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imtrashraccoon · 2 months

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I've been thinking about my past projects a lot lately. So here is an art dump of a bunch of my old Undertale OC's.

I don't intend to ever write for these characters again, except for the last two. "Ria" has since been renamed to Violet and desperately needs a redesign for the rewrite I'm working on. The last panel is what my idea for a siren would like. (I drew her before I'd ever seen llamagoddessofficial's sirens.)

You might think I was obsessed with angels and you'd be partially right. Really they're all sirens since I thought shape shifting would be cool (think Martian Manhunter).

They all still have a place in my soul and I really should draw wings again. I love drawing feathers what can I say?

#raccoons random garbage #technically “poppy” is getting a redesign as well when i get around to that wip #her new name is actually amalie raven now #violet's story is also a wip but its a lot further along #after i finish the hand we've been dealt and swarmed by sirens #you'll get to meet one of them #it'll be violet no question #undertale #undertale ocs #paper art

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 days

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Good morning, Sleepyhead.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.

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dairyfreenugget · 20 days

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I could count the amount of original stories of mine that don't have horror elements on one hand and idk what that says about me

#thylacines can talk #actually i do know it says mmmmm making horror monster ocs is fun #outside of my fandom ocs my ocs and original stories arre dominated by horror elements and religious themes oopsie daisy #i might eventually post about them but the hk brainrot is going strong #but a friend of mine got a commission for me of my doomer human x monster yaoi so you'll see my Main Babygirls soon 🥰#hand in unlovable hand they're fucked and weird and it's an unhealthy relationship and it'll never work as everything is stacked against #them yet each other is all they have and if being together means their death then so be it. Peter should have probably ran. Should have left #would be better off for the majorth of the story had he never met it yet the two are so alike. it's the first thing that's ever unnderstood #him. it's the first 'person' that's ever truly cared for him. And even if it has flaws and his life was ruined by things beyond his #comprehension and he risks his life he's not willing to let go of the only person whos truly seen him and loved him. Who is willing to tear #its world apart and die for him. There are no happy endings here. They were doomed from the start. But at least they have each other.#also tfw your life and 'family' sucks so much that a literal monster who manipulated you and used your body to carry out ruthless murders is #nicer to you than your goddamn brother and friends. like damn dude.#I honestly think if Slaughter was born a human their relationship would be great for both of them they truly fit together like two puzzle #pieces. two outcasts who have so much in common and find comfort in one another. but because of the circumstances of Slaughter's nature and #what it was forced to be this is not a healthy situation or a relationship. Peter comes out better at the end and would be as good as dead #if not for meeting Slaughter so there's a silver lining in all of this but goddamn dude. the bullshit it took to get there.#The fact that his life was so bad literally getting possessed by a monster and almost being murdered numerous times and an insane amount of #trauma and bbeing a target for monsters for the rest of your life literally IMPROVED IT my guy truly cant catch a fucking break 😭😭

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eorzeashan · 7 months

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thinking again about Eight who falls in love with Nine from afar, but never once knows them up close.

#swtor #ooc #there's just something about. being the invisible person who watched and saw #and you get to know someone through their deeds and the little mark of life they left while they were still here #and you follow their path like a ghost #you don't even know who 'Nine' is. but you have seen the person they are #you'll never get the chance to meet them. but you know them #you saw and you heard #the mark Nine leaves on the story is so strong you can be a different cipher and still feel it #the one-sided pining of it where you're more enamored by someone you don't think is even alive still #but you fall in love all the same #what if him in the class story is just him retracing nine's steps to see the way they lived #in the hopes that they might find them again #but all it does is teach eight more about living #AND ALL THEIR COMPANIONS refuse to let eight in bc they still miss nine. and eight sees how much they loved them and falls a little more

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loverboybrightsideghost · 2 days

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i think i understand dating now. you find a person that seems cool and you become their friend but in a romantic way until you. actually love them. yes?

#bluebird.txt #i am schrodinger's understander of romance #90% of the time i'm like why would anyone date a stranger #why would you do that #like you have a friend then you get close to that friend then become romance??#i had a HUGE crush on a girl earlier this year and then one day i made a new friend- NO romantic feelings for her at all-#but suddenly my crush evaporated in an instant? i just stopped thinking abt her or feeling anything when i DID think abt her. completely.#but like. you meet person. become friend. then you love them. then romance. yes?#that's always been my thought process of how it works #so now i’m like oh that's how Dating works! you just pick a person and fuck around and find out if you'll love them????#it's like friendship but with. romance. hey does anyone fucking know what romance is by the way #I Don't Know Anything Ever 👍🏼#also do people really see other people and think wow i want to fuck them #bc like. i've seen hot people i like hot people but i don't think ive ever seen a hot person and thought about sex #i’ve been like wow they are extremely attractive to me but never wow i want to fuck that #is that actually how people feel? they see an attractive person and they get horny? just like that?#like physically in your genitals horny??#i'll shut up now. once again I Don't Know Anything At All 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼#i WANT to date someone to know what it's like but what i really want is to fake date a friend #fuck all this shit i really might be aroace. i fucking might. i am so not sure about anything.#who give a shit i guess ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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lightkrets312 · 1 year

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love this creature

#play strange horticulture i am asking so politely #my post #strange horticulture #love this funny little fucked up 8-ending mystery puzzle game with The Horrors. love these plants.#love going insane at 5 in the morning trying to figure out what 12-3 is (it's down 2 right 3 i am occasionally silly)#love finangling the map controls while holding the shift buttons cause i've turned into jared 19 again #love hoarding all of my plants and staring each one down meticulously and lovingly studying/sorting them #10/10 would feed a cop to a carnivorous plant again. wish the wikis mentioned THAT was an option #'auuuuu you'll get ARRESTED in the epilogue if you-' Hello Yes Officer Would You Like To Meet More Of My Plants #in for a pence in for a pound at that point.#(if you're seeing this in the game's tag: i am so sorry for the word vomit but this is for my followers. i am insane.)

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healingheartdogs · 2 years

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You know what else is underrated? Litter box training and use for toy and small dogs, even when they're adults.

#'small dogs are so hard to potty train' are they or are you expecting them to hold their tiny bladders for longer than is reasonable #its okay to admit you cant take your little out as much as they need to go potty but if that's the case then consider a litter box #its not a failure as a dog trainer or owner to make accomodations like that to make it easier for you to fully meet your pets' care needs #we understand it with cats so i dont understand why its not more popular for dogs #even with big dogs honestly i feel like having a specific potty area with mulch or hay in your yard is a beneficial thing #also makes it easier to compost #like obviously dogs should still get time outside when they can and walks and stuff but #if your small breed dog often has accidents during your 8 hour work day when you arent at home to let them out...#maybe just litter box train them #either way you'll be cleaning it up but one is a lot more sanitary and less mess around your house

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mythcaels · 5 months

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me @ me: do not think the thoughts of wanting to move blogs again

#⸻ ❛ 𝐁𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐦 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐧𝐨𝐰 » ooc.#// the tags are just my brain soup you can ignore them #// idk i want to make my blog more private somehow someway. like with people that genuinely do want to interact with my blog yknow.#// NOT SAYING THAT EVERYONE HERE DOESN'T WANT TO. i get that people are shy and stuff because damn same me too yall me too #// but i have a LOT of followers and only have so many blogs that actually reach out for interactions #// and shit i know im slow and maybe that's the issue but #// where am i going with this.#// uhhhh iDK THE VIBES AREN'T VIBING PLEASE TELL ME IM NOT THE ONLY ONE THAT GETS LIKE THIS #// please if you were scared to reach out for interactions. don't be. im literally the stupidest person you'll meet #// hHHHHHH I'LL JUST . DELETE THIS POST IN A BIT #// pls don't take this as me being all vague or venting either im just KSDFHGDJFSD talking #// does anyone get me here or am i just making no fucking sense again

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peppermintgrim · 6 months

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*blows a kiss to my computer* this one's for you, Aldith Sereda Wilhelmine Aeducan, kinslayer & kingmaker

#dragon age #more vague shit about my cracked au in the tags #if I got a nickel everytime I was instrumental in crowning a king I'd have two nickels #thinking about my multi-warden au and its gotten way out of hand #might seperate the tags into a coherent post at some point #In this au all warden origins (with some changes) live and make it to osagar - Mahariel is the 'canon warden' so to speak #Aeducan and Brosca escape the deep roads together bump into Bodahn and Sandal and head south with them.#Hereswith Brosca is her new second by default #“There is not a dwarf in Orzammar not born into a Darkspawn siege – this war is in our blood as surely it will be in the stone when we die”#let's be real this blight never ended for the dwarfs - start numbering them infront of dwarves and you'll get spat at girlie #just because the darkspawn stopped bothering you surface chumps doesn't mean they stopped for the Stone's sake #Aldith supporting Bhelen's claim to the throne for Hereswith and so he owes her one #this au I'm never going to write is ridiculous though - I've practically co-opted the Wit from RotE -I mean in my canon playthrough also oo #Amell in this is a Blood Mage/Spirit Healer and I have decided to fuse a the spirit of Valour and the Desire demon at Redcliffe #tempered by Amell to be Sacrifice rather than Conquest - canon who I don't know her?#Oh and Aeducan is literally a Spirit Warrior because I think it's pretty dope concept - she also becomes Queen of Ferelden btw #learning things through the song - of wardens long fallen to the taint #you know the fereldens would jump at the chance to hold something over orlais #and how better to do that with a marriage alliance with the only legal producer of lyrium? Loghain weeps with joy from his grave #I've decided completely against canon to make Cousland a warrior/mage fusion bc it's a lawless wasteland meet my Templar/Battlemage #is she /you know/ fade sensitive?#Surana is a shapeshifter/arcane warrior/entropy mage - man cannot conjure anything for shit #crows (actual birds not zevran) love him - templars fear him #Reaver Beserker Mahariel ankle deep in a Morrigan romance #Vunora Tabris is also here with Slyfoot the wolf

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variousqueerthings · 1 year

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not to fall for NostalgiaTM, but there aren't enough Really Cool rebel films these days. dunno exactly how to describe, but movies that can be technically flawed, but have such a killer aesthetic and soundtrack for their lead bad kids that you're sucked into the concept of them and the story

#modern stuff happens more on tv - things like the get down or sense8 #but im thinking Distilled into film #anyway i just watched streets of fire #does it make any sense? not technically but that opening and ending!#was thinking because i watched they/them recently and it has a lot of issues #but actually one of them is that these kids just don't have anything really going for them #in terms of Coolness because this is film and they're ostensibly the heroes +#go into any queer space and you'll meet the coolest people ever #this isn't anything deep or political i literally just want Cooler Fucking Movies #movies #cinema

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scareqrowbranwen · 1 year

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let me tell you what you need to hear

I'm glad you're here.

god, it’s been hard. I know it has. it has hurt like hell and some days have felt like you’re pulling yourself through one second after another by your broken fingernails in the dirt. you’re tired. it’s a bone-deep kind of tired that settles in somewhere behind your ribcage and makes breathing feel like dying half the time and it never really seems to go away. but you’re still here. you’re beaten and bruised but you’re still kickin’, trudging one foot in front of the other no matter how heavy those footsteps are. you decided at some point that, goddamn it, if this is rock bottom then things can only get better from here, and you decided to see better for yourself. and so you’ve been clinging onto yourself for dear life and it’s been the hardest thing you’ve ever done but you are one tough motherfucker and you’ve done it. and god, I’m glad you did. I’m so glad you’re here. I know sometimes it feels like no one appreciates how hard it is to just be here, but I do. I know. and it is absolutely amazing how far you’ve come and I’m so grateful you’ve made it. you are so important and your life is so beautiful and it would be such a shame for you to miss it. so keep on pulling forward. I promise it’s worth it.

tagged by: @caeloservare <3 tagging: whomst ever would like to do it uwu

everyone else under the cut so I don't clog the dash lol

you are enough.

I see how hard you’re working. I see how your body aches under the weight of it, how you lose sleep and rub the red out of your eyes in the hopes that they can’t tell how desperately you’re clawing at “good enough.” I know how that dirt feels under your nails, that filth of never being what they want. you’re running yourself into nothing trying so hard to be good for them. but you are already good. you are already enough. you have nothing to prove. you are beautiful and what you bring to the world, what you have to show for the space you take up is perfect. it is enough. you are enough. you can rest. you don’t have to try so hard to be more than what you are. you are, and that’s enough. you’re already perfect.

you matter. yes, you specifically.

yes, the universe is infinite and full of things infinitely beyond our comprehension, and yet, here you are. you, in all your infinite complexity and uniqueness. here, now: you. in an infinite universe it is easy to feel insignificant, but you can’t forget that the likelihood that you would exist at all is unintelligibly small, and yet, just as small and just as grand, here you are. you are here because you are meant to be here. your place in the world is uniquely yours and could never be filled by anyone else. the universe made you because it needed you. yes, you specifically. yes, you are just one microscopically small piece in an unfathomably huge infinity, but you are entirely irreplaceable. you are impossible and you are inevitable and you are beautiful and you are so, so important. yes, you specifically.

it’s going to be okay.

I know it’s not right now. I know it hurts and you’re tired and it’s all so much and you don’t know how to handle it and you don’t want to carry it but you don’t know where can you put it down. I know. I’m sorry. it shouldn’t be this way. you don’t deserve that. but it’s going to be okay. I can’t tell you when or how but I promise it will get better. things can only get better. there will be more love and peace than you can imagine. it is going to be okay. you are going to be okay.

#bad luck charm || qrow #come at me and you'll see i'm more than meets the eye || yang xiao long #illuminate the darkness that was blinding me || blake belladonna #this life is mine || weiss schnee #show them how you smile || ilia amitola #Jaune Ruby and Qrow keep getting the same things when I do these lmao #I guess I'm consistent #//INTERESTING ONE FOR SUMMER ROSE LMAO #i'm what inspired the fairy tale || ruby rose #it's your blood thats red like roses || Summer Rose #the failures of me and who I couldn't be || jaune arc

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the-plantman-is-queer · 1 year

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#I think something that will forever put me at odds with people #Is the fact that I think that close is good enough #There is no such thing as perfection and I am more than willing to not only meet someone halfway but meet them 100%#I will know what someone means when they're struggling to communicate their thoughts #And to me that means they expressed their thoughts even if they couldn't get more than a few words out #Close is good enough to perfect #But this is not a popular opinion #In fact to most people only perfect is perfect and close is a failure #And so i always assume that everyone will afford me the same mercy I give them #That they will let my close enough be perfect and they will not blame me forbthe imperfections inherent to being human #But no one ever does #And I dunno like if I know that an event occured in a decade why do you have to blame me for not knowing the specific year #If I know something happened before 500ce why am I still stupid for not knowing the exact century #If I approximate why does that get me yelled at when you still know what I meant? Doesn't it get exhausting?#Its a never ending fight shaming people into a perfection you'll approve of why can't you use that energy for clemency?

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fullmtal · 2 years

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character deep dive.

body

height: 4′11″

strength ★★★★☆

dexterity ★★★☆☆

health ★★★★☆

energy ★★★★★

beauty ★★★★★

style ★☆☆☆☆

hygiene ★★★★★

skills

perception ★★★★★

communication ★★★★☆

persuasion ★ ★ ★ ☆☆

mediation ★★☆☆☆

literacy ★★★★★

creativity ★ ★ ★ ★ ★

cooking ★★☆☆☆

tech savvy ★★☆ ☆☆

combat ★★★★☆

survival ★★★★★

stealth ★★ ★ ☆☆

street smarts ★★★★ ☆

seduction ☆☆☆☆☆

luck ★ ☆ ☆☆☆

handling animals ★★★★☆

pacifying children ★★★★★

mind

intelligence ★★★★★

happiness ★★ ☆☆☆

spirituality ☆☆☆☆☆

confidence ★★★★ ☆

humor ★★★★★

anxiety ★★★☆☆

patience ★★★☆☆

passion ★★★★★

nice ☆☆★☆☆ mean

brave ★☆ ☆☆☆ cowardly

pacifist ★ ☆ ☆ ☆☆ violent

thoughtful ☆★☆☆☆ impulsive

agreeable ☆ ☆ ☆ ★ ☆ contrary

idealistic ☆☆★☆☆ pragmatic

frugal ☆ ☆ ★ ☆ ☆ big spender

extrovert ★ ☆☆☆☆ introvert

collected ☆ ☆ ★ ☆ ☆ wild

social

charisma ★★★★ ★

empathy ★★★★★

generosity ★★★★★

wealth ★★ ★ ☆☆

honest ★ ☆ ☆☆☆ deceptive

leader ☆ ★ ☆☆ ☆ follower

polite ☆ ☆☆ ★ ☆ rude

political ☆ ☆☆ ★ ☆ indifferent

beliefs

higher power ★☆☆☆☆

fate/destiny ☆ ☆ ☆☆☆

magic ☆☆☆☆☆

soulmates ☆☆☆☆☆

good and evil ★★★★★

luck ★ ★ ☆☆☆

priorities

family ★★★★★

friends ★★★★★

love ★★★★☆

home ★ ★ ★ ☆☆

health ★ ★ ☆ ☆ ☆

praise ★☆☆☆☆

justice ★★★★★

truth ★★★★★

power ★ ★ ☆☆☆

fame ☆☆☆☆☆

wealth ★☆☆☆☆

others' opinions ☆ ☆☆☆☆

tagging: commit theft or say i tagged you either way you’re tagged!

#look at hohenheim and trisha this boy is PRETTY #if you call him that he will be weirded out #also yes pacifist multiple times despite his willingness to take someone on when it isn't necessarily wise?#his emphasis on reverence of life and not EVER taking it and how scared he'd be if he was enlisted to in a war?#is a huge part of edward's character #from icarus who played god to the transition of a sun who learned his lesson in the most brutal and tragic of ways on using life.#also yeah he throws some of that money around bc uh he can be impulsive #he's a lot more cautious and strategic but still.#also yeah we all know ed does NOT prioritize himself so health priority is very low #but he tries to hide that.#very confident and full of self hatred at the same time #ed u ok? no ? ok #his communication skills vary bc he can be AWFUL at it and also put his foot in his mouth of be so blunt and true in his words people #get struck by them.#he's the kindest person you'll meet but has one of THE Roughest Mouths you'll ever meet #and a lot of that behavior is a shield as much as part of his personality #so he's a lot of things!#he acknowledges that a higher power exists i mean hello gate of truth but #he's still agnostic #also ed can come off so rude and be rude but really? he's not an asshole. he's a sweetheart who struggles to articulate #while also being clear in his words.#his actions speak of an insane selflessness and love for the things around him. and above all people.#he's just...not NEAR as polite as the babie brother..#even if he actually can be quite polite to people he's at the library meeting or food places etc.#even higher ups that...aren't mustang.#or hughes.#oh ed..#𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐀 * ── the anatomy of a heart of steel.

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redsray · 3 months

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the funniest part of any Robin meeting the JL is that every Robin is so distinctly different from the previous one in terms of personality and vibes that the league literally gets backlash. and like, I don't blame them. not to mention that they are non-meta children that dress as a traffic light and fight crime alongside batman in gotham on a nightly basis. i'd also be a bit concerned. Batman, literally The Night of Gotham personified in the League's eyes, coming into a JL meeting: This is Robin, my crime-fighting partner. 11-year-old Dick Grayson, dressed in the brightest primary colours possible, vaguely hidden murder behind those eyes, never stops moving even for a moment: Hi! Superman: That's a child. That's-- Bats that is a child. You let a child--? Batman, deadpan: You try to stop him. Would you rather he try and murder a grown man with a wire?

Batman: This is Robin. 12-year-old Jason Todd, with the biggest grin on his face, about 3 books in his hand, stars in his eyes and a distinct street-kid drawl: Hey!!! Green Lantern: That's ... that's a different child. What?? Jason: I stole his tires :) Batman: Tried to. Jason, stage whispering to the League: basically did. Green Lantern: that is a different kid, right?? I'm not seeing shit??

Batman: This is Robin. 14-year-old Tim Drake, bo staff clutched in his hand, a wary and tired expression on his face, more on the quiet side, the literal walking definition of don't judge a book by it's cover: hello Flash: Where do you even find these-- Tim: I found myself.

Batman: This is Robin. 17-year-old Stephanie Brown, literally blonde, with a shit-eating grin, eyes full of nothing but mischief and the most explosive personality you've ever seen: hiya!! Superman: I give up. Stephanie: I know, I have that amazing effect on people.

Batman: This is Robin. 13-year-old Damian Wayne, a literal wet cat that will hiss at you, has a sword, the most judgemental stare you'll get from a teenager, ready to jump anyone there: Green Lantern: WHY DOES HE HAVE A SWORD?! Batman: ... he came with the sword.

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featherymainffins · 21 days

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Family is clearly just prolonging my and my mother's misery by forcing me to text her on special occasions and send her gifts, which is giving her false hope that her only boxing bag might come back and endure whatever she decides to take out on it again.

#if it were up to me I'd block her number and never even hear anything about her again #she made her choices and I swear to god i tried to be a good daughter and take them #when university told me that we should try to stay in contact with people in cults because it's much harder to get out without #a support system i tried to take it because of that if nothing else. i told myself that I'll take it. that I'll take it because maybe one #day she'll want out. i tried to.#maybe I didn't try hard enough I don't know. and if that's right then the universe can add it to my endless list of sins which makes me #not a human. the universe can add it to the list of reasons for why I'll never lead a happy life and why I'm better off dead.#that's what I've been told when i was growing up after all.#i tried to but it's just. it's her life or mine. and if she were mean just to me I'd let her take it. if it were just me I'd let her say all #those horrible things to me and I'd stand there and let her punch my limbs until they go numb like i always have #and I'd let her tell me that nobody will ever love me and I'd let her do her invasive checks of my body and I'd let her have those #episodes of searching through my entire room and breaking into my accounts to see if I'm saying anything about her ever to anyone #and calling my doctors and telling them that I'm crazy and not to believe a word i say.#I'd let her do all that as i always have. but she's horrible to my friends and horrible to strangers and it's just too much for me.#I don't want to hear that my friend killed herself in vain and I don't want to hear that you'll never use her name because #'it was just a year before he offed himself so it doesn't count.'#I don't want to hear any of it. i don't want to hear that all my friends hate me and I don't want to hear how horrible they are #and i don't want to hear slurs you use against them and I don't want to hear you say those things about random people you #meet on the street and i don't want to hear you passing moral judgement on strangers because of the way they do their hair #or the way they dress or the way they were born.#I don't want to hear that all my friends with tattoos are rotten and that cancer awaits them as punishment #I don't want to hear any of it. I'm sick of it. i don't want to hear 'youre a censoring bootlicker' whenever i say that i would like you #to tone it down. 'its my opinion. i have a right to free speech.' free speech is not saying that my friends should die.

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valiant-portabella-pirkko · 1 month

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listening to my Tideturners playlist was a mistake because I am having SO many feelings about the Sidewinder again.

she's not just any AU of Mai Trin; she's a version who's endured the absolute worst case scenario and lives every day in fear of losing everything all over again. but her story flips the entire narrative of Guild Wars 2 on its head; it's all a matter of perspective, and hers comes from an entirely different angle than we're used to.

what is a monster? as they say, to a bird, a cat is a monster.

the Sidewinder's monster is the Commander.

the first Commander she ever met was a tyrant who set the world on fire just to watch it burn. nothing could stop his rampage until there was nothing left to destroy. he made Scarlet Briar's war look like a playground scuffle; in fact, he did it by killing her and seizing her army to do it with. the Sidewinder doesn't have to wonder what a rogue Commander is capable of at their worst. she KNOWS.

and she also knows that if even a single one knew about her outpost, about her, about her people, and decided they were a threat to get rid of, there's absolutely nothing she could do to stop them. the most she could hope to do is be enough of a speed bump that the rest of the Turnabout can escape and make her sacrifice worthwhile.

she's spent decades building up a new world, a new society, and a new identity-- and in a split second a single person could bring it all crashing down. that absolutely terrifies her. it's all so fragile.

a major part of the Sidewinder's personal arc has to do with overcoming that dread to find common ground. because, truth-be-told, much as she'd insist otherwise? she's not so different from the Commander herself. she's fought long and hard to become someone worthy of the trust and respect that so many refugees from so many, many different worlds have placed on her. it's not enough to have it, she wants to DESERVE it. and even if she'd claim she's not there yet, most would agree she's succeeded. she's the beating heart of the Turnabout; none of it would exist without her. she's given all of them the hope that the heroes of their own worlds couldn't.

Mai Trin never wanted to be a leader or a hero or a politician. but as the Sidewinder, she's become all three out of necessity. she had no other choice. no one else was left alive to do it in her place.

so she puts on her mask, and she steps onto the stage, and she talks big, but deep down she knows that if the worst case scenario came back, there was nothing she could do to protect them, not on her own. the only thing that might stand a chance is another Commander, and is she really prepared to take a risk like that? is she willing to put it all on the line to fight for a future without fear?

and even if they are the right choice, even if they do agree to help in spite of it all... can she put one of the last good people at risk, knowing just what horrors they'd be up against? facing someone who's killed others like them a hundred times over, allowing them no rest even in death as their shambling corpses are conscripted into his undead army? how can she, in good conscience, expect anyone to face something so horrific with stakes as high as THAT? which is worse; that they turn against her, or that they trust her and die, adding another force of nature to their enemies' ranks? the Sidewinder doesn't know the answer to that question, if there is one.

there's so much weight on every choice she must make, and the consequences of every wrong move are unfathomable. she might not be the Commander, but that, at least, is one thing they have in common. the decisions they make will decide who lives and who dies.

all the Sidewinder can hope is that when she finally does make that leap of faith, she'll be ready to handle whatever results lay in store.

#my posts #the Sidewinder #Tideturners AU #i won't put this in the main tags because it's just me rambling incoherently and having Emotions but i just needed to Yell #honestly the most fascinating thing for me would be seeing what happens when she has the opportunity to meet other Commanders #specifically: ones that aren't crazed megalomaniacs like hers was! Ruju is SUCH a piece of work i need to talk about him someday #tbh if/when i actually put together a Tideturners RP group the first event would be a Commander gathering where she's trying to reach out #because she needs to! she KNOWS she needs to! but god there are SO many reasons that she doesn't. this woman has SO much trauma #any interaction between her and a Commander is bound to be interesting though regardless of whether they recognize her #because in both scenarios you'll get ENTIRELY different results... for better and for worse because Hoo Boy #if they don't: she'll just try to play it cool but she's so freaking nervous and is trying so hard to make a good impression #but she's still Mai Freaking Trin which means she's going to be a bit on the snarky side and definitely rough around the edges #and if they DO recognize her? how to give the Sidewinder a heart attack in one easy step. she'd freeze up IMMEDIATELY #like funnily enough she'd literally respond better to an AU Scarlet recognizing her because she Knows Scarlet #Commanders meanwhile are wildcards that can also be insanely destructive and dangerous and weren't always on great terms with Mai #and like. she knows that! she knows full well what her Reputation is elsewhere even if she left her version of the Alliance early #so while she didn't participate in like Any of that (Scarlet was already dead EARLY) she knows they won't know that #like. man. she's just fascinating to think about in terms of how she fits into everything because of what a mess she is #sidenote probably the saddest thing would be if she met a Commander who was a version of one she'd seen before #specifically: one that died holding off Ruju to let their timeline escape from him. that'd earn her trust immediately #though she'd feel SO bad about it and be very weirdly resistant to them facing Ruju directly (she already let them die once...)#I'm just. augh. all the thoughts tonight. explodes

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