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washymylifeaway · 3 years

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SunaOsa fanfic recs: valentines edition~~

SunaOsa is one of my all time favorite ships and this past month, there has been/was an exchange going on between writers (here is the link) and artists (separately) and because I don’t have a life (or maybe it’s just that SunaOsa is my life LOL), I’m here to tell you some of my favorite fics from the pile :D However, as much as I love a ship, sometimes fluff is too asajndajnd so mind you there will probably be a lot of good fics missing just cause I couldn’t get myself to read more fluff (or angst) LOL (IM SORRY but sometimes I also just can’t motivate myself to read a fic no matter how good it looks OOPS).

As always, please check warning and tags before reading any of these fics, and take care of yourselves!!!!

In no particular order (jk the order is last updated haha) tho my favorites will have *** next to them :)

***glass stained black by unrequitedangst (E) 31k // Mafia AU’s are some of my favorite kinds of fics, and this one did not disappoint! The character development of Osamu is really legit and despite being mafia, it’s not that heavy or angst of a fic (but you should still definitely read tags and warnings first). It’s an Osamu heavy fic, and if you’re into reading him being stupid, go right ahead LOL.

redux by catalysis (T) 2.3k // ngl I hate break-up fics with a passion truely (when you can’t handle fluff or angst what to do) but I liked the concept for this one hehe (so I made myself suffer LOL). It was short, but cute !!! and the unspoken words really hit me in the FEELS (so what I’m dramatic fight me LOL).

Impropriety by DeathBelle (T) 5.7k // royalty~ I love the banter between them in this fic and we DO stan respectful Osamu yes we do <33333 The relationships between not only SunaOsa but SunaAtsu (because even though it isn’t really SunaAtsu best friend agenda, I can delude myself into think it is okay :/) are done so well and so nice he’s mean Osamu is best Osamu.

***what are you waiting for? by Slumber (T) 3.7k // MIGHT BE MY FAV FIC FROM THIS EXCHANGE!!! It made me cackle and I love how they learn new things about each other!!!! Like the development is so good and Suna is really doing the MOST!! Also, I love recursive endings AHHHHHH!

agape by sketchedsmiles (T) 11.7k // soulmates, then they were SOULMATES! (ik that’s not how it goes but pls just humor me LOL) This fic really depicted Osamu’s insecurities/internal turmoil/overthinking really well and the realization he has vs Suna’s AHJAFKASFJ. I love confident Suna.

fireside by tartaglia (starkartifices) (T) 3.6k // we do love the subtle flirt flirt don’t we hehe ;) It’s short, it’s fluff, and it’s funny - what more could you ask for? Also whats a vigilante fic if there isn’t at least one pun about being a vigilante LOL.

Over and Over Again by tookumade (G) 6.4k // I would like to order one reassuring, reliable Miya Osamu for myself please and thank you :((( The way the relationship is so GOOD like both Suna and Osamu pick each other up and they know the other has their back ajfhkajdfl. I would purchase all the onigiri with the deal Suna was proposing ;) Onigirintarou.

from here to eternity by TheGlovedArtist (T) 6.6k // I for one am a big fan of mythology and stuff (heroes of olympus but like IDR any of the plot LOL) so of course I read this fic. The snark appearances of Sakusa and Komori gave me LIFE and the difference in descriptions from Astumu and Kita cracked me up. This is another respectful Osamu fic (yes I love these) and in this one it was a ‘I save you as much as you save me’ type beat LOL. Gotta love rings.

***Subtle Inarizaki Dating by sifuhotman (T) 15.2k // THIS ONE. Even if you don’t read the whole thing, I beg of you, please, I AM ON MY KNEES, read the SID for Astumu. It is worth the loss of all your brain calls I guarantee it. It made me giggle so freakin much. Suna might be an A-Hole but he’s OUR A-Hole <3

Forever Begins with 8 Seconds by subtlehues (T) 3.9k // FLUFF hehe, I love their dynamic in this one it’s very good and cute and everything great! Also, I am all for the head cannon that Suna cannot cook, yes pls. Also SUPERPOWERS whooooooooh.

***try again, and again, and again by rosegoldwriting (T) 2.6k // SOULMATES! If you ever wanted a specific soulmate AU! for SunaOsa look no further, it probably comes out LOL. I love this concept of them just being like ‘WTF’ everyday, it gives me life. Also, count how many soulmate AU’s you recognized because I just thought about it and I think it’d be fun LOL. (I went back and I think 11 but I’m not sure LOL)

let us burn by SilverMoonT (G) 13.5k // I am always up for a nice vampire Osamu and witch Suna (which believe it or not, is my second one because I read the other one by this writer LOL) This one is more Suna POV and it really goes into his fears and desires, and I like the way Osamu pushes him to live more freely.

***reasons to microwave an elixir by spiritscript (T) 8.2k // THIS ONE. UGH I love, and it’s funny and cute and it EVEN HAS CRIME (kinda not really but yes)! I love the quiet moments they have and the PET AHHHHHHH! We love medic Osamu :DDDDD But also the betrayal and the sparring (and the irony at the end LOL) AJSKJNFK.

we fall between by stringendos (T) 14.7k // honestly the entire time I was just screaming at my computer, begging for them to hurry up and realize, but alas this is a ~slow burn~ for a reason and the tag ‘exes who act like theyre married’ really is the reason I read it and I do not regret LOL. Also bless Matsuda and stan her.

All the Time in the World by minie_ai (M) 8.8k // we love immortality! Denial! And Suna mentally filing away blackmail against people (namely Astumu) LOL. Running away from your problems is always the answer (I am saying this is a not sarcastic manner because I too, run away from my problems LOL) but ramen is ALWAYS a good answer. We love ourselves some emotional constipation LOL.

***none but you by broikawa (T) 7.2k // everything is a competition always LOL, not that I’m complainin but still LOL EVERYTHING. I really love this one because I love the progression and cock-block SakuAtsu hehe. I love them being synchronized idiots <3

it all comes back to you, (my home) by iritaescents (T) 4.5k // FOREVER, WE STAN FOREVER. Anyway, LOL this was is very very cute and fluff and not slow burn, it fast burn LOL. It’s a cute fic to read and it even has our favorite, now say it with me SOULMATES LOL.

Can't help falling in bed with you by tirralirra (T) 6.7k // here we see a 5 + 1 with points for the title (I think it’s very funny LOL my humor is bad ;)) Not that it really needs extra points because it’s a great fic in itself LOL but I really liked the title so I felt the need to share this with you all (OOPS). This was so cute, and the + 1 is HILARIOUS.

It’s no longer up :(((((( -> love's consequences by xginpuff (T) 6.5k // WARNINGS AND TAGS been a while since we had an angsty fic in this list (LOL the way I just tried to avoid all of them hehe). I read the tags but ngl I was still surprised later LOL maybe I’m just dumb, but anyway IK it starts out a bit confusing, but after you read more, you’ll get into it!

***sunagashi by bastigod (T) 9.8k // if there’s anything I like more than mythology, it’s folklore LOL. I love this fic and the plot is written so artfully AHDSAJN. Also the scene with the Ume-chan and her comment (so snarky I love). Also they way I went through so much trouble trying to figure out the kanji LOL (SPOILER it’s miyarin hehe)

catch me (while i'm still runnin') by lunarins (T) 4.3k // first and foremost, may we have a moment of silence for Komori and his eyebrows..... Continuing, this fic was so good because I love a good heist hehe. Their slight of hand abilities really doing the most LOL, and the ending OMG. I love the way the writer added in how they appeared to others during the heist, it really made it so good! Ugh to have a painting class and almost die LOL.

***if we get this right by Slumber (G) 5k // OLD FRIEND plsplspls I love this fic and I love how Osamu slowly relearns who he knew Suna as AHHH. The ending, again UGH, I really loved it and their banter with one another.

The Study of Suna Rintarou by DeathBelle (T) 6.1k // PLEASE the way Osamu kept getting offended omg. But also the effort Suna puts into getting to know Osamu, I was in ~love~. Read to me Osamu, READ TO ME. But also the Osamu is an oblivious MF agenda is alive and well within this fic hehe.

Take a Hint by pancake_surprise (G) 2.3k // ok so I had just read a tumbr post about the one bed thing and then I saw this fic. It was like the stars aligned okay? I was like, ig I HAVE to read it now hehe. But seriously read it, it’s cute and like everything else, of course there’s a challenge to be made LOL.

Heatwave by pancake_surprise (G) 2.1k // the way they were dating without knowing they were dating man. The tag ‘Didn't Know They Were Dating‘ more accurate than the ‘first dates’ one LOL jk but actually tho am I kidding? It’s the first official one IG. LOL anyway, we do love the doin of the defining of relationships. Yup.

If you made it all the way down here, CONGRATS LOL. Like I said, I didn’t read all of them (sadly) and these were the ones i did read LOL. I might add more depending on whether I can motivate myself into reading fics I know will be good LOL so we’ll see heh. Honestly, I thought I was gonna get word counted, but YAY we finished (for now hehe). Also sorry for any possible typos (is this no beta we die like men?) I’m running on 90 min of sleep so my engrish be strugglin LOL. Be safe and wear masks :)

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asexual-means-no-attraction · 3 years

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Hi. This is going to be a dumb question, so tbh if it makes you (or anyone reading this) laugh I wouldn't be offended. How do you think, what can be a good way to deal with people who are obviously in "gender fandom" (I.e.treat gender and being trans or lgb as fandom or subculture)? I won't lie, I find this annoying at best, and if the person in question is 30+ years old I'll just do my best to avoid them (because sorry, I don't have mental and emotional capacity to deal with this level of brain shit), but often these people are quite young and either lack experience or confidence to go against their peers or are genuinely confused. The thing is I can't avoid them entirely, since I enjoy fandoms and there's a lot of this stuff. So uh. Do you happen to have any thoughts on how to deal with this? I guess my main question here is about dealing with my own emotions towards all these "he/him nonbinary lesbian" and "genderqueer transmasc pansexual demiromsntic aroace" types so that they (emotions) won't make online experience worse. As for interaction, I guess best way is to avoid gender/sexuality topics, or just stand my ground, as in "I feel/think/identify like this, you can do whatever the hell you want with yourself". Ugh. If you made it here, thanks for reading and have a nice day!

I had a similar ask about echo chambers and exposing yourself/getting exposed to things that upset you online. You can find that advice in my FAQ I believe at the bottom.

But basically. Its your online experience. It should be fun for you. If its not then there is a problem. There's a few things you can do:

1. Block. Seriously. Have a block list a mile long. Its ok. Block everyone who posts things you don't like. It's fine. Tailor your experience to be enjoyable for you and get rid of things you don't like.

2. Limit fandom time. It sucks but sometimes getting distance from something is good. Enjoying it in moderation can help.

3. Leave fandom altogether. This one is more extreme but there are times when that's the best option.

4. Limit fandom to close circle. Find a few blogs you do like and ONLY interact or look at them. Dont follow tags. This can help make sure you only see the kinda posts you like.

5. Less of an option and more advice. DON'T INTERACT. just dont. If someone is hateful, ignore it. If someone comes to you asking your opinion, ignore it. Leave it alone. Seriously. Just don't interact with people you know you won't like. Neither of you owe each other anything. You don't need to stand your ground by any means and make a point of what you believe. It's fandom not a polical debate. Don't interact unless you know you'll enjoy it.

Hope they helps. I can go into more depth and shit if you want. Just let me know. Good luck.

#ask #answered #I'd type more but im tired #im good news i just legally changed my name #in bad news i keep messing up at work 😭😭😭😭😭

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zirkkun · 3 years

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Yo you have every right to be upset about things! You're still a person with your own feelings and deserve to be treated kindly. No one should come at you for making things you enjoy or for misunderstandings. I hope things get better for you even if I wasn't here for when all the drama happened (or maybe I was and just wasn't aware of it? I tend to avoid drama as much as possible tbh)

I didn't really post about it much. I think I answered about 4 asks about it (three of them in the same post because i was sure it was the same anon due to the similar string of seemingly continued messages) and the rest I just deleted as soon as they came in, but I got... A lot. A lot of mean things said too. Kinda hurts when you wanted to make something because you knew this work was highly criticized and wanted to let people give it a second chance only to be shot down by the people you were hoping to defend lol

In short, and a lot of it I missed because I was blocked by a lot of people so my friend sent me screencaps; someone took I believe only the old ask box post I had for ULR, which at the time was called "Underlust Rewrite," and was disgusted at the fact that everything was revamped and "made for kids" (because it's not 18+ explicit content, but as I've said before, it's just cause I'm too scared to be horny on main, and I've literally made a whole different biological system for ULR so I can write the necessary story ""sex scenes"" without it being human-like sex or otherwise uncomfortable or too explicit for me to draw, but I still consider it a mature story overall), so they blocked me instantly here and on twitter and then made a callout post on twitter itself. People were telling me originally to stop calling the AU Underlust, and I didn't really get it at first, because like, what's the difference between my spinoff and, say, Underlust Gold, Swapfell Indigo, TS!Underswap, you know, names that have add-ons from the original title to differentiate it but still connect it to the source. So that's what I said, as well as if I removed the Underlust name, it would be considered stealing to me, because I'd be disconnecting it from the source. But apparently, instead, what had been the concern was that it was just being called "Underlust" and the "Rewrite" aspect was implying I was replacing the original story, which like, had never been my intention and I've made a bunch of things with both the ULR and UL cast together and love the idea of Lust and Ace meeting up and just being a disaster duo of not working together at all. I just adore Underlust like it's in my pinned FAQ, Lust's been in my banner for months now, and he's practically my staple pfp character on every account but here atm.

It took like 3 days for it to actually click what was going on, because once I finally got the chance to have a conversation with someone where they weren't telling me I was the scum of the Earth -- which, honestly, bless the three people I talked to, they were so sweet (which actually included someone from the Japanese side of the fandom whose art I loved too... yeah it got pretty far. Once I sent them a message though it was cleared up quickly and they did post a clarification post about ULR and me, so that was nice to see.) -- I finally got the chance to realize that this was a misunderstanding from the beginning, from both sides, where people coming at me were saying I was doing all of the stuff above and probably more but those stuck the most, while I was confused as to where this information and accusations were coming from and what they were referring to in the first place. They probably never explained it in the anon asks because, well, they probably assumed I knew what I was doing, but when they came at me about something I didn't do with vague context of something I did do, I was very confused, and got really defensive really quickly, and really honestly snapped pretty hard. After my first initial explanation post and people were still trying to tell me to stop ULR/don't call it Underlust/whatever else there was, I just got tired and told people to block me if they didn't like it. But that didn't really stop anyone and honestly made it worse because that's when I started getting really nasty messages. I like... Specifically remember one where someone called me a lowlife and a thief, and that one stuck the most, but I tended to not read through them before deleting them for my own sanity. I actually did this to one of the people who'd later talked to me calmly about it at first too, because I had just woken up, and really didn't want to read an essay lecture on everything everyone's been telling me at the crack of 7am when I was borderline ready to delete my account and start over lol

Some people I do remember were accusing me of trying to censor nsfw content or erase it as well because ULR isn't 18+, and I'm out here on my horny ass like "wh. What are they talking about, where did you get that idea, have you SEEN my ao3 recommended list," /j but in all seriousness I really didn't understand that accusation at all because I've never been against nsfw content in the slightest and lowkey? This is very dumb -- but like, you know how they say when you get hate mail, you know you've made it? Well, for me, my thought has always been, "When there's 18+ fancontent of my OC's, I'll have finally made it." This is... Not a joke, some of my friends think its very weird LMAO oh well. I've been on the internet for far too long at this point -- like, definitely since I was far too young, probably, and being with a family of the next youngest being 12 years older than me, I really dove into stuff pretty quickly I definitely shouldn't have, but hey that's life -- I'm really unfazed by mostly anything now. Hell, me making ULR was honestly half motivated by me wanting to make others more comfortable with this kind of media, discussing sexuality and otherwise sexual-considered topics, without really being embarrassed or bothered by it. Because, people talk about death and killing and whatever other gorey stuff just fine, but the moment sex comes up, people just gasp in awe, y'know? I kind of grew up that way myself but like... ironically, in being more comfortable with my asexuality, I realized that it's honestly not that big of a deal. Sure, we don't need to hear the details of everything. We don't need to hear the details of a murder either. But I will never understand how murder is always the lowest on the "morally wrong list of things to not to" to so many people and that it's fine to mention, but even consider bringing up anything else and it's like, a sin and you're a bad person. Even racism is like, higher up on there for a lot of people, which it's like... this is an issue that needs to be discussed, or it can never be solved. You can't just kick that away and hope it goes away on its own, that's never how it works.

Ah, well, now I've gone off tangent lol. Sorry to make you read a blob of text lmao but having things in a cohesive format of what I've been thinking does feel a bit better. Thank you for the support regardless, and I do want to keep making what I really enjoy, because frankly, I really want to make things that make people take a step back and think for a moment, y'know? Things that invoke like a realization in yourself about something you didn't even know. That's how fiction's always been for me, so I want to give back by making it that way too. ... maybe my horny content is exempt from this however. That's just. Self indulgence LMAO.

Probably helps that I'm actually talking this all out for once, too, since before any of this I tried to keep as much of the situation contained to myself as possible in hopes I could clean it up before it got too bad. That was, in hindsight, probably a terrible idea lol. But I didn't want to be a source of stress for anyone following me or become the new creator-to-defend that like, 50% of people hate and 50% of people love and that you're either on one side or the other and there's no where in between. (I feel like Arin Hanson comes to mind for me every time I think of someone like this.) I know I can't please everyone and I knew internet hate would come eventually, but like, didn't expect it to be over a name or tag choice. I thought that would be a simple enough DM or clearable thing but apparently not, especially since I saw someone a few weeks ago delete their blog over a similar thing (though, the opposite, in a way: posting nsfw in a sfw tag by mistake). It wasn't in the UT fandom so y'all probably weren't following them (tbf I wasn't either, I just witnessed it happen from start to finish), but it was still disheartening.

Anyway, thank you, and sorry to make ya read all of that (if you actually did vahdbs don't blame you if you don't it's a lot of thought dump lmao)��💕

#zircon answers #anonymous #all this happened like the DAY i got accepted onto the bhc team to and i was like #alright guys am i being kicked out day one lol #like i was expecting the worst from this whole thing #but im still kind of happy with how i worked it out #i really wish more people were like #willing to talk things out rather than just spit in a general direction and hope youll listen #because like even the people i talked to calmly some of them were pretty rude at first! but!#theyre not bad people #they were just scared for their favorite thing #i cant blame them for that and honestly i do consider the hatred justified under the circumstances that they knew #but they were all really nice after we talked things out #and were like 'i hope your series does well' and that really meant a lot honestly #death mention tw//

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boomerang109 · 3 years

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*looks at my fic, which hasn’t been updated in 4 weeks (other than edits because i Didn’t Like It) and i’ve now driven myself into a horrible writers block immediately after outlining the entire thing possibly because i have outlined the entire thing and i forgot where i was going with this but am i sending it anyway yes i am please god tell me to write someone threw my motivation out the window and it’s all muddy now and i don wanna touch it oh god what even is that metaphor see what i mean about the writers block anyway ily cant wait for the next chapter of wwda get it out when you can don’t stress ily bye*

don’t tell me why my brain is like “yes we can answer this but we’ll combust if we look at any messages.” there’s no logic but i’ll get around to your messages and everyone else’s there. (to everyone waiting for like two sentence answers who’s seeing me post paragraphs, i’m sorry. the braincell does not function)

the way that i’m in YES! i can help! mode even tho i myself am lowkey in writer’s block which means i’m not qualified at all ajfhjghfgfdjghj

first of all: outlines are just to guide you. they stress me the fuck out too (which is why i’ve refused to put my wwda outline to paper, despite the fact that this means the timeline is absolutely fucked. like it’s in my brain, but if i put it on paper i’ll try to stick to it and i’ll freak out--see my month long break when i had an “outline” for chapter four). you can have goals for chapters (ie, lay groundwork for foreshadowing/character development/etc) but overall? just let yourself sit in front of the computer and vibe. don’t think about where you’re going, just think about where you are.

“i don wanna touch it oh god what even is that metaphor see what i mean about the writers block“ this? this is you judging yourself while you write and i don’t want to see ANY of that shit. writing is a process and editing is a thing, but when you’re doing your first draft you just gotta word vomit. sorry that’s a gross phrase but that’s what i do. and honestly? most of wwda is barely pieced together word vomit. idek why anyone likes it, but they do. and even if they didn’t--nothing would exist if you don’t put something to paper to start with.

apparently this advice doesn’t apply to everyone (i still can’t process @hella1975 ‘s writing technique like what the actual fuck) but for me one of the big things with writer’s block is starting where i want to start and just writing whatever fucking scenes i want. idk if that makes sense so i’ll put it into the context of wwda. so when i was still in my fucking intensive class i wasn’t writing cause i didn’t have time except for like a few minutes before bed at like 3am. now at 3am i’m not gonna write suki and azula being rivals cause i can barely handle that dynamic when i’m Focused. but at 3am i’m sad as fuck and i generally like to peruse the ao3 dadkoda tag, so instead i just wrote my own dadkoda scenes for much later (although they’re not actually that far off) in the fic. are they gonna need some editing cause i was just like ‘maximum angst even tho this scene is supposed to be about healing’? yes. yes i was. now the other day on the plane (when i really should’ve been working on an essay i didn’t end up finishing) i was like okay, i need to work on something actually relevant to chapter 12. but i’ve worked myself into a corner with my azula & iroh scene so i didn’t want to deal with that bullshit on two hours of sleep and also being called “miss” and other female terms in the airport got me all in the gender feels so i was like oh! i’ll write some more enby aang! and i wrote this like gorgeous passage or two on aang’s gender feels. and yeah, it probably makes no sense for aang cause i wrote it from a pov that was too much me and not enough aang, but the point still remains. i skipped to a part of the chapter that was important to me. and then i realized that aang could be having these thoughts in the context of another scene which led to . . . and there i was with somewhat of a complete thought for the chapter.

also along those lines, if you’re having writer’s block you gotta look at that block. what’s wrong? is there something wrong with the story up to this point? is there something you don’t like about where you’re going? is there something you really want to write that you’re not letting yourself write?

cause the thing is, we’re not professional authors. we’re fic writers. we do this for fun cause we love the characters. so if you’re not loving the characters for some reason, you shouldn’t force yourself. take the pressure off yourself. this fandom is so supportive, they’re not going to rush you (literally look at the fact that even as you say you’re excited for wwda you also tell me not to stress) and remember to apply that to yourself. it’s okay to need a break, whether that’s cause the vibes are off or cause you’re tired or any other reason.

i tried to write a bunch of different thoughts cause i know different things work for different people, i hope at least one of these ideas help. i literally haven’t looked at wwda even though i really want to be writing (and i still haven’t been reading fic). sometimes our brains just don’t cooperate. and yeah, i could sit here and yell at myself and go “what the fuck boom you’ve been looking forward to writing for literal weeks and now you have time and you’re doing other stuff what is wrong with you” and sometimes it’s really tempting to give into that. but the truth is i don’t usually do as much work as i did the past few weeks on as little sleep as i got so i’m really fucking tired. and so i’m giving myself a break. and i’m just not emotionally prepared to read fic cause--oh oops i hadn’t admitted to myself until right this second that i was avoiding fic cause i’m suppressing my feelings that kinda hurt wtf this wasn’t supposed to become therapy hour wtf. but as dumb as all that feels to put, i’m not gonna delete it cause i’m sure you’re gonna read it and say something along the lines of “it’s okay to rest and wait to read/write if that’s what you need!” cause you’re a nice person. so say those things to yourself IF that’s what you need. but if you’ve been sitting in bed for weeks and don’t have any reason not to write, maybe it’s time to word vomit. or if you have a problem with your story maybe you should look at that. just, do whatever works for you but be gentle with yourself. give yourself the same kindness you give others. whenever i’m not sure how to handle something (or how to treat myself ig), i’ll ask myself how i would give advice to a friend. so maybe try that. look at yourself, your writing process, your fic like it’s a friend’s and be like hmm. what would i recommend my friend do? and if weird rambley advice that probably displays my many years of therapy is helpful to you, then know my inbox (and my messages that i swear i’ll answer some day) are always open. i’m not gonna read this over cause i know if i do i’ll be too embarrassed to post so i’m just hoping it’s helpful. much love <3

#ask a boomerang #snakefarm tag #long post

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liliesoftherain · 5 years

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My Hero Academia Main 3 Boys x Reader

Ch. 5 The Fight of U.S.J Part 2

Ch.1 Ch.2 Ch.3 Ch.4

Chapter 5! Thanks for the wait guy! I’ll be updating more often soon, especially after finals are over and I have the chance to relax. TAG LIST: @rizamendoza808 ! (:

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You guys were running fast, trying to make it to the center of the training facility in good time. You were behind the boys, trying to keep up but their legs were so damn long.

"What's the matter short stuff, can't keep up?" Kirishima snickered at you, looking back to see your face flush in embarrassment.

"You're calling me nicknames now too Eijiro? What's it with you two."

"I am obviously better at it than Bokugou, I mean short stuff sounds way funnier than glitter bomb, makes more sense too."

"Look it's not my fault you guys have super long legs okay." You ignore his comment, going back to the previous topic.

"Why (y/n), have you been checking us out," Kirishima flexed, "I mean we are handsome and manly young men but that's a little perverted don't you think." You could hear the smug attitude in his voice, causing your face to go an even darker shade of red.

You then used your quirk for a second to help you push yourself into the lead, making sure to knock shoulders with him as you did so. You huffed, legs burning not just from the physical activities you've taken part of today, but also your quirk usage.

"Shut it! I'm not a p-pervert! Shouldn't you be focusing on the task at hand?"

"Both of you need to shut your traps and focus before I kick your asses." Bakugou quipped, rolling his eyes at the whole, in his opinion, disgusting scene.

You all heard a loud crash coming towards the entrance and wondered what could be happening now.

"Have the pros arrived?" Kirishima asked, you squinted and saw more smoke circling around, and shouts of battle were heard.

Another large collision happened towards where you were all running, causing the three of you to move even faster.

When finally approaching the smoked filled area, you saw AllMight holding onto, and being held by, a giant black bird-like mutant. Being tangled together by the warp-guy and his quirky body. A flash of green crossed your vision, rushing towards them both.

You cursed under your breath, willing yourself to hurry up before it was too late. Izuku couldn't slow down and he was going to be absorbed by that stupid warping quirk!

Another blur whizzed by you, this time it being Bakugou as he lunged forward, his palm emitting his explosions and aiming it right at the villain.

"GET THE HELL OUT OF MY WAY DEKU!" You skid to a stop next to Eijiro as Bakugou took down the shadowy figure.

A chill made its way down your body, looking toward your right you saw Todoroki freezing the mutant.

"One of your poorly trained thugs told me you think you can kill AllMight, and that's why you're here. " He said void of emotion.

His quick thinking allowed AllMight to remove himself from the mutants clutches. and spring away.

You and Kirishima needed no words, a strong look was all it took before you two charged at the man with the snow white hair. You didn't know his power, his part in this, but you just knew it was because of him this was happening.

You both jumped up and aimed, you were careful to avoid Kirishima while you sent a bolt of light at the man, hoping to keep some distance since you had no idea what his quirk was. He was able to dodge you both, but only barley and you almost managed to slice him with your heat, unfortunately only able to singe a strand of hair.

Backing off, you ignored Kirishima's grunt of frustration by wanting to be cool and landing a hit. You ended up in between Bakugou and Todoroki, barely registering Midoriya behind you while you kept your focus on the man in front of you. His battle outfit had you feeling uneasy, so many hands grabbing at him, it looked straight out of a horror film.

"Guess I found your body that time you smokey bastard." Bakugou sneered down at his prey, his stare daring him to move.

"The symbol of peace will not be defeated by delinquents like you." Todoroki stated, his tone definitely matching his quirk.

Sniffling came from behind and you instantly knew who it was from

"Kaachan... everyone."

"Izuku wipe your eyes and stand tall, this isn't the time to be letting your guard down." You told him sternly. You heard shuffling then a grunt, and assumed he had stopped.

Right now wasn't the time to let emotions overtake you, these guys were better than the low levelers you fought previously. The villain you attacked had his face blocked by another one of those hands, but even without looking you could sense the frustration. He slowly raised his hand, and you raised your guard in return. However, he just touched the hair you burned and stood there.

His hand tightened as he started to tug at it, and you all grew confused as he simultaneously yanked at his hair and ferociously scratched his neck. The scratching was making his skin blotch red, and you swore it was leaving thin lines of blood. He seemed to be breaking down till he suddenly stopped.

"Kurogiri, how could you let these brats... how could you let one get the best of you? You're causing a lot of trouble here." He sneered.

"You got careless you dumb villain," Bakugou smirked with pride, at being the 'brat' who took him down. "It wasn't hard to figure out why you wear armor on certain parts of your body. Back then you used the mist as a cover up, that's why we first missed."

"No reason to wear armor if you don't have a body. Which means he's not immune to physical attacks if well aimed." You said to yourself, but it was still loud enough for everyone to hear you.

This Kurogiri moved, and in return Bakugou sent a hot explosion as a warning.

"Don't move, you try anything funny and I'll blow your ass up so bad that they'll be piecing you back together for weeks."

"Oh that doesn't sound very heroic haha.." Kirishima muttered nervously, you were thinking the same thing so you looked at the hot head on the ground and spoke teasingly.

"Geez what a guy, always has the right words to say. My hero. " His eyes stay firm on the villain on the ground but you saw a light flush cross his cheeks. You both must have really been pissing him off today.

"They escaped uninjured and captured my two strongest men. You kids these days... really are amazing. Making the League of Villains look like amateurs.. Nomu." The man spoke to the mutated bird. And like being commanded, the mutant moved. Even though he was trapped by Todoroki's ice, he was still moving.

You all gasped as he lifted himself out of the warp prison, letting his limbs break off as if no physical pain mattered while crouching down.

"How is that thing still moving?" The sound of Midoriya's voice said what was on everyone's mind, and you were sure your face matched Todoroki's. Full of disbelief.

"Stay back everybody!" AllMight's shout was drowned out as the ice on the mutants severed limbs busted off, creating a loud shattering noise. The muscles and tendons and everything else in between started to grow back, and looking at it made you want to gag.

"What is this? You said his quirk was shock absorption!" AllMight yelled.

"I didn't say that was his only quirk, he also has super regeneration." The ring leader replied.

'What the hell?' You thought, 'Two quirks, that aren't related at all. What's going on?'

"Nomu is modified to take you on even at 100% of your power. He's basically a highly efficient punching bag, that'll hit back. But first," The villain continued, " we need to free our method of escape. Get him Nomu."

You looked at Bakugou eyes wide in fear and tried to grab him, but before you could even raise your hand you were thrown back by a large gust of wind. You collided with someone, feeling arms wrap around your waist as you landed on them. Then feeling another body topple onto you.

The breath escaped your lungs but you didn't care about who you were being sandwiched by, the only thing on your mind was if Bakugou was okay. The smoke in the area cleared and you saw the Nomu guy crouching by his comrade, fist out like he had just swung.

"Bakugou!" You yelled, at the same time Izuku yelling out for him too.

"That's my ear you're yelling in glitter bomb." You sucked in a breath as you finally saw it was indeed Bakugou who was on top of you. He rolled off landing on his butt in a seated position, you too rolled off of whoever you landed on.

"Sorry Todoroki." He said nothing but simply stood up and picked you up with him. You allowed him to help you stand, looking where Bakugou was still on the ground.

"Bakugou? What just happened?"

"Wow Kaachan you managed to dodge him!"

"Shut up, no I didn't you damn nerd." His pupils dilated in shock as he looked where he once was.

"Then how did you get over here?" Kirishima questioned, and you all stared at the skid marks in the ground that lead your gazes to a hole in one of the concrete walls.

"Isn't it obvious." Todoroki cut in, and when the dust cleared from that area you saw it was AllMight who had rushed in and took the blow for Bakugou.

He was breathing heavily, that punch seemed to take a lot out of him. You gulped as you thought about how it would've affected Bakugou if he was the one to get hit versus AllMight taking the damage.

"These are kids and you didn't hold back!?" AllMight was furious.

"I didn't have much of a choice, that boy was threatening my companion. Besides, these kids are no angels. The plain looking gone? He tried to kill me with a maxed out punch." Turning to stare at Izuku, he looked taken aback.

"And the girl," He pointed to you, and now you were the one who felt taken aback, " that heat ray of hers would have seriously wounded me if I hadn't dodged. What kind of heroes do that. You think you can get away with being as violent as you want because you say it's for the sake of others. " His hands raised once again, trembling as he spoke.

"But you know what AllMight? That really pisses me off. Why do people get to decide that some violent acts are heroic while others are villainous. Who has the authority to pass judgment on whats good and what's evil. You're no symbol of peace, you're just another government toy they use to condone violence. Doesn't violence always breed more violence? It'll never end, and I'll make sure the world understands that when you're dead."

"You're nothing but a lunatic." AllMight countered, "Criminals like you always try to make your actions justified, but admit it, you're only doing this for your own selfish desires!"

"We've got them outnumbered." Todoroki's voice chimes in, breaking the silence between you students.

"As long as we stay smart we may have the upper hand." You chewed your lip, feeling a bit tired from how many times you used your quirk today, but with the blood rushing in your ears and adrenaline pumping through your veins there was no way you'd throw in the towel now.

"Kaachan found the mist guys weakness, so there's one advantage right there."

"These dudes may act really tough, but we could take them down now with AllMight's help," Kirishima said, activating his quirk, "heh, let's do this."

"Don't attack!" AllMight yelled, walking straight at the villains. His back facing you five while he raised his hand in an attempt to block you. "Get out of here!"

"You would've been in trouble earlier if it weren't for me remember? You need our help."

Side-eyeing Todoroki, you thought he was being awfully cocky but you kept your mouth shut. Because while it was pretty rude, it was somewhat true. AllMight was in the Nomu mutants clutches before Todoroki had frozen his limbs and giving him time to make an escape.

"I thank you for your assistance, but this is different!" AllMight's hand formed a fist, glancing behind with a tight smile.

"Just sit back and watch a pro at work!"

"But you're too hurt, you're bleeding! You're almost out of tim-" Izuku cut himself short, looking at you and making eye contact as he put his hand against his mouth.

You raised a brow questioningly, but looked away. Now was not the time for distractions, however interesting they may be. A warmth filled your heart as you saw AllMight's signature thumbs up. You remember being little and loving to see him and his victories broadcasted. While your favorite pro had always been, and always would be, your father: you always had looked up to AllMight.

"Nomu, Kurogiri, kill him. I'll deal with the pesky children. Let's clear this level and go home."

The leader of the group ran at you guys, and you put up your defenses ready to attack when you felt a gust of wind. You saw the leader fly back, catching himself so he didn't fall over, but now there was more space between you.

Watching AllMight this close was pretty amazing, noticing his continuous punches were going so fast you could barely see them. The force was extreme, making you crouch low to keep from being blown away. You felt something hard from behind you and saw Eijiro harden his body to add more weight, and place himself behind you as a support.

"He's going to fight that brain guy head on!?" Izuku yelled, clenching his teeth and shielding his eyes against the winds.

"Woah, they're so fast!" Eijior's voice was in your ear, and you couldn't help but shudder. While this wasn't the time to be flustered, it was hard not to be when he was breathing down your neck.

"Your quirk is shock absorption, not nullification, so there's only a limit on what you can take right!" AllMight concluded, his assault on the bird-brain never faltering.

Punch after punch it was showing that the Nomu was starting to slow down. Even though he was still going strong, compared to the beginning of the fight this was nothing. Well, to AllMight at least. No matter how confident you were, you knew you wouldn't be able to take it head on.

"You were made to fight me at 100% big guy? Well, lets see how you fare when I go beyond that and force you to surrender!"

Seeing the blood dripping down his forehead, his ripped clothing, and his non-smiling face made you want to cry. This was the symbol of peace, and he was giving it his all to make that statement true. To keep you all safe.

His punches were calculated, it may have been hard for any other person to tell, but you and your friends could see it. Plus, every single one of those hits was more than.. 100% of his power. You could not believe it, that someone was strong enough to handle that much power of their quirk.

Another large attacked sent the Nomu flying back, AllMight not wasting any time and jumping for him.

"A real hero will always find a way for justice to be served!"

The two clashed head on, the Nomu attacking relentlessly but AllMight still had the upper hand. The concrete ground beneath them was breaking into large chunks as they both dodged attacks, until finally the Nomu was caught by the arm, and was tossed to the ground after being spun around and then thrown over AllMight's shoulder.

Someone let out a strangled gasp next to you but you were unable to tell who did it, you were transfixed on the sight before you. The most intense battle you've ever seen was merely a few feet away, so close you felt the power off of every hit.

"Now for a lesson. You may have heard these words before, but I'll teach you their true meaning. "

His power only continued increasing, so much that it became a physical light you could see gathering in his palm.

"GO BEYOND. PLUS ULTRA!" The force of AllMight's last punch sent the Nomu back way farther than any previous knockouts. He literally went straight through the glass dome ceiling, causing shards to fall haphazardly below and lights to explode. The entire place was shaking from his force, and you stared out at him until he disappeared from view.

"That was like the finishing move from a video game! He beat the shock abortion right out of him! I've never seen that type of brute strength." Kirishima's jaw dropped, eyes sparkling in wonder.

"That was amazing, I can't even see him anymore, just how powerful was that punch?!" Your jaw dropping as well, still trying to see if you could catch a glimpse of the mutant, but to no avail.

"Imagine having power like that," Bakugou gulped, "he must've been punching that monster so fast he had no time to regenerate."

"I really have gotten weaker!" AllMight smiled, a fist raised in victory at you guys, "Back in my heyday, 5 hits would have been enough to knock that guy out. But today it took more than 300 mighty blows!"

You smiled at the large grin on his face, till you noticed his body was smoking. At first you tried to play it off as the dust clearing from around him, yet there was no mistake. You knew what it looked like because it happened to you.

When you overexert your quirk, your body begins to overheat due to the photons in your body replenishing itself, and from the constant use. So you smoked because it’s your body's way of sweating. You sweat to cool down, but your body needed more than that, so it literally steals and evaporates the water from inside your body to lower your body temperature. It sucks, so you have to pour water not only on yourself but chug a ton too to keep yourself from passing out.

'Maybe it's a consequence of using too much power like me?' You thought, hoping he would be alright.

"You've been bested villains!" The smile never leaving his face, so he must've not been worried about his smoking body. You relaxed, knowing AllMight had full control over the situation.

The leader was shaking heavily, hands twitching and you saw the anger in his stance.

"Surrender, we all want to get this over with quickly!"

"He.. cheated.." He brought his hand back up to his neck, scratching even worse than earlier.

He was clawing at his neck and muttering to himself, it was hard to make out what he was hearing, but it was something about how he was lied to and AllMight is strong as he's always been.

"What's wrong!" AllMight’s voice made their leader stop the scratching in favor of looking towards the hero.

"Not attacking me? Didn't you say you were going to clear this level earlier? Well come and get me. If you dare." The hardness in the hero's eyes made it hard to remember that this was the same person who had just smiled at you all not even a couple of seconds ago. The leader flinched back, raising arms as if trying to protect himself.

"Man, this is intense." Bakugou said, barely a whisper.

"As expected, there is no reason for us to fight now, he'll handle it." You all agreed with Todoroki, turning to walk away, but saw Izuku still hadn't budged.

"C'mon Izuku, let's regroup with everyone else. We don't want to get in his way." You waited for him to budge but he didn't still staring straight at AllMight, although his back was facing you so you couldn't see his face.

"What are you scared?" You heard AllMight bellow, you furrowed your eyebrows at Izuku.

"Earth to Midoriya? Are you okay?" You walked closer, reaching out to put an arm on his shoulder.

He didn't flinch when you did, but didn't make any move to acknowledge you either. The villain's nervous tick made you look again and this time it made your eyes open wide. He was slicing his neck with his own nails, blood running down to dip underneath his black shirt. The warp guy was trying to calm him down but he kept scratching and scratching, till he stopped due to Kurogiri's words of encouragement.

Around you all, you noticed many of the other lower level villains starting to stir, and you felt your stomach churn. Even though you knew AllMight was strong enough to take them all on, you still felt something was off deep in your gut.

"I'm sure we still have a few minutes till their reinforcements arrive. If we work together, we have a chance to kill AllMight, Tomura Shigaraki!" Kurogiri laughed.

"Yeah.." The boss named Shigaraki let his hands fall, red blood tainting the tips of his fingers and still coming up in small clots. "Yeah you're right, this is it. We have no choice. We have to do it now."

You heard more shuffling and villains starting to surround you all.

"I'm pretty sure he can handle those two, let's make sure these guys don't get in the way!" Kirishima let his quirk harden his hands, standing next to Bakugou. You made brief eye contact with Todoroki as he then looked at Midoriya. You too turned back to look, squeezing his shoulder.

"Will you fight with us Izuku?" You whispered, taking the question right out of Todoroki's mind.

He still gave no indication of hearing you, so you removed your hand and sighed. Next thing you knew he wasn't there, and a sound of surprise left your mouth as you saw he was heading straight for the three adults.

"Woah what the hell Midoriya!" Kirishima shouted but it fell on deaf ears.

Izuku's legs were dangling while he was midair, and you assumed he had broken them to go that fast.

"Fucking hell Izuku." You gritted out and moved.

You saw he was aiming for the warp guy and your body acted without thinking. Feeling the familiar heat spread throughout your body and the bright glow that bounced off of you was all that it took before sprinting forward, getting to Izuku before he fell into the trap. Tossing him out of the way you were trying to move yourself but you were already too close. Plus, your body had to power down to grab Izuku, so now you were feeling the drawback of using your speed. Body overheating exponentially so you had no power or control to move out of the way quick enough.

A hand popped out of the black mist and all you could do was brace yourself. You heard shouts of your name and noises all around. But they faded out, and all you managed to hear was the loud ringing of their leaders insane laugh. This was it, you didn't know what was going to happen. Even so, you felt no regrets, knowing you helped put a friend, someone in need, and that was all that mattered.

Blood splattered on your face as the hand was drawn away and you crashed to the ground. You quickly used whatever energy you had left and rolled out of the way, hearing the relief in AllMight's voice as he said two words.

"They're here!”

#mha #mha midoriya #bnha bakugou #bnha #bnha izuku midoriya #izuku midoriya x reader #bnha todoroki #bnha shouto todoroki #todoroki shoto x reader #shouto todoroki x reader #mha shoto todoroki #mha izuku midoriya #bnha bakugo katsuki #bnha bakugō #katsuki bakugo #katsuki x reader #katsuki bakugo x reader #big 3 #main 3

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lumilasi · 4 years

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Do you have any opinion on villain Deku? Or have you ever thought about how different stories like crossroads and FS would be if he was a villain?

Ooof. This ask is a bit ironic given the crossover thing I am planning on doing with a fellow author, that has this trope in their fic.

I suppose I’m just gonna be honest about this (I explained this to the fellow author too btw and they totally understood where I was coming from)

DISCLAIMER: if you like this fandom trope, that’s totally fine by me, this is just my personal view on the matter, what I personally think of it. It’s all matter of taste and so on. It’s also based on my personal experience with this trope, I’m not going to go and claim what I’m saying here is universal across all people who enjoy and contribute to this AU

I....REALLY don’t like Villain Deku trope.

It’s one of the few popular au types I’ve grown to dislike a lot overtime, to the point I eventually tried to block the tag for myself.

I have two main reasons why I don’t like it, and would never ever write a fic like that personally.

(I’m fine with doing the crossover thing despite the other fic involving a villain Deku, because I won’t be the one actively writing it; I only really don’t want to write this AU myself, or read them much, but in this case I figured having this trope on the other fic isn’t too big of a deal as I won’t be the one writing it, just helping to give plot ideas and so on, and since it’s a crossover it’ll have my cast in it naturally)

And you know, it’s all fiction. Even with my dislikes, I tend to try and be chill about it, because it’s for the most part not something that’s actually a problem or a serious issue, just personal preferences

Firstly: I don’t really care about the idea of making Izuku ”darker” so to say. I honestly like that he’s not your typical protagonist, being sensitive and sweeter and nervous and not your typical kind of brash story lead. For me he’s just fine the way he is, he doesn’t need to be made into a villain. I find the idea really uninteresting in other words, something that just doesn’t really ignite my imagination whatsoever.

Secondly, and this is admittedly the biggest reason: I really don’t like how these AU’s (from what I’ve seen) treat Tomura’s character usually. From my experience they either 1.) Dumb him down to make Izuku look good, which is unnecessary, they’re both highly intelligent occasionally feral disasters 2.) ignore his existence/replace Tomura with Izuku, 3.) give Izuku either Tomura’s personality, or combo of his and Kurogiri’s, or make Izuku into a mini AFO. (Though, to be fair, given Izuku and Tomura paraller each other, turning Izuku into a villain might automatically make his personality Tomura-like given their similarities, but still....) 4.) overall Tomura’s character gets portrayed pretty wrong in these AU’s if he even is there.

I’m not saying everyone who does this trope ends up doing this because obviously that’s not very likely to be the case. It’s just that majority I’ve seen do this.... as you can imagine, as somebody who enjoys Tomura’s character and finds him really well written and interesting antagonist, this is really frustrating for me to see, and therefore I prefer not to see it at all.

Also, and this goes without saying but I’m gonna say it anyway just in case; nobody has to change how they portray Tomura in these AU’s just because I don’t like how they do it. You do you and do things in a way you enjoy. I’m just not gonna follow this stuff because it doesn’t appeal to me given the above reasons listed: it’s a boring AU to me personally, and often portrays my favorites wrong from my experience.

So yeah. I admittedly felt awkward typing this all out, given I prefer focusing on my likes and more positive stuff, but figured I might as well be honest about this. It’s definitely one of those popular fandom tropes I prefer avoiding for the most part.

#answered anon #my musings #I just don’t want my baby broccoli to be a villain #let him be the epitome of sunshine and rainbow poop

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kaicko · 4 years

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So Guys ,

As you may or may not have noticed yet, the Bleach anime is back after 8 long years of patience and everyone is super existed about it:

Yesterday Bleach was trending on Twitter and Tumblr, the fanbase is rising from the dead, everyone is super hyped about the new OP/ED/OST, about their favorite moment being animated, about the plot holes that could be fixed, etc, it's a very very good news.

I'm super happy to see this fandom live and it's so awesome for me to be part of it, I can't wait for the new content we'll get to enjoy for a few more years.

BUT

As much as I love this fandom, I can't ignore the fact that it can get really toxic:

It hadn't been 24 hours since the announcement and 3 topics already kept coming back and forth in the tag:

1- people bashing people who said the anime wasn't coming back

2- people complaining about not wanting to see the end of the anime ( ??? don't watch it then ???)

3- ship-fandoms going to war against each other AGAIN

In my opinion, all this negativity is getting kinda old . The fandom will probably become much larger than it is now and it's important to let old dumb conflicts go so we can enjoy what we have now and not make new fans have to choose a side, ya know what I mean.

So here's a message I wanted to pass to fans who were already around for the shit storm 4 years ago and those who just arrived :

Let's not make the same mistakes all over again.

As a fandom, we should be able to maintain a positive climate to be able to support the anime and the manga.

As reasonable and open minded people, we should be able to enjoy and share our stuff and let others enjoy and share their stuff peacefully which also means:

>to avoid engaging in sterile arguments.

>to avoid constantly trying to one up/criticize other part of the fandom, this isn't a competion.

As decent human beings, we should be able to have the respect and self control needed to have normal conversation with someone who have a different opinion (especially since it's about a friggin anime/fictional pairing/fictional character )

We aren't in kindergarten anymore, I know we'll be able to make it .

And don't get me wrong :

There will always be something about Bleach we don't agree with so, of course :

>complaining on our blogs about it is fine.

>but going out of our ways to be obnoxious and treat other fans poorly or intensive bashing over any ship/character/part of the fandom is not.

And there will always be haters who have nothing better to do with their lives so, of course:

>responding to a personal attack is ok.

>but starting a war against everyone in the same subfandom as the person who insulted us is not.

We all know where the line between those very different things is, let's not cross it.

Personally, I'll do anything I can to stay out off the drama and keep doing me no matter what .

I'll take criticism with open arms but any eventual insults to me, my subfandoms or any other subfandom will be blatantly ignored or blocked.

These are the new rules I've decided to follow from now on.

#bleach #bleach 2020 #bleach 2021 #bleach fandom #fandom positivity

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ivemadeanopinion · 4 years

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Hello! This is my first post on this account. I recently posted about something political on my other account, and thought that I didn't want any politics on there really :)

I'm a 14 year old girl who really wants to formulate her own opinion and break away from my father's. He's a strong republican, prolife, doesn't believe in climate change, and thinks liberalism is a mental illness, or something along those lines. He basically assumes everyone from the other side is stupid. (Though, it wouldn't be infactual to say I've seen Democrats say so too about republicans.)

I hate sitting in my house, hearing my dad rant on and on about these things no one in my household cares about, and I thought, why not care? Why not care and begin to formulate my own opinion???

The amount of times I've embarrassed myself in school. Like I said, my father doesn't believe in climate change. I have a huge personality. So I've said it before. Tried to discuss it. And people look at me as if I'm insane. I didn't know better.

Whether you're republican, a Democrat, whatever you are, I'm open minded to any information, articles or anything you have to provide.

Please, although people can be assholes, not ALL people are assholes. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. On this blog I will try to avoid saying anyone is dumb, or say things negative about them. Discussing opinions is okay. There is no need to take it further than that.

I'd appreciate having a civil discussion. I might give you information my father has told me, and I wouldn't mind if you explained why he is wrong.

I don't believe that all Republicans are bad. I don't believe that all liberals are bad. I don't believe that a whole entire group of people is bad. Just certain people inside it. Yet every day I see posts bashing entire groups of people, defined by their gender, looks, race, sexuality other than what they believe in. There are always nice people in a bad group, and bad people in a nice group. (Of course, depending on how vague you go. If you say pro life, you arent saying that they're pro "you have to always give birth even if it's a child from rape." That isn't every person in the pro life community.)

Though I understand how posts go, and when you say "republicans" and stuff. It makes sense. I'm probably gonna say "most republicans" in my posts though, when it ever comes across, because it's a preference I guess. My whole family is republican and seeing the ones who aren't super terrible like my dad be grouped up in there just bothers me i guess.

That's the main opinion I stand for, and here's why (huge rant ahead. TLDR at the end of the lines. I reccomend you read, but it's alright if not.);

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When I began going to school, out in Florissant, Missouri, as early as kindergarten, I was bullied. Practically everyone in that school was black. I grew up in the hood area, I would say. Not as bad as some places, but still quite bad. Soon enough, I was bullied for being white. I've had people tell me that there's no way that's why I was bullied. Well, kids saying i should 'go to hell for being white', probably is an indicator, but what do I know? I was terrified. I kept to myself. My only friends became the special ed kids. Rachel and Summer were my best friends. Summer passed away in 2016. I wasn't informed till late 2017, by seeing my friends yearbook.

Nevertheless, I was called racial slurs, I was literally 'the plauge'. I blocked most of it out, it's trauma, but I can just remember trying to play a game with people and they say "the white girl is infected!!! Don't touch her!!" And, well, I didn't get to play with them. I played with Rachel instead, but she thought they were just playing tag. She didn't understand why they were running away. (They ran from her because she was special ed. She wasnt white.) It all got worse after the Ferguson riots. I was about 9 then.

I made my first friend in 3rd grade. His name was Kenan. He was outcasted because he was a crybaby. We became friends, but I still didn't play many games. Then Cayl'E came along in 5th grade. She was friends with everyone. She ended up becoming my best friend. Now she is family to me. She made everyone actually realize, that I might not be a terrible person just because of how I look. people still didn't touch me for a while. (not letting me be involved in house, no one picking me for heads up 7s up, etc, not like some weird stufd) but it soon got better for a few people. (Definitely not all. I can still name 3 kids that made my final weeks of 5th grade TORTURE. Yes, I cried really loud during the date ceremony because this kid was purposely overstimulating me)

Most traumatic time at that school? This might sound like the most fake part, but no, this is real; My 5th grade brother calling a 1st grader short, and a bunch of middle school kids (they looked tall) running up and beating the shit out of him. I was in 3rd grade. I had to run to find help. I couldn't help my brother, from getting beat up by like 20 guys. In hindsight, it probably wasn't that many, but I was in 3rd grade, I over exaggerated a lot.

I moved in 6th grade. Out to a better school. I was scared of the loud kids. And soon enough became used to it. Now I have a huge personality. I'm open, and today even walked in on my brothers zoom meeting to say my armpits smelled like burritos then walking away. Im not scared anymore. Most of the time. Sometimes I have flashbacks, but we don't need to discuss that.

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TLDR: I was severely bullied because of my skin color. I have some post traumatic stress from it it was quite bad. Yet through it, I made friends who helped me, despite the color of my skin. So through every bad there is good.

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What I'm trying to say from that is, not all white people are bad. Not all black people are bad. Just the certain people who made me so hurt much today. They didn't mean it though (I hope. A couple kids apologized about two years after moving.)

Not every group is bad just because you've had a bad experience with a few people. There are always kind people out there.

Whether I'm one is your decision, and whether you want to discuss some politics about like climate change, abortion or whatever, is also up to you.

Sorry for going on and on. Hope to hear back from anyone! (In a hopefully civilized discussion, I'm 14, not 54.) Oh and!! Don't be shy due to my age. I know way too much, I'm on the internet! I might be impressionable and stuff, but what's more impressionable? An opinion I can hear the facts to, or whatever the hell my dad is going on about? I've been stuck with this nutcase for forever, I wanna be able to say something about it.

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concealeddarkness13 · 4 years

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A New Dawn Part 5

In which Kai has the best food ever and gets paranoid for a good reason. Tagging my collaborator @ratracechronicler!

Intro

Kai: part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4

Rat: part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5

After we visited with Spike and Voxel, Rat led us to many different food places. They were all amazing, but I felt too out of place. Rat and Eli had inside jokes, and they kept talking to each other more than me (which, of course, made sense). They would probably rather be together alone instead of having to drag me around. I knew where the hotel and Spike’s place were, so I could get back on my own. I could just wander around alone for a little while. When they weren’t paying attention to me, I slipped off into the crowd going the opposite direction.

I watched all the people as I walked. It was so nice to actually feel more at home after Zenith. I didn’t get very far, however, before someone purposefully blocked my way. I looked up to see Spike grinning down at me.

“What’s up, alien kid? Did those two lovebirds scare you off?” I looked away and didn’t answer him, and he laughed. “I’m not here to make you feel bad. I just thought you might like a real tour of Pike.”

He gestured for me to follow him, and we walked against the crowd. As we passed through, people would either greet him loudly and slap him on the back, or they would avoid eye contact. Based on how people were acting and all the expensive stuff in his home, he had to be a leader of some kind.

He pointed out the various places that he had raided with his gang, and he even talked about it right in front of one of those machines-in-eyes aware people who were probably cops, but he just looked away. Cool!

He led me up to the highest point in Pike, and I couldn’t help the grin that came to my lips. The view was so beautiful. I could see for miles in any direction. And Pike was just so colorful compared to Zenith.

Spike smirked over at me. “Pike’s a beauty, isn’t it?”

I nodded. “I love it. It feels a lot more like my home.”

“So, what’s your favorite part of Pike?”

“Oh, definitely the food.”

He grinned over at me. “Well, I personally know the best chef in all of Pike! I can give you VIP access to their cooking!” He paused and looked away. “But, don’t think that means I’m taking you on a date, or anything.”

I grimaced. “I wouldn’t dream of thinking that.”

He grinned back at me. “Perfect.”

We didn’t have to go far to get to the house he was headed for. It was just a little bit lower than the highest point. I frowned at him, and he smirked at me. “The best chef I know is part of my own family. Actually, my whole family is the best chef I know.”

Oh. Well, this wasn’t right. I shouldn’t be intruding on a family like this. He probably wanted to be with them alone. I looked away from him. “I don’t want to intrude…”

He frowned. “I invited you. How could you be intruding?”

“Families are important,” I mumbled. “I shouldn’t bother someone else’s.”

He scoffed. “That’s dumb. You want to eat the best food you’ve ever had? Then come with me.”

I tensed when he knocked on the door, and I did sink down a little when a tall guy, who looked a little like Spike opened the door. He smiled when he saw Spike. ��Dally. Finally came over to visit, did you?”

He clapped Spike on the back, and he didn’t even flinch, even though it was more like a slap. The guy’s eyes fell on me, and he frowned. “And who’s this?”

Spike laughed. “A friend of a friend. I thought she needed some good food, so I invited her over.”

The guy smiled. “I’m Taz. I’m Dallas’s father.” He nudged Spike, so he must have meant him.

An imposing older woman walked up to the door and eyed both of us. She had a cloth covering her eyes, but it still felt like she was watching me. “Dallas, why did you wait so long to invite her over? She clearly hasn’t had much food. We’ll have to change that.” She took my arm and pulled me inside, yelling at the others inside to start making something I hadn’t heard of before.

The woman set me down on a chair and Spike caught up. “Her name’s Nobody. She’s my great-grandmother. She’s wonderful.”

Nobody popped her head back into the room from what was probably the kitchen. “Dallas, get in here and help us cook.”

Spike laughed and gestured for me to stand up so he could take my chair to the kitchen. I sat down and watched them as they worked. Everyone was talking, and they kept laughing. I smiled, even though I wasn’t going to try to join in. But after a while, I stood up and asked Genie, Spike’s cousin, if I could help, and she smiled and told me what to do. At least I could help in this way.

When the food was ready, we all sat around a table, and no one even looked at me funny. They were treating me like I was part of the family. And the food was amazing.

I sat huddled close to the fire as the sun set, while everyone talked around me. It was just so…nice to have a family care anything about me, even if it wasn’t my family. And everyone was comfortable and happy. I felt so safe around them.

“You’re alone, and you always will be alone.” It was like a whisper in my ear. I jumped up and looked out the window right behind me, but no one was there.

When I turned back around, everyone was watching me. I smiled and waved it off. “I just thought I heard something.” They nodded and went back to talking.

I sat down and hugged my knees as I stared into the fire. I was alone. I didn’t know this planet, I didn’t even really know these people. I didn’t know if I could ever return to my planet. I would always be a stranger here. Would anyone truly accept me and let me stay with them? Or would I be left to wander this place alone again?

I woke up back in the hotel room, with Eli and Rat standing over me. I must have fallen asleep at Spike’s family’s house. If I looked really hard, I could tell that Eli’s expression was worried, and Rat’s expression was angry.

She huffed. “What in the heck were you thinking, wandering off on your own? We were worried about you.”

I didn’t meet her eyes. “You probably wanted to be alone. I was just in the way.”

She just glared more at me. “In the way?! Maybe we actually want you around! Anyway, with that creepy alien running around, I didn’t know if you had been taken! You can’t just leave without telling us.”

“I’m sorry.”

Rat sat back on the other bed, the anger leaving her expression. “You can make it up to me by coming with me to this party I’ve gotten us into tonight.”

I frowned. A party? Like those fancy, refined things only rich people went to? “But I don’t have anything nice to wear.”

She waved it off. “You don’t have to…” She trailed off and grinned at Eli. And then she grinned over at me. “You had a great idea! We’re going to get dressed up for the party!” She didn’t even give me time to respond. She grabbed my arm and pulled me out of the room, with Eli following behind us.

There were still a lot of places open even later at night. While Eli browsed for clothes, Rat brought me over to the dresses. She held out an emerald green dress and winked at me. “I think this would look good.”

I just took it and went to try it on. Taeo had made me wear a floor length dress when we had stolen from Shiern so many years ago. But this dress only went to my knees, and when I left the dressing room after confirming it fit well, Rat held up some high heels for me to try on.

I shook my head, but she just laughed. “Come on! We might as well have fun!”

“I don’t think that I could even walk around in them.”

She scoffed. “I believe in you. Come on!”

I sighed but nodded. I tried the heels on and walked around unsteadily. Rat gave me a thumbs up, and she put them back in the box and paid for all of it. I frowned at her as we waited for Eli to be ready. “How can I repay you?”

She smirked at me. “Have fun and don’t worry about it. You’re part of my gang, remember?”

I still didn’t get it, but I didn’t push it. Once Eli was done, we went back to the hotel room, changed, and headed for the party.

I didn’t know what to expect, and I was still surprised. It was loud, too many people were packed into a small space, and it was too hard to see. I immediately tensed, but Rat laughed and grabbed both Eli and me, and she dragged us into the crowd. This was nothing like the refined parties back on my planet. But, of course, I rarely even went to those, so how would I know?

After a little while of watching Rat dance, while I tried to at least sway to the fast music, she pulled us over to an empty table, and we ordered more food. It was still really good, but I did agree with Spike. His family made the best food.

Rat pulled me back out into the crowd, and people kept accidentally brushing against me. And then, while Rat’s back was turned, someone leaned down close to whisper in my ear.

“Oh, Kaira. You think you beat us? We know exactly where you are. And your “gang” members won’t be safe with you around.”

I stiffened and whipped around, but no one was there, at least no one who was paying attention to me. But there was someone hidden by a cloak pushing through the crowd.

When I looked back at Rat, she was frowning at me. “Is something the matter?”

I shook my head. “No. It’s just something I want to check out.”

“I’ll go with you then.”

“No. It’s better if I go alone. They won’t see me as easily.” No reason to put her in danger.

I pushed through the crowd, following the cloaked figure. They left through a side door, and I snuck after them kicking off my shoes so I could sneak more quietly. They had to be one of the aliens who were from before I lost my memory. If I could just ask them how they knew me and why they were so desperate to take me.

The figure turned a corner, and I paused a little before I followed them. I frowned. They must have shed their cloak, and they didn’t look anything like the aliens. He (actually) turned around and smirked when he saw me. His eyes were glazed. He must have been drinking.

I tensed and pulled out my knife. He was probably too tall and strong for me to fight, so I would have to try to head back to the party. But I didn’t want to turn my back on him.

He laughed. “Oh, so a pretty girl decided to follow me?” He took a step forward, and I backed up. Before I could decide to bolt, Rat came up and wrapped an arm around my shoulders while Eli walked up on the other side of me and glared at the guy. The guy frowned at Rat and Eli and left.

She glared at me. “What was that? Why did you decide to follow that idiot?”

I looked away. He had looked so different in the party. “I…I thought…” I sucked in a breath and squeezed my eyes shut. “It feels like someone’s following me. And I just wanted to figure it out. I must have been wrong.”

Rat and Eli exchanged a glance, and Rat turned back to me with a sigh. “Well, we’re not going to leave you alone. I don’t want you to wander off again. Let’s party for a while longer, and then we can go back to the hotel.”

I woke up late in the morning, and Rat was still completely asleep. But Eli was up, and he was staring out the window. I got up and walked over to him. He jumped and looked over at me, and I could barely see that he was smiling.

“You’re up early for how late we stayed up.”

I perched on the sill next to him and looked outside at the view. “So are you.”

He laughed. “Well, if you slept for seventeen years, you probably wouldn’t want to sleep as much either.”

I nodded. He had already told me what happened to him, so at least it didn’t sound weird. “What were you planning on doing with Rat still asleep?”

He shrugged. “I thought that maybe I could go up to the roof and enjoy the fresh air with a hot drink. This is our last day in Pike. Would you like to join me?”

I nodded. We got ready, Eli made some tea, and we walked up to the roof. We just sat for a while, and I just listened to the sounds. It was so crowded and so peaceful at the same time.

Eli glanced over at me. “I know that you don’t know about your family, but do you have anyone to rely on back on your planet?” I frowned, thinking, and Eli shook his head. “I’m sorry. You don’t have to answer that.”

“No. It’s fine. I don’t really have anyone to rely on back on my planet. I have a friend, but we only text. We don’t see each other often.”

“You only have one friend?” He laughed nervously. “Well, that certainly explains why you’ve been so independent.”

I nodded. “I’m so used to working alone, that I don’t really communicate well. I’m sorry.”

“No!” He shook his head. “I’m not trying to make you feel bad. Honestly, I understand being alone. I have always had my brother. But…he’s not the most sociable of people. I only met Rat and the others a week ago, and it was only because of a death trap race in the middle of a place none of us knew about. That made it easier to make friends…and enemies.”

I frowned. “You’ve only known Rat for a week? You two seem so familiar with each other.”

He laughed. “Well, thanks. But yeah, we’ve only known each other for a week.” He paused. “Even though we did meet before…”

Wow. I brushed off his last statement, since I didn’t want to push him. “Thank you for being patient with me. I want to be able to work better with you two, and I’m happy to be travelling with you. You’re so nice.” You’re alone, and you always will be alone. You will hurt them if you stay with them. I squeezed my eyes shut against the thoughts. I liked Rat and Eli. I didn’t want to leave.

Eli touched my free hand, and I jumped and stared at him. Through the machinery, I could see him smile. “It’s no problem. I know you’re going to try. You’re doing great.”

I sniffed and looked away before he could see the tears in my eyes. How could they care about me so much already?

Eli scooted closer and hugged me tightly. I gasped, but I relaxed. I felt so safe. He was so kind. “You’re amazing, Kai. I’m glad I met you. I hope you can stay with us for a while.”

I closed my eyes and smiled. “Thank you. I want to stay with you two for a while too.”

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winchester-with-wings · 5 years

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Treat Yourself!

Barry Allen x Reader / Patron Benefit Fanfic!

Author's Notes: Sorry for the long wait on Patron fics guys! Work and life has been crazy but thank you for your continued support! This cute fic is for Kristen ( @book-loving--anime-chick ). It was really interesting writing this since I'm a shorty!!

Summary/Request: Right, yes, sorry it slipped my mind! Could you write a fic where the reader is tall - like 6ft tall - and a bit insecure about it because she likes wearing heels. She has a bad experience at work or something and Barry comforts her?

Word Count: 1200ish

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Most people used incognito mode pm the internet for more nefarious...inappropriate purposes. Wait, that is what most people used it for, right? Eh, not you. You preferred to read your naughty stories, not watch it. But we digress…

You prefer to use incognito mode to avoid the cookies and personalized ads on your social media. You didn’t want to be constantly reminded of that one pair of bright blue 3-inch stilettos or the platform heels with rhinestones that promise you another two or more inches. You definitely didn’t want to remember that pair of wedge sandals that would go perfect with your favorite maxi dress. No...your maxi dress was already too short on your 6 ft frame.

But a person can dream. You can dream about wearing those shoes. About having a place to go where the shoes wouldn’t stick out--or instead shoes that would draw attention to themselves and invite people to look you up and down from head to toe. Legs for dayssss.

But in your normal day to day life you couldn’t even rock a kitten heel. Why? Again because you’re already taller than most women and also because...who between the age of 12 and 60 wears kitten heels? Maybe some people, but not you. It wasn’t a good look on you. You’ve customized your style to include nice converse sneakers and the girlier flats and sandals. You looked cute, no doubt. But if your feet were going to hurt from walking around all day, you’d rather place the blame on a pair of heels instead of flats with no cushion or arch support.

So you continue to dream. Sure, your closet has a few skeletons...a few shoes that have never been worn, and even a pair of decorated heels with hand-painted skulls and crossbones! Other than that, you wear the flat stuff when you go out and go to work. You’ll just stick to wearing heels around your apartment and scrolling through shoe warehouses online during your lunch break.

But what can you do when your sandals break in the middle of the day?! You’re walking down the hall of CCPD when someone inadvertently gives you a flat tire. They step on the back of your shoe, scraping your heal and somehow you hear that quiet but distinct tear as your straps are separated from the sole.

They should be the least of your worries as you fall forward and down the stairs! You would’ve caught your step if you were on flat ground but you had been at the top of the stairs. You reach out for the railing but don’t reach it in time. Somehow, Barry Allen is there to come to your rescue.

He must’ve been walking up the stairs as you walked down them. He catches you in his arms, one hand cupping your elbow and the other steadying your waist as he redirects your fall towards the wall and absorbs the impact himself. Everyone else on the stairs has stopped, hopefully planning to help you if you’d come close to them. You were just happy and lucky enough to find yourself in CSI Barry Allen’s arms.

“Whoa, are you okay?” he asks, helping you settle on a single stair. You hold onto the railing to look at your shoes.

“Aw man!”

“Are you hurt?” he looks you over as bend down to grab your shoe.

“They’re ruined. This is my only pair at work.” You fight back the burning sting of tears. It’s just a pair of shoes, not even your favorites. But finding sandals and flats that fit you and that you actually liked was really hard. This is just one more thing you didn’t need this week.

“Oh, I’m sorry. Are you okay though? Nothing sprained or hurt?”

“Yeah, no. I’m fine,” you mumble as you start walking back down the stairs, no longer garnering attention from everyone else. “Thanks for the save, Barry. Can you just...can you let Joe know that I’ll be a few minutes late from lunch. I have to go...I dunno...figure this out.”

You run for the elevator and catch it just before the door closes. You’re alone and you let a few tears escape. Most women have spare pairs of shoes in their desk. They wear flats or sneakers to work and then switch into heels when they get to the office. That had never been an option for you. You’d always tried to convince yourself that this meant you were lucky. You didn’t have to have commuter shoes and work shoes; they were one and the same for you. But a laundry list of tasks to complete had already been pushing you to the edge. This is just enough to bring out those tears.

You wipe them away before the elevator door opens again. You take off your other shoe and walk into the lobby and out of the building, barefoot.

You toss the shoes into the trash and turn towards downtown.

“Y/N! Wait up!” Barry must’ve taken the stairs. He comes running out of the building, chasing after you. “Let me come with you,” he insists.

“Why?”

“Well, I know I’m not the person who broke them but at least if you have company do you don’t look like a crazy person walking down the street, barefoot and alone.” You can’t exactly argue with that. You were already insecure about your height. You didn’t want random strangers to judge you as if you’re just too good and too tall for shoes at all.

You walk past one shoe store, your eyes set on a different store a block away.

“Why don’t we go in here?” Barry asks.

“Oh, um,” you stop to look in the window. Glamorous heels, wedges, boots. A pair of black heels with a red sole. Your eyes light up for a second. “No, those aren’t for me,” you lament.

“What? Why?”

“I can’t wear heels.”

“What?” Barry chuckles. “Why not? Is there some dumb rule?”

“Uh, not exactly but…”

“But what?”

“I’m too tall to wear heels.” Barry looks you up and down. You’re maybe an inch or two taller than him. He doesn’t have to look too far up like some people.

“That’s ridiculous!” he smirks and takes your hand in his. “You like that pair, don’t you?” he points at the black and red heels in the window. You’re hesitant to nod. “Come on, let’s get them.” He gently pulls you into the store. The salesperson looks you over with no judgement. Barry indicates the pair in the window.

“Excellent choice,” they say, just before guessing your size.

They fit perfectly. Your back straightens with confidence. Your pants are just the right length. The black looks professional. The red makes you feel fiery, like you have a secret. And you did. Your secret was that you absolutely loved these shoes.

“They’re on sale,” the sales associate comments.

“Perfect! It’s a sign. Y/N, you look great in them. Buy them, or I will!” He pauses, “I mean...buy them for you...obviously...you know, not that I don’t have anything against men wearing heels...I just don’t wear them personally.” Barry blushes and laughs at himself, covering his eyes with one of his hands. He clears his throat. “Get them,” he encourages you.

You take a deep breath like you’re about to take a plunge into icy water. Yeah sure, it’s just a pair of high heels but it’s a big step for your confidence. Barry Allen is right by your side, cheering you on.

“Okay, I’ll take them.”

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ambitionsource · 4 years

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001 for dasher!! :)

oh boy....... hoooooo boyyyyyyyyy

Dylan & Asher

When I started shipping it if I did: so if i were a viewer, i think i would like ship them from basically the moment it was made pretty clear on the show that they were romantically linked rather than just Good Pals Being Pals (i.e. “LOVE OF MY LIFE” in 103). but for a majority of s1 i think it would be a passive shipping sort of thing, like i’d love their moments and enjoy watching them, but things wouldn’t really Click into place until s2 when we really start to actually dig into them and their dynamic / their individual struggles (i.e., their promotion to regulars in s2). around 203 + 204 i’d be so locked in though, that’s probably when i’d start making fandom content or digging around for fics, and then by 207 / 208... whew y’all. whew!

My thoughts: okay so like not to be dramatic but like. im really kind of obsessed with them doe GJDSGFDKJHLFKDH. like i’m really chill about it on here for the most part, but i have not shut up about them in my gcs since quite literally like. august. there’s kind of like this whole timeline for them that doesn’t exist on the Show because its just not relevant to the story, but there’s a lot of their development as individuals and a relationship going on in the background of s2 that really informs how i write them and is really quite elaborate FDSJGLKDSG. i have an entire drive folder that’s dedicated to screenshots of the conversations we’ve had in the discord that chronicles some of this stuff. like what we fondly refer to as “4 days” which is this period between 203 and 204 in which asher became so overwhelmed with everything going on with lucas that he just dropped everything and isolated for a few days -- including closing the window on dylan; and that really has a major impact on their relationship and sort of leads to this Relationship Upgrade in the sense that they go from having the fun and easy going relationship they have in s1 to really like... committing to one another and stepping into this deeper Partnership. i can’t do it justice just talking abt it but like. again to keep it concise, i’m obsessed

What makes me happy about them: literally... so much. i will say that i think what’s really important to me about them -- as well as on the show and what they represent -- is that they really do demonstrate this like... Healthy relationship. and they don’t realize it, but they are one of the only examples of a healthy, committed, equal partnership that many of their friends have in their lives (lucas and isa, specifically). so they’re leaving this impact on people just by leading by example and just living with their hearts on their sleeves and being so unapologetically loving, and that is just... a message i want to spread far and wide. dylan and asher definitely both have their quirks and flaws, but they’re two characters who are so fundamentally driven by compassion and love in their own ways -- and then its really beautiful to watch them share that energy with one another at the most devoted level

What makes me sad about them: i mean like.......... honestly? not much. how wild is that. a pairing that doesn’t make me wanna kermit bc there’s so much angst riddled throughout.......... unreal..........

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: i firmly believe that da would be such an interesting fandom to analyze. this is because they would definitely have a strong fanbase of their own (especially post S2), but also i bet they would be victims of the “supporting pairing” in a lot of fics -- i.e., they get tagged as a pairing on ao3 but then only are featured in like 3 scenes out of a 220448328 word fic. you know, that tragedy. also annoying would be 1) dumbing down dylan or focusing only on his naivety / simplistic nature and stripping him of his incredible emotional literacy and lowkey wisdom 2) babying either of them and again stripping them of their nuances and complexities 3) exaggerating some of asher’s shrill qualities to the point that he’s just unbearable 4) ANY sort of obvious attempts to Gender their relationship -- i think zc would be able to avoid this for the most part, but i get the feeling it would be a common annoying thing in da portrayals 5) taking asher’s external hesitation towards pda / being too overtly emotional in public and reading that as either him being unaffectionate towards dylan in general or casting him as some sort of prude when in actuality i think asher is more instrumental in their Physical Relationship than one would think on the outset 6) fics where da is tagged but then its like. one of them leaving the other for lucas fDJSGDKGLFD LIKE BYEEEEEEEE

Things I look for in fanfic: on the flip side of my earlier answer, i really do believe that there would be a beautiful and dynamic da writer cohort. i think there would be some REALLY cool and lovely works out there for these two, because i know how much they’ve inspired creativity and excitement for me. i would love fics that are just about filling in missing moments to their relationship that we don’t get to see on the show just due to focus and time; i would be keen for any sort of au with them; i’d want to see portrayals of them that really highlight the balance they bring out in one another and how well they complement one another -- the ways that dylan makes up for asher’s emotional literacy and even a focus on how asher can sometimes struggle to grapple with his emotions despite being so put together in public would be A1; anything that highlights the utmost respect and adoration they have towards one another; always stan representing how touchy-feely dylan is with small affectionate touches; gold star fics would highlight their other relationships as well, both as a duo (the techie crew, dylucasher) and individually (jade x asher, dylan x isa, dylan x dave x nate, their dynamics with riley). i just..... i’m really aching for this fandom rn i tell ya!!!

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: i.......... there’s honestly not an answer. they’re asher and dylan. dylan and asher. they’re literally multiverse endorsed soulmates. there’s a mental block for alternatives sorry!

My happily ever after for them: i don’t have to worry about them so i know i’m gonna get it fDSJKGLFDG but just them continuing to have their deeply committed and supportive and emotionally healthy relationship and be there for one another as they continue to grow as people! can’t wait for them to live together college and beyond and just... thrive. i love them dearly

Who is the big spoon/little spoon: oh this has been well established. asher is the big spoon. there of course are OCCASIONAL days where it shifts (more likely during naps, for example), but when it’s time for bed they will fall asleep with asher hugging dylan and resting his head against his back. that’s The Move. it’s set in stone!

What is their favorite non-sexual activity: they spend so much time together i genuinely could say that just existing together is their activity fDJSKLGJFDKLHDh. but um they like to go on adventures with lucas; dylan will bake and asher will “help” i.e. just keep him company and steal dough; they like watching tv together (wide range from like true crime documentaries to Good TV to the classics like Spongebob to hgtv and chill fdkjhgkjdhg like. Cultured palette here folks); just spending time together but doing their own thing i.e. asher might be reading while dylan is playing nintendo switch but they’re like reclining against one another; they often take drives together and get out of the city just to listen to music and like escape the pressure of that environment; they go on trips with their families and their families even take trips together sometimes once they realize that dasher are basically tied for life (shoutout to the upcoming new years ski trip of 2019... Romance)... i could go on. there’s always much to say. i love them that’s it that’s it that’s it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

send some winter hiatus asks !! or try this one

#she's Obsessed... bet y'all didn't see that one coming did ya #the aaagc knows all too well but i maintain a calm stance fairly well on here #now y'all know !#dylan x asher #winter hiatus 2019 #Anonymous #answered

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25 Writing Questions

@whycanthisnotbeeasier tagged me in this pretty massive tag game, which is pretty cool! Thanks for the attention! Here goes nothing...

1. Is there a story you’re holding off on writing for some reason?

A few of them, for a few reasons! The most obvious is Book 3 in my Feilan series, under the working title Storm and Shadow (it’s edgy I know). Reason being, it just got too damn messy. The end of book 3 is the low point of the whole series in every available subplot--so many things go wrong, a few MASSIVE things happen that are game-changers for book 4, and it’s hands down the most difficult scene I’m going to have to write for this series. When it came down to it, I couldn’t do that. The real end of the story at book 4 wasn’t that clear to me either, which is a major problem. So what I’m doing now is working backwards, a little bit. I’ll return to the Purple Sands once and for all after I’ve tackled book 4 and I know where I’m actually going with this.

Also, I’ve been delaying work on a few other baby WIPs because they’re just not developed enough to see the light of day yet. But that’s pretty minor.

2. What work of yours, if any, are you embarrassed about existing?

Uhhhhhh... literally the entirety of the original drafts of books 1 and 2. They’re beautifully-written bullshit. Also there’s some really bad Homestuck fanfiction from six years ago still floating around the Internet somewhere under an old pseudonym of mine. I like to pretend it doesn’t exist.

3. What order do you write in? Front of book to back? Chronological? Favorite scenes first? Something else?

I like to write front-to-back, which in my case is the same as chronological. I’m a bit of a pants-er, and my outlines often don’t make any sense once I’m actually a few chapters in and I realize that the planned plot point coming next is painfully out of character (or just impossible in general). I tend to use the exciting parts as motivators to get me through when I get writer’s block.

4. Favorite character you’ve written?

Violet. Hands down, indubitably, Violet Ravenhart. She’s probably the best fictional character I’ve ever created--she has so many layers to her, and she’s so nuanced, and genuine and close to my heart in ways I never expected. I think I’ve done a really great job creating her, and I only hope I can write her as well as she deserves.

5. Character you were most surprised to end up writing?

Kyrina, I think... she was originally supposed to be something COMPLETELY different than what she’s become. All of my villains used to be really two-dimensional and flat, but Ky’s come the furthest away from there. She used to be an Azula expy? Now she’s just a dumbass.

6. Something you would go back and change in your writing that it’s too late / complicated to change now

Part of me wants to say that I’m proud of everything I’ve made, and I do plan to stick to my guns, but there are a lot of aspects of Feilan’s worldbuilding that are incredibly messy. The magic system is the most obvious... if I could go back and change that, and make it significantly less complicated and hard to understand, then I probably would. But the whole thing is built into the structure of the world, and I’m emotionally attached, and besides, it’s unique! It’s definitely got plus sides.

When it comes to things like that, I’m more likely to retcon or explain the weird thing than erase it altogether. Any dumb trope can work if you write it the right way.

7. When asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people that you write?

Oh god, I love telling people about my stories. I talk about Being A Writer all the time! I don’t share my work very often, though.

8. Favorite genre to write

Fantasy!

9. What, if anything, do you do for inspiration?

I like to take walks, or just go sit alone in places. I draw my spirit and energy in writing from the natural world... when I feel drained and creatively empty, I go to the creek behind my house, or I take a walk around Schenley if I’m at school. It even helps to just sit outside for a while. Nature inspires me.

10. Write in silence or with background music? Alone or with others?

Depends on the scene! Always alone, though. Other people tend to distract me. I write with background music most of the time, but if I’m working on poetry or the scene is particularly intense then I turn it off. My writing style, especially in emotional moments, is very reliant on the rhythm of the words. Having music in the background interrupts the natural flow.

11. What aspect of your writing do you think has most improved since you started writing?

DIALOGUE. Dear lord, I used to be so bad at dialogue. I’ve also improved at plotting, but that improvement is... nebulous.

12. Your weaknesses as an author?

I like tropes, and I also like doing weird stuff. I often like both of these too much, resulting in plots that jump from point to point with little clarity. I’m also a consistent retconner, so my characters’ motivations and goals can change with little to no warning. I’m working on that.

13. Your strengths as an author?

I’ve been told that my prose has a very strong flow to it, especially in descriptive passages. So for all my faults with the construction of my stories, my actual mechanical writing is consistently excellent. And I’m also a fan of my character concepts, even when I don’t write them out as well as they maybe deserve.

14. Do you make playlists for your work?

Absolutely! I have spotify playlists for most of my stories and all my main characters. I don’t actually listen to those while I’m writing, I prefer listening to video game music, but making playlists for my writing is a lot of fun.

15. Why did you start writing?

Because I couldn’t find any books that told stories I wanted to read, so I decided I’d make them myself. I wanted to read stories with characters who dressed like me and thought like me and did amazing things without people questioning it all the time. Also, I wanted stories with fairies who weren’t vapid useless girly-girls.

16. Are there any characters who haunt you?

Most of them, at some point or another. All of my main characters in Feilan are manifestations of some part of me. I wrote Violet to cope with depression in high school, Dusk came directly from how trapped I felt when my parents wouldn’t listen to anything I said, Sayara is the physical manifestation of righteous fury against the world. So their muses lean pretty hard into me when I start running into those problems again.

17. If you could give your fledgling author self any advice, what would it be?

Please use an outline. I know they “cramp your style,” but please, for the love of God, use a freaking outline. And figure out the ending FIRST.

18. Were there any works you read that affected you so much that it influenced your writing style? What were they?

Yes!! Some of those were things I watched more than things I read, but it still counts. I was really into the Redwall books as a kid, and they’re a direct cause of the weird tropiness inherent in my early writing. I think I still favor a lot of cheesy tropes that I learned there--I like to think I write them with more nuance, though. The TV show Avatar was also a MASSIVE influence in how I create stories and characters. I mentioned earlier that Kyrina used to be an Azula expy, but on a larger scale ATLA introduced me to grey morality that works. Zuko’s redemption arc is on a level I strive for to this day. Rick Riordan’s books inspired my character voices, I’ve always liked his humor and his writing showed me that you don’t have to cling so closely to traditional grammar rules to write well. Fullmetal Alchemist was another big influence on my stories’ morality,

There are probably more, but I don’t remember any right now.

19. When it comes to more complicated narratives, how do you keep track of outlines, characters, development, timeline, etc.?

See: Taz’s greatest flaws as a writer.

Jokes aside, I like to keep one single print paper outline for each story that I’m working on. I’ll write out notes to myself there, create a chapter-by-chapter outline, and edit things in the outline as I go. They’re a great time capsule of all the things I’ve retconned over the course of my series. Recently I’ve also started using Evernote to track things digitally, but I’m still figuring out how it works.

20. Do you write in long sit-down sessions or in little spurts?

Both! Depends on the day. I write when I have the spark and the attention span, and I write for however long it lasts.

21. What do you think when you read over your older work?

Some of my old work is actually quite good! So I’ll appreciate that for what it is. The parts that are less good I laugh at, and I’ll send excerpts to my friends going “hey look at this ridiculous bullshit I created three years ago isn’t it funny??”

22. Are there subjects that make you uncomfortable to write?

Yeah. There are a lot of uncomfortable things lurking on the periphery of Feilan that I’m super awkward with. Violet’s trans-ness is the main one that comes to mind, because I want to confirm it in canon but there’s really no way she would ever bring it up of her own volition. Sayara’s too stupid to notice anything and definitely wouldn’t be rude enough to ask about it if she did. There’s also, well, the fa Viandre situation. I’ve avoided going into too much detail about the abuse there, but every situation with Dusk and fa Viandre gives me the willies. I write it because I think it’s important, and it’s a powerful arc, but it’s fucked up.

More generally? Sex scenes are uncomfortable to write in general for me, I don’t mind reading them but writing them is super awkward. Romance in general can be that way sometimes. I just don’t know how to handle it.

23. Any obscure life experiences that you feel have helped your writing?

I don’t know if there’s anything obscure, necessarily. I think being a musician helped my writing improve, because I’m very sensitive to what Sounds Good, and with poetry especially it’s become more of an instinct than conscious knowledge.

24. Have you ever become an expert on something you previously knew nothing about, in order to better a scene or a story?

I wouldn’t say I’ve ever become an expert on anything in the interest of research, but I’ve become moderately proficient with a few things. I’m in the process of learning everything I can about conlangs so that I can finally give all my made-up words some internal consistency, so that’s cool. I took a couple group fencing lessons. I’m pretty lazy about my research, honestly, and when I don’t already know something I lean towards just making it up from wholecloth.

25. Copy / paste a few sentences or a short paragraph that you’re particularly proud of.

I knelt by the crack, peering into it, hoping, even as the desperate stillness grew stronger and the silence did not change and time almost seemed to stop.

Cool starlight slid like molten silver through the shimmering gaps in the trees, sinking into the world around me. This cool starlight illuminated everything: the pocks and picks in ancient stone, and the knife-point edges of blades of growing grass, and the dust that had settled upon the little hiding place and the child’s bones it hid.

This is an old excerpt, from my newer draft of book 2. I think I wrote this almost exactly two years ago. I’m rather fond of it, though. This is Feilan’s aesthetic in a nutshell.

This was an essay at the end, but also a tag game, so... @jade-island-lives @firewritten @thewingwriter @lady-redshield-writes, if yall wanna do this, go for it! No obligation of course. :) Anyone else who sees this and thinks it’s cool, feel free to do it and say I tagged you, too!

#taz shut up #tag game #this was fun! thanks!

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