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i-am-church-the-cat · 16 days

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my circadian rhythm needs to stop

#tried to go to bed at 11:30 last night #went to bed at 2 #woke up at 8 #laid in bed until 1 #got up and ate lunch and did some school work #at this point i have skipped both of my med times #plan to go work out at 4:45 but i get sleepy around 4 #decide to take a quick nap cause the gym is only 15 away #set an alarm and wake up at 4:30 but immediately go back to sleep #IN FULL CLOTHES WITH THE LIGHTS ON AND NO BACKGROUND NOISE #wake up at 7pm #work on some stuff buy a printer from facebook marketplace #it is now 9 and i have not eaten dinner #also do you know why i was so sleepy? BC I HADN'T TAKEN MY MEDS #MY DOCTER WAS SPECIFICALLY LIKE #'take your meds after lunch bc people tend to get sleepy after they eat and your meds will have worn off by then'#AND DID I LISTEN? NO #so not only have i not completed at the stuff i have to do for tomorrow #but i didn't work out like i wanted #and now it's too late to work out outside of the house #the only good news is that i have a newfound love of grilled cheese #i normally hate grilled cheese bc it's too bland #but i had really good grilled cheese today #gonna make it for dinner too #i've become a basic autistic bitch #anyway rant over #actually i could also rant about academia for a bit #but meh

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secondbeatsongs · 1 year

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#titan #titan submersible #oceangate #titanic #the titanic #''catastrophic implosion'' is how they're describing it #they have no idea if they can recover anything because of how deep it was #they also don't know yet when it imploded #I will say. the way they're wording this #it probably imploded before people started looking #they keep saying their listening devices would have heard an implosion #but that it did definitely implode #destiel meme #I love you meme #destiel confession meme #what is this meme actually called #I realize I have no idea

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keets-writing-corner · 4 months

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Thinking a LOT about Lucifer in the latest Hazbin episode. Idk what I was expecting but not this??

As I was watching my immediate thought was just "huh... Lucifer is kinda of weird..." but as the episode went on I realized the issue

the dude is off the chain depressed, like he says it as a joke but holy cow it is SO BAD

He's manically just creating rubber ducks cuz his daughter really like it that one time but it's empty, it's never good enough but he keeps doing it, maybe cuz he doesn't know how to pass the time otherwise.

like I get the feeling he HAS better things he SHOULD be doing than making rubber duck after rubber duck. At first I was like, "Bruh why isn't the king of hell doing anything?" aaaaand then it became clear...

The dude is disassociating so bad he can barely hold a conversation let alone remember information. He clearly WANTS to, he wants to be involved with his daughter so bad, he wants to care about the things she's doing so bad, but his depression keeps interfering. It's like he can only hear every other word and he grasps onto the ones he does hear semi-out of context. Like you can see every time he catches something that he hadn't before and he just "well shit I didn't catch that part"

and that's why he reacts so weird when people talk to him. He is struggling so bad to engage with the conversation he's only getting 50% of it

does that look like the face of a man who knows what the hell the conversation is even about??? he is STRUGGLING

like Charlie spent so long telling him about the hotel, and he STILL didn't understand what she wanted. Yeah it comes off as ditzy but literally I've been in that position where your brain just "nope, not doing this right now" and nerfs your conversation comprehension. So as someone who's BEEN in that position, to me it feels exactly like what he's dealing with. He's sorta engaged with the conversation, but only as much as his brain will allow

For example, when I'm dealing with this, this is what someone talking to me feels like this where the crossed out parts are what I missed and bold is what I catch, "Hey! You know I was thinking for dinner we could either make some chicken with rice? But if you don't feel like cooking, pasta is super easy and you love that right? What do you want to do?" you can kinda get that someone is trying to talk to you about dinner, and towards the end you get the impression that they asked something that needs your input so you can decently put 2 and 2 together and try and pass off, but crucial bits were left out, I would have no idea that either chicken or pasta is in the conversation only having heard "rice". When someone is just talking at me, I can decently pass off as being engaged but the second I'm required to participate in the conversation I'm screwed. Seem familiar? At which point I have 2 options, try to give a bullshit answer, or admit that I missed what they were saying and ask them to repeat

Lucifer, unfortunately, is trying so damn hard to hide that he's dealing with like 24/7 dissociation, so he can't admit that he's missing entire chunks of the conversation, hence his really weird replies. He does eventually get the full picture and then he and Charlie start having the real conversation

Also, the Alastor/Lucifer rivalry was hilarious but also really indicative of more of what Lucifer is dealing with

Alastor is, unfortunately, really good at picking up people's insecurities, and thanks to Charlie's description earlier and watching Lucifer clearly trying to overcompensate, he immediately picks up on the fact that Lucifer KNOWS he struggles to be a good dad (we know cuz it's cuz of the depression, hard to be engaged when your brain keeps turning off) and decides to rub salt in the wound by pretending he's been acting as a surrogate father to Charlie. Now why Alastor decided to pick a fight with the king of hell is beyond me, I do not understand Alastor (and I LIKE IT) (maybe it's cuz Alastor thinks he's hot shit and was expecting Lucifer to at least have heard of him but Lucifer just treats him like a nobody? who knows)(why would Lucifer listen to radio anyways when he can't even pay attention to a conversation it'd just be white noise)

But yeah I just was expecting someone who oozed either charisma or presence and instead I got a depressed dad who's dissociating so bad he can barely function and be present in his life. The only thing it seems he CAN do is make rubber ducks cuz his daughter really liked it that one time

Idk Lucifer is tragic to me. Whatever the full details of what heavan did to him absolutely broke him and he can't deal with it. He's aware of it, and he doesn't know how to fix it, so he tries to over compensate and sorta makes an ass out of himself but no one says or does anything cuz this guy is supposed to be THE king of hell

Suddenly it's making a lot more sense why he just rolls over and lets heaven do what it wants and even told Charlie to go in his place the start of the show. He's not in any headspace to hold a basic conversation let alone negotiate! He didn't even know who Alastor was, he's been so out of touch

idk I like him, he seems sweet, I hope Charlie brings some light back into his life. He really needs to get out of that rubber duck room

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oof-i-did-it-agaaiiin · 1 year

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Beautiful from Ordinary Days

#EDIT: I added links to the post’s caption go click them.#I did this because people were mistaking the words as a poem. I love poems. it’s not a poem.#it’s a song from a musical that deserves more attention. go listen to the song. if you like it go listen to the musical. it’s fantastic #it’ll make you laugh and it’ll make you cry. could not recommend enough.#okay edit over. back to my og tags #long post #and I'm talking LONG like do you love the color of the sky long #today I am a nuisance to your dash #but it's in the name of art and beauty #ordinary days #musicals #paintings #art museum #post i made #i love lyrics #greatest hits

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butchmartyr · 23 days

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a lot of older norms for internet and site etiquette are shit but you know what was good that we need to bring back? lurking. you need to lurk moar

#if you’re going to post or ask someone something consider lurking instead #to just watch and listen to other users until you learn how what’s going on in the space #im seeing ppl reply to joke posts like ‘what’s kayfabe?’ ‘what’s this mean? did you mean [OPPOSITE]?’#nah dude just chill out and sit and watch and search and it’ll make sense to you later #maybe I just miss forums #sasha speaks

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blueboyluca · 11 months

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“When I first heard it, from a dog trainer who knew her behavioral science, it was a stunning moment. I remember where I was standing, what block of Brooklyn’s streets. It was like holding a piece of polished obsidian in the hand, feeling its weight and irreducibility. And its fathomless blackness. Punishment is reinforcing to the punisher. Of course. It fit the science, and it also fit the hidden memories stored in a deeply buried, rusty lockbox inside me. The people who walked down the street arbitrarily compressing their dogs’ tracheas, to which the poor beasts could only submit in uncomprehending misery; the parents who slapped their crying toddlers for the crime of being tired or hungry: These were not aberrantly malevolent villains. They were not doing what they did because they thought it was right, or even because it worked very well. They were simply caught in the same feedback loop in which all behavior is made. Their spasms of delivering small torments relieved their frustration and gave the impression of momentum toward a solution. Most potently, it immediately stopped the behavior. No matter that the effect probably won’t last: the reinforcer—the silence or the cessation of the annoyance—was exquisitely timed. Now. Boy does that feel good.”

— Melissa Holbrook Pierson, The Secret History of Kindness (2015)

#dog books #this chapter was very sad reading #when you become aware of punishment #and its use and its prevalence #it's hard not to despair #again this is why positive reinforcement feels like absolution #maybe now my eyes are open I can make up for what I did #what I did because it's what everyone does #because it's more acceptable to punish than to do anything else #I've been having so many thoughts about punishment and society and justice #this book was very validating #another great validating moment in my jumbled thoughts #was listening to the You're Wrong About episode on justice #with Amanda Knox #it helped to ease the despair a little

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harbek · 8 days

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Get ready for a Game Changer!

I̴̫͈͖͠'̸̘̺͛ͅv̸̲̰̦͛e̵̬̪͊ ̸̧̬̤͂b̸̼̰͊͒͜e̵͇͎͐ẽ̶̟ṉ̷̯̪͗͂͒ ̵̭̑̓h̸̬̾̄ḛ̴̛̹̪̿r̸̮̊e̴̖͆̒ ̵̣̬̲̽͝t̴̳̫̔̇ḣ̴͓e̸̥͕̎ ̴̡̧͉̔̒̏w̶̲͑̀͐ĥ̶̖o̴̙̻͂ļ̷̍e̵̫͇̅ ̸͍̓͂̕t̷̗̗̼̂̅i̴̟̞̍̒̈́m̵̲̠̃ͅë̶̡̳͇́͒͐!̵̹̦͌͠

Drawn in Photoshop, animated in Spine Pro. The final art piece I made for my bachelor thesis on GIF as a medium for art.

I've been researching digital art in the context of modern folk art, outside institutional or commercial art. I analysed almost 500 art GIFs across Tumblr, Artstation and GIPHY.

There's almost no academic research on art GIFs, so it was important to me to examine and document it. I also examined the optimisation of GIFs and how it relates to web sustainability.

And because the bachelor program was focused on art practice, I then created my own art GIFs, and it seemed only right that I should do it through fanart of something I've been really into lately. Thanks @samreich and the rest of Dropout for giving me some unhinged content as inspiration. Watch 'Game Changer' everyone, it's great.

#dropoutedit #gamechangeredit #game changer #sam reich #brennan lee mulligan #lou wilson #ally beardsley #dropout #gif art #art gifs #yes i did have one of the most uncommon niche subjects in my class #this thing is made out of 50 different moving pieces btw #it took 15 hours to draw #and 7 hours to rig and animate #also thanks for the feedback on the poll!#as you can see i did listen to it

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clown-owo · 1 year

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been replaying the Portal series I think this is where its heading

#i haven't drawn in like. half a month. which listen i know i don't post much here but i do draw a lot #i have another blog. but also sometimes i just don't post things. i draw for myself #just got burnt out from working on an animation final 😔#so anyway. eased myself back in with a silly comic about portal #my irl saw my shitty sketch and thought glados was painting chell which is very funny to me.#chelldos #but like. unrequited. glados is obsessed with chell. chell is not having a good time #portal #chell #GlaDOS #GlaD0S #my art #og post #1k #5k #10k #20k #edit: i made this post almost a year ago and it haunts me. theres a typo. chell is out of character.#because i couldn't come up with a good reason for her to be there in the first place #and this was a shitty ms paint replicating drawing that i did just to get back into drawing #i didn't think it would gain much attention #i was Wrong #anyway someone in the comments said this is what happens when you speedrun thats an infintely better setup for the punchline #EDIT 2: ok i fixed it fuck you

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tennant-davids · 7 months

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LOKI 2x06 Glorious Purpose

#loki #lokiedit #lokius #loki series #lokitvsource #marvelgifs #dailymarvelgifs #usereena #marveledit #mcuedit #*laurengifs #lokiusedit #userbbelcher #chewieblog #loki spoilers #may have let myself cry for another 10 mins when i realised the last thing we ever see in this series #is mobius all alone and miserable without loki #and loki all alone listening to mobius and watching over him #like that properly did me in <3 thanks for asking

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mcmissileproof · 9 months

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at least once every couple of months I still think about the time my old coworker said I was an extremely serious person and she'd never once heard me make a joke, and apart from that not being true at all I just kept thinking about a few days prior when I'd told this same coworker "my brain actually doesn't have any wrinkles, it's actually perfectly smooth and round like a beach ball"

#did she think I actually had a perfectly smooth spherical brain or did she just think I was stupid enough to think I did #or was she just like. not listening. probably tbh #still haunts me tho

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 10 months

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while we wait.

may i offer you all a pubby?? lil bby barns?

#i would like to Squeeze Him Full Strength #look at him!!! so proud that he tracked mud everywhere!!! what a good boy!!!!#listen listen. im a cat person. but barnaby.....#in my mind ms beagle is trying to be stern but hes just So Darn Cute #we are ms beagle pov #scribble garnish #welcome home #barnaby b beagle #welcome home puppet show #no okay but real talk the potential of barnaby's backstory has me close to tears #like hes just a little orphaned puppy... he was ORPHANED #WHAT A FUCKING DETAIL TO INCLUDE LIKE???? OWIE????#did she find him in a waterlogged cardboard box in the rain... just a lil puppy abandoned by the roadside....#OHHHHHH IM GONNA TEAR UP IF I KEEP THINKING ABOUT IT #who would abandon such a sweet boy....#listen im weak to animals #but im Especially weak to innocent lil bby animals who are abandoned/orphaned...#like theyre just little guys who deserve all the love in the world... pure and full of love... discarded....#WAILING AND SOBBING AND EATING YARN LIKE SPAGHETTI

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eldritchsquared · 7 months

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THAT IS ONE OF THE FUNNIEST FUCKING THINGS I’VE EVER SEEN OH MY GODDDDDD

#THAT’S FUCKING HILARIOUS #WHO DID THIS. WHO DECIDED TO DO THIS #THEY KNEW THEIR AUDIENCE PERFECTLY THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY #listen i don’t like him but god was the cameo funny #fnaf #fnaf movie #fnaf movie spoilers #mine #also just in case someone has him filtered =>#matpat #greatest hits

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applestruda · 4 days

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the pearlescent moon

#quick paint that i did while listening to the new minecraft ost #this is apparently how the vibes of most of that ost look like to me #pearlescentmoon #pearlesentmoon fanart #my art

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radioroxx · 2 months

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this is kerdly 2 me. btw

#utdr #deltarune #kerdly #kris deltarune #berdly deltarune #roxx art #ok hear me out. ok . ok #AHDKFK LISTEN. LISTEN HEAR ME OUT OKAY LISTEEEN #guys. guys #hi #ok tbh i really like the kris’ i did here… might have to change a pfp or two….. we’ll see #also. erm. this was supposed to be a dumb stupid doodle comic but then… i liked how the colours were turning out so….. </3 #anyways. ill draw more deltarune promise. u can even request it of me #love and light. signing out goodbye

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skydoescrime · 30 days

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im straight up “against it” and by it haha well. lets justr say. the kitchen floor

#will wood #against the kitchen floor #did you know i had the number 1 amount of listens for this song for a bit on last fm. yeah #i’m number 2 rn but i’m close behind number 1 #will wood icimi

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drulalovescas · 5 months

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THINGS THAT HAPPENED:

Jensen Ross Ackles made the acting choice to pick up Castiel's trench coat and fold it gently like a flag because he believed that's what Dean would've done.

Jensen Ross Ackles was so pissed about the Destiel conflict and Dean treating Cas so harshly in the so-called divorce arc that he confronted the writer (Bobo) about it. He asked for explanation and toning the conflict down.

Jensen Ross Ackles, when asked about what he was most excited to tackle with his character in the final season of the show, took a time to think about his answer and then WITH ZERO HESITATION said: CAS.

Jensen Ross Ackles called Castiel's goodbye (aka the confession) a pivotal moment for the whole arc of the show.

Jensen Ross Ackles asked a crew member to record the confession ON HIS PHONE because he wanted to have the og, unedited version of the confession.

Jensen Ross Ackles said Dean would've said "I love you too" and then hugged Cas.

Jensen Ross Ackles admitted to the crowd of thousands of fans that Dean's biggest regret was not being able to save Cas.

Jensen Ross Ackles wrote a song about Cas.

#now listen #jensen ross ackles is no heller #but those things that he did and said are pretty insane #especially things he said after the show ended #it's as if he actually watched the show and finally saw with his own eyes how important cas was to dean lmao #jensen ackles i wanna study your brain #supernatural #destiel #jensen ackles

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