Easter eggs & also they’re in love | Seventh Virtue

“Why did you do it?” Harrison asks. Lonan is lovely, isn’t he? He’s always looked like a sculpture, but Harrison realizes that that isn’t quite right—he looks better than them. The muse.

Lonan grips Harrison’s wound, shaking his head as he lets out a sad laugh. “I was desperate to love you.”

Harrison laughs too. Because it’s funny, how in another plane, their lives could’ve been just the two of them driving silently from Oregon to Boston, chasing each other’s ghosts, separating for a year, coming back together on a cliffside. How easy would that’ve been?

Finally finished my SV reread after an unexpected break (5/5 stars, fantastic work of art tailored to all my needs LOL), and I haddddd to share this hilarious excerpt that starts out super sweet with all the romance & Lonan going full hopeless romantic yada yada yada AND THEN devolving into a quick & dirty summary of Moth Work/Feeding Habits.

HOW easy could THAT have been??? BB Harrison is ON THE PHONE.

HAHAHAHAAHAHA

From Seventh Virtue (2023). Contemporary fantasy.

g o d i’ve been thinking about how possessive tae was with mc when that waiter was possibly flirting with her (i actually can’t remember if he was or not lol) how’s the jealous bear gonna react when he finds out about y/n and yoongi 💀 is he gonna need to be more tactile with her bc he can’t help it or will he begrudgingly accept it 😭

honestly just all the hybrids in general?? the fact that their instincts have them all /Needing/ to sit next to mc, even mr. too cool jeongguk 😅 I can’t wait to see how they react, them saying one thing but their hybrid instincts giving them away sighhh////

insert “i’m so excited bc i love mess” gif here looool

!!!!! I've been thinking about that too WOOF The waiter was definitely eyeing her... and Tae wasn't having that shit at ALL. 💀

Good god I've been thinking about how everyone will react to her and Yoongi for MONTHS. It's definitely going to be a challenging thing for me to write, but I think the angst will be zesty and so worth it. I think in Tae's case, he might distance himself from MC for a bit, to process the whole thing. Definitely some jealousy going on there for sure.

I think they're all going to react differently, and some of them are going to have reactions that we wouldn't expect from that particular character. You know I love surprising you guys fdhjakfjsdf

Thank you for reading bestie!! Can't wait for you to enjoy the mess 🥳

15 Questions 15 Mutuals

Thank you for the tag, @blueberryrock!! I decided to make a new post because the other one was getting quite long.

edit: I’ve been tagged for this more, so adding in the other people who have mentioned me, because I’m not doing it again lol thank you for the tags guys!!

@skinnyscottishbloke @myeaglesong

Rules: answer the questions and tag fifteen mutuals.

1. Are you named after anyone?

Not that I’m aware of. I don’t recall anyone in my family tree from eons back having this name, so probably not.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Hmm, I can’t really remember exactly, but I think it was my last mental breakdown loooool. Life’s hard, man, sometimes ya just gotta cry.

3. Do you have kids?

Absolutely not.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Only all the time.

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Their attitude - I work with people daily and like to think I can get a good read on people and their vibe.

6. What's your eye colour?

Hazel (Green/brown)

7. Scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings. I hate scary movies!

8. Any special talents?

This is hard, but I’m gonna say....no? idk. This is a question I don’t like.

9. Where were you born?

Kansas (pls don’t make any Wizard of Oz jokes looool)

10. What are your hobbies?

Writing, gif making, gaming, tumblr I guess lol

11. Have you any pets?

I have two small dogs! :)

12. What sports do you play/have played?

Soccer and Softball, the latter more than the former, and I miss it terribly.

13. How tall are you?

5'0 (152.4cm)

14. Favorite subject in school?

If we’re talking core classes, then English/Literature, but anything else? Art/web design.

15. Dream job?

Stay at home fic writer (now as me what sounds reasonable 😂😂😂)

non obligatory tags for @middleearthpixie @tetchy-frog @pomgore @porphyriosao3 @wanderingjedihistorian @legoyass @theladygreiwolf @frosticenow @i-did-not-mean-to @eylittlered @mathelaw and honestly, anyone else who wants to play.

had this weird dream about these weird, awful people and woke up desperate to write their stories. the dream had a lot of information & was already very narrative-focused & followed a very clear storyline. I woke up and tried to dig deeper into the characters’ minds & ended up with almost clear cut pasts and even flashbacks and personalities. I’ve had dreams with characters and storylines before, but the information would be half gone by the time I’d woken up. today however I remembered soooo much –I can’t tell if I remembered everything, but what I do remember is so concise & makes so much sense already. anyway the characters are like awful people, they’re all self-centered and cruel and lack empathy and are pretty much incapable of love lol. the backstory of the two main characters is so fucked up and heavy like. how am I supposed to write that???? but they’re all so vivid in my mind it’s crazyyyyyyty!!!!!!!! it’s been like idk almost a DECADE since I felt this DESPERATE to write fiction in prose lmao god. like these characters are terrifying and the whole plot is about murder looool but I’m OBSESSED with them!!!!!!!!!! I’ve already told my husband he wouldn’t like this story because it’s so fucking dark and twisted and awful awful awful but yeah. the worst part will be writing everything out without making it seem like I support what they’re doing, especially the sex scenes 🫠

Time to jump into another chapter. This one is Flash Vol 2, Issue 5 - Speed McGee

Okay so the cover is ridiculous. And I do remember a good amount of this one! Is it bad that I think it's hilarious that Wally as The Flash is a side hoe? Ha ha ha.

Dude Jerry sucks. "Some young punk who can run 600 mph, that turns you on" I mean, when you put it like that... Yes.

Holy shit this is fucked up! D:

Alright. I'm not gonna lie. Truth time. I have looked at this particular panel SO many times. He's just such an idiot in his stupid little shorts and his yellow socks. UGH it's just so good. And he's got this rats nest of power cords that are probably going to set the whole place on fire. His place is a goddamn mess while he's getting set up.

Okay so I'm pretty sure in the previous issues she was 32 and not 31, but eh close enough. I'm just glad to see some 30+ rep.

This is a really depressing storyline. The abuse is just right there, and they're not doing anything to soften it. Obvs the way it's portrayed is nothing new or innovative, but it doesn't have to be.

Oh, Wally. Just snapping into the suit at the drop of a hat. I'll never get tired of it.

Good god what is going in with Jerry. LMAO he ran right into a horse. Good job asshole. Wait oh no it hurt the horse :(

Jfc this guy sucks ass.

Okay so my house doesn't have 33 rooms or anything BUT we do kind of have a big house, and I'll admit that we've given house tours that are almost an hour long. 😅

Looool "you just can't push dust too fast." Speed isn't always the answer, is it Wally?

And then Tina's like "20 year old boys aren't supposed to live like this." I'm glad they are talking about the age difference though. Oof and then he's once again comparing his life to Barry's. Honestly, even though Barry was his mentor and hero, and even though Wally has taken on his title.. they're not at all alike, and they have such different lives. They diverge and diverge, and Wally's out there on his own.

I'm dying. AT LEAST HE PUT ON THE UNDERWEAR.

Uh oh his Dad's here. Jeez they spent half a million already? That's a large percentage that Wally shared with them too. Hm, and the town's liability insurance is cancelled. Seems like there's a lot of downsides to this whole rich guy lottery super hero thing.

Ah it's so sad that Tina's face is all messed up. I know it'd be unrealistic for her to be healed up yet, but :( :( :( I don't like seeing her like that.

This is the face of a man who's about to cause a scene.

Once again, it's so weird and interesting that Wally is dealing with these real-life issues. Like before he wanted health insurance, and now he's being told to go to a city council meeting. Also I can't help but notice how agitated he is. Ah, and even when they get home they go to their separate rooms and Wally's all bummed.

OH NEVERMIND HERE SHE IS coming in with her pink nightie. God. "I don't care if you're wrong for me." Oh, Wally.

Welp now Jerry's here. Heh and there's the POP noise when he's got his suit on.

Holy shit the dude's spraying mustard gas onto Wally?!? Aaaaand now he's grabbed Tina and what the fuck he ran right into a giant fuel tank. Good lord.

Final thoughts:

Um, things REALLY kicked off at the end. Jerry is absolutely insane. I think it was a good writing touch to have it that he's just super crazed and obviously not in control. Like, he's in a total rage and he doesn't know how to handle the powers he's got, so he keeps crashing into stuff. Like, they could've made him this scary badass, but instead he's frightening because he's so unpredictable and so angry.

And then there's Wally and Tina with their very unbalanced relationship that's uncharted and tbh running purely on desire and that feeling of "this is new." But who knows if they're right or wrong for each other. It seems like they're getting together under less than ideal circumstances, but I guess I'll have to see where it goes.

A new love story…

It’s pending though…

2016. His friend asked to meet me. I kindly declined (at least I think it was kind..) and but then he offered maybe something more casual and said his friend could join us. I’ve always had people hit on me but I’ve always been open to meeting new people to hopefully have as friends. I always have felt like it’d be a better experience to just have friends and keep it cool. Idk.

2016. They walk in. It was almost like..lol.. the wind gushed through his hair (he has a fade and a hat on) and the sun shined only on him. Lmao. It was like the world slowed down because I was not in a good place this day but seeing him made me realize I want to be in the best place possible. He barely talked. He said his name and I felt like light years passed and he used to be mine. His friend was the one who asked me to go on this “casual date” but MY GOODNESS what’s yo fren talmbout.

2016. What is this. This man didn’t give impressions that he wanted to see me, only dimly, maybe a few small gestures here and there but I was so sad bc I thought his energy was so fire. Pure perfection! Idk maybe he knew how much his friend liked me and wanted to be a good guy. Or maybe it was 6 other girls on his mind. Or maybe all of that or even none of that. Either way I was trying to be committed and down for any way he’d have me. Oop.

2016 ugh. He just wasn’t havin it. Although I held some loyalty for a while, I gave up and went w the safer choice.. the one who confessed their love for me through time. It’s okay.. I was obsessed w my ex from 2014 anyway. That’s what I always said whenever I got rejected. (L O L she’s sick!) I loved my ex for sure but I absolutely have always used that fantasy to keep me guarded, protected and he didn’t even talk to me lmao. Idk, I just wanted to be loved and my, my how selfish that created me to be because I had no foundation.

2021 mid year. I saw him again! He looked so cute. So quiet and so fake mysterious and so cute. (Fake mysterious bc I felt like I knew him). But ahh. Alas, my boundaries must stay. I remember where this went before and I know what it is now..

But I got his number and was like hey let’s be friends because I like who you are. Genuinely like frfrfr. Like fr. I gotta work on myself anyway so mightswell chill out, have a good guy as my friend and we can have a dope friendship…. I knew how I used to feel though. My heart dropped when I saw him at first, ngl, but I kept it cool I think. Lol.

I asked him to come listen to an album with me to hopefully make up for a comment I made talkin bout “he can’t come spin the block on me”. We hung out and it was cool. Reeeal cool. Perfect actually.

2021 November. He came to da crib w the fam. I invited him and my friend over to have dinner with the fam and have fun. Miscommunication hit with my friend so she ain’t come, but he came! And..tehe.. lol.. why I feel like he had a good time w us and really enjoyed me? Oh maybe because after some good family time we went to my room and listened to music doing nothing and he actually staaayed and didn’t cross the line. I asked him to write a poem and why’d it seem like a love letter to me?? Ohh because it was bro! Idk. I definitely was in denial but the words were a bit too direct to not think it was about me and us in that moment. Talkin bout “who sent you.. why we vibe like this?” AHH he’s fire. But maybe it’s not about me idk looool. Anywho, I’m a God damn wreck, ain’t no way. And he’s so sweet why’d I bring him into my bs. I’m terrible right now. But honestly I was extremely hype that he might’ve felt a way.

“Let’s stay friends”. He invited me to a few family gatherings and I did too. But I was like naww im getting over my ex from 2014 I’ve been obsessed with for years and we just started rekindling, I ain’t bout to drop this for you!! You used to play me like a guitar boy! And you don’t even know how much I liked you!! Ahh!!!! I’m sitting here prayed for a husband around Oct/Nov and you just gon show up and have perfect energy?! I can’t even believe you’d ever love me sooo like nah. You are not gonna love me how my ex did!… I suck fr.

We met again he brought me a flower

2022 we hung out on New Years. Tears because ugh. Why’s he so fire. But no! I must stay the course and not fall in love again! No Mammer! “Let’s stay friends”

He cooked for me not once not twice but a million times!

He invited me over not once, not twice but a million times!

“Let’s like not just be friends” he wanted me so bad and expressed that. Maybe let’s not be JUST friends.. dang it he got me. Im still gonna keep my ex in the background of my thoughts in case this fails but I’ll still be down and not link w anybody. Let me just be celibate actually or abstinent. Whatever, some months passed and I made sure to never EVA do anything wrong or to betray his trust and if I felt I would I’d leave him for my ex I’d just leave him alone now! I WANT YOU BOY I LOVE YOU BOY!! But alas, I never shared that and his fire burned out slowly… it seemed. He still cared for me but he had his guard up now bc he couldn’t trust I’d be down. But omg I’m DOWN. I’M UP FOR YOU.

Now I’m writing love poems to get him back…

2023 wish me luck. Pray for me. Please I know I’ll be okay but I miss that man dearly.

𖣯 ✹ Get to Know Me ꏍ ！

if i’m asked what i often do when i first wake up, or as simple as, what is my morning routines? well these are my answers. uhm, basically, my morning routines are not much different from all the girls out there, literally nothing is different. but, okay, i will make this as a form for me to stay productive in my lazy days hahahaha.

no matter what time i sleep at night, I always wake up at five in the morning, it is my duty as a human being that leads me to wake up that early, to simply express my gratitude and thanks to God for the life and breath that has been given to me still continues to flow. thank you God. 🧘🏻‍♀️ yep.. but, if you think my activities really start every five in the morning then you guessed it wrong looool because i usually back to sleep after my religious activity and wake up again around eight until nine in the morning. good morning? i guess… My activities really start around this hour.

every time I wake up in the morning, first thing first i do is, daydreaming, I can’t remember yet I don’t know how long, but I will try to restore my life, which may still be wandering in my dreamland, eventhough sometimes I don’t even know what dream I had last night, it was so deep. Sometimes.

Checking on my phone. I know every each of you do the same thing as me, do you? It’s like I just keep checking my notifications bar eventho I found nothing there *🎻🎻🎻* HAHAHAHAH. Ok skip.

Drink a glass of water. It’s the most important, I always tell my closest ones to always brings their tumbler and drink a lot. Please, it’s important for your health. Stay hydrated..!

BATAGOOOOOOR TIME! I really love batagor! You know I’ve telling you (probably) many times that I do thinking that Batagor is the most delicious food in earth. I love batagor. (Not only batagor sih, I love foods and I love eating)

This is the most laziest thing that I should do every morning, clean the house. I won’t explain much about this cleaning agenda but I hate this. 😴

Take a bath, do my skincare routines and ngegabut all day......!!!!!!!! Yeay……..!!!!!!!

That’s all I do every morning repeatedly everyday. Nothing’s different, nothing’s special about my morning activities actually.. oh I forget to write this but I usually like to make such a to do list? But not really works on me, so, yap, I do my things randomly just like that..

just bc it’s on my mind do u think bakugos kid has a cowlick

Biggest Regret

Pairing: Billy Russo x Reader 

A/N: This one wasn't a request. I have Billy on the brain so much that I literally woke up and this popped into my head as I was laying there trying to fully wake up and I had to write it lmao It's just a little thing. A letter from Billy to you. I know a lot of you guys might want a part two for it, the resolution to the letter and there's a few ways it could go. So if anyone asks for a part two, let me know how you want it. Angsty? Fluffy? A mix? And I'll see what the general consensus is. I already have a slight idea about it but I wanna know what you guys want. 

Also this is my AU dreamland where Billy didn’t betray Frank looool

Warnings: cursing, angst, sadness and regret from Billy. Talks of pregnancy and babies and abandonment.

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Y/N,

I know it's been a while and I don't even know if you still live where you did back then or if you'll get this. I'd say some shit like I hope you're doing well, which I am, but… I know you won't want to hear it. 

I'm overseas again right now with Anvil. Me and Frank are taking point on a serious mission we're doing. Anvil's doing pretty well right now and we just got a contract from the CIA which is how we ended up here. Being out here like this, it reminds me of being deployed. Part of me missed it, I guess.

It's given me a lot to think about. It's funny how life and death situations do that to you, puts it all in perspective. And I know… I know you probably hate me and I don't blame you but I just hope if you do get this letter that you at least read it all. 

I never should have walked away last year. I used to think I was a brave man, I mean the shit I've faced in the marines and with Anvil… I never backed down and I always fought. But with this. With you and the baby, I tucked tail and ran and I'll never forgive myself for that. 

Honestly, I was terrified. I didn't think I could be the man you and the baby needed. I don't know what it's like to have loving parents and I hate myself so much for walking away. I don't want to do to my own kid what my mom did to me. I don't want them to grow up thinking I don't care, that I don't want them. It was never about that. I was never angry you were pregnant, I was never resentful. I was just scared that I'd fuck it up beyond repair so I got out of there before I had the chance. 

I should have been there for you, Y/N. I should have been there to hold your hair from your face when you got sick. To go out at 3am and get you pickles or whatever the fuck it is that pregnant women love to eat. I should have been there with you at the birthing classes and the scans and the appointments. I should have been there to hold your hand in the delivery room, to tell you what an amazing job it is you're doing. I should have been there to hold my kid when they came into the world. To be there for you and them. 

I can't take that back. I can't rewind time and be there and I wish I could. I don't know anything about my own baby which hurts the shit outta me and it's my own fault. I don't know if they're a boy or girl, how old they are. I know they'll roughly be a few months old based on when I walked away but that's about it. Do they look more like me or you? Are they a happy or fussy baby? This is the shit that's been running through my head out here. Fuck… I don't know if…. I don't even know if you kept the baby and that shit hurts too deep to even consider. But I know you well enough. Or at least I think I do. And I don't think you would have done that. As much as it would kill me inside, if you did I wouldn't blame you. I'd left you all alone to deal with it and I know neither of us planned a kid. 

Frankie was the one who told me to write this. He's been putting up with me nonstop the last month of us being out here crying  talking about you and the baby. He and Maria miss you, the kids too. Maybe that alone should have told me back then how important you were to me. I'd never introduced any of the girls I slept with to them, but it just felt natural to me back then. I'd wanted to. I couldn't even see just how much you meant to me. 

It's like they always say, you don't know what you've got 'till it's gone. And I didn't know just how much I cared about you until that day I walked away and I fucking miss you, Y/N. Frank and Maria always ask if I'd heard anything about the baby or if I've reached out and it breaks my heart every time with how disappointed they are. I guess I never really thought they'd be excited for me to have a kid. But they're my family, of course they would be. 

Frank roughed me up, you know that? I didn't tell him right away about the baby. He'd ask about you and I told him we decided it wasn't working like the coward I am. But then a few weeks after I told him the truth. He clocked me in the jaw, yanked me around as he yelled about how stupid and selfish I was. And I let him. He was right and I deserved it. I don't think I've ever seen Frankie so mad before and that's saying something. 

I know I should have reached out sooner, but being out here on the front lines like this, it reminds me of how fleeting life can be. And I wish it didn't take something extreme like that to give me the balls to man up and write this to you but I think we've all established I'm not as brave as I once thought I was. 

I have no right asking you for anything, I know that. But I miss you and I want to be a part of our baby's life. And you can ignore this letter or tell me to go fuck myself and I'll listen. If you tell me to stay away, I will. I owe you that much. But I'd… even if you could tell me about them a little, it would mean the world everything to me. And I know I don't deserve shit but I'm selfish and asking you anyway. 

I've seen and done a lot of shit in my life and your face has haunted me every single night since the day I walked away. I saw how scared you were. You were just as terrified as me about the baby and I wasn't there for you. I didn't comfort you or reassure you that we'd get through it together. Instead I shut down and told you I couldn't do it, I wouldn't do it. And then you looked at me with such heartbreak that it makes my chest feel tight and I fucking hate it. Every time I close my eyes I remember those looks and I know I'm a piece of shit for ever putting them on your face. 

It hurts more that you just accepted it. Like you expected it from me. I guess you knew me well enough to have an idea how it would go when you told me. And then you fucking respected my wishes and didn't contact me about anything. You didn't owe me that. You should have harassed me, called me a piece of shit, fought me, got child support. Fucking something. But of course you didn't. You've always been too kind and caring for that. Always looked after me even when I least deserve it. 

And I guess I'm hoping that even through the hate and betrayal you feel for me, that maybe somewhere in there you still care even just a little. Enough to put me out of my misery. Enough to send even a letter with the bare minimum details about our kid. I'm hoping that I didn't change you because you were perfect as you were and the last thing I want is to have fucked you up because of my own insecurities. 

There isn't a day that goes by where I don't think of you. Think of the baby. I wonder how you're both doing and if you're happy. I know you'd be a great mom and despite it all, I'm glad that if I had a kid with anyone that it was you. I'm coming back stateside in three weeks. It's gonna kill me not knowing if you've wrote back or not but I won't hold it against you if you don't. 

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you. For making you go through all this alone. For walking away from you and the baby like I did. If I was there I'd be down on my knees begging for forgiveness for what I did. All I can hope is that you take some mercy on me, even just a little. 

I miss you, Y,N. I miss you so much it hurts and I'm just sorry. Whatever you decide, I'll understand and respect it. I love you. And yeah I probably shouldn't say that, might feel like a smack in the face after everything I've done, but I do. And I know I never told you that when we were together. We were never really 'serious' or whatever, or at least that's what I told myself. But it was only ever you. When I was with you there were no others. And I couldn't see it at the time but I'd fell in love with you the moment we met in that damn grocery store. I don't know if you ever felt the same about me but I know even if you did I've ruined that. I don't expect anything from you. I fucked up and I know that. But it doesn't change that I want to be there now. I want to know about our baby, I want to be part of their life. I want them to grow up knowing I care about them because I do.

I hope to hear from you when I'm back but I won't hold my breath. I hope… I hope you're both doing okay and I'm just sorry for everything. I hope one day you'll be able to forgive me.

Billy 

I wish you would write a fic where Anakin accidentally interrupts a date Obi-Wan's on and doesn't realize it until after he leaves them

Yeees ehehehe I had fun with this one. Hope you enjoy this too!

Anakin needs Obi-Wan's help. 

Anakin really needs Obi-Wan's help. 

His Galactic History homework is due in only two hours, and he's barely started it. He’s already in deep Bantha poodoo in the class. He'll take another lecture from Obi-wan if it means avoiding having to take the class all over again. 

But Anakin runs into another problem. Obi-wan isn't anywhere in the temple. Which doesn't make sense, since he makes sure Anakin knows if he leaves for a solo mission or anything like that. And yet, Obi-wan isn't in their apartment, or the Archives, or even the planetarium. Anakin searches the entire Room of a Thousand Fountains, and yet, no Obi-wan. 

Eventually he’s desperate enough to venture down to the Aquatic Levels Tunnel. He might have learned to swim now, but that doesn't mean having all that water around him with only transparisteel separating it from him doesn't make him a little nervous -- not that he shows it, of course. 

But unfortunately, Obi-wan isn't there either. 

"Anakin, what's wrong?" He turns to see Bant floating in the water on the other side of the glass from him.

"I'm looking for Obi-wan," he says. "I can’t find him, and he's not answering his comm!"

Bant tilts her head. "Don't you remember? He mentioned this morning he would be at Dex's for a long lunch today."

"Umm." Anakin thinks back to breakfast and remembers goofing off with Aayla and  Obi-wan saying something about Dex's that he definitely hadn't been paying attention to. 

Bant gives him a knowing look and grins. "Well, he should be at Dex's if you really need him. Anything I could help with though?" Bant asks.

Anakin quickly shakes his head. "No, thank you! I'll go find Obi-wan!" He waves to her before running off, glad to be leaving the Aquatic Levels. 

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He heads straight for Dex’s diner, absently waving hello to Dex and FLO before looking around the room for Obi-wan. 

“Obi-wan!” he cries, finding his master seated in one of the corner booths almost tucked out of sight. Anakin slides into the seat across the table from him, ignores Obi-wan’s exasperated “Anakin!” and practically flings his datapad at his master. “I need help in Galactic History, and this is due in one hour, and you know I’m awful at it,” he says. “You have to help me, Obi-wan! You’re my only hope![1]”

He doesn’t even realize there’s someone sitting next to Obi-wan until the man, a stranger, pulls the datapad closer and, with a contemplative hum, starts answering the questions:

“The B’ankor Refuge was created because...the B’ankora’s planet was destroyed by a cataclysmic meteor collision in 869 Ruus.

“In 876 Ruus, the Senate declared the Outer Rim Territories...a free-trade zone exempt from taxation. 

The Diktat became the head of state for Corellia when…the monarchy was overthrown by a coalition of corporations in --.”

“Wait! Wait! Wait a second!” Anakin interrupts, snatching the datapad back from the man. He starts entering in the answers. "Okay, meteor collision in 869 Ruus...free-trade zone tax exemption... coalition of corporations in...what year?"

"850 Ruus," the man says readily. 

"Anakin," Obi-wan chides him, but Anakin ignores him, recording the date. "Jango, you really don't have to help him. If he'd done the readings for the week, he wouldn't be in this situation."

"I don't mind," the man said. "I've always wondered what they're teaching you Jedi."

"Okay, in 808 Ruus, what happened to the Fere?" Anakin asks.

"Wiped out by plague," Jango answers as Obi-wan sighs loudly but settles back in his seat, clearly resigned. 

Anakin takes full advantage of that, asking, "Okay, why did the Tarasin revolt happen?"

The next twenty minutes go by with Anakin reading off questions and Jango answering them, Obi-wan interjecting here and there for the more Jedi-specific topics. Between the two of them, Anakin finishes his assignment in what is honestly record time. 

“And...done!” he exclaims, saving and sending off the assignment with a good thirty minutes to spare. He looks at the time and hops out of the booth. “I have to get to class! Thank you for your help, sir! See you later, Obi-wan!” 

He runs off before they can say anything, though he’s sure Obi-wan plans to give him an excruciatingly long lecture in the evening, not just on procrastinating but on good manners. 

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Anakin makes it almost into the Temple before he realizes that Obi-wan had been on a lunch date. He had interrupted a lunch date. That had definitely been an arm around Obi-wan’s waist. Obi-wan had definitely been leaning subtly against Jango. 

He nearly trips down the stairs in front of the Temple.

He doesn’t know what to focus on. Obi-wan on a lunch date? Obi-wan dating? Obi-wan apparently dating one person -- this Jango -- for a while? Obi-wan with a--a--significant other? Obi-wan openly cuddling with someone -- in public? He interrupted Obi-wan’s date? With homework?

He feels like a droid with its programming stuck in an infinite loop[2], questions going round and round inside his head and freezing him in his steps.

He does not make it to class on time.

Notes:

[1] I could not resist.

[2] Ah good old flashbacks to learning to code in high school...

RIP ANAKIN.

ALSO, JANGO IS SUCH A NERD.

I had to trawl through the Canon and Legends timelines for material here.

Also, Anakin and his tunnel vision LOOOOL

20 questions Writer’s Edition

Thanks @blitheringmcgonagall for tagging me in this! 

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

34

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

696,047

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

Harry Potter (Marauders Era) Marvel (Stucky, Bucky/OC, Pietro/OC) And then one about Sam Kiszka from Greta Van Fleet (that I wrote as a commission, sort of) and one I wrote about Lee Pace (cause I saw it in a dream lol)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

The Lad That Loved You - sort of canon Hogwarts-era fic with a twist on The Prank (Remus and Sirius pretend to fight to cover up their relationship)

When It Counted - Remus gets spiked with Veritaserum and makes Sirius (and everyone else) believe it was Amortentia to cover up the truth

Vow Under the Covers - Remus is getting married. And not to Sirius. And Sirius has to decide if he can live with that.

Save Me, Save Me, Save Me - Remus thinks Sirius is in love with his neighbor and offers to help cook her dinner (Sirius and Marlene have to pretend to be attracted to each other, despite being VERY GAY, to cover up Sirius’ feelings)

Heavy In Your Arms - Sirius is the Slytherin prefect and has to nurse Remus Lupin back to health after a vicious full moon 

5. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

ABSOLUTELY - comments make my whole day, my whole week, I want people who take the time to comment to know that I LOVE THEM DEARLY

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

It’s a one-shot, but the angstiest ending is definitely in Where The Willow Don’t Bend (the story is about Remus becoming one of the ghosts at Hogwarts, so it’s OBVIOUS that it is not going to exactly end ... happily)

7. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

Generally, I tend to write all my fics with happy endings? Real life has enough terrible endings on its own AND I’M HERE TO ESCAPE FROM THAT OKAY 

But honestly, I think the ending in Heavy In Your Arms is QUITE happy :)

8. Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I’ve never written a crossover! I don’t write for enough fandoms to have done that, I guess. Mostly just HP and Marvel and there isn’t a lot of room for crossover there, lol (besides, I haven’t written for Marvel in ages)

9. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Somewhat. In Show Me Everything I Missed, I had someone tell me they were disappointed with how I made Remus be the emotional weight-bearer of the fic. But it was DIRECTLY after Sirius had gone through a VERY traumatic event, so of course Remus would be trying to help him through it. I get where they were coming from, and I guess I should be honored that my characters made them upset? isn’t that kind of the point of angst?? 

10. Do you write smut? If so what kind?

I do. For me, I went to private school (read: religious), so it was heavily instilled in me that sex is bad and disgusting and dirty, but then you get married and suddenly it’s beautiful and holy and important? So it took me a long time to be comfortable with sex in general, even more so with the idea of writing it down, but the idea of “smut” is kind of nonsensical to me. We go through all these things as human beings and those are all okay to write and to read and to experience, but a BASIC HUMAN NEED for most people is something to be hidden?? I’m going on a rant, but basically, I’m tired of the stigma, I guess.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not ... directly?? I have had people tell me, after the fact, that they posted my fic on a site outside of AO3 but it was still listed as being written by me, but I didn’t have an account with that site. I was still sort of weirded out by that one. 

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

yes! I had someone ask my permission to translate to ... Italian? I think? I can’t quite remember, but that was kind of cool, I guess. Again, it’s sort of iffy with those things because I think this was on a third-party site, too, so I was kind of indirectly attached to it.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I never have! I have a problem with deadlines and working as a group looool I think i have control issues?? hahahahah 

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

Wolfstar, hands down. I’ve been writing Wolfstar for, gosh, almost ten years. Which, comparatively is not that long, but it’s longer than any other ship for me

15. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

I have a couple WIPs for characters that are NOT Wolfstar that I’d like to finish (mostly the one about Cassidy from Preacher, because I have a MASSIVE Joe Gilgun crush) but I haven’t written on it in YEARS so it’s probably not happening

16. What are your writing strengths?

oh gosh. okay, so i’m not good at answering these. I think I write smut relatively well? I do pretty good angst I think?? My characterization is usually something people enjoy? (honestly, i just write them as MY own versions of the character, but people seem to agree with me for the most part??)

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I FOUND THIS OUT RECENTLY - i am not always good at following through with a plan for a fic and also i am not good at writing down what i see in my head. for example, if a character has black hair and glasses in my head (but maybe not necessarily in canon), i often have to go back and add these details because halfway through, i’ll be like DID I EVEN TELL THEM WHAT HE LOOKS LIKE AT ALL??? 

18. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

oh i’m SHITE at it. I wish I could speak another language well enough that I could incorporate it into my fics, but I doubt that will ever happen for me! (I had quite a bit of French dialogue in We Can Pretend and it went okay, but I did have someone tell me I had a grammatical error because I just used Google Translate lol)

19. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

this is going to be a HILARIOUS answer, but ... the Good Charlotte fandom. I never posted it, just my friends read it (I had quite a few fics about boys in bands back then, I was sixteen) but yeah it was a total soap opera. Like. outrageous.

20. What’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

They all have uniquely special places in my heart, but I have two favorites:

We Can Pretend - Remus and his father are the butlers for the Black family, and Remus has to figure out how to take care of Sirius while hiding his feelings

Heavy in Your Arms (the Slytherin!Sirius one, and also Ravenclaw!Remus!)

time for the cat memorial post aka try to write out everything i remember

her name’s spicy, we adopted her in 2007 after our previous cat ginie died. now THAT was sad for me, she died during the night so i missed it and i only saw her when my dad put her on the table for me to say goodbye. and i was an emotionally constipated nut back then so i went back upstairs to sleep iirc?? even though it was morning? i guess i was already nocturnal back then. anyway, went back upstairs to sleep and never saw her get buried. and then i didn’t tell anyone for ages she was dead. i still miss her loads cause she was my first cat and she was born on nov 1 1989 (and me, in jan 1990 so it’s like she’s my older sister) and i can’t remember when in 2007 she died exactly but yeah.

anyway so i had all this unresolved stuff over ginie, i guess. enter spicy, who we got from the RSPCA. she yowled the whole drive home, as is typical of most cats in a car lol, the place was at ingleside which is the northern beaches so yeahhh a bit of a drive. 

soooo at first i wasn’t too keen on her because my mum wanted a replacement cat so she picked a cat that looked A LOT like ginie, in fact they look super similar in terms of the coat/colours. only their faces are a fair bit different. anyway so i was a bit meh towards her at first because of the similarities...

she came with anxiety! idk why, i guess it was a thing from her previous owner, but she’d get super nervous at being yelled at, so we didn’t. and she was our first indoor cat so that was, well, new for me. oddly, i don’t remember much from the 2010s, idk why. she hated music though lol, and when i started playing piano again she’d start YOWLING and yelling at me, i guess because she didn’t understand why i was suddenly making so much noise and wtf was that noise?! (fyi it’s a grand piano and apparently my neighbours can hear it from FOUR doors away akjnfkgjnfkgjn)

she also hated violin. obviously. but a bit less than piano because it wasn’t as loud. ya she hates music haha

over the lockdown in 2020 we suddenly started spending a lot more time with her because we were at home all the time, and then she started getting BOSSY and spoilt and it was really really cute. she’d yell at us all in the morning because she was HUNGRY and then she wanted (a2) MILK. also, she had a hatefest with the neighbour’s cat, tiger, and on the occasion when they would fight with the glass door/flyscreen door separating them (or once, when the door was opened momentarily) she would always apparently win because she’s actually kinda surprise!ferocious, and we were standing around as backup looool whereas tiger knows he’s gotta be good or else he won’t get food off us. but i’m pretty sure if they were alone and having a catfight, tiger would’ve won. he’s a lot younger... and he’s a very chunky boy now because he loooves food. i’m pretty sure he goes round to multiple houses on our street and just begs for food. (but now mostly he spends time in our garden...)

ETA: my cat really liked sunning herself on the balcony, like any cat, and sniffing the air, and at this point we would’ve totally liked to have let her explore the garden but tiger was on the scene now and that’s his territory and it absolutely would’ve been a cat fight if we’d let her out. plus, you don’t know where he is, so you can’t just let her out.

anyway, then sometime this year my cat just went weird, like her personality changed, i guess it was old age. she used to like softtttttt beds, the softest available--she also used to be very vocal and would talk a lot and demand me to pat her all the time, ALL THE TIME. and she liked trying human food. (but then she would start pulling out her hair because human food is salty, so we had to really limit her human food intake and eventually stop it altogether.) anyway, she used to like soft beds but suddenly she’d only sleep on hard things, like the floor. and she stopped asking me for pats so often, and then she was only interested in food. and in the last month or so she peed on the kitchen floor quite a bit, not always the litterbox, and yeah. and she seemed to only want pats when she was meowing for food. and then she just wanted food.

but she always liked bathrooms and water looool, every time it was raining outside she was like, MEOW LET ME OUT. and she liked watching the rain. and bathrooms, i guess she liked the water, and also how cold the tiles were, probably? she liked bathrooms until the end

anyway. i oddly feel like this has no ending. i have loads of memories and i’m certain i’ve forgotten heaps. but that’s okay, i can always come back and add to this if i want to

honestly the hardest thing to deal with now probably is the fact that she’s gone and all those little things you’re used to, they’re just not there anymore. like how we greet her, we’re gonna maybe still think of greeting her for quite a while but she’s not gonna be there anymore. things like that.

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AAAH already forgot to mention: a few days ago we got the kitchen area tiled downstairs, during which they had to take down one of the back doors, and then when they were done they put it back. and then my dad accidentally didn’t pull it tight. so sometime that night it evidently swung open... and i was on the computer here and i heard my cat walking around a bit in the kitchen, and then i heard some other stuff, and then i got out of my room to go to the toilet. there’s a litterbox outside the door of this room and there was a cat that night in front of the litterbox, and i looked at this cat and i thought ‘that’s not my cat--omG TIGER???’ cause yeah evidently he’d just wandered through the door when it opened and came upstairs. and i yelled really loudly lol and he ran down the stairs and all the way back outside, and i was like ~omg paniccc cause i didn’t know if my cat had noticed (she’d been getting really stressed lately about tiny things, about every small change, even if we mention the name ‘tiger’) and also i was worried if maybe tiger had noticed her and went and attacked her. but i don’t think she even saw him, i think she was asleep, though i think she would’ve smelled him a little bit afterwards even though my mum mopped the floor where he had walked to get rid of his smell. (yeah, she got stressed when she could smell him so we kept the back doors shut the whole time.) (and tiger probably could smell her from the litterbox/the floor in general, but i don’t think he saw her yet, or else. so uh i guess i was lucky to come out just in time!! aaaah) (btw you wouldn’t quite know it but it’s kinda freaky to see a cat that isn’t yours in your house :P i do like tiger though, he’s a cute boy. at least it was a CAT, not, you know, something/someone else...)

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10:16am just came upstairs from burying her.

<3

tiger came over and sniffed and then he watched from afar. he knows, i think. when my cat stopped going downstairs he started wondering where she was, cause they always used to glare at each other through the kitchen door. (well, my cat did the glaring, tiger did the innocent act.)

Aight, these are my theories for WANDAVISION:

•MORE THAN OBVIOUS THAT WANDA IS CONTROLLING EVERYTHING. Proof: First Vision tries to pass that door with her but she is not able to pass like Vision said “I only can pass myself trough objects/humans and i can’t bring anything/anyone else w me” but then Wanda changes that at her like by making Vision pass with her trough the chair. When Vision’s boss is dying Vision doesn’t do anything, when he actually could have done something the first moment he saw him choke, but he just looks at Wanda waiting for her to give him the command to save him, also the Boss’ wife tells Wanda to “Stop it” not her husband. Also, the Boss was choking bc he was humiliating Wanda when he was asking about the marriage and she didn’t know the answer. Dottie also tells Wanda that she doesn’t like them and she is very mean to her, but then she wins the talent show, meaning Wanda made that change to. At the end of ep 2 Wanda sees the “Beekeeper” and she confidently says “no, u are not going to get in here, this is my life, my choice” and just turns back time.

•AGNES IS DEFINITELY AGATHA HARKNESS, she is a bad witch and i think that she is with Wanda in this, like maybe Wanda called for help and Agatha just came as a godmother fair lol and told her about pocket dimensions, she maybe sold it to her like a “good thing” but maybe she is just trying to extract Wanda’s magic for herself cause our girl is super powerful and everybody wants this. Now what i think about this part is that Wanda really kidnapped a whole town and made them be part of her simulation and Agatha introduced herself in there and she is the only one that Wanda can’t have control over, if you see Agnes in ep1 when she brings food Wanda tries to get her out of there, which will usually work with anyone, but it takes a lot to make her go, also Agnes comes back again at the front door this time making Wanda nervous, in ep2 she also humiliated her by saying that her clothes are a bad choice. Then, in a trailer (i don’t remember which one exactly, maybe the second one where Vision is dressed for Halloween) Agnes is dressed as a witch and literally gives creepy vibes, that’s also a sign of what is she.

•Okay so bc Wanda kidnapped the whole town and created a magic shield for no one to enter, S.W.O.R.D appears (you can see the logo in the Beekeeper and also Monica in one trailer for a split of sec) bc S.H.I.E.L.D is like half dead at this point so they take over and tries to reach to Wanda thought the field, but maybe they make her angry cause suddenly Monica Rambeau is in the dimension acting a lil strange so Wanda just kidnapped her and put her there but bc she is like a well trained agent (and basically the next Captain Marvel) she somehow gets to fight over Wanda’s mind control and tries to reach out to her real herself, but it blurry and messy. Like when she meets Wanda she hesitates a little bit to answer when she asks for her name and is very nervous around Wanda, like she is terrified, maybe her subconscious is telling her to be cause Wanda is her captor.

•ALSO THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT AND EXCITED THING FOR ME. Are we getting an X-Men crossover?? Cause S.W.O.R.D is mostly composed of X-Men members like Beast, Cable, Magneto, ABIGAIL, etc. so maybe we getting Cable or Magneto? this guiding by Deadpool’s change of timeline, but maybe when Cable said that he would stay around it was in order for him to be part of S.W.O.R.D or sum? (which btw, will be super weird seeing Josh as Cable in MCU after him being Thanos lol maybe Wanda is gonna kill him looool) BUT WHAT I KNOW IS THAT if you go to cast list for WandaVision on google you get Evan Peters as “Quicksilver” old if they made a mistake and they wanted to put Aaron instead of Evan, but if we get Evan that officially means that X-Men are coming into MCU now that Disney bought Fox. If we get Aaron it will be fucking amazing, but... i don’t think is happening...

•WHERE IS WANDA’s ACCENT AT? She is supposed to have an accent, like in every movie, but suddenly she doesn’t have it. Could this be bc she is kinda ashamed of herself? like she wants to pretend she is not Wanda Maximoff, the one that everyone fears of, the Sokovian chick that hurt people by accident.

•LASTLY, COMING BACK TO VISION, notice how imperfect he is? he is a robot and in AOU he is presented as a perfect being who knows everything except human emotions/actions, he indeed tries to understand them but as we take a look in Infinity War while he tries to be human we see him stiff, still very robot like, knowing and sensing everything which kinda annoys Wanda bc she just wanted to be with him in peace. Well in the series he is awkward, very socially awkward, he also forgets things, like the 23 heart heart thingy, he really acted like a typical husband, just exactly what Wanda wanted, a typical relationshiop where husband forgets things and then messes up, but the funny thing about that part is that he says “I know everything” but he didn’t know what 23 heart meant, Wanda made him imperfect with real human struggles.

anyways, i need more of this show.

(edit: i know i made grammar errors, forgive me but english ain’t my first language and after all these years i still make mistakes while writing, also i was very emotional and excited while writing this lol.)

Amelia why did you delete your previous tag game? The one with the selfie! I saw it last night but I was too sleepy to reply 😭 you’re so cute and I LOVED your make up!!! You are so pretty 💕

I can’t remember exactly what the game said about your writing but I remember thinking it was accurate because your stories always make me feel happy and warm… after breaking my heart with the angst lol

Have a lovely day 💖🌻✨

ooooh hello fran 🥰 yeah I always delete the selfie tag’s a little while later bc I don’t feel comfortable leaving them up for so long. normally I wouldn’t participate but I think it’s nice to put a face to a name which is why I do it, but I just don’t wanna leave it up for too long, internet safety and all that 😂 but thank you! 💘💘 I’m only like that w makeup looool 😂

& that’s so sweet 🥺 I love that you think my writing is like that bc it’s pretty much what I go for. loads of angst but in the end it’s always a heartwarming resolution ❤️

how has your week been!? 😋 how’s the work and studying coming along? I hope you got to grade all those papers,, being a teacher seems super stressful idk how you do it with everything else! 😩😩

7 with kageyama? :~)

FINALLLYYYY A FUCKIN HARRY STYLES SONG UP IN HERE LOOOOL why am i yelling

also its my first time writing about kageyama! what a ride wowow

warnings: nsfw; its just foreplay(ish) sorry lol!! fingering, did i write sub!kags? kinda yeah WHAT ABOUT IT; theres like a touch of plot if you squint? lmfaooooo lemme just have my thirsty moment

character: kageyama x fem!reader (i hope fem is ok? omfgdjfghjsd)

...

she by harry styles

she lives in daydreams with me

...

This was not how Kageyama intended for his night to go. It was supposed to be a relaxing night with his friends at the bar. When he saw you across the dance floor, he nearly choked on his drink. He felt the invisible tether between the two of you that he almost forgot about. The thin invisible leash wrapped around his neck, forever in your hands. The addicting feeling of your lips all over his body, the way your hips swayed just right to make him fall apart, it all came flooding back to his memory, his blood suddenly flooding towards his lower half. 

It had been nearly a year since you two last spoke, so how did he end up back here? He can’t even remember what he said to you, the next moment you were back in his bed that had been screaming for your presence all this time. And now here Kageyama was, kneeling before you, worshiping the sinful place that brought him to heaven between your thighs.

He pressed soft kisses up your legs as you lay spread out on his bed, admiring the way you shivered at the sensation. His fingers hooked onto the lace of your underwear, but before he could manage to pull them down, you quickly swung a leg over him to cross your legs. A quiet whine fell from his lips, surprising you both.

“Please, angel,” Kageyama groaned, “Let me make you feel good.” His breath was shaky, his still clothed cock aching to pleasure you. You couldn’t help but smirk, satisfied with the desperation swirling in his eyes, but you and Kageyama both knew you didn’t even have to ask him to beg. You swung your leg out again to rest across his shoulder, lifting your hips to let Kageyama take off your panties, the last barrier between him and your soaked core. His flat tongue dragged up your slit and settled on circling around your sensitive clit. Your back arched off of the bed, and Kageyama could’ve sworn that your reactions pleasured him more than he was pleasuring you right now. 

He continued to swirl his tongue around the bundle of nerves, sending waves of euphoria through you. He reached a hand up to push two slender fingers into your wet pussy, making you grip his raven hair to ground yourself. His skillful tongue and his merciless fingers working into you had you coming undone, his name strung along with curses fell from your lips. 

He was back in heaven and he wasn’t coming down anytime soon.

It’s your kaylor historian here who still can’t remember my log in details to my KH account 🤦‍♀️ (so please make sure this anon just in case it isn’t... I fear them 👀)

Karlie’s tea post before masters heist:

Ok so I can’t remember who posted first and don’t feel like looking, but taylor posted a selfie and captioned it “Friday calmness” and we (kaylor fandom) had been speculating taylor was going to come out as bi on the last day of June / 🌈pride month🌈 since she’d been doing so much stuff that could be seen (and was) as queer coded. We celebrated the “Friday calmness” thinking it was like a ‘calm before the storm’ with the storm being her coming out.

I think Karlie posted after taylor, but am not 100% sure. Karlie posted a selfie with a cup with a caption like “what’s the tea” and the fandom, thinking they were still together, collectively lost our shit. It looked to us like Karlie was playing off Taylor’s post. (I’ll admit, I didn’t think kaylor were still together, but that weekend I was thinking ‘I can’t believe I doubted them!’ Lol)

*there were also rumours that the YNTCD video and single were delayed a couple of times and meant to be released sooner and serve as a soft coming out, but that taylor kept changing her mind about it and is also why she kept the tracklist length under wraps, because she wasn’t sure if she’d go through with it. She was way more vague than ever before. There were also rumours she had a rolling stone cover planned that she was going to come out in but it was scrapped —— I can’t even remember where these “she’s actually coming out” rumours originated anymore and I can’t remember if people had legit sources and gossip or if it was fan fiction planning, but it was mentioned outside the kaylordom too, so take that as you wish.

Then came the masters heist.

Now, to understand the thought process of Kaylors at the time, you have to remember that we thought Karlie & Taylor had a secret romance, Joe was a beard, Josh was a beard - but since he comes from a crime family who have done a lot of bad things (to put it lightly) and are stupidly rich, Josh had Karlie trapped in such a tight contract and has so much blackmail material that Karlie was forced to fake marry him against her will - remember, it was only meant to be a photo shoot for a Vogue wedding spread showing what wedding fashion was available, it wasn’t meant to be a wedding! But josh had his team leak the photos and instead of saying it was all for a photo shoot, Karlie had to say she was now married. <- that was the narrative and thought process within the fandom.

So the fandom thought 🛴 and Josh conspired to announce the purchase of big machine/ taylor’s masters which would derail her coming out plans. The fandom thought Karlie had no idea it was happening. Scooter and Josh were worried Taylor was going to come out, which would ultimately out Karlie since there were so many rumours about Kaylor already, and it would then out Josh and ruin Josh’s image, making it look obvious to everyone that Josh and Karlie were just beards, but kaylor was real. To avoid tarnishing Josh’s hetero card, scooter waited until the end of June to announce he bought taylor’s music for maximum impact.

(Never mind that someone spent $300M to keep a client in the closet) that was how we interpreted the situation (kept writing the fan fiction) and that it was a blow to taylor and a huge betrayal from scooter to Karlie because now they had extra leverage / ways to hurt Karlie.

So yeah. It was a very sad time. This also is why some kaylors think hoax lyrics point to their everlasting love “my best laid plans” = tay ready to come out end of June “your sleight of hand” = scooter tricking Karlie when he bought the masters and any information about taylor that Karlie mentioned innocently was used against them, “my barren land” = taken on a new meaning since Karlie announced her pregnancy, but initially it was seen as the land that was meant to be blooming with love was left barren and empty because of the masters incident delaying her coming out.

It sounds absolutely ludicrous, but the only way to understand how it was easy to rationalise is to understand how adamant the fandom was/ is that Josh and joe are just beards, Karlie is locked in a contract, and taylor is trying to free the both of them. If there were any truth to this at all, it is nothing short of ghastly situation for Karlie and paints taylor as a Nobel warrior trying to save her princess from the tower 🦸🏼‍♀️👸🏼 ....

Karlie had what I think was a scheduled post cause it was ad content , but otherwise was unusually silent on social media for a week + after the announcement. We thought they were grieving together.

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Now for Emily Poe. Ok so I really didn’t do my research - I thought Emily was only one or two years older than Taylor, so it never even occurred to me that the idea of that relationship would’ve been extremely predatory and badbadbadbad. I regret not doing my due dillihence when I was part of a fandom that consumed this theory. So Emily theories have been around since Taylor first had gay speculation. Part of this was because of some funny photos like that one where taylor is standing next to a truck that says “...gay Texan” and emily and a guy in the band I can’t think of his name were pointing to taylor and smirking. It’s a funny photo. I can see my dumb teenage self making similar jokes long before I knew my sexuality because LOOOOL GAY was a thing back then. There’s the video taylor made for Emily where she held up the “we love you emily” sign and she went to everyone she toured with including brad paisley to hold up the sign and make heart hands and just be extremely cute - platonic or romantic - both seem plausible - and cute as hell! The video was set to the dashboard confessional song ‘stolen’ which is basically just the lyric “you have stolen my heart” over and over again. This video got renewed interest when people went back and looked back at the you belong with me video. The idea of taylor and her make love interest holding these a4 sheets of paper with “I love you” written on them seemed familiar. The story of how YBWM came about was that Taylor heard her guitarist on the phone with his girlfriend and his gf was yelling at him for something seemingly insignificant/ the gf was painted out as high drama and her guitarist seemed miserable every time he spoke to her for a while. So Taylor had the idea of a song about a girl thinking her friends girlfriend is horrible, but turn it into a love story where the two friends get together - classic romantic comedy trope - she took the idea to Liz Rose and it was one of the last songs written for Fearless and specifically made to be upbeat and preppy because taylor thought the album was lacking that vibe. If you take the story Taylor said inspired the song and swap it from her male guitarist (who she also said she had no feelings for), and change it to her female fiddle player, the story behind the song can be the same, just tweaked to be hetwashed. Emily was a cheerleader and had a boyfriend when she toured with taylor, so it’s easy enough to take those things at surface value and think there was some truth to Emily. Also the two biggest gaylor rumours pre swiftgron came from comments on a gossip site/ forum. One was that ‘Emily was fired after she was caught relieving taylor of stress’ and how ‘emily was interested in law, but this incident cemented she had to leave the band but the swift team gave her money so emily wouldn’t sue for being fired on a sexual harassment issue’ (of course, knowing the age difference, we know this would NOT be the case at all) and it is speculated it inspired taylor to write breathe because she was so sorry for how things ended. They were inseparable and then after her birthday, never seen together or mentioned each other on MySpace again.

The other comment was that taylor ‘was a pillow princess in high school’ and that she was happy to receive but not give because she wanted to maintain her virgin status and thought if she reciprocated it would make her gay — the comment was something like that.

Of course it would’ve been incredibly easy for idk, some random on the internet who has never even met taylor to say those things.... but it was taken as gospel by the gaylor truthers.

People who looked further found a girl they believed was Taylor’s high school gf, her name started with L... but I never really believed it so I don’t have the greatest knowledge of that one. It seemed ridiculous to me she had a 3 year gf as a teenager and not a single person from her high school - or anyone who knew her alleged gf - ever spoke about it publicly??? That would be a lot of NDAs and payouts to keep silent, but a lot of other people believed NDAs and hush money was spent, so yeah... 🤷‍♀️

She also had some fruity MySpace posts which seemed to help the case for gaylor, but imo, it also falls under the ‘teenagers on the internet are dumb especially when social media was brand new and thank god myspace doesn’t exist cause I don’t want to see my old one ever again’ category.

Sorry for the essay, I felt I had been summoned and wanted to give background on the fandom. When I log back in I think I need to change my bio, I’m not really here to talk kaylor , but the fandom. Cause it’s really sad what that narrative within the fandom has become and heartbreaking what that narrative has done to fans, especially queer kids trying to figure themselves out. I couldn’t see how toxic it was for a long time, I’m happy I’m out of there now. but I think it helps to understand how the fandom thought and saw things as to how easy it was for things to spiral to the state it’s in now.

As old T used to sign off, - lovelovelove 💜

Brilliant post thanks KH!