화이팅….!!!!

Day 14 (30/11/23)🌟

just an extra comfort nam pic for an extra tough day

tw // food, body image

damn today I had a serious mental breakdown i don't know if I can talk freely here but I think I had some really bad thoughts about food and body image in general, and the fact that my roommates sow doubts is even more frustrating and annoying. i cried a lot because I really felt those kind of comments and i should be more direct with them, no more good guy. living with them is so irritating sometimes and i also blame myself because I didn't move out when i had the opportunity :( fortunately i was able to talk about this with some friends literally one of the things i'm most grateful for.

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good things done today (despite everything)

did my skincare routine🧚‍♀️

did some light exercises (legs and squats)🏃‍♀️

drank almost 2 lt of water💧

made some good and healthy food🍎

called my family all day long🫂

listened to a Japanese podcast, retained some vocab through apps🇯🇵

listened to a Korean podcast, learned new words with apps, translated some weverse content (seventeen's of course), wrote a to-do list for the day in my korean journal🇰🇷

watched a short clip about common Chinese expressions🇨🇳 (i know i said i'll stop till my uni exams but studying/immersing in foreign cultures and languages is just an important part of my routine so far)

with this kind of thoughts is very hard to study for exam session properly, i just organized timetables and set a plan for the next two week im freaking out i don't know if i'm gonna pass it or if I even gonna sit in the classroom that day I need all of the strenght

now I think im gonna wash, do my night skincare routine and continue reading Le sorelle donguri 화이팅!

Lying to be perfect. From now on whenever anybody (but my inner most circle) asks me how I am doing I am going to lie. I'm going to lie and say perfect. Never been better. Things are awesome. Life is good. Because why? What's the point in showing you the pain in my heart? The scars on my wrist. The tears in my eyes. The darkness in my mind. You're inconsistent. You're preoccupied. You cannot help. You cannot even make me laugh. Nothing comes out of showing you what is really up. So I will lie. It's also very important to define who my inner most circle is. It's like three people. And they have been consistent for years. And they care for me always no matter what's happening in their life. Their involvement may increase or decrease but the care and sincerity is always at 100%. So that's it then. Only they will know what's happening with me from now on. My thoughts and my feelings. And of course it will show in my writing too. So that's another healthy outlet. That's what we need to do. Decide these things for ourselves without having to communicate it to others. And increasing healthy outlets and minimizing unhealthy coping mechanisms that I thought I needed to go on. And perhaps I did at that point. But not all I need is to capitalize on this clarity and keep reminding myself - sabr aur shukr. Patience and gratitude.

Trying to practice some perspective~~

You know, when I was a child I was fascinated by drawing, I would draw all day if u'd allow me to. So because of that, my mom offered to put me in drawing classes.

Poor little me, was too scared of failure and not being able to draw, so I said no

Now, years later, I still draw a lot and even tho I understand little me's mind, now I know that the only way to be good at something is that, first, u need to be bad at it hehehe

So now I'm trying to challenge myself, and even if it's not what I want yet, I can see some improvements here and there. I hope I'll be able to draw in the way I want to someday!

Anyway, let's all aim towards our goals, not...not fearing failure, but knowing that it's okay if we can't do it in the first, second, third times, let's just keep trying!!

안뇽~~

also just got enough mv crystals for everyones outfits for this event. the painted nails. the makeup. waaah. also niki actually eating the apple i think?

now to read the event properly as a lil bedtime story

finnish word/idiom of the day

tsempatia

/ˈtsempɑˌt̪iɑ/

from: tsemppi /ˈtsempːi/ + empatia /ˈempɑˌt̪iɑ/

meaning: a combination of tsemppi and empatia (fighting spirit and empathy), a word used to encourage someone

Used like jaxuhali and other encouraging words.

Äitini laittoi mulle viestin: "Tsempatiaa sinne". Mitä hän tarkoittaa sillä?

My mom sent me a message: "Some tsempatia for you" What does she mean by that?

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So stand in the rain

Stand your ground

Stand up when it's all crashing down

You stand through the pain

You won't drown

And one day, what's lost can be found

You stand in the rain

going to go rock climbing for the first time today w my friend! wish me luck~ hehe

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