading with me (first vol of kevin smiths GA run that i found second hand and jaimes BB run vol 2!)#so we'll see how far i get through those. considering there's demons in my head telling me to re-read things (LET ME OUT!!!)#when i finish GA and BB i do plan on rereading robin 2021. as a treat to myself #it's a run I've really warmed up to as time went on #I'm keeping up w/ the current b&r run even though it is. admittedly very slow w/ some weird dialogue #i read it for the damian content more than anything. also nikas back so that's neat :]#idk I have a feeling that after absolute power shakes out we might get some more creative team switch ups #so if anyone at dc is interested in taking over the reigns on b&r...that could be very neat #mine

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 1 year

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being nonbinary in a world that refuses to acknowledge more than 2 genders is weird bc like. i've literally found myself thinking "what if i go on hormones so my parents misgender me but in a different way"

#just for variety. just to shake things up a bit. diversify my trauma portfolio #also it's weird for several hundred other reasons this is just what has been recently on my minds #also 'i don't necessarily want to present as a specific gender but i DO want people to be deeply confused about what they're looking at so'#I don't want to be MISgendered i want people to be so confused they give up even attempting pronouns #out of sheer psychological horror if nothing else #you've got neopronouns i've got NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!pronouns

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s-aint-elmo · 1 month

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girl who has suffered more than alll-mer

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#fear and hunger #fear and hunger termina #fear and hunger 2 #samarie fear and hunger #fear and hunger samarie #samarie #doodles #mine #so hard to tag for a mononymic character. girl get a last name. domek is right there #these are the three samarie emotions: yearning radiating and Abject Misery #she also gets an emotional support mini-rina. it's what she would have wanted #took a 5-hour crash course in funger bc i saw marina's moonscorched. ended up feeling so strongly for samarie i had to exorcise it thru art #you can't put a pathetic sopping wet shaking unhinged little creature in front of me and expect me not to itch to treat her kindly for the #first time ever in her life #poor little unloved lamb let me keep you and coddle you and cover you in blood. let me give you one good day like a mouse soon to be fed to #a pet snake. let me feed you to the snake regardless.#anyway. the psychic attacks i've been fielding bc of samarina have been relentless. can unwell teen girls stop reflecting my life circa #junior high school. thanks

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blackkatdraws · 1 year

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No girlbossing for the Narrator today! Just babygirl hours 💗

also thigh highs supremacy 🛐

#my hands are legit shaking #I think I've been drawing too much lately #I need some rest but I feel restless if I don't draw something #If i just disappear for a week without warning I hope you wouldn't mind #though chances of that happening is low #since I have impulse control problems #tsp #tspud #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #narrator tsp #tsp narrator #stanley tsp #tsp stanley #stannarrator #stanarrator #babygirl hours #mine 💗#the stan parable

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taffywabbit · 1 year

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local silly girl tries to learn something new, dozens injured

(this caption could refer to Claire or myself and it would still generally apply)

#SLARPG #super lesbian animal rpg #claire higsby #fun fact: this is the first traditional piece I've inked in at least 3 years #(it is also the one i was working on at that wedding i mentioned)#it's been fun to shake the rust off and push myself to work traditionally here and there when i have some time to kill #anyways i wanna colour this traditionally too but I'm posting this now in case i lose motivation or mess something up #furry art #witch #taffy art

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hum--hallelujah · 8 months

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the poets are just kids who didn't make it

#HE DID MAKE IT!!!!!#I've been going bonkers all week thinking about the confetti pictures and how much HAPPIER he looks now #shaking sobbing weeping etc #she speaks!#this was going to be a photo edit but I hated how it turned out so. yeah #pete wentz #pw #fob #fall out boy

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 6 months

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WAKE UP!

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #wei wuxian #I tried *so* hard to draw deflated wwx (per the reference to the garfield comic) but I could not get figure it out.#Yes lwj is straddling wwx. He's been shaking him this whole time.#LWJ has also been shaking. Like a nervous little dog.#What else is he to do when the love of his life collapses in front of him?#I also like to imagine that going through the nightmarish empathy showed on wwx's real body too. As in - he was thrashing about.#I am fond of my headcanon that wwx kicks and yells in his sleep and lwj is just getting a preview of it.#And oh my god. Am I ever a fan of accidental bonks (in fiction. I feel immense guilt for them in reality)#I'm really excited for several comics coming up. One in particular I have been building up to for *months*.#Sorry I've been mysteriously absent for a lot of November...I will do my best to be more consistent this December!#Thank you all for your support. Take care and stay healthy <3

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bixels · 5 days

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I've got GG20s art on the docket but I'm taking a break to draw other stuff for my mental health. Here's a look at some Manhattan characters. 👍

#personal #delete later #i've also been really demotivated to do gg20s art rn cuz twt's completely drained my engagements #tulli and i talked about how it's probably a double whammy of the url change to “x” and the algorithm shake-up #it's tough to complain because i do think it's benefiting smaller artists and giving them more attention #but it's also reduced my engagements to a quarter of what it's supposed to be rn #so why post art that folks wanna see if barely anyone's gonna get to see it rn

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weevmo · 4 months

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Squeesh the puppet nose -

A bonus:

#I've been taking some time off being online!#Because I tried to steamroll over and past some mental issues and IRL things and it didn't go well #but Im still doodling small good things #nimrod stew #corduroy stew #SHUT #I love the idea of his eyes glittering like big black googly eyes #you shake him and they just rattle around

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icewindandboringhorror · 7 months

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I know this is just a silly bad quality random screencap of a screencap that I found on facebook lol, BUT it's a succinct enough image to easily describe the concept in a quick/accessible way hopefully :

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(and of course, feel free to elaborate in tags, etc.! (especially elaborating about other senses as well.. can you "hear" in your mind just as well as you can "see"? taste? etc.) It's an interesting topic to me, as someone who's like a 4.5 at MOST lol. I'm curious what option will be the most common :0c )

#tumblr polls #hrmm... a little poll perhaps.. about a subject I find interesting.. since this image came across my facebook today #still really not feeling that well. no longer shaking violently and such but I still feel weird and weak much more than usual #They did say my markers for like infection or inflammation were elevated but that they werent sure of the cause so hopefully #it's nothing too serious. they did also say a lot of different things can cause that thing to be higher than normal but didn't go into spec #fics of what. maybe some of them are relatively benign or something. I still havent felt much back to normal since #I got really sick that one time though. I feel fine on and off but then little bouts of feeling weird and sick happen. hrmmm #ANYWAY.. looking for small ways to be productive. such as little doodles on evil ipad or editing game videos #or posting polls or cat pictures or some other like not very labor intensive things #I WISH I COULD FOCUS on writing HHRGGhh... I need to finish my game.. it would be so freeing.. a project that's been looming #over my head for like 5 years even though througouht that 5yrs I've probably spent a total of 3 months working on it lo.. ANYWAY #I still partially really cannot beleive that people CAN see stuff in their heads. There's always part of me that's thinking like. well mayb #e everyone DOES see the same exact thing but we just describe/conceptualize it so differently that we think we're talking about #different things when we're really not. But I have been assured by people I've talked to about it that they can GENUINELY really see #stuff in their heads like as vivid as an actual picture in real life or something. And the other senses are neat too. Like for exmaple I #can hear in my head much better than I can see imagery. I still CANNOT hear vividly like as if I were listening to actual music out loud..#but I think it's developed more than my sight. AND interesting how this varies the creative process. a friend I was talking to on the phone #said they write by literally just watching stuff play before them like a movie. where my process is COMPLETELY different. AND that affects #the content/what details we focus on as well as our individual styles of writing have differences that can be traced back to that.. hrmm

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kittycatcorner · 1 month

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the worst double date in history 🐷💘

#saw #chainshipping #coffinshipping #coffinchain #lawrence gordon #adam faulkner stanheight #mark hoffman #peter strahm #hoffstrahm #gordheight #art #fanart #digital art #guys i have been shaking abt getting to show y'all my propaganda for a while now #you finally get to see what i've been so fixated on... the OT4 #aka coffinchain double dating turned situationship #i love them so much pleae;se be kind

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wouldntyoulichentoknow · 8 months

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good luck to the lonely old thing, I say

#The Last Unicorn #unicorn #Fanart #shaking things up bc I've been drawing too many faces lol

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mobius-m-mobius · 10 months

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OWEN WILSON and RAFAEL CASAL in LOKI S2 (2023)

#mobius #owen wilson #rafael casal #lokiedit #mcuedit #marveledit #loki #i've never been prouder of being user mobius-m-mobius look at my man with his fries pie shake and endless swag combo 💕#btw pour one out for the me who could easily spend hours waxing poetic about the lokius connection #bc yes true but also getting thrown under the bus for the me who wants flirty fun free mobius w/ every cute guy in sight lmao 🙃#it's what he deserves!!#(a mcdonald's promo is really easier to color and more hq than any of the trailers disney puts out... what a world we live in 😂)#marvel #owenwilsonedit #loki spoilers #dianagifs

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feroluce · 2 months

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I've only recently started having my own thoughts about Emanator!Sampo and I think my favorite version of this is that he is technically an Emanator, it's just that he doesn't talk about it because Aha is a dick who only blesses people that don't want it and Sampo hates it here dkjxkdkdck

Aha blessed the Mourning Actors! A whole faction of people who have specifically made it their life's mission to resist Elation! THEY made a literal worm THEIR Emanator just to see if it would be accepted into the Genius Society! And when it wasn't, Aha just as easily killed it and tossed it aside! So I feel like there is a good possibility that Aha looked down at Sampo, this little oddball who doesn't seem to even like Epsilon or a lot of the Masked Fools and was like.

Hey.

You know what would be really really funny.

And I feel like being an Emanator wouldn't even be a plus for Sampo, because of how he operates. Sampo excels at blending in; he managed to smuggle himself onto a planet

that had been isolated for 700 years,

with only one (1) single city on it,

and going even further, he snuck himself into the Underground,

where the population is even more sparse,

and STILL. Not a single accusation of him being an alien! Not even after the Astral Express lands and proves that interstellar space travel is possible! Sampo is so thoroughly ingrained into Belobog that yeah, some people admit they don't know his origins, but none of it ever comes with the question of whether he actually is a Belobog native or not. Sampo knows exactly how to blend himself into his surroundings in the most subtle way possible. And being an Emanator, something far more powerful than any normal human or Pathstrider could ever hope to be, would only throw in a massive extra variable for him. Sampo would have to be so so careful to keep a lid on his Emanator traits, to keep up the appearance of being totally normal and average at all times. It doesn't help him at all.

And this part is pure indulgence, but I love taking Aha's closeness with mortals, and THEIR tendency to take human form, and twisting it into a case of THEM using Sampo as a vessel.

I want Aha to look at Sampo the same way all of us look at Sampo. A chew toy. A plaything. Something to shove through the meat grinder. Aha thinks Sampo is hilarious and a funny, silly little guy, and THEY want to put him in Situations just to see what he does. Sampo is not a fan.

This though, this is what makes Sampo so wildly entertaining as a vessel. Because Aha knows that Sampo does not want to be a vessel, does not even want to be an Emanator, and THEY find it SO much fun to watch the mental gymnastics he has to pull to convince himself he's ok with it, this is fine actually, because he's not exactly about to tell off a literal god. He doesn't feel like getting a smiting today, please and thank you.

Because squeezing yourself into a human vessel is so different than merely adopting a human disguise, there's already a human soul in there, it's kind of a tight fit. If Sampo doesn't make room, doesn't all but dissociate right out of his own body, it could cause. Consequences.

And so, Aha always gives a warning, just to watch him squirm.

It begins with the sound of bells.

Just little ones, at first. Small, clinking little sounds that could even be considered nice. Something almost gentle, like a wind chime in a pleasant breeze on a warm day. This is the signal for the countdown.

Sampo breathes in, breathes out. Makes himself as small as possible within his own body.

The bells rise and multiply, tinkling wind chimes give way to sleigh bells, to shopkeepers bells, the sound of something inevitable approaching, something entering.

Sampo breathes in, breathes out. Dilutes himself, weaker and weaker concentrations.

The bells rise and rise, multiply and multiply, celebration and tragedy resonating in the sound of church bells, ringing bright and loud, the sounds of weddings and funerals both the same.

Sampo breathes in, breathes out. Becomes like smoke, like vapor. Hollows himself out.

Empty, empty, empty until he echoes, like a bell, like something with the sole purpose of being shaken and rattled around, a thing to be struck, the sounds jarring and punched out and gasping and piercing the air, the lung, the eardrum.

Sampo breathes in.

Beaten he rings, bashed in he sings.

Aha breathes out.

#sampo koski #hsr sampo #hsr aha #emanator!sampo #emanator sampo #hsr #honkai star rail #my fics #pardon me I've been listening to a lot of kara kara kara by kikuo lately dkxjkskdmd #I really like Emanator Sampo theories and even think canon is pointing that way- assuming he isn't just Aha in disguise #but I also like Sampo being a pathetic little guy. a squeaky toy. just a little dude.#and thus. this skzjnskdkd #an Emanator but pathetic about it haha #stringing Sampo up like a piñata so I can beat him with the possession angst stick ☆#he just has a lot of personality. Sampo is very bright and vibrant and distinctive-#-and always perfectly in control of himself to put on the best show.#so I think it's most jarring to see him dissociate- to see him go completely still and quiet just trying to breathe and settle #breate and settle breathe and settle breathe and settle #until he looks distant and hazy and goes unresponsive. until he feels like he is barely within his own body.#aha thinks this is funny #sampo tells himself he does too because it's easier that way #(shaking hands with Aha and Sparkle as I too like to mess with Sampo and put him in situations snkzjsjdkd)

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zxal · 10 months

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you're just like me

#yugioh #ygo #yugi muto #atem #ryou bakura #thief king bakura #my art #ygo art #sorry for the non kh art but YALL ASKED FOR IT i cant be held responsible #I've been falling back down the yugioh hole i can't help it........#what if there w. were two guys and they were the same guy but different guys (shaking you) what about it what about it #i've thought a lot about yugi's relationship w atem vs. ryou's relationship with ybakura and how like #it's different but it's the same....its the same.....its the same #(grabs you) come closer. i have so much to tell you

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