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negativepeanuthoarder · 10 months

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I don't care about how rich they're, they're still humans

They are.

Billionares by their very nature exploit and kill people every day - no one gets that rich without a little blood on their hands, so I can see how some people would see it as karma. And I would also see it as karma if they died visiting one of their own factories or got impaled by a faulty design of their own product.

But suffocation in a poor excuse of a submarine is an awful way to go. The submarine pilot also made a poor decision but he was doing his job. Is it his fault his employer put money over his safety? Maybe he knew the risks and made a bad decision anyways.

Then theres that kid. That teenager. I can't stop thinking about him either because even though our lives are astronomically different he's the same age as I am. It's like when Techno died and all I could think about how he was the same age as one of my coworkers. There's a weird sense of confused sadness with learning that someone who died was the same age as you or someone close to you. Death feels so scary and far away and it's hard to reconcile a lost life when they feel so oddly close to your own.

I know that the chances of finding them are slim. But if they are I hope they have to pay back all of the resources that they wasted in the search. I hope there's a way to redistribute the unjustly obtained wealth that those Billionares owned.

And if they are dead, which there's a very good chance they are, I hope it was fast. I hope the hull cracked and it was a quick death to the pressure of the ocean. I don't want to imagine all five of them sitting cramped in the darkness, sweat and the stink of urine filling the room as they inevitably wait for their last stolen breaths of limited oxygen.

#so sorry for all of the horror here I just don't know what else to do #I'm so fucking scared and horrified and sad and idk what to do about it #asks by peanut #I'm so sorry anon #titanic #titanic situation #titanic submarine #oceangate #death tw #death cw #suffocation tw #suffocation cw

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irxne · 5 months

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I'm a little underwhelmed with Chill Kill. Not to be misunderstood - I like it and I've listened to it at least a dozen times, it's well made and there are a few highlights (especially Underwater, WIESYA? and, funnily enough, Bulldozer) but my expectations for them are always so high that it can be tricky for myself. I think that my main issue is that it's too delicate and lacks RV energy. For example closest to home (SM), most of the songs on Aespa's mini album sound crispy and fresh, but Chill Kill is more subdued and feels tired. I don't know if it makes sense to you, I'm not great at explaining

Hmm I see where you're coming from, but I disagree a bit. I really liked the soft sound and nods to their older discography. While it's not on my top 3 of favorite albums from them, I still like it a lot. My favorite part of Chill Kill was that beautiful bridge with that 80's synth sound that reminded me of city pop songs which I looooove. While the song was really not what I was expecting, I really enjoyed the blend of red and velvet. Knock Knock (Who's there?) is so good, and I wish that they were performing it on music shows along with Chill Kill. I KNOW this song will eat so bad with a choreo and live. I love that in the chorus the instrumental keeps going up and amp up the thrill of the song matching the lyrics. And I know I said I was a bit tired of the classical sampling, but they used Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairy and I'm a big sucker for ballet. I get why this song was a contender for tittle track, but I think it fits being a b-side better. Underwater is so cunty and the production is so good. Their vocals are evenly!!!! Kingdom Come you were number 1 for so long and now you've been dethroned in my heart. WIESYA is really I Just daughter and it's so good!! That empty chorus with just pure instrumental is such a vibe. It's also such a summer night song and it feels like it should be heard in a beach during sunset. Wendy sounds so beautiful in this song and so does Seulgi. I think these types of songs suits Seulgi a lot.

#1 of many #I'm so sorry anon #reply #anon

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soleilnmity · 1 year

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Hello, thank you for sharing these scans! The Nyarlathotep/Tatsuya pairing is pretty rare, I'm curious about what you like about it.

Oh my god anon you don't know what you've just unleashed, I've been waiting to talk about it all my life---I don't know how to start. I'm so delusional but bear with me because I really really love nyarutatsu hold on. Nyarutatsu I can divide it in several concepts that are appealing to me.

>Eternity as a whole (Ouroboros, Samsara) >Another representation of Nyarlathotep (deity) obsessed with a human ala Randolph Carter >The questioning of what makes humans human at all to begin with >The after effects and repercussions of trauma >selfcest (fake) cough The concept of "Eternity" is pretty headcanonized but bear with me.

Something that really struck me while playing EP was the Three Poisons that Nyarlathotep mentions, which fit each of the P2EP party members.

This was actually mistranslated in the english version (and not corrected with the patch, either but translated somewhat correctly in other instances?) the three poisons are "Anger" (Dvesha), "Ignorance"(Moha, but also Delusion) and "Desire" (Raga, which can also be Greed or Lust but most importantly, Attachment). Katsuya is anger (mostly repressed anger, towards his surroundings and circumstances), Baofu is ignorance/delusion (in which moha also can mean "emptiness") and Ulala is desire (*wants* so much, and more than anything attaches herself to the need of being *wanted*) Due to these, humans become trapped in the cyclical eternity of Samsara. While these 3 primarily match the EP cast, there's somebody we're forgetting right? I feel like these 3 poisons as a whole match Tatsuya as well. A key factor of Moha (ignorance) is attachment, primarily to people. Specially the 'illusion' that is "the world", "Maya". In other words, this is in regards to Tatsuya's attachment to Maya that is both an attachment to the person itself but the illusion that is "Maya" "Maya" as he knows her, doesn't exist anymore. He's attached to the image of her, the illusion of her. This attachment is both of ignorance and also craving, exemplified by "Raga".

While "Moha" is a fundamental ignorance of the self and most predominantly means naivety/stupidity. Foolishness. It's due to ignorance that you crave and desire, desire something that is not even real. This attachment is poison.

"Dvesha" is self explanatory as anger and aversion which can be attributed to placing his anger towards Nyarlathotep but ultimately his anger is not so much towards Nyarlathotep in itself (it still is, don't get me wrong) but towards himself most of all. Because it is he who caused everything by his own attachment and desires, attachment to the earthly world and the people in it.

Symbolically speaking, if not literally, Nyarlathotep taking his form is well enough to signify that Tatsuya, truly, hates himself most of all. That's his weakness.

By fulfilling all 3 characteristics, Tatsuya's stuck in his own Samsara. This is why I, at least as a headcanon of mine, belive that Tatsuya didnt get to return to the Other Side, he's experiencing karmic retribution over and over again.

It could also be that, he's doomed repeat the same events time and time again. Without a chance to change anything, without a chance to escape. Not being aware of being inside the hell of his own making. What makes you believe /this/ is the only world that has been created? There may have been countless worlds created, and those of which he can never return in the flesh. And this cycle of one's perpetual mistakes being represented by a creature that in on itself represents humanity as a whole is so appealing to me because, Tatsuya is truly so human. Being so ignorant, foolish, craving attachment and connections is so disgustingly human. Tatsuya may be stuck with Nyarlathotep for eternity in the Collective unconscious, and it's not like he didn't even agree. Nyarlathotep already marked him, through the brand. Philemon mentions is as a way to showcase what belongs to him, enchanted by the shadows, and Tatsuya is his.

Even Tatsuya says as much in the PSP scenario that "I'm the only one he can do as he pleases with" (what exactly that "he can do as he pleases" entails, who knows! The possibilies!).

Speaking of the scenario, this is where I bring up Ouroboros. Destruction and Creation.... Tatsuya needs Nyarlathotep as much as Nyarlathotep needs him. His main driving force in EP is both keeping everyone's safety as well as hoping to destroy Nyarlathotep, driven by his anger towards him (this 'anger' which Nyarlathotep enhances as a whole).

And as mentioned earlier with the Three Poisons, Nyarlathotep mentions that these are "his primary source of power". If a mere human alone is so rotten in poison, that makes him the perfect thing to own. They both feed each other pretty much. Tatsuya funnels his eternal rage driven sorrow into Nyarlathotep and he absorbs it and to him that's sustenance to his being plus ""love"". They hate each other in an all-consuming ouroboros, where neither of them will ever get out, trapped in their own cyclical eternity. Nyarlathotep doesn't need tatsuya to love him he just needs tatsuya to need him as much as he needs Tatsuya. Repetition!

And yes, I mention "love". Nyarlathotep "loves" Tatsuya, but in a way that is not the way you could exactly think of traditional "love". what is love No seriously, in the way we understand it, what encompasses love? Compassion, affection, kindness? Love is as much of a positive emotion as it can be a negative, contradictory emotion. Love enough to be obsessed, possesive, destructive. Love enough to destroy, to want, to own.

Nyarlathotep mentions that he's grown fond of Tatsuya when you first encounter him (again, mistranslated in english and not corrected in the patch)

(wow they're flirting) The original line is: そう熱くなるなよ。私はお前が気に入ったんだ。どうだ、似合ってるんだろうか？ (Don't get so worked up. I've taken a liking to you. Well, don't you think it suits me?) <- The latter part referring to imitating his appearance, but not the full sentence. As 気に入ったんだ means to grown fond of something, like a "like" but not 好き 'like'. (delusional).

Constantly wanting Tatsuya to submit to him as well.

Sure, you could interpret these as typical villiany talk, but I ship it because I think it's interesting. Another factor to me is that, Nyarlathotep sometimes is less of a "being" and more of a "concept" at times. The brand in Tatsuya's arm left in him by Nyarlathotep is as much of a showcase of ownership as it is a sign to showcase that, everything that had happened, happened. All his pain and suffering, his fears, his anxiety and dread---they're all part of him. He just has to eventually move on.

I really like this line that Tatsuya says in town dialogue. Nyarlathotep is a natural part of humanity, the negative traits found in all humans. Hence why, as long as humanity still lives, he will persist. This is mentioned even in the novel I translated too, that Nyarlathotep was "summoned" by Tatsuya due to the fear in his heart.

Tatsuya is so *human*, with all these fears and desires and wants and struggles. Nyarlathotep, who is drawn to humanity, likes these aspects and wants to exploit them for all he's worth. And of course, I do like that he uses his appearance to show this obsession, yet it's also a form of mockery, as mentioned earlier. Nyarlathotep tries to imitate a human's skin, but he himself is not so human. Or is he? He may be more human than what we believe.

And I like to 'humanize' him. Because Nyarlathotep is /human/ in a sense, negative traits found in humanity makes us as human as positive traits do.

I probably have a loooooot more than what I'm allowed to say I didn't even mention how Katsuya factors into Tatsuya's life and Nyarlathotep's control of him because it's also important but in essence, this is what draws me to them. Also, it's pretty much the most popular ship in jp spaces as of late, so there's that!

I guess in a sense, it's not "ship" in the way people normally would think of. Oh they go on dates, they're adorable, they're cute! kiss kiss love love! No, it's suffering on Tatsuya's side. Living with horror, loved by something beyond his comprehension. Something happened to him that he didn't ask for, he didn't want. And it has stained him. And he's there, always been there. Maybe before he was even remotely born (this is also another line Tatsuya has).

It's terrifying, bizzarre, dreadful and simultaneously so beautiful. There is an appeal in Tatsuya's suffering----and I like that.

Also this fucking line. This fucking line. Did they really expect me to go through the game and be normal about it. Why would he say this. What. I mean, do you get it? It's so petty. It's probably the most petty thing to do. He's aware of Tatsuya's attachment to Maya and went as far as even create an in-universe fanfiction in which they don't end up together (Tatsunoshin and Maihime). He has to tell Maya "well you may like him but he belongs to me, so" IT'S JUST SO. WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM.

tldr; It's also this, basically.

#ask-reply #ぺ２腐 #ニャル達 #nyarutatsu #using the tags to spread my nyarutatsu agenda oops sorry #and I didn't even get into the guro and seggs cough #this blog is pg but come on nyarlathotep has tentacles #i'm so sorry anon #nyarlathotep #tatsuya suou #p2ep

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arsnovacadenza · 5 months

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Soukazu dirty texts.

((I'M SO SORRY ANON THIS POPPED INTO MY HEAD I'LL TRY MAKING SERIOUS HCs LATER))

#soukazu #kazusou #minashiro soushi #makabe kazuki #I'M SO SORRY ANON

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yonemurishiroku · 5 months

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This ask has been staying in my askbox since March please I want to beat myself up so bad

#i'm so sorry anon #it's just i kinda can't figure out what a good fic befitting of this 😭😭😭#i know a lot but not this somehow jahdskajdhak

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decaydanceredacted · 5 months

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so old and offline i typed x.com into my browser vibrator on pussy so excited to lookup bondage videos on this cool new porn site and turns out it was twitter

DHXGFHDFXGH

#I'M SO SORRY ANON #not a redacted

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daytaker · 4 months

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Hopefully this doesn't come off as a weird request. But can you do headcannons of reader looking up to Solomon as a father figure, then Solomons just a terrible influence for them. Thanks if you do this.

I won't lie, this is a kind of weird request, but that's alright! We can do weird. For the sake of my own comfort, I'm going to say ahead of time that the relationship between Solomon and the reader is purely platonic.

Hey, it's me again, three hours in the future relative to the above paragraph. I did my best, though I'm struggling to portray Solomon as an actual father figure. But these are some disjointed thoughts about you, Reader, and your somewhat toxic mentor-pupil relationship with your fellow human, Solomon the Sorcerer. (Fair warning, it gets a little silly at the end.)

CW: Manipulative Reader/MC, Bullying the Brothers

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Wow, the greatest sorcerer to ever live? You didn't even know sorcerers were a thing outside books and movies before you got here. Not only that, this guy is functionally immortal? You could probably learn a thing or two from him.

When you unexpectedly arrive in the Devildom for the RAD exchange program, you're more than a little uneasy about the number of jokes people have been making about eating you. (Those were jokes, right?)

So when you meet a friendly human face on your first day of classes, you're relieved. How is this guy so calm in this situation? Isn't he an exchange student too? Isn't he at least a little bit confused about the world? Will sticking to him like glue keep you from dying by demon?

Answers in order: He's been doing this for thousands of years, yes, no, and probably.

Solomon is aware of your dependence on him, and he quickly grows fond of you too, albeit in the way you might become fond of the local stray cat. You're friendly and easy to manipulate and best of all, you're a human. Solomon hasn't had any actual humans to interact with in years.

And who better to recruit to the cause of the betterment of humankind in the eyes of the other two realms than a fellow human? Someone with a stake in the underdog team?

He encourages your attempts to make pacts with the brothers. What could be more useful than a binding agreement to do whatever you tell them to, anyway? Soon enough, you have five pacts under your belt. It was surprisingly easy to get them to agree to sign their autonomy over.

"Don't you find it interesting that you're the only member of the exchange program who didn't know such a program existed until you were dragged here? I mean, there's no delegation in our world that manages relationships with the Devildom or the Celestial Realm. Both of those places just do as they please with the human world, only kept in check by each other."

He's making a good point. Why are humans so disrespected? Hell, those brothers view you as so unintimidating that they agreed to pacts with you more or less on the fly, just because. Is it just because you don't live as long?

"Hey, can you come over after classes? I need your help with something."

You become Solomon's willing guinea pig, and the brothers soon become guinea pigs by proxy. Solomon teaches you how to summon them, how to command them, and how to make sure they don't say a word to their oldest brother about it.

"I find it interesting that humans are so much more dynamic and inventive than demons or angels. I'm of the opinion that it's because the natural human lifespan is so short, relatively speaking, that it encourages people to be more ambitious. If we had eternity to solve our problems, would we even bother trying?"

Thank goodness for Solomon. If he wasn't here to impart these teachings on you, you might have ended up becoming emotionally entangled with those demons instead; demons who thought of you as a novelty and an easy target.

Lucifer stops you on your way to your room at the House of Lamentation.

"I think we need to have a talk about my brothers. Why are they afraid of you?"

To which you storm past him, flip him the bird, stick your tongue out, and snap, "None of your business! Get out of my life!" The door SLAMS shut, and you shout through it: "YOU'RE NOT EVEN MY REAL DAD."

And so, without even meaning to do it, Solomon has gone from an ally to a guide to a mentor to the person who transformed you into a demon-disrespecting teenager.

#ask response #dthc #anon ask #solomon #obey me #obey me solomon #obey me mc #lucifer #obey me lucifer #you're not even my real dad #i'm so sorry anon #hcs #solomon thoughts

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