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Hiii<3 may I request the Wammy boys and L with a gf or s/o that’s bitchy to literally everyone expect for them?
🕯 Hi!! Ofc u can! I hope you enjoy this, and I apologize for L’s being short (￣ω￣;)
The Wammy Boys And Their Bitchy S/o
Characters: L Lawlet, Near, mello, and Matt
🕯X reader
🕯fluff and angst, a little suggestive
L Lawlet:
L knew that you could be bitchy, I mean hell you weren’t the most charming person when you two first met, however as time went on you began to warm up to him. Soon Turing into a perfect lap dog.
Even now, sat on the desk between L and Light, you’re still the same person L had met. “Yknow y/n, it’s really distracting having you sit there” light said, looking up from his work.
“Shut up Kira” is all you said, watching as light furrowed his brow. “How many times do I have to say it!? I’m not Kira!”
“You definitely are, that’s why you’re so defensive, Kira!” You teased, Getting right in Lights face. L doing nothing to stop you, finding it amusing how angry light gets at the word Kira.
“God you’re so annoying, I can’t imagine how L puts up with you” light said bitterly, sitting back in his chair with his arms crossed. “I don’t see why L doesn’t lock you up already for being Kira, it’s written all over your face” you reply with a smirk.
“I unfortunately don’t have the evidence angel, also could you be a dear and ask watari to bring me some cake?” L said typing away on his computer. You smiled softly at him, hopping down from the desk and planting a soft kiss on his cheek. “Of course” you said, smacking light out side the head  as you walked past him.
“HEY! L Control your girlfriend” light complained to L. “I cant, plus it’s funny watching you two bicker” L replied, looking over at Light with his signature smile.
You really were his perfect lapdog
Near:
You’d always been over protective of near, you’d basically fight just about anyone who said something negative about it him. (You fought with mello the most though, especially during your wammy house days)
However, because of the Kira case, you’d been more on edge, sat behind near, watching him build tower after tower with dominoes.
“Hey near, I have that file for you” Linder said as she entered the room. “Just leave it on the table, and be careful please, I’ll be very upset if you ruin my work” near responded, twirling a strand of hair between his fingers, eyes never moving from his towers. “Of course” Linder said, walking over to you and setting the file on the table next to you. “By the way, there’s a new cafe that has opened up, I was wondering if you’d like to go” Linder asked, you felt fire in your chest.
“You know near cant leave this place, why would you ask something so stupid like that.” You asked, spitting venom at Linder. “It was just-“
“Just a stupid, dangerous idea,I mean seriously do you even think before you speak!? One wrong move and boom near is Fucking dead!” You raised your voice to speak over Linder, standing from your chair in anger as you spoke.
“Y/n, that’s enough.” Near said, Turing to look at the two of you. “Thank you for the ofer liner, but as y/n stated, I can’t leave. You are dismissed” he said in his monotone voice. Linder nodding, saying a silent apology as she left the room.
The room was quiet for a while, you final sat back down after cooling off. “What was that about?” Near asked, breaking the silence. “Nothing.” You said, watching as near looked over at you, stood, and walked till he was infront of you. “You’re lying, what’s wrong?” He asked again, putting his hand on your cheek.
You sighed, pulling near onto your lap and hiding your face in the side of his neck. “I’m just worried about you, this whole Kira case has me stressed out” you mumbled out, near humming in acknowledgement. You two sat in silence again, near twirling a strand of white hair between his fingers, his other hand wrapped around your shoulders as you had yours right wrapped around his waist.
“I don’t want to lose you Nate, you mean to much to me” you confessed, nears eyes widening at the use of his real name.
“You won’t lose me y/n” near reassured, pushing you back a little so he could leave kisses on your face, wiping away the tears that began to spill from your eyes.
✞𝑆𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑔𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑠𝑡𝑦 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑜𝑛𝑒 (￣ω￣;)
Mello:
Dating a mafia boss isn’t the easiest thing in the world. With random girls constantly coming over to late night missions. However your managed to keep things under control, mellos’ men feared you, they knew not to back talk to you. After all, you weren’t afraid to pop one through their skulls.
“Hey, y/n, what’s with the slutty attire today?” One of the newer men asked, “Hmm?” You responded, sat on mellos lap, only wearing one of his shirts, black panties, and black Lacey stalkings to match.
“You heard me, you look like one of these prostitutes” the guy snickered, pulling the girls on either side of him closer.
“Dude shut up-“ one of the older guys said, only to be cut off “why should I? They’re just some whore who got lucky enough to sleep with the head hauncho” he continued.
All you could do is laugh,honestly, putting your hand on mellos chest and curling forward as you let out the loudest laugh, a sinister tone coming through as the guy who was talking shit started to get nervous. “What you laughing at whore!? I’ll fuck you up you hear me!!” He said, quickly taking a stand.
“Oh? You? Fuck me up?” You responded cockily, also taking a stand. “Let’s get two things straight, the only person who fucks me, is mello.” You started, bending down to give mello a kiss on the cheek, sneaking the gun out of his hip. “And, I don’t fuck dead people.”
“Dea-“
BANG!
before he could even finish his sentence, you’d pulled the trigger on mellos gun, shooting him straight in the head. Brain matter and blood had covered the wall and girls behind him, both of which started screaming and crying as he fell to the floor.
“Good job baby” mello said, smiling up at you. “Thank you, can someone get those two outta here please?” You asked, watching as a bunch of guys quickly got to their feet to escort the girls out.
“You do kinda look like a whore though” mello joked, “only for you” you replied, taking your seat back in his lap, gently placing the gun against his temple. “But you better be careful, I’ve been known to kill people for saying stuff like that” you giggle as mello kisses you, moving your arms to wrap around his neck.
Matt:
You hated them. All of them. Every single girl who had came up to Matt during your date just to tell him how hot he was. It pissed you off, you wanted to crush their skulls for even looking at him. Like wise, every girl that had come upto you guys you told to fuck off, calling the worst names known to man until they left.
It was now towards the end of your date, the two of you sat outside a small café, the night stars shining brightly above you. “It’s so nice out” you said, looking up at the night time sky.
“It is, hey I’m really sorry about those girls coming upto me” Matt said, holding your hand from across the table. You looked over at him, sighing softly before you spoke. “It’s fine, you can’t help being-“
“Omg! You’re literally so pretty!” A girl cut you off before you could speak, you glared at her as she put her hand on Matt’s shoulder. “We should meet up sometime! Here’s my phone number!!” She said, completely ignoring your presence.
“Are you fucking kidding me!?!” You exclaimed loudly, quickly standing up and splashing water on girl la fancy dress. “Hey! What the fuck us wrong with you!”
“What’s wrong with yoy!? Cant you see we’re on a date! Why don’t you go whore yourself out to someone else!! You look like trash anyways he wouldn’t even go out with you!” You yelled at her, watching as tears started to form in her eyes. The girl quickly ran off, leaving you and Matt alone once again.
Thank god the outside seating area was empty.
“Y/n” Matt said, looking up at you with a worried look. You looked down at him, almost instantly calming down as you sat. “I’m sorry, I’m just so sick of people coming upto you!” You explained, crossing your arms as you looked down at your lap.
Matt stood, walking over too you and giving you a kiss on your head. “I know, you handled that a lot better then I would of.” He said, handing you the little peace of paper with the girls full legal name and phone number.
“You wanna sell her info, I’m sure you and I could find loads of shut with this info” Matt offered, watching as your fave brightened up. “Of course, sound alot more fun then staying here anyways” you said, standing and following Matt out to the street. Running into the same firm from earlier with her bestie.
“There they are! That fucking bitch!” She said loudly, you watched as her friend came over to you, pushing you back. “What the fuck is your problem!? Huh!” She said, getting all up in your face.
In one fello swoop, both you and matt pulled out your guns (something mello made you both carry considering how close you two are to the mafia), you aiming at the girls friends head and matt aiming at the trashy girls head.
Both girls froze, you were first to speak. “So help me god you bother me and my boyfriend one more time Well Fucking blast you both on this street.” Both girls looked at eachother and quickly ran off.
You sighed once again and brought your gun down, Matt pulled you into a hug. “You want me to carry you to the car? You must be exhausted from today”
All you could do was nod, lifting your arms up to wrap around Matt’s neck as he lifted you up with ease, bringing you back to his car.
Once you two got home, you spent the rest of the night cuddled up together, cyber stalking that girl and selling her info to loads of people.
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Thoughts on season 2 because I’m hurt and i want to talk about it
Ep 6
Fuck! into the abyss we go!
Things Aziraphale has in the bookshop because he has trauma from the fire.
fake candles with batteries
and 4 fire extinguishers
at Heaven
Crowley somehow knows Muriel’s division
Crowley is soooo gentle with Muriel I love it. I think that in season 3 Crowley will be helping Muriel adjust on earth. Maybe he wont be going back at the bookshop but he might be popping up here and there like he did with Aziraphale.
“throne or dominion and above.” *casually opens the files* QUESTIONS!?
Crowley is surprised when Saraqael addresses him with his demon name and again doesn’t remember them but I think he’s lying this time. I wonder if Saraquel and Crowley were on the same division.
Ok here’s the thing. On the trial all the high up angels see and talk with Metatron BUT later they don’t recognize him. Not even Aziraphale’s recognize him BUT Crowley does.. if Gabriel had his memories would he recognize him as well? Is that a hierarchy thing or is it because he fell? Did Crowley talk with him the same way Aziraphale did last season and then took the decision to fall?
Metatron said that Gabriel couldn’t fall cuz they could only allow one prince to fall and that clearly is a Lucifer thing right?
Beelzebub is so gentle with their flies ,so cute
When Gabriel and Beelzebub held hands Aziraphale put his hand on Crowley’s shoulder (yes im normal about this)
I can't with Crowley! he’s sending them to Alpha Centuri lol
Question. What are the consequences of letting an Archangel and a Duke of hell leave. Like Lucy and the other angels the first time left because there was no “bad side” and someone had to be it, so they fell and made hell, but now it's bc the want to? Like they are not becoming humans they are just peacing out. And they are the “leaders”!! If Aziraphale and Crowley left they would have being just replaced but you can’t replace a fucking Archangel and a Duke can you? They do put Shax and Aziraphale (allegedly) but can they actually replace them?
Shouldn’t there be a hierarchy requirement for that like… Aziraphale is a principality how low is he? Muriel is the lowest and Metatron is the highest. Then there is Gabriel the Archangel who is in charge but they say that he is higher than Michael for some reason even tho google says there are three Archangels Gabriel, Michael and Raphael. So technically those three should be the same level no?
Then is Uriel and Saraquel.
If you don’t want to put Michael into Gabe’s position why not Saraquel?
I get the demon’s thing bc they are more chaotic and Shax is the smartest demon after Crowley and Beelzebub, but the angels confused the fuck out of me
And on that is God and Satan aware that this is happening? Are they just vibing with this whole situation? What the hell is happening?!
Im so here for the coffee theory
Metatron gives me the creeps
“Except the dim one” about Muriel. Interesting because so far they are the only angel dosed in light whenever they are on screen. Plus if we want to be literal she is the purest angel in that room all the other angels have “sinned” one way or another.
Insert coffee theory
Aziraphale is very cold at the beginning when talking to Metatron, then he drinks from the coffee and then when he listened to Metatron’s proposition he became warmer (but in the end he got manipulated into it)
“it’s very delicious”
“yes…I jolly hope so” that’s sus as fuck.. also he wanted to say damned but cant cuz he is the Metatron.
Aziraphale looks at Crowley for permission to walk with the Metatron and they give Crowley the MEANEST NASTIEST DEATH GLARE!!!
“we need a little US time” yes. please, fuck
Also I wonder what book Muriel was gonna take originally
“There’s only one candidate who makes the slightest bit of sense, you” WHY THO?!! You want a puppet. Someone to execute the plans that God and Satan have without asking questions or saying no. That’s why you let Crowley go and that’s why you fired Gabriel. Michael and Uriel are as powerhungry as angels can be but why not put Saraquel ?! Aziraphale is literally going against the status quo, albeit accidentally yes, since the Garden so why him?
(i have a theory on that)
Moving on
“Oh Crowley, nothing lasts forever” WHO GAVE YOU THIS IDEA THO? You collect books. Yes you know that nothings lasts forever cuz you are an immortal being living among the mortal but that is a “new” mentality for an optimistic character. Again you collect books. Books that are made from organic matter. Books that almost got burned. Aziraphale didn’t stop having the bookshop after the fire, he took precaution so that it wont happen again. That’s not an “nothing lasts forever” mentality if you ask me. It was either from the coffee or he was meant to say something else.
I would like to point out that Crowley took his glasses off when he tried to speak first and put them back on after “nothing lasts forever”. Thank you im not ok
AZIRAPHALE WAS CRYING WHEN CROWLEY LEFT AND METATRON CAME IN
And he’s hesitating HAAAARD
Like he knows that’s the wrong choice. He even tries to change his mind, or change the terms of the agreement but decides not to.
AND HE KEEP STARING AND SEARCHING FOR CROWLEY OUT OF HIS FUCKING WINDOW. THE ONE CROWLEY KEEPS LOOKING AT HIM FROM THE OUTSIDE. THE ONE OVER HIS DESK.
I CANT WITH THIS SHOW.
I AM DECEASSED. And im going to bed..jesus
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A new month, different goals, same projects!
Well hello there! I'm guessing most people who read this don't know who I am yet so I'll tell you a bit about me shortly, but for those who do know me, you know I've been on a semi hiatus from streaming for quite awhile now. We are making a comeback, slowly but surely! Like I said, I'm guessing the majority of those who are reading this don't know me yet so I will start with an introduction!
Who am I?
I'm Eva Nox, a vtuber! I stream on twitch and discord, and plan to add youtube into the mix when I am able to. I really enjoy making clips in their raw states and find those to be an abundant source of things that make the world worth living, in a way.
I frequently and regularly have to take time off of streaming and social media due to health. I am very open about most of my health conditions, especially my Multiple Sclerosis and my Autism as these two are the most visible of my invisible illnesses & disabilities. My MS causes a huge range of physical health issues while my ASD heavily affects my processing and social skills. As a result some people may see me as flakey or noncommittal. I've found that by letting people know about these conditions and the hardships they cause, that people get a better understanding of me and why things are the way they are.
If you are interested in knowing more about me, pop by literally any of my streams or consider joining my discord! We are an 18+ community however for the safety of EVERYONE, so please be aware you will be kicked if you are not 18+.
What's up with this new month, new goals thing?
So, in January I made myself a content creator goals list for this year. Sadly, due to health we are way behind my goals and plans. Here's what it originally looked like:
January - Set up new PC, work on my discord server
February - Rest and recover from infusion, start doing more discord and community events
March - Start BDO and go through all of my clips
April - Come back from YT hiatus
May - Schedule group collabs
June - Celebrate good times~
July - Attempt an art month!
August - Rest and recover from infusion
September - Start spooky month game(s)
October - Finish spooky month game(s)
November - Schedule group collabs
December - Celebrate good times~
Sadly, we are entering March and I am way behind on my January and February goals. I am using my new pc, but I've been struggling with my OBS, partially due to some plugin issues and partially due to changes I'm making in my OBS setup. I've also had increased issues with eye strain which makes it hard for me to work on things like my OBS. I also have not been able to work on my discord server for similar reasons. I have however recovered from my infusion AND some bizarre illness I got recently, so that's nice!
I really do need to work on sorting my files and dealing with my major backlog of clips. This is my 4th priority for creator stuff at this time. My first priority is to get my OBS functional for streaming. My second priority is <instantly forgets everything I was thinking...> something.... Yes, I'm going to leave this here, it is important that people understand I literally get brain fog and cannot for the life of me figure out wtf I was doing or saying and that this is fairly NORMAL for me. I still cant remember the second thing, but I know there was something else before 3. The 3rd priority for my content is one of the most important projects I'm working on right now, called "Project S.S. Sunshine". There are multiple reasons for the title, but the biggest one is a homage to my nickname for my dogs when I was younger. I miss one of them dearly and this was one of my ways to reinclude him in my life even though he passed before I began my journey as Eva Nox. I know some people may get offended by the name of my project, but really its not meant to be a huge thing or anything like that. It's literally the initials of some of my childhood pets. There is literally no hidden or secret meaning beyond that, so don't attack me over it.
My schedule says I will come back from my YT hiatus in April but that is up in the air. My health has been really volatile recently so I really cannot predict when my PROPER comeback to youtube will be, however when I finish my project there will be 2 new youtube videos regardless of the status of my hiatus.
Another thing I guess I should note is that in March I have some medical procedures that will be happening for some of the health conditions I do not and will not be making public. Been told it's not much to worry about but I expect that to make it even harder to catch up with my goals.
More about me
I can't believe people are still reading this far into this.... a thank you is in order! I know I ramble on and on about things so I really appreciate those of you who are still reading it this far along. Thank you so much and I hope you day is going well!
So lets go back to Autism for a moment. This is by no means a comprehensive list of my struggles as an autistic person nor a comprehensive list of the struggles of other autistic folks. What this is, is a small list of the things I can remember off the top of my head right this second without the stress of remembering everything I deal with over the period of ever.
One of my usually less noticeable but VERY IMPACTFUL autistic traits is my language processing issues. I use "language processing issues" as an umbrella term for MANY things. I struggle with reading, writing, speaking, hearing, and processing all aspects of language. That may not sound so bad but it is a fundamental set of skills that can make or break your experience interacting with the world around you.
For reading and writing my comprehension is leagues behind what "others my age" would/should be at. People tell me to just try harder, and many autistic people do, but for me its not the most important thing ever. I hate being suffocated with "fancy" language when being direct makes communication much easier as well as leaves room in my brain to retain memories. Yes, I'm talking about memories because that is something that I've lost alot of due to schools pushing and pushing for us to memorize so much useless crap. I have things I wish I could remember but I don't have the "digital capacity" for everything society wants me to know. It sucks to know I will never be as "good" as everyone else, but that's my decision to make, and I am okay with where I'm at.
Let's end that one there and continue with speaking and hearing. I have several auditory processing issues and I'd like to use some imagery to help normal hearing people to understand what it's like for me. A painter starts by covering their canvas in a color for the base of the background. This is the first color on the canvas and the first sound I hear. Each layer of paint is a new layer of sound, and new layer to filter out while trying to hear people talk. The very last two, top two layers of this painting are human speech. The second to top layer is just pure sound, while the top one is the actual words being spoken. I have to sift through dozens of sounds before I can even hear the sound someone is making, let alone identify the words they are speaking. You will hear me sometimes say, "I'm tired of translating English to English", but not many people realize I'm not talking about accents at all but just simply the sound of the words and trying to figure out what word was said and the order of the words and then the meaning of those words. Most people don't have to take all the extra steps to understand a word in their native language, but I have to.
Additionally I have a speech impediment which isn't noticeable most of the time, but sometimes it becomes noticeable. In recent years, I've been learning how to continue speaking despite it as in the past I would just stop talking and make very little to no sounds. This mostly happens when I start to get too tired, stressed, mask too long, talk too long, strain my vocal chords, and sometimes there's not reason I can tell for why it happens.
Between my auditory processing issues and my speech issues I struggle with communication quite often, and have been alienated because of it time and time again. I used to struggle alot more with making friends because of these issues but having met so many more people with autism I'm not nearly as worried because now I'm understood and accepted.
With my autism, I also suffer from Sensory Processing Disorder. For me, not for all with SPD, I am more often than not overstimulated by one or more sensory inputs. I often struggle with sounds because they are just so loud and intrusive, lights are so horribly bright but if you dim it, I'll get a headache. Smells become overbearing and horrid. My sense of touch becomes hyper aware of everything, clothes, blankets, the ground, the air, every little thing I touch. Of course I'm not dealing with ALL sensory types being overwhelmed at the same time, but often if I am dealing with sensory overload it is two or more sensory types at a time.
Recently someone redefined habits and routines in terms of autism and I really liked how they described it. I used to consider myself a creature of habit/ a habitual creature, but now I do not identify that way. Habits, as the person described, is something you automatically just do. Every X frequency at the same time in every time. ROUTINES are things that you do, at the same exact time, in the same exact order, for the same exact "reason" in whatever the frequency is. One of the big differences is that a habit comes automatically and without thinking about it, whereas a routine does not come automatically but is crucial in maintaining <I don't have a good word for this right now>.
For me, if I had a habit, it would be like "brush your teeth when you wake up, whenever that is" whereas a routine would be a specific time after waking up, and if there was anything I did prior or afterwards it would need to be in the same order.
When I look at the differences, to me a routine is much more natural and necessary, however my routines can easily be disrupted which can affect me for hours, days, weeks, or even months at a time. This can make things like taking medicine difficult as once that routine is messed up it becomes so incredibly difficult to fix again. You can't just say "I need to do these 10 things every day" (outside of work/school/etc) because it literally is a ONE THING AT A TIME type thing, and it needs to become a stable routine before you add one more thing. So things like showering, brushing teeth, medication, eating, etc all have to be added in ONE AT A TIME for an extended period before another is added. For me this becomes difficult with my volatile health messing my routines up constantly.
Another thing I struggle with as an Autistic person is emotional management. I have a hard time existing in the world of emotion and the world of functionality at the same time. A great example that I think alot of people may connect with is when you were a kid and you really REALLY enjoyed something and someone took a picture of you, but in the picture you are making a face that leads people to think you either didn't like it or that you were unhappy/uncomfortable, etc. The "flat" emotion type face if you get that. The thing is, that is an example of being so intensely invested in that emotion that your entire body literally shuts down and freezes while you are basically just existing in the world within your mind. I really have yet to find a better explanation for the separation of emotional states and everything else that goes on. As a result, good/bad/neutral emotions used to be so intense that it was all I could do, all I could be, and all that I was. I still struggle to identify emotions today, but I am able to express emotions I feel to an extent, largely in part due to learning how to mask and express things through mimicry, but also in part due to having an outsider help manage and combine those two states into a semi functional level. I'm not going to go into the details on this one because it gets too complicated for my comfort level, but this is one of the things my service dog does for me. She helps bridge that gap, allowing me to FEEL and EXPRESS emotions WHILE functioning. Of course it isn't at the same explosive level as those emotions actually are, but it is at a level that normal people are more used to seeing. Again, I will not be going into HOW she does that because its really complicated.
Another struggle I have with ASD is autistic meltdowns. While similar to panic attacks and anxiety attacks, these meltdowns are a distinct thing. It can be really hard to differentiate between the three, but that does not mean it does not happen. In fact, I'd say I deal with meltdowns the most out of the 3, followed up closely by anxiety attacks, and in 3rd place I rarely have panic attacks (but I do get them, and often mistake them for the other two). Meltdowns are involuntary, just like the other two. They are very dysregulating and can last a long time after the "trigger" is "over". I often get meltdowns when either I become extremely overwhelmed by sensory input or when I have an outburst of extreme emotions (of any kind). Meltdowns look a bit different for everyone I know, but all of us have had issues with people telling us things like "you're an adult, stop having temper tantrums" or "just get over it, you're not a baby anymore", etc. These meltdowns are not temper tantrums and have a specific cause EVEN IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS. There is always a cause with a meltdown, and sometimes it's not obvious, while other times you may never figure out what it is. I really want to stress that a meltdown is a VALID struggle that autistic people have and that it isn't okay to deny or criticize it. It's not fun or cool, it is stressful and can be scary, especially for children who don't know what they're going through or why.
I think that concludes my autism struggles for tonight (otherwise this post will never get close to ending). Onto some of my MS issues I suppose. I will try to make this one shorter.
First thing is first, flare-ups are not the same thing as daily symptoms. Flare-ups are specific immune system response where your cells attack the myelin on your nerves. This leads to scar tissue, and can contribute to permanent damage to both the area it's attacking and cause lesions in your brain and spine. Am I forgetting anything else? Probably, but that's the generic description of a flare up. As you sustain more permanent damage to your body, you'll very likely have increased daily symptoms. The damage type, specific location, and severity is different for everyone and their symptoms are also different on a by-person basis.
For me, I often deal with issues with:
Temperature regulation
vision (several different types of visual issues)
numbness
pain
fatigue
weakness
muscle twitching and spasms
balance and coordination issues
dizziness
brain fog
heightened sensory issues (yes, my MS makes my SPD worse)
skin issues
other issues relating to conditions I do not make public.
For obvious reasons this makes working very difficult and leads to very inconsistent streams. I often wake up feeling at least reasonably okay, to only feel like crap by the time I've gone to the bathroom and taken care of Town Crier. Again, this obviously makes it difficult to go about my day. I rapidly go between being good/okay/bad and often get a tiny bit of each every day, with most days leaning towards okay and bad. This is part of the reason why I stream. I want to do something that I can do. I want to give meaning to my life when and where I can. Streaming allows me to do that because although highly inconsistent I can do it when I'm feeling good enough to, for however long I can do it, just simply because I can that day or at that point in time. No one is there to fire me because I had to miss a day or two or a week or more. No one is going to tell me that I'm not trying hard enough and that I need to work harder. Everyone in my community is so supportive and helps me remember to take breaks and stay hydrated. It makes me feel so validated as a person struggling to exist and helps bring the light to the days that are so very dark.
Who is Town Crier?
Last segment! Town Crier is my service dog. You may see me call her TC, Town Crier, baby, etc. while streaming. It's just my little nickname for her and it makes sense since she is half husky!
Thank you for reading this far! If you are interested in finding me on my other socials, click below! My carrd has my comprehensive list of links and some additional information! Again, thanks for stopping by and I hope to see you when and where I can!
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wowzas!! coding discussion time
its been a couple months now since I started working on a silly little roguelike project and i guess im gonna talk about it?? i kinda want to make little devlogs and i guess now is a good time for that since im not too far in?
my goal for this project is a raycaster roguelike since i haven't...actually seen that done much. there's 3d roguelikes but normally if they're 3d they're pretty much assured not to be turn-based. my current system allows you to turn and look smoothly in all directions, and you move on a grid (all 8 directions) depending on where you're looking.
ive been mostly inspired by caves of qud for this, so im looking to do a hybrid of the open world/dungeon exploring like caves of qud has.
the thing that im most excited about for this has been a spell system that's been brewing in my head. im thinking that everything is turn-based, but then the spell casting is done in real time, as you draw certain symbols in order to cast spells. spells are made up of multiple symbols, and if you don't draw these fast enough, then a turn passes, leaving you vulnerable to any enemies as you continue casting spells.
currently ive got:
free-looking and movement on a grid (which is my raycaster)
sprites
......
uhh...
basic...random generation? i guess?
.....nothing really else
........oh i just looked at when i started this project and it was IN JULY!!!!!
holyy
i am....a very slow programmer. i see timelapses of people coding and they go really fast and that is not me. i am very slow. i have very long coding sessions (like 3 to 5 hours) and i get maybe 1 or 2 tasks done?
i guess i cant completely blame this long amount of time on me being slow. i think i didn't actually start dedicated work on this project until a couple weeks after i made my first couple of files. i was following a tutorial on youtube (3dsage's raycasting tutorial) and it took me a while to finish that.
but! this was where things went wrong. i did not realize that this tutorial was solely focused around 8 by 8 tile grids. i spent....quite a while getting things to work with larger grids. there's a couple of magic numbers in there that aren't quite explained either, and they work perfectly fine if you have everything the same as the tutorial. however, they don't work well if anything is different, so as i changed my rendering size i had to spend time figuring out where those numbers came from, and i spent hours trying to figure it out. I asked a couple nice people on discord for help, and they did help a lot! its just that some things they didn't know how to solve either, and so i had to figure that out myself.
and then...everything was perfect. everything was perfect with a 10 by 10 tile grid. so i added my random generation, increased the size of the map....and everything failed again.
i spent so long figuring out what was going wrong. i spent hours pouring over my code, trying to figure out what i was doing wrong. sought help again, and somebody else had a github repo similar to what i was doing, so i copied their code over and...it still didn't work.
it took me so long to realize that the raycasting algorithm i was using just wasn't suited for larger maps.
after that, i found a wonderful website that had a tutorial on making a DDA raycaster (this one) and EVERYTHING WORKED!!!!!!! (after days or weeks of following the tutorial and...you know, getting stuff to work)
so now 4 months later i am at a point where stuff looks nice, but its just a walking simulator right now. i don't think im going to be working on the rendering for a while after this.
where im planning on going next is a system for enemies and fighting them, and then hopefully items and an inventory. i am very scared for items and an inventory. but it'll be fine!
anyways here's some screenshots:
(ignore the fact that it is the backrooms i did that as a joke for my friends. to get the textures for these i just downscaled some things to 32 by 32 textures) (the wall texture is a really cool texture that i got here)
(ah, there we go. bad art and painful contrasts. this is a little more my style) (the art will get better everything is just basically example textures right now)
anyways that's everything!! sorry that this was just me rambling, i've never made a devlog before. devlog? devpost? idk.
anyways ill be back in like a week or a month or something to post more progress.
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I am looking forward to building on this milestone while driving more digital inclusion moving forward. Like music and so on, it’s been like this for months.
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Shareit on my iPhone XS sends info to my PC but cannot receive it. I open music file tap music it opens but then a ad is there as well i tap play an its like it frozen screen. "We are excited to be amongst the top 10 fastest-growing apps in the world and our two recent major achievements have well highlighted the growth rate and value of our products and marketing platform services globally, which have been widely recognized by our users and partners. Shareit app on my ipod has stopped working cant play music or wont play music now.
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Right when I was about to post a review complaining about the problem an update came out which seemed to have fixed the problem. Every two or three minutes(more or less depending on device) The app would crash making it really hard to listen to music.
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Unable to scroll when closing lid dockstation
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Make sure you are not touching the touchpadīecause the touchpad is close to where the palms lay, you may be touching it without realizing you are.
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I think the Windows Updates set me back on the raging battle with my desktop icons, but it may be simply due to the forced reboot.Īfter doing this i now cant turn the pc off and on again or its meesses up icons spreading them all over both monitors, i cant change main display cant change resolutions nothing now works and every time i do anything windows moves all my icons making a huge mess….i change them delete that file but soon as any monitor change resolution change restart, im back to a mess an absolute mess with icons all over the shop….please microsoft give us control of our own desktop and what it looks like your way of organising is simply unorganised mess over two screen when all my icons should be in a few lines on the same monitor i placed them on.Some laptops may have a button around the touchpad or an icon in the Windows Notification Area to enable and disable the touchpad. That said, sometimes these tricks we’re trying work for me for a stretch. I think my monitors wake up with different delays because of the different connection technologies, which confuses Windows. I have always suspected that my problem would go away if I had three DisplayPort monitors.
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Left – 2560×1440, HDMI, Display 2, Locked Taskbar and Desktop Icons hereĬenter – 2560×1600, DisplayPort, Display 1, full screen applications launch here by default I have three monitors connected to an nvidia GeForce 1070 GTX:
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What do we all have in common? I mean, clearly not every Windows 10 user is having this problem. All my icons move to the right edge of my left monitor after I’ve carefully placed them where I want them. It seems worse after the latest Windows update. So, I’ve persistently had this problem for a while (years, I suppose). One possibility is to move some icons and then search for any files changed in the last few seconds (if you have a utility that can do that) – might help…… If you take a backup of your desktop folder and then use it to overwrite the current desktop folder, you will probably find all your icons neatly marshalled at the left side of your screen – so it would appear that their positions are not stored in the icons themselves, or in any file saved in the desktop folder. It therefore appears that no recent versions of Windows 10 use this file any more, so unless you’ve managed the impossible, and stopped MS updating your Windows 10 version at will, then deleting this file apparently cannot have any effect.Ĭlearly, however, the icon positions are stored somewhere. However, the newest version of the file is 3 years old – 2014 – despite the laptop being only 2 years old (?) and having had several W10 updates in that time. Not sure how old this chain is – but when I checked today (16th November 2017) for the iconcache file (which is actually iconcache.db) I found 3- one in each User profile (including Administrator, but excluding Default). Not possible without a lot of wasted effort saving them manually moving them to the other side in Windows. I like to save some files I am currently editing on the desktop and I have my primary open app justified on the left side and like to be able to drag-and-drop the current files on the right side. It’s also super annoying that they all default to the left side of the screen and there’s no way to change it. So you can take the time to get every icon exactly where you want it, even aligned to the grid, with intentional grid gaps between different categories of icons, then as soon as any of those actions above happens Windows re-arranges them and you have to start over. Changing screen resolution, using an external monitor that is a different resolution then resuming use of the laptop screen, some updates and resets, and in the case of laptops that double as tablets it doesn’t survive using them in portrait mode then returning to landscape mode. The problem is the icons don’t remain fixed through any range of actions.
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Can i plug a usb hard drive into my linksys router for mac
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I've tried the router and USB drive addys. I still couldnt access the files on the drive until I logged into the router, went to USB sharing, clicked on the icon to the right of the clock icon, then clicked on the share option. On the phone, using SMB or FTP with either fwd or back slashes one gives me a Google search listing - the other tells me I don't have permission to view "Butler14B150.N56N66OS". IrvSp I turned on SMB 1.0 and now the drive shows. I am NOT interested in sharing an internet connection via the router however, and would like to keep my wired ethernet connection as my primary. I've turned SMB and AFP on in Preferences on the Mac. Id like to use a USB-equipped wireless router to share the hard drive over a secure network-this will allow me to access the files without having to keep the drive plugged into my laptop 24/7. and now what? How can I use the Music app that came with the phone (or any other MP3 player) to access files on the USB?Īny addy I use in Safari (on the phone) I get an error msg and redirected back to the app. Many Linksys wireless router models come with at least one USB port you can use for attaching a USB drive, which you can then use as a. You will need to access the management utilities on the router to turn on its file sharing. It does show my WAN port is in use and my four LAN ports are unplugged. My stock firmware would lock up every few weeks, so I’m hoping this won’t or at least I can set it to reboot once a week like my router (E2000 with DD-WRT).
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I was planning on copying a bunch of music files to the USB drive, attaching it to the router. How to Map a Linksys Wireless Router Attached to a USB Drive. The most complex way is to use a network router that supports sharing of a USB-connected hard drive, such as Apples Airport Extreme Base Station or various Linksys routers. Worked perfectly with my E2500 V3 (Tomato Firmware MIPSR2-3.5-140 K26 USB Mega-VPN).
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My goal was to access music from my Mac via my iPhone. 8 hours ago &0183 &32 Click Apply Netgear Orbi Advanced AP 1 Connect the wired and wireless devices at the same time: You can connect the 4 devices through wired and another 4-5 devices wirelessly through 3 Orbi satellites communicate with the router, not with each other You cant use it to connect a USB hard drive or a USB printer that you 08. But I don't see any way to access the files with any phone app (Music, Pages, Adobe, etc - since there is no Finder per se). Using Finder, I can access the drive via my Mac - copy, paste, open files etc with the Linksys app on my iPhone I can see the router and that there is the usb drive. IMac, iPhone 6+, Linksys WRT1200AC router with a Seagate 1.0T USB drive. For Plex, should I use external hard drive plugged into pc, or router I have Plex installed on my computer and have it in my mobile, I want to use it with chromecast but am I better off leaving the external hard drive plugged into my computer usb3.0 or directly into my router usb2.
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god imagine if when bakugou has a kid their just like him. like imagine a 6 year old with a sarcastic nasty mouth who just doesn’t give a fuck. Which eventually leads to bakugou getting his ass handed to him. Look here’s a teaser
“ holy sh—fuc—why aren’t you sleeping “
“ why aren’t you sleeping “
“ because I cant sle—- “ a soft cough left the older males mouth as he sat up straighter “ I don’t have to explain anything to you — you little rodent “
“ ro— ro— rodent ? “ the small child’s voice came out in a loud scream as the male in front them shifted in his seat uncomfortably
“ here come on let’s go to mama “
God you had to have been his only way out of this situation
“ mamas sleep “
of course you were.
Of course you were tucked away into the confinement of your own bed recovering from a hard day of work. The soft covers draped over your body while the fan worked wonders around the room.
God your such an asshole , a pathetically beautiful and lucky asshole
“ heh , then why aren’t you? “ the older male deadpanned as he stared down on the child. He let out a small sigh when he didn’t receive an answer “ ok then why don’t we both go to our own rooms and sleep too huh ? how ‘bout that “
“ katsumis sleeping in there “
“ fuck —you just seem to have everybody in your corner huh you little brat“
The room went quiet as he watched the small girl crawl up on the coach using his pants leg as an anchor to help her get up there. Her small legs pushing her up only for her to fall back down because her arms couldn’t pull up the weight of her small body. His mouth opening to let out a sigh before he reached out and pushed the girl up on the couch his hand pushing her butt and sending the girl flying onto the couch like a football.
Only to make her giggle and crawl back over to sit next to him.Body settling in the same position as him with her small chubby legs spread out and her hands placed behind the couch as far as they could go leaving her chest out in the open. A small smile on her face when she noticed she looked just like the male to the right of her. And honestly she did she always did without even trying .
It wasn’t that bakugou hated kids no.
It was just that he would rather be left alone and not be bothered with them. He thought maybe when he grew up and had his own kids that would change but after the birth of your first child together, then the second , and lastly the third he only noticed the small change that occurred.
He could put up with them of course but he always found them annoying mostly because anytime he seen them he had just gotten back home from work. meaning he had to hear them screaming their heads off and fighting with you in a plea to skip bath time while he walked through the door and straight to your shared bedroom
Most of the time he was the disciplinary parent so you can only guess how quickly each of them would fall in line when they all looked up to see the loud footsteps echoing through the house belonged to their father.
His hero uniform still on with his eyes locked on each of theirs in a tired gaze frowning up at him as his right hand carried the belt he’d picked up from his bedroom on the way over to the bathroom.
His face speaking volumes before his mouth did . His right hand only gripping tighter when he thought about how long you had gone with them acting like this and him not being around to stop them from mistaking your exhaustion as submission
You weren’t soft per say but after having 3 kids and taking care of them by yourself you’d grown weak and tired.
Your mean manner and discipline you thought you had set up in your house only withered away more and more with every kid you had and now you were really just tired of taking care of three kids all by yourself with no help.
“ take the shitty bat— “
your hardened gaze moved from your kids to him as his hand holding the belt wavered — remembering your rule of no cursing in the house because your middle child had just started second grade and the teacher had already called once.
“ haha daddy’s scared of mommy “
“ of course he is have you seen her “
“ hey mommy’s not scary she’s just — “ your youngest daughter katsu spoke as she quickly turned to katsuki “ hey daddy what’s that word “
“ what word ? “ his face went stoic before he sighed annoyed with the small child “ how the hel— heck am I suppose to know what word you wanna say — i’m not a mind reader katsu— that’s not my quirk “
“ well maybe if you spent a little more time with her you’d know asshole “ your oldest spoke under his breath “ strict katsu that’s the word your looking for — she’s just strict I mean someone has to be when our fathers too busy sa— “
“ hey come on kai just— just get in the bathtub your up next anyways “ your voice was soft a small sigh leaving it before you wrapped katsumi and katsu in towels tucking them away from their older brother. “ ‘sumi— ‘tsu follow your dad he was just leaving —he can help me put you two to bed tonight — “ you rolled your eyes at the male hovering over you “ lord knows i need it—in you go kai “
“leaving — wh— the hell if I am ——- your just gonna let ‘ em get away with that “ bakugous mouth moved faster as he gripped the belt like it was a separate life form when he saw your innocent eyes look up at him “ get away with what babe ? “
“ they just verbally assaulted me y/n “
“ oh did they hmm” you turned back to your kids “ maybe you should file another villains report “
“ wow “ his voice went quiet at your remark you two had been on the outs recently because he kept saying how much he wanted more kids in the moment only to turn around and bask in the light he was given during their birth and then turn back around and spend no time with them at all.
you shook your head “ i’m sorry I don’t understand what they’ve done wrong “
You were tired of it.
“ i’m going to bed after this ‘suki I don’t know if your gonna be there or if your sleeping at the office again but please this time write a note so I don’t tell katsu her dad will take her to school in the morning “ you scoffed “ again “
That was how he ended up here he had gone to the office but he came back when he realized he’d screwed up his whole family. He assumed that if he had the fame , the money , the whole setup that he could provide for his family’s every need.
What he’d forgotten is that maintaining relationships within your family is actually apart of said needs. He didn’t understand until all three of his kids had something to say about his absence how much it was messing with them. So he came back home and sat on the couch.
Just his luck that he was greeted with not only the youngest but the smartest of his three children. He would’ve much rather have walked in to hear you screaming at him for leaving in the first place not the toothless child next to him bothering him with useless questions about his absence
“ dada “ his eyes went over to look at katsu who’d found a place on his side This would be her twelfth question in a matter of five minutes “ can I sit in your lap “
his eyes furrowed this was a different question than he’d expected “ katsu baby you don’t have to ask things like that “
“ but you— your never here so I just assumed that you may be trying to get away from us so I didn’t want you to have someone you don’t like in your lap “
“ what kat— “ his back hit the couch before he propped himself up and dragged the small girl onto his lap “ I adore you guys I love you and I never meant to make you guys feel unloved it’s just that“
“mm “ her voice coming out accusingly just like yours causing him to tense while imagining you as the small girl in front of him.
“ work baby “ he sighed as he rubbed the girls shoulders up and down heating up her cold body “ work is really hard when your an adult and you never get any time off with my job it’s constant “
“ daddy is all work hard “
“ yes “ he smiled
“ if all work is hard— meaning it’s all the same then why can’t you just get a different hard job that doesn’t take up all your time “
his heart pounded inside his chest as he stared down on the smaller girl his eyes wide “ w— what um aren’t you like what 5 —6 how— “
“ you missed when my quirk came daddy it’s super knowledge”
his smile tightened along with the grip he held on the couch cushion beside him “ of course it is yeah of course it is — just my fucking luck “
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Hey ❤️ Can you write something with number 10. Undercover/fake relationship, with Gibbs? Maybe add a bit of angst?
Undercover
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Pairing: Gibbs x reader
Warnings!: Angst, undercover work, mentions of death and usual NCIS things, more angst, but fluffy ending
Promt: #10 undercover/fake relationship
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"We got a body." Gibbs announced to the team. You groaned. You had just wrapped up a case and almost instantly were diving into the next one.
"Don't murderers ever take a vacation?" You whined to Dinozzo.
"No, but we are. 3 marines found dead with their wives, in Miami, Florida. All were on vacation for their honeymoon." McGee informs the group. Everyone spent a few minute studying the victims.
"You know y/n you kind of look like the wives. And, and Gibbs you kinds resemble the husbands. In ya' know the stone cold marine type way." That earned a hard slap to the back of the head. "I'm just sayin'. We might have an opportunity here."
"You mean undercover?" You asked curiously, glancing at Gibbs. His face remained unwavering.
"Yeah, I mean, you two pretend to be married and we lure the guy to you two instead of some other couple." Dinozzo continued. You had to admit he had a point.
"I agree with Dinozzo, boss. This might just work well enough to distract him from killing another couple." Gibbs nodded slowly, still staring at the file.
"Ok, pack a bag everyone. Me and y/n will be going undercover, the rest of you will be running point from inside with the Miami PD." Gibbs grunts out before heading to the elevator. McGee shot you a look and you just shrugged.
* * *
10 hours later and you were settling into a lush honeymoon sweet in some way overpriced fancy hotel.
"So, Gibbs, how do you want to go about doing this? We need a back story, and I cant keep calling you Gibbs, because well that just doesn't make sense." You were babbling. But you always did when you were nervous. And you were only nervous because you may or may not have developed some feelings for the man standing before you.
"I guess your right." He sat on the edge of the bed. "We met at a small coffee shop, I was on my way to work, you were..." he was struggling to come up with something.
"Most of the wives were also marines, they just served for a much smaller amount of time than their husbands, they all worked on the same bases as their husbands. So I was also on my way to work, coincidently at the same place." He nodded going along with it.
"That works." He paused. "We need names."
"You could probably stick with Jethro Gibbs, and I would be Y/n Gibbs." He raised an eyebrow at you. "What? It would probably be easier just in case we slip up with a name." He couldn't argue there.
"Alright we should probably get some rest. Long day tomorrow." You agreed quickly with him, and you both made your way towards the bed. The bed. The only bed.
"I can sleep on the couch." He offered.
"Really Gibbs? No, we can share. Its a huge bed." And so you shared. He nodded, and swallowed audibly. You both got under the covers on your respective sides. And you heard Gibbs breathing even out signaling that he was asleep. You turned over and saw how serene his faced looked. You fell asleep soon after.
* * *
You awoke the next morning with a foriegn weight on your chest. Opening your eyes slowly you looked down only to find a head of salt and pepper hair. Gibbs. Gibbs was wrapped around ypu like-like a koala. His arms wrapped tightly around your middle, his legs tangled with yours while his head rested on your chest, your hands in his hair. You needed to get out of this bed. You ever so gently removed yourself from his arms, and he whined. He actually whined before falling back asleep.
You made a point not to bring this morning up once he woke up.
* * *
The case had seemed to be going relatively well. That is until you were almost caught following a suspect. The guy was walking back around a corner in an alley, probably because he had dropped his keys. If you didn't do something fast, then you would both be caught and ultimately busted.
All of a sudden Gibbs grabbed you and pressed you into a wall. He reached his hand down around your thigh hoisting it up along his side. And then his lips were on yours. He kissed you like a starved man, your mouths slanted together. He pressed into you more, and with one of his hands on your face and the other on your thigh, you let out a soft moan. Grabbing him by the collar you pulled him in harder and kissed him with even more passion than you thought possible.
The spell was unfortunately broken when the guy grabbed Gibbs by the shoulder yanking him back. He had a gun pointed directly at him.
Although unfortunately for him the rest of the team along with many officers were waiting for him to make his move and he was arrested within seconds.
And you and Gibbs couldn't look each other in the eyes.
* * *
The case cleared up pretty quickly after that, and you and Gibbs headed back to your room to collect your stuff. Once in the room the silence was deafening.
"Listen y/n, I'm sorry about the kiss. I just needed him to be distracted long enough to notice us." He daid a grim look on his face.
"I uh, it's fine." Yous stumbled out.
"You okay y/n?" He asked hesitantly stepping closer to you.
"I just, that seemed a lot more than just an undercover kiss." You paused waiting for a reaction. "It just seemed too real." You added quietly. His face quickly changed to one of almost anger.
"Well, it wasn't real." He snapped.
"Jeez Gibbs, you don't need to get defensive. I was just saying-" he cut you off.
"Listen y/n, that kiss was nothing. The only reason I would ever kiss you is if it pertained to a case!" You felt your eyes tear up as the realization crossed his face at what he just said.
"Wow, um. O-okay. I'm all packed, so I'm just gonna go." The tears were steadily falling down your face now.
"Wait y/n, that's not what I meant." He said, his voice softer now.
"No really sir, its fine. We should probably just remain professional from now on so that no feelings get mixed in with work." You walked to the door. "Goodbye Agent Gibbs." And you slammed the door behind you. Leaving Gibbs in that room by himself wondering what the hell he had just done.
* * *
You had closed yourself off completely from Gibbs in the upcoming weeks. He hated it of course, but he thought it best. He was sure he was falling in love with you, but he couldn't get close. He would only end up hurting you.
You had confided in Ducky one day after work. He had asked you why you had been avoiding Gibbs so much and you told him. He wanted to smack Gibbs. He would settle for giving him a piece of his mind.
So after work he called Gibbs downstairs to his office and shut the door behind him.
"You're an idiot." He scoffed.
"Excuse me?" Gibbs was taken aback by his friends bold words.
"She loves you too. And you're just pushing her away. Listen, not every woman you are with is going to get hurt, and you need y/n. I haven't seen you that happy since, well in a long time." Gibbs sat quietly taking in the words of his colleague.
"I-I didn't know what to do Duck. She was too close and I just... I panicked." He said quietly. Ashamed at the way he had spoken to you.
"Heres what you are going to do..."
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You were sitting at you desk when you received a text from Palmer that you were needed in autopsy, you headed to the elevator and hopped in pressing the floor number. As you reached the floor, the doors slid open, revealing Gibbs, with a bouquet of flowers?
He stepped into the elevator, remaining quiet until it started moving. He pulled the emergency button and the elevator came to a halt. He turned slowly to face you.
"Y/n, you know I'm not good with words, and you know how much I hate apologizing. But I'm sorry for what I said and how I acted." He handed you the flowers. You took them giving him a skeptical look.
"Thank you?" You were very confused at where this was going.
"I think I'm in love with you, and that scares the hell out of me." He paused. "When I kissed you it was the best kiss I had ever had and I just didn't want to let you get close. I was scared." You knew it took a lot for him to say all of that to you, so you leaned forward and pressed a soft kiss to his lips.
"Thank you." You smiled at him. "I love you too you idiot." He chuckled at your words.
"I guess I am pretty stupid." You nodded.
"Yeah, but I know how you can make it up to me." You said a mischievous glint in your eyes. And boy did he make it up to you.
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Prof Lupin x Werewolf Reader
A/N not the best but i wanted so see if the idea could work.
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It was a full moon the night before and buy the way you felt... it was definitely a bad one. You woke up that morning in the dungeons of Hogwarts with a pounding headache and 3 new scratches on your arm.
The walls were littered with deep claw marks and a light layer of brown fur, dusted the stone cell. You hated it. You hated being in that cell once a month. It was your second year doing the routine and it was driving you up the tiny walls. All you wanted to do at that moment was ease the pain on your arm.
TIME SKIP> LATER THAT DAY
Your classroom door creaked open, pulling your attention away from the charm you were casting.
In walked a lady in long, emerald green robes and a large pointy hat. She was on the older side and had her silver hair tied up in a bun that was hidden under her hat.
"Good afternoon Professor Mcgonagall" You chimed. "Is there anything I can help you with?"
"I apologise, Professor but I must borrow you for the remainder of the class," She said, smiling at you with an apologetic look. There was no sense of urgency in her voice. She had a kind and respectable air around her that always made you feel at ease.
"Well children" you began, swishing your wand and muttering a spell that made the room rain blue slips of paper. "Looks like you have an hour to kill. Please take a paper to ensure that you don't get detention and Professor McGonagall will sign them on your way out."
One by one, your students filed out of the classroom and had their slips signed.
"Have a good afternoon, children," McGonagall said closing the door behind the pair of you.
As you entered the hall, you saw Professor Lupin waiting outside your door. This seemed a tad bit strange to you. For one, he was supposed to be teaching DADA to 3rd years at that time and second, he had been outside of your classroom before. A few times actually. The first time, you were in a rush and unable to talk. The second time, he managed to get out a polite greeting before a students spell blew up a statue.
Each time you mentally kicked yourself because over the few months he had been at Hogwarts... you had become a tad bit smitten.
Seeing that the two of you had exited the classroom, Lupin made his way towards you.
"Are you alright (Y/N), you look awful."
You sent your friend an amused look. McGonagall was fully aware of what you were but it never bothered her, Snape or Dumbledore.
"Professor Lupin." you said failing to hide your embarrassment." To what do I owe the pleasure?"
"I assure you, Professor (Last Name), the pleasure is all mine." He replied. He held eye contact with you for a second. It looked like he was about to say something before Minnie cut him short.
"Right. You two follow me. We mustn't keep dumbledore waiting."
McGonagall stopped in front of a huge door. With a strong push, the professor opened the heavy door enough that the 3 of you could get into her classroom.
"In you go"
"Minnie may I ask what this is about?" you asked only to be cut off mid-sentence.
"We will discuss that when we are in the classroom."
She let out a slight laugh "The pair of you look like scared children. There's no need to worry you're not in trouble, we just need to talk to you." The Professor asked guiding you both to the front of the room.
" Yes professor I'm fine" Remus answered her with a sigh.
Before you could answer her, the door opened, revealing the headmaster. He had the same calm air around him that McGonagall did but he also radiated power (In both magical and un-magical ways).
"Good morning Professor McGonagall, Lupin..." Dumbledore greeted. " (Y/N) ... any new injuries today?"
You fiddled with your shirt sleeve. "Nothing I cant take care of"
Dumbledore turned to Remus and asked the same question. The man took a quick glance at you before his eyes cemented themselves to the floor.
"I assume you are curious as to why you are here (Y/N)."
"To put it mildly professor" you joked.
McGonagall was amused but didn't show it.
"We're both Werewolves. You and I" Remus said trying to be confident as he planted his hands in his pockets.
The pair of you looked at each other for a moment in silence. You were both Werewolfs. No wonder you felt something when he was neer you. He was a lycan. Like you.
During the silence, McGonagall went to hold your hand in a supportive way.
"I'm sorry what?" you asked looking at Lupin.
"(Y/N) don't get upset. We were only doing what we.." It was your turn to cut Professor McGonagall off but you started awquadly laughing.
"What? why would I be upset?"
At the corner of your eye, you saw Lupin shifted his weight from one foot to the other.
"Is this why you've been trying to talk to me outside my classroom, Remus?"
The teacher paused for a second with panic before he scratched the back of his head. "y-yes. That's what I... wanted to talk about." He answered, the last bit of his sentence drifting off into nothingness.
You weren't convinced.
Time skip
Later that evening after making sure the students were in their houses, you retired to your chambers. You were in the middle of getting into your nightclothes when you heard a knock at your door.
"One moment!" You said scrambling to tie your robe.
It was too late for a student and it wasn't any supernatural being ether, it was Lupin. He had that same charming smile he hid when he first arrived and his hands still firmly cemented into his pockets.
"Remus!" you smiled, adjusting your dressing gown to shield yourself from the cold. " Is everything alright?"
"Yes, yes everything's fine... may I come in?" He asked chewing his thumbnail. "It's about what we discussed today."
That's when it clicked. Obviously he'd have questions about how to keep things quiet and how to avoid detection in a place like this.
"Oh yes, of course, come in," you said, opening the door to allow him in. "Take a seat anywhere."
The second he did so you thought of something else. Didn't he go to Hogwarts as a boy? He should already know how to do all of that.... right?
You closed the door and shuffled on your feet for a second. You had never had anyone in your chambers before so you weren't exactly prepared for guests.
"Sorry about the mess I'm not much for company. I'm sure you have a few questions. In all honesty, I do too. Do you want some tea? I'll go make some tea."
WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU SAYING??? TEA? WHY WOULD HE WANT TEA AT 11 PM?? words were spilling out of your mouth quicker than you could think of them.
"Are you alright, Professor?" He asked, snapping you back to your senses. With a sigh, you took a seat across from him, rubbed your face and took a minute to calm down.
"Forgive me Lupin I've been... feeling a lot of things, today."
You saw Remus sink into his seat a little.
"Good things all good things but you're not here to hear me talk about my stuff," you said shifting in your seat. "What can I help you with?"
He was fiddling with his nails. It took him a second before composing himself to look at you.
"All good things?" he asked.
You were taken back buy the question and paused for a second before answering him " ...Mostly good things."
He sank in the chair again. "And what was the bad thing?"
"... I was... a little disappointed." you said with a small sigh.
The cheeky smile wasn't on his face anymore. He looked upset.
"Remus what's this about?" when you didn't get a response you tilted your body to look him in the eye.
"Disappointed in what?"
"Honestly?" you asked. He gave you a nod and with a sigh, you gave him your honest answer.
"I was disappointed that the only reason you were waiting outside my classroom, was to tell me what we were. What we become. I was disappointed that, of all things we COULD have in common... to get us to talk... was that."
He turned his head to look at you and was greeted with kind eyes and s content smile.
"Other than that? ALL good things"
After hearing you say this, he sat up straight in his seat. You Practically saw the gears turning in his head.
"T-that.." he begun, picking his fingers again "That wasn't the reason."
Your eyebrows knotted together in confusion. Whatever he wanted to say made him nervous.
"That wasn't the reason I was outside your classroom. I just said that to avoid telling you the real reason."
This was getting interesting now. Why was he really there then?
"Then why?"
He paused and looked at you.
"Because I ... wanted to ask you if you wanted to go to Hogsmeade with me."
You just got more confused. "Me?"
"Yes (Y/N), You."
He got off his seat to kneel in front of you and loosely held your hands in his own.
"And it's not because of what you are, It's because of WHO you are. You're this beautifully talented women who puts passion into everything she puts her mind to. Someone who isn't scared to be who she is."
You were shocked. You heard every word that came from his lips and you couldn't believe what he thought about you.
With a smile, you leant down and placed a kiss on his forehead. His head shot up to look at you.
"Thank you, Remus. Those are the nicest things anyone has ever said to me." You squeezed his hands.
"So is that a yes on the date to Hogsmeade?" He asked a smile slowly finding its way to his lips.
With a wide smile, you leant down to give him another kiss on the forehead but instead he caught you in a real kiss. It was accidental on both ends but neither of you pulled away at first. When he did he was filled with embarrassment.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean for that to happen"
You laughed and kissed his cheek. "let's save the proper ones for Hogsmeade shall we?"
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Protect (Ethan Ramsey x MC)
Pairing: Ethan Ramsey x Claire Herondale
Word count: 1,3 k
Summary: OH3 Chapter 15 rewrite. Ethan and Claire spend a quiet evening in after his trial.
Warnings: None, just fluff and feelings
A/N: I refuse to accept whatever the hell PB thinks they’re doing. So in this, Ethan let Claire help when she asked after she found the file, he helped her get in touch with Naveen in the morning of the trial and he absolutely did not do the whole ‘you talk and we’re done’ bullshit. I’m holding my idiots to the higher standards.
“Case dismissed! Court is adjourned.”
Ethan remained in his seat, though only momentarily. He felt a sense of calm, no matter how conflicting it was with what he used to believe in, and the reason for that was sitting two rows behind him.
He stood up as he turned to look at her, finding her already looking at him. His feet hesitated to move at first, aware of his surroundings, but that feeling left as quickly as it arrived, leaving an empty space that only she could fill.
In a heartbeat, he was by her side, his arms were around her and she was flying into the air. She grabbed onto him, giggling at his display of affection. When he stopped moving, he leaned up, using his height to capture her lips with his while still holding her up in his arms. He hummed at the feeling, his shoulders slumping in relief.
“Let’s go home.” He whispered against her skin when the kiss broke. His hand cupped her cheek, holding her carefully, as though she was made of glass. Claire nodded, pecking his lips once more before letting him guide her out of the courthouse.
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He fell onto the couch with a heavy sigh, Claire not far behind him. She sat by his side, her fingers running through his hair in a soothing manner. It went on for a while, her giving and him accepting the silent comfort.
Then, in one fluent move, he wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her further onto the couch, placing her directly underneath him. He hid his tired face in her neck, sighing heavily at her warmth. Food got ordered and until it would arrive, they’d remain in that position.
An hour later, the table was filled with empty containers and two empty whiskey glasses. They changed their position slightly, both of them now sitting on the couch, with her legs thrown over his thighs. Ethan ran his hand up and down her calf from time to time.
“I feel drained.” He admitted after some deliberation, giving her leg a squeeze. “I know that I shouldn’t have covered for Naveen. Or kept that information from him. You made me see that what I was doing wasn’t fair, to Naveen or to myself. Even though I still want to help him, I cant do it – not like that.”
“I think it’s time you realize that there are people that want to help you, too, Ethan. Naveen being only one of them.” Claire noted, running the tip of her finger along the bridge of his nose. He turned to look at her, then placed his head on her shoulder. “And me.” She added quietly, with a kiss to his forehead.
Ethan blinked slowly. The amount of feelings he had for her was beyond him and he didn’t know how to express them without choking up like an idiot.
He acted on his instincts and grabbed her hips, pulling her onto his lap fully. His eyes locked with hers and remained that way until their lips touched. The kiss was slow, unhurried, and overflowing with affection. Their need of comfort almost palpable.
Claire switched her position slightly, now straddling him to make them both more comfortable. She grabbed the sides of his face, securing them in place.
“We don’t have to do anything tonight.” She whispered tenderly. His eyes got faintly darker.
“What if I want to do everything tonight?” he whispered right back, a smirk on his face overshadowed by his exhaustion.
“Tell you what.” She grabbed his hands, then stood up and used that leverage to pull him towards his bedroom. “How about we take it easy for now, and in the morning-“
“When I feel better?” he interrupted her, smiling at her, as lovingly as intensely.
“If you feel better, we’ll do whatever we want.”
“Sounds like a sane deal to me.”
She grinned, standing on the tips of her toes to kiss his cheek. They stripped to their underwear and fell into the sheets. Claire pulled him into her arms, hugging him tightly.
“I can’t believe you’re mine.” Ethan muttered into the stillness of the night. She kissed his head.
“Better believe it, then.”
“You’re too good for me.”
“Oh, that’s a given.” She joked, expecting a laugh. She got silence. “Ethan?”
He wrapped his arm around her tighter, running the tips of his fingers over her arm, up and down in a soothing manner.
“I’m sorry for shutting you out before.” he began, his words making both of them freeze in anticipation. “I thought I was protecting you, that it would be better for you if you didn’t know. But that’s a lie and I was wrong. It was never about protecting you, not in that sense.” He didn’t dare to move a finger, having decided to lay everything into her hands and let her make her own judgement. “I was… afraid. Still am.”
“Afraid of what?”
Ethan leaned out of her embrace, resting his weight on his elbow so they could look each other in the eye. “Of losing you.”
Claire opened her mouth to say something but closed it immediately. He hasn’t been particularly forthcoming on what his intentions or feelings towards her were lately. Now, he was baring his heart to her, the most vulnerable he’s been in weeks. She wasn’t sure how to approach his sudden surge of emotions.
At her silence, Ethan continued. “I convinced myself that I was shielding you from all the bad things in the world, when really, I was being an asshole towards the most important person in my life. You.” he stroked her cheek with the back of his hand. She leaned into his touch, her forehead creasing slightly at his next confession. “I was protecting myself.”
He averted his eyes, unable to maintain eye contact when shame burned him from the inside. Breathing in deeply, he awaited her reaction. She grabbed his chin loosely to guide him back to her, choking up slightly when she spoke.
“The most important?”
“I thought that much was obvious. Everything you do, everything we do, is precious to me.” he revealed, smiling gently at the way her eyes softened. “I never should have pushed you away, the way I did. Multiple times.” He added, his face falling again.
“You’re learning, though. You let me in yesterday when I found out the truth. You let me help you today when I went to talk to Naveen.” She reassured him, pointing out all his actions that proved that he was, indeed, letting her in. “It means more to me than you’ll ever know, because I want to be there for you.” she stroked his chin. “We’re a team, Ethan. You and me, we’re a team. Whatever happens, you’re supposed to feel comfortable enough to come to me so we can find a solution. No matter what it is.”
“I know, baby.” He whispered, leaning down to kiss her forehead. They remained in the tenderness of silence for a moment, after which, he added. “I still don’t know what I did to make a woman as wise as you choose to be with me.”
Claire eyes him, took in his insecurities and his genuine effort to make her see that she mattered the most to him. Sighing, she offered him a smile that he returned.
“You’re entirely too smooth for your own good, Dr. Ramsey. What am I going to do with you?”
“Whatever you want, Dr. Herondale.”
Notes
I needed to fix the mess PB made or I would have gone insane - even if I only fixed it for my own sake. The whole ordeal with the book ending next week is the most stupid thing I’ve heard in a while - and the most PB thing at the same time. You’d think they’d learn from their mistakes, huh?
I also love Uncharted - Nate and Elena are my crack, so when I fell down the rabbit hole again, I couldn’t resist.
Thank you so much for reading! <3
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Here's the Pregame Shuichi Saihara x Reader smut
Shuichi has always watched the Danganronpa Killing Games and fantasized about being in them, about being an Ultimate, specifically the Ultimate Detective. He's talked to others about this, which earned him harsh names like, Freak, Creep , Weirdo and Killer. The last one was mainly from the fact he said he wanted to make the most gruesome and painful murder. Shuichi never really liked anyone romantically until his senior year. A girl by the name Y/N L/N joined Springfield Academy as her beautiful H/C H/L and her E/C and her walk, it all begged him to ravage her. She's a very kind girl with the spirit of goddess, she surely will be perfect for Shuichi. Todays the day he will make his move, he got his usual uniform on along with his backpack and headed out towards school. He seen her talking to that boy Kokichi Oma. God he hated that boy, he's such a spineless boy. After his goddess left for class, he grabbed Kokichi by the collar of his shirt and gave him an angered look "what are you doing with my sweet goddess??" He almost yelled at him.
"Y-you mean Y/N?" he said meekly "S-she's just m-my partner in a p-project! I-I'm sorry!" he whimpered and held his hands up. How can someone like her want to be his project buddy?? This is unacceptable! His eyes swirled in slight madness but before he could make his move, he heard someone coming towards them. "say nothing about this and ill let you go" He said as Kokichi nodded quickly and was released from Shuichi's death grip. It was Y/N that was coming back, she seen Shuichi and smiled with a slight blush "Hey Shuichi!" she exclaimed as Shuichi blushed almost like a school girl with a crush on a jock. "H-hey Y/N!" he smiled, "Hey Kokichi are you ok?" She asked him as she noticed her friend all shaking up. Kokichi looked at Shuichi quickly before nodded "y-yeah! But Y-Y/N I don't wanna d-do that project a-anymore with you.." he said trying to avoid all contact with both Shuichi and Y/N. Y/N was confused "why? you seemed really into I-" "I-I JUST D-DON'T WANT T-TO DO IT!' he yelled and ran off in the opposite direction of the school. Y/N seemed heartbroken from her friend's shout. 'Did I do something wrong..?' she thought to herself as tears rolled down her face as her first and only friend at this new school just ran away from her like she's some monster. Shuichi hugged her "its ok, he was always so mean to others" he said, "really..?" "yeah, he's always been that way, let me help you finish that project" he said in a caring and passionate voice. "really? Thank you Shuichi! You're a life saver!" She kissed his cheek and ran off to school. He stood there, hand on his face as his blush spread from ear to ear. He soon followed to the school.
Throughout the day they spoke often and planned that evening that he would help her finish the project. Each hour was more and more excruciating for him, he could barely keep his own excitement in his pants.
As the school day ended, he couldn't be anymore excited or calm, as they walked home, he started to talk about the Danganronpa Killing games, and for once, someone wasn't scared or disgusted by this, she was actually a bigger fan then he was, was that even possible? Well to him its like heaven. Once they got to his home, he helped her with the project as he promised, though his pants couldn't get any tighter around him. They two finished the project fairly quick. "That's the last of it! Thank you so much Shuichi! Though I must get going, my family tends to get overworked up if I'm not home by 5pm" she then got up. 'That's it..? Just a simple thank you..? NO! That cant be it! He got up quickly as he pinned you to the wall, you yelped as his eyes stared into yours, your heartbeat got faster as your face flushed a deep pink. "S-Shuichi? What are you doing?" you asked as your voice is soft and low from fear. "A thank you wont satisfy me! I've been wanting to ram you since the day you entered the school, you now belong to me and only me, NO ONE ELSE!" he shouted as you flinched, yes you are scared but at the same time you're turned on by this erratic behavior. You did have a small crush on him since you met, but everyone kept saying he was a killer and creep so you never spoke to him all that much before today. His hand groped your right breast as the other felt your behind, he slipped your underwear off and tossed it. He then licked up from your open blouse to your neck, he sucked on it for while to make it deep blueish color. His eyes half closed yet filled with such lust. Within seconds he undid his pants to release his pulsing member. "W-Wait, I-I don't h-have a change of c-clothe-" Before you could finish your sentence, he slammed into your womanhood, piercing the small wall that once stood, making you tense up with small cries. He's so deep into lust and despair to realize your pain and continued to roughly thrust, his moans are from quiet as his easily over powered yours, filling the room with the smell of sex and the sounds of it. You soon felt more pleasure then pain as he gripped your bottom and shoved you closer to him his head on the wall, leaning against it to feel you and him from falling. Even with limited movement, he still thrusted into like there's no tomorrow, with each thrust, his member pulsed. He groaned as he got closer, you started to worry on the chance of pregnancy, "S-Shuichi, P-pull MhM out!" you pleaded trying to be audible only for the plead to fall deaf to his ears as he groaned and released his seed into your womb, filing it completely. His thrusts became softer and slower until he stopped. He pulled out as his seed spilled out, though it wasn't all of it. His rough actions left you dazed beyond conscious. He layed you onto the bed as he then thought about the game, if he was to join it, he may not make it out alive. What would his precious Y/N think if she was to see him die. He then laughed, "that wont happen..because ill be the Ultimate Detective!"
that was 1137 words! This took about 3 hours to write because I kept getting distracted! Hope you liked it!
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Professional Boundaries II:
Can I Be Your Boyfriend?
Stray Kids
CEO!Bang Chan x Secretary!Reader & CEO!Hwang Hyunjin x Secretary!Reader & Seo Changbin x Secretary!Reader | Part 1 2 3
Summary: You’re pretty sure the only reason why you agree to visit Chan’s son is because of Chan’s son, and not... Chan.
Word Count: 6k+
Warnings: Parent AU, CEO AU, fluff, angst, reader is Jisung’s brother so she is a Han okay, jealousy, slow burn, pining, lots of pining, etc.
A/N: i cant be bothered to do my homework. My anxiety is too much i wanna cry. I hope you enjoy this fic!!!
To the users @ec12 @linours @hoe4cb97 @is-nochu, @hyunjun-jpeg, @p0t4t0don14ll @hxxsng I hope you like it!!!! I hope I tagged everyone. Also hi @mostlycompetentwriter i'm annoying you again ((((: !!!!
The weather today was horrible, and my adamance in wearing heels to work made it worse. I mean, it did kind of keep me out of the puddly ground, but my pumps were getting crusty with mud, since my umbrella couldn't protect them. It wasn't so nice that my leather bag got wet either, though at least the papers inside were still in mint condition.
It was the first thing I did when I got inside the office building, check the papers. Well okay, second, considering I had to bag my umbrella, so not to get the inside unnecessarily wet. The third thing I did was answer my phone.
"Hello?"
"Where are you?" Hyunjin's voice asked. There was an echo in the call, and loud reverb in the lobby, since it seems the said man was standing there in his grey suit, hand on his hip.
I hang up the phone and put it away. I watch as Hyunjin pulls his face back and repeats the word hello in disbelief. I strut over to him by the time he realizes I've hung up.
"CEO Hwang," I say, making him turn to me.
Hyunjin relaxes and walks over, raising a brow, "you're all wet."
"How insightful, when it's clearly raining outside."
"Why didn't you ask me to pick you up?"
Hyunjin and I make our way to the elevator, and I then reply, "probably because it wasn't even raining when I left my apartment."
"Your apartment is too far from here."
We enter the occupied elevator and Hyunjin presses on our floor. I lower my voice, "you literally live in the other side of town."
"I have a driver and a car," Hyunjin snaps.
I feel tension rise between us and the rest of the employees in the lift, so I decide not to reply. By the time we get to our floor, Hyunjin begins to rant about somethings he finds irritating that revolves around me. I decide to let him take out his frustrations, considering he is going to have a board meeting with some partners and trustees later on, and I'm pretty sure he's just stressed because his father is going to be attending to vet him.
"Your heels look like you stepped on elephant poop."
I hum, "thanks. It's nice to know you think I'm rich enough to interact with elephants."
Hyunjin makes a sound, "I'm serious right now. It's disgusting."
"You act like you don't poop."
At that, Hyunjin stops in his tracks.
I stop and turn to him. His expression is beyond vexed, I can't help but find humor in it. It's hard to take him seriously sometimes cause I know he's the same guy that was dumb enough to put a juice pack in a bowl of ramen because he didn't read what it was before adding it. But then again, he was the same man that literally slammed his hand on the table when two older shareholders started to argue about the company in front of him, as if he wasn't the CEO.
"I'm sorry they bother you, but I have no other shoes to change into."
Hyunjin's tense face is blank.
I huff and walk over to him so I can grab his arm and drag him to his office, "since our printer had just been fixed, I went ahead and printed your files at home."
I open the door to our shared office and let him go to pull out his itinerary. I hand it to him and fix his tie, "I'll clean up my shoes as much as I can then I'll sort off the rest of the things you have to do for the day, okay. You have a meeting in fifteen, so don't wait for me, I might take longer than that."
Hyunjin stops me on my way out then suddenly blurts out a number, "isn't that your foot size? I'd rather you not get mud all over yourself too. I'll just get someone to buy you shoes."
"That's so excessive."
"It's really not, considering I'll get hounded by my father if he sees you looking like you jumped into literal shit."
"Hwang Hyunjin, language."
Hyunjin barely chuckles as he pulls out his phone, "again, I'm not your kindergarten kids. I can say fuck if I want to."
"Doesn't mean you should."
Hyunjin pinches my cheek roughly as he takes a phone can and heads outside his office. I make sure to swat him on his way out. I move to my desk and settle.
I begin to get into the grind. I had a lot to organize and a lot of emails to send today. I'd be lucky if I make it to Hyunjin's meeting at all.
I was too in the groove to even look at the door when Hyunjin walked in.
He stood in front of my desk as I kept my eyes on the screen. He speaks, "Uh, hey, is Hyunjin here?"
Wait what?
I knit my brows and turn to the man in the room. It takes a moment for me to register it was actually Chan in the room, and not Hyunjin like I initially thought.
"Ah," I send an email, "he's in a meeting right now."
"Oh is he? When will it end?"
I take a moment to reply, checking the time on my computer screen. My eyes widen and I do a double take when I see that it's already 1pm.
I gasp and shoot out of my seat. Chan tenses and steps towards me, "woah, are you okay?"
"Sorry," I sigh and shake my head, "it's just that it's already 1pm. I didn't realize this much time passed." I sit back down on my desk and quickly organize my things and pull out my phone. True enough, I had so many messages and missed calls, apart from the fact my phone was on silent.
I begin to look to my messages before realizing Chan was still in the room. I stand up again and open my mouth, "Wait are you Hyunjin's 1 o'clock."
He gives a pursed smile, "that would be me."
I sigh and shake my head, "I'm so sorry. I was just in the zone and I didn't realize my phone was silent and I--"
"It's okay, love."
I can’t hide the reaction I did when I heard him call me that, since I was already taken aback to begin with. Still, I decided to ignore it and dial Hyunjin's number.
Chan begins to correct himself, "-Ms. Han. I-uh sorry."
I give a smile as I put my phone to my ear and listen to it ring, "it's all good."
"No. It's just-- we have nervous college interns in our company. They remind me of Dohyun when they begin to fumble, and I just can't help but go dad on them sometimes."
I release a chuckle, "That's the sweetest thing I've ever heard a CEO say."
I don't miss the slight blush on his cheek, "We don't usually come sweet."
I laugh, "did you just compliment yourself?"
Chan blinks, "what? No I-"
"Where the hell are you? I've been trying to get a hold of you for hours?"
I make a face at Hyunjin's tone on the other line, "Sorry. My phone was on silent and I was fixing some things in the office."
"Wait, are you saying you've been in the office this whole time?"
"Yeah, I--" my explanation was cut when Hyunjin walks into the door. He ends the call and turns to Chan, "Oh, you're here. Have you been long."
"No, I just got here."
Hyunjin raises a box and hands it to me. I take it, realizing it's a shoebox. I give him a look, "Hyunjin-"
"Have you had lunch?"
"... no."
"Then go get some.”
I make a face at his snippiness.
He makes a sound and raises a finger, “I’m not snippy.”
“I literally didn’t say anything.”
“You don’t have to, I can read your mind. I heard you dragging.”
I raised a brow, “if you heard it then you know you’re being snippy.”
Hyunjin takes the box back from me and opens it, “come on and get going.” He pulls out the heels, revealing its bedazzled pink features. My eyes widen, “that looks expensive.”
Hyunjin smirks, “because it is.”
“How much?”
Hyunjin drops it to the floor and wiggles a finger at me. My soul leaves me, “you just dropped my car.”
“Please, you don’t have a car.”
“I could buy one with that!”
“Not a good one.”
I march over to him with sass. Hyunjin looks down on my shoes and begins making hurling noises. I make a sound, “It’s just mud.”
“It looks like got bored with your shoes and attempted to color it poo brown.”
“You’re so dramatic!”
“Bang, back me up here,” Hyunjin turns to him.
Chan turns to my shoes, “It’s pretty bad.”
Hyunjin raises a hand, “Thank you.”
I groan and put on the shoes, “these won’t go with much of my clothes.”
“Then clearly you lack style, but also you were going for a funeral look today, so I’m not surprised.”
“Black is sexy!”
Hyunjin begins making hurling sounds again. And again. And again. I sigh, “whatever, I’m leaving.”
“Just order take away so you can bring it inside.”
I hum and get my things. Hyun moves to his own desk, “and buy me an americano.”
“That’s above my paygrade,��� I raise my brow and head for the door.
“Bang Chan, you want one?”
“No, I’m good.”
“Two americanos.”
“I’ll only buy one for Chan.”
“It’s okay I really don-” “Mr. Bang,” Hyunjin corrects, “Also get me sushi.”
I shoot him a glare, “and a cookie?”
“Don’t mind if I do-- choco chip.”
I sigh and turn to Chan, “sorry about how informal we are. Would you prefer an espresso instead of an americano?
Chan looks at me and blinks, “uhhh, I... I guess. And don’t worry about being informal. You two are like me and Changbin. I get it. You either forge strong friendships in uni or you don’t.”
Hyunjin narrows his eyes at Chan, “and clearly we love each other.”
“I would push you out of the window if I could.”
Hyunjin shoots me a finger heart.
Chan turns between us and parts his lips, placing his hands in his pockets, “clearly.”
“I’m leaving.”
“Don’t use the company card.”
“I am so using the company card.”
Hyunjin chuckles as the door closes.
I decide to make my way to the Japanese restaurant a short trip away from the office. When I get there, I sigh in relief, seeing that there wasn’t much people. The hostess greets me and leads me to a seat.
The moment I sit down, a waiter comes to take my order. Or so I thought.
“Ms. Han.”
My eyes widen a bit, “Mr. Seo.”
“Are you eating here alone?”
I chuckle softly, “mmm unfortunately I lost track of time and so I am.”
Mr. Seo purses his lips ang releases a breath, “I don’t know about you but I don’t really like eating by myself, and unfortunately I have no one who wants to eat Japanese food with me, would you like to eat together? Just so I don’t look like a loser.”
I can’t help but chuckle and shake my head, “I wouldn’t mind at all. I don’t want to be a loser either.”
Mr. Seo gives a lopsided smile. I nearly blush. He sits down across me, “I actually had a table, but I think yours is better.”
A waitress comes to our table, Mr. Seo smiles, “hi, I’ll move tables with her, if you don’t mind.”
“Oh of course not sir.”
Mr. Seo turns to me with a smile, “do you mind if I order?”
“Ah, please go ahead,” I turn from him to the waitress, “but uhm, I’ll have some sushi to go please.”
“Sushi to go. Would there be anything else?”
“Yes, uh,” Changbin turns to me, “they have nice ramen and they have a couple bowl. It’s suited for two people, but we have to share. I’ve decided you actually get more with it versus two separate orders. Would you be okay with sharing? It’s cheaper too.”
I giggle, “Mr. Seo, you’re speaking my language.”
He chuckles, “One couple ramen and just water for me.” He turns to me, “what about you.”
“How about a mango shake?”
The waitress nods, “okay. 1 couple ramen, 1 mango shake, 1 order of sushi to go.” With that, she leaves and Mr. Seo speaks, “you know you can call me Changbin. It feels weird to be addressed by you like that, when I’m not that much older, and considering how much Donghyun talks about you.”
I can’t help but chuckle, “does he really? What a sweetheart.”
“Yeah, you have the Bang boys wrapped around your fingers.”
I decide not to reply.
“Does that make you uncomfortable? Sorry. I was just stating the obvious. He’s said he asked you out before.”
“Yeah.”
He smiles, “okay, I’ll leave it at that. Just call me Changbin, okay?”
“Okay, Changbin... I guess.”
“Don’t worry, I’m not like Chan or your friend Hwang Hyunjin. I’m not a CEO, so you don’t have to be that uncomfortable.”
“You aren’t? Can I ask what you do then?”
“I’m an economist. I’m kind of freelancing here and there, but I’m thinking of settling in Chan’s company.”
I nod, “that’s a good call. Chan’s company is doing exceptionally well.”
He chuckles, “trust me, I know.”
By the time our order arrives, we have already slipped into comfortable dialogue. It’s plain to see that he is clearly a smart, well-spoken, and handsome man.
At this rate, with the way he’s smiling at me and laughing at my business puns, I may just combust. He mentions that he does modelling in the side, and it doesn’t surprise me. And with how much he’s trying to sell his best friend Chan to me, just kind of makes me drawn to him as a person.
He speaks with so much adoration for Dohyun. It makes me think back to the incident I had with him
I start, “I know this may not be my business, nor may it be your place to tell me about it, but, can I ask if Dohyun knows his mother?”
Changbin’s expression pivots. He takes a bite of ramen and so do I. For a moment, we just sit there.
“She left after giving birth to Dohyun. She... was everything to Chan. She was his sun. And that was exactly why she left. She was the sun, and Chan was a mountain range. She was too out of reach. She came from a rich family and Chan came from nothing. Her parents never liked him, and she probably came back to them to finish med school.”
I give a frown, “I can’t imagine what they must be going through now.”
“They’re doing good for the most part. I’m actually going to visit Dohyun on Friday. If you want, you can come with me.”
I think for a moment, “I couldn’t possibly just intrude.”
“Ya, haven’t you been listening? Dohyun and Chan want you around... as would I.”
I snicker, “wah, do you have a crush on me too?”
“Let’s just say if you really don’t want to go for Chan, I’ll shoot my shot.”
I pull back and feel my face burn.
Changbin snorts and gives a chuckle, speaking lowly, “I’m so upset that Chan saw you first.”
By the time we finish our meal, I find out that Changbin payed for it while I went to the bathroom. I then insisted on treating him to a cup of coffee, since I had to buy some for Hyunjin and Chan anyway.
What I didn’t know when he agreed to it, was that I now had to ride his motorcycle with him. He gave me his coat to put on my waist when I got on, and honestly, I enjoyed the drive more than I dreaded it.
He drove me back to the office too, which was much appreciated.
“Ya, think about friday, okay?” Changbin says.
I was supposed to reply, but someone else beat me to it, “what are you doing on friday?” I turn and see a stern faced Chan in front of a car it seems he was about to enter.
“Chan, are you leaving?” I asked. I then jog up to him and hand him the espresso I got for him. His expression barely softens at it. He gives a breath, “you know, I only agreed to a cup because you insisted. I don’t really like coffee because I can’t sleep well at night when I drink it.”
I pull back the drink I had in hand, but he takes it, “it’s okay, I’ll make tiramisu with it.”
“You make tiramisu?”
“Yeah, Dohyun loves it.”
Someone clears their throat from behind. “I asked her to come over with me to visit Dohyun on Friday,” Changbin speaks
Chan turns to his friend and knits his brows.
I turn to him as well, “I haven’t agreed.”
“Ah, but Chan is making tiramisu. You have to taste it. It’s the best thing in the world.”
“And-” Chan cuts in, “Dohyun has actually asked me to call you, but I keep refusing because he wants to do it at late hours at night. Could you actually visit him when you can? I don’t think I can stall much longer, and at least this way, you can chose what time is best for you.”
I let out a breath, “okay. Friday it is then.” I pull out my phone, “can I have your number so you can text me your address?”
Chan smiles and nods, slowly taking the phone from me.
Friday came fast.
The next thing I knew, I was sprawled on my chest, playing dinosaurs with Dohyun. It hasn’t even been that long, but he looks like he’s gotten bigger.
Chan’s house was so big that I felt severely underdressed in jeans, a band shirt, and some sneakers. Changbin, I found, was an absolute sweetheart to Dohyun, evident in how we played dinosaurs together.
Chan was busy finishing up some lunch for us, and he refused any assistance because he says he wants Dohyun to maximize his time with me and Changbin. I told him we could all help cook, but he was adamant with his decision.
Changbin began to make crying noises as he moved a stegosaurus around, "huhu Hyunie. I got a big booboo."
Dohyun makes his pterodactyl fly in and pickup the stegosaurus, bringing it to a toy pot where he could perform surgery. He took a toy knife and the pterodactyl to mimic an operation of some sort and after he gave the stego back to uncle Changbin, sweetly noting, "he's all better now."
"Wah, thank you doctor Bang."
"You're welcome," he smiles.
I suddenly hear my phone buzz from my small satchel bag on the coffee table near us. I move over to it and check it, seeing a plethora of messages from Han. I raise my brows at it and open his messages seeing he was going crazy over... something.
Jisung 🤹: YAAAAA
Jisung 🤹: WHAT R U DOING
Jisung 🤹: YAAAAAAAAAA WHAT RHE
Jisung 🤹: kNWKKKSKSMSNNSBSHJSJ
Jisung 🤹: whaT ARE U DATING SOMEONEFAMOUR
Jisung 🤹: YAAAA YOUVE CHANGED
Jisung 🤹: *sent a link*
Jisung 🤹: IS HE THE ONE THAT BOUGHT U THE SHOES
Jisung 🤹: YA
Jisung 🤹: *sent 2 photos*
Jisung 🤹: IF YOU GET INTO A MOTORCYCLE ACCIDENT I AINT TAKING CARE OF YOU BUT HE BETTER.
I check the photos he sent me and realize he was talking about me and Changbin. I feel my eyes widen at the pictures of us getting on a his motorcycle in front of the Japanese restaurant we went to.
My face was not clearly seen in the photo, but Changbin's was. I then clicked on the article Jisung sent me and felt my soul leave my body.
Look: Is Seo Changbin Going for a Ride with His Woman?
They literally couldn't have chosen a much more provocative title. I decide to shake it off and ignore it, considering Changbin seemed not to care about it at all. I mean my face wasn't even on the article but his was.
I put my phone away and Changbin asks, "you okay? Is it work?"
I freeze for a moment, "it's nothing."
"Don't worry, whatever's stressing you at work will eventually die down."
I move over back to Dohyun, who then smiles at me. I smile back and turn to Changbin, asking, "is that what you do when there's an article of you?'
Changbin's face falters for a moment. Suddenly, he realizes something, "wait... are you saying that there's an article of you online?'
I only look at him.
"Lunch is ready, guys," Chan calls loudly from afar.
Dohyun jumps up and cheers. He then grabs my wrist and pulls me off. I hold him back though when Changbin asks me, "it wouldn't happen to be an article with me, would it?"
I feel my face burn, "uh, it is actually."
At this point, Donghyun and I are playing pull my arm. It doesn't seem he was annoyed I wasn't budging, but the opposite in fact. I turn to him and try to
Changbin huffs, "oh damn, I'm so sorry. I didn't know. I'll talk to my publicist about this."
I raise a hand and shake it, "I mean it's fine. I don't think you can control what gets posted on the internet. I just didn't realize that who you were dating was a big deal and that I would end up as a suspect. You're like a celebrity."
Changbin frowns, "modeling was a side gig I started doing so I could get through college. I still only do it because I feel indebted to some people in the business. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable around me because of this."
"It's only your face that's visible, and it's really not your fault."
"What's not Changbin's fault?" Chan asks, making Dohyun take one of his hands off me and swing with one of mine and his dad's arm.
I turn to him and hold onto Dohyun properly, "it's fine. Let's just have lunch."
"Appa," Dohyun coos, "did you make fried chicken?"
Chan turns to his son, "hmm? Ah, yeah buddy."
Dohyun cheers.
We wind up on the dining table. Dohyun insists on sitting next to me and that his dad and uncle sit next to each other; so we did.
Changbin, who was sat in front of Dohyun, turned from his phone to me as we began to eat, "I know the guy who runs the website. He says he'll pull the article down."
I raised my brows at that. I tilt my head to the side and nod, "oh really? Thank you."
Chan, who was sat in front of me, turned to his best friend, "wait, was there a dating rumor about you two?"
Changbin takes a bite of his chicken, "not anymore."
Chan exhales. I feel tension in the air and blood rising up my neck.
"Why did you even eat out together yesterday?" Chan asks suddenly, as he cuts up his food. Dohyun, who was doing his best to use his utensils, gave up on any utensils at this point, and was using his hands. I decide to make it easier for the child and separated some flesh off the bone of his chicken leg.
Chan turns to what was in front of him and feels his heart swell.
Changbin, who was supposed to reply, found Chan's reaction and observes for a moment. He begins to smile softly. "We both happened to eat alone yesterday at that sushi place," he says, pulling on a provoking look, "why jealous?"
Chan turns to him, expression falling, eyes narrowing, "yeah I am-- you're supposed to be on my side."
I pull away from Dohyun at this point and find the two men staring at each other.
Wait what.
"Well, I am. Unless she isn't..." Changbin says turning to me with a smirk.
Chan turns from him to me, back to him, "What the hell does that mean?"
"I mean, if she wants to eat out with me again, I won't turn her down."
Chan rolls his eyes. He catches his son, "Dohyun, we don't eat bones."
Dohyun places the bone down, "okay papa."
Changbin smirks, "Hyunie, would you like your teacher to be your auntie?"
Dohyun's eyes light up and he stands on his chair, "yis, yis, yis, yis!"
I am mortified by the question, and so is Chan. We both turn to Changbin, but I then scold Dohyun, telling him not to jump on the chair, lest he fall down. Dohyun complies, sweetly smiling at me.
"Ya, Dohyun," Chan says. He places his utensils doen and raises a brow, "do you want your teacher to be --"
I whip my head to Chan with wide eyes. Even Changbin seems to not have expected an outburst like that from him. He thankfully does not continue on. Instead he stands, pushing his seat back, and slaps his hand on Changbin's shoulder, "ya!"
Changbin looks up at Chan with an off guarded expression, which morphs into amusement when his friend is unable to say something for a brief while.
"You do know what you're doing is making Ms. Han uncomfortable. She may never visit Dohyun again if you keep this up."
Dohyun pouts, "what?"
Chan turns to his son, "ask your uncle to apologize to teacher."
"UNNNCCCLLLLLLEEEEE APOLOGIZE!!!"
Changbin purses his lips and nods, holding in a laugh, "yeah. Sorry, teacher."
I shake my head in disapproval, "okay...."
Chan sits back down.
When I went back home later that day, by the time I opened up a drama to watch on my TV, I received a text from Chan.
Bang Chan: Did you get home? Thank you for visiting Dohyun today.
I quickly reply to him: yeah I'm home. I'm glad I got to visit. Dohyun is such a precious boy.
He doesn't reply after a while. When I hear my phone buzz, I check and find I got a text from Minho.
MINHO ☢️: So, hows life? Did you get Mr. Bang's D yet?
I shudder: BRUH WTF
MINHO ☢️: WHAT? GET YOUR MIND OUT OF THE GUTTER, I MEANT DOHYUN.
I roll my eyes: you so did not.
MINHO ☢️: Ok I didn't. What's your point?
I shake my head: i'm glad I don't have to be around you anymore.
MINHO ☢️: THE
MINHO ☢️: AUDACITY
I chuckle: love you boo.
MINHO ☢️: you disgust me
I was about to reply but then I receive another text from someone else.
Bang Chan: Can I just ask you something?
I respond simply: sure
It's Minho again.
MINHO ☢️: how has work been like with your best friend?
I begin typing but Chan sent me another text.
Bang Chan: Do you happen to like Changbin?
I knit my brows at this: uhm.... He's nice, but I don't know if I'd say I ike him the way you're asking me.
I go back to replying to Minho: Hyunjin is a good boss.
Bang Chan: If that's the case... I want to invite you to launching event we have for our new product we have on Saturday. Technically, Hyunjin is invited, but from what I remember, he said he was already preoccupied.
I take a moment to reply. I begin to think of the possibilities that could happen if I go there. I mean, clearly, this is Chan asking me out. He literally sort of confessed to me... and so did Changbin.
Minho ☢️: i guess he’s also good in bed right?
I visibly cringe: stfu you psycho.
I go back to Bang Chan’s text and begin to think of what would happen if I agreed, like what would be the worst case scenario. Hyunjin suddenly comes and causes a scene? He decides to fire me?
No the chances of that seem pretty slim, even if you’re petty like Hyunjin.
So I decide to agree: Okay, Chan. I’ll come on satuday.
Come Saturday, I probably shouldn’t have been so surprised that Dohyun was there. In fact, I should’ve been more surprised that there was a kiddie area in the venue and multiple, well-dressed children where there, playing in a ball pit or with some available stuffed toys.
But somehow, it made sense to me that Chan would have something like this in one of his events. Now part of me wishes I came here with someone so I how cute Chan was with that.
Thankfully, Mr. Kang, nor Mr. Wang, nor anyone I’ve interacted with Hyunjin for work payed me interest as they were preoccupied with talking to other CEO’s in the room. What I did notice was a lot of stares from other women present. Perhaps my outfit was too much, with the dark blue sequin, but it was the only dress that I had that was up to par with the hot pink heels Hyunjin got me so they can cry me a river.
“Ms. Han,” I heard someone call. I look over my shoulder and find it was Chan with a gleaming smile. I couldn’t help but raise a brow at his outfit, black pants, black leather suit jacket, and a burgundy turtle neck.
He beamed and stood in front of me with his hands in his pockets, “I’m so glad you could make it. You look amazing.”
I give a nervous chuckle, “you look even better. I’m digging the James Bond vibes.”
He made the funniest sound as he rubbed his nose and turned away with a blush. I couldn’t help but break into laughter. Chan chuckles, “thanks.”
“You’re welcome, Mr. Bang.”
He cringed, “we talked about calling me that.”
I shrugged, “well, you call me Ms. Han or teacher, so I suppose it’s only fair.”
Chan tilts his head, “I only do that because you haven’t explicitly allowed me to call you by your name.”
I clear my throat, “what’s the big deal? It’s my name, lots of people call me by it.”
“Okay,” he nods with a soft smile, “I’ll call you by your first name, and so you do the same.”
I nod, “okay.”
Chan gives me a warm smile. I turn away and the kiddie area catches my eye, “I’ve never seen a kiddie area in a big ol’ fancy even like this.”
I turn to him and catch him nod and purse his lips, “honestly, it’s a silent bad parenting move because I don’t want to worry about Dohyun tonight, so I got some else to do it for me.”
I give him a look, “how is that a bad parenting move? You literally made sure your child is under supervision.”
“Yeah, but I know how Dohyun gets with strangers, and I can’t stop checking up on him every fifteen minutes or so.”
I give a pout and place a hand on his shoulder, “hey, I don’t think you would’ve hired someone who isn’t suited for the job.”
Chan turns to me and I pull my hand away, “No...” he chuckles, “I’m scared for the stranger that meets him. I don’t know where he gets it, but he’s so oddly assertive in a... aggressively passive way. We once gave some lunch to the guard in our office building, but he declined saying he had already eaten. Dohyun went all, ‘ya! You have to eat this because it’s good for your health and you have to be strong. You have to grow up well.’”
I burst out into laughter.
Chan however pulls on his turtleneck, “I don’t remember bursting out like that on him I swear.”
“Well,” I say, “I can imagine you doing that though. But I will say,” I raise a finger, “Minho sometimes speaks like that to the kids.”
Chan knits his brows, “Minho?”
“Yeah, teacher Minho. Dohyun’s probably still in his class.”
“Ahhhhhh, sorry. I somehow thought you had some boyfriend of yours meet my son without my knowledge.”
I give him a look, “you’re weird.”
He shrugs, “just checking if you had a boyfriend.”
I chuckle turning to my glitter shoes, “ever the forward man.”
“Would you rather I spoke to you in poetry?” Chan turns from the side to me. “I could do that too.”
I can’t meet his eyes, “no... I’d rather you be up front.”
“Cool,” Chan nods, “so, about the boyfriend.”
“No,” I give him a quick look, “no boyfriend.”
Chan clears his throat, “well, hopefully I can change that soon.”
I only stare at him for a quick moment, and then he raises a finger at me, “could you give me just one quick moment. I need to talk to someone for about five minutes. Maybe you can get a drink while you wait?”
“Ah,” I nod, “sure. That sounds good.”
Chan gives me a quick nod and departs. I then make my way instead of the bar to the kiddie area. The moment I’m close enough, I find Dohyun and prepare to wave at him when he finds me, he drops what he is doing and runs up to me, calling out teacher.
“Ya,” someone grabs me by the arm though. I turn and see it’s Hyunjin with a look of disapproval. He was in a brown plaid suit and black dress shirt. He had a couple buttons opened, which I think it completely unnecessary.
“Hyunjin,” I call, just as Dohyun finally reaches me and wraps his arms around my legs.
I break into a smile as Dohyun giggles beneath me, “hi baby.”
“Hi teacher! Do you want to play with us.”
I give a smile, “maybe later okay, I gotta talk to my friend first.”
Dohyun instinctively turns to Hyunjin who was beside me, “hi, kid.”
Dohyun purses his lips and politely nods at him, “hello.”
Hyunjin smiles, “remember me? I’m your teacher’s friend. You can call me Hyunjin hyung.”
I make a look, “more like uncle Hyunjin.”
Hyunjin turns to me and raises his upper lip, “isn’t that his decision?”
Dohyun turns to him and then back to me, “can we play later?”
“I’ll try, okay?”
Dohyun is half satisfied. “okay, teacher.” I smile and point to Hyunjin beside me, “say goodbye to my friend.”
“Bye uncle Hyunjin.”
Hyunjin clasps his chest, “ya...”
I chuckle and lead the boy back to the kiddie area. Hyunjin goes up to him suddenly though, “hold on. I knew I’d see you today, so I bought you this.”
He hands three small stickers to him that looked to me like cars.
Dohyun appreciates it greatly that he gasps, “wah! Thank you!”
Hyunjin smiles and ruffles his hair, “you’re welcome.”
After bringing Dohyun back, Hyunjin takes me by the hand and leads me away, “why are you here?”
“Chan invited me.”
He sighs and lets me go, giving me a pout, “I specifically didn’t bring you here because I don’t want to give him more opportunities.”
“Hyunjin.”
“What? It’s clearly obvious that he likes you.” Hyunjin raises his brow when I don’t reply, “please don’t tell me you like him too.”
I sigh, “I really like Dohyun.”
“Well, he knows that and is using it to his advantage.”
I purse my lips.
"Hyunjin,” Chan suddenly comes into view. Hyunjin and I turn to him and Chan gives a soft chuckle, “I, eh, was under the impression you weren’t going to come make it.”
Hyunin raises a brow, “well, my father had a lot to say about that, so now I’m here. It seems you still thought to invite my secretary as well, which is adorable.” When he says this, he places an arm around my shoulder. I give him a look just as he pulls away.
I can’t help but look at his unnecessarily opened buttons again and step forward to close it. Hyunjin pulls his head back in surprise but instead swats me away, “ya, it’s a statement.”
I give him a look, “of what? How you can’t close your shirt all the way up without anyone’s help.”
“No, on how I’m cool.”
I nod, “I’m sure you’re really cold.”
“I could say the same about you in that dress.”
“Please, the skirt is up to my calves and my whole chest is covered.”
Hyunjin raises a brow, “what about your arms?”
“My arms are fine, thank you.”
Chan then clears his throat.
“Chan?”
Both Chan, Hyunjin, and I turn to whom called so suddenly. I am faced with a woman in a fitted nude dress and died sandy brown hair. She had a perfectly proportional face and a clearly expensive manicure.
“When I heard CEO Bang Chan was having a launching event, I had to check if it was really you.”
Chan began to coil in tension and made a confused face. He was bewildered. From that alone, it was clear who the woman was. I was suddenly presented with what I knew was going to be an unbearably awkward situation.
Chan’s face is expressionless, “what are you doing here?”
She makes a look that is so cryptic, “I guess I was... curious.”
Something clicked in Chan’s expression. He began to chuckle. If people could steam, I’m pretty sure he’d be whistling like a kettle right now, “Well, I hope you’re satisfied because I couldn’t care less about your curiosity, Aeri.”
I am frozen by the tension between them.
The last thing I was expecting was Hyunjin to suddenly speak up, “Hwang Hyunjin, SKZ corp.” He extends a hand to the woman, and she slowly takes it and shakes it.
“This is my secretary, miss Han,” he motions to me and I instinctively give her my hand. She finally introduces herself, “Shin Aeri.”
“Are you here to invest in Bang corp?”
Aeri makes an amused expression and shakes her head, “no. I’m just here for Chan.”
“Well then I don’t think you’re worth his time.”
Everyone suddenly turns to Hyunjin after he said that.
Hyunjin smirks, “don’t take that too personally. I’m just saying Mr. Bang made this launching event for his product, and as a CEO myself, I know not to use up too much time on someone who’s here for chitchat alone.”
Chan can’t help but smile softly at that, “enjoy the hor d'oeuvres, if you must stay.”
Chan turns to look at me, looking like he wants to say something, but then turns to Hyunjin and nods I think to himself. He raises a brow and smiles, “see you both soon.” He gives me one last look and walks away.
Hyunjin turns to me and offers his arm, “we should get going too.”
I take it and Hyunjin leads us off. I look back on our way out and see Aeri heading for Chan.
#stray kids#bang chan#hyunjin#hwang hyunjin#chan#stray kids fanfic#stray kids au#changbin#seo changbin#changbin fanfic#chan fanfic#bang chan fanfic#hyunjin fanfic#chan fluff#chan smut#hyunjin fluff#hyunjin smut#changbin fluff#wtf am i doing#idk either
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sabrina @lanwangiji, my love, tagged me to share my process of making this typography edit! check out her explanation of her the untamed edit and her edit tag.
1. PLANNING
i once opened lyrics edit requests so i can learn and practice typography. this edit was a request as well. i asked them which lyrics they wanted to have and the colors they’d like. since i got several requests and it was hard to keep tabs on them, i made a trello board so i could organize everything. i’m still using the trello board for every edit idea i have, the board makes my life easier.
above is what i filled the card in the board with. basically just information of the requests.
1.1 INSPIRATION
once i got the request, my first thought was to find the vibe the song/lyrics exude. “it’s an old curse” screamed witchy vibes to me, so i went to pinterest to find some inspirations. at first i was looking for witchy poster designs and i came across this. i liked how it has smoke-ish graphic and i thought the smoke suited the “old curse” lyrics. and tbh pinterest is a rabbit hole, they gave me suggestions after suggestions, like this and this which became my inspiration for the color palette (i added the gold from those pics) and the sun moon design gave me the idea to incorporate space stuffs too. i somehow landed on this too, and because i wanted to include space theme, i made a simple phases of the moon. ultimately the hero of this edit was the lyrics, i didnt want the graphics took the center stage. i was inspired to make a crystal ball and do this kind of typography but after several trials i couldnt get the the typography right, so i scratched that idea and went with the space theme instead.
1.2 PICKING COLORS
after i was feeling inspired enough, i went looking for the right colors. i usually just type “color name” and “palette” on pinterest. example “dark grey color palette” and i chose the one i liked best. when the request only asked for 1 color, i always searched for either a complimentary or contrasting color to give it a jushz, to add sprinkles. that’s why i added gold on top of the dark grey.
1.3 FINDING FONTS
this is the hardest part. the fonts play important role to the design. they need to convey the vibes of the lyrics, in this case witchy/magic vibe. i needed to find fonts or font just as magical and a bit whimsical. tho i hoard fonts... i like to use new font for every typography edit lmao sue me.
i highly recommend going to creativemarket free goods site, pixelsurplus font freebies and behance to search for fonts. i always use 100% free fonts, that means i can use it personally as well as commercially. creativemarket gives me desktop license for the fonts, which means i can use it for commercial as well. the reason i do this because i want to open an etsy shop someday, and i want to have the right license when i sell my stuffs. i almost never buy fonts bc they are expensive lmao.
the fonts in used are “Vintage” for the main typograpy (i think i was a freebie from creativemarket) and “Morganite” for the title of the lyrics and the name of artist.
2. CREATING
once i have my materials and ideas, i open my illustrator and hope it doesnt crash every 5 min.
for this kind of typography edits, i use 600x700 px. tbh i dont like using 540px, the suggested tumblr size, as the width bc to me it doesn’t look as good in quality, so i up the px. but more on this sizing later. i utilize the artboards function in illustrator, and i use 2 artboards.
i use illustrator (ai) bc i’m working with vectors. when i work with vectors, the graphics/texts or whatever im making in ai wont become blurry or lose its quality when i enlarge or shrink it. in compare to photoshop, i need to make for example the moon graphic very big, so i wont lose the quality when i reduce and enlarge it again. with vector, i can start small and when i expand it, it’s still as good as when it’s tiny.
2.1 GRADIENTS
i started with the gradients first. i created a rectangle as big as 600x700px and with the “freeform gradient” tool in ai, i played with the colors. below is the color palettes i used
2.2 LYRICS AND GRAPHICS
once the gradients are done, i worked with the lyrics and graphics right away. when i first doing this edits, i made typos a lot lmaooooooo. so i copy and pasted the lyrics on top of my artboard, so i wouldnt have any typos.
i had 3 layers in my ai. one for the inspo pics and the OG lyrics. the rest for the edits themselves. i broke up “It's an old curse/dreamers diving headfirst” into to parts, hence the 2 more layers
i almost always started with the lyrics first then the graphics. but for this edit, i made the smoke first so i can layout where my text would be.
tbh the process of making the lyrics is a trial and error. i tried bunch of different stuffs and i chose whatever the best. but i worked like methodically, i made sure i finished the first part of the lyrics first then i could move on.
i was lucky with this font “vintage”. the font offers me several glyphs like these
and i chose the one at the bottom. you’re very lucky if you find a font and they have glyphs.
excursion: glyphs vs fonts
glyph is an individual character. It might be a letter, an accented letter, a ligature, a punctuation mark, a dingbat, etc.
A font is a digital file which is used to display a typeface, which contains the entire upper- and lowercase alphabet as well as punctuation, numbers, and other special characters.
after i was finished with all the lyrics i added some graphics to make the edit pretty like small stars or dots. i added the song title and the artist too, sometimes at the bottom sometimes at the top. and i added my watermark put it as small as i could and made it a bit invisible but still can be seen.
2.3 EXPORTING
exporting! this is where i’m going to go deeper with the dimension of my work. in ai, i always choose to save with “export as screens” function. it automatically divides the artboards i have and save them separately. i always save as png, bc the size is smaller than jpg but can maintain the quality.
now the export tab looks like this
see the formats? i always scale up my edits, 2-3 times the original artboard size. reason is, to maintain the quality. i have tried to save it as original, 600x700 px, but it turned out a bit blurry. bc everything in ai is vector, when i scale up it doesnt lose the quality. BUT once i save it as png, it’s not a vector anymore, and when you zoom in until a certain degree it’ll be pixelated. that’s why i always scale up, to avoid it becoming pixelated when it’s just zoomed 1 or 2 times.
2.4 FINAL TOUCH
i opened my photoshop and also pray it won’t crash. import the png of my edits, add some grains/noise. the reason i use photoshop is, the noise filter is way better than in ai. it’s smoother somehow. and then i export my edits.
(i have a timelapse of how i made one of my edits, it’s not this one, but it’ll give you a better visualization. find it HERE
3. POSTING
now the hardest parts are done, we go to posting!
i uploaded the 2 posters on tumblr as photos then i wrote the captions. for this typography edit, i always chose another lyrics that i like from the same song for the caption. i bolded the lyrics, add link to all of my typography gradient edits.
i always use this link to color my caption. i usually choose 3-4 colors, and i took the colors from my edit. but this was not until recently lmao. before i just took a guess and looked for similar colors that match the edit, but then i thought “why didnt i just use the color in the posters lmao”
ok after i have my html code for the caption, i go to this site to replace the “;” with “ “ so tumblr can read the code.
i’m not one who puts their edits in draft, bc i just cant wait to post it. i have to option here, either i post it immediately when the time is right (i usually post between 4-8) or i schedule it, if im finished before 4.
i put all the necessary tags and click post! i am done finally!
i’m tagging:
@thetriangletattoo for this amazing series
@deludedandlostcause for this impressive gif
@half-lightl for this spectacular edit
@gayndrew for this stunning drawing
@thechampagnelovers for this cool collage
@cloudslou for this incredible edit
@heyangels for this incredible edit
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Well, my wifi is not back, and wont be anytime soon. The very earliest luckiest would be getting it back by Tuesday (unlikely). The very worst my house burns down so theres that /lh /hj
This sucks so much because I really cannot read asks I dont see in real time, I have the same amount of reading comprehension for them as I do Frankenstein XD
Dm me links to any important syndicate asks I miss while I'm gone 👍
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Bannnnnn I tried to draw the Jekyll brothers but Kent? Is inconsistent? The database (what I use) showd him as a clean shaven guy with a bit messy hair but google is showing Kent as a completely different model? Neat hair, Brokenshire beard. Like it's the ingame "identify" zoom in and I cant check whats right before I already killed himmmm
Anyway here art <3. I know I said I'd draw the DTIYS first but art inspiration is stored in the Syndicate au <3
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Also I've been thimking about Henry wearing a mask +plus ponytail to hide his identity like for the past two days. Yknow those theater masks? The weeping and laughing? He wears the sad one while in the Blighters and Templars and the happy one while in the Rooks because hes a dramatic theater nerd. Also! I like to think that if Jekyll has to be a templar he'd still wear the Blighter uniform when he could and pretend hes not high ranking. He gets away with it because Crawford doesn't care about him and Roth lives for chaos
I also drew Henry in a mask and ponytail but it's not done yet 😔
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Also I did the math the the twins are 3 years older than Jekyll. Like thank goodness first of all because I fully went into ship entirely unaware on if there were canon ages or a scary difference. But also Jacob being 3 years older than Henry is kinda funny to me
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All of Evie's outfits (besides her default) are bad and I'm gonna fist fight the designers because the secrets of london (where I only searched the locations of 3) is so bad, especially with the effort needed. How did they do Jacob so good, but utterly fail with Evie /lh
NOOOOOOO D: Man, I really hope you will get it back asap, and also that your house don't burn down!!
Man, if I don't know your struggle rn. However I shall do my best to link you to every syndicate ask that I will get from here on out bc I don't tend to get small asks for that au so <3
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Huh-- oh wow you're right. I wonder if it is a set design or just a bit on random depending on the save file... I killed him a long ass time ago so I have absolutely no idea how he looked like <3
EITHER WAY OH MY GOD IT LOOKS AAMZING. I love??? How you gave all three individual personalities in just a single picture??? Kent looks like he is seconds away from murder and I LOVE Henry in the templar outfit, it fits him so well??? Man I really want to start thinking more of this branch. Would the entire Jekyll family be Templars so the trio got that role inherited? Are Raphael and Kent unidentical twins and Henry is the odd-one-out because he is the youngest? Were the three of them really close in Scotland, but left as soon as possible bc their family was abusive, only for Kent and Raphael to find refuge in the Templar Order while Henry goes to university? Would they still have that brotherly love if they were close as kids even when they are in the Order, or would they have a falling out and start despising each other (or Jekyll @ the older brothers at least)? Would Raphael and Kent secretly be protective of Henry and manage to keep him out of Starrick's line-of-sight so that Henry won't get in trouble for defying orders/ignoring them? Would they force Henry to join the Templars with threats or would Henry mostly feel obligated to join them? Since the Templar Order isn't illegal in London, would other people know that Jekyll is a Templar, or would he keep it hidden from the public? Would his brothers help hide his identity?? SO many questions and I'm so sad I won't be able to discuss them with you :'c
(also can I just say I love the poetic differences between their clothing. Raphael is just wearing a waistcoat/basic clothes and he is a brute and more open, Kent is wearing more clothes/layering up and he is the "brains" out of the two of them, Jekyll is wearing the most layers and is almost trying to hide himself and I just... *chief's kiss*)
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Henry being a dramatic theater nerd and stealing Roth's costume supplies to hide his identity bc he is so ashamed of it and doesn't want people he knows to know about it my beloved <3 Plus the blighter uniforms doesn't look too far off of what he normally wears so he could probably use that as an excuse whenever some other Templar gets up his ass about not wearing the right clothes, yet it still doesn't make Henry feel any better knowing he has to bear the knowledge that he is actively wearing discreet blighter clothes to keep the Order happy and the public oblivious, knowing what cause he is reluctantly supporting.
(him joining the rooks and suddenly coming into the Society all dressed in green lol)
Anyways I have now also decided that Maxwell and Henry are friends bc they both hate the Templars and Crawford and Henry gets to star in many of the plays he sets up. Plus they are both slightly insane so they match each other good.
YKNOW WHAT I WAS DAYDREAMING ABOUT WHILE BRUSHING MY TEETH RIGHT AFTER THIS ASK? Jekyll being forced to be the one to murder his brothers and the twins trying to track the murderer down just to know who tf are killing their targets, conveniently at the same time Maxwell starts meeting Jacob. Henry watching Jacob from afar getting smitten by him but keeping a distance bc he knows Maxwell is possessive, Jacob being the first to befriend Henry after Maxwell explains that both of them are against the Templars and Crawford, Jacob saving Henry during the fire of the theater? Yes pls <3
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Thank god bc here I was imagining an age gap of like idk 15 years bc of the differences in the timeline but! I'm just going to keep the canonical age difference while also shoot the timeline up a lil so that the events of Syndicate and TGS takes place at the same time but they are the right age and stuff, just bc I do not like Evie's and Jacob's older designs and I do not want to imagine them meeting during the Ripper dlc <3 Also the thought of Jacob being older than Henry is funny. I think Henry has a type /j
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They are so fucking bad and I'm going to scourage the Nexus to see if I can find any good redesign mods because they are so fucking bad. But to be fair, all female main characters' outfits are bad. Pearl? Lucy Thorne? Mfs looks like vampires. Even more reasons for why I only play Jacob, bc all other outfits on Evie are bad <3
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Hello :)
It’s time for the next part :)
Thanks again to all who read it so far!
CALL OF THE RAVEN
PART 3
I woke up with the sun already out, making my eyes adjust to the light again. I checked the clock above doors. 9.45. Huh, nice, I tought, the nurse didnt lie when she said the pain meds would make me sleep better. I felt more rested today, but still pretty sore. I managed to get up and go to bathroom. I looked myself in the mirror -I looked like hell. I hoped Jessy would come today with my stuff, I needed some fixing up urgently. As I was leaving the bathroom, my phone beeped with new message. My heart jumped with excitement,only to see it was Jessy. „Hey hey, sleeping beauty, im sorry, you will have to manage without my awesomness today, but dont worry, i'm sending the next best person to keep you company! ;D Call you later ,kisses!“ I smiled as I layed back to bed. That sweet nurse from before entered my room smiling. „Good morning, hun, hope you slept well“. „I sure did, thanks.“ I replied, while she settled the food tray with breakfast on the stand. She helped me make myself comfortable in bed, and putted the tray in front of me, when a voice came from the door. „Doris! My favorite nurs!“ It was Dan, and Doris chuckled as Dan came over to the bed. „Oh my, hun, if I knew who your friend was, I would have brought you something stronger then this tea“ I laughed, while Dan made a gesture with his hands, stabing at his heart. „Awww, c'mon Doris, dont be so cruel, you know you like me!“ Doris just waved her head as she went for the door. „If this schmuck starts to bother you too much, you just yell hun.“ I smiled at her „Thanks Doris, I might just do that.“ Dan looked at me. „Is that a 'thank you' I get for coming here?“ he siad, being dramatic as Dans always is. I grinned „Ofcourse not! But its entertaining to see you all squirmy.“ „Tsk,tsk, sure, pick on poor Dan.“ He grabed a chair and sat next to the bed. „You look like shit, Maya.“ „Gee, thanks Dan, thats really what I wanted to hear.“ I said, even tho I knew he was right, I did look awful. „Hey, dont get mad at me, I just say it as it is! Luckily, Dan is here to the rescue..again.“ he said handing me my backpack. „ Jessy went through your stuff, and filled your pack with what she tought you might need the most. She said to text her later if theres anything else you need so she can bring it.“ „Thanks Dan.“ I said taking the backpack from him. „And I mean thanks, not just for this.“ Dan looked at me, and I could read a bit of worry on his face. He quickly tried to hide it „Hey, no need to thank me, I told you once before, if theres a damsel in distress, im here to help.“ „Damsel“ I snorted. „Doubt that a damsel would act so stupid as I did.“ I felt that awfull feeling of guilt taking over me again. „Look Maya, i'm really not the one to judge you here. Yes, what you did was Incredibly stupid, and lets be honest, you almost got yourself killed. When Lily called me and told me everything, I was so pissed at both of you, well you mostly, but also kinda excited that someone actualy took the matter into its own hands.“ I looked at him with awe, I didnt quite expect it. He continued „And frankly, I kinda expected something like this from you sooner or later, well at least the part of you coming to Duskwood. As I was running to my car, calling Thomas and filing him in on everything,I got really angry at you for not turning to me for help. You know I would help you no matter what, I told you that hundred of times before.“ „Yes Dan, I know you would.“ I said, even more of that guilt creeping in. „But you didnt! Then I tought, maybe afterall you didnt trust me enough as you said.“ „I did trust you, I do trust you Dan, you have to know that.“ Now even tears started forming in my eyes. „I know, Maya, its just how I felt at the time. And when I got to the mine, Thomas was already there, with this cop who was close by and responded to the call since I told Lily to inform that inspector guy. He said we should wait for backup, but stuborn as I am, I just rushed in, Thomas yelling after me, but I just kept running. Good thing they went after me, because God only knows what would happen if they didnt.“ I couldnt keep the tears anymore, and I just burst out crying. Dan got up from his chair, sat next to me on the bed, hugging me. „ As I said im not here to judge you, or make you fell more guilty. Heck, I might have done the same thing, or something worse. Things wer starting to get us really nowhere, and something happening was kinda of a kickoff for me. And im not mad at you any more Maya, just to get that out in the opet.“ „Thanks Dan, I really appriciate it.“ I barely managed through my tears. „Yeah,yeah, im awesom, I know.“ He grined at me, as i looked him with eyes full of tears. He huged me a bit tighter, and I rested my head on his shoulder. „You got me really freaking scared there in that mine, Maya. When I saw you like that..“ he paused. „I cant say how much im sorry about all, Dan. I did more harm then good, and I betrayed all of you guys again.“ „Well, at the end, you did find Hannah, so im sure Thomas wont have that much of a grudge.“ He grined at me, handing me a tissue, wich made me relax a bit. „Yes I did. And how are our little love birds doing?“ i asked wiping the tears, as Dan moved back to the chair. „Oh, theyr fine. Thomas is not letting Hannah alone for one milisecond, wich is a bit too wooshy mooshy if you ask me.“ He mad a face of gaging. „Oh, c'mon mister tough guy, that picture Jessy sent me of you two from last night was quite mooswhy wooshy in my eyes.“ I said teasingly. „If you ever say that to anyone about me, and I mean ANYONE, i swear Maya...“ I didnt let him finish, I just grined „Dont worry, your mooshy wooshy secret is safe with me.“ „Good, good. So when are they letting you go from this shit hole?“ „Oh, come on, its not that terrible here: food is not bad, room is nice and quiet, and I have a killer wiev, what's the hurry?“ „I promised you some whiskey.“ he grined „And Jessy wont let me drink, but when you get out she wont be abel to say no.“ „ You really ARE scared of Jessy.“ I said laughing. „She might be small, but the woman is a dynamite when serious!“ I laughed so hard, the tea I just sipped when out through my nose. „Thanks Dan, I needed this.“ „Dan to the rescue.“ He smiled and winked. „Sooo...“ he starte, and I got a feeling I knew what he gonna ask me. „Did the 'hackerboy' contaced you by now?“ „His name is Jake, could you please not call him that anymore.“ I said a bit too stern maybe. „All right, all right, no need to get all serious on me now. Did 'Jake' contacted you?“ I hesitated for a brief moment before answering „No, nothing yet. And to be honest, might be better like that. I myself am not too eager for that talk .“ „Heh, I can understand that. If I was that much pissed at you back then, I dont want to imagine how much 'hac..' , sorry, Jake is pissed at you right now.“ „Well, I guess I will find out soon enough..if he still wants to talk to me at all.“ Dan putted on his serious face, but with a little grin on it „Hey, if he talks bad to you, let me know, i'll show him off!“ „Ohh, im sure you would enjoy that..maybe even to much.“ I said, him grinning even more. „But thanks, Dan, again, for everything.“ „Yeah,yeah, dont you get all wooshy mooshy on me now also.“ he said, getting up. „Well, I gotta go. You get better soon, and call if you need anything.“ „Thanks, Dan, sure will.“ I replied, and waved him goodby. Doris came shortly after Dan left, and got me off the IV, suggesting I take a shower. I grabbed the pack Jessy sent me, and went through it. I took out some underweare, clean shirt and sweatpants, grabbed the shampoons, tooth brush and paste and headed for the bathroom. The shower did feel nice, but it took me ages to finish it, since I was still quite sore. A big bruise at my ribs was still making me short breathed at the times, and all the other cuts and bruises didnt help with easing the pain either. I had a cut on the back of my head, wich was the reason my head still throbed a lot. I brushed my teeth, looked myself in the mirror, and already could notice some color coming back to my cheeks. I got back to bed and took my phone, might aswell check those messages and emails, its not like I'm have anything smarter to do. Most emails wer not important, I answered a few I needed, and switched to messages. Most of missed calls and messages wer from the night of the incident, so not much replaying needed here. Cleo sent a message saying shes happy im ok, and she will come to visit soon. Thomas also sent a message, thanking me for everything, emphasising tho that I was reckles and how all could have ended differently, but still no grudges from his side. He was just too happy Hannah was back with him. Ofcourse, they all wished me to get well soon, and they cant wait for when I get out so we can all meet properly.I replied to both, thanking them for good wishess. Staring at my chats screen, I opened my conversation with Jake. He was offline, ofcourse. I stared at the blinking pointer on the text space, but I didnt know what to write. My head was blank, I couldnt think of anything. After few minutes I exited the chat, settling the phone aside, and turning the tv on. Maybe some movie or something will get me relaxed a bit. I switched through channels, till I found something acceptable to watch. I ajusted myself on the pillow, and before I knew, dozed off.
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