10 yr old me had TASTE

MMMM

i think the reason why im so drawn to spirit tracks and pkmn scarvi is that having the legendary/princess as a companion rather than a goal that marks the games completion makes me feel satisfied the way i would after helping a friend

my brother always teases me about how I still havent finished botw after almost 7 years bc "id rather be out picking flowers" which i wont say is untrue. and yes i know Zeldas been holding off ganon for 100 years, yes i can get some sort of idea what her relationship with link was like by recalling memories and going through her diary. ive always loved botw for its unique storytelling and setting which makes it stand out, because it lets you get to know who you're saving.

but because theyre memories, it only works if theres something for the player to investigate that already happened. its retroactive (but effective nonetheless)

on the other hand, spirit tracks does something similar but instead of having the player try to piece together memories and interpret them as a spectator, you actually have an opportunity to get to know zelda yourself by talking to her and working together. besides making it a gameplay mechanic, giving the player control over how they interact with zelda makes it so much more personable.

and I find that making the goal feel personal instead of an obligation gives me more of a reason to work towards it. I know what kind of person botw zelda was but as the player, shes still very much a stranger to me. but spirit tracks zelda? thats my friend!!!! she invited me to go to the beach after we get her body back!!! i dont want to whip her to make her move faster thats mean :(

you know how hostage negotiators are trained to introduce themselves and get to know the person theyre negotiating with because its harder to hurt someone when you know what their favorite food is? its kinda like that, because it feels like im helping a friend than being told or led to do smth

and although i havent played scarvi myself, i feel an attachment to koraidon and miraidon even just watching playthrough clips because its like!! thats my weird scaly dog!! it loves sandwiches and we're friends!!! you know!!!!!!

if graham thought the used to be a man thing was just joking and like 5 minutes earlier she said she used to live in the outback for 123 years, he also definitely doesnt have ANY idea how old she is does he

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the problem of the matter is i did internalize so much of what ex friend believed about me. even though i knew he was wrong and knew what was happening and tried to stop it and if i took more action to stop it would have been abusing power i held in a way i couldn't live with myself for.

fun fact about me: i'm insecure about so many random things that i've never flipped anyone off in my 22 years of life because i think my middle finger looks awkward and ugly by itself

I cannot stand the Toji slander like gtfo of here with that ☠️

in case anybody's ever wondered what chronic illness is like:

i am going to bed at 9 pm on a summer night, with a towel spread out on the side of the bed my face is towards, shaking so hard i can barely type, because my nausea is so unbearable tonight.

Why the hell is Al Pacino paying child support at EIGHTY-THREE years old???? His old a$$ should be playing bingo, drinking syrup and dancing to old tunes. What his baby mama did to him is really f*cked up. She deliberately got involved with a man who is on a very delicate age and probably manipulated him in some way so the moment she would get pregnant, she could benefit from his wealth. Al Pacino won't probably live long enough to complete his child support payment because by the time his child turns 18, he will either be 6 ft underground or his ashes will be inside an urn. Let this be a lesson to the men who are fooling around with these chicks at older age and who refuse to get married young because "I still got time as a man". I'm sorry, but age still has an effect on you no matter what, and there is no way a mofo in his damn 80's should be paying CHILD SUPPORT. This whole situation is messy and shady.

thinking about how the average age of getting electronics exposure has been getting lower and lower and how it probably contributed to tiktok blowing up as a platform

(a correlation)

hmmmm my trauma wasnt bad enough was it

Today I found an old reference sheet of one of my oldest Warrior Cat OCs and realized I probably haven't drawn her in 7 years and decided to change that

Old art under the cut

Nov 14 2015

yknow how therapists will play games with little kids to help them feel comfortable and open up while they talk? well can i have the same things but like for adults. but i also drink a vodka redbull during it and instead of board games i play 2048 on my phone

i said that i cannot always really separate the family tree series from undertale but that is not entirely true, i think it is mostly just the first dead sibling plotline and then a good handful of other songs here and there. the journal in old gemini kind of feels like the same sort of thing the tapes in the true lab

... *VIOLENTLY SHAKING MY PAST SELF FROM 10 YEARS AGO* WHAT WAS THE FUCKING DREAM???? WHAT WAS IT???? WHY DIDN'T YOU FUCKING TYPE IT OUT YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!! OHHH MY GOD I'M GONNA SCREAM LMAO.

BRO?