#I only get the motivation to draw when I cant ;u;
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me, in fear: im gonna try to draw Asher I’m gonna try to draw Asher I’m gonna try to draw Asher-
#so certain characters intimidate me when it comes to draw them#just because I have a very specific vibe in my head as to what they look like#and I need the drawing to perfectly resonate said vibe#but I know I’ll get frustrated if it’s not perfect#so I push off drawing those characters and draw characters I know I can already do well (ex. Vincent Sam David etc.)#But characters that are included in the Ive been pushing them off#Are Asher Milo Huxley and Avior (Ive drawn avior before a couple times but hes has a redesign since)#but yes#I have inspo#I have a mood board#I have references#we’re gonna try to draw Asher#I am in fear#but I have a goal#to draw all the redacted asmr boys#(with the exception of project meridian)#…aHHHHH#redacted asmr#also I like how I say this knowing I have no time to draw#I only get the motivation to draw when I cant ;u;
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ok i actually need ot ramble ab that wip
#ghosts rambles#in the tags ofc. smiles#no cause i have been DYING to actually animate something and the thought popped into my mind the other day#like i was rereading the isolation imagine and i was seeing it play out vividly in my head and i just. what if i animated that#i had a couple hours to kill tonight and i was stupid bored so i got to drawing !#the good thing about this is that i dont really have to quote on quote animate???#like no over the top frame by frame stuff. its a lot of still frames and only slight movements#or repeating ones#there was only 15 storyboard images i did for this so i think that says a lot#plus i like leaving it at a cliffhanger technically. u get to imagine how they work it out ^-^#there's 11 unique backgrounds i have to do and Hopefully the editing of frames wont be hard. like the phone turning on and off#and light sources from like the sun outside w choro or the light from the shades in ghosts bedroom#and obviously this will take a while. like i cant promise a definitive date of when itll be done#earliest is like prob by the end of november depending on my schedule and motivation#OK RAMBLE OVER. if u have any questions feel free to ask ^-^ i heart talking
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!DNDADS S2 EP47 SPOILERS!
welp. todays the day. pray for me guys this could easily be the most upsetting episode of dndads for me. im dreading this so bad
- IS THAT FUCKING HERMIE SINGING???
- I CANT DO THIS
- I WAS NOT EXPECTING THE INTRO TO BE SAD IM SICK IM SICK IM ALREADY GONNA CRY
- "HATING MY FATHER INSTEAD OF HOLDING YOUR HAND" HEY???? HEY???! IM GONNA KMS
- OAKWORTHY IS CANON. IN THE WORST WAY POSSIBLE.
- FROM WHAT I HEARD I THOUGHT SCAM WAS IN THE INTRO???? BUT THIS. THIS HURTS SO BAD
- i feel sick i havent been able to move on from the intro
- im gonna be so honest i was expecting a "sike" or something at the end so u can imagine my relief when the little clicks started playing
- okay. okay. time to listen to ur fun facts u sick fucks
- WILL ACCIDENTALLY CALLING THE PODCAST DUNGEONS AND DRAGONS AGAIN LMAOOO
- anthony stfu i dont want to hear ur voice (hes literally the dm)
- MASTER OF MANIPULATION LINCOLN LI WILSON
- will. what evil fact do u have for us today.
- NORMAL DOES TAROT READINGS WHAT
- WILL IS GONNA JUST DRAW A CARD RN???
- LOVERS??? THERES NO FUCKING WAY
- WILL ACKNOWLEDGING HERMIE DIED IM GONNA THROW UP
- A BROKEN MARRIAGE???? HOLY SHITTTT
- scary plays the piano omg!!!
- THATS THE DUMBEST REASON EVER
- "im really nervous about what anthonys gonna do this episode" U AND ME BOTH MATT
- MY HEART IS POUNDING. MY HANDS ARE SWEATING. MOMS SPAGHETTI /ref
- it has taken me an hour just to get through the intro + facts.
- "but at what cost?" AT WHAT COST IS RIGHT BETH.
- SO NORMAL WASNT CONSCIOUS FOR IT. UR FUCKING JOKING
- MATT SUGGESTING THEY HIDE THE TRUTH FROM NORMAL. I CAN FEEL TEARS COMING
- ATOPPP ANTHONY HELPP
- BETHS REAGAN JOKE TO THE RESCUE
- NORMAL IS AWAKE AGAIN. OH GOD. OH GOD. OH GOD
- NOOOO OFC THEYRE GETTING INTERRUPTED
- "wheres hermie?" IM DONE
- NORMAL CANT SEE HERMIES BODY OH MY LORDDD
- anthony rushing them away. i cannot. i cannot
- "well fix it" im done
- NORMAL GOES TO PICK THEM UP.
- I CANT DO THIS.
- "this marriage has one less spouse but heavens got one more little angel" MATTHEW ARNOLD CAN U NOT.
- im sitting here in shock through all of this
- "just be happy ur not in hell" shut up anthony too soon
- thank god normal didnt take damage again
- lincoln cool scar era okay
- NORMAL PANICKING LOOKING FOR SPELL COMPONENTS LIKE HE DID W TERRY JR I CANTTTT
- HENRY OAK GARCIA. SAVE ME HENRY
- LARK AND SPARROW GIVING EACH OTHER A LOOK HELP ME. HELP ME
- NORMAL DOING SENSE MOTIVE AGAIN STOP IT
- AND GETTING A 1 AGAIN!!!!!
- theyre back home.
- "VOTE WILLY"?????
- "u guys ready to see him?" NO. NO IM NOT
- ty for protecting dood scary :[
- NORMAL IS HOLDING HERMIES HAND AND TALKING TO THEM. WILL CAMPOS DONT DO THIS TO MEEEEE
- ANTHONY STOP RUBBING IN HOW DEAD THEY ARE
- "the only thing keeping u together is the absolute ignorance u have of the fact that maybe the only person who ever showed u any real affection in the last couple years of ur life is dead" anthony burch im hunting u down.
- STOPPPPP NOT THE AD
- THE OLD EARTH WHOOOA
- is the dude w the white beard that "new fan fave npc" will was talking about lol
- HENRY REVEAL. HENRY REVEAL!!!!
- BARRY?????
- I SCREAMED I ACTUALLY SCREAMED
- I DIDNT KNOW IF WE WERE GONNA GET BARRY BACK. NO WAY
- MERCEDES IS DEAD..... STOP IM CRYING AGAIN
- THEM ALL CALLING HERMIE THEIR FRIEND. OOUGH
- UR FUCKING KIDDING. ANTHONY DO NOT TEASE US LIKE THIS
- "MADE OF GOOF MATTER" UR JOKING
- NORMALS SNAPPING OHHHH GOD
- NORMAL. NORMAL ISTG.
- NORMALS TRYINF TO BRING THEM TO SCAM?????
- HOLY FUCK......
- THEYRE IN THE SIMPSONS NOW.
- SCAM LIKELY. MY FUCKING ENEMY.
- WHY DOES HE. WHY DOES HE ACTUALLY CARE. I WAS NOT EXPECTING THIS THERES NO WAY
- "HES MY BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD" SHOOT ME.
- THEY DONT HAVE A SOUL.
- WTF IS SCAM GONNA DO
- ANTHONY I DONT TRUST U ONE BIT
- anthony burch. i hate u
- okay scam apologizing does feel good
- "I DONT WANT ANOTHER ONE I WANT THIS ONE" AND PUNCHES HIM. OH. MY GOD.
- "u feel like home for some reason" WAILS
- OH MY GOD SCARYS GONNA TELL NORMAL.
- GUYS I CANT DO THIS I REALLY CANT
- THE TREE. WILL CAMPOS PLZ
- HENRY TOLD NORMAL HES PROUD OF HIM. NOBODY TALK TO ME AGAIN EVER
- ty henry for giving normal what he needed im gonna sob my eyes out
- THEYRE GONNA PUT THE SUN BACK.
- THE FUCKING. THE FUCKING SUNRISE
- MATT OLD LADY NPC
- WHAT IS THIS FUCKING IMPROV
- CHAPARRAL.
- DONT FUCKIJF HIT ME UP
- "i liked u too" sighs.
- "GOODNIGHT SWEET PRINCE" END ME.
- "hermie u definitely were one of us" SOBS
- "i did notice u. thanks for everything" AAUAGAUHH
- LINK SAID NOTHING FOR HERMIE GOOD GOD
- "lark shakes ur hand, sparrow goes in for a hug" ough.
- OH MY GOD HENRYS GONNA SEE CODE PURPLE.
- HOLY SHIT YALL THIS IS BIG
- THEYRE TEACHING HERO AND NORMAL HOW TO SHOOT.
- BABY NORMALLLL
- "help me normal, only u can save me normal" WTF??? WTF????
- WHAT THE FUCK.
- guys i made it through. [confetti falls on me]
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sneaky peek at my current wip (also the first wip i had in months) and some thots on it. i need to rant (complain) so bear with me
so far its going pretty good, it doesn’t look bad and thats cool bcs i defs wouldve given up if it did look bad at this point.
obviously this is some kind of realism style and its okay, its not the best, idc. what sucks is that i dont even want this style but its the only one i can do. like i wanna do cartoons and other artsy stuff with clear lines or just sketching. stuff i see online, but i CANNOT do it, no matter how hard i try. i will always do some realistic shadowing and then its over bcs the composition isnt right for me anymore. and i hate it bcs not only would my life be so much easier if i wouldnt fall into this kind of ‘realistic’ style, which is straight up a pain, id be so much more productive as well. but i’m some weird perfectionist dumbass (blame it on my virgo rising or whatever) so shading and tiny details it is.
speaking of details, i love that i accidentally built this wip on my sketch file, which was not nearly a good enough format and now the quality SUCKS ASS but thats nothing new to me so i’m just gonna accept that every detail i draw is like 5 pixels only and you can barely see them.
another thing i suck at is color theory. and when i started this project (yesterday) i was set on doing only b&w. literally 3 seconds in i used colors and i regretted it immediately bcs it looked good which meant i had to continue bcs we dont do half assed shit… so now i committed to color and i don’t understand color theory. like i can see it working but it doesn’t make sense and all i do is experiment bcs i see no sense or pattern (now i question my tiktok diagnosis of autism, neurodivergence and adhd)
at this point i have also given up at originality. im just copying my references picture, which is fine bcs i will never be able to draw a whole ass person, and i would defs not be satisfied if i wouldn’t add details. so now im stuck at drawing a whole military outfit and my reference picture is also only 9 pixels so i cant even make out what im drawing. i’m just guessing at this point.
okay for now the last part of my complaining… @blnk338 why did u choose such a unique mask for reaper? the way i struggled with the concept and its still not perfect but i dont wanna get hung up on it so i’m moving all over the place and going back to the mask every other minute… pretty sure the mask design alone took me 2 hours to put together so it made sense to my brain and then another 3 to design to my liking lmao
anyway this is a snippet of my current take on reaper from rwys, which so far is only the body but there will probs be eyes at some point, if i dont give up. first time in months, almost years of drawing something, so i guess big thanks to blink for giving me the motivation and a character to work on for fun. hopefully i can give an update on progress soon lol
#rwys#fanart#reaper#prawny draws#prawny complains#prawny rants#wip#teach me color theory pls i beg u#why did i choose the placement of my light source 3 hours in??#i am my own nemesis
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HIIIII im so embarrassed to tell you abt this off anon but i really want to tell you abt this so !!!!!!!! i really LOVE your art like holy shit. I think i found out abt you when you posted that one yelan doodle march 2022 (should be some time after her drip marketing iirc) I dont know how to explain but . That sorta makes me fell in love with art again????? Like suddenly im motivated to start drawing again like Woah. After a few months i found your art acc and instantly recognized your style "HEY isn't this the same person who drew that yelan" I'm not really deep into cookie run but I love how you draw purelily with so much love Like I can feel it through my screen 🥹🥹 It's so nice following you since purelily until orv and seeing you improve alot like !!!???!!!!! ANYWAYS i talk alot here ehe i love your art sooooo much i cant explain it with words only. Thank you for being an inspiration to me and for making me love drawing again 🫶🫶🫶🫶
hey anon!! first of all, tysm im really glad u enjoy my stuff, it makes me really happy knowing i could inspire u. im surprised people even remember that doodle HAHA tbh it was the start of me also really getting back into art. im like a month late to answering this buttttt on the off chance u do end up seeing this u could shoot me a dm and i would love to be mutuals w u on twt (or on here)!! u sound like a really nice person :D
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req from: @local-problem
She/her - bisexual, Birthday: November 27, 2003, Sagittarius, Height: 1.83 m / 6 ft, Hair: light brown, curls with lots of volume and quite long, Eye color: blue-grey, Personality: ENFJ, I'm fairly athletic, doing track, volleyball and dancing. Work: I work in a bubble tea shop, give swimming lessons to small children and tutor (maths). When I have time, I like to draw and read. I love my grandma, manga, anime, sports, my friends, alpaca stuffed animals, coffee and black tea
HELLO, I RLLY HOPE U LIKE THIS! i’m assuming you meant a romantic match up! if not oops lol thank u for sending this! it rlly helped me w motivation! also sorry if this is a bit long :) SIDE NOTE ITS RLLY COOL THAT UR SO TALL
just because idk if its a touchy subject for u!)
(also i feel like i keep matching ppl w more mainstream characters but like, ITS RHE VIEB I GET OK???) 😭
(rom) i match you with…..
SUGAWARA
ok ok u def met when u were working
he came in w daici and kiyoko to talk abt some important stuff n when they walked in he was like “woah 😨”
thinks ur so attractive
then he orders and leaves!! yay how eventful
BUT THEN
he always suggests to go to that boba place
are the drinks good? yes. are they as good as seeing you? no.
probably starts with very very minimal conversations, maybe MAYBE small talk or an occasional joke from him
he becomes a regular, and he most likely orders the same thing every time
one day hinata comes in w him daichi and kiyoko
AND HINATAS FREAKING ABOUT BECAUSE HE SAW U THE OTHER DAY
turns out u tutor his little sister although he probably needs it more
and kiyoko tells hinata abt the crush she noticed suga had
AND WHEN I TELL U HINATA SCREAMED
later that night he was talking to (brokuto) bokuto abt it and then a lightbulb goes off
hinata is suddenly busy the day he needs to pick his sister up from tutoring and oh no hes always busy now and suga is the only one free?? oh well i guess he has to pick her up and see you
he thinks he so smart
and he is in this scenario at least
but did his set up work?? yes
when he shows up
ur like?? and he is like???
but u end up talking, n found out u have a lot in common
he finally leaves once and only once natsu is tugging and pulling at sugas sleeve with the biggest pout on her face
hinata?? busy?? again?? cant pick up sister! oh well suga has to get her now!!
this time, he left w ur number
very friends to lovers story then plays out
bookstore hangouts very often
mini little old lady clubs where u recommend stuff you found and he recommends stuff you stuff he found
then he sends you very long thought out reviews on whatever you give him
DEFINITELY CONFESSES BY ACCIDENT
its either 1. if u guys r arguing he will just accidentally be like “because i like you” or something dumb, 2. says it in the evning when u guys r sitting outside and he thinks you look so pretty under the glow of the setting sun, he just mutters it under his breath (or so he thought)
and ur just like “what?” but yk its mutual
he def wont get into an actual relationship with you until he has properly taken you out on a date that he deems successful
a lot of picnics, maybe hiking if u want to, late night fast food runs w rlly blurry pictures
he loves how trustworthy you are
also i def think he loves ur hair
the volume n the waves is just perfection to him
suga might always seem very happy and peppy but he isnt always
he has mastered the people pleasing act of happiness
so he rlly enjoys ur strong emotional sense to be able to understand him
also likes that you’re empathetic so being vulnerable is comfortable with you
because of those he feels like he can talk to u about anything he feels like he needs to hide from others (the trustworthiness helps w this too)
(he is an infj so the balance of that relationship is rlly cool btw)
finds it so cool that you play volleyball
he’ll inv u to play w his team sometime for fun but will make sure ur not overwhelmed (because we all know that team meeting sugas gf would be..just praying for u)
he always sends u good morning and good night texts
he always brings u sweets n chocolate on ur period
brings you flowers all the time
he also will check if u need anything when hes at the grocery store
he will never forget an anniversary
ALSO LOVES THAT YOU WORK W CHILDREN, HIS FUTURE TEACHER HEART IS SO HAPPY
overall a rlly understanding, safe, and compassionate relationship
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THANK U SO MUCH FOR REQ AGAIN!! I hope u enjoyed it! I have a lot of fun writing these :) as always, if u saw any spelling errors no u didn’t! dont forget to eat and drink water!!
#haikyuu!!#haikyuu matchups#haikyuu x reader#romantic match#matchups#sugawara drabble#sugawara fic#hq suga#hq kuroo#kuroo fluff#kuroo x you#haikyuu smut#haikyuu hcs#suga smut
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Im late but happy birthday !! your arts been such an inspiration for me and has been giving me alot of motivation during a months long art block, still ongoing. Youve improved so much in just the past year whaa, i cant wait to see how u continue to improve in the years coming
Hello!
Sorry for the long reply, I've been very busy with my exams the last few days
Thank you very much for the greetings and for the kind words about my work :)
During my year and a half of publication(or more?...), my level of drawing has really grown, but at the same time my self-confidence in this regard has grown too
The support and attention I have received lately really makes me happy every day and to see that my art can also have such an impact on other people is very touching to me
And haha, I haven't received so many happy birthday wishes in years!
I hope your artblock gets over very soon!!!This very hard feeling when you can't draw
But drawing, like any other skill, is good in that it has only one path
if you work and try again and again you will always come to progress and development
It's always moving forward, even if it doesn't seem like it.
even a bad art can teach you something
good luck on your creative journey!(≡^∇^≡)
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Hey I was the anon who asked the comic/fic question and I can I say THANK YOU IM NOT ALONE HOW DO PEOPLE COMMIT TO ONE IDEA FOR SO LONG like I’m writing an Au and decided to do an outline cause that’s what people do right and now I’m on page 19 (bullet points) and only about halfway through arc 1/2 and I’m sitting here thinking about my short attention span and wondering how I’ll commit and I’m pretty sure my friend is done with my crap (she’s proud but tired and wants an end) so thanks notalone
yeah like, i know myself at this point. id LOVE to set myself some kind of long comic to do but i am both indecisive and not super motivated, i know full well ill either think of something i want to do more or get stuck on one part that i dont wanna do and never finish, doing little misc comics is great for me and helps me avoid art block like the plague, like. i realised that actually i produce a huge amount of art and stuff usually at least one paneled comic and smaller drawings a week pretty solidly for like the past year n i dont really burn out because theyre all little things i wanna do
plus, im sure youre doing great but if it helps u at all, you could try doing very simple bullet points first, i try to write the plot out in AS simple terms as possible with no further details on anything when its getting too much (eg- A and B meet. C assembles a team. a problem with the boat means they cant leave yet. A leaves after an argument with D) and then just focus on your favourite parts as little drawings/ comics/ oneshots since thats whats gonna keep your interest
#all i can do is give advice based on what works for me but im sure youre doing great jddjsmsbskehek#shark talks#ask
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Hellooo!! I just read ur rules bc i don't want to send anything wrong😭😭 can i have match up with TWST? I don't mind what character im gonna get tbh
Ah here some things about me?😭 i apologize this is my first time doing this!!
I like pink, cats,playing games like, corpse party or old otome ones, i love reading and im obssesed with being a Transplant surgeon ( i want to be one when i grow up) i love learning about psychology and many more that have to do with people mind + human body ( not in a dirty way😭😭) i like hello kitty. I love drawing due being an artist. I love sleeping im also pretty lazy i have zero motivation im just pushing myself to do things,,, i hate not being clean or my room not being clean, i hate toxic people, people that bully others or just being mean and i hate stalkers and dark, loud noises, fighting.
I am a girly girl that is obssesed with pink and things like that ( i go by she/her)
I also love cooking!
Im more like a peace person ( if someone saying something bad or anything im just blocking them) im doing this mosty for my health bc i get triggered easily. Um my hobbies are: reading,drawing, learning new languages.
I cant do sports bc i cant run due always hitting knee pain so i avoid any sports.
My personality ( from my friends POV) :
funny, calm and very respectful, kinda stupid bc i say stupid things , lazy , very energetic( only in chat)😭
For my pov: i dont really know my personality or to give an example of what is like, so im gonna write how is it easier to me, im stupid im gonna believe anything others tell me i have high trust issues, mommy issues..( these arent a personality ( i think) but i think i prove how dumb i am💀 ( i also i always go by logic in things)
Uh i cant focus on things i also always lose interest in things most of the time.
My ideal partner type is: a nice person that i can communicate with bc to keep a relationship u need to understand each other, someone that understand me and have some of my interest so we can share and enjoying or time together.
My love language is: able to read a person so i can be able to understand what is wrong so i can comfort them. ( i dont like physical affection im very uncomfy with those so i just give my advice even if they dont need it)
IM SO SORRY I FR HAVE TO IDEA WHAT TO SAY SO I HOPE THOSE ARE ENOUGH!! I ALSO APOLOGIZE MY ENGLISH😭 HAVE NICE DAY/ OR NIGHT ECT🫶
Bro ur English is fucking amazing omg<3 ALSO ANOTHER CORPSE PARTY PLAYER!!! Im still in my playthrough but it's so 🫨🤩funky(/POS)
So Anon I match you with...
Me☺️ (/j /p)ok ok but actually,
I match you with...
Idia Shroud
HELP IDK IT JUST IF I SMASHED YOU NOTH TOGETHER YOU'D BE A GOOD COUPLE! Cat lovers unite! Also like a date night of playing horror RPGs (I think that's what corpse party is considered...) Like Corpse Party, IB, Mad Father, etc... Idia honestly could most likely help with your studying to be a Transplant Surgeon, you could test psychology stuff on him if you asked😭. Would buy you Hello Kitty stuff!!! Would definitely want to see your art if your not shy to showing it! He'll do his best to keep rooms clean, even if he also is a tad bit lazy. Nowhere is dark with him due to his hair... He'll buy random stuff off the internet thinking, 'Oh, she'd like that!'. If you were in the position of Yuu(being transported to TWST from another world.) He'd fake you a doctor's note for Physical Education. He'd do his best to communicate but if he has difficulty verbalizing some things(which he will...) His emotions are easily noticable by his hair and face!
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how do u….how do u digital art bro. Like how do you get past the phase of hating everything you make. I cant color or shade anything digitally but I don’t have the motivation to learn how 😭
Oh I still hate half the stuff I make LOL u don’t see the million sketches I start n then scrap because I don’t have the motivation to carry on T_T
It sucks but the only way to get past that is to practice :(
It helps if you draw stuff u wanna draw and u r interested in coz then you’ll wanna work on it more. You could try n do colour and shading studies from real life but often they’re super boring. My advice is if you’re struggling with colour and shading I would say look at the artists you like and study your favourite bits about their work. Why do you like it? What is it about their stuff that you’re drawn to? Then I would have a go at implementing different bits into your art. That’s what I do, especially when I’m super stuck!! Don’t copy their work!! But take what you like and mix it with other things you like to create an original style.
Whatever happens just keep going!! You could just be in a big artblock, and you will come out!! Also learning digital art is TOUGH I think people don’t give digital artist enough credit. I believe in u, I think u got this!!
I hope this was helpful!!! :D
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The cat is out of the bag pt - 2
So imagine trying to draw or animate, something wonderfull... and just having no motivation to live...while desperatly looking for any job available.
She tries to give me " motivation " to draw, and i say " motivation " like this because the only thing she says is " why havent you finished this? no motivation? well you have to finish it ", " did u find a job? you havent ? well you have to , its been too long already , all ur classmates found jobs ", " when u apply for a job you need to apply for everything, not just what you want " . refering to me telling the interviewer that i couldnt carry heavy weights..
Wich its pretty obvious with my back problem, i mean ive been warned many times by doctors, if i carry on with weights on my spine, i will get paralised.
But for some reason she thinks me not carrying weights is a choise, because im " lazy or dont feel like it ".
So when im not doing house chores, or going out with her, or looking for a job and attending my UI/UX course, to try and get past the feeling of dying or the urge to kill myself, i ocupy myself with repetitive things, im either watching a movie, on call with some game buddies, or playing some games, just so i cant be alone with my thoughts.
And latetly shes been getting really triggered with me being all call with ppl.
" Who are they" , " what do they do for a living ?" , " why are you on call with them?" .
And today she made a move " why are you wasting time on call with those ppl , you should be looking for a job or finishing you drawings "
and what really got to me " when u apply for a supermarket job, u have to apply for the restock job, they have machines to carry things "...
Refering to me telling the interview lady that i couldnt carry heavy weights...
I always feel watched and controlled by her...
But now, telling me i cant be on call with ppl.....i just...
I just feel like i cant breath...
#anxiety#depression#suicide#trauma#ptsd#anger#fear#scared#survival mode#domestic abuse#domestic violence#toxic#toxic mother#toxic family#mental illness#mental abuse#mental disorder#manipulation#control#controlling mother#narcisistic mother#abusive mother#abuse#micro management
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°:. *₊ ° . ° .•
https://youtu.be/XONCO6dhh1I
we wait on motivation too much
its completely irrelevant the doubts, the worries, the feeling of i dont wanna do this today when it comes to our goals when it comes to our dreams , we allow our spirit to override all that complacency, because were about to build the life that we want
°:. *₊ ° . ° .•°:. *₊ ° . ° .•°:. *₊ ° . ° .•°:. *₊ ° . ° .•°:. *₊ ° . ° .•
when we wanna live the life we love and love the life we live
our feelings will be irrelevant, how many times have we convinced ourselves were not in the mood
we let our feelings become fact
°:. *₊ ° . ° .•°:. *₊ ° . ° .•°:. *₊ ° . ° .•
sit and think
how will u feel if u dont do that thing
how will u feel if u do accomplish it
^ then follow that feeling then simplify it
get rid of the mountain
take it step by step
realize i may have been distracted , procrastinating but i am not listening to my feelings keeping me
because i am lead by the spirit not by the flesh
begin turning it up a notch in your belief ,
in your consistency , in your discipline
take it step by step
°:. *₊ ° . ° .•°:. *₊ ° . ° .•°:. *₊ ° . ° .•
applying this mindset as an artist
take a step (simply getting up , if ur an artist like me scribbling )
take another step (drawing shapes circles wondering what ur mind could be on play some music u like get in a vibe)
one more step then motivation kicks in (more than jus shapes u start seeing where ur going with some of this)
inspiration kicks in
turning it up a notch in my belief,i look for what i want this piece to say or if i want it to say anything at all maybe jus be smth silly that makes me smile
turning it up a notch in my consistency, i see social media stressed me out made me feel like i couldnt draw or paint or be the artist i am unless it was for that when its always been for me i delete social medias stressing me and say i can do this whenever however i want and feel it in my soul even if its jus a silly catgirl who cares its mine
turning it up a notch in my discipline,
i wont let this become something i cant enjoy doesn't matter how bad i do one some days i will not be discouraged , ive got my coffee and my music and my cozy environment all i need i dont need perfection thats not the purpose of my art and my art isnt my only purpose if i mess up or cant draw exactly what i see thats okay as long as i got up i sat at my desk and let myself feel and create the way i know i can , im alright
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simply applying this mindset to my life
take a step
(simply getting up , grabbing some water or coffee )
take another step (starting my morning routine with some music i enjoy )
one more step then motivation kicks in (journaling my to-dos, goals and priorities for the day putting things i enjoy in each thing so i dont need to dread whats next )
inspiration kicks in
turning it up a notch in my belief, i can read the word how can i apply this to my life how can i let this lead me throughout my day ( having a study plan) writing it down even if its not something i can absorb right now i can have it for later,
turning it up a notch in my consistency, having routines not things i dread but things i need and enjoy , see what things stress me out the most figure out why, keeping having a coffee and a playlist i love playing in my ears or the background as i go through my day
turning it up a notch in my discipline, im not gonna let the alarm in morning become something i cant jus go okay and get up and start my day because i know well my favorite songs abt to start playing, soon i’ll get on the phone with the person i love wish him a good day at work , im gonna have a cup coffee do my morning routine and be awake and alive in the morning because
what should stop me ? most certainly shouldnt be me
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Hunny bunches!! I saw your post about being anxious!! you are not a heccin bother!! you are a freakin' blessing and nothing will change that!! you are beautiful!! your art is beautiful!! everything about you is beautiful and i love you!! everyone that follows you loves you!! I can't exactly tell you to get better or to get over it because that's not right. It's wrong. Ilysm and i hope this episode passes because so many people care about you!! ❤💕💜💚💞💘💗💛💙✨
thank you so much, things have only been getting harder for me and this raised my mood. 💙
#ask#rain talks#i dont have enough energy to give u back all of this love but just know it means so much to me.#its a lot more difficult to talk about things now that i have so few people to communicate things to.#even then i just dont wanna bother em.#ik it can be draining or burdening to have peeps dump problems on you and im not tryna be like that.#i just wish i could draw out all of my feelings but when my depressive episodes get too bad i dont even have motivation to pick up my pen.#i try to only talk about happy things or be a meme or pump out art but tumblr is the only platform with peeps i have left#nd i hate bein fake happy or tryna keep positive vibes up when im not actually good just bc it makes me feel sour.#but its so tiresome keeping these feelings in with no good outlets.#my insecurities have shot through the roof and it seems like my life is going to hell and falling apart.#not sure how much longer i can do this but im tryin ya know?#nd as i lay here and type this i cant help but feel regret. im never gonna get used to sharing my feelings genuinely.#i just feel numb.#even crying has started to hurt me and tire me nd i dont even wanna do that anymore.#just stuck in a corner with no way out.
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Ive been thinking that maybe one of the reasons art, especially digital art, has been hard lately is that i keep trying to do big, detailed pieces and getting burnt out so quickly from them and i just hmm
#acro posts#ive had big colored wips on my laptop for awhile now but no motivation to finish any and it sucks!!#just now i tried to do just a small thing but i think i got too detailed with that too and it just made me super frustrated#like i spent like 20 mins trying to get this ocs hair right but it just made me frustrated and i had to just stop drawing all together#my art style is also more on the realistic side when drawing ppl so maybe thats why i keep getting frustrated?#or maybe i need to take a break from drawing my own characters#cause im way more intent on drawing them a very certain way than i am with fictional characters#ugh it sucks that im having to like treat myself like a beginner just to try and get me to draw something#like ive drawn my whole life but like the past couple months i cant get myself to finish any art#i really really hope i dont end up like those ppl who have to give up art for a couple years#like of course u gotta do what u gotta do but i feel like if im not good at art what AM i good at ya know#maybe i just need to do some studies#god i have no idea how to do that tho#its probs weird im posting this on of the only accounts i rarely ever post art on lol#so u guys probably have no idea what im fuckin talking about dkdjdks
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how to improve drawing kinda fast:
ditch lineart for a bit (this way its easier to part with things that aren’t working)
use a REALLY thin brush
copy, copy, copy art you think is ✨art goals✨
don’t post that stuff tho :O
if you need to trace at first, thats fine lol but break away from that eventually!! you gotta train your eyes to draw what you see, spatial awareness is very important
copy hands, poses, expressions, anything you wanna get better at
don’t copy from refs that are way too simple to be used as a “master study”, like from the calarts shows etc.
copy from stuff thats kinda complex bc if you learn how to draw it in that complex way, you can always simplify it if you want ^^
im pretty sure this is how many of us have become obsessed with hip dips details LOL
if something looks off, flip ur canvas, mess with ur sketch, or even delete (or hide) parts of the sketch and try again. if you drew it once, u can draw it again. (erase or hold up the page to the light backwards if drawing on paper)
being cool with parting with your sketch if its not working will make you a better artist
youre allowed to frankenstein refs together lol (a hand from here, a mouth from there...)
if youre having trouble making your sketches look like theres actual shapes, try shading :D
literally the only reason i shade now is to show the shapes of objects in more of a painterly way (its not just for paintings btw, its just easier to describe it that way)
try new things that youre excited about like perspective, anatomy, blah blah
copy!!!! while youre copying it’s gonna be cool to see how much you remember when you try it on your own
scribble a doodle as often as you can, not like urgently, but like as something to look forward to (like how lots of ppl look forward to wordle everyday lol)
this list can apply to anyone but its fine if you wanna take some advice and leave some if it doesn’t work out. this list is mostly just to get you comfortable with sketching and learning, not performing.
I mention that “not performing” thing bc its easy to want to please social media platforms because that attention and validation can feel amazing!
but its also addicting because many of us crave being in a community and talking to ppl who like the same things we do
there are many communities out there from artist youtubers, artist streamers, etc. and many of them have discords and stuff and it might be fun to join! and/or join fandom ones if u want ^^
that way you have something thats not bound by if ig decides to not show your post to your followers or something
there’s also lots of other platforms that aren’t social media based specifically for artist communities too!
with this said, please be safe! never give out private info and you’re always free to block/report ppl who make u uncomfortable or ask weird things.
on the topic of being in communities... reblog art you like! comment the nice things youre thinking in the tags or in an actual comment! share art you like on your ig story!
firstly, this is great for making friends
secondly, the artist cant read ur mind so they don’t hear anything nice youre saying :(
comments can be so motivating!! hearing nice things from my mutuals about my art feels great bc of that authentic human connection we’ve all been missing for like 2 years now
if i see a mutual drawing something and i think “omg they did amazing with the expression!” i write it (ive also been told i leave comments as if im talking and its kinda funny to read sometimes xD)
its channeling “girls support girls” culture in a way lol we’re our best when we’re lifting each other up <3
luv ya, be safe!! and draw lots of things!! :D
add stuff that’s helped you improve kinda fast if u want too! if we put all our brain cells together we’ll be unstoppable heheh
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u know when u open a canvas and ur like “oh its all chill, imma just doodle a bit, get the creative juices flowing, my art groove going” and then u start drawing something and ur like oh this could go somewhere. but somewhere along the middle it just starts feeling really off and you cant lay your finger on why but youve already spent quite some time drawing, erasing, and redoing this so many times you feel too spiteful to give up so you keep going, and by the time you get the lineart done youre like damn i actually have no idea how im gonna finish this. so you slap some colors on it and youre like “wow. this sucks. i dont know why i spent so long in this. it was only supposed to be a doodle, i didnt have fun, and it doesn’t even look good for the time it took. i used to be better than this. i used to be so motivated. what happened to that. where has the spark gone? will it ever come back? ive been asking myself this for 4 years now and the spark has never returned, why am i still trying to push through this passionless activity?”. anyway completely unrelated heres a pastry cookie doodle that i spent a stupid amount of time on.
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