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larkintheferal · 4 months

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I never thought I would cry so much watching a movie. Nimona is crazy insane and there’s a pile of tissues beside me while I’m in my bed at 2am. But in all seriousness, Nimona hit that crying function.

ANNND YOU’VE GOT TO WATCH IT

#nimona #Pride #you’re not alone #i am cringe but i am free #Can’t show my family though…#I’m serious WATCH IT

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kirisclangen · 4 days

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Larchpaw

She/her, 8 moons, cis molly

#Larchpaw #beetleclan #apprentice #clangen #warrior cats oc #kiri’s clangen #warrior #kiri's clangen #Wow i wonder who this mini Berrymurk is. Surely it’s not his one and only daughter #surely him and his daughter don’t have nearly identical sprites save for Larch having a slightly yellower tint and an apprentice pose #But to be so forreal the name Larch is actually really fitting becuase of that becuase larch trees are a conifer that isn’t an evergreen.#their needles turn yellow and fall off in the fall which fits because she’s just a little more yellow than her dad #I also made the pointy parts of her fur point down instead of up like the rest of her family just to show she doesn’t look all that much-#-like her grandma Gravelshock #She’s technically half-clan and her other parent is unknown so I like to think her other parent had droopier fur (though I have no one in-#-particular planned)#Anyways she’s sort of friends/rivals with Swallowpaw (who I’m planning on having as the starting POV for beetleclan) so expect to see and-#-read a lot of her whenever I get to the actual story part #I actually love Larch a lot she’s very cute I’m tempted to do her POV at least sometimes #but Idk #Also I’M FUCKING BACK!!!#can’t say how regular posts will be considering the computer I use to add the border afterwords is Wigging The Fuck Out Constantly and I-#-can barely use it but I’ve got one more cat queued after this at least so there’s that!#I can’t wait to get to the actual story I’m gonna do it in fic form with some illustrations scattered throughout instead of a comic (unless #-I feel like a specific moons needs a comic)#and I think I’ll put in on my AO3 which’ll be fun so yeah. I’m excited to finally get through all these designs hopefully over this summer #and I’m done with hs now so I can continue working on it during this next year because I don’t plan on doing college immediately!! So yeah-#-I’ve got a lot of time on my hands now and I’m excited to get back to Projects!!#I’m thinking of doing commissions on my main too (including warriors/clangen designs) so look out for that if you’re interested

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deus-ex-mona · 6 months

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rage is a ✨way of life✨

#found out that i successfully angered someone by not showing up to work on saturday lmaoooooo #and im just like… gOOOOOOD. BE MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!#mans has no room to be mad anyway. it’s his fault i had to ot for 7 hours to cover his work for him in the first place soooooooo #a nd he’s getting demoted next year and im ahauxucjsjjsjsjsjxjdhss #in other news im kinda annoyed by my mother’s (unfortunate) pressuring of me to go to the upcoming family christmas gathering :(#like no way manssssss i haven’t seen the extended fam since my grandma’s funeral and i’d like to keep it that way thanks~~~~~~~~#and a c h r i s t m a s gathering of all places… m a n. im half expecting them to drag everyone to church to end off the gathering…#i wouldn’t put it past the hosting aunt to do that ngl. she had tricked me into attending a church service in the past and all…#like. man. there’s this local mall that has a similar name to said church service…#so ofc it’s normal to assume that said mall is what she was referring to when she said ‘let’s go to [insert name]!’ with no context right???#and uggshdhdjjsjsjdjs i don’t wanna be introduced to my cousins’ kids as ‘auntie [insert nickname i hate]’ bc that’s lame #and m a n. i definitely don’t wanna interact with my cousins’ kids. i either don’t know or can’t pronounce (or both) their names #i only remember the oldest one’s name (bc he has a stereotypical frat boy name) and the one who’s named after a ninja turtle #but none of the rest. i think some of them have names from my cousins’ spouses’ home countries? dk about the others though #i’m 80% sure one of the girls was named something like ‘triceratops’ but that doesn’t seem right…#being named after a dinosaur sounds cool though… or any prehistoric creature really #if i could choose my own name i’d like it to be ‘coelacanth’#just so i can say ‘i coelacan’t do it!!!!!’ if someone asked me to do something i don’t wanna do. the pun potentials are endless mans #huh. wow… i started this off with a mad coworker and ended it by turning into a coelacanth… how did we get here anyway…?#oh wells no one reads the tags anyway uehxudjdjdjsjsjss my secrets are ✨safe✨

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johndonneswife · 2 months

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someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck

#who is talking about this!!!! let me know #idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which #i was anticipating #and i didn’t think i would care because i have never cared before #but liiiiiike.#i wasn’t expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them #it’s annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there #just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse #like do you know how expensive weddings are 😭 JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no #anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite #and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up #people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out #and they can’t even be bothered to communicate with me lol it’s fine. like. i do feel like it’s internalized homophobia at this point #or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible #but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding #at the end of the day it’s going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayesha’s (her brother) and like 30-40 friends #which i am so grateful for obviously #i sound like such a brat but it’s also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol #AGAIN i’m used to this and expected as much but i’m still feeling bad #just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me you’re trying to make it work when we both know you aren’t #i have so much more to say but i’m going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it #i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this #which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. there’s abt to be no one left lmao #probably for the best #ugh whatever #again i can’t help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know #meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone #AAAAAAAA i just want to scream #text

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spicysucculentz · 6 months

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naturopaths are SO hit or miss. some of them are crazy anti vax folks and some of them are normal. you never know till you get there and there’s like posters warning about 5G in the waiting room💀

#spicy speaks #my mom is super into naturopaths and homeopathic stuff #I’m iffy #some stuff is really great #but I also haven’t had that much personal success with them #but it’s my only option rn since I can’t get in to see any primary care doctors or gi doctors and I’m having such bad stomach problems #I got blood work done but it doesn’t even show anything?#nothing stomach related #I have ridiculously high cholesterol all the sudden though which is kind of embarassing like I’m not even 20 yet😭#it runs in the family though and I’ve been eating such terrible school food and drinking way too much #sooooo I’m gonna have to get back on my gym grind

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ezraphobicsoup · 7 months

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magical john drag king is exactly what alan moore meant about the ideaspace this absolutely existed in our collective consciousness as a human species

#or i guess the human species? who’s to say #ok i actually need to stop i don’t know what i’m thinking anymore #i can like vividly imagine magical john on a stage and real and i’m afraid #also yeah no this post probably doesn’t make sense to anyone else #ezra’s real life rambles #silly hours posting #<- hello my old friend i feel this is justified (ancients of mu mu?????) here #why am i being abnormal about the fucking klf book. what why how this isn’t good this isn’t a cool one to talk to people about #‘hey so you heard of this satire religion called discordianism? oh no you’re not? fair enough #surely you’re aware of self-referential reality tunnels though right? oh no you’re not. hm well how about the illuminatus! trilogy?#huh. ok. well to cut to the chase there was this band called the klf and they had like many hit singles #you’ll know some of them most likely. but uh ultimately they burned 1 million pounds in cash!! like straight up!! and it was filmed #some time afterwards (i think like 23 years?) they went around on an unusal tour showing off the footage #but at this point they weren’t making music anymore you see. so it wouldn’t even make sense as some publicity stunt #but yeah on this tour they go around and ask people why they (the klf) burned 1 million pounds #was it art? was it rock and roll? and most people go ‘it was stupid and selfish you entitled pricks’#they both (drummond and cauty (the klf)) have a family yknow #like they both have wives and kids. one of them had like four children i think?#anyway the money burning happened on the 23rd of august 1994 in the island of jura’#you can’t just say all of that to someone no one cares #ok for real i’m gonna go now and eventually sleep

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ghosts-and-blue-sweaters · 7 months

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“I’m looking at art of a depressed man.”—me to my mom just now

#I just showed her that c!wilbur art I just reblogged #oh my heck #she thought it was cool though!!#I can’t believe I just said that what 😭#my post #my family

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phantom-of-innaovitch · 1 year

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I’ve always found it interesting that when straight people make stories or media the villain is often queercoded but when gay people make media they’re like “I diagnose you with Aromantic.”

#I noticed this pattern when watching headcannon voice videos of people’s OCs and was like #‘well how bout that’#and then I just kept noticing it lol #to be fair though most villain characters in queer media are specifically said to be Aroace #but there’s usually more asexual characters who play more roles than just the villain #so it’s pretty much just an Aromantic thing #Hehe I want the aro villain to point a gun at the protagonist while showing them another ship in the story like #“they’re FRIENDS!”#while pointing to a massive chart #and the hero’s just like ‘yeah ok but please let me go I want to see my family’#but jokes on THEM! they’re the PROTAGONIST so they legally CAN’T HAVE A FAMILY #Catch them in their lies ;)#queer media #queer stories #queer coding #aromantic #aro #aroace

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pinkfey · 2 years

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having an uncommon trigger is literally the worst huh 😔😔😔

#i can’t exist both online and offline without seeing it #the trigger in question is my family’s cult and specifically ‘funny’ experiences with them/‘owning’ them or whatever #like of COURSE i get it!! make fun of the christians who come to your door with a bible always trying to worm their way in #i get it. believe me.#i just can’t escape it. even if there’s no joke the name of the cult itself gives me anxiety #partially because we’re taught not to ever engage with nonbelievers talking about us online #it’s a big no-no #so even though i’m not subscribed to if and haven’t been for forever that utter fear is still there #i wish i could let it go but it reduces me to a puddle of panic and trauma #and there’s no way for me to avoid it. i’ve blacklisted every tag possible on every social media site #but it all the little memes still show up. scenes in tv shows. tiktok anecdotes. it makes me wanna cry fjnsjdbfsjdjf #i even blocked an account Literally about providing resources for cult survivors bc i couldn’t bear seeing her videos abt my family’s cult #and now i’m like. Why. Girl you could’ve used that !!!!! djshdjfjdbs #it’s just the anxiety :(#anyways.txt

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caterpillarinacave · 1 year

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This is off topic, but have all y’all seen the Stars on Ice lineup this year??? Satoko Miyahara??? Illia Malinin??? Nathan Chen??? It might be time to break out my savings-

#Are there any shows anywhere near me? No #My birthday is like 4 months before the shows but my ask is gonna be “so this cool thing no wait mom mom I can’t go alone mOM-“#FS #stars on ice #Theoretically speaking I have family there #Stuffs expsenive and stressful though so

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healersadjust · 2 years

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Teeth

no spoilers, this is all pre-ARR! When Aki was brought in to the weird adoptive family.

tw, mentions of food.

Aki’s teeth are sharp. More So than your average Keeper. Her fangs are long, pointy, and ready to sink in to the next one to offer their hand.

Cevi noticed this mere seconds into knowing the girl. She was small, frail, her eyes blown wide and her mouth set in a snarl. Her hair was choppy and matted, and Cevi could hear a growl as she approached the girl.

Cevi did not speak to her. Words would not work, if this she was certain. This was a girl who had seen things Cevi quite literally could not imagine.

“We should leave her be,” Amil spoke plainly. “She does not wish to be bothered.”

“She’s but a child!” Cecelia hissed. “I’m not leaving, that’s final.”

Cevi raised a hand and both voices fell silent. Cevi stepped closer, showing no sign of fear. She stretched out both her hands and slowly spun around, showing the child she was unarmed. Aki’s snarl did not quiet, but she did not make any moves to attack. Cevi took this as a good enough sign to continue.

Cevi dropped down in front of Aki, sitting herself cross legged. She put her hands palm up in her lap and sat still, watching the child. It did not come quickly, but eventually, Aki relaxed. She leaned back against the tree she sat in front of, her glare eventually turning into simply a look of distrust.

“My name is Cevi,” she spoke gently, as not to alarm her. “What’s yours?”

The child looked her up and down, her eyes drifting to Cevi’s companions that stood further back behind her. She brought her attention back to Cevi.

“Aki.” She crossed her arms over her chest.

Cevi nodded, looking over her more relaxed form. She couldn’t be older than fourteen summers.

“My friends and I mean you no harm,” Cevi’s voice did not waver. “Will you come to our campsite for a moment? We have food to share.”

She shook her head. “I’m staying here.”

“I can go get some for you,” Florian offered quietly. Aki’s eyes darted to him as he shyly stepped forward. “We just want to make sure you are taken care of.”

Aki stood up slowly, her eyes not leaving Florian’s for a moment. Her stare was hardened, her claws sharp and ready to attack. And in an instant, she darted to him. She was fast, leaving not a one of them a chance to stop her.

Cevi bolted, ready to defend her friend when she realized the child was not attacking at all. She had climbed up his tall frame, clinging to his front. Florian, for his part, looked at Cevi with his eyes blown wide as he held this tiny Miqo’te in his arms.

“It looks like she likes you,” Constianne said with a chuckle. “That would be the first.”

Lucien elbowed Constianne and hushed her sharply.

“Would you… like to come with, then?” Florian asked nervously.

Aki nodded into his chest.

“Okay,” Florian spoke with a smile forming on his lips. “Let’s be off then.”

Aki stayed by Florian’s side the entire night. She eventually warmed up to Cevi, then one by one started meeting the others eyes. When one dinner spent with them turned in to a night, into a week, into moons, Aki started to grow fond of each and every one of the new adults in her life. She sat on Lucien’s shoulders as they built their new home and sat beside Cecelia as she read stories to Aki. Amil played hide and go seek with her (in his strange ways) and Constianne taught Aki to build fires to make warm sweets for after supper. Florian often found himself with a smaller shadow behind him at every turn.

When their new home was built with one additional bedroom for Aki, Cevi tucked Aki into her new bed and kissed her forehead goodnight. Aki’s hand caught Cevi’s, a request for Cevi to stay just a bit longer.

Though Aki’s teeth are sharp, she had no need to bite. Even the wildest of beasts can be trained with a gentle hand.

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ceruleanmage · 2 years

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ahahah. don’t you just love it when you watch you and your extended family tear apart at the seams. sooo fun

#vent in tags #in a bit of a pickle with the Cousins #one of them is having a wedding but it’s in a place that my family cannot get to easily #or I mean. we can get there by flying but that’s a whole other can of worms #like logically none of us will be granted time off for that since we just all took a week off last week #not to mention when people go back to school we’re gonna be severely understaffed and they’ll need everyone they can get their hands on #but my cousin is trying very hard to get us to book tickets for a flight now—the wedding is in november.#we’re trying to tell them we just can’t commit this early. but they’re being really pushy about it #kinda guilt tripping us with “you know how important this is to me and [fiance]”#and we’re all like. yeah. we get it. but we literally can’t make this decision until november rolls around #because only then will we know the extent of our Work Crises #i know damn well that if we can’t make it to the wedding they’ll blame US and not the fact that they chose a really inconvenient destination #and like yeah.#it’s their wedding. they can do whatever the hell they want. but expecting us to spend all that money to show up for a couple days is rude #and it’s not even that money is necessarily the problem—though it is a huge factor considering my parents are prepping for three of us—#—to go to college #but the biggest thing is just that they don’t seem to get that we’re decent people and we’re not gonna fuck over our workplace just for this #the store is understaffed already. if the staff weren’t so kind I wouldn’t care. but theyre all truly wonderful people #like. are we supposed to apologize to our cousin for taking our jobs seriously and caring about keeping the store running smoothly?#the four of us (yeah. all my siblings work there) CANNOT get time off again like we did a week ago. that was a one time thing #so like. sorry fam but the weddings lookin really unappealing right now #mage monologues #tw family

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housewife-hannibal · 4 months

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If anyone cares to know my secret to enjoying LND i just tell myself it’s one of Erik’s many fantasies of a better life Christine. Raoul is a bumbling idiot, Christine chooses him, all of his less favorable qualities (murder and more!) vanish, he has a little boy with a beautiful voice that is a perfect amalgamation of him and Christine and everyone pays lots of money to see his creations on a big stage. It’s even canon (proof: don jaun triumphant having the main character covered by a dark cloak.. because Erik is the true casting of the character) that he still keeps some of his defining traits such as his inherent misery and horribleness. But he still must be seen as somewhat of a hero of course! (Trying to save Meg, which he would literally never do in reality.) (Being a morally better person than Raoul which is literally just not true)

#I reblogged a post about this a little bit ago which reminded me to make this post #he knows he can’t possibly ignore some of his own faults #no one really denies that lnd mischaracterizes him pretty horribly #so this is my way of being content with it #because I can’t force myself to ignore it’s existence #i really do wonder what possessed alw to create such a piece #I gotta say though #in my head canon heart #I love that he at least put in a little effort for Meg #even if it’s not realistic at all #but tbh ever since i joined the poto fandom i love the idea of #erik and the girys having a little found family situation #in lnd i also like to headcanon that he actually did view Meg as a dear friend #not above Christine of course #we can’t all be like Christine..#beyond the film i like to imagine that he really was intently listening to Meg when she talks about the shows #madame giry just fails to see that he’s at somewhat trying because that’s her little girl #and regardless of his care he is still stringing her along at the end of the day #ugh wait sorry for the ramble #anyway yeah this is all just as unrealistic as lnd itself #I wouldn’t call myself a fan of the show when considering that it’s not written ironically #but I love the idea of it being made as a fan fiction written by Erik himself #similar to don jaun trimphant #tbh if alw really wanted to he could lie through his teeth and say this is the case #but it seems he fails to understand why no one can take lnd seriously #it makes zero sense #i just decide to not take it too seriously and regard it as silly and goofy as it truly is #rip erik you would’ve loved ao3 and wattpad #phantom of the opera #love never dies

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curryshesus · 9 days

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jeon jungkook fics that own my mind, body, heart, and soul

in other words, this is a collection of my favorite jk fics on tumblr! if you enjoyed any of these fics as much as i did, pls remember to support the authors by interacting with their post.

➺ bitchin - by @kinktae

summary: the 80s were a time of choices. which perm was right for you? what color neon would you wear next? none of these choices, however, were more questionable than a certain deal you made with jeon jungkook.

➺ idealizations concerning real life relations - by @venusiangguk

summary: jungkook loves to be loved, but he doesn’t love in return.

➺ hotter than hell - by @chateautae

summary: jungkook, lucifer and king of hell, has been cast out of the crimson underworld for a reason he’s unsure of. embarking on his journey for the answer should’ve been easy, if it weren’t for you, the human that nurses his wounded body in her home, and accidentally witnesses the truth of his identity. kickstarting a hellish adventure with the devil himself, you discover lucifer is the most infuriating company ever; and jungkook finds out that maybe his answer to returning home lies within his annoying human confidant.

➺ jump then fall (into you) - by @writtenwhalien

summary: bringing Jungkook along as your date to your ex’s lavish cruise wedding seemed like a perfect idea at first — all of your family and close friends together, nothing can go wrong… then Jungkook’s ex shows up and all of a sudden you’re in a years long relationship with him. You don’t mind though, really, how hard can sharing a cabin and pretending to be deeply in love with your best friend really be?

➺ too late to dream - by @kookslastbutton

summary: You did it. You married your college professor. You even bought a house together. Against all odds, everything had fallen into place. But after two years of marriage, you begin feeling something was missing. You want a baby but your husband can’t say the same.

➺ the forgotten spaces- by @oddinary4bts

summary: you've been dancing on the same dance crew since your teenage years, and you finally have an important role in it. It feels like life is taunting you when your rival comes back after disappearing for a year, ready to tease you every chance he gets. Will the teasing turn into more, or are you going to take him down with you?

➺ when the end comes - by @oddinary4bts

summary: Seven years after you've started dating Jungkook, long distance creates a wedge in your relationship. When the only solution seems to be breaking up, you go your separate ways even though love still lives in the two of you. Will you find a way back together, or has the end come for you and Jeon Jungkook? **sequel to the forgotten spaces

➺ falling - by @starshapedkookie

summary: soulmate (noun): a person who is bound to another through the strongest level of emotional and physical connection. one is given a name on the body upon 18 years of age and any transgressions against the laws of soul-bonding will not occur without harm.

➺ love alive - by @jamaisjoons

summary: a year after you and jungkook break up, the two of you meet at your brother’s party.

➺ changes in between - by @taegularities

summary: Becoming the roommate of Jeon Jungkook is the biggest change you’ve ever gotten thrown into - but little do you know that the addition of another man will bring even further turbulence into your (love) life.

➺ falling skies - by @fortunexkookie

summary: Jeon Jiyeon was your childhood best friend; her brother, Jungkook, was something else entirely. You used to be friends, but then he had gone from endearingly frustrating dumb boy to card-carrying fuckboy so fast it had given you whiplash.

Despite the teasing and fighting, Jiyeon realized how Jungkook felt about you long before he did - it was a twin thing - and if you were her sun, and he was her moon, then she just wished she could show you how he reflected your light.

➺ sugarplum elegy - by @bymoonchild

summary: You know no bounds nor depth with Jungkook. While your fuck buddy loves sleeping in your bed and doing laundry for you with his favourite fabric softener, you are in love with a mysterious honeyed, velvety voice on Soundcloud. All’s fine, until you find out that the voice that metaphors your heart to a sweet sugarplum melody actually belongs to the boy who has been taking up a special spot in your bed and in your heart, strumming at your heartstrings all this while. Or, Jungkook has one braincell, but it’s heart-shaped.

➺ an abundance of mondays - by @diortae

summary: "why the fuck would it be easy? you’re disgustingly in love with your best friend. of course it’s complicated.” he pauses to roll his eyes, as if he hasn’t just laid out the most secret parts of you here in the middle of the campus dining hall.

➺ five dates - by @kpopfanfictrash

summary: “Ten dates,” he nods, smile tugging at his lips. “Ten dates, to decide if you want this – want me – or want me to go. Ten dates to get to know me. Ten dates,” he says, oddly soft, “to fall in love with me.” Which then becomes five.

➺ here comes the bride, all dressed in pride - by @hansolmates

summary: You and your cousin Doyeon have had beef with each other since the sandbox. When she plucks the last straw, you decide to end your long-simmering fight by claiming that you and her ex—Jeon Jungkook, are now boyfriend and girlfriend

➺ if i told you - by @gukyi

summary: in order to pay for university, jeon jungkook decides to market his most valuable asset to the wealthy socialites of campus: himself. donning a suit and tie, tousled hair, and glasses (to look smarter), he becomes every rich daughter’s dream: the perfect boyfriend to bring to balls, dinners, and business gatherings. all while you watch from the sidelines, only able to dream of having that much money to buy yourself what you really want: him.

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ragingbookdragon · 5 months

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It comes as somewhat a surprise when the others realize that something has obviously happened between their resident Lieutenant and Private, as she’s quick to fall silent whenever he appears, and even more so make herself scare when she can when he’s around. It’s only the third time that Soap sees it that he says something, because if he doesn’t no one else will, and where’s the fun in that?

He watches her duck her head and leave the break room, Gaz, Soap, Price, and Ghost sitting alone at the breakfast table conversing over soggy cereal and cooling tea; Soap pushes a piece of bacon on his plate and asks, “Trouble in paradise, Lt?” the corner of his mouth arches with a slight grin when he hears the warning grunt come from Ghost.

“No.”

“Seems like it,” he retorts, taking a sip of his coffee. “What’d ya do? Tell her ta fuck off?”

“Drop it, MacTavish,” Ghost warns darkly. “Nothing’s wrong.”

This time, Gaz jumps in. “C’mon, Lt., it’s obvious that something’s wrong. I mean, she won’t even look at you, let alone say anything unless you speak first.”

“An’ she’s callin’ ‘im ‘sir.’” Soap adds, pointing at him. “Christ, Lt., ya musta done a number on ‘er. Poor Puffin. So sweet and kind. Broke ‘er heart ya did.”

Price can tell that Ghost is close to snapping at the both of them but gets to it before he does. “Soap, Gaz, go catalogue our inventory for the mission next week.”

“Aw, but we already d—” Soap falls silent when Price shoots him a look and quietly grumbles to himself as he grabs his plate and cup, Gaz following in suit.

It’s only until the two soldiers are alone that Price asks, “What did happen, Simon?”

Ghost lets out a long sigh and rolls his head back, staring at the ceiling. “Pretty much told ‘er to fuck off.”

Price watches quietly as Ghost begins rattling to himself—he’s never really had to ask the man to explain himself. All he’s gotta do is prompt him to do so and Ghost does the rest.

“I just got mad. She’s always ‘round and practically up my arse, and I got caught up and instead of ‘andlin’ it properly, I shoved my fucking foot in my mouth and scalped her.” He rubs a hand over his face. “I meant to be gentler but once I started, I couldn’t stop. It just kept comin’ out. And now she fuckin’ hates me.”

He pulls his hand down and looks up at Price with a scowl—the man is smiling at him, but it’s that stupid smile that means more than Ghost wants to admit it does.

“Quit that.”

“You care about her,” Price murmurs, rubbing his chin thoughtfully, though his admonish is still harsh. “And instead of telling her how you felt like a grown adult, you took the ten-year-old way out and decided to be a cunt to her.”

“I didn’t mean to be such a cunt.”

“But the fact of the matter is that you did, and you’ve screwed up team fluidity and cohesion.” He looks at him. “You know a team divided—”

“Can’t stand,” Ghost finishes with an even worse scowl. “Yeah, yeah, I know.” He looks away. “I just don’t know how to even start tryin’ to fix it.”

“Well, apologizing might be a good start,” Price rumbles with a grin. “She’s a good kid, Simon. Her heart’s in the right place, even if it’s a bit much at times. Shows she cares. More than most do in our line of work. She’s a rare one.”

“I know,” he admits in a much, much softer tone. “I just don’t want her to lose that doin’ this.” His eyes meet Price’s, and they hold such a misery. “Look at us, Price,” he mutters, gesturing between them. “Middle age, unmarried, no kids, too fucked up for anything like that. She doesn’t…” he clenches his jaw. “She deserves a better path, a safer path, than this life. She deserves to go out and have a life where she comes home to a family.”

“That’s not your choice to make, son,” he replies gently, but there’s a firmness to it. “If this is what she wants to do, then she will. We can’t make her get out of service.”

Ghost growls low in his throat. “She has so much more potential than being cannon fodder. She could do somethin’ with her life. Somethin’ good. Somethin’ that won’t have her dying face down in the sand with a bullet wound in the back.”

Price simply watches him.

“But she’s so fuckin’ stupid. She wants to be here. She wants to spend whatever time she has dodgin’ bullets and wakin’ up every night in sweat ‘cause she can’t escape the dreams. No one wants to do this. We don’t want to do this. We do this because we have to. But her? She’s happy here.” He lowers his voice, it’s as if he’s in disbelief. “She’s happy here.” He looks at Price. “Why? Why is she so happy here?”

It's another long moment before Price speaks.

“You hear, son, but you don’t listen.” He moves the cup on the saucer. “She bounced around homes growing up, scraped by on the skin of her teeth. She has no one. But here, she has something. She has people who care for her, if nothing else, they won’t let her die alone.”

“Oh what? So, it’s found family bullshit?” Ghost spits. “If she dies, at least the team would mourn her?”

“Isn’t that what you’ve done too?” he replies, and Ghost falls silent. “People like Gaz, Soap, and myself are different than you and she are, Simon. We have homes. We’ve had families that have loved us, that do love us. But you two? Simon, you’ve made a home where you’ve had to. Made a family out of people you’ve bled for, would gladly bleed for. You’ve made something that’s yours. You made a family for yourself. And so did she. She’s made us her family. The one she never had the privilege to call her own.”

Price lets out a quiet hum, and pats his thighs, standing up and pushing his chair in.

“Think on what I’ve said, son. And if nothing else, apologize and leave it at that. Put the ball in her court and let her make the next move.”

As he walks off, he hears, “And if she doesn’t want it?”

He tosses a knowing look over his shoulder. “I’m sure she’ll take it.” His eyes twinkle as he adds, “Takes an awful strong woman to care about a man like you.”

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in middle school during my Intense Greek Mythology Phase, Artemis was, as you can likely guess, my best girl. Iphigenia was my OTHER best girl. Yes at the same time.

The story of Iphigenia always gets to me when it's not presented as a story of Artemis being capricious and having arbitrary rules about where you can and can't hunt, but instead, making a point about war.

Artemis was, among other things--patron of hunting, wild places, the moon, singlehood--the protector of young girls. That's a really important aspect she was worshipped as: she protected girls and young women. But she was the one who demanded Agamemnon sacrifice his daughter in order for his fleet to be able to sail on for Troy.

There's no contradiction, though, when it's framed as, Artemis making Agamemnon face what he’s doing to the women and children of Troy. His children are not in danger. His son will not be thrown off the ramparts, his daughters will not be taken captive as sex slaves and dragged off to foreign lands, his wife will not have to watch her husband and brothers and children killed. Yet this is what he’s sailing off to Troy to inevitably do. That’s what happens in war. He’s going to go kill other people’s daughters; can he stand to do that to his own? As long as the answer is no—he can kill other people’s children, but not his own—he can’t sail off to war.

Which casts Artemis is a fascinating light, compared to the other gods of the Trojan War. The Trojan War is really a squabble of pride and insults within the Olympian family; Eris decided to cause problems on purpose, leaving Aphrodite smug and Hera and Athena snubbed, and all of this was kinda Zeus’s fault in the first place for not being able to keep it in his pants. And out of this fight mortal men were their game pieces and mortal cities their prizes in restoring their pride. And if hundreds of people die and hundred more lives are ruined, well, that’s what happens when gods fight. Mortals pay the price for gods’ whims and the gods move on in time and the mortals don’t and that’s how it is.

And women especially—Zeus wanted Leda, so he took her. Paris wanted Helen, so he took her. There’s a reason “the Trojan women” even since ancient times were the emblems of victims of a war they never wanted, never asked for, and never had a say in choosing, but was brought down on their heads anyway.

Artemis, in the way of gods, is still acting through human proxies. But it seems notable to me to cast her as the one god to look at the destruction the war is about to wreak on people, and challenge Agamemnon: are you ready to kill innocents? Kill children? Destroy families, leave grieving wives and mothers? Are you? Prove it.

It reminds me of that idea about nuclear codes, the concept of implanting the key in the heart of one of the Oval Office staffers who holds the briefcase, so the president would have to stab a man with a knife to get the key to launch the nukes. “That’s horrible!,” it’s said the response was. “If he had to do that, he might never press the button!” And it’s interesting to see Artemis offering Agamemnon the same choice. You want to burn Troy? Kill your own daughter first. Show me you understand what it means that you’re about to do.

#Electra was my other other best girl #I also stan Clytemnestra #love this murder family of women getting revenge in anguish for their loved ones they will never get back #tagamemnon #Greek Mythology #iphigenia #Trojan War #House of Atreus #long post

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