“have you ever just cried because you’re you”

all i have is these beautiful brown eyes and a desire for someone to come into my kitchen and be hungry for me

Who am I kidding. I wanna be in love. I wanna be loved. I wanna be trusted and cared about.

I want to be better. I think I shouldn't feel the way I do anymore. It's all in my head and I want it to be out. I've never felt as crazy as I have the past couple of months, and I don't think I need to. I don't understand why I feel this crazy. This month has been hard for me. I relapsed on cutting myself. I have constantly been having thoughts of worthlessness, disgust, shame and embarrassment. These feelings are like a cloud above me that follows me wherever I go. I can't ignore them, but I guess I need to peek through. Why should I feel worthless when I can't do as good as others in my sport? I’ve improved so much and have made people feel proud of me along the way, so why should one season set me back? Why should I be disgusted and ashamed with how I look when others love every part of me? Why should I feel embarrassed for others, when they love being around me? All my friends, my boyfriends and my family choose me for a reason, and even though I can't find out what that reason is, why should I claim it isn't real? Others see things I don't see every day, so why should that be different when I'm looking at myself? I shouldn't have to be scared of people finding out things about me, seeing me eat, or seeing me naked. Why should I blame myself for things I had no control over?  I always thought my problems were what others thought but in reality it's all things I put in my head. I can get better, I just need to choose to. I want to love to live. 

i feel like such an embarrassment

Nothing can be horrible with you

love will keep finding me

i would love you in every universe. if you even care

She eats like a pig

People care about you more than you think.

you’re not a burden for needing to share your feelings

I wish I was someone’s kind of woman

“Someday, someone is going to look at you with a light in their eyes you’ve never seen, they’ll look at you like you’re everything they’ve been looking for their entire lives. Wait for it.”

— Unknown

“There’s nothing more intimate in life than simply being understood.”

— Brad Meltzer