today (sept 23) marks 106 years since voss was shot down how are we feelin’

First thing I saw waking up today. My darling phone makes sure to remind me of every little gory event.

Last week was also Wolff's death (Sept 15th. Nightmarish that they died a week from each other but anyway)

I wanted to draw something for both days but alas, I felt guilty drawing for Voss when I hadn't done anything for Wolff fggfgg.......

let's not talk about how the shinee world (the dibidibidis my name is minho song) is my top listened to song this month...

Rewatching maid-sama bc the way usui acts is top tier and I meed to experience it again

Draft

I hate being depressed. The fact that my mood has to be regulated by pills or otherwise I’m doomed to be this mess that can’t get out of bed and self-sabotages my relationships just pisses me off to no end. I hate that I have to be regulated to be tolerable. Please for once can someone just love me for me

Does anyone have tried and true ways of breaking hyperfixations?

Other than, of course, getting a new hyperfixation. I'm struggling.

Swapsans Blue of an RP I do together with some other human beans

Hans Gruber is attractive in Die Hard i will fight people

Uhm so I forgot to post this but during orientation at my college I was wondering around the library and found this..

Guys I was so tempted to weigh myself but I was too scared I’d get caught and get sent to an inpatient. I swear it was a trap.

I swear two-three years ago I didn't know what tf Mother Mother was and now I will willingly listen to it for hours at night holy crap -

idk guys.. i want a lover who wants to cannibalize me. idc. kill me with ur love darling. go on. please. let the blood spill. let me touch your insides. swallow every last bit of me. let us be one.

you ever get to the sink at the same time as someone else in a public bathroom and it lowkey feels like the 2 of you are competing in the 'whos better at washing their hands and is therefore a superior person' game?

current mood is making playlists for every one of my moods

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

yes my favourite character in any work of media is usually the father figure who is gentle and understanding to the members of his group

yes i hate my father and my step dad