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alonetimelover · 11 months

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pairing: harry styles x polish!reader (fem, she/her)

summary: harry plays a show where one of the most important people in his life attends - his fiancée's granny.

submitted by @otaktomotyl, thank you and i hope you'll enjoy reading it as much as i did writing it!

a/n: i found polish translations on the internet, i hope they're okay.

masterlist ask, comment, come say hi!

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harryupdates

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harryupdates HARRY landed in Warsaw. I repeat, HARRY landed in Warsaw.

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harrysmoustache and he's holding yn's hat???

harryshoee yn and harry can finally reunite... 🥹

harrysfan92 do you see his arms???? he looks like a Greek god, god damn

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harrysmoustache

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harrysmoustache HAARY AT YN'S COUSIN WEDDING!!!!

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harryupdates you're so fast with those updates, lyla. im gonna lose my job...

stylesbabie yn be aware, he looks good enough to be THE groom. keep him close

⤷ harryslipstick i think that ring on her finger is saying more than anything

harrysmybestie guys, you know we are so close to see HIM at HIS OWN wedding...

⤷ harrysmylife don't

⤷ harrysmoustache why would you say that?!

⤷ outofstyles am i the only one awaiting that day impatiently??? i wanna see him being all nervous and loving and all of the emotions that people feel at the weddings

stylesislife only harry styles could come to my wedding wearing a tanktop that he also wears to his shows

⤷ hArrysbtch the only man i could forgive AND compliment on looking so fucking good

stylesbabie yn's cousin posted a photo from the ceremony, and you can see yn and harry being all snuggle and touchy 😭😭😭 i love them so much

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"What do you mean you're not coming up on stage? Harry, my love, what changed during the last two hours?" YN asked into her phone, anxious Harry being on the other side, soundly biting his nails. "And stop biting your nails, you've got a very nice colour on them."

"Is babcia (granny) here?"

"Mum texted they're close to the gate. Jeff, was kind enough to go there and pick them up so they wouldn't get in any trouble."

"Good, good, good. can- can you come backstage? I think I'd like some ted talk before the show," he said quietly, smile growing on his face. "And some kisses, too."

"Give me 10 minutes, I'll find that kind guard and ask him to guide me. I can't remember when to turn right."

"I'll wait for you. I love you."

"I love you."

Harry got up from the couch and started pacing from one wall to the other. His hands were trembling, getting sweaty. He couldn't remember when was the last time he felt this nervous before start of the show. Not wembley or Slane Castle were as nerve wrecking as Warsaw. He knew it perfectly that it wasn't because of the city or the country. Well, it partially was.

It was YN's home show. But also her whole family was just outside the gates or already walking down the hallways to get to their seats (VIP of course, besides YN's younger cousins that wanted the front row, barricade experiance). And probably the most important guests for Harry - YN's grandparents, especially her granny. A sweet 92-year-old lady that started learning english and using an iPhone to be able to talk and contact Harry. A lady who bought his heart with sweet butter biscuits that no one could replicate. A lady that listened and then learned his whole three albums for this day - the day she would finally see him play live.

So he was terrified to disappoint her.

"What if i mess up the lyrics?" he asked YN when she finally came to the greenroom, he had been pacing in.

"Then she will sing it to you."

"But what if she won't like hearing me live? I mean, it's- it's a possibility. What? Why are you giggling. I'm really stressed here, my darling."

"I'm so sorry." She kissed the crown of his head. "It's just that you're afraid of impossibility. There is no way she would laugh at you or be disappointed in you." YN stroke his hair, gently massaging it, bringing Harry peace.

"You sure?"

"I've never been more sure in my life."

"She'll like it." Harry reassured himself aloud.

"Yes, she will. Not only she loves you like her own grandchild, she's also nervous. This morning she facetimed me to help her pick up an outfit. She bought quite a few things after she saw some pictures of your fans on the internet." She laughed, finding it quite adorable.

"Did she?" Harry lifted his head from yn's lap. "Oh, bless her."

They spent the next few minutes in silence, letting Harry's heart to calm down and steady its pace.

"Wait, did you say that you've never been more sure about something in your life?" Harry eventually broke the silence.

"Yes?"

"So, you had doubts when I asked you to marry me?"

"Oh god."

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harryloveontour

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harryloveontour first look at harry at tonight's show in warsaw! it wasn't even the first minute, and he was already seen sending kisses towards yn!

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harrysmylife and it was not only for yn!!! her whole family is with her. even her grandparents.

⤷ stylesbabie omg, they must love him soooo so much

ynandhmyparents they are the sweetest couple i've ever seen, like ever

harrysmoustache is anybody live??? i need to experience this show, i have tissues ready

⤷ hArrysbtch hslotwarsaw is live and it's in such a good quality

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hslotwarsaw

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hslotwarsaw this is harry's reaction to seeing yn dancing with one of the fans during adore you!!!

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harryupdates omg, his reaction was priceless!!!!

hArrysbtch the way this man said "back off, my friend. she is taken. ring and all. no, no, no." he wa ready to jump from that stage to stop that man from hugging yn!

⤷ stylesbabie i mean, did that guy asked yn if that was okay?

⤷ lovingharry he did, you could see it on the videos that people already posted

harrysmoustache he's like "excuse me, man. that is my fiancée. MY fiancée."

harrysmylife oh, this concert just started and i know it's gonna be the best of all times

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lately you've been on my mind

honey, ah ah ah

The whole stadium was singing back to him. He could describe the feeling it awoke in him each time. It was similar but never the same. Especially today, everything seemed to touch him deeper, better, and clearer.

"Someone's stealing your girl, Styles"

Harry heard someone in his earpiece, making him stop singing. He played it cool by putting the mic towards the audience simultaneously looking for YN.

It didn't take him long. She was right where she promised to be. The space designed specifically for her family, not enclosed but clearly separated from the main audience. There she was dancing and laughing with some middle-aged guy.

Harry was a jealous person in nature. In particular when it came to his partners. He wasn't proud of it, and he definitely didn't have any way to believe that YN would sprint after every Tom, Dick and Harry. Every day she showed him how in love she was, there could be no way.

But here he was. Jaw clenched, not singing and glaring towards his fiancée.

"Harry, everything alright?" Again the voice in his earpiece.

YN stopped dancing, feeling that unmistakable eyes almost glued to her. Oh, it didn't look good.

"How you doin' Warsaw?!" Harry finally screamed into the microphone. The squeals, screems and whistles gave him all he wanted - distraction.

And when YN smiled at him so lovingly and sweetly, it was enough to carry him till this moment.

"Your sign says 'help me shoot my shot'. Is this person with you?" Harry asked the fan who was holding the very neat and colourful sign. Somehow he didn't recognise him from just a minutes ago.

"She's here."

"Wow! Your voice is so loud, man. But how do you want me to help you when she's here. She's next to you somewhere?"

And then if it would have been possible, Harry's jaw would touch the floor. That guy shamelessly pointed towards YN. Now he remembered.

People screamed so loudly, because everything was shown on the biggest screen behind the stage.

"Well, back off, my friend. She is taken. Ring and all. No, no, no." Harry tried to play it cool by laughing at the end. "And, as far as I'm concerned, we're not lookin' for the third one in the relationship."

Now the stadium was laughing along with the long 'ouuuu'.

"How did you know you'd be close to YN, anyway?"

"Manifesting."

"Manifesting?" Harry repeated so everyone could know the answer. "Well, you're doing it right, so I suggest betting or playing lottery. And, to be honest most importantly," he pressed. "Not stealing someone else's future wife!"

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harryupdates

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harryupdates harry introducing yn's grandmother at tonight's show.

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hArrysbtch she is the sweetest lady, my god. i love her even though i don't know her 🥹

harrysmoustache "this show is very special to me. here are my future parents in law as well as grandparents. hello, hi!" i still can't comprehend harry being engaged...

harrysmylife "granny, how are you doing? do you need anything? no? you're good? excellent! that's what I wanted to hear. please give it up for granny!" and the way he started clapping both of his hands and the whistling???? and then speaking in polish i think???

⤷ polisharry Yes! He said 'dziękuję, babcia że tu jesteś' which means 'thank you granny for being here

harryfan82 this show is sooo good

outofstyles did anybody see harry constantly looking towards that area, where yn's whole family is?

⤷ harrysmoustache absolutely! i can't imagine how nervous he is, considering it's the first (at least that we know of) time he sings in front of them

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hArrysbtch

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hArrysbtch HE WASN'T SUPPOSED TO PLAY MEDICINE BUT THE BAND STARTED IT WITHOUT HIS KNOWLEDGE. I CANT. HES REACTION IS PRICELESS. HES TERRIFIED.

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harryupdates he didn't even started it on cue, thank god the audience was so pumped up for it and sang it!

harrysmoustache "no no no no no. we weren't supposed to play it. sarah!" the fear and confusion in his voice was everything. they got him good.

outofstyles "you're gonna pay for it. all of you." this is so funny

stylesbabie the funniest thing is how when he started singing it, he was all touchy and sexy. it was like he forgot about the problem in the moment...

godstyles "granny's terrified" HARRY YOU DIDN'T PUT THE MICROPHONE DOWN, MAN

⤷ harrysmoustache but they showed granny being all smiley during medicine. i think she enjoyed it just like any other song!

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harryupdates

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harryupdates harry smiling while talking to yn's little cousin (yn was translating everything to her and then to harry). she then opened as it was with "harry, I wanna say goodnight to you"

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hArrysbtch i hate kids but that baby was so cute i wish i could squish her cheeks

harrysmoustache he was all smiles and gentle eyes while talking to her, he loves this family so much

styleslove i love when people are so open with their feelings for their partner's family

harrysfan081 so cute

stylesbabie give this man a child already

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hslotwarsaw

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hslotwarsaw harry after splashing water at yn and her family at the end of the show!

and with this photo, we're ending our 'photo-stream'. thank you all for helping us prepare all of the fan projects and thank you for welcoming harry so warmly in our country! till the next time!

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harryupdates you did amazing job!

hArrysbtch yn's granny got so happy at the moment harry decided to threaten her with a bottle

stylesbabie granny had a water gun and threatened harry back with it!!!!! it was soo cute, he run away laughing

harrysfan88 best show so far

harrysmylife "this one of the loudest show i can remember. and i know why. my fiancée's whole family is here. and believe me, they can make so much noise it's impressive!" my friend stood next ro them and confirmed, they were so loud during the whole set list!!

harryshands i can't imagine better way for harry to cope with this amount of pressure. he delivered one of the best performances in his life - sound and entertain wise. truly amazing

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"Harry, my sweet boy."

Harry turned 180° from the conversation he was having with Jeff to see the face of the lady with the heavy accent he knew so well.

"Babcia! (granny)" he exclaimed, jogging towards her and ambracing in a tight hug. "How I've missed you."

"You saw me yesterday, you."

"I know." He pulled away, still having his arm around granny. "But it's already been almost 24 hours. A long time, don't you think?"

Granny shook her head with a smile and placed her head on Harry's chest. She was rather exhausted from all the lights, noise, dancing and standing up for almost three hours.

"You wanna sit down, granny?" YN asked, squeezing her grandmothers arm in a way showing her she was nearby.

"Oh, yes. My legs aren't 20 years old as much as I would like them to be."

The three of them sat down on the green couch and talked about the show. Granny was impressed with all the fans having the time of their life, but specifically the ones that seemed to take in the show on their own terms.

"There were those two girls just hugging the whole time and singing softly all the songs. It was so lovely," granny explained.

"It's funny how they were two of very little to not use their phone during the show," commented someone in the room.

And before harry got the chance to defend people taking photos and recording, granny sat up straight.

"Well, in the 60s, my father took me to see The Beetles and I wish i had a camera then. It was such a magical moment that I would want it to be not only engraved in my mind but also on paper. I took so many photos of you, Harry. I need you to print them so I can show them to my friends on the next bingo evening."

YN nodded her head with a smile, not only planning to print the photos but putting the whole concert that harry recorded on the CD. Granny loved watching that type of thing on her telly.

"Harry," granny spoke up after a few moments. "I do have a question however."

"Ask away, granny."

"That song, medicine. What is it about?"

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dreamauri · 1 month

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♪ — 𝗪𝗜𝗥𝗘𝗗 𝗜𝗡? - part three max verstappen x reader (fluff) “. . . when he wants to be normal, he can count on you, stranger.”

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He thought he’d forgotten how to breathe, standing in his spot with his hands in his pockets, looking up at the chalkboard menu. You'd think he was a statue with how little he was moving. But then again, you weren't aware of who you were standing next to you.

"Y/N? Can we explore for a bit?" the two college-aged boys asked, making you peel your eyes off the list of foods to the interns, Max would assume. Out of the corner of his eyes, the blond could see you check your watch before nodding.

"Yeah, sure. There's plenty of time. Meet me back here in an hour and a half so we can head over to the circuit. Deal?" Oh, that was definitely your voice. You were his Y/n. The way you talked and your voice and accent. He could now put a face to your voice, no more profile pictures.

"Deal! Thanks, Y/n." "See ya, Y/n."

"Take care, guys." Max didn't expect to run into you so soon, or be this close to you at all, even. He watched as you waved to the two interns who excitedly jogged out.

Don't come off as a creep, Max reminded himself, shaking his head and taking a step forward in the direction of the register. He'll just act cool, normal. Get himself something to drink and sit down. That helped calm him down a little, just like any other indifferent person.

It's very unfortunate for Max that his inner peace never lasts so long. Not that it was a bad thing he bumped into you. There is nothing wrong with accidentally stepping forward at the same time as you. It's just not good for his heart. Max already has to meet fans today and get in the car for fp2 and 3. You're just making his brain go haywire a little too much that he feels his eyes are going to turn static and face turning the shade of Charles' Ferrari.

"Sorry." He tried to apologise, stepping back, feeling his body stiff and turning to stone.

"Désolée," you went to apologise only to look up and meet eyes with the three time world champion. "oh- im so sorry."

"No, it's ok." Max smiled nervously, meeting your eyes for the first time, which honestly made him feel mesmerised.

"Here, you can go," you stepped back, offering the blond to step to the cashier.

"No, no. Ladies first." he shook his head, cutting you off when you went to argue back. "—I insist."

Max was kind of disappointed that you felt so nervous and acted so polite upon recognizing him. He wished you would've treated him like normal, the same way you talk to him as amilian or the same way you would talk to a stranger who wasn't looking where he was going and bumped into you.

He knows it's not fair that he's pushing his expectations on you, though. Anyone would react the same way upon meeting a very important or famous person. Max just wished he was standing beside you in line instead of behind you. Having a friendly conversation, telling you how much you'll love the cheesecake.

He'll have to settle for sitting on a table not too far from you for now, sipping from his paper cup while scrolling through his phone.

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y/n — 'I bumped into Max 😓'

Max himself, glanced up to where you were sitting, catching you looking away quickly, face turning a deep shade of red.

y/n — 'And now he thinks I'm stalking him!!' y/n — 'million help 😭😭'

Max chuckled slightly, feeling his heart ease. You were overthinking things. He wished he could sit beside you and pat your back until you calmed down. But he can't really do that, can he? Max calming you down after you get all nervous and anxious meeting him? The situation gets sadly funnier the further Max plays into it and thinks about it.

Max — 'What did you do ⁉️' he sent back in the chat

y/n — 'I went to the café you told me about, and i think i accidentally stepped on his foot 😭😭' y/n — 'I ruined his shoes! And he needs his foot to drive the car!!!' y/n — 'He must hate me' y/n — 'He saw me looking at him too' y/n — 'Must think i’m a weirdo

"Not at all." He mumbled, a soft smile covering his face. You're just feeling anxious. He could care less about his shoes, and his foot is fine. He didn’t even realise you stepped on it. 'relax, deep breath' he sent, seeing you fill your chest and release as told.

Max — 'you're fine' 'don't overthink things'

y/n — '🥺' You were actually pouting.

Max — 'Do you want me to text him and apologise on your behalf?'

A weird offer. Apologising to himself for you even though he wasn’t mad, but grateful he saw you today.

y/n — 'NO!!!!' 'NO NO NO!'

Max — 'Do you want me to get you a pass for the meet and greet?'

y/n — 'THAT'LL MAKE IT WORSEEE'

Max — 'Ok, ok'

Max thought for a moment, sitting back. 'Count from one to ten' He was actually surprised that you did as told, listening to him, closing your eyes and taking a deep breath for ten seconds.

Max — 'What did you order?' Start a conversation, comfort and distract her. He's good at that.

y/n — 'A mocha, the one you told me about'

Max — 'You should try the cheesecake, the one with strawberry jam on top.' He typed back.

y/n — 'I didn't see that on the menu?'

Max — 'Trust me' Max — 'You'll love it'

y/n — 'Ok, ok, i trust you a million' y/n — ‘But not right now’ y/n — 'I'll stop by after finishing with stuff at McLaren’ y/n — 'I'm not hungry rn’ y/n — 'Wish you were here'

Max — 'Yeah, i'd be stealing that cheesecake from you'

y/n — 'Don't you dare!! 😠'

Max chuckled, you were really expressive with your face as you typed. He saw you frowning to match the emoji, but there was still a hint of a smile. He liked that smile, he loved it. He loved you overall.

You were real. If only Amilian was real. If only he could sit beside you and tease and joke with you.

Max — '🫵😏' 'Max texted me!'

y/n — 'WHAT?!!!!????!!'

He could see you jump in your seat a little before trying to act cool even though it was clear you were anxious.

Max — 'He texted me about a cute girllllll who he bumped intooooo'

y/n — 'AMILIAN COME PICK ME UPP 😭'

He couldn't help the smile that curled on his face.

Max — 'I’m joking, I’m joking' Max — 'hahaha' He leaned back, sighing happily.

y/n — 'ofc you are' y/n — 'No way he thinks i'm cute'

Max — 'I mean you dress up like it's fashion week' Max — 'Compared to him, he could use some advice'

y/n — 'His outfit is actually not that bad today' y/n — 'Baggy white pants!!' y/n — 'And a blue shirt!!!!!'

Max — 'Wow, you serious?' Max — 'No way' He typed even though he is wearing that.

y/n — 'tbh it makes him look even more pretty'

Max — 'Pretty?’ Max — ‘He's a guy'

y/n — 'What, a guy can’t be pretty?' y/n — 'Max is cute’ y/n — ‘Especially when he's having fun and smiling'

Max — 'The guy looks like a gremlin.' He didn’t even realise he was smiling, feeling fuzzy inside. Max — ’Sid the sloth, Netflix rerun’

y/n — 'Don't insult him!!' y/n — 'Take it back' y/n — 'He’s handsome and beautiful and amazing!' y/n — 'Any woman would be lucky to have him'

Max — 'You just dug your own grave' Max — 'I believe you fall into the *any woman* category'

y/n — 'No no no, pleasee' y/n — 'You'll embarrass me'

Max —’That's my job’ Max — 'I'll simply put in a good word for you'

y/n —'amiliaaaaaan 😭😭'

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phxntomsdusk · 4 months

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YAY 100 FOLLOWERS IM SO HAPPY FOR YOUUU :)

request!!

Cc!Wilbur X reader who has panic attacks often

the reader goes to one of wilbur’s concerts, excited to see their boyfriend play.

but the room suddenly is very loud.. and very full..

readers breath hitches, they can’t calm down, and they rush out to the bathrooms (or maybe outside idk)

wilbur sees them, starts to panic, and rushes through the show.

after the show, he searches for reader in a panic, finally finding them in a quiet corner of the building.

idk how to finish it lmao

OKAY BYE LUV U

Anxious - Wilbur x GN!Reader

summary: the ask!!

warnings: panic attack, comfort/fluff at the end

tags: @ax-y10 , @joviepog , @pheliiaa , @idontreallyexistyet , @rqvii , @vibestillaxxx , @haunted-headset , @ivvees-blog , @average-vibe , @lillylvjy (ask to be added!)

word count: 440

You loved attending Wilbur’s gigs, there was just one problem. The amount of people.

It wasn’t that the fans were rude or horrible, it was just the worst place for an anxious person to be! Being stuck in a crowd of screaming teenagers and young adults, the bright lights flashing over everyone, the loudness and the screaming— it was the literal concoction for a panic attack.

Which leads us to now; you standing off to the side, hands clutching the ends of your sleeves as you attempted to calm your nerves. You wanted to be there to support your boyfriend, but it was so difficult with so many people around you.

You didn’t hate the fans, they all adored you, but having some of them recognize you was scary. You didn’t expect your breathing to get so rapid, your palms to get sweaty, and your heart rate to race.

You were praying that one of the security guards would let you backstage, you had a pass after all. But you couldn’t get to them!

You didn’t even see Wilbur staring at you, causing him to tell everyone that they’d cut the last two songs so he could quickly get you out of there.

By the time Lovejoy was done, you found comfort in a corner near the bar, the bartender started conversation with you and got you a bottle of water. He was quick to make his way over to you, excusing himself from fans who were asking for pictures, politely explaining he needed to check out an emergency / important manner.

“Love, hey, you alright?” His arms found their way around you, pulling you close as he kissed the top of your head.

“Yeah, just got really nervous. The lights, noise, it was just— really overwhelming.” You sighed and leaned into his touch, thanking the lady who gave you the water before following Wilbur backstage.

He had pulled you into a private room, offering you some of the snacks that were back there, and let you sit on the tiny futon in the corner. “You know, you could have easily went backstage first.” He chuckled softly, wrapping an arm around you.

“I know.. but I wanted to see you preform from the crowd. It looked way cooler.” You smiled and looked up at him with a warm gaze, to which he matched before leaning down to softly kiss you.

The kiss lasted only a few moments, his forehead resting against yours.

“I love you, and I’m happy you showed up.” He spoke softly, his hand rubbing your side. “I love you too, and I’m glad I showed up as well.

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meloriri · 11 months

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bsd 108 spoilers !!! + F Dostoevsky’s crime and punishment spoilers i guess

im not totally convinced that fyodor’s act was completely fake honestly and ill explain why! this is just a quick thought not fully thought out so bare with me

i’m sure this is common knowledge but character backstory and personalities tend to be ripped from the author’s works rather than the actual author’s personality. Example; Akutagawa and the mc of rashoumon, dazai and the mc if no longer human, etc. if not inspired by the main character, they’re inspired by the theme of that work or many of the author’s works

f dostoevsky’s crime and punishment is a novel that follows Raskolnikov, a main character who literally kills someone because he thinks he’s special and he can. ( obviously a lot more in depth in the book lol) the book follows him in the first segment committing his crime and another segment of him receiving “punishment.” The first part is actually over fairly fast but it’s still really important to note.

while Raskolnikov is a lot more anxious and cautious than fyodor, i still see the personalities intersect. Raskolnikov goes on about how he’s going to commit this murder and thinks that it actually makes him a saviour because the woman he wanted to kill was a bad person. aka; he’s killing this lady because it’ll make the world a better place, according to him. Sounds familiar? Fyodor in BSD does his wrong doings claiming its to cleanse the world from evil. I’m sure most people already know this, but I thought I’d catch you up anyway. Raskolnikov is a man of few words, never seeming to lose his composure past the drop of a facial expression. He’s incredibly intelligent in most regards and because of that he overlooks his own flaws. He’s also kind of neurotic, he talks to himself, does things on impulse, etc. He’s not good at socializing and yet he can blend effortlessly into conversations with others. He feels a lack of remorse at any of his wrong doings. I see all these traits easily in BSD’s Fyodor.

However, in the second half of the novel, Raskolnikov faces some changes. He says he doesn’t feel guilty, and he still believes he’s in the right, and yet there’s a sense of guilt in his inner conscience that’s eating away at him. Suddenly, he gets nervous, expressive, emotional, he’s rushing to defend himself because he thinks what he did is justified because of his circumstances. He thinks he needs help. Raskolnikov doesn’t face actual punishment for his crimes until the very end of the novel, instead he struggles with the inner turmoil of knowing what he did. In the most recent chapter, Fyodor has this personality switch break down where he screams out for help and basically says he cant control it because of his ability and thats not his true self, referring to the him that apathetically kills others. Similarly, Raskolnikov breaks down multiple times in the novel, saying that the him that did that doesn’t represent him fully, that he couldn’t control it, etc. He victimizes himself, saying it’s because he’s poor and ill. In fact, he tells another character named Sonia that he cant control it because he is ill. Sounds familiar?

Raskolnikov backtracks several times in the novel, reverting back to his apathetic personality before breaking down all over again. At one point, he even confesses his entire crime, before suddenly taking on a light carefree looking and claiming to have been kidding. Literally EXACTLY what just happened with Sigma in the manga.

I don’t fully believe that Fyodor was telling the truth, but I don’t think it was all just a lie like he claimed. I personally think that the note and gun WAS from himself, that he wrote the “help me” in a similar crazed panic and hid it away. When he saw it, he was reminded and broke down again, accidentally spilling a bit too much truth in what he said. He snaps back into being normal after calming down and acts like he’s still in the other personality to trick Sigma. And, given what he said, this is somehow related to his ability.

How is it related to his ability? I have NO fucking idea. Though we have seen Fyodor with another form of himself in dead apple claiming to “crime” and “ punishment” which would check out perfectly here, theres too many other contradictions for me to be confident in that at all

What do you think??? I’m going to work through my thoughts about his ability more. then maybe I’ll add to this :)

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #bungo sd #fyodor bsd #fyodor analysis #character analysis #bsd 108

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archie-sunshine · 5 months

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PLEASE assign each tom cardy song an mtmte pairing 🫶

OKAY IM GONNA DO JUST SOME OF MY FAVOURITES REALLY QUICKLY

High Five- Rodimus(/driftrod if you want). I have a full animatic planned for this song with Rodimus and I’m not kidding. Could there be better fits? Maybe, but I think it’s VERY funny to imagine Rodimus overreacting crazy style about not getting a high five from drift

Paint That Lady- okay hear me out on Minirung. I like the idea of minimus being the pov here, like I know how my hcs are but I’ve seen some great takes of minimus being really nervous about having normal vanilla sex with rung while rung is just like calmly waiting for him to stop being anxious.

Naughty or Nice- I think it would be really funny to do Tyrest for this tbh. I think it’d be hilarious, with minimus/Magnus as Jeffery trying to convince him to be normal- JFJFHDBBS god it’s really funny to me

Hey, I Don’t Work Here- Whirl. It’s whirl. In my head it would be SO good to have him as this. It’s very much his energy what else can I say-

Your Love Is Not Enough(I’d like some cool shit too)- Driftrod. Never forget that Rodimus is dead broke and drift is literally his sugar daddy. Yes I know I have driftrod brain rot but listen to me. I’m cooking

Red Flags- Cygate. Like I know the bit everyone listens to is the part where the guy is terrified but if you get through it they do end up in love. Their double freak energy isn’t talked about enough!!! I need them to be double freaks.

Mixed Messages- Okay don’t fucking kill me but I could make such a good comedy animatic about getaway and tailgate. PLEASE listen to me when I say it’d be so fucking funny to have the visual of getaway punching the absolute shit out of megatrons dick as tailgates ‘dad’

Flirt(with your dad)- dratchet(+Rodimus being tortured by drift and ratchet who are bullying him) like clearly I ship dratchrod so I don’t consider ratchet rodimus’ dad or anything, but it’s just REALLY funny to me that drift and ratchet would bond over mutually bullying the absolute shit out of him in a nonsexy just mean way.

SO YEAH THESE ARE MY TAKES PLEASE TELL ME YOUR THOUGHTS

#transformers #archie answers #rodimus #driftrod #dratchet #cygate #whirl #cyclonus #drift #tailgate #getaway #minirung #minimus #rung #tyrest

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writteninlunarlight-years · 27 days

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hi :D!!! was wondering if you were still doing matchups? if so, i would like to request a bg3 match up with any of the ladies :3 also i wasn’t sure if i was supposed to describe me or my tav, but its pretty much a self insert so i hope this is ok hehe THANKS AGAIN OK LOVE YOU BYE <3

gender: trans man

pronouns: he/they

sexuality: i honestly have no idea lol, i prefer woman by a longshot though!!!

appearance: i’m 5’8” ish (~173 cm) and about 200 pounds (~91 kilos), olive skin with a bit of facial hair/stubble. i have kinda built arms and legs and a nice loveable tummy. pre top surgery though so i am always in a binder and baggy shirt. i’m growing out my mullet atm so my hair is kind of a mess but! it’s dark brown and curly :) i have lots of tattoos and piercings! my clothing style is usually some giant graphic tee and work pants with some converse or something. if i’m actually trying though, i kind of dress like a grandpa hehe

mtbi: infp, enneagram is either 2 or 4, it changes every time i take it lol

personality: gemini sun virgo moon gemini rising (don’t really care for astrology tbh), initially i am very reserved and quiet, but not like cold or aloof or anything! im just extremely nervous and shy!! i have been described as intimidating but i dont see it at ALL so take that with a grain of salt i suppose. once i’ve opened up though, i really enjoy making others laugh so i will take every opportunity to do so, even if it makes me look like an idiot lol. i tend to miss a LOT of social cues, so i usually come across as very awkward and weird, but i’ve gotten pretty good at playing it off

likes: i LOVE everything about music!! i play over 5 instruments, i listen to every genre (yes even country), and i’ve been playing in either ensembles, orchestras, or bands since i was 11. i was even a music major once upon a time! outside of music, i like cats (my cats are my favorite lol but i don’t discriminate!), video games, and occasionally reading

dislikes: i have pretty bad sensory issues so i fucking HATE places like malls, grocery stores, large department stores, etc. i also don’t like a majority of social situations with people i don’t already know, i always feel so awkward and get anxious. this one really gets people, but i don’t like a lot of foods that are widely considered to be good. for example, i dislike mac and cheese, potatoes, ketchup, and most fruits. every time i tell someone this, they literally act like i just confessed to murder

extra fun fact: i am a giant nerd. like i cannot state it enough I AM A NERD! my friends use me like human google all the time, and most of the time i have the answer 😭 not trying to imply that i’m a genius or something, i just hear a fun fact or random piece of information and then never ever forget it (did you know that for a majority of the year, the closest planet to earth is not venus or mars. it’s mercury!!)

BG3 extra:

race: half wood elf

class: wild magic sorcerer

alignment: neutral good

Don't Worry—I still have yours!! I was perplexed when I saw your PFP twice, lol. Sorry for the long wait, but here is your Match!! Also, as a Midwestern/Southerner, I enjoy the genre of Country, lol. ( I, too, am a nerd; I am my family's personal Calculator, though, lol)

~~~~~ MATCHUPS ~~~~~

Baldur's Gate 3

Shadowheart

~~~~~ HEADCANONS ~~~~~

Shadowheart is one to keep to herself as well. She likes the mysterious quiet. However, she did not oppose the notion of you being the group's leader.

She sees your anxiety around new people as a hindrance and a diversion. While you are awkwardly talking to others, she can use this time to gather hidden information or send Astarion on a pickpocketing hunt.

Your tics and antics may have frustrated her initially, but as you all grew to know one another, she found them sweet and endearing.

Soon, whenever a passerby points out your flaw, she is the first and last to defend you. (Miss Ma'am always has to get the last word in)

Shadowheart worked hard to earn your trust, and you worked hard to earn hers. Soon, you two were inseparable, for good or bad.

Shadowheart took your courting very seriously and ensured everyone at camp knew you were hers. She is a princess, after all, and gets what she wants.

If you are having a tough day around people, Shadowheart will be there to help. She has no problem leading things whenever you need her to.

When you two fight enemies, it is like watching the ocean move. You two are constantly in sync, and your health never drops below 50.

When you two officially start dating and make it public to everyone, she enjoys holding hands and soft pecks on the cheek. She is still a private person, but no harm in making sure the world knows she loves you.

When you two part ways from the others after the final battle, Shadowheart and you take on a tavern of your own in Baldurs Gate. She runs the finances and shipments while you run the entertainment and bar.

~~~~~ BLURB ~~~~~

The grove had been successfully saved. However, not every person at your party was ecstatic that you had made this choice; however, you knew you had made the right choice. With your camp full of new and old faces, you smiled, knowing that this was what you were made for right then. Though saving everyone was great and all, the loud, drunken party happening was the last thing you cared to participate in. You make your rounds to your companions to tell them when you will pack up and head out; you spot Shadowheart pouring herself a glass of wine. As you finish speaking to Karlach, you stand before the princess of the night.

Shadowheart smiles at you, gently extending a glass to you before speaking, "I knew you weren't quite the party type. I am surprised you even allowed this to happen at our camp." You laugh gently, nodding along, taking a swig of the wine. Looking out on your camp, you may not be one for large gatherings, but this was wholesome for the journey ahead. You turned back to Shadowheart as she spoke again, "We could escape from here for a while, allow you time to have a real reprieve from an intense battle versus throwing yourself into more uncomfortable situations." She always knew when you grew discontent with situations and quickly altered your group's direction. Though you may be the leader, your love and compassion for Shadowheart soon made her your second in command, much to Lazel's displeasure.

You nodded briefly to Shadowheart as she gently grabbed your hand and led you to a rock face far from camp. Privacy was excellent, and it allowed your mind to run freely for once since you were tasked with killing the Goblins. As you lounged back, sipping on the wine, Shadowheart looked at you. A simple conversation between you two led to something more intent and kind through the night. That night, you two decided to flourish in your relationship and walk through life together. Once dawn approached you, Shadowheart sat in your lap, staring out into the horizon. You gently moved some hair from her face. You smiled gently, whispering, "Because of you, my world may now be complete; fight with me, Shadowheart, and let our hearts beat as one once we are free again."

~~~~~ EXTRA ~~~~~

(You and Shadowheart had broken off from the group for the evening, taking a short stroll through Baldurs Gate. Thinking about what the future will have in store for you two as you approach the final battle)

Y/N: Princess, what if a life without Shar is genuinely not what you want. I do not want you to feel forced into a life of tavern-keeping with me.

Shadowheart: My goddess has already abandoned me since the trials. I am content now as long as I have you by my side, my love.

Y/N: When did you become so romantic? Weren't you always the brooding, icy-hearted mystery girl?

Shadowheart: That may have been me in the past, but as I have helped you through your trials, you have helped me, and I am grateful for that.

Y/N: (Smiles softly at the woman and leans in to kiss her)

Shadoheart: (places a hand on Y/N's lips, a large smirk evident on her face) However, since you seem to want to pick on me this evening, I could always return to being a brat.

Y/N: Oh, is that so? I am very sure I can handle it, my sweet. (Sweet kisses intensify)

#x reader #bg3 #baulders gate 3 #match up #bg3 x reader #headcanon #baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 #shadowheart x reader #shadowheart bg3 #shadowheart

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girlwithfish · 5 months

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hmm ystrdy i was feeling a lil off when i woke up and he asked if i wanted to call and we talked a bit and i felt like Better after talking to him abt what i was anxious abt isnt that wild. and then im like do u still want me to come over and hes like of course lolol why wouldnt i and im like umm bc im annoying for having emotions and being an anxious girl duh. then i came over. i was like late too i always am im trying to work on punctuality like if i say a time im gonna mean it IDK its my worst trait. like if theres any vague time in the air i def just am not good at sticking to thaf i was onlg a lil late but i remember he called me cuz he was coming back from the laundromat and got to his place a min after i did and said sorry for being late and im like its ok i am too lolol and he teased me abt it but hes always sweet abt it he texted me dw abt being late take ur time and drive slow. and then we ran errands together couple trips to the laundromat and i made us eggs and i drew a little picture on his whiteboard and he took a pic of me w it and sent it to his friend they said they hope i ruin him 😭 and we just did mundane shit i helped him sort his clothes he said im a Helper and i realize i like being useful lolol and hes like used to doing all the work in his past relationships w cleaning and sruff and so am i its kinda funny and we both also like driving as a control thing but i actually dont mind being passenger princess bc hes a pretyy normal safe driver so i dont feel nervous in the car at all and since were in his town idm him driving since he knows the area and i let him drive my car lolol. we went to the laundromat and also dollar tree and then made pizza and idk i watched him play celeste and i kinda forget what else we did not too much cuz i was kinda tired lol and i dont even rly remember falling asleep. and then he woke me up this morning to remind me abt my therapy appt and brought me coffee in bed it was kinda sweet okayy and then the cat kept opening the door bc the bedroom door opens rly easily so the cat can open it and he took the cat and put him in his office room and like blocked the door w a bunch of dhit so the cat wldnt get out and bother me it was cyoot and then we just talked while i colored and idk we went to the library and thriftstore it was fun!!!! and he said he likes my hair down a lot but he doesn't want me to wear it down only bc he likes it and the lady at the thrift store was very nice and also the lady at the library too we were talkjng abt using email addresses we made up when we were like a kid hah and then me n him just browsed for a long time and each got four books ;3 and he said he really values my company and idk its sweet..........and he said every time i kiss him i kinda push him back on accidentand he has to remember bc hell kind of fall back bc i kiss kinda hard or go into him LOL i didnt realize i do that. and its cute he walks me to the car and waves at me from the door while im sitting there for at least 4min setting up my music and gps. yayy

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Heard you’re doing an omegaverse schlatt x reader…. and I kinda wanna give a couple of my idea if that’s okay with you!

Anyways!

It would be very hot and interesting if you sprinkled a couple omega!schlatts in the sea of alpha!schlatts.

Like, he looks like a very handsome alpha, but surprise! surprise! He’s an alpha presenting omega on suppressants and some sort of circumstances ether lead alpha!reader is discover him in full omega mode w/o suppressants OR a smear campaign exposed his omega status (cause he’s like a CEO, president, boss, king, leader person, rich, etc) and he has to be mated ASAP lest terrible things would happen to him and alpha!reader is the only one he could trust to mate him.

Que him being really insecure about his body and questioning whether or not he’s a good omega and alpha!reader being the sweetest thing in the entire world (bonus points for being omega presenting) and being like ‘Noooo! Babe, you’re such a good omega, you’re so beautiful rn and oh my god oh my god-‘ and then schlatt fucking cries because he has a neglected praise kink (as he should, poor man’s been through shit).

So essentially, alpha!reader taking taking care of omega!schlatt during his heat cause anon’s (me) caretaker instincts are going out of wack!

Also, sub!schlatt and chubby!dadbod!thicc!schlatt supremacy!

anon, i love you.

thinking thoughts of cowboy!schlatt, who ran away from bis wealthy family to finally be free from the oppressive weight of his omega status. he’s been good at hiding, his attitude, occupation, and the musky smell of dirt and smoke that covers him has people assuming he couldn’t possibly be an omega. everyone’s fooled, except you.

a fellow runaway yourself, you’re an expert tracker who fled an arranged marriage to live in the woods, hiding your alpha status from others (as women being alphas was seen as unladylike and wrong) and allowing them to assume you were just an omega or beta. you often hired to help people with more muscle catch fugitives for their bounty, resulting in you working with schlatt a lot. your above average sense of smell that made you such a good tracker always seems too catch something off about schlatt, and the way the cocky man is so nervous and avoidant around you unless necessary furthers your suspicions about the man. no one believes you though, it was rare and looked down upon for a man to be an omega, so how could the tough and well respected schlatt possibly be one?

that’s all it was, suspicions. until the man you two were tracking was much more clever than usual, resulting in you and schlatt tracking him for longer than expected. you figured schlatt just had important business, perhaps a lady waiting for him, that caused him to be so anxious the longer the two of you were stuck tracking — until you smelt a sickly sweet smell coming from the man’s tent one night. a smell you instinctually knew to be of an omega in heat.

high key wanna write this now!! i’ll add it to my wip list!

also, im a fellow dadbod!schlatt lover. good taste

#omega!schlatt #anon #alyssia answers

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spectralpooch · 8 months

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rambling about my relationship to the horror genre

been watching a bunch of horror films lately and im thinking about the, like, artificial (as in manufactured, not necessarily "fake") sensation of fear you get from horror media... and why i willingly watch horror movies because i like the thrill of being scared. it's fun! it's exciting! it's uncomfortable but in a way that's in my control!

and yet i'm also a very anxious guy and am easily unsettled by scary imagery. and the unease i get when i'm going about my life afterwards with the scary stuff still stuck in my brain is NOT something i particularly enjoy. (and yet i also do? and i'm disappointed when i'm not scared by a horror film once it's over.)

anyway this wasn't my initial point... i'm thinking about what it is that i'm actually "afraid of" when i think about scary scenes from a horror movie.

like, for instance, that scene in hereditary where toni colette sees her dead mom just standing there nonchalantly in the corner for like one frame. that still freaks me out when i think about it! but im not afraid of the grandma from hereditary actually, like, being in my house and hurting me. because that wouldn't actually happen, so it's not scary. i'm afraid of... the feeling of getting scared?

like if i turned around and grandma was standing there smiling at me like she does in the movie... that'd be scary! but when i play out the scenario, it stops being scary... because then what'd happen? i can't imagine past that because that'd be applying the world of the film to my actual real life. i'm not actually scared of this impossible scenario of that old lady spawning in my room.

but i AM scared of that second of pure horror when i turn around and SEE that old lady standing in my room. and imagining my own reaction to that is enough to freak me out.

the same thing happened to me when i was playing subnautica (the closest thing to an actual horror game i've played, because i'm too nervous to play anything scarier). i'd get soo scared of running into a reaper leviathan and would take so many precautions to avoid it. but then, when i decided to face my fears and just swam into one to see what'd happen, i had to intentionally stick around for a long time to get it to actually kill me, and afterwards i just respawned with very little in-game penalty.

it turns out running into a reaper was actually no big deal and didn't merit all that anxiety. and YET!!! i was still scared of running into it!! because i was scared of... being scared of it.

i enjoy being scared when i'm choosing to watch a horror movie and can expect that i will experience scary things within the next one/two hour time frame. but the idea of being scared at any time, either while i'm going about my business in subnautica or irl, is very scary!! even though it's!! the same physical sensation!!

brains are funny. and idk. it's nice to be scared over silly stuff like that. i don't like it, but it makes me feel like a person, so i appreciate it.

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sanchoyoscribbles · 1 year

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It's been a while, but have another oc for my lil ygo fanseries! This is Yawaraka, he's Yunori's coworker at Chronocorp and Kind of but Not Exactly the main villain? (is it ygo without a possession situation...) full bio and backstory under the cut :)

⏳ Yawaraka Hitsuji ⏳

⏳Age 24

⏳Deck theme: Extremely Soft/cute Monsters. More specifically, his deck is a spellcaster/fairy hybrid...lots of cute girl cards :p His ace is a card called Hourglass Magi, a princessy looking pretty lady card themed around time. ...The thing is, he actually plays with TWO decks. the other one is still cutesty cards, but...considerably weaker and less cohesive. He...gets nervous in duels so has a 'bad' deck so he can lose the duel on purpose. because he feels BAD if he wins and prefers to be considered a loser or bad at the game if it means boosting someone else's mood. Yes, he's a SWEET DORK. yes, the main charas take mild offense to this bc they take it as not real wins and they bully him into trying his best. friendship :)

⏳ He applied to work at ChronoCorp a few months before Yunori and is still kinda a newbie like Yunori is. They bond over both bein the new kids on the job so to speak. They're in different departments (Yawaraka's in IT, Yunori is a horologist, that's why their uniforms have diff colored accents, to denote their departments) but they still get lunch together :)

⏳He's more reserved than Yunori, and less of a history otaku than she is, but he likes listening to her ramble on. And he loves tech! And she listens to him and doesn't just write him off! They're both pretty anxious people so they kinda bond over being nerds lol, and when her sidereal ring gets messed up, he can fix it…He's SUPER supportive of her. On the other hand, he's lowkey scared of Majo…

⏳Oh, yeah, while Yunori is going on Time Adventures, he mostly is the one covering for her (he does join on occasion, but mostly he's the guy in the chair holding the fort back at ChronoCorp) he finds himself moving up in the ranks VERY quickly and the boss (who no one has SEEN btw) giving him very Special Treatment, or certain things are forgiven when he does lil tasks to get Yunori out of trouble… even tho he's kinda the type of guy to do the bare minimum at work? he's not overly Passionate about this particular job over any other tech job, and he thinks, you know, 'I'm just some Guy they hired off the streets, why would I be Moving Up So fast??'

⏳And as it turns out, the boss is Him From the Future who's hellbent on becoming immortal through the power of ChronoCorp (or, time travel as a means to possess his younger self repeatedly so he won't age. He…came back to the past to establish ChronoCorp in the first place, too, implying he's kind of stuck in a time loop himself??) to further the research on the sidereal jewellery, (which is a set of earrings (belonging to Koeru now) the ring (belonging to Yunori) and the necklace (with him) the jewellery originated from a Godess of Time (who of course is a duel monster spirit…) who's power is on the level of like, the god cards…) he's harmed a LOT of people (koeru being the prime example, her grudge against him is JUSTIFIED)

⏳but. Yawaraka from the present is just a bumbling unaware guy and is like ??? when Koeru tries to kill him of course. he is never AWARE when he gets possessed by future!yawaraka, lol. he has to have the situation explained to him AFTER they beat future!yawaraka the first time, and hes like '??? I wouldnt do that wtf im so sorry T_T' poor guy. and uh. future!yawaraka just Keeps hoppin into his body whenever, which Sucks

⏳It's heavily implied future!Yawaraka's goal was originally to try and prevent EVERY major tragedy in history with an army of time traveling duelists once he'd learned enough about the sidereal jewellery. But along the way he got…sidetracked and had a power trip. He justifies all of this by saying any damage he does he can time travel and undo…(not the case with people like Koeru, either)

⏳ Our Yawaraka completely rejects this ofc and tells Yunori she's his bestie and he'd NEVER become evil, he Promises. and he remains helpful and faithful to helping her in any way he can, becoming the proper CEO of ChronoCorp at the end of the series with a little guidance from Majo, (since future him did technically…create the company in the past, it's His…) and he vows to do away with the Sketchy Stuff, and asks Yunori to help him if even just on a consultant basis bc shes obv SO passionate about it.

⏳Koeru never really Forgives him (even tho it wasn't present Yawaraka's fault exactly and she was the one who ends up beating future him in a 3 on one duel, with Yunori and Majo vs him) but he tries VERY hard to at least make sure she can live comfortably and tries to take accountability… at the end of the series the entire jewellery set is given to Yunori bc he rly does start to get Tempted to Use it :')

⏳ Since the main chara of SR! is a girl I figured it was only fitting to make the sort of bestie cheerleader character be a dude. and also the villain bc that's fun. B)

#ygo oc #ygo sr!#yugioh oc #yugioh #yawaraka hitsuji #koeru mukō #ocs #original #his hair is based on lil ram/sheepy horns :3 hes just a silly little guy

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straykidzstay · 11 months

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Small Victories Pt. 3

The paring is Han Jisung x F!Reader. The reader isn't into K-Pop but when your best friend gets your friend group a position in a contest to win a chance to preform with stray kids. You may not want to do it but you will do anything for Gwen. What can happen its not like you'll win.

Talks about some social anxiety also im most likely posting two parts today, hopefully

This was the final week before the competition and I was starting to get scared that we might win. Today we had to go into the JYP Company building for interviews. Riding in the car with three of the seven other members in our group. Staring out the window all I could think about was how today was going to take forever. We are one of four groups competing, that's so many people. Hopefully we would be the first group on the roster. While I was stuck in my thoughts I felt Gwen tap my shoulder.

“Hey are you there, we've been talking to you.” I looked at her then to my other friends. They all seemed concerned.

“Sorry guys!” I scratched the back of my head. “I was just thinking about how stressful today is going to be.”

Mindy looked at me from the passenger seat. “It's going to be okay!” she smiled at me reassuringly.

Piper waved to me from the front seat, “yeah they are gonna love you kid!” Piper was the oldest out of all of us. She was 24 while the rest of us were 21 or 22. We often looked up to her like she was our mom, she was perfect for that role.

Gwen leaned over and whispered to me “I know it's a lot of people, that makes you anxious.” She places her hand on my shoulder. “Just have fun and it'll be okay, I promise.” I just have to put on an act before I know how to sell myself. Working as a commissions artist I constantly have to sell myself.

Assuring my friends id be okay we arrived at the building. Getting out we were escorted inside. I was shocked to not see the other groups in the waiting room. Maybe this wouldn't take long, I thought as I sat next to gwen.

She smiled at me “So did you tell Peter about the contest?” she asked me innocently.

Quickly looking at her embarrassed. “No, I told him I'd be busy with family today.”

“So you lied?” she asked me, raising her eyebrow at me.

Shocked, I brought my hand to my chest. “I'll have you know all of you bitches are my family.” throwing my hands out i shrugged, “so technically not a lie.”

“Still a lie!” Fefe added from the chair to my left. The group laughed together while I rolled my eyes.

“Shut it all of you.” I crossed my arms as a JYP representative approached us.

“Hello ladies!” The man smiled at us waving. “I would like for you all to break up into two groups. We will be conducting the interview in two different rooms.” we all nodded in response quickly breaking up. “Perfect! Just be yourselves I feel like you all will do great!” He led my group to a room telling us some one would call us in the room when they were ready.

Looking at my group, it was Gwen, Me, Amber, and Mindy. We all looked nervous, I just wondered who would be sitting behind that table. A few minutes passed and we heard a distant ‘come in’ from the other side of the door. Walking in the room there was a table where four men sat. It was Felix, Han, Chan, and Chagbin. On the other side of the table about six feet away was a long couch where we all quickly sat. sitting down i looked down at my hands when i looked up i made eye contact with Han. He was staring at me confused. I began to wonder if something was on my face. He realized where he was and snapped his gaze away from mine.

“Thank you so much for being here today ladies!” Chan said this warmly, smiling at us. “We have a few questions for you today!” we all smiled back at him saying hello and waving.

“Let's start with the easiest one: what are your names?” Felix said giving all of us a welcoming smile, Felix was very pretty in person. We told them our names. They all smiled at us telling us we had beautiful names. When I said my name Han seemed shocked but he didn't say anything.

After a few generic questions we all had a few good laughs. Then we got into more complex questions. “This is a good one!” Han exclaimed “give us one quote to describe yourself.” I wasn't expecting a question like that to be honest. Usually the questions at these interviews are surface level. Going down the line it finally got to me

“I feel as if I'm made to understand but not to be understood.” I looked down quickly after giving my answer. Gwen reached over and squeezed my hand looking over at her and I smiled.

“That was really deep Y/N.” Han said, looking at me softly. “I completely understand that feeling.” I smiled at him weakly shocked he identified with it. We continued answering questions for about 10 more minutes and the interview was over. We all smiled and said our goodbyes leaving the room rejoining the other half of our group. As we walked back to our car we talked about how well our interviews went. Getting in the car I felt my phone go off in my pocket.

It had been a few hours since I heard from Peter. It bothered me that he was so upset with me over a joke. It's just an opinion about a K-Pop group, it's not that serious. Me and the girls were having a sleep over at Mindy's house. Her parents were loaded and often not home so this was a normal occurrence for us. All sprawled out on the big living room couch we were watching a scary movie. I enjoyed scary movies. They were some of my favorites. Living alone made me very hesitant to watch them so this is the first one I've seen in awhile. Gwen never liked them much; she was completely desensitized; she found them boring. I blame that on all the horror games she plays.

“Damn you guys.” she said, breaking everyone's emersion. “Go look at Felix's twitter, some drama is popping off.” instantly we all pulled out our phones going to the bird app. Felix made a post and Han was popping off in the comments at the other boys.

I did find it a little weird that shortly after my conversation with Peter this suddenly happened. Again there’s no way they are the same person I refuse to ever think otherwise. Amber laughed at the post claiming they were probably kidding. She had to be right. I mean Han literally called Felix cute in his replies. While everyone talked back and forth I sat there and pondered if it would be bad if it was han. I would like to point out in no way did I have a crush on Han Jisung, but I did have a crush on Peter. If in a delusional world they were the same person. There were both pros and cons to this situation. The pros would be that he isn't bad looking, he has the same interest as me, and he's funny. The cons on the other hand are he's an idol and I don't want that pressure. He would have already lied to me about his name so can i trust him. Also he would know i've already lied to him, if he was Peter then he could clearly see i was not at my parents today.

Not to mention I don't want to ruin this competition for my friends. They've worked so hard I couldn't bear to ruin that because I stumbled upon him in public. Pulling myself out of my intrusive thoughts I focused back on the movie. Once the credits rolled we all decided to try and get some sleep. Splitting up between three guest rooms and Mindy’s own we all settled in for the night. I was rooming with Gwen as we usually do. We were both laying on our phones when she set her phone down.

She looked over at me, making me lower my own device. “Did you think the interview was a little weird?” When she asked me this I was confused we all agreed the interview went well.

“I thought it went great.'' I looked at her concern and started to pick apart everything I said earlier that day.

Shaking her head at me, “no, it was awesome I just mean.” she paused and looked down like she was trying to find a way to say it. “I dont know I noticed how Han was looking at you.” Oh no here we go again she's going to make some claim about Peter. “He seemed like he was in complete shock that he was sitting across from you.”

As much as I want to deny what she said, it was the truth even I caught his expression. “Yeah, I saw that too.” I laid on my back looking at the ceiling letting out a sigh.

“Look, I don't want to make assumptions but.” there's always a but, “we need to figure out if they are the same person.” Looking over at her expression I could tell she was serious.

Quickly snapping my gaze away from hers I felt panic set in. When Gwen was serious about something she was usually right. I really didn't want her to be right. For the next half hour we tried to come up with a plan to figure out if Peter was Han. We settled on attempting to get him to meet me in person but there is a chance he'll cover his face again. Gwen argued that I've seen Han in person now, maybe there would be a way for me to identify him. Now all i had to do was wait for Peter to stop being mad at me.

#han jisung #stray kids #stray kids imagines #stray kids x reader #han jisung x reader

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soo0mi · 1 year

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When the sun hits .. — 05. coffee is hot but youre hotter 😉🔫

When the sun hits — soo y/n unfortunately has always had bad luck w/ love. she realized this when she hit the age when everyone around her had an s/o while she had no one to express her romantic feelings for. y/n found herself mourning when she saw a cute boy at the university's library checking out books and realized that she might never see him again until her first shift at Miraé Café .. ☆

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#UMISOOMI — pt.2 later / tmrw!! i didnt expect the dialogue to be that long 😞😞 my bad guys 💔

__ incheon, s.korea (17:36)

On working days like today, the city is usually very busy so riki insisted that you walk inside the pavement instead of walking near the road preventing you to be possibly hit by any vehicles..

“What a gentleman you are, riki!!” you say, jokingly swooning.

“shut up, eomeoni will kill me if i let you get hurt,” he says, in a joking manner, “you know how she gets.” turning his gaze on you.

“she’ll also kill me if you get the tiniest scratch ever, riki,” you return the eye contact, “i think she loves you more than me..”

“im just like that, yk??” he does the same move his jake hyung always does, the frat boy move.

sigh. “hold my hand, im nervous” you held out your hand in front of him and he intertwines both of your hands together, he had to look down cause of his titanic height ( seriously why is he so fucking tall )

thank god you only had two classes that day, you couldn’t stand being in your classes for longer than 8 hours. Monday classes are usually a pain in the ass and today was especially aggravating because you were anxious about your official first day in miraé.

“dont worry y/nnie, ill be near the register so you can see my handsome face whenever you feel anxious.”

“i would punch your face but youre a fucking wall.” looking up at him, sticking your tongue out.

“what a lovely couple you two are. i hope you grow up well together.” an old lady comments as you two swing by her.

“oh, we aren’t-“ holding your hand up to your face

“thank you, halmeonii” riki cuts you off.

you giving him a blank glare made him laugh.

“we’re here.” riki stopped his tracks, “ladies first.”

you step in, side eyeing him while you walked up the stairs.

the welcoming sound of the bell, the drowned out chatter of the people, and scent of coffee drifts through the air makes you feel at ease. the café was lively today, people arguing with their partners loudly (as the stress gets to the most patient of people,) students with their laptops studying for their courses, and employees taking orders.

“uhh, excuse me?” you walk up to the employee at the register, her smile looks strained.

“hello! how may i help you?” she faces you, her name tag says “jihyo”

“im the new trainee, soo y/n, where should i start?”

“OHH OKOK, come w me!” jihyo opens the side door for you as you enter the register area, “chaeyoungie, can you cover for me so i can show yn around?”

a blonde haired female walks towards jihyo, “woah.. they're both so pretty..” you think to yourself. chaeyoung’s beauty mark and big eyes are stunning. while jihyo’s eyes pull you in.

“of course! have fun, nice to meet you yn!” she smiles brightly, it seems genuine..

__ café miraé (16:44)

after the introductory

“that’s about it, do you have any questions?”

“nope, thank you jihyo sunbaenim!” you bow at a 90° angle.

“ahh, dont be so formal, just call me jihyo ot you can give me a nickname!” she smiles brightly at you

you slowly stand up straight, seeing her smile makes you feel at ease. “okay, thank you jihyo!!” returning the smile, “when do you clock out?”

“i was supposed to clock out at 18:30 but i guess we got caught up.” she takes off her apron, puts in in her locker, and grabs her bag.

“oh, sorry!” you bow in respect, clasping your hands together near your face

“don’t worry about it,” reassuring you, “trust me, i’d much rather talk to you than deal with my roommate.” her giggles fill the room.

“anyways, bye yn! see you tomorrow?” she makes her way to the door, “yeah, tomorrow.” greeting her goodbye.

jeongy/n vs jeongkari 🤣🤣🤣🙏

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#jeongin x reader #stray kids smau #yang jeongin #enhypen #le sserafim #stray kids

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hikari-writes · 1 year

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Some hikayaku hc bc i just got from grocery shopping at a supermarket so now im making that into idea for a hc;

Yaku LOVES grocery shopping. Since he's the oldest child and all, he is used to running errands whenever his parents need his help. He's also very friendly with the people at the shopping district/supermarket. He would strike up a conversation with them whenever he sees a familiar face. Even with the unfamiliar faces, he'd try to exchange a few hellos and friendly smiles. To him, grocery shopping is like a fun field trip and he would take his oh so sweet time picking out good veggies and the best fruits.

Me, on the other hand, is the COMPLETE opposite. Grocery shopping is no fun field trip. IT'S A BATTLE. I move from aisles to aisles/stalls to stalls like everything is timed. I BECAME the definition of anxiety. Everywhere I go, I see people, and it's lowkey giving me a nauseous feeling and god knows if I was wearing a face mask at the time, I'd be muttering curses under my breathe for my stupidity in everything I do because hey, overthinking amirite ✨✨

Grocery shopping with Yaku is just me wanting to get home fast and him just having fun chatting with the random sweet old lady who he just met 3 minutes ago. He knew how anxious I can become so he would always hold my hand in his all the time, squeezing it, giving it a little rub to ease my nerve. He always makes sure I'm close to him (not that i want to be apart anyway-) and would let me trail closely behind his back, sort of using him as my extrovert shield and when the line is clear, he'd tug my hand a bit forward, making me walk side by side next to him. Definitely would give a comforting rub on the back too whenever he sensed that I'm getting a tad bit uncomfortable in the crowd.

I would usually avoid grocery shopping most of the time but sometimes, I'd ask to join him (even though I'm just a nervous wreck all the time) since surprise surprise i cant stay holed up in the house for forever you know 💀 And besides, Yaku definitely make the grocery shopping experience 10 times better than it actually is so it's always fun to have grocery shopping dates once in a while <3

Oh! and we would definitely get some ice cream and stop at a park to rest for a bit before going back home 🥺

#i didnt expect it to bw this long i-#self ships #hikayaku [🍪]#prob my last post b4 going mia again #but i promise u ill be back #this time i wont disappear without a trace again </3 #i rlly am soft for one(1) libero #yaku morisuke #im sorry if ppl see this in the yaku morisuke tag-

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vivisandg · 2 years

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“Oh, sorry!”

I had this idea at four in the morning, and it’s 4:15…so, yk how it goes. I’m thinking this could be a series.

Summary: you quite literally run into an infamous Weasley while on the train to Hogwarts.

Pairing: Fred Weasley x Fem! Reader

Requested: no

Warnings: prob some cringe worthy moments and fluff, Im also American so Ill rephrase stuff, but otherwise, no.

Excited, nervous, anxious, happy...all words for what I was feeling about this school year. On my eleventh birthday I was sent an owl, no joke. An owl flew up to my kitchen window with an envelope in its mouth while Mom and I were making cookies. The envelope happened to be a letter from Hogwarts School for Witchcraft and Wizardry, a school of magic. Mom and I were shocked, so we followed the letter’s directions and the next thing I knew this guy named Rubeus Hagrid was leading Mom and I to a place called Diagon Alley. There were so many magical shops including Ollivander’s which held my very own wand that I will have for the rest of my life. 14 inches of beautiful, silvery-white, aspen wood with a unicorn hair for a core. It’s already my closest friend aside from the white Eurasian Eagle owl I bought from the Magical Menagerie. I named him Pogonip, or Pogo for short. After I got everything, Mom and I went home to get ready for King's Cross the next day.

I start walking to platform 9 with Mom and see a ginger lady sending off her kids by telling them to run through the wall between 9 and 10. I don't know what to think so I say one final goodbye to my mother and off I run through the wall. I appear in a crowded area where kids are getting on a train called the Hogwarts Express. This is it, I think, I'm going to Hogwarts.

I board the train with Pogo and find a compartment to sit in. I decide to go to the bathroom once the train's pulled out and on my way back I run into a blur of red hair. "Oh, sorry!" a voice says to me, the weight had actually knocked my light ass onto the ground. "Are you alright?" the voice asks me. I respond with a muttered “yes” as the surprisingly strong arms help me up to my feet. When I regain my vision completely I see a very handsome boy about my age, by the looks of it, scanning my face for bruises or whatever might appear on my complexion. “I’m Fred,” says the freckled ginger, “Y/N,” I respond.

Fred offers to walk me to his compartment where I am greeted with another ginger that is obviously his identical twin. Which one was older or more sane, I couldn’t tell…yet. “Y/N met George, George, Y/N,” Fred says as he opens the sliding glass door for me. I meet George’s gaze and realize that George has stony, cold, blueish-grey eyes, while Fred has warm, chocolate-brown ones. I learned quickly not to let his eyes deceive me; George seemed more devious and silly than Fred which was saying a lot. Fred appeared almost shy next the younger twin. “So, Y/N,” George begins, “did the letter come as a shock to you?” Fred elbows George lightly, but hard enough to make George let out a slight grunt. I didn’t know of this was supposed to be rude or anything, so I took the safest route possible and answered with a “yes”.

*later at Hogwarts for the sorting. We’ll make Y/N a Gryffindor just fro the sake of the story line…and in case I make this a series😏. She’s gotten to know the twins very well by this point*

I walk with the twins and all the other first years to Gryffindor common room. My new home, I think to myself. My new family for the next seven years, actually scratch that, my new family forever. The thought gives me this feeling that I can’t figure out the name of. It’s not a bad feeling, though, so I don’t worry about it too much. After the three hour train ride, I’e gotten to know the Weasley twins quite well…especially Fred. Have I started to grow feelings for him? Maybe, do I know yet? Im pretty sure I do. Will I let that get in the way of our new-found friendship? Absolutely not, it might just be a crush. I guess I’ll wait and find out.

“So, how you doing Midget?” I already know it’s Fred, he developed that name in the first 20 minutes we met. It’s been almost a week since that wonderful, anxious, nerve-wracking day that I would pay anything to go through again. “I’m alright, Ginger,” I didn’t make that name up until now, I just wanted something to retaliate with. “Ginger? Since when was that my name?” He asks. “Since now,” I say. He smirks at this, I think he thinks it’s some sort of game I’ve managed to make up in my abnormally large brain; I’m currently excelling at everything, including Potions and Defense Against the Dark Arts which my professors were not expecting. “Alright,” he says, lightly slugging me in the shoulder. If he thinks it’s a game, then let the games begin…

Part 2?

#fanfic #fred weasly x reader #daddy #MESSAGEMESTUFFTOWRITEPLEASE!

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