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doomed-era · 4 months

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STEAMROLLS IN. dust clears and everytjing is perfectly fine except for me who has been steamrolled. mineru or purah hcs……,,,

HEHEHEH. HEH

WEL. I will be doing purah since I haven't thought about mineru too much yet I just think she's neat

so. in general I think purah is a bit of an oddball, not just in how she dresses but also how she behaves and her opinions on a lot of things. she's brutally honest which is a characteristic she shares with impa, except uh. well impa basically only became that brutally honest in her old age and more or less held her tongue to an extent when she was younger. this isn't completely why I headcanon that purah is autistic (I just like headcanoning characters as nd because it's relatable to me sometimes) but it is part of the reason lmao

her and robbie are childhood friends! they latched onto each other when they were like. eight. and they still keep in pretty close contact in botw! robbie and purah have pretty much always understood their relationship to be completely platonic though they have been teased/questioned about it only for them to look confused and go "um no we are besties what are you talking about "

speaking of that. we're going to go into "stuff i just made up and have no evidence for" territory. but I like to think that even before the whole prophecy thing started and the divine beasts and guardians were excavated purah had a rudimentary understanding of ancient sheikah tech from poking around where she shouldn't have and experimenting. i really don't think the sheikah tribe a century ago had any interest in it for the most part. in fact i think they kinda. discouraged it. heavily. they still know the legends, and before the yiga clan emerges they were basically a boogeyman for young children—an almost comically exaggerated evil (and they turned out to be that way lmao.) so purah got a lot of "you're going to become like the yiga clan if you don't quit messing around with things you shouldn't!" when she was younger and robbie got punished along with her as sort of an accomplice/enabler lmao. they were not well liked and often kept to themselves.

yeah then the whole "the thing you need lies buried underground" or whatever happened. suddenly purah isn't the Freak Child Who Must be Punished but basically a prodigy and their only hope and incredible and stuff. this told purah and robbie one thing primarily: none of this praise could be trusted. the moment the tech stopped being relevant they would be discarded again, so they had to do everything in their power to stay useful and relevant. the guardians and divine beasts becoming corrupted was a huge blow to them both, especially robbie. also yeah the general consensus amongst the tribe after the calamity was that sheikah tech sucked now and though they didn't...prevent people from messing around with it it's still frowned upon to this day. that's kind of why symin never went back lmao. both he and purah do visit from time to time but mostly just to see their families.

speaking of family. purah adores her grand-niece. paya calls her auntie purah! purah's somewhat closed off about this. also she's worried about paya taking impa's place as chieftain because of what a doormat she is. she doesn't think impa prepared her very well and probably thinks cado or dorian should become chieftain instead lmao. (if we're going to talk abt totk, i think purah got really pissed at impa for just running off and leaving kakariko to get crushed by falling ruins and giving up all her responsibility to paya like seriously wtf. impa. one of your closest advisors/guards got their house crushed by a fancy rock and of course those dipshit hylian researchers aren't helping paya doesn't know what to do go back and HELP FIX IT. AAAAAAAAA)

hopefully i won't get more insatiably pissed about totk on main. but oh girl purah is not happy during the events of that game. hiding eyebags with makeup kinda unhappy. though i also think she has a horrible sleep schedule in general. i just dont really think she has any reason to be i mean yeah she managed to scrounge up what was left of her life's work even though most of it vanished without an explanation. so again she tries to stay relevant by helping develop the towers and the purah pad (minimally.) she's spearheading the development of a new town that I'm assuming will probably make an effort to restore castle town when it gets bigger. she is desperate for something to do, some way to be beautiful and useful and cool again, but she gets this looming feeling in the back of her head that none of it will last, and she fears for herself and her tribe, hoping to appeal to hylians and princess zelda as much as possible to avoid disaster.

did i mention i think she's very particular about her appearance? cause she is. she masks a LOT, and she does not like looking bad or foolish or weak to anyone. I mean she is fine with being weird, likes pushing that boundary to see what's palatable for other people, and tries to befriend and protect people who she thinks might be ostracized, but again, she fears not being palatable. she doesn't want to be bullied or shunned, and she wants to look like nothing affects her.

i also think she understates how much she and impa didn't get along as kids. they do generally get along better now, but they try not to step on each other's toes and they've tried to be there for each other during hard times. they love each other very much but yeah they do not touch...sensitive issues

her and josha have sort of a child and her weird aunt thing going on. josha just kinda latched onto purah randomly at some point purah was like "oh no" internally but befriended josha and yeah

she's not completely agnostic but she's about as close as you can get. does not care about religion and does what she does because she cares about other people

oh also she's a lesbian

#purah #botw #totk #asks #glider rambles

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autistic-sidestep · 7 months

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uno_reverse_card.gif im cheating and using a few ideas from the meme bc i have No braincells but i DO crave that suranga lore SO--

favorite color to wear AND favorite color in general, if they're different things; favorite genre of any media AND what his favorite type of media is (music, movies, shows, etc), favorite person, AND what he thinks abt the rat king :3

k lets finally fuckign answer this

favourite colour: phthalo green! namely why it's a very core part of the argos suit. they like wearing blacks/greys/dark greens and blues, those tend to lean into the more professional/conservative look they're angling for as a mob step, but i'm sure if they weren't having to worry abt staying lowkey in civilian cover they'd love to dress up in more bright colours, jewel tones n such. as for now, most of that's reserved for when they're juno (pre-debut) and argos.

their cuckoo training's given them an aversion to opera and ballet, given those featured heavily in the functions they were meant to infiltrate as a cuckoo, sometimes as a dancer themselves. but! musicals and plays, for sure. The COSTUMES. THE EMOTIONS. tia elena probably invites sura to come with her one time and they're hooked (i want to believe wicked's in the fh verse, they'd be all over that. misunderstood outcast tarred as a villain? YEAH. post-hb it'd have even more resonance; no good deed is SO fitting cos of past-self rivalry. defying gravity, too.) then there's 70s-80s rock, esp queen (ofc the lead singer is the purrcury's namesake), sharing the same taste in music as pelayo and joes lol.

they're a classics/shakespeare nerd too, (hence why sura's puppet was named juno), and they'd especially enjoy viola's genderfuckery in twelfth night (and honestly, the mental image of argos going "it's SHAKESPEARE you HEATHEN" after quoting something from one of the tragedies at a clueless hero is too funny to pass up. they're just bringing some class to the villain scene.)

they like movies, though they do find it a little less engaging w/o the minds to read. a good few hollywood golden age, but animated ones are probably their favourite thanks to themmy. they binged a bunch of cartoon movies together, and lilo and stitch is their favourite cos of the BIG relate to lilo being a weird autistic girl and stitch being an escaped experiment that was made to be evil, but learned to love,,,,,

favorite person: pre-hb, it was a tie between ortega, tia elena (she nicknamed sura pollito, and she's the Only person sura will allow to call them that) and, as expected, themmy, in no small part due to the fact they all kept feeding sura. and he kept coming back like a stray cat lol. they made sura feel safe and loved and valued, and not just a little kid. themmy (in my hc) being openly autistic especially helped sura be less insecure about how young he came off, especially when the farmhands infantilised the regenes so much (and by extension, learning to mask and suppress his autistic traits). part of hiding his face (and lowering his voice) was so people would take him seriously, cos he was well aware how babyish he looked. it was a huge relief not to do that anymore, or at least do it less.

themmy: so what did you think?

t: are you crying?

sura, sniffling and very obviously holding back tears: no

throughout rebirth, it was just mortum, largely cos they felt like the friendships they had as sidestep, being able to relax in someone else's company, this time, in juno's body. they love nerding out with her on tech stuff, critiquing peoples' suits, and just generally having someone that Gets It about just sitting in silence hanging out (mortum reads as neurodivergent to me).

it's a tie between her and chen now, to the surprise of both sura and chen, given how much friction they used to have lol. turns out that they have a lot in common (better at bonding with animals instead of people), more so than before hb, of course. (i am also pushing my autistic chen agenda, and that was part of the friction between the two was that step was trained to understand allistic inclined people. chen operates on different rules. but also given chens scepticism about the suspiciously well-trained young vigilante thing, i'll give him a pass for that too.)

rat king opinions: SURA ADORES THE GIRLS. sorta filling the void fred did, but not quite. i like to think of them as like… a telepathic equivalent of a service dog. if sura wasn't a mob step, they'd be a lot more dependent on them for interaction, but as is, they're a reliable supportive presence that sura knows will always have its back. it's nice to have another telepath to communicate with! routinely gives them mental scritches and treats for being the best telepathic rat brains in the whole world. they deserve it!!(and an added bonus, that also involves some self-care for herself. can't disappoint/let them down. it's a win/win.)

#ramblings #oc: suranga fernando #YAY ONLY TOOK 5 MONTHS THANKS FOR WAITING VAL

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andro-dino · 11 months

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shogun steel main gang hcs bc I’m thinking about them atm and how much I love them

- I’ve said this a billion times before but I’ll keep saying it until I die, they are very affectionate with each other. Of course, it depends on the specific people and how their feeling at certain times, but they will take any opportunity to cuddle or hold hands or just generally have some kind of contact with each other for comfort. idc if this is ooc canon is what I make of it

- Ren and kite bonding over being petty third wheels to Zyro and Shinobu is an idea that is so important to me you have no idea. They will argue with each other and be dumb any other time but instantly bond over hating on those two being losers

- This is one of my hyper specific projection moments but ren specifically any time she sees them being remotely affectionate to each other at all will immediately turn to the nearest person and go “get a load of these guys”

- underrated duo dynamic is ren and takanosuke being wlw mlm rivals/besties/gossip buddies. you just know they share the most scalding of tea while training with each other

- actually I just really appreciate their dynamic as a whole. they’re both very ambitious and headstrong bladers who are constantly working their hardest to grow and improve and I think they’d really bring out the best in each other. They have some great friendly banter thrown in there too. neither of them are afraid to throw in some really funny disses

- maru is such a creechur I really cannot appreciate that enough. she has adopted everyone as a big sibling and there’s nothing they can do to stop it, she just perched on their shoulder one day and there was nothing they could do to stop it

- the only exception to this is with kite and eight, because eight and maru are like two cats who don’t like each other being mutually stanced up and staring each other down in anticipation for one of them to pounce

- eight once was showing off a bunch of skateboard tricks and Zyro was like “psh that’s easy I could do that” and immediately ate shit and died and eight laughed at him for hours and has never let him live it down since

- kite likes to pretend he doesn’t care about any of them but takes really careful notice of their likes and dislikes and makes sure to accommodate for everyone when he can and gives them really banger gifts on special occasions but frames it as him being like “I know I know I can make and find such amazing things that’s just how it is for mr perfect” and the others are like “kite holy shit this is so kind of you thank you so much????” and he tries really really hard to pretend like he doesn’t really enjoy hearing that

- sakyo does not know how to interact with any of the main gang on his own outside of beyblade but he and taka are a package deal so he tends to tag along whenever takanosuke hangs out with any of them and he’s like the awkward cousin at a family party who just sits in the corner silently bc he doesn’t know how to approach anyone

- I think it would be funny if eight randomly started hanging out with him in that way that little kids do when they just decide they like you all of a sudden and sakyo just has no idea how to deal with that but ig he’s got a snarky little dude hanging out with him now and asking if he’s got any games on his phone

- benkei does not hide the fact that ren is his favorite child. he loves all of his kids dearly but ren is his daughter and hes very attached because he sees a lot of himself in her and wants her to be less dumb than he was when he was younger (may or may not be drawing a comic with this exact premise atm)

- this one’s kind of off track but I’ve thought abt it a lot in the past and started thinking abt it again. Kenta takes a shining to sakyo and kinda takes a bit of a mentor role over him accidentally and at some point Sakyo’s like “you act like you’re so much older than me but our age gap isn’t even that big (bc I hc sakyo as like 15-16 and ss Kenta as 18-19)” and Kenta’s like “well yeah but im the adult here?? I kinda just figured???” idk it’s just a neat dynamic I like a lot

- Shinobu and Ren go clothes shopping together. Ren likes spending Shinobu’s money and they bond over what they like, stuff they could share if they wanted to, and also shit talking stuff they think is ugly

- all of them get in really stupid arguments over the dumbest things. they’ve had big group debates over which flavor of ice cream is the best or whether or not cilantro tastes like soap

that is all for now they r very important to me thank you and goodnight

#axel’s silly little thoughts #the hyper specific one is something I genuinely did to my two friends who are dating at one point lmao #holding all of them so gently in the palms of my hands #REN AND TAKANOSUKES FRIENDSHIP IS SOMETHING IVE THOUGHT ABOUT SO MUCH THEY ARE SO IMPORTANT TO ME U HAVE NO IDEA #I’ve drawn this before but in a lot of their chat seshes taka talks a lot abt sakyo and at some point rens just like #‘takanosuke i am going to throw you if you don’t stop talking about this man I swear to god’#taka and sakyo are honorary members of the main gang but it’s funny bc I like to think that a lot of them dislike one or both of them #for one reason or another #Zyro is their common ground that brings all of them together #if it weren’t for him their entire group would be in shambles #also also didn’t touch on this much but benkei Madoka and Tsubasa parenting them together is something I hold so close to my heart #and if I said they were qpps-#I’m gonna be thinking abt that now

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1moreoffkeyanthem · 4 months

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hey, this is the same anon who just asked for the vamp fics, i just wanted to say THANKS, and i had another question lol, since u love giving recs you must read a lot!! have you ever read anything you didn’t like?? this might be messy but do u have authors u avoid bc of it, or do u tend to just enjoy and recommend everything you do read?

Great question my dude! And I seriously read CONSTANTLY lmfao but tbh, I’ve rarely met a fic I didn’t like! I do have some stuff I tend to avoid as a general rule like pedophelia, underage smut (not the biggest smut fan in general tbh) and really graphic sexual assault, plus I don’t seek out fics that center around ships I couldn’t care less about (for example I don’t give a shit abt dip but I’ll take it or leave it as a background pairing) I definitely don’t have any authors or concepts that I avoid wholeheartedly, though I do have my preferences for SURE!!!

I’m definitely one to read all pairings for the sake of a tag I like (I’ve said before that I don’t ship kyman but I’ve read some EXCELLENT stuff via that damn injury tag lmfao) it really helps to keep an open mind I feel like! I’ve been introduced to some really awesome ships through this fandom, plus it helps that I’m not particularly turned away by many tropes. I don’t usually seek out party fics (they feel juvenile to me personally, that’s not to say i hate parties in fics as long as they’re not the main plot ya feel me) or like zombie apocalypse aus (I do have exceptions) or high school aus (for me most of them get old fast and I generally prefer to read the guys closer to my own age and again, juvenility) I do avoid omegaverse for the most part too it just ain’t my realm. Oh yeah and if I’m reading smut I NEED a plot. ALSO anything that one-notes the characters, like puts them in a stereotypical box! While I’m definitely a oneshot girlie, I really try to avoid shit that’s like “Stan is a depressed alcoholic and that’s it” if ya catch my drift.

ALSO dude I HATEEEEE first person. Like other than abysmal grammar, that’s my biggest turn off lol. To each their own, of course, but I CANNOT truly get behind first person in fics. (I did write first person one time because I couldn’t see a way around it and Narrator Kenny as Hermes needed to happen, but I’ll never do it again)

Another thing that immediately makes me go NOPE is anyone/reader like absolutely tf not, not for me, AND if I see a “written with ai” HELLLLLL NO!!!

For the most part, I’m not super picky unless I don’t particularly care for the writing style, but I do only seek out whatever’s holding my interest the most at any point. Like right now I’m mostly digging Kyle centric fics and style, k2, or cryle as the main pairing, but who knows what I’ll be into next!

#south park #asks #my opinions lol #to each their own #I say I’m not picky but sometimes I’m a LITTLE picky lmfao #I will read pretty much anything tho

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yannysifgen · 1 year

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Hiya! :-D I've been meaning to reach out w some questions and finally decided to commit!!! ;v;

Idk if it's stated anywhere, but I'm curious what inspired the concept of the game? And what made you choose Lucien as his name bc it fits him so well <3

I'm also really curious abt the original plot of Rosalind's Lie, how much of in-game lore do we get to see? Or is it only mentioned in passing here and there? Just the idea of a game's storyline (RL) inside another game's storyline (IITAOAYD) intrigues me a lot

Sorry for the long ask ;v;!

Hii!! Thanks so much for reaching out! If you think your ask is long then wait till you read this answer haha... But on that note it's totally fine, I absolutely love reading any and all ramblings because I'm a rambler myself (it's the adhd) and like to consume new knowledge, even if I can't actually retain all of it :') (btw I love Mychael and can't wait to see what you do with the rest of the game aaa)

Honestly, the idea just kinda came out of nowhere one day (my brain does that) because of the recent(?) boom in yandere games, I was thinking what kind of yandere I might make and just thought of a concept where mc might be isekai'd into the yan's garden and he kind of immediately gets attached because they're 'untainted' by the world and other people and wants to keep it that way.

I should mention that I'm a fan of isekai genre in general because it's such a self-indulgent escape from our boring mundane lives, a kind of fresh start that a lot of people wish they had access to. Ironically though, I prefer the isekais that are more focused on living a new life as opposed to getting op powers and making waves in the world

Back to the topic, didn't really think too seriously on it till I saw the yanjam announcement and decided why not. Then I decided to add the reincarnation/otome isekai tropes into the mix to make it more interesting, except that mc is themselves and not another character. So stories like "My next life as a Villainess: All roads lead to doom!" and "Death is the only ending for the Villainess" (I promise it's two different things) come to mind for inspirations.

The game will lightly parody these popular tropes, which is why if Lucien looks like every other 'Duke of the North' with his red eyes and black hair(but less buff as I'd like because drawing men is an ongoing struggle for me) then it's on purpose. His name....... well it's honestly embarrassing but it really just comes from angel/demon inspo while talking it out with a friend, since Dukes are mostly portrayed as 'monsters' in comparison to the angelic Prince or so, when in reality it's the other way around. So its kinda like Lucifer...Lucien... yeah, not very creative but I also wanted a name that could be turned into a cute nickname(Lucy) so I decided to roll with it.

Since I gave such a specific name like "Rosalind's Lie" for the og game, I do intend to flesh out the story at some point, though for now I only have rough concepts because I'm terrible at planning lore I'm so sorry. But that somehow didn't stop me from being ambitious with it because I'm weird like that. Anyways, Rosalind's Lie is named so because the titular character Rosalind kicks off her relationships with the eligible bachelors through lies. As for why, it's because she was born in the slums and orphaned at a young age, and had only herself to rely on to survive. Thanks to that she's very street-smart and cunning, and by chance she caught the attention of a kind Baron who decides to adopt her. He was nice enough, but not very smart or ambitious, which she felt was a waste, so she decides to make her own fortune in life and marry rich - she's really more like a villainess than a heroine lol but basically she encapsulates both roles. Her "lie" in Lucien's route is basically her nicking his brooch during a ball and pretending she found it and returns it to him, which prompts him to invite her for lunch or something as thanks. And then she plans various other small schemes because he's notoriously hard to get a hold of but eventually starts liking him for real.

I'm actually not sure how much of the og lore I'll involve in yanduke, other than mc occasionally making some callbacks when they're reminded of something, because mc is isekai'd before the plot of the game starts this time, which is ofc heavily derailed and non-existent by then thanks to our yan.

Sorry for the late reply, I actually had to knock around the old noggin to articulate an answer, but again, questions like these are always welcome because it actually helps me formulate some plot points too!

#yd ask #yanny talks #yd lucien #isekai'd into the arms of a yandere duke #yd #yandere #yandere vn #so sorry for my ramblings my brain is a mess and I can't help it #im honestly not organized enough to create a whole ass game but I still enjoy doing it!!#if you're into isekai pls give ascendance of a bookworm/honzuki no gekokujou a try its so good the worldbuilding is something I aspire to #but also its not at all romance focused so lol

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heyitsspaceace · 2 years

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Hello, since the forms were anonymous, do u think u can post some of the reasoning of some for how they rated some of the drivers?

Ur post abt the 100 respondents let us see some thoughts, and I know some of the comments that u have mentioned was from me (i know i'm the one who thirsted on yuki's thighs)

I personally wouldn't mind if u'd publish the reasonings or the thirst paragraphs

I think it'll be either really funny, lovely, or horny or weird

oh my friend you've opened the floodgates

anyways here's the og link the quiz

so here are some memorable responses

Yuki Tsunoda

"He has a manly, manly body with a nice set of abs. He can successfully backflip into a pool and he's just plain hilarious. Plus he's got no filter, can cook you breakfast in the morning and can even sing. multi-talented"

"*Fernando Alonso voice* YUkiii"

"Have you seen those thighs?! And he's just so soft especially in pastel clothes, he loves food, and his eyes when he smile just melts me. Did I mention his THIGHS?"

"So smol. Idk who any of these are but he looks like he finished his A-levels and went 'fuck it' before turning up at the local f1 track and won."

"Food obsession, funny, homoerotic tension with Pierre, what more could you want in a man?"

"Even thou wer'e the same height, he'll forever be my short king and the thighs."

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Lando Norris

"Less baby than Yuki but Baldo Norris is haunting my dreams"

"the hair ✨✨"

"An absolute icon. Gen z at its finest ✨"

"When I watch his intweviews it's always has me rolling at some point , mammmmm those choclate curls."

"British +1 for the hair"

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Fernando Alonso

"This man. So hot. Renly tormenting Stannis with a peach was inspired by this man. One sexy motherfucker. Unfortunately dates women he’s own age. An absolute menace. He’s in it for the long con, when Yuki retires Nando is the shortest on the grid. Chase that title king!"

"Best Friend's Dad who will fight anyone for you. Also, makes a great sandwich."

"Unhinged petty energy, I thrive to be like him"

"He's a bastard menace and also petty as FUCK. I love the drama this old man generates"

"he’s a bastard but there is something attractive about it"

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Valtteri Bottas

"underrated unproblematic king"

"best wag & tiktok, porridge king"

"Gentleman ♥️"

"Malewife"

"THIS is the ideal male body. Sorry if society isn’t ready for it. Sexy AF"

"I have a thing for people from Finland. He gives me a warm fussy feeling, and he’s gender envy"

"I like how he keeps showing his ass. I respect that hustle."

"Idk what about this man but I feel absolutely safe around and I have never met him in my life."

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Sergio Perez

"also Dilf but also cheater"

"Decent driver, I cheered when he won. Wish he said fuck team orders, I’m here for ME!"

"Everyday i hate this man more and more i used to actively root for him but now all he does is terrorize my faves as per the rbr agenda and the wifecheating thing is hilarious but horrible no bonus points for being petty or occasionally hot from one angle sadly so 1"

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Zhou Guanyu

"actually a talented dude, his modelling pics were just too good"

"He so sexy,he cute,he hot my husband"

"down points because he has more style than me"

"Very cute. Best friend who doesn't really show care about much but will randomly give food and 3am 'I can't sleep so you're going to deal with it' texts. Also, says 'don't die' instead of goodbye. 10/10"

"A Goddamn Model. Absolute beauty. Also he looks like someone I'd come across at the mall. One point deducted bc I dont like boba but he does."

"Fashion icon, he is the moment when he steps on track."

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Sebastian Vettel

"Daddy" x2

"Okay! Cool teacher that has been there for a year or two but it feels like forever. Gives off an ally to whoever needs one vibe. Like a 'You're gay? Great (insert support here)! Now let smash this quadratic formula!' Will die for any of his students."

"How much time do you have to hear me talk about the love of my life? Love al his eras has never done anything wrong in his life I would support him ni matter what team he races for and how much of a bastard he is. Crid over sebtirement many times and now i will force myself to watch races that are at 3am for me because i can’t miss any of his remaining races. Giving him 10 bonus points for being hot asf with every look and bringing back the sebstache his official score is 100/10"

"HIS PERSONALITY IS VERY SEGGCY. SAVE THE BEES. physically tho, not my type, aha"

"I have a thing for Germans too"

"Activism so hot on seb"

"Invented flirting. Has Lee Mckenzies number. Has the charisma bill Clinton thought he had."

"I like how this man likes bees. You go, little bee man!"

"Red Bull twink era was a 10, now -1 point because of the hair"

"Babygirl-coded old man"

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Mick Schumacher

"He's just a golden retriever (and I'm German and biased)"

"gorgeous gorgeous shoulder to waist ratio. angel baby"

"Normally an 8 but u chose the right pic i guess also does have sexy moves on track when given the chance"

"Cute smile a little twink-ish"

"Ray of sunshine, I’m always rooting for him. Does amazing things in a shitty shitty car. If Sebastian teaches him to flirt is over for all of us."

"self explanatory, I would kill for him as well. fun fact my dad would yell at me and my brother when we were little if we said Michael like the English pronunciation and not the German, because "U can't disrespect a Schumacher". So I won't."

"That one boy who excells at P.E and his exams. No one knows how or why. Probably plays for a local football team."

"Seems nice, i want to see what would happen if you put him in a competitive car. Can say "rawr" without making me cringe"

"Very golden retriever wonder bread and love him for it"

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Lewis Hamilton

"Smash. I dont care for the NDAs, I'll screw this man. Love him to bits"

"sebs boyfriend. literally so fucking hot. also a king. 8x world champion"

"Walk walk fashion baby"

"1) the tattoos, 2) the smile, 3) his eyes when he smiles, 4) the way he says Bono"

"he is the most beautiful man i have ever seen. hes sexy and handsome, of course, but hes also BEAUTIFUL."

"I like him, i like his angst, i want him to win"

"Babygirl-coded old man two EXCEPT this one's wayyy more beautiful than what should be legal. Like holy fuck. Also he's like the only driver who I desire carnally"

"handsome, aware of social issues and uses his platform to spread awareness, has a dog"

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Kevin Magnussen

"dilf" x3

"The beard *chefs kiss*"

"that's my type right here"

"fok smash. but like sometimes is soft a lil."

"He’s Danish, I’m legally contracted to like people from Denmark"

"Head teacher vibes. Tries his best but is often caught between teachers, students, and everyone else. Mr Vettel doesn't always agree with him, but they respect eachother alot."

"This man is really driving that shitbox to points finishes, gotta appreciate"

"He’s married😔"

"Dilf, tats, beard"

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Carlos Sainz

"TITS"

"he always looks super dramatic but really his favourite hobby is playing golf"

"Smooth operator" x4

"idk he looks constantly like he doesn’t know where he is or why he’s there"

"SMOOOOTHHHH OPERATOR. Deserves all the love in the world"

"You and that one friend who have grown apart over the years because life sucks and gets in the way, but who will always makes sure you're ok and will drop anything and everything to help if you aren't. That's him. He's the friend."

"🌶️🌶️🌶️"

"Tits and thighs, deadly combo, it should be illegal."

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Pierre Gasly

"oui oui, has labrador energy"

"the hottest right after Sir Lewis. He had an amazing glowup and i can't forget the way he was whoring around with diff women. Really, REALLY desirable. HIS BODY IS AMAZING, MF WORKS OUT A LOT. his voice is hot and is humor is exactly my favourite kind"

"I highly respect his horny on main attitude"

"hot."

"french slut we love it"

"IM OBSESSED. I LOVE HIM. Him + yuki= fav couple in the paddock"

"MY KING MY HUSBAND MY BABY"

"I think about monza 2020 every day i need this man to succed or so help me, I JUST WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY!!! (also very hot)"

"I want him to break my heart so bad that i spend every night sobbing on the bathroom floor that i miss him while he forgets about me immediately aka good 4 u vibes. If he asked me to commit a crime i would do it"

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Max Verstappen

"just love him ♥️ Dork!"

"Aww u put the out of office max, soft max is the best and besides yuki, he also has got one of the nicest thighs on the grid and his lip freckle is just so cute i wanna kiss ot and pull at his post race hair thank god also that his wearing curved caps more these days and ahhh so fucking soft love him"

"Cute, hot after the races"

"That one person you know who says they're a twitch streamer/influencer and you're like 'Having two followers and led keyboard doesn't make you a streamer Barry' but then you check his Twitch and he isn't half-bad? You watch in secret of course until you accidentally sub with Prime and the entire friendship group gets dragged into becoming Max's #1 Supporters. Will tease you about it (affectionate)"

"Post race Max hits different"

"When I tell you I had the most epic haters to lovers with this man. I didn't like him at first at all but now I still don't love him but I do have a strong liking to him . His smile and thighs ."

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Lance Stroll

"My favorite color is green, my lucky number is 18. Hate to see people living the dream I can’t 😔"

"i just love lance and I mean look at his hair"

"actually boyfriend material tbh"

"Andrew Rannels but make it F1"

"idk idk idk dont come for me but i love this unbothered king so fucking much"

"wonderful eyebrows. expressive face, love the faces he makes. seems very polite and respectful. cute smile. i am not immune to dark hair dark eyes combo."

"Blah blah he bought his seat, whatever he seems sweet okay? Also love a snarky comment here and there"

"ANOTHER UNDERRATED KING everyones like hes just a rich kid blahblahblah umm okay so is 90% of the grid?! Good vibes good energy occasionally hot and not as bad of a driver as people want to believe"

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Daniel Ricciardo

"AUSSIE AUSSIE AUSSIE OI OI OI, miss him winning"

"My babygirl. I will die defending him. I love everything about him. How can i not?"

"perfection. beautiful boy"

"Also thighs plus the tattoos (so of course special mention to the thigh tattoo)"

"how could u not love himmmm seriously. I hope he bankrupts McLaren. Also I'm getting my friend into F1 by exploiting her crush on Daniel."

"He feels like a day spent by the pool in Spain with your best friends, good music and cocktails"

"The curls, the nose, the side profile, the smile!?! This really doesn’t need any reasoning."

"he's hot, the curls, the tattoos but his character makes him a real 10/10"

"It’s either 1000000/10 or your wrong."

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Charles Leclerc

"the (himboest) prettiest boy on the grid"

"most gorgeous man in motorsport"

"kitty<3 he’s my babygirl"

"There he is my baby, king of my heart, loveliest boy, tu es bel, tu es mon ange, so fucking beautiful, i actually cried once (thrice) just looking at his pics and gods have u seen that latest thirst trap from ferrari and i am the perfect height to just bury my face onto his chest and his eyes (everchanging and twinkling, tho not much these days so f u ferrari), and his dimples, i just wanna poke those dimples and have you seen his upper bod, its the perfect mix of abs and a lil tum tum and i rlly wanna boop his perfect nose and run my fingers thru his hair (i bet itd feel like clouds) and he'd whisper sweet nothings in english italian and french. And really his thighs are perfect too, like the way he manspread on that pic on the yacth (i died, true story) and u know that beauty mark near his nose, i wanna kiss it so bad and the one on his neck too and the ones on his torso and i love the way he plys piano and the way he wears jewelry (that's hot) i just rlly love him even when he's a lobster"

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Nicholas Latifi

"the 2 things I know about him is that he's canadian and he likes nutella"

"Listen, i just saw that gamer!nicky photo and it did things to me"

"That one person who is lovely but one bad day away from snapping. Pls, give him a hug."

"i like his nose a lot. legendary eyebrows. hot streamer boy nicholas forever in my heart. hes also very nice and friendly looking and i feel bad for him jskfkalfjfbsk"

"This man really likes Nutella and that's really sexy."

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George Russell

"GEORGE!!!!!!!!!!!! acts like a private school boy"

"it's so much fun to see my brother annoyed every time he is told he looks like Russell. I love convincing people he looks like russell. He does. I can convince you too."

"bf material right here as well"

"The guy who comes in to assemblies to give those talks on stupid things. Like a Tedx talk level of why... kinda cute tho"

"Him fanboying over Daniel Is my suicide prevention. Also is so nice 😭"

"Something about a guy that loves a powerpoint and knows the rule book and WILL ARGUE... debate kid vibes but hot? very confusing! I also really enjoy his brand of british accent"

"my beloved, I'll rate him 100/10. Love his eyes, his appearance, his accent, his talent and his personality. (love his friendship with alex as well)"

"Fantastic driver. And he’s the biggest DR fanboy so he gets extra rights"

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Esteban Ocon

"adore him a lot. got a soft spot for the man because of his childhood story. and he looks very hot at times without excess gel in his hair"

"Fav string bean"

"love him fr <333 estie bestie truely the most real nickname"

"He's french :( but he's friends with Mick :) , soo fuck it, he gets a 5"

"I fell in love with him when he and max almost got into a fistfight. General mischievous vibe."

"estie bestie...we stan"

"estie bestie! but idk i also spell like este maybe i'm a fake fan. i think he is cool! and also like that he comes from a more humble bg ig"

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Alex Albon

"albon pets >>> anything else"

"i like his name and his girlfriend!!"

"Boyfriend material + nice and comfy"

"a sweetie. a cutie. i love his laugh"

"Tho if u had put in lily, i'll give her a 10 too"

"his cats>>>>>>>>>>>>>> ❤️❤️🥰❤️❤️❤️😍"

"WILL NEVER FORGET HIS ICONIC ROOKIE POEM"

"If you don't like alex albon i do not trust you!!!!!'

"love his smile, his positive energy. and his friendship with george. and his cats."

"🫶🫶🫶 very boyfriend coded (would steal lily off him though) kind sweet nice deserves good things"

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and that's all!

IF ANY OF YOU SEE YOURS AND WOULD LIKE IT REMOVED PLEASE LET ME KNOW I WILL OBLIGE!

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an-eldritch-peredhel · 2 years

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may i ask for your thoughts on dior my beloved??? 👀

DIOR MY BELOVED. HIMST. BLORBO. Ok now that I have my initial reaction down:

Given the post I assume sparked this re: Dior as a rebellious kid, I'm gonna start there

I don't think it was quite rebellion in the traditional sense? Definitely not as much as like. Feanor (bc Dior doesn't have mommy/daddy issues). It's more of a "I am different from my parents and need to go my own way and that way happens to be the Exact Opposite of what they did"

I have a Whole Heckin Bunch of headcanons on he and Nimloth (and their kids) here, also a reblog with Valinor relationship headcanons, if you feel like reading 6+ pages on our underappreciated king, if not, I shall Sum Up relevant stuff

Basically: he joins the marchwardens at 18-ish where he meets Nimloth and they have a rivals to lovers speedrun. She's the one who calls him Eluchil (an insult at first but turns sincere) and he tells her his plan to get respect and political capital by increasing his influence, but the Plan falls apart just when he's starting to get Properly Acknowledged bc Thingol gets killed and Melian leaves and Menegroth gets sacked and whoopsie time for Political Influence Speedrun because he's KING NOW

(DIOR (also Elros and probably Arwen) is the politically ambitious peredhel thank you very much, NOT Elrond)

Gonna put a cut here because this got pretty long lol, I am just getting started with all my many random headcanons

Anyway, Beren and Luthien don't really know about his political aspirations at first, they just think he's joining the Marchwardens to connect to his elvish heritage and make friends his own age and fulfil the Elvish YAWN (Young Adult Wandering iNstinct), and while they don't really Get It they understand and are reasonably supportive

(Luthien grumbles privately for a while but once Dior starts writing them abt Nimloth she's like "Ooh? Another person to dote on? Daughter!?" (Beren: in LAW. Luthien: D A U G H T E R) and all is forgiven)

They find out about it at a Very Inconvenient Time. Don't know when except that probably he doesn't mean for them to find out. Maybe Nimloth lets something slip at a dinner?

I know Luthien and Daeron are like "You WANT TO GET INVOLVED IN DORIATH POLITICS??? After our childhoods and the Quest??? We raised you better than this???" (Beren in the background: "Daeron this is your fault for being his Favorite Adult and cushioning how much being prince sucked.")

Obviously they're mostly worried for him and after an argument and more grumbling they're supportive but. Two Forest Hippies and a Wandering Musician, all former royalty (or close to, wrt Beren) who all ran from Society like hell was behind them Do Not Get It lol

After 6 fairly miserable years of Kinging and getting killed and reembodied he is. Significantly less gung ho about being in charge, but he still expects his political opinions/advice to be listened to, within reason (just because he doesn't want the kingship back Does Not mean that they can deny that he was king)

(Compared to the Noldor, who went through kings like paper towels and had twelve times as much nobility, this is an entirely reasonable request)

anyway some other general headcanons, in no particular order:

This is a general Eldritch Peredhil thing but None of them are allo. Or cis. They all got two things from Melian: being Spooky, and being aspec genderqueers of some flavor.

Dior is a fairly picky eater, mostly because of Texture. He, like his parents, is generally vegetarian with some supernatural (*vampire and werewolf*) exceptions. He really likes Luthien's vegetable dumplings, and Beren's curries and stews. He Cannot Stand cooked greens unless they're thoroughly disguised though.

Really, really loves fruit candied in honey. Big sweet tooth in general, and no shame about it. He passes this to his kids.

He learns to play lots of instruments and to compose from Daeron, but the flute is his first and favorite bc ~nostalgia. He learns singing from Luthien but doesn't like it quite as much- loves dancing though. Beren teaches him whittling, which he uses to occupy his hands. He makes lots of hair combs and pins for Nimloth.

He takes after Beren a little bit more in personality, but it's not really noticeable because it's colored a lot by lack of trauma and eldritch peredhel stuff and habits that he picked up from Daeron who shares them with Luthien. He takes after her too though, the biggest thing being unrelenting stubbornness and determination to get what he wants, by the Valar, even if he dies trying.

He also looks a Lot like Beren, but similarly it's hard to tell at first glance because inevitably what stands out is all the Spooky Shiny Stuff, rather than his actual features. His eyes are bright orangey-gold, which is important because it's the exact same shade as Beren's brown but hyper-saturated and lighter.

He wears his hair in Proper Styles for appearances, but he doesn't like how it feels 90% of the time because it's too tight or too loose or too stiff or-. His hair also inherited a lot of Luthien's Weirdness (her hair is only very debatably called hair and may or may not have a little sentience) which makes it extremely hard to do. The plus side to it though is that once he gets the braids right there is very little that can budge them, so he can keep them in for a long time. Still prefers his hair down, or in a simple braid to keep it out of the way if he must.

Also goes barefoot whenever possible- this is more socially acceptable because Thingol often did too, and you couldn't get shoes on Melian and her kids for love or money, so it's become something of a trend/statement that the royal family takes too far sometimes (affectionate) rather than a sign of wildness (judgemental)

He's fluent in Sindarin (multiple dialects, this guy can code switch like crazy) and Taliska, but he also knows a non-zero amount of Quenya because Beren has some from Finrod. He doesn't exactly use it, but it's enough that he can hypothetically parse simple conversations with a lot of guesswork and tone-reading and common root words.

When he's 8-ish he gets a kitten. He names the kitten Rhoss (whisper/rustling sound). The kitten is Very Very loud. Luthien is the "dad that didn't want the pet" in this situation (cats + songbirds=BAD, Dior promised to keep him inside/in the barn). Beren is the one who championed the cat and regrets it immensely, because he is a very light sleeper and Rhoss gets Zoomies. It's all very ironic.

Beren and Luthien tell him the Tale Of Tinuviel (roughly) version of their adventure when he's very young (they keep "Uncle Finrod and Friends were brutally slaughtered via werewolf" out until he's at least eight) and he occasionally confuses small details. He's very irritated by this, and actually writes out different versions to keep them all straight when telling them to his kids.

(This is the big reason so many details about their quest survive even though they went off merrily to be Bog People, and why so few details about their life post quest exist- he knows that part and didn't write it down.)

Because they are dad's dear departed friends, Dior never admits that he picks favorites of the Faithful from Beren's stories. It changes throughout his life a lot depending on what he's going through, but when he meets them in Valinor he gains a surprising respect for Eluihu (or perhaps not surprising. That they turned away from Celegorm to aid his father when it was Celegorm's followers that left his children to die is... Poetic)

This man has a wicked sense of humor. This is entirely from Beren, ("even now it is in my hand") and ranges from absolutely *terrible* dad jokes, to Legitimately Concerning gallows humor. He's also very snarky- many a comment has been muttered under his breath to Nimloth that made her have to try Very Hard not to laugh

He doesn't like shapeshifting very much (species dysphoria~) but sometimes you just have to give your spouse snuggles as a giant wolf. And being a bird is just really fun.

He has a crazy green thumb- Nimloth insists that he's cheating with Maia powers, he insists he's just that good, this debate never gets resolved. He grows her lots of flowers.

They have lots of silly little arguments like that, lots of lighthearted bickering. Like over nicknames for Elured and Elurin: Dior calls them Thoroval and Thorogamp (Eagle-wing and Eagle-talon), Nimloth calls them Erionnath (Daisy-sons) and both of them jokingly protest over the other. It's very cute

He loves basking in sunlight, but also really likes storms, preferably in the day. He likes being able to see the stars at night.

All peredhil have "In this world, it's adopt and be adopted" vibes they give off, some stronger than others. Dior's aren't as strong as Elrond's but they're pretty dang strong. He gets so many honorary uncles. He becomes an honorary uncle to so many people. He meets Earendil for the first time and goes "Ah, another son". Meets Idril and Tuor and goes "Ah, new cousins". Meets Elrond and goes "Ah, beloved grandson". If you are even distantly related to him by blood or choice you are Not Safe from becoming Family.

Luthien's brand of feral is pretty consistent, she's always this close to becoming a full-fledged eldritch abomination and it's just part of her personality. When she hides it is when you really need to run, because that means she has a Plan. Beren's brand of feral is essentially "depressed forest cryptid cleans up nice"- when he isn't crippled by grief and rage and trauma he can play a very normal, respectable member of society, he'd just much rather be lurking in the woods somewhere.

Dior gets Beren's brand of feral with all of Luthien's intensity and without the trauma. He is very good at putting up a stern, graceful elvenking front. He can walk the walk and talk the talk as it were, and unless you're close to him or have seen him let loose, it's easy to think it's real. Make no mistake though, it is a front, and he is as completely and utterly feral as his parents when you take that away. He is always 100% down to go wild with the slightest excuse, and can switch from Dignified King to Nightmare Beast to Dignified King With Blood Dripping Off His Mouth in the span of a minute.

(The Feanorions got a very big receiving end of this. It's Terrifying)

#asks #athal cesta #my headcanons #headcanon #dior eluchil #dior #nimloth #daeron #luthien #beren #eluihu #sorry i had to stick the faithful in there #beloved brain blorbos <3 #i have even more detailed headcanons but i was trying to keep this mostly reasonable #im ENTIRELY willing to elaborate on any one of these because i have Ideas #i just love him so muchhhh #also i think he's one of the few canon characters with a normal relationship to his parents (in human terms)#its a good relationship- he isn't super close to them and he can move out and start his own life and stuff but keeps in touch #also: beren and luthien die #which sounds weird but honestly elvish lifespans must make family dynamics so much weirder #idk it just feels really believable for all i made it up wholesale #i also need to write something on the morals of melian's line bc frankly i've written a lot of Implications and i want to follow through #(like tolkien didn't >:()#bc ainur morals are definitely different and melian is honestly pretty grey imo and melian's line got a bunch of that i think?#like selfishness and possessiveness and stuff like that #it doesn't develop in a vacuum but that'd be such an interesting thing to explore #esp since luthien is treated as flawless in canon... if you look at the implications she's probably not!#which just makes me like her more tbh lksjdfldja #anyway. to consider.

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spira-fae · 1 year

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Kinda had a thought earlier abt the ghouls that became a headcanon so might as well throw it here dkdhsjsh Apologies for how messy and unorganized it is

Quintessence is believed to be the element that makes up the celestial bodies, so my mind kinda went to some like biblical canon roots (because i might as well put the religious trauma to some use) and basically- what if the quintessence ghouls (who i sorta see as basically demons) were some of the first fallen angels? The other ghouls were formed in the pure essence of the other elements, but seeing as the heavens are now unattainable, there's a limited number of quintessence ghouls that can exist... Ever, really.

The Quintessence ghouls aren't necessarily stronger or more powerful than any of the other ghouls, but due to their limited numbers and age, they do generally get a certain level of respect from the rest of the ghouls and hell in general. They've got memories of everything that even pre-dates the creation of the earth, so they're kinda intimidating.

(Not related to my tangent but I think Satan would rock it as a rhythm guitarist if he ever decides to do a side-quest or smth)

From what I understood on like five minutes of looking stuff up online, quintessence also seemed to be regarded as a cure-all for ailments and disease, so maybe the Quintessence ghouls also act as healers in a sense. They can't fix everything, but a lot of small aches or pains are within their territory.

When the Ghost project started out, the clergy didn't exactly understand the ghouls very well. They knew they were hellish creatures that did a lot of blasphemous things, (and corporate things as well) but they didn't really understand the hierarchy, so to speak. So they more or less just had some people reading out the summoning instructions from a tome kinda like someone tries to read a cookie recipe from a blog that has seventy ads encasing the entire page. It took them years of trial-and-error with summonings and living with ghouls to actually understand how they work

They learned a little bit about how ghoul packs work, what they do in hell, and many more things. What caught the clergy's attention, though, was learning how the ghouls are made. Though they had figured out the basic necessities to form most of the ghouls, quintessence remained a mystery to them. What they did know stoked their curiosity, though.

They attempted, just once, to change a ghoul's element. They never did it again.

(It turns out pissing off one of the oldest creatures in the universe because you fucked with his pack is a terrifying experience! The new siblings of sin don't really know if they should believe their elders, though; Aether's one of the nicest ghouls in the entire bunch!)

#the band ghost #headcanons #aether ghoul #i like the idea of the 'nice guy' in the group also being the one person you never ever mess with #i've got so many thoughts about the ghouls i promise it isn't just aether im thinking of all the time dkdhkdbdhd #i really thought i would be normal about this band now here i am developing an entire headcanon for how the ghouls work #the one time the clergy tried to element change a ghoul was dew #and this was before they discovered that some ghouls just have multiple classes naturally because of how they were made #they sicked copia on some summoning books and he came back one day with two multi ghouls #no one has figured out how he did it yet because he won't tell anyone #and the ghouls wont either they think its fucking hilarious

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astronomical-bagel · 1 year

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in the tags of a post you implied it was weird for older adults to reply with memes to a 19-year-old. the topic was not in any way romantic or sexual? they are meming abt current events? that's how you keep a generation isolated and scared, bereft of the experience usually passed from one person to another.

also creates the impression that older men are inherently threatening/dangerous etc and that - on a societal level - will disproportionately affect trans people and people of color

no no no, that's why i mentioned like "not in a creepy way or anything". i don't think there was anything nefarious in the minds of those adults and in their intentions in their memeing. I was not trying to hint as if those comments were pedophilic or sexual n any way.

It's just sad to me how all these adults were congratulating her on her sick burn on andrew tate instead of... idk.. being outraged that an adult man-- a human trafficker, no less-- was targeting her online? and the goonie-like congratulations "yeah, you get him! you're so cool, he never stood a chance!" kind of sayings. It's just... idk the emotions in my brain are kinda nebulous but it feels like they missed the point completely and just jumped on the bandwagon of sucking up to the latest cool kid on the block. Idk. There was a post talking about this that I saw yesterday, and all I can think of is this thing Greta said in 2019, "This is all wrong. I shouldn't be up here. I should be back in school on the other side of the ocean. Yet you all come to us young people for hope. How dare you! You have stolen my dreams and my childhood with your empty words."

And I just? The adults that were cheering her on were just missing the point. It shouldnt be normal for human traffickers to taunt nineteen year olds online -- it shouldnt be normal for those nineteen year olds to be responsible for the traffickers downfall! And all everyone can talk about is how cool Greta is! I just. I feel bad for her. No one seems to think about how shes an actual person and not a wendy's-twitter-account-style "epic sick burn generator". She's got all these people loving her conditionally, as long as she stays cool and trendy. She's my age, for goodness sake! What's gonna happen when she says something a bit off-color? Messes up a bit? They're gonna tear her to shreds! That guy who wanted to giver her a second Nobel Prize is gonna turn around and say "oh I always knew she was a bit fishy. Such a shame the younger generation is full of liars" and it's just! Its disgusting to me! I wish people didn't put people like Greta on such tall, unbalanced pedestals. She must be so stressed. Like, all the time, but especially now, with the sudden influx of attention again.

God, i kind of went on a rant, but yeah, i don't think those adults had any sexual intentions, but their replies still bug me. "Hey look, I'm on Greta's side, aren't I so cool and trendy." kind of vibes. Does she even know any of them? Personally, if at all? God. Goonies, the lot of them.

#astronomical asks #rant #vent #<- not exactly but it feels like the kind of thing people would want to block

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xumoonhao · 1 year

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rant abt queer as folk under the cut <3 read it if you wanna hear abt the messiest show ive ever seen. youll regret it.

ok. right. so queer as folk…god im still so mad abt it lmao but like i need to get all my thoughts out bc how can one show turn out so bad….like it is LITERALLY 8 episodes that are all less than an hour. its probably only ~7h30m of content and so much of it just fucking sucks like. literally. ok anyways it does start off pretty strong, yknow?? first episode is standard for first episodes. introduces all the characters, gives some insight into their relationships and how they know each other, sets up some things yall know how it goes. and then like idk midway thru the ep is like the catalyst for Everything that happens is a shooter goes into babylon (babylon is the club that was a huge focus for the original series and was tied into the reboot) and kills and injures people because its a hate crime. it involves 2 of the main characters heavily (brodie gets shot in the arm protecting mingus who is performing a drag act on stage) and kills brodies best friend daddius, who is also '''dating''' (i use this term loosely, idk if their relationship was defined as this) noah, who is brodies ex boyfriend/fiance (i think??? idk man noah proposed to brodie with a small toy duck or something and then brodie abandoned him to go to med school bc 'oh no commitment is hard :(((' like fuck off actually but w/e) but it affects most of the main characters overall bc like…ofc it would. anyways the ep then kinda goes much of the way the first ep of the original series did w/the lesbian couple having their babies (twins who we dont know the genders of who are named flotsam and jettsam, named bc of mingus which is what the original series did w/justin naming the lesbian couples baby) who are fathered by brodie via sperm donation, and then everything sucks bc we find out daddius died in the shooting :/ which is like definitely a lot for one episode but its just how it is sometimes. also sorry for recapping the Entire first episode but its like literally the only episode that has a coherent storyline so. yeah.

anyways, this made me think the series would focus on like the characters and their healing from this traumatic event and trying to fondly remember their friend and just in generally trying to move on from it and like. it really…isnt like that at all?? like it is for a couple of eps, dont get me wrong, but after the main people spread daddius' ashes the show really moves away from like anything meaningful in terms of the characters healing or literally doing anything good for themselves or each other. like its really incredible. so many of the eps have absolutely MEANINGLESS relationship progress (except julian and noah. theyre the only solid couple) bc literally. none of the relationships fucking matter even a little tiny bit.

i will give a small rundown of things. please bear with me. brodie is the 'main' character (main in quotes bc most of the characters are main characters but brodie is definitely the focal guy bc all the characters are more or less connected thru him) is just a complete asshole. like literally the worst character which is shown to us a bit by way of how he treats mingus (mingus is 17 going on 18 btw. they fall in love w/brodie bc, and this a direct quote, 'he ate his ass in the bathroom' at the club so now theyre in love bc mingus is a teenager and everything is love at that age) which is completely blowing them off (instead of being the mature one bc hes an adult) rather than telling mingus how he feels before he and mingus end up having sex. like wtf?? literally hated that but anyways brodie gets WORSE bc at that point hes just shown to be a fuckboy which yeah definitely sucks but w/e its standard. he could be redeemed from that. but then he just goes on to show how much of a bad person he is by verbally abusing all his friends, manipulating them, lying to them, taking literally ZERO ACCOUNTABILITY for anything, and then apologizing to ppl in the worst way bc when they dont fall at his feet to forgive him, he starts a whole new fight and just ends up being even worse. like i hate brodie so much…god….like he literally did one good thing the entire season which was saving mingus from getting shot. thats literally IT hes a piece of shit the entire rest of the time!!! AHHHHH it makes me so MAD why is the main guy i cannot stand him.

god. it also makes No Sense bc there are scenes that show him and mingus to be like…a thing kind of bc mingus likes him. they really likes him but brodie simply does not care so mingus does end up being with other people which is like…i think at first an effort to make brodie jealous but it literally ends up in nothing which like…alright?? it doesnt really serve a purpose other than being an excuse for mingus being diagnosed with HIV at the end of the series :/ anyways back to mingus and brodie, theres a scene between them in the last ep of mingus being framed by angel wings (parallels a scene from the first ep) which make me think they were going to be a couple, yknow??? like yeah its gross and i hate it but, thru whats been shown, it would make sense. from a storytelling perspective, it makes sense.

but fucking SIKE lmao bc brodie is in love w/ruthie </3 ruthie and brodie do have history tho, so like…ok. they dated in high school before ruthies transition but then broke up bc yknow. things were hard. ruthie was confused back then and wasnt out as trans to anyone yknow how it is. but the thing abt everything that is so. SO confusing is that brodie is gay and ruthie is. a lesbian. but they are in love bc of feelings they never dealt with when they were kids??? EVEN THO RUTHIE HAS A PARTNER AND CHILDREN WITH THAT PARTNER??? but it gets even WORSE bc hey. hey guess fucking what. ruthies partner is cheating on ruthie WITH. BRODIES. MOTHER.

literally…i could not make this shit up if i TRIED. it is absolutely WILD and i hate it all i hate this show it is the messiest show and all of the characters SUCK like brodie literally deadnames ruthie to her face in the middle of a fight they have but they still get their dumbass fucking romantic moment, ending out the series by kissing in the rain like oh. my god. i wish i were dead i wish this show didnt EXIST.

idk if theres anything else to say. i dont wanna think abt this show anymore. kill me

#also i did Not get to making the relationship chart i wanna do but i am. so fucking mad still. ill get to it #god...god!!! this show SUCKS #🎆.txt #queer as folk

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unproduciblesmackdown · 2 years

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the fascinating narrative or case study or what have you i’ve got going on (it’s neither lol, it’s that i’m litchreally just out here, [Life, Existing] style) like me nowadays around an adult liable to have angry outbursts abt anything at any time, wherein i already have Experience from birth to almost twenty-two w/a parent who’d do that....like ah once again you have to at best mitigate situations involving this grown person’s emotions, but this time with handy differences of like, sure when i was born they were already older than i was now but i’m also a grown person, this person doesn’t tend to focus their outbursts directly at any potentially involved people ever (however, it is often just about concepts / experiences not involving any specific people anyways) & as such nobody is Demanded to directly interact w/their whole situation in turn, & that also of course i don’t have a personal relationship with this person, they are not my parent.......the like Data Points for my specific situation like. doesn’t really feel that different re: “well, if i’m interacting w/the situation at all, it may as well be this force of nature that you can’t expect to change b/c it’s another person’s unchanging response to their internal experiences which is smthing you obviously can’t control” but wherein it’s like well at least when you’re older & dealing w/some shit you have more tools at your disposal for it than when you’re like, 5, or any younger age than you are now. and it is obviously still a distressing experience to be Around the random regular outbursts, but not Having to directly interact w/any or all of them is like, well, when i wake up to that in a vulnerable marinade of anxiety, it’s been Practice for in that state reminding myself like okay you’re shit at processing things rn b/c you Just woke up, but process that you’ll be better at it when you’re more awake / this will be somewhat less hellish / these are your Vulnerable [aaaaa] Feeling times so it’s amplified but this won’t be the default always.....[aaaaa] when fully awake / firing on all cylinders is still shitty & generally distressing, but Less So, and Knowing this & like patting myself on the back while i’m in the shittier, more distressing [half awake & suffering through this] zone doesn’t improve things all the way to that superior state, but it sure doesn’t hurt.......getting in practice sometimes diving into greater Proximity with the shitstorm to extricate cats from the situation for example, and/or if it’s really escalating & seems to be born of some practical issue i can go in as like The Adult lmfao just as matter of factly as possible be like okay so what’s the issue, see if i can help (& handily often Initiating An Exchange / getting responses seems to make this person dial it back, re: whatever’s going on where they don’t tend to yell directly At people (the direct approach for people is usually also a shit ton of Passive aggression, not helpful, but not yelling)) like i’m not gonna be the actual parent here lol nor try to manage any & all these explosions or walk them through the Emotional matter, b/c that’d be a therapist thing & i’m not that, & in turn this isn’t even jokingly like oh free exposure therapy for me lol it’s basically Never what that is, it’s fundamentally different to be a spontaneous uncontrolled situation w/no therapist involved....but i Am wringing what i can from it lol like well, these are experiences, i’m getting in practice.............and also the emphasis on the Matter Of Factness like. trying to keep it practical & as emotionally detached as possible on my end for my own sake, even in terms of like warmth lmfao like that may Appease but again for my own sake i may as well also practice my “i need to be ‘meaner’” approach lmao when it comes to like, less people pleasing, less masking (which is also people pleasing / appeasing, but just more specific lol like accommodating nt people in anticipation & attempted avoidance of their hostility towards your being nd, vs accommodating anyone & their hostility towards your anything).......may wrangle a matter of Practical Help to mitigate the situation but that’s about it, in fact like of course knowing from all the prior experience that at best your actual emotions are irrelevant & your assumed / made up emotions are fuel for the fire or what have you & thus trying to manage some detachment is a strategy, but only confirmation here like “oh well technically i haven’t Tried communicating How I Feel, Btw” lmfao but. confirmed anyways eventually when i was Not trying to communicate anything or make an emotional appeal, simply Visibly Upset (stress crying time) while engaging in a [practical mitigation efforts] manner was met with Sympathy in the moment, only for Everything Overall to stay the same and, in the aftermath for a bit, more relevant elements of things to actually markedly worsen specifically Because of the Awareness that i was upset by xyz, despite the theoretical sympathy.........so yeah the like intermediate difficulty survival horror game continual exposure sucks obviously lmfao but while i’m here. observations & notes

#glad i don't have a personal connection at play here lol does simplify things even if you can hypothetically leverage one #by which i mean like. idk if that connection is at all a motivation then someone involved can theoretically create boundaries but like #then you'd need to have enough control of your situation in the first place to be able to reliably singlehandedly maintain those boundaries #and that still requires enough of a degree of flexibility from the other parties which may or may not be present / willingly provided....#we are all individual people in individual situations out here but sure can be some overlap / similarities in experiences #posted while i'm monitoring the situation lol like when will there be little enough activity from the relevant party for me to exit the room

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fairytoge · 2 years

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I JUST HAD A THOUGHT what if toge knows sign language but never uses it because no one around him really knows it, until he meets mute/deaf! reader who also knows sign language. to which panda finds out toge speaks sign language, cause panda probably knows it.

shit talking curses w toge and panda’s just: “guys, no—“

giving one another test answers but panda keeps his mouth shut abt it.

telling each other jokes while maki talks then it looks like you’re laughing at her.

not-so-secret ; inumaki toge

notes!!

this! this! this! this idea omgggg :(((

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it had to be today or all days that you were running late for school, having not packed your bag last night due to the mountain of homework that your teachers had decided to set you over the weekend.

but that wasn't all. not only were you going to miss registration, obtain a late mark and receive an exaggerated and long lecture from your parents, but they, your guardians that were skipping work today, had left you money for lunch without telling you meaning that you would have to stop at the shops beforehand.

you sighed to yourself, grabbing your school bag from beside the main door to your house and exiting through it; forgetting that the collection of now abandoned coins was still laying on the kitchen counter.

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though you generally had no issues with finding your own way to school, over the weekend your parents had insisted on increasing the amount of training you received.

your family, a clan of sorcerers who were unknown enough to usually fly under the radar of the elders or other clans, were far less concerned with the idea of eliminating curses and instead focused on leading a normal life though it occurred that that dynamic was gradually changing... much to your displeasure.

you were more than content with going to school like a regular teenager would; ignoring the looming figures of whatever sort of curses they were. you never asked to be born with the ability to see whatever things that resided in the shadows and so you just ignored them.

but, as soon as your parents were alerted of the news that sukuna — a curse that you had never heard of before — had successfully found a vessel, you were apparently doomed. they were more than eager to increase how much training you had to do each day rather than once a week, and you were less than satisfied with your constantly aching body.

despite the rippling pain that seemed to spread throughout your legs each time you took a step, you managed to make it to the small store that homed your favourite pre-made lunch box without collapsing.

the sectioned isles of various types of food surrounded you until you wandered to the fridge section — scanning each package for your food. and that was when your eyes landed upon a boy around your age holding your lunch box, the one that was currently keeping you from fighting anything and anyone you see.

your eyes locked onto the box and, in some sad attempt to get it, you squinted to see if you had the capability to make it levitate into your grasp rather than his.

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"are you okay?" the only girl in the group of three interrogated; her face sporting an unchanging sneer as she scrutinised you. she had taken several paces so that you two were a mere half a metre away from each other before continuing to quiz you, glancing up and down at your figure. "do you need something or are you just going to stand there?"

another one of the boy's companions who appeared, like the ginger girl, to be a bit younger than you, took several long treads until he was pulling the girl away from you and to behind the platinum blonde-haired boy.

turning to face you head-on, he smiled apologetically as he guarded you against the other woman's attacks. "i'm sorry, it's just that you were staring quite... intently at our friend."

your face flushed in embarrassment before you waved your hands in denial of the unsubtle connotation and signalled that they were incorrect... or tried to.

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your arms waved rapidly in various ways of implying that they were wrong, though their expressions slowly became lax and confused. it was apparent that neither of them could understand what you were trying to convey — that, due to your vocal cords being damaged, there was no way you could communicate with them verbally. after several more moments of your routine continuing, you reached into your pocket to pull out and unlock your phone.

once you had done so, you hastily typed out the written translation of what you were trying to signal: that you weren't able to speak.

the boy, who you hastily learnt was called toge thanks to your now-easy form of communication, was quick to strike a non-verbal conversation with you: signing faster and more enthusiastically than you had ever seen anyone do before.

his two friends, nobara and yuuji, also seemed elated to learn that you shared something similar to their friend that was uncommon for anyone to relate to or know.

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it wasn't until you checked your phone once more out of habit that you noted the time and how much earlier it had been since your lessons for the day had begun.

your expression, drooping into a deflated one, was evidently enough to let your three new friends know that something was wrong and it took less than a minute for them to work it out just by checking the time as well. their smiles and subtle grins followed suit and the once-joyful atmosphere that had surrounded you was now more than depressed.

spotting their saddened expressions, you silently gave the two younger teens a slight grin; signing to toge that you were more than content to exchange phone numbers with the three of them in order to set up a date to hang out later.

and with that, the four of you broke off, though it was obvious that you would be meeting again — whether you had arranged to or not.

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it was only a week later when you saw the toge again, though this time it was under much different circumstances.

standing in front of a selection of students, and a panda, was not how you envisioned your monday morning going. according to your parents and the other connections that were conjoined to your clan, it was heavily advised that you should begin attending a place that would aid you in controlling and harnessing your cursed technique. and that advice led you to face the most... mixed people in the same setting that you had ever seen.

your nerves were quickly settled when toge broke free of the straight line formation and bounded up to you.

it was clear to everyone in the surrounding area that his face bore a wide smile: the corners of his eyes crinkling in glee as he ran towards you to pull you into a tight embrace.

though you had only met once before and for roughly twenty minutes, the feeling of pure happiness of seeing one another was mutual, hence why you were fast to return the hug.

the pair of you stayed like that for several moments until your new teacher, who had instructed you to call him "gojo-sensei", decided that your reunion should be photographed. with a phone flash repetitively going off, you and toge separated — facing either smirking or disgusted expressions of your new classmates.

before you could dwell on your elongated embrace for too long, the platinum blonde-haired boy started to sign just as he had done when the two of you had first met: eager to communicate fully with another person. you, not having any objections to the offer, began to focus on the signals that his hands were making.

the group of teenagers behind you had little idea what you two were doing: staring blankly at their teacher for help.

rather than clue them in on what was going on, the adult released an over-exaggerated exhale as he placed his phone in his pocket and turned to nobara and yuuji.

the three exchanged varying degrees of looks of excitement and smugness as they huddled together: now separated from the remainder of the group. whispering and giggling amongst each other, they commenced their bets on when you and toge would start dating whilst, somehow, not alerting either of you as you both continued your non-verbal discussion.

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it was only another week later, a week of you and toge bonding with each other more than anything whilst simultaneously annoying maki and megumi, that you came across a rather large discovery. and that was that panda — your fellow jujutsu sorcerer — was able to understand you and your new best friend all this time.

the finding was unearthed when you and toge were out on a mission with him, fighting a low-level curse that was beginning to bore the two of you. but, instead of finishing the monster off quicker, you began dodging each strike it aimed to land on you: encouraging toge to do the same in an attempt to make it angrier and therefore more powerful. and when that technique didn't work, toge put it upon himself to aggravate the curse, though this time it was through your way of talking.

"bet that it has never used moisturiser." your platinum blonde-haired companion signed as he continued to deflect the curse's attacks. "i don't even need to bet, it's obvious with all the wrinkles. i feel bad beating it up now that i can see my grandma in it..."

stifling your laugh by pressing your lips together, you were quick to reply to toge, shaking your head disapprovingly. "don't you dare compare your grandma to that. it looks more like a rotten carrot that's a thousand years old... sukuna's fingers?"

"guys, please focus on this curse so we can go back already." the unexpected new arrival in your conversation butted in on you two; making your and toge's heads turn towards him. "it's been half an hour..."

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apparently, panda was unaware of you and the other teenager's dumbstruck expressions that were plastered onto your faces and kept you distracted enough for panda to hastily eliminate the now-forgotten curse.

"since when did you know sign language?" toge directly quizzed his close friend, knowing that the week that you had been there would definitely not be long enough for him to be as fluent as he was.

panda paused for a moment, his face going blank just as your's and toge's had done minutes prior, before he turned his attention to where you and toge were standing. several seconds passed until anyone "spoke", that person being panda.

"i thought you knew that i knew how to sign?" the cursed plushie trailed off towards the end of his question, confused at the situation just as much as toge and you were. silence encased your group of three, you only now realising just what this meant.

calling for panda and toge's attention, you commenced signing the only thing on your mind at that moment. "does this mean that you could understand us in that test the other day? and when we have secret conversations about the first years?"

one nod from panda was all it took for you to turn to toge hastily: both of your faces erupting in sheer horror at the thought of someone knowing the sorts of things the pair of you had been gossiping about.

"so when were you two going to let me in on your not-so-secret talks?"

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aks3raao1 · 3 years

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Me, to Luja: So tell me about yourself

Luja: No

Me: ...ma'am I need to write the story—

Luja: Good luck <3

[now that I do think of it, ALTERNATIVE's main duo that's established right at the beginning is literally a chiller but edgier Katsuki and way worse sUrViVe Nagito genderbends]

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Luja Sen, she/her

Anyways, Luja and Romila are friends from middle school (the story starts with the beginning of their high school at AoS (Academy of the Specialised) which was essentially founded by Nyx). Luja gains her Specialisation (Ferrokinesis: The Ability to bend metal) at the age of twelve, so she has it for a lesser time period than Romila.

Luja primarily wants to become a scientist. Her family is happy with that, because it's praised and everything, especially in our society.

She has a gifted child superiority complex. Being a gifted child + Specialised means that she hardly had many friends in school. Her family had tried to get her to socialize....which didn't go down too well.

She believes that most people are annoying because they waste too much time on useless things like gossiping and what not, which she never showed much interest in and doesn't like to be dragged into those nonsense.

She is friends with Romila since they do share the same taste in stuff and were the only Specialised ones in their class. And they kinda stuck together for most of middle school and went into high school.

She has a problem when it comes to seeing Romila since she tends to see her bad parts and is like, "It's a phase" considering that it's not necessarily affecting her. Romila doesn't get too cranky with her since she fascinates her, with her passion™ for science. Also because she isn't all self sacrifice UwU.

Luja cares for her own self above others (but tends to put Romila pretty close to that hierarchy, which is why she's one of the only two Romila trusts during the Mansion of Death (the other person is Kratanos)) however she also does want to keep what friends she has and is generally caring towards them.

She has a genuine love for science and loves to discover how things work and why, and her favourite facet is Physics. She does want to invent things and honestly just make stuff easier for the Specialised who face a LOT of issues, especially when it comes to amenities since the government is an ass about accomodations and they gained the Fundamental Rights like ten years or so ago in the ALTERNATIVE timeline. And they gain an additional right ("The body won't be harmed for science") when they graduate from school, after signing a contract that they dedicate themselves to helping the government when called upon. (The whole contract is stupid and basically oppresses them more especially the punishment for not abiding by it).

With her goal of becoming a scientist, she wants to use her talents to make accomodations specifically for them so that she could have done something.

The things she fears the most is failure. Failing as in being unable to accomplish her goals. She is afraid of it because it's an unknown variable that's constantly haunted her and she's working hard for it to never reach her.

I suppose there's a way for her to confront that fear during the Mid terms at AoS where she essentially "loses" in the practicals due to her......teamwork issues.

Everyone thinks of her as stuck up and isn't interested to listen to her much and since she views the others as annoying people with annoying habits, she tends to fail to regulate them, causing Romila to win instead (yes, it's THAT unfortunate of a situation) in their match, which causes her to review a LOT of things and she tries to see what caused her to lose after having a severe breakdown.

She develops an inferiority complex in respect to Romila and then spends a long time wondering where she went wrong.

Rena (who somehow clung to her) tries to cheer her up but gets turned back halfway, but she still stays on and Luja is like, "Wtf" until she sees Romila going entirely off the deep end (she presents an interesting contrast to how Koldin sees Romila as well, she sees Romila's behavior and considers it as a justification for her own self....she uses Romila to justify herself a lot (since if you asked Romila, Luja was more or less fine according to her since she wasn't being a doormat and stood up for herself) while Koldin sees Romila as the reason he should cling onto his own stuff) and realises that she could be on the path to destruction herself and accepts Rena's help and tries to be more open to others which leads to the Mid terms parallels in the Archenemy of Society arc where she "succeeds" instead and manages to get the class together enough to escape the situation.

However it doesn't mean that her fear of failure has entirely vanished into the blue, she just reviews the ways she can fail better now and works around it to avoid it and has more confidence in her own self. But she is still scared of failing and would love to avoid that more than anything. However she's chiller after that.

Her intelligence is more or less on par with both Romila and Kratanos, making them the three main strategists in the final battle against the bigots (which is basically a rerun of the Mansion of Death situation but way way worse and fucked up and has different leads to it).

....

The thing is that, no matter what I do, she winds up feeling like one dimensional/repetitive, which is something I am trying to amend about all the characters (I mean, I had to revamp a lot of characters so it will probably take me a long long time to actually get to writing.........sigh besides she stands up like a cardboard amongst people (I mean, you have Romila and Kratanos with extremely complicated storylines and then you have her. Just there))

So the main question is how to make her more interesting as a character and on par with the rest while still keeping her character flaws and personality?

I think the easiest way to go abt this is to view her as a sassy Bakugo. They have the main points in common. They're salty, don't like to socialise, feel inferior to a certain someone while still having some semblance of confidence and a terrible fear of failure

Now as much as I hate to compare your character to another one, it makes it a lot easier to have them become - as my English teacher would say - more. So I am sorry if this comes off as offensive-

For Bakugo, he became interesting by playing a big part in the mc's main story and we do get a few scenes where his vulnerability is shown. I assume it's the same with your character but...what rlly ties the knot for me when it comes to Katsuki is the fact that his problems...are more than just an inferiority/superiority complex. His whole thing stems from background especially (*cough* abusive mom *cough*) and the fact that he's not the main character (or rather that the story isn't being told in his perspective).

These facts make us over think and want more of him. The mystery draws us in which is why I think Luja's character is so perfect for someone in the background. She doesn't like to reveal things abt herself and is pretty dismissive to most things on top of that (plainly just salty). Her character rlly draws you in and the best way to portray those kinds of characters is through another character. Ofc, you'd have to get to their POV eventually but it's important to note that most of the details should come from someone else's POV (an observer, if you will) instead of info dumping and starting straight with hers. A character that's mysterious with a very simple yet relatable story attracts a LOT more attention and interest when seen from someone else's perspective than when you kickstart it from theirs.

Ofc, if u are planning (or already have) started the story from her POV, that would be a bit problematic in terms of interest. But not a train wreck. This is where my other point comes in. The point of making a character have more than one problem

Different ppl as well as characters have a main problem but also different ones, no matter what way you look at it. It seems that even you are confused with all ur character's ins and outs (dw, we've all been there... I am still there tbh) and a solution to that is backtracking a bit and looking at their life from the very beginning in HEAVY detail (like more than u already did). Think abt what other trauma could have been caused, what doubts and fears could have slowly crept it's way to her heart and head (I am a sucker for long-lasting doubts that develop over time) and anything you can even so much as GRASP on. If you look at it and see it as a possibility, try to fit that into her character and add it subtly in different places (as subtext or a creative pattern, wordplay, doesn't rlly matter as long as it's not openly stated bc, remember, the key thing to these types of characters is mystery).

For example, a fear of failure can stem into anxiety before the character has even lost smth later in their life. They probably get rlly anxious when evaluating smth but don't show it much or at all so no one notices. This adds even MORE to the character bc you can build it up after other events. Like once they have failed, they could probably get even more anxious and then develop a bad relationship with the person who beat them (double the points if it was a friend). You could build all that up and turn it super toxic instead of jumping right to the healing. It makes it more interesting, doesn't it? Plus, reevaluating almost everything including world views after 1 loss is...kind of hard to believe even with anxiety (no offense)

Adding a lot of little problems and thinking abt how Luja's behaviour can impact other characters helps a terrible lot if ur doing most of the story from her POV. Especially since she's probably the most relatable character (from what I've heard anyway). I have a certain saying... it goes like, "It's better to have a relatable and connecting character than one with a problem that is too big for normal people to fathom."

I like characters with heart-wrenching problems that I would never be able to relate to (take maybe Shigaraki as an example ig?) But my favourite are the ones that make me feel as tho I made a real connection

Also, I would like to say...if ur looking to progress her character even further, I would debate on whether it's the complete end to the novel or if there'll be a second part. If it's a second part, keep some of Luja's issues. Make her get better but not completely "YAY, I AM DONE BEING TORMENTED". If it's the end of the novel/series/etc., make it so that she's resolved most of most of her issues. They don't have to be completely gone but they have to be a lot better compared to how they started. And how i would work that out is a mind map but knowing ur a scatterbrain...lets talk it out where everything is all over the place

Luja's main thing is to gain confidence in herself and be finally ok with losing, right? If you ask me, that's a tough one but not impossible. I think to get her from point A to point B is to put up a bunch of events like:

Get her super anxious when doing smth

Lose to *insert person*

Have a breakdown and over think on what she could have done better (on the project or whatever she lost at)

Get even more anxious and totally mess up the next thing

Lose once again (double points if it's the same person as last time)

Overthinking abt how she's not good enough

F i g h t i n g f r i e n d s c o z d r a m a

"YoU'rE nEvEr GoNnA gEt BeTtEr If YoU kEeP tHiNkInG aBoUt YoUrSeLf"

Over think abt no. 8 bc out of options and ideas and ✨a n x i e t y✨

Try listening to others more and become b e t t e r

Win smth (bc creator forbid 3 losses in a row to start depression)

Lose again (there is gonna be a bit of back and forth but is necessary for development)

"I tHoUgHt I wAs FiNaLlY dOiNg SoMeThInG rIgHt AnD nOw LoOk"

"Losing is not th3 3nd of th3 fucking world, you lunatic"

"WELL, IT IS TO ME, BITCH"

*insert psychology somehow idk*

Another loss

"I'm angry...but I'm ok"

Note that idk where bullying would come in and these are only how I would think it to go-

A character like this isn't rlly my strong suit when it comes to them resolving their problems but they are fun to write and think abt-

................................did I just give you advice on how to traumatize? I-

#writing #writing advice #wow i rlly am a sadist #character analysis #KK's character #well shit wtf did i go on abt-

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wizkiddx · 4 years

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Nothings changed at all

ooh my first lil one shot on here?!?! not really sure how I feel abt this one but hey ho we move.

summary: 2 years have passed with 2 people living completely separate lives. That’s until Paddy the matchmaker gets involved by not liking exams.

“Y/n?…. Y/n?” Brought out of her ferocious typing, Y/n dragged her attention away from the screen infant of her and looked around the coffee shop to identify the owner of the voice. Sure enough, standing opposite her was an adult and teen who both smiled excitedly at her.

“Nikki! Pads!” Y/n exclaimed while she jumped out of her seat to hug Nikki first, then Paddy. “Wow it’s been ages! You want to join me?”

“Yeh that’d be great!” Nikki smiled already pulling out the free chair opposite, while Paddy stole a chair from a nearby vacant table and pulled it up next to Y/n.

“God you look so grown up since I last saw you!” Nikki grinned, but her eyes held a little surprise making Y/n giggle. It had been at least 2 years since she’d seen the Hollands, and life had changed tremendously for her.

“Yeh well 24 and a qualified doctor now so it’s all happened. But speaking of… what the hell have you done with my fake baby brother Paddy?”

The three spent 40 minutes just catching up with each other, it felt like some weird family reunion. Nikki knew she would be told off by her other sons for ‘consorting with the enemy’ but Nikki really did like and miss her. It was more than clear Paddy did too. Y/n had practically been a part of the Holland family for three years while her and Tom were together, it was fair to say they had all got used to having her around. So when Nikki saw this elegant, grown young woman sat in the coffee shop she couldn’t help but say hi.

They chatted about everything… well almost everything. There was a large gaping hole in the conversation though, where casual references to Tom would usually lie - but neither felt comfortable broaching that subject with the other. Not yet anyway. Y/n could not believe that paddy was in year 11 and taking his GCSEs, in her head he was still the hyperactive young boy who loved to play spies.

“We only came out today to give this one a break from his revision did we?” Nikki spoke kindly towards her youngest, Y/n raising her eyebrow at the tone.

“Yeh I just proper hate maths and I know I’m going to fail it-“ Paddy sighed, suddenly feeling the need to twist his empty hot choclate mug round and round, clearly nervous just talking about it. He clearly wasn’t especially gifted academically and in a school system where talents for the arts and less ‘mainstream intelligence’ isn’t celebrated - he was just considered a write off.

“We’ve been looking for a tutor for him but… well you know at this point in the year so is everyone.” There was almost a look of resignation in Nikki’s face, quite clear that Paddy had already given up. Y/n knew she had to offer, her history of tutoring meant this would be just like any of her other clients and she knew the curriculum inside out and back to front.

“Well you know… only if you want… but I still do tutoring when I have the time?”Looking cautiously between the other occupants of the little table, she wore a kind smile. It would be weird - yes. Tutoring her ex’s brother. But he didn’t have to know, and the Hollands had always been a second family to her.

“Mum can she? Please I really need help and-“

“Only if you have time Y/n, sorry I dint mean to guilt you or anything?”

“No no you didn’t! But I would love to, you know Paddy’s always been my favourite Holland!” Nikki laughed at that, nodding her head as she looked deep into Y/n’s eyes.

“Well then, no harm in trying right?”

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Y/n the tutor was a massive hit. Paddy’s confidence almost instantly sky rocketed, with Y/n’s familiarity with him she knew exactly how to approach different subjects and get the best results. She would come over twice, sometimes three, times a week - but there was never any issue since Tom was away filming with Harry, meanwhile Sam and Dom were sworn to secrecy. The one hour sessions quickly evolved into staying for dinner just so Sam could practice from his cooking course. Then there was a little extra tutoring of english too, then a glass of wine or so.

Then came the actual exams. A terrifying process not only for Paddy, but everyone else associated with it also. Somehow though, they all made it through alive and without the excuse of tutoring it just became an invite to dinner once a week. Just ‘because’. Nikki and Dom would love to say they only offered because Paddy wanted her there, but truth be told they all enjoyed her company. Especially with two of their sons on the opposite side of the world, it was nice just to have that familiarity again. She would go to the pub every now and again with Dom and Sam and just generally was a part of the families day to day life.

Then came the night before Paddy’s results.

As expected Y/n had been invited round for a barbecue that evening, with the Hollands and some of Paddys friends families. The whole thing was just a distraction for Paddy who was nervous beyond belief. He really needed to pass to go on to college and chase his dreams of going to university. He couldn’t afford to cock up, even at the tender age of 16. So fair to say a jovial evening where the word ‘GCSEs’ was banned - it was exactly what the boy needed. Everyone sat in the garden chattering away happily, enjoying the glorious and rare British sunshine.

Sam popped inside to go to the loo, but on his way was dragged by unfamiliar hands round the corner into a study room. He shrieked in fright, before his eyes widened in recognition.

“Missed us?” Harry smirked as he let go of his twin however he was immediately pounced on by Sam, who had of course missed his twin brother for the half a year he’d been away. Next he turned to Tom, the both of them laughing as he hugged his older brother, Sam having to hide his surprise at his bulkiness. The new role obviously had him working out a hell of a lot.

“What are you doing here anyway?”

“We got some time off and mum said Pads is terrified so we thought we’d pop in for moral support.” Harry exclaimed, clearly very proud of themselves for organising it for their littlest brother.

“ Does anyone know?”

“Um… well you…now” Tom couldn’t hide his mischievous grin, making Sam shake his head at his over excitedness “So what’s going on? Is it a party or something?”

“I’ve just done a barbecue for Paddy friends families… you remember Jack? Another guy called Zak and then two girls too-“

“Ah cool so we will just walk out and surprise him?” Harry asked and Sam was about to encouragingly agree, until something struck him.

“I…um…Tom there’s something you need to know.” His voice was deadly serious and Harry noticed the warning tone; Tom always oblivious didn’t catch on so quick, just scoffed and asked why.

“While you’ve been away…. Paddy had tutoring to help and um well… Y/n-she’s here.” Tom closed his eyes and shook his head, taking a breath and gulping it down before looking intently at Sam.

“She…she what?”

“Mum bumped into her in town and she got Y/n to help Paddy with maths. I don’t know… she’s here for Paddy and well…”

“Mum knows that we aren’t speaking right?” Sam nodded in defeat, taking a small step back from his brother “and she still…she still did this?”

“You were the other side of the country and you know how close Paddy and Y/n were. And by the way she worked it looks as if she might’ve made him pass which would be a miracle in itself! So please can you just be civil?”

“It has been like 2 years Tom” Harry, very unhelpfully, felt the need to input - earning him a glare from both of his brothers. Tom just shifted his weight nervously from foot to foot, eyes glued to the floor.

“Yeh…I mean we are adults” His words were stuttered, as if his brain was desperately trying to force out words his heart completely disagreed with. Harry and Sam knew of course, they knew their brother never really had got over his first love. With a sympathetic smile Sam led the way out of the study room.

It was fair to say to Holland’s were ecstatic about the twos return, Paddy’s face had been the most priceless because although he was 16 - he still really was an overexcited little kid. The whole garden energy skipped about twelve levels when they walked in, Paddys friends and families also a little excited to see ‘spiderman’ in real life. Yet Y/n… she was less pleased. Sam had instantly come over to her asking if she was okay. Which she was. Unlike her ex, Y/n had properly got over him and had serious relationships since. She just felt awkward for him, she was in the way of a family reunion, she was the sceptre at the feast. Bless Sam for keeping her company, they sat on the outdoor furniture in the corner and just chatted, while Mr centre-of-attention relished all the love from his family. She knew she should leave, so leaned closer to Sam to barely whisper. “I’m gonna go now”

“Y/n you don’t have to, Pads still wants you here and-“

“Sam could you give us a minute?”

Interrupted by the oh so familiar voice, Y/n smiled nervously at him, before giving Sam a side eye saying it was okay for him to leave. Swapping seats Tom sat down in Sams seat, running a hand through his hair nervously.

“Look Tom I was just going to go so you guys can have a proper reunion and-“

“Please stay. Paddy wants you here and tonights about him so?”

“That’s very kind of you but...well you made it clear we couldn’t be friends. I don’t want to intrude and-“

“That was years ago and I was being naive. For paddy please?”

“Tom I….I’m-“ Stopping promptly as she was interrupted.

“staying yes I agree. Now come on he’s looking…” Tom lowered his voice as he motioned over to Paddy standing with Sam, who appeared to be watching the exchange between the two ex lovers intently “so pretend I said something funny, laugh and then we can go mingle”

“Hard to imagine… you have no sense of humour” She smiled sarcastically, before throwing her head back laughing - as if she had said something hilarious. Tom knew he had to join in, however much he tried to hide the grimace at her remark.

“ You haven’t changed at all” He muttered under his breath following her as she stood up and headed back towards the main group.

“Oh but I have” Tossing her head to look back at him, flowing hair flicking round too “I’ve learnt my worth.” Her words were dripping with sass and a little passive-aggressiveness, but all Tom could think was how amazing she was, how much he had missed that little smirk she did while flicking her head back round and pull Paddy in for a side hug.

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The evening flew by, all of Paddy’s friends and their families went home, yet Y/n stayed and chatted with the Hollands as if this was completely normal. They had all long since migrated into the sitting room while the sun was setting, playing some board games of Paddy’s choice - his results long since forgotten early that evening. Truth be told, Y/n really enjoyed catching up with Harry and although they hadn’t really had any personal conversations- seeing Tom and taking the piss out of his uselessness at the games was also very enjoyable. After her and Paddy’s turn ended Y/n excused herself to go to the toilet but instead of going straight back to the living room she went to grab herself a glass of water.

“Oh Y/n… I was meaning to catch you” The soft and very very familiar voice startled her a little, the warm tone sending shivers down her spine as if a reflex. Turning round to see Tom leant against the counter with a small smile.

“Well what’s up then?” She tried not to be too open too quickly, as much as her heart just wanted to skip the small talk.

“Just wanted to catch up, it’s been a while and just feel like we should be friends since my family seem to sort of adopted you” She scoffed at his statement, very obviously rolling her eyes, a little annoyed.

“And who was it that didn’t want to be friends huh?” She raised an eyebrow and this was Toms turn to scoff as he looked down at the ground.

“Yeh yeh I deserve that… shall we just skip past the blaming me huh?” The cockiness wasn’t hidden in his voice and that made her laugh, clearly not that shy. In fact he was terrified, but wanted to look as if he didn’t care, like he was flippant.

“Alright Spiderman, so how’s life?” …

The truth about their break up was quite simple. Tom had got too busy and had stopped making time to their relationship. Y/n grew tired and had had enough, which he completely understood. He’d tried to promise more effort, flying back for extra weekends but they both new they were hollow, it wouldn’t be maintained. Their last meeting hadn’t been an angry shouty one, rather just depressingly sad. They’d both been upset, recahingn a mutual conclusion it was just the wrong time. Which they had both agreed with... but one thing they hadn’t. Tom thought it was like dangling a carrot in front of his face, having Y/n still present in his life. He had given her an ultimatum, they either keep going on together p as a couple or they would become strangers. And that’s where it had been left 2 years ago.

They spent the next half an hour or so, chatting away as if nothing had ever happened. It felt normal again, all jokingly catching up about the most ridiculous things - the low hum of the left on radio in the background. That was until a certain song came on the radio - it was ridiculous, the most insane unlikely eventuality to happen. Their old song.

Of course that would happen. Y/n released a breathy laugh and Tom’s grin just grew and grew across his face, slowly transferring into a smirk. He stood up from leaning across the counter, that Y/n was now sat cross-legged on top. In his ever so dramatic movie like style, he rounded the counter to her side, and held an arm out to her.

“Dance with me”

“Tom that’s-“

“Oh come on, dance with me!”

“You’re ridiculous”

“I know. So dance with me?”

“Tooommm” She drew out his name in refusal, but her body said something else as she slid off from the counter - delicately landing on tiptoes as she lowered herself down.

“Just come here, for old times sake” He grabbed her hand and pulled her close to him, transferring his hand to hover at her waist, not touching until she gave him a small nod in permission. Hesitantly she knew where her hands were supposed to go and slowly drifted them up to round his neck, but balanced her forearms further on his collarbones so she held her own hands rather than gripping his neck as was natural. They slowly moved in unison, just slightly rocking from one side to another - Tom’s eyes locked on hers.

“So are you happy?” Something about the way he said it made her internally shudder. It was the pure care, all his sarcasm and cockiness stripped back to expose himself just for this moment.

“Um yeh… I don’t know feel like I’m starting to figure out this whole ‘life’ thing.” She smiled up at his chocolate brown eyes, while he seemed to absorb all she said.

“And he treats you well?”

“He?” She narrowed her eyebrows in confusion, cocking her head to the side slightly.

“Oh er… before you said that ‘we’d moved out’ and I just assumed-“

“Ah um yeh I moved in with someone but he’s not in the picture anymore… got the bed to myself again” Tom thought she didn’t seem very affected by it yet still felt guilty for bringing it up.

“I’m sorry… er how long? Are you okay?”

“Yeh I really am. A year and a half so we taught each other a lot, but it was mutual. We’re still friends.” Smiling, Y/n watched as Tom nodded minutely and they drifted to silence, listening to the song bringing back all sorts of memories. “What about you? Got yourself a super model I assume?” She didn’t mean to ask that. Because why did she need to know? She didn’t care about that. Did she? Tom chuckled nervously before replying.

“Umm no. I haven’t really dated anyone since… just all the travelling and everything doesn’t really work with the dating scene.” His voice was quiet, as if hiding something, and he couldn’t meet her eyes looking at the floor.

“Oh… yeh I get that” Unconsciously letting her hands slip back, connecting with the back of his neck- instantly making him meet eyes with hers again. They just stared at each other, still swaying from side to side as the music flowed. He didn’t want this moment to end. And secretly… neither did she.

“I can’t take you seriously when you look at me like that” Breaking the intensity, nervously Y/n giggled, leaning away - but Tom’s arms, still on her waist, kept her from going anywhere.

“Like what?” His eyebrows raised, enjoying her nervous flush present on her cheeks a little more than he should.

“Like nothings changed” She all but whispered, the gap between the two almost magically diminishing. The pause was long as Tom tried to formulate the idea he so wanted to get across.

“ Maybe that’s because… right now I have exactly the same feelings I did two years ago… that maybe I want so badly to kiss you?” His voice was barely audible at the point, but their faces were barely centimetres from each other; noses hovering side by side as his lips brushed hers. He didn’t want to push her, yet at the same time one of his hands moved to her cheek - gently cupping it as his eyes flicked between her wide eyes and pink flushed lips.

“Maybe… maybe you should kiss me then?” The tension was palpable as she drew out her words, purposefully teasing him a little. Because she wanted to keep him on his toes. When her heard her suggestion she had to stop herself from giggling at the smile that instantly grew across his face, the way his pupils grew in shock . Safe to say he didn’t reply, instead slowly and delicately pressing his lips on hers. She reciprocated tentatively and deepened the kiss bit by bit. Her hands now running through his hair on the back of his head, Toms other hand now on the small of her back - closing the distance completely, their bodies connected. It didn’t last long before she pulled away the most seductive smile on her face, while Tom subtly tried to regain the breath that had been knocked out of his lungs.

“We should go back” She whispered, while running her thumb over his left flicky eyebrow that always intrigued her. Suddenly his eyebrows furrowed in concern, worried he had made her feel uncomfortable. Instantly recognising this, she calmed his nerves very simply by pressing a fleeting kiss on his lips once again, grabbing his hand and pulling him toward the living room.

As soon as they entered Y/n and Tom both realised how long they’d been in the kitchen. The game long since abandoned, probably waiting on one of their returns at their go, the rest of the Hollands now all sat lounging on different areas of the sofa - who all immediately looked up as they shuffled in. Luckily the lights were dimmed for the movie playing on the TV screen, so that no one would see her blushing cheeks. She sat in the middle of the sofa which only paddy was on, and Tom followed sitting next to her - but not too close that it would be suspicious . No words were exchanged throughout, though Nikki did exchange a knowing look with Dom - who had seemingly finally learnt when to keep his mouth closed. Both Y/n and Tom pretend to fix their full attention on the film for a short while, even if both their brains were whirring away with very very separate thoughts to any critical analysis of the storyline.

After about 10 minutes though, Tom pulled his leg up, just so it was obscuring the view to the sofa opposite and took the opportunity to clasp Y/n’s hands in his. Slickly, even though she wasn’t expecting the contact Y/n didn’t react her eyes still trained on the TV. However, Tom didn’t miss the small upward tug on her lips as she squeezed his hand back. No one noticed.

Except Paddy.

Paddy from his vantage point on the sofa he was sharing with the two, peered over subtly as he went to the loo - and a massive smirk appeared across his face. He might just’ve got his sister back.

#tomholland #tom holland x reader #idk how to use tags #idk how to use tumblr either #pls help #tom holland fluff

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Rambling about yet another 10th class oc- haven't drawn them yet but she's been rotating in my brain for days

Initial concept: sentient robot/dead girl who's not exactly dead

Basic info, then backstory & story (longest part), then info about speech n talking, then relationships with the mercs

Name: Marie Status: Deceased (?) Age: 6 Gender: Female (trans), she/they Sexuality: TBD ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Backstory + Story Her parents had hated her, they had done the bare minimum to make her look healthy to avoid legal issues. She cried a lot, and pretty soon her mom started threatening to smother her with a pillow if she didn't stop. One night she was crying herself to sleep, as normal, but her mom got fed up. Marie was too close to being asleep to realize what was happening. She had done a few bad things before, but because her parents made her. God and Satan were trying to figure out where she should go but her soul woke up before they could decide so now she's stuck on earth. When she found out she was dead she ran away and just kept going until she accidentally ended up in Teufort after a few days (she had lived on the other side of the state), where her soul got stuck. At the same time, Engie had been working on a little robot inspired by Gray's machines to help fight on the field. It was small and less specialized than Gray's, but it was something. And being the unethical experimenters they are, Medic asked if he could put a soul in it and Engie agreed. He didn't know Medic was gonna use a kid's soul though, so that was a bit of a shock when the kid first woke up inside the robot. Engie and Medic explained what was going on, Engie offered to take Marie out but she liked having a body again so she stayed. Engie introduced her to everyone else, but she mainly clung to him, Medic, and Heavy. She did quickly warm up to everyone else, but just as quickly problems with the robot came up. It was sort of rejecting Marie's soul, not fully kicking her out but not fully connecting with her either. Sometimes the body would stay shut down but she'd wake up, sort of like sleep paralysis except it's actively painful and the only way for it to end is if someone else comes and turns the robot back on. Medic figured that if he could get his hands on Marie's old body, he could probably reanimate it, so he took her up to her old home town, found her "grave" (a shallow dirt mound with a broken wood board for a headstone), dug her up, and brought her body back to base. By then she had only been dead for roughly two weeks, so it wasn't too hard (especially thanks to the Reanimator). She can still take her soul out of her body, though, so she's sorta half-alive half-dead. She uses her human body most of the time, but she'll switch to the robot one if she's doing something potentially dangerous or if the mercs are fighting (she doesn't join but Engie n Heavy are worried about windows breaking from stray bullets or similar things)

Info abt speech n talking -has a light southern accent that rubbed off from Engie, it gets stronger when she gets angry -talks a lot like Engie in general when she gets heated -accent switches to a slightly german one when she gets really excited -has picked up phrases and insults from everybody, though ones from Engie she uses most often -is trying to learn german and russian

Relationships w/everyone Engie- one of the first two she met, clung to him until she was more comfortable around the others. Sees him as a dad, calls him Daddy Medic- the other of the first two she met, also clung to him. Sees him as a dad, calls him Dad Heavy- the first one she warmed up to after Engie & Medic. Sees him as a dad, calls him Papa Pyro- the second one she warmed up to, she spent a lot of time with him due to both of them spending a lot of time with Engie. Sees him as a brother, calls him Pyro, or Py when she's tired Scout- at first she was nervous around him because he was so confident and she didn't know what she was doing, so she didn't want to annoy him, but it became pretty clear pretty quick that he didn't mind and genuinely cared about her. Sees him as a brother, calls him Scout and Jeremy, or Jermy when she's tired Scout’s Ma- by the time she first met her, she had gotten close with Scout and he had always said good things about her, actually meeting her only made Marie like her more. Sees her as a mom, calls her Mama. Soldier- scared of him at first because he's so loud, but she gradually got to know him better through Pyro. Sees him as an uncle, calls him Uncle Soldier, Uncle Solly, and Uncle Jane, or Unky Jane when she's tired Demo- stayed away from him at first because in her experiences with her biological dad, alcohol makes people mean, but with coaxing from Medic she spent more time with him and ended up getting pretty close. Sees him as an uncle, calls him Uncle Demo and Uncle Tavish, or Unky Tash when she's tired Sniper- liked him almost immediately, thought he was cool and wanted to know him better so she hung around as much as she could without feeling like an annoyance, they gradually got closer. Sees him as an uncle, calls him Uncle Sniper, Uncle Mundy, and Uncle Mick, or Unky Mick when she's tired Spy- like with Sniper, she admired him and thought he was cool and from there it just kinda grew. Sees him as an uncle, calls him Uncle Spy, or Unky Spy when she's tired

#ask me abt her pls #am holding her so gently #innocent child :)#as innocent as you can be while living with mercenaries and being half dead #love her #10th class oc #tf2 #ikea rambles #tw: abuse menion #tw: implied abuse

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